#* seifer ╯study. ┊ ( they will never remember what they long to forget. )

[cindrelle]

TO WHICH CIRCLE OF HELL DO YOU BELONG ?

LEVEL 5: WRATHFUL & GLOOMY. the river styx runs through this level of hell, and in it are punished the wrathful and the gloomy. the former are forever lashing out at each other in anger, furious and naked, tearing each other piecemeal with their teeth. the latter are gurgling in the black mud, slothful and sullen, withdrawn from the world. their lamentations bubble to the surface as they try to repeat a doleful hymn, though with unbroken words they cannot say it. because you lived a cruel, vindictive and hateful life, you meet your fate in the styx.

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[ends-of-the-wayward-storm]

KH OC Week 2019--Day 7: Happily Ever After

The End of One Chapter, The Beginning of Another

[Yeah so this basically turned into a cliffhanger to something. I mean everyone’s more or less happy, but some things still linger in the back of others’ minds. So I guess this is about beginning to accept the current state of things. And hoo boy there are some characters here that I’ve written for the first time and it was so fun to get into their shoes for a bit. @khoc-week I hope I did them justice. And this is another long one.]

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Erica sighed contently. Another day well spent. And as usual, it concluded with sea salt ice cream at the clock tower.

She could think of quite a few people who would love this town. She imagined they’d get along pretty well with everyone. Lea and Isa were technically the only adults in their group, but sometimes it was usually Isa.

Formerly known as Saïx.

True he had turned a new leaf and was Lea’s old friend, but . . . he had hurt his friends. She’d never forget that.

She’d also never forget everything else that hurt her friends. And took them away from her. . . .

The others chatted away about anything and everything, especially today’s antics. Naminé was content with listening and providing a few comments, and Isa seemed to be in the same boat. Lea of course always had his snarky remarks. But he couldn’t help noticing that look on Erica’s face when she was in her head.

“You all right?” Lea asked.

“Hmm?” Erica looked to him. “Yeah, I’m okay. Just thinking.”

“About what?” Hayner asked.

Erica hesitated. “. . . There are some things I have to check up on.”

“You’re leaving again?” Pence asked.

“I’ll be back soon.”

Lea sighed. “Geez Louise. When are you gonna stay in one place?”

“I do stay in one place. It’s . . . just an old habit of mine.” And I want to keep everyone safe.

“The darkness that threatens the worlds is no longer,” Isa pointed out. “And we’ve finally found Sora.”

“I know. It’s just . . . something I have to do.”

Lea, Roxas, and Xion exchanged concerned looks. They knew her well enough to know that there was something else going on.

“Someone should come with you,” Naminé suggested. “That way . . . you’re not alone.”

“I’ll go with you,” Xion vowed.

“I’m coming, too,” Roxas said.

“Aww! Now you guys are leaving, too?” Hayner complained.

“Don’t worry. I’ll keep an eye on them,” Lea assured coolly.

“Heh. You the responsible one?” Isa jested in his usual tone. “I find that hard to believe.”

“Hey! You should know me by now! I can handle this!”

The group shared a laugh, making Erica feel a little better.

“Thanks, guys,” she said.

“Just promise me that after this trip you’ll relax a bit. Okay?” Lea said.

“What about visiting everyone else?” Olette asked.

“Of course we’ll still visit! They’re our friends.”

Erica mulled over it. She had to admit, she had been doing her trips more often than usual. And she always noticed the concerned looks in her friends’ eyes whenever she’d announce she was going off. She didn’t want to keep worrying them.

But what if there’s something out there that could—

No. Despite her thoughts on Isa, she knew he was right. Everything was fine now. She could relax.

“Okay. I promise,” she finally said.

After everyone had finished their ice cream, Lea, Roxas, Xion, and Erica went to make their preparations. Hayner had been the one to suggest meeting up at Sunset Hill before they were off. And Olette had been the one to remind them about their Gummiphones. Mainly Erica.

“Make sure you remember it this time,” she chided.

“Okay okay, I will!” Erica promised.

And so, Isa waited with the others at Sunset Hill.

He studied the ever-constant sunset with arms crossed, a train rolling by down below. Even now, he was still amazed that they had forgiven him and accepted him as their friend. He had to admit, it was . . . nice. 

Would that he could say the same for one Keyblade wielder in particular.

He was no fool.

He could see it in her eyes.

But he didn’t blame her.

“There’s something on your mind, isn’t there?”

Isa looked down at Naminé.

“Are you worried?”

“No. I can trust they’ll keep each other out of harm’s way.”

He could feel her gaze on him, studying him. “Then . . . what’s wrong?”

“It’s just. . . .” Isa sighed.

Before he could say anything more, footsteps brought their attention to the wielders of the hour.

“Hey guys,” Erica greeted.

“You have everything?” Hayner asked.

