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#𝗦𝗣𝗘𝗘𝗗 𝗗𝗘𝗠𝗢𝗡 [ Sonic | IC ]#𝗜𝗧 𝗗𝗢𝗘𝗦𝗡'𝗧 𝗖𝗢𝗨𝗡𝗧 𝗔𝗦 𝗣𝗘𝗘𝗣𝗜𝗡𝗚! 𝗣𝗥𝗢𝗕𝗔𝗕𝗟𝗬! [ General | Dash Commentary ]#(BOO. SURPRISE BURNING POST)#(after all these years [it's only bee like a few days])#(curious as to why if you don't know already?? check main in a few lmao)#(but yes. he's never having fun when y'all start talking about his family Like That aghleogherg)
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Question: So Jared you've been in so many amazing things, I loved you in, obviously, Supernatural, but Gilmore Girls -
[Jensen frantically claps with the audience while Jared tries to stop him, then Jensen makes an exaggerated face of excitement and heart hands]
Question: Jensen, you've been amazing in everything as well, The Boys, I cannot wait for the next season -
[Jared makes a face of exaggerated excitement and also does heart hands]
Question: I've been wanting to let you know that, because I've never been called up before. So I wanted to ask in all of your different roles and all your different experiences, how do you pick your next project? Like is there a specific line or a new challenge you want, like how do you say yes or no I'm not doing this. What sparks your interest in that next project?
Jared: That's a great question. I'll start. Usually it starts with an email from my accountant. [laughs]
Jensen: I was gonna say, we get an email from our agent that says, uh, they have a budget and they wanna hire you. Alright, where do I start?
Jared: It's like what did we spend on the credit cards last month? Okay, I'm taking jobs. Just kidding. That's a great question and I think - I'll say this flat out, just having been on Supernatural - or Gilmore, then Super, then Walker? And not having really signed on to anything officially until Fire Country? That was - and I spoke for many years, and I think people thought I was kidding? But I think the way I would love the [finger quotes] structure of my career if I can - you know, man plans, god laughs? But like working with people I enjoy? Max has been a buddy, Max Thieriot, has been a buddy of ours for damn near a decade, he's awesome. Great [?] guy, great actor. And he was down in Austin, he and his family were down in Austin for the Country Music Awards and they were gonna leave the night of and they were like, wait, you're in town? And I was like yeah, so they stayed an extra day to come hang out. And we talked about, like, working together. At the time, Walker had not yet not been picked up? So it was still kinda like, uh, I mean we've had those conversations with Max for years? Like dude, it would be fun to work together! It would be fun to work together! And so when Walker did not get picked up, Max reached out, he was like, dude I'm so sorry, you wanna come play in Vancouver? And I was like, hell yes, I'd love to come play in Vancouver. Or like Kripke with me and the - with Ackles, obviously, Soldier Boy is a giant role. Yeah, bravo. For me, I'm not gonna play a Soldier Boy style character where I have that much to do, but Kripke was like, hey dude, sorry about Walker, like you wanna come play in Toronto? Like I'd love to get you and Ackles and Jeffrey Dean together on screen again. And I was like - so [crosses his fingers] I don't know what he's writing yet, or if it's gonna work out, but I was like -
Jensen: [makes face of exaggerated apprehension]
Jared: [laughs]
Jensen: Careful what you wish for!
Jared: Yeah, he goes, you know that scene with, uh, Rob? I was like ... yes? He's like, okay, I'll go write. And I was like, don't write that, don't write that! Yeah, so I think right now I'm currently in a place where I'd love to work with - I think through to Monk's point, who we met earlier, well, who y'all met earlier? For the last twenty years of my life, I've worked with people that I enjoy and love. That I would gladly hang out with in the mornings or in the nights or during the day at work or at play and I think it'd be a really tough pill to swallow to just go be on some show with somebody that's not the best person or the happiest person on set or off and so I hope I get to work with people that I really enjoy telling fun and new stories. Yeah.
Jensen: Yeah, not entirely dissimilar from what Jared said, that we've been very fortunate enough in our careers to get to a point now where we do kind of get to - not pick and choose, and certainly not dictate - but just have a little bit more kind of say in maybe what comes next. And we are fortunately enough getting options to do, you know, maybe a couple of things or - so, you know for me now it is really about finding projects that sound like they can be successful? You know, like you don't wanna put a whole bunch of energy and time and away from your family into something that just is gonna go [makes dismissive noise and thumbs down gesture]. And so that's kind of the first thing is just making sure that the story and the writing of the characters and stuff all like really line up to be, to have a shot at doing something great? And then, the people. It really for me, it is so much about the people and the personalities and the tone on a set? Because I've been on toxic sets and it's - I don't wanna go to work. I don't wanna do that. And I feel like I've gotten to a point now in my career where I don't have to do that. And now I get to find these projects or go work on projects with people that I know and I trust and I have a really good rapport with or a great relationship with or [gestures at Jared] a great friendship with? And that's even more satisfying than just going and doing a job. And so very, very blessed to be in that position, he and I both are, and I think that it is now kinda starting to come to fruition, what all of that work has been for, and getting us to that point. Because now we're getting to work with people like getting to go up and work with our friends. I just got back from doing an episode of Tracker with my buddy Justin Hartley. You know that came about by me just texting him during the Superbowl and saying hey, get your ugly face off the tv, I'm tryin to watch the show, or I'm trying to watch the game. And he was like, hey, you wanna come up and play my brother? And I was like, let's go! Let's do it, that sounds awesome! And it was. And I happened to know the showrunner of the show, because he was the showrunner on Big Sky. Which was another reason why I went and did Big Sky, that was one of the reasons I did Big Sky. Because I met with Elwood and he and I just hit it off immediately and he was a fan of my work and I quickly became a fan of his, and he pitched me his ideas and I was like, yes. And it just sounded like a really fun environment to be a part of and so I went and did that, had a great experience, Elwood is now running Tracker. He was like, come on up. I was like, you know, when and where, pal? This new show Countdown? I got to spend some time and we've had a lot of phone calls, a lot of interactions back and forth with Derek who is running the show, created the show, Derek Haas. And a fantastic guy, a Dallas native, another Texas boy up there, so a lot of connections and just is just a really good person. He's a father, and he's - he just - we vibed really, really quickly and so again, like, had that not happened and had those relationships not been built and had, I think, the reputation of us not have been established over the period of time that it has? We might be in a different position. But I'm proud of where we are, I'm proud of what we get to do, and I'm proud of the opportunities that are coming our way now because of it.
