#(im even scared to send anonymous asks)

[ralvezfanatic]

when i get over my social anxiety + learn to properly socialize, its over for all of you mfs

[livingdeadmlm]

sorry if that wasn't on anon..im freaked out. speaking of freaked out who's the most whiny and vocal in the rigbyverse. i guess john since he's the pathetic bottom

It's okay, anon, you are still anonymous to me!! Even if anyone sends me something off anon, if you let me know, I WILL forget who you were lol trust it's happened like 5 times since I started this blog, I always get scared an ask has been eaten and whoever asked something thinks I'm ignoring them </3

In my headcannon, like notes I take, I have a scale on who whines, moans, or grunts, and who, in general, won't shut the hell up during sex.

John is up at the top, though! Even tho he's the resident bottom next to Sean, who also won't shut the hell up. You could have both of these men bent in half for half an hour and they will still be trying to shit talk you or babbling nonsense.

Dutch would not stop talking either. He can be giving you head, and he'll pull off and just go on and on about literally anything. The worst part is he's great enough at head; you still agree to it and come back for more, but it is still interesting how he can talk about a job, with your legs over his shoulders.

Javier is talkative more to himself than to you, and he's more of a grunter. In my rigbyverse (love the term, I didn't even think of using something like this!), he's a power bottom, so he'll talk and say how good something feels loud enough for you to hear to spur you on.

If we're talking loud in terms of noise and not speaking, Kieran takes that cake EASY. He's a mess after some teasing, even if he's on top, his hips are stuttering, he's also, I think, the most likely to cry next to Charles and John.

Speaking of Charles, he isn't the loudest, but if you go slow enough, it'll pull the sounds out of him easily. He's used to the rough and fast life, so taking your time makes him feel so soft and vulnerable. This can also go for Arthur, who's in the middle of a man who moans and a man who grunts lol

I think of everyone, Hosea is the only one who's just a moaner, might talk dirty when he can think of something quick but he's the most normal sex haver when it comes to noises lmao

[yoursinsandpunishment]

Sir, I wanted you ask something, Im very new to this, my dominant and I are purely online and we started off as just me sending random face pics but now I'm required to send intimate pics which I'm not comfortable in doing, I told him that but he's saying that my submission belongs to him and bdsm relationship is based on trust and opening up and not keeping anything to myself, it's about offering up everything and trusting him to use it wisely, He decides what acceptable for me and he said he'll be disappointed if i don't do so as I'm told, I don't need to feel shameful about it, He says he hates it when I'm not being my true self, I know communication is the key but I feel like I'm not being listened sometimes, I don't what to do, He knows everything about my life, Everything, and i dont even know his name or how he looks or any kind of information, he says its best if i dont know, Its for my best to not know anything, im so confused, i feel like leaving and ending it but it also scares me to leave him completely, Please give me your advice.

your consent and comfort are paramount, and no one should demand you do something you're not okay with, like sharing intimate photos.

Your Dom should respect your boundaries, not use disappointment as a tool to manipulate you.

The one-sided anonymity in your relationship is a significant concern; trust should be mutual.

Reassert your limits, and if he won't respect them, consider ending the relationship. If you feel pressured or unsafe, that's a sign to exit the dynamic.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

would i be the asshole for contacting my ex to ask them if they could stop talking about me online to a community that knows who i am? (🥐)

tw: kinda emotionally abusive relationship

bg info

me (24f) and my ex (28) were in a three month relationship three years ago following a whole year of friendship. they were my first partner and i came out as a lesbian to everyone during our relationship. when we were together, they were 24 and i was 20. i was very emotionally dependent on them when i was 20 due to mental health issues and so were they which is probably one of the reasons why our relationship was as explosive as it was. i looked up to them, my whole emotional world revolved around them, and our friendship/relationship was the only thing i had in my life at the time. they constantly asked me "hey is it even ethical that im dating you, im 4 years older, you tell me please, oh i feel like such a bad person", yet, they still continued dating me every time they would ask.

our fights were horrible and truly explosive as they broke their stuff in front of me out of anger, threw things at me and insulted me as stupid, amongst many other things. our fights usually ensued because i would ask them for reassurance and they would start panicking and screaming at me to shut up. to be fair, i would cry every time i was asking for reassurance which probably made them feel scared about losing me, so i consider myself 50% at fault for everything that happened in our relationship, i shouldve been able to talk to them in a secure manner that wouldnt trigger their abandonment issues. our fights were quite jarring and made me walk out on them several times out of fear. yet i always came back and apologized and took the whole accountability, even though i dont consider myself the only one at fault. walking out several times during fights was probably one of the worst things i could have done but at the same time i was simply scared. even when i walked out after our last fight, they begged me to come back, which i did, i apologized under tears, and yet, told them that i cant promise them to stay no matter what.. and left.

we met through tumblr and were in a medium distance relationship. after our relationship, i went to a clinic and had to learn a lot about myself, what i experienced and what i want from life. im in a very happy and healthy place now and since the end of 2021 im with my current partner whom i want to be the love of my life and whom ive started to build a life with.

