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#this is a cry for help please i have loved this clown for over a decade#When Bruce says āI can fix himā I completely understand & not bc I want to fix him#but bc despite all the atrocities he has committed you can't help but feel compassion for him#Joker constantly struggles to not let himself be seen vulnerable but when he does oh God it breaks my heart#I wouldn't know what to do if I were aware that I'm being doomed by the narrative & i had no escape even in death#to have a fate as tragic as being forced to become a myth#a monster who abandons all traces of humanity to make sure that someone else never abandons his#A lonely man who lives in a world of the dead and must do as much harm as possible to the only living person before his eyes#After all horror and obsession leads backs to love. oh god imagine loving as much as he does#Love as something twisted as a source of tragedy and death as an addiction a wound that never stops bleeding and hurts more every day#All you want is to be free#But someone else is holding on to you and will never let u go bcz he is afraid of being alone#and without you the weight of the world he carries on his shoulders would kill him he needs u as much as u need him#both are going to drown together#anyways hahaha i luv this stupid clown#joker#the joker#batjokes#bcz i got carried away writing the tags :p
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If Charlie Vicker were to come back into mainstream GL comics how would you want him to be characterized?
CHARLIE THE WORLDS BIGGEST CUNT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HORRIBLE NASTY JEALOUS BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i need him to suck so soso bad. torn between charlie better person redemption arc vs being alone at the fuck end of the universe makes u crazy insane. guy who's mad about being in the middle of nowhere forgotten by everyone but doesnt reach out to other people bc he wants them to come to him first, driving himself further and further into isolation from his peers. he reads into every normal conversation wayyy more than is healthy. dissecting every word or expression for imaginary contempt or insult. hes the twitter user that sees your simple sentence and comes up with a whole new one. HUGEEEEEE inferiority complex + massive guilt complex because he got his brother killed. trapped unwillingly in the role of space wile e coyote. top ten guys that should never be left alone with themselves. he needs external validation to survive but he doesn't trust it when he gets it. i think he would fucking mald over nobody remembering his stupid ass. i am so normal about him
#charlie vicker#asks <3#ty for the ask!!#this ask was so serious to me i paused my music#thank you for enabling my illnii#i headcanon that gls chat to each other through the rings like truckers to pass the time. just like constant chatter on#various frequencies like different discord voice channels. and i think that charlie is constantly tuned in but he never talks.#he's built up this perceived barrier between himself and the other gls and listening to everyone else have fun makes him so lonely it hurts#but he cant make himself stop listening bc its the closest thing he has left to family or any connection to earth#ill probably add more to this i need to let it marinate
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Like the way Astarion lights up at the prospect of killing the Githyanki patrol and his excitement when Ethel runs and he's all "now it's a hunt !!"
Heroic Astarion who still fucking FROTHS at the mouth at a good chase because anything worth eating is a little dangerous. He's still sweet and emotionally available, but he also still needs to hunt to eat and that prey drive gnaws at him regardless of if he hunts innocents or bandits. He might as well try to enjoy himself (and he does. Without guilt. Durge is actually quite into it)
#bat rambles#astarion#im sorry i am not ok about this vampire twink#durge who also still has some prey drive instincts bc theyre still made from the body of bhaal#i promise im trying to be normal#bg3#astarion is durge's princess and durge throws their body across running water for astarion to step on so he dont get hurt#he's still pathetic but he is also a predator#i also like the idea of that being part of the me vs them dynamic he constantly has to work through#cus can you imagine? e#everyone you meet is a propsective meal and he just got out of his āarrangementā where that was part of the deal#he HAS to see himself as better than the cattle and Cazador kinda#reinforces that kind of thinking#but redeemed durge or a good tav helping guide him away from thinking like that#i think hed still have those moments of#awe is the snack trying to fight back#and be intense abt his bloodlust and hunger#but he'd move away from being like GNOMES DONT COUNT AS PEOPLE BUT POULTRY RIGHT
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i really need to defeat the fear in my head that i am exactly the kind of villain fan that the vast majority seems to despise and that once it becomes clear im gonna get hunted down like i have been before
#ganondoodles talks#personal#yes this is about demise#the further i get with chapter twos rough draft the more i have to fight that fear#bc i so often see aggressive posts about hating people making villains into good people and i keep thinking i fall into that#even if demise has barely anything to work with- and in my version the canon appearance is essentially .. not really him anymore#i have as much backstory for him as i have for destiny's entire plot#but in my version hes a deeply bitter and hurt but ultimately soft and kind hearted deity#that constantly is at war with himself bc he wants to embrace the role of being the evil beast hes been accused of being for so long-#-that hes been pushed into by his own doing and the gods playing spiteful tricks to punish him for resisting them-#-and still at the core wanting nothing more but to keep protecting and helping mortals- to fight the gods for them more than for himself#i guess you could sum it up with being torn between being the monster everyone wants him to be and still wanting protect them#both of which ending in the ultimate goal of destroying the gods#......i know i have talked about this before#but as i said i am getting further into the rough draft for chapter 2 so the fear is getting to me again#feel free to ignore weeeeeeeeeeeee
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Most underrated byler moment goes to this. Them hugging, only to stand by each other this close, with Will looking at Mike emotionally waiting for him to look back, but all Mike can do is stand there frozenā¦ Both suffering and not feeling like they can comfort each other any more than they already have ššš
#byler#Iām actually having a mental breakdown about this rn#I remember really early on into believing byler#I rewatched this scene and this shot specifically just stuck w me#I feel like we barely talk about it#but seeing as mike and el are like continuously embracing beyond that one time#and Mike is constantly looking dejected in those embraces#and Mike and Will only got to hug once basically#with him literally falling into wills arms and then pulling away like heās been burnedā¦#makes this shot all the more fucking tragic#Mike and el are back together#mike is back to repressing#and then they hug and heās even more pushed into the closet bc he canāt let himself face what heās feeling straight onā¦#and then theyāre both gone#and then s4 happens and Mike canāt barely hug Will#after that s3 hug???#oh he is down bad bad#itās so fucking tragic#it hurts
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š¤ (from desmond!!)
