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SAID HE LIKES CRAZY GIRLS,
BUT HE HATES WHEN I ACT CRAZY,
IT TAKES TWO TO TOXIC!
FINALLY!!! Finished these pics of jinx I’ve been working on!!!!! HOLY SHIT, these took so long…. But finally… they’re done… pls enjoy this art of my beautiful princess w a disorder. Featuring alternate colors for the big pic and also a closeup! Cuz I rlly like how both the lines and coloring on her face turned out… like the pink gradients w her eye… her deer in headlights expression,, like uve just startled a raccoon digging thru ur trashcan and r two seconds away from getting mauled.. m proud of it!
#arcane#league of legends#jinx#jinx arcane#arcane jinx#doodles#hate and love how hardcore I relate to jinx…#little sisters w dependency issues.. + a whole lot of other issues#anyway the ‘he’ in the ‘crazy girl’ lyrics is in my mind referring to both vi and silco lol#I’m sORRY! I keep seeing ppl hardcore pitting these 2 bad bitches against each other#and it’s like… silco is objectively. morally worse than vi.. vi is not like. a ruthless crime lord#vi IS 100% trying her best and loves her sister. but she still screwed up w jinx#and silco ALSO truly loves jinx. but also screwed up by fucking. trauma bonding w her ghgh-#like.. silco is too close. he’s like. yes go apeshit jinx I support and love you and understand u no matter what fucked up shit u do.#were the same. and that’s beautiful!!! I love how supportive he is…#but its like.. silcos too close. he just became a new person for jinx to glomp onto and base her self esteem around after vi left#and he doesn’t manipulate that on purpose but. he DOES effect that girls mental state. cuz he needs her too#meanwhile vi is too far away… she thinks she knows who jinx is. but jinx has changed… time marches forward. she’s not that little girl#anymore#and nOW! after the finale jinx has NOBODY TO BE CODEPENDENT W..#her mental state has always been so tied up in how the ppl she puts on pedestals view her#and now there’s no pedestal anymore. she knocked down the statues. she’s alone…#it’s interesting….#anyway I’m not trying to say vi is as bad as silco at ALL. just that she’s an equally important building block in jinx’s mind#that has made her into the fucked up lil person she is today. and I think that’s neat.#lol anyway! I’m hyped for season 2….#aLSO GOD DAMN THIS GIRLS OUTFIT IS COMPLICATED. WHY DO U GOT SO MANY BITS N BOBS JINX??? I mean I get it accessories rock.#but u take so much time to draw ghfhg- require so much brainpower#aLSO ADDENDUM. while silco is objectively morally worse than vi his relationship w jinx is genuinely. like. makes me emotional ghgh-#its not perfect. or healthy. but… it’s. the both of them. being seen. and accepted. and loved and understood.. and I love that shit.
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"all your ribs are still your own" sounds interesting!
Thank you, dear anon!
Titled after Ribs by The Crane Wives, It is deanlena, and it's my little self-indulgent "Save Jessica Moore" fic!
Jess goes to NOLA to visit her cousin who's friends with Elena. She is attacked by a demon there and rescued by Elena. The demon reveals Sam's connection to the incident, and Elena clarifies a few things about the supernatural world. Elena and Dean kind of have a FWB thing going on, since NOLA is monster-central. Jess makes the decision to stay in NOLA and break up with Sam. After Sam's friend dies of demonic possession, he goes back to hunting. 5 years later they all meet again in the NOLA airport.
excerpt:
Elena stares into the skull's hollow eye sockets and Dean realizes uneasily that she is face-to-skull with an exact copy of her own cranium. A chill runs up his spine as he contemplates the horror of this moment. Beneath the skin, bone, and sinew of the beautiful woman in front of him sits the very same skull she holds in her hands. "What are you going to do with her?" he asks. "She could've been me," she answers. "I don't know where to find her family anymore, but I'm her family, too. So, I'll take her home. I'll bury her with my family."
ask me about my WIPs!
@randomestfandoms
#asks#anonymous#ask games#tag games#all your ribs are still your own#bella writes (allegedly)#some petrova existentialism because I'm Like That#it's Probably not sam/jess endgame but they will interact#elena's job in this verse is basically the translator that prevents Indiana Jones from pissing off all the natives#because I have this headcanon that petrovas are very adept with languages as a sort of survival mechanism#being able to adapt to new environments is important for survival!#so anyway yes I did send Elena to a foreign country so she could find the remains of a long deceased petrova#if you are wondering why her bones were not with her family I will tell you this: this petrova is a very famous mythical figure#who never made it home#(some of you know who it is even)#(there will be a reference to her in addendum)#and elena and she have very similar names/names derived from the same origin with the same meaning
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I'm so pleased with how Ru'thûn's disguise is turning out. She looks great...
#I keep returning to the image to examine it.#I think I'm more hype about her because it is the manifestation of literal years of considering how her false flesh would look.#It has always been in the vague image of an old actress.#Refining that idea has been nice.#As for La'zaar he is a more recent addition in terms of reviving discussion about him.#I think he looks good too. Just a little lacking in detail. I'm less sure of how I'd want him to look.#His hair is driving me insane because I'm not used to drawing so much grey hair.#I can do strands and such but coverage large enough to blend in with normal hair is new to me.#I'll figure it out.#La'zaar is older than Ru'thûn by a negligible amount in Hive standards so physically I imagine both of their disguises are at least 50.#I live with an honourary vampire so if I'm underselling any signs of aging it is because my mother#literally does not look a day over 30.#Everyone thinks I'm either her sister or her roommate.#It's very funny...#Also on the aging point... the references I used for both of them looked good for their age.#I'm staying on this point too long because this website is particular about it I think.#Addendum they are both in need of further detail so I will make up my mind on that as I go.
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Crimes Against Existence
The High Queen Phantom has expressed concerns about the state of law within the Mortal Realms.
Walker, sensing a chance to redeem himself in her eyes, volunteers to go out and report the state of the lands to the Queen. She seems pensive, but agrees. Under strict conditions that Walker must NOT detain nor arrest any mortals that would not have been taken into custody or otherwise punished by mortal authorities in the same situation.
She hands him an addendum to his book the Duke has written up for him to use as reference while he operates in the Mortal Realms.
He reluctantly agrees and makes his way to a mortal settlement with that he can sense has strong criminal influence.
He follows the trail to one of most crime-infested cities on Earth: Gotham. His guards clean out an old office, and he sits himself down into a desk.
He turns on the TV and tunes into a random channel. A man who seems like he'd fit with the Far Frozen is locked in combat with a skilled mortal in some sort of outfit. After a bit of research, Walker learns these are the rogues and vigilantes.
Well, this explained quite a few of the High Queen's problems. Though she doesn't know of them just yet.
Now, how do we rectify that?
#dpxdc#dcxdp#dp x dc prompt#dp x dc#Walker#Ghosts have gender set to optional. The ones that didn't start out as human or anything like that just never had it ingrained.#Walker can absolutely alter how any authorities operate when they interact with him even if slightly.#I mean think about it.#The only reason that hasn't happened was cause he stayed in the Infinite Realms before#Walker's concept is a little hodgepodge.#I'll flesh it out a bit more later#Vlad is the Duke of the Infinite Realms#redeemed vlad#good parents jack and maddie#Why not?#Walker is Maddie's father#Although not explicitly said.#I find it a very fun concept to play around with I mean come on!#Walker hates Arkham Asylum#They can't rehabilitate or keep their inmates for the life of them#And incompetence is just as bad as breaking the rules#I realize that I've just thrown ghosts into Gotham for various reasons lately#And I'm working on it#Danny's the Queen I would trust
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Excerpt from 'The Handler's Guide To Shrimpo':
32.) Shrimpo is not allowed in any kitchen area, especially the Diner kitchen.