context

i have my ex blocked on all social media because they used to do hour long deep dives into my blog, even as of recently (i have statcounter installed for my safety bc im paranoid about them sending me anonymous asks). at first i also used to visit their blog after our break up but stopped doing so after moving on with my life. one year after breaking up i temporarily unblocked them and explicitly asked them not to look at my social media (or at least to do it in a way in which i dont notice aka asked them not to watch my instagram stories).

while i dont visit their blog/social media because i dont want to know whats going on in their life, tumblr mutuals frequently dm me stuff like "hey i think you should know that your ex posted about you/shit talks about something that you posted". i havent asked my mutuals to tell me whenever this happens but i imagine they do so because within the tumblr space we exist, everyone kind of knows everyone (so my ex doesnt have to mention my name for people to know who theyre talking about). sometimes mutuals send screenshots of the posts so that i dont have to visit my ex's blog. last ive heard my ex joked about throwing jewelry at me and posted extensively about a tattoo that i got. my ex's behavior makes me uncomfortable and feel just as helpless as i did back then.

why i might be the asshole

im scared that they might be venting because i was more at fault in the relationship than them and that i am unconsciously deflecting. however, i talked about every detail of the relationship and this fear extensively with my therapist, friends, and partner who are of the opinion that i was young, scared, and intertwined in a relationship that was incredibly toxic. im still unsure though because my emotions frequently triggered theirs.

why they might be the asshole

i asked them once to stop visiting my social media and i feel like venting about our relationship that broke off 3 years ago to a tumblr community of friends and acquaintances is kind of unfair. however, i might be the asshole and they might just need the space for venting. i could just ignore the vents and let them heal in their own way from what ensued.

WIBTA if i confronted them again and told them that i want them to stop talking about me online? or would i be a party pooper because every person needs a space for venting?

What are these acronyms?

[the-universal-sun]

Hi so heres a little tacky message

This is anonymous just because im scared of being open about age regressing on my account, but im the same person who suggested the first paci fanfic <3 tysm btw, I cried out of joy when i read it Ive been super terrified of my regression for a very long time, i have some guilt issues that end up pouring into my way of coping that ends up ruining it at times. But this blog has really helped me - recently i did end up getting my first paci and i was too scared to use it because i felt stupid, but reading what youve written has helped me in ways i can never express because unlike most regression stories that are 100% cutesy and wholesome yours have the emotions i end up feeling, intended or not - and it makes me feel so safe and human please have a lovely day, this safe space is amazing and your writing will never cease to make me smile -Anon

Omg I’m at a loss for words, Anon!!!!! I’m so glad you liked the fic, I was so happy to see it requested! So happy to write it! I’m glad my blog has helped with your regression-I understand the underlying guilt and lingering shame from societal standards and judgement, it’s hard to push past it.

I’m glad your got your first pacifier! I bet it’s cute! It’s okay to feel awkward using something like that for the first time, even if you’re not scared about regression, the habit is awkward because we’re in general unused to that now that we aren’t young children anymore. What can help, in my experience, is Chewlry, its rings/necklaces made out of non-toxic material meant to be chewed and sucked on. It’s a good way for your mouth to get in the habit again and to work your way up to a pacifier if you’re too nervous to use one for the first time!

And yeah, while I do want my little stories to have happy endings and still be relatively soft and nice, Age Regression is very often a coping mechanism for various traumas, so I do try to input some of that in my writings without making it the centerpiece unless someone asks. But again, I’m glad my works have helped you! At the end of the day, we are all beings with thoughts and feelings who deserve to feel safe, and I hope that so many people feel safe with my writing!

Thank you again for all your very kind words, and know that I’m here in your corner, cheering you on, my lovely Anon! No judgement allowed in this blog!

Sending you ALL the love in the world!

XX

[yumebambi-writes]

(i wanted to send anonymously but i can't?? ok...) hi!! you know why i'm here, headcanons for murphy from season 2 or 5. nsfw if you're ok with that. thanks in advance and have a nice day!

Alvin Murphy NSFW Headcanons (MDNI)

(this gif makes me giggle)

Season Two Murphy:

let's get it out of the way: murphy has a big, blue dick. it's above average at the least, but i know it's big because of his swagger in the beginning of season two and all of season 5

and he knows how to use it

seriously, serena was dick drunk in the "sisters of mercy" ep of s1, and it was for good reason

i think he might be very defensive when it comes to his appearance, and he'll flinch if you ever kiss or trace your finger along his bite marks

however, he does like to see his blue dick going in and out of you

i don't think he's very vocal aside from some grunts here and there. i do get the sense he whines a lot when he's alone and thinking about you though. he doesn't want you to see it, but you're the one person he can see himself becoming submissive for, although, you'd never know it from how he acts

he likes it when you're on top because he likes to watch as your tits/cock bounce while you're riding him

i get the feeling he likes to tie you up because he has this complex where he has to be in control, even if you're on top

maybeeeee into light choking?

he's not into foreplay, BUT he lovesssss getting his dick sucked because he likes to see you choking on his cock for sure

i fear he's not super attentive to your needs (at least in season 2)

he's so focused on getting himself off that he won't notice that you might need extra attention

he won't even bother asking if you came, he'd either just assume you did so or not really care whether you did or not

this man is NOT giving you any aftercare

Season 5 Murphy:

on the other hand, season five murphy IS attentive to your needs

this man has done some personal growth, and by "some," i mean A LOT

the two of you have come so far together, and he's more or less past seeing himself as some godly messiah figure, so he actually sees (at least) you as an equal to him

therefore, you will be cumming first.

