#(juri is legit hell right now )

[ofsupernovcs]

Closed for @vilisisms

Juri was looking increasingly ragged as he walked through the neighborhood. His worst nightmares was coming true, the tea leaves signifying death, then a text from a certain someone. Juri was very worn out. The witch wore the sunglasses and his backpack as he drudged towards Riley's place. He knocked feebly and waiting for an answer. His throat betraying him as he heard the door open. He prayed Riley wont turn him away. But he wouldn't blame her if he did.

"Help." He mustered.

[bb26willdisappoint]

It's becoming glaringly apparent that Mikeyboi needs to use the veto on Taylor. Turncoat was legit trying to reason sending a black woman home instead of the guy who just got ousted as being Racist.

Like....Turner do you have a moral compass at all? Do you have worms for brains?? The move to make is so obvious!!! Hell, getting Kyle out right now would probably get Turner the jury votes he needs to win if he gets to F2!! It's such an easy move!!!! What's wrong with you????!!! He's a performative ally that's what's wrong with him

[antiloreolympus]

14 Anti LO Asks

1. To the one anon: good question - how is it that the mortals dont know who Persephone is / assume she is a minor goddess and therefore its okay to mess with her but the gods (or Olympians / underworld denizens) know exactly everything about her (despite her being there only every so often and only being 20ish) - enough to say shes "wearing her signature white color" during a murder trial.

Also the reason why Persephone is wearing white is because

A). RS wanted persephone to always be "dressed as a bride" (and have Hades dressed as a groom respectively) to show that their matching / is supposed to be a visual cue that their eventually gonna be together.

B). I believe this is RS way of saying that Persephone (despite murdering some mortals) is innocent because in purity culture White = innocence, virginity, youth etc. (Even though RS explicity ssid she wanted to go against purity culture morals shes very much leaning into them). 

2. why are Psyche’s eyes yellow even in her human form? Is she sick??

3. honestly? LO is just gossisp girl at this point, espect even GG (at least in the first season) bothered to saturze the rich and was calling out how wealth and power makes them corrupt assholes. meanwhile LO is just GG season 2 and on of being like no no, the poor people are the evil people and the rich people are the oppressed ones! all while also fawning over their  wealth and status and being way into grown men wanting to bang barely legal teens and claiming to be "feminist" somehow.

4. Tumblr is well-known for broken tag system. Check the post' tags before complaining that it's op's fault. How about you guys not tag greek mythology when posting about LO? LO is not one-shot or short fancomic. It's also definitely not considered actual greek mythology. LO is years long webcomic with huge fans. LO has its own tag. Tell your fellow fans to stop using the greek mythology tag.

5. I would argue nyx is the only woman with a unique in design in LO but thats only because she looks like a deformed chicken woman. why was my night mom disrespected this much 😭

6. So now that LO is back from break and I can finally read chapter 170 - Why oh Why do ALL the female characters Have to be defined by their male love interests??? (Or really just love interests in general).

I understand LO qualifies as the "romance" genre and there are certain stipulations or I guess themes or what have you that make it romance but for f*cks sake.

Psyche being worried about Eros loving the "fake" her I kinda get, but really? Thats your most pressing concern?? Hera is defined by her garbage marriage to Zeus - King of the gods (of which is why she is Queen of the gods). Hestia + Athena are now defined solely by their relationship to each other (not the TGOEM or their respective traits of being a goddess of the hearth + goddess of war, strategy etc etc).

Aphrodite is defined by giving Persephone "relationship" advice (e.g: telling her to curb stomp Minthe because "nymphs dont take things from gods" - doubly implying that people are things to own) And by her jealousy of Persephone in the first place because Hades made a comment about how he thought Persephone was prettier than her. And also because of her "house of debauchery" (Artemis'  words) - and relationship with Ares.

Persephone is defined both by Apollo raping her and by her fated future status as Queen of the underworld (so her relationship with Hades). Hell, even the minor characters such as nymphs are defined by this relationship status / standard. Minthe is defined by her mean spirited personality yes, but Also because of her abusive relationship with Hades prior to the introduction of Persephone. Psyche is defined by her relationship woes with Eros. Daphne is defined by her relationship with Thanatos (and because shes a flower nymph) but also mostly because she looks like Persephone.

Rhea is defined by her marriage / relationship to Kronos (lets ignore the whole "fertility goddess power" plot for a second). Even Aetna is defined by Haphestus creating her! Is there not a single character (especially female) is isnt defined by their romantic love interest???Sorry. Maybe I'm overthinking this, but thats definitely how ot comes off as of late, in regard to the latest chapters.

Okay, same anon as earlier - I take it back somewhat - we have Artemis and Hecate that are not defined by their romantic relationships - but rather their lack of one.

However the way they are shown - it still comes off as a standard - "Artemis is stingy / a stick in the mud" because shes not romantically involved and is "barbaric" (according to Hera). And Hecate is still somewhat defined by her being Hades' employee (and cheerleader for him and Persephone to be together).

So technically yes, we have at least 2 characters that are not defined by their romantic interests / relationships, but they are still held to the standard of their "un-ladylike / undesirable" because their not romantically involved.

(I guess I should count Demeter, but only because shes more defined by just being "Persephone's overbearing mom" )

7. i think whats also kinda weird about this trial is like?? persephone is obvs framed as not liking the attention (bc duh) but she didnt like the previous press either, she wanted to be private, but wouldnt being with hades force her to be in the spotlight that makes her uncomfortable? also the citizens of the underworld already dislike hades, why would they want a uncontrollable felon as their queen, even if she found innocent? idk the whole thing just makes the endgame less plausible, tbh.

8. love that rachel was able to find a random deity name to name her random nymph the greek word for "beans" meanwhile apparently cant google actual greek names for even one off characters? like andrew, ellen, george, alexis, damian, luke, phoebe, sophia, and so any other english names are also greek, but she cant even bother with that? what exactly is her "research" if she cant even bother to spend 30 seconds googling greek names? at this point LO seems determined to be as un-Greek as possible.

9. wait so everyone in LO went from having no idea who persephone was, to her only showing up on ONE magazine cover, to now being the most well known person with a signature color? all in the span of two weeks with no genuine public outings? how does that make sense? also white isnt even her signature color if 90%+ the female cast and even a lot of the men ((including ZEUS) all wear it too.

10. the fact the courthouse WASNT the areopagus, aka the place in greece where they say the first ever trial ever happened and where the court system was invented, is just another point of rachel talking out her ass about being "respectful" or "researched" on greece and their mythology. its literally one of the most famous mythology spots ever with some fantastic stories to it and she's just like "nah! boring rectangle will do!" like why even both with mythology then if its this devoid of it?

11. Anons are saying Hades in the FS chapter is leaning down and talking to Persy like a child. Say it aint true.

(I wanna see. I thought RS was finally giving Persy adult proportions). 😨

12. So wait, hold up. I kinda get where RS is coming from with the law school in the underworld (because Hades is supposed to be a kinda Judge, jury, executioner situation in the afterlife when it comes to mortals and their "punishments" and whatnot). However, is RS stating that the ONLY law school / courthouse exists in the underworld? If so, why? Why wouldn't Athena be there then. She's a goddess of strategy and justice (among other things).

Also is RS really implying that Hades owns not only the banks and underworld but the law too? She really wants Hades to be a Gary Sue along side her Mary Sue - Hades controls everything that matters and since its his realm and blah blah blah rules, Zeus, king of the gods cant do anything about it.

(Which is dumb. Because you would think that because Persephone committed the crime in the mortal realm / on, or near Olympus that therefore she would be brought back there to dole out justice under Zeus jurisdiction because she committed the crime in His Realm). 

13. FP Spoiler ahead:

Why on earth couldn't the reporters have Greek names? There is so much wrong and bad with this story, yet this irks me so much. It is Brenda all over again.

14. i dont really get the point of the trial plotline, tbh. even persephone says she should be punished and held accountable, but hades is framed in the right for trying to go against that and weasel her out of it. so?? plus zeus has legit reason to punish them? persephone is a danger to others, demeter and hermes both committed treason to cover it up, and hades was harboring a fugitive of the law and is now trying to force the system to let her go. how is zeus in the wrong for this?

[read-watch-listen-17]

RULE OF WOLVES

Well that was an adventure.

SPOILERS, this one is also pretty long 😳

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Well Daaaaaaamn, Nikolai was right on the money with what the Shu Queen was going to do, but he doesn’t know that his future bride is the rightful queen of the Shu. I have a feeling that is going to be revealed at some point in the future. Probably at the worst possible time.

Alright, so we’ve also got Nina and Hanne in Djerholm causing all kinds of trouble whilst keeping their cover. This is great. Not dangerous at all. 😅

Then we’ve got Nikolai, Zoya and their whole team researching the dark plague like thing that is terrorizing the land. What did the Suli woman say? What does ‘khaj pa ve’ mean? and why did Zoya ignore her? And how is this plague thing connected to the newly resurrected Darkling? ‘cause I know he’s behind it somehow. I just can’t figure out how yet.

Nina was able to get word to Nikolai about the Fjerdans moving, but what was Blum waiting for?

Shit! Who is this new Wellmother and how does she know Mila is Nina?

‘Khaj pa ve’ means ‘We see you’ Is there a connection between using the magic correctly and the Suli? Does that mean they can see who she really is? That she wields the dragons power?

Is Zoya seeing what Juris saw? or the Dragon? Or is she somehow seeing something completely different, but very important? 🤔🤔

I was a little confused as to why we were already heading to battle so soon in the book, but now I see we’re going to have a couple skirmishes before the big battle. Lol Nikolai gave the Kerch the seas, but gave the Zemeni the skies. That sounds about right. YAY!!! An antidote for parem!!!

Oh good it’s another spy that knows it’s Nina. Look at Hanne stepping up to help.

Shit, the Aparat is there. Okay what the hell just happened to the prince?!?!?

Damn, Nikolai’s got it bad for Zoya. 🤣❤️

Poor Ehri!! 😭 I hope she’s okay.

Talking to the Darkling, never a good idea.

Hanne manages to heal the prince a little before they get pulled away, Nina covers it by holding hands and praying. Good call. That’s probably going to win them some points. And oh look the Prince wants to see them.

And look, now the Queen wants to see Mila. Go Nina using her gift to learn about the queen’s six miscarriages and her sons birth to try and sway her against war.

Nina thinks Dimidov seems legit, but he doesn’t want to be a Fjerdan puppet. 🤔 they also discover the letters are being kept in the druskelle part of ice court. If only Kaz and the team were there, it would be like old times 😅😅

Zoya/Nikolai decide to listen to the Darkling because they have no other option, why does this seem like a bad idea?

Nikolai shows the monster to Zoya, and not only is she not afraid but she tells him he is the only King she will serve. ❤️❤️❤️

Alina agrees to see the Darkling so Zoya takes the Darkling to her. This seems like such a BAD idea. 😳 

Nikolai almost dies after being shot down by a missile when he stupidly shows up in a flyer instead of on horseback 🤣🤣😳😳

Awwwww Alina and Mal!! ❤️❤️ and they brought Misha and Oncat with them!!

Fucking Darkling! I knew it. Was he pretending he didn’t have power this whole time?! 

Bahahahahaha Nikolai pulled a fast one on the Shu Queen. My question though, was that his plan from the beginning or did the plan change? Also i love that Genya and David got to say their vows! 🥰🥰🥰 The more pressing question though, can he see what the Darkling sees because of the monster?

Well shit, Nikolai really is a bastard, but who cares. What is Nina’s connection to the wolves? I feel like there’s something there, but I can’t figure out where it’s going yet.

Of course the Darkling got away. Manipulative little asshole. 

Brave Fjerda, also cowardly attacking civilians like that. Nikolai and his monster working together is kind of nice. David better not be fucking dead. I swear. 😡

Wow, I think Ehri would make a better queen than she gives herself credit for.

…that was grossly underwhelming. To say I’m disappointed would be a great understatement. I hate when a death seems like an after thought. We left Nikolai’s POV not knowing if David was in the rubble, or if he was alive or dead. Only to come back to Zoya’s POV and be watching his body burn. Really?! Don’t get me wrong I hate that he even died, but it seems like it was an after thought. I’m not saying he needed a grand death, but he deserved a little more than THAT. 😡😭😡😭😡😭

Poor Nina 🥺 but it sounds like she’s convincing the queen to stop the war or at least try to.

Awwwww Nikolai and Zoya in the garden of grief ❤️

Damn, I was hoping Reyem wouldn’t be there, or at least hadn’t been changed yet. And of course the queen tricked them. I was hoping I was wrong about that too, but alas she’s not that easily tricked.

Have I mentioned that Prince Rasmus is horrible? No? Well, he is. At first I thought it would work in their favor to have Hanne heal him. Like he would be grateful and stop the attack on Ravka, but after he whipped Joran in the hunting tent? Nope, he can take a long walk off a short pier. Poor Joran, but now we know he may be on their side after  Nina runs into him in his office with an altar to the Saints. Of course this was after she found out that Nikolai’s father stole her bone dart and escaped on his own. How did that work? Like no one saw him escape? I feel like the Fjerdans are so blind.

Yay!!! Kaz and Jesper and Wylan!!! 🥳🥳🥳

🤣🤣🤣 I love that Wylan is so not onboard until Kaz says it’s for Inej and then he’s totally onboard

Awww Zoya revealed she’s part Suli 💕💕

No, no, no. Tell me I’m wrong. Tell me I’m reading too much into the fact that Joran just confessed to killing an unarmed man.Tell me that I didn’t start liking him just to find out that he killed Matthias! PLEASE!

Damn it! He practically confessed. Nina almost killed him, and the prince is a dick. But that’s okay because Hanne and Nina kissed 🥰

Nikolai revealed the demon to Kaz and everyone who could see. Awesome. That’s going to be an awkward conversation later.😅

Awwww 🥰🥰 We got a semi confession of feelings from Nikolai ❤️❤️ If these two don’t manage to get together by the end of this book I’m gonna cry.

Tamar and Ehri are sly little foxes. Bringing the grandmother to the lab. Ha. She revoked her blessing on Makhi. Serves her right.

And she’s not going to be punished, they’re not sending help, and they have an agreement with Fjerda. For shit’s sake does Ravka have any real allies? They really are just a rag tag team of misfits, that no one thinks is going to win. If this was an SJM book, I’d say that secretly these people are all on Ravka’s side and just pretending they’re not to throw us off.

So that’s where Opjer ran off too. Nikolai finally knows for sure, and his father is willing to give up his life so Nikolai can keep his crown. ❤️ I’m not sure why we just passed over the part where he’d been held hostage and didn’t give information willingly, but whatever. 🤷‍♀️

🤣🤣🤣 Nikolai set a trap for Brum. Zoya and the squallers took out a lot of his men.

Well I guess the Apparat having Nina is better than the Prince having captured her. I keep wondering if we’ll get to see Zoya turn into the dragon, but I’m starting to think we won’t see it until the very end.

Of course Nikolai is going to fight, I’d expect nothing less from him. Of course the Grisha captives now where masks. Ooooo Nikolai let the demon out. I hope it works.

Darkling helped?! For his own selfish plan yes, but he helped.

WHO’S COMING FROM THE SOUTH?!?!?!

ZOYA!!! ❤️❤️❤️ She rescued Nina and finally understands what Juris and the dragon and everyone has been telling her ❤️❤️❤️

Ahhhhhh the Khergud came to help with Tamar and Mayu!!!

And then there’s Zoya the dragon.

Awwww she spared the Fjerdans.

And the Darkling got them all calling her a Saint.

NOOOOOOOO, NOT HANNE! Poor Nina 😭😭😭💔💔💔

Rasmus doesn’t want to fight. WHAT?! I’m so confused. Nikolai pulls a fast one by not only announcing he is a bastard, but declaring that Zoya should be queen ❤️🥳  Zoya declares she is a soldier, a Grisha, and a Suli but they still agree she should be Queen.

