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#*posts before I can second guess myself*#fic shit#I like moodboards ok#and this was fun#ofc I had to find the angstiest quotes ever#would you expect anything less of me?#:)#I initially wasn’t gonna do one for this fic but I’m actually quite happy with this#this is my wallpaper now
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Post Villain-of-the-Week-Scuffle Nap.
Good morning everyone! (Welcome to my seminar!) Here's some Portal Duo snuggling to start off your day! What's the point of having the ability to draw turtles if you don't indulge in the softest of fluff once in a while?
Just ignore the fact that, with Leo's canon bed setup, there's really no room for Raph to be standing on the other side. How's he doing that? Magic ig.
(I feel like this goes without saying, but you never know: T-cest, do NOT interact; I will punt you to the moon.)
#i had so much fun with this one!#i feel like i learned a lot about foreshortening#though i'm not sure i would have been able to achieve this perspective without the liquify and transform tools CSP provides haha#i'm such a cheater 😅#i simultaneously spent so much time on and got super lazy with the shading on this one#i think it turned out okay though#look i was gonna draw Mikey and Leo at a different angle on Donnie's phone screen#but drawing that tangle of limbs was hard enough the first time lol#i will never not overthink the text in literally any given picture#rottmnt#tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#tcest dni#art#fanart#myart#posting now before i can second-guess myself further ahhhhh
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sometimes it can be scary to open up
#stranger things#mike wheeler#stranger things 4#stranger things fanart#zanna draws#i would not know a consistent artstyle if it kissed me w tongue but. i felt a carnal need to paint#so have my son again#posting and running away before i can second guess myself i havent properly drawn in over a year
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Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~
(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)
#ootd#jfashion#fashion#fantasy fashion#mori kei#....like... adjacent... lol#no idea what style this would be lol.. makes me think of like whimsical vaguely fantasy themed childrens book character#finally posting one of my aforementioned seven million drafts of actual outfits and costumes i have finished and edited#the photos for but just never feel like posting lol..#I need to find one of those people whos like 'omg i am ADDICTED to social media ugh i wish i could get off of it#im just browsing and posting like 60 times a daaaaay!!!' and take a little magical bottle and suck some of the social media#enthusiasim out of them. for moi. In exchange they can have some of my 'literally just never in the mood to post or interact with the#outside world ever' energy. We can balance each other. huzzah and so on#Though I think maybe it's part of the general thing I've heard of like.. I can't remember if it was in reference to adhd or just some sort#of general execcutive functioning issue type of thing - but the idea that things have to be ''just right'' before you do something. like#'oh i need to do this task. but i have to wait until XYZ first' or 'oh i can do this but only if X specific condition is met' or etc#The fact that I even have to be in a Specific Mindset to post. or sometimes will delay posting on social media because like 'oh well#I'm going somewhere tomorrow. somehow this matters. i cannot spend 5 minuts posting TONIGHT. clearly it will interfere#somehow schedule wise with the doctor appointment i have 15 hours from now. yes. yes. i must wait until my appointment is over#tomorrow afternoon. THEN i shall post' or etc. etc. lol. NOT even taking into account the many days#I just genuinely and physically sick and it's not even a mental thing. I just physically dont feel like sitting at the computer lol..#ANYWAY.. trying to get back into it. trying to get a business bank account.. make a proper paypal so i can start selling sculptures again.#selling clothes and sculptures.. posting about such things then of course as one must. etc... chanting to hype up and motivate myself lol#But yes. this is my favorite outfit out of the bunch so I am posting it first I guess.. maybe others later..#Also the purple dress says its from shein. which I've heard is bad fast fashion stuff. but maybe okay since its second hand? I havent#been to the bins since like 2020 or late 2019 even. and I think stuff like shein and temu has only become poular in the past few years#but I bet if I went to the bins now I might would find a good handfull of that stuff. Probably now not much different than what you#find in a walmart or a forever 21 or actual physical stores you can go to though. I hear quality of clothing is down everywhere no matter#where you get it or whatnot. What bountiful joys unfettered capitalism and exploitation bestows upon us (<being sarcastic).#Wearing one of my favorite little vests though. I love the texture of it and the clasps on it
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sleepytime tea bear lookin idiot
#the terror amc#francis crozier#my art#this is a bit older page from my digital sketchbook#i think i want to post more semi-finished silly stuff like this on here. so. behold#most shaped man on this arctic expedition#just gonna hit post before i can second guess myself further