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Ch. 04 - Fight, Fight
Pairing: Jey Uso / Josh Fatu x Aries / Ezmeralda Bey
Synopsis: Devoted to her craft and her family, WWE Superstar Ezmeralda has a library of accolades accomplished on her own and by the side of her family like never before. As she leads the Women's Revolution to glory, romance seems to find her at the most unexpected moment... in the ring.
Warning(s): SFW, OC is a black woman, swearing, WWE-canon violence, Non-scripted fights, body shaming, body insecurities, WWE's consistant misogyny is blatant until later chapters, etc.
Cross-posted: Wattpad
Ch. 01 | Ch. 02 | Ch. 03 | Ch. 04 |
Kansas City, MO
Today before the show, a few of the girls were set out to do an autograph signing. Ezmeralda had taken the opportunity to ditch the scene for some time with her brothers in the ring. The trio run through their drills, going over their move set before taking a quick break.
"So why ain't you out there with Trin and 'em?" Ezekiel questions, sipping some of his water.
The youngest triplet shrugs, "we already sell a shit ton of merch as is and I love seeing the fans, but I'm not all for having to dress up and flaunt my body in hopes the sales can put more zeros on our check."
"I hate to say it, but sex sells. Especially as a woman who is being broadcasted and is participating in sports, your body is at least 90% the main concern of the fans and the company. 5% is your knowledge of the craft and the other 5% is your skill. If your face doesn't 'sit right' with them or body doesn't look like this girl or that girl, you either gotta change it or get lost."
"When my brothers and I first started, that was a huge thing going on in WWE. The women, the Divas, were nothing but eye candy. Yeah, they'll do a little this and a little that, but at the end of the day, your sex is what earns the company money while the 'big dogs' get to have their fun and be rightfully paid for doing their jobs."
"Just like in the past and just like now, my body is for myself to enjoy. It's not for everybody and I don't feel comfortable."
Ezra sighs, irritated. He, himself, has always hated whenever Talent Relations would ask her to play roles that suggested her as nothing more than eye candy or a bed warmer. "Fuck that, let's talk about somethin' else before I get heated."
"What's up with you and Joshua?" He side-eyes her, studying the way her face scrunched at the question. Ezmeralda's lips purse, pushing out into duck lips as if she was a child all over again. She points at the elder Bey, mimicking their great uncle's accent.
"Le'me... Le'me tell yu somet'in'," they burst into laughter. She stutters through her laugh, "me and Josh... are chillin', ye know? We're gettin' to know each other some more."
Ezekiel reels back, face scrunched, "'gettin' to know each other?' Girl, y'all been knowin' each other since like 2008. What else y'all need to know about each other?"
She kisses her teeth, "that's why I said 'some more' dumbass."
"Look," Ezra shakes his head, "all I know is that Josh is like an extra little brother. You? Are my little sister, okay? Both of y'all are my favorite, but I'll be damn if you play with his emotions and he plays with yours, especially with us working together."
"We've talked about it just a little. He understands that I don't have experience in this field and I want to take it slow. I want to learn about myself and my love language before I just go jumping in his arms screaming: 'I'm yours!'"
Ezekiel side eyes her, pushing his palms towards her. "Girl, too much. Too much. We you're brothers, not your girlfriends, nye. All we needed to know was that y'all were taking it slow like Bobby Valentino. That was all."
She giggles, heading for backstage. "Where you headin'?" Ezra raises an eyebrow. She looks over her shoulder, "Checkin' on my outfit for the night. Your girl gotta look good, ya dig?"
"Aye, can you check on ours, too?" Ezekiel shouts, hanging upside down on the ropes. Instead of answering, Ezmeralda simply shakes her head.
As Ezmeralda was looking over her outfit, Trinity steps up to her with a scrunched face. "Girl," she trails, collapsing beside the older woman. "Guess what Ariane's pestering about now?"
Immediately, Ezmeralda's face drops as a heavy sigh leaves her chest. "Oh, God. Does that woman ever stop?"