Yay!!!! Finally Zoya tells Nikolai she loves him and they kiss ❤️🥳❤️🥳❤️🥳❤️🥳

Oh. My. God. I just had an idea and I’m hoping it’s right. Is it possible that it wasn’t Hanne who died, but Rasmus whom Hanne tailored to look like her and then tailored herself to look like him and then killed Rasmus? That would explain his sudden want for peace. Unless there’s some other reason he wants peace. Like it’s a ploy to catch Ravka off guard, but there’s not enough book left for that kind of plot…😳😳😳

YES! I was right! Hanne is now Rasmus!

Of course the Darkling found a way to make it about him.

Yay! Zoya is Queen. And Alina got to come watch. ❤️❤️

And there’s Inej too. ❤️❤️

You can’t be serious? After all of that they’re going to fucking free him from unending torture? Okay, I can see why they would want to, but it’s going to take me a while to accept it.

Sounds like there could be another book. That would be interesting. Although I feel like everyone’s stories are pretty much wrapped up.

[summonerscenarios]

What if some major property damage happened during the night, and the evidence suggests that the Mc did it. The teachers punish them, despite the Mc going on about how they didn't do it. How would the teachers react to all this going on, and after a week after said punishments were finished, it's revealed that the Mc was in fact, actually innocent. Hope this was an ok ask

Well I do believe it’s been a hot second since the MC has suffered so let’s change that lmao. Honestly this scenario had me SO TORN writing it up because I legit couldn’t see any good way for this turning out okay - like how do you come back from this??? Just. So many emotions. So many.

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The whole thing was a mess - within the course of a single night there’s been significant damage to school property, to the point where the authorities had to be called in in case there was another attack coming. Rumors flood the school like wildfire, and every eye is trained onto the damaged site with either concern or a desperation for answers, nothing but questions on everyone’s lips for the foreseeable future. What happened? Who was responsible? Is it going to happen again? If so, when? By the time that the school is updated on the situation they’re notified that the culprit is clearly one of the students - there’s evidence left behind which suggests that someone was on the property right around the time the damage was done, in that exact same spot not even a few hours before it was discovered.

That student? Is you.

Mononobe, technically being labelled as your legal guardian, is the first to be approached with the issue, and he almost doesn’t believe it. Yes, you may be jokingly referred to as a ‘problem child’ for the trouble that you seem to attract, but going out of your way to destroy something for no discernible reason? He’s insistent that they lay out all the evidence gathered, to look over it, and look over it again till there’s another explanation for the damage. But everything investigators have managed to dig up points right back at you being responsible, and once that sinks in . He takes the situation seriously, and offers to be the one to call you out from class and bring you in; he’s hoping that seeing a familiar face will put you more at ease rather than being dragged out by strangers. But the entire walk to your classroom feels heavy - he knows that he’s bringing you in for a confession, and a part of him is still hoping that you aren’t responsible even as he knocks on the door and slides it open.

He tries to offer a reassuring smile as he asks to see you for a moment, but Ms. Ziz, who’s responsible for your lessons today, realizes that something isn’t right when she turns to greet him. Her expression flashes to concern for a brief moment, but she replaces it with a reassuring smile before turning back to the class and giving you the go-ahead to leave with Mr. Mononobe. You’re confused, but don’t seem to realize anything’s wrong as you join him out in the hallway, following in step as he motions for you to follow. The walk there is spent with him making small talk, asking you about how you’re settling in with new classes and inquiring how your friends are doing - the whole time you’re relaxed and smiling, even chuckling as you joke about the latest spat between Kengo and Shiro.

But then he stops at a door, and without thinking you open it, only to find what could only be described as a small jury waiting inside. It’s a mix between the officers responsible for the investigation and teachers not currently teaching classes - with some of the notable people being Mr. Triton and Mr. Jinn. Their expressions are grim but serious to reflect the gravity of the situation, and confused you turn to look back at Mr. Mononobe, that confusion turning into one of realization once everything clicks into place.

They think it’s you who did it - they all think that it’s you.

You deny the accusations almost immediately, growing increasingly more distressed and frustrated when they keep bringing up evidence that suggests you were responsible. Yes, you had been at the school after classes ended - but that was to pick up your bag that you’d left behind - your friends could vouch for that because you told them where you were going! You have an explanation for everything, but your denial only seems to make things worse - Jinn tries to comfort you by saying that if you tell the truth they’ll be able to figure something out but you just snap that you are telling the truth! Do they seriously not believe you?! 

By the end of the meeting it’s clear they see you as guilty. You feel your eyes burning as you stare down at the floor, and your throat feels hoarse from the yelling, but you know that saying anything else will just make things worse, so you go quiet, only piping up to once again declare your innocence only for it to fall of deaf ears. They inform you that with the damage being on school grounds it’s up to the faculty to discern what punishment you’ll receive; the authorities aren’t going to get involved, but you still have to face consequences for ‘your’ actions. The teachers see you physically deflate when you’re informed that whilst you won’t be suspended, you’ll be excluded from all notable foreseeable school events until the damage is repaired - on top of this, you’ll be escorted to and from classes by a faculty member whilst on the school premises until it’s clear that an event like this won’t happen again effective immediately. It’s only then that the meeting is adjourned and you’re allowed to either return to your class or stay until the bell rings.

The moment that the Summoner’s catch wind of what’s happened there’s an uproar - Kengo comes barging into the staff room the minute that the last class bell rings, practically seething as he demands to know what the hell’s going on - are they serious?! Do they really think it was you?! This is followed by Shiro who steps forward to intervene, asking Mr. Mononobe to please explain what made them all agree that it was you who was responsible for the damage. Even Toji steps forward on your behalf, corroborating your story about returning to the school for your belongings. It’s at this point that thing’s really start to feel wrong, but the teachers have to rely on the evidence they’ve been given, not to mention you took the trip alone - there was no saying what actually happened besides the information that they do have. Once it’s clear there’s no way to appeal your accusations the group leaves, all the while defending the fact that you were being punished for something you didn’t do. 

The next week is heavy with a tense atmosphere - even without the news getting around, the fact that you were on constant watch was enough for people to catch on to what happened. Naturally your friends are there to support you, each one coming forward to either offer you words of encouragement and comfort, or to approach the teachers directly for some kind of answer. You try to keep your spirits up in the face of your friends, but around the teachers you don’t say a word. 

Mr. Triton tries to strike up a conversation while he escorts you from one class to the next, only to be met by a blank stare before you focus back ahead without even a sound. Mr. Jinn  is there to greet you as you enter the school grounds, and watches as the smile on your face as you talk with your friends drops into an impassive look by the time you approach him. Ms. Ziz tries to comfort you on multiple occasions, confiding that she honestly believes that you didn’t do it - but even that feels hollow compared to the people who have already deemed you guilty. Everyone sees it - there’s hurt and anger in your eyes, and Mononobe can make it out clearly every time he catches your gaze. You feel betrayed in a way, and you have every right to feel that way given your innocence, but no one else is aware of that fact.

Until the following week.

Things come to a head once the week is over - the majority of the property damage is rebuilt and there’s talk about making an exception to your punishment since there’s been no further incident and it looks like things could be going back to normal. But then there’s a knock at the staff room door and Mr. Triton is the closest one to answer it. The moment he opens the door a student comes rushing in, practically sobbing and apologizing over and over as she clutches something in her hand. Mr. Mononobe steps in to calm her down, trying to reassure her that everything’s okay until he’s finally able to make out what she’s saying.

The student knew who did it - who really did it. She had been on the school grounds the night of the incident, noticed the damage but was too scared to confront the culprits so she’d taken a video, planning to turn the video in the next morning until she heard that the person responsible had already been caught and punished. It wasn’t until much later that she’d heard that it had been you who took the fall, and the guilt of knowing the truth just ate away at her until she knew she had to tell the truth. Saying this, the student hands over her phone to Mr. Mononobe, and sure enough there’s the video of the real culprits right before his eyes - clear evidence that you’d been innocent all this time. 

Everyone in the room realizes at that moment that this entire week you’d spend miserable, restricted and punished, was for a crime you didn’t even commit - and now that they know the guilt is palpable. This time when Mononobe goes to collect you it feels as though he can’t get there fast enough, and the second he opens the door the class goes silent. The last time he’d done this was when you were accused, so the moment you see him he can see you tense in your seat, apprehensive and hesitant when he asks you to step out of the classroom. Every eye is on you and you feel them burning into the back of your head as you stand up and head over to the door. Kengo almost gets up to follow you, but you shoot him a strained smile and tell him that you’ll be fine and he reluctantly slumps back into his seat.

Mononobe tries to comfort you by assuring that you’re not in trouble, but unsurprisingly you’re still doubtful, and keep looking anxiously at every door that you pass as though waiting for something to happen. You once again come to stop outside of the staff room but you don’t budge, instead turning to stare up at Mononobe in a silent refusal to open the door - but you don’t need to. The door swings open and Triton and Jinn burst out, mid discussion about checking on what’s taking you so long when they freeze and spot you and Mr. Mononobe. Almost immediately you feel panic wash over you, clearly taking their words the wrong way and you start walking back until Mononobe intervenes and tells you that it's best to explain things once you’re inside. 

There’s a notable tension in your posture - you’re terrified that they’re going to tell you some other bad news - that you’ll be suspended, or expelled, or worse, even as they explain to you the new information that’s come to light regarding the property damage. The moment the word ‘innocent’ leaves his mouth you straighten up in your seat, eyes wide processing what he’d just said before anger lights up in your eyes. A week's worth of disappointment and stress come bubbling up to the surface as you seethe about how you’d been telling them that for days, only to get ignored and punished for something you never did - and they let it happen. You were innocent, and they didn’t believe you. Eventually, your voice pipes down, your anger simmering into something more melancholic and you bury your face into your hands, eyes scrunched shut trying to muster up enough strength to keep being angry, to keep yelling until everyone understands how bad it hurts. But you’re just exhausted, upset and just plain tired of the whole ordeal. 

There’s a hand on your shoulder and you look up to see Mr. Mononobe kneeling down to your height, his expression remorseful as he apologizes to you. He knows that apologize will do nothing to take back everything that you’ve been subjected to this past week, but apologies are the only thing that he can offer you, alongside promises of making things right - you don’t have to believe his words right now, but he wants you to at least know that he will do his best to make good on his word. The only thing you can do is take a deep breath to steel your nerves and explain that you need some time before heading back to class - they don’t argue and you spend the rest of the lesson in the staff room, coming to terms with everything that’s just happened.

Things are incredibly awkward for a while after the incident. Your relationship with the teachers is noticeably more strained - you don’t confide in them nearly as much as you used to, and conversations between you and the teachers often ends with uncomfortable periods of silence. They clearly feel guilty about accusing you, and whilst you understand that they had to rely only on the evidence they were given it doesn’t make it any easier. You want to trust them, really you do, but it’s going to take time - and until then you keep your distance, and never go alone around school alone if you can help it for a while afterwards.

[siremasterlawrence]

A Revenge Fantasy- Killer Flame

If it’s not one things it’s another, am I right or what? That’s what I say to myself at the moment I sit for Jury duty.

The Judge Alex Mathias is a total white asshole who makes a point to call me out at my illness.

It is totally embarrassing because I don’t have a legit diagnosis yet it means I am faking it.

I plan on revenge as I am excused from the court room, I take a picture of his name plate on the door.

I sneak into the bathroom where one of the lawyers pops up, and I confront him.

His white ass is the perfect way to get my revenge, my eyes turn black enslaving him completely.

“Get me inside The Judge room and tell him it’s a emergency or whatever.”

“Bring him back here immediately to me no excuses.”

“Yes Master, I live to serve you”

“Hurry up NOW” I demand as he races out of the room.

“Submit to my will completely “

“Yes Master, on my way”

“Master, we have arrived.”

“Who are you...Oh it’s you, you dear.”

“SHUT UP! You will suffer what you did to me in their.”

“First of all you are now stripped of your free will.”

“You have no identity and never even exist until to me.”

“You are my permanent slave for the rest of your life.”

“You are no longer a judge, but instead a dumb ass jock.”

“You are infect The Chris Evans version of The Human Torch.”

“Hi bro, I am so sorry about earlier I use to be a asshole bro.”

“What shall I do?”

“You belong to me, you are now the same criminal you called me out to be, and work for me.”

“Oh God! I am hard. Hell Yessss! What shall we steal first?”

The end.

Revenge Fantasy - Killer Night

My neighborhood is filled with a lot of jerks but upon reflecting if I change one all Will fall to their knees.

“What are you staring at you freak?”

“You asshole, I am tired of your crap “

“I am now your Master.”

“Yes Master, Master Lawrence “

“Sir Yes Master Sir”

“Shut up and kneel”

“I will conquer all of you and reprogram you.”

“I am the love of your life”

“You shall surrender your control to me.”

I snap my fingers causing a shift in times temporal space, a shift occurs as he stood empty.

“What a lousy useless piece of shit you are”

“You are aging back in time, and are The Brenton Thwaites Nightwing.”

“Yes, I am Nightwing “

“Full suit, weapons and knowledge.”

“A total loose cannon and criminal.”

“Employee of the mob that I control”

“You are a Supervillain”

“I am a Supervillain “

“I work for you”

The end.

[meloncubedradpops]

Repo! The Corona Opera

For every rotation that Earth has completed around the sun since the dawn of humanity, humans have created art to cope with the realities surrounding our everyday life. We weave stories in songs, movies, plays, books, paintings, and so forth, that help digest the world around us and provide an entertaining escape from the cruelties we endure. Some stories take place in abstract universes or in the future, and we rely on what we know in our present reality to build upon these fantasy societies. My favorite movie, Repo! the Genetic Opera, certainly makes this list. We are currently experiencing perhaps the most surreal year of our collective lives, and with each passing day I argue that we find ourselves closer to the world crafted in Repo. I have seen this movie, at least 20 times. If you haven't watched Repo! the Genetic Opera or you haven't seen it in a while, I recommend giving it a view. The movie is unique in that it falls under three distinct genres: musical, horror, and sci-fi. And while the jury is out on whether our future society is going to go full on gothic aesthetic, I can say that the Repo! movie experience offers a glimpse into a dystopian fascist post-plague world wrapped in unapologetically hilarity with a heaping side of camp. It doesn't offer any spiritual cleansing that our souls collectively need, but it does show us what a new normal could look like if we really go off the rails.

As things stand, right now, so much of our daily lives and culture are impacted by the coronavirus. All of our institutions have been impacted, from school, to work, to family, to the way we interact with strangers, and especially our economy. We have all felt the effects in one way or another, and honestly? Most the impacts are of our own undoing, for better or for worse. I am going to write three pieces analyzing Repo! the Genetic Opera. First I will create the foundations that bridge our contemporary life and the world of Repo! Second I will explain how the Repo! universe operates under the definitions of fascism. And third I will weave together parts one and two into our contemporary world (particularly in the context of the United States) to highlight the dark path we heading towards. My viewpoints are of mine, and my own alone. Let's dive into part one.

Part I Repo! the Genetic Opera takes place in the year 2056. Humanity was on the brink of collapse as a result of a medical crisis that caused massive organ failure.

I never gave the premise much thought, at least not until recently. We aren't given much detail beyond the fact that entrepreneur Rottissimo "Rotti" Largo solved this crisis through his company GeneCo. GeneCo provides organ transplants that can be repaid through a payment plan. Witnessing the coronavirus unfold in real time and seeing its wrath, particularly on severe cases, honestly makes me wonder if the writers had some sort of "super plague" in mind when creating this universe. For the purpose of this analysis, I will assume that humanity suffered at least one infectious disease crisis. And just to reiterate covid-19 particularly, we really *don't* know what it's going to do to us long-term. Let the parallels begin. 

The world in Repo! the Genetic Opera, operates as normally as the citizens possibly can, which appears to be quite limited. I have noted how dated some the technologies look.

For a world 30 years in the future, it lacks cell phones and easy access to internet. When we enter Shilo's world (aka her bedroom!) she watched Blind Mag sing on a busted up tiny ass TV and the program itself looks like an ad on Home Shopping Network.

