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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan xichen#jin guangyao#jiang cheng#wei wuxian#qin su#EDIT: Tumblr published an earlier draft with only half the notes I wrote so: late entry on my JGY thoughts.#Unlike the mystic powers of the stockmarket (what the OG meme is referring to) I think this situation calls for more active investigation.#qin su is such a deeply tragic character to me and I really wish we got a bit more from her.#Love everyone who sent me messages about her after the last time she appeared.#I think she needs a spin off of her being a transmigrator SO badly.#MDZS has so many interesting characters - but it sometimes fails to give them the proper room to really develop past a role in the plot.#That's just the consequence of writing a story like MDZS. Not every character in a book *needs* to have a rich inner life and backstory!#To do so would bog down the story and obliterate any notion of pacing. It's just not possible.#Jin Guangyao (nee Meng Yao) is unfortunately not free from this leeway rule. He is the culprit of this murder mystery plot#and thus NEEDS to encapsulate the themes of the book. And personally he's a 7 out of 10 at best on this front (in the AD).#MDZS is about rumours twisting reality and working towards truth. And about how people & situations are rarely ever black & white#JGY has his motivations. He's well written in regards to his actions making sense for his character.#What started as good traits (drive to succeed & improve his image) became twisted over time (do anything to maintain his image)#and it's a good parallel to WWX! He has the same arc (with different traits)! Bonus points for IGY in that regard.#but man....by the time we confront this guy for murder there's not a lot of grey morality. He's just...deep in the hole *he* dug.#There's a beautiful tragedy to it! More on JGY in later comics - this is getting pretty long already!
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the only thing about me that resembles her
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#angela lobcorp#angela lobotomy corporation#more lor things technically. plus spoilers. gives a hand shoo once more.#its nothing technically impressive or complicated since im.. so tired... so easily... but i wanted to do an angela piece even still while i#wait for my body to catch up with my mind. angela!! had this one for a little bit. shorter notes because of the lethargy#i was going to have the hands cradling angela's face but it looked off so i had it resting over her tie. heart/other red aspect though its#more of benjamin. but still a pop of red. staining of past people left behind once at the side or the sort. also angela's eyes were going to#look up but i wanted the 'looking at you and only you' sort of thing. obvious 'the red hairband the only thing about me that resembles her#the only memory that connects me to my maker' sort of thing as well. wanted to have the blood dripping down for multiple reasons but also#because.. can she cry? i dont think so. even if she wanted to she likely wasnt evem built with tears in mind. another aspect stripped away.#blood pooling of a person she could never be having aspects she could never have even though she could try and want an importantance like#her. a showing and mirroring of crying as the liquid pools in the crevices of a face and eyes.#or.. something like that. brain mush. thumbs up. angela#im not tagging carmen becuase she isnt There there. more of a reference despite it all
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pretty old OCs brought back, I think Nycta was my first human(oid) OC even. finally something for artfight people who dont draw furry lolol
Nycta got refreshed while Neb was finally drawn after existing for years only inside my head. it's been so long since I first came up with her character that I only remembered her nickname, dark skin, short black hair and shapeshifter gimmick
these are my only OCs which are actually meant to exist in the same world/setting. them and my less humanoid boi Averyll (which now out of the trio is the only one without a ref with description aww)
#actually established lore? in my ocs?#less likely than you think :/#original character#nycta#fuck my past self she didnt actually tag any of his art with his name and i couldnt find it#harpy#snowy owl#neb#shapeshifter#snow leopard#me using Ink Free font on every reference sheet
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YEAH!!! survivor ref!!!
like Monk, Survivor has nightcat (species) ancestry and is heckin sparkly :] bc i like sparkles
The fluffy black patches are the result of mosaicism! basically Survivor has 2 sets of DNA (aka being a chimera). in animals like cats, this can result in otherwise impossible color/fur texture combinations (such as a shorthaired cat having longhaired patches).
Also Survivor has so many scars bc she wants to fight!!! She has a knack for sensing danger but just bc she knows it's there doesn't mean she makes smart decisions when dealing with it lol
Notes transcript:
Snowy, "The Survivor;" she/her
Left side:
optional whiskers
one eyelash
black patches are fluffy and have glowy sparkles
leg scar is from initial fall
limps; pain flares up sometimes
dropwig bite on tail
Middle:
(left ear drawn upright for clarity)
pretty strong stop
beans with white are a different color
Right side:
lizard bite on back
neuron glow: white (#f5fbfd)
pup version has no sparkles
#raintailed's art#rain world#rw#rw survivor#reference#survivor is the average reckless rw player aka me#one time i accidentally jumped right into the jaws of a vulture#i also often try to backflip over lizards only for the lizard to twist around and catch me before i can get past it#oh!!! monk and survivor's true names are a headcanon i have had for years#tw blood#fun fact survivor ate one of moon's neurons during their first encounter and survivor felt so bad that she brought moon three more neurons
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I realised I never posted this....
