#* narrative / micah.

[saulweissberg]

monday, august 26th, 2024 at 8:03 am.

* 📞 incoming phone call to Mikey * 📞 incoming phone call to Mikey * 📞 incoming phone call to Mikey * 📞 incoming phone call to Mikey

* 💬 incoming text message to Mikey

SAUL: Micah, where are you? Why is your desk cleaned out? SAUL: And why did you leave chocolates telling Berenice to fuck off?

monday, august 26th, 2024 at 11:30 am.

* 📞 incoming phone call to Mikey * 📞 incoming phone call to Mikey

* 💬 incoming text message to Mikey

SAUL: Micah, why aren't you answering me? SAUL: Where are you???? SAUL: Are you okay? Where are you?

monday, august 26th, 2024 at 5:07 pm.

* 📞 incoming phone call to Mikey * 📞 incoming phone call to Mikey

* 💬 incoming text message to Mikey

SAUL: Zevi Micah Weissberg SAUL: Answer your fucking phone SAUL: I'm serious, Micah. Where the fuck are you? SAUL: Are you seriously not going to answer me? SAUL: What about your finals next week? Are you coming back for them? You're so close to finishing law school, Mikey. You just have a little bit more to go, why wouldn't you stay?

monday, august 26th, 2024 at 11:47 pm.

* 💬 incoming text message to Mikey

SAUL: I'm sorry, Micah. SAUL: I love you, son. Please just call me back. Let me know you're not dead in a ditch somewhere.

tuesday, august 27th, 2024 at 9:23 am.

* 📞 incoming phone call to Mikey

* 💬 incoming text message to Mikey

SAUL: Micah. Are you back in Manhattan? Please let me know. SAUL: Marmalade misses you SAUL: [IMG ATTACHMENT]

tuesday, august 27th, 2024 at 7:58 pm.

* 💬 incoming text message to Mikey

SAUL: Please call me back SAUL: Are you okay? I'm really worried.

wednesday, august 28th, 2024 at 4:31 pm.

* 💬 incoming text message to Mikey

SAUL: Zevi Micah. You're really starting to piss me off. SAUL: Can you at least go see Eliana or Uncle Levi and let them know you're okay? They're worried about you too. Especially Bubbe

friday, august 30th, 2024 at 10:14 pm.

* 💬 incoming text message to Mikey

SAUL: You're welcome back any time. I'll be here when you want to talk. SAUL: I love you. You're my son and I'll always love you. SAUL: Call me some time, okay?

and with that last message, saul finally stopped trying.

@bloodbuzzfm

[lukeskqwalker]

I'm replaying rdr2 rn and usually I leave every micah mission for the last possible moment just so that I can have as much time with him gone as possible. this time I didn't. doing that made me notice that Micah????? Tried??? To get more people to like him?? Arthur included?

Im not saying that in a "aw poor guy" kind of way. It's very obvious that it's slimy. The girls he wants to like him for obvious reasons. Anyone who's not white he Doesn't do this to and is actively antagonistic towards. But Micah tries to get Arthur to like him in the same way he gets Dutch to like him. He tries to talk to Arthur friendly MULTIPLE times, and every time arthur (rightfully) shuts him down. He showers him in compliments and thanks and good job opportunities. He even donates pretty decent money to the camp funds. Not as often as other people, but when he donates it's like 10 dollars as opposed to other peoples 1 dollar. (Funnily enough, I noticed this bc I always donate 10 dollars at a time no matter how much money I have, just so I'm not harassed for not donating in 4 days when the last time I donated 1000.) It's only after arthur shuts him down so often that Micah tries to get rid of him.

But here's the thing. Micah is shitty towards the people arthur loves, and that's a deal breaker for him no matter how much micah tries to butter him up. Charles and lenny are both people that Arthur shows massive respect and appreciation for. They work hard, don't escalate situations in a way that endangers the gang, and they don't consider some lives as fundamentally above others. and micah, who does none of those things, is just a racist asshole towards them. Arthur feels a responsibility towards the girls, and micah harasses them. EVERY time you talk to one of the girls after micah does, arthur asks them to let him know if they want him to do anything about it. (I actually have no idea what he's like towards Tilly, as I've never had an interaction between the two, but I highly doubt it would be good.) He's creepy towards jack, but I'm genuinely not sure if he's like that from the start or only after arthur had turned him down so much. AND: hosea doesn't like him. Hilariously I think that alone would be enough for arthur to hate him as well.