The Graverobber is shown reading headlines on a newspaper. The news reporters shown in the ribbon cutting ceremony during the 1st Italian Post-Plague Renaissance have old school cameras with flashbulbs.

The most contemporary technology appears to be a Wish.com version of an Apple watch, and even that looks like a leftover prop from Spy Kids.

Obviously the people who made this movie intentionally inserted these anachronisms, but why? This is a science fiction movie after all. I speculate that they reverted back because the impact from humanity's crisis resulted in an overall professional "brain drain" from the sheer volume of professionals that dropped dead. In fact every scene depicting medical procedures looks dimly lit and lacking in sanitation. We will see this as we struggle to contain the coronavirus, at least in America. Healthcare workers have already died from this thing, and I am sure many prospective college students will have second thoughts about a career in healthcare. I mean hell, look at no other than GeneCo itself. That company employs workers called "Genterns" who are most definitely not in full PPE. I don't doubt their medical expertise, but they appear to be disposable (please see: that time Luigi killed one for NO REASON in "Mark it Up").

On that note, it really was quite incredible how China built the pop-up hospital in Wuhan in under 4 days, but it was also not the most safe or structurally sound building by far (it collapsed, people were hurt!). Maybe at this point, the people in Repo! don't have much of a choice. I am sure there were likely legit hospitals, but the fact that the Renaissance had gross surgery tents is a bit unsettling.

This is a world that is completely built upon the social more of valuing your health above all else. There had to be a turning point in the GeneCo business model where they really played on up-selling organs for the benefit of "genetic perfection". "I needed a kidney transplant desperately. GeneCo showed this single mom sympathy. This makeover came for a small added fee. Now I look smashing on live TV!" Imagine signing the documents for your power of attorney while actively going into renal failure, when your doctor chimes in with an up-sell for breast implants. When all is said an done, your body is now not only functioning again, but you're hot! Even in a post-plague dystopia we are still holding value to having a nice rack. What's not to love about GeneCo? Obviously we know right away that GeneCo has a dirty side. Rotti Largo personally lobbied to make organ repossessions legal, and he does not hesitate to recollect his property. The concept itself is, of course, wild. In America, our healthcare system is incredibly broken and expensive.  You would wonder how it could get worse without us backpedaling many steps on the industrialization timeline. And in a lot of ways, I could see a company like GeneCo thrive here. We already hate the poor, and we have political think tanks that salivate over the idea of cutting social programs that keep people alive. Our president has wanted to repeal the Affordable Care Act while many people are unemployed during a pandemic. In Repo! we hear about those who don't pay, but obviously there are plenty of people who do. Those who can will happily pay, either for vanity reasons or to stay alive.

And while society cites Rotti as being a "hero" for humanity, we see more and more evidence that the crisis is both not under control and life is cheap.

His son murders multiple people, in front of others, with seemingly no repercussions. In the scene where Shilo meets the Graverobber for the first time, adjacent to the graveyard and tombs owned by wealthy families who could afford grave markers, lies a poorly constructed wall hiding thousands of corpses piled on top of one another. We even get a glimpse of a truckload pouring more onto the pile. I would not be surprised if there is a disinformation campaign there keeping the public in the dark (although you'd think the smell would be unbearable at this point).

There are multiple indications that propaganda works in society (still), and no one is getting the full picture of how much of a raw deal the people in Repo! have. We see poster after poster about GeneCo, in the literal absence of other corporations. 

And a lot of them bear resemblance to 20th century Russian propaganda. It would be a real shame if the goals outlined The Foundations of Geopolitics: The Geopolitical Future of Russia were actually realized. Imagine going to visit your mother's grave and hearing commercials for hardcore analgesics play through the cemetery. Also, there's a police presence too. Apparently the police are called Genecops and have authority to execute any assumed graverobbers on site.

Imagine the hellscape it would be to live in a world where your loved ones may have died from a terrible pandemic, and you face a non-zero chance of an over zealous cop murdering you thereafter, and because their qualified immunity bypasses the judicial system entirely...oh wait. Anyways let's circle back to the Graverobber character.

Graverobber's role in Repo! appears to be minor on the surface. Rotti's daughter, Amber Sweet, appears to almost despise her relationship with him. And that relationship involves him supplying Amber with what he describes as the "21st Century cure". This cure you ask? A super effective painkiller with the clinical use to accompany GeneCo surgeries. This drug is called Zydrate, and it has a street version that he acquires and sells, with clients including Amber Sweet.

Graverobber makes his living sucking the glowy blue brain corpse goo and injecting them into people on the streets. Yum!

Not everyone who needs an organ transplant can pay for it all upfront. Luckily for them, GeneCo provides payment plan options! The caveat to this is if you fail to make those payments, legally GeneCo can come and repossess your newly acquired organs. If you find yourself past due, you will soon see the last face before your doom, the Repo Man. He will harvest GeneCo's property, and it won't matter where you are or what you are doing. There is no anesthetic, and you will likely die! This was all made legal through Rotti's lobbying efforts.

Society, as it's set up today, allows for property repossessions. This can be as straightforward as a repossession of your vehicle to as heartbreaking as a foreclosure on your home. At the end of the day, the impacts of that are difficult and life changing. Currently millions of people in America are out of work, and the threat of losing everything is at stake for many. We could lose our homes, our vehicles, and our sense of purpose. And while many government bodies have created temporary moratoriums, they have not provided any substantial financial relief to keep the proverbial repo man at bay. What went wrong in this dystopia to normalize the concept of death due to nonpayment? Fascism! Ah yes, the dreaded f-word. In my next essay, I will outline the 14 characteristics of fascism and how it relates to the universe in Repo! After I will relate that to our modern world so that we can try and stop this from becoming our reality.

[madphantom]

Phantasm - Chapter 16

The judge and jury were all there, the accusers and accused, all the witnesses, just one person was missing - the attorney.

Phoenix nervously checked her watch. "Where the hell is she?"

"She'll be late, but on time," was all Winslow said. Phoenix rolled her eyes.

Suddenly, without knocking, the door flew open. A woman in black combat boots, black leather and a biker helmet marched into the room.

"Sorry, I'm late," she apologized, taking off the helmet and freeing her blonde curls. "Traffic." It was Emmy.

"Miss Leach, you are, in fact, very late," the judge said.

She shrugged it off and sat down. "Continue."

"And you are the attorney?", the judge asked in disbelief. "Are you sure you're the right person?"

"If I weren't sure who I am we'd have a problem." She smiled coldly. "But I am. Emmeline Joan Leach. Here to accuse the Swan foundation and Death Records company of the false accusation, imprisonment and murder of Winslow Leach. Tada."

Phoenix gave her a tiny thumbs up and Emmy winked at her.

The judge sighed. "All right. Prosecution? You may call your first witness."

It was Casey English, one of the two singers Winslow and Phoenix had met at Swanage. Quietly she told the judge about how she'd talked to Winslow, how he'd told her it was his music and how she'd been raped by Philbin.

The judge nodded. "Okay. Prosecution? You may call the second witness."

"How many witnesses are there?", Jenny whispered to Phoenix as Joan stepped forward.

"Twenty-five," Phoenix replied as quietly as she could.

"Then this is going to be a long night."

Phoenix nodded and sighed. "Yep."

Three hours later, the judge finally, with a sigh, concluded: "Both the prosecution and the defense have now rested their cases. The attorneys will now present their final arguments. Please remember, what the attorneys say is not evidence. However, do listen closely. They are intended to aid you in understanding the case. Prosecution, you may begin." It was dark in the courtroom already. Everyone was too concentrated to switch on the lamp. Neon lights played on the pale faces in the room.

Emmy nodded and stood up, once again showing her towering height. She was 6'5. The neon lights played with her long blonde curls.

"Thank you, your Honour," she said. "First of all, as you can see, most of the witnesses agree that Swan - or rather the Swan foundation and Death Records company - committed the crimes they were accused of. I can confirm what my sisters and parents already stated. We were not notified of Winslow's death. It was kept a secret. Had everything been completely legal we would have been notified of everything that happened in New York. We weren't." She allowed a dramatic pause during which absolute silence stunned the witnesses of what was about to be the most emotional way to prove someone guilty ever witnessed in court.

"My brother," Emmy began. "Phoned us every week. Now, it happens that during our last phonecall my sisters Ellie and Sandy tried to record it. Here is the result."

A man in a black suit worked on a record player, then it started playing a scratchy recording.

"Hello?", Winslow's ghostly voice echoed through the courtroom.

"Winslow!" That was Lucy. "Everybody, Winslow's calling from NYC!"

They heard Winslow's soft giggle on the line. Then Emmy.

"Hey, bro, how's it going?"

"Great! I played after the Juicy Fruits today and guess what happened?"

"You guys, he played after the Juicy Fruits today! What was it?"

"Swan said he'd produce my music!" It hurt how glad and excited Winslow sounded.

"What?!"

"What did he say?" That was Harry.

"Tell us!", Joan begged.

"Swan's producing his music! Did he really say that, Winslow?"

"Yes!" Several people in the courtroom had grown increasingly pale and troubled by the call by now. "Well, actually, he just sent Philbin, his assistant. I gave him my cantata."

"Duuuude." That was Emmy. "That's sick."

"I know, right?" Winslow sounded so happy it nearly broke Phoenix' heart. "Anyway, there's not a lot of news apart from that. My roommate at the hotel moved out because he had no money anymore. But otherwise everything's going normal. How are things in Dunphy?"

"Oh, nothing new." Emmy sighed. "Dad started meeting up with James Cavill to play chess. The twins are trying to evoke Satan, but that's nothing new. It's boring here without ya."

Winslow's smile was audible. "I promise I'll be back soon." Somebody in the courtroom legit sobbed. Everyone turned their head a little and saw it was Mary Margaret Amato.

"A-apologies," she stuttered and wiped a tear off her cheek.

"See you soon then," Emmy said in the recording. "Love ya, bro."

"Love you too, Emmy. Love you all out there."

With a quiet click the recording ended.

"This, Ladies and Gentlemen, is the last thing Winslow Leach has said to us," Emmy finished. "Tada."

The jury stared at each other. Some had tears in their eyes. Then they left to discuss the case. When they came back the case was clear.

"Herb Pacheco, Ernie Brown, Timothy Spencer, Mark Henston, Bruce Fredricks, Jim Grover and Jake Alberto are guilty of aiding Swan with theft, murder, attempted murder, imprisonment and sexual abuse."

"Life!", the judge exclaimed.

"Carlyla Bowie and Mary Margaret Amato are guilty of aiding Swan with theft."

"Three years!"

"Howard Rice, Jack Wesfield and Joe Hart guilty of corruption."

"Five years!" The judge leaned back. "I would like to add something personal from my side. I thoroughly studied this case before judging it and the murder of Winslow Leach is the worst death I have ever witnessed - and I've been a judge for nearly fifty years. I just want to say one thing to everyone responsible for it." He leaned forward. "May you rot in hell!"

The witnesses cheered and clapped. Somebody finally thought of switching on the light.

"We'll celebrate, how about that?", Joan said. "Emmy, congratulations, you won the case for us!"

"Thanks, mum." Emmy was blushing.

"How about a pool party back home in Dunphy?", Joan suggested. "Phoenix, do you want to come?"

She smiled, leaning against Winslow. "Sure."

It was dark when they got into their cars. The roads were empty. Phoenix fell asleep. Winslow drove her to Dunphy.

By the time morning dawned they arrived.

[ofindcmitability]

🍁 EACH. ONE. OF. THEM.

WILLIAM FLYNN HALLIWELL

— wow so here we go. I remember very specifically. So my mom got the special Hulu to use the free trial and then cancel it so I watched the first two episodes of Deadly Class on it, then that night I watched the third episode when it aired after I watched The Magicians. I checked gif packs and yep I knew I wanted to do Benjamin Wadsworth. He, as my main, replaced by original version of Peyton Halliwell who I’d been struggling with forevers at that time. So originally I was thinking Henry Jr, but he’d been taken at the time. I’d also been obsessed with this fanfiction series (still am TBH it’s so fucking funny). This is the fic that made me say, I wanna do a damaged child taken in by a semi-adult. The semi-adult in the fic had been a teenager, so I thought of Mick who was playing Wyatt Halliwell and contacted her. ( Also a sidenote bc hilariously, the song came on. RWBY v6 had recently ended and the ending song NEVERMORE (which Will’s lyrics and title are from) started playing literally right now so thats funny ). Anyhow Mick was like SURE, and tbh the original connection idea was just through magic school but then it EVOLVED, I’m legit thinking thru the transcript of our conversation rn it’s wild??? Mick helped me choose darklighter-demon so this is fucking awesome ( go Mick!!! ) I LEGIT SENT THIS FROM THE FANFIC

“Hey, uh. Wyatt? I… I kind of failed my test today.”Wyatt grabbed the bottle of tequila that he insisted they didn’t own and poured it into his coffee. “I know, Will. I was there.” He sighed. Will slid the test across the table towards him and offered a wry smile. “My teacher said our parent or guardian needed to sign it if we failed.” He told him and Wyatt stared at him for a good two minutes before taking a long sip of the alcoholic coffee. He picked up the test and Will felt a stab of guilt for making the man look so goddamn tired. Maybe he should try a bit harder… Wyatt grabbed a pen and dramatically signed the test that he had graded earlier. “Get out of my face you evil, evil child.”

My goodness Mick and I fucking went at it over William Formally Flynn. 

Mick, after I showed her Will’s intro which I spent two hours writing as I listened to the same exact song. 

i like it when you hurt me.02/01/2019Oh my actual fucking good that breaks my heart.

Okay so next.

ASTER SILVERMIST

—- it’s weird bc I’m so horrible with chars Aster was literally brought in at a different era than William. Will has so many years on my others it’s fucking wild. Anyhow Imma just look at C and I’s transcripts bc I don’t remember how specific it went besides C posting Thomas Doherty’s FC as someone she was gonna do, and I knew I wanted to do Mitchell Hope post so I was like HEYYYYYY .

Literlally us:

satan with a keyboard07/29/2019CASUALLY DORPS INTO UR PM TO KNOW ABOUT UR THOMAS AND SEE IF U WANNA DO A CONNECTION WITH MY MITCHELLthe charizard of fkeke07/29/2019yes i want a connectioni am a slut for mitchell and thomas thanks to d2 

But yes, I remember looking up fairy names and last names bc I wanted perty names, and us just fucking brainstorming like wild and then C coming us with everaster and damn we went AT IT

HENRIK MIKAELSON

I can’t go into someone’s DM to help me so this’ll come from memory. I know I wanted to do Brenton, and for a bit I was considering doing him as our then-Davina’s brother connection. But I ended up not doing it bc I had muse for someone else and I was at character limit at the time (crazy right??) anyhow so…. okay tbh I have no idea how my want for Brenton translated into him becoming Henrik Mikaelson bc he does not look like a Mikaelson. I know it def had to do with Titans s2 coming out and a huge influx of muse for Brenton. I think I wanted to do a canon which was where Henrik fit in but honestly I don’t remember and now I’m bothered by it lmao. I know I played Freya thrice before doing Henrik so maybe it was a want for a Mikaelson? I really really don’t know what the fuck happened there. But yes, and his backstory of being brought back in s2 of TO came from another rp I was in where I played Henrik with Robbie Kay and even thou it didn’t end up clicking right bc of the fc, I always fucking loved my initial idea of him having come back way back then. I think my want for him to work with kids and be a caretaker came from Dick and Rachel in Titans tbh skndkngf bc I loved that softness and I was thinking he could have a soft relationship with Hope too, I rmemeber thinking to myself I’d use their huggle gifs for them eventually lmfao. But yes honestly my memory is shit and dusty and while I rmemeber how other huge changes and plots came to be for him, his creation is a molted memory. TBH I’m really surprised no one’s ever yelled at me for how non-Mikaelson he looks/is.

