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finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using
#feels so selfish like. all this skin what am i saving it for?#open to design suggestions! (please make me regret this offer)#maybe some deep sea horrors. a pretty watercolor of a gulper eel#once saw a person on the subway with various Skeleton Tattoos on all their limbs#i respected their commitment to the theme#but more than that i respected how all the skeletons were engaged in Activities#dancing in a ballgown. juggling its own (and two other???) skulls. swordfighting. being a mermaid skeleton#ANYWAY. the only reason i haven't already gotten tattoos is i just couldn't be bothered#i'm old enough to know i don't have any strong-but-potentially-temporary feelings driving me towards it#aesthetically i prefer decorated to non-decorated surfaces. but i'm not artistic or thrilled with commitment#honestly it feels like sheer laziness. indecisiveness--nay. immaturity!--that i HAVEN'T gotten a tattoo yet#letting all this blank canvas go to waste. tut tut i need to grow up and be an adult and get a tattoo sleeve already.#really i've put off my responsibilities long enough#(in fairness i DID at one time have 18 different piercings)#(but i took most of them out bc they interfere with wearing headphones and/or shoving my face in my pillow during Sleep Time)#(i only kept the nape piercing bc oddly enough it ended up being the most convenient. and the least painful to get now i think about it.)#(neck piercing? no problem. normal pair of earrings? Tribulations And Suffering. i don't make the rules i just poke them with a stick.)
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theyre holding hands……(and being shy about it)
hootsie and gricko doodles (mostly hootsie)
both requested by @nicohasperished !
#i ignored the ‘gators cant blush’ thing for the previous request#but i didnt ignore it this time (for the people who like it that way <3)#ngl really proud of how the gideons and kremys hands turned out#honestly i want to make a little ‘how i draw the krew’ thing with things like hands#something about gideons hands being square-ish and kremys being sharp and triangular is so satisfying to me#coalecroux#kremy lecroux#gideon coal#kremy x gideon#i looovee hootsie sm#glad i finally got around to drawing her!!#gricko being a dad >>>#not to get deep or anything#but i think gricko tries to be as present for and as invested in hootsie as humanly (goblinly?) possible because of his dad#who was completely absent to the point where he didn’t even know his name or face or even existence#and since his mom had to work a lot to make ends meet and put food on the table#he knows what it feels like to be a little kid and feel isolated or neglected#of course he had his mom and uncle glorbo but i doubt they were there for him during the majority of his childhood#he doesnt want hootsie to grow up like that#them <3#gricko grimgrin#hootsie grimgrin#once upon a witchlight#legends of avantris#my art#ouaw fanart#ouaw
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im a child of divorce
#the bit is over when i say its over and even when its so joever for these two its not over for me!!! (once again i am on heavy copium)#anyway. thoughts behind the spoiler tags#gempearl#shiny duo#wild life smp#life series spoilers#wild life spoilers#i feel like. i actually was expecting that#no but its so funny the one time the negative consequences of something does actually get acknowledged its the SL finale ‘betrayal’/j#like cmon fuck me i guess/j (BIG EMPHASIS. ON THE SLASH J. OKAY.)#but honestly though i did expect Gem to hold a grudge over the 2v1 in SL. and. its good that there are consequences???#it IS a ‘betrayal’ in Gem’s eyes. they were friends. they were murder besties for the last two sessions and then Pearl chose Scar over her#and its awesome man. [through gritted teeth] this is awesome man this will be good for character development ok ok ok. ok?#its also got something to do with Pearl having the red creep in. i think#because during SL Gem was like. nearly idolising the Scarlet Pearl persona while vaguely aware that her own reputation has a similar effect#and yknow. the horrors. the fact that their image is so heavily built on what others deem them to be and they can only play into it#but by the end of SL Gem gets ‘betrayed’ by this persona that she looked up to#and also her own ‘GeminiSlay’ intimidating image is also starting to fall apart. partly of her own will#and now shes watching Pearl slowly turn red again. and this time she knows its not good for her or Pearl#so shes distancing herself from it. shes ‘trying to fix her reputation’. she sees Pearl falling into it again and just. no. i dont love you#you betrayed me last season#but on Pearl’s end of things she’s already deep into the idea that as long as you say you ‘forgive’ someone then everything thats happened#in the past doesn’t matter and they can all be friends. and nooo absolutely no grudges will be held. no emotional repression here#so. because thats happened to her in her own team she thinks the same can happen with her and Gem#and thats so. im going to blow myself up now
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El being *12 hours earlier* than the Cali timeline when she arrives at Nina. Will saying ‘it’s been 9 hrs’ in the scene following his monologue in the van.