“Yeah,” Roxas said.

“Munny?”

“Got it.”

“Phones?” Olette reminded.

“All of ‘em.”

“Those magic bottles?” Pence said. “Sora told us they help him out when he’s fighting.”

“Yeah.”

“Good,” Hayner said. “Wouldn’t want you guys going unprepared.”

Erica summoned Starlight.

“How long will you be gone for?” Pence asked.

“The same time as usual. But it might be quicker now with Lea, Roxas, and Xion with me.”

Naminé stepped forward. “Please be careful.”

“We will,” Lea said. “And don’t go doing anything crazy, all right?”

Hayner snorted. “Can’t make any promises now that Seifer and his gang are back in town.”

“I’ll make sure they stay out of trouble,” Isa said, his eyes falling onto Erica.

She met his gaze, and they held eye contact for a couple moments before she eventually nodded. She then formed a corridor of light.

“Don’t forget to call!” Olette said.

“Send pictures, too!” Pence added.

“Okay!” Xion said, smiling.

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The group’s trip to all the worlds they knew was without a dull moment. Several pictures were taken and sent between the two groups, thus putting their friends’ anxieties somewhat at ease. And as usual, Hayner butted heads with Seifer.

“At it again” was a caption of a picture from Pence of Hayner and Seifer. And then a message had been sent about Isa actually getting Hayner to calm down.

Xion had also asked about Vivi, and Naminé had said that he was doing fine. And that he said hi.

“He’s really sweet,” Xion had said.

“Yup. He’s helped me out with addresses a few times while I was doing mail deliveries,” Erica commented.

Currently Lea, Roxas, Xion, and Erica were out on the bridge leading to Rapunzel’s kingdom after having just finished checking up on everyone. The sun was beginning to set, and Corona was the last world on their list. Now all that was left to do was head home.

After a quick detour.

Lea watched Erica smile as she spoke with someone on her Gummiphone. He hoped that after this trip she would relax now. Nothing was out there. Everything was over.

They weren’t going anywhere anytime soon.

They were going to stay together no matter what.

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“Something’s bothering you.”

Erica looked to Xion.

“And you’ve been really quiet for a while now,” Roxas said.

Erica toyed with a blade of grass. “I’m just . . . worried.”

“About what?” Lea asked.

“Everyone.”

The trio exchanged concerned looks.

“But . . . there’s nothing out there that can hurt us,” Roxas said gently. “Not anymore. Everything’s over now.”

“But we don’t know that. I don’t know that.” Erica set her gaze onto Aurora’s castle. From where they were, it was a perfect view of it. “I . . . I’ve lost a lot of friends. People that I’ve met before don’t even remember me because we never even met in the first place. There’ve been people in my home world that I’ve become friends with that I haven’t seen in a really long time. I don’t even know where they are or if they’re . . . still around.”

Erica swallowed. “Then I met you guys, but . . . then I lost you. I wasn’t even sure if I’d be able to see you again.” A small smile made its way through. “I . . . I met Sora and the others and we all became friends. But . . . th-then we all almost lost each other for good. Everyone’s okay now, but. . . .”

She felt her eyes begin to prickle. “I . . . I’m scared I’ll lose everyone again. I don’t want to . . . to lose you guys again to anything. I . . . I can’t. . . .”

All the trio could do was watch Erica silently struggle to keep herself together. And Lea was reminded of his desperation to bring Roxas back. He had already lost some friends already. He didn’t want to lose Roxas, too.

Roxas wrapped Erica in a hug. “We’ll always be together. I promise. Me, Axel, Xion, Naminé, and everyone will make sure of it. Nothing’s going to keep us apart anymore.”

Erica let out a sob that broke the dam she tried to build. Xion held her from the other side, and all three of them felt Lea wrap his arms around them.

“We’re not going anywhere, you hear me?” Lea said. “We’re sticking together no matter what.”

Erica merely nodded.

And they remained like that for however long she needed them. They were friends, and friends always stuck together no matter what.

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A seagull overhead pulled Lea into the present. He looked over to Xion and Erica laughing while Roxas looked flustered. He hoped he never had to see Erica break down like that again. And of course Roxas and Xion felt the same. It always bugged him to see either of them down in the dumps like that. Isa was up there, too, but he was a different case to deal with.

“All right. We’ll see you soon,” Erica said before hanging up.

“What did he say?” Xion asked.

“He said we could come by whenever we had the chance.”

“Then by all means!” Lea said. “Let’s not keep ‘em waiting.”

Together the group made their way toward the forest.

“It was kinda weird being in Halloween Town,” Roxas said.

“Yeah,” Xion agreed. “I think it was because we didn’t have our coats.”

“Those costumes really took some getting used to,” Lea added.

“It took a while for me to get used to mine, too when I first went there,” Erica commented. “I turn into a ghost.”

