#* suicide

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[bituin-describes]

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what the hell man

[crippled-peeper]

being trans in 2024 sucks I miss being trans in 2014 (flashback to Leelah Alcorn’s suicide being the #1 thing all over tumblr) (I also wanted to die all the time) (I was also in high school) (everything felt just as uncertain for some reason) nevermind actually

[aita-blorbos]

AITA for accidentally faking my suicide?

I (25M), decided to run away to Germany for a year‚ but I forgot to tell anyone I knew that I was going to Germany‚ instead choosing to leave behind only a note saying that I 'choose death', I came back to the US‚ and‚ apparently‚ everyone thought I had died‚ so‚ AITA?

[housederiva]

@winter2468 please leave me alone

[monstyra]

since april 2023 a dear loved one has been struggling with severe burn out and depression, since may 2023 they started actively making attempts on their own life. despite our efforts, despite the professional care and love and encouragement and the sacrifice and hard won hope and fuck there was so much love it just wasnt enough

we put all of our last year and eight months into helping them and it still wasnt enough

they were wonderful and smart and a vibrant presence in my life and illl forever deeply love them. even if it hurts theyve found the peace they needed.

[swiftysilvers]

i am going to kill *remembers suicide jokes can harm my mental health and relationships* God

[brucefromfamilyguy]

[nyancrimew]

if ur gonna send me transphobic anon hate at least get the suicide rate dogwhistle right, ur right wing besties aren't gonna care about "43%"

[rainywhispersblog]

[sa-dnesss]

nobody talks about the fact that you can have all this crazy shit in your head, and want to open up and talk about your feelings but no matter what, you just can't make out the right words and properly put your thoughts and emotions into words

[ssjandtechno]

Let's also bring in to this how little the mother's welfare is studied POST partum. In my country, the biggest killer of mothers in the first year after the birth of their first child is suicide. Not haemorrhage, not domestic violence, not RTAs, suicide.

A whole bunch of recommendations get brought in for child safety and welfare (don't put them to sleep on their fronts, even though they sleep deeper that way, because it increases the risk of cot death, don't offer them solids until they're 6 months old at least, don't use pacifiers, it's bad for their dental health and speech development...) but all of these practices were done for a reason to start with. That reason was usually to keep the mother sane(r) through the chaos of the early months. The people who are making these recommendations are there for the child's health and welfare. Their job is not principally to keep the mother safe, sane, and alive.

the thing is like. i get that it's scary and makes people who do desire to get pregnant uncomfortable when we talk about the brutality and violence of pregnancy and the damage that pregnancy can do to your body

but you deserve to give informed consent to that process.

the lies around pregnancy - that it's inherently safe, that it doesn't do you permanent damage, that it's only extremely rare for people to die of pregnancy complications, etc like

all of these are lies constructed so that more people will get pregnant w/o knowing all that

there needs to be more talk about the impact of miscarriages and how common they are, how different abortion processes are and how accessible they are

but also like. talking about how pregnancy fucks your body up should not be taboo

this is a process that permanently changes most people's bodies, and that's even if the pregnancy doesn't do them like. severe illness or injury

and i just think everybody should have a right to KNOW that

bc to live in a society that intentionally obscures and hides facts about a completely optional and dangerous process does so for a reason, and that reason is based in a very sinister ideology that does not value bodily autonomy or informed consent

[crippled-peeper]

don’t kill yourselves theres too few freaks in the world as it is

[luckyladylily]

So there is a lot of bad stuff going on right now, and I'm sure there are lots of people feeling hopeless and thinking of suicide. Well, I've been suicidal for 21 years and I have a few practical pieces of advice for surviving that I rarely see in other places but I think have done more to keep me off the ledge than almost anything.

1. Don't feel guilty for wanting to kill yourself. Life can be extremely painful, and you are not weak, a coward, or irrational for considering the obvious way to alleviate that pain. Guilt on top of the rest of your pain will not help, and you are not a bad person. You are going to have to tell yourself this a lot.

2. If you think you might do it, find an excuse to live. This is different from a reason to live in that it is short term and shallow. For years my excuse was that I still had enough money to buy a pizza and I'd be damned if I didn't get my last pizza before I died, and if i still wanted to kill myself after the pizza then I had lost nothing. I swear this kept me alive through some of the hardest years of my life.

3. If you have an online friend you can trust, ask if they would be willing to do check in duty occasionally on your worst nights. It's very simple, on bad days where hurting yourself is a real possibility, ask your friend if they can send you a message at regular intervals, say 15 or 20 minutes, confirming that you are safe. It can be as simple as "check?", with you responding "I'm ok". Being immediately held accountable makes not doing it so much easier. I asked a friend to help me like this about two weeks ago to deal with a really bad self harm day and the difference between trying to do it on your own and simple check ins is astounding. It hurts so much less.

4. You die with nothing left on the table. This is for when it's over and you are going to kill yourself. You have a plan, you are ready, and you want to. At this point you are effectively dead. Which means there are no consequences. You can finally do the thing that you were always too scared to do. Maybe it's quitting your job, or confessing to your crush. For me it was coming out as trans. This is your last ditch effort, so if it blows up in your face and ruins everything it is no loss because your plan will still work tomorrow. You were already dead anyway, who cares if you left behind a bit more chaos.

[typhlonectes]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

I'm proud of you for making it this far.