#(one literally called me last night while I was hanging out with Guy lmao)
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ughhhhhhh yearningg
#why did I want to like a guy again??#jk itâs still kinda nice after nothing for so long#and at least weâre friends so I get to see him#but#afaik he still only sees me as a friend#and ironically I have other guys who have expressed interest recently#(one literally called me last night while I was hanging out with Guy lmao)#I mean maybe itâs good though#if itâs not meant to work out then I do NOT want to ruin the friendship/make the group dynamic weird#ALSO#while our group all has a weird sense of humor and stuff#I just worry that he thinks Iâm sometimes funny as a friend#but too Weird to like in a romantic sense
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hey guys, someone just sent me a weird ass ask claiming my incredibly close friend cherri @cherrifire secretly hate me and is talking abt me behind my back. i was not the only person to get one of these identical slanderous asks. iâve already blocked the anon but like. open letter to them, and for the benefit of anyone else who gets an ask like thisâŚ.
1) anon, youâre genuinely fucking stupid
2) hysterical to send this when i was actively chatting w her, while we were in the process of fleshing out yet another renchanting au, something we have done all day every day for⌠gosh, how long has it been now? nearly two years? i would say that it was really bad timing to send this ask to me while i was actively chatting aus w her but there really isnât any moment you could have sent this that i wouldnât have been.
3) if you thought i wasnât gonna call bullshit and snitch immediately you donât know shit about me or cherri, which, granted, is evident by the ask in general, but you really are stupid
4) if a gc like this existedâwhich it does not, bc cherri is not like this and would not do thisâi would be in it. this idiot doesnât even know im cherriâs emotional support writer. do you have any idea how many gcs and servers sheâs dragged me into w her.
5) get your facts right cherri talks shit about me to my face. this is mutual. fake ass fan. if you were a real cherri friend you would know this smh
6) no, actually, youâre right, she definitely hates me. thatâs why i met her irl literally like 3 months ago on her invitation, we hung out for a genuine week, spent basically the whole time arm in arm or hand in hand. this is also why we were planning a second meetup last night. you idiot. you fool. you complete and utter moron
anyway, if anyone gets this ask:
itâs complete bullshit. theyre sending this to cherriâs best friends for some godforsaken reason. itâs very weird and deeply cringe. also incredibly poorly planned. idk how many ppl you sent this to, but a few of us are in a gc and we have been making fun of this ask for like an hour (anon, im one of cherriâs friends and sheâs been telling a small group of friends about youâ lol. lmao even)
anyway like. to reiterate. cherriâs one of my best friends, sheâs absolutely lovely and iâm lucky every day to know her. we hang out and chat constantly and weâve met irl and it was an incredible experience i would love to repeat. i have told her things i have not fuckin told anyone else and you could not otherwise waterboard out of me. i love talking to her all the time and i miss her when sheâs busy for even like, an hour. i love writing w her and creating things w her. sheâs an incredibly bright spot in my life, often the first person i think of upon waking and the last i think of before i sleep. she is kind and funny and i love her a lot.
iâm a bitch tho so like @ this anon go fuck yourself. you better hope that when you die that the devil finds you before i do. sending this ask to a bunch of our friends, trying to turn the people she cares about against her, and for what? you clearly donât know her well enough to be talking like this. trying to ruin my friendâs reputation and friendships w a vague as hell and entirely baseless copy paste is super fucking weird. why would you do this? and like, do you think we were born yesterday to fall for this? iâm insulted for her for whatever it was you were trying to pull and iâm insulted on behalf of myself and everyone else you sent this to that you think weâre as stupid as you are. what is your damage. get a hobby.
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following up on what i posted last night: how would Leontids have gotten along with the other members of Aquarium Gravel?
a general theme i picked up with aquagrav was the idea of everyone is Pretending to be a normal human person. the closest to that baseline is tJay, but he's got his own localized disaster going on. unmodified, tLeontids would fit into that pretty well-- his core "gimmick" is that despite looking close-to-human, the actual part of Leontids that is Leontids is the mask. the body is who he used to be, and it's who he's still trying to be, but at the end of the day he's a sapient mask that possesses people.
i adore tViking but tLeo would have such a bad time with him. he's easy to manipulate, he's used to being dehumanized, and once he realizes tViking views him as a tool he would be upset but wouldn't really know what to do about it. plus he'd probably already owe tViking something by then, so if something is hanging over his head then he might as well make himself as useful as possible so it won't have to be called in. vibes of "get along well on surface-level but things get less than ideal whenever they're one-on-one while tViking is in business mode". i love tViking. tLeo would not.
i have no idea what tLeo would be like around Navigator, or if they'd even interact at all seeing as Nav is pretty focused on only talking to tRuby and Sapphire and otherwise making himself scarce. if they did run into each other somehow (eg tLeo walking in on a scene and having no context to what's happening), he might think it's just tViking having a nonverbal moment and would also start writing on signs to help him feel better about it :D <- clueless. cue tRuby awkwardly ushering him out of the room or something lmao. Nav is such a big unknown that it's hard to figure out anything more than that because oh my god nav what is your DEAL.
SPEAKING OF tRUBY! despite how rocky things are between tLeo and tViking, he would've been friends with tRuby i think. also awkward moments of tRuby trying to reassure him about tViking while meanwhile tViking is also using tRuby to accomplish his goals. considering her paranoia i doubt tRuby would open up to tLeo much, especially when it became clearer that something is Wrong with him, but tLeo would try to encourage zem to talk to him... while also hiding things about himself because of being afraid how ze would react to finding out what he really is. AND THEN SAPPHIRE GETS INVOLVED AND THAT KINDA FALLS APART,
i wrote a thing with him and Sapphire (linked above) that can be summed up as "Sapphire has no idea what he's doing here or how he got here and tLeo would like to not be around Sapphire at all, thanks". like with Navigator he wouldn't put together the "this is someone else" thing, so from his pov tRuby would be creepy and ominous towards him and then not remember why afterwards. if it happened enough, tLeo would start feeling like he's playing russian roulette with "is this my friend or is this someone im scared of" and that would not help tRuby's fears of turning into Sapphire. :,D
my notes for tJay are "has a 50/50 of either helping or harming his constant anxiety". lmao. sorry buddy, your new neighbor is a bodysnatcher. although the possession thing was gonna be more relevant to tLeo's Situation (possessing his own empty shell) rather than him actually hijacking anybody else. considering what the rest of aquagrav is like tJay mightve been the only one tLeo could possess without exploding LMAO. anyway: tJay and tLeo hanging out in the trees going "everyone else here is insane" while one of them talks to scarecrows and the other one is a frisbee with ambition. although seeing as tLeo is Literally Also An Animate Object i don't think he'd find the scarecrow thing all that weird. and then also they beat each other up because offie would tell me to kill and i would /silly
while tLeo would've been put off by tFiv if he was still keeping up the tough guy act, once he realized what tFiv is actually like he would've started trying to make a connection. a fun thing with tFiv is that they're a fallen star that's homesick and likes sculk because it reminds him of home, and that's pretty similar to Leontids! in my solo series he's from space, and on the Dominionerds s1 server he had a whole plotline about sculk that's going to get referenced in some form with other stuff i do. i had a line written down for tLeo talking to tFiv about sculk and describing it as "If I get deep down enough, sometimes it feels like I'm looking down at the night sky instead of up." plus my idea for a base was an observatory, so him and tFiv could hang out there at night and talk about constellations and stuff. Leontids is named after a meteor shower :D
tVintage's love of learning about humans and what life is like outside of her duties as an angel would've continued to be the accidental comedy of "90% of AquaGrav isn't human". tLeo would've been awkward in a silly way about it and leaned in hard to the HAHA YEP I'M COMPLETELY NORMAL. YEP. I'M HUMAN FOR SURE thing to avoid suspicion. endearingly cringe. depending on what i settled on for his life pre-aquagrav, though, he might've joined in on the excitement and discovery of a new world.
the other aquagrav member he'd click with besides tFiv would potentially be tBox, which is really funny considering the huge amount of tension between tFiv and tBox. although in tBox's case, it would be because of miscommunication-- tLeo would be unphased by tBox's thing about "not having a face" because. well, tLeo. and would think that the box is a situation like his mask where tBox Literally Needs It To Exist and not "box is a horrorterror trying to not scare people with whatever the hell he actually looks like under there". as friendly as he would be to tBox himself, though, tLeo would be scared shitless of the eyes and avoid going to tBox's corner of Aquarium Gravel as much as possible. he doesn't like feeling like he's being watched.
or, in less words, my original notes:
viking: sees him as a tool, leontids is a bit :( about it but figures if he's an asset he might as well be a useful one ruby: grabs him after like "hey. dont let him be like that to you" <- also lets him be like that to them sapphire: scares the shit out of him, as seen in the comic/fic navigator: they have no idea what to make of each other. leontids thinks viking is being Weird and starts writing on signs back bc "maybe he doesnt feel talky today???", nav is also "hey. youre not supposed to be here. the heck" jay: leontids listens to him talk about the scarecrows, enamored by the snails, says some weird shit that makes jay Nervous fiv: bond over "sculk kinda looks like the stars, doenst it?" vintage: thinks hes Interesting. "humans are neat" "HAHA YEAH IM. DEFINITELY HUMAN. AWESOME" box: handshake on "always hiding their face", friendly introduction, box walks off and leontids quietly freaks out at all the eyes staring at him
bonus round thoughts: his sign color would be either warped (blue!) or acacia (he is very orange). also there was a joke about tLeo being elected aquagrav's therapist bc Everyone Has So Many Problems but uh. that probably would not survive contact with the enemy. i didn't really have plans for what his whole storyline would be, because Leontids in general has a lot of elements i would pick-and-choose from depending on what fit the overall vibe, but he's got his own brand of issues:
leontids: hi! turns out [MASSIVE SPOILERS FOR BEAT THE GAME] and im about to start crying! viking: bro im literally just standing here
i say as if leontids isnt the type of person to put his problems in the backseat when he sees what the rest of aquagrav is dealing with. guy who is so so niceys until someone finds a crack in his facade and he has a sobbing breakdown in his government mandated murder basement
UH. THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TEDTALK. BYE
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Repost from Reddit. So fucking hot.
Where do I find friends like this. I need a couple
I licked my friends pussy that was full of cum after fucking her bf with her
So ive been friends with this girl for years now and she has been dating this really hot guy for the last four years or so. Me and my friend share everything so ive been told multiple times that one of his biggest fantasies is to have a threesome. I never really thought I would be the one for it just because I thought my friend would think its awkward cause we always hang out together and I guess I figured she might be jealous if he fucked me.
One night we were all out at this house party and we got pretty fucked up by the end of the night. We decided we would all crash at his place since he lived the closest so we called an uber. On our drive back he sat in the middle of us and like the entire time they were getting all touchy with each other and kissing and just doing what drunk horny 19 year olds do haha. Im not gonna lie I got kinda horny from being in such close proximity to them.
When we got back home we realized we weren't that tired yet so we decided to sit on the couch and watch a movie. He sat in the middle again and they kept going with the touchy shenanigans as the movie played. We were all under a big blanket together and at one point I noticed that her hand was moving up and down under the blanket and I realized she was touching his cock and jerking him off right there next to me.
If I wasnt so drunk I prob would have been uncomfortable but in my current state it really turned me on and I felt myself getting wet. I pretended I didnt notice and I just kinda scooted closer to him and put my hand right against his leg. I could feel him tense up even more and I wondered if he knew that I knew.
At one point I got over the tension and I just said "lmao I see what ur doing why dont u guys just fuck already I dont mind!" My friend got kinda embaressed but I guess she was super horny too so she was like "Really?!" I told her it was fine and I even thought it was kinda hot and so she pulled the blanket down and got down on her knees. She started sucking his cock right in front of me and seeing my best friend of like 10 years with a cock in her mouth made me insanely horny.
I was still covered by the blanket so I started rubbing my pussy while I was watching them and I honestly got pretty close to cumming. Eventually she was done sucking his cock and she pulled down her pants and got ready to slide his cock into her. She looked at me and saw what I was doing and kinda blushed before sitting down on his cock and starting to bounce up and down.
At one point she started breathing really hard and all of a sudden she started moaning that she was cumming. She looked right at me watching while she came. It was hot as fuckkkk. She said she needed a second and asked me if I wanted to try. I asked if she was sure and she nodded. I didnt ask twice. I pulled off my underwear from under my skirt and climbed on top of him. His dick was pretty big but honestly what turned me on most was knowing that he was just inside of my best friend seconds before. I was already so turned on that I came in literally 30 seconds of riding.
My friend was like "lol that was fast. My turn again" i got off of him and she got back on. I started making out with her while she was riding him and I think that really was what sent her bf over the edge. He pulled her down and thrust fully into her while he filled her pussy up. The look on her face was so fucking hot.
After he came in her she sat down on the couch and leaned back with a satisfied look on her face. Idk what came over me but I guess I just wanted some cum too. I got down on my knees and spread her legs before starting to lick her pussy. I pushed my tongue as far into her as I could and I could taste his cum mixed with hers. I kept licking her until I felt her starting to cum again and I didnt stop until her orgasm was all finished. Afterwords we all just cuddled up and finished our movie while talking abt how much fun that was and that we should do it again sometime.
Anyways thats my story of how I licked my besties pussy after her bf came in her I hope u enjoyed it :))
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Corals Monthly Update #2
Hello!! I almost missed the date but funny December update! >:D Before I jump into December however, let me quickly talk about November and to also say Iâll probably move these to the end of the month like the 30th or 29th since having to dip back into the previous month can get annoying. The only thing about November really worth talking about was the Walten Files Trivia Charity Stream I was in. It was super fun! You can find some clips on Waltenewsâ twitch channel but this out of context screenshot is my favourite lmao. Overall November was a solid 8/10! It had itâs moments but I mostly had a good time hanging out with friends and mutuals >:]
But anyhow, moving onto this month! December! This month started off pretty strong, as I had my birthday on the 6th! I got a lot of art and goofy gifts from my friends and I love them all. I was off school a day before my actual birthday so myself and a few friends went out ice-skating and it was super fun!! I had so much fun I didnât get many photos, though this one was really good hehehhe. Iâll scan it later down the line but hereâs a photo of it for now.
My good luck thankfully transferred to my actual birthday the next day as most of my actual busy classes were either free or we didnât do any work. However that luck ran out like literally the next day. I wanted another day off school like last year (a huge storm hit and we got 2 days off school) but I guess I got monkey pawed as I then fell sick for like a week. Wednesday was the worst of it but I slowly got better as that awful week went by. Thankfully I can say Iâm at least 99% better! I just still have a lingering cough though. I also got terrible nose bleeds. Iâd show a photo but itâs gross so Iâll spare you the visual info lmao! After I got better things went back to normal until this Monday, when my school had itâs yearly 6th year fast! TL;DR you donât eat for 24 hours and sleep over in the school itself to raise money for charity by collecting money from sponsors aka the people you asked to donate. Sit back for this one, as itâs a long story! Iâll start off by saying while it wasnât bad per say, it certainly wasnât good either. We arrived at school as normal (minus the extra sleepover stuff we all packed and not being in uniform) and it was overall a normal school day. Then we were all gathered into the canteen area for a role call and told the basic structure of how the night was organized. Girls slept in one room and since there were more guys than girls, the boys were split up into 3 classrooms. All the messers and annoying cunts went into one room, my friends and I went into the library and the rest of the guys went into the 3rd room to play Mario Kart n stuff. One of my friends and I both brought our Quest 2â˛s and we played Pavlov Shack for like an hour. It was fun! We spent another hour basically trying to bypass the schools admin restrictions in order to get Beat Saber mods Side-Loaded onto my friends VR. It failed sadly, but still fun to try none the less. Hereâs some photos of our spot hehehe (I hope my friends donât mind me posting these here)
After that is when the night begins to hit the fan as weâre all called back down to the canteen area and are forced to watch the TY (Transition Year for my non Irish followers) and let me say now that it bored me to tears. Itâs got it all from the same basic Irish tunes youâve heard since 3rd class to every single rehashed Christmas song. Mind you they were preformed really well but to be forced to sit there and listen to it for 3 HOURS is so mentally draining itâs not even funny. We arrived there at like 7pm and it ended at 9pm. Finally after like 2000 years somehow jammed into 3 hours went by we were finally allowed leave and head back upstairs. Only to be told weâd have a fucking mass session at like 10pm because catholic school. So me being mentally drained from the concert did the only logical option. Hid in the bathroom for the entire session with a friend. We were in the same stall for like half an hour and you know what? We werenât caught! So finally we were allowed head back to our rooms.
All seemed decent for a bit after until the annoying fucks started going from having a rave in their room to outright anarchists in the span of like 20 minutes. At one point they burst into our room, turned the lights off and started throwing the tables around like they were Legos. After that they all ran out to the schools green house and tore that thing to shreds. I was able to get a glimpse at it coming home from town today and it looked like it was slashed with a knife with all the duck taped holes! Keep in mind, with two VR headsets, a couple of switches and someone's Xbox, there was probably over 1,500 euro in that room. So Iâd say it would be reasonable that we all mutually agreed to go âDEFCON 3âł. This basically consisted of barricading the door and basically black-listing people we didnât trust. (The doors in our school donât lock from the inside. This is in place because Iâm pretty sure younger kids kept locking classrooms to stop teachers from coming in. So we had to settle for this.)
Eventually the dumb cunts were found, dragged back in and the teachers said theyâd charge them for the damage they caused if no one owned up. So yea after that we were all worn out and got ready for bed. Eventually I fell asleep at around 2:30am? Wouldâve been fine until all the annoying fucks once again burst into our room at 3:30am!! This time it was because they had trashed their room so badly that they were forced out by teachers. That meant they funnelled into our room, talking as loud as humanly possible all without any consideration for the fact literally everyone in that room was fast asleep. Two of my friends and I got so pissed we grabbed our sleeping bags and just left to sleep somewhere else. Two assholes fucking mocked us as we were leaving and it took so much restraint to stop myself from turning around and stomping on one if them I swear. In total we got like 3 hours of sleep that night as they began to call us to wake up at 7am. We luckily got an extra hour as the teachers who came in that morning mistook us for teachers who supervised us. Eventually we all slowly get up, pack our shit and at that point I was mentally flattened. I was so exhausted I was basically had a full body resting bitch face. Eventually like an hour later I called home, was picked up and went straight back to bed. Overall that whole experience was like a 4/10 on itâs own. It had itâs good moments but they were overshadowed by the shit we had to deal with. I wonât rate this month yet as I still have Christmas and Softy and Vi coming over so Iâll rate it next month! If you read this far, thank you so much for reading! And I hope you enjoyed my wacky antics! See you next month!Â
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The Match - Part 7
Pairing: CEO!Bucky x Reader
Word Count: 3.6k (woops the longest part yet)
Summary: You finally decide to lower your pride and talk things out with Bucky.
Warnings: SMUT IS BACK BABIES! Oral (f receiving), edging, orgasm denial, also lots of alcohol consumption, Bucky stalking you, annoying people I guess? Uhhh yâall might want to strangle me at the end lmfaooooo
A/N: Iâm gonna be honest, every single time I update this I get nervous as fuck because what if this story starts to suck lmao but okay I just hope everyoneâs still enjoying this story. Thank you for the continuous support like fuck??? People actually like reading my shit so Iâm really flattered. Sending yâall sloppy kisses âcause Iâm a hoe like that
The Match Masterlist || MAIN MASTERLIST
"Uhh you might want to slow down on the drinks."
Mark was right about the bar serving the best drinks. It was actually a Mexican-themed bar which also served Tex-Mex food. The drinks were so good that the main course hasn't even arrived yet and you were already on your third frozen margarita.
"Let me have this, Mark. It's been a pretty shitty week." you told him, finishing up your drink before asking the waiter for another round.
Mark watched you with a funny look on his face, the kind that was baffled at the way you were acting now. He probably thought you were all prim and proper, given your demeanor at the office. But with the way you were stuffing your mouth with chicken quesadillas, you were far from being the department head that everybody seemed to respect.
Stress eating. That was what you were doing, because holy shit did you get on Bucky's last nerve. With the message, no, more like warning, that he sent you earlier, you might as well have your last meal before your execution.
"Are you sure you're okay?" Mark carefully asked but there was a hint of amusement in his voice as he watched you eat.
You hummed, mouth full of food. "Totally okay. These quesadillas are the bomb, actually."
Mark laughed, "It's good that you're enjoying the food. I'll be honest, I really appreciate that you agreed to go on this date. I mean, if you even would like to call it that." he explained, much to your relief actually.
You swallowed your food and took a sip from your glass of water, "Thank you." you told him. "Well, this can be a date. A friendly one, of course." you awkwardly chuckled.
Mark nodded, "I don't want to pressure you into anything. I guess I got a little to enthusiastic earlier and I'm really sorry for that. It's just that...you're a really interesting person and you're cool." he admitted with a charming smile.
If Bucky was out of the picture, you would have actually swooned at Mark's charm. He wasn't so bad, he was tall and handsome. He oozed a certain charm, the nice guy kind of charm and any girl would really appreciate the honesty he was showing you now.
You smiled at him, "You're pretty cool too, Mark."
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The friendly date was very fun, you definitely didn't expect to enjoy it to the point of forgetting about Bucky's warning. Mark was a nice guy, you realized. Bucky doesn't have to worry about him because it was never even your intention to make him jealous in the first place.
By the time the dessert was being served, you were bellowing from laughter. You literally had tears in your eyes from how hard Mark was making you laugh with his hilarious stories.
Little did you know that from someone else's point of view, you looked like you were having the time of your life with Mark. Your laughter, the ease you were exuding as the both of you talked-- it was very easy to misunderstand.
Especially if that point of view belonged to none other than Bucky, who was sitting silently inside his car that was parked right across the bar.
"Oh god, I can't breathe!" you exclaimed amid your laughter, leaning back against your seat.
Mark heaved out a shy, "That was really, really embarassing." he said timidly.
Mark's phone buzzed in the middle of the conversation, his face turning into a frown as he read the message.
"Hey, everything okay?" you worriedly asked.
"It's my younger sister. I'm needed back home." he explained with a sigh.
"Is everything okay?" you asked worriedly, holding Mark's arm to comfort him.
Mark nodded, "It's fine. It's just a little family emergency." he said before offering you an apologetic smile. "I'm sorry, I can drop you off on the way home--"
"Hey, it's fine. You can go. I'll be fine. Your family needs you." you reassured with a smile.
Mark sighed, "I'll make it up to you next time." he said, fishing out a couple of bills from his wallet.
You walked out of the bar with Mark and bid goodbye, giving him a friendly hug before he slipped inside his car. As soon as Mark drove off, you headed back inside the bar and ordered a couple of shots because you badly needed to get Bucky off your mind.
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Your head was pounding when you stirred awake, your throat burning and vision spinning as you opened your eyes. The light that greeted you made you hiss, pulling the covers over your head you tried to get back to your slumber.
Until you realized that the bed was soft, too soft to be your own. And when did you even own a duvet?
Slowly but surely, you sat up and looked around you, taking in the unfamiliar surroundings. This was definitely not your room. Shit, did you sleep with Mark? Fuck no, you remembered him going home early due to a family emergency.
You squeezed your temples and shut your eyes, trying your best to recall everything that happened after you went back to the bar. Flashes of tequila shots and glasses of mojitos made you dizzy. Jesus christ, how many did you drink?!
And then you threw up in the streets as you attempted to walk home. Shit. Someone pulled your hair back while you puked and then there was nothing but darkness.
Pulling the duvet down, you noticed that you weren't wearing anything but a white shirt and your panties. You lifted the shirt up to your nose and sniffed it.
The scent was too memorable to forget.
"I thought you wouldn't be up until the afternoon."
You stilled at the sound of Bucky's voice and you almost didn't want to look up from your lap when he walked into his bedroom. How the hell did you end up at his place?!
"Four frozen margaritas, two shots of tequila and two tall glasses of mojito. I'm surprised you're still alive." he said as he stood at the foot of the bed, his arms crossed over his broad chest.
He was wearing a tight black shirt and a pair of grey sweatpants. This was the most casual you'd ever seen Bucky, but also the most feral. You thought that the scowl he gave you at the elevator was the worst, apparently, this Bucky in front of you, seemed the most dangerous.
"Why am I here?" you asked softly.
Bucky rolled his eyes and walked over to the bed side table, fetching the glass of water and a bottle of painkillers that you failed to notice when you woke up.
"Drink." he commanded and waited for you to take the glass before moving back to stand at the foot of the bed.
Your eyes never left Bucky's when you popped a pill into your mouth. After drinking water, you carefully placed it back on the bedside table and exhaled heavily.
"What happened last night?" you asked again.
"Your date left you." Bucky said, matter of factly.
You snickered, "It wasn't a date and Mark didn't le--"
Your very own squeal cut your statement off when Bucky threw the duvet aside, grabbing your ankle and pulling you towards the edge of the bed until your legs were hanging off. He didn't waste any time to kneel in between your thighs, holding your neck in place as his nose brushed against yours.
Your lids fluttered at the closeness, his scent yet again invading your senses, making you lose all your inhibitions because fuck, it's been too fucking long.
"Let me have this, please..." Bucky whispered against your lips.
When you failed to respond, Bucky took it as his go signal to crash his lips against yours. You knew this was a bad idea because one taste of Bucky and you're gone and yet you let him take what he needed from you.
Because you needed him just as much. So you kissed him back fervently, your fingers carding through his hair as you tugged him closer, wanting to feel and taste all of him.
Bucky breathily chuckled when you whined as he pulled away, only to shower your neck with open-mouthed kisses which made your body buzz with need. Your head was still hurting and you felt like you were going to pass out from dizziness but fuck it, you couldn't care less. Especially not now when Bucky was now nipping at your inner thigh while his hands were spreading you wide open.
All your thoughts flew right out of the window the moment Bucky pushed your underwear aside, his mouth quickly latching over your clit. A needy, raspy moan escaped your lips when Bucky sucked your bud followed by his tongue flattening against your folds.
"Fuck, Bucky..." you breathed out, falling down on your back as he continued lapping up your pussy.
You'd almost forgotten how fucking good Bucky was with his mouth and tongue. You elicited another whimper when he pulled back, but only to stand up and pull down his sweatpants, revealing his cock-- already hard and weeping with pre-cum.
In one swift motion, Bucky slid into your cunt. He leaned down to kiss you, swallowing your moans as you adjusted to his size. With how your pussy was clenching down on his cock, you realized that indeed, it's been too fucking long.
