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be a good girl and stay quiet
#posting for purely my own devilish desires#in the first photo Avery was stroking her face#felt like I was gonna pass out#mysims#oc: Avery#oc: noelle#simblr
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Woah eating food actually makes you feel better??? Who knew
#i am so bad. at eating#i was like dying#felt like i was gonna pass out#couldn't focus#horrible acid reflux#worse headache#i eat a burger and BAM healed#wild#monnie rambles
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you're in the habit of denying yourself things.
if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.
but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?
what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.
and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.
you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.
so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.
it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.
sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.
oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.
#warm up#this isn't good#writeblr#this is complicated by the fact i can't stand up too long or i fuckken pass out and <3 hit my damn head <3#but i did take a deep breath and buy myself the stupid rice cooker#and!!! a very cheap sushi kit!!! i have been wanting to try making sushi for literally YEARS#the kit was only like 15 dollars!!!! and i haven't purchased it bc?!!??!?!?!?!!?#..... i didn't get the mixer tho that felt. like a lot. like too much.#on my list is a kitchenaid. one day when i get a check and i have paid off my student debt#and medical debt#i will put that first little bit of cash#into a kitchenaid 5qt stand mixer (with attachments)#i really do just go into their refurbished section and stare lustily at each option#but yeah i feel guilty about the rice cooker even tho i know for a fact this damn thing is gonna be a lifesaver#oh shit also fuck i forgot to mention . poached eggs
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AYO EDEBIRI & BRETT GOLDSTEIN in CONCLAVE Live Read
#ayo edebiri#brett goldstein#conclave live read#conclave#devinwolfi.gif#watching felt like i was gonna pass out the whole time#this is literally just for me. hi ayo hi brett. oh me? i'm just someone with a stomach ache#i would appreciate it if they could do 100 more projects together. thank you
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Something I miss from earlier eras of the creative side of the internet was things just being unabashedly low-budget. Just all unashamedly amateur, unprofessional, ‘I don’t own a good camera but I have a story to tell you’, ‘I can’t afford a good mic but I have a song to sing for you,’ ‘I don’t have any kind of background in editing or lighting and I only just picked up this guitar last Tuesday but here’s an entire musical me and my friends wrote about our favourite book, we filmed it on a potato and put it up on YouTube in ten minute segments because we thought it was pretty funny.’
#everything felt so much less like Content then#and as someone who wants to share creative stuff online#it’s now incredibly daunting thinking about doing that bc#especially as a disabled person who can’t work full time#it feels almost impossible to extricate art from being Content#like there’s this immense pressure to produce things that could pass as professionally produced by a team of educated people#and to make smart decisions so that somehow eventually you can profit off your art#and instead of it being a ‘hey look at my silly little song’ it becomes#competing in an over saturated market already dominated by the nepotism afforded by wealth and connections#and it feels like it would very difficult not to measure my personal satisfaction with how a certain piece of art turned out#by how much attention it got online#even though I genuinely have zero desire to be famous and it sounds like a complete nightmare#anyway I’m gonna have ice cream for dinner how about you guys#hmp42
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DO YOU THINK MAYBE IN-HO REALLY WANTED GI-HUN TO LEAVE AND GO VISIT GA-YEONG NOT JUST TO HAVE HIM AWAY FROM THE GAMES BUT ALSO BECAUSE IN-HO CAN NEVER HAVE WHAT GI-HUN STILL DOES?? A CHILD?!! DO YOU THINK IN-HO TOLD GI-HUN TO BOARD THAT PLANE BECAUSE IF HIS WIFE AND CHILD HAD SURVIVED IN-HO WOULD HAVE BOARDED!! THAT!! PLANE?!!?!!!!! DO YOU- DO YOU THNIK HHHHHHHhhhh