PEYTON HALLIWELL

So, let’s pre-requisite this by reminding everyone I’ve played Peyton Halliwell twice before with a number of three FCs, maybe more that I’m forgetting too tbh. The ones I remember are Lili Reinhart, Ginny Gardner and Taylor Hickson. So what happened here was. Um. Okay tbh I don’t remember too much. My ultimate memory is in the form of me mentioning Natalia Dyer to Sam and him being like I FUCKING LOVE HER DO IT and honestly thats how that happened lmfao. Her personality stemmed from Natalia’s ton of guns gifs and I still haven’t actually done her intro RIP. But yeah, this is finally the Peyton I got right bc everyone actually likes her kdnkgngkng I think. But yes. There’s her origin story, Sam loving Natalia Dyer. 

BARBARA FRIEDH 

Barbara Gordan and Jane Levy. Babs is still fairly new, so I remember enough. I was in/still am in a Batfamily phase. So I was following the Titans tag and they showed a picture of Brenton and Jane in a movie together bc she’s the perfect Barbara Gordan and I just loved her Fc for the firs time, bc in the past I’d seen her and never felt anything. So I found out she had a good number of gif packs and they’re so pretty??? But I was so hesitant bc I didn’t have an idea for her and I didn’t wanna go in half cocked. So I had a gif of her in my drafts for weeks with the name Mar’i or Zoe beside it bc I couldnt think of ANYTHING. but then I was finally like, fuck it. and I wrote her intro somehow?? I rmemeber sitting there so usnure for such a while but then it started rolling and Victoria’s connection just fit. I wanted to name her Babs bc i fucking love the nickname Babs it’s so cute. I almost changed her name but Ace was a warrior for hte name Barbara so thus she became Barabara Friedh. Friedh, is a surname from the video game Lost Odyssey which I liked and yeee. 

JACK KLINE

Okay so here’s the thing. Jack Kline is a soft soft sweet boy who has struggles with three dads and a major guilt complex. I loved him from his first episode. I was hesitant for a second tbh, bc I was like Maybe I shouldn’t. Cause it’d suck to take him on and drop him, or be really bad at him (jury’s still out on that one) but like. I have not felt such muse for a proper canon character in a hell of a long time. So I browsed through his edit tag and i just said, Okay so this is happening. I even ended up making a whole entire gif pack of him in one day yesterday bc resources r a Bich. But yes like. I love Jack a lot as a character. I feel like he made me enjoy Supernatural again bc I found his plotline so compelling and him to be such a good and earnest character who’s just trying so hard and that spoke to me.

But yeah, these are my bitches. Hope you’re happy Gaby. 

[raguna-blade]

Revolutionary Girl Utena 34-39 And The Adolescence of Utena

So hot diggity damn, I finally finished the Series and it’s Sequel movie. (Perhaps it’s not truly a sequel. I will be graceful and acknowledge this as a possibility as I gleefully ignore it because hot damn that movie makes Negative Sense if You haven’t seen the series before (Which I know factually because I’ve watched it multiple times without having seen the series in full proper. That dance scene man) but makes immense amounts of sense if viewed as a sequel. I’m gonna get around to it sooner or later I think, probably sooner since the subject is on my mind, but still) Shit went down. So much has gone down, but the one thing that I can say is that it I am so glad to see that Akio got dunked on in the most pleasing way by the Lady who consistently spat hot fire the entire series.

Also that Dance Scene was SO FUCKING GOOD, LIKE HOLY SHIT GUYS.

Proper Essays and the like to come as I Do a run through thoughts and such, since I got a bunch of them.

Episodes 35-39

Episode 35

Oh Boy prince time again. Oh god. Oh god they changed it again.

I find it interesting that Dios is Still framed pretty sympathetically. He's a solid A plus good guy, but shit goes so horribly wrong that he just...stops. Hm. Wonder if there's a reason WHY he warped so? It doesn't excuse anything but...

Wait, did Utena start recalling everything? Hell of a way to regain your memories.

I do not appreciate the crotch shot here following that last ep.

GODDAMNIT AKIO. YEAH TAKE A WALK AWAY.

This whole scene feels awkward.

Oh damn her face flattened out like whoa. She mad.

Was it Eternity? That warped him...?

What's with the car...?

Also, ….Ok, toga. Car Pyramid too.

Also, is Akio...hm. Oddly Passive? Hm.

Give her a present, say it's from me, and god damnit akio please stop being weird for like 10 seconds.

What's with the carrot in his pocket.

Earrings? Jessu wakaba.

...Wait, was this to tilt TOGA? But why would that do it?

Prince Mystique. I think this shit was actually supposed to til him.

I think Akio actually fucking played Touga. HE THOUGHT THEY WERE PARTNERS AND YOU GOT PLAYED!

Yeah, Touga is fucking TILTED.

He looks so put off right now. Like he's...off. He's off in a way the others haven't been.

Saionji here reading him like a book. Jesus Saionji is tearing him a new one.

Used people like tools and it made you strong IN THE PAST.

Shadow Girls? Feels super early, but it's the second half of the episode. But what's the deal with fish...Oh, fish in the sea. Girls exist to be exploited? Huh...Toga I guess....A Mermaid? Oh, a fish and a personality

LEFT THE BED. OH NO. The earrings. Also, I dislike the soft lovely lovey dovey shading here. Just feels...like liesssssssssssss

Anthy.

He thinks he won the game. He wants her to be a princess.

A princess who will revolutionze the world.

Oh Shit the elevator! It's been too long.

Is it the bros time?

Never come out of this coffin. Is everyone dead here?

Saionji: YOU LOVE HER BRO?

TOUGA: Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Final Letter? Hm..Why the play? But I'm making this call. Akio's not actually end of the world?

Saionji: YOU SURE YOU WANNA BE LIKE HIM?

But for real dudes, why you strippin.

...Oh is chuchu a familiar? Or some part of anthy?

Anthy is not having it. AND SH what the fuck WHAT THE FUCK WE JUST GONNA IGNORE HER SPURTING INTO SWORDS?

Honestly, all of this is half making me wonder about the black rose arc cause it feels...mad out of place? It got excised from canon but...hm.

Episode 36

This yinyang shit is increasingly worrisome.

Elevator again? Also, how long has it been since we've seen the rest of the student council. And why does Touga think he needs to beat her to save her?

Hm....

Is the coffin (Coffins) Ohotori? Is this some weird purgatory? Would explain shadow seminar guy.

You sound sincere when you say that. IMPLYING HE DOESN”T THE REST OF THE TIME.

DON'T KISS AND LOOK ALL DREAMY FUCK YOU AKIO. FUCK YOU

WHY CANT THESE GUYS CLOSE A SHIRT?

Oh Stuco? Please be the heroes we need.

Juri: SOMETHING IS WRONG

Miki: WELL SHEIS A GIRL BUT...Uh...I mean that's good? Right? Something is off.

Oh Boy. Revolution TIME.

….What...what are they doing. What's with the  Bike...? Also, the metaphor shit makes me uh..Hm.

Touga: GETTING SECOND THOUGHTS.

Saionji tries to copy akio, and immediately shot down, shits dumb.

Shirt open utena? Copying princly(???) manners there.

Night Dueling...?

So...what's up Touga?

REAL STARS. SEEING REAL STARS FOR THE FIRST TIME!

And it shows the castle? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Man, touga realizing he fucked up but big.

I'm not sure if he's fucking around or for real right now. This is a cute as hell moment i'll grant, but suspect. Touga's got a history.

So he does care. Oh...So that's why he has to win. To keep her away from Akio? But...what's up with that.

...So is Saionji to Anthy as Touga is to Utena? Huh...?

Shadow Time...? Prince of the Horse and the Prince...uh...Hm.

Apocalypse time Hoo boy.

Huh. The Roses growing in anthy's clothes....I wonder if they're supposed to be sorta like...Swords? Analagous to Swords.

Touga and Saionji...Yeah I think that's a HARD ass confirm there. Wait oh my god really?????

That no budget though.

….Touga said he'd protect her and....EVERYTHING GOT REALLY FUCKING WEIRD. THE CARS. ANTHY

Oh man the cars are getting HOT wrecked.

Yo. YO GUYS THIS IS DOPE.

Are the cars the dudes/princes familiars...?

Is it over for us?

BEWARE THE ROSE BRIDE AND END OF THE WORLD

hoo boy. That's...a long ass pause there. And whispering akios name and YEESH SWORDS

oh god is it happening? Oh god it might be happening.

OH FUCK IT HAPPENED. AND SHE LOOKS BROKEN AS SHIT RIGHT NOW.

Utena is...uh...not here right now.

Nanami was RIGHT THE WHOLE TIME. TRIFLING AS HELL AS SHE WAS SHE WAS RIGHT.

ALSO BLUE HAIR AND JURI MIRROR UTENA AND TOUGA OK GOT IT. Shiori is Anthy then I guess.

Utena don't you know how much i've despised you? HOLY SHIT

Episode 37

Hey, Hey, Utena. SHITS FUCKED. ITS HIS FAULT.

DON'T TAKE THE RING OFF OH FUCK. She remembers. Oh boy. Ohhhhhhhhboy.

Only realizing how many fake ass stars are in the apartment.

Anthy is acting more robotic than usual.

Forgive Me! Chuchu.

Oh, the Rose bundle has the whole set of colors don't it. Yep. Orange, green, blue, yellow, red.

End of the World doesn't want things to change?

You two just gonna...just gonna admit how close you are. Touga. Saionji.

Anthy can hear the car noises. If you can still hear it.

GOD I HATE THIS MAN SO MUCH.

Anthy on her mind.

No star mention huh. Stars don't interest him....Hm.

Only place you can see stars are in Anthy and Utena's room.

Is this the first time we've seen utena in red?

….I JUST realized how immensely creepy this picture taking thing is from Akio. Somehow.

Anthy: My brother loves you as well miss utena.

Oh she's fucking up the ball game.

I love this life, I hope our feelings stay the same between the three of us.

Well fucking up the ballgame is off. But falling out the pattern. Never a good sign.

Juri and Miki to the rescue?

Utena is chosen to bring the world revolution. And she doesn't...want it. Been playing prince..So you could make yourself a prince.

Juri: What're you gonna do about anthy. You love her right. You...You know that right?

Nanami to the rescue. YOU KNOW YOU'RE BEING TRICKED YOU MORONS. STAY AWAY FROM AKIO AND ANTHY.

Nanami is a good girl, if a bit of a bitch..

Kozue watching like a hawk.

Miki: Hey I'm a bit in love with you.

Juri: COINCIDENCE?

Duel for her huh. HUH?

Shadow Girls...Why aliens crashing into the tower?

Utena's the Actress here. Shadow Girls OTP. Only one girl can be chosen at the audition.

So, a taste of the princess life?

Hoo boy...Why does he look so fucking angry. Also Anthy with the uh...weirdly sexual pains there.

What do you wanna do in the future Anthy?

Cantarella. A Deadly Poison. Why...are you just bringing that up. Poisoned Tea and cookies...huh?

What's with the record skip.

BOTH OF US TOGETHER 10 YEARS FROM NOW. Yes it would be nice. Just...Just ask her out utena. Please.

...Why are you on the ledge Anthy. uh...Is this a suicide HO SHIT.

I just can't go on. Anthy just...legit tried to kill herself? She just tried to kill herself.

Devoted to true friendship? A gullible fool?

Anthy. You can still turn back huh. Ring On. Prince Mode Engaged. Let's just fucking go.

Episode 38

APOCALYPSE AT THE START? UH. UH PATTERN BREAK? Uh...Shit.

Last two eps, now is the time I guess.

Hold Hands in the face of the End of the World. Let's goooooo

So...That's Dios. And Akio in front. So they're not the same person. For sure.

The Castle where a prince and princess will live together happily

WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED TO ANTHY JESSU CHRIST THAT WAS SCARY.

Rose Bride Utena.Make her into a rose bride. Hit him utena.

Yes, what does happen to Anthy. Rose Bride forever. Swords for ever.

Oh are they building on the suicide thing? Please and thanks.

Oh anthy REALLY wants to die. Like she is not even trying to stay alive.

The Rose Bride, a doll with no heart, to be abused and used huh.

Anthy and Utena finally having a heart to heart.

...Kinda feel like they're talking past each other though?

TAKE BACK THE SWORD.

Dios on her side.

The Prince and Castle are illusions. So that include the school...?

Uh...Uh...the star gazing room? Planeterium, that's the word.

Akio's room is the tip top. Casts Illusions.

Is it so wrong? YES FUCKER JESUS.

YOU ARE AN ADULT YOU FUCK. ITS NOT POSSIBLE TO BE FAIR.

You never tried to understand anthy. Huh...

They are throwing so much here. Like god damn.

Akio claims

HELLAVATOR?

He's trying so hard to get that sword from Utena.

He's...crying?

JUST A WITCH.

OH GOD THE SHELL. ITS BEEN SO LONG!

Nanami too!?

Smash the Worlds shell....oh the end of the world.

The Revolution Duel Has Begun huh.

Akio with his off brand Utena Outfit.

Real Combat huh?

Akio is REFUSING to explain himself. Which is markedly different since he's the only adult here.

I'm Gonna be a Prince...Oh shit is this the duel opening shot. Illusory construct. Oh boy. Oh boy that shit was literal wasn't it.

Anthy...? She looks uh...Not Ok.

Akio isn't though. He's looking uh...Bad too.

ANTHY? ANTHY?! WHAT TU FUCK? THATS HOW YOU END THE EPISODE?!

HOW YOU GONNA STAB UTENA LIKE THAT?

EPISODE 39

uh...pattern breaking again. Where's the opening. Last time to break a pattern I guess. Chance to.

FUCKING STABBED HER! WHY.

You remind me of Dios. But you can never be my prince cause you're a girl.

uh.

Uhhhhhhh.

The Duel Named Revolution. Utena is...Her Their Representative.? She's their Rep.

A boy saved juri's sister, and died. They can't recall his name. Uh...hm.

Y'all just gonna have corn cookin though.

Anthy....?

Do you hate what i've become? Why is he crying?

Y'all just gonna leave Utena dying.

His knowledge is absolute. He chose this path. Claims to love her. FUCK HIM UP.

He couldn't win with his sword, so he stole utenas.

UTENA HANGIN ON.

Stubborn and reckless hero. A taste of true friendship.

OH FUCK THATS A LOT OF SWORDS

Shine with with human hatred. Summoned and deflected by Utena's sword?

HEY HEY WAIT A SECOND. THE FIRST SWORD THAT STRUCK HER IS DIOS/AKIOS. HEY WAIT A GODDAMN MINUTE.

Takes the sword in place of the prince. Destiny of the Rose bride huh. And he's sitting here saying she chose this? YOU TALKED HER INTO IT ASSHOLE.

AND HE CAN'T EVE DO IT WITH THE SWORD HE WANTED SO BADLY.

So...Dios...Again. Through the door eternity, and the power to change things. Well damn fuck dios too.

It's interesting that Dios is presented as a powerful figure, but is ultimately pretty impotent here. He holds absolute power but cannot act? HUH.

Broke her sword huh.

Akio: I COULDn'T DO IT SO YOU CAN'T EITHER. FUCKING DUMBASS

Utena; FUCKING TRY ME. THIS SHIT IS GOIN DOWN.

Oh, friend pointed it out. Roses are all her color.

No power, you can't do anything. Just be dependent.

Utena: FUCK OFF. FUCK THIS DOOR. ANTHY

HAVENTS SEEN THIS SHIT IN A WHILE!

And the swords stopped.

Just realized how childish the prince is...

Oh hey a coffin. And her hands are bloody.

Oh...I think HES gonna have to deal with these swords now.

It's anthy in the coffin. Of course. Tracks.

Don't be afraid of the world says baby Utena. Word.

AT LAST WE MEET!? Yeah that tracks. That. Yeah. She's not being the rose bride. She's being Anthy.

TAKE HER HAND ANTHY GODDAMNIT

While i'm thinking, the whole edifice of end of the worlds power broke down.

Someday together. Uh. Uhhhhhh. Hey. Hey wait a minute.