Bucky moved slow at first, letting you adjust to him before he began to speed up his thrusts. His breathing was erratic, soft grunts and growls reverberating from his chest as he fucked you. You gripped his forearms when he started pistoling his hips into yours, the head of his cock kissing your cervix.
"Want you to watch me fuck you." he growled, pulling you up to lean against your elbows.
Bucky held your neck with both his hands, forcing you to look down at your pussy while his cock slides in and out of it. Your face scrunched into pleasure, your mouth open as moans and whimpers continued to escape past your lips.
"Keep your eyes on my cock, see how your pussy takes all of it." Bucky demanded as he fucked you relentlessly.
Your thighs began to tremble, your entire body thrumming from pleasure. You tried to keep your eyes open as you watched Bucky fuck you fast and hard. Clawing at his biceps, you held on for dear life when you felt yourself teeter at the edge of your climax.
"Gonna cum, Bucky..." you moaned as your eyelids fluttered.
Bucky kissed your hard, taking your bottom lip in between his teeth before tugging at it. He pressed a soft kiss beneath your ear, licking at your skin before sucking your earlobe.
"Remember this when that Marcus fails to fuck you real good." he whispered and then pulled out just before you could even cum.
You blinked, unable to process what just happened. Bucky stood up and pulled his sweatpants back up. He rubbed his chin angrily before turning to you.
"You really blew me off to be with a guy who left you at the bar." he said.
Bucky really seduced you, fucked you raw only to edge you and deny you of your fucking orgasm. And now he was reprimanding you? While your legs were spread, panties pushed aside and your wet pussy out there for the world to see. You quickly adjusted your underwear, pulled your shirt down and sat up.
"What the fuck, Bucky?" you hissed. "First of all, his name is Mark. Second, he didn't leave me at the bar!" you exclaimed before you realized something.
"Wait, how did you know?" you asked, finally realizing that Bucky seemed to know everything that took place last night. "Bucky, did you follow me at the bar? Is this why I'm here?" you asked, standing up to come face to face with him.
Bucky shrugged, "So what if I did? If I didn't, you'd wake up in the streets, in your own vomit because again, you went for a guy who couldn't even bring her girl home. You should actually thank me." he said.
"Thank you!" you yelled. "I appreciate you bringing me back to your place. I really do." you said, calmly this time. "But can you please not bring Mark into this because he's a nice guy." you explained, squeezing the bridge of your nose.
Bucky snorted, "You call that nice? He left you!" he said again.
"He didn't! There was an emergency, for fuck's sake! He needed to go home and I said I can take care of myself." you said. "I shouldn't even be explaining myself to you yet I am because you're being really irrational right now." you scolded Bucky.
Bucky shook his head, "You really expect me to believe you? I saw how you laughed with him, how carefree you looked when you talked. How you caressed his arm and you're asking me not to bring Mickey into this conversation?"
You hid your face into your palms, "It wasn't a date, Bucky. We both made it clear. And he's a good person, I enjoyed talking to him. That's it. And again, it's Mark." you said through gritted teeth.
"Not a date my ass, you were flirting with him." Bucky accused.
You scoffed, "I wasn't flirting with him! I was casually talking to him like how a friend would! How hard is that to understand, Bucky?!" you exclaimed.
"You were never like that with me!"
"It's because we did nothing but fuck each other, Bucky!"
"That's why I wanted to make it official but you said no!"
"I already told you the reason why!"
"And yet you went out with a co-worker!"
"We're not just co-workers, Bucky. You're my fucking boss! The fucking CEO! How many times do I have to...you know what, it's useless for me to even explain it again to you." you said.
Bucky chuckled bitterly, "You're going to regret this." he said with a sinister smirk.
"Why can't you understand where I'm coming from?" you asked exasperatedly.
"Maybe because you won't let me help you." he said confidently. "And you know what I hate the most about this thing we have? It's that you want me too but you're too stubborn to give in. And you know what? I'll make sure you do." Bucky said, towering over you and staring deeply in your eyes.
"What I want, I always get."
-
The weekend passed by like a blur-- a huge, messy blur that made your head and heart hurt. You wanted to spend the weekend to ponder on things, to forget about Bucky even for just a while and now that was impossible after everything that happened.
You caved in first, that was for sure. And the thing is, you don't even regret it but then Bucky exploded and now everything seemed to have gotten worse. You understood why he was so mad at Mark, poor guy though, but he wouldn't even listen to you when you said that the date wasn't even a legitimate one!
"What the fuck did I get myself into?" you uttered under your breath as you sat in your car in the parking.
You began to analyze the situation you were in and drew out possible solutions to your dilemma. Nothing a good conversation can't solve, right? So maybe talking things out with Bucky properly would make things right. The previous conversations you had with him were always too emotional with both your egos getting in the way.
Alright fine, you'd tone down your pride for Bucky this time around and tell him that you do want to be with him. It's just that the repercussions scared the living daylights out of you.
You can't afford to lose your job nor everyone's respect. So if you were going to do this with Bucky, he has to understand that he has to be really careful. Everything must be done in secret, for the meantime at least.
"That sounds about right." you sighed, feeling hopeful that this might actually work out.
The shift in your mood gave you a little bounce as you walked into the building. You were confident that maybe Bucky was able to calm down over the weekend. Perhaps today was a good day to have a decent talk with him.
As soon as you reached your floor, you hurriedly went to your cubicle to drop your things. The earlier you get to talk to Bucky, the better. So as soon as you were done, you jogged back to the elevator excitedly, unable to notice how everyone seemed to be preoccupied gossiping about something.
Your heart was pounding as you walked along the corridor leading to Bucky's office. Fuck, you were really going to risk it all for one Bucky Barnes. You were a few steps away from the door, ready to reach for the knob when an unfamiliar voice called your attention.
"I'm sorry?" you asked, turning around.
"Sir James said not to let anyone disturb him right now." you were met with the presence of a blonde girl who looked younger than you, an intern maybe?
You nodded but then spared another glance at Bucky's office. "Yeah, I uhh need to talk to him. It's usually not a problem for me to barge into his office." you explained with a soft chuckle.
The girl made a face, "I'm sorry, but I'm just following Sir James' orders." she explained, walking around the desk near Bucky's office.
"I don't think we've met. Are you an intern?" you asked, trying to be as nice as much as possible.
The girl giggled, straight on giggled cutely and stood up again. She excitedly extended an arm for an overly eager handshake, "I'm Beverly. I'm Sir James' secretary. It's my first job!"
You blinked, "Oh...oh uh what happened to Amelie?" you asked, curious about Bucky's previous secretary.
Beverly tilted her head, "I don't know. I just got a call over the weekend from Sir James, offering me the job so I accepted it. I mean, he is pretty cute. Right?" she said in a soft voice.
Is this Bucky's plan? To hire a younger, more bubbly secretary who'd follow his every order? Someone who was the complete opposite of you? Because if this was his plan to get you to cave, it wasn't working. At all.
Sure, Beverly was pretty and young and very chirpy. But you were sure she wasn't Bucky's type. He was never into obedient little girls, hell, your defiance turned Bucky on. This was definitely not working.
You didn't know why, but instead of relief you felt even more nervous. Because if this wasn't Bucky's threat to you, what could it be? You snapped out of your pessimism, maybe Bucky came around over the weekend too?
Only one way to find out.
"Beverly..." you carefully said. "I'm just going to go inside. And don't worry, I'll make sure that Mister Barnes won't get mad at you. This is all me, alright?" you reassured.
Beverly pouted and sighed, "I don't know, because he was very clear with his instructions. And he's talking to--"
"I got you, Bev. I'm going in now." you said, cutting her off and then going straight for Bucky's office.
Taking in a deep breath, you pushed the door open and wasted no time to talk.
"Hey, I really need to talk to you. I thought about--"
"Oh, who's this little lady?"
Your eyes widened upon seeing Bucky in the company of another woman. She looked like she was around your age, except that she was taller and had legs for days. Her brunette hair reached past her shoulders in lovely waves. She was wearing a white chiffon blouse paired with a pair of black trousers and matching stilettos.
She oozed the charm of a lady boss. The way she carried herself reminded you of someone but you just couldn't point out who it was.
"I'm sorry to interrupt." you said, straightening up and turning to look over at Bucky who lifted a brow at you.
That fucking look of mischief.
"I told Beverly not to let anyone in." he said.
"I just wanted to--"
"Oh come on now, Bucky. Don't be so grumpy this early, you were about to call everyone for a meeting anyway." the woman said, turning to you with a smile.
Did she just call him...Bucky?
Shit. Shit. Shit.
Bucky rolled his eyes and sighed, "Yeah, well you're already here might as well introduce you first."
You narrowed your eyes at Bucky in confusion, "I don't understand what's going on." you said.
Bucky stood up from his chair and walked over to the other woman, standing beside her. Seeing them side by side was making you feel things. You haven't even seen them interact that much but you were already sensing that you were going to hate their dynamics.
"This is Mackenzie. I hired her to help us out on a huge project which I will be discussing with the entire team this morning." Bucky introduced a little too proudly for your liking.
Mackenzie offered her hand, "You can just call me Kenzie. I'm a marketing consultant. And you are?" she asked.
Your blood boiled, your eye twitched and your heart ached. Because now you realized who it was that Mackenzie reminded you of when it came to her charisma.
You.
And not only did she have a similar personality to yours-- confident and had authority-- but she also seemed to be here to take the one thing you worked so hard for.
You offered a smile, taking Mackenzie's hand in yours as you mentioned your name, your piercing eyes glancing over at Bucky.
"I'm the head of marketing."
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ambivalence blurb: escort - rafe cameron
a/n: im sorry this gif literally fits so well i cant handle it lmao. this is the last one before the epilogue!! i'm so excited. please leave me a comment, let me know what you think! xoxo
Warnings: swearing, underage drinking
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Topper sprawls himself on the floor of your living room, throwing Scott's mini basketball up in the air and catching it with ease. He look bored, and the reason for that is simple. He is.
"Isn't that weird?" you ask him, lounging on the couch.
"Yes," he sighs, agreeing with you because he has to, "Very weird that Rafe was staring at you a lot last night."
"I know," you continue, ignoring his bored, emotionless voice, "I mean, what the hell is his issue?"
"Who knows," Topper replies, throwing the ball up once more.
"God, I wish we didn't have these stupid dinners. I mean, it's bad enough my parents bring up college every time we sit down, and now Rafe?"
Topper groans once again, "I think you're overreacting a little."
"Really?" you raise a brow.
He sits up now, staring directly at you, "Well, what were you wearing last night?"
"I - shut up, idiot," you roll your eyes.
"I'm just saying, maybe he thinks you're hot."
It's a risky step, and Topper knows it. But, his patience with Rafe has run thin. If he can gauge your feelings toward Rafe, he can handle the situation from here on out.
"Trust me, he doesn't. We don't even talk to each other."
Topper frowns, "Do you ever try to talk to him?"
"No," you admit.
"Maybe you should."
You swallow his words, then shrug. What the hell would be the point in making friends with Rafe? Just so the two of you could have mediocre small talk once a week while you listen to your dads talk business? Nothing great would come out of it, you're sure.
"So, you wanna watch something tonight? Order Chinese?" you change the subject, holding your hands up in the air.
He tosses you the ball with ease, giving you a beat to throw it back before he responds.
"Can't," he replies, "Plans with the guys."
Your jaw falls, "You just let me ramble on about Rafe, and now you're hanging out with him tonight?"
"Relax," Topper laughs, throwing you the ball once more, "I'd never tell him anything."
Mostly because it would hurt his feelings, he thinks. Just telling Rafe about this conversation would upset him.
"I'm not worried about that."
Topper raises his eyebrows, but ultimately decides not to comment further on that statement. He just stands up, throws the ball at you one last time, then reaches for his keys and wallet.
"Can I give you a friendly word of advice?" he speaks, looking mindlessly at his phone, "Maybe, I don't know, just open your mind up to the possibility of it."
"It?" you question.
"Rafe," he clarifies, "Maybe, he's not as bad as you seem to think he is."
"I'll think about it," you shrug, more or less to get him to let it go.
Topper smiles successfully, then walks over and ruffles his hand through your hair. It irritates you, just like he knew it would, and laughs when you swat at his arm. You know he's leaving, but you don't want him to.
"You sure you don't want to ditch them?"
He chuckles, "I can't. I'm sorry. It's a late birthday thing for Kelce, and you know how seriously he takes his birthday."
"I do," you smile.
"Talk to you later," he gives you a small smile.
"Have fun," you call, watching him walk toward the front door. He turns back and gives you a wave, then leaves you alone to find a way to fill your time.
"You think he's for real?"
"Moving on?"
"Yes. Look at him, bro."
"Whatever the fuck he's talking about, he's super into it."
Topper and Kelce are frozen in the middle of the crowded floor at the bar, staring at Rafe as he leans heavily on the bar, practically relying on it to help him remain upright. This girl had approached him about ten minutes ago, and the boys had been captivated ever since, watching their best friend work the magic they both knew he had, but rarely uses.
"She's hot as fuck," Kelce laughs.
"She is," Topper agrees, downing the rest of his drink, "Gonna go see if he needs a wingman."
Topper, who is on his way to dangerously drunk, stumbles over to his best friend, ready to order another drink. He doesn't let Rafe see him coming, wanting to overhear his game.
"And, y'know, she's been wearing her hair differently lately-" Rafe slurs, leaning closer to the girl, "All wavy. Drives me fuckin' insane. I mean, she'd drive me crazy any way, but - did I show you a picture?"
"You showed me four."
"Oh," Rafe frowns, draining the rest of his glass.
"She's beautiful," she smiles politely, setting her hand on his arm.
"Isn't she?" Rafe nods, signaling the bartender for another.
Topper clenches his jaw and sighs, slapping Rafe hard on the shoulder to get his attention.
"Dude," Topper hisses when Rafe spins.
"Buddy!" Rafe cheers, "Look, c'mere, this is-"
Rafe closes his eyes, focusing all his attention on trying to remember the girl's name. He hears her chuckle from behind him, and his shoulders fall.
"Brooke," she waves to Topper.
"Hi, Brooke. I'm Topper, and you know Rafe, yeah?" he waits for her to nod before he continues, "You'll have to forgive his bitch ass for blabbing about this girl. Trust me, he's very single."
As if to tempt Rafe to agree, Topper slaps him again on the back. Rafe just rocks with the hit, then yanks his fresh drink off the bar.
"Not looking though," Rafe waves his drink through the air, "Sorry, Brooke."
"It's okay," she laughs, and much to Topper's surprise, Brooke takes a seat for the first time since she'd come over to speak to him.
"Stop talking about Y/N," Topper hisses in his ear.
Rafe shakes his head, "Can't. All I think about. Should get her to come out here."
"She's not going to want to come to a club when you're drunk off your ass, Cameron," Topper grunts.
"Call her, then. Just wanna hear her voice. Please."
Topper glances to Brooke, who's smiling sadly at the drunk boy. When she looks up at Topper, she just shrugs.
"I told him he needs to tell her about his feelings. Maybe calling her is a good idea," Brooke volunteers, earning a point and an approving nod from Rafe.
"Bro, I don't think-"
"You're such a dick, Top," Rafe grunts, swiping Topper's phone from his hand, "What's y'password?"
"Rafe, you have her phone number."
"She won't pick up for me."
Brooke and Topper both watch as he pauses after he speaks, swallowing down his emotions and his pride as those words float through the air and straight into his heart. He looks up after a moment and tries different four number combinations to gain entry into Topper's phone.
"Fine," Topper agrees, taking his phone back from Rafe, "But, you always wind up breaking your own heart, man."
"Yeah, yeah," Rafe waves him off, swallowing even more of his drink as the excitement of her being close, even just her voice, builds in his chest.
Topper dials her, against his better judgement, and relaxes when it rings four times. She's busy, she won't pick up. Rafe will have to let this bullshit go.
"Hello?"
Rafe's lips part, but no sound comes out. He's frozen, unsure of what to say, or if he should even say anything.
"Hey," Topper scrambles, only now realizing he has no idea what to say.
"Hey, Top. What's up?"
Rafe hums at the sound of her voice, letting his eyes close as he breathes her in. Brooke reaches up and rubs his back, but he doesn't even feel it. He just feels her.
"Um," Topper shrugs at Rafe, "Kelce's drunk ass has nobody to flirt with. Wanna come out?"
She laughs, and Rafe swears he's never heard a more beautiful sound.
"Miss her," he says to Brooke, attempting to whisper, but failing when Topper shoves his shoulder.
"Should've asked me hours ago. Guess what I'm doing right now?"
Rafe's eyes pop open, furrowing his eyebrows at Topper, "What?"
"John B asked me to hang out. I'm heading over to his place."
Rafe feels his heart fall to his feet, head swaying around as he starts to feel the amount of alcohol hitting him. The image of her hanging out with anyone, let alone someone like John B, the only form of torture that can actually get to him.
"Oh," Topper fakes enthusiasm, patting Rafe's shoulder, "Shit. That's good. You into him?"
Rafe inhales sharply, awaiting her answer.
"Yes," she laughs, her grin noticeably wide, even through the phone.
"Good, good," Topper nods, "Have fun. Details at work tomorrow, yeah?"
"For sure," she replies, "Be safe, Top. Have a good night."
"Thanks. Bye."
He gives Rafe a sympathetic smile, but doesn't say anything this time. He'd warned him beforehand, and there's only so many times Topper can tell Rafe to move on before he no longer feels sad for the guy.
Instead, he orders another drink, then tells Rafe he's going to go find Kelce. Rafe just nods and waves him away, unable to get the picture of her and John B out of his head. He turns to the side, realizing Brooke is still beside him.
"I'm sorry," she brushes his arm, "She just doesn't know how lucky she is."
He looks over at her, a somber expression lining his eyes, creasing his forehead. Her heart breaks for him; maybe it's the alcohol, maybe it's her desire to be loved like that.
"I'm the lucky one, Brooke," he sighs, "Sit beside her once a week and stare at her. Can't even help it, how do you not stare at someone who looks like that, y'know? Even if I never get her, even if John fucking Routledge gets her, least I know her. Know her better than anyone."
Brooke smiles, "Why won't you tell her then, Rafe? I mean, what would you lose?"
"What would I lose?" he repeats, scoffing as he swallows even more of his drink, "Her. She doesn't feel the same. S'obvious. She wouldn't sit next to me anymore, if she even would come to dinners at all. Take what I have now over nothin' at all. One day, Brooke. One day, she'll notice me. Swear it."
She motions to the bartender, then orders a drink before she speaks again, "I really hope so. You deserve to be loved back."
With one last encouraging pat, Brooke takes her fresh drink and stands up, moving away from the boy. Topper and Kelce find him soon after, all three of them relying on each other to remain upright as they await their Uber. When they arrive back at Tannyhill, Rafe so drunk that he falls into the bushes in the front yard, yet he doesn't feel a thing. All he feels, all he sees, is her.
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jesus christ that was the wildest 15 hrs of my entire life like shit actually sounds like fanfic BC I DIDNT KNOW THEY MADE MEN LIKE THIS IN REAL LIFE I MIGHT CRY
jesus oh my god okay so i went out with my friends last night and we went to this club and met these 2 guys (1 of whom i thought was so so cute and has the prettiest blue eyes - weâll call him âmy dudeâ for the sake of this story). they started talking to us and i told my friend that he was very cute and she got so eager to pair us up
anyway nothing really happened lol until like 4am and he asked me if i wanted to go outside to smoke and i said yes, which is honestly such a big moment for me bc i got out of my comfort zone while normally i would say no or bring one of my friends as backup bc iâm socially awkward as heck. but me and my dude actually click so much omg like our convos are even playful ??
anyway we didnât even end up smoking, we just sat outside and talked for an hour until all my friends got out of the club and saw us. they saw me rubbing my arms and sitting uncomfortably and thought i didnât know how to say no to my dude so they went and asked me. and he told me later on that he freaked out when he thought i was uncomfortable and started wondering what he did wrong but lmao in truth i was just kinda cold and didnât wanna wear my jacket đ
ok so my friends all left after confirming that i was ok sitting alone w my dude. literally there was a point where a completely sober man walked past, looked us straight in the eyes and said âhe wants to fuck you.â đđđ anyway a little more talk, we started kissing until my friend called me and interrupted us by asking if we wanna hang at a random personâs apartment right around the corner and so we went. he started putting his arm around me and stuff and lmao this simple ass gesture made me swoon like a mf
next up! after we went to the apartment, i thought we were just gonna walk around a lil before going our separate ways. but erhm we ended up at his apartment and honestly i kinda knew what would happen lol. but when we got to his place we just talked for over an hour until we were completely sober before erhm.. stuff ensues. anyway stuff ensues, but i was really tense for some reason and i just couldnât fully relax and so erhm we stopped in the middle of it when we realized neither of us is getting there đđđ but like throughout the whole thing he was so sweet like he kept asking me if i was uncomfortable, if this/that was ok, that it was all about me and whatnot, and afterwards he told me to not feel bad and that itâs not my fault abcxyz
anyway then we just lied there and talked for another hour before he rolled a joint and then we moved to the balcony to smoke it but before we went out he handed me his jacket and i was like ?? and he said itâs cold out and i melted into a puddle right then and there
ok then we went back to his room and lied down again and just talked for yet another hour before he got too tired and wanted to take a nap bc neither of us slept the whole night. itâs like he expected me to stay and nap w him or smth?? cuz he asked me if we should set our alarm for 4 hrs and i said i had to dip. and before i left i got all tongue tied and shyly told him he has pretty eyes again and he was like, âdo you want me to give you closure?â and omg i was like.. oh.. disappointed but at least heâs still somewhat decent i guess ?? anyway i asked him what that meant and he asked me out on a coffee date next week. and he kissed me before i left
but erhm, sad note: heâs here on exchange and heâs leaving in 3 weeks đ
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hi again :)) its yet again the brand new tumblr user lmao,, ok so like could i maybe request karlnapity x ftm reader? like so basically they all video call and when yn speaks everyone's like "YOOO YOUR VOICW DROPPED SO MUCH" and they're all simping for him :))
As someone who is ftm themselves this made me really excited and I had a lot of fun while writing this. I hope you enjoy!
Summary: You unknowingly surprise your boyfriends when you finally join in to their group call
Genre: Fluff
Pairing: Karlnapity X Reader
Pronouns: He/Him
[A/n]: Requests are open! :] <3
Kicking off your shoes and hanging your coat up you let out an excited sigh. After waiting for what felt like months you would finally get to do a group call with all three of your boyfriends.
You guys would prefer to call more often as a group but with different time zones and different schedules, it can get pretty tough. Though tonight was a night you guys would all be available!
You sadly were joining a tad late due to work but the boys said they didnât mind as long as you joined in eventually.
Walking into your office and powering up your computer you buzzed with excitement. Opening up the app that you all called on and finding your chat you saw the boys were in call together.
Joining in you heard Sapnap telling a story.
âAnd at that point, I was ready to roundhouse kick the dog-â Though his story was quickly interrupted by Karl.
â(Y/n)!!! Youâre here!!! How was work? How have you been?â You couldnât help but giggle at his words.
âHold on Karl, Iâm interested in what Sapnap was talking about.â The call went silent for a moment after you spoke.
âHey, is something wrong?â Your excited tone was quickly overtaken by a nervous and sad one.
âHoly shit dude, your voice has dropped so much since we last talked! What the hell!â Quackity was the first to speak, his words triggering the other two into responding as well.
âWho are you and whereâs the real (y/n)? Your voice is too deep to belong to my boyfriends.â Sapnapâs playful questioning made you laugh.
âHoly shit even your laugh is so sexy, brb gonna die.â Karlâs words made you laugh even more.
Calming down from your little giggle fit you couldnât help but try to defend yourself.
âI donât think itâs gotten that deep has it? I didnât really notice.â
âWell itâs not Corpse deep but holy shit, like damn how did you not notice?â Quackityâs question was rhetorical but you still shrugged anyways.
âYeah like Quack said, itâs not super deep but itâs definitely dropped enough for us to notice.â
âNot that Iâm complaining.â
âI donât think any of us are.â Their playful words made a soft red rise to your cheeks.
âYou guys are goofballs.â
âYeah but weâre your goofballs, you goofballâ You chuckled at Sapnaps words.
âI am literally in love with your laugh, (y/n) please never stop laughing.â
âI can die happy after hearing his laugh.â
âIf you die I call dibs on your hat!â
âJust because I said I could die happy doesnât mean itâs gonna happen anytime soon!â All four of you burst into laughter.
âWhat am I gonna do with you guys?â The question was meant to be rhetorical but that didnât stop Karl from answering.
âGive us kisses?â Everyone chuckled at Karlâs answer.
âNext time I see you guys in person I will give you kisses.â Cheers erupted from the three boys, bringing a cheery smile to your face.
Once the overall rowdiness died down the four of you began chatting about anything and everything that came to mind. Of course with the occasional comment on your voice from one of your three boys.
Though sadly as the conversations continued, so did the hours passing by. Before any of you realized it was well past midnight and even though it was the weekend tomorrow that didnât mean you could stay up forever.
With a sad smile, you all said goodbyes and love youâs, though Karl, Sapnap, and Quackity had a few extra things to say.
âMake sure youâre taking care of yourself, eating every day, and drinking water every day. Donât forget to do things like shower and brush your teeth, and other stuff like that.â
âI will, I will. And the same to all three of you guys.â
âDonât overwork yourself too much, I know work can be tough sometimes but that doesnât mean it has to be tough on you too.â
âI know, and I will take it easy. I promise. But you three gotta promise to do the same, no overwhelming yourself for any dumb videos or anything.â
âWe promise. Also, can you start sending like weekly voice messages to the group chat? I not only miss your voice but after hearing your voice drop so much since last time I wanna be able to hear it more.â
âOf course Karl, anything for my baby.â
âHey what about us?â
âYou guys are my babies too.â
âUh sure, youâre just saying that.â
âOk Quackity, if thatâs how itâs gonna be Iâll just send the voice updates to Karl and Sapnap, youâll have to wait till next call to hear me.â
âIâm kidding, Iâm kidding.â You all laughed at his swift response. You too were kidding but he already knew that.
