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#*posts before I can second guess myself*#fic shit#I like moodboards ok#and this was fun#ofc I had to find the angstiest quotes ever#would you expect anything less of me?#:)#I initially wasn’t gonna do one for this fic but I’m actually quite happy with this#this is my wallpaper now
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sometimes it can be scary to open up
#stranger things#mike wheeler#stranger things 4#stranger things fanart#zanna draws#i would not know a consistent artstyle if it kissed me w tongue but. i felt a carnal need to paint#so have my son again#posting and running away before i can second guess myself i havent properly drawn in over a year
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sleepytime tea bear lookin idiot
#the terror amc#francis crozier#my art#this is a bit older page from my digital sketchbook#i think i want to post more semi-finished silly stuff like this on here. so. behold#most shaped man on this arctic expedition#just gonna hit post before i can second guess myself further
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Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~
(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)
#ootd#jfashion#fashion#fantasy fashion#mori kei#....like... adjacent... lol#no idea what style this would be lol.. makes me think of like whimsical vaguely fantasy themed childrens book character#finally posting one of my aforementioned seven million drafts of actual outfits and costumes i have finished and edited#the photos for but just never feel like posting lol..#I need to find one of those people whos like 'omg i am ADDICTED to social media ugh i wish i could get off of it#im just browsing and posting like 60 times a daaaaay!!!' and take a little magical bottle and suck some of the social media#enthusiasim out of them. for moi. In exchange they can have some of my 'literally just never in the mood to post or interact with the#outside world ever' energy. We can balance each other. huzzah and so on#Though I think maybe it's part of the general thing I've heard of like.. I can't remember if it was in reference to adhd or just some sort#of general execcutive functioning issue type of thing - but the idea that things have to be ''just right'' before you do something. like#'oh i need to do this task. but i have to wait until XYZ first' or 'oh i can do this but only if X specific condition is met' or etc#The fact that I even have to be in a Specific Mindset to post. or sometimes will delay posting on social media because like 'oh well#I'm going somewhere tomorrow. somehow this matters. i cannot spend 5 minuts posting TONIGHT. clearly it will interfere#somehow schedule wise with the doctor appointment i have 15 hours from now. yes. yes. i must wait until my appointment is over#tomorrow afternoon. THEN i shall post' or etc. etc. lol. NOT even taking into account the many days#I just genuinely and physically sick and it's not even a mental thing. I just physically dont feel like sitting at the computer lol..#ANYWAY.. trying to get back into it. trying to get a business bank account.. make a proper paypal so i can start selling sculptures again.#selling clothes and sculptures.. posting about such things then of course as one must. etc... chanting to hype up and motivate myself lol#But yes. this is my favorite outfit out of the bunch so I am posting it first I guess.. maybe others later..#Also the purple dress says its from shein. which I've heard is bad fast fashion stuff. but maybe okay since its second hand? I havent#been to the bins since like 2020 or late 2019 even. and I think stuff like shein and temu has only become poular in the past few years#but I bet if I went to the bins now I might would find a good handfull of that stuff. Probably now not much different than what you#find in a walmart or a forever 21 or actual physical stores you can go to though. I hear quality of clothing is down everywhere no matter#where you get it or whatnot. What bountiful joys unfettered capitalism and exploitation bestows upon us (<being sarcastic).#Wearing one of my favorite little vests though. I love the texture of it and the clasps on it
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I spent way too much time on what is essentially a shitpost...
But anyways. Post-Meursault road trip AU because it's funny to me and I couldn't rest until I drew this. (Read right to left.)
Basically, Sigma gets the information needed to stop Fukuchi but Fyodor escapes with the help of Hohol. Cat thief is alive and the four of them escape the prison and have to chase after Fyodor, leading to an impromptu road trip none of them want. Along the way, they pick up Adam to help with tracking him down.
Chuuya speaks to everyone else but is very adamant about not talking to or responding to Dazai at all - giving him the cold shoulder, basically. Dazai can't decide if he is more insulted that Chuuya isn't talking to him or that he's resisting his attempts at goading him through sheer determination. Adam is concerned at how tired Chuuya is and keeps making occasional offers to drive but he knows Chuuya's driving because he needs a distraction. Sigma is terrified someone is going to snap and he's going to get caught in the crossfire. Cat girl is having the time of her life.
(If you can't read my shoddy handwriting, here's the dialogue:
Thief: "Did you know that even with seatbelts, people die all the time in car crashes?"
Thief: "I thought that was interesting."
Adam: "Master Chuuya, if you are getting too tired, I would be happy to switch -"
Chuuya: "Nah, 'm good."