Funnily enough, all this combined makes me think of Dutch more than anyone else. For Arthur, fucking with the people he loves is a deal breaker. For Dutch, it's not. At least, it's not until it's too late for anyone to be saved, Dutch himself included.

[agropuff]

the crane wives making me think about my ocs

What if I died.

[jvzebel-x]

(a love story in five parts:)

"You could do anything to me, and I'd let you. ... Tell me you love me, at least. Please. I need to know somebody does."

"I always think of a passage from the Symposium, this allegory about people who started off as two halves of a whole, but then something cut them apart and they spend their whole lives looking for the other half so they can fit themselves back together. And that's how it feels. It hurts. It's like I lost you before I was born."

"I know why you fuck me like you wish you could kill me. I know everything that gets you off, you can't help but show me. There's no part of you that I can't see."

"Because it wasn't as if they'd never hurt each other before-- between them, it was a kind of tenderness, writing themselves onto each other's bodies with every mark they left. It was a promise: I'm here, I've always been here. Pain was a necessary consequence, but that was all it was."

"All they were-- all they had ever been-- was a pair of sunflowers who each believed the other was the sun."

x. "These Violent Delights", Micah Nemerever

[rhinoyo]

hey cos!! what are your favorite rune factory games in order :0!! im super curious!! have a nice day!!!

helloooo!!! <3 oou thank you so much for the question.. <333

of the ones i’ve completed in full — 4 is my favorite, followed by 3, and then 5! <3

including the ones i’ve just played enough to have an opinion — it’d be 4, 3, oceans, 2, 5 :> <3

[griefbringers]

i swear i'm gonna fix everything. / for Johnny !!!

"I don't think you are," says the dream, very gently. "You didn't break anything to begin with. Not every burden is yours."

There's music in the air; a sweet, summer melody that comes from everywhere and nowhere, or maybe from deep within the chest of the warm-eyed creature at Micah's side. They know, without needing to ask, that this creature's name is Johnny. He feels like an old friend, perhaps; someone they might have known in another life.

Somehow, this place is familiar, but it's hard to tell what it really looks like. It's just warm, and the warmth is everywhere, over and around and inside xem, and they are outdoors and indoors all at once. Long grass, gold in the sunlight; laundry hanging on a line. A sense of peace. Xe could stay here forever, or just for as long as xe wanted.

"There's nothing to fix," the dream tells Micah again, hand on its shoulder. His voice--it is his music in the air. "Least of all you. I think some of the others would like to hear that more often, and I think it would sound better coming from you."

When the Starwake System wakes, the dream they've had fades as fast as any sunrise.

[littlebigplanet]

red dead is filed under games that are fun to play for about ten minutes before i start being tormented by visions

[saulweissberg-archive]

availability / @micahweissberg setting / frederick's farm, april 13th, late evening before closing.

he thought he saw a ghost. well, not a ghost, since his son wasn’t fucking dead (as far as he knew, at least). perhaps a mirage was a better word. a hallucination. all those words made more sense than micah gideon weissberg actually being there, in providence peak. almost two thousand miles away from new york city where, saul believed, his son was living. it had to be an image his mind conjured up. there was absolutely no way micah was there. though they didn’t communicate as often as they should have, saul doubted there was any universe where his son would come to providence peak and not announce his presence. in the very least, shoot off a quick ‘dad, i’m in town, let’s get dinner’ text. was he really such a piece of shit father that micah would travel all this way and not say anything? why would he ever come to providence peak, anyway?

saul caught a glimpse of a man that looked very much like micah, and at first, tried to ignore the urge to follow after him. he just wanted confirmation that he was going crazy. departing from his friends, saul pushed past the crowd exiting the farm and jogged lightly to catch up to the man that looked suspiciously like his son from the back. it couldn’t be… “micah!” saul called out, cupping his hands around his mouth so the sound would travel over the noisy crowd. he kept pushing through until he was just a few feet away. “micah?” he called again, stretching his hand out to grab the man on the shoulder. “mikey! is that you?”