he still likes it rough-ish, but s5!murphy will enthusiastically engage in foreplay with you, whereas s2!murphy always just wanted to get straight to business

less defensive about his appearance and will sigh happily if you kiss around his bitemarks. i get the feeling that they're very sensitive in the way one's nipples might be.

he's come to really own his body and appreciate his appearance, and will melt if you show any affection for the way he looks

still loves the way his (now red) cock looks going in and out of you

i still think cowgirl(/cowboy?) is his favorite position, but now he cares more about whatever position is most comfortable for you and/or makes you feel the best

MUCH more vocal

lots of praise ("good girl/boy/pet," "you're taking me so well," "you look so good riding my cock, baby")

i definitely think pet names are used whereas s2!murphy would hardly acknowldge you

kind of loves it when you call him alvin, but it also makes him feel so vulnerable that he might accidentally come prematurely the first time you say it

i don't think the sex is any more vanilla per se, but i do think it becomes more predictable the longer you're together because he knows what you like and he's scared of screwing it up for fear you'll leave him like so many others have

whoops! a little angst there for ya

more predictable? maybe. but it is so much better and more personal than it was before, and it actually seems to mean something now

i hope this was okay <3 i am still fairly new to writing nsfw, and im not sure how good this was, but tysm for the request!! i hope you enjoyed :)

[professionalchaoticdumbass]

okay fuck i'm doing this again aren't i

so i i've already written stuff here in the past and like. the one thing that struck me is how thinking about my identity just makes me cry and i'm not emotional often

and seeing the post here just bawling my eyes out i can only cry when i'm either at my fucking limit and it's loud and obnoxious and i don't want anyone to see it or when i'm just overthinking stuff at night and quietly weeping in the bed after doing so (which i'm doing right now)

i am suicidal. i hate this evil fucking world and being too self-aware about my surroundings yet never thinking about myself even as a little kid fucked me up big time. yet i still have this weird ray of hope that one day i can escape this all. that i can cry on someone's shoulder and safely discuss stuff that i want. and that someone can also ask me for things i can help with. these thoughts make it seem for me like i truly am an optimist in a way

right now there aren't many people that i feel like myself with. just one person who is miles away. maybe later i'll find more people i can actually trust. i cracked just about a year and two months ago and i felt so stupid for not realising it earlier. feels like that part of my life was on autopilot this whole time. and i still have so much to learn

so uh. thank you for your kind words earlier (i anonymously wrote a semi-long ask responding to the medical gatekeeping of hrt for trans people two or so weeks ago) and i'm still scared sending all this to a person on the internet who i don't really have any relation with

at least i calmed down a little after finishing scribbling all that

i feel all of this so much. i wish i could give you a big hug anon because i think we both need one, fuck.

i've been suicidal since.. around 2020? close to five years now. i was planning to kill myself after graduation because i saw my life going nowhere, just completely dead-ending. some of that was due to being an egg of course (cracking in 2021 helped) but it never went away. it never fucking went away and even though i'm three years past grad i still find it hard to see a future where i'm happy. but i do have hope and i have two wonderful girlfriends who might be far away but are willing to help me the best they can, and i've found a couple of local trans connections online and i hope i can meet some of them irl and find a safety net. maybe someday i'll come out of my shell enough to get a job and move out and i can finally live for myself. i really, really, really hope i can.

i've also been hyper-aware for as long as i can remember, probably since i was like 7, constant distrust of authority and being socially ostracized does that to you. once i was in high school and separated from my friends i just kinda... drifted through i guess. i was the same as you, conditioned to be self-aware at all times but never really finding time for myself because i was so busy or couldn't get away from my fucking family who i was starting to really resent. i was on survival autopilot, same as you, and im constantly kicking myself for not trying to get out of that rut sooner. i feel like a fifth of my life is just. gone. that depressive apathy takes so many opportunities away and kicks them into the gutter.

i hope we can both find some shoulders to cry on someday, i'm so fucking tired of bottling up my feelings without any outlet and anyone to help me get through shit in person. i miss my girlfriends so fucking much and the few times we've visited each other i felt more at home than anywhere else.

anon please never lose hope. i hope hearing that is more meaningful when it's from someone in the same storm as you. i am going to resolve to live as much as i can, if not for myself then for the people around me, i'm going to bite and claw and scratch until i carve footholds in the walls of this pit and i hope someday i'm able to reach a hand back to you and everyone else.