Addendum 32-A: For all intents and purposes, please assume any physical altercations between Sprout and Shrimpo were started by Shrimpo.
Addendum 32-B: Sprout has been given a novelty-sized Shrimp Peeler as a deterrent. It appears to be working for now.
Addendum 32-C: Sprout has been equipped with backup Shrimp Peelers in the event that Shrimpo steals / hides / breaks them.
Addendum 32-D: No, the Shrimp Peeler would not actually work. Shrimpo is not aware of this. Do not inform him.
33.) Shrimpo is not allowed access to any remote control whatsoever. We don't know how he linked them to Vee's head but if he changes her face to South Park in the middle of a Game Show event one more time we're gonna get sued by the FCC.
34.) Rules are difficult to enforce with Shrimpo. It is now mandatory to use the Calm-Down Corner as time-out in the event of misbehavior.
Addendum 34-A: See list of items Shrimpo is no longer allowed to have while in Calm-Down Corner.
Addendum 34-B: Any holes knocked into walls of Calm-Down Corner are to be repaired by Shrimpo with oversight from Maintenance Department.
Addendum 34-C: If Calm-Down Corner does not work, staff are allowed to utilize the 'jail cage' prop from S2 Ep15.
Addendum 34-D: Staff are NOT to refer to the 'jail cage' prop as 'Shrimp Prison'. It is unprofessional.
35.) The Social Media department now has a subset of employees monitoring potential Shrimpo activity. Please be advised the Shrimpo can and will steal phones at any available opportunity and is good at guessing passcodes.
Addendum 35-A: Shrimpo has been given a phone with parental controls, and access to a single social-media site on the condition he stops stealing employee and visitor phones. All posts must be approved by current Shrimpo Handler.
Addendum 35-B: Phone has been jailbroken to remove 'emergency mode' so that Shripmo may no longer prank-call 911.
36.) Shrimpo is now allowed to curse backstage on the condition that he stops ruining takes by randomly inserting 'fuck', 'bitch', etc., in places he finds funny. Handlers are allowed to use discretion on how much cursing will be considered too much and are allowed to use Section 34 enforcement methods if Shrimpo gets carried away.
#dandys world#dandy's world#shrimpo#sprout#this is the reason shrimpo has had 27 handlers quit#charli3 blogs#myscribbles#gallery#fandomposts#fandomlit#shitposts
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Things that got me a little frustrated with Onyx Storm in no particular order 💔
Please be nice, this is an addendum to my main Onyx Storm review post, and there is also a post about things I loved 🙏 I'm just a sensitive heart with superior pattern recognition (I'm mentally ill lol) and I struggle when I don't understand things—and I understood nothing.
I find it really hard to just go with the flow, I hate it when I don't understand things, and being confused just didn't make for a good reading experience for me. So here goes:
The magic system being entirely retconned.
“It’s beautiful,” I whisper. I’m marked by their magic as a rider now, as their rider.
It's consistently referred to as "their" magic or "Andarna's magic" or "Tairn's magic" in the first two books, but in this one, the continent has magic and outside it, they're powerless?
Oh, except Vi for...reasons?
The marked ones all having second signets? This felt like fan service or a retcon. Why haven't any of them gone crazy? Because statistically some of them should have (and it would have at least been interesting). And if Liam could wield ice and use farsight, and that wasn't initially an error, why not wield it when Deigh was literally being chewed to death?
Continuous mentions of Xaden hearing actual fucking thoughts for god's sake that just get dropped and never picked up again? Par for the course. Don't even talk to me about it, I'm done.
Sgaeyl not talking to Xaden all book? Does she realise she would have died too, they all would have died if he hadn't done what he did? Mum pls the silent treatment sucks (this might be a personal trauma so we can probably scratch it, actually)
Andarna leaving then coming back almost immediately? I get it, she wanted to meet her shitty family, but this would have had more impact if she'd stayed when they were on the island. It felt like I got teary at her exit for nothing, like it was a ploy. I think I have whiplash.
Violet saying quite literally her most pressing need is information and then deciding no actually it's to know what her baby dragon is dreaming about in her dreamless sleep? Is this a joke? 😭
Violet is suddenly Adrian Ivashkov 💀 And what’s that got to do with who they are at their core? I’m lost! 😭
Also, those not-dreams never being explained? Like we know it's Berwyn calling him, but seriously Xaden, click on pls!
Xaden's mother showing up for...no reason? Really? Nice emotional arc, I enjoyed it, it was one of my favourite sequences, but she wasn't important to the story at all and we just?? Left?????
(I also want to punch her in the face, how dare she)
Finding out Halden's been doing...something??? At the Isles this whole time?? For Reasons, I guess??? I don't know, someone else might need to explain that to me.
(How I felt ^) Oh! And him being a twin? Basic information we could have known before—and I still don't know what happened to Alic, really. Like I want the whole story? 🥺
Violet's hair, the temple, all of that someone's going to have to explain to me like I'm five too because it's not clicking, I'm sorry. Also the temples/priestesses have magic? Their own different type of magic? And they aren't venin either? What makes a venin, a venin? My head is still spinning.
Aetos being back defying all logic (the aide to exile to in charge of everything pipeline really is something) and then he disappears entirely and is irrelevant? 😭 Why bring him back at all? What was the reason?
This is like the continuity that says Degrensi kicked Varrish out for being too torture-y and then they put him in charge of torturing kids, and then Degrensi followed Varrish's orders (even though he's below him in the chain of command and he hates him) last year to keep Xaden away from Violet all the time, but wait, now Degrensi gives no fucks about following orders???? I'm?? I just spent so much time being like wait, what?
Xaden who can literally command shadows for some reason not being able to sneak into Violet's room? And that same Xaden having zero control so they can't have sex, but then suddenly when it was time for another evenly spaced out sex scene, him being totally fine????? Is it ✨a mindset✨ ??
Violet having her memories wiped? For? Reasons???? Seriously for what purpose could the literal wedding ceremony part not have been remembered, please, that’s just mean Rebecca.
Aaric just Not telling anyone about his signet even though it would have meant more people living??? Aaric's name being CAMLAEN?????
I get that that’s a literary device, but on top of everything else I still felt like I was chasing my tail 😩
Professor Riorson teaching everyone for months, incl that signets have perfect counters, like his shadows and Violet's lightning, then sending Violet off to face the lightning/storm wielding gal while he went to face a guy he's literally incapable of killing? HELLO, should you not realise and switch?! Don’t be a dumb dumb (also a literary choice but it annoyed me so it’s here, please never battle the elite four Xaden, you’d fail).
Also oh look there's no rune on Brennan's neck like the one on his hand—sorry WHAT? are we implying that's from Naolin mending him or what? Do you know about it? Fucking say so, you sure as fuck haven't told us Vi???? It really bothers me that Violet apparently knows things and we don't. I feel like that's what third-person-POV is for, if you want to do things like that.
I still don’t know why venin can channel within the wards at all? And the wardstone was so easily altered after all that drama in IF?
Why aren't we reading Lilith's journals? Vi, sweetheart, please, give me some joy here.
Where are the other foster kids??? I still can't see how they're safe and not leverage, especially now it's looking like it will be a full-on secession bid once more.
Tyrrendor mines talladium?!
SURPRISE GRANDMA??? PLEASE!!
