#* nell. ( 001. )

[friendsdontlieokay]

This was Holly all along? How come I didn't notice? Guess I was too swayed away by Henry's fit but anyhow wth is happening here? That's most likely the origin of Holly getting kidnapped/vanished but how on earth is Henry in his human form, he's supposed to be Vecna right? Did the team injure him so bad that he really had to return to his human form or like wtf in general? And why is he in a 70's fit while Holly matches perfectly with the 80's?

Some ppl are saying that it's in the mind scapes but who's? Vecna's or Holly's? I think being either is going to be a little pointless because why would Vecna kidnap her in his mind scape and why would Holly even get kidnapped in hers? It feels too real to be a mind scape but if it actually is I guess it's Nancy's, considering she's already seen it once, Vecna trying to threaten her with another would be no surprise

[archivalofsins]

So, I remembered Picrew existed because of that last post so here's what the milgram ocs look like for the most part.

As they say ladies first-

Mirelle Apte 002 (Star made this wonderful little lady. I just torment her. Star here! Mirelle is great~ Leave her alone. Gunsli here- No~)

Alli’s OC Creator!

Afra Barnes 004 (Gunsli's responsibility. I made this lovely child she gets confused easily and doesn't know much about the real world but she's trying to learn!)

Alli’s OC Creator!

Ina Faraday 006 (Huh, she's someones responsibility. But I keep stealing her because she's fun- Star and I both made images of her at like the same time so she has two. Star here! She's just a little bean :- 3c)

Here's mine

And Star's the person actually responsible for her~

I think it's funny that we both legitimately almost created the same exact physical image. Star said it's co-custody. So, our daughter now.

Alli’s OC Creator!

Vinya Artley 008 (Ha, ha I am not feeling good. Gunsli's responsibility I made this girl Vinya and I both didn't like that. Star: Baby girl. Baby.)

Alli’s OC Creator!

Nayo Ellis 010 (This little problem child is Star's responsibility. She's always getting into something and pretty untrusting. Star here~ Gremlin childe. Yet somehow not as feral as she could be.)

Alli’s OC Creator!

Daniel Livingston 001 (Gunsli's responsibility sadly I made this guy.)

[BAYDEWS' avatar maker!!] V2

Zareth Johnson 003 (Star's responsibility Star here this is my perfectest boy, he never falls over himself and he's trying So hard to be good.)

[BAYDEWS' avatar maker!!] V2

Nell Newell 005 (Gunsli's responsibility. I made this little guy he's pretty great.)

[BAYDEWS' avatar maker!!] V2

Geraud Princeton 007 (Star's responsibility- Star here! I made this guy who is So So Normal and Well Adjusted.)

[BAYDEWS' avatar maker!!] V2

Milko Vereze 009 (Gunsli's responsibility I came up with this guy he's a bit of a pushover isn't he?)

[BAYDEWS' avatar maker!!] V2

[tonibeltran]

x. status -> closed for @momentspassd (nell) x. location -> tres amigos

More curious about the name than anything else, Antonio finds himself inside Tres Amigos as he realizes it is, in fact, past his dinnertime. He’s usually too far gone to feel anything like hunger by this hour — the alcohol more prevalent than the weed — but once in a while it’ll win out, like the underdog of human necessities. The place is filled to the brim with what he assumes most people think is authentic to Mexico. Truth be told, it’s not all that far off, and he supposes every place needs a gimmick, if it’s going to be competing with the myriad of both fancy and unimpressive bars and restaurants that have opened up here in Toni’s absence. He’s hardly one to judge anyone’s choice of steady income.