âAlright, I really should get going now. Night guys, love you.â
âLove you too.â âNight babe, love you too.â âGoodnight! I love you tooooo!â
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I JUST READ YOUR VETERANS WITH FILIPINO S/O AND IM SO PROUD WCEIWVEHHW, can i also request a veteran reaction to like, their s/o gets flirted with a guy and their s/o is totally oblivious. (also, nanaba is very cute, ate nana đâ)
wait but this is such a good request 𼺠maybe thatâs just me, I like jealous headcanons lmao-
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AOT VETERANS JEALOUS HCS WITH OBLIVIOUS S/O!!
[author note: I have a few fic requests in my inbox rn! Please dw if u requested a fic, it takes me a little longer to write fics than headcanons so please donât think Iâm ignoring your request! I also had to rewrite this, I had a bad weekend and tumblr keeps deleting my drafts but I still want to provide for my followers, so I apologize that itâs only half of the veterans! Iâll add Nanaba and Moblit once I do get the motivation too! ]
Summary: S/O getâs flirted with, vets are big jealous babies.
Gender Neutral Reader.
Recommended Song: How Long - Charlie Puth.
TW: some swearing, suggestive themes, yucky boys hitting on you.
Theme: Fluff, canonverse.
Characters: Erwin, Hange, Levi, Miche.
Erwin Smith
Honestly even he couldnât tell at first that the noble man (lets call him, Gene.) you were talking to was flirting with you.
You were absolutely oblivious, you think Gene is just having a conversation with you and Gene thinks you like him.
When Erwin notices it, at first heâs like âhmm, maybe Readerâs talking business with him.â And then Gene kissed the back of your hand, in which he felt his eye twitching. He started pouting really bad, he looked like a kicked puppy from across the ballroom. He didnât want to be rude, so he kept reassuring himself that it was a friendly gesture.
You were absolutely clueless, like âthis is fine.â clueless. You had no idea Gene was trying his hardest to court you. Until You felt Erwin behind you, that is.
You know those big coughs that you do to get someoneâs attention. Yeah, Erwin coughed REALLY loud. Mind you, Erwin probably towers most nobles. So imagine the face on Gene when he saw this tall, titan-slaying commander towering over him. I think he almost peed his pants honestly, he was like âuh..it was nice meeting you, miss Last name, but uh..I- I uhm.. Igottago-â
Yeah he speed-walked his scared ass outta there, you were kinda just like âwhat?â You saw Erwinâs shadow and just turned around with the cutest smile on your face.
âErwin!â You chirped, he softened his glare on the noble and looked at you, cue his pout coming back. âYou really didnât know?â
âKnow what?â You asked, walking with him, hand in hand. You guys were walking back to your carriage to go home for the night.
âReader, he was flirting with you, quite literally trying to court you.â Erwin groaned, his jealousy starting to show. You were still a bit confused, so you just stared at him with a blank expression.
âHe was just being nice Erwin, come on.â You nudged his arm, trying to get him to loosen up, he looked at you, in which you looked at him with puppy dog eyes, in response he groaned, being a sucker for your puppy dog eyes.
He huffed, âyouâre staying back at the headquarters from now on.â Your eyes widened slightly, âWhat?! Why?!â You shook him arm. âBecause I donât want you being flirted with, youâre mine reader, and Iâm yours.â Erwin squished your cheeks together.
âOwf Cwouse Iâm youws-â you took his hands off your cheek. âYouâre the only man for me,â you laughed as you entered the carriage.
âNow get in, Iâm feeling a little empty inside and youâre the only who can fix that.â
Levi Ackerman
Oh dear, if youâre willing to flirt with the Levi Ackermanâs S/O, youâre basically asking for a death wish.
He usually isnât too jealous when it comes to someone flirting with his S/O genuinely because heâs either busy doing something or he isnât there at all but...
Heâs not called Humanityâs Strongest for nothing. Both of you were in charge for training the cadets. You were known for your kind behaviour, so obviously a lot of the cadets would ask for your training.
In which Levi was okay with because, duh less work for him. He was doing fine until he glanced at you and saw a male cadet getting a little too close. (calling him, Sam.)
You guys were in a secret relationship at the time, he didnât want anyone teasing you or him about anything so both of you kept it a secret.
See, he regrets that decision right now because itâs really a pain in the ass to see Sam acting like he doesnât know the moves when he knows damn well he taught the brat those moves a week ago.
So with a clenched jaw, he glared at Sam as you were behind the cadet, teaching him the same move Levi taught him.
Levi looked across the field to see you behind Sam, helping him strike his punch correctly, he felt angered and a little jealous, watching you be so touchy with him.
He sighed and shook his head, trying to calm himself to keep him from doing something, that is until he watched as Sam tripped you just so he could âcatchâ you. He caught you in those romantic poses.
You werenât really paying attention to what he was trying to achieve and instead thanked him, unaware of his plan to kiss you. You tried to get out of Samâs hold, until you realized that Sam was getting close to you.
You were about to start freaking out until someone pulled you into their arms, you looked at your âsaviourââs face, seeing itâs Levi. âWhat the fuck do you think youâre doing to a section commander, cadet?â Sam gulped, walking back. âJust making sure captain Readerâs okay, captain Levi.â Sam saluted, sweating profusely.
âThat requires you tripping them and almost kissing them?â Leviâs eyebrow raised as his arm tightened against your waist, thatâs when a lightbulb lights up in your mind, âIs..is Levi jealous??â âuh well-â Sam tried to explain himself, âI taught you this move last week, you have no excuse to ask for captain Readerâs help.â
A scowl was long planted on Leviâs face. Sam scoffed, âOkay, so I wanted to court captain Reader, but Sir, theyâre single, you canât blame for wanting to court them.â Levi took a step forward, you prevented him from beating Sam up.
âTheyâve got a boyfriend.â He spat out, basically death staring Sam down. âAnd whoâs that?â Sam laughed out.
Levi clicked his tongue, before you knew it, Leviâs lips were on yours. âMe.â He stated.
Hange ZĂśe
Hange, they usually are chill most of the times, to be honest they donât get too jealous, itâs only when itâs painfully obvious, thatâs when it starts to tick them off.
I mean, making Levi Ackerman mad is one thing, but Hange?? Iâm already planning your funeral. One of the corpsâ rules, never ever make Hange ZĂśe mad.
It does not help when their S/O absolutely is oblivious.Â
Hange starts off with being a little skeptical and glancing at you from afar. then it becomes a stare once in a while, and then their mood gets soiled.
they start to become irritated, at this one garrison squad member (letâs name him Avery) talking with you. You should actually be helping them with their experiments.
And they snap when they see you being offered a flower.
Little clueless Reader, just confirmed Averyâs death, itâs been signed this point on.
You could hear AND feel Hangeâs stomps nearing both you and Avery.
God help the poor garrison member, because theyâre about to be sent to heaven with how jealous and irritated Hange is.
âHey, Avery.â Hangeâs voice cut through your guysâ conversation, âHange!â you chirped, holding onto the flower Avery had gifted you. âHange! Youâve met Reader here right?â Avery asked, also unaware of Hangeâs attitude.
âyes, theyâre actually my partner.â Hangeâs teeth was gritted as they took their rightful place beside you, pulling you close. Cue the awkward silence, âOh my god, Hange Iâm so sorry, I thought they were you know-â Hange didnât even let him finish.Â
âJust get the fuck out, Avery.â Hange gave him a glare that almost made Avery shit his pants. âYes captain!â He saluted and left before Hange could murder him. âWhat was that about, Hange?â You asked as they took the flower out of your hand.
âHe was courting you, and you were letting him, darling.â Hange stated, as you covered your mouth with your hand, âOh! Iâm sorry Hange! Darn it, Iâm so oblivious.â You scolded yourself.
âItâs good you can still remember that you belong to me.â Hange continued, inspecting the flower gifted to you. âOf course, you only, Hange.â You agreed, looking at them.Â
âWanna prove it to me then, Reader?â
Miche Zacharias
Miche is kind of like a grizzly bear, you should never be around him when heâs mad or jealous.Â
He tends to be more aggressive when it comes to him being irritated, I donât mean to headcanon him as a wolf, but I know he just growls when a little thing goes wrong.
Heâs possessive over you now, but now heâs basically just suffocating you with his over-protectiveness.
I feel as if he can tell when someone has some kind of weird scent, and it basically spoils everything he can smell.
He tends to hover around you once he gets jealous, heâll get clingy and probably need to have you touching him somehow, holding hands, side by side. He just needs to be touching you.
Heâs the type of person to also just, push away who ever youâre talking with, and just drag you away.Â
One time, you and him went on a date and the person who worked there hit on you right in front of him, Miche made him almost piss his pants.
Miche and you were out at an event for survery corps members, celebrating your recent successes with your latest expedition. Miche was with Erwin and Levi while you chatted up a storm with a noble named Walter.Â
Miche could feel himself about to break his glass, watching you and Walter laugh together. âSo, are you seeing anyone?â Walter asked, you stopped laughing, shocked that heâd ask you that question out of nowhere.
âWhat?-â At this point Walter had a hold of both of your hands, you were absolutely still in place, âActually donât mind that, can I court you?â A big smile was on Walterâs face, wondering about your answer. âI-âÂ
âYou actually canât, they have a boyfriend.â Miche had long appeared behind you, towering over both you and Walter. You closed your eyes, in a bit of relief, âYes, this is Miche, heâs a section commander and my boyfriend.â You smiled, hooking your hand with Micheâs, silently hoping that Walter would leave you both alone.
âAh, Iâm terribly sorry, I thought you didnât have a partner, thatâs my fault.â Walter quickly apologized, seeing how intimidating Miche was. âwell, I-..I should go, it was lovey meeting you and your boyfriend, Reader.â Walter speed-walked his way out of his situation, leaving you with a pouty and jealous Miche.Â
âWhy talk to those who look like they have it tiny, Reader?â
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3,637 words tw: sad shit bc spoiler: someone dies, italics are flashbacks, bold is a letter i don't have a holland reader banner so i used the olivia banner instead. also, sorry for the delay of posting this lmao
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You were in your room, sitting on your bed as your eyes looked around. Your room was painted your favorite color and it made your brothers jealous because their rooms were painted white, it was boring. Yours had posters, polaroids of you and your siblings, fairy lights, a bean bag chair, and a simple full body mirror. You heard a knock on your door and you looked to see that it was Tom smiling brightly with a plate of your favorite cookies.
âHey.â He said softly as he entered the room and shut the door behind him with his foot while balancing the plate of cookies in his hands.
âHi.â You smiled.
âSam kicked me out of the kitchen, but I was there first and fortunately, I finished the cookies on time. I hope they taste alright.â Tom said as he sat beside you, the plate of cookies in between you.
âThey smell good, so you did a good job.â You chuckled. Tom took one cookie and looked at you, âTaste test.â
He took a bite and chewed it a few times before saying, âIt tastes alright. Itâs not like how Sam makes it, but Iâm not Sam. Iâm Tom.â
Both of you erupted into a fit of giggles as you talked about random things. The plate of cookies were now on your bedside table and only half of the cookies were eaten.
âHey, howâs your friend?â Tom asked casually. Both of you were laying on your bed, facing the ceiling.
âWhich friend?â
âThe blond one who had one hell of a musical talent.â Tom said. âHe used to come here and play on Samâs piano.â
âOh, James! I donât really know what happened to him. We, uh, fell out of touch.â
âI see.â Tom said. âI hope heâs okay.â
âSame here.â You told him. âMy friend, Madeline, got a scholarship last time I checked. She got accelerated in school and she got to attend uni ahead of us. Iâm really proud of her, yâknow?â
âWhere is she now?â Tom asked.
You looked at Tom with sorrow in your eyes. He glanced at you and he could see how hurt you were. âWe donât talk...anymore. We used to. Sheâs basically like a sister to me, but we donât talk anymore. Regardless, Iâm really happy for her and I miss her. Wherever she is, I hope sheâs alright.â
Suddenly, there was a knock on your door and Tom sat up quickly. The door opened and revealed Sam. âHey, itâs time to eat dinner. Youâre washing the dishes tonight, Tom!â Sam said before leaving.
âThat little shit.â Tom laughed. âCâmon, Y/N. Letâs eat!â He got up from your bed and you followed suit with worry and concern in your eyes. You shook your head and shrugged it off. What youâll say can wait.
Both of you went down to join everyone on the dining table. You sat in your usual seat, but didnât contribute in the conversation. You were just happy to be there. You looked around and saw how happy your brothers were. You looked at your parents and saw them smiling. It was a beautiful sight to see. After all, all you wanted was for them to be happy. They deserve to be happy.
Harry and Tom cleaned up as you watched them help each other. âNext time, we should cook Y/Nâs favorite dinner.â Tom said. Harry looked at him and shrugged, âWhy not? I never liked it, but Iâm sure sheâd appreciate it very much.â
The next few days were spent with Tom. He never left your side and he made sure you were alright. You were the youngest and as the eldest Holland child, he made it his job to look after you. He wasnât close with you before, but somehow as you grew older, it changed. Tom was now excited to spend time with you. He loved talking to you and he loved laughing with you. In his opinion, you make his stress and worries fade away.
Your birthday is coming up and he wanted everything planned out. He already had plans, actually. He knew what cake you wanted, he knew what decorations to put up, he planned the food, and he even had a theme in mind. He was really prepared. Paddy had to go with Tom in town just to buy balloons. Tom was really going all out.
âAre you going to help me set up tonight? Y/Nâs birthday is tomorrow and I want her to be surprised when she wakes up. I can already imagine her face.â Tom smiled excitedly as he parked the car in the driveway.
âI canât help you tonight. I have homework.â Paddy said as he looked at Tom who just shrugged. âAlright. No problem. Stay in school, Pads.â Tom smiled before exiting his car with Paddy following him.
They walked in and Tom saw you sitting on the arm of the couch with Sam and Harry. Tom smiled at the sight. âHey, guys!â He greeted, causing the three of you to look at Tom and Paddy.
âWow, you went shopping for a lot of things.â Harry pointed out.
âYeah, whatâs up with that?â Sam asked with a grin.
âNothing.â Tom smirked. âIâll put these in my room.â Tom left and went upstairs to his room as Paddy walked to the couch and sat next to you. You looked at Paddy and smiled. You werenât close with him, but you loved him dearly. You were only one year younger than him and he was always kind to you and you liked hanging out with him.
You looked at Sam and Harry and you held back a chuckle as you watch them annoy each other. It was a lovely sight to see.
Night time came and dinner was over a few hours ago. You were just standing in your backyard feeling the wind blowing and you knew that something was about to happen. You just didnât know what. The backdoor opened and you turned around to see Tom with a small smile.
âWhatâre you doing out here? Itâs cold.â He said as he tugged his jacket closer. He walked towards you and stood beside you. âWhatâs on your mind?â
You shrugged, âNothing. I guess Iâm just tired. I think Iâll rest now.â
Tom nodded. He suddenly remembered his plan and said, âYeah, you can go upstairs now. I, uh, prepared your room.â
âThank you.â You smiled at him. You walked towards the back door and stopped to turn around to look at Tom. He was already looking at you and you said, âI- Good night, Tom.â
âGood night, Y/N. Sweet dreams.â He smiled sweetly. You opened the door and walked in and went straight up the stairs to your room.
Tom stayed outside for a minute before walking in. He locked the back door and went to the living room where his brothers were. âHey, guys! Ready to decorate?â Tom asked with a huge smile on his face. It was evident that he was excited.
âWhatâre you talking about?â Sam asked, looking at Tom with a confused face.
âYeah, whatâs happening?â Paddy questioned.
Tom scoffed and crossed his arms, âHow could you guys forget?! Itâs our sisterâs birthday tomorrow and you guys arenât preparing at all!â
Tom was yelling as the rest were looking at him sadly. Samâs eyes were clouded with tears as he looked at Tom. Harry and Paddy looked at Sam, not wanting to be the ones to remind Tom. Sam sighed and closed his eyes and his tears fell. He wiped his tears and opened his eyes to face Tom.
âTom, mate, sheâs dead.â Sam said softly. âSheâs been dead for two months now.â
âW-What are you talking about?â Tom shook his head slowly. He looked away from Sam and he saw you standing behind Sam. âSheâs right there, Sam! Sheâs literally right behind you! How can you not see it?!â
âTom, stop! Sheâs gone, okay?!â Harry exclaimed. âY/Nâs not here! She wonât be here anymore and itâll be that way forever. We just have to accept that.â
âIt was leukemia, Tom. She didnât make it and we had a funeral and everything.â Paddy said softly.
You were confined in the hospital for about a week now and you were getting weaker and weaker as the days went on. Your family was trying to be positive, but all of you knew that it was your time to go. Before you were confined, you had written letters for them to read after you die and it was now hidden in their drawers.
Tom and Harry werenât there when you passed because they were in a different country. They immediately went home when they heard the news. All of you knew that you werenât going to make it, but all of you ignored that fact. Everyone except Tom was grieving. He held his mother as she cried and he stayed strong for his brothers. He couldnât remember the last time he and his brothers slept in one room and he hated that they chose to do it again as soon as you were gone.
It was like a sleepover. They all talked about you and everything you did that the others didnât know about. Turns out, you had secrets you shared with everyone except Tom.
âWait, she told you guys about her secrets?â Tom asked that night.
âYeah.â Harry nodded, eyes bloodshot from all the crying. âIf something happens to her, she tells the first person she sees.â
âShe never told me anything.â Tom stated.
âThatâs because youâre the eldest. No one tells people about themselves to the eldest sibling.â Paddy answered.
âThatâs unfortunate.â Tom frowned. âI wish I knew the things you knew.â He added.
âItâs alright, Tom. She didnât have major secrets, anyway. Besides, she was just scared to tell you. Thatâs why she did that.â Sam explained.
Tom couldnât sleep that night as he looked at his brothers. They were cuddled up next to each other and were fast asleep. Tom couldnât help but think of you before finally drifting off. Days later, it was the funeral. The whole house was quiet and while your mum, Nikki, would appreciate it, for once in her life she wanted the noise. She wanted to hear boisterous laughing, heavy footsteps running up and down the stairs, yelling, the sound of Sam cutting vegetables, Domâs loud typing, Paddy talking to his friend on the phone, Harry telling you to wake up and calling you a lazy bum for not being productive, and Tom playing with Tessa outside. Now, there was none of that.
When a husband or wife dies, the one they left behind is called a widow. When a child dies, what do you call their parents? No oneâs ever come up with a word for that yet because itâs too painful to think about. You were young and you deserved all the best life has to offer. Nikki was devastated, but she knew that wherever you were, you arenât in pain anymore and that was enough for her.
Tom wanted to scream, but he didnât. He was numb. After the funeral, he and Harry decided to take a break from traveling to spend time with the rest of the family. He stopped working for a while and everyone understood that.
When they got home, Tom went straight to his room and cried. He cried and cried until no tears came out. His head ached, but he didnât want to get up and get himself a glass of water. He grabbed his phone from the bedside table to ask Harry, but his phone died. Tom scoffed, sat up, and reached the drawer of his bedside table. He leaned over to look for his phone charger, but he saw a letter instead. It had his name on it and he realized that it was your handwriting. Tom quickly grabbed it and put his phone back on the bedside table. He opened the envelope and read what you wrote for him.
Dear Tom,
Hi. When you read this, you know that I'm gone. I'm sorry that we never got to bond a lot. I guess it's my fault because I was so scared of you. Despite that, I want you to know that I'm really happy for you and I'm proud of you.
You're my inspiration and please know that I'm very proud to be your sister.
I don't know where I'll end up when I'm gone, but please don't worry about me. I'll be okay, I can feel it. I'll just go where the wind takes me.
You're a kind person for the whole time I've known you. I'll miss everything and I'll miss your pranks and jokes. Please never stop doing those just because I'm gone. I hope you think of me whenever you tell a joke or pull a prank on Harry again.
I wish we bonded more. I wish we made cookies until Sam kicked us out of the kitchen because he needed to prepare for dinner. I wish we watched movies together and I wish we spoke often.
I'll miss you all the time and I love you. So much. Never forget that.
Your sister,
Y/N/N x
Tom cried again until he slept with the letter resting on his chest. The next morning, he got up to go to your room. He dreamt of you and he wanted to tell you about it. He glanced at the door and noticed that it was unlocked. He slowly opened it and to his surprise, he saw you standing there watching everyone outside from your window.
âY/N.â Tom said.
You turned around and smiled at him, âHey, Tom.â
âI dreamt of you! And in my dream, you were a ballet dancer. We did ballet together. Wouldn't that be something? It could be a bonding thing for us." Tom said with a big smile as he fully entered your room. All of a sudden, he forgot about your sickness, your death, your sickness. From an outsider's point of view, it was a sad sight to see. He was clearly in the denial stage.
Harry was on his way downstairs when he heard a voice coming from your room. He quietly opened the door and saw Tom excitedly talking to thin air.
"You know, I'm not doing anything anytime soon. Why don't we go out? It'll just be you and me, Y/N." Tom smiled. Harry's heart broke upon hearing this. His older brother was imagining their dead sister. Harry kept it to himself because he thought that Tom was coping that way.
It wasn't until Sam witnessed the same thing. Tom was in the kitchen and he was talking to thin air once more. Sam watched as Tom laughed and said a bunch of things. Sam kept it to himself too.
Paddy, however, was different. He went to Harry and Sam's room, unannounced. He closed and locked the door behind him as the twins looked at him in confusion.
"Okay, I can't be the only one to notice it." Paddy said with arms crossed.
"What're you talking about?" Harry asked.
"Tom." Was all Paddy said. The twins looked at each other before looking back at Paddy.
"What about him?" Sam asked, his eyebrows were raised a bit.
"Tom told me that he'll bake Y/N's favorite cookies tomorrow because Y/N said she was craving for it." Paddy explained.
"I saw Tom talking to thin air the day after the funeral. He was in Y/N's room." Harry confessed.
"I saw him doing that too, but he was in the kitchen this time. I'm worried about him." Sam said.
"What should we do?" Harry asked with a frown on his face.
"Let's just let him be for a while. Letâs just intervene when it gets out of hand.â Sam decided as the other two nodded.
They just let Tom be until they had enough.
Tom couldn't believe what his brothers were telling him. He felt sick to his stomach. His baby sister was gone and the thought of it ate him alive. He shook his head and Sam said, âTom, everything will be alright. Weâll get through this together. Weâll be fine.â
âThat canât be true. Iâve been speaking to her. Stop fucking lying.â Tom cried.
âTom, wake up! Sheâs not here, alright?! Sheâs not in her room anymore. Her things will forever be untouched and her books will be dusty. Her phone hasnât been charged since she died and itâll stay that way. All we have left are pictures, videos, and memories of her. We should accept that because no matter what happens, we canât bring her back!â Harry said as his voice was raised.
âJust go to bed, mate. Youâre tired.â Paddy said softly. âWeâll deal with this in the morning.â
Tom wiped his tears and went up to his room, slamming the door. He went to sleep and dreamt of you again. Both of you were on top of a small hill and the wind was blowing softly.
âWhy canât they see you?â Tom asked you.
âBecause I only showed myself to you. I know that we havenât been really close and I figured youâd want some kind of closure. In truth, Iâm only here because of you. The light has been calling me and they want me to leave already, but I canât because I know youâd be sad. I hate seeing you sad.â You explained.
âThen stay here.â Tom begged, but you shook your head.
âYou need to let me go, Tom. Itâs time. I canât stay here forever.â You chuckled lightly.
âI just- I feel like nothing. When you were around, I felt like I had a purpose. Now, I just wish I could be with you.â He admitted.
âDonât say that. Imagine how everyone will react if youâre gone. Theyâll be upset. Iâm so proud that youâre alive and well because youâll get to go on with life and grow old. If you canât do it for yourself, then do it for me. Live the life I never got to live. Trust me when I say that youâll be happier when you move on.â
âI donât want to forget you and I donât want you to think that weâre having fun without you.â He said.
âI wonât think that way because all I ever wanted for all of you is to be happy and healthy. I love you and I miss you, but I want you to have fun and to keep doing everything you love. Donât stop because Iâm gone. Donât let me be a hindrance because thatâll make me sad and Iâll haunt you forever.â You said as Tom chuckled. âBesides, you donât have to forget about me. Iâll always be in your heart.â
âAlright.â Tom said. âI think Iâm ready to let you go.â
You smiled and nodded as you walked away and stepped into the light. Tom shouted, âHappy birthday, Y/N!â
You looked back and smiled. With that, he knew you were thanking him not just for greeting, but also for everything.
Tom woke up and it was already morning. He decided to get ready and to head to the cemetery. He walked downstairs and saw his brothers eating breakfast.
âWhere are you going?â Harry asked before eating his cereal.
âThe cemetery. Itâs Y/Nâs birthday.â Tom said. âIâll go now. I donât know what time Iâll be back.â
Tom left and the drive to the cemetery was short and quiet. He parked the car and walked to your grave. He smiled when he saw a small, framed picture of you that Harry placed there not too long ago. He sat in front of your grave and smiled, âHey, Y/N. I know you can hear me.â
âI guess I did look crazy for a while and I now understand how everyone felt. I, um, I read your letter. Iâm sorry too, yâknow? Iâm sorry I never made the effort to spend time with you. I guess itâs because all my life, Iâve only known about having brothers and when you came along, I didnât know how to act. But Iâm really happy that I got to see you grow up and Iâm happy with our few moments together.â
âWhen you were five, I was fourteen. Itâs a wide gap and I remember being so annoyed because your toys were everywhere.â He chuckled at the thought. âRegardless, I loved you and I still do. Iâm happy that you grew up to be kind and loving. Iâm really fucking happy for that.â
âIn your letter, you said that I shouldnât worry about you. Y/N, Iâm sorry, but I canât promise that. Iâm your older brother and that automatically makes me sort of like a second parent especially when mum and dad arenât around. So, Iâll always worry about you even though I know youâre okay and not in pain.â
âI do, however, promise to always dedicate my pranks to you. I know youâd love that. Iâd wish that we bonded, but we already did that. You gave me a chance to get to know the sister I never got to know and that, above all, makes me so happy and grateful. Thatâs enough for me.â
âI donât want to say cheesy shit and ask for guidance. I donât want to burden you in heaven. Like, itâs called a resting place for a reason and I want you to rest easy. I just want to say that I miss you so much and I love you. Happy birthday.â He finished.
Just then, he felt the wind blow in his direction and he knew that you were okay.
