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#I get tired of people trying to explain what lens I should view the world through; what way I could think that would make everything better#forgive me but I don't care; I do what I do and I do what I can and you don't see the work I do under the hood#I don't want advice on self validation or whatever; I want... I want someone to hold a mirror up so I can actually see myself#by which I mean I want input on how I'm doing; if it's good enough; if it's worth anything; if anything I make is good#everyone things I'm nice; everyone has always thought I'm nice#but given nice leaves me profoundly isolated I don't think I care#not to mention in my opinion what nice in this instance means is that I'm capable of listening#it's mostly that I have manners rather than some quality about me#I'm well behaved and polite and can listen; and that's perceived as nice or even sweet#and it's not like I'm offended by people seeing me that way; but maybe you can get why... I can't do anything with that information#but if I'm doing enough... if I provide any value to the world... I might have heard that less times in my life than years I've lived#that's where I'm totally blind#people don't tend to offer any input; and also people don't tend to let me know what they're thinking#and I in fact am not a mind reader; I can often accurately infer things; but no of that means a thing till it's confirmed#and... well... hopefully no one reads the stupid shit I say and especially not the tags so this is safe and hidden#but truthfully people just like to hear that stuff they're doing is wanted and matters#and I do not#I don't know... gotta go do more cleaning cause I need to#and I have no idea if... I've got a reason for fighting so hard to clean; but I get very little input so... I expect... well...#and thankfully I don't think they read my tags so I can say this#but I really expect they won't take me up on my offer to come out here and get away from their parents; so there will be no pay off#not that I blame them in the slightest... it's just the only possible pay off for this cleaning would be helping someone I like out#and a scrap of company#but then again... in many ways anyone coming out to live with me is the worst thing they could probably do#sorry... I have a rather bleak outlook on many things surrounding myself purely cause of what I infer from the past#there is never pay off; only more shit I need to get done#I will never be loved; I will never be wanted; I will always just kinda be an afterthought that's occasionally worth venting to#no one will ever be particularly interested in anything I'm interested while I'll chase their interests or at least try to#certainly let them talk about them when they want#...though I take that over my normal total isolation... better to at least be permitted to follow in someone's shadow than have nothing
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You ever sit in a fandom space for so long that now looking at it kind of makes you want to rip your nails off.
Yeah.
#feeling this with Omori#ill look at my recommended tags and see some shit and immediately think âthats enough for today.â#granted alot of the community is children so of course theres gunna be cringey posts and that's fine#but then theres times its just weird and i realise i am far to tired for this shit now#i wanted to try and get into fandom spaces to be myself more and open up but i have now just gotten tired#but ultimately this was also the point in my life i was having an identity crisis and i like to think i have changed alot over the last year#im tired of everyone being called out as a predator or twelve year olds fighting over stupid shit#id rather focus my energy into my real life problems and not the latest âblorboscimbosimp24â drama#christ sometimes i regret getting into omori which is sad because its a game near and dear to my heart#but everyday theres some new shit that happens that sends people fucking feral#and also omocat herself is just a whole can of worms i just cannot be assed with.#that's not to say i hate everything about fandoms. ive met and talked to some really nice people and i enjoy their stuff#but still i have so little patience for peoples bullshit#sorry for ranting but im done with everyones horseshit and people being predators and wether or not omocat is a creep#i dont know i sort of dont care because god knows i have far more pressing matters in my personal life that need my attention#also this doesn't mean im not talking or posting about omori. i still like it but fuck man sometimes it feels awkward saying i like it#rant#random rambles
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unpopular opinion maybe but if you're constantly putting negativity on your friends social media feeds and rarely anything else, kind is not a word i would associate with you. what kindness have you done recently? tell us about it, it might make you feel better so you won't have to post every day about how your life is so awful and nothing ever goes right for you. and maybe im just misjudging people but it's hard not to when they post every day about how terrible their lives are and yet not dwelling at all on things that they enjoyed, things that made them happy, things they did for and with other people. if you constantly refuse to see the nice and good things in life, you will end up being completely unable to see them, and then yes your life will suck absolute ass. watch the sunrise. dye your hair and talk about what the colours mean to you. draw some shitty art and post it knowing you enjoyed making it. spend time with friends, take pics and post about it. remember the good times and remember that experiencing awe regularly is fundamental to a stable mind and sense of happiness. Life is what you make of it
#and if you focus on the bad only then you will only see the bad#all lives are a mix of good and bad#focus on only one of these and you'll become cynical and toxic to be around im sorry to say#yes that goes for the good stuff too cus you will lose the ability to deal with the bad and sympathise with the bad in other people#life is a mixed bag. ENJOY the shit you like and write about it. post about it or journal or keep a photo album or some other memento#grieve with your friends and acknowledge the bad. but do not. Do Not make it the focus of your life#that way lies ruin and despair only#you have to act like you have hope and you have to do it every day#i need a tag for my own rambles#to be clear i don't think it's bad to rant. i do it myself#frequently. just it isn't and never should be the only thing i post about#i think there's a fine balance to strike between ranting and venting and making sure your friends know its ok not to be ok#and making sure your friends know you're miserable all the time.#it makes your friends feel guilty and inadequate. it makes your friends feel bad for having good and nice experiences#yeah. just. be mindful of the balance in your posts. that's all i think
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From the reblogs: official-boyfriend: #i met peter s beagle too and he is truly so kind and lovely #i was dressed as molly grue and he pointed to me and said Molly Grue! and i said Yes! She's my favorite character! and he said#She's mine too#the last unicorn is so good samiholloway: #my stoey is not this important or joyous but i met him in a con in orlando and he was lovely there too#its always a little iffy meeting the people who write your favorite books but i love last unicorn so much more since he was nice to us#like we were real people and not just part of a massive crowd at a big con; its a rare gift juniperandmoonlight (https://www.tumblr.com/juniperandmoonlight/751493233117446144/hopping-on-here-to-make-sure-everyone-knows-that?source=share) Hopping on here to make sure everyone knows that Peter Beagle has a new book out as of this month, "I'm Afraid You've Got Dragons" and it is a delight. Lovely and sweet and funny and heartfelt as you would expect from his writing.
duamuteffe: I met him a number of years back while he was on tour with a remastered copy of the film, and it's one of my favorite memories. He was kind and fascinating and genuinely interested in everyone he spoke with, and an endless fount of anecdotes. We had driven a couple of hours to Pittsburgh to see him and the film and it started snowing pretty hard and we had to reassure him that we had four wheel drive and were used to the weather and would be careful the whole way home.
hanamiyama-basketball-club: #I should really read all those books again#his writing meant a lot to me when I was young so hearing that he's a kind person is not surprising perhaps but a relief
emblazonet: #Tlu#Peter S Beagle#He wrote TLU when he was like 19 or 20?!#HOW?!!!#I met him once#And he was so so so exhausted#But he was trying to connect with everyone in that line#And signed all my books#Genuinely a treasure of a person
freyalorelei: (https://www.tumblr.com/freyalorelei/749244972835962880/my-husband-and-i-met-him-at-a-book-signing-several?source=share) My husband and I met him at a book signing several years ago. He took at least five straight minutes to chat with each and every person he met. When it was my turn, I had him sign two copies of The Last Unicorn--one for myself and one for my niece, who was two years old at the time. He signed her name (Eliza), and when I told him she was named after the main character in My Fair Lady, he told us that he played Colonel Pickering on stage, and sang a bit for us. Such a dear, lovely gentleman. He has my adoration for life. <3
pinkusponkus: #I met him at a showing of his movie and have a print that he signed for me#when he learned my name he sang me Hard-Hearted Hannah#I love him
augustdementhe: #I had the pleasure once#He told me I reminded him of his first girlfriend because she also had a sick ass afro (his sentiment my description)#I need to get the book
ravencromwell: #GOD. god this is just such a magnificent example of#humans being awesome#and yes. yes in a world which so often feels drowned in its own horror. in the refusal to bridge gaps across shared humanity. the refusal#to be kind. it is so fucking important to amplify the good. [I love this thread especially viscerally because it was sparked by one of my#fav authors: Kingfisher is a person whose books are infused with so much kindness and humor.while refusing to look away from the violence.#very much to me following in Beagle's footsteps. and so that she helped make this feels fated and perfect]#queer stuff#Peter S. Beagle#book babbling#lit geekery
alchemyarchetype: #i met him and told him i wanted to be a writer#his response was along the lines of#âthen you're a writer!â
bibliomancer7: #He's come to Dragoncon several times#and I go to every panel he's on because he's ALWAYS worth listening to#and his readings; he's an AMAZING reader#and I am deeply sad that the audiobook of him reading The Last Unicorn apparently has rights problems#I would pay SO MUCH money for that
labradorduck #i meet him when he came to Toronto#he was very nice#we were properly warned though that the signing line was long and slow because he is going to tell each and every person a story#and he did
crittymonster: (https://www.tumblr.com/crittymonster/748633483608571904/got-the-chance-to-meet-him-at-a-qa-film-showing?source=share) Got the chance to meet him at a Q&A + film showing at a small, local theater. He was wonderfully witty & very warm with the audience. Glad to hear that's just who he is.
tea42: #i love his writing so much#i met him at a con#his is lovely#he sang to me#charming charming man
khealywu: if you like The Last Unicorn, or Peter S Beagle, i strongly recommend âTamsinâ! itâs one of my favorite books.
#definitely one that would have formed min. 45% of my personality if iâd read it as a teenager#instead i read it in my twenties and it formed 13% of my personality#itâs so good#thereâs a ghost and the protagonist falls in love with her#after moving to somerset from manhattan#and the wild hunt and a bunch of other fey creatures#and the bloody azzizes and the ghost of judge lord jefferyâs#itâs amazing n7calibrations: Close to 10 years ago, there was a limited run of The Last Unicorn in theaters, and he made an appearance to introduce the film and sign autographs after. My mom got us tickets. He told a little story at the beginning about how he wasn't originally a fan of the band chosen to write the theme song for the movie. I forget the specific phrasing he led up to it with, but I'll always recall him joking about how if he wasn't careful the newspapers were going to have a field day running the headline "Peter S Beagle Hates America!". Also, if you havent, you should also read his 'The Innkeepers Song'.
[ID: Edited panel from El Goonish Shive. Ashley, or rather macksting using her image, fails to hold back tears; Elliott, sitting next to her, asks, "macksting?" in a tone of surprised concern. /end ID.]
I've met him in person btw and he's a fucking sweetheart
[ID: Text-intensive Twitter thread from the Shapeshifters chest binders Twitter account in reply to a post by artist and author Ursula Vernon. Vernon says, A non-zero number of you apparently did not know that The Last Unicorn was a book before it was a movie. It is by Peter S. Beagle. It is made of spun glass and fairytales and iron knives and there are individual lines that I would give my lungs to have written. Shapechangers replies, I saw him every year at NYCC for several years straight, bought something at his table, asked him to sign it, and we spoke. He remembered me from year to year, no small feat at that con. He remembered which stories he'd told me. One year I came back with a different gender on. He squinted at me a bit and said thoughtfully, "I've seen you before in this place." All I had to say was, "last year you told me the story about the inoshishi." And his face cleared, and he leaned in with a grin and told me about a German guitarist who he traveled with, twice. Who transitioned between the first and second time, so he'd gotten to meet this person all over again on the second round. It was a wonderfully kind way to let me know that everything was fine. I was fresh out of the closet and I needed that, and maybe he could see it. The Last Unicorn is the best book in the world and I will defend it and its author til I die. the end. /end ID]
I don't usually talk about celebrities; artists, when I do, and I'm keenly aware that one needn't be a good person to be a hell of a heartwrenching artist. But Peter S. Beagle has written a few of my favorite things in the world, he's an excellent singer and filker, and this Twitter thread was dreadfully important to me. I don't want it going away as Twitter becomes Shitter, because it's so often bad news, isn't it? It's important to me to share trans joy.
#other people's stuff#there are others and I endorse just going down the reblogs#peter s. beagle#shapeshiftersvt#shapeshifterscb#I don't know jack about that company but hey they seem nice#and this is their thread not mine#oh shit they do sports bra i'm gonna have to look into that i like sports bras#(feel free to @ me with your pronouns if they/them makes you uncomfortable I just literally have only the vaguest idea)#I left the typoes intact where there are typoes because I'd've felt weird editing other folks sentiments and it doesn't really matter#image description#peter s beagle#the last unicorn#tlu#last unicorn#convention stories#convention story#authors#trans joy#I'm broke and homeless and live separately from my wife and child so#I guess I really needed to hear someone say my transition is a gift to others as well#(lovie and I get along great but their shelter kicked me out for getting into a tussle with our white supremacist neighbors)#(there was a whole legal thing)#(That was a very inevitable clash I suppose but now I'm couchsurfing)#look just ignore most of the tags I'm just rambling#thanks for the update Shapeshifters you're awesome
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pairing: logan sargeant x james vowles assistant!reader y/n (she/her)
genre: social media au
warnings: just fluff!!!! i loveee this plot hehe
summary: in which your new job facilitates you in finding new love
a/n: i love this request & i luv writing for logan !!! not sure if i executed it super well tho let me know what you think đ my recent emojie now is just: đşđ¸đŚ
request!!!: May I suggest a Logan Sargeant x James Vowles assistant! Reader? Like her job is to get the boys stuff they might need and to like help out around the paddock and Logan keeps asking her to get him stuff as an excuse to talk to her. And people start to notice when Alex and James start lightly making fun of them in interviews and stuff. Just think it would be funny
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alex_albon & everyone knows it too
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alex_albon just for the record she is my girlfriend not yours ok?
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⤡ gender neutral, ambiguous race, and any size reader. Requests are open, thank you for reading! Â
a/n: not a poly relationship - I just decided to have them both in one post. Let me know if you want more xx Also I went through the tags for these guys and there is nothing but SMUT. So I wanted some sweet sfw headcanons for the boys
Warnings: swearing, nsfw included (no one under 18 please).
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INTJ
Ravenclaw
Neutral Good
Scorpio Sun, Capricorn Moon, Virgo Rising
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ăťThis man is fucking dangerous behind the wheel. And although he is a hot-head occasionally, it isn't when he's driving.
ăťSimon knows he's shit, so when people honk at him, give him the finger - he just stone-faces it. Let's them berate him because really, he doesn't fucking care.
ăťHowever he has lost his licence a few times ... and so you told him he could be your <3 passenger princess <3
ăťSimon wasn't amused ...
ăťVery much the protective type, verging on possessive. Not in an abusive way, but he wants everyone to know that you're his. So when anyone flirts with you - or even when they're a little too nice, his jealousy consumes him.
ăťScary dog privledges, with and without the mask. This man is intimidating as fuck.
ăť6'4, wide shoulders and big hands, so it doesn't matter how you look, how tall you are etc - Simon is bigger, taller and stronger.
ăťYes he can be a hardass, but when he loves someone, that roughness is somewhat smoothened out. He'd hate to hurt your feelings.
ăťHe only wears his mask to hide his identity; he takes it off when missions are done.
ăťAnd when he's home, he rarely wears it.
ăťAbsolutely HATES being jump-scared. And his reflexes take over (you've learnt from the first and last time)
ăťThis goes with random kisses as well, sometimes you just have to make yourself known before touching Simon
ăťHe isn't huge into PDA, but when outside he will gladly hold your hand, bump his shoulder into yours when you make a crappy dad joke.
ăťThe biggest misconception is that he's cold. Well, at work - obviously he is. But at home, with you, he has so much warmth. A lot of life.
ăťHe has great banter. Absolutely has both of you laughing your asses off.
ăťCalls you "love," "sweetheart," (all in his gruff, chiselled brit accent). And when you're alone, he calls you names like "my love," "hun," "sweet cheeks."
ăťYou're slowly learning about Simon's past, which he shares little by little.
ăťToo much information and he's scared you might feel overwhelmed and leave him
ăťThere's some deep trauma there, but the army has therapists and everyone gets checked out before they're deemed mentally healthy enough.
ăťHe does want kids, but only after he's done with the military. He would hate to be an absent father in any way. And he wouldn't want you to have that full responsibility.
ăťA lot of people characterise him as this traumatised man who can barely look after himself. But that is far, faaaaar from the truth. He's very competent. And he eats a LOT. But he also works out (to keep in shape, he actually hates the gym) (also he doesn't expect you to do anything of that stuff. He loves you for you.)
ăťI also have this headcanon that Ghost/Riley would love Metallica, Slipknot, Black Sabbath etc. It's one of the things that calm him down. However, if he's had an overwhelming day, he needs no noise whatsoever.
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Teases Them (You) x About To End Them (Ghost)
The Moon and His Star
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Opposites Attract
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Say Yes To Heaven by Lana Del Rey
Arsonist's Lullabye by Hozier
Enter Sandman by Metallica
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ăťThere's almost like two sides of your s/o. The Ghost side, where the mask stays on, and he's rough, possessive, dominant. And then the Simon side, where he likes soft touches and when you gently stroke his face
ăťYou've both discovered that Simon likes it when you wear his mask, gloves - nothing else - and touch yourself.
ăťEven with your cum juices on the mask, and gloves, he'll still wear them to work.
ăťIt's the only kinky thing he brings with him while on deployment. You did want to take a naked polaroid for him but he didn't trust the other guys not to somehow see it.
ăťHe likes keeping you as separate from army life as much as possible. Because you feel like home, and it gives him hope.
ăťGhost loves taming your bratty side. He's short, demanding and can shut you up with one look.
"Keep on actin' like that, and see what happens."
ăťOf course you keep acting up, and when you get home, you pay for it tenfold.
ăťGhost's hands are as big as a paddle, and when he has you over his knee, ass up in the air. He doesn't hesitate in leaving red marks (all consensual. He wouldn't do anything without having a conversation before hand).
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Hufflepuff
Chaotic Good
Aries Sun, Aquarius Moon, Leo Rising
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ăťA 6'10 king, who suffers from social anxiety but has this soft, silly side that he loves showing you and only you (I will take no criticisms on his height. It is LAW. My law.)
ăťBecause of his anxiety, social aspects of life are much harder than work. He's highly skilled in combat, and has a lot of confidence in his abilities to accomplish missions.
ăťHowever, when you tried to speak to him, all he could do was stutter.
ăťYou allowed him to get the words out, but he was an absolute mess afterwards and went to go train.
ăťBut this didn't deter you in the slightest. Hell, you had been trying to muster the courage to speak to him for weeks...
ăťIt took a while for Konig to open up about his past, especially his adolescence.
ăťHe's told you the jist of it, but there's details that you don't push him on.
ăťOne of your favourite pastimes together is going to bakeries and eating the most delicious pastries.
ăťWhen you're feeling down, or there's something to celebrate, there's no cake but pastries instead
ăťDoesn't mind animals, but understands that when he's away you will get a bit lonely. So you surprised him by getting a pair of kittens!