Trinity snorts, "of course not. So, we're getting ready for the signing when the Bellas and Ariane begin talking about the size of their boobs, especially Nikki's. We get to the booth, Nikki's pushin' them things up as if they weren't already spilling out and Ariane's trying to do the same like, it hurt to watch."
She pauses, "that's when she goes: 'I'mma go to an appointment.'" Ezmeralda's jaw drops, "because Nikki has big boobs?!"
Trinity shrugs, nodding, "basically."
"Nat has big boobs, so big that it looks as if she's pushing them up when she's not and yet look at how the company treats her," the veteran scoffs. "And don't get me started with the fact that the recovery process might set y'all back. It's a stupid decision."
"Typically, the Divas compete with one another for screen time and climbing the ranks for popularity in the company. One of the biggest things that comes into count is the appearance of them. If they look more like a model or some type of dream woman, you have a step in the door."
She shakes her head, "I've seen women in the business go in and out with several different surgeries on various difference spots of their bodies. I don't really care if they do it, but I always say that it's better to do things for yourself than for others. If it makes you happy? Do it until your heart bursts, but please never do something to make someone else happy cause they never will be."
Los Angeles, CA
Tired of Ariane's growing bullshit, Trinity had volunteered Ezmeralda as the tag team's third party to the opening of a boutique. Not one for boutiques, especially high end ones or having to dress up on her day, she came up with an ultimatum. She'd go as long as she could bring a 'date,' which was really supposed to be her fellow escapee.
And who better to invite than her slow burn lover, Joshua?
Dressed in a creme, off the shoulder top and a short, brown skirt with a thigh slit paired with a matching set of brown leather knee high heels and a brown purse, Josh had unintentionally matched with her.
Similarly, the younger Fatu took on a slick yet casual approach, dressed in a creme crewneck and matching jeans with a custom pair of brown and creme low high Air Forces - a birthday gift from yours truly.
The duo walks behind Trinity and Jon, their faces taking on a natural mean mug. It was no secret that Josh was an introvert and preferred socializing on his own terms rather than smiling in the face of strangers everyday.
For Ezmeralda, she was to stand in the public with one interview after another since she was one of the many household names of the company; although, that didn't mean she was willing to do it for free and on her off day.
"Jon, Josh," Ariane's boyfriend, Vincent, calls over his shoulder. "Get your swag on. Swag on, baby, there you go."
Immediately, Josh and Ezmeralda side eye one another. Nearly laughing her ass off, Ezmeralda shakes her head and keeps walking.
"Wait, babe," Ariane stops Vincent, "um, so, you're gonna stand right here. And we're gonna work it."
Ariane looks over at Trinity and Ezmeralda, "come on, girls. Let's work."
Trinity begrudingly steps forward, pulling the older woman with her. As the three stepped closer to the boutique's entrance, the small group of paparrazzi begin to take photos of them. A few primarily focusing their shots on the veteran posing out of of her element.
Blinded and overstimulated, Ezmeralda walks past them and heads for the door. "I'm'a head inside, y'all," she states.
Ariane quickly tries to pull her back, "no, girl, you need to, you gotta," Trinity goes to follow Ezmeralda in.
"Wait, no, stop. Hold on," Ariane catches them. "Picture, y'all. Come on. You better work. Bitch, you better work."
She goes back to posing while Trinity carries a large yet tense smile and Ezmeralda simply smoulders in the cameras.
"There's nothing wrong with the glitz and the glam," she laughs. "I've watched my family deal with it for practically, my entire life. I think that's what really sets me apart from others, at times, because I don't care for having a camera in my face every second. I don't care for having every ounce of information about me uttered to the public as it's not their business. I do it cause it's a part of the job."
Even inside the boutique, Ariane and a few photographers were taking pictures rather than enjoying the clothes. Trinity stood beside Ezmeralda, an exhausted pout was prominent on her face. The elder woman pats her on the back.
"You okay, boo?" Trinity nods, "I just wanna do something fun without the cameras and stuff, ya know? Like this, isn't fun."
Ezmeralda pulls her into a quick hug, "don't worry, we'll find something fun without the attention."
As they look at the different shoes, they take that as their moment to talk. "So, what's been going on with you and Ariane, recently?" This ellicits a heavy sigh for the young woman.
Trinity shakes her head, "we've been butting heads a lot recently. Like, I want us to grow as wrestlers. That's what we're here for, you know? Doing our little dance is cool, I use do that before WWE, but that's not my job anymore. However, Ariane doesn't see it like that. She's so focused on the glitz and the glamour of this, it's like she doesn't really care that much about wrestling."
"Oh," Ezmeralda hums. "It's always been obvious that you and Ariane solely have chemistry because of the time you've had to work with each other, but outside of that, you guys are insanely different to the point where a clash was bound to happen."
Trinity's eyebrows raise. "Really?"
The veteran nods her head. "From the moment she tried going behind Sandra's back to get y'all's costumes without even including you, I knew she was focusing on the wrong things at the wrong time. It's best that you talk to her, not as a friend, but as a business partner cause this can jeopardize your spot in the company."
The two hug, Trinity eyes slightly watering as the stress weighs heavy on her mind. "Thank you, Ezzie."
The woman smiles, "I always got your back, sis. Now, let's go find the twins and sneak out." They laugh, searching for their men.