#i'm gonna pass out#and gayeong is only a little older than inhos child would have been#look look i think maybe#i think#if his wife hadn't died he very likely would not have become the frontman#family is so important to inho#and he can't have it anymore#hell he can't even have his brother or stepmother anymore#and then there is this man this good kind man and he THROWS AWAY his chance to finally be happy with his daughter THAT HE STILL HAS#just to FIND INHO#can't even begin to comprehend what inho must've felt#he was probably freaking out flipping his shit because THIS MAN DECIDED TO NOT GO SEE HIS DAUGHTER AND INSTEAD FIND HIM#DO YOU THINK IN SOME FUCKED UP WAY INHO FELT GOOD AND WANTED??????#WHAT DO YOU THINK AHHHHHH????(#anywaysss#lea's random thoughts#seong gi hun#hwang in ho#seong ga yeong#457#inhun#gihun x inho#squid game#tw caps#seong gihun#hwang inho#i'm talking about the airport scene at the end of s1 btw if that wasn't obvious
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idec anymore. sending this out into the wild
#is this nsft idk#im not tagging this anymore than that if this post finds its people it finds them#snap sketches#this is my idea of drunk posting ig idk. highkey the whiskey's like pretty much worn off but while i was making this post i felt the effect#im still posting it idc havent posted no bullfuckery in a minute and i guess this counts if youre dehydrated enough#listen all i know is that house of m magneto is being released on my birthday and i saw the rendered model for it#and im very not normal. i drew this before seeing it on my tl but still#im just that in tuned with teh universe idk ..#anyway its my bitch ass friend kaylas birthday today. whatever. already wisehd her happy bday#i wanted to draw a comic bout pietro getting mags terrible shampoo that dries his hair out#'is that why' yeah thats why i drew this. too lazy to draw all that rn but the idea of him wearing his helmet in the shower makes me laugh#alas new mutants has shown me he DOES properly wash her hair or whatever ... who even cares ...#also 'snap thats really specific' yeah because i used shampoo my bro got me and it dried my hair out#and i know this because the second i switched shampoos my hair was good and Nto Dry agian the FUCK. evil.#ok bye. im gonna laze around on the couch until i pass out vjLEAKVJAKLJ
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silly little doodle of two very important lads
#shoot from the hip#sfth#sfth fanart#jingle boys#sfth donnie#sfth frankie#luke manning#tom mayo#i really wanted to make donnie look like a cocky little shit (affectionate)#unrelated but I keep choosing the worst times to watch sfth#just now I nearly burst out laughing in a dead silent classroom at the party quirks where ajs in the loin king#I felt like I was gonna pass out#don’t know how to tag here yet#tree's art
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A gift for @greenvelvetcouture !!
I really didn’t expect to finish this so fucking fast but hey happy early christmas!
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#acotar#azriel#acotar fanart#pro azriel#cazriel#nezriel#cassian x nesta x azriel#give him his collar back we all miss it 😝🙏🏽#i remember first reading that chapter and my cock felt like he was gonna pass out#i wish to be be on that level of writing one day
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dare I say this patch is better than the entire penacony arc, for me at least. idk, it feels less dialogue-heavy than penacony. the characters are still using more words than they need to, but not to the point where i question if their throat is getting dry. except aglaea, I think 😭 but i think that part was intentional lmao. all in all, definitely left an impression, but a foreboding one.
#hoyoverse#honkai star rail#hsr#like the dialogue didn't feel dragged out#idk if it was just me but it felt like there were just a bit more battles than previous patches#it's probably bc the tb mission took 7 hrs i didn't even notice hours were passing lmao#spent 16 tb fuel to farm trace mats for rmc i have no regrets#my moze watching me farm trace mats and relics for rmc while his relics are all shite: 😒😑#i was genuinely thinking herta wasn't gonna appear in the mission but when se did it felt so damn random 😭#also whew wanna know about ohainon's past so bad ughhhh#theory that march is the other half castorice mentioned purely bc she mentioned she liked to take photos#was thinking of doing the world missions to figure out the lore but then i remembered i have a lot of farming to do ☠️#i WILL clear apocalyptic shadow stage 5 with three stars trust#i feel like destruction is too obvious an answer for the third paths that reside in amphoreus#but also that could be what the writers WANT us to think#i think it has something to do with the black tide#tb lore was not on my bingo card but yk what hell yeah#also march lore#hyv just dangling the tb and march lore in front of me only to pull it back once i reach out for it#GIVE IT TO MEEEEE#i just realized no ruan mei next christmas smh#this is the price we pay#let's hope someone actually gets unalived in amphoreus i feel like the stakes weren't high enough in the previous patches#hyv don't be cowards!#mem is such cute thooo#i was giggling each time she spoke#it's inoue marina WGAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO!?#hsr 3.0 spoilers(?)