The hostess tells him he’s allowed to sit at the bar, which is fantastic news, as it happens to be his preferred terrain. Once he’s slid into one of the stools, he’s handed a menu and the bartender asks for his drink of choice. He mutters something about whatever tequila they have in stock, however bad of an idea that is, then eyes the menu in front of him like it’s filled with nothing but foreign symbols and pixelated images. Logically, he knows that’s untrue — it’s probably perfectly legible to anyone who hasn’t already drunk their weight in booze. Every other part of him is working in fine and perfect order, so used to his intoxicated state it’s become more of the default than his actual default; he just hasn’t taught himself to be able to read while drunk quite yet. He’s getting there.

He glances up, looking for the bartender, but what he finds instead is a much more welcome sight than the man who’d greeted him before. The tall brunette is differently dressed than the rest of the workers, but appears comfortable behind the bar. She seems to be looking for something, or maybe taking stock of something, or maybe something far less interesting or far more tedious — either way, there’s something radiant about her that immediately catches Antonio’s attention and renders him a little less hungry and a little more curious. When she turns to face him from where she’d been focusing before, her green eyes meet his gaze, and he’s immediately all southern charm and subtle smirk.

Leaning in slightly from where he sits on the bar, he tilts his head curiously at her. “Mind helping me pick what I should get?” he asks, turning the menu over to face her. “I’m afraid I’m having a hard time deciding. And you look like you know what you’re talking about,” he adds, the curve of his smile lifting the slightest bit more. “No offense to the white guy, but I wouldn’t trust him to know the difference between enchiladas and empanadas if my life depended on it,” he quips.

[onebigerror]

@untilthcyrot liked this lyric starter call // still accepting

track 5 // "so long london"

"i stopped CPR, after all, it's no use..."

[tormxntum]

@nell-adler / / For Nell! - The bathhouse

In the candlelit room of the bathhouse, Cailean stood facing a mirror, surrounded by nearly burned-out candles. A flinch shook their entire being when their eyes met their reflection. Instead of seeing the youth they had once known, they saw someone who had seemingly aged years in the last couple of days. Their weary eyes had dark bags underneath them, indicating the sleepless nights behind them, and the creases lining their otherwise youthful face had deepened. With a sigh, Cailean painted the line of their eyes with Kohl, causing the blue of their eyes to be even more pronounced, but seeing another reflection appear in the mirror behind them sent a jolt down their spine, making them to drop the stick, which drew a long black line down their cheek. “Oh shite,” they muttered when they looked at the failed masterpiece before turning to see Nell. “Lass, I thought you had come to murder me.” They told her as they reached for their shirt, which they had discarded on a chair near the mirror. “So, what do you think of this new fashion I’m trying?” They gestured towards the dark line running down their cheek. “Do you think it will catch on back at home?”

[allkncwing]

( @traegics | darius. )

"Now that's interesting," she murmured to herself, before popping up out of her seat and making a quick scurry to Darius's door. With a tap of her nails on the doorframe, she let herself in.

"Found something weirder than the monkey purchase," Nell announced, before pausing, "actually nothing's weirder than the monkey purchase...but maybe more relevant. Radio silence." Plopping down in a seat across him, she continued, "this is where the action is, right? And if the gala went according to plan like they expected it to, why no talky to the higher higher ups?" Thinking aloud in a stream of consciousness, she had to admit, "I mean, no doubt some of their communication equipment got caught in the fire, so not ruling out that I haven't found a new source...yet. But I'd bet your well-used gym membership this didn't go how they planned, and somebody is working their ass off to spin this to the Powers that Be. So, if that's the case, what if the spin is ours?"