Tampa, FL
While on another day off, Trinity, Ezmeralda, Eva, Jojo, and Ariane decided to go for a fun day out Go-Karting. Trinity, especially, wanted to try and deescalate the tension growing between herself and her tag team partner.
As they all were getting settled, Eva begins to joke. "Ladies, ladies, while I love you, I see that little stand over there," she points at the podium. "I'll be standing on top."
Ezmeralda laughs, "good luck with that, girl. You talkin' to someone who used to steal cars and race them thangs around the block." Jojo and Eva's eyes widen in shock, laughing at the small insight of the superstar's childhood.
Eva and Ariane pose at the top while Trinity shakes her head. "Both of y'all gon' be numbers two and three cause I'm gonna be number one." They all were given their helmets and told the rules and safety regulations.
They begin racing, the mics picking up their laughs with every drift and crash. Once the race was over, the official hands out their papers while announcing their placements. "In fifth place, we have Trinity."
She playfully snatches the paper out of his hands, crumbling it as the others laugh. "Fourth place, we have Jojo," he announces, handing the girl her paper as she giggled beside Trinity. "In third, we have Eva." The redhead's jaw drops.
"What? I didn't get first?" She laughs, taking the bronze metal. Ezmeralda laughs, "damn, that's tough." The official continues, "in second, is Ariane."
The woman's jaw drops, she side eyes Ezmeralda and swings her hair. "Girl, bye," she kisses her teeth, taking the silver. "And finally, but not least, in first with the gold is Ezzie." The superstar takes the gold, sliding it over her head with a little dance.
She climbs to the top, "yessir! Yessir!" She sings. "I'm a gamer, I do this, yuh." The others laugh. Afterwards, the group chilled on the side, talking.
"You was all about winning, passing me and everything. Both of y'all lapped me, but now look at you," Trinity jokes, pointing at Eva and Ariane.
"Don't be mad because you're slow, girl," Ariane chastises.
Trinity laughs, catching Eva in a small hug, "I'm not mad. I'm not a sore loser. Ezzie won, you got second place; congratulations."
Empathetically, Ezmeralda knew what was bound to happen due to the brewing conflict between the women. She wraps an arm around Trinity's waist.
"You could be a little more sincere about it," Ariane argues, receiving a side eye from Ezmeralda.
Trinity continues to try and brush her off, "get over it. Sincere about what?"
"Because you're like, uh, congratulations. You're just being bitter right now."
Trinity gives her a face. "I'm not being bitter. You're doing too much right now. It's a game, who cares?" Ariane holds up her metal, "but I won, though."
At this point Trinity and Ezmeralda was getting annoyed. "Don't get hot," Ariane taunts.
"I'm the one that wins the matches," Trinity states. Ariane raises her eyebrows, "oh, so you're the one who wins the matches? But when it comes to speaking, I'm the one who can talk on the mic."
Trinity tilts her head, "I can speak very well for myself." Ariane points at her, "you wanna take it there?" Trinity shrugs, "it's already took there."
"Trin's a lot better than me cause I would've already sent a right in Ariane's mouth cause you ain't finna talk to me any kind of way like that. And all over a mediocre race? Girl, four-year-olds could win that medal if they want to, who gives a damn? What? Your daddy, mommy, ain't never said 'congrats?' Well, here you go:"
She claps her hands, "congrats. Damn, now shut up."
"What you gettin' hot for?" Trinity looks at her. "Because you just took it to a whole other level," Ariane argues.
Trinity raises her eyebrow, "I didn't. Is it not true? Am I not the one that wins the matches?"
"Uh, yes, your Honor. It is true that my client, Trinity McCray, does in fact win all their matches," Ezmeralda exaggeratedly adjusts her glasses.
"Okay," Ariane huffs, "so you win every single match?" She waves her hand, "actually, I'm done. I'm ready to go."
Trinity shakes her head, looking at Ezmeralda. "This is what I'm talking about. She's too much sometimes."
They continue to go back and forth, Ariane's squeaky voice rising with every rebuttal. As they get ready to go, the duo begin to push at one another. Quickly, Ezmeralda wraps an arm around Trinity's waist in an effort to hold her back.
"It's not worth it, sis. Not in public and not with our job."
"I'm putting $100 on Trin. Ariane ain't got a chance to even lift her arm before she gets knocked clean out." Ezmeralda laughs.
Monday Night Raw
As a result of Trinity and Ariane splitting, some changes have appeared and one of them was Ariane was to compete against Aksana while Trinity was to compete against Ezmeralda which meant that the triplet's original match against The Shield was then switched to Team Hell No and John Cena vs. The Shield.
As Trinity and Ezmeralda's match was coming up, the newly dressed superstar stood in the Guerilla with the twins and her brother.
"Aye, now, take it easy on my baby," Jon jokes pulling the woman into a hug.
"Boy, hush, if there's anyone I trust to go against as a rookie, it's my good sis," Ezmeralda laughs. "She just has ring rust. This is her moment to dust it off and find her moment to shine."
Her theme goes off as green stobe lights begin taking over the stadium. She smiles, "time for Aries to welcome the new meat."