ăťYou showed him over video chat, one white kitten and one black.
"I haven't chosen names for them yet, but I thought maybe you could have some input?"
"Schatz! The kittens are cute but you have scratch marks all over your arms!"
"They're very playful!" And then you leant closer to the camera and whispered, "I leave scratches on your back ..." And with an innocent look on your face, you watched as Konig shivered.
ăťLikes to put you on his lap when he's cleaning weapons, or getting the marks out of his mask or shoes. Okay honestly, he just wants you on his lap all the time. Whatever excuse he can come up with - he'll goddamn use it
ăťAbsolutely loves Kate Bush and Stevie Nicks. He thinks they have such a beautiful sound that you can find him with headphones on, swaying in the bedroom, silently in his feels
ăťAll your pet names are in Austrian/German:
"Schatz", meaning 'treasure'.
"Maus," meaning 'mouse.'
"Liebling" meaning 'darling.'
"Hase" meaning 'bunny'.
"Liebe" meaning 'love.'
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Always Bringing Them Rocks They Think They Would Like (You) x Keeps The Rocks (Konig)
The Gomez & Morticia Adams
I Donât Know What Iâm Doing But At Least Iâm Alive, Right? (You) x Youâre Doing Great, Sweetie (Konig)
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Hidden Identity & Forced Proximity
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Running Up That Hill by Kate Bush
The Chain by Stevie Nicks
Dance of the Druids by Bear McCreary (he loves movie scores as well. It's one of his fascinations).
đđđšđ đ No one under the age of 18 past this point, makes me feel weird if you read it.
ăťKonig is a bit awkward at first with the sexual interactions you guys have. He does have anxiety, but also, the build up of sexual tension had been going on for months.
ăťAll he had during that time was his hands and the memories of how you looked, the way your eyes met his then flicked downward - almost like you had x-ray vision.
ăťThere was no denying the heat.
ăťSo when you first hooked up it was a fumbling mess of grunting, clothes ripping and fast hands trying to touch and grab at any bare piece of flesh.
ăťYou did have a shocking revelation that first time however. Because this man's cock is not only thick, veiny but nearly 9 inches when he's hard.
ăťThat first time wasn't a true first time as the look on your face told Konig everything - you weren't ready for that part of him ... just yet.
ăťLoves when you ride his thigh; they're absolutely huge. Just muscled and bulky and the first time you saw them (without the uniform) you audibly gasped.
ăťHis body is absolutely divine
ăťLike it had been sculpted by the gods. Large biceps, long legs, small waist, large shoulders. His hands wrap your neck perfectly.
ăťYou feel so safe with him.
ăťAnd you have to remind him that, because sometimes he worries he could hurt you without meaning to.
"I'm a grown up, Konig. I can handle myself."
"So when are you going to let me fuck you?"
"mmm... I think I still have to get used to that. Maybe we can do fingers first..." (his fingers are ... fucking huge).
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paparazzi â J.C.
warnings: cursing, angst, mentions of anxiety/self worth issues,
word count: ---
pronouns used: none!
request: can u write where like us and jack are out like at the mall abd fans come up to us asking for photos and all that? (were also a actor/actress. idk is this made sense to uđ)
authors note: I added a bit of other stuff into this, so sorry if this isn't what you wanted. i love this idea deeply! <3
Being an actor and going to the mall was... Stressful. You never knew if you would be recognized, so you always had to wear presentable clothing, plus you didn't know if the people who would recognize would even like you.
The mall was no exception. With the endless stores filled with fellow teenagers and young adults who knew both you and Jack, there was bound to be at least one person who knew you.
Going out with Jack was easier than being alone. He's always there to tell you that no matter who you see, or how they feel about you, you still have fans that love you... Including him. He'll hold your hand, and tell you to squeeze it if you get anxious, give you more small kisses than usual (which is already a lot). The PDA worries you further, thinking that if someone who likes him more sees you two kissing that they'll post about it and try cancelling you or something, but the love is worth it.
You came to the mall to go shopping, you needed some more casual clothes, and Jack needed some higher end items for a premier. Walking into the mall was thankfully uneventful, but once you got further into the populace of the mall, that's when the pictures started.
It wasn't paparazzi standing right inside waiting to run you down but to get pictures, but there were teenage girls who found Jack attractive. While you were also an actor, and have also been in popular things, you weren't a hot boy...
âOh my god! You're Jack Champion. Holy shit, can we get a picture with you?!â And so it started. He obviously said yes and you moved to the side, not before he kissed your hand though. He wrapped an arm around the girl's shoulder, smiling big for her friend with the camera. They switched so the previous camera girl could get in on it. They thanked him before walking past, both still bright red, slightly shaky and whispering about how cute he was. You had to agree.
About every 30 feet was another person asking for a picture, or autograph. He would stop and gladly do whatever pose they asked for, or sign whatever they wanted. He loved all of his fans, and was willing to do anything for them.
After splitting up and going to your designated stores to buy the items you needed, you two found each other.
The walk to leave was mostly uninterrupted, just a few people recognizing you two and taking pictures. âLooks like we have some paparazzi huh?â Jack jokes, smiling at you. God he's so pretty.
âYeah...â You say in mindless agreement. You were too busy looking at his smile and the way it made his eye squint slightly.
âStop staring.â He says as he blushes and looks away. He loves your attention, but it doesn't stop him from blushing every time.
Once you two were home you spent time scrolling through Instagram, looking at the posts jack was tagged in, seeing all the pictures fans had taken with him.
Then... There was a picture of you.
It was a ânewsâ Instagram account that posted celebrity sightings.
âAh, I see you've found the stalker photos...â Jack chuckles as he approaches the back of the couch. He puts his chin on your shoulder watching as you scroll through the pictures.
âYeah. I'm actually... Kinda flattered?â You almost ask. He hops over the back of the couch to join you in sitting. He looks at you questioningly.
âWhat do you mean?â He asks quietly. You hated having candids taken, they âalways looked bad.â
You look at him before looking down embarrassed. âWell... Normally it's just pictures of you. And I hate photos, you know that, but... It feels nice to be recognized. I just feel like an accessory to you sometimes...â You admit softly.
He grabs your chin, forcing you to look at him. Once you make eye contact, both of his hands settle on either of your cheeks to keep your head steady.
â[Y/n], you'll never be an accessory. You're your own person. You're an amazing actor, and an even better person.â He states into your eyes, and you can feel something. Something warm deep inside of your stomach. Something in your chest, like you'd just drank a hot drink on a cold day that warmed up your insides.
âI love you.â You breathe out, thoughtlessly. Thoughtlessly.
Your eyes widen in shock as your mouth falls agape. You actually said it... Holy shit. He's silent. Oh fuck. Oh god. This was such a mistake.
âJack, I am so sorry. I-I wasn't thinking and it just fell out and I know we haven't said it yet, and I don't want you to feel obligated to say it back but I just-â
âI love you too.â He smiles softly, leaning in to kiss your lips. It felt like the stars aligned and the earth stopped spinning and time stopped and everything else people use to describe being in love.
You pull away, looking into his eyes, tears welling in yours. âAre you ok? Should I not have said it?â He asks, brows furrowed in worry.
âNo!â You exclaim grinning, then reaching your fingers to the nape of his neck, âI'm just so in love with you.â
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Ive been noticing an increase amount of Dreamtwt refugees, and let me preface with saying: Welcome!!! Genuinely, we lovingly welcome you to this happy lil community.
That being said, Tumblr is confusing, between the big etiquette book and the interface that hasnât changed since 2008 there is a lot to learn. So this is my little attempt to a welcome guide tailored to our lil dream community! Feel free to add your own recommendations and stuff.
Tumblr is a Blogging site, a goog ol relic from ye olden days, your âprofileâ is your blog, and you can put anything you like on there! However, please do change your avatar and background, we have a massive bot issue here and we tend to auto block someone with a standard avatar.
The main tags for the dream team are as follows: - just their entire usernames, but, those do get hooped up in controversy from time to time. -Dreamblr for the content creator dream
-Dreblr, for C!Dream
-404blr for CC George
-pandasblr for CC Sapnap
-Dtblr for the Dream team
PLEASE REFRAIN FROM USING: #Dream, thatâs for people actually posting about their dreams, and #myct as it is mostly used for general MYCT stuff, we prefer to stick to our own spaces.
âhow do I find people?â you go to any of these tags, find someone you vibe with and click âfollowâ. The algorithm here sucks, and we donât advice the âfor youâ page.
On that note, the âlikeâ button is useless, use reblog instead! If you like someoneâs hot take, art or stupid shit post, REBLOG. Its how we keep our fandom alive and active here :D
When you reblog you usually keep your comments in the tags, one only really uses the comment section when they DONâT want to reblog. (usually because of le discourse).
Send people asks! People love to chit chat, you can do it anonymously! Tell that one artist youd love to have their brain for lunch! Engage with everyone! We love discussion and open communication here. (prob since there is no real word limit to posts)
Tumblr has developed a nice âblock liberally, no need to make a fusâ culture. You can block someone for any reason, and it really isnât a big deal.
On the Tumblr is more relaxed note, we tend to be more relaxed on CC boundaries, since most CCâs do not use twitter. If you donât like people breaking CC boundaries, even in places where they cant see it, follow the advice above and blockkkkk!!!
Please spell out words! Donât censor triggering words at it can fuck with peopleâs filter settings, by censoring these words you put people in more risk. Â
Now for some technical advice: Most tumblrinaâs turn on âhide likes and follower countâ . Any blog can have 4 people following it or 4000, we like to keep it mysterious.
Also turn of âbest content firstâ- once again, the algorithm is not to be trusted.
Furthermore, you can really personalize your Tumblr experience and please do! Under âaccountâ you can find many options to filter the content you see, make use of it, for your mental health sake.
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The Harrington Pattern Part 8
We have finally got to the part that started this whole story. Steve being validated by a professional.
Robin gets a pretty dress. And Eddie gets a little jealous.
Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5Â Part 6Â Part 7
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Eddie joined them at the shop just as they were finishing up. Will used the extra ten he had to buy Steve a pretty little dagger that was mostly a letter opener, but Steve fell in love with it.
The dagger was silver with a moon in the hilt, the cross guard had moonstones on either side. It was nestled in a black velvet box that he was told he had to leave the dagger in and not pull it out while at the fair.
Steve promised he wouldnât and turned around to nearly run right into Eddie.
âWhoa!â Eddie said, putting out his hands to steady Steve. âI didnât realize I was that close to you.â
Steve blushed. âYou get your schedule sorted for tomorrow?â
Eddie grinned. âSure did, sweet thing. Will get his staff?â
âI donât think Iâve seen anyone so happy,â Steve said with a smile. He jutted his thumb behind him to where Will was happily chatting with the seller.
Eddie peered around Steve to see where he was pointing and sure enough, Will was talking to the guy about magical users in DND and how they should expand it to include other types.
Will spotted Eddie and said goodbye to the seller. He rushed over to where Steve and he were talking.
He held out the staff for Eddie to look at. âWhat do you think?â
Eddie and Steve shared a fond smile. âIt looks great. Will the Wise has finally got a staff worthy of him.â
Will blushed.
âWe should put it in Eddieâs van,â Steve suggested, âso it doesnât get stolen.â
Eddie cocked his head to the side. âWhy my van?â
âBecause it wonât fit in my car,â he replied with a blush staining his cheeks and creeping up his ears.
Eddie cackled. âFair enough, Stevie!â He looked around and spotted Gareth with an arm full of all sorts of wares, from swords and armor, to decorative goblets and boxes that no doubt held jewelry.
âHey Gare!â he said following an ear piercing whistle.
The younger man lit up and jogged over to the trio.
âHey, Ed!â Gareth said with a shit eating grin. âYou like my haul?â
Eddie shook his head. âSometimes I think your parents have more money than sense, but Iâm not about to begrudge a well plotted haul.â
Gareth grinned. âOh, they absolutely have more money than sense. I just know how to use that to my advantage.â
Will and Steve laughed with them.
Eddie pulled out his keys. âSince youâre clearly in need to be relieved of your loot or grow three extra arms, you should take Will to stash your stuff for later.â
Willâs eyes lit up. âOh, thatâs a great idea!â
Steve just shook his head fondly as he watched the two boys walk off chatting about their prizes.
âItâs nice to see Will come out of his shell around new people,â he said to Eddie. âHe really needs friends outside of the Party.â
Eddie nodded. âAnd it helps that I forced them to be read in with Wayne because there was no way I was going to keep a secret that big with the people who are my family.â
They began their stroll through the other stalls, stopping here and there.
Steve spotted a clothing shop and armory and he sided eyed it longingly. There was no way he would the money for anything in that shop. He chewed his bottom lip and was about to move along, when Eddie grabbed his wrist and pulled him toward a black leather cloak.
Steve was admiring the construction when he heard a voice behind him say, âThatâs a neat tunic, but you do know that youâre supposed to wear a chain shirt under that specific kind, right?â
Steve turned around to see a buxom red head in a bodice and flowing red dress. Her hair was piled messily on her head, but Steve could tell it was artfully done as the structure seemed too sound to be accidental.
âCanât afford the see the armorer,â he said with a wink and a half shrug.
She laughed. âI guess I deserved that.â
Eddie smirked.
âI like your tunic,â the red head said, looking Steve up and down. Eddie bristled next to him. âWhere did you get it from?â
Steve grinned, placing a comforting hand on Eddieâs elbow. âI made it.â
She raised an eyebrow. âNo shit. Really?â
âYes, he did,â Eddie defended. âHeâs amazing.â
Steve flushed with pleasure at his praise. âI dabble. Iâve been sewing for about a decade now.â
She walked up to him and admired the stitching on the hem on the tunic. âThatâs really impressive.â
âThanks, I was admiring your work on the construction of the cloak here,â Steve said. âWas it hand sewn?â
âFuck no!â she said, rolling her eyes. âI wouldnât have time to breathe if I did that.â She smiled to have him join in on her joke. But when Steve continued looking at her in awe. âWait...â she said, as it slowly dawned on her. âYou did all of this by hand?â
She brought the hem of his tunic up to her face. Steve blushed and Eddie batted her hand away.
âOi! Donât get fresh!â
She raised an eyebrow at him.
âI think a name would be a good start before you go and get grabby,â he growled.
âOh!â she said slapping her forehead. âRight, sorry! Iâm Katie. I run Damsel in this Dress. Nice to meet you.â
âIâm Steve and this is Eddie,â Steve said.
Eddie looked only slightly mollified and Steve rubbed his lower back soothingly. Eddie preened, leaning into the touch.
Steve cleared his throat. âBut anyways, yeah I stitched it all by hand. My parents didnât think a boy should âplayâ with a sewing machine.â He put play in air quotes.
Katieâs eyes went wide and she looked back at the tunic hem in her hand. âBut itâs so tight and even...â
Eddie grinned. âIsnât he amazing?â
She looked over at him. âHe do yours too?â
Steve shook his head. âNo, not his.â He spotted Robin walking by. âBut I see someone elseâs outfit I worked on.â
âRobin!â he called out.
His soulmate came to a...well stop wouldnât be quiet accurate as she kept in motion, flailing around a bit trying to regain her balance from her aborted step.
âSteve!â she called back and hurried over to him.
Katie looked her up and down. âYou did her costume too?â She raised a skeptical eyebrow at Steve.
Robin grinned. âHell yeah, he did! Heâs awesome!â
Katie looked back and forth between them. âMay I look?â
âOh I know!â Eddie said cheerfully. âWhy donât they try on something of yours so that you can take a look at their costumes without you having to get all handsy.â
Robin raised an eyebrow at Eddie but turned gleefully to Katie. âThat sounds like a great compromise.â
Katie cocked her head back and forth. âCould do, I suppose.â
Steve immediately went for the chain shirts, while Robin wandered around some.
âYouâd look pretty in one of my corsets,â Katie said waiting for Steve to get out of the tunic to hand it to her.
Robin blushed. âArenât they like painful and gross?â
Katie laughed clear and bright. âNot really. For centuries they were the only form of support a women had. Now, there were tight lacing bodices and corsets, but that wouldnât happen until much later.â
Robin chewed her bottom lip. She really liked the blue dress and the blue and gold corset. âCan I try on those?â She pointed to the ones she liked.
âWhatâs your bra size?â Katie asked pulling out the right size dress.
âUh...â Robin said with a blush. âItâs not very...â
Katie nodded. âItâs fine. I think Iâve got the right one for you anyway, but if itâs too tight or too loose let me know and Iâll find a different size.â
Robin nodded and Steve came out of the dressing room to hand her his tunic.
Eddie let out a low whistle. âLooking good, Sir Stephen.â
Steve did a slow turn and both Eddie and Katie gave him appraising glances.
Robin peeked her head out form behind the curtain. âUm...help?â
Katie was immediately by her side. âWhatâs up?â
Robin walked out with the laces in her hands and corset not tied.
âOh!â Katie said. âGod, the heat must getting to my brain today. Oddâs Botkins!â
She grabbed laces and showed Robin how to lace it properly.
âHow does fit?â she asked stepping back to admire her creation on Robin.
Robin grinned. âI never realized how much I slouched until just now.â
âYeah,â Katie said with a laugh, âI hear that a lot.â She spun Robin around causing the skirt of the dress to billow out like water rippling in the breeze.
âWow, Robbie,â Steve said in awe. âThatâs gorgeous.â
Eddie hummed his agreement. âLooking good, Buckster!â
Robin squeaked and then dashed back into the dressing room. She came back out with the shirt Steve had altered for her.
Katie took the shirt and tunic and laid them both out on the counter where the cash box was.
âItâs literally seamless,â she said in awe. âAnd you did this by hand?â
Steve nodded. âBut Iâve been doing it for years so...â He half shrugged.
âHey, man,â Eddie huffed, âdonât diminish your awesomeness. This is hell of a job.â
Steve nodded, blush creeping back up on his cheeks again.
âWhatâs this?â Katie asked, tapping the embroidery on the hems of both pieces. It was a lovely little floral pattern that was off white on Robinâs shirt so that it blended in, but was a striking silver on Steveâs tunic.
Eddie leaned forward. âOh, I never noticed that before.â He smiled widely at Steve. âItâs cute.â
Steve flushed even deeper, the red now covering his whole face. âItâs a little something I add to all of my designs. Itâs a little signature if you will, so youâll always know I made it.â
âA Harrington pattern?â Robin asked, leaning over to inspect the embroidery, too.
Steve nodded.
âHave you thought about selling your pieces?â Katie asked. âYou could be making bank with these.â She lifted up the shirt to emphasize her point.