[tefibetancourt]

tefi nodded vigorously. it was important to take care of their bodies and properly fuel themselves before a promised night of debauchery! she giggled girlishly when nell knocked her half of the cupcake against her own, not minding the crumbs floated downwards onto the table top. “¡salud!” tefi punctuated the cheers by sinking her teeth into the purple frosting and chocolate cake. she swallowed, wishing she already had a drink to wash it down, then shrugged half-heartedly. “well, at least we look fucking hot for our age.” presently, tefi looked anything but, with frosting on her chin and wetness underneath her eyes, but it was true in any other situation. if there was anything tangible that tefi could hold onto, it was her appearance. a man could leave her, but she’d just find another, all by sitting pretty at some bar or by surfing tinder. at least she had that.

and nell, too. she had nell. a fact that brought her great relief on a day that seemed painted in pain that she hadn’t experienced before. she knew what it was like to be abandoned—thanks to the infernal matthew foster—and she knew what it was like to be valued only for her body—pretty much every other boyfriend she had in her life. she even knew what it was like to be kicked out of her fiancé’s home while over a thousand miles away. tefi, until recently, hadn’t realized how lonely she felt. her parents didn’t care, nor did her siblings, and the man that married her abandoned her. the man she wanted to marry tossed her aside, donating all her vintage clothes—worth thousands of dollars—to the goddamn goodwill where no one would truly appreciate her collection. 

every birthday she had was spent around people, family for the first twelve, then friends for the next twenty, but not with her people. she could invite twenty other hot girls to join her birthday party on a yacht that ralph rented, but that didn’t make them her friends. they were just girls that she knew. that was how nell started, just being another hot woman that she knew. quickly, it appeared that she was turning into a true friend. tefi didn’t have many of those. friends at all, really. certainly not in blue harbor, but how many of her friends back in los angeles even missed her? or noticed she was gone at all? as long as she had nell, she’d be okay. at least for the night.

at the mention of her tears, tefi used her unoccupied hand to dab underneath her eyes gingerly. she was sure her makeup was already fucked up beyond repair, but perhaps it could be salvageable. tefi had no qualms about crying publicly, but the aftermath of a snotty, red nose and streaky foundation on her cheeks was unacceptable! “how ‘bout we pretend this never happened?” she replied, chuckling lowly. “unless you want to start crying and look just as insane as i do.” it was a joke, but also… kind of not. tefi had compared herself to every woman she ever came across, it was an impulse that she never tried to resist. though, she was sure that nell could never not look absolutely beautiful. she probably woke up looking like an angel. what a bitch.

tefi nodded vigorously again. “vogue would be lucky to book us, my love.” she caught on quickly, smiling despite the previous sobs. “blue harbor won’t survive us!” now that, tefi thought, was guaranteed. they’d run the streets of los angeles together, so there was no way a town like blue harbor wouldn’t easily crumble underneath their heels. she had been so sad before, but now a bubble of excitement was growing within her stomach and tefi was starting to feel some hope. like maybe her life wasn’t completely awful.

she smiled genuinely at her friend. their relationship was still new, but there was a core of sisterhood that tefi often felt with other women that she liked. the problem was that it never really lasted—either some petty jealousies got between them, or they simply lost interest in her. she was vapid. she was shallow. she was capricious. she was all the things foster had ever called her and more. she was all those things, and yet the one thing she wanted most in the world was to be understood. to see her reflection in another’s eyes and know they got her. it was starting to seem like maybe, just maybe, nell might be that person. “you’re right. you’re so right!” tefi put down her half-eaten half of her cupcake and stood up from the chair. “fuck this sorry for myself bullshit. it’s my birthday!” suddenly, tefi turned to face the street and placed her hand against her mouth, “you hear that, blue harbor! it’s my motherfucking birthday!”

giggling, she dropped her hand down and looked back at nell, “now, please, take me back to your place and fix this mess.” tefi gestured along her whole body, stopping up at her streaky face.

"I suppose I should put something in my stomach," the brunette's lip curled unfavorably, "if I'm gonna go drown my veins with alcohol." In doing her best not to get too handsy with the cupcake Nell split the thing and handed over half to the waitress. "To—" the chef began, bumping the torn mess with Tefi's piece as she began a toast, "life savagely making us thirty-two." Before she took a bite Nell visibly shuddered. That teenage dreamer whose only goal had been to get out of Blue Harbor never fathomed that this day would come.

The woman truly was Forever Young come to life.