“I really liked the world with the talking snowman,” Xion mentioned.

“Still getting used to that one,” Lea remarked.

The others shared a small laugh.

“I wish we could’ve gone to the North Mountain,” Erica said. “I think you guys would’ve really liked Elsa’s ice palace.”

“Well, there’s always next time,” Xion said.

“Oh! What about that world where we were all lions?” Roxas beamed.

Xion giggled. “Axel looked kind of weird.”

“Hey! I did not!” Lea argued.

“You did too,” Roxas teased. “You had the spikiest mane ever.”

“Oh it wasn’t that spiky!”

Laughter burst out at the expense of Lea.

“I can’t believe there are so many different worlds out there,” Xion marveled.

“And you’ve checked every single one you’ve been to,” Roxas added.

“I . . . guess it’s a little overwhelming,” Erica admitted. “But I’ve always done that. Just . . . not with this many worlds.”

“Lucky you had help, right?” Lea quipped.

Erica smiled. “Yeah. I am.”

Soon the group reached the lush green forest, well out of sight from any people.

“Oh! Can I try doing it this time?” Xion chirped.

“Okay,” Erica said. “You remember what I said?”

Xion nodded and summoned her Keyblade. Okay. I can do this. I just have to focus.

Closing her eyes, she pointed her Keyblade out in front of her. It was just like opening the dark corridors, except she was calling upon the light this time.

Erica makes it look so easy.

Furrowing her eyebrows, she concentrated on the light and pictured the corridor in her mind. After a couple moments, a somewhat familiar sound filled the air. A light blossomed from in front of her, and she opened her eyes to see a corridor of light.

“It worked!”

“Nice work, Xion!” Lea said.

Grinning, Xion led the way to their next destination. Light surrounded her for a couple of steps before being replaced by pleasantly warm sunlight.

And she heard metal clashing against metal.

A courtyard of soft purples, yellows, and bits of green stretched out before her. Two people were seen aggressively exchanging blows. And one of those people happened to be Terra.

“M-Master Aced!” Erica said, suddenly going at attention.

“Master?” Roxas repeated. “Is he one of those guys you’ve mentioned before?”

“Yup.”

From the corner of his eye, Terra caught a corridor of light closing. It was then that he noticed Lea, Roxas, Xion, and Erica watching them.

Suddenly his Keyblade was jerked out of his hand. Something slammed into his gut, and within seconds he was on the ground. The tip of a Keyblade hovered close to his face, and his eyes trailed it up to Aced’s face.

“You can’t let anything distract you from your opponent,” he stated. “It might cost you in battle.”

Terra did his best to nod, and Aced dismissed his Keyblade before pulling Terra up.

“But, you did well today.”

“Thank you.”

The duo then turned their attention to the group coming their way.

“Hey, Terra! How’s it goin’?” Lea asked.

“Not very well since I lost that match,” Terra replied with a smirk.

“These are the wielders you’ve mentioned?” Aced asked.

“Yep. This is Lea, Roxas, and Xion. And I think you’ve met Erica before.”

“I have.”

Erica bowed. “It’s nice to see you, Master Aced.”

“There’s no need for such formalities.” He looked to the other three. “It’s a pleasure to meet you all face to face.”

“Nice to meet ya,” Lea replied.

Roxas and Xion nodded. Both of them were quick to compare Aced’s imposing build to Lexaeus. Or Aeleus, as he was now called.

“I guess I should show you guys around since this is your first time here,” Terra said. “Come on.”

Everyone followed Terra to the building overlooking the courtyard. Aside from taking in the new world, Roxas and Xion couldn’t help glancing between Terra and Aced, who had to be at least a good couple inches taller than Terra. But Lex—Aeleus was probably taller than the both of them.

“Erica.”

She looked up at Aced who had now fallen into step with her.

“I’m . . . not sure if you remember but . . . I raised my Keyblade against you once. That was something I never should have done. I . . . hope you can forgive me.”

Erica couldn’t recall that ever happening. But, if he kept apologizing for it every time she came by, then it must’ve happened somewhere. “I forgive you, Master, even though I don’t really remember. But, I’m sure you must’ve had a reason for it.”

Aced merely frowned.

Terra pulled open one of the doors to the building and allowed everyone inside. “Ven should be in the library.”

Erica hesitated before glancing to her friends.

“Go on ahead. We’ll catch up with you later,” Lea encouraged.

Erica nodded before setting off for the library. Her footsteps echoed against the quiet halls, and she wondered where Aqua and the others were.

If she remembered correctly, Aqua, Master Invi, and Master Ira got along very well. If she wasn’t with Terra or Ven, she was often found with Invi or Ira. Sometimes it was both Foretellers. Usually they were talking, but there were a couple times she’s caught them sparring with each other. She would sometimes find herself in awe upon witnessing Invi and Ira fight with Aqua, and it usually reminded Erica of Aqua’s title as Keyblade Master.