attractiveness:
repulsive / hideous / ugly / not attractive / unappealing / not unattractive / meh / no preference / ok / mildly attractive / nice looking / cute / adorable / attractive / pleasant on the eyes / good looking / hot / sexy / beautiful / gorgeous / hot damn / would tap that / perfect / godlike / holy fuck there are no words.
personality:
grating / irritating / frustrating / boring / confusing at best / awkward / unreasonable / psychotic / disturbing / interesting / engaging / affectionate / aggressive (when necessary in order to protect her as her sworn sword) / ambitious / anxious / artistic / bad tempered / bossy / charismatic / appealing / unappealing / creative / courageous / dependable / unreliable / unpredictable / predictable / devious / dim / extroverted / introverted / egotistical / gregarious / fabulous / impulsive / intelligent / sympathetic / talkative / up beat / peaceful / calming / badass / flexible.
how likely they would have sex with them:
not if they were the last person on earth and the world was ending / fuck no! / never / no way / not likely / not sure / indifferent / Iām asexual / maybe / probably / it depends / fairly likely / likely / yeah sure / yes / would tap that / hell yes / fuck yes! / wishing that could happen right now (the Pain of being married & being a queen & wanting to be a good role model for your children & ur sworn sword is a kingsguard) / as many times as possible / we are already having sex.
level of friendship:
never in a million years / worst of enemies / enemies / rivals / indifferent / neutral / acquaintance / friendly toward each other / casual friends / friends / good friends / best friends / fuck buddies / bosom buddies / practically the same person / would die for them / true friends / my only friend.
first impression of them:
i hate them so much / i donāt like them / i donāt trust them / they annoy me / theyāre weird / Iām indifferent / meh / they seem alright / theyāre growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / Iām not sure if I trust them / I trust them / theyāre cool / theyāre genuine / I think weāre going to get along / I really like them / I think Iām in love / oh fuck theyāre hot / I love them.
current impression of them:
i hate them so much / i donāt like them / i donāt trust them / they annoy me / theyāre weird / Iām indifferent / meh / they seem alright / theyāre growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / Iām not sure if I trust them / I trust them / theyāre cool / theyāre genuine / I think weāre going to get along / I really like them / I think Iām in love / oh fuck theyāre hot / I love them.
send š¤ and my character will answer about yours; specify. || ALWAYS ACCEPTING.
#answered.#sevynhells#oh g-d what if i kms#dynamic; helaena & desmond.#she's c.aed- & d.emi so like. her falling in love w/ & especially wanting to be sexually intimate w/ sb is. Very hard for her to do#SHES LIKE!!!!! SO CAREFREE YET SO RESTRAINED AROUND HIM. LIKE. THAT MAN IS HER ROCK.#like ...... he & vaenna are the first people she calls for after aegon right after b&c happened#like. she HATES how he blames himself bc literally none of this was ever his fault#like. he left his homeland in dorne in the tor to SERVE AS A KINGSGUARD BUT EVEN MORE THAN THAT TO SERVE /HER/#he devoted himself to her in a way she's never seen w/ her father towards alicent. she NEVER feels unwanted or unappreciated around him EVE#he laughs at her her jokes even when she missed the punchline or gets it wrong. he never makes her feel like a madwoman like so many ppl do#like even if he doesn't understand she never once felt like he was ever judging her. that man will track her down like a BLOODHOUND#like i genuinely believe that helaena prayed CONSTANTLY for someone like him to come around & the gods gave her him#i genuinely wouldnt be surprised bc of how close they are that aegon would've noticed that & been like jealous about it bc he's possessive#but like. she represses these desires bc like. she's MARRIED & she's the QUEEN & she has children she wants to be a good role model for#& not to mention during helaena's entire marriage to aegon she was still loyal to him despite everything bc she wants her children spared#she literally wears gold after sunfyre & has a golden sun wedding ring & so when b&c happens that's just. taken away from her.#& then there's Also her dynamic w/ vaenna her childhood best friend & her whole conflicted sapphic feelings surrounding her#& honestly she feels ashamed for having those desires at all & not to mention he's a kingsguard member so if they did anything he could DIE#& like. she cares about him & i'd say loves him & she doesnt want him to get hurt. so like its. extremely difficult for her#so yeah helaena is. Very Conflicted around him but she genuinely loves & desires that man w/ all her heart.#if anything its probably more likely in a post dance survival au that she'd Say Something About It#but like. there's definitely subtle hints thrown here & there that she tries Not to let show but you can cut thru that tension like a KNIFE#iTS SO HEARTBREAKING MAN
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something something about edās chronic pain
#this Is something that i wanna write an actual post about Eventually#stumps hurt with changes to the barometric pressure#+ he rushed his automail surgery recovery As A Kid and pushed himself against pinakoās recommendations#never gives himself time to recover from most major injuries#his automail is a bit heavy for someone his size (which heās gotten used to but it really sucks when his stumps start aching)#also automail is pretty temperature sensitive which can be uncomfortable at best and deadly at worst if precautions arenāt taken#kid who is almost constantly in some form of pain but heās so fuckin used to it at this point#just keeps pushing through it instead of resting bc thatās just his new normal#i wanna make an actual post abt this eventually i swear but for now. another tag essay while i get ready for work <3
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i had a dream that i made little cards that say "THEY!" on them that i handed out to people at work who got my pronouns wrong, immediately after they got it wrong. and in smaller text (or on the back) it said "i don't want an apology, i want you to do better" or "don't say you're sorry, DO BETTER" and ..... i kind of want to do it. maybe i'll get some moo cards made lmao
various scenarios included:
me slamming it down on a desk in front of them.