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muses. jeon jeongguk x reader x park jimin ft. kim taehyung
genre. strangers to lovers!au. university!au.Â
words. 18.2k
drabbles. pjm
feedback.
warnings. mentions of physical insecurities, alcohol use, juul use, mention of adoption, mentions of dysfunctional families, handcuffs - lots of handcuffs, jeongguk crossdressing, too many one-sided pinings lmaoÂ
synopsis. youâre in love with kim taehyung whoâs in love with jennie kim whoâs in love with professor kim namjoon. so park jimin doesnât exactly fit in all of this, yet heâs always been there in your weakest moments which may or may not be caused by your heartbreak boy - or so jeongguk likes to call him.
oh and jeongguk? you donât even know jeongguk until that party-gone-awry night where you end up handcuffed together to ponder on what you did.
x
when you uploaded a snapchat of your darkened room and a single teary-eyed emoji because kim taehyung uploaded one where a beautiful girl was covering her mouth while she giggled, jimin snapped back a âwhy r u awake đŹâ to which you snapped the same darkened room with a slightly different angle and a âjust causeâ. his last snap to you contained a âcool wanna call?â before you dialed him up and ended up talking until 5 in the morning before bidding each other-
âwell, good night then,â youâd muttered.
âgâmorning,â heâd wished you back in a soft mumble and a hint of sleepiness taking over.
that happened on a friday night. on monday and for the rest of the week, you merely greeted each other in the hallway and went on your days without the inclusion of the other.
when you sat by yourself on the bench on the sidewalk of campus, under the shade of a great old tree a few feet away from your department after being left high and dry when kim taehyungâs friends asked him if heâs joining them to get mcdonaldâs which heâd in turn asked if you wanted to tag along and you said you were good only because you never did well in groupies - park jimin sat down next to you, head thrown back as he squinted at the gaps of the leaves where the tiniest of sun rays managed to pass through and dot his face. blonde tresses swaying ever so softly when the wind blew past you.
âso how was finance?â he looked like he was asking the waving branches.
âeh, it was fine, professor kimâs a good teacher,â you shrugged, the sight of jennie suavely smiling and said professor shooting glances at her made you mentally vomit.
âman,â he blew a gust of air from his mouth as he ran a hand through his semi-long tresses, âwere we in the same class? because all i remember was dozing off five minutes into class.â
âthatâs why you should sit at the front,â youâd suggested.
it was then, did he push himself off the ground and stood up, black and white jacket pushed back as he slipped his hands into the pocket of his jeans. eyes narrowing while his tongue protruded against the inside of his cheek before he went, âyou hungry?â
âstarving,â you rolled your eyes before collecting your mac and holding it to your chest, bag slung over your shoulders.
the both of you didnât go to mcdonaldâs but the food tasted just as good that day at the cafe in your faculty.
when kim taehyung asked jennie if she was free friday night and the girl turned to you with an endearingly oblivious, âdo we have any plans on friday?â and taehyung awkwardly but not so hesitantly corrected, âum, i mean, just you jennie,â the air, without a doubt turned tangibly tense and awkward.
âoh,â jennieâs brows knitted together as she stared at him, as though trying to spot the caption on his forehead as to why he invited only her when everyone knew you and jennie never go anywhere without the other if you didnât have any prior engagements, âwell, ___ and me are going to hang out together so yeah, iâm not free.â
you werenât sure if she was dumb or playing dumb but youâd found out later that night, that sheâd been irritated with kim taehyungâs non-considerate advancements which sheâd recently noticed seemed to exclude you âi hate people who make plans in front of someone and not invite themâ was her exact word before she followed up with a âblockedtâ.
but backtrack to when the tension seemed to rise higher than the sky, you were saved by jimin when he came mini-jogging towards you with that adorable boyish smile and crescent eyes, âhey, i was looking for you - you wanna walk to accounting together?â
youâd waved jennie and taehyung goodbye and gladly walked with jimin to class.
and so it goes, with kim taehyungâs eyes lighting like fireworks in the midnight sky when he sees jennie and the girl itching to make a beeline to the opposite side of where he comes from and you shooting her âbe niceâ looks whilst park jimin pops up now and then in the most convenient time until âusâ no longer comprise of you and jennie but also taehyung and jimin.
so much so, some of your casual friends come to you asking for either of the boys when they seem to have something to inform them which youâre not sure why isnât informable through text. but either way, youâve become two best friends with additional friends.
maybe said additional friends happen to fall in the top list of cuties in the girls and gaysâ books but besides kim taehyung, if you looked, like really really looked at park jimin, you concurred, perhaps he does have the right to be in said list with his unblemished, smooth skin, perfect pink lips and pretty sparkly eyes.
âwhat?â his lips do the thing where they curl, revealing a pair of perfectly lined white pearls.
ânothing,â you say as you find yourself third-wheeling in taehyungâs bmw with jimin at the back and the first commenting something about his older sister liking to shop at zara as well when jennie asked you if you were free tomorrow to go to the mall near campus.
âi mean i can go with you girls, i have a two-hour gap between classes,â the boy offers.
âoh,â the first laugh trickles out of your mouth without a stop switch, âyouâre so cute.â
you can hear jennie snickering in the passenger seat as you turn away from the angle where taehyung could see you in the rear-view mirror, only to come face to face with jimin who seems to get your humor.
âitâs not a big deal,â taehyung shrugs, a tinge of pride in his voice.
âmy man,â jimin pats said man on his shoulder, âyou donât know jack shit about women.â
âwhat?â the older boy asks, perplexed and quite honestly irritated for some reason - but then again, he never seems to like jiminâs quick-to-catch-on nature when it comes to any girls-related topics.
âtwo hours is not enough to shop, taehyung,â jennie finally decodes the long standing cipher, âwe can barely explore one shop.â
by the end of her words, youâre is full out snickering like an unattractive hyena, âi thought you have a sister?â
âi do,â thereâs a tinge of confusion in his tone, âshe usually goes shopping with her boyfriend.â
âwell, how long did it take them to go shopping?â she quizzes, sharing an amused look with jimin.
âuh,â itâs then, do you hear the sound of the screws in taehyungâs brain twisting, âshe usually stays over whenever they do.â
âwell, whatever you think they did after they went shopping - itâs probably not it,â jimin snickers, shoulderline jolting as he crosses his arms over his chest.
âso cute,â jennie echoes your earlier words, neck craning to look at the two other passengers in the back seat as she gives you a one-eyebrow-lifted look as if to say âthis is the guy youâre crushing on?â
at that, you shrug, unapologetically mouthing âheâs cuteâ - in a much different and adoring sense than the first time which jennie mustâve gotten when she shakes her head, a hopeless smile on her lips as she turns to the road again.
you were on your way to the movies then.
x
âoh my god,â jennie squeals, eyes skimming your specifically-handpicked-by-jennie-kim attire, âyou look so cute!â
âonly because i agreed to be your live mannequin,â you say rolling your eyes but the curl of a smile on your lips is unstoppable.
âno - because i know what kind of style suits you,â she narrows her eyes in a âyou know iâm rightâ kind of manner, âno offense, your usual style is cute too but itâs more like an... âi have a crush, donât talk to meâ kind of look, you know?â
âam i wrong though?â your eyebrows rise, mimicking her âyou know iâm rightâ look.
she raises a hand, her free one scrolling through her phone as she announces, âi donât recommend crushing on airheaded guys but you do you sis,â then she looks up, staring at you straight in the eye with the most deadpanned expression, âbut if he breaks your heart, iâll break his leg,â itâs a full, solid moment later, just as you were about to burst out laughing, does she say, âliterally.â
and itâs times like these that you fear for another personâs life that isnât yours - well, taehyungâs life isnât just anyoneâs but - as she turns back to her phone ever so casually.
but before you can fret any further, your phone vibrates, the words âchimâ flashing across your screen with a âget yo asses downâ and contrasting âur chauffer awaitsâ popping a second later.
âget your ass up. theyâre here,â you end up saying, pushing your phone into the back pocket of your leather pants that jennie manages to convince you to put on for some unknown reason - that reason going along the lines of âkim taehyungâ and âjealousyâ, but youâre not one to dwell on why one do things they do as you accept jennieâs grabby-motioned hands in request for assistance to be pulled up.
it turns out the shopping plan gets pushed to saturday where taehyung is basically spouting out how heâs a good judge for fashion and that he hasnât gone to the mall since the semester started which to be fair, was only a month ago.Â
youâre not sure how jimin ended up tagging along - the two arenât even the bestest buddies - but someway, somehow, he always manages to get taehyung to pick him up and drop him off whenever the taller man makes plans to go out with you and jennie.
âwow,â jimin is the first to notice, mouth taking on an âoâ shape he basically ogles in plain daylight.
âwhat do you think?â jennie comes up behind you, chin resting on your shoulder as she wraps her arms around your waist then she turns to taehyung who was the last to get out of the car, âdoesnât ___ look pretty, taehyung?â
at the sound of his name rolling off the tongue of the girl heâs been pining for since he laid eyes on her, his gaze lights up - but only to meet jennieâs. one look at you and he turns back to her with the most beautiful smile, âyeah, she looks great - did you help choose the top?â
âactually,â the girl begins with a cheery tone - theyâre walking a few steps behind you whilst you and jimin walk together. itâs been like that for as long as you remember, âi picked out the whole fit. it wasnât easy though because...â
kim jennie walking side-by-side with kim taehyung whilst you with jimin whenever the two boys join you, be it whether to get to a class you all share, to go to the library to study or to get some lunch - has become a familiar view to your mutual friends. so much so, youâve heard of a rumor going around that youâre a couple of best friends.
like literal couples. you with jimin and jennie with taehyung. thanks to that, no one would have suspected jennieâs relationship with professor kim nor would anyone see through the veil of friendly smiles and amicable conversations to be you pining over your best friendâs alleged boyfriend.
youâve gotten used to hearing jennie and taehyungâs conversation fade into the background yet never really able to disregard the way taehyung laughs at something your best friend says or the sight of the two walking a few feet ahead with taehyungâs head almost always turned to jennieâs and the girl, oblivious, occasionally cranes her neck to look at him at the beginning of her sentence before directing her gaze to the front where sheâs walking.
jennie dislikes taehyung less now, if only because he steers the conversation towards the areas of interest - which he seems to know a lot of. kudos to you for answering his ass-crack oâclock texts of âheyyy what kind of movie does jennie like?âs and âheyy you girls got any plans tomorrow?âs.
âyou look great in those leather pants, by the way,â jiminâs voice makes you turn to the other boy, a boyish smile on his lips, âso let me guess,â his head tilts to the side as the dip between his thumb and index finger hooks itself underneath his chin, eyebrows knitted together in heavy contemplation, âare you going for a good girl gone bad kind of look,â a playful smile tugs on the corners of his lips, âor are you in a secret biker gang and have a biker meeting at 7?â
you lean closer to the man, hand covering your mouth as you whisper, âyou didnât hear this from me but weâre convoying to disney land. i heard itâs more magical during christmas.âÂ
or so you thought your whispering skills were close to perfect but a cat with brown hair pops up from next to you, eyes glinting with excitement, âdid someone say christmas?!â
so you end up early-christmas shopping just because of that one word that triggers the warm-hearted-who-ness in her. and thatâs how you, taehyung and jimin gets dragged from one store to another. but where your attention gets robbed with material things like-
âoh look, a snow globe with a puppy and a snowman in it!â you shake the see through globe, watching as pseudo snowflakes rain over the unmoving pupper and olaf lookalike before you sigh, âtechnically the snowman isnât alive and the doggo is alone by itself in a world where nobody else can enter - and on christmas at that . oh my god, i think iâm gonna cry.â
- but jennieâs interest lies within the holiday-themed clothes. sweaters. costumers. lingerie. you name it and jennie kim tries it on.
â___ - pssst, hey,â there she goes, hiss-whispering your name as if youâre not right in front of the curtain sheâs poking her head through, eyes darting around for the two boys who, last you saw, were doing the best to look interested in reindeers and candy printed sweaters.
âwhat, girl, what?â you whisper back, trying to peek through the gap of the curtain over her head as if youâve never entered a changing room together.
and as if reading your mind, her bare arm thatâs supposed to be wrapped with the floral cotton material of her sleeve - shoots out, hand wrapping around your wrist.
a âwha- ah-!â probably echoed off the walls and turned some heads but youâre no longer in the position to check as you find your back pressed against the wall of the cubicle and red and white lace-wearing jennie posing for you.
âso?â she beams.
âthose are so cute, oh my god,â you end up his-whispering whilst trying to keep your voice low, âwhere did you get them? i only ever saw you checking out - and you have got to admit this - ugly sweaters!â
âgirl, the lingerie section is just next to the sweaters,â her eyes seem to disappear behind her crescents as she crinkles her nose, âno but for real, you think i was gonna buy them? i just needed the boys to go away. and. they. finally. did,â she rolls her eyes, âit took awhile but kim taehyung is so persistent.â
âthatâs why heâs so... cute,â you hum, eyes shutting close as the picture of the aforementioned man flashes behind your eyes. heâs looking at you with those dark eyes and heâs smiling at you with that magnetic-
âgross! get your ass out of the gutter,â a squeal hits the air as your eyes flutter open to the sight of your best friendâs contorted faces as if-
âum, girl,â you tilt your head just the slightest bit, hand on your hip while your other hand raises in a âhold upâ manner, âout of the two of us, youâre the one thatâs gotta stop being silly and start wrapping professor kimâs willy.â
a stick of tongue out is all youâve got as a response before she turns to her phone thatâs vibrating at an alarming rate.
thatâs when you feign almost-vomit, âdid you - ulgh - sent him a - ulgh - nude?â
in any ordinary circumstance, she would have made faces to mimic a much ridiculous series of vomiting in response to your fake almost-vomits but when her smile tugs downwards in a disheartened pout, you practically drop all the ugly sweaters you picked out just for the sake of getting into the christmas spirit and rush over to the girl - which is only one and a half feet away.
âhey, hey, whatâs wrong?â you coo as she starts blinking back tears.
âi knew it,â she huffs out a puff of air, hand fanning at her waterline, âi fucking knew it.â
in between the âyouâre okayâs and âeverythingâs going to be okayâs on your part and jennieâs increasingly growing sobs, you manage to make out the words she blurts out. something along the lines of ânot spending as much time as we used toâ and âbecause iâm ugly as fuckâ. so you hold her tighter, fingers brushing out the potentially forming knots in her hair each time it gets into her tear stained face and gets aggressively pushed out of said face with the back of the hand.Â
itâs been going on since the start of the third year - the âi canât make it tonightâs and âsorry, iâm going to have to rain checkâs.Â
youâve been a silent spectator of how your best friendâs face lights up whenever she talks about her secret affair with the youngest professor in the business faculty, how he lives up to her private swooning with the smallest âmiss kim, how was your dayâs when he met her in the hallway, ever so casually greeting one of his supposed students like any professor would and treats her to fine-dinings and became the reason why forehead kisses are her favorite kind of kiss now.
he never really tried to hide his fondness for her even at the faculty and though you knew your best friend could get anyone she wanted, you were dubious of whether that anyone actually deserved such a loving, beautiful person. nonetheless, kim namjoon seems to be the exact person who does.
âhey, look at me,â you implore, sitting cross-legged on the floor whilst your knees touch and your fingers twine together in a fingers hug, or so jennie coined the term in your first year, âyouâre so beautiful.â
âyou donât mean that,â she mumbles out.
âgirl, if i were to be born again and were allowed to choose how iâm going to look - i want your eyes, they like, pull people in - not gonna lie, i started talking to you because you were intimidating but also really alluring. does that make sense?â you hold up a hand when she begins to giggle lightly, head shaking in show of her disagreement.
âbut when i did get to know you, youâre the sweetest, squishiest,â a protest falls from her lips as she clasps a palm over the spot on her arm that you just pinched, âperson alive. and oh!â you pinch her cheeks next, chuckling at how she crinkles her nose and like the feline sheâs always been associated with, âand i want your cute chubs cheeks! and your adorable nose, and your lips,â you pause for the longest moment before retracting, âokay maybe iâd want my lips but your lips are juicy too!â
she makes a sound at the back of her throat, eyes of dried tears rolling, âplease, i barely have any lips.â
âi mean, theyâre still kissable,â you shoot her a suggestive look, âand i know out of the two of us, one would kiss you if sheâs a little bit more fruity.â
âokay, maybe you think iâm kinda pretty,â she gives in.
but thatâs not enough for you,âbih, youâre a literal goddess,â
âiâm not but anyway beauty is subjective so maybe namjoonâs perspectiveâs changed.â
ânope - nu-uh, we can cry and just... let ourselves feel the emotion thatâs been bottling up and burst at one single message but what weâre not gonna do is mope around, being sad all day because of our presumptions that someone else thinks weâre not good enough or pretty enough. because you are and i would die for you.â
she hiccups, âi donât know if i would die for you but iâd sacrifice my first born for you.â
âew,â you feel your nose crinkling, âno, youâre not gonna trap me with a kid - thatâs a trap right there and iâm not falling for it.â
jennie ends up laughing too loudly that one of the store attendants end up kicking you out. jimin and taehyung followed suit a second later, acting like they didnât know you two but walking towards you anyway. youâre not sure if they noticed jennieâs swollen eyes but neither mentioned anything about it. instead, taehyung suggests-Â âsince weâre already out, you guys wanna go to chanyeolâs party?â
x
so you end up going to the party. the apartmentâs too cramped for your liking but jennieâs found some mutual friends of yours that sheâs dancing and laughing with. and maybe thatâs why you havenât bolted right out of the door the moment you stepped in.
jimin found some of his own friends. theyâre probably not from the faculty since you donât remember seeing them around and taehyung-
youâre not quite sure why taehyung is following you around like a lost puppy and trying to make small talks with you. internally, your heartâs doing flips but your headâs been giving out one of those obnoxiously loud sirens with lights as red as the cup youâre holding.
â...and you know, itâs pretty cool how they managed to attract foreign investors within six months of starting up their business,â taehyung is saying, the awkward shrug and eyes glued to the ground telling you that heâs not so into whatever heâs saying either.
âyeah, like, they definitely got lucky or something,â you nod in agreement.
funny how the blare of the music is barely allowing you to have a proper conversation but all you hear is deafening silence as you stand five feet apart - the kind of distance that screams acquaintances but less than friends and most definitely not lovers.
but then he stands on his two feet instead of leaning his weight on just one - and he looks at you right in the eye for the first time that night. and your stupid heart goes fluttering like the petals in a field.
âhey, i donât wanna be a nosy or anything but,â he pauses for the briefest second, eyes slanting to somewhere on the dance floor where you think you last saw jennie and then he refocuses back to you. but you already know where his mind and soul remains, âwhat happened today? like, jennieâs acting off, like somethingâs bothering her and sheâs kinda drinking more than she should and it kinda feels like she doesnât want me around.â
it takes a moment to ponder on how much you should say before your words become affirmation and affirmation will probably lead to more assumptions and - âwell, you should ask her.â
âuh, i- she doesnât- i donât know how - i donât wanna annoy her, you know what i mean? and since youâre best friends, i thought maybe youâd-â heâs scratching the back of his head when you cut him off.
âthereâs your answer,â you raise the half-empty cup thatâs been lying undrunken in your hands, âif youâre not gonna square up and tell her how you feel, then you, my friend,â your stomach drops at the word but you manage to land a solid pat on his arm, âare going to live the rest of your live like this - wondering what the hell is going on because youâre really not sure where you stand. and i get it, confessing to someone is terrifying and depending on jennieâs answer, you might or might not be able to talk to her ever again but itâs better to get it out there. feelings are like farts, you know?â the way his brows come together in a confused what-the-hell moment, is adorable, âhold it in and youâll feel like somethingâs not right and it is never going to be until you get all of it out of your system.â and with a nod and a tight-lipped smile, you leave him with a âgood luck,â before wandering over to the dance floor, not sure where youâre going because jennie, lisa chaeyoung and jisooâs not where you thought they were and the only less crowded but still suffocating part of the apartment is the kitchen where you donât want to risk going back and seeing taehyung there, unmoving in the spot where you left him.
amid all of it, you almost get your shoulder dislocated before a hand shoots out and pulls you back on your two feet whilst you raise your cup higher in hopes to save its contents from spilling.
the man that caught you looks between you and your raised cup for two solid seconds before a grin tugs on his face and he clicks his own cup to yours, âcheers.â
âaha, yeah,â you laugh as you feel his grip on your arm loosening and you pull it back to your side like a robot, taking a sip of your nicely saved drink.
âthanks for not letting me fall,â you say a moment later, after thanking whatever deity is out there that allows you to get your first drink into the right pipe without feeling the need to cough out loud.
âno problem,â even in the poor lighting, you can easily catch the sight of pearly whites lined up perfectly amid an alluring smile, that is, before a pair of brows knit together in what seem like an unresolvable conundrum, âhey, you donât happen to...â he pauses for the longest moment, eyes slanting to scan the crowd and making you do the same until he commands your attention back with his next words, lips curling back into the breathtakingly attractive smile as words tumble past them, â...see two pretty best friends in here, do you?â
and thatâs when your interest, wherever it is, plunges straight down to the ground and into the ether, âoh,â your vision shakes as you nod repeatedly before forcing out a dry âha haâ which isnât meant to disguise your displeasure at all - if anything, a wave of satisfaction crashes over you when his smile falters, âyeah, that - thatâs really funny,â you say plainly, smile still plastered on your face.
âo-kay,â he drags out the word for half a second, teeth clenched together in growing panic as all traces of humor fade away, â...joke too old?â
âwell, letâs see,â you feel your index finger tapping your chin as you throw your gaze up to the ceiling, âi get it, tell the ugly best friend sheâs ugly but in a joking way,â you shrug, âyou donât need to rub it in my face cause i know and yes itâs getting old.â
it takes a whole solid moment of blaring music and non-caring half-way-drunken college students continuing to grind against one another and this insanely attractive stranger staring at you with jaws on the ground, for you to wave a dismissive hand.
âyou know what? donât worry, jennieâs not here, thankfully or she wouldâve blo-â air fills your throat and cuts you off when he frowns, âwho?â, to which you raise your eyebrows, âje-â you almost choked, âjennie?â
he shakes his head the second time, bottom lip jutting out in an additional- ânopeâ gesture as he continues with ânever heard of her,â after your âjennie... kim?â
so you go one, âkinda cute height, long hair, brunette-â he shrugs, ânope- doesnât ring a bell,â in the middle of your, â-fierce cat-like eyes but adorable as heck personality?â
in the end he wins with a final word of, âno - nope,â after a whole solid moment of your silenced disbelieve and him drawing his pondering session to a close.
âoh,â escapes your lips before you can even register, âso - it was- like-â
âyeap,â he nods, âit was-â
âa joke?â
âa joke.â
you both announce at the same time. the tones may differ but the essence is there, leaving one to stare at the ground in shame for having snapped at a complete stranger and the other staring with unapologetic eyes.
âiâm sorry,â you finally manage to utter, shoulderline falling with your walls of pride, âi thought it was one of those micro aggressive jokes people throw around just because they canât straight out tell someone theyâre ugly-â
but the words seem to enter through one ear and go out the other when his brows begin to knit together for the nth time of the night - and in a matter of less than thirty minutes at that - when he declares before you get to properly end your sentence, âyouâre pretty as hell. why did you think iâd randomly try to crack a joke to a stranger and risk pissing pants off on the off chance she took it badly... which you did. iâm sorry for pushing the wrong button.â
âoh,â but just like him, your brain short-circuits and you seem to only truly hear the first part of what heâs saying as just like any girl - you curse yourself as you - shy away from his gaze, hand going up to tuck your hair behind your ear before you slowly peek up through your lashes, âthanks,â you blink once, shrugging, âand itâs fine i get that joke a lot - i donât usually care, i donât know what got into me tonight.âÂ
but before he manages to say anything, the loudspeaker starts reverberating with the sound of someone clearing their throat and a âhowâs everyone doing?â and a dismissive âalright, alright you might be wondering âwho the eff is this guyâ right? yea, yea, i know, but-â he stops, eyes scanning the crowd for a suspenseful effect, â-but youâre gonna wanna hear this,â to which a groan erupts from the crowd, so he quickly gets to the point âdonât panic,â most of the time, thatâs exactly when you should panic, âso, the police are coming.â
x
his name is jeon jeongguk and he goes to your universityâs rival university. his hair is actually a shade of rich deep brown that forms wavy ends and contrasts glaringly against his sharp jawline under the fluorescent lighting which also highlights his pearly whites that remind you of bunnies when his lips curl over them when he smiles.
to think that heâs doing that now while the police officer, a man in his 40â˛s and on the shorter side of the spectrum is ten steps from marching up to you with a disapproving gaze on his face.
his hair falls over his face in half ringlets, an excited glint in his eyes, âheâs mad cause weâre clean.â
a guy somewhere a few people away from you is sobbing increasingly loudly with every step the officer takes before he comes to a stop in front of you, eyes skimming each faces one by one until he stops on you.
âyou,â he announces before sighing deeply, âyou look like a kid who wouldnât cause trouble, why are you here?â
âuh,â the chain around your wrist feels cold but jeonggukâs pinky thatâs touching yours as your thighs brush together - is warm, âi...â you pause, in search for words before settling with a disappointing confession âi donât know,â
the officer echoes your statement with a critical emphasize on the âdonâtâ.
and because of that, you blink once, âin fact, does anyone know what theyâre doing at all? if you think about it weâre just astronomical particles in this vast universe which is called the milky way,â you pause, if only squint at his sparse mustache, âwhy is it even called milky way? like, thereâs absolutely no scientific evidence that milk exists in outer space or do you reckon the guys that named it just feels like drinking some milk while they were-â
by the end of it, a few snickers have escaped from the people you and jeongguk were caught with, the aforementioned man, having turned his head the other way as his shoulders jolt silently and itâs only then does the officerâs increasing confused expression contorts into that of a maddened bore, âkeep hanging out with him and youâre gonna find yourself behind bars.â
âthat hurts my feelings, detective yoo,â jeongguk confesses, forehead creasing as his uncuffed hand holds the spot on his chest where his heart should be.
the man finally shakes his head, motioning to a younger officer who looks just about your age to start unlocking everyoneâs cuffs - there were a few other people youâve never seen before dragged out of the vicinity and to the station. he speaks a moment later, âyou kids are lucky because none of you are associated with the ones down the hallway - we were initially going for them. busted their asses and found over a hundred kilograms of cocaine.â
once your cuffs are off and you get your phone back, youâre fast-scrolling through the messages on the notification window before swiping up and searching for jennieâs contact. it turns out she, taehyung and jimin guessed you were one of the few who didnât make it and waited for you near the building where the party was busted.