We know that at some point their timelines merged when they arrived to save her…
But we don’t know when exactly those alignments took place when they were still apart… which just makes you wonder…
#byler#something something#el’s not stupid#she heard everything at rink o mania which included mike deflecting about not calling Will#she heard Dustin say mike was being annoying about Joyce’s telemarketing job#she got her powers back roughly around the time the van scene was happening we can presume…#why would she not check on Mike and Will after finding out about the Hawkins gang?#she was literally with them last and it would make sense for her to want to know where they are/what they are doing#and since the timeline is off with el at Nina… just makes you wonder#the sad painful looks el makes during Mike’s monologue…#if she heard anything from that van scene..#whether it be mike saying it wasn’t fate/destiny and was just simple dumb luck…#if she heard Will emotionally play off deep feelings he harbors as el’s#even writing off his painting as being commissioned by her…#oh and the heart??#if she heard that and heard will encourage mike with it before telling her he loved her#no wonder she looked miserable#and left dude on read at the end instead to focus on max#both after his monologue and at the cabin 😙#this line from s2 is so insane in the context of this too…#bc if she saw them in the van and saw Will’s speech…#she also saw mike’s reaction which was blurred for us…#Joyce: he’s not doing well…#El: I know. I saw.#Joyce: what else did you see?#El: 👀#delusional but free
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#this bts photo is so cute#I’m pretty sure this was during the end of the first/second episode#babies#ds9#deep space nine#colm meaney#avery brooks#benjamin sisko#miles o’brien
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A Game of Thrones - Catelyn X
A Clash of Kings - Catelyn VII
A Storm of Swords - Jaime I
A Storm of Swords - Jaime III
A Storm of Swords - Jaime III
A Storm of Swords - Jaime IV
Jaime & Passive Suicidal Ideation
His statements and actions concerning the subject are framed as him not being afraid. But he is. He is afraid of what he has become, afraid of confronting himself, afraid of confronting the world, and he is afraid of having to live.
He should not be brave enough to die. He should be brave enough to live.
#i dont think a lot of ppl acknowledge that pre hand loss jaime kinda wants to fucking die deep down#especially when he forgets his fixation on cersei#it is such an interesting obsession that he has with a ‘chivalrous’ death#he completely romanticizes this idea despite his dissillusionment with knighthood#again death is so much easier than confronting the moral paradoxes dilemmas and his self-concept#he is deep down very aware about what he has become and he desperately seeks purpose in just dying with sword in hand#and he does not even reconsider until brienne confronts him and reveals this ideation for what it is#it is cowardice on his part#it is a facade of bravery masking self loathing#dying is easy living is hard#honestly jaime pre handloss was basically just a man slowly destroying himself#and it seeps back sometimes during affc too#hed rather die than end up facing damnation despite all of his efforts#now damnation that is something he is terrified of#valyrianscrolls#asoiaf#jaime lannister
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Nothing destroys Ketheric’s mood for the day quite like checking his calendar and seeing ‘Chosen Three Meeting’ scribbled in
#while holding his No.1 Dad mug full of black coffee#he just lets out a deep sigh and pets Squire to calm him down#order some myrkulites around to get both a dagger and a large bottle of vodka ready for either during or after the meeting#whichever ends up being more necessary#gortash#durge#dark urge#durgetash#ketheric