Steve shrugged. âSure, but I wouldnât have any idea where to sell them or who to sell them to.â
âIâll sell them for you,â she said, âfor a cut of the profits, of course. I sell at gaming and comic conventions, Ren fairs, sci-fi and fantasy conventions.â
Steve chewed on his lip. âI donât make them very quickly. With them being all hand sewn.â
âWhich makes it all the more valuable,â Katie insisted. âA hand sewn dress from a major clothing designer would be worth thousands, sweetie.â
Robin mouthed the word âthousandâ in shock.
Eddie pounded Steve on the shoulder. âHell yeah! Just sell a couple of pieces every once in while and youâll always having spending money.â
Steve thought it over and then nodded. âYeah. Yeah, Iâd like that.â
Katie and Robin cheered while Eddie and Steve shared a warm smile between them. A smile that sent butterflies through Steveâs chest. Eddie was always there for him.
Always.
Katie pulled out a business card. âGive me a call when youâve got pieces you want to sell. And donât leave off that signature either. Your Harrington Pattern as your friend called it.â
Steve took the card frowning. âBut wonât that make it harder to sell? Especially the male stuff?â
She shook her head. âThe people that buy this sort of thing are the last people that would care about a floral design, particularly since it would make it more authentic.â
He blinked and mouthed âohâ. She was right. âYeah okay.â He lifted the card. âThanks for this. I guess Robin and I better go change out of these so you can have them back.â
Katie shook her head. âThink of them as an investment in Steve Harringtonâs clothing venture.â She lit up and dashed over to the cloaks. She grabbed the leather one that Eddie had been admiring and held it out to him.
âFor you too.â
Eddie blinked, he wanted to turn it down and would have, had Steve not taken it and draped it on his shoulders.
The inside had a soft almost fur like material that was a slate grey. It would be too hot to wear in the summer, but in winter he would be outright toasty in it.
âThank you,â he whispered. He wasnât sure if he was thanking her or Steve, but it didnât really matter. He was grateful to both. He looked up at Robin.
âYouâll probably want to change out of yours, Robbie,â he said, carefully removing the cloak and draping it over his arm.
âWhyâs that?â she asked with a pout.
A grin took over Eddieâs face. The mischievous one that always sent a lance of heat in Steveâs gut every time he saw it. âBecause youâll want to look rocking for the joust tomorrow.â
Katie grinned too. âThat is an excellent idea, good sir!â
Robin seemed to agree because she grabbed her shirt and dashed back into the dressing room.
Steve was surprised she remembered the shirt, if he was honest.
Katie and Eddie helped him get the tunic over the chain shirt without snagging the cloth on the metal.
Robin came out mere seconds later with her prizes clutched to her chest.
âThank you!â she squealed. âI canât wait to wear it tomorrow!â
They all went to the parking lot to put away Eddie and Robinâs prizes. The cloak in the van, and the dress and corset in the trunk of Steveâs car.
Steve was grinning from ear to ear and couldnât stop.
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Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12 Part 13
Damsel in This Dress is an actual Ren Faire staple from where I'm from.
Yup, still on my Gareth lives in Loch Nora agenda.
And while I don't ship Will/Gareth Will needs friends who aren't trauma bonded, you know?
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kinda obsessed with the prompt of ben x fem tennis reader being together for a lil while and being the cutest couple , breaking up bc the distance hit them too hard after two straight months of different tournaments/locations, then seeing each other for the first time at a 1000 tournament, going out to dinner with the same group of people and end up going back to bens hotel room to clear the air and obvs end up in bed together realising theyâre gonna have to get thru the distance cos they canât be without each other now đ
TLDR: tennisplayerfem!reader and ben break up bc you can't handle being away and then surprise, you can't handle being not together. Losers.
Word count + info: 10k. Am I mentally ill? This is supposed to be a blurb.. Dialogue (angst, texts, calls, conversation).
Warnings + Content Ahead: SFW! Breakup and kinda mean stuff said (nothing physical description wise). Otherwise, it's all good! (i think)
Azzie Notes â: SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD. AM I OKAY??? 10K?? ON A BLURB?? idrk what angst is fr chat lmk if i did that one fr idk....im a LOVER girl ok IDK HOW TO DO THIS SAD SHIT - in saying that, was part of my dialogue in this lwky..loosely based off of my ex...........maybe...
I fear I loved this prompt so bad and like...I love to yap..so...
Socials + Updates: twitter ( @azziegivesafike) - feel free to follow and msg me about non requests there, I'll be posting life updates, story + req updates and spoilers/teasers alongside other things, so it'd be nice to have a community over there!
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Shattered - B.T.S.
In the beginning, being with Ben is the kind of whirlwind you've only seen in movies, a connection that feels so natural, yet thrillingly unexpected. Well, in hindsight, that might've been a lie. It wasn't exactly love at first sight, but instead, a slow, magnetic pull that drew you together, like the tension building in a long rally. You met on the circuit, both hungry, ambitious, and dedicated to your own success. But from the start, Ben had this way of getting past your disciplined, guarded exterior with that relentless charm of his.
Heâs everywhere, it seemsâposting highlights from your matches on his stories, sneaking your name into press conferences, tagging you in his silly âlazy Saturdayâ shots where your game is always playing in the background. He flirts shamelessly, flashing that grin across the court, his voice lifting over the crowd to make some cheeky comment that leaves you stifling laughter. Your friends see it before you do: Ben is crazy about you, and soon, so is everyone else.
He flirted shamelessly and relentlessly, everywhere and anywhere, often catching you off guard in ways that left you flustered despite your best efforts to stay cool and professional. With that, you started to look out for the way his eyes would find yours in a crowd while you sat in the stands during his matches or how he would nudge you at practice with that easy, casual touch like heâs done it a thousand times before; like you belong by his side.
Once, when he's asked in an interview if heâd dedicated his recent win to anyone, he grins and looks straight across the room, making everyone laugh. âThereâs someone special right now, but no need to say names, she knows.â
Itâs sweet, funny and more than a little bold. Later, when you called him out for it over one of your first late-night calls, he shrugged, entirely unapologetic, telling you with that stupid drawl of his, âWhat? Ainât no point hidinâ it. The world knows who my lucky charm is.â
Soon, it was you reaching out for him, your hand slipping onto his arm, leaning against him during walkouts, letting your barriers fall. And every time he catches your eye, every time he manages to make you smile, he looks at you like heâs won the lottery. His heart stammers a little each time you shove him playfully or roll your eyes at his antics. Whether it was on the bench or during changeovers, Ben would rest his hand gently on your lower back, a touch that makes you feel, just for a moment, like you're the only two people in the world.
When the rare break in your schedules comes around, you steal hours together. You grab a coffee, turning a "quick run" into a day spent together and wander around a city you barely know, or stumble upon a hidden cafĂŠ with pastries too flowery for your tastes. He made everything feel easier, like no matter how intense life gets, youâll always have that balance with him. Around Ben, you can be softer, and more vulnerable; he brings out a side of you that isnât just about winning and competing but about laughing, sharing, and letting go.
People noticed the way you look at each other, the easy affection that passes between you, the more daring and intimate PDA, sharing kisses and lingering stares. Soon, fans were shipping you openly, posting photos of you courtside, or whispering to each other when you lean close and murmur something that makes him laugh. On tour, youâre one of those âitâ couples, a little slice of joy in the relentless pace of your careers. And in those early days, you both believe that together, you can take on anything. In those early days, you believed you could take on anything together. You and Ben were partners, equals, and even in the midst of a gruelling season, there had always been time for him, always a reason to smile. It felt perfect, like a love story you had stumbled into but were both entirely committed to.
But that honeymoon phase comes crashing down real quick.
As seasons shift and tournaments stretch across continents, the cracks start to show. At first, itâs just a few hours difference, but then come the miles and oceans, and the texts dwindled, conversations cut short, replaced by more missed calls than made and vague apologies. You both had tried, in every way you knew how. But eventually, the memories werenât enough to bridge the distance. Youâd catch yourself staying up just to wait for his call after practice, only to fall asleep disappointed, staring at a dark screen. And every time you woke up to a hastily sent sorry, something came up text, it felt like another tiny fracture.
Ben wasnât the only one caught up in the chaos of your schedules; you had your own demands, too. The strain went both ways. In an attempt to keep things alive, youâd push yourself to keep up with his time zone, adding another city to your Clock app, setting alarms accordingly to his lunch and dinner times, staying awake far too late, eyes heavy as you sat alone in your hotel room, scrolling through old photos just to feel closer to him. When the call finally did come, your voice was barely more than a whisper, tired and distant, and Ben couldn't bear the exhaustion in your tone, his heart aching as he hushed you to sleep, meaning neither of you would stay on long.
It all piled up slowly, almost imperceptibly, until the weight felt crushing. Conversations became one-sided, itâs like chasing the sun itself, moments of silence replacing the laughter that had once felt endless, and that spark, the one that made you feel unstoppable together, felt further away with every day that passed.
Then came the day of your match, a game that should have been easy, one youâd normally have breezed through. But you were dragging, exhaustion wrapping itself around your every heavy, drooping step, and somewhere in the depths of your mind, a bitter thought took root:
If only he cared.
You knew it wasnât his fault, but still, the frustration boiled over. Would things have felt different if you werenât so alone in this? If you didnât have to wonder when, or if, heâd remember to call? If he scheduled calls to your time for once? If he could just postpone everything for 20, 20 measly minutes for you?
A ball zips right by you, snapping you back to reality.
Lying in your hotel room that night, you stared at the ceiling, replaying the best moments of your time together like an old movie reel. In those moments, it had felt perfect. Youâd believed you could take on the world, side by side, partners in everything. But now, with miles and silence separating you, you wondered if those memories were all that was left of what you once had.
But even with that ache, even with the emptiness filling the room, one thing is clear as day: loving Ben, for all its messiness, for all the distance and loneliness, had never felt like a mistake but God, was it hard. You pondered on those same irritating thoughts that itched at you until your fingers found your phone and hit the FaceTime Call button. Part of you wanted him to not pick up, knowing that you had nothing kind or sweet to say, but a small part of you wanted to dish back what he deserved.
âHey,â he greets, his voice tense, worn. His drawl feels distant like heâs talking to you from across an ocean.
âHey.â You can feel the iciness in your voice, colder than you intended.
âLong day?â he asks, though his expression is already tense, wary.
âYeah. Almost lost today,â you say flatly.
Benâs gaze flicks down. âI saw the score,â he says, his voice cautious. âGuess it was a tough match, babe.â
âIt shouldnât have been,â you snap. âBut maybe itâs hard to focus when Iâm barely sleeping⌠or constantly waiting for a text that never comes.â
He blinks, his eyes narrowing. âSo this is on me?â The familiar accent is a little rougher around the edges. âYouâre losinâ matches âcause Iâm not callinâ you enough? Thatâs what youâre sayinâ?â
âDonât play dumb, Ben. Donât act like you donât know what Iâm talking aboutâ You feel the bitterness twisting in your chest. ââYouâre barely here, Ben. Half the time, I donât even know if weâre still together or if weâre just two people sending pointless messages every few hours. Half the time, it feels like Iâm talking to a ghost.â
He lets out a frustrated laugh, shaking his head. âYou think itâs any easier for me? Iâve got my own stuff, my own schedule, darlin'. Iâve got my career to think about too, you know, this ain't just about you.â
Your jaw tightens. âYeah, well, at least when I'm on the court, I donât exactly have the luxury of tuning you out, Ben. Iâm not the one who forgets to call after saying I would. I donât have time for half-assed texts and waiting around for you to call when you feel like it.â
âOh, donât go there,â he mutters, rolling his eyes. âYou know what itâs like. The fans, the interviews, the time spent on court-â
âYeah, I get it, Ben. But last week, you bailed on a call to go sign autographs. Priorities, right?â
He takes a deep breath, visibly holding back. âCâmon, babe, you donât mean that.â
But you press on, unable to stop yourself. âYouâre too busy with whatever âbig thingâ you have going on, right? Maybe if you cared enough to focus on your game instead of your âcommitments,â you wouldnât have dropped that finals match. Just maybe.â
He flinches, his expression turning dark. âOh, that's low from you, Y/N. You really wanna go there?â
âYeah, I do,â you say, your voice unwavering.
He pauses, his face hardening. âIf you were out here on the ATP tour, youâd understand how rough it really is. You wouldn't even get past a challenger. It ainât the same league as the WTA.â
You laughed, a cold, bitter sound. âOh, donât even start with that. Rougher than the WTA? Is that supposed to make me feel better? Maybe come and join WTA then, you wouldn't manage it out here either, Ben.â
He snaps, his voice cutting like a whip. âYou know how much Iâm fightinâ to make a name for myself out here. Just âcause you got a few more shiny titles doesnât mean you get to talk down to me like this.â
The sting of his words hits like a slap. Your face flushes, a mix of anger and hurt bubbling up. âSo, thatâs it? Just because Iâve actually earned my success, Iâm some kind of⌠what? Nag?â
âI didnât say that,â he shot back, voice tight, his eyes narrowing as he looked away. âBut maybe youâre doinâ too much. Beinâ all⌠dramatic, blaminâ me for stuff I got no control over.â
âRight, okay, so Iâm being dramatic,â you scoff, your voice edged with sarcasm. âIâm the one asking for too much because I want something real, something you clearly canât give.â
He laughs, bitter and raw. âMaybe you just want too damn much.â
You feel the tears prickling behind your eyes, but you clench your jaw, holding yourself together by sheer force of will. Your voice trembles as you speak, the words thick with a pain you canât contain. âI just want you to care, Ben, or at least pretend to care and make it believable. I want you to care enough to be here when it matters. But youâre so wrapped up in yourself, you donât even see it.â
His face hardens, his jaw set, but his eyes hold a flicker of something unspoken. âYou think I donât care? Iâm out here pushinâ myself every day, for us, for this future weâre supposed to be building 'n shit. But itâs like no matter what I do, it ainât enough for you.â
A sharp knock sounds from his end, followed by muffled voices. He glances away, then back at you, irritation flaring in his eyes. âLook, I gotta go. Dadâs waitinâ on me; he already gave me an extra ten minutes to talk.â
You feel your heart twist, an ache of disappointment settling in. âOh, of course,â you mutter, your voice dripping with bitterness. âGo ahead. Iâm sure your trainingâs way more important than anything I have to say.â
He turns back, his eyes blazing with frustration. âMaybe it is right now,â he spits. âTalkinâ to you like this, all itâs doinâ is makinâ things worse. We're not getting anywhere like this-â
The words cut deeper than you expect, and you can barely hold back the surge of anger and heartbreak choking you. âFine. Go, then. At least one of us can prioritise something.â
He scoffs, shaking his head as he looks away. âYouâre beinâ unfair, 'n you know it.â
âAm I?â you whisper, your voice tight and choked. âOr am I just done waiting for you to show up?â
You stare at each other, an endless silence stretching between you, sharp and seething, words too heavy to be unsaid. Then, with a frustrated shake of his head, he mutters, âI canât do this right now. Iâll talk to you later. When youâre not actinâ like this.â
Before you could respond, he hung up, his face disappearing from your screen, leaving you alone with nothing but the cold light of your phone. Your hands shook as you stared at the blank screen, tears finally spilling over.
With trembling fingers, you took a breath, letting a cold, steely calm settle over you. You typed out a simple, blunt message, leaving no room for second-guessing, no room for soft words or explanations. Just the truth, as raw as you felt.
âWeâre done. I canât do this anymore, Ben. Iâm sorry.â
Your thumb lingered for a second before hitting âsend,â and as soon as the message went through, you blocked him on every platform, cutting off any way for him to respond, to apologise, to convince you otherwise.
But as you tossed your phone aside, a crack appeared in the calm youâd forced on yourself. The tears came suddenly, your breath hitching as a tidal wave of heartbreak surged through you. You buried your face in your hands, pressing your palms against your eyes as if you could somehow contain the emotions clawing their way to the surface. You tried to stay quiet, muffling the sound in the dark, but the weight was too much, every sob raw, grieving and heavy, pouring out the frustration, the loneliness, and the love youâd tried so hard to salvage.
By the time your tears subsided, you felt utterly drained, hollowed out in a way that made everything around you feel distant and surreal. The city lights flickered outside your window, the glow indifferent to the storm that had torn through you. And in that quiet, broken moment, with only the shadows as company, you lay there, letting the exhaustion seep through your bones until sleep claimed you.
When sleep finally came, it was restless, fractured. You tossed and turned, flashes of memories from better days with Ben haunting you, the sound of his laugh, the way heâd smile, gummy and wide, his nose scrunching with that easy confidence. You woke up more exhausted than when youâd closed your eyes, feeling like you hadnât rested at all. But you forced yourself out of bed, pushing yourself through your pre-game routine, your emotions locked away, frozen under layers of determination.
As you walked onto the court, the crowd buzzed with excitement, but you barely registered it. You were a storm, calm on the surface but seething underneath. Every shot you took was hard and brutal, the ball slicing through the air with an intensity that made your opponent flinch, the impact echoing through the stadium. You played as if your life depended on it, your body moving with sharp, lethal precision.
Your serves were relentless, your groundstrokes vicious, each one faster, sharper, as if each shot were a way to expel the anger and hurt still simmering in your chest. The crowd murmured, noticing the shift in your energy, the way you were pushing yourself, almost recklessly. A couple of times, your shots zipped past your opponentâs hand, barely missing, almost daring her to try and reach for it - "try me". You were untouchable, unstoppable, playing like you had something to prove.
But there was no smile, no hint of joy in your movements, solely mechanical. The usual lightness in your footwork was gone, replaced by a cold, ruthless efficiency. Youâd already decided: this match was yours. You werenât here to give an inch, werenât here to let any lingering emotions cloud your focus. The crowd might have wanted excitement, but you were giving them precision, a display of control and fury that left no room for doubt.
You won, of course. Your opponent barely had a chance. But as you walked off the court, sweat trickling down your brow, fists clenched, you felt no thrill in the victory. Just the dull ache that lingered, a hollow space where your lightness, your smile, used to be. The heat of the court only made your head throb. The applause faded into background noise as you strode away, head high, shoulders tense. Youâd won, but it felt like a hollow victory. You had no one to text after your game, anyone to call you baby - you had done it to yourself, were you really that desperate for a man to validate you? You were sick of feeling this way, sick of the exhaustion, the anger, the loneliness that clung to you even after everything youâd given today. At least, for now, youâd proven something, to yourself, to him, even if heâd never know, or care.
In the month that followed, you threw yourself harshly into your schedule, determined to erase any trace of him from your routine, your heart. Matches, training, travel, interviews, photoshoots, more matches, each day bled into the next, filled with an almost mechanical sense of purpose. If you werenât on the court, you were working out, perfecting your strokes, spending hours on serves and footwork. Anything to exhaust yourself to stop the thoughts from lingering too long. Your routine was relentless, your focus razor-sharp.