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may be late on the first day of kloktober, but the fic is going to be ❤️ heart breaking ❤️ so that's something lol
#text post#did i mean to make the first fic so far in the future it would be desperately sad? no#not until the second paragraph at least lmao#it needs finishing and an edit but hopefully will be posted today#then i can hop back to the first day kinkyourtober fic i also need to post#and try to work on day two fics for both of these#am i aware i don't need to do every day of either challenge? yes. must i do every day or I'll feel like dying? also yes#we'll see how it goes. idk. the insomnia and depression continues to kick my ass so I'm tired and blah and just#before any of this i have to convince myself not to nap for the entire fucking morning and wasting all of that time#... we'll see how that goes too i guess
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Dum de dum dum
Gonna add max tags and max characters to each cause who cares
#the limit to the number of characters is 140 and I can’t use the same tag twice so this may take time. also I can’t add commas easily so sor#ry for the run on sentences. I doubt anyone will read all this. it’s gonna take a while to write. maybe I just keyboard smash. but that seem#s unoriginal or cheating. and I also wanna use chat gpt but that feels kinda lame? it’s frowned on so much and I don’t wanna be frowned on a#nd idk. I guess I care about what strangers on the internet care about more than myself. which I shouldn’t. I’ll be better tho. anyway i ams#going to be rambling a bit here. but I don’t care. probably no one will read this anyways. maybe I can try some constrained writing prompts.#what with only 140 characters. people usually write a lot of stuff and better under constraints. cause humans be weird sometimes. why on ear#th did I do this to myself???? maybe I will smash!!! agdkdgakfhs!!!! SHDOAGSKFHSJ!!!! bleaugholofomodowopoidk!!! weeepeedeepeedooooooo!! idk#this is boring. I’m only 8 tags in and I’m tired. who knows why I do these things. the mind is a mysterious place. who knows why we do wha w#e do. …. …. idk man. I was gonna say some more stuff about the mind and how weird it is. but I forgor ): now I feel a bit s#ad. but maybe I will remember before the end of this…. spaces make it easier so#spaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaceeeeeeesssssss. lol#gonna copy paste 138 spaces in a row and copy paste. then add number at end to make each unique… then this would go so fast…. but is#that cheating? I mean I put these rules on myself. only I would really care if I broke them. but it feels wrong to#so maybe I’ll get this done naturally. with a whole bunch’s spaces to replace a comma. it’ll go so much faster. (:#tag 15. halfway there. goin faster than I thought it would. time flies or something ig. I have an idea#imma try to say all the copypastas I kinda know by memory cause who fucking cares: firstly first. I am gonna do the one about the fitnes#“the fitness gram pace test is a multilevel test that involves many things. like running and sit-ups and push ups and jumping jack eh idk#now for rick roll copypasta. not a real rickroll tho cause there is warning so it’s all cool. I think I’ll stop early like line six or I d k#you know the rules and so do I! a full commitment is what I’m looking for. you know the rules and I do too. never goin to give you up or let#you down or dessert you or anything like that. (I’m jokingly doing it wrong. I actually know them alr. cause been roled a bit.) gon stop now#I know just the starting quote kinda of bee movie. but non else. idk what to say. am tired. is late so idk. idk#this post is taking way to long. I’m on like the second day typing it out ):. I don’t know how much more I can take…. but I must per#servere!!! if I add spaces. then it’ll be done. much quicker. (:(:(: plus I can spam emoticons for fun. :3#:3:3:3:3:3:3:3. (:(:(:(: (;(; :/:/. -_- \: 0: [:<. :>]. =). $). ^_^. *_*. (: I love emoticons#~_~. :p :P. :D. d: :b. q: i-i. T-T. T_T. j-j. -w- uwu. owo. ö. ü. :B. :ß. :oo#:O. :1). QwQ. k: 8ooo>. (|). or i guess (:) might be more anatomically accurate. :+|. •_•. .-. ._. :7). :)#27 tag hereeeeee almost donnn eeeeee. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. heheh. fun. not actually to bad. this was kinda nice.#yayayayayya. we about finished. Twas a fun time. idk why i did this. ig it was kinda fun. noiceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee#words words words. just mostly nonsense. fun fun fun. idk idk din. ooooo. wwww. owowow. nyaaaaa. meow#3030303030!!! 30!!!! last one woot woot. fun’s. hope reading was fun. i liked typing it. so long and thanks for all the fish.(:
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Houlihawk 29
29: “a kiss as a promise”
Putting this under a cut because um. It’s horny.
When Margaret’s shirt comes off, Hawkeye nearly stops breathing.
There she is, only half of her full glory out. He’s only dreamed of this moment, and those don’t compare to the real thing. Not even close. Margaret straddles his bare waist, her thighs locked around his hips, pinning him down. She grins down at him, smug as sin, and the list of sins he wants to commit is only growing.
