#*sigh* I can only dream
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POOR GABRIEL MONTEZ! YOU NEVER SAW THIS COMING DID YOU? ALL YOU WANTED WAS POWER. SECURITY. SAFETY. & THATS EXACTLY WHAT YOU GOT! JUST IN EXCHANGE FOR YOUR BODY. LETS JUST HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. LETS JUST HOPE YOU WONT HAVE TO CLEAN UP THE MESS.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#cw gore#jrwi suckening spoilers#jrwi suckening#jrwi gabriel#jrwi gabriel montez#LOOK FAMILIAR?hahahahahDONT WORRY#IM REUPLOADING THIS HERE BC i fixed up the drawing a lil. and also i wanted to add main tags#U WONT SEE ANY DIFFERENCES BETWEEN THISSUN N THE POST ON MY SIDEBLOG.i changed the image there too.HA!!!!!!!#ANYWAY.i rambled plenty about pain and gabe on my sideblog.SO LETS TALK ABT THE ART SHALL WE.ihad i very hard time getting the colors down#would u believe i nearly left this uncolored??FUCKED UP!! it was only a sketchhow did it end up like this. it was only a sketch...#BUT IM RLY GLAD I WENT W COLORING IT.this time i actually used the airbrush n pencil tools BUT i also have a handy dandy brush i made#its just the mspaint air brush tool. fucking LOVE THAT THING. but now its in fire alpaca and it can be slightly transparent.IT LOOKS SOGOOD#perfect for splatters and grime.i love you mspaint i love youuu.im also so happy w the blood here.i think i reached a shift last year#back when i made that genloss fanart something abt the way i draw blood finally CLICKED and im like OH. the inside must always be darker.#like i KNEW that already but it was like my hand itself finally had it click.i wonder what i will learn next?I LIKE THE ORGANS HERE TOO#not as veiny or thready as i usually draw em. but i think thats fine. not as WET as id like em to be but thats also fine.#i got the point across. the point ofc being WOW THIS IS GRUESOME AND PAINFUL AND TERRIBLE#I LOVE HIS EXPRESSION.i love pain and thinking abt pain. you lose yourself to it after enough time passes of just being in an ocean o agony#at one point its just too tiresome to scream or writhe. theres a point when the body accepts it.sometimes.atleast.#OHHH GABRIEL AS A CHARACTER DELIGHTS ME SO MUCH.he is a dog to me.a thing to serve others.I WISH I KNEW MORE#WHAT ELSE DID YOU WANT BOY?? SURE POWER AND SECURITY AND SAFETY ARE NICE.BUT DID YOU HAVE DREAMS? WANTS? PASSIONS?#WHAT WAS THE STORY BEHIND THAT TIGER TATTOO ON YOUR ARM?WHAT DO THE DOGTAGS SAY BOY?I WISH I COULD HAVE TEA W U#OHHH TO SIT DOWN WITH A CHARACTER AND JUST SPEAK TO THEM. AND YET. AND YET IN THE END ITS ALL TRAGEDY AND COMEDY#TRAGEDY AND COMEDY THAT IS SO SO PAINFULLY UNBALANCED. SIGH.#WHATEVER CMERE BOY YOURE BECOMING AN OC OF MINE NOW UR GONNA BE IN SPACE AND UR NAME IS GONNA BE VINEGAR#UR STILL GONNA BE SHIP OF THESEUSED THOUGH. OOOHHH GABRIEEELLL GABRIEL MONTEEEZZZ#HOW MANY PEOPLE WERE BUILT INTO YOU.HOW MANY DID YOU LOVE AND CHERISH.HOW MANY TATTOOS DO U RECOGNIZE ON UR NEW ARMS#WHAT WAS IT LIKE? ON THE NIGHT U WERE SIRED?WERE YOU EXCITED? DID YOU SEE YOUR BOSS' FACE?WHAT WAS THIS PROMOTION LIKE?
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Ideal position in bed would be post transmigration shen yuan spooning me from behind while pre transmigration shen yuan is in my arms with his face in my chest so I'm completely sandwiched by shizun pile
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Wish I was getting fucked by a man twice my age and size in a position of authority instead of trying to write this 10 page paper due in two days 😒😭
#specifically john price#sigh#a girl can dream#I haven’t started yet and am starting to panic#only thinking about dick right now#mmph#pray for me y’all
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if you were a whumpee what type of whumpee would you be?