I think Master Ava would’ve liked Terra, Ven, and Aqua. And everyone else. . . .

Another pair of footsteps drew her attention to another familiar individual reading a book.

“Master Ira!” Erica said.

He looked up at her. “Ah. Erica. It’s good to see you again.”

She bowed once again. “You, too, Master.”

“There’s no need for that.”

“R-right. Got it.”

Ira glimpsed behind her. “Is it just you?”

“Actually I have some friends with me. Terra’s showing them around right now.”

“How are they?”

“They’re doing okay. Um, how about you?”

“I’m fine, thank you. But I would like to meet these friends of yours should the chance present itself.”

“Okay. I’ll introduce you to them. Um, after I find Ven.”

“Ventus is in the library.”

“I know. Terra told me.”

“Then I will leave you to it.”

Erica bowed briefly before the two parted ways. Ira had long since known she was a skilled wielder with a good heart. Ventus seemed to mention her a lot and would sometimes speak of the handful of times they held the same mission. Hearing about their friendship often made him miss his own friendship with Ava. . . .

Meanwhile with Erica, she had finally found the library. It was cozy yet vast with its mahogany shelves and a fireplace situated near the middle. Standing by a table dotted with books was not only Ventus and his Chirithy, but also. . . .

“Master Gula.”

The group that also included Gula’s Chirithy glanced to her.

“Just Gula is fine,” he replied.

“Right. Sorry,” Erica said. Her Chirithy poofed into view as Erica and Ventus shared a quick hug.

“Is it just you?” Ventus asked.

“Lea, Roxas, and Xion are with me, but Terra and Mas—I mean, Aced are showing them around. We just got back from checking up on the worlds.”

“Again?” Ventus and Gula said, making Erica wince.

“It’s . . . a force of habit. I just want to make sure everyone’s safe.”

“I keep telling her to spread her trips out more but she wouldn’t listen,” Erica’s Chirithy commented, sing-songing near the end. Erica merely smiled sheepishly.

“It’s good to be thorough, especially against any threat from the darkness,” Gula stated. “But you have to know when to pull back. There’s no longer a threat to the worlds. And if there was, we would’ve told you.”

“I know,” Erica sighed. “I already promised Lea and the others that this would be my last trip.”

“Good.”

She briefly skimmed over the table. “So um, how are Master Invi and Aqua? I haven’t seen them around here.”

“They’re doing great!” Ventus replied. “I think they might still be in the kitchen, though. They were really into their conversation the last time I came by.”

“That’s good.”

Gula turned a page in a book. “I think I can speak for the others in saying that we’re grateful for being able to stay here with Ven and his friends. I only wish that Ava were here with us.” His fingers curled over the book. “Nothing’s been the same without her. . . .”

Erica frowned. Her Union leader was still missing, and she had considered Ava a friend despite their handful of meetings. She couldn’t even begin to figure out where to start looking if she wanted to.

“Gula and I are trying to figure out where Master Ava is,” Ventus spoke. “But we haven’t had any luck so far.”

“What about the others?”

“They haven’t found anything, either.”

“And the only one who could possibly know isn’t to be found,” Gula said, his tone belying a hint of bitterness.

“Who’s that?” Erica asked.

“Luxu.”

“Luxu?” Ventus and Erica repeated.

A look of realization flashed across Gula’s face. Uh oh. You weren’t supposed to know that.

“How come you’ve never mentioned him before?” Ventus asked.

“He’s no one important, I can assure you.”

“But if he knows where Master Ava is, then shouldn’t we look for him?” Erica asked.

“There’s no point in looking for someone who doesn’t exist.”

“But—”

“Ven?” a girl’s voice asked.

Everyone looked to Xion standing at the doorway.

“Hey, Xion!” Ventus greeted. Moments later Roxas, Lea, Terra, and Aced appeared in the doorway.

“Nice library,” Lea said.

While the others exchanged greetings, Aced’s eyes fell onto the table of books before shifting to Gula, who merely frowned and shook his head.

The older Foreteller did his best to bite back a sigh. Still we have uncovered nothing.

“Um, Master Aced?” Ventus asked. Gula winced internally.

“Hmm?” Aced glanced down at Ventus.

“Who’s Luxu?”

He couldn’t help casting a heated look at Gula, whose eyes immediately darted away. But Aced’s look was quick to vanish before anyone could catch it.

Swallowing any scolding words, Aced cleared his throat. “Luxu, is a comrade of ours who is no longer with us.”

Both Ventus and Erica’s Chirithies exchanged looks.

“Oh,” Ventus said dejectedly. “I’m . . . sorry for asking about ‘em.”

“It’s fine,” Gula said with little emotion.

Terra and Lea shared a side glance.

“Can I still help look for Ava?” Erica asked.