instead i had stickers, would slowly peel one off while they watched, and stick it on it on them.
handing out a quarter sheet piece of paper based on the 'i caught being good' tags we'd get in kindergarten which said 'i got caught misgendering hallie/my coworker'. it would have their name and date on it and a giant š face. i had them as a pad of paper and would hold up a finger to say 'wait a second', dramatically pull it out of my back pocket, take my pen out of another pocket, slowly fill it out in front of them, and hand it to them while staring them in the eyes.
getting a whiteboard for the outer side of my cubicle wall that said '[days] since i was misgendred' (with a bonus by saying 'last offender: [name]'
i also dreamt that i got into trouble for it because i was making people feel bad and was 'creating a hostile work environment'. i was just like.... okay and how do you think i feel? and my boss shut up real fuckin quick. dunno if that would be the case irl but if that does happen i can only dream.
#tired of the people who say 'i'm trying but i'm going to make mistakes'#ok sure i definitely mess up sometimes too but when it's not even close to 50/50 let alone merely uncommon ............. fuck you#what's sad is it's all people i like and it hurts so much#in the dream it the cards also said something about how i'm not a girl. not a lady. not a woman. stop saying that word to me ...#... in plural when i'm with female coworkers. about half the time i say 'not a lady' and only about half the time it's acknowleged#or that one who constantly posts female-empowering images on ig which are alienating bc it's clearly very binary#and getting comments like 'well it applies to you to!!!' why bc i have a pussy? fuck off#and she'll sometimes say 'thank you for your patience' (what patience) or 'have patience with me' (no.)#i've also thought of holding up my name tag in their faces bc my previous boss had it specially made for me#it's got my name position and pronouns#same boss tho..... he was REALLY consistent about using my pronouns but one day used she/her three times in a row before eventually...#... correcting himself and the next day i told him that really sucked especially from him and he later told me i should have been nicer...#... about it. i was PISSED. i said 'well then how should i have said it?' i don't even remember his answer i just know i wanted to go...#... off on him SO BADLY bc he said it 'hurt his feelings'. well too fucking bad bc every time i'm misgendered it makes me want to...#...die inside a little and feels like at the very least a tiny punch to the gut but that felt like being stabbed esp since it was a new hir#he also said 'ok but i corrected myself' yeah AT THE END after doing it THREE TIMES and that's not the point here#anyway lol this dream definitely stirred up shit unfortunately but i'm serious when i say i might actually have these made#like both my internal email and external emails have my pronouns in them (i had to campaign for this btw so thank you me)#but i recently added my own custom signature with 'they/them' in it that has a link about using pronouns correctly#me#lgbtq#nonbinary
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headcanon time, and this might just be me smashing 2 current interests together: Dean is a total music history nerd right? like if he actually had a home he would be one of those guys with 9000 records who can pull out any one and tell you everything about it on the spot. he just only keeps like 10 tapes in the impala bc he has a very particular vision he wants to project to the world.
in general i think Dean is kind of the Marcus Parks of that world, like, bottomless knowledge of the occult, true crime, and music. just instead of going to college and becoming a college radio DJ and joining a band, he got dragged around the country and forced to hunt monsters.
#this is definitely me being parasocial and i apologize#I'm just lowkey obsessed with the idea from The Costuming Department being A Little Too Obvious#that Dean keeps a whole lot of himself internal and projects a very specific masc image out into the world#as a defense mechanism bc he's had a real shitty traumatic life no matter how abusive or not you think john was#when you're hunting all sorts of demons and nonsense maybe you just kate your heart off your sleeve bc it hurts to have it used against you#also i HC that if dean listened to podcasts he would absolutely listen to No Dogs but for the most part he'd hate last podcast#bc it's too close to real life and also henry would drive him insane#he did listen to the crowley series and laughed his ass off and constantly bullies crowley about his last life as a victorian wannabe wizar#i need a tag for this#block 'steph screams about dean' if you don't wanna see this lmao#steph screams about dean
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The way TR focuses on how Koko is dealing with Akane's death but never shows how Inupi is dealing with it...
Poetic cinema
#freaking magnificent#its not sarcasm#im not criticizing. it fits the characters and the way they are and the way the narration portrays them#inui is in the background. people are grieving his sister and he isnt given the place to also do it#he (at first) doesnt talk about her around koko because he knows it will hurt him. and by doing so he hurts himself#it's like Mitsuya and the fact he's constantly in the background as well - seemingly doing well but when you think about it for more than#2 seconds theres no way he is.#TR focuses on how Koko grieves Akane bc thats what the characters do (even inui) - they focus on Koko who is visibly affected by it and#avoid showing/thinking about inui#does anyone ever wonder how painful it must be for Inui to know his best friend sees his (own) dead older sister in him ?#that Koko went into the fire to save Akane not him? that Koko wished he had saved Akane even if he knew/knows it means leaving Inui behind?#and he cant even be angry at Koko. because he wanted his older sister to be saved too. of course he did.#its inupi feels today it seems#tr inui#tokrev inui#inui seishu#tr kokonoi#tokrev kokonoi#kokonoi hajime#tr#tokrev#tok rev#tokyo revengers
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realizing i have not adequately voiced how sick i have been over this last two months. i have been in such a mindset of āeverything will be ok!ā and it will but likeā¦.. i spent all of november in bed. this month did not happen to me. i get so fucking frustrated by my body betraying me because i want nothing more than to be normal and spend time w ppl who love me, but standing up makes me violently nauseous & light headed, my skull is reforming itself, my face??? hurts?????, my joints ache, my vision is blurry, i havenāt been able to work in a month so idk how iām gonna swing my rent, and iām just . not able to pour into my relationships in the same way i could before i got sick, and that just. sucks and it makes me sad
#journal#itās just. itās really hard bc the ppl i love deserve better & i want to do better. but i have to figure out what that looks like for me#bc i have . Not been in good shape at all. like. my parents legitimately thought i was dying#like my dad told me he had braced himself to have to like . forcibly take me to the ER bc he was scared i was gonna die in my living room#anyway. i donāt feel angry or anything iām just. really sad#and i donāt want ppl to think iām this way on purpose#iām not!! i promise! i am just constantly shaking w pain#also my joints hurt so bad i canāt hold a pen so here i am typing my agonies#even tho my brain says that doesnāt count#* **** * *** ****
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Every time I hear something new about my brother-in-law's gf
#listen I will protect my bil to the ends of the earth bc he has become MY brother#and I'm forced to the conclusion that his gf is emotionally abusive#she berates him in front of their friends and family#she NEVER asks how he's doing bc her problems always have to come first#he has had to make himself smaller and smaller and he's just#so sad#i want to fight her#bc bitch you're hurting my brother#she's constantly making him feel as though his emotions are unimportant and he needs to just deal#we are slowly but surely convincing him that he CAN leave!!!#they don't live together!!#he's moving in July for med school!!!#he can be happier without her!!!!!