As you can see, I have a lot of questions—more than I had at the end of the last book, because none of those were answered, so I just have...this bigger pile of questions.
If you can read along and not think about any of these things and just not be bothered by the not knowing of it all, then I'm jealous of you. I really, really wish I could, but that's just not how my brain works and as someone with a mental illness I get tired of having to defend that to other people, it makes me feel like shit, honestly. I don’t want to think about these things, I just do. Like yeah, I hate my brain too but I have to live with it.
There were plenty of things I liked about this book, but my overall experience was that it felt messy, chaotic, and overwhelming.
Even the end—I still don't understand what happened fully, and I know that's on purpose, but after not understanding anything the whole book and having my questions from the last book go unanswered, I don't exactly appreciate it as a literary technique, I just find it frustrating 😟
In any case, these are just my out-of-pocket, personal opinions typed up late at night with zero filter, please don't come for me (lol), you don't need to agree—in fact, I know people don't, I ran a poll—this is just...how I'm feeling right now. It's a sucky feeling, but it is what it is.
I hope I can do a re-read at some point and enjoy it more, and get a better grasp on things, but for now...🖤
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So, here's the promised post about the Chrysos Heirs' speech patterns in Japanese! Be aware that this is all based on what we've seen throughout 3.0 alone, so we might make new discoveries next patch! Here we go:
Aglaea
Her first person pronoun is 私. Normally, it's read as watashi, but Aglaea uses it as watakushi instead, a more noble and feminine form. Her second pronoun is the polite and standard 貴方 (anata), and she usually uses the gendered 彼/kare (he/him) or 彼女/kanojo (she/her) for third person. That last thing might not sound special, but Japanese has a myriad of ways of addressing people without referring to gender, so it's a sign she goes the extra mile to sound more formal.
Talking more about her speech patterns, she's very polite and formal in a distinctively feminine way. There is a form of Japanese known as 敬語 (keigo), which is pretty much "Polite Japanese" and the form a non-native speaker would learn first because it's what you'd use the most. The interesting thing is that Aglaea always speak in keigo, regardless of who the other person is; she never defers to a more informal speech.
In fact, the only times her speech seems to change is when she adopts an outright reverent tone. I talked a little about this before, but Aglaea addresses the Tribios by 我が師 (waga shi). This word choice by her is particularly interesting for two reasons:
1.) The use of 我が (waga), an ultra reverent way of saying "my/mine". It makes use of the pronoun 我 (ware), which is really archaic and not part of modern conversation except for a few expressions such as 我ながら (if I say so myself).
2.) The use of 師 (shi) for "teacher". Usually you'd see the common 先生 (sensei) around, or maybe even 師匠 (shishou), which carries the extra connotation of "master", but Aglaea uses only the first kanji of 師匠. That makes the whole thing sound beyond reverent.
Aglaea also addresses everyone by name properly, even the ones who usually go by nicknames like Mydei.
Tribios
The three speak the same way, the only difference is each one says things according to their personalities.
Their pronouns would be あたし (atashi), a feminine and more informal form of watashi, but as they refer to themselves in plural, it becomes あたしたち (atashi-tachi). They don't actually refer to other people in second person or third person pronouns that much, preferring to use names (or nicknames) instead. It would sound weird in English, but it's a perfectly normal way of addressing people in Japanese, even more so if you're a kid.
Talking about kids, as you'd expect, the Tribios speak exactly how a very excitable Japanese little girl would. The nicknames are a part of it, but it also doubles to highlight their importance in Okhema (you're allowed to be a little more informal if you "rank higher" than the other person in Japanese). The only time they break away from their pattern is when they're reciting the chants to borrow the power of the Three Titans of Fate. There, they adopt the reverent tone you see with Aglaea.
As an addendum, the suffix ちゃん (-chan) the Tribios attach to nicknames is supposed to be used for people younger/less experienced than you or someone you find cute, especially kids, but it's generally more accepted for girls. With a boy, it's more common to use くん (-kun), but the Tribios use -chan regardless of gender.
In short, the Tribios are kids who treat everyone else like kids.
Phainon
His first person pronoun is the masculine 僕 (boku). It's not very formal but it's still on the polite side, and it's commonly used by young men. His second person pronoun is 君 (kimi), which usually denotes familiarity, but he uses it regularly regardless of who he talks to. As for third person, he uses kare and kanojo depending on gender, but also can use アイツ/aitsu (that person) if he wants to be less informal.
In general, he speaks like a cheerful young man of this time would, but since he's Amphorean, it also gets mixed with the prose-filled speech you can see in pretty much all the characters. You can see him attach a more modern suffix to words like っぽい/-ppoi (-ish) and then address the Trailblazer by 我が友/waga tomo (my friend) not much later.
On the topic of 我が友, you might have realized this already but it works on the same principle as Aglaea's 我が師: using the reverent pronoun 我 followed by a single kanji, this time 友 (which is the first kanji of 友達/tomodachi). It kind of speaks volumes about Phainon's appreciation for the Trailblazer.
Interestingly enough, he addresses the Tribios by sensei and Castorice with the suffix さん (-san), but he simply calls Aglaea by name alone.
Castorice
Just like Aglaea, her first and second person pronouns are watakushi and anata, and she uses gendered pronouns for third person. The only difference is sometimes she addresses people by 方 (kata), which is remarkably polite of her.
Yes, she's polite. Very polite. No, I kid you not, she's the most polite character I've seen in years. I talked a little about keigo with Aglaea, but it seems Castorice speaks in 尊敬語 (sonkeigo) specifically, which is just Japanese Customer Service Voice™ . As a result, her sentences are at the very least twice as long as anyone else's would. The only time she breaks character is while translating Oronyx's words (which was hilarious because Oronyx was being ultra condescending the whole time).
Castorice makes ample use of honorifics. In fact, I can't remember a single time she didn't address someone by -san or 様 (-sama). She's incredibly consistent in that regard.
Mydei
First person pronoun is 俺 (ore): masculine and rude as hell. Second person is お前 (omae), which is also rude as hell. Third person is コイツ/koitsu (this person) and アイツ/aitsu (that person), which are gender-neutral and incredibly casual. As you can see, he doesn't give a fuck about consideration.
Despite the pronouns, Mydei can actually be formal and even flowery in his speech, as expected of an Amphorean. He's very much not polite at all, though. His speech is also very masculine and gives the overall vibe of a very arrogant royal (almost like a certain golden king of a certain franchise, huh). Sometimes he gets a little... Indulgent, I'd say, and that's when he's on something like a good mood.
He did the 我が thing at least once too; in his case, it was with Chrysos Leo, who he called 我が師匠/waga shishou (my master). Note that he used 師匠 normally, unlike Aglaea who only used 師.
He rarely addresses people by name. Usually, it's either titles (like with the Tribios and Phainon), or a rude-ass "you".
And that's all for now! Corrections and additions are welcomed, as I am not a leading expert in Japanese or anything like that.
#looking at this now it's kinda barebones#i kinda did this out of memory alone lmao#if I want to dive into more I'd have to replay the quest or wait for 3.1#but this is better than nothing#honkai star rail#hsr#amphoreus#hsr aglaea#hsr tribbie#hsr phainon#hsr castorice#hsr mydei#nihongo thoughts
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SCP reference sheet
approaches and drawing ⬇️
SCP-231-4B, "Alex" Alice
Description:
SCP-231-4B is a female of Chilean-Canadian descent, approximately 1.87 meters tall, and estimated to be between 20 and 30 years of age. It was recovered years after escaping the Children of the Scarlet King cult, becoming the second instance of SCP-231 being found.