ummm that’s a very good question anon one that i definitely haven’t thought about my whole life every single time i imagine whump scenarios in my mind with me as the whumpee
anyway i definitely wouldn’t be completely broken or conditioned, but i also wouldn’t be very defiant either. fear yknow.. like terrified whumpees who are very scared and will do anything to not be hurt.. that’s good soup that’s me. fearfully compliant but obviously does not wanna be there. oh to be kidnapped and tied up in someone’s car and locked in a basement against my will…
i’m not the biggest fan of whumperless whump so if i were a whumpee i’d want the whumper to be a carewhumper (cough cough Anton cough). carewhumpers my absolute beloved i can’t get enough of those guys. you see i would be held captive and restrained (gagged, blindfolded, drugged, etc) but also taken care of :3 they’d like hold me and comfort me and pet me after hurting me and i’d be so scared of them but it’d also be so so cozy.
if i were a whumpee i wouldn’t rlly want to be actually tortured and stuff. hurt a little bit for enrichment (not like this all isn’t enrichment for me) definitely because knives and bruises are very fun but fear is also good too. they would like threaten to hurt and kill me but not actually yknow just to see my scrumptious reaction. though i wouldn’t mind a vampire biting me and drinking my blood or a mad scientist experimenting on me of course. just not like actual full on torture no thank u
this was fun to answer because i think about this a lot.. i’m just a little guy fr…
#if any whumpers are out there i am free for the taking#sorry for being unhinged on the internet it will happen again#this is comforting to me#that’s the only way i can describe it#enrichment fr!!!!#anton come get me you know where to find me!!!#sigh#a guy can dream…#ask#whump ask#wyrms lore#anton oc
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Erm!! I did more art!!!!!! My art style is so inconsistent I want to draw more realistically but I'm goofy goober at my core....... Gehahahaha
Also???? Pony Error under cut??????? (and a few error sketches!) Hidden slightly because I'm still a bit unsure about the design RAHH
I think it'd be cool if he had strings all over his body like he was some mangled stupid hasbro official pony plushie...... but the strings were like insanely last minute LMAO so I want to redo it again with that in mind.... when the pony takes me over again.
Transcript for Pony Info (because my handwriting is a bit messy)
PONY INFO!
Strings run along entire body
Used to have a cutie mark, but the file is "lost"
Horn sparks & glitches dangerously when using magic
-> Not harmful to him, but strong emotions can cause it to flare up (basically when the horn starts fuzzing a lot you know he's close to a full-on reboot)
Whatever the hell this thing is core -> (pic of very stupid looking Hasbro official Princess Twilight Sparkle plushie with brushable hair!!!! Batteries not included)
↓ WARNING!!! STUPID IDIOT BELOW!!!!!!! 🆘🆘🆘🆘🆘⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️☢️☢️☢️☢️☢️☢️☢️☢️☢️☣️☣️☣️☣️☣️☣️☣️🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢 ↓
#utmv#swapdream#swad sans#swapdream dream#swan sans#swapdream nightmare#error sans#gamers err.... they're really stupid!!!#I hate them so much!!!! (LIE LIE LIE LIE LIE i love them actually with all my being)#I have no idea what I'm doing I'm not used to tumblr editor#I want to make my page look cooler..... maybe 2010s theme..... can i do that perhaps?#Stupid idiots!!!! Sorry my demons#I should probably make an intro post too but idk what to say.... other than “helo i like erm. Undertale! I like..... pretty much only UTMV!#This is mostly a lie I like other things but I'm only going to be posting UTMV mainly#Sigh getting off track anyways!!!!! Idiots!!! I hate them!#Swad he's so prim and proper and completely obnoxious#I feel like with him being completely manic 24/7 he wouldn't take care of himself very well#Like if it weren't for the self healing thing he would look absolutely terrible. Rotting teeth cracked bones etc etc and he would not care#He would still prance around in fields of daisies tho he is literally too hyped up#I feel like he would chase Swan like until his body physically could take no more#One sec he's approaching at full speed and the next he shuts down completely & collapses just because his body literally ran out of juice#Error is striving for that hobocore aesthetic he will not change his clothes ever he constantly repairs the same ones#I also feel like Error would be like. insanely stinky (PEE-YEW!)#Water doesn't interact well with his body so he avoids it best he can#he can only take sponge baths for hygiene and even that is like insanely prickly for him.... Feels like pins and needles sizzling on his bo#Sighs that's it for me gamers!!!!!! Ramble in the tags over#Swad OUTTT!!!! *bursts through ceiling leaving swad shaped hole in your roof*
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Got an assessment back from one of my applications and while I still don't know if they'll actually pick me or not it is a relief to have formal confirmation that my applications aren't considered embarrassingly bad.