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When you start dating someone Sunday does a deep dive into that personās history. Pulls up any criminal records, grades from school, files of immediate and extended family, information on their background, past and current social media accounts, etc. Itās a little insane of him and he acknowledges that, but he truly just wants to make sure that youāre with someone whoās good for you.
When he finds that your partner is a clean person with a good character heās both relieved and heartbroken. The possibility that this person might be the the one for you rocks him to his core.
But Sunday still tries to find the silver lining in it. This person will be able to dedicate all their time and attention to youā something he can not do, despite how deeply he yearns to (because youāre wonderful and fervid and the world becomes more in your presence, and it is only time and attention that will augment that passion in you that he has come to love so terribly).
Sunday returns the files to their rightful cabinets and shelves in resigned silence.
Okay guys now itās time to considerā¦
Sunday being in love with Readerā¦ but being unable to act on his feelings because The Dream Master disapproves of itā¦
The yearning in this would be INSAAAAAANNNE.
#sunday x reader#he cried into his pillow after this#also this is childhood AU bc I want to hurt him even more#it is years#OVER A DECADE of yearning#you will never know how much pain you put him through#he wants you so bad but these feelings will never outweigh his loyalty to The Dream Master#he is constantly at odds with himself#(praying that he has a self discovery arc post 2.2 or 2.3 and breaks free from everything)
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TF2 x SU au fusions!
oof this took too long but i finally made it !
I kept @gracefireheart Andalusite (HeavyMedic) and @cariocay ās Turquoise (EngieSpy) (that i just realized their account got deactivated just a few days ago im sad now) fusion designs because i just found them perfect and whenever i wanted to try making my own designs i always ended up with making something similar to theirs since i was very influenced so i just kept them! Theyāre so awesome plz check the original artists!
my designs :3 :
About the fusions:
I tried to choose a theme for every fusion that suits the characters like Spessartite (DemoSolly) is a warrior i put Demoās sword with Soldierās shield thing well he doesnāt specifically have a shield but yknow the helmet thing i thought that could work.
Heās very powerful, strong and jump into action without a second thought, while he possesses immense strength and a love for loud and chaotic things, his battle prowess is a double-edged sword since his attacks lack precision. however, this unpredictability often leaves his enemies confused and scrambling to defend. he fights more efficiently when drunk lol
Lepidolite (MedicSpy) is a plague doctor, he is very inspired by Hannibal Lecter (nbc Hannibal lol shout out to that one Anon who recommended it for me to watch it lol) at first i wanted to give him a bistouri as a weapon, since it would suit Medicās saw with Spyās small knife, but then i felt the fusion was leaning too much towards Medic than Spy, so i put a cane instead to give that old idk gentleman look :P
He is polished and sophisticated, with a hint of underlying sadism and very precise in his movements, he meticulously analyzes his opponents, exploiting weaknesses with surgical precision before jumping into action and strike right where it hurts the most, the cane appears to be a simple walking stick, but inside is a hollowed core that had a retractable, poison-tipped blade, and his poison isn't fast-acting he enjoys toying with his victims, watching as the venom slowly takes hold, fueling his twisted sense of amusement. they are far from being the strongest fusion but they rely a lot on making their opponent weaker by their ability to attack precise hits as well as poisoning them!
Carnelian (SniperScout) his design was inspired by a equestrian outfit (he was the hardest to design tbh bc i wanted his design to be specifically different from the others since Scout is half human so i wanted this "human" aspect to show in the fusion).
He is a walking paradox, he's got Sniper's calm confidence with Scout's hyperactive energy, he loves a good plan but his execution is often fueled by pure adrenaline, he can zip across the battlefield with incredible speed, dodging attacks and flanking enemies. good at mid range and long range attacks but weak at close range, has internalized monologues with himself a lot, he appears calm on the surface however, his foot constantly taps, he fidgets with his slingshot, he cannot stays in place for too long. enjoys taking challenges.
Rubellite (DemoPyro) is a robot with a 50ās cartoon style but with like a creepy vibe to it, their voice sounds like a broken radio perpetually stuck on a laugh track, is both infectious and unsettling.
They just as powerful as Spessartite but just a bit more agile and lean more on the defense style than offense, their body stretches in a cartoony way and battles become a twisted playground for them, a child's game where they hop and blow things up everywhere. theyāre very joyful and loves to have fun while making chaos, they usually make jokes but no one understands their muffled voice so they often laugh all by themselves lol the weapon actually expands where the ball and the shaft of the mace connects thereās a chaine (i didnt draw it cuz there was already too much going on in the drawing lol) which helps them reach target from close to mid range easily, they twist and turn their body in very flexible ways before swatting their weapon at their target.