But even in this frenzy, despite it all, reminders of him still slipped through. Youâd scroll through social media, and every so often, an ATP post would pop up: Ben at a tournament, Ben celebrating a point, Ben grinning with that easy charm that used to make your heart ache. He looked different now. His curls were longer, spilling out from over his sweaty headband, and his frame had hardened, leaner, with muscle that seemed to outline his strength in sharper lines. His chubby cheeks had slimmed down into something harder, replaced by the quiet confidence of someone whoâd grown, adapted, maybe even suffered a little.
And you could almost feel it, the quaking, gaping pain of missing him, but youâd swallow it back down, pull yourself together, and look away.
Your own press conferences became something else entirely. You were more composed, a bit sharper with your words, confident in a way you hadnât been before. Where you used to smile shyly or laugh softly, now you leaned in with humour, a hint of flirtation, your charm more self-assured. You handled reportersâ questions deftly, especially the ones that tried to pry about Ben. The same questions came up over and over:
âSo, do you still keep in touch with Ben?â
Each time, youâd respond with a practised, cool smile. âRight now, Iâve got all the support I need from my team and the people I have with me.â Youâd turn the conversation to your work, your skill, and your grind on the court, dismissing the topic with subtle elegance, always steering it back to your goals, your game, and your people.
Yet, away from the cameras, the facade cracked, if only slightly. Sometimes, after a long match or a particularly brutal day of training, youâd find yourself scrolling through your old photos or feeling tears prickling your eyes, this messy situation taking a bigger toll than you would like to admit.
In his hotel room, Ben watched your interviews alone, a faint crease between his brows. There you were, in all your brilliance, flashing a confident smile at the camera, handling the press with a wit and boldness that felt both familiar and strange. He could see the way youâd grown, the way youâd steeled yourself, and it stirred something in him, a pang he couldnât ignore. It was like watching someone he knew intimately and yet⌠not at all. The way you answered questions about him, and your subtle redirection to your career and team, it stung. Maybe it was petty, but he missed the way you used to talk about him with such pride, with that lovestruck glow. He loved seeing how shy you would get at the sheer mention of his name. Your hair was different, your skin glowing, you had more confidence, even if it came off a bit cocky but he still felt like you were his, just as much as he was yours. Ben didnât know how to reach out, didnât know what heâd even say. There was a distance now, both physical and emotional, that seemed impossible to bridge. Heâd scroll through his own phone sometimes, finding old messages, ones before distance got the better of you both, photos of the two of you, half-written scripts in his Notes app he couldnât bring himself to deliver. If he flew out tonight to you, what would he even do after? Heâd think of calling you, of reaching out somehow, but the memory of your last fight, the bitterness in your voice, the way youâd shut him out⌠it held him back.
One evening, as you sat alone in the players' lounge, your forehead pressed against the back of the sofa, you felt that familiar ache pulse through you, the one that came every time you thought of him. It was then that Coco came by, her familiar, steady presence filling the room as she settled down across from you, cross-legged on the seat in front of you. Over the past year, it was Ben that introduced you but, you and Coco had grown even closer, bound not just by shared victories and losses but by the pressures only someone like her could truly understand.
Coco tilted her head, her gaze warm but unwavering. âAlright,â she said, cutting through the silence. âWhatâs really going on? Are you⌠over him?â
You exhaled slowly, running a hand through your hair as you tried to gather your thoughts. âI wish I could say yes,â you murmured. âIâve tried. Iâve tried to move on, focus on the game, on everything else, but⌠heâs still everywhere. Even when Iâm doing well, even when Iâm focused, itâs like⌠somethingâs missing.â Your voice dropped to barely a whisper. âItâs like I canât fully shake him.â
Coco nodded, her expression both sympathetic and knowing. âI get it. You two had something real, something intense. But maybe this time apart is what you both need. I mean, look at you. Youâre stronger now, on and off the court. Maybe thatâs part of this whole journey, you know?â
You managed a faint smile, though your heart still felt heavy. âYeah. I guess youâre right. It just⌠doesnât always feel like enough.â
She reached out, giving your hand a reassuring squeeze. âTrust me. If heâs the right guy, heâll figure it out, too. Until then? Focus on your game. Focus on you.â
Her words stayed with you, offering a small but steady comfort in the days that followed. You have been throwing yourself into training, pouring everything into the sport, trying to find solace in each match and each moment of growth. Somewhere out there, he was doing the same, and maybe, just maybe, this was what was best.
But no matter how hard you tried, you couldnât completely smother the small spark of hope, that someday, somehow, your paths might cross again.
It was similar in the menâs locker room, Ben slumped forward on the bench, his elbows propped on his knees as he stared blankly at the floor, holding an uncapped bottle of water. Frances Tiafoe, whoâd been eyeing him from across the room, exchanged a knowing glance with Taylor Fritz before making his way over.
âAlright, bro, spill it,â Frances said, tossing a towel over his shoulder as he leaned in. âYouâve been lookinâ like youâre living in some sad dog for weeks.â
Ben gave him a sidelong glance. âThereâs nothinâ to talk about.â
Taylor rolled his eyes as he joined them, settling down on the other side of Ben. âCome on, man. Weâre not blind. Ever since she blocked you, youâve been⌠different.â
Ben scoffed, looking away, his voice low. âShe didnât just block me, man. She⌠she threw down, real hard. Said some things I thought sheâd never say.â
Frances let out a low whistle. âWas that rough, huh?â
âYeah,â Ben said, rubbing a hand over his face, his frustration mingling with regret. âIt all just blew up. We were on a call, talkinâ like usual, and suddenly⌠it was like everything we hadnât said just came out. She starts throwinâ things at me about how Iâm not there, like⌠like I donât care enough or not workin' hard enough. And it pissed me off, you know? I work just as hard, and itâs not like Iâm sittinâ around, right?â
Taylor nodded, leaning back against the lockers. âSo, whatâd you do?â
Ben shrugged, his expression pained. âI pushed back, told her she couldnât keep actinâ like sheâs the only one workinâ for this. Told her ATP is just as tough, maybe even more competitive. Didnât mean it that way, but she took it wrong. She thought I was tryinâ to downplay her game.â
Frances shook his head, giving Ben a sympathetic look. âMan, she mustâve felt hurt.â
âYeah,â Ben muttered, a bitter laugh escaping him. âAnd next thing I know, I get this text. âThis isnât workin', weâre done.â Blocked me on everything. Cold as ice, man. Itâs like she flipped a switch, just⌠shut me out completely, as easy as shuttin' a door.â
Frances gave him a gentle nudge. âYou still care about her?â
Benâs gaze softened, a faint smile breaking through his frustration. âYeah, man. Sheâs⌠sheâs my girl. Even if sheâs not my girl right now, you know?â
Taylor chuckled, nodding. âSo, whatâre you gonna do about it? Sit around here moping, or actually make a move?â
Ben sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. âWhat am I supposed to do? Sheâs made it pretty clear sheâs done with me.â
Frances grinned, crossing his arms. âBro, just âcause she blocked you and sent a text after you called her game easy, doesnât mean itâs over. Sheâs mad, yeah, but sheâs probably missinâ you just as much. You just gotta show her youâre willinâ to do what it takes.â
Taylor nodded in agreement, a slight smile tugging at his lips. âAnd it doesnât have to be some big romantic gesture, man. Sometimes, itâs the small things. Something to let her know youâre still thinkinâ of her, still care. You know where we're at next, right?â
Ben chuckled, shaking his head. âAnd do what? Just show up at her hotel room? Sheâs liable to call cops on my ass for that shit, bro.â
Frances laughed, shrugging. âSo what? At least sheâll know you tried! Don't go doin' that though. Look, Iâve been with my girl for years now, and sometimes, you gotta be willing to look like a fool to show her you care.â
Ben leaned back, their words sinking in. He could still feel the sting of the things sheâd said, the accusations sheâd thrown at him like he didnât care, didnât work just as hard. But he couldnât deny that heâd made mistakes, too. Heâd let his pride get in the way, said things he regretted, and let the frustration of it all get the better of him.
Frances nudged him again, his grin widening. âThink about it, man. You got two choices: sit here, feeling sorry for yourself until she finds some other guy, or actually do something about it and get her back, even if that means standing in the rain with a fuckin' speaker.â
Ben finally cracked a smile, looking between his friends. âYâall are ridiculous.â
âHey, maybe,â Taylor said with a shrug. âBut at least we got girlfriends. And you? You got a chance to get yours back. Just gotta decide if sheâs worth it.â
Ben sat there, mulling over their words as a new determination started to burn within him. Maybe he didnât have all the answers, and maybe there was a lot heâd have to figure out. But if there was even a chance to fix things, to bridge that gap that felt so wide, he wasnât about to let his pride hold him back.
As he left the locker room that night, he felt a resolve solidify within him. Heâd find a way to reach out, to let her know that no matter how far apart they were, she was still the one he wanted. Because when it came down to it, she was worth every bit of the fight.
A week went by before a 1000 game flew in, and both ATP and WTA were present if not, nearby for the games. You couldn't care less what was at stake, anything was a win if it kept you occupied. The courts were almost empty, shadows lengthening as the sun beamed high above. You bounced the ball steadily, the rhythm calm, your focus laser-sharp. The only sounds were the muted thud of your shoes on the court, and your breath falling into sync with the beat of your earbuds. Nothing but you, the court, and the quiet.
But then, that voice broke through.
"Aw, c'mon, man!" A laugh, deep and full of that unmistakable Southern drawl. Your grip faltered, the ball hovering mid-toss. That laugh, it was a sound you hadnât let yourself think about for months, one that held too much of him.
Ben.
Your pulse jolted, the memories flooding back, warmth and bitterness tangled in the knots of your chest. You gritted your teeth, tossing the ball high before slamming it against the court, the crack of impact sharp in the quiet. It almost felt satisfying, like you could obliterate the tension he brought, shatter it with sheer force.
Almost.
You readied another serve, the ball bouncing harder than necessary as you forced yourself not to look. But you could feel his gaze, that familiar weight of his eyes lingering on you. The pull was magnetic, almost maddening, and despite every ounce of resolve youâd built up, your gaze betrayed you, slipping over to catch a glimpse of him.
Ben, laughing with Taylor, curls tousled longer than before, his hoodie slung carelessly over those familiar, ridiculous short shorts. The same hoodie you'd worn too many times to count, drowning in its warmth during late-night snack runs and lazy Sundays. The sight tugged painfully, a cruel reminder of the little things youâd pushed down, tried to forget.
He caught you looking, and his laughter faded, his gaze holding yours for just a second too long. You gripped the ball tighter, the ache settling heavy, and forced yourself to turn away, channelling the flurry of memories into another sharp serve, a fierce crack reverberating across the court. You didnât look back again.
Hours later, your body was tired, your mind a bit clearer. You were scrolling through your phone in the lounge, zoning out, when Coco dropped down beside you with that familiar, mischievous grin.
"Hey, you!" She nudged you, hands on her hips.
You eyed her warily. "Whatâs up, Coco? Awfully perky for...5:30p.m."
âWeâre having dinner tonight. Big group. Wanna come?â Her tone was casual, a little too casual.
Your guard went up immediately as you dropped your phone to your lap. âWhoâs âwe allâ?â
Coco shrugged, twirling a loose curl around her finger. âMe, Frances, Arthur⌠maybe another WTA girl or two. Just a fun little dinner. Nothing formal.â
You narrowed your eyes, reading the glint of mischief in hers. "Coco, donât mess with me. He's not gonna be there, right?"
She tilted her head, pretending to look innocent, but the sly smile gave her away. "Well⌠he might show up, but that's on his own accord. I didn't mention anything to Ben and itâs not like anyoneâs setting anything up! Itâs just dinner."
Your stomach twisted, a sigh slipping from your lips as you looked away. âI donât think so. Not after⌠everything.â Your voice softened the weight of old arguments and unsaid things hanging between the words.
Cocoâs face softened, her hand finding your shoulder. âLook, Iâm not saying you have to sit next to him or anything. Itâs a big table. You can stay on the opposite end and ignore him if thatâs what you need. But everyone misses you, itâs been ages since we all got together. We all need to see your pretty face off the court too, ya know?â
You hesitated, rolling your eyes, the ache of missing them settling somewhere deep, the sense of family you hadnât felt in months tugging at you. After a long pause, you finally nodded, rolling your shoulders back as if bracing for a match. âFine. But Iâm serious, Coco, no funny business. If he starts anything, Iâm out.â
Coco grinned, throwing her arm around you. âGirl, trust me. If anything, youâll be giving him the funny looks. Just friends, no drama. Now, letâs go get you out of those sweats.â
Meanwhile, in the locker room across the court, Ben was doing his best to act indifferent as Frances nudged him for the third time.
"C'mon, man!" Frances said, leaning against the lockers with a knowing grin. "So you are coming to this dinner tonight, right? Don't make me beg again, I'll start singing.â
Ben tried to play it cool, leaning back with his arms crossed. âI donât know, man. You really think itâs a good idea?â
Frances rolled his eyes. âLook, youâve been moping for months. Sheâs not gonna make a scene in public, and especially not with all of us, and who knows? Maybe sheâll talk to you, be all civil. Itâs worth a shot.â
Ben let out a huff, rubbing the back of his neck. âCivil? You remember the last time we spoke, right? She has me blocked on everything.â
Taylor, stretching nearby, smirked and chimed in. âMan, you got nothinâ to lose. At the very least, youâll see her. I saw how you were after you caught a glimpse of her training earlier. Besides, Frances and Coco will keep her from killinâ you.â
âKay, thanks,â Ben muttered, though a flicker of hope sparked under the sarcasm. He didnât want to admit it, but he couldnât shake the longing to see her again, to maybe fix even a sliver of what had been broken.
Taylor nudged him, grinning. âHey, listen, if I wasnât taking Morgan out tonight, Iâd be there just for moral support. But hey, maybe next time itâll be a double date. Me, you, Morgan and your soon-to-be girlfriend, just like old times.â
Ben shook his head, the thought both terrifying and oddly thrilling. âYouâre jokinâ, right? Sheâd probably throw her drink at me before sheâd sit through a double date.â
âOnly if you act like an idiot,â Frances pointed out, laughing. âJust be yourself, man. You can handle the heat on the court, you can handle this. And maybe tonightâll be the thing that finally breaks the ice.â
Ben sighed, running a hand over his face before finally surrendering. âAlright, alright. Fine. Iâll go. But Frances, donât expect me to be all⌠chatty.â
Frances clapped him on the back, a glimmer of excitement in his eyes. âYeah, you say that now. But I know how you get around her, man. Just donât chicken out. Remember, we got your back.â
Ben couldnât help but smile nervously, feeling a strange mix of dread and anticipation tighten in his chest. He wasnât sure if this dinner would be a chance at redemption or just a painful reminder of how far theyâd drifted, but one thing was clear, he was tired of hiding from whatever was left between them.
You walk into the restaurant and let Coco lead you to a long table, feeling an odd mix of nerves and determination fluttering in your stomach. Your outfit is cute but simple, just a sweater and leggings; just enough effort to feel put together without trying too hard. You take a seat between Coco and Arthur Fils, with Frances across from you. Thereâs an empty chair across from Arthur, and for some reason, that empty space makes your heart beat a little faster, feeling torn between wanting and avoiding Ben there.
As everyone settles in, you catch Cocoâs eye and mutter, âPlease tell me heâs not actually coming.â She just shrugs with an easy smile.
Moments later, as the group banters along, about to order drinks, Ben strolls in, catching you entirely off-guard. Heâs slightly out of breath, apologising to the group with that familiar grin, explaining heâs late because heâd just finished showering after practice. You canât help it, you nudge Coco under the table, whispering through gritted teeth, a frustrated, âGreat.â
Coco just gives him a casual greeting, and you force yourself to turn back to the table, focusing your attention on ordering a glass of wine, pretending not to notice him as he takes that empty seat across from Arthur, just barely within your view, diagonally. But as he sits down, you feel his eyes on you, and for a brief moment, you glance up and catch him staring, his face almost dazed.
Youâre caught off-guard by the look in his eyes. His breath seems to hitch, his big brown eyes wide and you can see a faint blush creeping up his neck as he stares at you, almost like heâs seeing you for the first time all over again. Thereâs a softness in his expression that you werenât prepared for, a kind of awe that makes your stomach twist with memories and longing. But just as quickly, you look away, turning your attention to your wine as Frances elbows Ben with a teasing hiss, âBe normal, man.â
Throughout the night, you manage to keep to yourself, mostly talking to the other WTA players or Arthur whenever he cracks a joke. You keep Ben at the edge of your vision, resolute in ignoring the way his gaze keeps drifting back to you.
Every once in a while, Ben attempts to draw you into the conversation, maybe a lighthearted comment or a direct question, but each time, you meet his gaze with a steely look, making it clear with just one glance that youâre not interested. When he tries again, you let your eyes meet his for a moment, long enough to show him youâre serious before turning away, cutting off his effort entirely, almost to say "not interested". Across the table, Frances raises his brows, murmuring with a barely hidden smirk, âDamn, she is good at this,â as Ben slouches slightly, clearly trying not to look embarrassed.
As dinner winds down, the plates are cleared away, and you excuse yourself to the bathroom, needing a moment alone. Inside, you take a deep breath, facing yourself in the mirror. Youâd been bracing yourself for tonight, but nothing quite prepared you for how it would feel to see him sitting right there, looking at you with those big sweet brown eyes and a pout, filled with that same soft pleading that used to make you melt.
But tonight, all it did was remind you of those late nights waiting by your phone, checking it over and over for messages that came slower and slower until they justâŚstopped. It reminds you of the countless hours wondering if you mattered as much as you thought you did, replaying his empty promises and half-hearted reassurances that seemed to fade with each passing day. He couldn't expect you to take him back with a pout and some half-assed joke. But damn, was it a good attempt, he knew how to make you crumble, even if it wasn't his sole intention.
You force yourself to tuck a stray strand of hair behind your ear as you look in the bathroom mirror examining yourself with a sigh, applying a bit of lip balm with fingers that tremble just slightly. Anything to distract yourself, to remind yourself that youâre strong enough to face this without breaking, reminding yourself to keep that mask on. You straighten your posture, determined to push all those memories back down where they belong, buried.
But just as you step out of the bathroom, Ben is standing right there, leaning against the wall as if heâd been waiting for you. His eyes soften the moment they meet yours, and he opens his mouth, his voice just a whisper. âCan weâŚtalk? Just the two of us?â
The look he gives you, hopeful, no, desperate, stirs something deep inside you, and you clench your jaw, wanting to say no, wanting to walk away without a second thought. But as much as youâd like to ignore it, part of you still aches for some kind of closure, maybe even just one honest conversation.