SCP-231-4B exhibits an anomaly that alters the behavior of other anomalous entities within a 50-meter radius, provoking either a passive or, in certain cases, an intensely hostile reaction. Its blood is mixed with a denser substance that facilitates superficial tissue regeneration and the temporary amputation of limbs. If the liquid is not properly extracted through medical intervention, it may result in tissue necrosis. SCP-231-4B can also alter its body’s morphology, though this process is slow and may cause permanent damage if forced.
Extended stays in a fixed location result in the degradation of the immediate environment, manifested as secretions of the anomalous liquid into surrounding structures and subsequent material decay. The subject displays deer-like features, including ears, antlers, and occasionally, deer-like legs due to its body modifications.
Notes:
The subject exhibits perforations on the left cheek, presumably caused by a mutation that the body was unable to regenerate.
The fingernails are significantly more durable than those of an average human.
Hair growth is continuous and appears to have no limit in length.
The subject has additional fangs.
Little note:
“Alex" Alice
any pronoun
Unknown age
SCP-231-4B
SCP-231-4B expresses a lot of energy and enthusiasm, accompanied by the ignorance of a being that lacks basic understanding of what it means to be human, both in emotional management and something as simple as a toaster. Her relationship with the Foundation is complicated, but since being given access to books, she has become more cooperative.
Addendums:
ADDENDUM: No, we will NOT give her a “Warrior Cats” book. Please stop trying to sneak it in her cell. - Dr. Samuel Gagnon
ADDENDUM: So it will be “Fifty Shades of Grey” then.- Director Alto Clef
#scp fandom#scp foundation#scp#scp oc#art#oc#oc art#scp oc art#dr alto clef#alto clef#oc x canon#Clex#SCP 231 4B#character sheet#SCP sheet#reference sheet#is the deer#samuel gagnon#scp 231#RottenElegy
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I'm intersex, and I consider myself transmasc. I grew up as a boy. And then while every girl in my grade started growing breasts, I did too, and I never really went through the same exact changes that the other boys in my class went through despite the fact I knew I was one of them.
Did I like my chest? No. Did I get misgendered a lot because of them? Yes. People just tended to assume I was a masculine woman, and it genuinely fucking sucked to be misgendered like that. I felt a really strong sense of kinship with the transmasc community because I felt like I deeply related to the experience, but at the time it was a very unwelcoming place for intersex people so I kind of had to stay at the margins.
When I was 15-16 ish I got into an extremely toxic relationship with a cis perisex guy who fetishised my body because of the fact I had gynecomastia. He kept insisting I was "pretty like a girl" and tried to pressure me into transitioning into one almost constantly. He raped me a few times and every time he would only ever refer to me as a woman, and the only reason I stayed with him was because I was scared of what he'd do if I left. He eventually had to move countries with his family and then when me and my parents moved to the city and I decided to never tell him so he could never track me down.
I had a T deficiency that I medicated for for a short period of time (just enough to get my voice to drop a little) and it worked like a charm. I started binding and feeling a little more confident in my masculinity and suddenly I felt like I had left everything that had happened to me in the past.
When I got into college, I met the love of my life, and her and I have been married for almost three years by now. I got top surgery last year, and my wife was with me the whole time, and she helped me recover and honestly she's just the most wonderful woman ever and I don't know how I've gotten lucky enough to have her.
I'm very happy with how my journey turned out despite how shit it was. I hope all my transmasc brothers have the same luck. It will get better. :)
First off, I'm so sorry that happened to you that's genuinely disgusting; but at the same time, I'm glad you've been able to move past that. I hope you're can continue to be so happy in the future!! 🫂🫂
Edit; Addendum from anon
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“red flowers”: fae, vargas camp 2, and glorious masquerade

THERE’S SOMETHING IN VARGAS CAMP 2 THAT MADE ME DO A DOUBLE TAKE 👁️ 👄 👁️
So in 2-2, the pixies of the forest are trying to put out the campfires. The boys then talk about how there was a miner's campfire a while back that caused a forest fire, which naturally spooked the local fairies. AND THEN VIL GOES AND DROPS THIS DOOZIE OF A LINE:

EXCUSE ME, VI L SIR??????? ?? ? ???? ? ? ?? ? ? ? Did you just say RED FLOWERS? Is that not similar to the CRIMSON FLOWERS/LOTUSES that ROLLO tried to use to establish a magicless Twisted Wonderland in Glorious Masquerade?!
ADDENDUM: I learned recently (very shortly after this post went live, actually!) that the “red flowers” may also be a reference to what the animals in the live action Jungle Book call fires. I’m not personally familiar with this film, so I’ll be running with the crimson lotus/Glorious Masquerade connection for the duration of this post!!
Looking at how the phrases are written in Japanese, they use the term 赤い花 ("akai no hana"/red flower) in Vargas Camp and 紅蓮の花 ("guren no hana"/crimson lotus flower) in Glorious Masquerade. Crimson is basically a specific kind of red, and lotus is just a certain type of flower. Even more damning is that fact that in 3-8 of Glorious Masquerade, Malleus EXPLICITLY describes the spreading crimson flowers as having "a brilliance like that of fire". You can see from images of the crimson lotus that they do, indeed, seem to glow like fire.

If you look at the real life timeline of these events releasing, it also coincidentally lines up!! Like, the original release of Vargas Camp 2 (for JP server) was in mid to late SEPTEMBER 2022. Then Glorious Masquerade would come out mid to late OCTOBER 2022. Vargas Camp 2 was literally the new story event that came out RIGHT BEFORE Glorious Masquerade... WAS THIS FORESHADOWING??????????????? And even more importantly than that... What does this mean for fae??????
One could call "red flowers" just a poetic way for the pixies to label something they don't understand. But what's confusing is that there are clearly also fire pixies living in the forest; we see several of them in Vargas Camp attacking the students. It's not as though the fairies are unfamiliar with fire itself, so why not just call the campfires 'fires'?? What if... (and stick with me here) the pixies named the campfires thus because it's potentially a reference to something far deadlier (than even the forest fire) that they experienced or heard of in their history? In the time period of ~400 years ago shown to us in book 7, we learn that human invaders drove fae out of their homes and began mining their land for resources. This, more specifically, impacts the Briar Country up north, who are fighting against humans that arm themselves with iron (something which appears to repulse the fae). These humans are also known to use deceptive tactics, such as distracting the messenger team of Lilia and co. while they launch an assault on Mallenoa's castle, where she and her unborn son are. So... what's to say they wouldn't resort to other underhanded means as well? Mean such as... utilizing a flower known to suck out the magic from living beings :))) like maybe the... crimson lotus, perhaps?
In Glorious Masquerade, we learn that the crimson lotus has been extinct for a long time now. They were destroyed by humans centuries ago because of how dangerous they were to mages. We don't have an exact number of years, but "centuries" is enough to land it in the rough ballpark of the human-fae war. Malleus himself, who is canonically 178 years old, didn't even recognize the flowers at first (as very few records of them exist in modern times); this could imply that the crimson flowers were around before he was born, which further supports that they were present during the war era.
What's more, if we look at Maleficent: Mistress of Evil (ie the second live action Maleficent movie), we see a VERY strong parallel to the crimson lotus flower. In the film, we are introduced to the Tomb Bloom, a flower that just so happens to also be red and glows a little like fire.