Adam, musing to himself: "The majority of accidents are caused by human error. If human drivers were replaced by androids, the roads would be safer."
Adam: "By which I mean the latest autonomous models, like myself. Those 'self-driving AI' are a disgrace."
Dazai, muttering after flicking a crumpled paper: "Chuuya, pay attention to me.")
@single-use-ship-of-theseus You get it!!!
#this is so so dumb#i am sorry for inflicting my terrible art and terrible humour but i could not rest until this was drawn#i don't do comics and you can tell 😔#howww could i have lined this up with a grid and it still be off???#anyways. yeah. road trips are inherently funny to me#the more awful they are and the more baggage there is the better and funnier it is#bsd#bsd spoilers#bsd art#my art#i can't believe this is the first time i've posted any art of chuuya :/#post meursault road trip au#storyrambles#bsd chuuya#bsd sigma#bsd dazai#bsd catgirl#bsd adam#posting now before i second-guess myself
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may be late on the first day of kloktober, but the fic is going to be ❤️ heart breaking ❤️ so that's something lol
#text post#did i mean to make the first fic so far in the future it would be desperately sad? no#not until the second paragraph at least lmao#it needs finishing and an edit but hopefully will be posted today#then i can hop back to the first day kinkyourtober fic i also need to post#and try to work on day two fics for both of these#am i aware i don't need to do every day of either challenge? yes. must i do every day or I'll feel like dying? also yes#we'll see how it goes. idk. the insomnia and depression continues to kick my ass so I'm tired and blah and just#before any of this i have to convince myself not to nap for the entire fucking morning and wasting all of that time#... we'll see how that goes too i guess
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Houlihawk 29
29: “a kiss as a promise”
Putting this under a cut because um. It’s horny.
When Margaret’s shirt comes off, Hawkeye nearly stops breathing.
There she is, only half of her full glory out. He’s only dreamed of this moment, and those don’t compare to the real thing. Not even close. Margaret straddles his bare waist, her thighs locked around his hips, pinning him down. She grins down at him, smug as sin, and the list of sins he wants to commit is only growing.
“Like what you see?” She asks him teasingly.
“What kind of question is that?” He asks in return, “Jesus, Margaret, you’re glorious. I’m gonna faint.” He can’t stop staring. The soft pearly white of her stomach, up her chest- she still has her bra on, he really will faint when that comes off- and her shoulders down her biceps. She’s got the same tan line as the rest of them, the clear outline of an army shirt, but somehow on her it works. Can a tan line be sexy?
Margaret leans down, shifting her weight on him, drawing a helpless little noise out of him as her face lowers near his. “Say that again.” She says. Her voice is soft, but it’s not a request. It’s an order.
A shiver runs up his spine. “You’re glorious,” He says, obeying her orders easier than he’s every obeyed anyone else’s, his eyes caught in tracing the shimmering blonde hair that frames her face, “Radiant, divine, show-stopping. You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen.” His eyes are sipping lower again. How can they not? Her chest is very close to his face. He’s barely resisting the urge to take her bra off with his teeth.
Margaret reaches up, traces a delicate nail down his cheek, watches him squirm. “The most beautiful woman you’ve ever seen?” She echoes, trailing her hand down his jaw, “I like the sound of that.” She hums, thoughtful.
Hawkeye’s on the verge of going crazy. “God’s honest truth,” He tells her, “Cross my heart and hope and all that. Margaret, please-“
“Shhh,” She presses a finger against his lips, which doesn’t help the heat building inside of him in the slightest. She plants her other hand on his chest, leans in close, till they’re almost nose to nose, “I’ll fuck you all night long if that’s what you want, but you need to be patient. You need to listen,” She trails her finger down, off his lips, “Is that clear?” She asks.
He nods eagerly. “All night long?” He asks.
“All night long,” She dips down, kisses him quick, teasing and promising more, “Think you can handle that?” She shifts, kisses his cheek.
“Yes, ma’am.” He rushes out.
Her next kiss lands on his jaw. “You know what I like to be called.” She murmurs, right by his ear.
Hawkeye’s breath hitches as she trails lower. Her lips find the underside of his jaw, he nearly squeaks. “Yes, sir.” He groans, his hips twitching up into hers as she nips at sensitive skin.
“Good boy.” She praises, which makes him shudder. Her lips find his neck next, and any kind of response he could’ve made only slips out in quiet moans as his brain sparks out.