âoh my god,â jennie is the first to dash into your arms as if she hadnât seen you since forever, âiâm so sorry i left you!â
âwell to be fair, i left you,â you mumble, your arms banded around her waist while hers around your neck.
and just when you thought the melodrama would end when she pulls away, you find yourself staring at sparkly-eyed jennie and the most heartbreaking downturned lips, âi will never,â she pauses, âever let you out of my sight.â
youâre exactly against that idea - after all, youâve made plans to buy a beach house and move in together in your olden days once youâve poiso- burried your husbands who died of a totally natural cause.
itâs only after breaking apart from a second hug, do you realize the man standing not-so-awkwardly five feet away.
âdonât mind me,â jeongguk holds up his hands, âi donât watch much drama but i might after all this.â
âjeongguk,â you canât help the smile that creeps up your face at his joke, âthis is jennie,â then you turn to the girl who still has her arm around your waist, and you her, âjennie, jeongguk.â
âhave i seen you before?â her cat-like eyes narrows just the slightest bit, as though if she tried hard enough, sheâd see the pieces of moving memories thatâll somehow point out where she claims to have met him - but you donât doubt it if they have, jennie gets invited to a lot of parties and hookups.
you shouldâve known when jeonggukâs eyes sweep over you with a playful glint in them as he begins, âthatâs funny because ____ here-â that from this point forward, that you shouldnât have put your foot forward and prance at him like a predator with a secret, hand clasped against a surprisingly hard chest before your brain can register what youâre doing.
and when it does, youâre left to awkwardly pat his chest in what you hope to be friendly gesture whilst you force out a laugh, âthat- that was really funny jeongguk,â you turn to jennie who, having known you all your life easily catches onto your out-of-character laugh but says nothing, so you point at the guy youâre basically and is still groping - to which youâve finally tear your hand off his body, âheâs a funny guy.â
âand who exactly is this funny guy?â taehyung comes up on your left - you think you catch sight of his sleek bmw parked on the other side of the street where he mustâve strutted up from in his beige jacket with his hands buried in its pockets.
âjust...â you trail off before your brain completely fries and you blurt out, âsome guy.â
and thatâs when jeongguk decides to call you out, âsome guy? i helped you through a life lesson.â
you attribute the alcohol in your system thatâs slowing down the neurons and disables you from thinking before you act when you roll your eyes, âin case you didnât realize, you were in there laughing your ass off when i had to have my own back while that officer looked like he was a word away from dragging me to the police station for talking back to a law enforcement.â
âyou talked back to an officer?â jennie chirps, her jaw falling to the ground as her cat eyes widen in excitement and astonishment.
âshe did,â jeongguk nods at the girl, a displaced proud smile on his lips before he looks back to you, âbrought out the boomer in him too.â
âyou pissed off an officer?â this time, itâs jimin who pops up from behind taehyung, before casually nodding to jeongguk with a âhey man.â
âi mean, it was probably ___âs sheer guts and rebellious streak alone that helped free us,â jeongguk goes on, eyes glinting with amusement in the briefest moment they slant to meet yours but theyâre gone too soon as he redirects your attention to jimin and jennieâs overpouring questions.
and because jennie wanted to hear more about how jeongguk embellished what went down, taehyung ends up agreeing to give the stranger a ride as you get squished between two men with jennie constantly pulling on the strap of the seatbelt to look over to the backseat, her mouth constantly dropping with every word jeongguk utters like heâs some well-known storyteller.
by the time the car rolls to a stop in front of his apartment building, jennieâs shooting you approving, borderline provocative looks your way - you donât doubt that if she had any power in her hand to put both you and jeongguk in the same room, lock the door and swallow the key, she would in a heartbeat.
âhey,â jeongguk leans over the doorframe, âcan i talk to you for a sec?â itâs the way he tilts his head to the side on a 35 degree angle, paired with that dangerous smile heâs been shooting you in the briefest span of moments jennieâs head is turned to the road and jiminâs gave is thrown outside of the window and taehyung isnât stealing glances from the rear-view mirror - that makes you want to shake your head in rejection to his request and prance out of the car like a predator in heat at the same time.
but instead, you calmly slide over to the side now vacant side and slip out of the car, closing the door behind you so no ears can eavesdrop.
the scent of his cologne wafts stronger into your senses now that you have no police officers to be cautious of nor any embellished stories to correct.
that, or maybe itâs the way heâs got you trapped against the car door and his body, right arm placed perfectly on the roof of the car, next to your head.
âbout time you give me your @, no?â the corner of his lips tilts higher into a cocky smirk.
âum, yea,â you begin, âi think itâs better if we leave into the night like strangers with stories, you know? and if weâre meant to find each other, we will,â you swear on your grandmotherâs grave that you will never go to any parties anymore, âmakes a good plot for a drama,â eyes going wide and mouth taking on an âoâ shape, you continue, âdidnât you say you were gonna start watching those?â
 his shoulderline shakes as he chuckles, head dropped it tilts up, eyes capturing yours, âiâm not falling for that,â his announcement is plain and simple and yet youâre forced to put twice the effort in your smile as to not let it falter, âafter getting my chest groped and caressed, i deserve at least-â
âit was a friendly pat, mind you,â you correct, smile still glued to your face before rolling your eyes, âbut snapchat is as far as iâm willing to go.â
âworks for me,â the screen of his phone flashes with a dark mode keypad splayed over it - youâre not sure how he unlocked it without taking those glinted eyes off you but he did. so you swipe the phone off his hand and send yourself a request through his account.
âiâm gonna open your snap and leave you on read!â you announce, and he laughs, âalright, bet!â
and with that, he waves at you using the same phone he told you to put your number in, taking a few steps backward, allowing you room to breathe properly again before he whirls on his heels and walks through the glass double doors.
you donât wait any longer than you have to, shivering from the cold night air when you slip into the car.
âdid you give him your number?!â jennie practically screams.
âno but i gave my snapchat only because he looked like he wouldnât sleep a wink at night if i didnât,â you shrug.
and thatâs how kim jennie gets it into her head that youâre going to get your first-boyfriend-cherry popped. or so she likes to believe.
but thatâs the least of your concern for the greater one comes in a devil with black jeans and matching plain t-shirt and timberlands and a lit up screen at exactly three something in the am, right after youâre done with a hot shower and in a middle of towel drying your hair and putting on your night routine skincare.
you open the text revealing a night view of a cityscape from a window which room is surrounded by darkness and a transparent horizontal strip with a ââď¸ â in the middle from a goldenjks.
so you snap a picture of your skincare products next to a mirror with you and a towel on your head, face blocked by your hand thatâs holding your phone, choosing to send âđâ.
and so it goes, the snap war that erupts between you and user goldenjks throughout the night which, after youâd gotten into bed with the lights off, basically includes snaps of your darkened room and his more superior window view.
before long, you started texting on snapchat about how the police officer seems to know him and how-
goldenjks
u were p chill for someone who got arrested for the 1st time
youâre giggling in the darkness at 5:23 am.
you
cs ik i didnât do anything wrong
duh
and he mentions something about a sobbing kid that was made to wait with you and nobody really did anything to comfort him.
goldenjks
that coulda been u if i wasnât there probably
you roll your eyes but you can feel your muscles becoming sore from the way your lips are stretching from ear to ear.
then it starts with how taehyung didnât saying anything throughout the ride up until the car rolled to a stop in front of jeonggukâs place.
goldenjks
r u guys using him for his car???
cs sameÂ
i would 2
you
wtf
weâre not đđ
and without much thought, you end up spilling a not-so-secret but not-so-well-known truth.
you
welp
heâs using me to get close to jennie so
ig i should use him for his car
oof
goldenjksÂ
ooof
so let me guess
u canât say no to him cs u have the biggest crush on him
âwhat the hell?â you mumble to yourself, smile pulled down into a frown, but before you can type out a reply, two more pop up on his side.
goldenjks
and jimin head over heels for u
you
𧢠𧢠đ§˘
u funny đđđ
goldenjks
fr fr tho đđđ
i would b too
all of a sudden, a boy with the softest blonde hair and crescent eye smiles floods your throughts. you and jimin might have been casual friends for the longest time and only until recently started hanging out together - and he may or may not hold confidential information about the littlest details of the lack of smile on your face and the blank snaps in your stories whenever youâre down.
but to say heâs reacting such way because heâs into you would be a total scam.
so you shake your head, laughing out loud, ânah canât be.â
you
alright imma đ´đ´đ´
to which jeongguk tests back a gnight and after one whole solid minute, a text u tmr?
you leave him on read.
x
âlike, who does he think he is?â you huff, burying the plastic spoon into the ice cream before scooping up a chunk of neapolitan flavored goodness and directing it into your mouth, âhe literally met us just last night and heâs spouting shit like he knows us for years?â
âi donât know,â jennie humps, tongue darting out to lick the remnants of strawberry ice cream on her upper lips before she goes on with a smile that screams âjust get together alreadyâ, âitâs kinda hot to me when guys know shits, you know what i mean?â
youâve managed to avoid jimin and taehyung at all costs and sneak to the ice cream parlor thatâs five minutes away from campus where you spilled your guts out about how you got unreasonably irritated by the long running joke, about how jeonggukâs hand wrapped around your wrist and he pulled you out of the way of the chaotic college students who were rushing to get out of the small, cramped apartment and how you stopped him from relaying your disbelief of his lack of knowledge about her.
âlike, i flipped out at him because of some stupid joke,â you shrugged, hands fiddling with each other while a coat of smoke wafted over the newly scooped and paid-for ice cream.
your name rolled off her lips before she stared at you with her hands on hear heart, âi- i didnât know you would go so far as fight a guy for me for calling me ugly,â then she laughed, âbut you donât have to. girl, we been knew iâm ugly as fuck.â
your jaw hit the ground at the word she used to describe herself before you blinked and came back to your senses and aggressive defenses, âoh my god, iâm the ugly one and youâre the literal goddess - like, i shouldnât even be looking at you. i should be looking at your sole. you should be stepping on me - step on me! now!â
a yelp resonated into the air as you groped around for jenniâs left leg in an attempt to lift her foot to make her step on you to which you both ended up laughing hysterically after realizing that she was wearing a skirt and the way you were sitting may or may have not resulted in an array of possible outcomes.
âoh my god, do you think she saw my panties?â she meant the woman in her late 40â˛s who were shooting disapproving eyes at the both of you as she scrolled through her phone, seeming to be waiting for someone before placing an order.
âyou just flashed a poor old woman who came to have some ice cream,â you were hunched over, hand covering your face as you stole glances her way which didnât hold long because you ended up giggling with the girl when you caught each otherâs eyes.
âyou think she likes what she sees?â jennieâs brows rose suggestively and you knew what she was going to say next before the words even leave her mouth, âyou think maybe i should tell her about my onlyfans?â
it was a few bursts of giggles later, that youâd finally managed to talk properly. or probably because jennieâs question brought out an unwelcomed emotion that you pushed to the back of your conscience last night and for the most part, managed to forget, âso,â her brows were wiggling like earthworms on her forehead, âdid he text you?â
that was what spurred the whole confession and up to the moment where you spilled the contents of the unfairly attractive strangerâs text.
âi donât know, he kinda went overboard,â you shrug and jennieâs hand reaches over yours, patting it once with what you assume is an understanding manner.
âsweetie, i get it,â she announces, âyou feel exposed because he said the absolute truth and only the truth and now youâre projecting your embarrassment on him through disdain.â
silence follows her statement.
and staring.
on your part, that is.
âgirl,â you blink once, eyebrows arched, âwhatever youâre having - i want some.â
that warrants a bout of giggles from said girl before she scoops her last bite of ice cream and hook arms with you as you walk towards the trashcan to dump your empty paper bowls, âno but for real, i like jeongguk-â
âthen you date him,â you announce, nodding in approval.
âi like how he brings this... this... fire out of you, you know?â she quizzes to which you shake your head in a âno, i donât knowâ kind of manner as she goes on, âand i already have namjoon so,â she sing songs as she starts to skip in the middle of the mall and since your arms are linked together, you end up taking larger steps to accommodate to hers before deciding that you canât root your feet down to slow her down into a normal pace. so you join her, skipping to the exit where you wait for your uber.
âyou guys made up?â the question comes out in a calm, poised manner once youâve both slipped into the backseat of the uber - youâd like to believe youâre doing a pretty good job on trying to conceal your spiking disbelief and the need to whoop someoneâs ass. that someone being a girl who just pledged an oath to choose herself first instead of some man who-
âi texted him and told him how i felt with him cancelling on our plans and when i didnât get any reply, i turned off my phone and got into bed because iâm not gonna mope over someone who wonât appreciate me,â at that, you give her an approving nod, âbut then he came knocking on my door at like 5 in the morning in yesterdayâs suit because apparently he has a deadline to meet and heâs been bending over backward trying to finish it on time and he brought his laptop with him too and managed to submit on time after explaining everything. he said he tried calling multiple times but obviously it went to voice mail so... yeah we made up.â
âthatâs...â you trail off, only to stare at your friendâs beaming face like sheâs just had one of the best facials on earth, âwow, i... i donât know what to say now that we know heâs not trash.â
âi know,â you feel her pat the back of your hand sympathetically, âand thatâs what a man is,â and when she looks at you with eyes that have one goal in her mind, you know not to start listening because the facts are going to bruise your pride and hit the nail on the head more times than youâd-
âliking a boy has more downs than ups but iâm not too worried because youâre a self-loving bitch and i love that for you but kim taehyung is not it,â she says all that with a straight face.
âyeah,â you mumble, thumbs fiddling together as you turn your attention to them as if itâs the most magnifying thing in the world to find out that identical parts of your body could move on their own with just a thought.
âokay, but i swear, heâs so oblivious all the time-â the girl stops short of her lament, you can see her head tilting to peer at you at a slightly different angle as if to see traces of an impostor on you, âwait, what?â
âwe got into a fight last night- i donât know if itâs even a fight but you know how i go off in a tangent when i get like annoyed, right?â you steal a glance at her for half a second before going back to your thumbs, âso i kind of did that to him before the dude announced the cops were coming and we havenât really talked to each other since then.â
before any of you could say anything else, the sound of a cough echoes in the air, warranting your attention to turn to the driver, a woman in her mid-thirties. you return her smile through the rear-view mirror, âif you donât mind me saying this - i know you girls are smart as fuck, but you sound just as dumb as that guy - whoever he is because itâs completely normal to get mad at someone youâre crushing on and still have a crush on them but sounds to me like youâre thinking one fight is the end of the world for you.â
âsis, please, donât encourage her,â jennie talk-whispers as she leans forward just the slightest bit and covers the side of her mouth with her hand.
âwell, weâre not really friends,â you begin and jennie groans - you two went over this and agreed to disagree with each otherâs wildly contrasting views about crushing on crushes that could crush you but the lady hasnât heard it so youâre not going to stop lamenting over it, âand whatever i do, itâs like iâm teetering on a tight rope because one wrong move and he probably wonât talk to me ever again and iâm not like miserably crushing on him - like, whatever we are right now - it lets me see him every day and he has the cutest smile and the prettiest fingers- i just - itâs better than not talking to each other forever, you feel?â
âum, donât i?â she rolls her eyes, as if coming from a place filled with oblivious boys and hopeless crushes.
her name is solar and she does uber as a part time while working 9 to 5 at a firm that she claims to pay better but still not enough for her to save up for her wedding on the side and she and her fiance knew each other since high school but sheâs seen him date two girls and get his heartbroken by both before he actually noticed her, the friend thatâs always been there for him through his heartbreaks.
coming from someone who isnât jennie and her alarming obsession with breaking parts of bodies of people who hurt her loved ones, solarâs view is somewhat a mixture of you and your best friendâs which still bases on one simple fact: whatever you say to and about taehyung comes bouncing back at you like a ping pong ball because-
âyou have a crush on him and he has a crush on jennie,â she surmises before looking over at the aforementioned girl, âand people with crushes act like idiots- by the way how do you feel- like how do you handle the guyâs advancements and still arenât awkward with each other because i have never seen...â
when the car rolls to a stop in the parking lot of your faculty, she finally turns to the two of you, her bleached blonde hair framing her face in waves as the silence - on you and jennieâs part as you both share glances at the indicative joke opening - hangs in the air with a sort of tension you can feel.
might even bite back like you did with jeongguk but youâre more in control now.
 â...two pretty best friends who are still best friends when thereâs a guy that comes between them.â
âoh thank god,â jennie sighs, laughing and youâre nodding in agreement, âthanks for not-â and your best friend echoes, âyeah,â before you can even finish your sentence, â-saying that cliche joke or like for giving your own twist to it,â waving a dismissive hand, you address her initial worries, âand taehyung doesnât-â
âhe doesnât-â jennie chimes in.
â-come between us.â
you both say at the same time.Â
âoh my god, thatâs great, you know my best friend tried sleeping with my fiance behind my back once,â solar crinkles her nose, âwasnât a good experience but anywho, iâm so glad to see two girls having each otherâs back like you guys. makes me want to...â
itâs a few moments later that you finally hand her the money and murmur out appreciations for being such a great uber driver along with some âgive me five stars! thanks!â and âwe will! have a nice one!â
you both part ways in the hallway when youâre supposed to go for marketing and she has to go for personnel management. jiminâs already reserved a seat for you, waving at you to catch your attention which he succeeds splendidly. by the start of the second year, youâve opted to sit together in classes you have in common, though not as close as the front as youâd like, itâs better than sitting at the back where you can hear the buzz of flies - you mean people, talking.
âare you doing anything this friday night?â jimin asks amidst people zooming out of the class as if they donât want to be there for longer than a minute after being dismissed.
that, or they have another class to get to on the other side of the campus.
âuh, just me or me and jennie âyouâ?â you dumbly question.
that warrants a chuckle from the boy, âyou and jennie... unless you wanna come alone?â
a hum vibrates in your chest as you narrow your eyes at him, as though if you looked close enough, you can see through his skull and right into his thoughts.Â
but you canât so thatâs why youâre spouting out another question, âwhere exactly are you inviting us again?â
âso, like, you know i dance right?â he drops his gaze for the briefest moment before coming back up to lock it with yours, âitâs very lowkey - just something i do for fun, but we kind of have a dance off with other teams every month and this monthâs round is this friday night so i was wondering if you wanna come?â then he quickly adds, âwith jennie, of course.â
to be frank your weekends are as boring and dull as it gets - the party-busted incident was a rare exception - but you and jennie are quite content with it. you start having more to do and places to venture out to when taehyung and subsequently jimin join your group of two and made it a group of four but for the most part, if youâre not going anywhere, your weekend is usually spent with watching movies and burying yourself in work for the rest of it.
âbet,â your reply might have come a tad bit delayed judging from how his brows rise to the ceiling and his eyes go round as he chirps, âreally?âÂ
âyeah, just text me or jennie the location the day before,â you request as you both walk down the hallway.
âgreat- yeah, iâll... iâll text you the place,â jimin beams even as he bumps into someone behind him, turning around to lower his head and mumble out an oh sorry before turning back to you, âi got another class but iâll text you- on thursday - not today, of course.â
and you wave back, shouting out an âokay bye!â
then heâs gone like the wind.
x
the days pass by like a breeze.
kim taehyung caught you in the middle of waiting for jennieâs class to end whilst also finishing up some work in the library. he knew your favorite spot and he knew where youâd usually be - but you had an inkling that you werenât exactly the reason why he memorized these little things. he waved at you in greeting and you waved back. you wouldâve pretended he didnât exist after that and go back to your laptop if he didnât hold up his phone screen with blank white space and blue and grey bubbles on the side.
so of course you picked up your phone, noticing that there were already three wiggling dots when you tapped on his name.
kth: hey
you met his gaze once, as if to affirm that he meant to send it. when he shota half, almost pleading smile, you typed out a reply.
you: hey whatâs good
kth: nothing
kth: just waiting for a friend
seeing as there was not really a conversation going on where jennie wasnât involved and how the boyâs blatant dismissal in addressing the big, giant elephant in the room, taehyung mustâve had seen the way your lips pursed into an irritated pout before his phone vibrated.
you: cool
and then you were back to your laptop, typing sentences out and backspacing because of its incoherent nature, or lack of quality or whatever reason that stopped you from doing your job before kim taehyungâs arrival.
then he started whispering âhey, uh, ____,â from across the table. upper body leaned to the front as if itâd help enunciate his words.
you took your sweet time taking out your airpods from each individual ear and placing them down next to your mac before finally arching a brow at the boy, âwhat?â
âhey,â he repeated, this time with a frozen mid-wave, âhi, how you doing?â
âgreat thanks,â there was a minimal effort on your part to disguise your âwhat even?â expression on your face as you picked up your right airpod first - only to be stopped by the boyâs-
âiâm sorry.â
itâs clean and short but his face made up for conveying his genuinity.
âwhy are you saying sorry?â it didnât mean you were going to let him off the hook easy.
âwell, because...â he trailed off for the briefest moment but the unconcealable bop of his adamâs apple isnât really helping him appear any more convincing, âi was being pushy...â he looked to you for an indication of him being on the right track to which you were not sure if he did get any but he still went on with his wits and his will - it took you everything not to gush over how cute he looks with his panic-blinking and pretty lips moving as if to say something but no words coming out, â...and i was generally being an annoying little shit.â
âand?â you pressed on, blinking once as if to paint a look of unbotheredness.
â...and...â he echoes, eyes darting from your phone to somewhere behind you and then something next to it but only silence fills the space between you and him.
âalright, iâm gonna be real with you,â leaning back, you cross your arms over your chest, âi know you talk to me when you need something and i donât really care - well i do, but i just bottle it up until it one day burst out, you know what iâm saying? so yea, if youâre wondering if that night was me blowing up on you, it kinda was and it wasnât because you were making small talks with me just to poke into my best friendâs business - well, it kinda is but like not in that way, you follow? what i mean is.. donât let me catch you sneaking behind jennieâs back asking personal shits about her that you donât think sheâs going to disclose even if you straight up ask her - thatâs sus, taehyung.â
by the end of it, he was staring at you like you had two horns and a tail swaying around behind you. but you concur, that may or may have not been your inner self coming to light - just a hypocrite criticizing someone for doing the things she would have done, if she wasnât already doing it, if she was in his shoes.
and to be quite frank, taehyungâs shoe size is probably a few inches bigger than yours but if they had laces, you wouldâve been able to put them on and tied them up to accommodate your ego.
so taehyung didnât - couldnât say anything in response to your second time going off into a tangent and because of what he did, at that. he stopped texting you altogether and only talked to jennie whenever you werenât around and left before you got to them if he saw you coming his way - jennieâs actually.Â
either way, jennie wasnât as elated as you thought sheâd be once you told her that you called taehyung out on his bullshit.
âum, iâve always wanted to tell him about me and namjoon so heâd give up - you were the one who didnât let me,â she might or might not have said something along the lines of you making her âlead him on all because you wanted to an eye candy to look at every day.â
âwhat do you mean?â your forehead was creasing a thousand folds.
ânot that iâm pointing fingers,â she went on, eyes glued to the pairs of indoor shoes in the corner of the room and anywhere but your eyes, âbut iâm like, cool with or without him around but you sort of said âokay, then itâs cool if he comes with us right?â and you were making puppy eyes and i couldnât no to that-â
and so you were laughing dryly, âaha- wha- what so itâs my fault that heâs being a total wuss and wonât square up?â
âi didnât say that,â jennieâs reply came a heartbeat later which meant yes, it was.
so now youâre not talking to your best friend and neither are you talking to the boy whoâs crushing on her. which leaves you a lot of free time to finish up your work in time to hop into a bullet train and then an uber and get to the building where jiminâs dance off is held.Â
youâre in the middle of texting the boy a âsorry, might b late. i didnât know thereâd be a line đâ when a figure comes up to you from the corner of your eye.
fitted in black jeans and matching tucked in t that shows off his slender waist and beanie, the only thing that isnât black is probably his white-yellow timberlands, âso you werenât kidding when you said you were gonna leave me on read.â
âyou know, itâs so cute that you think youâre worth the reply at all,â you blink, eyes going wide and jaw hanging loose from shock, âthis... this... confidence - where do you get it? seriously, tell me because i have never seen someone with such immaculate self-absorbance.â
jeonggukâs head moves as he nods in admittance, hands buried in his pocket before he looks up at you. that familiar glint in his eyes is telling you that whatever he has up his sleeve, youâre not going to be able to refuse.
âyou know, eugene over there and i are homies,â he nods towards the burly tall man at the front whoâs mainly the reason thereâs a line in the first place - one that no one seems to dare cut, âi could get you in faster.â
âoh my god, look what that self-absorbanceâs got you believing,â you put one, sympathetic hand on his shoulder as your free hand goes to cover the spot on your chest where your heart is, âiâm so happy for you,â you glance over to the not-declining-anytime-soon line behind you, âbut sometimes, even confidence canât get you into invites-only events.â
 to any other person, it mustâve looked like you and jeongguk are friends - friendly acquaintances hitting best buddies at the very least. but something in the way his grin curling sweetly on his lips and the curve of the half ringlet of his hair touching the corners of his onyx eyes, makes your toes curl inwardly and your stomach churn with a sort of emotion you canât pinpoint.
and because of that, you know there wonât be any sort of friendship forming between you and jeongguk.
he leaves you with an amused smirk and a âsee you inside,â and marches up to eugene, the two sharing an uncomplicated handshake before the man steps to the side and lets him in.
well.Â
it takes you another ten minutes of standing in line and assuring jimin that he doesnât need to rush out and risk having his team go without him when their turn comes. which according to jimin, âisnât anytime soon - they let the bigger teams go firstâ.
but then jimin knowing jimin, that probably meant soon enough.
when youâre finally on the front of the line, crumpled up ticket in hand, eugene gives you a once over and nods at his not-as-burly-but-just-as-scary-looking friend.
âfollow me,â and with that, she struts in through the door but instead of going down the hallway like the ones before you did before they disappear from eyesight in the corner, she takes a sharp turn to the right until she stops in front of an elevator.
her deep violet hair brushes against her cheekbones as she nods at the empty box with mirrors all around.
yeesh, guess everyone expresses themselves with their bodies here.
the numbers constantly change from ground level to 1 to 2 and finally stops at the 3rd floor where the blare of the music seems to come from. and thatâs when you see the black haired boy who has his forearms leaned against the railing as he grins at something on the bottom floor where the shouts and cheers seem to erupt from. but before you can make a sharp 180 to go back down where jimin said youâd only need to follow the hallway and take the turn around the corner like the people before you did, jeongguk looks up as if sensing the heat of your gaze drilling holes inside his head. with one hand raised, he beckons you over.