With a reluctant sigh, you nod. âFine. Outside.â
As you head out the restaurantâs door, you quickly fire off a text to Coco:
me n Ben talking outside. brb.
You stuff your phone back into your bag, clutching it tightly to your shoulder as you step into the cool night air. Wrapping your arms under your chest, you try to keep yourself shielded from more than just the chilling breeze.
Ben falls into step beside you, stuffing his hands into the pockets of his hoodie. Thereâs a moment of silence as you both find your footing, the quiet thick with everything thatâs been left unsaid. You glance sideways, catching him opening his mouth like heâs about to say something, only to close it, his shoulders shifting awkwardly.
âSo⌠howâs the tournament going for you?â he starts, his tone casual, a little too casual.
You blink, trying not to roll your eyes, feeling the irritation growing. Really? But you bite back and just sternly say, âBen.â
He rubs the back of his neck, glancing up at the streetlights overhead. âSorry, yeah, that was- uh, okay.â He lets out a breath and shuffles closer, his voice almost a murmur. âI just⌠I wanna make this right. Another chance- Just thought maybe⌠you know, talkinâ would be easier ifâŚâ
âBen, stop.â You sigh, tightening your grip on your bag strap. âStop being weird. Just⌠just say what you have to say, and letâs get this over with. Let's not make this longer than it needs to be, I've got shit to do tomorrow.â
He glances at you, brows knitting together. For a second, he looks almost frustrated, like heâs holding back something sharper, something rougher. But he lets it pass, letting out a long, resigned breath. âFine. Iâll just ask one thing.â
You arch an eyebrow, scepticism thick in your voice. âOne question. Shoot.â
His voice comes out softer, edged with a hesitant curiosity as if he knows itâs a stupid question but canât help but ask. âWhat hotel you stayinâ at?â
You let out a dry chuckle, shaking your head. âThe Merrion.â
His eyes widen slightly, a small, stupid smile breaking on his face. âNo way⌠me too.â
You sigh, looking up at the night sky, feeling the inevitability of whatever this night is becoming. Of course, heâs at the same hotel. Only Ben could make the universe align like this. And only Ben would think of a stupid question like that. He shifts his weight, stepping closer, his gaze steady.
âLook,â he starts, âitâs just a short walk back, twenty minutes or so. Just⌠give me that time. Just enough to walk back. Let me talk. And then you can go to your room and go to bed. How 'bout it?â
Thereâs a hopeful edge in his voice that you canât ignore, and for a moment, your resolve falters. Itâs ridiculous, this is exactly the sort of thing he would come up with, some half-baked plan to get you to keep listening, to keep him around just a little longer. You want to roll your eyes, to brush him off, but something about the way heâs looking at you, those earnest, brown eyes so damn full of longing, makes you sigh.
âFine,â you mutter. âBut if you get weird again, Iâm out. No small talk, you know how much I hate it.â
A small grin creeps onto his face, and he falls into step beside you, a little closer than necessary, his arm brushing against yours as you start down the quiet street. For a minute, he doesnât say anything, just walks alongside you, letting the silence settle around you both. But then, in that familiar southern drawl, his voice comes softer.
âYâknow, I've been thinkinâ âbout us a lot⌠probably more than I should.â
You keep your eyes on the sidewalk ahead, willing yourself to stay unmoved. âAnd?â
He swallows, his gaze tracing your profile, softening with each word. âI messed up,â he admits. âI know I did. I shoulda⌠been there more, answered more, I dunno. Shoulda been better at handlinâ it.â
You nod slightly, keeping your face blank. âMhm, you should've.â
Thereâs a flicker of frustration in his expression, but he doesnât let it throw him off. âYou think I didnât feel it too? That whole time, it felt like- hell, like I was losinâ you, like somethinâ was slippinâ right outta my hands, and I couldnât do nothinâ to stop it.â
You feel the tension in your shoulders loosen just a fraction, though you keep your arms folded as a kind of armour. His words settle into the silence, raw and rough, and you can feel him glancing over, waiting for some kind of response. But you keep your gaze forward, biting back the little stirrings of emotion that are beginning to creep in.
He keeps talking, voice low and steady, drawing you in without giving you a chance to look away. âIâm not tryinâ to make excuses, alright? I know I coulda tried harder. But itâs like⌠the more I tried, the harder it got. The distance, the time zones, the schedules⌠it all just made me feel like I couldnât keep up. And I just didn't know how to juggle it and that's my fault.â
You shake your head slightly, finally glancing over at him, the faintest of smirks tugging at the corner of your mouth. âSo this is your way of apologising?â
He laughs, a little sheepish. âGuess Iâm not real good at it, huh?â He nudges you with his shoulder, a familiar, easy gesture that makes your arms slowly loosen. His hand brushes your arm, just for a second, and a warmth blooms where his fingers graze your skin as if your bodyâs memory of him canât help but respond.
âLook,â he says, his voice dipping softer, âI just⌠I miss you so much. Like hell.â
The honesty in his tone hits you hard, unravelling the cold exterior youâve worked so hard to keep up. He keeps his eyes on you, watching your face carefully as if gauging your reaction. You feel your resolve slipping even more, your arms slowly falling to your sides, your heart aching as you fight against the wave of warmth thatâs threatening to break through.
âBenâŚâ you start, barely a whisper, but you donât know what to say, feeling torn.
He moves a little closer, his eyes wide, pleading, like heâs trying to hold onto every inch of you he can. âI know I messed up, okay? But I donât wanna lose you. Not for good. Please, Y/N. Give me one more chance, you won't regret it 'n if I fuck up bad, you can do whatever, however; I deserve it but please. Just one more chance.â
You press your lips tight together, feeling your heart tighten as his words sink in, as he stands there looking at you with that same vulnerability youâd once fallen in love with. For a second, you forget the hurt, the sleepless nights, and youâre left with just him, the version of him thatâs open, sincere, the Ben youâd once held so close.
The walk to the hotel stretches out as he keeps talking, spilling out and laying his heart bare with that easy, boyish charm that only he can pull off, and little by little, you feel your icy exterior start to melt. He talks about his time away from you, how he admired you from videos, watched highlight reels, his endless hours at night going through photos and texts; the whole lot. He cracks a joke, and despite yourself, you smile, trying to hide it but failing. He nudges you again, grinning as he sees the hint of laughter breaking through your guard.
He apologises over and over, more earnestly each time, his voice steady and low, and you can hear the regret, the guilt, the need to make things right. By the time you reach the hotel entrance, youâre feeling something dangerously close to hope, your heart betraying you, making it harder and harder to keep up the facade.
You glance over at him, catching the way his eyes soften as he looks at you as if youâre the only thing he can see. Heâs staring, the blush from earlier creeping back up his neck, and when his hand brushes yours one last time, you donât pull away.
You stand just outside the hotel, a faint chill brushing past as the streetlights cast a warm glow around you. You shift on your feet, glancing up at him, your eyes soft but determined.
âCan I talk?â you ask, breaking the quiet, your voice barely above a whisper. The first thing you had actually said this entire time.
Ben raises an eyebrow, leaning in with a playful smirk. âTalk? What else have we been doinâ for the last twenty minutes, girl?â
You roll your eyes and reach out to smack his arm, earning a chuckle from him. âFine then. Can we go up to your room?â you add, a small, daring smile tugging at your lips.
Benâs eyebrow quirks higher. âMy room, huh?â His gaze narrows, teasing you with that familiar glint. âWhat exactly ya got planned, sweetheart?â
You swat him again, harder this time, and he laughs, raising his hands in mock defence. But then you drop the smile, your voice softer. âI wanna talk about what I did, Ben. I messed up too.â
The teasing fades from his expression as he studies your face, searching. After a pause, he nods and gestures toward the lobby. âAlright, then. Letâs go talk.â
In the elevator, silence hangs thick in the air, tension as familiar as it is unspoken. You don't even notice, spending your time stilling your breath and running through everything you want to apologise for. When you reach his room, you head over to the small couch by the window and settle in, tucking your legs under you and giving him a steady look.
âYa gettinâ comfortable already?â he jokes, leaning against the wall, his eyes dancing with that old spark that makes you ache.
You try not to smile, steeling yourself for your confessional. âCan you be serious for a minute?â
His smile fades as he walks over, sitting across from you, his gaze intense and focused. You take a deep breath, feeling the weight of everything youâve held back.
âI shouldnât have put so many expectations on you,â you begin, your voice wavering. âYouâve got your own life, your own competitions, your own dreams. All this constant travelling, the different time zones⌠itâs not fair to expect you to be there every time I needed you at the drop of a hat. You get burnt out too- God. I never even asked how you were before I'd launch into my own day.â
You bite your lip, blinking back tears as they start to blur your vision. âI shouldâve known better. I shouldâve been more understanding, given you more grace.â Your voice catches, barely a whisper now. âAnd what I said⌠on that call⌠it was cruel, Ben. I was mean and unfair, and you didnât deserve that. You didnât deserve any of it. At all. I wouldn't want myself back after all I had said and done.â
As a tear slips down your cheek, Benâs face softens, and he reaches out without hesitation, his hands cupping your face as he brushes the tear away. His thumb lingers on your skin, his gaze is unwavering, and then he leans forward, pressing the gentlest kiss to your temple, another to your forehead, and a final one at the crown of your head, his hand resting tenderly against your hair.
You let out a shuddered breath, your hands covering his as you finally let everything pour out. âI miss you so much,â you whisper, your voice breaking. âI miss everything about you⌠the way you laugh, your ridiculous voiceâŚâ Another tear rolls down, and you donât try to hold back. âI miss the way youâd talk about cars or food for ages, and youâd make everything feel so normal, even when my life was a mess. Without you, itâs like this haze I canât shake. I just⌠I miss you. I barely recognise myself these days.â
Your body shakes with the sobs youâve tried so hard to bury, and Ben doesnât hesitate. He pulls you close, wrapping you in his arms like he could shield you from all the pain, all the regret. He holds you there, one hand smoothing over your hair, his lips pressing soft, tender kisses to your forehead and cheeks, murmuring gentle words against your skin.
âSâall right, darlinâ,â he whispers, his voice thick with emotion. âIâm here. Iâm right here with you.â
You cling to him, burying your face into the crook of his neck, as his hands trace soothing circles along your back. Your sobs gradually quiet, but your breaths are still shaky, each exhale unsteady.
âIâm so sorry, Ben,â you manage, voice barely audible.
He pulls back just enough to meet your gaze, his thumb brushing over your cheek. âHey now,â he murmurs, his tone warm and grounding. âWe both made mistakes. Ainât just on you, alright? Takes two to mess up, but it takes two to fix it too. We can fix, can't we?â
You nod, your fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt, feeling a little of the weight lift, softened by his words.
Ben tilts your head to hold your gaze, his own eyes glassy. ��Canât tell ya how many times I thought about callinâ ya or flying to ya,â he admits, his voice low. âHow many times Iâd pull up your name, wonderinâ what youâd say if I told ya all the things I wished Iâd said. But I was⌠hell, I was scared, darlinâ. Thought maybe Iâd screwed up too bad, and youâd moved on.â
You shake your head, a small, breathy laugh escaping. âI couldnât...I could never.â
He strokes your hair gently, his lips brushing your forehead once more. âGuess weâre both a couple of fools then, huh?â
You laugh softly, the sound wet and trembling as he pulls you back into his arms. You lean into him, letting yourself feel the warmth of his embrace, the steady beat of his heart, grounding you. Wrapped in the quiet, tangled together, you both hold on a little tighter, feeling the rawness of your honesty and the comfort of finally, finally being close again. In the safety of his arms, you feel, for the first time in so long, a sense of peace, letting the unspoken words settle around you like a quiet promise.
Benâs hand rests on your cheek, his thumb tracing small circles as he learns your face all over again, making your heart flutter. His fingers move slowly, grazing down to your jaw, then up again, threading into your hair. You let your eyes close for a moment, his gentle touch working its way through the tension of the night, and a small, contented sigh escapes you. For the first time in weeks, you feel relaxed and content.
âGettinâ comfortable, huh?â he murmurs, his voice low and teasing, though thereâs a warmth in his eyes that wasnât there before. He leans in, giving one final push to a stray strand of your hair before tilting his head toward the bed across the room. âCâmon, darlinâ. This couch is barely holdinâ us together.â
You hesitate, but Benâs already moving, holding out his hand as he stands up. His grip is strong, guiding you as you follow him to the bed, and he lets out a soft chuckle as you settle beside him. His arm drapes around you, pulling you close as you lean into him, feeling the steady rise and fall of his chest against you. The warmth is so consuming, cocooning you immediately.
Ben smiles down at you, a playful glint in his eye, and as his fingers find your hair again, he starts twirling a strand between his fingers. âSo,â he murmurs, resting his cheek on the top of your head, âya still gonna keep me blocked, huh?â
You roll your eyes, smirking. âFine,â you reply, unlocking your phone with a playful huff. You find his name, well, technically his new contact name since youâd deleted him in a fit of anger, and type a single white heart emoji, pressing send.
The vibration of his phone buzzes beside him, and he pulls it out with a grin, holding up the glowing screen. âThere it is. Knew ya couldnât resist me,â he says, laughing as he pulls you in close as he kisses your temple.
But just as you relax against him, you notice a missed notification. Itâs a text from Coco, her reply to your earlier message asking where sheâd disappeared to after dinner. You hesitate, then, instead of texting back, you tap the Facetime icon, feeling a strange urge to share this quiet moment, finding words couldn't suffice, nor were you in the mood to type out a lengthy paragraph.
The call connects, and Cocoâs face appears, a gasp escaping her as she spots you two tangled up in Benâs bed, nestled together with his arm around you.
âOh my god! Yes!â she cheers, loud enough to make Ben chuckle. You hear laughter and cheers in the background too, and Coco turns the camera, revealing the whole dinner table watching with knowing smiles.
"Coco, this was a set-up plan, huh?" you giggle as you see the entire friend group on the other end.
"Somewhat, but blame Morgan and Taylor, not me. They did all that," she throws the blame as she points the camera over to them. Frances, Morgan and Taylor wave and Frances yells âLook at Ben! Already got her in bed, huh?â
Ben rolls his eyes, but a faint blush colours his cheeks. He pulls you closer, his hand resting protectively around your shoulders as he grins.
âHey now,â he says, his voice low and sincere. âThis oneâs special. Ainât like any other. My lucky charm.â
You feel your heart skip a beat at his words, and youâre so focused on him that you barely notice Coco and the others making gagging noises before Ben reaches out, ending the call on your phone with a smirk. Then he turns back to you, his eyes soft, filled with something that feels dangerously like forever.
He leans in, his lips finding yours in a kiss thatâs slow and tender, each second lingering with quiet promises. And in the warmth of his arms, your heart finally feels at home, exactly where it belongs.
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regret:
pairing: jungkook x gn! reader
genre: non-idol au || angst ||
summary: regret is the worst emotion
tags/ warnings: kinda just angst⌠the ending is ambiguous so you can try make it happy if you want
notes: a little ramble based on how i feel at the moment as a little treat before bed <3 i feel very rusty because i havenât written in so long
â where you can find the rest of my stuff!!
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the knowledge that the thing you want to say is going to hurt someone you care about is the worst feeling. a strange sinking in your chest, malleable guilt that chews away at your mind and your heart.
words tacky on your tongue as you rehearse them in your head over and over, a well practiced script. because ending something with someone you like a lot hurts. really, truly, hurts.
it hurts knowing youâll hurt them and it hurts not knowing how your relationship will be after you utter the miserable set of words stuck in your mind.
jungkook was your first.
jungkook was your everything.
he was perfect, within whatever limitation human perfection has. he treated you like you were the best thing on the face of the earth. you were the light of his eyes, perfect in all your imperfect ways. a piece of you tucked away in his mind all hours of the day.
quick to message back when you text about your day. always on the other end of the phone. always there. the one person in the universe who loved you for who you were, the one person who loved to spend time with you all hours of the day. just the silent comfort of knowing you were there enough for him.
gentle as his fingers would run through your hair, legs tangled together and breathing soft as you linger between the waking world and gentle sleep.
his love for you was all consuming.
which is why you didnât understand why it felt like your world was crumbling. a phantom hand wrapped around your delicate neck, constricting every breath you took.
a constant spiraling anxiety, tugging you further and further into this abyss of worry and self loathing.
the strange self loathing you have when you donât know yourself anymore. unsure why. what reason there is to your existence. why people even liked you when it felt like you had nothing else to offer.
and at the time you thought you needed a break.
palms sweaty as you hold the phone to your ear, boyfriend understandably concerned by your recent lack of communication.
âhello..?â jungkook answers.
you swallow, âhiâ it comes out quiet, throat already lodged, eyes glossy.
âwhatâs wrong, baby?â he hums, you hear him shuffle on the other end of the phone.
your lungs inflate as you take a deep breathe
âi..â you start, all that practice getting you nowhere as your mind stops, guilt clawing itâs way up your throat.
âbaby?â he presses on, worry evident in his voice.
âi donât know if i can do this anymoreâ the bitter words slip off your tongue, âyou donât deserve thisâ
and of course jungkook had been baffled. though maybe a small part of him knew that this was coming, how youâd slowly started to creep away from him. the unintentional distance scratching the surface of what was rattling around your mind.
âif this isnât what you want⌠then thatâs okayâ he breathes, âi just want you to be happyâ
you feel the tears trickle down the mounds of your cheeks, ânoâ you huff, âgod, jungkook please donât be nice right nowâ
âwhat do you want me to do?â he laughs, though you can feel the lack of humor, laugh dry as itâs pushed past his lips.
you wipe your wet cheeks, âcall me a bitch or somethingâ
âiâm not gonna call you a bitchâ he sighs.
âbut you donât deserve this⌠i should have at least come in person or⌠i donât knowâ you cry, âi feel like such a horrible personâ
âyouâre not a horrible personâ he hums, âi donât want you to feel badâ
âtoo lateâ you murmur, âi feel like shit⌠youâre just so nice and i really like youâŚ. but i donât think i can do this anymoreâ
the fact he has been so nice had made it harder. the sadness in his voice as he reassured you as you cried. the moment sinking in when you finally put your phone down. youâd shattered something so lovely. youâd ripped away the only person who made you feel seen.
and the week after was no different. he didnât message you. so you never tried reaching out, how could you when youâd broken his heart.
it felt selfish missing him. wanting any sort of contact you could get.
and when he messaged about bringing some of your stuff over back to your place, that wasnât enough. you knew that the small exchange wouldnât be enough because you missed him, and asking for friendship after you ended the relationship chewed away at your mind.
sometimes missing someone is a strange feeling. knowing that the dynamic you once had is totally different, that it might never be the same as it was.
and sometimes missing someone hurts a little less than the guilt that eats away at you for what you have done. or missing someone can hide that slither of regret you have, wishing you knew youâd hate life without them as much as you did with them.
the world is lonely when you donât feel seen.
dread wrapping around your mind. slowly sinking further and further into the darkness. nights spent thinking about the moments youâd shared together. that maybe you want what was once there.
you missed jungkook more than youâd like admit and it was eating away at your heart.
all it took was a week. a week of silence. a week of being alone and figuring out life by yourself.
you tip your head up, full moon shining down on the street as you stand outside jungkookâs apartment building, feet shuffling against the ground as you hold your phone to your chest. youâd written a message, rewritten the message, thought about what youâd say.
and that selfish part of you wants to send it. that selfish part of you wanting him to be there, for you to touch him, know that heâs really there and you can change what had happened.