It was easy to feel old in her early thirties. Since she had been a preteen she'd been living an adult life. A job too young, a household to take care of and support before she genuinely knew what it meant, and a dependent when that was what she should have been. Nell had been working and grinding for decades by now. Which gave way to how she partied and let loose when those rare moments were upon her.

Maybe the local couldn't sympathize with Tefi over exact reasons, but she could recognize the loneliness and they could bond on the sheer fact of their desire, no, make that a need, for a bigger life. Individually they'd both known they were built for something bigger and brighter, and to find themselves stuck where they hadn't been destined was heartbreaking and isolating all on its own. When they'd first met maybe something in Nell had recognized that familiar thing in her friend, something that over time had begun to develop deeper ties.

A friendship that had growing roots.

As the chef tugged Tefi along she nibbled another bite of the birthday dessert in hand. She'd never really had much of a sweet tooth but the bittersweetness of the moment damn near compelled her to nose dive right into the sugary comfort. So many of her emotions had dried up and become a desert, a self preservation thing ( because how would she still be standing if she let herself feel each and every one of her losses? ), so her friend's tears were difficult to manage. "So, how do we dry up those eyes?" It was attempted humor, evident by the smirk on her lips and the playful tone she spoke in. To further assure she was only lightly teasing Tefi, the local gently nudged her elbow into the figure made for Hollywood at her side.

"Should we go get dressed the fuck up to the nines and slaughter this town? So damn hot we have Vogue putting us on speed dial?"

Fake it til you make it, right?

Plus, Nell had never forgotten what her mother had responded with when she'd once asked why she always did up her hair and makeup before leaving the house. Always dressed nice as well. 'Because, baby, you never know who you're gonna run into.'

You hear a few stories of a model or actress getting spotted at a mall or hailing a cab and think it's possible for you too.

"Darling babe," emerald hues latched onto Tefi's sad gaze, "that's my specialty." Unfortunately there was no easier way to forget who the fuck you were and what your lot in life was than that. "But I think we need to do it up bigger than that. It's your birthday and I feel like this entire sleepy little town needs to know that. So let's ring in thirty-two years of terror with a bang."

No more of this feeling sorry for herself garbage. Tonight Tefi was going to remember who the fuck she was.

[lovehurried]

@willowdied said:    “He looks like he will keep you safe” not here  • not accepting.

Tears prick her eyes as she hugs her twin tight, pressing her cheek against the rough fabric of his jacket. "Yeah. Yeah. I mean, that's what everyone wants, right? And I've not... Had that."

[friendsdontlieokay]

The latest leak has left me (and I'm pretty sure everyone else too) in a fat load of confusion, like why on earth would Vecna be talking to Holly in his human form especially being dressed like the 70's?

So I was making up this new theory that probably it's not Holly, maybe it's Karen and it's a flashback? But then I remembered that it's not possible cause Henry and Karen are the same age and I'm confused again like bruhh, what are y'all's theories?

[archivalofsins]

03/05/2024 9:32 PM

Zareth: … Mm, ah excus- Daniel: Ah, sorry not right now- Zareth: Pardon. Nayo: No. Zareth: Uh- Ah, no. He’s clearly younger than me it’d be inappropriate to ask him what’s going on. Nell: It’s also inappropriate to say you’re not asking me just because I’m younger. What if I did know what’s going on? Zareth: Do you? Nell: No. And now you know that. Because you asked. Now just do that with everyone else here. Though it’s ill advised to expect honesty from strangers. Zareth: Wait then do you really not know? Hey, wait don’t leave me here by myself!

Previous Timeline Interactions

[allkncwing]

His thoughts were so loud, like an open book despite the way his body language would try to insist he was closed off. The images caused her own heart to ache, even as she wondered if she should push them out or if he wanted someone to see them as though desperate for someone to understand.