“Like what you see?” She asks him teasingly.
“What kind of question is that?” He asks in return, “Jesus, Margaret, you’re glorious. I’m gonna faint.” He can’t stop staring. The soft pearly white of her stomach, up her chest- she still has her bra on, he really will faint when that comes off- and her shoulders down her biceps. She’s got the same tan line as the rest of them, the clear outline of an army shirt, but somehow on her it works. Can a tan line be sexy?
Margaret leans down, shifting her weight on him, drawing a helpless little noise out of him as her face lowers near his. “Say that again.” She says. Her voice is soft, but it’s not a request. It’s an order.
A shiver runs up his spine. “You’re glorious,” He says, obeying her orders easier than he’s every obeyed anyone else’s, his eyes caught in tracing the shimmering blonde hair that frames her face, “Radiant, divine, show-stopping. You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen.” His eyes are sipping lower again. How can they not? Her chest is very close to his face. He’s barely resisting the urge to take her bra off with his teeth.
Margaret reaches up, traces a delicate nail down his cheek, watches him squirm. “The most beautiful woman you’ve ever seen?” She echoes, trailing her hand down his jaw, “I like the sound of that.” She hums, thoughtful.
Hawkeye’s on the verge of going crazy. “God’s honest truth,” He tells her, “Cross my heart and hope and all that. Margaret, please-“
“Shhh,” She presses a finger against his lips, which doesn’t help the heat building inside of him in the slightest. She plants her other hand on his chest, leans in close, till they’re almost nose to nose, “I’ll fuck you all night long if that’s what you want, but you need to be patient. You need to listen,” She trails her finger down, off his lips, “Is that clear?” She asks.
He nods eagerly. “All night long?” He asks.
“All night long,” She dips down, kisses him quick, teasing and promising more, “Think you can handle that?” She shifts, kisses his cheek.
“Yes, ma’am.” He rushes out.
Her next kiss lands on his jaw. “You know what I like to be called.” She murmurs, right by his ear.
Hawkeye’s breath hitches as she trails lower. Her lips find the underside of his jaw, he nearly squeaks. “Yes, sir.” He groans, his hips twitching up into hers as she nips at sensitive skin.
“Good boy.” She praises, which makes him shudder. Her lips find his neck next, and any kind of response he could’ve made only slips out in quiet moans as his brain sparks out.
#mash#fic bitching#hawkeye pierce#margaret houlihan#otp: thank you hank thank you darlene#idk what possessed me but yeah#I’m not a smut writer but this came to me so quickly#I’ve only written one smutty thing in my life and it’s for my novel#anyways posting this before I can second guess myself
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another old oc, she's a tooth fairy!!
#art#traditional art#watercolour#oc art#ocs#oc group: unsorted#oc: unnamed#i know ive definitely posted her a bunch before but that was a hot minute ago#gonna say something that sounds absolutely insane but hear me out: so ive been on a women drawing kick recently#hjlkfdjkfds LISTEN this is SO dumb but my oc situation has been kind of a sausage party in general recently because like#i wanted to make more women and this is gonna sound more insane but i think. i subconciously scared myself off from it because#i guess i felt like since im pretty alienated from a lot of common experiences of 'womanhood' that it would be like. disrespectful?#of me if i tried to write what i didnt know. which is an absolutely absurd thing to worry about because FIRST OF ALL#these are funy little ocs its not that serious AND SECOND OF ALL if i can write about robots and fairies and shit then i can definitely#make a cartoon character who struggles with the expectations and barriers placed upon women in our society and THIRD OF ALL#people who are further away from these experiences than even me will write whatever why cant i. plus at least i care to learn secondhand#anyway i noticed that weird ass subconcious restriction i put on myself for now reason and tossed it away LOL#get ready for all my strange women ocs...... get ready
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blehh just brain-dumping abt the new Roger DLC trailer here but I'm thinkin abt what his arc might be. there's maybe an argument to be made that it'll go in a direction of "Roger grows a spine and learns to deal with his problems" but that's kinda just Randy's exact deal, and The Hound has mentioned that he's taking Roger in a slightly different direction than his DSaF counterpart specifically due to the two sharing a lot of idea-DNA.
My thoughts are that it'll focus on regrets about his past (failing med school, getting divorced, addiction, or possibly a continued struggle with alcohol?) and trying to be someone else ("id much rather be Scott than Roger") but idk i could be totally off. I haven't even started chapter 3 yet so maybe there's some crucial context I'm still missing.
oh also I haven't seen ANYONE mention that we're now at 4 out of the 1st 5 managers.