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hello!! i absolutely adore your stories so i was wondering if you could do one with zoro, and the reader falls down the stairs (but yknow survives, sorry kuinađ) and the reader gets like a broken nose or sprained ankle or something and zoro is just like super worried
i understand if you donât want to do it but have a great day/night đŤśđťđŤśđť
I'm going to resist making a "down d. stairs" joke but wkdnd absolutely, I can do that!! I hope this is to your liking!!
"I don't see why you're the one carrying this stuff. Didn't you say the old lady had a son? Why can't he do it?"
"Because, Zoro," you sigh as you adjust your grip on the box of carefully wrapped bottles, "Her son broke his arm last week. And it's nice to do things for people when we can." A smile tugs at your lips. "Makes us not seem so bad for a bunch of pirates."
Zoro scoffs. "We're pirates, [name]. We're not supposed to be nice."
"Says the man who ate onigiri off the ground for a little girl," you say, snickering when he aims a glare your way.
"Who told you about that?"
"Who do you think?" You shake your head, amused. "Who knew Roronoa Zoro could be such a softie?"
"You're gonna think softie in a minute," Zoro grumbles, ignoring the fact that his threat makes little to no sense as he trails after you. You're not even sure why he's chosen to tag along ă
Ą boredom, perhaps.
"Ah, there you are." The older woman who'd asked for your help in the first place ă
Ą Nina, she'd introduced herself as ă
Ą pushes away from where she'd been resting on a crate near the door to her home. "I was afraid you'd gotten lost."
"My apologies," you say, "I was joined by one of my crewmates, I hope that you don't mind."
Nina looks at Zoro, her silent assessment making him bristle at the scrutiny before Nina says, "You look like you could use a good meal, the both of you. Why don't you stay for lunch? It's the least I can do."
Zoro frowns. "No wă
Ą"
"We'd love to," you interrupt, silencing him with the hard jab of your elbow into his ribs. When Nina turns and heads down the hallway, you hiss, "Zoro, don't be rude."
He opens his mouth to say something, only to halt as Nina returns. "Could you take those downstairs for me, dear? And would your friend mind helping me with lunch?"
Part of you balks at the idea of Zoro helping Nina with food ă
Ą after all, there's a reason he isn't trusted in the kitchen ă
Ą but Zoro is answeing for you before you can stop him.
"I'm on it. Whatever gets us out of here faster." Nina seems unphased by his attitude, and he dodges the kick you aim at the back of his leg with a smirk.
"Brat," you huff, then peer around for the aforementioned stairs. There's a solitary door nearby, and you prop the box on your hip to open it, finding a set of stairs descending down below.
Given the dim lighting, your descent is slow. Taking it step by step, you shiver at the draft of damp, musty air that sweeps up towards you, tightening your grip on the box.
It happens when you're about two thirds of the way down the steps. The stairs are undeniably damp now, slick with condensation ă
Ą and then you're losing your footing and tumbling down the last handful of steps.
Reflex can only do so much and with both arms occupied by the box of bottles, you have no way to brace yourself. Your shoulder slams into concrete first, followed by the crack of your head bouncing off it as well, making your vision blur with the searing pain that follows.
"Fuck," you breathe as you push yourself upright, hissing at the throbbing of your shoulder before you freeze at the slow slip of something from your nose. Bringing your hand up to swipe your fingers against it, you don't need good lighting to know what the sticky warmth is. "Well, shit."
You take a minute to assess the damage. The box of brown paper wrapped bottles is unbroken ă
Ą you wish you could say the same for yourself. There's the deep throb of pain from your shoulder that all the way down into your fingertips, then the blood oozing from your nose.
Nothing is broken ă
Ą you hope, anyways. It takes a minute to ease yourself onto your feet, closing your eyes against the way it makes your head spin for a second before you head back up the stairs.
You grip the railing as tight as you can, half-pulling yourself up the steps. By the time you reach the top your other arm is straddling somewhere between pins and needles and being completely numb, and you're certain blood from your nose has dripped onto your clothing.
Opening the door, you shut it behind you and rest against it for a moment before moving towards the faint sound of voices coming from Nina's kitchen.
"Oi, what took you so long?" Zoro asks, teasing in his tone as he turns from where he's picking up a plate of sandwiches (made by Nina, who hadn't really needed help so much as wanted company) ă
Ą and freezing when he spots you.
You've clapped a hand over your nose to hide most of it, but there's nothing to be done for the limp weight of your arm or the mess you've made of your shirt.
"Oh dear!" Nina hurries forward, concern clear on her face as she stares at you. "What happened? Are you okay?"
"I slipped on one of the stairs," you say, "Nothing in the box broke, though."
"That's hardly important right now," Nina huffs. "I've told Luke we need to fix things downstairs before somebody gets hurt, and now look at you."
"I'll be okay, don't worry," you tell Nina and look towards Zoro in silent plea for him to help back you up, only to find that he's still staring at you with an unreadable expression.
"Poor thing," coos Nina. "I know I have a first-aid kit around here somewhere, and I can make you an ice-pack..."
"That's really not necessary, Miss Nina." Her fussing is starting to make you a little uncomfortable, especially given that you've had far worse than this. "I'll beă
Ą"
"We're leaving." Zoro's tone is sharp as he strides towards you, ignoring the way your brow furrows.
"What aboută
Ą" You yelp as Zoro lifts you up, all but slinging you over his shoulder and leaving you to prop yourself up against his back. "Zoro! Put me down!"
"Sorry about this, but we're leaving." Zoro opts to completely ignore you, arm locked against your legs and undeterred by the way you squirm. "We have a doctor back on our ship who can patch them up."
Nina looks like she wants to argue for a moment before she nods, slipping ahead of Zoro to open the door for him. You struggle harder, smacking your good hand against Zoro's back.
"Stop treating me like I'm a sack of potatoes!" Zoro waits until he's a good bit away from Nina's before he halts, and your hope that he's going to listen to you is crushed by the way he simply adjusts so that now he's got you in a princess carry. "Zoro!"
"Quit complaining," Zoro bites back, "you want to drip blood everywhere?"
You quiet for a moment. "...Sunny's to the left." Zoro turns, and you groan. "Your other left." Zoro grips you a little tighter, but otherwise doesn't snap back as he follows your instructions. "I don't get what the big deal is, anyways. So I fell down the steps a little and now I have a bloody nose, but I'm fine."
Zoro's grip tightens to the point that it almost hurts. "Kuina."
Your head tilts. "Kuina? Your childhood friend?" He'd mentioned her to you once or twice before, the fact that she was part of his driving force to become the world's best swordsman. He'd gone tightlipped when you asked what had happened to her, and you knew better than to press.
"...she fell down the stairs," he says, voice uncharacteristically soft. "And...she died."
Oh. Guilt pools in your stomach, sinking feeling flooding your veins as Zoro walks. No wonder he'd given you that look at your flippancy of your situation. "Zoro, Iă
Ą"
"It's fine." His tone is flat. "It was a long time ago."
You know that it isn't fine, that Zoro's too stubborn to admit when something bothers him like this ă
Ą so you sigh, letting the tension in your muscles ease. "I'm not going anywhere, you know. Not any time soon."
Zoro says nothing at first and you think maybe you've said something wrong in trying to comfort him ă
Ą and then his grip softens on you, just a little. "Good," he says, and you can hear the relief in his tone. "It'd be boring without you."
#ă
Ąmine.#one piece x reader#one piece scenario#zoro roronoa x reader#zoro x reader#âml: zoro.#ă
Ąanswered.
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How To Win Friends and Influence People: Dawntrail Edition âď¸
I swear the title is a joke.
Listen, we all know I'm one to furiously and viscously encourage people to venture outside their box and meet people, and today is no different! With the launch of Dawntrail, we're likely to see a lot of cool new people in the community, so these are a couple of affirmations I employ to myself when reaching out. Feel free to use them to your benefit!
That little voice telling you the person will think you're annoying is probably a liar. In all the time I have reached out to people in this community, I have never once heard a complaint about being annoying, overbearing or too much. As long as you're not inappropriate, respect boundaries and go in with pure intentions, it is likely to be reciprocated.
If people don't want to interact with you, that is their loss. Rejection sucks, but you cannot let the fear of it rule your intentions. Don't hyper-fixate on the loss; simply block (if needed) and move on. Not only will you foster healthy relationships with people who reciprocate your efforts, you will avoid drama by respecting and enacting your own boundaries. Trust me when I say this will improve your whole experience.
You don't need to message people right away! Start by leaving nice tags on their gposes, writing, etc.; make conversation and comment on their posts. Work up to a message first if you're shy.
I don't know what kind of comment to leave, you say? Easy! Find one thing about what they've done that you like. For example, I'm often like 'wow the x colouring in this is amazing! i love how it makes the character pop'! It shows engagement with their work beyond the superficial. Trust me, when i get these kinds of tags, it makes my day.
Remember you get out of a community what you put into it. If you have a cool idea for a space/event/roleplay concept, promote it! If you think your character's story would bolster another persons', offer to write with them! Reach out to other places with similar or adjacent concepts and see if you can work together. You catch more flies with honey than with vinegar, so they say.
If it's within your blog's scope, reblogging other people's outreach posts/commissions/gposes/etc is a great way to engage with the community in a low-stakes way. If you need to make a sideblog for promotional stuff, do it! I prefer tags, personally, but you do you. The more approachable you look, the more people are going to contact you first.
Befriend people because you earnestly want to get to know them. "Popularity" is a farce. There are amazingly talented people who have a small group of friends because they're shy.
Eat food, drink water and take your medication before you do any of the aforementioned. Actually, just cover all those basis before you do anything. If you start dooming and glooming your efforts, have a nap (trust me, it worked for me last night!).
A couple of things to keep in mind on the other side:
You are not obligated to reciprocate someone's efforts.
"No." Is a full sentence. It's always preferable to be kind, but know your worth.
If that shit don't stick, hit da bricks!! You can leave!!
Always try to assume the best intentions of people.
Tools of moderation are not drama-mongering or nasty; they simply tailor your experience to what you want to see/experience. You don't need to justify your reasonings, you don't need to explain yourself to anyone; block and move on!! You don't need to make a big deal about it.
If anyone has anything else they want to add, please do! But this how I operate and it's never done me a disservice. â¨
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I would very much like a gn version of the type of person they woukd like pretty please!
What Kind of Person they Like
Summary: gn! reader. What kind of person they say they want versus the one they end up with
CW: some of the boys are assholes with their answers, it's explained away in the who they end up with section, so take it with a grain of salt, also these are just my opinions. If you don't agree that's ok! Also, if you read the Fem/masc versions some of this is different but some of it is the same. Sorry if you were hoping your fave would have a different opinion.
A/n: putting the tag list in here as well in case some of you are gn. If you're Fem or masc! My bad guys! Also now that I finished the trilogy I'm so done đ formatting on this app takes so fucking long
Masc Version Fem Version
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Ace Trappola
What he says
"hmm, a great bod and an ass you can't resist the urge to smack. Why are you giving me that look? Sevens, fine! Okay they're kind and have an ass that- hey don't throw stuff at me!"
Who he ends up with
Ace is going to be naturally attracted to a person that holds him accountable. He's also looking for someone who he can tease at all hours of the day. He wants someone he can have fun with, but who will also give him the cold hard facts. But they also take care of him when he's down. He's hiding a lot of insecurity under his cool guy exterior, so if they lets him snuggle, and let him whine, and then whisper how much they love him, he'll be a happy man. And he's really big on them not knowing anything about basketball. He's a fucking show off.
Deuce Spade
What he says
"Huh, I've never really thought about it. Um, I guess they're nice and funny, and aren't scared of my past. I'd also want them to be a little like you, Y/NâŚ.not that I like you! Well, I like you, not like like you, shit I'm sorry! This isn't sounding any betterâŚ"
Who he ends up with
He really means it when he says he wants someone like you. You're one of his first friends, and, in his mind, the person you date/marry should be your best friend. But if it's not you he ends up with, he will probably be attracted to someone who's book smart, but less street smart. A little "dumb" like him, in a cute kind of way. He likes a cuddler, and maybe someone who is shorter than him so that he can feel like he's swallowing them whole when he wraps his arms around them. Also, someone who encourages him and helps him with his homework/paperwork.Â
Riddle Rosehearts
What he says
"I don't have time for a relationship right nowâŚ.but I think I want someone well behaved who follows the rules- what are you smirking at? Just because you're a rule breaker doesn't mean everyone is. And maybe someone smart. No, definitely someone smart."
Who he ends up with
As much as he hates to admit itâŚhe's attracted to rule breakers. Not as bad as Ace obviously, he's not trying to go gray early. But if they say something like "let's have a non herbal tea" when it's time for only herbal teaâŚdamn what a rush. By the time he gets serious with someone, he'll be confident enough in himself to cut ties with his mother, so they have to be strong willed, and willing to live off of a low budget for a while. He'll need someone understanding, who knows he'll have relapses and be too much and too angry sometimes, and they have to be understanding of that, and encouraging of improvement, or he'll live with guilt for the rest of his life.Â
Trey Clover
What he says
"Someone who's willing to settle down and grow fat and old with me. You're laughing, but I'm going to be running my parents bakery, and feeding people is my love language. Speaking of, you better finish off that slice of cake before the others steal it."
Who he ends up with
Trey isn't that picky. He really means it when he says he wants someone to get old and fat with. That's his dream. Running a bakery with his spouse by his side, and growing old together as your own kids grow up and bring home their own spouses. But he also wants someone he can blindside with his sadistic side. Someone who'll enjoy that side of him, but also someone who easily forgets it's there. It makes things more fun for him.
Cater Diamond
What he says
"Ha ha someone trendy and totes hot. Someone totally cammable. Aw, are you jealous? Don't worry, you'll always be my fave, even if you're not my otp."
Who he ends up with
Cater wants someone who won't disappear when he looks away. Yes, if they're "cammable" that's the first thing he's looking for, but when all is said and done, if they seem like they're going to be flaky, he won't take it too seriously either, as a defense mechanism. He needs a person with mental endurance, because he's going to spend the beginning of the relationship trying to scare them off. Not that he wants to, he just needs to know he won't be left alone like he usually is. He is going to be attracted to someone who humors his trends and magicam addiction, but who also sees through him. Someone balanced. They see the real Cay Cay, but they're also willing to be his "trophy spouse" online.
Savannaclaw
Jack Howl
What he says
"Oh, I uh, well someone who can keep up on a run with me I guessâŚ"
Who he ends up with
Jack says he wants someone who can work out with him. And he would really be happy if he had a partner who was as active as himâŚbut he'd also be happy with a soft squishy partner. He gets blushy thinking about holding someone soft and plush against his firm muscles. But he's flexible. In the end he won't choose his future spouse based on appearances. Wolf beastmen mate for life, so the main thing he is looking for is loyalty. Loyalty, and someone who would want to raise lots of kids with him. As long as you have those two traits, nothing else really matters to him.
Ruggie Bucchi
What he says
"Relationships are expensive, shihihi. Tell you what, you find me someone with sticky fingers, and we'll eat the rich together."
Who he ends up with
This is a deflection.If you're asking about a specific gender, Ruggie has two drastically different responses, mostly due to the large and in charge hyena women. But if you take that aspect away, deep down he longs for someone who he can settle down with, who will call him a good boy and pamper him (whether he is the breadwinner or they are), and who he can just live a happy life, slowly rising up to middle class, with. He also is looking for someone to snuggle the night away with. He gets lonely at night.
Leona Kingscholar
What he says
"Body pillow"
"That's not-"
"Body pillow"
Who he ends up with
Like Hyena's, lion women are the boss. So take the gender aspect away, and what he's searching for is someone who will make him feel loved. Whether it's through shouting and dragging him to therapy or soft caresses and whispered praise, he doesn't mind. He wants to feel loved and first in someone's life. He doesn't care how it happens. He's a surprisingly flexible guy.
Also, they have to accept that nighttime is when they're a body pillow. That's an absolute must.
Octavinelle
Azul Ashengrotto
What he says
"Why do you wish to know? Are you attempting to reach my standards? Ha ha, let's see. Someone who is mysterious, who is willing to dress stunningly, and sit in my lap when I make deals, so that competitors can see what a high value man I am."
Who he ends up with
If that didn't make you want to throw up đ¤˘. He'll be attracted to someone who makes him feel beautiful in subtle ways. He knows how easy it is to spin a verbal web of lies. But there's some things you can't fake. Like allowing someone to rest on your lap, and caressing their hair. Or squeezing someone's hand gently when you have to let go. Or pressing a kiss to someone's cheek after you help them straighten their outfit. It's the soft romantic moments that'll speak to Azul when he finds his love. Aside from that, he's not looking for anything in particular. Just someone who makes him feel loved and beautiful.
Jade Leech
What he says
"Fu fu who's to say? Perhaps you are the lover of my dreams. Or not."
Who he ends up with
They're someone who can see through him. Someone who never compares him or confuses him for his twin. They're smart. Very smart. They eat his mushrooms and go on hikes with him. They are patient with Floyd. What Jade is looking forâŚ.is Jade. Someone like that is the only one who can truly keep up with him.
Floyd Leech
What he says
"Aw Shrimpy! Are you worried? Don't worry, whoever they are, I'll still squeeze ya!"
Who he ends up with
He's looking for someone fun. That's his only criteria. At least that's what he says. He can't be sure if he loves them because they're fun, or if they're fun because he loves them. In that sense, it's sort of a soulmate situation for Floyd. Whatever will be will be. He'll just know.Â
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Scarabia
Kalim al Asim
What he says
"I love everybody!"
"But-"
"Have some of this ice cream, it's amazing!"
Who he ends up with
He wants someone he can spoil, but he doesn't know that. It's something in his subconscious. He doesn't want things back either. So they have to be someone who is okay with being spoiled, and doesn't feel guilty about it. He's going to be attracted to someone who loves life like him, but also helps to keep him grounded. And if they have a spark of danger in them, oh man, he'll be simping so hard.Â
Jamil Viper
What he says
"I'm not going to even think about it until my freedom is assured. Kalim has promised, but it would be irresponsible to force someone into servitude with me."