#mash#fic bitching#hawkeye pierce#margaret houlihan#otp: thank you hank thank you darlene#idk what possessed me but yeah#I’m not a smut writer but this came to me so quickly#I’ve only written one smutty thing in my life and it’s for my novel#anyways posting this before I can second guess myself
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another old oc, she's a tooth fairy!!
#art#traditional art#watercolour#oc art#ocs#oc group: unsorted#oc: unnamed#i know ive definitely posted her a bunch before but that was a hot minute ago#gonna say something that sounds absolutely insane but hear me out: so ive been on a women drawing kick recently#hjlkfdjkfds LISTEN this is SO dumb but my oc situation has been kind of a sausage party in general recently because like#i wanted to make more women and this is gonna sound more insane but i think. i subconciously scared myself off from it because#i guess i felt like since im pretty alienated from a lot of common experiences of 'womanhood' that it would be like. disrespectful?#of me if i tried to write what i didnt know. which is an absolutely absurd thing to worry about because FIRST OF ALL#these are funy little ocs its not that serious AND SECOND OF ALL if i can write about robots and fairies and shit then i can definitely#make a cartoon character who struggles with the expectations and barriers placed upon women in our society and THIRD OF ALL#people who are further away from these experiences than even me will write whatever why cant i. plus at least i care to learn secondhand#anyway i noticed that weird ass subconcious restriction i put on myself for now reason and tossed it away LOL#get ready for all my strange women ocs...... get ready
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blehh just brain-dumping abt the new Roger DLC trailer here but I'm thinkin abt what his arc might be. there's maybe an argument to be made that it'll go in a direction of "Roger grows a spine and learns to deal with his problems" but that's kinda just Randy's exact deal, and The Hound has mentioned that he's taking Roger in a slightly different direction than his DSaF counterpart specifically due to the two sharing a lot of idea-DNA.
My thoughts are that it'll focus on regrets about his past (failing med school, getting divorced, addiction, or possibly a continued struggle with alcohol?) and trying to be someone else ("id much rather be Scott than Roger") but idk i could be totally off. I haven't even started chapter 3 yet so maybe there's some crucial context I'm still missing.
oh also I haven't seen ANYONE mention that we're now at 4 out of the 1st 5 managers.
#this would've been dumped into some poor bastard's DMs but no one i know is as insane abt dialtown as me so im inflicting it on the public#just gonna go ahead and post this before i can second guess myself anymore hsdjdvx
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hi, calling all fanfic writers and readers and also people who have Made Videos for a little help with a potential project.
disclaimer: this is, as i said, very potential and still in the Shiny New Idea stage, i’m trying to determine feasibility at the moment.
so, you know speedpaints, right? as in, timelapsed drawing video with music or narration laid over it. consider the same thing, but with writing.
(the tentative term at the moment is speedfic, which has some precedent being used this way, because speedwriting means something else. but i digress)
the idea is that i would post timelapsed videos of me writing short fics and explain my process, probably focusing on specific elements like worldbuilding, character voice, plot, etc. i could also talk about planning, editing, and maybe some other general fanfiction topics.
this leads me to several questions. the main one, of course, is “would anyone else even be interested in this sort of thing?”
but assuming that answer is yes—there are some logistical issues inherent in doing this with words that aren’t caused by doing this with art, namely the “speed” and “narration” bits, and lots of other fiddly little things.
so i guess i’m just asking what writers/readers would want from a project like this, any preferences as far as video structure/length/content, just anything, really. before i go chasing the Shiny New Thing, i want to know if it’s worth it
#bird noises#fanfiction#ao3#fanfic#this did not come out as coherent as i wanted#i’m just like#trying to balance words going fast but still readable vs not having a 30 minute video#unless…..#idk idk!#and the issue of reading words vs listening to different words#one of the things i’m considering rn is speeding up some parts and slowing down the relevant ones#or something#i also dont know how to edit things beyond the very very basics but i can learn#and then theres the secondary issue of the fact that i hate listening to my own voice SO much it’s hellish and can i get someone else to do#that part for me lmao#but its probably good for me#since it’s fanfic also i thought about doing a segment in the beginning thats just context for the fic but idk is that?? good??#also ofc we have the imposter syndrome. am i qualified to do this??#well! maybe not! but no one more qualified is doing it and so i might as well#i’m gonna post this before i second guess myself anymore okay? okay. bye. thank you
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(Claustrophobia, trauma, and mentions of abuse and death ahead)
I was kicking a lot of Mistborn AU thoughts around in my head a few days ago, and on the topic of Ingo being sent to the Pits of Hathsin, I came to the realization that there would probably be a lot of residual trauma from being trapped in a place where your options are:
Try to resist your captors and be beaten, likely to death, as a result
or
2. Try to survive between the mistreatment and doing your one (1) job, which is crawling around in an enclosed, dark, probably stuffy underground crevice to find fancy metal and shredding your arms to get that metal.