UNCANNY RESEMBLANCE, NO? 🤡
Tomb Blooms are said to grow on the graves of fairies, and, when mixed with iron, creates "red dust". This red dust is considered deadly to fairies upon contact--and in the film, a fairy-hating queen lures a bunch of fae into a wedding venue to eliminate them en masse with the stuff. The crimson lotus flowers of TWST, meanwhile, are deadly on their own, draining the magic out of any magical being they touch (and permanently depriving them of magic once all the magic has been taken out of someone). For fae, who rely on magic for basically everything (travel, cooking etc.), it would be a miserable existence symbolically synonymous with death.
(Side note: in hindsight, this somewhat explains why Malleus is part of the Glorious Masquerade SSR trio. If the crimson lotus flowers were, in actuality, inspired by the Tomb Blooms (something which was weaponized against Maleficent and her kind), then it just makes so much sense for the antagonist of the event, Rollo, to utilize similar plants against Malleus, who is twisted from the Mistress of Evil herself.)
OKAY, now knowing all of that, here's what I propose as a possible timeline of events if we consider all of what I just said: ~400 years ago, crimson lotuses were plentiful. When the human-fae conflict escalated, the human side decided to play dirty to eliminate those pesky fae--because even the great Draconias would be susceptible to the magic-leeching properties of the flower. However, they discovered, upon repeated experimentation, that the flower could also harm their own mages, so they had to reformulate. Maybe this was when they learned that they could combine iron with the powdered lotus (increased surface area, and therefore also increased potency) to create something even more deadly to fae (like in Maleficent 2). Alternatively, this could contribute for the reasoning for the iron armor they wear in battle; iron repulses fae, but it could also protect them from the crimson lotus flowers due to how much of the skin it covers. For example, the Dawn Knight is said to wear a helmet that completely cover the face, and many Silver Owl NPCs do the same. There is little skin visible, unlike the armor of the Briar Country fae. But anyway, the point is that, some way or another, the humans abused the crimson lotus during this time. Once the war concluded (or in the period of reconstruction that followed), fae and humans came to an agreement to destroy all the lotuses as a part of their peace treaty/negotiations, agreeing that it was mutually beneficial to all magical creatures and mages. Humans were mainly responsible for this extinction, as there was a larger population of them that were magicless and could therefore handle the flowers without consequences. Because of the war engulfing an entire continent, fae in other parts of Twisted Wonderland would have heard about the events, fae migrated out of Briar Country to get away from the conflict, OR the conflict itself was a Twisted Wonderland-wide issue, not just contained within Briar Country. Any one of these could explain why eventually pixies on Sage's Island, in the Silent Woods (where the boys went camping), would know of the calamity caused by the crimson lotuses of the past. When they come across wild campfires, the pixies may be frightened by them due to their resemblance to the crimson lotuses and the trauma associated with war because it's human outsiders that are invading their home and propagating these 'fires'... the same situation as the human-fae war. There was the literal manmade forest fire that was far more recent, yes--but again, this doesn't fully explain why the pixies, who should be familiar with fire, would call it a "red flower" instead of just 'fire'. The association with "red flowers" being dangerous may be a result of what they recall from the war--that crimson flower which sapped away their strength and robbed them of their magic. Then, in modern day, we have Rollo somehow stumbling across seeds and breeding crimson lotuses of his own in secret for his own nefarious purposes. History (mayhaps???) repeating itself??????? ?? ? ????? ??? ??
DKJNsfhbvoqef32ygtr69r137fbofasib IDK, MAYBE I'M JUST TALKING OUT OF MY ASS AND EXTRAPOLATING TOO MUCH FROM LITTLE DETAILS 🤡 I just think it's kind of a fun theory, even if the whole timeline ends up being thrown out the window in the next main story update... Don't mind me, I'm still on my "Rollo will come save us all in a cruel and ironic twist of fate" copium--
#twst#twisted wonderland#Malleus Draconia#Rollo Flamme#Rollo Flamm#disney twisted wonderland#Vil Schoenheit#notes from the writing raven#twst theory#twst theories#twisted wonderland theories#twisted wonderland theory#Maleficent#Maleficent 2#Maleficent: Mistress of Evil#spoilers#Jungle Book
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Rio Crane [Urbanshade Personnel]
SHE/THEY/HE [in order of preference]
71 Y/O, 28 in physical and mental growth
TLDR: makes clones if she's cut in half, spends her time researching everything. Extremely curious, friendly, and gets along with the beasts of the blacksite. See below the cut for Way Too Much Information, and her entire document!
Codename: "Endless," was a researcher for Urbanshade whom willingly participated in the IUTEOAK [Immortal Under the Edge of a Knife] program, simply referred to as the IUK program for further reference. The IUK program was an experiment to allow immortality in certain high-hazard Urbanshade personnel, started by Crane themselves in an attempt to rid themselves of chronic and terminal illness.
Crane's experiments were successful, resulting in symbiosis between Human, White Spotted Bamboo Shark, Flatworm, Nudibranch, and Portuguese Man ' o ' War DNA. These experiments resulted in loss of certain organs which her body no longer needed for general life, including her liver, gallbladder, pancreas, thyroid, kidneys, and lungs. It is noted that despite her Flatworm DNA, she still has a cardiovascular system, unlike modern flatworms.
The resulted immortality has a strange catch, as Crane's body rapidly deteriorates over a span of 3 years, generally dying at the end of the 3rd: however, if Crane were to cut off her head or her legs from her torso: and said half of her body or head is healthy: another instance of Crane would be able to separate from the aged body, re-starting the 3 year biological timer. It seems that Crane's immortality has a few catches like this, as if her brain is destroyed, a clone will die, reducing to an amorphous gel-like consistency that is extremely toxic within several days.
However, her experiment was deemed to be non-replicable: not because it is impossible to replicate, but the cost, dangers, and work put into making a single immortal being is too high to create several of these instances. Not only is the experiment hard to replicate, the side effects are varying in usefulness or straight up danger, and Crane herself seems to have certain anomalous features that Urbanshade has been unable to reproduce, most notably, the fact that her memories and senses are able to be transmitted between clones at will. This being said, Crane is anomalous, and should be highly monitored to prevent classified information leaking to unauthorized personnel.
It is noted that Crane has an especially high pain tolerance, as she only feels 1/5th of the pain a normal individual would: likely due to the 5 given clones of her that exist at any time: a clone in the Blacksite, a clone at another Urbanshade site, a clone in an undisclosed location, a backup clone in the Blacksite, and finally, her conscious clone. It seems that her consciousness flickers between these clones, and clones that are not inhabited are in a hibernation-like state.
Crane is capable of deadly stings with her "hair" and "tail fibers", more officially her tentacles and cnidosacs: that cause extreme allergic reactions in some individuals, and circulatory shock [and death] in others. It is noted that these stings are ONLY felt if personnel touch the tips of her hair or cnidosacs, and as such, are avoidable.
Her diet consists of animals in the Cnidaria family, certain jellyfish, and a vegetable/fish high diet. It is noted that while she does enjoy meats, she seems to prefer them on the.. fresher side.
Crane is not a dangerous encounter, rather a normally quiet, almost EXR-P-like employee. She doesn't speak much to Expendables, preferring to speak with or research the various dangerous monsters inside of the Blacksite instead. Crane's presence often indicates that a monster is nearby, however, and it should be kept in mind that if you see her, it's likely there's a much more dangerous threat arounds.
ADDENDUM: Crane was not originally a Blacksite employee, rather originating from a separate site entirely that preformed experiments on cadavers and willing individuals only. As such, it seems that Crane is disgusted with the Blacksite entirely. It is under debate whether or not Crane should be demoted or not after the Crystal [Z-1] has been recovered, as she is capable of spreading classified information throughout Urbanshade, or even to the public.