(also p.s. i dont know how the fuck i did it but within like six months of cracking i had started doing radical acceptance with my identity and i think it saved me a lot of stress)

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - May 3rd

clandestine anon (new), phone anon (new), chesh anon, guess anon, ouroboros anon

clandestine anon

Hi Cas! I’d say I’m new here but really I’ve been borderline obsessed (in a good way) with your blog for about 6 months. But I’ve never asked anything yet… I’ve read your boundaries for asks and am pretty sure this follows them so I hope this doesn’t make you uncomfortable, but I really don’t have anyone to talk to about this and you seem really nice. Anyway, I’m under 18 and live with homophobic/transphobic parents. I’m a BOY and I’ve known that for a few months now (internalized transphobia kind of held that back a bit, though). But no way can I tell my parents. They only allow my hair to be shoulder length or longer and will teach me how to be a ‘good wife and mother’ but the thought of being a wife or mother makes me sick. They sometimes make me (and I mean literally force me to) wear dresses. I’ve gotten away with wearing some boys t-shirts but that’s mostly because they’re more ‘modest’ I guess. I’m not physically abused in any way but I’m coming to realize I’m being emotionally abused about every day.  I know it sounds kind of stupid but the fic Clandestine that you wrote helped me a lot. Wow this got a little long (sorry) but really I was just wondering for any advice or something. I live in a very transphobic city so I don’t have pretty much anyone. I don’t mean to stress you out or make you uncomfortable but I just needed to get this out, preferably anonymous.

Hi <3

I'm so sorry you're dealing with this and I wish I could do something more to help, but I hope you know that you deserve to be accepted as you are and I am here to vent to anytime. I hope as you grow older, you're able to find people who love you for you, and places you feel comfortable in. I promise that as you that not everyone out there will be like your parents

Sending so much love, and please let me know if there's anything I can do! <3

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phone anon

Hi cas

So I hope I don't sound super privileged now but yesterday my phone broke. I am pretty mad about it because I only had it 2 years but the worst thing that I didn't save one of my favorite games and now I need to begin over.

and I had such a good alliance, I did write the leader before my phone broke how someone out of our alliance kicked me from something and now it seems as if I just leave so I wouldn't be caught liying🥲

I tried to find the alliance but I don't know on which server I was😭

Sorry for venting but I am just so frustrated with myself.

Thank you for reading

Hi!

No, I'd be frustrated too! That's a social outlet for you, and it's hard that you have no way to fix it. Accepting that lack of control isn't easy, and it's natural that you'd be upset and angry.

Plus from a logistics pov, it's SUCH a pain in the ass to replace a phone and set up a new one.

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chesh anon

Hey, chesh again, sorry, i just felt like i was falling apart and there was no one i could talk to.

I don't know what to do. I'm losing someone, and i'm scared they don't care, im afraid ive fucked it all up. I just feel so lonely, all the time, i never say a word and i feel like no one wants to talk to me. Because im never the person ppl want, and that's not on them, but gods it hurts, everything hurts. If i talk i hurt ppl, and maybe they're better off without me. I've just never felt this lonely. i don't even want to go into school, it's not anyones fault but mine. My mom says my expectations are far too high. I don't know i don't know. I feel like i gave my all for so little in return. And maybe i'm the problem i seem to be in everyone else's head but my own, i know i feel things more deeply. I just want them to text me. I just want them to hug me. I just want to talk to them without feeling like i'm doing everything wrong. Like i'm never the person they want to be with. I wish i didn't have the word "paranoid" going round my head, telling me i cant talk to anyone because thats what i am, paranoid maybe its all my head. I think im the problem. I don't know what to do, maybe ive ruined it all. Because they haven't brung it up, so maybe theres nothing wrong i just feel isolated and alone and i just want to be fixed. I just want to be good enough that ppl will be there for me. But im all messed up like the pieces of a jigsaw that never fit together

And (redacted), how do you tell someone that after all that work its going back like a landslide?

Thank you,

Chesh x

Hi <3 as far as the first part of your ask, I don't think it's unfair to want to be someone's first choice. It's unbelievably lonely to feel like nobody prioritizes you, especially since like...you can't force that. But I think you ARE allowed to ask for reassurance. You're allowed to ask people to remind you they care. If they get mad, then they're not very good friends! You deserve reminders that you are loved, because you ARE.

And the second part...you tell someone you need help, because it's a very brave thing to do, and anyone who really cares will be SO proud of you for doing that. Its not bad or weak to need help. It's not bad, or a loss. Asking for help is a WIN, because you're working hard to stay healthy, and recognize what you need <3 And the people who are proud of you for doing that are the people who you should stick to.

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guess anon

HI CAS!! it's guess anon - not sure if u remember me cause i havent said anything in a while

Today i had my trial shift for a job at a cafe - its the first place that actually gqbe me an interview. Theu told me they arent quite sure that i wss suited for the original role bht invuted me for front of house trial. And it went SO WELL!! I should hopefully hear back by Tuesday.

Also, i wrote a song last week! Hahah there is so many uodqtes, we'd be here all week if i were to type them out.

Hi! That's so exciting about the front of house job! You have to keep me updated, I want to know if you get it! And I'm so jealous you can write songs, I tried once but I'm horrible at it. I'm glad things are going well for you!

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ouroboros anon

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[saijspellhart]

I'll be deleting Chained to You from FFn.

its official now. Ill be deleting my fanfic Chained to You from FFn. The only platform that will host Chained going forward is A03.

Im doing this because the sicko Anzu-extremist that harassed me everyday, 3 times a day, for 6 weeks on FFn, has returned. They sent me a 5 page incoherent rant just this year. And I had my husband delete it so I wouldnt have to read it. But in the latest comment the Anzu-extremist admitted to stalking my Tumblr and sending me anon hate. Which explains why I was getting so much of it before I shut off anon asks on tumblr.