And when I say "residual trauma," I mean Ingo doesn't like enclosed spaces anymore.
No narrow tunnels.
No tight alleys, even; especially at night.
I whacked him with the claustrophobia stick.
I just think that Hathsin ducked him up in the head a little, that's all.
I don't remember a whole lot of the books -- I have yet to reread them -- or how in-depth they went with Kelsier's time in the Pits, but just thinking about the concept... yeah. Not just from the abuse, but from the place -- the job. It's taxing, and the entire place is probably steeped in melancholy and despair because all the other prisoners know that they aren't getting out of here, that this is their life, and abuse by their captors is rampant.
The Pits of Hathsin are a man-made, man-run hell. It is meant to be a prison for those with life sentences, yet those sentences manage to be terribly short in many cases.
#I'm posting this before I can second-guess myself out of doing so#I don't know why I'm so self-conscious about this au sorry#subway boss ingo#imprisonment#claustrophobia#mentions of abuse#I really don't know what to tag this with#uh#submas#pokemon#egginfroggintalkin#eggin's writings#mistborn au#basically: the pits of hathsin are horrible so of course I'm subjecting ingo to them#he'll be okay#I mean kind of okay#he won't be there forever#and this isn't even going into what it does to his morals#the guards won't just let him walk out no of course not#they won't let him walk so he won't let them breathe that's just how it's gotta be sometimes#he has been worn down. a lot#man's desperate#(and on today's episode of Eggin Breaks Characters Like Eggs --)
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Why can't the 5ds timeline be cleaner when it comes to duels. It makes coming up with a feasible timetable post Yusei's duel with ZONE an absolute pain in the neck.
If you catch the time display on any runner/d-wheel in the second half, the time is always 0:24. The middle of the freaking night. Even when it's broad daylight. Can't use that.
Supposedly it IS the middle of the night when Yusei duels ZONE though. You can see stars in the sky in multiple shots so it's not like the Ark is just blocking the sunlight or something.
But then you have the end of that episode when the Ark disappears. The sun is already VERY high in the sky, in the east, so supposedly morning but, like, 10am already judging by how high it is, and you cannot convince me it took, like, four hours for Yusei to travel back the sun gear, ZONE to literally yeet him away, and the Ark to disappear.
All we know is that they have twelve hours until the city is destroyed. From when? Who knows!
Hazy timelines will never not drive me insane.
#yugioh 5ds#ygo 5ds#the same can be said the duel against godwin too tbh#that starts not long after sunset and somehow ends at sunrise#i could call out other series' for this kind of thing too tbh#but i'm not currently trying to write a fic for those where this is semi-important information either lol#and yes i DO have a timetable laid out for this already#but i'm TRYING to do one final read over this chapter before i post it and i am second guessing myself YET AGAIN if this actually works lol#if i've missed something that hints at a time for ANYTHING in those episodes please let me know lol#i probably wont change the timetable of this fic because i've already got it figured but still
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quick comic bc ive been feeling a specific way about art lately
#digital art#original art#comic#not making more tags than that i think#its fine#i like drawing im re teaching myself that drawing isnt about the end product is about making#i barely made art last year and it was damaging me so i am glad im drawing#also i wanted to see how itd be if i just really doodled this one#id like to see if i can make just doodles that i like enough and that dont need to be more detailed#but i also just need to change my expectations about my art. or my practices#but i am making. and thats good and fun#also i started second guessing about whether i should post this one or not so im posting it now before i decide against it lmao
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I don't like BSD I'm sorry if I'm putting myself through the little sister bullshit I'm doing it for a VN that does something interesting not for a basic shounen anime with a mafia aesthetic and some questionable literary references.