ADDENDUM 2: It seems that Crane's presence may also indicate The Saboteur [z-13] as well, and she can even be found [rarely] alongside him with his shop, asking questions he refuses to answer.
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"Bad Representation" Still Represents Something
This one's very quick, almost too quick to the nuance the topic deserves, but I got this energy while writing a thing about Dragon Age and I want to say it anyway. It's also pretty outdated discourse. It's also about amputee representation, and I am not an amputee so I'm not really the voice who should be heard about this.
A few years ago Wizards of the Coast reprinted the Curse of Strahd book with a handful of changes. Some of these changes are absolutely for the better, like making the people based on the Romani not literally have the ability to curse you with their evil eye or not referring them to a literal racial slur. But one change that was a little bit controversial to me was to remove "Harmful language" from one character in particular.
Ezmerelda d'Avenir (a later book decided that she prefers to be called Ez, so that's what I'll call her from here on) is one of the characters that can act as an ally to the players in the book. In the original copy of the book her "Secret" was that her right leg is a prosthetic from the knee down, and that she was putting effort into making sure it remained hidden. Now, the prosthetic is shown openly, it's not a secret and it's not hidden.
The idea is that Ez hiding away her prosthetic was ableist, it implied that having a prosthetic leg was something to be ashamed of. A disabled youtuber refuted that point, and argued that Ez hiding the prosthetic doesn't mean she's ashamed or that it's ableist. But I've got a different take.
Ez can be ashamed of her prosthetic. She lost it in a hunt, it's a symbol of failure. She can feel that she lost "a part of herself". She can feel that it's a weakness. What should have been errata'd in was further clarity that she's wrong. It can be a flaw in her character, a representation of a trauma, a symbol of a perfectionist attitude that is toxic to her, it can be so many other things.
Because people who reacted that way to losing a limb exist, these are people in the middle of their path of self acceptance, who have internalized some shitty things about themselves. Representation can be more than showing a positive image of something, it can also be showing the negative struggles someone is going through and reach out and say "Hey. People understand what you're going through. Here's a better way"
I understand that having positive, out and proud representations is important to normalizing things and helping people feel accepted, but I feel like literally erasing people struggling and aren't proud is like slamming people with a double decker combo of shame. Like "You're ashamed of this massive change you've gone through? You should be ashamed of yourself for that."
As an addendum point, when I voiced this in discussion at the time someone said that "That's not a level of nuance you're afforded when you only have one disabled character" which is like... fair. I guess? But at that point you should probably be having more disabled characters rather than trying to have a singular character to be your "Perfect Disability Rep", because these things are never that simple. People are complicated, everyone reacts to things differently, and that's okay.
#rambling#dungeons and dragons#wotc#ravenloft#ezmerelda d'avenir#curse of strahd#amputee#disability representation
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Eventually…
Jenn makes it back to her apartment, Jeffie following close alongside her. After she had ensured everything was locked, she took a hot shower, changed, and finally sat down to review her employment contract.
She read through it twice and signed her name, the contract disappearing back to Vox.
Jenn grabbed the book she had abandoned before everything and read while Jeffie slept next to her on the couch.
@helluvahotelfan
Vox pauses what he's doing as the employment contract appears in front of him. He sits back in his chair, mulling over whether to file it or amend it. On the one hand, just because other things had changed didn't mean Jenn necessarily wanted a change to her job. She enjoyed working with the R&D teams. She could probably head up one of her own at this point.
His gaze went to the screen bank in front of him, at all the video feeds and logs he'd been reviewing, and all the ones he still had to check.
Setting aside the signed copy, Vox drafted a new contract to function as an addendum. The original would still be valid, of course. However, he thought she might sign this one- or at least get a chuckle out of it.
VoxTek™ Dating Agreement
I, @helluvahotelfan , invoke the infernal powers of Hell to complete the following agreement between myself and the Overlord, Vox. Hereafter, "the girlfriend" will refer to Jenn, "the boyfriend" will refer to Vox, and "the contract" will refer to this agreement, signed and sealed by a kiss.
Payment: to complete this contract, the girlfriend and the boyfriend pledge loyalty to each other and trust in each other. For as long as both parties agree, the terms and conditions of this contract are considered valid. Additionally, neither party can cause physical harm to the other while this contract is in effect without explicit and enthusiastic consent.
Terms: the boyfriend and the girlfriend agree to a mutually supportive relationship. Each party is responsible for vocalizing their needs and wants, to be fulfilled by the other to the best of their ability. Expected activities include but are not limited to: hand holding, kissing, hugging, cuddling, hanging out, watching TV or movies, listening to music, going out to eat, going dancing, and sharing meals. Surprises are authorized but only within reasonable levels of consent.
Conditions: This contract remains in effect provided both the girlfriend and the boyfriend wish to continue adhering to the terms. At any time, either party may request breaking the contract. The request must be accepted by the boyfriend.
Ground Rules: Date Nights are Thursday nights. This section to be amended as necessary.
Options: the girlfriend may, at any time, request to move into the boyfriend's condo. The girlfriend may, at any time, request a direct promotion to personal assistant to the boyfriend, in the hopes they can stop each other from becoming workaholics. Both parties may, at any time, request acts of affection to be fulfilled by the other when appropriate.
Hours: 24/7/365. April 29th will hereafter be reserved as a day to vent all lingering annoyance via pillow fight.
Signed and confirmed via kiss with the boyfriend,
Vox chuckles, nodding and throwing the contract at the nearest screen, where it digitized itself and hurried to Jenn, popping out of her phone in the same cool blue envelope as the first one.
He grabs his coffee cup and takes a sip. "I'm fuckin' hilarious."
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I definitely agree that a lot of that diss track at the end is Kotoko also projecting her insecurities onto the other prisoners, not only calling them out rather shallowly, but also just the fact that her voice breaks right at the end??? The way in which she ends with Es, who is supposed to be her foil and the one she calls an “unloved warden” it’s like damn Kotoko you couldn’t be more apparent with the way you were probably treated back then huh 😭
I wanted to try and analyze the diss track more tbh LMAO but I don’t think we have enough information to really draw some good comparisons between Kotoko and the other prisoners for that. I can totally see some similarities for a few of them, but for others it’s a bit more unclear (Yuno is one of them like you mentioned). But these are the ones that come to my mind for Kotoko’s similarities with everyone else:
Haruka - hatred of childhood self because they were too weak (I just realized this but the fact that Haruka’s t1 song is called Weakness omg)
Yuno - ??? (I have no idea for this one tbh 😭 my best guess would be that they’re both hiding behind a mask, so their true selves are obscured a lot of the times)
Futa - ideals and handing out their own form of justice
Mu - putting yourself above everyone else in order to protect yourself, thinking that you were in the right and that you have done nothing wrong
Shidou - ??? (This one I’m speculating that family might be their similarity considering Kotoko’s symbolism with wolves and them being pack animals but I’m not completely sure. Another one could possibly be failing to save someone close to you if Kotoko did have someone close to her back then who she lost)
Mahiru - love and forgiveness
Kazui - lies and deceit, massive self-hatred (sorry Kazui 💀)
Amane - how the cycle of cruelty affects you and how Kotoko is a mirror of what Amane could be when she's older
Mikoto - protection through action(?) is the best way I can describe it, like with how they both use their own physical strength to protect either themselves or others
Es - foil in the narrative and holding up one’s duty
It’s very obvious though I feel like in Yonah, just with the way Kotoko switches up so easily with Es, it really makes you wonder if she never had that kind of emotional stability with an adult. Always changing, never predictable with what they’re gonna do or how they’re gonna react, so you have to watch them closely, just like how Kotoko does for everyone else in the prison.