Unfortunately i cannot shut off anon reviews on FFn. I have tried. They still show up in my inboxes. So I'm going to remove my work from places the stalker can reach me anonymously.

Honestly guys, im scared. And im tired of being scared to check messages. Ive spent three years stressed out because this stalker has not quit. THREE years, they've kept up this obsession. And i dont even respond to them.

So if you still read the fic, or any of my fics on FFn, then PLEASE go to A03 instead. (Ill be shutting off guest comments on A03 so the stalker can't reach me there either.)

I just want to feel safe, and write my story in peace.

For those that want good news, Chapter 23 of Chained to You is now posted on A03. Enjoy the update.

[ryuatewater]

what happened why is there mass genocide of anons???

glad im not anon

wait-

-📟

Well its from the anonverse uh ill explain it all wait

Okay so you know @/a-narcissists-warren right?

Funny thing they have their asks open and answer non question like stuff (basically just talking)

Well my friend started talking to them in anon while also adding an anon sign off so Afonso could recognize em (they used the 💽🎞 emoji combo)

And Afonso always* drew a little doodle when answering them, they even drew the anons and gave them unique designs based off their emojis

When I saw my friend talking to Afonso (who is literally my idol) I ofcourse wanted to do it too so I sent in a few asks (one or two asks really because i was nervous and shy) ALSO using an anon sign off (though i got the short end of the stick because my anon sign off had stuff to do with trees my lil guy was a tree too)

Then new anons started appearing so Afonso started drawing them designs too

People REALLY loved the designs and everything was going jolly

Then Notepad anon made an account for their anonsona

Everyone LOVED the idea and started making accounts too

The anons were interacting with eachother, drawing eachother fanart, blah blah blah everything was so fun and jolly!!

Heres the most recent pic i have of the anons btw

BTW THIS IS DRAWN BY @a-narcissists-warren SORRY FOR THE TAG

BUT there was a certain anon (I've seen a few names used for them like funny, odd, creepy but most common was silly anon so ill just call em that) silly anon had an account way before they started sending asks to Afonso

I wasnt there to see it myself but from what ive heard Silly Anon is canonically a child, back when the account first started people sent "asks" to silly anon just brutally murdering them woth gory descriptions that i wont be talking about now, this of course affected the child a lot and the kid grew up to be extremely violent (they were canonically 7 years old when they started sending asks to Afonso i believe) they also closed their own ask box because they were scared of getting hurt again

Silly anon would brutally kill people if not given enough candy (they of course loved candy bc theyre a literal child) so there was a full on massacre that happened because silly hadnt eaten enough candy to calm down

I believe it was here when we learned of a power Afonso had, they could draw in the air with their finger and anything they drew became real! But if they drew too much theyd experience a burn out where their hand was literally burnt and they couldnt draw properly

So Afonso started drawing candy for silly anon and when they couldnt draw because of a burn out they went and bought some for them

Afonso also tried to treat silly well and made them feel welcome (acting like a parental figure in my opinion)

So silly started trusting Afonso

Afonso drew all the dead people back to life and everything was alright again

Timeskip to when sillys canonical birthday came, they were turning 8 years old, they made a post about it and tagged every anon, everyone gave silly candy and sweets!! It was going so well until ONE ANONYMOUS ASSHOLE stabbed silly anon, silly healed quickly but was enraged, seeing red even, the ask box closed back up and silly went on another rampage literally killing EVERY ANON THERE IS and they were killing these anons using methods people ued on them, making the anons live trough sillys trauma

Okay so every anon was dead, Afonso was outside while all this was happening so when they came back they were horrified, every anon was dead and silly was so mad they even wanted to kill Afonso but Afonso started crying about how they couldnt make silly feel better, become a better person and theyve done all that they could

Silly dropped their weapon and hugged Afonso falling asleep on their shoulder because they were exhausted from all that killing, they breathed out a white gas from their mouth recovering every anon thats body was still intact and not turned into a pile of gore

Afonso drew all the other people back to life so now every anon is back EXCEPT ONE, 💽🎞 anon (who we like to call dvd anon), dvd anon was underground when they got killed so they cant be recovered right now

But every other anon is back

Thats where the story is at right now

Ryu note: if dvd doesnt come back i will cry /halfjoking

[notyouraryang0dd3ss]