“Who’s Ava?” Lea questioned.

“A friend of ours,” Gula answered.

“Is she missing?” Roxas asked.

“Yes, she is,” Aced said.

“Can we help?” Xion asked.

Gula and Aced glanced to each other.

“We could use the extra help,” Terra said.

“Yeah,” Ventus agreed. “The more help we have the better chance we have of finding Master Ava.”

Aced found himself regrettably unable to respond.

“She’s your friend, isn’t she?” Roxas asked. “Wouldn’t you want all the help you could get?”

Gula mused over it, knowing full well he was going to receive a few words from Aced later. “I suppose . . . it would make some sort of difference. It’s like Ven said. The more help we have the better chance we have of finding Ava. I would think you’d agree, Aced.”

“I—” Aced made a noise that was a cross between disgruntled and relenting. “. . . I’m . . . sure the others will welcome the help.”

“Ven?” a young woman’s voice called.

Everyone turned to Aqua, Invi, and Ira just entering the library.

“I wasn’t expecting this many people,” Aqua said, mildly surprised. “But . . . it’s good that you’re all here.”

“We have something we need to discuss with all of you,” Invi said.

“So do we,” Aced stated.

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[So I basically have that Luxu is still running around for whatever reason and the Foretellers are kind of sensitive about Ava still being missing. Mainly because of the whole role ordeal and what that lead to. So they're allowing help from Erica and the others without disclosing anything that might lead to the different roles they were given by the Master of Masters and Luxu's existence. But y'know, Gula let Luxu's name slip so that's going to be fun.

This week was soooo much fun and I'm looking forward to next year if there'll be one. I'm hoping by then I'll have at least the first book of Erica's adventures out in some form. But we'll see. ;)]

[cindrelle]

seifer is lowkey one of the worst people to watch a movie with because the entire time he’ll be holding himself back from calling out everything stupid in the movie. this devolves into him muttering to himself and ... honestly, someone just smother him with a pillow at that point.

[cindrelle]

while i posit that seifer was indeed possessed and would never actually commit the horrors that he did under ultimecia’s command ... i will say that the potential was there. she didn’t get the qualities she manipulated him with from nowhere. he’s arrogant, he’s always gotta be doing “ something big ” --- put him in charge of an army and make his dream a reality. twist his dream into that something big. she also latched onto his desire for / perception of a maternal figure, especially in the guise of edea. she took every single flaw he had and extrapolated it. even his good qualities. that confidence quickly turned into hubris. his insecurity was morphed into an incessant desire to please. please the sorceress. please “ matron ”.

seifer is very much defined by his potential --- to be a good / better person, or to become the villain of this story. all ultimecia did was take advantage of that. half her game of possession was suggestion that drew on dormant / suppressed / kept - in - check qualities. he really was just a boy in the end, not a man. a manipulated child trying to act as an adult --- so he was punished as one.

[cindrelle]

𝑩𝒐𝒍𝒅 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒆𝒓.

╳   𝐅𝐋𝐀𝐖

moody | short-tempered | emotionally unstable | whiny | controlling | conceited | possessive | paranoid | lies | impatient | cowardly | bitter | selfish | power-hungry | greedy | lazy | judgmental | forgetful | impulsive | spiteful | stubborn | sadistic | petty | unlucky | absent-minded | abusive | addict | aggressive | childish | callous | clingy | delusional | cocky | competitive | corrupt | cynical | cruel | depressed | deranged | egotistical | envious | insecure | insensitive | lustful | delinquent | guilt complex | reclusive | reckless | nervous | oversensitive | avoidant | restless.

♔   𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐆𝐓𝐇𝐒

honest | trustworthy | thoughtful | caring | brave | patient | selfless | ambitious | tolerant | lucky | intelligent | confident | focused | humble | generous | merciful | observant | wise | clever | charming | cheerful | optimistic | decisive | adaptive | calm | protective | proud | diligent | considerate | compassionate | good sportsmanship | friendly | empathetic | passionate | reliable | resourceful | sensible | sincere | witty | funny.

🖌 𝐒𝐊𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐒 & 𝐇𝐎𝐁𝐁𝐈𝐄𝐒

art | acting | astronomy | animals | archery | sports | beach combing | ballet | bird watching | blacksmithing | boating | calligraphy | camping | candle making | casino gambling | ceramics | racing | chess | music | cooking | crochet | weaving | exercise | swordplay | fishing | gardening | ghost hunting | ice skating | magic | engineering | building | inventing | leather-working | martial arts | meditation | origami | parkour | people watching | swimming | puppetry | pyrotechnics | quilting | reading | collecting | shopping | socializing | storytelling | writing | traveling.

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[cindrelle]

                    𝐡𝐨𝐰  𝐝𝐨  𝐲𝐨𝐮  𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭  𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞  𝐭𝐨  𝐛𝐞  𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝?