âyour majesty,â you drop into a bow once you reach him, âthis humble servant thanks you for bringing her here but,â pointing your thumb over your shoulder at the hallway you just came from you continue, âi think iâm on the wrong floor because all i can see here is flocks of hair - an oh, shiny scalp from that guy - arms flailing around. takes away the magic of dance, you feel?â
âso youâre here for jimin.â it doesnât sound like a question - so it must not be. a ponderous hum vibrate from his chest as you shoot him an arched brow whilst your insides burst like fireworks at the way his darkened eyes traces down your body and back up after heâs done with what seems to be a scoutâs assessment.
âno leather pants and no best friend or heartbreak boy hovering around like a lost puppy - let me guess, he did something that made you mad, the best friend backed him up and now youâre mad at both of them?â he raises his own brow, lips curling into an assured smirk, âoh and jimin hereâs probably taking a neutral stance because it âdoesnât concernâ him.â
you donât know if you want to run away or grab the neck of his shirt and smack your lips on his.
so you settle with handguns pointed in his face, âalright, catch you never.â
but before you can even take a step to where you came from, jeonggukâs laying out his card on the table, âyou sure bout that? itâs bulleproof boysâ turn - itâs jiminâs teams name, in case youâre wondering and judging by who theyâre going against, it might be their first and last performance for the night.â
âi knew that,â respectfully, you had no idea that the teams have specific names besides the alphabetical letters given to them upon registration.
jiminâs only mentioned dance match once and that heâs in team c thatâll go against team d.
so you stick around, watching from all the way on the third floor where the lest people are gathered, cheering out names of teams that are alien to your ears which seem to be the team jimin is going against. but the fact that jimin could dance with such precision and grace is magnifying enough. heâs mostly posed on either sides of the formation, switching from the front left to the furthest back line on the right side as the beat drops.
jiminâs name pours out of your mouth in cheers but itâs swallowed by the other cheers before it can even reach him. in the end, jiminâs team loses. they still go up to their opponent and share handshakes and sidehugs before moving away from the dance floor.
heâs not smiling nor is he frowning as he stands in the crowd after the prelims but his lips curl and eyes disappear into crescents when he sees you.
âhey!â his arms open up into a hug, only to stop halfway in hesitation but by then youâre already wrapping yours around his neck with a âyou were so cool!â
and just like that, the awkwardness in the air dissipates.
âi didnât see you in the crowd.â
âso what? you thought i left?â a light smack lands on his arm, âby the way, you didnât tell me it was this intense - i can feel the tension from all the way...â you pause for the briefest moment, â...in the audience.â
âeveryone here just likes to dance so it gets competitive at some point but at the end of the day, itâs important to have fun,â he shrugs, a shy smile plastered to his face.
âeither way you did great,â you bump his elbow with yours, and he shifts his weight to his left foot.
âwe lost but it was a fair match the bts people were too good,â a mixture of regret and contentedness crosses his face as he nods to himself, as if admitting the difference in skills.
âletâs get a drink later, iâm buying,â you propose and jimin looks like a kid who just received his favorite candy.
well, that was the plan for the rest of the night up until the winner was announced. then a boy no older than you and jimin came up to the latter, arms slung over his shoulders, âdude, beyond the scene just asked if we wanna join them at the afterparty. can you believe it?â
âdude, you capping - donât fucking joke with men man, i was about to shit my pants-â jimin attempts to shove the guy away half-heartedly which does nothing as his friend - teammate, cuts him off.
âiâm not fucking joking, man, behind the scenes literally asked if we wanna chill with them!â
the two boys are basically shoving each other back and forth before they start slapping each other on the face once to wake the other up. whoever this behind the scenes guys, they seem like a pretty big deal if two grown adults are fanboying this hard about them.
only after theyâre sporting the faintest shade of pink on their right cheeks, do they finally realize that they werenât squeal-whispering by themselves. he introduces himself as kai -Â âjiminâs best friend and mentor.â
âhe likes to say that because i got into dance because of him,â jimin adds, debunking the mentor myth.
youâre about to wave the two goodbye and call it a night since itâs pretty clear that the behind the scenes guys only invited them and not their friends.
âcome with us,â kai announces as the three of you walk down the back entrance where itâs less crowded and meant for the participants to use, âbaekhyun canât make it so weâll still be five people.â
âi really should go- itâs getting late and my place is in seoul-â
and so begin your war of apologies and âno, youâs.
âoh shit, i forgot.â jiminâs usually almond-shaped eyes turn round and wide, âyou used the subway-â
âyeah, but i can still catch the last train home-â you try to assure.
âiâll accompany you back-â
âno, no - you should go with them-â
âno, i made you come to watch-â
and it would have gone on until morning if you and jimin were left to argue on who should do what if kai didnât clap his hands together and put an end to the long debate, âokay, okay, break it up.â
he looks between the blonde haired best friend and then to you, âjimin came with me so iâm gonna drive him back anyway and i could drop you off too after chilling with bts - itâs nothing youâre not used to, beers and games and shits, you know? plus itâll be like, less than 20 people there - bts never invites other groups into their circle - who knows, maybe youâll find your true way like jimin did,â he pats the aforementioned man on his shoulder whilst jimin rolls his eyes at the way best friends whoâve heard their best friend boast about an-untruth for the umpteenth time.
and because you basically made another friend and that means youâll have at least 2 people to hang out with if the rest turns out not to be your kind of people - so you cave in, âokay, sure, why not?â
x
'why notâs are subjective - or so youâd like to think.
like when youâre not particularly into americano and prefer latte but wouldnât say no to having the first if jennie mixed up your order and bought you your not-so-favored but also not-so-hated drink.
but jennieâs known you since she shoved you off the swings at five after you outran her only to get to the swings faster because only one was vacant and the other kid was already in the other one.
so sheâd know your preferred drinks.
but in the event she suddenly has amnesia or anything and got you and americano, thatâs when youâll go, âwhy not?â
but that and finding out that jeongguk used to be part of bts until he hurt his during practice, having to have 2 major surgeries because of it, rendering him no longer able to dance so heâs only going to the dance offs to cheer for his friends which was how he met you at the entrance and now youâre handcuffed together (and yes, again) in the middle of the forest - are two disparate things altogether.
hoseok, the most outgoing and friendliest of the bunch, suggested for the ice breaking to be in a form of 2 beer bottles and a sort of rope or chain tying people from bts and the bulletproof people together to talk for five minutes. they only have 2 pairs of cuffs so the others that lack them have to make do with bandanas and you think a seokjin got harassed into taking off his shirt and using it as him and his designated partnerâs pseudo handcuff.
yours and jeonggukâs are - youâre not sure if itâs a fortunate or unfortunate thing - real ones (youâre not sure if you want to know why and how seulgi easily pulls out a pair of fluffy pink handcuffs and a normal-looking one - out of the blue).
but youâre almost sure that youâre leaning on the side of the internal argument of this - this, right here - is why not.
âwhy didnât you text me back?â jeongguk is in the middle of asking as you take a big chug of the alcoholic beverage.
"oh my god,â you let a pleased smile tug at your lips as you feel the buzz of the alcohol coursing through your system, âi was just gonna talk to you about that - jennie said i was being a ghosting b because you only said facts and i got like, offended without a reason but i agree that people can be wrong sometimes and that was her time... i just...â you shrug, âi just didnât want to text you back so i didnât,â you look at him with a new found familiarity, âanyways, how was your week?â
by the end of it, jeonggukâs nodding and poorly suppressing his smirk.
âwell, let me start first,â you begin before he can even say anything, listing down the happenings in a chronological order which may or may have not confirmed his initial assumption on why youâre here alone â...i mean, was it my fault though? between you and me, i think jennie and i need to sit down and actually talk about accountabilities first, you know? but anyway, thatâs how my week went! how about you, how was your week?â
to say that your turmoil of a week is anything close to a laugh-worthy joke, would be a lie but for some reason, trickles of laughter are escaping jeonggukâs lips and into the night air as he leans back, holding his stomach. he wouldâve hit the ground if youâd poke him.
âwow,â you slowly nod, âthatâs... thatâs very... flattering that you think my somewhat a quarter life crisis is amusing,â a grin stretches across your face but your eyes drill holes into the boyâs skull, âmaybe i should just quit uni altogether. thatâd be... exciting, right? just... quit uni and live a life as a comedian because look at how much iâm cracking you up right now!â
and it goes on for another minute of jeonggukâs laughter filling the air as you threaten him to stop in the guise of encouragement besides the cracking of the branches as it gets swallowed up by the fire in the barrel not too far away from where everyoneâs scattered.
âgod,â when heâs finally reduced to chuckles and wiping invisible tears off the corner of his eyes, youâre about halfway done with your bottle.
âand heâs back,â you announce, âwelcome back. canât say i missed you though but glad that youâre back with us.â
but before jeongguk can get a word out about his own week which youâd asked, if only to be polite, hoseok is already summoning everyone to gather around the barrel as he raises a bottle in the air to -Â ânew groupship and friends!â
or so you think he said.
youâre not too sure because youâre too busy demanding jeongguk to - âuncuff me right now, jeon - was that too pushy? let me try again,â you pause, clearing your throat, âcan you please, please, please, uncuff me so i can go back to my friends and not have to stay here a minute longer?â
âdonât act like you donât enjoy my company,â he offers you one of his self-assured smirks before addressing your concern, âiâm trying,â he says simply, free hand patting around the pocket on the side of his jeans before groping his own ass.
âum, maybe try harder?â you suggest, smiling sweetly but it downturns into a frown not even a minute later when he declares, âi canât find it.â
âyou... canât find it?â you echo his words.
âitâs not on me,â he states.
âwell, did seulgi give it to you at all or...â you trail off only to be met by a devious smirk which doesnât exactly help his case.
âguess youâre stuck with me,â he shrugs ever so easily.
âoh, hell nah,â and thatâs when you latch onto to smirking boyâs body - on your hands at least, and since his left hand and your right hand are cuffed together, it doesnât allow much room for your physical inspection which is how using your only free hand to get to the side of his pocket thatâs farthest from you - may appear suspicious to others.
you only notice that youâre fully facing jeongguk and having your back turned to everyone else when hoseokâs voice cuts through the air, âyo hold up, hold up, hold up - this is bonfire and chill, not netflix and chill.â
your jaws hurt from hanging a bit too low as you meet each and everyoneâs eyes, their giggling and laughing already telling enough of what the majority thinks - everyone except jimin, that is.
but youâre a bit too preoccupied with trying to clear the supposed air of you and jeongguk getting it on in the middle of the forest with both your friends and his around, âaha,â you force out, âi know this,â free hand waving between the chain linking your wrists and the open air which isnât helping your case because jeonggukâs poor attempt at subduing his smirk is well, poor, âmight look sus to you but it isnât - jeongguk lost the key and if someone could help us find it, itâd-â
âoh, donât worry, i have a spare at home,â seulgi chirps up, hand waving her illuminated phone, âiâll text my girlfriend to bring it here.â
well, that explains the fluffy cuffs.
âsick,â jeongguk nods over to the girl to which she holds up an âokayâ sign and a meaningful smile to him which shouldnât be ominous but is.
so you fix him a stare when hoseok goes to say something along the line of âgreatâ and âlifesaverâ to seulgi.
which the boy only asks back with a âwhat?â
âi have something to say but iâm not gonna so iâm just gonna keep quiet but just know that iâm watching you,â but the warning doesnât exactly bring out the intimidating aspect that you hoped for.
âwatch all you want, iâm yours for tonight,â the velvety sound of his chuckles is awfully distracting because you donât even notice the chain clinking until his fingers interlock yours before he brings them up in the air - as if to emphasize on the technicality of his titillating claim.
the night goes on with bottles of beers scattering over the ground, faint smoke dissipating into the air as the scent of something sweet and fruity wafts around whilst the juul gets passed around.
once in a while someoneâs laugh echoes between the gaps of the trees and into the night, amidst the sound of woodland creatures. youâve downed one and a half bottle of henny whilst jeongguk doesnât seem to have gone past even half of his first bottle. but heâs chuckling and laughing at something someone said which, for the most part, is funny or warrant a jaw-dropping, pin-drop-silence kind of reaction just like now as seulgi confesses to-
ânever have i ever slept with my momâs boyfriend at 19.â
âand thatâs on mommy issues,â you hold up a beer in a âcheersâ manner at her whilst she mimics your action before you both tilt your head up and take a chug out of your individual beers at the same time.
âwhat about you?â jeongguk asks and for a moment, you forget that there are people around because jeonggukâs eyes look like someone reached up the sky and handpicked two stars each for his irises and trap them in there like a class case.
but youâd like to believe itâs the alcohol doing its rightful work in your system because youâre back on the ground with an unrelenting itch on your ankle where itâs brushing against the blades of grass.
âyea, whatâs your never-have-i-ever mommy issues edition?â kai speaks up.
ânah, itâs wack,â you wave a dismissive hand but end up agreeing to spill the beans when a bout of protest spreads across your ever so faithful audience.
âokay, okay, never have i ever fucked my biological momâs husband who isnât my dad,â you say which earns a bout of cheers and âthatâs messed upâs before seokjin claps his hands together.
ânever have i ever...â he pauses, grinning as an added suspense before he goes on, âfucked my brotherâs boyfriend.â
the game doesnât last for long when everyone collectively agree to take the atmosphere up a notch and play strip truth or dare. but before your turn came, seulgi announces her girlfriendâs arrival concurrently with her having to leave for the night because sheâs her ride home. and because you and jeongguk are both of the same mind that youâre the ones that should be following after her to get yourselves uncuffed, you do just that.Â
yeri is a sweetheart and matches seulgiâs playful yet reserved nature. they take the cuffs with them and seulgi waves you two goodbye with the same, meaningful smile directed to jeongguk - but if thatâs not enough, the âgood luckâ thumbs up is a screaming red button for you.
but before you can even call him out for his possible hand in convincing his dance friends to invite jiminâs and consequently you to the forest after the match - he beats you to it.
âyou okay?â this time, his features are lacking the smirk.
âyea, why wouldnât i be?â you say, hopping on the rail of the train track thatâll lead to the spot where the others are - so far, youâre doing a good job not falling to your demise.
âi donât know,â the scraping sound of his soul kicking against the pebbly ground fills the air as he walks next to you, hands in his pocket, âyouâve been pretty quiet after that thing about your mom.â
âyou think what i did was messed up?â you inquire, resisting the urge to steal a glance at him to see what kind of emotion heâs making - whether itâs contorted with disgust or whether his nose is crinkling at an attempt to appear unbothered or whether there really isnât any judgments being passed and heâs just downcasting his eyes because heâs looking out for possible sharp objects protruding from the ground.
âeveryoneâs a little messed up,â his shoulderline shakes as he shrugs, âitâs the why behind it that counts.â
ânah,â your hair tickles your face as you shake your head in blatant refutation, âi didnât have a reason.â
and just when you expect a disgusted scoff to erupt from jeonggukâs pink lips... it doesnât.
âthat works too.â
silence follows his words for the longest moment with you trying placing one foot in front of the other, pretending like teetering on that tightrope youâre stuck on with kim taehyung at the end of it, not even waiting for you but just happen to be there.
so you break the silence, âi finally found her last year - flew all the way to jeju because my biological aunt saw my the post i put up on facebook in a last ditch attempt before i hire a private investigator like my dads suggested. she set us up to meet,â the picture of a woman whoâs so similar yet dissimilar to you flashes at the back of your head, a biscoff cheesecake slice lying untouched on the table and someone screaming at the top of their lungs right in front of your ears, âmy biological mom didnât know anything about it, flipped out and told me to never bother her again so i looked up where her husband worked and slept with him and sent the video to her.â
jeongguk doesnât say anything, only nodding in your periphery before a soothing kind of silence lapses between you.
âwhatâs your story?â you ask a moment later.
âhm?â he glances at you, the moonlight shining over that smirk that youâve come to miss in the course of the five minutes it went missing, skin painted a creamy white.
âif you donât wanna tell, thatâs fine too but like, you basically tore down my walls and iâm naked as hell - figuratively -â you add as soon as his eyes light up, âright now.âÂ
but then he tries to bargain, âpromise youâll text me back and iâll tell.â
and you try to teeter in the grey area between words and its meanings, âalright, promise... i wonât leave you on read.â
ânah, you gotta promise to text back,â his half curls sway as he shakes his head - your end of the bargain not sufficiently satisfying.
itâs a few moments after your surrendering, âyou know what? keep your skeletons in your closet - iâm good,â that he finally says something.
âi used to do tracks, lucked out with a sports scholarship but by freshman year in college, realized i didnât even like tracks and dropped out...â
jeonggukâs parents werenât happy about it - didnât exactly welcome him when he came back with a suitcase and a letter from his unversity claiming the outstanding balance of his first two semesters. but he wasnât happy at home either.Â
so he packed his bags one more time and took the first train to seoul where he worked part time at a restaurant and occasionally at the dance offâs, before he found the beyond the scene people and subsequently found dance. that was amidst of a developer of the game he was playing approaching him through the gameâs chat server and offering him a job to test out their games with the condition that he gets a degree in computer science which they paid for on the companyâs scholarship fund.
and so it was obvious that jeon jeongguk, wherever he chooses to go and stop at, blooms like a wildflower that strives in any condition thrown in his face whether it be a storm, a hurricane or a sunny weather that barely allows any rain to cover the soil heâs rooted in.
and because heâs true to himself, it isnât as unbelievable, when almost everyone - from every layer of backgrounds, flock around him like honeybees in spring - allured, magnified and bewitched by jeon jeongguk that makes him... well, him.
to say you understand him a little bit better may be an overstatement but maybe youâre less suspicious of his keen intuition and uncanny prognosis of what happened in your relationships, both with your friend and your not-so-friendly crush.
jeongguk jests that his leg âdoesnât work like it used to but-â - heâs been to places. seen people.
âso why are you obsessed with me?â you question into the night in a light hearted joke, âi mean, i can possibly see why because well, iâm... me and iâm amazing but you know, itâs not healthy to be this obsessed with people.â
his chuckles sounds like wind chimes on a spring day, "besides the fact that i was too busy being a tracks nerd for most of my life so i have zero flirting skills and decided to make all the calls that seem to irritate the one person i want to get to know? itâs because you looked like you were head over heels with the guy you were putting in place but still managed to not make it personal.â
it takes a moment for you to digest what he just said, and even then, youâre nodding in complete disagreement as you blurt out, âpretty sure some parts were personal,â and you turn to him with a smile stretched over your face, âbut glad that you donât think iâm the impostor.â
so you stop twenty steps away from where you can see the fire in the barrel and hoshi, one of the guys from bulletproof boys, standing in boxers and shouting an oath before gulping down a bottle of henny at an alarming rate.
âeveryoneâs a little sus now and then,â he refutes, nose crinkling as a grin spread across his moon-kissed features as he offers you his hand and you take it, hopping off your tightrope journey and onto grounding earth.
x
when morning comes, you wake up to the familiar but not-very-welcomed sound of cars honking from outside your window and the light piercing through your eyelids, so much so, you surrender to the start of the day. arms stretched over your head and a guttural sound vibrating within your chest as a sign of protest before your vision finally gets used to the bright sunny rays.
and thatâs when you freeze. arms stretched and all.
âafter all this, you canât say no to a date with me,â jeon jeongguk is lying right next to you, in your one-person bed which you could never imagine would fit more than your need-for-maximum-space self when you sleep but there he is, in yesterdayâs clothes, hugging your light pink alpaca plushie on his stomach whilst his elbow which you donât notice before is poking into your rib.
the events of last night untangle in a web of hazed memory coming to high definition as each passing second pass by.
you and jimin live on the opposite ends of the city which made you reluctant in having kai drive you back at all, so jeongguk offered to split the uber bills with you because apparently, âoh, hey, we live in the same area!â
which later turned out you didnât and it wouldâve made more sense for him to hitch a ride with kai and jimin. but you didnât even need to ask why he did what he did.
because by the time you and jeongguk returned, itâd been a set-in-stones assumption that you were off making out somewhere under a tree and everyone cheered you and him for it upon your return.
well, except jimin.
so you pulled jeongguk to the side once the attention was directed to hoseok whose dare was to lick the grass he was stepping on.
âis that thing about jimin liking me true because heâs been like, avoiding my eyes the whole night and now heâs acting like i donât exist and iâm pretty concerned because his friend is my ride home,â you whispered underneath your beath.
jeongguk threw one, confirming glance at the aforementioned man before nodding casually, âheâs jealous as fuck because he thinks we did the do - cross my heart and hope to die.â
so you ended up offering jeongguk to sleep in your bed because it was already late and it felt like a waste to spend another thirty bucks to go back to a place where nobody was waiting for him anyway.
you were so beat, youâd fallen asleep as soon as jeongguk pulled your protesting self off the futon-splayed floor and held you captive in your own bed.
âyou know what? i might as well,â you say, legs thrown off the bed and stretching some more before looking down at the smiling, plushie-holding, grown ass person in your bed, ânow we need to figure out how to sneak you out because this is a girls-only dorm and if they found out i have a guy over, i might get expelled.â
but before you can even start brainstorming the best possible route for jeongguk to sneak out without being detected, an obnoxious rapping reverberates against your door. the look of pure horror settling in as jeonggukâs smile melts into a wide-eyed, panicked face would have been adorable if youâre not in the middle of shoving him into your âquick, in the closest!â which he needs to hunch his shoulders to become as small as possible before you can close it whilst you yelp out a âjust a minute!â
by the time you manage to school a smile on your face, jennieâs is already sprinkled with a dust of red as her brows come together, judging your choice of outfit and the events that went down last night.
âhey, girl,â you drag out the first word in idle panic, body leaning against the doorframe a little too defensively, âwhatâs...â you canât even find the right words as you tap your fingers against the doorframe before finally saying, âwhatâs good?â
but one questioning look from her and youâre stepping out of the way, left to stand at attention like a cadet in the presence of the general whilst said general struts into your room and scans it once before turning to you.
ââwhatâs good?ââ jennie echoes and you know from the way her head does the slightest of movements according to her enunciation, âimagine seeing your best friend on some mutual friendâs snapchat story which mind you, said mutual friend isnât anywhere close to either of you and the time in the snap says a big whooping 4:03 am while youâre here feeling bad for hurting her feelings with your words words. but does she feel bad? well, it doesnât flipping look like she even gave any thoughts about you, did it?â
and thatâs when the closet decides that itâs had enough of storing a full grown human in its belly and slowly, but surely swings the door open with thunderous creak in the midst of the calm before the storm. and lo and behold, a jeon jeongguk, still hugging your alpaca tightly, keeping his eyes closed as if itâll make him invisible before he gradually screws one eye open to the sight of a raging but confused jennie kim and a mortified you turning to said girl.
so much for keeping skeletons in closets.
âi-i can explain.â
x
it turns out all it takes for jennieâs anger to subside is for her to find a boy in your room. namely the boy sheâs been blatantly shipping you with even though you barely knew each other then.
âi have a wig in my room,â she suggests after youâve exhausted all options - jeongguk canât climb through the window and jump down from the second floor.
âwell, he can but thereâs no guarantee heâll be able to leave without one of his limbs intact,â youâd added, shrugging.
heâs sitting crossed leg on your bed, alpaca in his lap and looking cute as hell as his eyes go round at the mention of a wig and five minutes prior, crossdressing. the plan is for you and jennie will walk him out once heâs all dresed up like youâre just three - well, one is kind of buffed up but still pretty - best friends who had a girlsâ night and crashed in your room.
he whistles lowly, head lulling to the side as he stares at the door before turning to you with a playful smile, âiâve always wanted to wear a skirt.â
and so it goes, jennie kimâs squealing and making a short trip to her room and returning with a bag full of wig, stretchable sweaters and lycra skirts whilst she scours through your closet for clothes that you have but donât even remember. the oversized sweater thatâs a few more inches too big for you wraps around his body tightly and the skirt is a tad bit too short for him, going down to a few inches above the knee. but the head turner is the way the curly brown wig gracefully frames his face and softens his jawline, giving an illusion of how his half-ringlet would have looked if he grew them out.
you apply the soft pink lipgloss on his already rosy lips as a joke in a guise of a final touch, heart skipping as his lips curl whilst he gazes at you the whole time youâre putting on the glimmering liquid.
âokay, i feel bad,â you confess, shoulder line falling, âi thought youâd hate the lipgloss and i was going say itâs important to make the look work if you said no but youâre not saying no and youâre looking at me like youâd trust me with your life...â a sigh rolls off your lips at the end of it.
âyou feel bad?â he echoes, glossed lips looking kissable as hell - it doesnât even matter that heâs smirking like it was part of his plan all along to manipulate your conscience into confessing your ulterior motive.
so you nod.
âgood,â he states simply.
âyou saying good like youâre satisfied that you managed to pick on my guilty conscience is making me feel less guilty,â you narrow your eyes, not even bothering to hide the smile creeping on your lips.
âoh my god, my ship is sailing!â jennieâs whispered squeal cuts through the air before she reverts to her deadpanned self, âokay but seriously, if youâre done sprinkling sugar cubes all over the place, i think we should get jeongguk out before miss snitchery sonyeon next door sniffs the man in jeongguk and snitch on us.â
sonyeon has been known for reporting 2 boy-sneaking activities that went on last year which would have been justified if the girls that brought the boys into their room was doing questionable things and loudly at that but the first incident was with a late enrolled newbie that just moved in and didnât know that boys werenât allowed inside and though the other girl did sneak her boyfriend in, it was only because he was bleeding profusely and needed first aid treatment which she stored in her room.
youâre just about a few feet away from the double doors when a familiar but disembodied voice drums in your ears.
âyou three, stop right there.â
you think your heart stops working for the briefest moment as time freezes and youâre craning your head to look at jennie whose fear-stricken face mimics yours and then jeongguk whom you donât expect to wear such ceases in his forehead.
so you do the one thing that you think of-
ârun.â you whisper.
all of a sudden, the wind is in your face and a few heads turn your way - but you doubt that it has more to do with how unfairly gorgeous jeongguk looks than the fact that the ra is on your tail, her pitched demands for âsomeone stop them!â whilst. youâre not sure if someone did try to chase after you or if the adrenaline pumping in your system is what helps you sprint faster than a cheetah but when you finally slow down, almost skidding to a stop on the grass somewhere on campus grounds instead of the dormitory area - itâs because jennie is dramatically breathing through her mouth and found herself a bench to put on an act of dying whale.