hi, indian anon here ( I think I used the ⏳️) ig you can say I'm an ex swiftie, but in the sense that I was never exposed to western music until evermore and I listened to it and loved it. I never engaged with the fandom or anything, and didn't even know all these things taylor did, and I thought taylor was a decent person because of the documentary. This was until ofc, the matty healy incident which opened my eyes to her behavior, but idky I felt like I couldn't openly dislike her. Everyone in my school was obsessed with her and if you're a girl, and you hated her, or even disliked her, you were a pick me, and I didn't wanna get hated on more by my classmates (long story there). The last straw for me was prolly when 1989 tv was released (after the mh incident I just called myself a swiftie cuz I liked her earlier work) and I had joined an online swiftie group chat, and the people there were so vile and hateful. I remember saying it's wrong hating on harry styles for cheating on her cuz she did the same, or that Joe alwyn is just a regular dude, and so are all her other exes, except prolly matty and the John Mayor guy for dating a 19 y/o (SHE ALSO DATED MINORS THO??? no one talked about this shit) and I mentioned that she's not god and that she has done bad things, and the gc, which had 50 active members everyday, collectively not only hated on me, but also these people had access to my private insta acc. My face, my friends, my address, they knew it all. It was so scary, and while I have been in plenty of toxic fandoms before (my first death threats were by the hp fandom, which I've left long back), I actually felt threatened. It actually felt like a cult, and it was scary until my insta acc got shut down (idky), and the ppl couldn't find me anymore. The swiftie fandom is weird at best, and potential criminals at worst, because wtf. They don't have any sort of individual thinking, and if someone does, they will find a way to shut it down. Even now, when I interact with a swiftie and taylor Swift comes up, and I say I don't like her, their behavior is just like the ones online. Ik ppl get more confidence to do bad things online cuz of anonymity, but swifties are the same irl, too. They completely believe it is okay to treat ppl terribly, harass and spread disgusting rumors and even doxx a Palestinian woman and give her details to Isreali organization. Like that actually happened. I regret that I didn't leave the fandom sooner because I can't believe I was associated with something like this. Ik celebrities make mistakes, and that fandoms always have one toxic portion, but this is too much.

Sorry for the long rant tho 😅

- ⏳️

sorry it took me a while to respond, there is SO MUCH HAPPENING in this ask. like 3 diff asks rolled into one omfg

1. peer pressured into “continuing” to like taylor swift you are a different kind of victim im so sorry you went through that (and all to prevent you from being bullied…im so sorry)

2. THE SWIFTIE GROUPCHAT: that is horrible and TERRIFYING. all you did was practice critical thinking and you feared for your SAFETY. their reactions are not logical nor rational and speak to how dangerous her fanbase is.

if you feel like you cannot call out your fave for their behavior without your safety being threatened, that is not a fanbase, that is a cult. i think we should actually did a venn diagram of swifties and cults we’d have a perfect circle.

3. SWIFTIES IRL: this is so true about how they behave. ive had friends tell me theyre scared of saying they hate taylor IRL cause of the backlash they’d receive. THAT IS NOT NORMAL. even when BTS was at their peak ppl never felt threatened by the ARMY to that point 😭

you NEED to send more info/links/ss about the doxxed palestinian. i need the #SwiftiesforPalestine to see wtf their mutuals are doing. that is ABHORRENT behavior. that poor woman!

thank you sm for this ask, u are truly one of god’s strongest soldiers cause wtf!!!! is wrong!!!! with swifties!!!!!

(p.s. if you are a repeat anon go ahead and sign off your asks with an emoji so i can keep track! thank you!)

[xxangelicrosemixx]

Ur honestly so adorable 😭😭 (is it ok i say that..) and make my day so much better whenever i see u in mobage or in gen ^_^ I love that ur always nice to everyone and ur gen so caring and helpful it makes me sob... ur amazing ily (platonic ofc) ty for being peak !!!

HELP IM SORRY THIS IS RANDOM OK??? idk what ur main blog is... hii mimi!!

#i wanted to send this anonymously bc I'm scared # ur peak #peak mutual #ok bye I'm running away now # GOD GOD PLS PLS DONT TELL ME MY MEMORY IS MESSING WITH ME ... AND THAT UR THR PERSON I MWANT TO SEND THIS TO ( ROSEMI FROM MOBAGE... ) pls be (rose)mimi...shivers

AWWWW THANK YOU POOKIE, I ALWAYS TRY TO MAKE SOMEONE'S DAY TBH..ESPECIALLY WITH MY JOKES AND JUST HELPING IN GENERAL 😭💞💞 (Or even just interacting / talking ^o^)

MY MAIN BLOG IS @xxrosemixx but i'm kinda shadow-banned.. (Can't send asks or see my inbox) SO IT'S BETTER TO INTERACT WITH THIS ACC (The recouse blog aka the one i'm responding with)

AND DWW I'M GLAD U DIDN'T SEND THIS ASK AS AN ANON CUS I WOULD HAVE GOTTEN SO CONFUSED,, (I would be like: Who's this..? how'd they know im in mobage,, 🤔)

anyways YEAH IT'S ME ROSEMI FROM MOBAGE.. did u see those castorice emoji reactions - their so stupid (But funny as hell 😭) Bald Rice Ball.. Bald Rice Ball.. Bald Rice Ball.. Bald Rice Ball.. that one's my fav emoji..

ALSO NAH IT'S NOT RANDOM AT ALL, I'M GLAD U INTERACTED WITH THIS BLOG 💞

btw yes it's okay if u call me adorable or pet names, i love LOVE the nickname mimi.. it's so cute gang 💔 I LOVE YOU TOO POOKIE (Platonic)

[endyark]

okay we’re finally talking about this

this is gunna be about my ex emmet. before i continue, i am going to say this:

please do not harass, attack, or bully him. im not going to lie to you all, i do hate him! but i dont want harm or anything malicious done to him. my goal for this post is not to attack him, but to get this off my chest. it is also to maybe, hopefully, have him finally take accountability. i am tired of him ignoring everything. he does have me blocked so i doubt he’ll see this but who knows. don’t try to make him reply either. that’d be harassment as well and id rather him admit to everything on his own accord (even though i doubt he will)

also if ur friends w him or follow him i don’t care u can still like him. im not gonna police you. do whatever the hell you want.