HEY NO THATS NOT COOL. In the end I couldn't be a prince. Forgive me.

The Swords are...Uh...Utena. UTENA! oh..oh shit.

Wakaba. Hero.

Shadow Girls gonna be an actress. 10 year reunion.

Who was Utena again...? uh.. Utena Hopitalized? Uh...Hey wait a second.

Everyone seems to be..going on.

They're all forgetting she ever existed.

He really doesn't realize what happened.

She vanished from your world. Huh.

Oh hey she's in utena's colors. Well maybe her colors.

I SWEAR I'LL FIND YOU. HEY WAIT.

Hey Final frame Utena and Anthy. ALRIGHT.

MAY THIS ROSE REACH YOU.

NOW THE MOVIE

Revolutionary Girl Utena The Adolescence of Utena

Ok, so this isn't the movie proper, just the dvd thing, but Man Anthy looks super. She looks actually kinda confident and active and alive I guess?

Anyway, I'm going into this assuming it's some kind of sequel. I'm looking for that anyway. Whether it's true uh..We'll see.

HERE WE GO

Anthy and Akio on the tower? And now Just Anthy. At the toppest point where things were controlled right?

….what the fuck is this geometry.

Music still slaps.

I'm sure those pictures were supposed to mean something but fuck if I know what.

...What the hell.

Utena!? SHORT HAIR SHARP DRESSED!

Wakaba! Utena being the charmingest though.

On Air? Shadow Girl Radio! Listen Carefully!

This academy is castelvania.

Shadow girls: Dumped again? Rain on her parade? Huh.

Utena's Pavlor Instincts: PRINCE?! PRINCE WHERE!?

Budget yo. Miki and Juri though man. Juri's not a bad choice for prince.

Juri has like 8 times as much hair. Like Damn. Your Rival

Hey it's Touga! Utena is SHOOK

...The Rose Thing is BUSTED.  Just straight wrecked. The Garden. That's the word.

Hey touga what's with the spooky ghost bullshit.

HOW MANY YEARS HAS IT BEEN SINCE WE LAST MET.

I didn't come here looking for you. Surprised you're here.

I'll live with high goals.

More of a pink rose really. Unfurls to reveal...the ring? Huh. Rose Rain now.

Oh...That's DEFFINITELY the highest place in the academy. Structurally uh...uh.......

The Rose Gate looks fucked up. Oh that's a lot of roses. Didn't anthy say something about tending roses...?

Are you not afraid? Anthy looks...really happy. Her hair is down.

I'm the only one captive to the roses. Why'd you come here?

Why'd you come to this academy? And Anthy stopped when she saw the ring. And kinda freaked out.

How do you know about that. Heyyyyyyyyyyy. Saionji.

Rose brides symbol. She's holding that pink/white flower pretty tight though.

Anthy just...kinda went back into robo mode there. And she's not...precisely feeling the ring thing.

Meanwhile, that gate effect.

Do you have a sword? (you know nothing. Last chance to take it off please.)

Utena. A broom ain't a sword, but yeah fuck him up. Ain't worse than what you.

Anthy slap count. But she's active here. She's being a person here unlike before which is.

Anthy is covering her ears.

You're the one who doesn't understand. Is there any girl who's happy to be treated like a possession.

I NEVER SAID THAT I WAS A BOY. FUCK OFF.

Anthy looking hopeful there. DIVE. YOU're NOT ALLOWED TO DUEL WITHOUT A SWORD.

And...Is this song from the original but better but....

Anthy and utena got back into the swing asap. Long Hair Utena returns. Prince Utena rather I guess.

GG Saionji.

PINK MOSTLY! ITS PINK MOSTLY! NOT RED. A LITTLE RED! OH MY GOD THIS MIGHT BE A LEGIT SEQUEL!? Kinda sorta. I'll have to explain myself later.

Touga and Utena are cute as kids. Look at em.

Anthy just...asserted herself.

I don't usually invite people to my room. And then you pull her onto your bed.

Mark of the rose, you know it don't you?

Uh...uh damn Anthy. She's just....straight up feeling up Utena. Looked shocked then certain.

Dreaming of the castle with the prince.

Kozue what are ...what's up with this room. Her prince drowned huh?

Probably the closest we'll get to duelist wakaba here.

Also trying to win her. Well I guess you could say he's here for the dueling.

Hey, Touga don't kiss and tell.

These two are...oddly friendly.

Touga, don't talk to Akio. It's never good.

Calling her a witch.

Prince was a lord of the flies. The witch turned them into a prince.

Wait, not Kozue, that was shiori.

KOZUE, just put a knife to her brothers throat. OK.

Uh...Sold to your father...? Where's nanami though. Calling him a customer makes this uh...infinitely skeeziesr.

Wow Shiori seems a bit uh...

Oh yeah, that's no good. Goddamn poor touga.

Touga: I will win. But I can't be cruel to Juri. High goals man.

This darkness leads to the end of the world....And Dios being a goddamn Cryptid.

The Revolution will begin soon.

Miki: My wish is to obtain more power.

Juri: I want power to be free. To be unconstrained.

Touchy Juri is cool. Big Big Sister Energy there.

Shiori being MAD damicky right now. Trifling. Just absorb Nanami or something?

Miki: Free from Constraints. I get it. Yeeeeeee.

Anthy Please step away from the edge. And you just flash stepped to the center. ok.

Utena is WAY more expressive here too.

“There is no prince” That's...pretty chilling coming from utena actually. And Anthy is so damn touchy feely.

Uh. Uhhhhhhh. ok. Axe antics.

But not in utena which is a step up.

Ooh the ground is mad pretty.

And the starrrs. YoooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Anthy! Looking mad gentle and sweet here. Duelist Utena! And Rose Bride Anthy!

Oh shit. This dance scene is...And it's their reflections .

NO MATTER HOW MUCH TIME PASSES DON'T FORGET THTA PROMISE. IVE COME ALL THIS WAY AT LAST!

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE LIGHT IS ALWAYS SHINING!

THEIR EXPRESSIOSN AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

Oh it's the oninon boy.

Draw Each Other huh! eyebrow waggle

Anthy where the hell are you going.What the. And it's the tower huh.

It's just an obvservation room now though huh. Or in this version.

Anthy, smiles when she takes off the ring. SEQUEL VIBE INCREASES.

Anthy, is unquestionably the one in charge this movie. Compared to before. She's way more impish.

Like...How the hell did you talk her into posing nude exactly?

Utena. Utena are you asking her to strip- ANTHY!

Uh what's that sound. WHAT ARE THESE PICTURES? Uh...Uh...wait what's up with the anthy here.

Ok, so Akio/dios being a weirdo again....and there is a fucking hole in her chest. A big honking hole.

SHADOW TIMES:...

Is...Is that nanmi. There's Chuchu and nanami yep, ok. OK. Oh it's the three dudes too.

You had limitless budget and you put this shit in.

...What the fuck was that though. Crocodile kun.

Hey Akio looking...Cool as usual. But is he still awful?

Record skips. Great.

Did he roofie his sister.

Hey fuck that noise WE DUEL NOW

VS JURI

...People can SEE them dueling?

What's with Shiori though.

Juri once again, being a boss. Also, I just noticed that all of their outfits have gotten an upgrade.

...Miki what do you mean who is Touga.

Juri is...WAY madder about her pretending to princedom than before.

Dios Overlay. And Anthy seemed shocked.

…....A Dead Akio. And he was buried under the ground. And Anthy looked...kinda...pissed.

Anthy killed Akio. And Shiori? Out here pulling shit?

...Oh Akio thought she was asleep when he pulled his shit. Hoooooboy.

Oh the interview room. Shadow room?

Akio freaking the fuck out and he killed her.

And he's dead. Pretty pathetically actually.

Deffo the shadow seminar. Hellavator!

...Touga?

So castle showed up when she killed her brother.

Is...Touga dead.

They keep going back to this drowning kid.

Hero Touga. The Touga we deserve.

Well he died in water and not fire, so...Go him. Seemed pretty chill about it.

I finally found you utena. Power of miracles as long as you stay here.

Pull the sword out and just put that shit back in.

Let's get the fuck out of here-CARRED

TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD

Best version of the Apocalypse song, but why a fucking carwwash. Who thought this made sense. It's DOPE to look at but like damn man.

Utena makes a DOPE car though. Like that shit looks awesome. SHES RUSTING  ANTHY. PUT THE KEY IN HER.

Shadow Radio! Hot Damn, Kage OS looks DOPE.

They're all pink haired shadow gals. Which is neat.

Wacky Races Yo.

BIG MISTAKE THINKING YOURE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN TURN INTO A CAR.

Only one who escapes this world. The only one who deserves it is beautiful me. Well...Rip Shiori.

OH ITS THE SWORDS. THEY'RE THE SWORDS.

Ok, this makes CONSIDERABLY more sense if you think of it as a sequel I think.

Needs help? Stuco Squad is there for youuuuuuuuu.

Or at least those who remain.

….WAKABA IS THE JEEP!?

Saionji: I have your back. And when we get to the outside world, I will be there to seduce. The fucking dork.

Oh hey it's the castle making what I must assume is it's last appearance....Oh that's ominous. Das big.

THAT OPENING THEME YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Still freaking weird, but Shadow Girls got your back..

HYE THATS CHEATING!

Oh hey, it's everyone's favorite dickhead.

Where you can be a living corpse.

You can only be a prince in that world.

Goodbye brother, you are no longer my prince.

Hey Akio, how is it you're still the worst.

The balancing act there is crazy like damn you two.

Shadow Girls no more! But we'll miss you.

Anthy Himemiya and Utena Tenjou as the Shadow Girls huh.

Man, the real world looks like shit. (?real World?)

The logistics of it aside, that's a hell of a cool shot.

Return to the outside world we're from. Explore and make the world bigger. Ok. Ok. I get you.

Also. That made LESS sense with context.

[survivormetaverse]

Finale - "I. Love. Power." ~Jodi

I'm having a very emotional moment right now, let me just write about my feelings. I spent this entire game countering advantages. Because I wanted to put this game in my own hands. If I had not gotten rid of Dennis in that twist with no advantages, Dennis would've cruised through and when time came, decided to target me when he wanted to and he would have protection. Same with Colin for example, sure, maybe he wouldn't gun for me but he also could've just cruised from Final 7 to Final 4 with his 3 advantages and my fate in this game would've been in HIS hands. If he wanted to keep me he'd do it and if not then he wouldn't. I wanted my game in my own hands, and that's what I did. People kept thinking I was playing a backstabbing game for no reason, but in reality, I just wanted a fair shot at this game and creating my own fate. I don't think that's unfair. Having 9 advantages in the merge as somebody with nothing terrified me, as I suspected they'd all be concentrated in one place. I was not wrong. I rightfully targeted Dennis for having 2 huge advantages, then rightfully targeted Colin for receiving all of Dennis' stuff, then Elle for literally sitting on 2 (suspected) idols and a steal-a-vote. I do not know why I am being crucified for just wanting to have a fair playing field. Even sitting here at final 5, we still have one final idol to counter. When Josh approached me to flip on Colin, Elle, and Amy, I found a light in this game again. Somebody who had the same objectives as I did wanted to play this game with me. He didn't see me as a threat to win, which meant he would've taken me to the end. So many unlucky things happened to me in this game and I just know that people want me out of this game so bad but I just wanted to survive and have a real shot at this. That's all it really was. 

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I think this is the biggest immunity I need to win. Because if I'm in F4, I think I can at least force fire making. But here today, I believe I need to win it not just to take immunity away from Amy or Elle, but that I think if Jared wins it, my game is literally dependent on a literal 50/50 guess of who the idol is going to be played on. Elle made it obvious that they want to target Jared from last night, so if Anastasia wins it, I might still be ok. I don't want Jared to win this. Straight up. He said he'll cut me at 4 anyways so I'm not going to play with my heart this round. I seriously want this immunity win so bad. You know, I'm sure the jury disagrees and despises me, but I truly think I played one of the most brilliant strategic games, at least for a newbie. I battled 9 advantages with NOTHING in my pocket since merge, with nothing but a social and strategic knack and love for the game of Survivor. At the merge, I got included into a 6-person majority alliance and a 3-person ride or die alliance. I knocked out a guy with 2 huge advantages at F11. I had control over every single pair at F10. I got knocked out at F9 with a CHAOS idol, despite the premise of Survivor being to NOT get votes. I fought back in at F8 as somebody who is incredibly bad at comps. I then voted out one of my #1 allies, the one that would NEVER cut me, even at 4, to create trust and move me further into the game. I created immunity for 3 people at F7 to keep my only 2 close allies left safe, by far my game winning move. I did this and knocked out my biggest competitor without having to write his name down, and with an idol in his pocket. At F6, I had a strong enough alliance to split votes. Unfortunately lost Josh to rocks, but I'm still here. My job at F5 is to either guess correctly to place votes on Amy or Elle or to win immunity. Because at F4, I could at least get Anastasia or Jared to force fire for me. I am so close. So close. 

Ahahahahaha well I have regrets about giving the steal to Elle. One - I forgot to tell them it was good until 5 so elle played it to remove anastasia? (Idk if I've already written about this but oh well) from the possibility of rocks. During the discussion once Josh said that he would vote elle I knew I was going to rocks one because it was fun and spicy and two because they were all set on elle and it seemed josh wasn't really going to vote with us so like it would have been rocks anyway. If I had known the round would be like that I would have held it myself and if I was rocked out lol but if I had it I wouldn't have played it and then elle and myself would be in as much control as is possible at 5. I mean I have the merge idol still plus having 3 of 5 votes please ugh the dream but OH WELL. I cannot wait to just list all my mistakes in this game 🤣🤣🤣 whoopsies. Anyway I'm excited to be immune I'm just worried that the others will just vote out elle because it's easy and / or they will just say to. I have my money on jodi to win this unfortunately because she is so social and would know the most about everyone. And I know nothing about these children bc I was on vacay the whole time. However I also think Jared still has his necklace. I would prefer f3 not have any of the j names lol. However we will see how it goes. I need to get there first and f4 is going to be tough. That's why I want elle still here so we can force fire for more spice. This is such a fun game which consists mostly of me saying whoopsies. Anyway that's all I got bc I am in a travel nightmare weeeeee.

I CANNOT BELIEVE I JUST PULLED OUT INDIVIDUAL IMMUNITY AT FINAL 5 I am an anti comp beast but I win when I need it 😭😭

Sigh... At this point it's like, might as well fight to the end, right?? Might as well fight like hell and make it to FTC. Jodi's almost a sure fire, and part of me is like, "let's see what'll happen when there are 3 hella strong players at FTC". Not a single goat present. I think I want Jared and Anastasia gone for that to be a reality. Granted, I'm not sure I'd win, but also wouldn't it be spicy to find out??? Anyways, I wouldn't be surprised if I go this round.