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I've. Slept only a ninja turtle handful of hours these past few nights and completely forgor yesterday was a Wednesday so here's a short bit of Leonardo being an old man
...I'm being very
abt him. probably because i'm so tired. but anyway
#earlier tonight I was like !!!!! IMMA WRITE OMG so I wrote full 60 words and then felt like I was gonna pass out#can't wait to sleep through the whole dang weekend <3#wip wednesday#peepaw leo#leoichi#nqk adjacent#tervdrabbles#rottmnt fanfiction#fic: and just like that#fic: and just like that (chapter 2)
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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"
#bakuspeech#number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u#he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up#(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment#and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here#but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something#but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku#but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this#this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and#that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing#but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it#its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with#and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually#I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay#but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol#not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real#and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself#and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god#that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao#but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them#have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway
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I'm not usually a person to post on many serious matters not regarding fandom on here, but as someone who watched a lot of his stuff and posted about him in the past a bunch, I just wanted to say that I'm no longer am going to interacting with any of Wilbur's content and if you support Wilbur Soot then please don't follow my blog because you are not welcome here. All strength and love to Shubble in this ✊
#just felt i should adress this stuff cause its. yeah#its so messed up#his music really helped me through some messed up stuff and even if i wanted to listen to it now i couldn't even enjoy it i don't think#its just. man#i havent been watching much of sbi and their friends since technos passing but like. this still is such a punch for some reason#glad shubble is in a better situation now and that she had the strength to come out with this. this is such a mess#tw abuse#Wilbur soot#im not gonna make more posts about it or rb much stuff if its not support for shubble#cause i try really hard to have my blog be a positive space for myself and for people who enjoy my art and my blog#but like. wilbur is such a godawful person and its like. with dream i just always thought he was annoying asshole#if not an absolutely awful person although you know i don't rule it out#but with Wilbur like. i never thought about him this way and now that i do a lot of stuff feels. well bad#there are a lot of things that seem really bad with this context.#its just. man. what a fucking asshole. don't even have words for this
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THE BEST OF PRIORITY: SUR'KESH
Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard, Lt. James Vega, EDI, and Urdnot Wrex With: Lt. Steve Cortez, Dr. Mordin Solus, Major Kirrahe, and Urdnot Bakara And a Special Guest Appearance by: Adm. Steven Hackett Alliance R&D has officially begun construction on the Prothean device. The team has dubbed it: "Project Crucible". We're throwing everybody who knows how to throw a hammer at it. This is gonna be the most ambitious undertaking in human history. I'm not saying it won't be a challenge- but we can do this, Shepard. You can do this. Never doubt that. Mass Effect 3: Legendary Edition (2021)
+BONUS (the smirk™️)
#mira makes gifs ✨#sophie shepard#james vega#EDI#urdnot wrex#steve cortez#mordin solus#mass effect#mass effect 3#me3#mass effect legendary edition#dailygaming#i feel like i probably should have split the actually sur'kesh set in half like i did with mars#but i got lazy after i split out the normandy summit gifs and i wanted to keep the rest of the mission together lol#wrex having small conversation moments with james and EDI was everything to me#bc with both of them it felt like wrex passing on some of his old kid on the block knowledge to the new kids on the block and i just 🥺#like i didn't get it in the gif but the second part of that convo with james he says something like#'you're one of shep's new recruits? hang on kid- it's a hell of a ride!' and when i tell you i SOBBED#like the entire first half of this playthrough is soph taking her newer squadmates out to help her build the army for the reaper war#so running into all these old friends/teammates and hearing them share their wisdom with james and EDI as new recruits is everything to me!#also EDI and james look very cute in their armor (ESPECIALLY EDI IN HER HUNTER HOOD I LOVE HER YOUR HONOR)#i'm just gonna say wrex's little tongue out at the salarians in the background of padok's gif sent me so hard i had to include it LMAO#and i'd write something about the mordin cameo but the mordin cameo on tuchanka is better so i'll save my thoughts for that one#ig thanks for being wrex's inside man mordin you were real for that one#the real salarian homie of this mission was kirrahe and i love him (he's my favorite and i adore him thank you for coming to my TEDtalk) :)#and i will also say that i adore bakara and she's the highlight of this mission for me bc of the lines but also like???#her grabbing the shotgun from wrex to take out the cerberus troops is everything and his expression afterwards is *chef's kiss*#and SOPH'S LITTLE SMIRK LMAOOOOOOO i had to include it bc i saw it in the back and it sent me to the next dimension lol#and since i just use the tags to share all my annoying little thoughts on a final note:#i included the elevator bomb scene bc in soph's canon she gets injured during it for the shenko angst pre-coup bc i'm an angsty bitch :)
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#a friend just dropped dead yesterday#and today the ex friend who did all that fucking insane shit in november#(or like arguably has continued to do all that shit) fucking reached out#& offered an apology in a way that felt like. idk#deeply insincere. or i think more accurately as a ploy#& i responded ‘eat shit’#(and i’m feeling weird about that but to have someone absolutely rip apart years of friendship in an extremely traumatic way is just like)#(not gonna fly for me)#but idfk how to grieve these unsatisfying endings#(& i’ve felt so haunted bc we just passed the 6 month mark of hearing from another friend who just fucked off and dropped everyone#)
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If you still get fuzzies when you stand up your diet could likely use more iron, or a morning supplement at least
well my iron was in a normal range last time I checked so ifeel like that's not it but I suppose that was like a year ago and I might have a stomach ulcer or whatever butyeah
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