[tefibetancourt]

nobody was kind for no reason. even in her lifelong experience at playing the damsel, no one was truly altruistic. the kind guys that bought her drinks just wanted to get laid. the nice lady that offered her couch to tefi back in the summer of 2015 just wanted someone to clean the apartment and boss around like cinderella. even the do-gooders that brought over dinner for her because she was too poor to eat just wanted to feel like heroes, saving the down-on-her-luck pretty girl from starvation. when micah came with his little gifts, a part of her couldn’t help the suspicion that he just wanted something from her. the other part was happy that anyone was being nice to her. on her lonely birthday, especially. “go ‘head.” tefi nodded, watching as he sat across from her. when he produced the lighter from his pocket, she was momentarily confused about what he was going to light on fire—hopefully not the cupcake frosting—before she caught on. her watery smile beamed beyond the small flame. her heart soared for the first time in a long time. she shut her eyes tight and thought up a wish.

i wish that i get everything that i want.

revenge? yes, but also money. stability. to never have to grow up.

popping her eyes open again, she pushed the cupcake towards micah. “i’ll only have a happy birthday if you eat this with me.” though, tefi thought, every birthday was kind of miserable for her.

her reaction is the best he could've hoped for, relieved that she hadn't found the gesture to be creepy or perhaps a little sad that he must feel like he owes her kindness just because she was nice to him at that party when he didn't know anyone. "you're welcome," he says with a small nod, proud of himself for accomplishing the feat of drying her tears away. she tells him she doesn't have any candles, and why would she, anyway, so he motions towards the empty chair across from her, "d'you mind...?" and when he settles into the seat, fishes the black bic from his jacket pocket and leans across the table, flicking the spark wheel and covering the flame it produces with his other hand. "make a wish." he smiles, supporting his hands with his elbow on the table, waiting for her to blow it out. "nobody should be miserable on their birthday." it's as good an explanation as any, he hopes.

[bookkats]

Transfiguration, Feb 19

February 19Transfiguration:Matthew 16:24-17:8Psalm 41:7-10Suggested Micah 6:8 (again)Psalm 46:10The Kingdom of Heaven is Like God Shading Godself, for humans to perceive Call to WorshipGod calls us, the deep from the deepGod your magnificence is too great for usGod you are changed from glory, into glorySo you come to us, human, and walk with usTeach us again, todayCome let us walk with God Call…

[saulweissberg]

* 📱 → Mikey

friday, october 25th, 2024 at 7:30 am / @micahweissberg

SAUL: Happy Birthday Micah! SAUL: Do you have any plans with your friends tonight? SAUL: I can take you out for dinner tonight if you'd like. Or maybe breakfast tomorrow if you're busy? My treat.

[stevethomasonposts]

How to Live in Light of Coming Destruction in Luke and Micah | Visual Resources for Both Lectionaries This Week

How to Live in Light of Coming Destruction in Luke and Micah | Visual Resources for Both Lectionaries This Week

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[saulweissberg]

the topic of law seemed to be a safe one, at least for brief moments in time. and, well, if there was one thing that saul could talk about all day, it was his chosen profession. saul responded carefully to micah’s proposed specialization. “environmental law? alright.” which was a much more subdued and edited version of what he truly thought about it: you’re not going to make any money, and that shit’s for nerds. not like his beloved family law, which netted him millions every year and satisfied his need to look into the interior lives of strangers. he fell in love with it while interning at his cousin’s law firm, and knew from the jump that there was no other specialization for him.

micah had no interest in working for him beyond a summer internship, that saul had already known. it still smarted him, though, any time he was reminded that his son was only doing this as a means to an end. that stupid elephant in the room that neither brought up. saul knew micah didn’t want to be an attorney, but they both pretended like maybe someday micah would join the many weissbergs that were in the legal profession before him. truly, saul thought this whole comedy thing was just some flight of fancy, a goal that would fizzle out on its own, but no matter where his son’s future ended up, he doubted it would have anything to do with law, and he was increasingly sure his practice wouldn’t have its name changed to weissberg & weissberg in his lifetime. he gave a small nod in response. “offer’s always on the table, though.” saul iterated quietly, though they both knew micah wouldn’t take him up on it. you better never wonder why berenice is getting the firm in my will after i’m dead, saul thought.

saul was slightly surprised by micah’s insistence to get the check, but didn’t make much of a protest. “uh, sure.” the waitress appeared with a flirty smile and produced the check, which micah had grabbed before saul could. it gave him a paternal indignation to see his son pay for their meals, and saul had a personal maxim that no one would pay for anything in his presence because he had more money than g-d, but micah put down some cash before saul could stop him. “you don’t have to pay for me, mikey.” he said, but the waitress already took the money and it was clear that micah was done with him already. he could only have his son in brief, fleeting moments. he hated that, but couldn’t figure out how to fix it, or how to make micah want for him to fix it. “no, that’s okay. i’m not as hungry as i thought, anyway.” he put down his fork and pushed the plate towards the end of the table for the waitress to collect. “have fun on your date.”