ā ļø If you want to suggest a pair for the next fusion please just comment here DO NOT send it in my ask box plz !!
And if you want to make your own fusion designs/fanart go ahead ! id love to see other peopleās interpretations could be ! just donāt forget to tag me and add the tag ( tf2 x su au) :D
hope you enjoy !
+ early designs :
#tf2 x su au#my art#tf2#team fortress 2#fan art#lennylink#tf2 spy#tf2 scout#tf2 engineer#tf2 demoman#tf2 heavy#tf2 sniper#tf2 pyro#tf2 soldier#tf2 medic#tf2 heavy x medic#boots n bombs#tf2 engiespy#tf2 speeding bullet#tf2 napoleon complex#tf2 demoman x pyro#tf2 fusion#steven universe au#su fusion#character design#hannibal#demoman x soldier#tf2 engineer x spy#sniperscout#art
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characters: jing yuan, blade, dan heng, welt yang, yanqing, sampo, gepard, luocha x nb!reader
warnings: tooth rutting fluff, advised for u to read while sitting down or in private bc u might have a heart attack from how cute and chaotic this shit is, some angst might be sprinkled in just bcāØāØ
notes: that moment when you have a super bad baby fever except the fever is towards cat rather than babies. genshin impact ver can be read here! part 2 with penacony men!
art credit to Tomač¶
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oh fuck
look at that floof
that absolute big soft floofball peacefully sleeping on top of your favorite black shirt. your shirt is ruined, massive amount of white fur stuck to the fabric and youāre late for work but at least you have a happily napping away cat
a siberian cat, me thinks. with that amount of fur and that large body, heās gotta be a siberian cat
spoiled, smug peace of shit and he knows it. revels in that title even
dubbed as āthe handsome catā by your friends, co-workers and neighbors alike, meow yuan is surprisingly and not so surprisingly incredibly popular amongst the ladies. whether it be because of his fur, his adorable meows, the red ribbon you tied around his neck as a makeshift collar or his way of charming the ladies with a gentle pawing to their hand and a smug āmeowwwā, you will never know
the biggest out of the cats. but is it his body thatās big or is it the rapunzel like long fur that he has. the world will sadly never know and neither will you
surprisingly chatty at times. but worryingly very eepy. an adult cat should sleep about 12-16 hours a day and yet youāre pretty sure meow yuan spends 25 hours of the day sleeping away under the sunlight
closest to little nyanqing. seems to think of the youngest kitten as his own as heās seen grooming or simply looking out for the young kitten at times. also seems to be a bit closer to nyan heng and meowade but the latter tends to spend his time alone
an absolute smug spoiled prince and he owns to it. whether it be feigning hurt, crying out for your attention or downright plopping himself down on your keyboard, deleting your entire progress of work, the little shit knows how to be a headache
but itās okay, you always forgive him because he allows you to smush your face into the fur of his belly when youāre stressed or squish his soft toe beans. meow yuan is let off the hook yet againā¦
occasionally, meow yuan reminds you of a lion. it maybe weird and completely out of the blue but with the way he grooms others, his fur, the absolute motor like loud purrs he emits or the sheer massive size and weight of him ā yeah, you get the point
one time, you decided to spoil him by carrying him around in your arms like how you do with the other cats. the loud crack! noise and the fact that you couldnāt get up the next day should prove just how damn big he is
meow yuan was a worry wart the whole day. constantly meowing in your ears, purring softly, nuzzling your side. it almost seemed like he was trying to apologize for being this big. to which you easily let him off the hook of course. how could anyone ever say no to that big adorable yellow eyes?
art credit to cocoinkš on twt
a bit of a worrying case, meowade is
he doesnāt like socializing, the other cats nor does he get along with you either. the only ones he seem to at least tolerate were meow yuan and nyan heng alongside you
likes to spend his time all alone, cooped up inside some small confined space, above the cupboard or inside his own small room in the cat tree. also enjoys spending time in your room as well but only if the other cats arenāt there
flinches or freezes up whenever you touch him which is incredibly worrying and gut-wrenching. makes you hate however was his previous owner to have caused meowade to despise touches and affections
the first time you found him, bleeding and wet on the side of the road and tried to wrap your coat around him to take him to the vet, the little scraggly cat hissed and clawed and bit at you with great amount of hate despite literally bleeding out. thankfully, he seemed to understand you were no threat as he went limp in your coat, allowing you to get him to the vet
due to whatever his past experiences were, meowade hates being close to anyone. but at least he was slowly but surely opening up to the others and you
the first time the poor scraggly cat decided to bump his head to your hand, asking for pets, you cried tears of joy and relief. at least, you can offer him healing and comfort as you and the other cats stay there for him on his journey
the second biggest cat, bested by meow yuan himself. not as big as him but damn can this cat scare others. whether it be other cats, your friends who decided to visit or some random dog that you passed by as you take meowade out for a walk
seriously, the amount of times this cat wrestled against dogs bigger than himself gives you heart attacks. itās a real wonder and a miracle you arenāt dead yet
british shorthair, me thinks. but the ones that grow to be a bit bigger than the others
has a bad habit of justā¦ staring off into space, unblinking with those big round eyes at times. literally no thoughts in his brain. head empty, as he justā¦ stares off into space
āoh, having another existential crisis again? mind if i join you today, meowade?ā
āā¦ā
āā¦ meowā
and so, this weird ritual of the two of you sitting side by side, staring off into the distance, unblinking as the cup of coffee in your hand goes cold has become something special in you twoās bonding moment. oneself that meowade looks forward to each day
sometimes, he tends to chase after nyan heng around the house for whatever the reason. it leaves poor nyan heng shaking and hissing as the small black cat comes to you for help
not the chattiest of cats nor is he the most pickiest. quite docile despite his killer stare at times and you would even daresay, shy when it comes to affection
overall, a cute cat. the cute pathetic ones that you just canāt help but adore and love
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another docile cat!! perhaps even the most docile one!!!