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#p4#p4g#persona 4#persona 4 golden#hanamura yosuke#yosuke hanamura#weak when i think about early yosuke constantly living under the surveillance of the townpeople#in a way it kind of explains his reluctance in trying to connect with them (like in the magician manga) which is itself very complex#but for someone who's always on the lookout#for someone whos constantly checking his own behaviour and making sure hes not doing anything that could be perceived as negative#even if he did want to become better friends with kou and daisuke its hard to extend any trust to them#yosuke didnt understand why they were trying to be friendly with him -- to some extent i think its because he just didnt trust them#that they weren't trying to get him to relax so he would do something wrong and then inaba will have one more reason to dislike him#its an overthinking thing!!!#but with yu? he can relax a little because he doesn't expect yu to betray him in that manner.#at the end of the day#after the liquor store and the shadow yosuke incident#yosuke KNOWS that yu is someone that has his back#amd maybe that knowledge is still a little tentative because hes still unwilling to be fully honest with yu during their early friendship#but deep down he has the evidence that yu is on his side. he wants to believe that yu will continue to be on his side. :')#and this first friendship is what enables him to actually form more meaningful bonds with other people#i mean. after saki and the blowback from him trying to connect with saki.#is it any wonder that he's a bit reticent#but ah look. hes still doing that thing where he puts on an air of nonchalance and confidence and plays it off with a joke#even as it bothers him. :')#he's good with his queue
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are you... just as insane about toxic yuri lumini(evil lunar x gemini) as I am...
YES VERY ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!
I think about them so much it's ridiculous. There's so many ways you could make them interact and work and I truly think everyone needed to rotate them more because MAN. THEY ARE SO FUN TOGETHER.....!!!!!
To me, they are an untapped enemies to lovers dynamic and I think over half of their gayest moments happen when they are at each other's throats. Gemini with Lunara's arms pinned to the ground specifically so they can sneer about how they can't stand Lunara. Lunara with Gemini under their heel, a deep part of them both knowing that Gemini could push them off at any moment but they stay at their mercy.
They could be mutually crushing and drag out to their fights to spend more time with each other. Only Lunara could be crushing and their taunts come just a little too close to flirting whenever they get the upper hand. Only Gemini could be crushing and they hate how flustered Lunara's smug little grin makes them.
They could be so wholly in love with each other and the first way they will think to show it is to point a weapon to the other's most vulnerable spot and go "look. I could harm you, but I am not. I could end this all right now but I am choosing to let you live. You will do the same for me. I know you will." because fellas truly what is gayer than knowing you should kill your enemy but deciding you like their company too much to finish the job, yk?
#asks#ichangenameseveryfiveseconds#they also seem like the type to kiss like the world is about to end and then get so equally embarrassed/flustered they never talk about-#-it ever again but at the same time they both know deep down that smth has changed between them and they have No idea how to broach it#besides the mutually assured survival as a love language#lunara has the wordy love language in the way that they tease and taunt gemini at every opportunity#they're the kinda person that Never Shuts Up during fights#and gemini's love language is getting them to shut /up/#(< and that can be in Several ways.)#(a surprise attack. besting them in a fight. being snarky back at lunara. picking them up by the scruff like a cat. a kiss#etc etc etc)#i am normal abt them 😁 (lie)#lumini#lunar x gemini#gemini x lunar#evil lunar x gemini#gemini x evil lunar#evil lunar#laes lunar#laes gemini#tlaes#tsams#< for my own blog organization#xero thoughts and rambles
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omfg it’s almost midnight here and i have to get up for work at 5 AM but let me compose at least some of my thoughts …