END SCENE.

the clanging of the steel fork against saul's plate makes micah's shoulders jerk slightly. then comes the glare. the original, one that micah's must've been patterned after where words fail to be enough. my address may be in illinois, but i'm not local. micah tries not to look too pleased by this, hadn't intended for his comment to elicit this reaction, though counts it a small victory, if anything, that he'd gotten under his father's skin. "okay," he feigns acquiescence with raised eyebrows and a shrug, suppressing a smile by shoving his spoon into his mouth. "whatever you say."

and he's a little disappointed that his father doesn't press further—but i really am not local!—where he would've loved to blatantly dismiss his pleas and insist that he'd fully assimilated into the midwestern culture despite how it couldn't be any further from the truth, but instead, saul shifts his attention to the subject of micah and law. fair play. touché. "dunno," he answers, and would've been happy to leave it at that, but instinct drives him to say more, happier that his father is here to ask questions at all despite not having an answer that he knows his father would like. opts for, "uh... environmental law, maybe?" like he'd been asked to estimate the time he'd left the house or what he had for dinner three days ago.

"i mean, i should hope so, or mom wouldn't have taken up a teaching spot here," he says with a small, amused huff at the mention of bhu, though he knows his mother is much less concerned with the prestige of something that they're getting their name involved in than the man currently sitting across from him. if anything, terry probably just liked the buildings' architecture.

the idea of extending his stay to finish his studies (not the first time it's been put on the table) is brought up, completely on his own terms, as his father makes it abundantly clear— makes sure of it even, like the good lawyer he is. and while it should be an ideal scenario, to be given the freedom to decide for himself, it only serves to piss him off. for most, if not all his life, he'd been given too much freedom. the burden of making choices, even bad ones, especially bad ones, from a young age had not only put him dangerous positions but had also put him in this position: almost thirty with no tangible career prospects on the horizon, relentlessly starting over, lying to his therapist, lying to himself, lying to everybody. never really knowing what he wants, taking off whenever he feels like it, coming on stage for half an hour to feel better and coming home to wallow in self-pity.

and he's so tempted to throw the question back at his father: do you want me to? much like he had before, but he's tired and there's no more cereal left in his bowl and he doesn't really feel like ordering coffee just to sit here longer and pick at the intricacies of his sordid future. there's still time, he might still end up seeing the girl if she's up for it, but if she's anything like him, she might be.

"no, thanks. i'm good."

whether or not it's a good or bad decision doesn't matter— what's important is that it's a decision, as he's expected to make, so that's what he gives his father. doesn't even try to pretend that he'll think about it because he won't, because if he thinks about it any more than he already has, he'll probably stay.

leaning back, he dabs his mouth with a napkin which he crumples up and tosses into the bowl. "should we get the check?" he asks, glancing at his father's still unfinished plate, but he waves at the waitress and mouths for the check, anyway, making a little rectangle with his hand. he pulls out his wallet, deciding at the last minute that he will be the one to pay for their meal. he doesn't mention that he'd recently gotten paid from his last gig in chicago; it hadn't been much, and he definitely wouldn't survive the cost of living in new york, but it can certainly pay for a bowl of cereal and a plate of sausages. he thanks the waitress when she brings the bill over, glances at the total, and starts thumbing at a few bills in his wallet, counting in his head.

"so, i think i'm gonna take a cab from here," he says, already putting down the amount, plus tip, on the leatherette bill holder which the waitress quickly counts. the tip is unimpressive, but that's comedy money for you. "i could still probably make my date. but you finish up, i'll wait."

[verdemoun]

Fun fact, Kieran may have been originally supposed to live longer, at least judging by his many unused voice lines (found on YouTube) and a longer hairstyle which I actually think looks better for him (found on rdr wiki of cut content). Maybe he was supposed to go to Guarma? The voice lines to me suggested going on hunting missions with him but I’m not too sure.

spoilers. obviously

fun fact i have listened to the 2+ hours of Kieran's cut voice lines so many times even my housemates know it and groan when they walk in and i'm listening to it. Did you know one of his cut voice lines for a near miss in a shootout is 'whoo, nearly took my head off!' to foreshadow his eventual demise? And he has several variations of lines telling Arthur to rest with the gentlest tone suggesting he would have been one of the few characters to show concern for Arthur's illness in later chapters? And slightly less relevant but there is a cut interaction in where he asks Jack to sneak him some food only for Arthur to threaten to kill him BUT CALLING HIMSELF UNCLE KIERAN???