âyou guys... go on... leave me be...â she croaks out in between breaths, hand reaching out to the air.
âdude, tell me if youâre gonna stop so we can stop and get caught together,â you guff, plopping down, your state no better than jennieâs while jeongguk shakes his head at the two of you.
not even a beat of sweat or heaved breathing coming from him - not to mention that-
âhow are you the fastest-â you suck in a much needed breath, â-when your leg doesnât work as good anymore?â
âyea, didnât say i canât run,â he grins.
âjen, letâs go,â you say, tapping the dying whale on her shoulder as she starts wailing words of saddened goodbyes.
âforsake me! save yourselves!â she wheezes, staring into nothingness before waving a dismissive hand, âno for real, i donât think theyâre gonna chase us all the way here. you guys go, i have a date anyway, iâll text kim,â itâs the name you coined for namjoon whenever you talk about him in public, âto pick me up here.â
a year ago, you would have called her a brave fool for having her boyfriend slash professor thatâs teaching at the same university - pick her up in plain sight. but once you saw the unfamiliar ferrari roll to a stop in front of the dorms with tinted black windows, you understand why they can be as free and uncaring as they are.
âyou sure? what if they saw you here?â you question, needles of doubt still deeply pierced into your racing heart.
but when she looks at you with arched brows and a familiar couldnât-care-less attitude, you know nothing you say can change her mind which helps ease the knots in your stomach by a lot.
so you cave in, waving her goodbye - but not before the scarring âwe still need to talk thoughâ reminder - and going back to the tall, brown haired person whoâs holding his left hand midair and wiggling his fingers about in what you think is a parodic depiction of how girls wave at each other while mouthing a nasally, higher-pitched âthank you so much for helping us.âÂ
one minute into the walk, you stop in front of the cafe youâre used to having lunch at with your group of 4 - if thereâs even any group left after this, âso this kim guy - heâs way older isnât he?âÂ
âif youâre all knowing, you wouldnât end that sentence with a question,â you assert, âso iâm not gonna say anything.â
âthatâs a yes then,â he nods.Â
âi think we lost them,â you say, a tad too late but pretend to look around anyway like youâre not 200% sure of that fact.
to any outsiders, youâll probably look like two girls standing three feet apart from each other, looking out in a distance.
ânice,â jeongguk nods, joining in your scouting party before he squints his eyes at something in the most casual manner before suggesting, âso... you wanna go on a date?â
x
âyou think we lost them?â you whisper under your breath, worry filling your chest as you throw your gaze over somewhere at the end of the alleyway where flashes of red and blue lights passed by.
but before the black cladded boy can say anything, his lips smack together as he and you both press yourselves flat to the wall as the sound of radio static bounces into the narrow space youâve found yourselves in. six months after your first date, which involves a crossdressing jeongguk and a day at a park that had you returning to the dorm with a giant teddy bear and a strip of photo you took from the booth comprising the multiple personalities embodied in one person from sassy to stare-into-the camera-intimidating face to him looking down and shyly peeking through his pushed back curls - youâve gone on multiple other dates.
none of which can be considered normal because youâll always end up in a sticky situation like you are now.
on your second month, you found out that jeon jeongguk not only has a stable income for literally playing games while trying to balance out his education but he also paints and draws.
on your third month, you go on your first mural-painting-in-the-middle-of-the-night-dressed-as-robbers date to which ended pretty well with the two of you getting hungry and having ramen at a 24 hour convenience store. so the mural painting becomes a monthly routine.
jimin finds out about it somewhere down the line and broke out into the most heartwarming smile while teasing you about how âthe singles lost another one,â as he shook his head in dismay. but things went back to normal for the most parts. taehyung talks to you more now. he apologized for having only treated you like someone useful to him when he needed something and found that you have more in common than you think.
like how youâre decently informed about the greatest artists of all time - all because jeongguk was telling you about them whilst you chill at his place on days you donât feel like going out but still want to spend time together. jeongguk, later found out that his supply of artistic information was what led to you and taehyungâs improving friendship and offers to become your spokesperson by having you invite taehyung to a cafe so he can pour his abundance of knowledge in the fine arts of painting -Â âsince heâs so interested in van gogh, you know what i mean?â
he even finished it with a tilt of his head and an sassy âugh.â
âi think we gotta run,â jeonggukâs declarations doesnât have you arching your eyebrows and looking at him in an âare you for real?â kind of manner.
it could be because youâre so used to running from law enforcement now.
or maybe because jeongguk showed you the world through his eyes. doesnât mean itâs any less terrifying - the thought of being caught and shoved behind the bars whilst they included it in your records. but hey, at least, youâre no strangers to handcuffs.
âon one,â you say and he nods, hand squeezing yours as if saying iâll never let them get you.
âthree,â you begin, eyes fixed on the stars in jeonggukâs gaze, âtwo,â jeongguk breathes in deeply, âone.â
run.
x
note. i hope you guys enjoyed reading!! and if you want anything similar to this kind of style, i have one more college au. the second part of that one is my pinned post which also has a link to the first part. if youâre curious why iâm not gonna link or name it is because iâm convinced that tumblr literally makes anything thatâs linked or mentioned it blocked for some reason idk.
but anyways, thank you for reading!!
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Can you do headcanons for sapnap with a shy reader please?â¤ď¸đ
ALSO I LOVED LANDSLIDE IT CHANGED MY LIFE
shy!reader headcanons | sapnap
(gender neutral, non-au, this is less of a headcannon and more of a small story sorry about that)
listen to: georgia by vance joy
okay firstly to premise, i think sapnap is a pretty shy guy himself. heâs absolutely the guy who refuses to correct a waiter after they read their order back to him wrong
so he would get it. i donât really think he would try to push you out of your comfort zone
lets say you guys met in a csgo lobby lol. sapnap was practicing before a stream, playing with strangers, and you popped up
and you didnât speak for the first like. five rounds. you were AMAZING with last minute clutches but you never spoke so people just kind of assumed you didnât have ur mic on
except one round, sapnap lost focus and nearly ruined the round, forgetting to call out his location for a cover
luckily you came in with the clutch and shot the enemy before they could get to sapnap, saving the round
and so while in the lobby, sapnap turns on his mic and just â[user], thanks for saving my ass out there.â
and your voice just comes through, a little clipped and very shy, âno problem,â before your mic is muted again
sapnap ends up saving ur gamer tag and inviting you whenever he needs someone to play with or fill a lobby
this turns into playing every day, and you guys become rlly good friends thru the screen. you both keep to yourselves for the most part, a strict csgo relationship if you will
and then sapnap is like. i rlly like them. i want to be their bestie.
so he asks if you want to play with him and his friends sometime, maybe in minecraft or jackbox
and youâre a little overwhelmed bc you know they have a decent online presence. but heâs nice to you and you donât have many online friends so you say yes :)
and heâs like SO excited bc all of his friends are going to meet his new friend
only heâs been talking abt u to karl and dream and george and q for like. ages. since like. THE NIGHT he met u on csgo. (bc heâs a pisces and he gets v attached to anyone who breathes in his direction)
(iâm a pisces i can say it)
when you join the lobby (no one is streaming) he has the boys in a separate call to give him advice just in case he needs it
you donât really speak unless spoken to, and when the boys get rlly loud they can kind of forget to include you
so sapnap always brings you back into the convo by asking you a question or making a quick joke
george in their chat: simp
you guys play jackbox, and you rlly like quiplash and survive the internet and others where you can just type
(and youâre really good at it like the boys think ur rly funny and clever)
but of course the boys want to play mad verse city, and youâre like,,, rlly nervous and donât really want to rap,, so sapnap raps for you,, and heâs the loudest to hype you up after each of your verses
and youâd slowly get more comfortable with the boys. itâs easy to flow with them bc theyâre so loud and obnoxious that you can mind your own business and still feel like part of their convos.
so anyways itâs months into your friendship, and sapnap has developed the fattest crush on you. if heâs not on call with the boys, heâs on call with you
chat knows about you bc sapnap always has you on his alt streams to talk and hang out with him. surprisingly, chat is very protective over you and cheer you on even if youâre on a different team than sap
i imagine sapnap gives you his minecraft info and lets you go around the dsmp the same way dream lets drista hang out with his info
just... a stream where he leads you around and just talks to you in vc while you share your screen with him,,, and chat is like. sapnap you are so in love.
you spend your time in the smp making a cottage and a house for yourself. you even tame a cat.
(itâs the first pet on the server that sapnap doesnât try to kill. thatâs how chat knows heâs in too deep.)
and the thing is,, he wants to ask u to be his s/o,, but youâre so shy that he has no idea how you feel about him
youâre not flirty and youâre friendly with everyone, so itâs hard to see any signs.
(sapnap is also just kinda dumb, bc he doesnât realize that you only address him when you talk, youâre only comfortable in calls if heâs there too, you have made him a playlist called âsapnap <3â, you made him a flower garden in minecraft and literally mined netherite for him to return to when he came back on the server)
like sapnap is thinking on such a large scale that all of these little things you do donât register as anything more than friendship
and heâs in call w the dteam one day and heâs just like âguys :/ idk if they like me :/â
dream calls him a dumbass
george hangs up
when george comes back, you join the call too, and sapnap can only assume george messaged you to join
âtell them, sapnapâ
âgeorge youâre such an idiot, y/n donât listen to him we were just messing around.â
âokay,â you say. âbut iâm here to talk if you ever need me.â
sapnap wants to burst because he likes you so much, heâs just so terrified of messing up what you guys have that he would rather stay silent
he doesnât want to run you off, but he doesnât want you to think he doesnât like you either
âcan i call u?â he asks âwithout these two nimrods to hear us?â
you agree, and you start talking as soon as you two are in a separate call. âsap? are you okay? youâve been acting weird lately.â
âi rlly like you,â he just blurts it out, because itâs the easiest way for him. he canât take it back, but at least you know.
âoh,â you say, voice just as timid as it was that first csgo game ages ago. âi like u tooâ
cue blushy sapnap
always talks about you on stream. you donât join streams too much bc they make you nervous, but youâre always talked about lol
sapnap will bring you up literally every day on twitter or smth
when the two of you finally meet in person, youâre both so shy that dream has to start the convos for the first hour or so
but once you get comfortable itâs like two long lost souls
you guys just fit
sapnap speaks up when youâre quiet, and vice versa
you guys get ur own shared mc server and sapnap kills mods while you plant flowers
you use your twitter to show off your builds and sapnap always retweets and hypes you up
he suggests you stream your builds but itâs something you just like to do on your own, so you decline. sometimes youâll appear on his streams and give his chat a lil tour tho :â)
sapnap is pretty protective over you. he will fight anyone for u <3 thatâs just how he is lmao.
you get along with everyone pretty well though, and sapnap fits in with your friends as well
itâs still mostly a long distance relationship, but the two of you are used to it so you make it work
and sapnap will correct a waiter if they get your order wrong. so, character development.
thanks for requesting and for liking landslide !!
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Saw some cute couple tiktoks and it gave me an idea for a fluffy request!
Just some hcâs of lwaizumi, Ushijima, Suna, and Hinata not understanding the stereotypes of black women when their gf is anything but that. Sheâs gentle and nurturing with them, can be firm but does so because she cares, calls them sweet nicknames with a smile on her face, makes banging bentos and dinner, and when sheâs not wearing any makeup or accessories; her natural beauty just flexes on them with the sun shining on her melanin.
I just want these boys to simp and be like âAggressive? Loud? Ratchet? *looks around* Where?â But if someone says sumn racist or calls their queen ugly, shit will be on sight.
A/N: Here you go, anon! Hope you like it! (i lowkey made these really long)
đŞTo say this man is enamored by you would be a massive understatement
đŞYou have him so far gone, and he wouldn't have it any other way
đŞOne of his favorite things about being with you is waking up next to you in the morning
đŞThe sun hits your skin just right, and he swears up and down you're glowing
đŞOf course, no one believes him so he takes a picture to prove that you look ethereal, bonnet and all, and you feel your face heat in embarrassment when you find out he's been showing that picture to his friends
đŞSince he has to wake up so early in the mornings, he's very careful when he gets out of bed making sure to not wake you
đŞBut before he gets out of the door, you're always right there, handing him his lunch before cupping his face in your hands, planting soft kisses on his forehead, nose, and lips
đŞAnd if he could fall in love any harder, he definitely does every time you do it
đŞHe was working with the team at the gym, and he was getting dressed after showering, wanting to fall right into bed with you when he got home
đŞHe's smiling like a dork at his phone, reading over a text that you sent him, when someone gets his attention
đŞIt's someone he's become acquainted with, asking him who the person is making him look at his phone the way he is
đŞHe proudly shows him a picture of you (thankfully nothing embarrassing), and the guy's reaction confuses him
đŞ"I bet she's annoying, yeah?" he jokes, and Iwaizumi just squints at him, an irritated look on his face
đŞThe guy laughs his first comment off before making another one. "Like super loud? You know what I mean?"
đŞIwaizumi scoffs darkly as he shakes his head. "Nah, I don't know what you mean, but you don't want me to find out."
đŞThe guy's playful demeanor drops fear slightly appearing on his face at his tone
đŞ"Say something like that again, and I'll break you in half." He puts a light tone on his words even though he's dead serious
đŞ"Have a nice night," he adds, giving him a hard smack on his shoulder before walking out of the gym a lot angrier than he wants to be
đŞBut he can't help but think about what the guy said, and he hopes that no one's said anything like that to you
đŞHe finds you with your back against the headboard, scrolling through your phone, the TV playing
đŞHe drops his bag, instantly flopping down on top of you, and you chuckle softly as you run your fingers through his hair, your nails lightly scratching at his scalp
đŞHe's so tired that the feeling has him falling asleep instantly, and you ask him how his day was, and he tenses when he remembers the last conversation he had
đŞYou notice and stop moving your fingers, and rub your hands over his shoulders instead. "You okay, Hajime?" you ask concerned
đŞHe looks up at you, a look in his eye you can't read. "If anyone says any disrespectful shit to you, let me know, okay?"
đŞYou at him in confusion but nod your head anyway, and you know he'll tell you when he's not seconds from sleep, and he gives you a warm smile before pressing a soft kiss on your stomach before he finally conks out
đžYou were probably one of the first people to ever make him smile widely
đžThe first time his team sees it, they're more than shocked, and they constantly tease him about the fact that there's someone that could make him smile that big
đžHe loves coming home to you after practice or games, the house filled with the smell of his favorite food
đžSometimes he won't even eat, would rather spend his time in your arms until you make him eat
đžHe's always finding himself at a war with himself, the appeal of going out for a morning run sounding awful compared to staying in and laying with you
đžHe would probably do anything you say, whether that's easing up at practice or making sure he's following a new diet that he's been put on which means that, no, he can't have dessert tonight
đžHe comes home one day, crashing in the bed, and you instantly notice that his shoulders are tenser than usual
đžYour soft is voice but firm as you scold him telling him, "You shouldn't push yourself so hard, baby"
đžAnd that's all it takes for all of the tension to drain out of him along with your fingers playing with the hair at the nape of his neck
đžFor a while, you remained a mystery to the team, only Tendou knowing who you were
đžAnd it was all because they just outright ask to see what you looked like, so he claims that it just never came up lmfao
đžSo, everyone is surprised when you walk in, and when they see his face light up, like, instantly
đžThey've never seen him move so fast off the court before, all of them floored
đžHe gives you a kiss on your forehead before promising you that he'll be home early and that he won't overwork himself, and then you're out of the gym
đžHe walls back to the team with a light blush on his face, his lips still upturned in a smile as he reads the note you left on his bento
đžBut as soon as he gets to the team, that same stoic expression is back on his face. "What is everyone standing around for?" đ
đžHe's one of the first people out of the shower after practice, eager to get home, and he's slipping on his shirt when one of his teammates walks up to him
đžHe's slowly working his way up on actually getting playing time, but he just wants to get home, but tunes into the conversation anyway
đžHe asks him if the woman that walked in during practice was his girlfriend, and he gives him a dumb look at his nods his head once
đžThe guy chuckles lightly before saying, "I bet they're all the same, right?"
đžUshijima raises an eyebrow at him. "Excuse me?"
đžThe guy scoffs softly, and as he's about to respond, he slams his locker a little more aggressively than usual, making the guy jump
đž"You should refrain from saying anything disrespectful about my girlfriend and instead work on your shitty receives," he deadpans, his voice hard before he walks out
đžHe didn't want to even begin to answer the conversation, hating how it sounded like the guy was putting you into a certain group
đžHis shoulders are tense when he comes home for a different reason when you hug him, and he's looking at you, but not saying anything
đž"What're you thinking about?" you comment, lightly pressing on the wrinkles on his forehead. "What's wrong?"
đž"If anyone says anything awful to you, you tell me immediately," he says quickly, his voice so serious that it makes your eyes widen
đž"Okay?" he urges, cupping your face softly
đž"Yeah, of course," you say, nodding quickly, and he smiles before giving your forehead a soft kiss
đŚThere's literally nothing that this man doesn't love about you
đŚLike Iwaizumi, swears up and down that you're glowing when the sun hits your skin the morning
đŚIf you're sitting anywhere in the house where the sun hits your skin through the blinds, he'll just stare at you until you finally call him out on it
đŚHas whole albums on his phone of just you, and you and him, it literally takes up a huge portion of his phone storage
đŚHe's your biggest hype man, will literally have many photoshoots with you
đŚIf y'all are driving around and the sun hits you just right, he's pulling over so that you he can take pictures
đŚThis man also becomes a huge cuddle when you start dating, or more like he always wants to be wrapped in your arms or on top of you in some way, shape, or form
đŚThis is mostly because your touches are so soft, that it puts him to sleep instantly
đŚIt could be your fingers running through his hair, your hands rubbing up and down his back, or when you massage his shoulders after a game
đŚHis soft snores fill the room like five minutes after you start
đŚHe is very aware of the stuff that you have to deal with, microaggressions and all, and he's quick to shut it down
đŚMatter of fact, it's probably one of his favorites things to do
đŚHe likes watching the people who make the backhanded compliments lose all of their bravado lmfao
đŚThere was one time where he was hanging out with Atsumu, catching up with him, and he ran into someone that he vaguely remembered from high school
đŚSomehow you came up in the conversation, and Suna was more than proud to show him a picture of you because you're like smoking hot and he loves showing you off lmfao
đŚBut he already knows where the conversation is going when he sees the guy's reaction
đŚ"Isn't she like--" His comment is cut off when Suna squints at him, Atsumu hiding his chuckle being his hand
đŚ"Isn't she like what? Hm?" he hums. "What stupid shit are you about to say?"
đŚThe guy tries to backtrack, but Suna cuts him off. "Oh, no, please say whatever you were about to say, I'm all ears," he drawls, his eyebrows raised, having way too much fun
đŚThe guy's babbling now, stuttering over his words, and Suna claps a hand down on his shoulder. "Pull that shit again and I'll kill you, yeah?"
đŚHe gives him a wink before squeezing his shoulder hard. "Nice talking to you," he jokes before he walks away
đŚAnd best believe that he will fight anyone that thinks that shit is okay
đHe's constantly floored by you
đWhen his eyes first landed on you, the world disappeared around him, and it still does every time his eyes land on you
đStares at you a ton until he just tackles you in a hug or kisses
đThis happens a lot lmao, and you've just learned to let it happen
đYou're always there making sure he's taking care of himself like making sure he's drinking enough water when he's out in the sun for a long time
đHe literally eats everything that you cook, and this man eats a lot
đHe always asks you to come with him whenever he's playing volleyball out in the sand
đHe tells you it's because he just wants you to be there to watch him, but he's mostly watching you and how your skin glows under the sunlight
đHe comes up with cute, corny captions whenever he posts pictures of you
đLike, "my sunshine under the sunlight," corny stuff like that đ
đHis energy seems to be even higher whenever he's with you, and sometimes you have to put your hands on his shoulders to stop him from bouncing
đHe always asks you to put sunscreen on his face because he likes how softly you apply it, and you always kiss his forehead before you put it on, and it makes him swoon
đHis friends tease him about how his attention span on actually playing volleyball drops whenever he brings you with him
đAnd he's like "can you blame me???"
đLike, all you could be doing is laying there while you're reading or on your phone and he'll stop in the middle of the game or during a break and kiss you before going back to playing
đAnd let someone say something disrespectful about you, and his happy demeanor literally disappears
đSome guy that joined their game one day when they were down a player made some comment like "is that your girlfriend? Really?"
đAnd the pride he was beaming about being your boyfriend changes
đThe smile falls off of his face, and he's stepping closer to the guy, his face goes hard
đAnd he lowers his voice so that his words are out of your earshot
đHe gives him a dark chuckle. "Say it again, I dare you."
đThe guy's eyes widen at his tone, and then that signature smile is back on his face. "Watch what you say next time, or I won't hesitate to find you."
đThe guy is taken aback, and Hinata just walks away, making his way towards you
đYou haven't seen him yet, and he's laying down on top of you, and you protest about him being sweaty and covered in sand
đ"You know I love you, right?" You bristle in surprise, a small smile on your face before you nod
đ"You're amazing in literally every way, and don't listen to anyone that says anything different."
đYou're confused at the sudden declaration as you reply with, "Thank you, Sho. And I love you, too."
đAnd then he's smiling widely at you, brighter than the sun before he's pecking you on the lips before getting off of you and running back towards the court
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Treat People With Kindness (The BAU)
Summary: Garcia gets Reid into Harry Styles and everyone subsequently loses their minds over it.
Content: Honestly just funny Iâm not sure what to call it
MCâs name/pronouns: No alternate main character, just Spencer.
Word Count: 1706
A/N: This whole fic was inspired by the fact that a fan gave Matthew Gray Gubler a Treat People With Kindness pin, which then sparked my friend Emily and I to theorize that Spencer Reid would absolutely be a Harry Styles stan. So yeah, this is literally just the product of one fan interaction lmao
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âI got a good feelinâ.â
â... Whatâs he doing?â Emily leaned over and whispered to JJ, who just shook her head.
âIâm just takinâ it all in.â
âOk, what happened to Reid?â Morgan joined them, and they both shrugged, watching Spencer walk through the doors of the office.Â
âFloatinâ up and dreaminâ.â
âYou know, maybe I need to add him to my drug test list too.â Hotch had stepped out of his office, trying to hide his grin as they saw Spencer making his way to his desk, headphones in and practically dancing over to his seat, mouthing every word of the song he was listening to. He plopped down in it with a little spin, opening a file on his desk without ever taking his headphones out.Â
âTry âDancing with the Stars,ââ Emily laughed, and JJ broke away from their group, heading over to his desk.Â
âHey Spence,â She rested her arms on the divide between his desk and Emilyâs, tapping on it to get his attention.Â
âMaybe we can find a place to feel good.â
âSpence!â She tapped his arm this time, and he practically jumped out of his skin, turning to face her.
âAnd we can treat -â
He quickly tore the headphones out of his ears, setting them down on his desk and looking up at her, clearing his throat.
âSorry. I was listening to something.â He gestured to the headphones still connected to his phone, as if that wasnât already obvious.Â
âYeah, I noticed,â JJ laughed.
âDo we have a case?âÂ
âNothing yet, youâre good.â She tried fruitlessly to hide her grin, and he gave her a strange look.
âOkâŚâ
âSo,â She plopped down in Emilyâs chair, rolling it over to sit near him, âWhat were you listening to?â
âOh!â His face lit up, and he grabbed his phone, holding it out for her to see. She put the headphones in her ears, hearing the final moments of the song heâd been jamming to.
âAnd we can treat people with kindness, find a place to feel good.â
âHarry Styles?â JJ laughed incredulously, handing him back his phone.Â
âYouâve heard of him?â He asked, taking the phone and sitting it back on his desk and turning back to her.
âIâm pretty sure most people have heard of him, Spence.â
âOk, well, I hadnât. But on Saturday I was speaking at the University of Mary Washington with Rossi, and one of the girls gave me this, after the lecture,â He grabbed his bag off the back of the chair, pointing to a round pin clipped on the strap. It was enamel, with light pink on the inside and a red rose in the center, encircled by the phrase âTreat People With Kindnessâ in black lettering. âAnd you know, naturally I thought it was a good message so I put it on my bag and I thought that was all it was. But then I ran into Garcia.â
âOh god.â
âI was walking in yesterday and she saw it and kind of freaked out a little bit, and pulled me into her office and played me the song - the one you just listened to - and it was amazing and so I told her I thought it was amazing, which made her freak out even more and then you called with a case so I left, only to receive a a YouTube playlist a few hours later that she told me I had to watch every video on or sheâd stop printing the case files for me.â
âYou know she loves you too much to actually do that, right?â
âI mean, the odds were low, but I wasnât going to risk it. Either way, I sort of listened to every single song on Fine Line and Self-Titled in one night and also a whole bunch of interviews that she sent me and heâs really funny and his music is great and the moral of the story is I kind of love him.â
JJ sent back in her chair, dumbfounded. âDude⌠you mean to tell me Garcia made you a Harry Styles fan?â
âPretty much, yeah.â
âI - Penelope!â JJ left without another word, making her way into Garciaâs office. Spencer just shrugged, returning to the file he was looking at - and his music - as Garcia spun to face JJ.
âJennifer, my love, to what do I owe the pleasure? New case?â She asked. JJ just shook her head.
âYou broke Reid.â
âI did not break Reid!â She defended with a grin. âI merely helped him reach his true form.â
âHe willingly used technology, and he came into the office today practically dancing to Treat People With Kindness. So yes, you did break Reid.â
âJJ, dear,â Garcia got up from her chair, taking JJâs hands in the doorway, âDo you remember when Reid got that adorable little shaggy haircut?â
âDespite the fact that he changes his hair like every month, yes, I do.â
âAnd do you remember what Hotch said?â
She thought for a moment, then her eyes widened in shock. âYou did all of this⌠because of the boyband joke?â
âLike I said: true form.â Garcia returned to her chair, spinning around with a laugh. âIn my defense, I didnât know he was going to get a Harry Styles pin. I just took advantage of the opportunity when it presented itself. I already failed at teaching him to worship Lady Gaga, I could not miss another chance to try and pull him out of the dark ages.â
âYou are ridiculous, you know that?â
âThatâs why you love me!âÂ
JJ laughed, leaving Garciaâs office and heading up to hers, ruffling Spencerâs hair on her way by.