                   𝗍𝗈𝗎𝖼𝗁 𝗆𝖾 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗍𝖾𝗇𝖽𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝗋𝗎𝗍𝗁

you crave being known and held. you just want the warmth and pressure of another body against your own. sometimes, late at night when you're alone in your bed, your skin aches with the lack of touch. you've tried touching yourself, and it isn't the same. one time someone gripped your shoulder and squeezed it in passing, and you thought about it for weeks after --- the ghost pressure of their hand lingering. don't you deserve it ? consistent physical love and caring ? i think so, i think you do. but i also have to ask --- do you fear it even as you want ? after all, if you get it then it might also be taken away. i hope that if you fear it, you push through past that fear. that you ask for the touch you desire and deserve. i hope that you get touched with love and kindness, wrapped up in warm arms and rocked from side to side until the tension and pain falls away layer by layer and only you are left.

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[cindrelle]

ACADEMIA ROMANTIC AESTHETICS.

[  𝚃𝙰𝙶𝙶𝙴𝙳.  ]: @nibelheimraised​ <3 ty leo !!!!!!!!!!!

[  𝚃𝙰𝙶𝙶𝙸𝙽𝙶.  ]: y o u --- did it already ? do it again >:c

CLASSIC:    reading your favourite books out loud to each other, blooming red roses, neat notebook full of thoughts and ideas, small unexpected gifts, midday cafe dates, walking under a shared umbrella in the rain, delicate milk chocolate, earl grey and green tea, reading quietly on park benches, plaid patterns

LIGHT:   peppermints during study sessions, early morning cuddles, soft sunlight coming through the windows, inspirational messages on sticky notes, string tied on your finger so you don’t forget something important, ‘i love you’ texts during the day, nature soundtracks playing in the background, fruit teas and water, thin framed glasses

DARK: rainy days spent inside snuggling, handwritten love letters on your doorstep, vinyl records playing classical music, borrowing each other’s cozy sweaters on chilly days, warming up under knitted blankets, cups of black tea/coffee, late night phone calls, philosophical debates, museum dates, binging crime shows on netflix

ART: stolen kisses in public, a rainbow after a storm, love poems on beautiful stationary, art museum dates, dried paint on your hands, sketch books filled with drawings, lost in your thoughts, late night talks, coffee with cream,  pressed flowers, light refracting through a prism, sun showers, motivational quotes on sticky notes, sunflowers and daisies

ROMANTIC:  daydreaming of each other, reading romance novels and poetry, passionate kisses in the dark, breakfast in bed, slow dancing to no music, picnic dates in soft meadows, forehead kisses, lace trim and delicate fabric, reading each others writing, swooning

[cindrelle]

a quick little dissection of the sagicorn. italicized traits are especially prominent. the rest are completely circumstantial. many of these traits change and develop post - game.

strengths: responsible, outgoing, friendly, fair, loyal, humorous, successful

responsible: while seifer certainly doesn’t act so responsibly as a leader during the dollet mission, impatiently leaving behind the rest of the party, he does take a lot of personal responsibility for the more solo duties he has. he puts a lot of stock into his education and success in class. i would argue that he’s also pretty responsible as head disciplinarian, but he’s, perhaps, a bit too strict and self - serving for that to be the case ...

outgoing: he is confident in social situations ... though, admittedly, he puts a kind of negative spin on this by picking apart those around him. still, it can be used for good ... someday ...

friendly: depends. if he likes you, he can be pretty friendly. at least, his definition of it.

fair: he will treat you fairly until you demonstrate any ounce of incompetence. at that point, you’re then slotted into the group of people that should stay out of his way, lest you get hurt or make things difficult for him. he hates hassles.

loyal: if you demonstrate that you are worthy of his time and ... truly see him ... he will die for you. there’s a difference between acting the hero ( and running once the situation gets a bit dicey lmao ... ) and truly --- truly --- acting in another’s best interest & sticking by them.

humorous: i just think he’s funny. but i’m an asshole. his roasting sessions ? hilarious.

successful: his grades speak for themselves. he can go places --- as soon as he stops getting in his own way.

weaknesses: moody, closed, intense, impatient, uncooperative, selfish

moody: his anxiety and insecurities make him terribly moody.

closed: he’s the kind of person that can trick you into thinking you know a lot about him when, in reality, you know nothing at all. few people actually know him for what he really is.

intense: * clears throat * SO YOU WANNA HEAR ABOUT MY ROMANTIC DREAM ?

impatient: he leaves behind the party in dollet. he doesn’t like waiting. he makes shit happen if it doesn’t start happening when he wants it to. he’s impulsive.

uncooperative: he’s taken the seed exam five times by the end of ff8. lack of cooperation and following protocol has been his downfall in these instances. also, he’s considered to be a troublemaker. a real “ troubled ” student.