Hyped, she skips through the curtain before switching to her signature strut out into the spotlight. Raising her arms at the climax, she dramatically bends down as the pyro sets off. Coming back up, she leads into a leap with a roar that mixed with the music. She slapped the hands of the excited fans before reaching the ring. Settled in her corner, pacing while in character, she watches as the familiar disco intro of the Funkadactyls plays.
Excited, Trinity comes skipping down the ramp with her signature pompoms. As she reaches the opposite of the ring from Ezmeralda, she leaps over the top rope with a split. Just moments before the bell rang, the veteran catches Trinity's eyes and sends a subtle nod of communication which she sends back.
The duo begin a match of trade offs and reversals, Naomi specifically taking on a defensive approach to Aries' typical fast yet offensive one. Despite the unnoticeable change in Aries' move-set, the fans weren't able to identify the lack of emphasis with every spot.
Unbeknownst to the WWE Universe, Divas in positions like Naomi and the Bellas weren't trained to take powered slams neither were they trained to give them out. Thankfully, when training with the likes of Aries, she wasn't much of a rule follower anyways.
As they keep going, Aries' approach then switches to take on the fast paced, arial based luchadore style adopted from her father. She notices that Naomi was slowing down, winded and fighting for her breath.
The dancer climbs the top rope, going for a crossbody; however, she overcalculated the landing. With ease, Aries' arms wrap around her torso to catch the woman as they fall back. Aries’ sell coming off as a cushion for Naomi's landing.
Naomi gets the pin on her, but Trinity as the athlete was not happy with her own performance. As they meet up backstage, Ezmeralda pulls her into a hug.
"You did good, love. We'll definitely have to work on your in-ring stamina, but you have the skills and can hit the spots. How'd it feel?"
She shakes her head, "I loved getting that chance, but I do wish for Ariane to be there cause that's all I know."
Ezmeralda nods, "I know, love, it's gonna be alright. You'll just have to talk this out and see how to solve this tension or find a way to keep yourselves connected." Trinity nods, the two walking further backstage.
Next chapter is gonna take a different turn with more Ezmeralda and Josh moments especially with Natalya's bachelorette party in Vegas coming up.
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I think overall there’s one of two „big“ problems happening for people who have a problem with TOWL (racists and the likes aside… 🙄).
1- The misunderstanding that this was truly much more a Rick and Michonne story than a TWD one. This was not TWD S12. It was about telling the story of these 2 characters and being able to put a dot at the end (or a dot dot dot). And you’ve laid all of that out perfectly. Like yes, in TWD, Beale (& the CRM) would have been draaaaagged out. But this was much more of a Terminus approach than a Saviors one if we will…
2- TWD was never the most ..subtle show. They tended to hit the audience over the head with stuff. And I’m not sure I would go as far as calling TOWL subtle outright either (idk, didn’t think about this until right this moment lol -obviously elements of it are, sure -just as elements on TWD could be on the subtler side) but compared to TWD, it certainly is lol. And there has been a very big „media literacy“ and „basic comprehension skills“ problem happening for a minute now. And I really don’t say this to be mean or make fun of people or anything but these are just facts. Some people really struggle with getting the information when they are not being hit over the head with it, over and over and over again. After the finale I saw several posts on my tl of people wondering why this, that or the other was not addressed or how/why this, that or the other did happen… and I was utterly confused because those things they claimed were missing were very much shown? I was like, there was literally a scene dealing with all of this? And it didn’t require any reading between the lines to be honest, no subtext, it was very much the text of the scene?! So it seems like some people just didn’t get a lot of things that were happening 🫤
(BTW I don’t mean that even if someone didn’t have these specific problems with the show, they MUST love it then. Likes and dislikes etc etc. As much as I really loved the show as a whole, if I decided to put down the Richonne-colored glasses I wanted to and did watch to the show with.. I’d definitely have a few complaints lol, though still very much enjoyed the show even then)
That's definitely what happened. And to some extent, I get why, considering Rick and Michonne are 2/3 of the main show's Big Three. But when the press and promos started, and people were still talking about some Marvel-style meet-up, I was like...oh they're definitely not listening to what's being said, because it's six damn episodes, and also The Richonne story, not the Team Family jamboree. And then acting as if it's somehow 'insulting' to the rest of the characters if Rick and Michonne didn't talk about them. The man had PTSD so bad, he couldn't remember his own son's face. Why would you think it would be good time for him to pause in the middle of his wife telling him about a traumatic moment during her pregnancy to ask about anyone else? Please be fr.
I feel you on the comprehension thing, which is nothing new for this fandom. The fact that so many people legit thought Rick didn't know how to drive stick and questioned the 'realism' of it but never stopped to think that it was because he only has one damn hand. Y'all were fine with every silly ass moment that happened in the main show, that was either sheer dumb luck or handwaved away, but now we need a complete breakdown from experts on how Rick managed to fight off walkers one-handed. Now y'all want the realism, when you've been so giddy for weeks because you need one of them to die for the show to be 'interesting'.
I'm really not listening to people who need the narrative to hold their hand through everything, or need to see every piece of the plot onscreen for it to be considered 'legitimate'. (I'm officially banning the phrase 'plot armor' for the foreseeable future).
People didn't get things, because they don't take a minute to sit with the damn material anymore. From live reactions videos to live tweeting/blogging, people are just watching TV to make content and have an online moment, not for what's actually being shown. And yeah, TOWL isn't perfect, but the minor criticisms I have for it doesn't take away from the fact that it is very enjoyable and easily the best material from the TWD landscape in a long time.