at first, you were worried when taking him in because holy shit, where is his tail?! only after taking him to the vets did you finally managed to breathe a sigh of relief because nyan heng was a black manx breed of cat
lean, on the smaller side, an amazing hunter and a dutiful bug hunter in the house, nyan heng is a cute black manx who has a pretty green/grey eyes
an absolute sweetheart, always hoping to please you or help you out around the house as he helps to keep the other cats in line. except for meowade. he always finds himself having a hissing match with the black british shorthair or getting teased by the eepy meow yuan
closest to nyelt, as you had found the two cats together when you decided to take him in. almost seem to see nyelt as some sort of a father figure with how the little black manx constantly goes to the older one for advice or simply some help in grooming
has a cute simple, thread like thin black tie with a few charms around himself as a makeshift collar. he seems to like it despite the thread being a little bit too thin for catsā comfort
seriously, whatās up with your cats and their desire to wear makeshift collars? makes you really consider if they are catsā¦
that aside, nyen heng also tends to be more active during nighttime. not the type that would take down things, destroy objects or cause ruckus and cause you jump out of the warm comfort of your bed. no, he just simply quietly trudges around the house, searching if he had truly hunted down every bugs and insects in the house
especially that spider
nyen heng hates to see you so scared over that cursed spider. so he makes it his life mission to rid the house of insects, more specifically, spiders!!
and damn is he absolutely devoted to his job because ever since you cried to your friend over the phone about the spider that you saw in your room, you never saw another spider ever again!
not the most chattiest nor is the most affectionate. heās a mix of both but only when in privacy of you two or when heās feeling particularly lonely
donāt get him wrong, the other cats are an amazing company but he just tends to seek out your attention and affection more yāknow? thereās just something soothing about being by your side
seems to have some history with meow yuan and meowade. whether that be good with how friendly meow yuan is with nyan heng. or bad, with how meowade seems to want to take their play fighting to a whole next level
surprisingly, doesnāt like sunlight that much
most of the cats would follow the sunlight and itās warmth and spend some time outside or on the window sill. but you can find the little black minx just chilling in one of the rooms of the cat tree of beside you, observing the other cats
nyen heng is an absolute sweetheart. the quiet type of sweetheart
the type of sweetheart that follows you around, hoping to help you out or simply offer a comforting presence. itās the least he can do for you
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another sweetheart of a cat except nyelt makes himself and his presence known unlike nyan heng
possibly a havana brown breed with just how damn calm, peaceful, loving and loyal he is. especially with you. havana browns tend to attach themselves to only one person during their span of life, which sometimes can feel like nyelt is just a biiitttt clingy with you
was there with nyan heng when you took the two cats in and often times acts like a father figure to the cats of the house which is a huge help to your mental state. except for nyanqing. nyanqing only has one father figure and thatās meow yuan
but that was completely fine since nyelt still looks after the little energetic kitten. often times looking after the cream munchkin as he carries nyanqing around by his scruff
to which, nyan heng comes to you for affection and attention. if his father figure wonāt give it, then you surely will!
likes to wear the black mini scarf like collar around his neck. often times seen curled up inside the mini scarf as he sleeps the day away like most cats do
can come of as quite chatty at times with how attentive and helpful nyelt is
oh your back feels stiff? he can sit on it and make biscuits (that cute moment when cats knead their paws?). meow yuan is out of option since heās way too big and heavy and could potentially be the sole reason you break your back. literally
oh nyanqing is missing again? what do you mean heās missing? heās right there, hiding inside one of the rooms of the cat tree
nyan heng is being bullied by meowade again? you know nothing of the weight behind this poweā
yeah, you get it. kinda reminds you of a grandpa with how attentive he is and how he has a single streak of grey atop his head fur. which is absolutely adorable and one place that you adore smothering with kisses
nyelt doesnāt seem to mind the affection too as he simply sits there, purring away and basking in your affection. a very pliant cat
sometimes, something seems to weigh heavily on his and nyan hengās minds with how they curl up together or look out the window, seemingly searching for something
at first when they did that, you thought some bird or a squirrel passed by the window. but if that was the case then every cats should by by the windowsill
yet only nyelt and nyan heng are
at first it worried you because what if they were having cat depression?! are you absolutely sure that youāre being a good cat owner, [name]?!
yeah, you had a lot of self doubt and depressive episodes due to the two cats
however you finally figured out the case when one day, one of your co-workers suggested a play date with her own cats. saying that sometimes, cats need to see new faces to experience some relief from their everyday tasks or ways of living
the date was agreed upon and your co-worker decided to bring over a few of her cats
the immediate second the pretty red furred maine coon, pink-ish scottish fold and the grey striped scottish fold stepped out of the cat bag, nyelt and nyan heng seem to brighten immediately as they fucking dash towards the three cats
turns out the five of them seemed to have been close before they got separated and the two male cats found their way in your home
at least your cats were happy yet again. which made you happy in turn too
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awwwwwww
everyone's reactions when you first introduce them to nyanqing. and honestly, you can't blame them because look at that cute little cream munchkin pitter pattering his way over here!!!