For all she'd witnessed in the minds of others, some true horrors, she was all the more determined to hold onto hope. As strange as that may seem. Her fingers gripped tighter as she shook her head, "and werewolves don't exist, dragons are extinct, and magic is just an illusion. Can't? There are no can'ts. Just because it seems impossible doesn't mean it is."

Her smile was warm as she shrugged, offering simply, "I know everything. Told you nothing's impossible." Now the next question was the hard one, what did any of them do now? "Not to sound like a Disney movie, but you do the next right thing. Every choice we make, no matter the ones already made in our past, we get to choose the right thing. We never lose our ability to choose right, and that gives me hope. But do you have somewhere to go? That's not OEA-owned? Because I have an extra bedroom. I think a warm shower and a good meal would do wonders for you."

No matter how desperately he fought to suppress the thoughts, the events of the gala continued to replay in his mind. All he could see was the fear in Jordyn’s eyes, hear the waver in her voice as she begged for their father to spare her. As she accepted her own brother's heinous role in the OEA ‘I know what you have to do – I won't blame you. I'll forgive you." The look on Aliyah’s face as she registered the betrayal, the wild expression in Briggs’ eye as he realised it had all been for nothing. The continuous reminder made his skin crawl and his bones ache.

Asher had never believed it when someone said that they felt a physical weight lift from their shoulders. He disagreed that any words, or sentiment could have that effect – or at least, he had until Nell offered him her belief. His eyes were slow to close, a crease forming against his brow as his fingers tightened around hers.

“I can’t defeat him – it doesn’t matter what I do, I can’t –” Asher’s jaw tightened, his head shaking as his eyes eventually reopened, bloodshot and tearstained as he found Nell’s gaze “how do you –” narrowing his gaze, he wasn’t sure he wanted to know how Nell knew his name. “I don't know where to go from here, I don't know what i'm supposed to do."

[will80sbyers]

STRANGER THINGS 5 PRODUCTION MASTERPOST

Links to 001 and 002 and 004

Part 003:

April 10 / 2024

They were filming at the Hawkins school again

April 11 / 2024

Filming in a new location & again

April 12 / 2024

New pictures around the mansion and of the van ( Joyce is driving it ) and Steve's car with the antenna + the radio station

Hints that the song Boys don't cry by The Cure is being used in s5 ? Or maybe Will is there on set?

New pictures of the mansion

New post from Ross Duffer - they are completing the writing of the last episode

April 13 / 2024

Shawn Levy will direct one of the last episodes but not the finale

New picture of Will on the roof of one of the buildings at the radio station, during the night - he seems to have the same shirt he had when he was at the mansion

My speculation about this scene

New pictures from the radio station

April 14 / 2024

New pictures from almost inside the mansion, the extra/standins are involved

Linda Hamilton's character will be in the first episode of season 5

April 15 / 2024

New video of the mansion during filming and pictures, it seems there's an action scene, ( maybe Joyce brings down the pole with her car while she speeds ??? )

I slowed down the video and I think those are Jonathan and Nancy's doubles

More screenshots of Joyce and Jonathan's doubles & maybe Nancy's

Ted Wheeler's actor talks about Ted in s5

April 17 / 2024

The St official Instagram channel posts pictures from the set, a picture of Mike that seems to have the frame broken, with two records under it of The swiss family Robinson and Treasure Island + some VHS movies in Mike's basement, a picture of all the bikes they are using, a picturw of Hawkins map and a walkie talkie + someone of the crew inside the Radio station bunker

April 18 / 2024

One of the writers talks about Season 5 in a podcast

April 19 / 2024

New pictures from the Hawkins memorial hospital

The picture of the person that's injured on their leg was taken inside the hospital

April 20 / 2024

Pictures from inside Hawkins lab after the crew left and removed the vines

Pictures of downtown Hawkins

April 22 / 2024

Video from a youtuber that went to look in various locations of filming

Pictures from that video

The production is painting the Creel house so maybe we'll have flashbacks there again