This is Lily. My TF Prime OC. She became Starscream's emotional support bestie. Because my lord he needs one.
Lily found Starscream the way kittens in the cat distribution system find humans. (A little while after S02E05.)
Click for better quality.
Please don't repost to other socials thanks!
@fluidfox123 BESTIE I FORGOT TO POST HER ON TUMBLR. HERE.
#fun fact: i got the idea for her eye colour from a starset song called earthrise (and at this point starset songs are their anthems lmao)#me and the bestie have been obsessing over her for the past 2 weeks#she has taken over our lives#my art#kayzeanart#my oc#transformers oc#transformers prime oc#transformers#transformers prime#tfp#tf#tfp starscream#starscream#lily stellaris#the yellow specs in her eyes are a little reference to the best fic ever (Stop Me on ff.n)
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Is anyone else still caught up on the parallels between Imogen and Opal?? Because I am.
I was revisiting my c3e92 and c3e93 live thoughts and came across two big points:
Firstly the parallel of Ted disappearing in order to protect Opal with Liliana disappearing to protect Imogen. And the contrast of Ted, who did so by becoming an inseparable part of Opal while Liliana tore herself away desperately trying to separate herself from Imogen. Both done out of a will to protect the other. (Fyi This was written during e92 before the Aevilux reveal)
Secondly, after the Aevilux reveal, this connection hit me: The locket Imogen got from Relvin (potentially carried by Liliana) carried her baby fingerprint and the words “The better halves make/become a better whole.” A sentiment that Imogen tries to use at the Malleus Key and on Ruidus to get through to her mom. And who is a near perfect literal manifestation of this? THE AEVILUX. The people who split their souls in two (or were born separate in Opal/Ted’s case) and live independently before reuniting again and becoming more powerful for it.
Now imagine Imogen and Opal were to meet (obviously possible as both are being pushed to fight Predathos/those trying to free it) and Imogen repeats the locket phrase and something about it sounds so familiar to Opal, but she just can’t remember it. The group realize that there are gaps in Opal’s memory. Eventually Imogen is able to restore Opal’s memories, living through them alongside Opal in the process (kind of like how she projected herself into Laudna’s head in e103). Then Opal helping Imogen get through to her mom in turn. Or even just them fighting side by side to prove how much stronger you can be if you stop running from your better half. That coming together is a way better way to protect someone than running away and fighting those battles alone.
TLDR: I need Imogen and Opal to meet and talk this instant. Please Mattholomew Mercer I would do anything.
#I also need to add that the parallels between Opal/Laudna and Ted/Imogen are just as intoxicating to me#especially because Laudna referred to herself as Imogen’s better half after she relays the locket phrase#I also need Laudna to teach Opal to embrace her new spooky look btw#please let the spooky queens meet#and of course the southern casters#also caught up in the irony of Lolth taking on a champion who’s race (Aevilux) are a group of Luxon followers#aka the group of people Lolth is bent on destroying#and in a way she is destroying Opal by severing her connections with her friends and destroying her memories of her past and family#all while still using Opal for her own betterment#opal will never leave my mind and it is entirely Aimee Carrero and Aabria Iyengar’s fault#critical role campaign 3#critical role#opal critical role#exu opal#imogen temult#liliana temult#c3e92#c3e93#also Opal would def give Laudna tips on how to annoy Delilah even more#like spritzing her with perfume
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i have officially returned. ask me anything.