#this would've been dumped into some poor bastard's DMs but no one i know is as insane abt dialtown as me so im inflicting it on the public#just gonna go ahead and post this before i can second guess myself anymore hsdjdvx
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hi, calling all fanfic writers and readers and also people who have Made Videos for a little help with a potential project.
disclaimer: this is, as i said, very potential and still in the Shiny New Idea stage, i’m trying to determine feasibility at the moment.
so, you know speedpaints, right? as in, timelapsed drawing video with music or narration laid over it. consider the same thing, but with writing.
(the tentative term at the moment is speedfic, which has some precedent being used this way, because speedwriting means something else. but i digress)
the idea is that i would post timelapsed videos of me writing short fics and explain my process, probably focusing on specific elements like worldbuilding, character voice, plot, etc. i could also talk about planning, editing, and maybe some other general fanfiction topics.
this leads me to several questions. the main one, of course, is “would anyone else even be interested in this sort of thing?”
but assuming that answer is yes—there are some logistical issues inherent in doing this with words that aren’t caused by doing this with art, namely the “speed” and “narration” bits, and lots of other fiddly little things.
so i guess i’m just asking what writers/readers would want from a project like this, any preferences as far as video structure/length/content, just anything, really. before i go chasing the Shiny New Thing, i want to know if it’s worth it
#bird noises#fanfiction#ao3#fanfic#this did not come out as coherent as i wanted#i’m just like#trying to balance words going fast but still readable vs not having a 30 minute video#unless…..#idk idk!#and the issue of reading words vs listening to different words#one of the things i’m considering rn is speeding up some parts and slowing down the relevant ones#or something#i also dont know how to edit things beyond the very very basics but i can learn#and then theres the secondary issue of the fact that i hate listening to my own voice SO much it’s hellish and can i get someone else to do#that part for me lmao#but its probably good for me#since it’s fanfic also i thought about doing a segment in the beginning thats just context for the fic but idk is that?? good??#also ofc we have the imposter syndrome. am i qualified to do this??#well! maybe not! but no one more qualified is doing it and so i might as well#i’m gonna post this before i second guess myself anymore okay? okay. bye. thank you
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POV: You save your timeline, but lose your arm anyway.
Casey does NOT let Leo get away with being so self-deprecating, dw
#this looked and sounded way better in my head#i way overthought what leo was supposed to be saying here smh#you stare at words enough and they start to sound not like words#i was up so late last night indulging in angst when i have like 50 other WIPs#such is my lack of discipline#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#art#sketch#leo#tmnt#casey jones#fanart#drawing#rise of the tmnt#teenage mutant ninja turtles#posting now before i can second-guess myself further ahhhhh#myart
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(Claustrophobia, trauma, and mentions of abuse and death ahead)
I was kicking a lot of Mistborn AU thoughts around in my head a few days ago, and on the topic of Ingo being sent to the Pits of Hathsin, I came to the realization that there would probably be a lot of residual trauma from being trapped in a place where your options are:
Try to resist your captors and be beaten, likely to death, as a result
or
2. Try to survive between the mistreatment and doing your one (1) job, which is crawling around in an enclosed, dark, probably stuffy underground crevice to find fancy metal and shredding your arms to get that metal.
And when I say "residual trauma," I mean Ingo doesn't like enclosed spaces anymore.
No narrow tunnels.
No tight alleys, even; especially at night.
I whacked him with the claustrophobia stick.
I just think that Hathsin ducked him up in the head a little, that's all.
I don't remember a whole lot of the books -- I have yet to reread them -- or how in-depth they went with Kelsier's time in the Pits, but just thinking about the concept... yeah. Not just from the abuse, but from the place -- the job. It's taxing, and the entire place is probably steeped in melancholy and despair because all the other prisoners know that they aren't getting out of here, that this is their life, and abuse by their captors is rampant.
The Pits of Hathsin are a man-made, man-run hell. It is meant to be a prison for those with life sentences, yet those sentences manage to be terribly short in many cases.
#I'm posting this before I can second-guess myself out of doing so#I don't know why I'm so self-conscious about this au sorry#subway boss ingo#imprisonment#claustrophobia#mentions of abuse#I really don't know what to tag this with#uh#submas#pokemon#egginfroggintalkin#eggin's writings#mistborn au#basically: the pits of hathsin are horrible so of course I'm subjecting ingo to them#he'll be okay#I mean kind of okay#he won't be there forever#and this isn't even going into what it does to his morals#the guards won't just let him walk out no of course not#they won't let him walk so he won't let them breathe that's just how it's gotta be sometimes#he has been worn down. a lot#man's desperate#(and on today's episode of Eggin Breaks Characters Like Eggs --)
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Why can't the 5ds timeline be cleaner when it comes to duels. It makes coming up with a feasible timetable post Yusei's duel with ZONE an absolute pain in the neck.