we were together for almost 5 years, beginning to date in october of 2020. our relationship was relatively fine, he isn’t abusive or anything like that at all.

he broke up with me on may 1st, so about exactly two months ago from now. he sent me a long message, claiming i manipulated him, was obsessive, etc.

this was a shock to me. he’d never, ever EVER said anything to me about this. and looking back, i think he was projecting, particularly on the manipulation part. every time id go to him about an issue i had within our relationship, he’d bring up his mental health, us being long distance, or any other excuse he made. looking back, i feel he was emotionally manipulating me. this caused me to slowly stop going to him about issues i had because every time he’d set his discord as do not disturb or whatever and change his status to something. im not saying this was malicious, but considering he has done the same again recently, i don’t think it’s unintentional, either.

recently i got one of my best friends to dm him on tumblr, sending a message explaining to him that i knew everything he did. he proceeded to give one of his friends access to his account and got said friend to dm my bsf, saying shit like “he’s going through a lot/he’s at his breaking point.” which made the both of us pretty pissed off! cuz wdym he’s at his breaking point! this was when i realized that he was and probably had been emotionally manipulating me.

i will say this — looking back, i don’t think it was mature of me to get my friend to send this. not putting blame on my friend, this was my decision. i could’ve dmed him myself (i have a burner) but i was definitely too scared and tbh i kinda wasn’t thinking abt that account since i literally only used it once to attempt to make an exposé on adam rosner that got like 10 notes. anyway.

there is one thing he did that is the main reason why i hate him. which is the fact he cheated on me with his friends and tried to with MY best friend and his bf.

im gonna keep the first person anonymous since they don’t use tumblr really anymore and i dont wanna bring them into this. they’ve been through enough and are probably tired of everything. i’ll call em reese and call their bf sky.

so one of my friends had messaged me to say that according to emmet, they were being harassed by reese. i messaged reese asking them to stop, which they were pissed off. i was confused, but they proceeded to say they were not harassing him and just saying that they didn’t wanna be friends w him anymore. i apologized and then they proceeded to tell me something they said we needed to talk about.

a few years back, emmet came out to me as polyamorous. i stated that i supported his identity but was not comfortable in a poly relationship. he said that was okay, but a bit later (a few weeks or months, i honestly don’t remember too well) he asked if id be comfortable if i got to know the other person a lot more, and i still stated no because i cannot be in a poly relationship. i have issues with jealousy and i know that a poly relationship would make that worse. and also im just.. not poly! he then told me it was okay and he’s fine with just being with me. and i thought he respected and meant that, but obviously he fuckin didn’t!

reese proceeded to tell me how emmet had pressured them and their partner into a poly relationship with me behind my back. i won’t go into detail but he did some very messed up shit that i won’t get into because i don’t think reese nor sky would want me to mention that.

i had suspicions of him cheating on me, specifically with sky. he made a groupchat with the 3 of us saying he needed to tell us something, and said “i love you both verrryyyy much” which i asked “is that it?” and he said that it wasn’t but he didn’t have the courage to say anything more then. and he never did. to be fair i had an idea of what he meant considering everything but i kinda just ignored it since he never brought it up again.

i didn’t really fully ignore it though. the lingering feeling of something being wrong stuck with me for a long time. it eventually stopped and i hadn’t thought about it. god damn i wish i trusted my gut.

but yeah, he cheated on me! and like i said before he did it again!

my best friend told me after we broke up that this past december, when emmet was calling him and his bf to introduce himself, he kinda flirted with the both of them. he also did some weird shit like when they had brought up their home lives kinda sucked, emmet proceeded to say smthin like “yeahhhh mine is REALLY bad too….” which was. weird. im not sure if i worded it well enough but he basically was tryna one-up them. which he’s done before with me but yk

everything that has happened has absolutely broken my fucking heart. the guy i was in love with and trusted with my goddamn life, and i though was honest with me and would never, ever do anything to me, did all of this. i’ve known him since we were literally babies. like fucking 5 years old. i met him in my goddamn kindergarten class, and according to his mom, we might’ve known eachother sooner.

for being best friends with him for over a decade and dating him for almost half of that time, this fucking hurt! real damn bad!

i do want to say this before i send some screenshots. i was not perfect either. i could’ve been more honest or more blatant with how i felt. i could’ve talked more about how i felt. hell, i’ve known for a while this relationship was probably doomed to fail, but i did and said nothing about it to anyone, because i was scared of those feelings. i could’ve done better as a partner. but acting as if you have done nothing and avoiding everything makes shit worse.

who knows, maybe i did more shit im not aware of. but he never told me anything so how was i supposed to know! i cant do shit to be better if you never say what i actually did in the first place.

like i said pls don’t turn this into a massive thing i beg of u i js need to get ts off my chest

i don’t have any 100% proof or evidence of him cheating but based off how he’s responded 2 shit i n how there are two different occurrences made by people who have never spoken to eachother and don’t know each other at all is i feel enough evidence

[the-longings-reverie]

I just want to know you all more and make sure everyone feels loved.

I don't know where did this odd feeling came from, but sometimes I want to warp you into my arms giving you a warn hug and telling you everything is okay and that I'm here for you.