Nobody is talking to me, does everybody have idols??? I must be the loneliest F5 immunity winner ever

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I. Love. Power. That’s it that’s the confessional 

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https://youtu.be/Yt5OI_LfEiQ

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Roses are red, I'm good under pressure, Who will sit next to me at the end of this adventure?

https://youtu.be/yB5WoxgC-FA

I think I am toast at f4. It sounds like either everyone wants to take anastasia or vote her out but I'm about to play the idol and then I just told anastasia I'd go to rocks for her bc people are between wanting to take her or take her out at 4. I can't believe it sounds like elle wants to take jodi to f3 to be spicy like Jodi will win hahahahaha I have been trying to vote her out since the chaos idol but she had such a hold on people you know what congrats to her 🤣 I can't believe she's even still here rn. Maybe I should have tried to flip it onto jodi rather than go to rocks at 6. Apparently both anastasia and jodi are saying brayden doesn't like them in the game but that literally makes no sense 1 bc brayden is anastasia's bestie irl and 2 bc brayden literally wished good luck for jodi to win before he was gone. I hope they put the votes on me here so I can idol someone out and not just to be safe lol. I kind of hope jared also idols but in that case I'm definitely toast at f4 lol bc idk why they all want to sit by jodi she has convinced them the jury hates her but we literally all said if she makes it to the end she wins ☠️ and tbh I cant say it in the game or they will definitely vote me out but I will vote jodi to win if I'm in the jury and she's f3. If it's anastasia elle and jared I probably vote elle tbh but that one I'll have to hear cases more. It's a fun one for sure! But like the fact that I literally flipped on everyone and had a hand in everyone sitting on the jury.... And I still haven't received any votes is wild. And people just handed me immunity twice. Hahahaha I really think f4 is my end unless I can force fire between anastasia and jodi like why is that even an option. I guess it's not currently on me? But wtf is this I just can't see wanting to take jodi 🤣 everyone loves her despite what she is claiming lol. But I really think everyone in f5 has a solid case. Anastasia never needed immunity or advantages. Jared was last of the fools by merge and made it here and had an idol. Elle had me hand them an advantage lol was able to force rocks to avoid being out and had an idol. Jodi made it this far after having been chaos idoled out then won her way back and still was the biggest threat yet everyone wanted to keep her. Then there's me who no one knows I was the cause of the fake idol, the steal a vote (though played WEIRD), the merge idol yet (though they suspect), the mistake of fucking up the colin vote, the mistake of the 150 buy am advantage thing, the mistake of handing away my advantage, the mistake of not just trying to switch it to get jodi out instead of rocks, but yet here I am lol. It would be a fun one to win that's for sure because it's a hilarious story that I legit wasn't going to play at all. Maybe had I not been drinking so much on vacay and prevacay I would have made sounder decisions but sometimes it pays off to not seem as calculating and just blend in. Here's hoping 1) my merge idol is real (that would be evil if not) and 2) final immunity is something I can win. That's all I got I've been on planes for 12 days it feels like. Love to everyone hosting, in the game, and in the VL.

https://youtu.be/BqX6sSSPOqc

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Power Ranking Update:

Jodi: Immunity has given her the ability to dictate who goes home. She is in the middle of two sides right now: Elle & Amy vs. Anastasia & Jared. She’s giving more consideration to Elle & Amy since Jared, apparently, has explicitly told her that he would cut her at Final 4. This has given their relationship a lot of tension. Thus, it seems that Jodi is making the move first before he can make the move against her.

Elle: Doing everything they can to save their own ass. Has decided to make a deal with Jodi that seems to be very tempting and good if they want to make it to the end. Has the most power because they are on the bottom giving them the biggest credibility. This late game allyship will prove very beneficial.

Amy: Is going to idol. Is safe. Not doing much. Just vibing.

Anastasia: She has not done much in terms of planning this round. However, she has correctly deduced that Amy has the idol. Despite that, she is going to be left out of this plan if it comes to it which may put her in a very precarious spot at Final 4.

Jared: Explicitly telling Jodi that he was going to target her at Final 4 was the Wrong (Capital W) move. Now, he is mega on Jodi’s radar and has since been on Elle’s and Amy’s radar. His under the radar game is being exposed by a poor choice of honesty so close to the end.

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This is my time to shine. I've studied the game since preparing for my buyback. I have a notebook from June 8 that says all the past vote outs, rounds, challenges, etc. I will stay up all night to know this game front and back. This win is mine. 

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11:06pm PST check in: So far, I've memorized all challenge scores and times (honestly some of these times were really easy, like 57:50.17 or 1:02:26.69) and I'm working on votes against next, then twists. Doing well so far!

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12:05AM PST Check in: I have now completed the placings, votes against and order of vote out. I am 99% I'm the only one here who knows the actual breakdown of the invisible round votes, so I hope that makes s difference for me. I mainly did this because I don't know how Raffy wants to call us. For example, Dennis was the 8th person voted out, in 11th place, with 10 votes against, and the 1st member of the jury. That's a lot of titles! My next hour is going to be dedicated to learning the names of the twists. These are hard terms that I might not necessarily remember. I don't even remember the buy back one, it's like Samaraasdfa;s something I'll figure it out lol

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1:04am PST check in: Studying the hunts and twists of the season! Hunts: Chidori yoshino Futuba sakura Shadow Yu Nyx Shadow Teddie Nyarlathotep Twists: Patience Decisions, Decisions (Fortify spirit, debilitate, transparency) Fusion First and Last Samarecarm Survivor Market Invisible Round All or Nothing Jared goes home 🥺💔

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should I give up immunity and take Amy out in fire? 

The second I saw what the challenge was, I knew it was Jodi’s to win. The first thing she said to me was “I studied your game” and then she studied for the buyback, she’s been studying this whole time. Sorry I’ve been drinking at Disney then had 1 hour after work to study and all that helped with was the names one lol. I kept track of the ones that I mathed wrong or knew but the time countdown was too stressful to think and it was 4 meaning we would have tied LOL oh well.I just hope elle doesn’t turn on me and I can at least go to fire. I told anastasia before that I would force fire for her is the others want her gone but if it’s me or her sorry girl.The difficult part is IF I make it out of this tribal, I still truly believe it’s Jodi’s game to win. If I’m in the jury I’m probably voting Jodi but maybe Elle. I have a lot to convince the jury of because I was so behind the scenes. I think I have Dennis and Colin for sure for votes, Babs is a mystery. I think Josh hates us all but I’m the direct reason he was rocked out. Jodi has Brayden and Jared and probably Jay I think. So it would be really tough to beat Jodi. I will have to use the exact arguments that I don’t actually agree with that were used against me in subrosa (though there I wasn’t voted at 9, it was like 24 lol) saying I was at least never voted out and you shouldn’t need to win challenges to keep yourself alive. I will have to use her own words and say it can be seen as being a coward to not commit to a vote and instead try to keep your hands clean (the Jared vote) so whoever survived she could be good with but also good with the jury members even though he straight up said he made Jared play his idol on her to be able to vote him out soon after lol. Idk I’m thinking ahead of myself bc honestly if I were them I’d vote me out right here. I do want to reiterate that I think Jodi is amazing and we play pretty similar game styles overall. I just made messy moves all game channeling my inner Raffy. I wish this challenge would have been the chop style bc I think jodi loses and Elle wins. Oh well. I’m sunburnt and dehydrated and exhausted bye! Hope I make FTC but we will see lol

So idr what i said last. Ana's gonna have to go. I'm gonna tell her tomorrow morning. I feel bad bc I did mean it at the time when I asked if she wanted to go to fTC with me like 2 rounds ago but then I kept thinking about a spicy FTC and then Jodi reached out and :/// i feel bad but at least i'll tell her. But yeah! Looks like we're going to FTC, guys :) watch me get voted out tomorrow for getting cocky 😂 you truly are never safe in this game

I have decided what I'm going to do tonight.... Who ever thought I'd get here? I guess my studying paid off. Tonight is a big tribal council, because it's more nuanced than just sending 2 people to fire or voting somebody out. Whoever wins fire also has a "cherry on top" in terms of a final comp win to earn their spot into FTC, so as a Final Immunity winner, this becomes a dilemma of do I try to take out my biggest threat to win, at the risk of giving them a possible final flashy move? Essentially, the obvious situation is whether or not I send Amy and Anastasia to fire tonight. I owe my life in this game to Anastasia, who was my most loyal ally since I came back into the game. Amy flipped and played Colin's game and is the representative of that "side"'s game. She is definitely my biggest threat for votes. If she goes, she has to go, she can't win fire. Elle won't flip on Amy, Anastasia's not confident, so what do I do? 1) Vote out Anastasia 3-1, fight with Elle and Amy in the end. This option means there's no fire for either Amy or Anastasia to have on their resumes. This option means I must get 5 votes, as Anastasia sitting beside me meant she would've given me the final tiebreaker vote. Elle and Amy vote for each other, so I have to win straight out here. 2) Convince Amy to vote Elle and then me and Anastasia vote Amy in a 2-1-1. Same reason as Elle, Amy won't vote Elle out. She went to rocks for them even while holding an idol! 3) Give my immunity necklace to Anastasia, and ask her to send me to fire with Amy, and I take out Amy myself. This not only robs Amy of the final flashy move (if I win), but I would directly take control of who I want in the final 3. Pulling an Underwood is obviously risky, but for the Amy stans on the Jury, they literally cannot be upset at me if I take her out like this. I've flirted with this idea ever since making Final 4, but of course, there's a really small (but still existing) chance of me getting Erik Reichenbach'd here. I had to gauge how my chances are at the moment and how much they'd change with a successful fire challenge, but alas, in the words of Jay Bee themself, this would be "the most Jodi move" to cap off my game. I won't reveal what I'm doing tonight here, but I promise it's what's going to win me the game. Tune in to tribal council tonight to find out 😈

Im about to be voted off of this game. I did have the choice to go to rocks because Jodi said she would but I really am fine with getting 4th. Also I want to ask the ftc questions because I had no hope of winning over them. It's sad but true. I'm looking foward to talking to Colin and Jay and Jared!!

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Power Rankings Update:

Jodi: Her winning immunity was crucial for her winning the entire game. She definitely played the Messiest game out of everyone on this cast, but that has more than earned her a spot at FTC. She is most likely to win out of this Final 4, and her vote will be the most crucial for tonight to determine if this will be fire or Anastasia’s vote-out.

Elle: She is the safest person without immunity tonight. From being targeted at 6 and 7 for having an idol they did not have to being assured FTC, Elle has had a journey from under the radar. They are not at threat of being eliminated from this game with whatever Jodi decides to do.

Amy: She is in a very precarious position now. While Elle will vote Anastasia, Jodi might not. This means that Amy might have to go to fire, but I think she got in good enough with Jodi at this point to be higher than Anastasia.

Anastasia: Most definitely receiving votes.

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Wow hahahahahahahaha what a journey this has been. From saying I won’t be playing the game, to saying a have to hard quit by May 28, to winning 3 hunts and knowing where every advantage was, to playing while on vacation literally in Disney World for a week, to avoiding any sort of target from either side somehow, to being here in FTC. Is this how I imagined FTC to be comprised? NO hahaha I still think Jodi is going to run away with it and I have a lot of convincing to do in my speech to try to win over the jury. I had a moment that I was going to have to do fire in my car at f4 haha but I offered Anastasia fire and she didn’t want to do it. Also my original plan to force fire was to try to get Jodi out haha but that girl earned her spot in FTC. I just want to say it’s been an incredibly fun game to play and I’ve enjoyed playing this game with everyone and I hope that I can get to know everyone better when I’m not doing a million other things too. I think my goal in FTC (depending on time limits, Raffy please give me 10 minutes for a speech haha) is to reveal my hunt wins, strategy to keep targets elsewhere, the flip and undercover agent for 3 rounds, being gifted immunity twice, risking my entire game for my allies, not asking anyone to play advantages on me (actually the opposite- please DO NOT play them on me), not needing to win immunities to make it to the end, being in a position to be ale to give away advantages (which benefitted me by making the rest believe Elle somehow had the other idol to ensure the votes were on me instead thus assuring we both made f4 with my idol play), and never being voted out of the game. I want to show thatI played a messy game actually trying to be voted out early with the two alliances set up following my plan of having Dennis and brayden believe I was their ideas all while becoming closer with jodi so she wouldn’t ever go against me. I played deliberately making moves and owning vote outs, never playing only to keep my hands clean. I was on the right side of EVERY vote except Colin - my biggest mistake of the game since had he played his idol there chances are he’d be sitting here too. I want to thank Dennis and the survivor gods for bringing Colin and I together at the perfect time to flip the game completely. I want to show my game was imperfect and I never tried to control people’s every move. I was flexible and worked collectively even going against my trust issues. I put my life in others’ hands and at any point people could have easily turned against me. Frankly I’m not sure why they didn’t. I want to show that I respected everyone and was able to make all the moves I did while being in constant transit or being Epcot drunk. I want to explain that a messy and imperfect game with big moves, never being voted out, many mistakes, hunt wins, a lot of information flowing to me, and a lot of fun in possible and deserving of the title of sole survivor. I kept my cards close as I usually do in games, but I played more risky than ever. Even being in a minority alliance I was never receiving votes nor was my name even being mentioned until it was too late. I’m really proud of the game I played, but I recognize much of the jury might be really bitter toward me and view Elle’s underdog story or Jodi’s power and comeback as more deserving. Either way I think it’s a great F3 and I look forward to a fun FTC. I won’t be stressing as much (hopefully) as my previous FTC. Thank you to everyone who made this game what it was. It might be my favorite game I’ve played even though I still refuse to learn anything about Persona. I look forward to many game nights (if I don’t hard quit skype again lol).

(Imagine "My Way" by Frank Sinatra (or even play it 👀) while you read this ty I'm creating an audio visual experiential mindscape, now imagine that I'm sitting at the edge of a stage clearly after a show but all the patrons are gone, one knee is up and I'm leaning on it casually while looking around at the auditorium, my eyes pausing and flashing with emotions as I pause at the seats where old friends or family may have been sitting.) Well, we made it 🙂 Typical that the game I put the relative least amount of effort into is the one I go to FTC, but that tracks, I suppose. I honestly don't know if I'll win. But I kind of like that, you know? ^_^ I love the mysteryyyyy✨. I hope no one's mad at me at FTC, either for just being there or something I did :/ I mean it's bound to happen but I hate both just people suffering in my vicinity and confrontation. Plus, idk how I'll take it 😂 not like, crying or anything I don't cry in front of people EVER like I'd have to be... idk literally stabbed or something, I'm more worried I won't be able to respond in the "survivor"-y way, and instead I'll go into comfort/validation mode and solutions based conflict management 😅😅. I hope people like my Rites of Passage jokes, I tried to tailor them to every person at least a little. I also people like Ingary, which I'll have 5 dedicated days to plan and prep the rest of it with Dylan 😂 jeez. Me making FTC in the game I thought I'd last like, pre-merge is So Typicallll 🤣 Stay breezy and easy cheesy, Elle ^_^ 💖

https://youtu.be/Dy4zhccMhRw

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FTC Power Ranking:

Amy: Amy had the strongest Final Tribal Council out of the three. She exposed a lot of her game to people turning Amy supporters to Amy simps and people who were on the fence about her into people who recognize how well she played. The secrets she kept were very important to reveal as it changed how the game was viewed. She did an excellent job at unveiling all of the shadows in this game, and I think she impressed the jury the most.

Jodi: Jodi did not have a lot to reveal like Amy. Most of Jodi’s game has already been talked about and/or known about as she played very openly and vocally. This made her Final Tribal Council turn into defending her own play style for most of the time she was given. She certainly did demonstrate a lot of passion which is good to sway some people off of Amy with an emotional plea. I think her biggest issue was that she did not adequately acknowledge the flaws in her game that people had and refute those flaws.

Elle: Elle had a very chill vibe at Final Tribal Council. They mostly answered all of the questions in the same way with the same answers. This definitely hurt them as it felt like Elle didn’t explain how they got to the end of their own merit. Instead, they made it seem like her allies carried her to the end rather than anything they did explicitly. They were a Hero to the very end by simply being themselves and hoping that it would net them votes. However, they were definitely the weakest at Final Tribal Council out of the three present.

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[moomoof]

Laci Green dancing here and there everywhere

Well, here’s take four on writing this shit fuck! This slow ass tumblr

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Laci Green I didn’t know why ppl on the left ostracized her for dating Chris Ray Gun , the only exposure I had to him was Hugo and Jake formerly known as the bible reloaded for atheists they are tame and not toxic like most on YouTube they just say they don’t believe in god and don’t hate women.  ß- Yes I know tangent.

So I didn’t get it why was the left so up in arms against her? I wasn’t getting good answers when I asked just biased opinions.

Now lets me say this I don’t care if you date whoever this isn’t what this is about at all. She could date whoever. But also the whole situation was painted as the left has lost its mind and the right wing was in the right here….not quite hold it hoooold it!

She isn’t just dating any guy she is dating a guy that lead a campaign to hurt a woman for having opinions on video games ….oh no. He even said death threats are not bad cause everyone gets them after that he covered his ass and said he doesn’t think death threats are good.