(sidenote: I will say one of my favorite things from these past six weeks is everyone struggling to figure out the overall TWD timeline, lmao.)
#.answered#towl spoilers#twd: the ones who live#richonne#I am once again rambling#but I appreciate the message!
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[‼️TW: This post is not sexual content itself however it talks about asexuality and thus also discusses sex.‼️]
Before pride month ends I want to talk about Transformers characters that are on the aroace spectrum!!
I want to clarify that since Cybertonians don't reproduce sexually that makes them all asexual in cannon!
...However the fandom still has a lot of different interpretations and headcannons. Some of these include procreation while others are robots being sexual for the sake of "fun" rather than biology. I personally feel VERY uncomfortable with the idea of sexual reproduction in transformers but fandom is fandom and I am well aware of how it ignores the cannon so this list is made with that in mind.
As for the aromantic part of this post....
Sadly none of those are actually cannon since the creators haven't said anything about it and it's never said out loud in the media these characters are from HOWEVER I feel like most of these are very heavily implied. If you're confused about labels please look them up!
Sorry this post only contains three characters, I'm writing this literally last minute before going to the airport lol. I feel like there are maybe some more that I've missed so you're welcome to comment or reblog if you want to add to the list!
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Shockwave: aromantic, asexual, could be aplatonic in some continuities.
I HAD to start with him. Speaks for itself really, if you're in the fandom you're probably familiar with how little emotion Shockwave expresses in general. Sadly though most people either see him as a completely emotionless monster or make him the super ooc :( He has no interest in sex or romance and some versions of him do not care for platonic bonds either.
The fandom sadly does not understand this, I'm not completely against him being shipped with other characters I just wish it was written properly and with his sexual/romantic orientation in mind. I feel like there's some interesting queer platonic lab partner shipping potential here but again this fandom is terrible at not sexualising him for some reason.
He does show care for others in SOME continuities, in Cyberverse we see that he used to be friends with Wheeljack and possibly some other characters. He does have emotions, even in other shows/media, we see him get visibly angry in TFP and Earthspark. So just saying that he doesn't feel anything is a straight up lie. He follows logic although we do see him make non logical choices when influenced by emotions, it's rare but it has happened.
I'm planning to make more content about him and being aroace spec soon. I want to show people that just because you don't feel forms of attraction or love towards others doesn't mean you're completely heartless. And yes I know an extremely stereotypical evil robot probably isn't the best character to use to prove a point like this but I just need people to stop mischaracterising him.
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Shadowstriker: aromantic, asexual.
[most of this is refering to her in Cyberverse, thought I do mention IDW briefly]
What is it with clearly aroace female characters, usually villains, and being called masc lesbians? No offence to lesbians but please y'all let us have some representation. Sorry pooks she doesn't want a girl, she doesn't want anyone actually. Which doesn't mean she doesn't value friendship, just look at how she interacts with Soundwave and Lazerbeak! That's found family if I've ever seen it!
I think she's someone who struggles a lot with emotions and intimacy just in general, though we do actually see her emotions slipping through the "mask" more towards the end of the show, even being happy [thought it was quite bittersweet] and part of a group hug in the last episode. Well done her for actually accepting physical touch that isn't punching someone in the face! She's a very untrusting character who tends to assume the worst in everyone and is really aggressive for most of the show. She has absolutely no interest in romance or sex and is probably apothisexual/apothiromantic. But as previously stated I think platonic love is really important to her. She's the type of person who would kill for her found family, in fact considering she's a Decepticon she probably has.
She's one of those extremely interesting and emotionally complex characters and yet somehow she's always overlooked. I see people talking about wanting more well written female characters and HERE SHE IS! Honestly I'd recommend watching Cyberverse even if you're just doing it for her, it's worth it. I could write a whole essay all about her. Can y'all tell she's my favourite? Because she is.
As for shipping I do like the idea of her being in a queer platonic ship with Flamewar and Slipstream in the IDW comics they're in, though again, I don't think people know how to write qp relationships...
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TFP Soundwave: demiromantic, asexual.
This one is only specific to one continuity and that's Transformers Prime. Not saying other versions aren't on the spectrum, I have a quite couple headcannons, though I feel they might be a bit ooc/self indulgent so I'm not including them since I'm trying to keep this list as "likely to be cannon" as I can.
In the show he doesn't speak and doesn't really have a face so he doesn't really express himself a lot. Though he still definitely shows emotion, just, differently I guess? He is uninterested in sex, I think he could be in a romantic relationship but it would have to be someone he's already emotionally attached to. Platonic love is extremely important to him but specifically his cassettes, they're his family. Others however.... I feel like he doesn't really care for a lot of the characters in the show but then again he doesn't show emotions much so he could just be hiding it.
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What Redemption Means to Me
With the passing of Akira Toriyama as well as some things going on in my life, I think I'd like to talk about something that means a lot to me in writing... Redemption Arcs. Obviously, Vegeta's gonna be talked about here. Hunter from Owl House, sure. And I'll even throw Zuko from ATLA in here for free.