âYou should grow your hair out again.â
âYou think so?â He reached up and fussed with his hair, just as Garcia emerged into the main room.Â
âSpencer Reid, my beautiful boy genius, did you do what I asked?â
âGarcia, I figured out how to download music to my phone because of you. So yes, I did what you asked.â
âYou are officially my new favorite person.â
âHang on, what is this all about?â Emily asked. Garcia grinned, hardly able to contain her excitement.Â
âIâm finally bringing the lovely Dr. Reid here into the 21st Century.â
âPenelope,â Emily raised an eyebrow at her, âWhat did you do?â
âGarcia thinks she did something revolutionary by getting me into Harry Stylesâ music,â Spencer clarified. Emily immediately clapped her hand over her mouth, about to respond before Derek piped up from his desk.
âOh, she converted you too?â
ââTooâ - you mean to tell me that you, Derek Morgan, are a Harry Styles fan?â Emily was looking between the three of them now, practically in shock. Derek just laughed, holding up his hands.
âWhat can I say, the guyâs got an incredible voice.â
âAnd the make up of his songs is so interesting as well; I mean, when you look at the music heâs produced in the last few years in comparison to what he performed while he was a part of One Direction -â
âOh my god please tell me youâve also listened to One Direction,â Emily said, laughing when Spencer nodded.Â
âI donât understand why you guys are making such a big deal out of this. Heâs a singer, itâs not like he doesnât have fans,â He defended.Â
âReid, two months ago you didnât even know who Lady Gaga was. This is kind of a big deal.â
âConference room in five,â JJ walked through the group, heading upstairs as everyone else got up to follow her.Â
âDo not think I am dropping this,â Emily pointed at Derek and Spencer before jogging to catch up with JJ. Derek laughed, falling in step with Reid.Â
âSo, what all did Garcia make you watch?â
âOh, just a bunch of interviews. I did some of my own reading though -â
âOf course you did.â
â- and what I found really interesting was One Directionâs actual rise to fame. Because the thing is, they didnât even win X-Factor. They came in third, and yet they became the most famous group to come from that season of the show. In Forever Young - their book - they talked about their time on X-Factor, but it was so strange to me because their first album - Up All Night, that came out not even a full year after they finished the X-Factor live tour - sold 4.5 million copies within the first year. And they just kept growing⌠Morgan why are you laughing?â
âIâm sorry,â Theyâd walked into the conference room by now, sitting down next to each other at the table while Derek tried to stop himself from laughing, looking at Reid in disbelief, âYou read their book?â
âAnd their Wikipedia page - I told you I did my own reading!â
âYou said you did some of your own reading, you didnât say youâd memorized everything about their career!â
âEidetic memory, remember?â He tapped his forehead, and Derek rolled his eyes.
âYou never let me forget. Iâm assuming you know everything about their solo careers as well?â
âWell I got into Harryâs stuff first, but I ended up reading all of theirs since I didnât have anything else to do last night. Itâs just so interesting to think about what One Directionâs situation reveals about human nature and celebrity culture. I mean, a lot of their fans are dictionary definition erotomaniacs, and yet -â
âI shouldnât even be surprised that you read this all in one night.â
âLike I said: didnât have anything else to do.â
âAs much as Iâm glad you boys are bonding, we have more important things to worry about than Reidâs newfound love for a British boy band,â JJ interrupted.
âNiall Horanâs actually Irish -â
âSpence. The case.â She pulled up the photos on the screen, and Spencer nodded, opening the case file in front of him as JJ began to review everything they needed to know. She finally closed out, and Hotch grabbed his tablet and rose from the table.Â
âAlright, wheels up in thirty.â
Everyone nodded, gathering up their things and vacating the room. Spencer and Derek trailed out after everyone, Spencer picking up the conversation as soon as JJ finished.Â
âYou know, Iâm considering learning how to knit - thereâs this cardigan that Harry wore...â
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Stuck On You - Cale Makar
Summary: What started as a friendship between you and Cale takes a turn during one of the best summer vacations of your life - a week in a campsite with your new friends from Colorado.
A/N: A self-indulgent Cale fic, who would have thought lmao. Definitely not my best work but I hope you enjoy!
Word Count: 5k
Warnings: a couple swear words, mentions of break-up
Summer. Summer held something you couldnât quite place. Maybe it was the road trips with music blasting from your carâs speakers, or the endless nights spent drinking cheap beers with strangers while sitting on docks. Maybe it was the seasonal loves, the ones youâd talk about with your friends after coming home, or maybe it was the memories.
Summer had always been something you had never missed, no matter how hard school got, or how good your job paid people to stay during the hottest months of the year; and, in Colorado, it wasnât any different.
You were gasping for breath when you finally reached the perfect spot for camping, your backpack heavy on your shoulders as your friends walked past you. The excited giggles that left their lips joined the sound of birds chirping as they pushed their own belongings on the ground.
âOh my God,â Johanna laughed, Andreâs arm wrapped around her shoulders as she looked around the empty side of the forest your getaway was going to take place in. âThis place is beautiful,â
âIt is,â Sydney said from beside her, eyes cast on her bag as she started to take some stuff out.
You were still taking the beautiful view in, a smile on your lips as you realized that summer was finally starting. A new summer, you thought, with new friends and a new spot.
âY/N, just come here already!â Andre yelled from the distance, pushing you out of your trance. âYour tent is not gonna build itself,â
âIâm coming,â you giggled, jokingly rolling your eyes your friendâs way as you pushed your backpack down your shoulders, looking around for an empty space for yourself.
âIâm here-â
The breathless words were mumbled behind you, making you turn around quickly to find a flushed face. Caleâs cheeks were their usual dark shade of red, sweat lining his forehead as he tried to gain back his breathing.
âOh- hi, Cale,â you smiled, heart fluttering when your eyes met his face. âYou doing okay?â
âI was a little late,â he mumbled, waving JTâs way before his eyes gently settled on you. It seemed like he had realized you were there in front of him just then, his body tensing as a small smile formed on his lips. âHi, Y/N,â
âOh my God,â Nate huffed. âIâll literally let the two of you sleep with the bears if you donât start with the tents,â
âFine, fine. You guys are annoying as hell,â you mumbled, brushing past him to reach one of the last two empty spots, throwing the bag that held your tent on the ground. The paper that slipped out of the opened zipper was filled with instructions, the words so small you almost struggled to read through them. If it wasnât already difficult enough, the drawings explaining how to set up the tent werenât helping, either.
You were just starting to understand something when your friendsâ loud laughter filled your ears, along with the sound of bottles of beer being opened. You laughed to yourself, taking one of the many thin poles in your hands as you tried to figure out where it was supposed to go, one of your palms burying itself in your hair.
You had never been the greatest at building things, and you werenât surprised when you grew close to calling one of the guys and ask for their help. Their tents had been built in less than half an hour, helping you prop up yours wasnât going to be too difficult. Right?
âHere, give it to me. Iâll help you,â the familiar voice snapped you out of your thoughts, as deep as you remembered it to be. Cale was standing beside you, arms folded over his chest as he gave your work a quick look, a teasing smirk on his lips. âNever been camping?â
âNot really,â you giggled awkwardly, handing him the item in your hand as he figured the mess out. His feet carried him to the left side of the tent, sliding the first part of the tube in its place.
âAlright, go on the other side,â
With Caleâs help, building a tent had never been easier. He knew what to do and where to start, he honestly made it look easy. Your shelter was ready after just a couple of minutes, and you found yourself smiling Caleâs way as soon as he mumbled a quick âweâre doneâ.
âReally?!â
âYeah,â he chuckled, taking his place by your side again as the two of you gave the results one last look. âLooks better than mine down there,â
You giggled, turning around to wrap an arm around him, pulling him in a quick hug. âThank you so much,â you said, pushing a stray hair out of your eyesight. âWouldnât have made it, without you,â
âYouâre welcome,â Cale said rather rushedly, his cheeks blushing slightly. You werenât able to see the way he flushed, though, turning around way too quickly to unpack your bag and getting the last few things for your shelter out.
As you pushed your phone out of your pocket, you realized just then how messily the butterflies in your stomach were dancing. And it was all because of Cale.
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The sounds of the fireplace were comforting you as everyone enjoyed the first night of the summer together with a beer in hand. Loud laughter was coming from the Avalanche players, and you could hear a few laughs and giggles coming from your own friends, too.
âI canât believe they gave you a penalty, man,â Tyson admitted, referring to Nathanâs last call on the ice that cost the team a power-play goal. âIt was a clean hit and we all saw that,â
âYeah, man,â EJ agreed, tipping his head back as he finished his beer.
âCall was ridiculous,â Nate agreed, shrugging slightly to signal the end of the conversation before letting an arm wrap around his girlfriend. âWhat have you been up to, Y/N? Youâre the only one we donât see too often,â
You chuckled at his words, shaking your head as you swallowed the last piece of sâmore in your mouth. âJust been working, trying to get a promotion,â
âYou go, girl,â Johanna cheered, making you laugh. âAnd Christian?â
The laughter left your body as soon as your ex was mentioned, the last words of your final argument repeating themselves in your mind. âChristian?â Was all you were able to mumble, eyes cast on the fire as you buried your hands in the pockets of your hoodie.
âYour boyfriend,â Susanna stated, making you chuckle out bitterly.
âWell, ex-boyfriend,â you sighed, shrugging when you looked up to see a few shocked faces. âBroke up a few months ago, now,â
âAnd you didnât tell us?!â Mikko yelled, his voice loud over the mixed words of shock from your friends.
âSorry,â you mumbled, casting your eyes to your lap as everyone kept talking, slowly starting to express the way they all almost despised your ex. Nathan - and his girlfriend agreed with him - said something about Christian hitting on his girl, Tyson complained about the fact that he had never seemed to treat you good, and all the girls agreed with him.
Thinking about your break-up on the first day of your summer vacation wasnât something you had planned, so you silently kept to yourself, hoping the conversation would drop quickly. Your eyes lifted up from the orange flames of the fire, finding the stars illuminating the dark sky, so subtle yet so beautiful. All the voices of your friends were silenced as you admired the beauty of the night, a breath you didnât realize you were holding in finally leaving your lips.
A gentle hand nudged your elbow, your attention snapping towards the person to your right in a quick second. Staring back at you was Cale, a soft smile on his lips as he held a stick with a roasted marshmallow between the two of you. âFor you,â
âFor me?â
âI know you love roasted marshmallows,â he mumbled, sheepishly scratching the back of his head. âJust thought of making one for you, I guess,â
A small smile formed on your lips at his kindness, cheeks burning as you accepted the stick. âYouâre too sweet, Cale,â you mumbled, your shoulder leaning against his as you grabbed the candy from the top of the branch, pushing it in your mouth.
He grabbed his own marshmallow and slid it in his mouth, your eyes meeting as you silently looked at each other. His cheeks grew bigger from the size of the candy, a small piece of it coloring the side of his mouth.
You giggled, his own laughter following yours as you swallowed. âHang on, Cale,â you mumbled, coming closer to him as you tried to ignore your heartbeat picking up its pace. âYouâve got something-â
Your palm cupped his scarlet cheek, warm against your skin as your thumb smoothed the sticky substance away, your eyes barely leaving his as the two of you sat back in place. Both of your heartbeats were loud, cheeks burning as you acted as if the closeness hadnât affected you in any kind of way.
You silently hoped nobody had paid attention to the two of you, knowing the guys wouldnât hold down the chirping; but when you looked back at the team and wags, they all seemed to be too focused on their conversation to even notice Caleâs burning cheeks, or your fingers slightly touching.
You were the first one to wish everyone a good night, that day, to retrieve in your tent and listen to your heart beat loudly. You felt like a teenager again, feeling just so jittery after the interaction with the man you had always spent too much time looking at, and had always looked for whenever youâd join the group at any kind of event.
You had always repressed whatever you had been feeling for Cale, pushed it to the side to avoid any kind of rejection. But the way Cale smiled your way, the way he helped you out whenever he could, the way he tried to find subtle ways to gently touch you.
Something in you, that night, was guessing that your feelings might have been mutual.
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âDoes this happen every time you guys go camping?â You asked Sydney breathlessly as you took a look at the hiking path in front of you. You were already two hours into the hike, the guys all walking ahead of you as if the uphill path wasnât tiring them, at all. âLike, do you ever get a break when hiking with the boys?â
âNope,â Sydney giggled from beside you, stopping in her tracks to take a sip of her water. âYouâre a newbie to our camping trips, youâll get used to it,â
You laughed along with her, looping your arm around hers as you followed the rest of the group through the sunrays-lit forest, sweat threatening to line your forehead. Walking in front of everyone was Cale, laughing along with Nate as you watched him, a smile of your own forming on your lips.
The moments of the previous night kept repeating in your mind as you silently walked, hoping the man living in your mind wouldnât notice the fondness in your eyes whenever he looked your way.
âSo, you and Cale?â
The words leaving Sydneyâs mouth had your cheeks burning, the smile on your face quickly turning sheepish as you kept walking. âWhat about me and Cale?â
âCâmon,â she laughed, looking at you with an eyebrow raised. âLast night?â
You rolled your eyes with a chuckle, shaking your head slowly as you looked at the path in front of you. âThat was nothing,â
âNothing?!â She cried exasperatedly, pushing your shoulder as she kept walking. âYou looked like you were going to make-out on the spot,â
âThatâs not true,â
âThatâs more than true, Y/N,â she laughed, silence settling between the two of you after her teasing words. Maybe you and Cale hadnât been that smooth, you thought. Her elbow was quick to hit your ribcage after a few minutes, her eyes finding yours again as a small smirk formed on her lips. âHeâs single, youâre finally single. You should give it a thought,â
âItâs just a stupid, small crush,â you admitted. âNothing more,â
âThen why not try and see where things would lead?â She stated, knowing she was right. âIâve never seen Cale act like that,â
âLike what?â
âLike a smitten teenager,â her honesty had you laughing, your head shaking as you were the one to push her shoulder, that time. When your laughter died down, her voice made its way inside your ears. âBut really, you should try,â
She didnât give you time to give her a response, slipping away from you to reach her boyfriendâs side, who had called her name. You were left on your own once again, staring ahead of you, your eyes focused on the back of Caleâs head as you struggled to keep up with the group.
Was it so easy to notice? The way your cheeks would heat up, or the way your smile would turn giddy as soon as heâd be close enough to have your fingers brushing against his. Was it that easy?
âCâmon, Y/N! Weâre almost there!â EJ yelled from the front, his toothless smile shining from the distance as he walked backward. You laughed, throwing your head back for a quick second before meeting eyes with a smiley Cale standing by his side.
His cheeks were their usual scarlet color, hair slightly tousled from being pushed back too many times, but he still looked like the kind of person who would steal your heart in no time.
-
âGood night, Y/N,â Tyson was the last person to leave the fireplace, a smile on his face as he walked towards his tent, the silence of the night engulfing you in a warm embrace.
Your eyes drifted up towards the sky - as they always did - and found the patterns of stars painting it. The moon was shining brightly that night, its rays illuminating your face as you silently thought about your day. And Cale.
The hike had gone surprisingly well: the various hours under the hot sun had been worth it, the view from the top of the mountains so beautiful you could never forget it. But you couldnât just forget Cale, his lingering touches, and the way his eyes would be staring deeply at you whenever they could.
When he had helped you down a particularly high, rocky step, your breath had hitched, the feeling of his rough yet gentle hands on your waist pushing the butterflies in your stomach back to life. You were sure you had never felt so deeply connected to someone, the way Cale was making you feel just so unknown to you. You didnât want things to end.
âYou sure youâll be okay out here on your own?â
Your head snapped towards the source of sound, the nest of tousled blond hair you knew too well finding your eyes in less than a second. âYeah, donât worry, Cale,â
Your gaze fell back on the stars, ignoring the sound of his footsteps until the shuffling of his body next to yours snapped you out of your thoughts again. âThe stars are beautiful, tonight,â was all Cale mumbled as your shoulders touched.
âCity pollution doesnât do them much justice,â you chuckled, wrapping your arms around your folded legs as you sent him a quick glance. âI should probably come here more often,â
âItâs such a nice place,â Cale stated, a layer of comfortable silence settling between the two of you. Your body leaned against his on its own command, your head almost resting on his shoulder as the sounds of the crickets surrounding you pushed you into a state of calmness.
His body seemed to tense for a second, but his arm wrapped around your middle when he realized there was nothing you wanted more than to feel him close to you. He was silent for a few minutes - just enjoying your closeness and the warmth your body held - before letting his eyes close.
You didnât recall walking back to your tent, the next morning when you woke up, but his hoodie still covering your body was a tell-tale sign Cale had brought you back after a while. You buried your flushed face in your pillow, that morning, the sun warming up your tent as you still felt Cale close to you.
Did he feel the same way?
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âOh. My. God. Y/N!â Johanna yelled, trembling as the chilly water of the lake hit her back, all thanks to your splashing. You giggled at her exaggerated reaction, dipping underwater to escape any of her splashes as she tried to look for revenge.
The sun was setting after another long hike, its reflection painting the lake an orange shade as you cooled down, enjoying the last day of the vacation with the team. It was a summer you were going to remember, but you felt stressed, in some kind of way.
Your heart was beating for someone, and that someone was Cale. You had never felt as close to him as you did on the trip, and you felt like something was going to happen. Eventually.
But the trip was coming to its end: youâd have to go home and get back to your schedule, the guys would go back in full swing to their own jobs, and you werenât ready to give up on the progress you and Cale had made, not yet. It felt as if the universe wanted you to be happy, giving you Cale and feelings you just couldnât hold back, and just a small time to find your happiness.
The water had stopped moving around you, and you realized just then that Johanna had left, and you were - yet again - on your own. The water had started to cool down even more due to the dark clouds already painting the sky, pushing you to sit on the dock with a towel wrapped around your shoulders to warm up.
The world seemed to grow quiet as you watched the clouds move, reminding you of the sleepless night you were going to spend in your lonely tent due to the upcoming rainstorm. You smiled, though, taking a deep breath as the sound of laughter from the distance slowly put your world back into motion.
âYouâre going to get a cold,â
âWould be worth it,â you giggled, watching Cale move until he was sitting next to you on the dock. âWhat are you doing here?â
âI was looking for you, dinnerâs almost ready,â he mumbled, his own eyes falling on the sky. You hummed, wrapping the towel tighter around your shoulders as you scooted closer to him.
âIâm going to miss this,â you whispered truthfully, your cold fingers busy on the strings of your bikini. âCamping, nights in front of the fireplace, you guys,â
âSame,â Cale admitted. âI donât want it to end, you know? Iâm going to miss you,â
Your heart fluttered at his words, sending the butterflies in your stomach in a spiral for a quick second as he kept talking. âAnd itâs stupid to say, because I see you just so often,â he muttered, running a hand through his hair. âBut Iâm going to miss you, and what happened between us here,â
You took a second to let his words sink in, just how quickly they made your body feel warm and how they made you feel like a teenager in love all over again. âIt doesnât have to end, Cale,â was all you whispered, your eyes meeting his as you let your heart beat loudly, not caring if anyone heard it.
âI didnât think youâd feel the same way,â he said, honesty slipping from his lips as he let a hand cup your cheek tenderly.
âAnd I didnât think youâd feel the same way, either,â you giggled, your chest warming up unexpectedly when his lips brushed up in a smile. You admired him, letting your eyes rake across his eyes, then his nose, his rosy cheeks, and - soon after - his lips. âPromise me we wonât let this go to waste,â
âWe wonât,â he whispered back, his free hand lacing with yours as your lips finally met. Your world felt complete, at least, it seemed like it. With his hands on you and his gentle kisses, you felt alive, you felt like you were finally home.
One of his kisses turned into two, and two turned into three. As warm as he made you feel, your body heat was lowering and you had to pull away with clattering teeth before you bit his lip a little too hard. Your foreheads met for a moment, your eyes closing as you spent one last moment with him, the closeness having you weak.
âYouâre freezing,â he stated, eyes carefully taking notice of your purple lips and shaking limbs. âLetâs go, you need to get changed before you die on me,â
âIâm fine, Cale,â you giggled, taking his hand to stand up with him before you started to head towards your camping spot, where the rest of the team was making dinner. His hand stayed in yours as he led you towards your tent, not caring - or worrying - if your friends saw.
Dinner was quite uneventful after that. You ate in silence as you missed Caleâs touch, a smile on your lips as you caught him staring your way from the distance. You didnât set up the fireplace, that night. Rain started to hit your skin by ten, and everyone pretty much understood your last night had come to an end.
You had wished Cale goodnight with a subtle squeeze of his hand before heading towards your tent, sliding under your covers as you thought about the events of the day. Your mind went back to the man that stole your heart, thinking about the way your heart would stutter every time heâd look your way, or just how quickly your mood could change when his skin touched yours.
Saying you were stuck on him was an understatement.
The tiredness from the activities started to kick in - your eyes feeling quite heavy as you pushed your phone away from you - but the sounds the rain made, the fear of a storm and just what it could cause, they were keeping you up.
The raindrops were hitting the fabric of the tent harshly, and as much as you tried to relax, you just couldnât. It was well past midnight when an idea popped in your mind, but you just couldnât. It was too much, and too early.
You rolled to your side, your air mattress making a squeaking noise as you did so. It was too early. Your phone vibrated, pushing you out of your thoughts as the screen lit up, a new message waiting to be read.
Iâm outside your tent.
Your brows furrowed at Caleâs text, looking up to see that, in fact, someone was standing outside your tent. You crawled towards the entrance, pushing the zipper down until the cold hair of the night hit your face, and your eyes met Caleâs frame.
âWhat the hell are you doing here? Youâre going to catch a cold!â
âWould be worth it,â he repeated the words you had used earlier that day. âCan I come in?â
âOf course,â you whisper-yelled, almost dragging him inside before you closed the tent back up. âWhat are you doing here, Cale?â
âI noticed you couldnât sleep,â he mumbled, sitting on the edge of your mattress as his eyes stayed on your features even in the darkness of the night. âAnd I couldnât sleep either,â
You giggled, shaking your head when you had realized you had had the same idea at the same time. You had been so close to joining Cale in his tent to relax and let all your worries leave your body, but he had beaten you at your own game.
With your last ounce of courage, you pressed a quick kiss to his blushing cheek, pulling him along with you to lay on the mattress. âJust come here,â
You were facing each other after you slipped under the covers again, his eyes staring into yours as you felt your body snuggle closer to his at its own command. One of his arms wrapped itself around your body, pulling you even closer as you felt a tender kiss being pressed to the crown of your head.
âGet some rest,â he whispered in your hair, your face buried in the crook of his neck as he talked. âIâll be here in the morning,â
âGood night, Cale,â
âGood night, Y/N,â
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Morning came quickly, too quickly for your liking. The sun was weakly lighting up your tent, its rays shining against Caleâs skin just right. He was still with you - as he had promised - and you were sure there was no better way to wake up than to open your eyes and see Cale, before anyone else.
He was breathing shallowly, eyes still closed as his arms kept tight around your waist, no sign of him waking up just yet. Your heart was a fluttering mess: youâd gone from complete strangers, to friends, to what seemed like lovers. And, God- you didnât want it to end.
One single digit of yours ghosted over his soft cheek, starting to trace his features as lightly as it could as you admired him with all you had, hoping he wouldnât wake up from your motions. A long sigh left his lips at your touch, eyelids squeezing for a quick second before he let them open.
âGood morning,â he grumbled, voice gravelly as he closed his eyes for another moment.
âSorry, didnât mean to wake you,â you whispered, retrieving your hand as he pulled you closer. âSlept well?â
âYes,â he dragged the last letter, the smile on his lips making you giggle. âYou?â
âLike a baby,â
âThatâs good,â
Silence settled between you as you enjoyed his warmth, brain running way too quickly at just eight in the morning while you traced shapes on his clothed chest. âTheyâre gonna chirp the hell out of us,â you giggled.
âOh, God,â Cale chuckled, his palm landing on his face as he remembered about his restless teammates. âMight as well just die in here,â
You giggled, tugging the tentâs zipper open and grabbing his hand to get him out of your bed. âJust let them talk,â you whispered in his ear before stepping outside, stretching your limbs. His quite taller frame struggled to exit the tent, but when he did, a chorus of gasps surrounded you.
âI knew it!â Johanna yelled, receiving a slap from a sleepy Sydney when her loud voice scared her. âI fucking knew it!â
âCale is getting it, guys!â Tyson said loudly, making Caleâs cheeks heat up.
âShut the fuck up, Josty,â you spat out jokingly, pushing his shoulder as you found an empty spot to sit on. âDonât chirp my boyfriend,â
The weight of Caleâs body sitting next to you was enough to distract you for a second, but his thick voice in your ear really took your breath away. âBoyfriend?â
You bit your lip, looking up at him innocently before sending him a quick smile. âOnly if you want to,â
He hummed, jokingly leaning down to press a kiss on your cheek, your heart beating loudly against your ribcage. âIâll think about it,â
Breakfast was over in a rush, and you found yourself packing your belongings with sad sighs leaving your lips every now and then. Even though summer had barely just reached its peak, you werenât ready to leave the memories of the camping trip behind just yet.
On the hike back to the parking lot, your hand stayed in Caleâs. It fit in his palm so easily you couldnât help but think you were never going to stop holding his hand, as pathetic as it sounded. The air was chilly, and it held sadness as you two and the rest of the group walked back to your cars.
âI donât want this to end,â Susanna said, hugging you tightly as you all said goodbye. âIâm going to miss you girls,â
âWeâll find a way to see each other, babe,â Sydney reassured her as they embraced each other.
âY/N,â Nate greeted you with a smile, a smirk on his lips as he hugged you. âIâm hoping to see you at our next game with an eight on your back,â
You punched his shoulder jokingly when you parted ways, laughing along with him. âIâll miss you too, Nate,â
Your last goodbyes were sad, numerous people piling in cars as you waved their way, your back resting against your car as you sighed softly.
âSo,â Cale mumbled from behind you, stepping closer to your frame as he looked down at you. âWould be interested in our next gameâs ticket and my personal jersey, as Nate suggested?â
You giggled, shaking your head as you wrapped your arms around his neck. âI mean, maybe,â you joked, biting on your lip as you let your eyes meet.
âAs my girlfriend, you should probably say yes,â he said, looking down at you with a smirk as he gave you no time to respond, his lips meeting yours in a kiss.
âGirlfriend?â
He matched the smile on your face, leaning down to press another kiss before mocking your words from that morning. His voice was smooth, making your heart beat faster than usual, the butterflies in your stomach so crazy you were worried he could feel them.
âOnly if you want to,â
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