There's rumours that Holly has been recasted with the actress Nell Fisher, Holly will have a more active role and has even a stunt actor

April was probably the audition for Holly with a fake name

My interpretation of the possible timeline from what we have now from all the leaks

April 23 / 2024

The Instagram channel posts a video of the crew transporting vines of the upside down

They are filming at Hawkins school but they will go back to the radio station

April 25 / 2024

The possible Episode titles of season 5!! (Not 100% confirmed because they have fake names sometimes) Ep. 2 is possibly called The vanishing of _____ Wheeler, I think that if this is a real name for the episode then it's Holly because she's been recasted and has a action scenes

They were filming at the radio station for night shoots with action

April 26/ 2024

They were filming at the radio station

Pictures from the set: 1 / 2

The Instagram Channel posts a video of the make up crew having fun and in the background it looks like they have wigs that may be for flashbacks to 1986 at rink o mania

A video of a recording of the night shoots (probably from the 25th of April ) with someone (they say it was Will - but it could also sound like Jonathan or Dustin) screaming at someone else ( they say Steve, but it could be Mike ) to Run!!!! - seems like they are being attacked

Another video

Speculation + a new monster being spotted ?

April 28 / 2024

Maya(Robin) talks about Robin in season 5, she will have a mentor relationship with one of the younger kids etc

Video of Maya saying he'll have interactions with new people in s5 and mentoring one of the kids (Will)

April 29 / 2024

The ST channel on iG posts a video of Max on set, dressed in her hospital gown

Tate100t posts pictures from the Hawkins high ST location

April 30 / 2024

We get 100% confirmation that part of season 5 will be set in 1997 from this prop fount on set from people that broke in the hospital set

Pictures from inside the hospital set

Video from inside the hospital set

Second video from the hospital set

Screenshots from the video

May 2 / 2024

They are preparing the Creel house set and there's a big mirror in it

May 4 / 2024

Pictures from the farm set

BIG (POSSIBLE) SPOILER FOR THE PLOT OF SEASON 5 READ AT YOUR OWN RISK - A character gets hurt - the spoiler MAY be fake but idk

May 8 / 2024

TateBrookins7 on twitter posts pictures and a video of (possibly) Joyce on the farm set

Tate posts pictures from inside the Hawkins high school set

Other pictures from the set, maybe a new house for the Byers?

May 11 / 2024

Filming at the Hawkins downtown set

May 12 / 2024

ST channel on ig post a picture of Joyce's set chair lmao

Random pics of the blue wsqk van and the creel house plus UD pictures (?)

New pics from the Hawkins high school always from Tate

May 13 / 2023

People that broke in the school set found a backpack that had a patch from 1988

Video of it

Tate's video of the school

What I found interesting from the video

Video of Joyce(?) walking and maybe Will (?) on the farm set

Steve was inside the radio station set in the first episode

May 14 / 2024

Various news from production, maybe they are making a documentary about st5

May 15 / 2024

Casting is looking for people experts in hematology to play nurses, may be connected to a blood infection that may be spreading from the UD

Extras filming at the school + military

May 17 / 2024

Ross posts a FIRST LOOK AT JONATHAN BYERS, plus Nancy and Steve + Robin at the farm set + that random new character called Derek that's supposedly a 10yo child with the colorful sweater, the shoe picture it's him, but the person in the background is a double for the real actor - transformers stuff, GIjoe stuff, WSQK van, pictures from ep. 4 when Nancy and Steve and Dustin etc end up in the UD somehow

UpsideDownPictures on ig posts pics of the writers in a place that looks like it could be part of the Tunnels from s2 or new tunnels

May 20 / 2024

Tate posts new pics from the Hospital set

May 21 / 2024

ST channel on ig posts this and I think at this point a Will & Robin interaction is confirmed

Maya leaks part of the script and some people online have posted their ''deciphering'' of it:

version one

version two

in any case, Mike and Robin interaction is confirmed, tunnels are involved!