All three of them are considered evil right off the bat. They don't hide that they will do cruel and horrible things to either get their way or because it's fun. Then we find out that they weren't really evil so much as horribly abused and used to serve a purpose (Vegeta was basically handed to Frieza because King Vegeta and the rest of the Sayians were oppressed. Hunter did everything for Belos, who he thought was his uncle, and that Belos 'cared' for him. Zuko was 'dishonored' because his father said so, not to mention he got his face burned by his father.) And that their behavior is a reflection of the suffering and lives they've had. That, of course, is why we see them change...
Vegeta, on his dying breath in the battle against Frieza, basically told Goku everything about the fate of the Sayians, crying tears of anguish because he couldn't avenge his people after what the alien tyrant did. His heart changes even further when he has a relationship with Bulma and they have Trunks and Bulla. Does he lapse back into old habits and desire to defeat Goku? Sure. But even when he becomes Majin, he realizes that his family give him something strength can never give him. Love, the love of family long lost, and hope that his species will live on through his children.
Hunter, meanwhile, meets Luz and it made him question if helping his uncle is worth it. This was further compounded after kidnapping the Entrails when he realized he was hurting Willow and would rob them of their palismen to feed Belos and grant him a longer life. After seeing he was just a disposable puppet and clone of Belos brother (That he murdered,) Hunter fled to Hexside and eventually befriended Gus. Hunter lived a sheltered life and is saved by friendship and love (yes, Hunter and Willow were basically in love from the get go. Y'all need better media literacy if you think otherwise.)
Now, Zuko is a little different. Sure, the Gaang did help him figure things out and help him see the error in his ways, but who are we kidding. The thing that truly put Zuko on the path of good was his uncle, Iroh. Iroh never lost faith in his nephew, even when the boy lost his way and betrayed him. He always tried to show Zuko the right path to follow and give him advice when he needed it. Granted, it couldn't help Zuko make a decent cup of tea, but hey, he did at least come to understand what was right and gave him the tools to forge his own destiny.
Personally, I like these stories because my life has also been a redemption arc of sorts. Stop me if you've heard this one before. I was bullied and abused by family, classmates, friends, and lovers. I hurt people and lashed out because I was hurt and scared, even people I care about. And then, realized I messed up and having people who genuinely love and support me, I started to change into a better, more loving and compassionate person. Characters like Vegeta, Hunter, and Zuko are the kinds of people I am. People who have been misguided and done wrong, but also have worked hard to become much better people. No one is ever beyond redemption... I mean, unless you're Frieza, Belos, or Ozai. Fuck them.
#dragon ball#dragon ball z#akira toriyama#rip akira toriyama#the owl house#toh hunter#avatar the last airbender#zuko#prince zuko
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Facts about Efren? 🙏 (I’m fixating on him at a concerning rate rn)
IVE BEEN WITING FOR THIS QUESTIONNN
Efren Lore + Fun Facts
(May contain some mild spoilers)
I think out of all of the DBM characters Efren has the most mild lore.
He's Filipino, but he was born and grew up in USA. His full name is Danilo Efren Dagohoy (yes he goes by his middle name). He doesn't really know any language other than English, though his parents did try to teach him Tagalog and he did take Spanish in high school.
His family is overall very average: middle class, suburban white picket fence house, church on Sundays, etc. He has 4 siblings - one older brother, and three younger siblings - two sister and a toddler brother.
Despite the pretty average upbringing he was always the black sheep of the family. He was always the biggest out of the five siblings, being born the weight of 8 pounds and 11 ounces. He was a chubby kid, though during puberty he started to grow really tall and with a bit of regular exercise he developed an impressive muscle mass.
He was always freakishly strong and completely unaware of it. In kindergarten and primary school he would get in trouble for accidentally hurting other kids and breaking toys. This self control issue really came to a boiling point when he accidentally killed the neighbours cat while playing with it. After that incident most of the kids his age in the area weren't allowed to talk to him. In middle school he became more of a loner and that stays true even to this day.
He still lives in a suburban-ish area. There aren't any houses near by but there is a road that joggers frequent near by.
Efren works from home as a cyber security guy for a whole array of websites ranging from sketchy to full on illegal. On top of being naturally strong he also has a talent for IT. In high school he would make simple viruses and hack into random websites for shits and giggles. That is actually how he got his job - he broke into one of those sketchy websites and after being tracked down on suspicions of being a fed he was offered to either work for them or perish (lol).
Efren has a very skewed sense of empathy. He doesn't feel much for people, you could confess your undying love to him or shoot yourself in the head in front of him and he wouldn't care either way. On the other hand he has insane levels of empathy towards animals, even the "gross ones" like bugs, snakes, arachnids, etc. He gets genuinely mad if someone kills a spider.
Other than a skewed sense of empathy Efren also has a very odd aggression response. His emotional response to being mad never results in impulsive physical or verbal aggression (yes ik in-game it's not really shown, I'll have to rewrite a few sections). But what does illicit impulsive physical aggression in Efren is something cute. That is the primary reason he won't get an actual pet cat, even though he desperately wants one, he is terrified of hurting it.
Ok now for a rapid-fire-round-up of small fun facts:
Efren hates beer! His favourite alcoholic drinks are a vodka-redbull and a banana daiquiri.
Efren is a massive nerd, he grew up spending all his free time playing video games and nowadays since his schedule is pretty lax he spends a large amount of his time watching anime and playing FPS shooters.