selfish: he’s self - serving. very few can actually make him ... generous. this changes post - game.

additional

he has the passion of a fire sign and the determination of an earth sign. without anything to sustain it, passion can die out, quite like a flame. with a solid foundation, he’s set with the tools to take on the world. he’s excited about life and all it has in store for him, and he has the stamina to go where he wants to go. this, of course, changes post - game.

he’s a genius. too smart for his own good. but he’s reasonable --- more or less --- and can actually give some pretty good advice when he looks at a situation logically and removes his personal bias. he’s also frank and won’t pull any punches. the world is cruel. why should he be soft in comparison ?

he is good at teaching others --- his problem is that he grows impatient and aggressive, even, when they can’t keep up with him on an intellectual level.

people born at this time of the year are known to have a strong desire to learn all that they can and are fueled by a strong drive and determination. this can lead to them having a lasting, positive influence on others. in seifer’s case, that energy is poorly focused, turning him into a bully. he’s gotta be doing something big, but ... that doesn’t mean it has to be at the expense of others. this is something that he needs to learn.

they can see the big picture and act accordingly. these kinds of people are considered to be strategic and organized. again, this is a quality he possesses. if only he could use it for good instead of for dismantling others ...

when seifer is in a certain head space, he becomes entirely closed off. usually, this is when he’s started to fixate on something and there’s really no way to get him out of it unless he comes to some sort of conclusion. this tends to occur when he’s realized some idea and has decided to look into it, or has decided that he wants to learn something new. he can become incredibly closed off from those that he’s allowed into his life and fail to provide proper support and reassurance. thankfully, these lulls don’t last for long. on the flip side, his general drive and ambitious nature can also get in the way of his relationships. he pushes ahead without any care for those who fall behind much of the time.

this particular quote gets me: “ you are independent and uncompromising, and while that attitude will have you changing the world, you might wind up a little lonely from time to time. ” i don’t think there is an idea that speaks to seifer more than that. it’s lonely at the top, and it’s his fault for creating such an environment for himself with his inability to let people in. just a little bit of vulnerability, and maybe he wouldn’t be seen as as mean as he is. the rest ... ?��that is the fault of a superiority complex for he’s definitely overcompensating for an actual lack of self - esteem.

another quote from this page: “ if you’re born on this cusp of prophecy, you have all the potential you could even imagine, right at your fingertips. ” i will never stop beating this dead horse ... seifer is defined by his potential. he could be a force for good or bad --- unfortunately, he was manipulated into serving evil when he could’ve just as easily have been part of its greatest opposition. 

... “ you can make a genuine difference, as long as you have a plan and know where you’re going. if you can remember to care for others and have a good time on your way to the top, you’ll be the teacher and leader you were born to be. ” need i say more ?

[cindrelle]

seifer gives the best hugs but y’all sleepin’ on him because he’s an asshole

[cindrelle]

below i will be listing and explaining the crimes that seifer is indeed responsible for during the events of final fantasy viii, as well as providing a tiny bit of info on fujin’s involvement. it’s more minor, but it is there. of course, what is and what is not a war crime has varied by nation and over time --- therefore, i will simply be consulting what can and has been considered a war crime rather than what definitively is since we are not given much of a definition of what the world of final fantasy viii is supposed to embody in that regard. it’s also important to note that more often than not, the winning side of the conflict does not traditionally charge its own combatants, unlawful or otherwise. that said, balamb garden can be considered the victor here so seifer’s punishment was decided upon by them ( later, i point out a crime against galbadia; balamb garden takes this into consideration ).

disclaimer: i did my best in researching this and did all i could to process the information, but i’m known for getting the wrong impression at times, so if anyone knows more than me and can debunk any of this ... honestly, just let me know and i’ll see if any of what is wrong can be amended <3 i don’t like putting wrong information out there. also, i may have forgotten some crimes.

SEIFER ALMASY

list of crimes

taking of hostage(s): seifer takes president deling hostage, and it is broadcast publicly. according to the 1998 icc statute, that is considered to be a war crime in an international or non - international armed conflict. given that timber is the site of insurgence and is currently being occupied by galbadia, it has thus been rendered a place of armed conflict. seifer, by taking the president hostage, has also turned himself into an unlawful combatant. he is not a contracted cadet or seed in this situation; hence, he is an individual ( that belongs to an armed group ) that is not rightfully getting himself involved.

i must note that seifer is supposedly detained and executed during the plot of final fantasy viii. this sentence is, of course, never carried out since seifer leaves with edea.

given that galbadia is doling out capital punishment on an unlawful combatant, we can assume that the same may apply for all. mercenaries ( namely, members of private military companies; it has been debated extensively whether or not they are considered mercenaries. for simplicity’s sake, they will be here. ) are considered unlawful combatants, so this erases any and all confusion of whether or not such groups can or will be executed. this is, of course, despite the fact that the punishment is never actually carried out. what is important is that it was ruled to begin with since it sets a precedent: unlawful combatants ( what private military contractors are at times considered ) are not exempt from wartime rules and regulations, regardless of real world examples.