as stated above, a cute little cream colored munchkin
super adorable
tiny
a tiny baby
"hang on, i'm gonna have an abnormal increase in my sugar intake simply because nyanqing is just too damn adorable to not to do that" - you on a daily basis while calling your best friend and honestly? your bestie's starting to get a bit sick of your constant fawning over your cats
that is until you bestie decides to come over for a visit to drop off some meds for you (during the infamous 'trying to lift meow yuan and almost breaking your spinal cord' day), your bestie dropped down to the floor, unresponsive the moment you called over nyanqing to introduce him to your bestie
yeah... since then the two of you constantly fawn over the little munchkin while trying not to die of a cuteness overload
but it's completely fine and understandable even as you two get the nth heart attack this day simply because nyanqing was... well, nyanqing himself!
an adorable little pliant baby who loves nothing more than sleeping, playing around with meow yuan, you and sprinkles of mischief sometimes
is the closest to meow yuan and can be found with the large siberian cat whenever you can't find him. often times, you would have to move meow yuan over to check each and every nook and cranny around the large siberian cat just so you can get a glimpse of the small munchkin and let out a sigh of relief
at times, the eepy meow yuan tends to curl up with the tiny nyanqing buttttt due to how much of a heavy sleeper the larger cat is, nyanqing almost gets crushed under the much larger cat
yet he somehow is still alive and well and completely okay???? like what????????
still doesn't relieve your heart no matter how many times you find the tiny munchkin under the large siberian cat
is a little bit mischievous at times with how he lovingly bothers nyan heng. trailing after the black minx all the while meowing his ears off about something. the same can be applied to nyelt as well but nyelt tends to patiently converse with the small munchkin unlike nyan heng who wishes to avoid him at most times, preferring his lone and private time
seem to have some sort of an ongoing hidden agenda against meowade and luonya. the former black can cat be found bullying the small munchkin until either the other cats step in or you. as for the latter? no one knows. somehow, nyanqing always ends up getting into a defensive position whenever luonya comes into his field of vision
one time you even found nyanqing hisses at meowade with meow yuan behind the tiny kitten's back. you had to put the three of them into time out and give meowade a scolding
what about scolding nyanqing you say? well
āthis is the last time iāll let you off the hook, nyan-nyan. if i find you stirring up trouble againā
yeahā¦ when are you ever going to stop letting your cats off of the hook [name]?
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āyou sure this is a cat and not a fox or a vixen undercover?ā
āyes, it is indeed a cat and not a fox or a vixen undercover. iām guessing itās a somali cat though it could be mixed breed with another different cat breed as wellā
āyou sureā¦?ā
āplease get out, and allow the others to show their petsā
yeahā¦ the local vet is familiar with you and your many different cats. not to mention the amount of times you asked if meowpo was truly a cat and not a fox undercover because damn, is this cat fucking mischievous
an absolute fucking menace and i cannot stress this enough, god
the type of cat who would keep a straight eye contact with you as his soft squishy paw slowly pushes a cup full of your coffee towards the edge of the surface all the while keeping the :3 face
oh you thought meow yuan was bad and mischievous? you immediately took back your words the second you adopted meowpo
thatās how damn bad this little cat is
you know those moments that you have like,,, a cute aggression? but instead of smothering the cat with kisses and hugs and cuddles, you end up lovingly bullying the cat? yeah. thatās your eternal cycle with meowpo
āyou stupidāā kiss āāfuckingā kiss āācat!ā kiss āwhen the fuckāā kiss āāand where the fuckā kiss āādid you came fromā kiss āāto make me suffer, huh?ā
a never ending cycle and meowpo fucking revels in the sheer amount of times he can make you have lovingly bullying cute aggression moments
seems to have some sort of a rivalry with nyepard and surprisingly meow yuan
nyepard was completely understood and truthfully, you saw it coming. nyepard is a rule follower and an enforcer through and through meanwhile meowpo is a rule breaker
so imagine your surprise when you come back home one day to see meow yuan glaring at meowpo from his windowsill
āmeow yuan, whatās gotten into you? why are you bullying meowpo?ā
āmrreow!ā oh meow yuan sounded a bit angry. which only served to double your shock since meow yuan is a very gentle cat despite his large size. gentle, affectionate, chatty, friendly and a bit mischievous at times but never hostile or mean
āmrreeeooww!ā meowpo seems to complain as he makes his way over to hide behind your leg. he seems to be shaking or even afraid of the larger cat
to which, you immediately coddled and soothed meowpo over and scolded meow yuan afterwards. all the while meowpo gives meow yuan a knowing smug look
yeaaahhhā¦ these idiots are fighting for your attention and affection
if meowpo isnāt somewhere inside the house, creating chaos and getting scolded by the other cats then you can definitely find him by asking a help from nyepard. nyeppie would dutifully carry out his duties and rat meowpo out in record time
but he isnāt always so mean or mischievous. the times where you fall sick and is having a hard time trying to breathe through your nostrils, meowpo is the one who takes care of the other catsā bowls of food and water
it was a way of him hoping to help you out the tiniest bit as you lay bedridden
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nyepard, the mostā¦ dog-like cat you would ever meet. but also a cheetah-like as well????