If you catch the time display on any runner/d-wheel in the second half, the time is always 0:24. The middle of the freaking night. Even when it's broad daylight. Can't use that.
Supposedly it IS the middle of the night when Yusei duels ZONE though. You can see stars in the sky in multiple shots so it's not like the Ark is just blocking the sunlight or something.
But then you have the end of that episode when the Ark disappears. The sun is already VERY high in the sky, in the east, so supposedly morning but, like, 10am already judging by how high it is, and you cannot convince me it took, like, four hours for Yusei to travel back the sun gear, ZONE to literally yeet him away, and the Ark to disappear.
All we know is that they have twelve hours until the city is destroyed. From when? Who knows!
Hazy timelines will never not drive me insane.
#yugioh 5ds#ygo 5ds#the same can be said the duel against godwin too tbh#that starts not long after sunset and somehow ends at sunrise#i could call out other series' for this kind of thing too tbh#but i'm not currently trying to write a fic for those where this is semi-important information either lol#and yes i DO have a timetable laid out for this already#but i'm TRYING to do one final read over this chapter before i post it and i am second guessing myself YET AGAIN if this actually works lol#if i've missed something that hints at a time for ANYTHING in those episodes please let me know lol#i probably wont change the timetable of this fic because i've already got it figured but still
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I'm historically awful at using like, literally any social media. not even intentionally, I just don't think Good Social Media Practices have ever been ingrained in me. maybe in part because I've very rarely ever actually made anything to put into the metaphorical pot myself. idk, who knows
#i did write a fanfic once and i knew it before then but yeah getting comments on it felt great!#idk why i'm so bad at like. coming up with anything to ever add or say in response to posts#even when i really do like a thing#i never developed like. a keymash reflex. any sort of keymash typed out by me feels so fake and awful that i have just never pursued it#and then i guess i get worried that the responses i feel like i can give things are too reserved or repetitive?#like i'm out here second guessing myself when i KNOW that even just saying “oh cool i liked this” can be enough!#. i do also run the (regular) incorrect gba fe quotes thing here. i'm even more baffled about why i'm so bad at this#LOVE getting any sort of responses to posts there in the tags#anyway. point of all of this rambling being. gonna try to be better about it and engage with things more
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I don't like BSD I'm sorry if I'm putting myself through the little sister bullshit I'm doing it for a VN that does something interesting not for a basic shounen anime with a mafia aesthetic and some questionable literary references.
#my posts#dazai wanting to kill himself is really funny until you look up the guy he's named after#and like I could've tolerated it in a better anime but definitely not a basic shounen anime with a mafia aesthetic#''it gets better in season 2'' the VNs with little sister bullshit that I put myself through give me something good to latch onto#before I have to confront the little sister bullshit#like akiha's route is the third one in tsukihime and uh...#actually let's be real subahibi got significantly worse after it made its little sister bullshit apparent#and it's not specifically because of the little sister bullshit let me be clear but I do consider it a symptom#honestly the issues are kinda baked into the rest of the story but at least you can theoretically get to a better conclusion#without any edits to stuff before the second half of jabberwocky I#after that I think there need to be real structural edits like you can keep some of the content#but oh god please give hasaki some narrative agency in her own fucking POV and maybe give tomosane narrative agency in his POV#that doesn't ultimately boil down to what girl he fucks#zakuro's pov has a choice that is ultimately between ''click here for epic lesbian ending'' and ''click here for trauma''#but the choice is between her thinking about what she should do about her situation and her just going back to her classroom sadly#which reflects how her epic lesbian ending happens as a result of zakuro not falling into helplessness#meanwhile tomosane's choices only really seem to say ''the choice you make will lead you to the route you don't expect it to I guess''#and you have to complete the other two routes first before you can even unlock the choice that would lead to an ending where he rejects#companionship even though the theme of his POV is that he should accept his own connections and not resign to his presumed fate of disappea#oh yeah that theme also goes out the window because the ''good'' endings of the game decide to fix all that by revealing that#he was the ''true personality'' all along and implying that being a system is a barrier to a super happy ending#you know what this has turned into a tangent but I'm keeping it here because now I wanna make a post on an alt about it later#and I wanna use it for reference#point is why put myself through a mid shounen anime with normal mid anime problems when I can get psychological damage from something inter
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