When Kotoko thinks Es is being weak, she calls them out. When they are in clear distress, she wants to hug them, comfort them no matter what and reassure them that she will continue to act as their fang and do the “dirty work”. It’s like you said, she probably hated her childhood self for being weak, but she still wanted the comfort, she still wanted the protection she never got. So she gives it to Es because she probably sees a lot of her childhood self in them.
I didn't notice that similarity before with Mahiru not wanting to admit that she's not okay, so she crumbles underneath the pressure of trying to be continuously happy, just like how Kotoko is crumbling underneath the weight of justice. Interesting!!!
Also her having a difficult time trying to relax so she spends her free time mediating is an interesting detail from this interrogation:
And in Harrow, her movements are quick like a flinch but she seems like she's on edge a lot of the times too:
Constantly looking over her shoulder as if someone is there watching her:
Idk it's just all very interesting! I know people are looking forward to Undercover callbacks in the Deep Cover mv but tbh I just want Kotoko lore man 😭 I NEED MORE LORE
Kotoko lives to protect the weak. In her mind she serves the weak but the weak also serve her. They are her reason to live. Saving them makes her feel good about herself. She exists to save the weak and the weak exist to giving her a propose.
mahiru lives to love her boyfriend/be a good wife. She exists for him and their relationship by extension him exists to give her a reason to exist.
idk if this makes sense
but its like the idea of how they have formed their identities off of loving/saving other people but end up hurting those people because What they wanted was a propose and to fulfil their desire to the point they hurt and disregarded the party they were trying to protect/love. Kotoko wanted to punish the “evil” and mahiru wanted to be this ideal wife


Its not about what the boy friend needs in the relationship (not cake) it’s about mahiru loving him.
its not about what the weaklings want its about kotoko protecting them.
#THIS WILL BE THE KOTOKO MASTER THREAD POST WITH MAHIRU COMPARISONS LMAO#WE NEED TO ADD TO THIS WHEN DEEP COVER MV COMES OUT#the betrayal part and connecting it with the story of red riding hood makes so much sense omg#also the lyrics in antibeat and streaming heart seem to suggest not only her self-hatred but also a “true self” she is continuing to hide#also thank you so much omg 😭 I forgot to mention one thing with Mahiru and Kotoko so I'll just addendum it here#but the fact that Mahiru is the only person to *forgive* Kotoko I just wonder what she thinks of that#I wonder what she thinks of someone who is considered guilty to her *forgive* her despite it all#will Mahiru be a representation of that kind of weakness she despises so much aka love?#also another aside but I like so how both of their hairstyles are opposites#with Kotoko's hair parting to the left covering her left eye and Mahiru's to the right covering her right eye it's so cute#gonna put this in references because this is such a good analysis thread of them <3#deep cover spoilers#yonah spoilers#milgram#kotoko yuzuriha#mahiru shiina#references#fave#long post
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The thing about me is that I am a bit of a freak when it comes to the way characters refer to each other, especially when it’s my blorbos. So I have basically a mental chart of how ai calls others and how others call her.
I find it fascinating that in akane’s ai performance, she changes how she addresses others. Going from ‘aqua-kun’ to just ‘aqua’ and ‘yuki-chan’ to ‘yuki’. (Side note: when I was double checking the og jp text, I was surprised by how much aikane borrowed from yuki.)
Professor of ai, do you think this aspect of aikane is accurate to the real ai? What do you make of aikane in general?
If I remember correctly, ai is yobisute with a couple of people, aqua and ruby(obviously), watanabe and takamine in 45510, we never see ai call hikaru by name (a fact I am very normal about) but in 15YL they are yobisute with each other.
I think Aikane is pretty interesting as like... an in-universe reflection of what Ai's 'public' self was understood to be. On the one hand, the fact that Akane was able to get such a good read on Ai just through examining publicly available information is an early reflection/indication of the fact that 'Ai of B-Komachi' really isn't that different from the supposed "real" Ai and that she contains enough of Ai's authentic self for Akane to replicate it, at least in part.
On the other hand, she is ultimately only a recreation of Ai's public self, and whatever the manga might try and tell us... Akane doesn't really know who Ai is. She knows things about Ai, but that doesn't mean she understands her as a person. I think Akane, for better or worse, kind of just sees Ai like any other role she plays - a fictional character for her to come up with fun headcanons about so she can playact as her better as opposed to a real human being.
This is something season 2 of the anime supports with some interesting imagery, however accidentally;

Not only is Akane's image of Ai incomplete, but it's an image of Ai of B-Komachi, Ai's overly polished public self - and she's pictured alongside Sayahime, an entirely unreal fictional character. In Akane's mind, these two 'roles' are the same in form and weight.
I do definitely agree that Aikane borrows a LOT from Yuki, though! That was something that always seemed quite implicit to me, so I was always surprised that other people never really talk about it. Aikane is particularly forward and flirtatious and pushy in a way that even Ai of B-Komachi is not, but very much does reflect the version of herself that Yuki was playing on the show. And given that Aikane is born out of (among other things, obvs) Akane's sense of rivalry with Yuki and admiration of her, I think that makes a lot of sense.
(Yuki is also one of those Secretly Ai characters we see pop up in the first half of the manga, imo, which drives this home even further.)
Because of this, I think the terms of address thing is something Akane cribbed from Yuki rather than Ai - past a certain point (or perhaps when she's in Work Mode), Yuki calls Akane by her first name with no honorifics. I... don't remember if she does it for anybody else, off the top of my head? But at the very least, that's how she speaks to Akane.
ACTUALLY: Quick addendum to this while it's in my queue, but I suddenly remembered these two clearly paralleled lines:
The TL obscures this a teeny bit, but these lines are even more obviously and deliberately mirrored in Japanese:
「茜わ私のこと、嫌い?」 Akane wa watashi no koto kirai? 「ゆきわこう言う私、嫌い?」 Yuki wa kouiu watashi kirai?
The anime takes this a step further and has Aikane use the exact same inflection and even deliberate pacing of her speaking when she delivers this line. So definitely an indication to me that Aikane borrows just as much from Yuki as she does from the real Ai.
Back to the real Ai herself tho, this isn't really reflective of her own speech patterns. It can be easy to miss because the setup of the series is such that the Venn diagram of "characters Ai addresses by name" and "characters Ai addresses without honorifics" is almost a single circle lol but she's pretty polite with her honorifics usage and doesn't really jump to yobisute very fast, at least not with people's real names - we can infer that all the gen 1 B-Komachi girls only ever addressed each other by their stage names, for example, so Ai leaving off their honorifics can be understood as her addressing them by title instead, in the same way she calls Ichigo "President" and Gorou "Sensei".
Another thing that differentiates Ai from Aikane is that Aikane almost seems to go out of her way to use people's names, probably as a way of coming off as more forward and confident. By contrast, Ai herself does the opposite - Kyun mentions in POV B (i gotta start getting used to not calling it viewpoint b) that Ai tends to avoid using people's names because she often gets them wrong when she does (some combo of autism faceblindness & her low literacy meaning she struggles to correctly read name kanji probably) and doesn't want to get in trouble.
All this combined makes me feel pretty sure that Aikane is just a portrayal of the ideal of Ai in all senses of the word. Akane assembles her from all the prettiest, shiniest parts of Ai and Yuki and plays her as an effortlessly perfect, flirtatious and confident girl... which we all know the real Ai very much was not.