#my posts#dazai wanting to kill himself is really funny until you look up the guy he's named after#and like I could've tolerated it in a better anime but definitely not a basic shounen anime with a mafia aesthetic#''it gets better in season 2'' the VNs with little sister bullshit that I put myself through give me something good to latch onto#before I have to confront the little sister bullshit#like akiha's route is the third one in tsukihime and uh...#actually let's be real subahibi got significantly worse after it made its little sister bullshit apparent#and it's not specifically because of the little sister bullshit let me be clear but I do consider it a symptom#honestly the issues are kinda baked into the rest of the story but at least you can theoretically get to a better conclusion#without any edits to stuff before the second half of jabberwocky I#after that I think there need to be real structural edits like you can keep some of the content#but oh god please give hasaki some narrative agency in her own fucking POV and maybe give tomosane narrative agency in his POV#that doesn't ultimately boil down to what girl he fucks#zakuro's pov has a choice that is ultimately between ''click here for epic lesbian ending'' and ''click here for trauma''#but the choice is between her thinking about what she should do about her situation and her just going back to her classroom sadly#which reflects how her epic lesbian ending happens as a result of zakuro not falling into helplessness#meanwhile tomosane's choices only really seem to say ''the choice you make will lead you to the route you don't expect it to I guess''#and you have to complete the other two routes first before you can even unlock the choice that would lead to an ending where he rejects#companionship even though the theme of his POV is that he should accept his own connections and not resign to his presumed fate of disappea#oh yeah that theme also goes out the window because the ''good'' endings of the game decide to fix all that by revealing that#he was the ''true personality'' all along and implying that being a system is a barrier to a super happy ending#you know what this has turned into a tangent but I'm keeping it here because now I wanna make a post on an alt about it later#and I wanna use it for reference#point is why put myself through a mid shounen anime with normal mid anime problems when I can get psychological damage from something inter
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Todays Patch Notes!
More fixes to game dialog display problems in Chapter 2
Two scenes cut for parts and merged in to one
Reacuring minor side character now has a name
Weird continuity error corrected
Large chunks of meandering story telling cut down and focused
More spelling, tence, and such mistakes fixed
#ff6 project#It is coming along well#Didnt get to work on it quite as long as i wanted to today#I only got like half way through the second chapter#Thats fine i guess i am already so behind schedule for posting in October#I am already handing this draft over to my first beta to look over#So hopefully i will at least beable to post the first chapter on time#Even if there is a serious gap before chapter 2#after all i still have two more books to write so this is probably going to be another couple of years before i am done#i tottaly did not mean for this to be such a large piece...#whoops i guess#Lets see how much i can get done in a month with out killing myself
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Sometimes college professors like to hop on my posts lamenting the sorry state of syllabi these days and joke about how they haven't thought that far ahead in the course themselves, or talk about how they struggle to complete a schedule for their students.
With all due respect, that's your job. If you can't do your job, you should have a different job. If you need help, ask your colleagues or your department chair or *someone* because I know that professors aren't given a hell of a lot of education on how to educate, so you probably *need* help.
But every single time I make one of those posts I get anywhere from ten to thirty messages, replies, reblogs, and asks say "oh man, that's exactly why I had to drop out of school; I couldn't keep up with the assignments because I didn't know when they were due until the week they were due."
I have been a college student in three separate decades, and "not having a schedule of assignments in the syllabus" is new to my experience. That shit didn't fly in the 2000s or 2010s and I think it likely has to do with professors being overly reliant on apps.
AT A MINIMUM your syllabus should have:
Contact information (including preferred method of contact) for the professor
Office Hours
Grading Policy
Assignment schedule.
Your assignment schedule doesn't necessarily need to have the exact page numbers of every reading or a full assignment sheet for each project, but it should have things like:
December 1st - Major Project 3 second draft due December 9th - Quiz 10 December 12th - Major Project 3 final draft due December 15th - Final Exam
If you end up presenting a more thorough schedule with readings and homework later, that is acceptable to present a week or two into the semester but it is absolutely insane to me that students these days don't know what homework they're going to have to get done over Thanksgiving break during the first couple weeks of class.
If I had three professors at once who didn't give me a schedule, how on earth would I know if I was going to have to read three chapters of a novel, take a midterm and turn in two stats homework assignments, and complete a history research paper the same week that I'm planning to travel to see family? If I'm aware of this from the beginning of the semester I can make sure not to pick up extra shifts, or I can plan to leave a day later to accommodate the midterm, or I can start working on the paper early to complete it before the due date but if I don't know what's going to be due when, I'm going to have a big problem.
If you don't give your students a schedule you are communicating that you don't care about their schedule, and that you think it's their responsibility to contort their life (and their job, and their other classes) around your class, and honestly my advice to students in that situation is "drop in the first week and pick up another class". That's actually part of why I recommend signing up for one more class than you can really manage - if you get a professor whose class looks like it's going to be a disaster because they don't have a schedule, you can bail before the withdrawal period and get a refund for the class.
I'm only in one class this semester but the professor's response has fully dropped me into "Fuck it, I guess I'll fail" mode and I don't even know if I can pull myself out of my current D grade because I don't know how many assignments we have left in the semester.
This is a shitty way to run a class. If you can't do better than this, you shouldn't be running a class.
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