#random thoughts#i'll probably answer it tomorrow because i'm tired. i don't know why.#ciel if you see this i've been nicer to myself these past few days following your birthday. taking care of myself in general aspects.#which i sort of hate myself for but it's okay because. uh. i won't be like this forever. i'll be better at what i'm trying to do i promise.#new year's resolution is not fucking with me.........#oh also!! i've been sort of feeling like a dead person at times. and also like a cockroach. i have had to repeatedly tell myself that#i'm not dead i'm not dead!!!!#because i'm not. obviously. and i know i'm not. my brain is just silly. it likes to tell me i am things i am not like book characters.#and recently my mother got me my own rosary and we've been practicing praying together with my brother.#can you imagine how bad it must be for me to turn to christianity as a coping mechanism? not even when i was terrorized with death thoughts#not even in august for fuck's sake.#but it's actually not that bad. though i think i like the idea of organized religion more than i like being a part of it.#also i feel like my being catholic (mostly non-practicing) is betraying the queer community somehow. like. queer people have suffered#so much because of the christian church in general. so it's like. being christian is weird when i'm also queer.#but also then i feel weird when i try to do things in relation to christianity. like. put saint in my artist name.#that feels blasphemous i don't know. is it?????? it's not that serious either way but. augh.#i am going to write a song about this. also fellow christians is it okay to use the lyric 'uselessly clutching her rosary' or is that bad?#because i mean. technically. the she i'm referring to sort of is. because god isn't solving any of our problems.#he's just fucking. watching. if he's even real.#(and no my disappearance isn't related to the catholicism thing it's something else. as in the one thing i haven't told anyone else but cie#and an irl friend. if you are ciel then i am completely open to talking about said thing.#otherwise i will continue to drop cryptic little notes on my blog because I AM SILLY. {: )#going to play roblox now and maybe say hello to you fuckers on discord for a bit of fun. goodbye.
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i've noticed that i hate being referred to as a girl by regular straight dudes but i LOVE being referred to as a girl by other ladies and queers. much to consider
#like random guy in goodwill says “excuse me ma'am” while walking past me and i feel primal rage but-#-a transbian on discord uses she/her pronouns to refer to me and suddenly i'm walking on air#ocelotrambles#it's probably the lesbianism tbh#lesbotown
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me and my friend have the same thesis advisor and we just learned that she gave us different page counts for how long our proposals should be, and either a) it's because she's just playing fast and loose with the proposal guidelines, or b) she knows my friend tends to write too much and I tend to write too little, so she gave me a longer page limit and my friend a shorter one. I really hope the second thing is true because that would be the most genius brain maneuver and she deserves a raise for that
#i was like eugh i'm really struggling to get to the minimum of 20 pages#and my friend was like what are you talking about. that's my upper limit and i already know im going to go past it#i think it would be really funny if this was a strategic play on our advisor's part lmao#good for her.#for so long my teachers and professors trained me to be very concise with my papers#so now I'm TOO concise and I don't write ENOUGH#meanwhile my friend tends to be kinda wordy with her papers lol#so she got the 15-20 limit#and i got the 20-30 limit#wish me luck. I'm at 9 pages (plus references but i don't think that counts)
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thinks about how Shidou is constantly chasing after a past that will never be revived vs Mahiru constantly chasing after a future that was never meant to be
MILGRAM Portal Timeline (2023/10/24, Shidou's birthday) Mahiru: Shidou-san, you have a family...right? Having family, having children, how does it feel...? Shidou: Yes, it's a wonderful thing. Children are...Well, they're hope itself. When you have children, growing older becomes enjoyable. The more you age, the more your children grow. Mahiru: Ah...how wonderful. It was my dream to become a bride. It may be a little old-fashioned but, I wanted to make it come true... Shidou: It's not too late. I will keep you alive, Shiina-kun. Let's get out of here and make that dream come true. ...You still have your whole life ahead of you.
Despite their hopes being snuffed out by the loss of their loved ones, they still find hope within each other.
#the fact that mahiru refers to her dream in past-tense makes me so fucking sad#because to me anyway#that shows that she really thought of her boyfriend as her fated lover and now that he's gone there will be no one else for her#and shidou considering his dead children as his hope is also heartbreaking#and his devotion to make mahiru's dreams of becoming a bride and having family into a reality because his own are no longer with him#FUCK.#I feel awful for both of them#{⚖️ after knowing all I wonder. can you really forgive them? 👁️}#~💫 a constellation!💫~#milgram#milgram project#shidou kirisaki#kirisaki shidou#milgram shidou#mahiru shiina#shiina mahiru#milgram mahiru
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tav qotd: for those with playlists, pick three songs and tell me in the tags how they describe your tav/durge <3
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#tav qotd#bg3 tav#i don't know what else to tag this as 🫥#anyways three of makaria's are: cheerleader by ashnikko - brutus by emma blackery - mercy by king mala#naturally there are spoilers below so watch out ‼️#cheerleader is kind of a joke one bc she was originally based on the mean cheerleader trope but it plays into her ego and her hubris#and is kinda eerie in a way. also the 'cut throats and i feel better' line is just so good LMAO this song is such an earworm to me#brutus is wrt orin and how her treachery affected makaria; 'taking back what you stole' isn't in reference to bhaal's chosen but +#to makaria's sense of control over herself after being left helpless and forever changed by orin's literal knife in her back#and mercy kinda speaks for itself i think but it's the internal struggle against the dark urge and how could she ever possibly reconcile +#her ungodly past and move forward to be something more than what bhaal created her to be#rb games#jess.txt#makaria
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some rare not-furry art, featuring my baldur's gate / dnd weirdgirl, prim :]
i'm looking forwards to developing & drawing her a lil more as i progress through the game!