screenshots by cad5150

About Guarma, all but confirmed. Here is one of his cut outfits, which I think very obviously suits the vibe of what most of the gang wore in Guarma like compare it to Micah's Guarma outfit in particular. Additionally he has this hood as an outfit accessory: some people think it was intended that when he rides into camp Horsemen Apocalypse there's a moment of the hood being taken off and then the characters having a much more visceral reaction to his eyes being gauged out but personally I think it makes way more sense that he was meant to be in Banking, the Old American Art 'replacing' Sean as an extra gun. Which would have been really cool because I would have loved a conversation where they bring up they're a gun short and it spiral into more reflection on how they're not just a gun short, they're a man down, they lost the 'joy in their lives' Sean Macguire and they were still hurting instead of just NEVER MENTIONING HIM AGAIN other than a few rare character lines.

Side tangent also his scarf is different in his guarma outfit which is it's own essay because if you're going off the blue high honor red low honor theory this so strong implies we could have seen some really cool character development. looking at what the gang were wearing in banking and then in guarma there's no obvious explanation as to where he got it. how cute would it have been if we got a scene where mary-beth gifted him a scarf?? but the also terrifying implication that we might see kieran become less high honour good boy blorbo to someone a bit more morally ambiguous?

I think the question really is how he would have fit in in Guarma, which of course we will never know and considering how much cut content there is about Guarma. Like everyone else in Guarma makes sense: Dutch's descent into immorality being so clear even Arthur questions it, Bill being the one trusted to look after Javier following his rescue, supporting their friendship in rdr1, Micah reaffirming his position as an actual piece of shit in his lines responding to Hosea and Lenny's deaths and complete lack of empathy. Maybe a kieran who is slightly more ruthless and active in shootouts in guarma but also shows compassion for arthur as arthur gets sick? Maybe the attack on Hanging Dog Ranch was meant to be more a revenge for Kieran's death assuming he was taken and killed similarly to his death in chapter 4 (given how much much foreshadowing there is for his death), but just another misery in chapter 6 that hits harder because we have more time to grow attached and see him develop?

Except. Except then we get to cut outfit kieran.

first. hellooooo sailor. but who is this man. who is this man who looks older. and wears a very, very low honour red scarf. and is obviously dressed still as an outlaw, and didn't go live a happy life with mary-beth. is it. is it possible. kieran was not always meant to be doomed by the narrative??

is it possible we would have seen kieran become more loyal to dutch and micah, true to his army abandoning, gang jumping, choosing to ride with the o'driscolls rather than die, immediately 'loyal' to the vdls despite torture because being alone meant certain death, coward nature? or would he have just been a character john could encounter in the epilogue? perhaps shaken by knowing arthur, as one of his very, very few friends, died trying to be a better person and abandoned any effort to be more than an outlaw?

but. but kieran. shirt all buttoned up. scarf on. thick coat. hair slightly feral and wild. why does it looked like you're all dressed up for the cold, buddy? like- like you might have been hiding out up mount hagen.

[brujahinaskirt]

I love rdr2 for the little things--like how sleeping arrangements over time reflect narrative arcs and interpersonal decay (or bloom).

Just a really quick observation:

The most obvious and important sleeping change, I would argue, involves the Marstons. At the start of the game, John has abandoned and disavowed Abigail & Jack; they sleep on the ground in a flimsy shelter while he, the returning golden boy, sleeps in a bed under a comfortable tent. John's tent arguably affords the most privacy in the game, and this makes sense early on, when he's trying to maintain a distance between himself and everyone around him (especially his family, including Arthur). In Shady Belle, John has welcomed Abigail and Jack into his bedroom, and -- notably -- he sleeps on the floor this time. It's as much a signal of John's growth as a person who is allowing himself to be a little more reachable as it is a sign of his fledgling sense of regret and apology (for abandoning them in the first place), and it is a sign of him warming to the idea of Abigail and Jack as his family. But it doesn't happen all at once; Abigail and John still refuse to sleep beside one another. In the epilogue, as they actively attempt to rebuild their lives together, John and Abigail finally sleep side-by-side as a couple.