Who he ends up with
Jamil will fall for someone who truly appreciates him. Someone who will offer him help with his work (it doesn't matter if it's good help or not, he appreciates it either way). Someone who will pamper him. Someone who gets excited about the prospect of dropping everything and seeing the world with him. Someone who will be his partner, but who will also be willing to take turns ruling the house, so that they both can pretend to be the royal who is getting served from time to time.
Pomefiore
Epel Felmier
What he says
"Um, someone buff who knows I wear the pants in the relationship. Don't laugh, I like the idea of being surrounded in a hug of muscles! Stop laughing!"
Who he ends up with
Epel wants someone he can provide for, who he never has to prove his masculinity to. Someone who supports his ambitions, and believes in him. Someone who he doesn't have to change for. And if they want to be a cutesie house spouse for himâŚhe won't complain.
Rook Hunt
What he says
"Mon Trickster, I can find beauty in everyone."
Who he ends up with
What he says is actually true. He can and will fall in love with every kind of person. It's hard to say who he will tie himself to, in the end. It'll be someone who he heavily bonds with and imprints on. It's a lot like with Floyd. Essentially a soulmate situation.
Vil Schoenheit
What he says
"Hm. Why do you want to know, potato? I suppose they're professional, and beautiful, and care about their image enough that they don't cause a scandal."
Who he ends up with
The thing about Vil is, he's not that far off from Rook in his take on beauty. He doesn't so much believe in conventional beauty, or societal beauty standards. He knows everyone has an individual definition of health and beauty. When he says he's looking for a beautiful person, he's looking for someone who's willing to reach their full potential. Or, more accurately, to allow him to help them reach they're full potential. Vil never admits it, but he adores pampering and styling people. His love language is helping people look their best. So if they're someone who knows themself enough to know what style they like, he'll appreciate it, and take up the mantle of doing the hard work, ie making outfits, styling hair and makeup, formulating skin care etc. TLDR, he wants a confident self possessed lover he can dress like a doll, and show off.
Ignihyde
Idia Shroud
What he says
"-------------" mutes ipad.
In his head, he doesn't think any man would ever love him. But his dream lover is a sexy anime cat person.
Who he ends up with
What he'll be attracted to is someone who is patient, speaks at a reasonable volume, and is assertive enough to make him leave his room. Essentially, winning Idia's heart is a siege. You'll have to starve him out. That's the patience bit. The reasonable volume comes from him being easily scared by loud noises. Assertive enough to make him leave his roomâŚwell that speaks for itself. He wants to believe he can be part of the outside world, and the one he will fall for will be willing to show it to him.
Diasomnia
Sebek Zigvolt
What he says
"They are someone of noble bearing, who shall help me defend my liege!"
Who he ends up with
He'll fall for a someone who is stronger, mentally, physically, etc., than him. A person who can put him in his place. A lover who speaks, and it makes him shut up, and sit pretty. They're assertive, and can come off as abrasive to others but to Sebek? Sevens, he'd die for a smidgen of their affection.
Silver
What he says
"I don't think it's worth it to try and define the one I'll fall in love with. There are so many wonderful people, and my father always told me that love is the greatest mystery in this world. Who's to say who I'll fall in love with?"
Who he ends up with
Silver will fall for someone soft. The entire romance will be soft. Soft caresses in the moonlight. Soft kisses in the morning. Soft fingers gently intertwining. They'll be empathetic about his sleep condition, never blaming him since it's not his fault. They'll be gentle with his animal friends. But they'll also be strong in some ways. They'll be someone who will fight the metaphorical (or literal, Silver lives an interesting life) dragon for their sleeping Prince Silver. They'll be sweet and kind. Like a hybrid of Prince Philip and Princess Aurora.
Lilia Vanrouge
What he says
"Fu Fu Fu wouldn't you like to know."
Who he ends up with
Lilia can and has fallen for every kind of person. He's lived a long time. He's had the time to romance lots of lovers. What he'd probably fall for in this stage of his life, is someone he can tease, and play around with, but who is also ready to settle down a little bit. Someone who enjoys the little things in life. He's getting a little old. He wants to build onto his family that he already has. Silver can stand to have three or ten more siblings, right?
Malleus Draconia
What he says
"You."
Who he ends up with
You.
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forced feminization ollie with felix! (pt. 2) đ
i am a man of the people! hereâs more forced fem! ollie cuz the world needs ittttt :3
- the first time felix shaved ollieâs stubble he âaccidentallyâ knicked him on his jaw,, itâs ollieâs fault he was so shaky and nervous right? i mean felix did have a blade near his jugularâŚso what does fucked up felix do? lick the blood off his face. obviously. âthere all better, yeah?â and ollie just nods softly as he slowly exhales a shuddery little breath
- first time felix gets ollie in a pretty babydoll dress he asks for a spin,, forcing ollie to tell him Who dressed him up and How pretty he is đľâđŤ probably ends with felix asking ollie âwhat are you wearing underneath?â with the most shit eating grin and ollie just embarrassingly bends over showing felix his pink lacy panties that say âproperty of felix cattonâ in cute swirly cursive letters with a bow sitting right above his tail bone đ
- when ollie gets really into his role of being felixâs girlfriend he calls him âsirâ 𤤠ie: âare you gonna be a good girl for me? be my pretty little arm candy when we go out?â and ollie with his eyes all glazed over look up at felix responds with a breathy âyes..sirâ and felix wants to FUCK HIM ON SIGHT.
- whenever they are super super fucking drunk felix insists on ollie (messily) dancing on a stripper pole,, poor ollie babe just twirling himself around giggling and feeling all warm and fuzzy cuz he has felixâs attention on him though when they leave the club shitfaced ollie trips cuz of his heels and felixâs says âokay thatâs enoughâ and just carries him bridal style to his dorm đ¤
- felix probably gets venetia & farleigh in on the âjokeâ⌠venetia making comments about how ugly ollieâs nails are so she suggests to paint them for him, making sure to choose the girliest color & designs,, whereas farleigh is just more catty with ollie, easily provoking him and stuff like that one day ollie snaps back and farleigh goes âawwww looks like oliverâs on her period everyoneâ and poor ollie just stomps off
- next to felix venetia probably gets the most into it LOL,, âyâknow iâve never seen felix bring around girls like you before..â & âi know youâve never kissed another girl before, felix told me.â and she just gets all up in his personal space making it quite literally IMPOSSIBLE to get away (trying not to think about dom! venetia and fem! ollieâŚ.)
- holy fuck thinking abt felix sending venetia and ollie into town to go shopping for bikinisâŚ..oliver just blushing the entire time heâs dragged around by venetia ultimately losing it when she holds up the skimpiest bikini up to his body âthis would look good on you donât you think?â & obviously before they check out ollie gets a text from felix asking him to try it on đľâđŤ
- whenever felixâs is feeling nice he eats ollie out (literally just hearing felix saying that melts him completelyâŚ.)
- felixâs controls what ollie eats đ always ordering for him whenever they are at a fancy restaurant
- ollieâs favorite pet names consist of: pretty girl, my girl, darling, princess, and love (his favorite..)
hope yâall enjoyed this one! wanted to go more in depth with it hehe i know felix is a major asshole but he softens up from time to time,, especially when it comes to his pretty girlfriend ollie đľâđŤđâ¨
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loveâs never been much to me (but iâll come with you if youâre sure thatâs what you need)
// wednesday hates the new girl. //
warnings: minor character death (not that important) wednesday being mean, wednesday being a jealous asshole, sensitive reader, crying, harsh words. angst but happy ending <3
when your parents first sent you and your sisters to a boarding school in vermont, you tried your hardest not to be upset about it. you understood your mothers death impacted your father in ways you couldnât imagined. you were sure it impacted you in ways he could never fathom as wellâ but you couldnât help but feel like an outcast on the first day. your older sister elise was fitting in great, as soon as she showed up. her high grades put her in honors classes, and her contagious smile along with that charming, intelligent intellect caused people to migrate to her quickly. your younger sister sabrina was no different, she was beautiful, and had the best style out of anyone youâve ever met. it wasnât hard for either for them to make friends.
you however, tugged at the longsleeves of your tight black cropped top, and you kept your eyes open and aware of your surroundings. everyone at the school looked like they were either rich, or smart as hell. âhey i really like your jeans.â a tall, dark haired brunette tells you as she approaches you. you smile, âthanks! i love your cardigan.â you compliment her, and she smiles back at you. âiâm yoko. i think your my new roommate.â she admits, and your eyes widen. âoh shit, seriously? i havenât even gotten a chance to see my roommate yet. i just put my stuff on the empty bed⌠but the rooms nice. youâve kept it clean!â you begin to ramble, and yoko laughs. âyou seem nice. i think weâre gonna get along great.â she proclaims, flashing you a grin.
yoko was your first friend at nevermore academy. she was bright, generous, gave great fashion advice, and was someone you knew you could trust right away. it didnât take long for you both to become nearly inseparable. thatâs when you begin getting close to enid, divina, and even bianca; some of yokoâs other close friends. you and enid have the most in common. you find yourself hanging out with the blonde whenever your roommate is busy with nightshade society. it isnât until you and enid have plans for the mall one afternoon, that you end up in her room. thatâs when you see her. wednesday addams. her long braided black hair, her long lashes, and that all black outfit. you had barely seen her in the halls, but had no classes with her at all.
âi hope you and your friend arenât planning on staying here. iâm working on my novel.â wednesday states, barely looking up from her typewriter. you look at her with pure interest, âyouâre a writer? what are you writing about?â you ask curiously, and she rolls her eyes. âthings a peabrain like you wouldnât understand.â she mutters, and you giggle at her cattiness. âignore wednesday, sheâs allergic to color and all things nice. letâs go y/n, the mall closes at 6 today.â enid says, as she grabs her coat. âokay! sabrinaâs tagging along, she said she needs some new shoes.â you explain, and enid smiles, âthatâs fine! i love her! i heard she has a crush on joey from physics.â enid admits, and you gag. âew! he looks like one of those guys that doesnât wash their ass.â
enid bursts into fits of laughter as you both make your way to the door, âbye wednesday, it was nice officially meeting you.â you wave at the raven haired girl, who doesnât even spare you a glance. âi wish i could say the same.â she grumbles, and you canât fight the smile that tugs on your lips as you and enid make your way out. as you two walk down the hall, and towards sabrinaâs room, enid pipes up; âhey, donât take anything wednesday says personally, sheâs like that with everybody.â enid explains, and you shake your head. âoh itâs fine! sheâs pretty cute.â you admit with a blush, and enid shakes her head in disbelief. âwednesday and cute donât belong in the same category. maybe violent, or irritable; even sassy fits.â enid jokes and you laugh. âwell, sheâs still pretty. even if she doesnât quite like me.â you say as you walk into your younger sisters room.
âwho doesnât like you?â sabrina asks, as she looks away from the mirror where she was fixing her make up in, and over to you and enid. âwednesday.â you say, and sabrina furrows her brows, âwho?â she asks. âmy roommate. sheâs in our grade, super grumpy, wears all black.â enid explains bluntly as she takes a seat on sabrinaâs bed. âis she short?â sabrina asks and enid nods eagerly. âyup thatâs her!â the blonde exclaims. âoh god, y/n/n, you like her? sheâs emo.â sabrina points out, and you pout, âwhatâs wrong with that?!! sheâs totally cute!â you declare, and enid flashes you a pointed look. âand totally hates you.â she reminds you, and you blush sheepishly. âhate and love are two very similar things.â you joke causing enid to groan and throw a pillow your way.
you start seeing wednesday a lot more after that. you always go out of your way to say hi to her, or even talk to her. even though she never seems excited to talk to you, she doesnât ignore you, and you take that as a good sign. sabrina and you have always been the closest out of your siblings; she was only a year younger than you, yet you two were more like best friends than sisters. thatâs exactly why sheâs the first person you confess to about having a crush on wednesday.
âyou canât be serious, y/n/n. she hates your guts!â sabrina points out as you two eat lunch under the old oak tree. you had just admitted it to her, and the brunette was staring at you as if you had three heads. âi know! but sheâs so hot! and have you heard her voice? ugh⌠i got it bad, the other day i asked her if she came her often⌠to school!!â you groan, and she shakes her head, chuckling softly. âdamn⌠i for sure would have thought you wouldâve fell for yoko⌠or even enid. but wednesday? seriously? have you guys even had an actual conversation that didnât involve you trying to awkwardly flirt with her?â sabrina asks, and you nod.
âi was talking to her about her novel the other day⌠sheâs a smart ass, but sheâs definitely smart. like probably smarter than elise.â you admit, and sabrina laughs. âdamn, maybe you should ask elise how to tutor you in the art of being a bitch.â she jokes, and you giggle. âmaybe. sheâs definitely too busy with jake. have you seen the way she gets when he texts her?â you inquire as you eat a cookie off your sisters tray. âyeah, itâs disgusting.â the younger girl says after rolling her eyes. âshe still hasnât talked to me because i stained her flannel. i got her a new one and said i was sorry!â sabrina exclaims, and you laugh. âsheâs taking it personal. youâre gonna have to gravel. or just buy her food after her debate club. sheâs always hungry after arguing.â you retort, taking a sip of your chocolate milk.
âugh, she was made for debate. iâm thinking about joining the soccer team.â she reveals, and your eyes widen. âawww that would be awesome! youâd be great!â you say honestly, and she flashes you a smile. âthanks y/n/n.â she says softly as she finishes her sandwich. âhey that reminds me! my friend xavier was saying something about a book club on thursdayâs at the library. you should check it out!â she says as she opens her backpack and pulls out a flyer. she hands it to you, and you take it, skimming over it. your eyebrows raise slightly, âhuh, i actually think iâm gonna check it out. i need new book ideas. iâm tired of re-reading âblack houseâ.â you tell her and she beams. âi thought of you as soon as he showed me the flyer!â
unbeknownst to you and sabrina, wednesday also received the same flyer from xavier. thatâs how the two of you both ended up in the library on tuesday. youâre a bit early, and so is she, along with a few other students. you take a seat right beside her, and she glances at you. âare you lost? this isnât the romance novel book club. they meet on tuesdayâs.â she cattily remarks, and you chuckle. âi didnât even know they had a club for that.â you admit, ignoring her comment. wednesday canât help but continuously glance at you; youâre wearing baggy jeans, a tight fitted top, along with a pair of gray converse. wednesday is wearing an oversized black knitted sweater, fishnets, and a pair of black doc marten boots. her hair is braided and she looks gorgeous as ever.
âi actually donât enjoy romance novels. it makes me feel like iâm reading really cheesy fanfics. my little sister gave me the flyer for this club. i need new book recommendations.â you say simply, and wednesday purses her lips, âthis is a book club for thriller and horror novels.â she points out, and you nod. âi know. i read the flyer, addams.â you joke, and she looks at you. âwhatâs your favorite book?â she asks, and you blush sheepishly as you reach into your bag and pull out your old copy of âblack houseâ by stephen king. âi know itâs a bit basic but he really does have wonderful novels. i really enjoyed âsheâs goneâ by david bell as well. the ending was a plot twist. poor girl.â you ramble slightly, and you blush as you realize sheâs staring at you. you tuck a strand of curly hair behind your ear, your eyes meet hers, âwhatâs your favorite book, wednesday?â you ask her, sounding genuinely curious.
âthe original frankenstein book is unmatched. but i suppose the haunting of hill house is good as well.â she answers curtly and you smile at her as she avoids your sweet gaze. âi too carry a copy of frankenstein around because itâs my favorite.â she confesses, making you grin. âyouâll have to lend it to me sometime. if thatâs okay of course.â you say so gently she nearly grimaces at how soft your voice is. she reaches into her backpack, and pulls out the old copy, before handing it to you. you reach for it, but she pulls it away abruptly. âblack house. iâd like to read it.â she declares, taking you by slight surprise. you nod vigorously, âsure! here!â you say happily, as you shove the copy of your favorite book into her free hand. you gladly take the original âfrankensteinâ copy, and flash her a smile that makes her nauseous.
âhello everyone. i see we have quite a few eager readers. iâve picked out a few good reads, and weâll all have a vote on which one you all wanna read this week.â one of the teachers you hardly know interrupts your moment with wednesday, as she sits down in front of the group. wednesday doesnât say a word to you during the rest of the session. though, she cannot seem to stop thinking about you as she reads âblack houseâ. the little side notes you wroteâ the highlighted parts you thought were important. she finds herself enjoying the book, and she canât believe someone like you actually has good taste. perhaps wednesday misjudged you.
sheâs pulled out of her thoughts one evening by your giggling. youâre laughing at something sabrina and her friends were saying. thatâs when wednesday sees you take a hit of one of their wax pens, blowing the smoke in your younger sisters face, and giggling wildly. she shakes her head, prying her eyes away from you. nope. youâre still an idiot, she thinks. an idiot who seems to be interested in good books. but thatâs your only redeeming quality in wednesdayâs opinion.
âhey wednesday, are you enjoying the book?â you ask as you approach the raven haired girl. wednesday looks over at where you were just sitting with your group of annoying friends and little sister. they seemed to have scattered, and she hadnât even noticed you making your way up to her. âitâs not terrible. i truly enjoy the way he doesnât shy away from the gruesome details and thoughts.â she explains, and you nod in agreement as you sit next to her. she doesnât tell you to get lost even though she should. your girly perfume fills her senses, and she sticks her nose in the air as she looks away from you. âyeah, stephen king is already not afraid to cross any lines, but peter straub is totally fucked in the head. i like it.â you confess in a dorky way that makes wednesday turn her head and stare at you for a second.
âwhat?â you ask curiously, wondering what she was staring at. âhow did i never notice how much of a dork you are?â she asks, and you roll your eyes, blushing deeplyâ you pull your knees up to your chest, and you stare at your shoes. âmaybe because youâve never bothered to get to know me.â you joke, before looking at her. the sunlight is hitting your hair, and the way your bangs falls just above your eyelashesâ wednesday never noticed how brown your eyes are. they change in the sun and sheâs never noticed that about anyone. âwell, you are insufferable⌠but i suppose i donât mind speaking to you.â wednesday mutters, and you smile widely. thereâs that nauseating feeling again. she wants to kiss wipe that smile right off your face.
âoh! i finished frankenstein! it was so fucking good but so fucking sadâ i almost donât want to read âblack phoneâ. i know iâm gonna end up crying again.â you admit, and wednesday shakes her head. âyou cried? i understand frankenstein is tragic, but crying is a bit dramatic donât you think?â she asks, and you shrug. âiâm a sensitive person. hereâs your book, thanks for lending it to me. if you have any other book recommendations iâd really appreciate them.â you confess shyly, and wednesday takes note of the rosy pink blush coating your cheeks and nose. she doesnât understand why youâre so adamant on getting to know her and talk to her. shouldnât she have scared you off by now like she usually does with everyone else?