#my art#dnd#baldurs gate tav#bg3#tiefling#ref sheet#reference sheet#bard#pink#dungeons and dragons#oc:primrose#some things i couldnt include about her because it wouldve taken too much room:#(written in the first person as i'm just copy pasting this from her sheet)#- charisma comes naturally to me. befriending or deceiving the right honied words and a well timed smile can place the world in your palm#- i'm quicker to pick up on the emotions of others and use this to my advantage.#- - being well traveled has allowed me to learn and speak in many tongues.#- it is hard for me to let others get close for fear of rejection. undeniably i use people. they'll hate the real me#- it's not stealing if i need it more.#- - if revenge is an option it is irresistible and i will take it.#anyways. shes really cool and i like her a lot and can you believe i made an oc that isnt a sona???#expect t4t gay oc x canon love w like. all the origin characters in the future#tav#ttrpg
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Anyone else hate when people say if you didn’t do it you wouldn’t act guilty
like no I just feel very surrounded and trapped in this situation and that nothing I say will be right
or is this just me
#Making this post made me realize the root of what my family refers to as my “shutdowns”#Where I physically cannot bring myself to say anything at all and I know two ways that people handle it and the response I have to each typ#My mom after the first couple of times put together that I actually couldn’t respond and will give me five-ish minutes to gather my thought#And then come back and continue the discussion#My dad and stepmom however do not#They will continue to press for an answer(this is not helpful at all and has been a cause for them to become more frequent)#My stepmom is prone to mock me when I’m like this and make snide comments about how she thought we were past this#And how I should be more mature#This route will eventually lead to a full blown panic attack#autism#adhd#audhd#if you act like I’m guilty so will I
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seems like she’s just a mob character… she’s still really cute though~~~
#moge’s fanbox about zakenna was very eye-opening i’d say#it seems like the orange dress girl was just there to be a third wheel to mitsumona (slash jay but we all know the truth)#and he l p it seems like the hw team notices our ‘ehhhhh there’s only 1-3 images in this mv????’ comments im g o n e#moge’s comment along the lines of ‘mvs with tons of pictures [seemingly referring to story mvs] are *not* normal guys’ was so real though#wise words from lord moge i will never speak ill of 1 image mvs ever again#the way she talked about how it’s like to outsource mv artists though… man#bc yes moge was in charge of the storyboard for zakenna even though the art was outsourced to another artist…#…which y’know. makes me wonder who came up with idea for the lxl abs mv. but i digress#b u t it seems like she has a new mv in the works which. y’know. 👀👀👀👀👀👀 more mona pls—#let’s look forward to mona’s crossfade this week (prolly wednesday the 14th if they follow past crossfade schedules)#a n d let’s eagerly await this week’s mv!!!! no matter if it’s a 1-3 image mv or a full story mv!!!!!#which mv would it be though~~~~? idol de yokatta? surprise narumi sisters duet mv (possible tbh)? surprise nagisa kimikawaii (v. unlikely)?#ok yup that’s enough tumblr for the time being i think. back to ✨v o l t o r b f l i p✨
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I've been on a roll with drawing lately and used that momentum to launch into a long overdue drawing of @chaospastry's character, Marissa!!
I've meant to draw her for a very long time, and finally doing so was really wonderful. She's super cute and it was a blast to actually sit down and finish my sketches!
#my art#chaospastry#she's very VERY very cute#and I'm glad past me did a reference for what I was doing with the outfit#bc coming in after a while I had no idea
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i love having sisters because they help me assign my silly blorbos to different omegaverse genders and also call Mori a tsundere
#still crying laughing about that actually#and by sisters i mean sister cus shes the only one who was doing this but still#i have ranted to my other sisters in the past about various fic things and received interesting and questionable feedback and assistance#anyway she knows about bsd through 1. me and 2. one specific youtuber#her favorite is ranpo and she only remembered mori as 'the guy who stood 20ft away from fukuzawa to have a conversation'#(in reference to yosano's backstory flashbacks)#which she only remembered bc ranpo was there ekshdghdfgsdkfh#shh ac
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