ok idia x robot girl! reader … hear me out 🥺
someone he creates to cure his loneliness of companionship in a tender way that ortho just cannot do; ugh i’m imagining a plain head just sitting on the desk, stripped down to the metal and skinless; him asking which eye color you like the best until it lands upon yours;
the midnight conversations as he builds a body; the pining from the reader (is it actual pining or are you just scraping the edges of desperate self perseverance so he doesn’t trash you like the other models); kind of dream-like transition between adding each body parts (like imagine yourself lying in a tub of ink — cheeks, nose, lips, a slight peel of your forehead visible — and eventually it all drains down as more and more body parts are added);
the first very touch of human flesh upon you; the cracked polystyrene blinks that you give with twitchy eyelashes; you siphon your romantic tendencies between a messy mélange of gritty 18+ hentai and victorian romance novellas; idia pours his damned and tormented soul into making you perfect for him and you pour yourself willingly into the image, designed just for one man <3
past midnight edit:
BRUH TO THIS SOnG
youtube
yeah to this fuckin banger
((past midnight edit again: there are really only two ways you can go with robot main characters: the building process or the robot being oblivious and thinking they are human (Ex Machina or Twilight Zone) i enjoy both sooo much))
#ugh writing this made me remember the little Fake Plastic Trees AU i had#back in like jan 2023 i wanted to write jade and reader in kinda of a lorax world#artificial seas and artificial plants#and as a man who really enjoys nature for its gruesomeness and it’s beauty AND as a merman it sets jade into a deep depression#and the reader is able to smuggle one from a part of the city to bring home to her husband#the one being a little potted plant#but WHOOPS all doesn’t go well and it happens to all go very bad#i mean the AU was inspired by a radiohead song it ain’t gonna be a happy end#tho i did like the idea of them already having an entire greenhouse in this kinda hidden basements#very vividly remember having to move a water heater to get down to it when brainstorming this WIP#oh yeah#twisted wonderland x reader#idia shroud x reader#idia x reader#rereading book 6 during some breaks throughout the days and just IDIA AND ROBOT GIRL#THE HORRORS AND THE ROMANCES#this idea is probably not original in the TWST space / Idia Shroud fandom but really idk#i might post a longer concept post for it#also what’s one more robot reader x idia in what i assume is an already DRY economy of fanfics#Youtube
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A parallel in 4x07
The Deep had only one reedeming quality and that was his sincere love for marine live, the examples i recall: His attempt of saving a dolphin, his other attempt to save a lobster, his grief when a whale died because of his fault and his horror when having to eat Timothy.
But now, after killing Ambrosious, he tells Homelander: I'll kill every goddamn fish in the ocean if you say so.
Meanwhile A-Train, he has been doing what is in his power to do good, this episode just cements past episodes with him saving Annie, fighting Deep and trying to save Ashley.
The Deep has finally gave up the only good thing going for him and decided to stay with Homelander and A-Train embrace the good he can do and decided to leave Homelander.
#the boys#the boys amazon#the boys season 4#the boys s4#the deep#a train#chace crawford#jessie t. usher#i really enjoy both arcs#is funny to see their characters progress during the show knowing where they end up#both had done horrible things but when confronted about it the deep didn't chance but a train did
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thinking about hosting a jamiazu week
i've hosted a ship/fanweek before (don't ask what ship it was for because i don't like it anymore n would prefer not to associate myself with it). they're super fun. although i can't guarantee i'll participate myself because i want to focus on my studies haha
ya'll want that? do you? do you??