âthomas harris. silence of the lambs. i have a copy in my room, iâll lend it to you tomorrow.â she states, and you smile widely. god she wishes youâd stop doing that.
wednesday begins to notice everything you do. the way you laugh, or mess with the holes in your jeans when youâre bored. you heart your âiâsâ, and chew on your bottom lip when youâre nervous. youâre kind to everyone, and she hasnât encountered a single person who has spoken badly about you. wednesday finds herself at a loss because she actually wants to talk to you, but she realizes she never wants to talk to anyone. she canât for the life of her figure out whatâs so different about you. or how she went from hating you, to thinking about you nearly every hour of the day. she even catches herself thinking about your giggle in the middle of class.
in december wednesday finds you sitting alone in the garden; a spot she enjoyed coming to be alone. just when she was about to tell you to get lost, she got closer, and heard the sniffling. ây/n?â wednesdayâs voice causes you to jump a bit. you werenât expecting anyone to be here and see you like this. you look up at her; those bambi eyes are red and full of tears, and your cheeks were stained, as if you had been crying for awhile now. wednesday forgets who she is and immediately feels concern wash over her. did somebody make you cry? was she going to have to commit murder? âwhat happened?â she asks demandingly, before she takes a seat on the bench beside you. âi-itâs my moms birthday todayâŚâ you trail off, trying to hold back tears but failing miserably. âoh. did you call her?â wednesday questions, and you shake your head, âsheâ she p-passed away last year.â you explain, and wednesday looks at you intensely.
âiâm sorry.â she sounds sincere, and it takes you by surprise as you stare at her with those vulnerable eyes. âshe probably misses you as much as you miss her.â wednesday adds, and you feel your heart flutter in your chest. ây-youâre sweet. thanks for sitting with me.â you thank her gently, and she responds with an eye roll, âiâm not sweet, and if you tell anyone i sat with you, iâll cut all your pretty hair off.â she threatens, and you sniffle as you blush, an inevitable smile creeping onto your face. âyou think my hair is pretty?â you ask, and for the first time since you met wednesday addams, the heat rises to her cheeks causing them to turn a shade of crimson red. âshut up, y/n.â she says warningly, shooting a murderous look your way. instead of lookinh terrified like anyone else would, you stare at her with an expression of pure adoration.
things change after your encounter with wednesday in the garden. you catch her staring more than she normally would, and whenever you approach her, you notice she doesn���t seem as annoyed as she used to. sure, sheâs still as grumpy as ever, but your presence didnât annoy her anymore, and that was strange. she normally gets irritated with everyone, but you somehow have become an exception. wednesday was not only okay with you coming up to her and talking her ear off, she was also looking forward to it. thoughts of you and even your voice would plague her mind. she thought of you before she fell asleep, and as soon as she awoke, there you were on her mind like clockwork.
it isnât until wednesday sees you talking to aaron from botany, he seems to be staring at you with a glint in his eyes. youâre smiling at him in that way that always makes wednesdayâs stomach flutter. but youâre directing it at him instead, and that nauseating feeling she usually gets, turns into a burning sensation in the pit of her stomach. suddenly she has never hated anyone more than aaron jeffery. she glares at him; sheâs certain if he notices heâll probably shit himself. but he doesnât notice; you do. you turn your head, and your eyes lock with wednesdayâs tenebrous orbs. you light up at the sight of her, and now your smile is directed at her. you wave cutely, âhey wednesday!â you greet her from across the courtyard before looking at aaron. âiâll see you next period!â you exclaim, and he nods with a smile as you rush over to the raven haired girl.
âhi.â you giggle as you tuck a loose strand of hair behind your ear. wednesday tenses up, âhi. what were you talking to jefferyâs about?â she asks, trying to sound as uninterested as possible. âwe got assigned to be partners earlier this year in botany class, and we just sort of became friends that way.â you shrug, and wednesday has an uncomfortable knot in her stomach. âoh.â is all the shorter girl responds with, causing you to furrow your eyebrows. âis there a problem between you and aaron? like some sort of secret beef i donât know about?â you ask half jokingly, and she shakes her head. âi donât like him.â wednesday answers quickly. âhe stares at you like heâs never seen a girl in his sorry little life. donât get me started on the way he dresses.â wednesday rants a bit, and all of your confusion seems to dissipate as a wave of realization washes over you. wednesday addams is jealous of aaron, because she thinks he likes you.
âbut aaron is crushing on stacey mathewâs.â you remind her and wednesday scowls. âi donât care. since when does that stop boys?â she mutters, and you tilt your head to the side, like a confused puppy. âwen⌠are you jealous of him?â you ask her, and the way youâre smirking makes her shoot a murderous glare your way. sheâs not an idiot. sheâs completely aware sheâs jealous of that tall boy and his kind smile that wednesday doesnât have. but to admit sheâs envious of him, would be to admit how she feels about you. wednesday would rather die before admitting that your voice is something she looks forward to hearing every single day. or even how every time she reads a stephen king book she thinks of you.
âjealousy is a feeling, y/n, and we both know i donât do feelings.â she declares trying to sound serious. you raise your eyebrows, âthen you wouldnât care if i said he was cute?â you question, clearly just trying to get a rise out of her, and it obviously works because she glares at you. âhe looks like a burnt chicken.â she hisses, and you giggle wildly. âno feelings my ass.â you retort sarcastically, and the raven haired girls expression stays firm. âi donât have feelings, y/n! much less any regarding you and that fried roach.â she snaps in that usually harsh tone she always saves for other people, and never you. yet today her stare is harsh and itâs directed towards you. the trace of softness you usually see in her big brown-black orbs is gone; instead thereâs something inscrutable in her gaze and you canât quite figure out what it is.
you frown, âno feelings regarding me at all? is that your polite way of saying you donât care about me whatsoever?â you ask uncertainly, and she rolls her eyes. âi donât care about anybody. everybody at this school is a dimwitted, supernatural moron with no concept of reality or the real world. if that bothers you, maybe you should just go run along and follow aaron jeffery around everywhere like a lost, pathetic puppy. the same way you follow me around.â her tone is so cold, and so unlike whenever she speaks to you. she sounds the same way as when you first met her. you blink a few times, and then, something terrible happens to wednesday. not the good kind of terrible that she lovesâ no, the terrible that makes her stomach twist and churn⌠your bottom lip begins to tremble and the heart sheâs been so intent on hiding from everyone, falls into the pit of her belly.
tears well up in your eyes, and suddenly sheâs replaying every cruel word she just said. they were all because you were right. she was jealous of aaron. âyou couldâve just said you didnât want to hang out with me. or that you donât like me⌠you donât have to be so cruel just because you know how i feel about you.â you manage to say while your voice shakes and wednesday can see the look of hurt in those chocolate brown eyes. you turn around and rush off, leaving wednesday alone with her thoughts and unwanted emotions. that interaction hadnât gone as she planned, but what could she do about it? chase you and beg for forgiveness? admit that what you said was not only true but spot on? she was jealous, and she did know about the way you feel about her. though you werenât aware of what she was feeling for you. the more she got to know you, the more she realized she liked. even the things she was supposed to hate, she found made those dead butterflies in her stomach resurrect and flutter around with pure life.
she found herself having to pretend to dislike your presence, but it seemed as though you could see right through wednesday and her grumpiness. you even dealt with it just to hang out with her. though, there were undoubtable moments where you just knew wednesday returned all those feelings she claimed she didnât have. you would ramble on and on about a book or show, and when youâd look up her eyes would be on you, taking in every word. even when she wasnât looking at you, she was listening. you knew because she remembered every detail, down to the silliest thing. though it was never silly to you, it always made your heart skip a beat. almost everything wednesday did for you, made your heart rate pick up. you noticed everything when it came down to her; the way her gaze would soften up whenever looking at you, or how she let you hug her and hold her hand.
yet, wednesdayâs words sounded so serious and cold. you couldnât help but wonder if maybe, wednesday addams has hated you this whole time. maybe everything was in your head, and she really didnât like you or anyone else at this school for that matter. maybe wednesday really was as heartless as she claims to be⌠but you donât believe that. you canât. thereâs too many things she does that prove her wrong, yet if you ever called her out on them, she would most likely deny everything. if she didnât want to like you, wasnât that just as bad as not liking you? she knew she liked you, and she still didnât want you. that hurt you more than anything else regarding your love life has.
when enid sees you crying she rushes in your direction, excusing herself from ajax and their mutual friends as she follows you towards your dorm. ây/n, what happened!?â she asks in pure concern as she follows you into yours and yokoâs shared bedroom. âdidâ did wednesday make you cry?â she asks cautiously, and you sniffle, nodding. enid feels a wave of nerves hit her. if wednesday was in a bad enough to mood to snap at you, maybe that meant everyone should stay clear from her today. thereâs no telling what sheâd do to people she actually hated. âwhat happened? did she say something to you?â the blonde asks patiently, and you look down at your converse. âdimwitted, supernatural moron⌠and a pathetic puppy. thatâs what she thinks of me.â you whisper, and enid frowns.
âyouâre none of those things, y/n. youâre a great friend and i know wednesday didnât mean what she said. sheâs just a grump.â enid points out and you shake your head. âi think she did, enid. i canât keep trying so hard for her to like me. i shouldâve taken the hint a long time ago and just left her alone.â you mutter, looking up and meeting enidâs eyes. her eyes are empathetic and sincere, âno, y/n, wednesday loves you! she just doesnât want to admit it! sheâs changed since she started hanging around you⌠sheâs been nicer in her own little wednesday way. thereâs less threats, and hate towards color or people. itâs because of you.â she insists, and you look at your fingers that youâre playing with nervously.
âiâve seen the change, but until she apologizes or tells me how she feels herself, i think itâs best to keep my distance from wednesdayâŚâ you trail off, and enid can see the words hurt you to say. she frowns, but nods, âi understand and respect your decision, even it means i will have to deal with a very grumpy wednesday.â she murmurs and you flash her a sad smile. âsorry, enidâŚâ you trail off, you thoughts immediate going to the raven haired girl youâre so helplessly in love with.
wednesday notices the change right away. itâs been a week since she said those mean things to you, and she couldnât stop thinking about you. wednesday went from being the only person youâd seek out to talk to, to being the only person youâre avoiding. she feels like sheâs been hit with the plague, because you wonât even look at her anymore. it drives her crazy when sees you and you donât light up the way you used to, or even smile in her direction. she never thought silence (one of her favorite things), would drive her this mad when it was coming from you. she hated to admit she missed your voice, and all the things she thought she hated about you⌠like the way you talk too much, and practically shower in that girly perfume that tickles wednesdayâs senses in the worst way. when she smells it in the halls her belly burns.
âsheâs been miserable without you.â enid cuts into wednesdayâs thoughts one lunch period, as she notices her roommate staring at you from the other side of cafeteria. you were sitting with elise and her friends today, looking absolutely miserable. it was no secret your older sister often was one of your biggest bullies, though it came from a place of love, the things she said still affected you. much like wednesday, she said things bluntly and honestly, not caring if she hurt anyones feelings. âsheâs the one that decided to stop sitting here.â wednesday says back, her tone harsh and abrasive. enid rolls her eyes, âbecause you called her a dimwitted, supernatural moron, wednesday!â enid points out, causing everyone at the table to look at the two.
wednesday shoots daggers at the blonde, âi said it in regards towards everyone at this school!â wednesday hisses, and enid shakes her head in dismay. âitâs the same thing. not to mention you called her a âpathetic puppyâ, donât you have any idea how much your words hurt? especially to someone who has feelings for you.â she states sternly, and the raven haired girls careless expression falters. a trickle of silence passes, and wednesday speaks. âi didnât mean it.â the shorter girl mutters, and enid raises a brow as she reaches for her fruit cup. âthen why did you say it?â the werewolf questions curiously, causing the short girl sitting beside her to sigh in frustration.
âbecause she was gushing over aaron jeffery!â wednesday snaps and enid raises both of her eyebrows in amusement. âand why did that bother you? i thought you and y/n were just friends; didnât you say you hated the idea of love and romance because of your parents?â enid inquires, and wednesday grips the edge of the table so tightly her knuckles change in color. âthis isnât romance or love, i merely believe that y/n can do better than someone like that gross ogre.â she declares simply, and enid smirks, clearly not believing wednesday. âshe can do better? as in someone like you?â enid asks with a shit-eating grin on her face, and wednesday glowers at her roommate.
âyou may be my roommate, but i wouldnât think twice about ripping your tongue out with my bare hands.â wednesday threatens the blonde, causing enid to giggle. âoh my god! you really do have feelings for y/n!â enid whisper/yells excitedly. âyou have to tell her!â she exclaims, and wednesday keeps a straight face as she looks back down at her open book, deciding to simply ignore enidâs presence. âi mean, sure, you may have royally messed up by saying those things to the only person whoâs genuinely not afraid of you, but sheâs a sweetie. sheâll understand if you just tell her you were jealous.â enid rambles, and wednesday snaps her book shut, glaring at the blonde.
âcall her a âsweetieâ again and i really will rip your tongue out.â she hisses as she stands up and walks out of cafeteria. enid gulps, and she looks over at you whoâs watching wednesday walk away. wednesdayâs head is plagued by thoughts of you. she goes to her room and tries to work on her novel, but she canât concentrate long enough to get anything done. her homework got done later than usual because of how much sheâs thinking about you. the raven haired girl sighs in frustration as she looks over at thing whoâs sitting on the corner of her desk.
âi messed up.â she says aloud, making thing perk up at the sound of her voice. he makes his way towards her, and she looks at him with eyes of vulnerability. sheâd never let anyone see her like this, but thinking about you and your face of hurt makes her feel enormously guilty. âwhat did you do?â thing taps, and wednesday purses her lips. âi⌠god this is embarrassing⌠i was jealous of aaron jeffery.â she says his name with disdain, curling her upper lip in disgust. âi know, i know. why should i, a superb young woman, who is by far the most amazing person at this awful place, be jealous of a burnt chicken like him? well, because y/n thinks heâs cute. can you believe that? she thinks heâs cute.â thing is silent while wednesday rants, finally allowing all of her feelings to come seeping out in her rushed words. âwhat was i supposed to tell her? that i think she has the most soul crushing smile on the planet and i would die to see it over and over again? that when she smiled at him it made me want to add him to the list of murders? she makes me sick every time she looks at me, like thereâs a bunch of moths in my stomach that are about to fly out of my mouth. i canât tell her any of that.â wednesday hisses, and thing taps, âyou are in love.â
wednesday viscously glares at thing, âlove is for morons!â she snaps, âyou are a moron.â thing taps back, and wednesday goes silent. âyes. i suppose i am. i mean, i did let her get a way.â she whispers, and thing taps again. âtalk to her. say sorry.â he insists, and wednesday purses her lips. âiâm not saying iâm going to, but hypothetically if i were to apologize, how would i do that?â she inquires curiously.
you rub your temples tiredly after you finish revising your essay for botany class. you had been doing homework all evening and were finally done. though, your homework was slightly prolonged due to the way your thoughts would trail off towards a certainly pig tailed addams. you would think about the way her eyes would pour into you, or the way her lips would twitch into the faintest of smiles as she would listen to you go on and on. yet, you canât help but think about what she said. truthfully, you wouldnât be so angry if sheâd just apologize. sure, the words hurt, but youâd forgive her if she just said sheâs sorry.
but she hasnât even tried to speak to you, and thatâs what hurts the worst.
*knock, knock*
the light knocks on your door cause your head to snap in its direction. an envelope flies under your door, and you furrow your eyebrows as you stand up and make your way towards it. you pick it up, your name is written on it and you recognize that handwriting anywhere. wednesday. you open the door, but thereâs no one there; you can see thing thumping down the hall towards wednesdayâs room. you canât fight the smile that tugs at your lips as you open the envelope, and pull out the letter inside.
ây/n,
please excuse how late this is. i understand if you donât read this, but if you do, would you do me the favor of coming to my room whenever you can? i wish to say a few things to you in regards of our last conversation. if you donât come, thatâs alright too. iâm deeply sorry for what i said. you were right, and i was jealous. you arenât a moron, or pathetic. you arenât like anyone at this school. â w.aâ
your heart flutters in your chest as you read the letter. wednesday wants to apologize? was this some kind of trap to hurt your feelings again? you chuckle at the absurdity of this, but you canât help but feel your cheeks heating up at the sincerity of the letter. you take a step out of your room, and close the door behind you. you hold the letter in your hand the entire way to wednesdayâs room. when you knock the door flies open, and thereâs wednesday standing in front of you with an unrecognizable look on her face. âyou came.â she states observantly, had she really thought you wouldnât? you were crazy about her after all. âyou asked me to.â you respond softly, and there are those butterflies in her belly again
âi didnât mean what i said. iâm sorry i hurt you.â she says, and her usual monotone is laced with vulnerability. your eyes often as you pull her in for a tight hug, âoh wednesday.â you gush as you squeeze her tightly, and she feels a wave of heat wash over her. she immediately feels okay as soon as you embrace her. âdo you⌠forgive me?â the raven haired girl asks carefully, and you pull away, nodding eagerly. âof course! i⌠i guess a part of me knew you didnât mean it. i know youâre not good with feelings, and thatâs why i try my hardest to understand your reactions to everything i do. but i really hope from now on, you try your hardest to understand my feelings as well.â you explain timidly and she reaches for one of your hands cautiously. you gladly accept and interlock your fingers with hers.
âi promise iâll do better. iâm barely starting to understand my own feelings for you, and theyâre a bit overwhelming.â wednesday reveals, causing you to blush. âwell, if you ever need help sorting them out, you know iâm here right?â you ask, and she looks at her for a moment. thing taps on the desk, âinvite her in, moron!â and wednesday blinks as the back of her neck gets coated with a crimson blush. âwould you like to come in right now and help me sort through them?â the goth asks smoothly, and now itâs your turn to blush. âi would like that.â you respond and she lights up as she steps aside, allowing you entrance into her shared bedroom. a wave of relief hits her, as she realizes youâre back and she doesnât want to ever lose you again. thatâs when wednesday realizes she may be in love with you, and that terrifies her.
though, losing you terrifies her even more⌠so if making you hers and keeping you by her side forever is what you need, then sheâll be content with doing so.
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a/n: this was my first fic on here!! iâve never seen the netflix series so excuse me if i get anything wrong, iâm just crushing sooo hard on jenna ortega rn đ
#wednsday addams#wednesday addams x fem reader angst#wednesday addams x fem reader#wednesday addams x reader#wednesday x you#lgbtq#this is my first post#be kind#lesbian fanfic
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