May 22 / 2024

Hawkinsfamilyphoto leak video of the set, a battle is going on

May 23 / 2024

New set of a church is being used for something + they are making the Creel playground again probably for either flashbacks or visions

The UD is taking over Hawkins maybe?

Next aka part 004

Go back to Part 001 / 002

[henrysglock]

haven’t seen u talk abt it in a while but do u still not think nell is holly / who do u think she is?

My opinion is unchanged. If it had changed, I would have said so, don't worry.

I don't think Nell's Holly.

If she is Holly, though, then there's something fucked up going on re: ages. (It's is entirely possible that she's Holly with a fucked up age change re: timelines or time loops etc., especially if that Mike-Will-Jonathan flashback is legit, because their ages are fucked up too—but that would require people admitting that there's something fucked up about a) casting a 12-13 year old to play a 7-ish year old and b) giving a 7-ish year old the hobbies of a 12-13 year old (like playing violin). But people aren't doing that. So. Non-starter.)

If she's not Holly, then I think she could be Jane (especially considering what Henward/001 was saying about the dead kids still being "with him" vs Nell appearing alongside Jamie in a pristine Creel house). She could also possibly be sister Virginia, whose age is never listed, especially if she's appearing alongside Jamie (see: Henry's red mindscape still having Alice in it/him remembering her solely as the age she died at).

[guerrerense]

RABDe 500 001 SBB CFF FFS, Moutier (CH) por Brenno Arcara Por Flickr: La linea IC51, servita da tre composizioni ICN a cadenza oraria, effettua la tratta Basel SBB - Delémont - Bienne. Sul suo tragitto percorre le suggestive valle di Laufen e gole della Birs, prima di introdursi nel Grenchenbergtunnel che la porta rapidamente a destinazione. L’ICN “Jean Piaget” è ripreso nelle gole della Birs, poco prima dell’arrivo a Moutier. Die Linie IC51 bedient stündlich mit drei ICN-Garnituren die Strecke Basel SBB - Delsberg - Biel. Auf dem Weg werden die stimmungsvollen Laufental und Gorges de la Birse durchgefahren, bevor es im Grenchenbergtunnel geht - kurz danach ist dann schon Endstation. Der ICN “Jean Piaget” wurde kurz vor der Ankunft in Moutier in der Birsschlucht aufgenommen.

[allkncwing]

Her head shook gently, she assured, "no apologies necessary." She didn't believe in people having to be tough just for the sake of toughness. "I still meant what I said, no one should tell you you're not allowed to feel pain." She let him speak to distract him as she plucked the tiny shards of glass out of his palm, "your mom sounds lovely. There's nothing quite like a mother's touch, in my opinion."

A smile crept on her lips as he mentioned how angry he got around the moon, as it sounded so familiar, offering softly, "I know someone like that. Greatest man I've ever known but has his moments of a toddler needing a nap around this time. So no, afraid that doesn't sound insane to me."

Bejo watched the person intently. He wasn't sure if he was being pettied or if someone that actually cared. The last person who stopped him to patch him up kindly was his mother. There was a look of sadness.

"I'm sorry." He said looking away. There was a hesitation before he decided to talk. "In the military if you get injured you suck it up. Their words kinda still hold weight." He said honestly. "My ibu-" His throat failing him. "My mother was the only one to care of myself but I fucked up." He admitted. "But now I get so pissed off the week of the full moon." There was a sad laugh spreading his chest, he winced feeling something. "I sound fucking insane don't I?"

[undertheelectricstarspodcast]

More than one threat looms over Cair Mallplex: the raging dust storm and the huge shadow of Elizabeth Haven snuff out the last of the wan light. And there’s no escaping the specters of the past that have arrived. Featuring a one-off nickname, a mystery solved, and a question of what it means to be human.