#if i do end up hosting it then it'll probably be during september because it's jamil's birthday month#my ship love runs deep#lmk if u guys fw it because i WILL do it#even if you don't plan on or can't participate#twst#twisted wonderland#azul ashengrotto#jamil viper#azujami#jamiazu#ashenviper#vaunteir - off the record
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an issue i deal with every time i listen to thunder bringer is i think its a great song its catchy but every time "you... or your crew" hits i start crying uncontrollably
#crunchyposts#im so absolutely not ok im barely exaggerating#typing this as i wipe away tears sobbing as i listen to it for the second time in a row#im playing it again. i love pain#'but we'll die' 'i know' STOP#and the fucking piano at the end jiust makig me remember the end of thunder saga title card during the premiere and the#just deep emotions#im still crying#epic the musical#epic the thunder saga#the thunder saga#thunder saga#thunder bringer#<- help me am i the only one w this issue#i rarely listen to it bc i lknow i will instantly start sobbing#but its so good
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sometimes i forget dead poets isn’t a random movie that resonated with 12 year old me deeply and is actually. a widely beloved film
#pip.txt#not to be gatekeepy but like#you had to be there when it felt like finding anybody else who liked it felt rare#or the one year where i watched it continuously and talked about it non stop#i even convinced an ex friend to rent it at a party and watched up till the end of the play because i had to be picked up#and why one of my favorite forms of writing is poetry. this darn movie!!#this movie has nestled deep in the very essence of my soul for better or for worse#sorry. idk why i’m thinking about it. maybe it’s because it’s winter time and crucial events happen during winter#dps
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Also forgot to share this beauty i drew a few days ago
#localgardenweed#the weed is rambling#hetalia#hws#hetalia japan#hws japan#i need him carnally#what who said that#who said that#i just like giggle and tee hee#I drew this during class and idk why i felt sorta embarrassed cause i always worry i come of as one of *those* people when it comes to japan#like i know its not that deep but ive always been paranoid about itNOOOO NOOO GUYS WAIT NO#IM NOT THOSE ‘OH SUGOI JAPAN IS SO PERFECT AND HEAVEN THEY ARE SO ADVANCED AND I JUST WANNA BE JAPANESE’ NO NO NOOOOOOOO#IM JUST A GIRL WHO JUST LIKES A MANNWHO HAPPENS TO BE THE PERSONIFICATION OF JAPAN HIMSELF#IDK WHY IM SO FREAKED OUT OVER IT CAUSE LIKE#HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO TELL ANY NORMAL PERSON I HAVE A CRUSH ON HETALIA WORLD STARS JAPAN#I SOUND CRAZY#I AM CRAZY#anyway i do love drawing him and i wanna still figure out how to actually draw his body cause i end up making him super twinky#half my drawings kinda do anyway cause i struggle at widening shoulders and chests but I WILL NOT LET HIM BE A TWINK#In my mind he is a upside down triangle ontop of a rectangle like broad shoulders and then the rest of his body is hust a straight shot down#i think mostly his clothes give him different shape languages like seen here like his oants flare out so like its kinda hourglassy#anyway imma shut up now i must attend to my duties
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Hey do you remember all those videos of Fernando smelling flowers? Haha yeah....
#posting this both while im asleep and after whatever bee event ends up happening#so who knows what will happen! will we get nothing? will we get eye contact? will we possibly get an interaction? its a surprise!!#anyways this is basically me hearing about seb's bee event and he said the drivers will be there#me deep in my vettonso brainrot: OH MY GOD THEY'RE GONNA BE IN THE SAME VICINITY#will be so funny for me if when i wake up i find out fernando didnt even go 😭#but we remain hopeful 🙏#also this is just very funny to me bcs like both seb and fernando have very specifc quirks#and what are two of their specific quirks? seb and his bee thing. fernando and his flower thing from this season#so this fanart is perfect y'know 🥰🥰🥰#also screeching over how this is the first canon au drawing ive ever drawn. ive literally never drawn non-au until now 💀💀💀#okay and now some horrible jokes thay happened during the process of this:#thesis of this drawing: whats Fernando gonna do? Pollinate him? 😏#C. why did you have to make me think of bees that produce sex pollen 😭😭 this is gonna haunt me forever. but also vettonso post-japan fic-#and then also the barry benson thing. im like what do humanized bees look like and then realized 'oh no....oh no.'#fernando to seb at the bee event: 'ya like samurais...?' SORRY 😭#also having to pick the colors from one of my historical au drawings was haunting. just the sheer difference btwn them yknow......#anyways please take my old men yaoi. took a break from historical yaoi to draw this 😭😭😭😭#this is my peak vettonso fanart cannot improve from here. also a fever dream#vettonso#f1#formula 1#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#catie.art.#*not gonna edit the tags bcs i like the time capsule of it all but like. yeah. we were fed.#*catie from 2 hours prior(atm its 3 am) would be so pleased right now i think
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