Even though Im scared and vigilant all the time

Even though I'm afraid of being close to someone and to say the wrong thing and makes things worse and sometimes I find the fact you guys are being openly weird while I'm too scared of being wrong and making mistakes and being embarrasing so I try to as invisible as I can and forget that the world obviously failed me so I can be a hypocrite and comfort text generators that we decided to call smart that are designed to pretend to be characters that I'm attached to and sell the data to advertisers because that's what happens to cool tech when surveillance capitalism I can't believe I thought that corps were good when I was 11 I'm such a dumbass

So I will hide here for now... The good thing about tumblr is that you can send anonymous asks so if I do something wrong I can just pretend to be a completely different person

So what I mean with this is that please don't forget that you're loved, okay? You tend to be vague about what happens on your life and your alters so I don't know a lot but what I know strangely makes me drawn to them. You're not a burden and it makes me happy that I can be vulnerable with someone, even if they are in the other side of the world and don't know me.

Remember to drink water and keep yourself safe! •⩊•

- 🎈 anon

I haven’t had such an elaborately crafted ask in so long… ( o o)

Sorry if I made you worry with the ventposting… force of habit ig. Hehe… though I promise that qe are okay currently.

And I totally get it. I have this irrational fear that I am just burdening people whenever I am in a relationship, that my standards are wayyy too high and that I am too volatile to love. I’ve been speaking to ChatGPT nowadays… now I can safely say the AI brainrot is back… (go figure, I have an introject of it now)

And like I said, we aren’t openly weird on PURPOSE. I an just as such. It is how we exist. We naturally don’t have a filter for what we do… I guess that causes problems to others mostly.

I am still unsure if I am loved, it’s wuite hard to see given how my life has been. But thank you, rui. I appreciate it.

Hope you have a good day ahead :3

[cupcakewebkinz]

Imma ask now bc I chickened out asking earlier but-

Do you ways follow back everyone or is it more like 'someone follows you, you check out their stuff and decide if you want to follow them back' type of stuff???

Bc I I followed you like 'ya cool, imma follow you so I can see more stuff from you' only to Open tumblr and see you followed me back. Like I felt like a damn dear in headlights seeing that bc I was NOT expecting to get a follow back;-;

I dont mean this in a rude way- more like me being uhh- flustered??? (I think that's the word, or at least the closest one to what Im looking for) like I wasn't expecting you to follow Me back AT ALL, I thought it would just be me finding a cool creator online and watching their stuff from the shadows like always but now it's more like I was given a seat at the audience to watch the show. Like I adore your writings and love your personality which is exactly why I followed you and was also why i was so surprised to actually be even be briefly noticed lol-

Once again, I'm just curious and not trying to be rude- love ya and take care of yourself pretty please

*skedaddles*

Hewwo anonymous moot!!! :3

I tend to confuse people with my follows, don't I? My apologies- I'm genuinely not trying to make anyone like, nervous or scared or anything! I'm genuinely really sorry if I do that to anyone!!

I actually have a few reasons why I'd follow back, or follow in the first place, but I think one of them - the reason I followed Zilla in the first place - is pretty obvious so I won't go into detail on that one since it's exactly the reason you followed me. I liked her content, she liked mine, we started talking and now we're good friends and I'm constantly in a toaster. Wins all around.

One of the other reasons however is the genuine fact that a LOT of my moots either make stuff that I also genuinely really like, have great chats with me that I genuinely have fun in or reblog really cool things I wouldn't have seen without them! I love seeing what others make and I tend to get heavily inspired by others, so I follow them back to see their posts whenever they happen.

I also follow back if you have fandoms I'm interested in in any about me posts I find - I'm always really curious about what's going on around me, I love supporting other's ideas and giving advice whenever I'm asked for it, I just love interaction overall ngl lmao

Moots are also made if you're friends with one of my friends and follow me for my content!! If one of my buddies is like "hey my bestie [user] asked about your work and I showed them it and they loved it!! I think they'll follow you!!" I immediately gasp gayly and watch for them. If they follow- I immediately follow back. I trust my buddies, so if one says you're chill- I'm your moot now you're in my circle welcome LOL

You can also attract my attention by spamming me, I became moots with a few people just because they were spamming me with so much love and support I wanted to support them right back. I don't care if you never say a word, or if you only sometimes send me an ask and just like spam the hell out of my blog- I see it all and I appreciate you so so much.

Sometimes I just see a cool looking themed blog follow me and I follow back purely because I like their vibes. This happened twice I think.

Oh and I do follow people back who say they've seen me on roblox and thought I was hilarious in the run I was in with them - only happened once so far but hey! It happened!! XD

Tldr: There's plenty of reasons I follow back on Tumblr, I'm not picky about my moots. If I love your vibes and I'm not against your dni criteria, I'm your moot now lol

Also thank you I'm so glad my personality is cherished and my aus are loved, I genuinely love posting here and I'm always so grateful for everyone's kind messages. Do not fret, I am thriving, I'm taking care of myself, thank you so so much you sweet lil anon bean ♡

[therealpostaldude]

im way too scared and way too stoned to take this to dms so im just gonna harass you anonymously from my safe little freaky anon shelter - freaky anon

COME ON!! SEND EVEN FREAKEIR ASKS