#I am 'qualified with a relevant background and good grades' :D#(the latter part I can only take to mean they didn't look at/care about my undergrad grades which. good. whole point of my masters#grade-wise is proving I can do better than that when I'm not incredibly burnt out/having a mild mental breakdown)#I mean I assumed my supervisor would have warned me if I were submitting embarrassingly bad applications#but I did have that dream about a selection committee viciously tearing it apart & have been low-key worried ever since#....particularly good timing to get this on the day that I yet again failed to attend a careers fair I signed up to#which. sigh. I know. but. woke up late and tired and overstimulated and decided my time would be better spent trying to actually get some#progress on the thesis than hearing about how I could work for. checks notes. a sports betting company.#I still have time to make it to some of the less soul-sucky presentations though#liveblogging my masters
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had a dream last night that i wrote a trustin canon divergence tda au where justin gets gwen voted off instead of trent and then believes trent would be easy to beat if he takes him to the final two but overtime trent becomes slowly harder for justin to envision "easily beating" bc ironically his emotions are the ones to betray him. meanwhile trent tries to make it farther in the season for gwen and to figure justin out first in a kind-of-annoying-rival way, then in a annoying-kind-of-ally-damn-it's-complicated way
naturally as soon as i woke up, i had to write down what i could remember abt it so that i can add it to my list of td ideas-to-write
#the first time ive had a dream abt writing specifically a td fic i think??#damn it had a semi-solid plot too but i can only recall half of it sigh#the list of td-ideas-to-write is just growing by the minute honestly#initially i wanted to publish another fic once i was done with agtsta but temptation is rlly being a bitch these days 😭#noahtally-famous#total drama#kit stuff#trustin#td justin#td trent#td gwen#tda#total drama action
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🌑UtDM 1.1.7 + Beta🌕
I have no idea how to label this, LOL. I've been fixing a lot of silly bugs thanks to some awesome people, and drafting on Ch2 is going v. well! 40% done, and it's only the first week of August... .... Kind of unnerves me 😅
Because Ch2 is shaping up to be much longer than Ch1, I'm going to code each scene as I finish rather than doing it all at once and melting my brain. It'll be a separate beta version for those who want to read the story and don't mind the wonky bugs - if you'd rather read everything at once and have a much neater experience, wait for 2.0 at the end of this month :>
Anyway, you can get the beta version where you find the other version. Version 1.1.4 is all of Chapter 1, with bugfixes and only a small Ch2 preview. It'll stay that way until Ch2's full release 👀
This Beta covers:
Multiple Scenes in Chapter 2. So far it's up to four: The phone call, a chat with Malwina, your first job with Mordecai and Viktor, and a long conversation with Lottie.
There's also a few additions to the Character Creator - I am not taking suggestions for new content here. It's very low priority compared to drafting the actual story.
Being able to skip directly to Chapter 2! You'll still get to choose your Tarot reading. Please note if you chose a Tarot that normally wouldn't be available to you - i.e., choosing Star if you don't have a kid - text won't make sense. Chapter Selection is going to look nicer in 2.0 (ideally, lol).
A proper, multiple save/load system! (It can be weird sometimes!)
(Current version: 1.1.7 as of 10/1/23.)
#not counting the character creator - ch1 is around 23k words total#ch2 is going to be double that LOL#so you can imagine why i dont want to code that all at once....#note that wordcount includes ALL variations so if u play one deal/occupation only u arent seeing everything available!!#the pipe dream... if i have time this month... draft a new Deal or Occupation .... *dreamy sigh*#libra says#version updates#if:devil's moon#lackadaisy x reader
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good morning friendz and happy monday ! it’s the start to a brand new week, i wonder what hidden joys it will bring us all (ㅅ´ ˘ `) ෆ coming by to wish everyone a wonderful day !
#i had a dream i bought a killer plushie last night so i feel like it’s a sign that i need to buy one#but if i buy one for him then i might as well get zoro#but if i get zoro then i probably need luffy#and chopper#and then things just get expensive sigh.#much to think about 🙂↕️#my first day back at work today . . wish me luck#as the departments meditator i can only imagine what happened while i was gone#sneaked a peek and saw how many emails i have to sort through …#can i just quit 😓#anyway !#sending out lots of love ^_^#₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims#ヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ — ✩ daily yap.