How annoying really I believed the narrative cause I didn’t do research cause it’s hard to do so on these subjects cause there aren’t credible sources like a real news org to sort this shit out just shitlords and yes someone ppl on the left that have an agenda or are hurt and go too far.

Well yes, Chris does this shit of misinforming then either saying I don’t know I’m sorry but his fans don’t care or are too young or don’t know how to find this info on their own and believe him on the first time and ignore his correction the damage is done. He flirts with very right wing shit. But many ppl on the left, give him the benefit of the doubt… I don’t know why it’s very obvious what he is to me he is right wing for pay or he is but doesn’t want to take responsibilities for his beliefs or hell maybe he is that misinformed but he doesn’t do jack shit to fix it. He keeps repeating very racist or ignorant dumb shit.

Laci Green remember this was supposed to be about her? Yea why did discuss her boyfriend?

He was against her in the past …and  well some ppl think this is awful some ppl think this means that the two different sides can get along and I think this is all bullshit.

He is an anti-feminist and he says the same ignorant anti-feminist shit and she’s supposed to be feminist. An odd couple I know! Was this the reason why ppl got mad at her? Probably but hey when she started dating him, he did a disgusting thing that he seems to do which is quote mine ppl on the left to make them look stupid or evil. Kat Blaque was a target of his and she was Laci’s friend

Kat was defending herself or trolling bigoted idiots on twitter, he took one of her responses to this man or person and then made her look like a racist or black supremacist and then Laci I believe called her a crazy person after kat asked her to correct her boyfriend or to defend her. 

Which is outright fucked that Laci did that, of course, I could be getting these events wrong if so please correct me.

I think tho not even that is the reason why ppl are angry at laci to me it seems like she is flirting with the right wing. Or maybe it’s cause who she’s dating is causing ppl to think she is the same as him cause she’s dating a borderline (not really he’s full right wing imo but whatever) right wing

But then she says things that seems like she is going there like today she wrote that

“pretty bored with social justice advocates responding to any thoughtful pushback with "fuck you, you're white/male/straight/cis/etc". unless the topic is *about a lived experience*, dismissing people bc of their identity isn't a real response. it's identity politics and laziness.”

Now, this could be legit criticism on some part but I know it seems …a bit pandering to that side of thinking.

The jury isn’t out on her and I am not hating her

I just will not be burned again by lack of research on my part

She seems to flirt with this side of thinking but isn’t dumb like her boyfriend about it

So I can’t tell for sure

[survivor-tierradelfuego]

Ep. 11: “Do you all think I am just floating over here with no one?” - Aimee

Amy A

Ben ☹️. I didn’t play too well with him and it was such a good blindside I couldn’t resist. I wish him well and I just have a feeling I’m next to go 

Olivia A

Okay umm we got Ben out but it turns out Kalle gave me a real idol? So I feel weird. The reason we began suspecting her of lying was because Hanuha people knew about Maddison’s safety without power advantage and Kalle was literally the only person who could’ve told them. IDK!!

Aimee

I’m just so tired of crying! Sarah tried to video chat and I just couldn’t. No one knew I don’t think that Ben and I were so close. Gaaaaah I’m gonna miss him so much! He just helped me so much to stay sane in this game. The last thing I need is anyone seeing me as a big hot mess. I can’t catch a break. 

Sarah

From two nights ago.... https://youtu.be/uebz8rVKNbg https://youtu.be/xQyiuiGeEpo

Pedro A

when i actually thought i was at the bottom........THERES EVEN A LOWER BOTTOM...THAT IM IN RIGHT NOW......chille ben screwed us BIG TIME....we were in a great spot..i dont even know what to say at this point

Sarah

Wow. Okay. I didn’t want to be a villain but here we are. I will post a video confessional soon but for now, the plan to vote out Ben actually worked. I called Maddison last minute and explained that Ben and Kalle were tight and were all over the place, playing both sides. Maddison found out that Kalle was a rat and was not being completely truthful and we both agreed on voting Kalle or Ben. We agreed on Ben because we thought Kalle was going to play her idol on herself.... turns out Ben was telling the truth in voting out Kalle to old Hanuha and Kalle actually gave Olivia a real idol. More to come... but for now I feel like a villain ahhh. 

Kalle N.

Well I said that my only goal was to make jury and not go to the FTC so it looks like Ben really helped me achieve that. THAT FOOL REALLY FUCKED ME OVER ON HIS WAY OUT THE DOOR. This is fine. I will never let him forget that I've beaten him twice now and that's all that matters. Did not see this tribal coming at all. Can't wait to get voted out next

Najwah

If I learned anything today is that we tend to read in and over think and make up scenarios in our head. Ben was actually on our side all along? Who would have thought. All the bits and pieces he told us today just didn't add up and Cody said he was different and everyone was just quiet and Ben didn't talk in the group, he spoke to people individually. I don't really understand what just happened but we wasted so much energy speculating lmao. And now where the hell do we go from here? Cody has become so paranoid also. The minute Ben told him that those people will be writing his name he became soooo paranoid wtf. Then he WASTED an advantage and idol at tribal? Just bc he still didn't trust the plan. I'm starting to think that Cody just can't trust anyone or any process. I really think he needs to chill more. Be more low key. Just try to be calm. If you get voted out, it's not like you're going to die or something. It's just a game after all. 

Aimee

Apparently tribe was getting too suspicious of how Ben and Kalle were so close. I still don’t get why I had to be left out of the vote though? Why can’t I get the respect to be told what is happening before the vote, so I have time to process my emotions and have my stuff together a little. https://immunityilol.tumblr.com/post/617448854807298048 Instead I get nothing. I get a call from Sarah right after Ben is voted out. Obviously I can’t answer it because I’m crying and no one knew I was super close to Ben. I’m just so angry right now first Grae now Ben! IS MADDISON NEXT!? FUCK! Like Gah I’m afraid to get close to anyone. But I just love getting to know people. I finally got to video chat with Maddison. Fucking loved it! She is great to talk to and great to have on this crazy skype isolation island. I need some interaction and realness right now. Ok I’m totally drinking. It’s hard enough to process all this nonsense sober. We will see what the next day brings. 

Aimee

Sarah I really don’t want us to end up like this Casanova music video. 😢💔 I guess everyone wants to blindside Aimee as a treat. I hope people got their jollies out of it. 🌟 Allie X - Casanova feat VÉRITÉ https://youtu.be/YpVunjboAWg

Sarah

From last night.... https://youtu.be/EirlyVVXDKk

Sarah

Day 21 https://youtu.be/aYiGStuSKDA

Pedro A

Im afraid Kalle will throw me under the bus...just to stay this week cause shes on the bottom....and im also afraid that maddison and olivia will try to convince kalle to vote me out...instead ....since they are coming for me ...GOSHHH..i hate my life...i need immunity...CAN I LIKE HAVE IT?

Pedro A

okay so im excited to see everyone's answers to this challenge...THIS WILL BE INTERESTING...it will reveal a lot of people real thoughts ..IM READY FOR TEAAAA YALL

Najwah

I enjoyed my day today. I think it's the first time I was fully in the real world in 22 days. I'm playing a reckless game right now. There are so many layers in this game but after last night's tribal and learning that Ben was being legit, I just feel bad. I love Cody but he's definitely a loose cannon and can't play low key. Which is definitely bad for my game. He and Sarah are trying to push me into getting Amy on our side, but our relationship just isn't like that. I don't want to make her feel used. I like her. I really like her a lot. I like Sarah too. And Cody. I want to be friends with all these people IRL lol so I don't want to play against them or lie to them. This game just gets harder every time someone gets voted off tbh but I'm at the point where I feel like "if my plan works, then great", "if it doesn't, then whatever. I get to chill on panderosa and get to sleep more and actually spend time with my family and friends who I've been avoiding since this started lmao" Also, I'd be able to work again. I haven't got much work done urgh. I don't know whether my super idol is real. I'm curious to see what tonight's challenge will reveal. I am not going in with any syrategy

Cody wants to go for Kalle and Pedro coz they voted for him? I don't know, I think that's kinda silly and I'm not about revenge. You have to think rationally. And we have made a few irrational choices of late because people read into things. I still wish Ben hadn't told Cody that everyone was voting for him. That's how so much of yesterday's shit started. I have been so tired since yesterday. Tired of the scheming and overthinking and being paranoid over nothing urgh. Aimee also wants to call me after the challenge. I'm kinda scared tbh. I had a dream last night that Aimee killed me lmao this game is haunting me and giving me nightmares. Honestly, I'd be okay if anyone left wins this game. Okay except Kalle. She's the only one I've not interacted with and she just seems dodge idk. Maybe I'm still thinking about Zack's stupid analysis on people. Anyways. 

Najwah

I'm happy for Maddison tbh. She deserved that. I just want to scream about Cody though? Why did Cody chop Aimee? Wtf. And that made Aimee chop Sarah before she chopped Amy or Maddison. I'm so confused. Ugh. 

Maddison

Apparently I don’t know much about this tribe. Yeet!

Pedro A

Villan of the season?....im honored...but bitter jury?...i didnt like that one..lol

Aimee

I chopped Pedro for Grae. 

I chopped Olivia and haha sorry I got so nervous on here that I just chopped the final chop, even though that was savage as hell... I called her a goat and then chopped her right out of the game. Oops hahahahaha. When I watch this challenge back I look like the C word with a capital C.... And that word isn’t “cartwheel.” I chopped Sarah for the Ben blindside. I chopped Amy for my mental health. I can’t lose Maddison! I’m so sick of being tortured that I truly am running out of fucks tbh. Just chop anyone, whatever. Why do I care...

Aimee

Ohhhh Najwah!!!! Don’t worry about not telling me about the vote or accidentally calling me a goat because you didn’t know the meaning. I think I would make a cute goat. https://nunyabizni.tumblr.com/post/615593098008035328 Love that you think I’m actually “the Greatest of All Time.” I adore you and our friendship 💖❤️💞 luv you girl!!! I know you’re truly being genuine unlike others. I’m waiting for this game to tip in our favor so we can run with it. https://youtu.be/TGwZ7MNtBFU This MV is dedicated towards Najwah after Cody swooped in and stole my final 2 with her. No hard feelings; I have my own stuff to sort out after my man Ben was voted out. I’m pretty confident you have a final 2 with Cody and I love that for you. 🧡💛💚 I’m happy y’all got together and are strong with Sarah. But here I am. Do you all think I am just floating over here with no one? Just not playing the game and grazing my grass over here like a “goat?” They really don’t know how close I was with Ben and they got stupid lucky on that one. I’m not as clueless as you all think... it’s in your best interest to reconsider. Also let’s not skip over the fact that Sarah and I both didn’t get an answer on touchy subjects for “who do you trust the most.” Yeah don’t think I didn’t peep that. 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀 Sarah didn’t put me and I didn’t put her. I put Maddison. Cody had 2 votes. Najwah and Sarah put him. I’m not dense. I guess Sarah is cool with being that 3rd wheel. Loving the fact that apparently no one has been seeing me reaching across the aisle for damn DAYS trying to play with Maddison.... oh honey, oh girl...oh no no ... that was just Ben right? Yeah. My final 2 with Ben is gone so I’m rogue and hoping I can get Maddison as far as possible with me. Also! Just letting you all know I’m not a damn chump. It’s SO OBVIOUS that Cody Najwah and Sarah have a fucking secret chat that they’ve been in since the beginning of all time, which included Zack. You’ve heard it here first folks. Oh and I’ve known this for at least a week or two. The tells are so blatant, but catch me pretending to have no idea. I’m not the goat that you think I am, but I would LOVE you to continue to think of me of a goat and forgettable. If you knew what I was doing I wouldn’t be allowed to get to the end. If I’m on any players radars then that means I am doing a bad job. So, I absolutely loved what this challenge revealed. I know way more than people think I know, but I am playing up the ditzy card hardcore. I would much rather prefer to be a stealthy sniper that people think is not playing. Give me a chance to explain my game in the final tribal and you might regret that. I have been doing all the same moves as Ben and same exact strategy.... he gets called a big threat and blindsided and yet here I am with identical strategy and totally left alone and tbh a little disrespected but that works to my advantage. Perception is not reality! This could be everyone’s biggest mistake and I honestly love it. I just want Kalle and Pedro out tbh. I got my big boobs and my positivity. I’m mind strong and I’m ready to get this. Your lady is never giving up. If you blindside me again it better be me that gets voted out. Otherwise you’re all in a world of fucking trouble... https://64.media.tumblr.com/0389c791f095d54973543b32d4414577/984582d2a107588c-89/s540x810/c10ec7b961de2fd3b693a886ea7385b04ed3d653.gifv

Najwah

I am still tired. LOL. Amy L still hasn't replied to me. I think she hates me right now and I burned the bridge with her, which I'm obviously sad about because it's the only bridge I really cared about? Like she's the only person who I was 100% sure about and we've always respected each others allegiance to their alliances. Anyway. What does it matter now? I'm going to let Cody and Sarah make a plan with this tribal scrambling. Oh Cody said the reason he chopped Aimees rope is because he didn't want her to win immunity again lmao so he rather chops someone in his own alliance wtf I can't get over that fatal mistake. That and playing the extra vote and idol😭😭 ugh and I think people assume I am his goat or something lmaooooo I absolutely adore Cody but I really hope he doesn't mess things up for himself. Sarah wants me to get coins for them to buy an immunity idol. Do I really want to waste 5 coins again on someone whose just going to get paranoid and play it? I don't know. I need to think on it. 

Aimee

Welp I finally told my first lie in this game and hopefully it’s not my demise. I guess it’s my turn to be messy. I’m still coping with Ben being gone. 💔😢😫 Why the nut, did I tell Pedro I want him here. It was definitely too much alcohol and worried if he had another idol I would be the throw vote. Welp we will see if he throws that info all over the island. https://64.media.tumblr.com/d9f98e355c7e9229777fa982551cfd7e/tumblr_nr72mkoPHr1rs8h9do7_250.gifv https://64.media.tumblr.com/d37a2b6f76f83c1beaca2ca2bac6bb72/tumblr_nr72mkoPHr1rs8h9do3_250.gifv I’ve made peace with it though. This lady ain’t stopping, but if this puts me in jury. I’m honestly excited! I’ll finally get to talk to James, Grae and Ben again! And that makes my heart warm. ♥️ 

Pedro A

I'm probably going home tonight....kinda done with this.....I'm exhausted and emotionally drained from this experience.. I just wanna chill...at the end of the day its either me or kalle....so may the odds be in my favor!!

Najwah

I'm nervous about this vote. Apparently Maddison and co are willing to work with us to get Kalle out. I don't know how legit it is but I'm tired tonight and I just think I should do an early vote before people change their minds. 

Amy A.

So we had the game yesterday and there was a question about ‘closest Ally’ and no one chose me. I’m not really bothered about everyone else except NAJWAH. She didn’t choose me! I was the only one who chose her cos her name came just ONCE. Whoever she ended up choosing as her closest ally didn’t even choose her. It’s made me real life sad because I trusted her so much. Honestly, I didn’t even think twice about putting her name down for closest ally. I haven’t even spoken to anyone about tonight’s vote. Idk who I’m voting for but I know it’s not her cos I promised her that. That’s the only reason. Maybe I’m the one going home. I don’t know. 

Maddison

Let’s hope for a straightforward vote tonight with no unforeseen twists!