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Alright, here's the last bit of addendums for now, and to start off, I'm going to tell you about that dream 0!Tiff had between her breakdown and her stay at the hospital:
CW: This part includes thoughts about longing death and gallons of blood
(BTW, I just remembered that @desultory-novice, the one responsible for the "Zero is the worst father ever" headcanon, also thought up the idea for dark matter using "eye" instead of "I" so "EYE'LL" have him use eye when referring to himself apart from the tiff half from now on)
Falling
The first thing that he processed was the feeling of falling
It felt like he was falling for hours, and yet, he was too tired to really think of doing anything about it, and just when he started to think of getting out of this current situation...
SPLAT
...he made contact with the wooden floor, which, at the velocity he was falling at, felt like hitting a concrete street from the 72nd floor of a building
He felt his inside turn to mush and his eye dislocate from it's socket
He, however, barely cared... after all, he lost, so maybe, this is for the best...
...maybe tiff could care for the clan in his stead... probably would do a better job than him, honestly...
He felt his eye roll over as the rest of his body go numb...
It felt cold... so, so, very, cold...
...but something felt off...
Did death usually last this long?
His eye was still rolling over, past the point where he should've logically cease to even think
It felt like forever and a day until the eye stopped and only because it hit the other side of 02's skin
Suddenly, he heard what sounded like his clan, calling for 02 like children crying for their mother
He felt ashamed of himself, for once, he was the one who they were referring to, the angel of the dark who would've taken over those pathetic fleshlings' little "Cappy Town" by now, but now... NOW... he was little more than a laughing stock who'd moreso feel horrible for swating away a firefly, much less conquer an entire planet.
Even thinking about it made him feel bad...
He didn't want to face his army and tell them that their continued existence and attempts to get sweet revenge on the pink ball that wronged them all lead up to him just... GIVING UP.
.....
...but it was much worse than that...
Tiff's family... nay... The ENTIRETY OF CAPPY TOWN would probably flip out and rightfully so... what else would their reaction be to learning that she would no longer even see them anymore thanks to him
Tuff would never let him forget about it, like the petty little brother he is, her parents would call him a monster and will grieve the loss of their eldest daughter, Meta Knight would attempt a "mercy kill" on Tiff and, by proxy, him, (what else could he do when they're like this), the townsfolk would chase them out of town, King Dedede and Escargoon would see it as a "well-deserved" victory over Kirby, and Kirby, dear, sweet, innocent Kirby, he would...
...he would...
.....
He would've already tried to end him
But instead of rightfully expunging him from the girl, Kirby decided to give him some melon, alongside the 3 members of the dark matter clan that he gave the reins over all the others, no less????
It didn't make sense...
Why would he willingly spare someone as worthless as he over what might as well been his own mom?
Did he just... not know?
...no, it can't be that...
Kirby already knew that he wasn't Tiff from the moment they met.
Did he, then, know about the whole rooting thing and figured it wouldn't have worked?
...also unlikely...
Kirby's sweet but he isn't really all that... smart... even if he knew about their conjoinment, he probably wouldn't have thrown that chance away to at least try to save his dear friend
Alright so what was it then? What could've possibly been his reasoning for not exacting punishment towards him?
Could've been that he... pitied him?
But then how could that have been?
He was a useless parasite who affected the livelihood's of everyone around him negatively with the goal of actively making things even worse
And all for what, because he was afraid of death and didn't know honor yet
What could Kirby have possibly saw in him worth letting go?
Did he just... Not think of Tiff that way?
...NO, no, that's stupid!
Tiff was the one of the only real friends Kirby had, to the point that Kirby always did what she said, even to their own detriment
Did he not see him as an actual threat?
But then why did he avoid him like the plague earlier? Hell, if anything, the whole "locking-up-the-castle" stunt he pulled would've just confirmed Kirby's suspensions, so what gives?
And why would he team up with Dark Matter, despite the only reason that they avoided possession being their fear of him and the order not to possess him?? And what was with the watermelon???
Why would the savior of the planet... nay... THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE treat something like him as if they were equals?!?!?!?
.....
Did... did he not see him as something that deserved to die?
Did he think that, despite everything he has done to ruin his life, that he was still deserving of life and even... happiness?
.....
Just as he was about to dismiss it, memories of Kirby doing so with multiple demon beasts started to flood his senses and, once they came and went, he had a whole new understanding on, not just this world's Kirby, but his initial Kirby as well...
He wasn't just some slayer of demons with a cute face, he was someone who would work his hardest to make sure that everyone he could save would be saved and wouldn't give up, even if it seems impossible, even if it's more In line with a wake-up call...
... even if it's someone as hopelessly lost as him...
He sighed to himself and decided to honor Kirby's wishes
He was going to be brave and tell his clan to help him get to Tiff
(ANNOTATION: Remember, this is just about the same one who's gathering from Zero's spectacular failure was nothing more than treat your employees with respect and don't go for Kirby straight away, like, he is pretty dense when it comes to this kind of stuff and it's gonna take more than that for him to realize that "waking up Tiff" is not quite the lesson he should learn)
...as soon as he gets out of this dark, wet prison that was his body
He realized pretty quickly that he was at the top of it and he was probably looking at his bandage
He also remembered, though, that he could only feel his eye, therefore, making it likely be the only thing he can move
He focused his thoughts on moving forward and, essentially, pushing his eye out and rip through the bandage
He used all the might he had left in his eye to tear through barrier and, eventually...
rrRIP
GOOSH
...blood poured out of the newly made hole in the bandage, letting him fall out and properly address his seroundings
Though, at first, he was too busy sputtering out the blood he was in to really focus on anything else
"Ppbt, ppbt, blech... Alright, note to self, don't try to get out of your own body without a snorkel..."
He tries to blink the excess blood out of their eyes to get some beirings on where he was and-
...wait... Eyes?
Wasn't he just a eyeball...?
If fact, come to think of it, why was he coughing if he shouldn't have lungs... or a mouth?
He started to hold his head out of pure confusion when he then started to realize what he was doing and brought the hand in front of his face
He felt a chill run his spine when recognized where the hand was from
It was the same as the one from the form Tiff's body just finished mutating into just a few minutes(?) ago
He started to panic as he got a proper look at the form he was in and realized that he was, in fact, in that exact body, which likely meant that...
...oh
Oh
OH NO NO NO NO NO
Was he already too late?
Did the mind merge already complete itself?
...no
Now not the time to worry.
Kirby would move on regardless
All he knows for sure is just one thing:
"Eye must find Tiff, and fast."
...AND THAT'S WHERE I'M GONNA LEAVE IT UNTIL TOMORROW.
Yeah, I realized that this was getting pretty long so I'm going to save the rest for tomorrow as to not blow your hard drive
As some consultation, I must say that when I first saw your "multi-purpose head" idea, I was all like "why didn't I think of that" because that's genuinely one of the best ideas I ever saw, especially considering that her tounge is already dark matter (albeit looking more like a plant)
Though there are a few that I like to say:
1. I still like to think that she can also use "normal" parasols to fight as well (maybe to avoid any problems that would come with having your own head be used as a sword "Uh... did eye-I mention I practiced street magic...?")
2. I'm afraid that you might have slightly misconstrued what I said when I said that her base-line parasol is a mix between kirby's style and fencing (that was probably on me, all I did to remedy it was to say "when it's open" in Referring to kirbys style and not clarify whether I was talking about tiff's or kirby's, just know that what I meant to say was "When it's open, she plays like Kirby, but when it closed, she uses it like a fencing sword")
Also one more thing
Do you, by any chance, have time to do a model sheet for 0!Tiff, considering you tend to change designs a lot and I'm not good at staying on model either
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