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finished rogue trader. so mad about it i had to take a nap and then start a whole new playthru again to cope <3
#tay plays rogue trader#I DIDNT GET THE HEINRIX-LEAVES-THE-INQ ENDING..... AFTER EVERYTHING...... GRILLS MYSELF............#actually sooooooooo miserable like what do you mean ''the two lovers rarely crossed paths going forward..... '' shut up literally fake news#that man was HOOKED !!!!! he could not get enough !!!!!!#sigh. anyways. *clicks new game* heres how leda von valancius can still win#aka playing diviner is so funny bc i can just metagame thru every mistake i have ever made irt her playthru <3 just a dream bby its fine dw#anyway i loved the game sooooooo much. way more than i thought i would#definitely a top 5 rpg for me i think#my only main critique (outside of the 7 million bugs lol) was smth SO many games do and it pisses me off to no end#how the game will just. literally END. it will CEASE. the second u do the final boss#da2 did it ! fallout did it ! pillars of eternity did it ! bg3 did it before they added the epilogue months later#its so common and it makes me mad bc its so lazy... like throughout the entire game the story allows u to opt in#to moments of catharsis w ur companions.... to get their viewpoints and reflect on whats happened. but the ending just Ends lol#and ik Ending the story is a catharsis in and of itself but damb maybe i just want to celebrate killing whatever the fuck a c'tan shard is#with bae yknow. but fuck me i guess !!!#KJFDGJKFDG#BUT IM JUST BEING A HATER. LOVED THE GAME RECOMMEND TO ALL THE MOOTS !#im so excited to replay and make all the same choices i did the first time but Sexy this time. and also to build the party correctly#so its not just me and heinrix carrying everybody on our backs this time 😔✊ tho that was pretty funny tbh
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#I gotta say I was prepared for some pretty atrocious picks for ‘jedi’ that vol. 2 might focus on#but not this#I should have seen this coming that’s on me lmao#also why drag Thrawn into this#leave my blue man alone#he’s just there as viewer bait right?#I can’t be the only one who thinks he’s going to have like maybe 3 scenes?#sigh#maybe one day Star Wars will be about Jedi again#about real Jedi who like being Jedi#a girl can dream#tales of the empire#tales of the jedi#star wars
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@riote acotar au where feyre wasn’t the true mc (think ned stark), so she doesn’t come back to life and becomes a martyr and religious icon of prythain. next book opens with a daughter of one of the human queens, navigating court life and all that, and something something, the queens make the deal with hybern (that’s how the story would connect back to prythian). now instead of the golden queen being the one to give the book, it’s the daughter. this would work best as multi-pov, like exploring the implications of feyre’s death, how’s tamlin doing🙃
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emu's new costume is literally the sweetest thing ever i need to get her next year (said the guy who hasn't gotten an emu 4* once)
#i pulled on a no colorfes lim banner once. and it didn't go well#(i had to spark val nene fuck you girl i hate you. but at least she's pretty)#HOPEFULLY i won't have to spark annikasa and i'll be able to have more savings for colorfes emukasa#and then i won't have to spark them either (although i doubt it because of my. emu luck)#AND THEN MAYBE I'LL BE ABLE TO GET 60K FOR THIS EMU GOD BLESS#i mean it's 5 months after the colorfes ends. it should be fine?#especially if i don't drain too much from my anni savings#i'm at 69k rn but there's still this GODDAMN SANRIO!!! and its stupid 2* exchange rules so i need to do 6 pulls on it at worst.#(maybe 4 i don't oshi rui that much compared to emunenekasa maybe i can sacrifice him)#(with great pain and despair and i hope i won't have to do it though)#SIGH saving's so hard. and it means no wl ichisaki for me )):#thank god i can get them on hako banners but i can't see myself pulling on a leoni banner though lol#the only time i did it was nsnf and still i got saki off set few months later#AND I STILL DON'T HAVE ICCHAN SO NOT WORTH IT (she's my dream pick this year)#maybe saki6 or smth since icchan5 is too close to the emu mix 2#rip#ri says the less serious things. the tag
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I know they probably won't ever get aiden guillen back so we'll probably never have a prime universe paul but man............... i still want to see him :/
#not to fucking mention dominic monaghan too like#everyday I wonder if tim has a brother or if he's an only child#but YEAH. PAUL. I love paul I love his character in qb and considering I love jesse and tim it Would be awesome to see him again..#tani's personal shit#Sigh... a guy can only dream 😔
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i really wish i could dramatically smash a vase against the wall without any repercussions sometimes. but instead of the vase it’s my head
#the idea of someone else doing it is not as appealing#i deserve it the most. would love to offer it to others afterwards though.#sigh. alas one can only dream of detachable head explosion#romeo’s wretched rambles
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I wanna snuggle into the forest of his armpit hair and stay there where I can be safe and warm and happy forever 🥰
#not even blaming ovulation on this one i think ive just developed a thing for this one man’s hairy armpits specifically#oh to cuddle up with him#and snuggle into those armpits#and bury my face into his chest hair#and just be safe and warm and happy#a girl can only dream#(with a deep sigh of longing)#😔❤️
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