itās hard to explain since nyeppie has spotted fur and the black smokey eye that cheetahs have and not to mention his large yet lean physique as well
the second largest. whereas meowade is also the second biggest due to his length, neppie is the second biggest due to being a bit on theā¦ buffer? side
seriously, you were worried for a few days when nyepard kept growing and growing, showing absolutely no sign of stopping his growth spurt
thankfully, he isnāt as big as meow yuan
you donāt wanna live with the embarrassment of getting dragged down the street by another big ass cat chasing after a random pretty leaf they saw. nope. you canāt deal with the embarrassment and shame
and yes, you did dragged down the street when taking meow yuan out on a walk before but that is a story and second hand embarrassment for another time
another sweetheart despite his size
very doting, gentle, very shy when it comes to affections but still asks for them anyways because itās you
the first time you took nyepard for his vet vaccinations, the veterinarian looked at you dead in the eyes as if saying ābestie, what the fuck?ā
of course you would get weird stares whenever you take the big cat out for a walk. heās as big as a doberman dog and the dotted furs of his doesnāt exactly help to direct attention away from yourself
but the sheer amount of power you feel when walking down the street with both meow yuan and nyepard by your two sides is fucking addicting
one cat that closely resembles a lion and another that looks like a cheetah. at least you sleep peacefully at night knowing that you have two scary cats privilege
scary dog privilege? [name] only knows and experiences scary cats privilege. at times it's adorable but also threatening as well because your bestie and some close co-workers know just how devoted and loyal your cats are towards you
nyeppie is the most loyal of them all. or at least, one who is willing to show it at each minute of the day with how dutifully he chases after insects with nyan heng, scolds meowpo or just is there to be your emotional support
by being your emotional support, nyeppie meant being there sitting beside your computer as you diligently types away at a work report and not to be your cuddle victim!!!! no, no no no, no no, you're not squishing his paws as you take him away in your arms to cuddle on the bed!! you always end up falling asleep!!!! what do you mean by it's completely fine that you have saved up the progress and the deadline isn't close yet?! the deadline is before midnight!!!
sigh...
if only cats could sigh heavily and smack his face with his palm as he watches you scamper about, trying to wake yourself up as you realize that you did ended up napping the day away with nyeppie in your arms
well, at least you managed to send the report in at time. by 'at time' you and him both meant at least 2 minutes before the deadline closed up
nyepard guesses you can cuddle with him this time since you managed to finish the report within a record time of 47 minutes
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luonya is probably the most weirdest cat you ever had the pleasure of adopting. and that was saying something because you're pretty sure you live with a long lost lion and a cheetah and a fox cats!!!!
and he's just a simple, silly, lovely cream colored turkish angora!!!!!
ah, whatever. you guess its just life's way of dealing you karma by making you live with a bit quirky 8 cats
jokes and a lot of conspiracy theories pushed aside for now, time to focus on the present AKA 'the pretty cat'
oh yes, while meow yuan was getting dubbed as 'the handsome cat' by almost everyone who meets him, luonya was rightfully dubbed as 'the pretty cat'
at this point, you're damn sure that your friends and co-workers come around only to coo over your cats and to spoil them rather than spending time with you... understandable, because you too would do the same without a single ounce of shame and you absolutely mean every damn word
one time, just for shits and giggles and a bunch of pictures to take of your latest cat, you signed him up for a cat beauty pageant
it was only for shits and giggles and a reason to snap pictures of luonya in a pretty cat costumes and stuff, you swear!! so imagine your surprise and how far down your jaw went slack when the host announced your cat, luonya as the cat beauty pageant winner!!!
yeah...
it was a chaotic thing to happen truly and the small glares and backhanded compliments the other cat parents were giving you was making you break out in cold sweat. at least, you have your pretty cat with you to soothe yourself a bit
and a nice whopping 300K dollars as the victor money!!!! damn, you're rich as shit now
not for too long since that money is gonna fly away in the wind due to the fact that you adopted a literal 7 cats and a kitten
worth it, you cry internally as you pay for the 50 kilograms of cat food all the while luonya gently meows at you as in a way of saying "hurry up, dear. we still have to pick up the wet food and the snacks too"
hhhh yeah
this cream colored turkish angora of yours is absolutely drop dead gorgeous yet at the same time he also has a very large secretive look on his face. there's just something about the way that luonya just acts, always sitting atop a high place in the house, as he just stares into the souls of everyone within the room
weirdly smells like either flowers or of medicine and pills and there's absolutely no in between. it's either giving lilies or pills but either way, your cat is a girlboss and he seems to know it as well
not entirely affectionate like meow yuan or meowpo but he is also not too talkative either. a bit of something in between along the lines
is affectionate and talkative at times but prefer it if you would be asleep or when its just you two when he finally decides to curl up on your lap
overall, luonya is a very gentle yet also a very suspicious cat but is oki, he girlboss and he knows what he wants and needs with how he sometimes fakes choking noises to make you get up in light speed
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i often wonder whether the reason wymack is so lenient with andrew is bc andrew reminds him so much of himself. heās fiercely, violently protective - something wymack can understand, as he beat his dad up for hurting his mother - and andrew is honestly a lot more aligned in the giving-people-an-extra-chance-than-they-thought-theyād-get ideology than the upperclassmen are.
think, andrew only accepting the fox contract bc nicky and aaron could get their degrees as well - something that would have been years off for aaron without a scholarship, and wouldnāt have been done at all (at least, not in the states) for nicky. think, kevin getting the chance to learn to stand on his own feet, neil getting the chance to learn to stop running, both bc of andrew. even his method of getting aaron clean gives aaron the chance to do what he wants with his life - though, it obviously couldāve been handled better, i believe that andrew chose to lock aaron in the bathroom because he knew that aaron wanted to go to med school, to become a doctor, which would have become a lot more difficult if heād had rehab on his record. even with matt, though again his methods arenāt great, andrew gives him the opportunity to get sober for good. heās constantly giving people the chance to deal with their issues for good, not by coddling them but by forcing them to turn around and face them head on. as far as giving out extra chances at life goes, thatās a pretty solid way to get people to turn their own life around for the better.
in fact, andrew goes out of his way to tell renee that he wonāt break his neck for the upperclassmen, so that renee knows she should watch their backs. he didnāt have to tell her anything, he couldāve just left them all to their own devices, but he still gave them the opportunity for safety even tho theyād already written him off completely by that point.
idk maybe this analysis is off and ppl donāt agree with me but even in the books andrew is said to be ācollecting straysā, which is exactly what wymack does.
just - wymack and andrew are very similar, and i love their relationship to bits.
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