I read someone once point out that Uncle transitions from sleeping all over the camp, wherever he happens to pass out, to sleeping directly behind Arthur's tent in Beaver Hollow. This was so cleverly observed. What a powerful sign of the overall degradation of the character of the gang as Uncle (the character most representative of optimism and comfort) begins to fear for his safety and future enough to take physical shelter behind Arthur. What a note of confidence and clarity re: the true person Arthur is beneath the air of danger he has worn like a job title and a suit of armor. (I hunted for that original post to no avail; if it was yours, please let me know so I can link back to it!)

Molly & Dutch and the sliding divide. We start off with a present but muzzled level of friction between these two. Molly sleeps on the only bed in Dutch's lavish tent; Dutch sleeps beside her but... sitting up (haha okay very healthy)... because there's no room for Dutch and Molly. Later, Dutch commandeers the master bedroom at Shady Belle while Molly drunkenly collapses in an isolated place, usually by the kitchen window, blasted with light (see: truth) but far removed from the others, a reflection of her self-isolation and detachment from the gang and anyone who might be able to help her.

Dutch's tent gradually drifts farther away from the center of camp, at its maximum distance in Beaver Hollow. Micah, Cleet, and Joe linger closest to Dutch at this point, noticeably even more so than Javier and Bill.

The slow pull-apart of The Girls. Similar to Molly, after Sean's death, Karen can increasingly be found slumped over drunk in various locations at the periphery, semi-conscious. This is never more apparent than the Beaver Hollow era. Meanwhile, Mary-Beth and Tilly remain sleeping tightly next to one another, not far from Sadie.

God only knows where Micah sleeps.

(Might come back and expand this more later! But that's all she wrote, rushed, for now.)

[amrass]

RDR2 headcanon: Micah Bell kills his brother Amos in 1907

I think the family who Micah and his gang invade the home of and murder is Amos and his family. 

The crime is mentioned twice: in a 1907 newspaper, and by Cleet before John or Sadie kills him. The family includes a husband, a wife and daughters, like Amos' does, revealed through Micah's speeches, a knife game, and the letter from Amos in Shady Belle. (Shady Bells, both of them lol, being shrouded in mystery. I'll try to unveil them a little).

In the letter, Amos rejects Micah and tells him to stay far away or he'll kill him. "I have daughters, as you know". Micah must know his brother's address as this letter is a reply, but how does Micah know about his nieces? Did he visit? Did he stake out Amos' ranch, before he was spotted? (That must've been an intense moment). The letter can be found randomly as if thrown away, so it must've upset him, who is usually secretive. He is also swears he remember threats.

Is 1800s Micah capable of killing his own brother? Idk. But in the 1900s, I think he's unhinged enough to do it, especially if his O'Driscoll-like gang members join in. Amos is a failed Bell and a loose end, and he witnessed a weakness on Micah's part, in the letter.

For Micah hope is weakness, a belief that was softened and then solidified when he was in the Van der Linde Gang. I think he joined unconsciously wanting a family, consciously wanting money (the Blackwater score, Dutch's bounty, the gang funds…). Maybe Dutch let him join as as a pet project, testing his mentoring skills on a man rougher than a street kid (and if Micah can soften or settle down, so can Dutch?). Between chapter 1-4 of RDR Micah gets a sliver of hope and reaches out to Amos. But the reconciliation with the old family, the new family, and the money all go to hell. He likely ratted after Guarma, but I'm unsure if he were going to give the Pinkertons, Dutch. As a young man, Micah chose his father over Amos, like he chooses Dutch over Arthur or any other gang / family members. When Dutch rejects him, he screams in frustration. The money is seemingly not enough. I think he changes after this, going from bad to worse. And at his worst, he's probably capable of spilling his own blood. Maybe he feels like he's killing Amos on his father's behalf, like he killed "traitors" on Dutch's. (Daddy issues deluxe edition).

Micah and Amos can be read as a dark mirror to Arthur and John. Both Amos and John abandon their lawless lifestyle – and their brothers – to become lawful sheep ranchers. But where John lives on thanks to Arthur's involvement, it makes narratively sense to me that Micah's involvement does the opposite, ending his remaining family. In canon, John is also killed in the end, after a few years of lawful living. Amos might've been equally unable to escape. Especially with a brother like Micah.

Sorry if I got any details wrong. Special thanks to @zanazirafanfic and @the--end-is--nigh , who chatted about this with me months ago, offering their insights. I've been seeing a lot of cool Micah Bell and RDR theories lately, so I'd thought I'd share one of mine.