capital punishment does include traditional war crimes and crimes against humanity, which are categorized as class-b and class-c war crimes respectively.

balamb garden is a paramilitary organization, therefore it has no official ties to the country of balamb ( though it operates on their soil ). even if it did, balamb is peaceful and autonomous and can be considered neutral. because of this, i’m considering balamb garden a “ neutral state ” of sorts.

crime of aggression: under ultimecia’s command, seifer leads an attack on balamb garden. though this is something he is doing under her orders, it is still very much considered to be his fault, however, this was taken into account when seifer was ultimately tried and lessened his sentence.

torture: as per orders, seifer tortures squall, who is a currently active private military contractor who does not rigidly fall into that military category and is somewhat regarded as a civilian, which would be a crime should that be testified about and evidence can be provided. technically, squall was acting in a support / defensive role to galbadia garden and, thus, hasn’t really lost that civilian status. i will admit that this is a bit weak due to all the controversy surrounding the topic. we also don’t definitively know how such things work in the universe of final fantasy viii.

FUJIN

occupation of balamb town: the occupation of balamb town can be considered a crime of aggression. the people are not permitted to leave, effectively taken hostage, and are denied food and other necessities ( “ [i]ntentionally using starvation of civilians as a method of warfare by depriving them of objects indispensable to their survival, including wilfully impeding relief supplies ” is a war crime ). any incoming shipments are redirected to galbadian forces. not to mention, balamb is largely autonomous --- the only tie balamb town has to garden is that some family members are held there, i.e. zell’s family, etc. the town isn’t even mobilized for an attack. should any civilians be killed, that would be another war crime. the attack and occupation itself is outside of legitimate military necessity ( weakening the military capacity of the other involved party ). additionally, no quarter will be given unless ellone is found / handed over.

taking hostages: mentioned above.

superior orders: everything fujin did was under the sorceress’ or seifer’s orders, therefore that would be a possible defense. but this does not change the fact that the crime was committed. note that contrary to seifer, fujin has accepted the idea of unquestioningly following orders.

extra

i have not decided on what will happen to fujin, however, it has been decided, as anyone who’s been around knows, that seifer is under arrest at balamb garden and will be in their service for a long time. she may be met with a similar fate, although with way more autonomy.

sources

violating ethics: unlawful combatants, national security and health professionals

practice relating to rule 96. hostage - taking

unlawful combatants

the crime of aggression defined

military necessity

war crime

are pmcs excempt from the geneva conventions

[cindrelle]

seifer keeps growing post game and caps off at 6′5″ or so. he also keeps up with his training ( as much as he’s allowed ) and ends up more muscular than he already was. it’s very important to me that everyone knows that he becomes more of a giant.

[cindrelle]

have i said this yet ? seifer’s tell is his eyes. he can hide his anger and shit like that but his eyes will always give him away. sometimes he really just do be simmering in silence and no one can tell until they look over him and there’s this sudden tension in the room like ,,, how the air gets right before lightning strikes. you can basically smell the ozone.

[cindrelle]

amethyst showed me this really cool quiz that goes in depth on sorting muses into houses if y’all wanna do that

seifer got burned gryffindor primary / slytherin secondary 

[cindrelle]

as seifer attends therapy and reflects on himself and works toward being a better person, he actually starts to believe himself to be less than he once was. he feels like he's losing his edge and he doesn't know who he's supposed to be anymore. anger and confidence were always his crutch. he doesn't know how to be a good person without making himself vulnerable. and that vulnerability just draws out his anger. and he's losing that ability to be angry, it's just making him feel tired and lost and he feels like he has no other purpose than to work for garden for the rest of his life.

[cindrelle]

for those of you who follow me on all my ff blogs ... so i once said that zack fair is a dumb jock who does that dumb jock thing where they wipe their face with the bottom of their shirts ... i would like to announce that that is also part of the seifer almasy, crowe altius, and glenn rodrigue fraldarius brands. thank you and have a nice day.

[cindrelle]

seifer’s dad didn’t die. he abandoned his son when he was young. kids don’t tend to remember much from before the age of 5, however, seifer has one memory of his dad and it is not pretty --- it’s the day that he was left behind. galbadian soldiers were marching on a small town on the outskirts of the duchy of dollet and his father simply left him behind. he managed to stow away on a galbadian ship to escape death. the ship temporarily docked on the centra continent, so he took that chance to run. one thing led to another, and seifer was found by edea and cid kramer. he was four. by all means, he shouldn’t have made it, but he did and that lent much to how he developed. he’s a survivor, he is better.