Aimee

https://youtu.be/m4Z0RN_KhK0 A flow mobz - thrill over fear (feat. luna blake) Omg I couldn’t sleep last night and I just woke up being bitchy about Pedro. I don’t think he actually has anyone besides maybe Kalle. My walls are up and I just want this vote to work in my favor and be Kalle. I hope there are no hard feelings after this game. I just want to get to know everyone during all this covid madness and have some fun. 🌈

[survivor-iceland]

Finale - “they all think they can beat me and I want them all to think that” - Joseph

Jack

So I played my idol on myself, canceled out 3 votes on me :) and Raffy got one on himself from Zoe in case they went for him. Now we have the legit majority and hopefully it'll be straight to final 3. I'm like semi confident that I could beat Zoe and Raffy? maybe? Idk depends on whether I can like do a good jury speech, which idk how to do aRgUmEnTs. There's the like potential of taking Joseph as a "Goat" but also that's not that much fun sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Raffy

Maynor is finally out of this game and I could not be happier. Our plan worked perfectly, and there are now no more idols left in this game. That means that, as long as I have the numbers which I think I do, I can take out whoever I please. It  has to be Jack and Timmy because they are the biggest threats to win. I have a feeling that I will need a strong case at jury to win, but I believe that I can make it. 

Timmy

I want to cry so bad. That’s why I had to turn my camera off because I love him and seeing him go was so sad to see him go. Like he is my person in and out of the game. And just thinking as well that it’s obvious I’ll be next, which is so dumb because I think raffy could win this. And I think he is a much bigger threat than me and if the f3 is Joseph, Jack, and Zoe I will die because what mess of an f3 that would be. It’s going to be a huge uphill battle and it’s so upsetting. I’m so sad and feel defeated, but there is no way in hell that I’m going to give up. 

Timmy

I hate that I’m not doing well in challenges. My thing is being good at challenges. There are games where I’m such a physical player and a threat because of that and I love being in that position because I’m weak beyond orgs so having that makes me happy. Here is not the case and I hate it. I think I’ve done well in this challenge but i wish I could have another live endurance challenge just to prove to myself I can last since I do alright in those. Not necessarily winning but at least second. I just want to win this game because i beat 6th which is difficult for me so I want to make it. It’s still only hours after tribal so I’m still emotional and want revenge because they took Maynor out and I hate them all for that. I would’ve rather risked myself for him to stay because he deserved it more. But I’m here so I have to fight hard and win. 

Raffy

Timmy and I were chatting last night, and he made some really great points on why Jack should go. I've always thought that he shouldn't make FTC, and, if he doesn't win immunity, it is likely that he will be the next juror. I am just scared that people will view this as Timmy's move rather than mine because they might see it as Timmy being manipulative. Both have great storylines, but it comes down to who I think I can beat in an immunity challenge. 

Zoe

I used my idol on Raffy last night at tribal after we finally voted out Maynor, who was becoming the challenge threat of the game. It ended up being a wasted idol play, but it ultimately protected my Raffy/Jack alliance until the final three, where I feel I can make a better case for myself than either of them. I did well in the challenge after I finally got it to work, and I hope it was enough to secure another two days for myself in... Iceland.

Timmy

Well I’m going. And these people are dumb for that. Raffy and Zoe are a big pair and Jack is gonna be an idiot and vote with them. But will I try to stay...well hell yea.

Raffy

I hate that I lost the immunity challenge because I am scared more than ever that I am getting the wool pulled over my eyes. Plus, I don't think anyone in my alliance has gotten the idol which means that Timmy or Joseph have it. I am scared for my game in this moment, but I hope that Timmy sees that Jack is a bigger threat than me in the long run. I just have to hope he's telling the truth, and that Jack is not betraying me. There are so many "what if..." factors in this tribal that I am starting to get freaked out. I think this is the moment where I either lose this game or win it. I have to decide now. 

Raffy

I made Timmy promise me that if he is pulling the wool over my eyes that he will lose my jury vote and I made the same promise to him. We got an unbreakable vow going on here. So, we shall see how this goes in the long run. 

Jack

I was dumb and didn't submit the other games i played of the challenge cause i thought it had to be just 5 so like WHOOPS IM DUMB. But luckily Zoe won and not like Timmy cause we're going for him tonight. Should be a simple vote unless hes got an idol but yeah. Also maybe were doing a live tribal and live votes like rn so WHOA. Also i finished an idol hunt path so dun dun dun maybe I WAS THE ONE THE FOUND THE IDOL. That would be coollllllllllllll 

Timmy

HOW TF DID IT WORK???? Like I’m in final 4!!! I love this so much!! 

Jack

WELL. So Raffy flipped and voted me but Joseph and Timmy went for Raffy so we had 2 votes Timmy, 2 votes Raffy, one vote me, and then a revote between Raffy and Timmy. We decided to go for Raffy because at the final 3 I think i could beat Timmy more than Raffy, plus for next vote we can get Joseph could be more easily be swayed to vote with us to get Timmy out if Timmy loses immunity. Me and Zoe are like accidentally like planning on taking Joseph to the end as a goat only cause original plan was with Raffy and not Timmy. I can see like 50/50 between me and Zoe winning, and honestly I'd rather do that and actually fight it out with our cases than like trying to do a flip on her or smthn. Maybe these are cursed words and that's exactly what she plans on doing to me, but hopefully it doesn't and ill get immunity on top of that too. 

Joseph Collins

Tis I, goat Joseph. Timmy wanted to vote jack out, but I put that thang down, flipped it and reversed it so raffys game could blow up in his face. This was MY plan, something I’ll get credit for. He voted for jack. The only vote for jack. And me and Tim Tim voted for raffy. And it doesn’t take much convincing to vote out somebody that voted for you. I’m feeling a small amount of regret. I think I could’ve beat raffy at the end tbh. Now I gotta keep my head low, get to FTC and see where the cards lie. I know they all think they can beat me and I want them all to think that. If I win this final immunity, it might mean nothing to the jury. 

Timmy

I can’t believe I just won final immunity!!!!!! I’m happy with the game I’ve played so far and to be able to plead my case is so exciting. I know there are people who are going to be bitter and angry at me for moves that I’ve made, but there are also people who are going to respect what I’ve done. I want Zoe out because i think she is my biggest competition right now. Hopefully all goes according to plan, but either way I MADE FTC!

Jack

So shitty IRL stuff with grandmothers passing away aside, in the game news Timmy won immunity (Jesus fuck we should have got him out and kept Raffy wtf) so Zoe or I will probably have to go against Joseph in fire making tonight. Zoe and I basically were like "Let's not flip on each other to get to final 3" and so hopefully she's not doing that. Timmy though is trying to get me to vote Zoe. Multiple reason's I don't wanna do that: 1. Above mentioned pact to not do that, 2. The accidental streak of people cursed to go home the second they flip on their alliance, 3. Because legit it could be like I vote Zoe and then Timmy and Joseph got for me and then i go home 2-1-1 so yeah no imma not.

[words-writ-in-starlight]

SOME THOUGHTS ON STILL STAR-CROSSED

Obligate note that everyone is hot and I am having A Rough Time.  Especially Romeo and Rosaline.  Damn.  Relatedly, I’d die for Rosaline.  DAMN. Lovin’ that character interpretation and her friendship with Juliet.  I couldn’t give less of a damn about Benvolio/Rosaline, but give me all of Escalus cutting out his own heart to save Verona and Rosaline hating herself for not being able to hate him.  The scene of them in the church was some good shit.

This was EXACTLY the overwrought historically inaccurate Shakespeare nonsense I hoped it would be, frankly.  Sweeping beautiful visuals, sudden closeups for theatrical one-liners, slightly confused plotline timing, and The Drama™.  Good stuff.

I don’t generally care for versions of Romeo and Juliet where the love story is played straight (Shakespeare wrote it as a tongue-in-cheek tragedy, a lot of the narrative makes more sense with that perspective, and the love-at-first-sight angle is kind of desperately overplayed and therefore I Do Not Care) but I’m willing to roll with it because I knew what I was getting into.  And like they do a decent job with it, it’s very tragic, Juliet is good, I like her, Romeo’s death is nicely done.  Kinda annoyed that Juliet poisons herself rather than stabbing herself because I like the tragedy of “I will kiss thy lips//Haply some poison yet doth hang on them.”

That being said, I think it was a narratively good move to add some additional weight to the Montague/Capulet feud.  Like, on the one hand, yes, folks are being murdered in your streets, that is Not Good, but also let’s…have a solid reason for the Prince to care, seeing as that’s the whole plot of this show.  And it being Italy in the 16th century, concerns about a power grab by the winning family are pretty legit.  (I’ve watched a lot of Borgias lately.)

ANTHONY.  STEWART. HEAD.  AS LORD CAPULET.  Aw man y’all the part of me that really enjoyed the first two and a half seasons or so of Merlin (another show I have Opinions on) as a terrible romp through somewhat bastardized Arthuriana is real excited right now.

Glad to see Paris is a dick.  Very pleased.

The all out riotous brawl at the funeral was honestly the top thing on my wish list for this show and I feel intensely gratified to have gotten it.

The line “Escalus, Verona is burning” was my fucking shit to be honest.  Like, damn, son, Isabella is Athena, the clear-eyed goddess of wisdom and war, and I feel like the world deserves to see her with a sword in her hand.

Here is my #1 Complaint: they seem to have accidentally switched Benvolio and Mercutio’s personalities.  This is not to say that Benvolio is necessarily the voice of reason in the play (it’s a play of Bad Choices), but Mercutio is 100% the “I am drunk at 10 AM,” Do It For The Vine friend.  I got to the scene where Mercutio dies before I realized that the other guy wasn’t Mercutio, and I was solely tipped off by the fact that I knew Mercutio died.  I get it that they clearly wanted some sort of bad boy thing to be happening here, but I’m so salty about this.  Like, why WOULDN’T you want Benvolio to be loyal and honest and grief-stricken and desperate to do right by his best friends’ deaths for this thoughtless crusade?  Romeo, the hopeless romantic, and Mercutio, the laughing rogue, both dead from this hopeless feud, and Benvolio, true and dependable as good steel, the last one left alive, who will see it mended if it kills him but who can’t quite forget his friends’ voices enough to marry a woman he doesn’t love.  Like, what part of that DOESN’T sound like good shit.

….I mean…personal headcanon that he’s drowning himself in alcohol and misery because Mercutio doesn’t love him, and that he doesn’t care what happens to him afterward because Mercutio is dead.  Like, that’s the only way I can reconcile the dude in the show and the play character. But whatever that’s just me.

Ultimate conclusion: 10/10 on The Drama™, but it ain’t exactly Sense8 for structure or narrative cohesion.  Will I show my Shakespeare nerd parents?  Jury’s out.  Will I continue watching it?  HELL YES.

[survivor-islands-of-adventure]

EPISODE 8 - MERGE

I’ve officially met my secondary goal of making the merge again! Yeees!! Last Tribal went well in the big picture: Drew idoled, Timmy wasted his, and Dennis went home. Buuuuut, I wasted mine too, which is a huge bummer. I showed my cards too early... either this merge is going to be my second shot, or the death of me.

So real talk, I’m not a fan of these huge merges. There’s way too many plans and players to keep track of... and with this “blind” twist, this round is going to be total chaos. I just hope that the connections I built up pre-merge carry me through this.

God bless Randy and his photoshop skills... he made an INCREDIBLE fake merge idol! I’m really confident that when people see this, they’ll be like “oh shit”. The only person I’ve told is Chris... if we use this right, it’s as good as having a real one!

This being a blind week really has me worried. People are going to feel incentivized to do whatever the hell they want, because they’ll face ZERO repercussions for their actions. As for who I’M voting, that’s still tbd. After last round, I’m taking a little break from calling the shots.

Trying to juggle my Civilians’ alliances with Dan and Tracey while pushing to get Timmy out is proving to be a bit difficult. Chris and Drew are fine with telling them where the villains are voting, but it’s a BLIND round! Why not take advantage of it and make it seem like we aren’t all on the same page?? It would make the two of them trust us more if they really thought we were 100% done with Heroes vs. Villains!

Wow we love a potential swing vote situation. I hate not knowing where that power is because I just find it hard to believe someone got a better time than me for it. 13:37 was faster than Drew’s 14:15 for immunity ugh, unless he’s lying. I’m just frustrated bc I hate being in this position, but also it’s a blind round so if I voted out Timmy, the vote count wouldn’t matter. Unless of course he has the power or the immunity (if Drew is lying). I wish the heroes would come up with a plan bc like I’m stressed. It’s obvious to me that I’m the swing and I just don’t want it to be obvious to others. I’m telling Pat a lot rn just bc if anyone here I trust him the most. But also, it makes me nervous to open up so much in games, I don’t wanna get burned 

I know pat won a major idol so I'm pretty stoked about that!! Idk who the other winner is but i hope it isn't tracey because that's who we're all voting. I have a feeling she won tho.

Dark weeks always scare me because who knows what the fuck is actually going to happen. My alliance wants Tracey out but who knows if that will actually happen. Dark weeks are a good time to go against alliances because there is really no way to know since the vote count isn’t revealed so I could be fucked, anyone could be fucked.

Slow slow slow your boat, gently down the merge, merrily merrily merrily, this game is but a flop.  I feel like its finally starting to pick up but this dark week slowed it down just when it was getting going. Apparently Tracey is Karen? wig. (can i say that if im straight idk). Anyways i can flip on the villains and vote karen ( which i really wanna do ) but im not gonna,, its too early to flip on my alliance. not that i want to, id love to go to the end with charlotte sammy and ricky. but i need revenge for france and thats coming at the expense of karen. 

I’m legit not sure what’s happening tonight I’m screaming. There’s literally so many options and I’m one of them. It’s so nerve wracking 

AHHHHHHHH

okay sorry ive been hella sick so idk what really is going on except that the villains are voting out timmy tonight and that i really wanna work with drew and dan. also mark is very nice to talk to and we're gonna watch wrestling together on sunday god fucking bless. i really want chelsea and madison out soon and im trying my best to steer my four villains away from wanting to vote dan or drew bc i want them here. thats pretty much it lmfao goodnight]

hmmm okay so thing have been interesting. 1-My tribe was the only one that did not have to go to tribal last round.  I was super pumped because I feel as if one of us would have went home.  Then....while watching the tribal.BAM idol play. BOOM. another idol. WHAM. another one.  I am telling you there were idols flying left and right. Like how did y'all find those idols so fast...?  Okay so Dennis got voted out which is like good for me because I knew he would be a challenge threat and a social threat in general.  Moving on, we merged! HaLlElUjAh PrAiSe the LORTTT.  I was getting bored, not gonna lie....but it is still boring everyone is like not talking....okay but anyways, this is a dark round and umm I was so shocked bc I thought I was gonna win the puzzle. I got a time of like 15 mins...how did someone beat meeee:/ that puzzle was a monster. Idk but there are two people that have a lot of power and I am not sure who but I am gonna vote Timmy bc like I don't think he could have won the puzzle? peace yall, hope I am no being blindsided.

Hello meeeeerge!!!!!! So last round was crackt, 3 idols flushed, my boi denny got voted out and I got a vote????? So uh that was wild sjdjkdmdkxn but now merge is here and it's a new game I guess smdjsjndid like personally I was thinking the split was gonna be idk more dramatic but like I don't want to work with the heroes and like they're throwing my name around so clearly they don't want to work with me, except maybe dan????? Idk he's so fucking wishy washy ugh!!!!! I'm like very nervous like I think I can trust the villains bc I've mostly talked to them today and they all seem to want to keep me and me and Chris might even have an alliance going after this which like....how crackt is that?!?! Literally the last person I'd want an alliance with but we're both low on the totem pole so like....we really don't have much choice. I also want to work with drew for sure and maybe mark, the other villains I'm a little if-y about idk like I would like to think me and ricker are on good terms and me and Sammy seem to have left everything in the past so we'll have to see after this blind week. Anyway!!!!!!! Fuck the heroes! Villains are skinny!

Okay so it’s merge and it’s the dark week makes me so nervous. I’m trying to use my mark connection to keep me alive amongst the villains. I’m hoping to keep Chelsea and Dan alive and like somehow make it to the end with one of them. I want a lot of villains on the jury but I don’t want a villain available to get votes. OH I won the reward and from conversation I did the best in the puzzle???? ME???? I don’t believe it but Yas bitch ( to myself)

So I’m super afraid I’m gonna go home this round, I need a ducking idol y’all! I really want Timmy to go home so that’s a mood, if he doesn’t, I’m gonna DIE!