Efren has a two pet tarantulas named Tarantino and Tammy (they are both female).
Ok this turned out much longer than expected, sorry for the info dump Q_Q
Let me know if any on y'all are interested in lore on Isra and Hawk!! (I'm holding off on Orion lore since it would be a major spoiler for the full game)
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My Not So Short Ramble About The Bear Season 3
(Spoilers: Ehhh, I did not really like it... I do like this frame though:)
I did kinda not so feel this season of The Bear, but let‘s start with what I liked: The Tina-centric episode was one of the best in my opinion (and directed by Ayo? Let's go, queen). She‘s a lovely character and to see her journey and how she got to The Beef and Mikey was very heartfelt and warming. It was also very nice to see Ebra happy again after he felt so out of place last season. And it‘s always good to have Olivia Coleman on my screen.
There were some fun moments. The Fak brothers are funny (to an extent), Richie and his daughter are super sweet, so there’s that. I like when all these characters clash, when things go wrong, when they scream at each other, when tensions get high and they need to achieve something. A show like this needs this energy.
Unfortunately, there is barely any engery this season.
This season was very slow. Look, I don‘t mind focusing on specific characters and getting to know them, but a whole episode dedicated to Sugar and her mom in the hospital because the baby‘s coming just for it to… not really go anywhere? Yes, some dialogue was really good but we don't leave the hospital room for 90% of the episode and they're just not strong enough to carry that. There wasn't even a big reunion, not even Carmy calling Sugar back, you know since she left pregnant and just didn‘t come back?? She could be in labor in Home Depot isle three, for all you know! Yeah, he‘s stressed and ill and all but that‘s his sister! Did he ever call her? Did he go see his niece? Why the fuck is it Sydney that cooks them food and brings it over and he isn‘t even shown talking to his sister once? (I mean, I know, Sdyney‘s great and she and Natalie are tight so that was sweet of her, but you get my point.) It just makes me so mad. There should have been a breakdown at the restaurant when they noticed! Hello, everybody loves Sugar! You'd be fucked without her. And y'all send her to get paper towels and don't give a flying fuck that she doesn't come back? This could have been a moment of peace between Richie and Carmy. The whole family should've been at the hospital. Instead it's... two Fak brothers. And even if they missed it, why couldn't Carmy go along with Syd to make up for his mistake? His love language is cooking and he and Sugar seemed so close the last two seasons so why never mention their relationship again?
While I mentioned I liked seeing Ebra happy again, I wish we'd gotten more of his character. In the beginning, it felt like they'd just sidelined him because he doesn't fit the high cuisine or whatever. Then he gets some support by some other guys but and yeah, he is happy and I love that, but it feels like the creators just wanted to get him out of the way even though the window business makes the only money in this hell house? He's fucking important to this success so treat him like it!
Montages and aesthetic shots of food cannot fill all the season (well, apparently, they can) because that‘s not storytelling. Yes, I want to see the food, but I don‘t need ten flashbacks and montages and slowmotion shots per episode. Speaking of flashbacks — what is it with Claire? Why are we doing this? Why would Carmy pine after her for months? She is so… bland, watered down — almost like a canvas for people who fancy JAW/Carmy to imagine themselves as Claire. It feels fanfiction-y, right? "You‘re a nurse and went to high school with Carmy but loose track of one another…" The Bear is capable of interesting, real-feeling characters so it‘s sad to see the screentime get wasted for her when all I want to see is what's happening in the restaurant.
What I mean is, this season was slow. Way too slow. There was so much time wasted on nothing that could‘ve been cut. Like the Natalie-goes-into-labor-episode and most of the first one as well, to be honest. The points that were supposed to come across to the viewer — how Carmy becomes this stressed out, shouting, cold chef high on perfectionism fighting with past desicions and getting a star for the restaurant, how that affected the whole staff, how it fucks up Sydney because he becomes so much like his former chef — they could have been better wrapped, a bit quicker paced. Have the funeral of the Ever more mid-season, have the surprise review consequences NOW and not just as flashes so I have to pause the episode to read anything/leave it hanging on a cliffhanger, have Syd fucking explode for once and tell Carmy how it is, how he is turning into the asshole he hates. Make it extra bad by having a conversation between the two earlier in the season on how bad it was for Carmy and not her "learning" about his past at the funeral dinner. Make her leave. Make him regret what he's done, make him feel what he's missing.
Really, I was yelling at Syd to leave through the last few episodes. Leave, get out, work at a different restaurant, find a new environment. Carmy doesn‘t need to have wallow in his feelings for minute on end on how he should apologize to Claire, he should apologize to Sydney and Richie and everyone he‘s stressing out so much. If Sydney only leaves by the end of season 4 I‘ll riot.
I don't even want to say I'm not hoping for anything to happen between Syd and Carmy, like I actively need them to get away from each other as of right now. But! I liked the call-back to the "best meal Sydney's ever had" and that that was the one time Carmy decided to go his own way and not follow the instructions of his chef. Which is why the theme of being haunted could've fit so well with them! It's just a joke in the beginning by the Faks, but then Sydney leaves The Bear and Carmy feels actually haunted by her. Doesn't even have to be romantic. The potential was there.
Some other smaller things: 1. The timing was so hard to tell. They should've worked with different lightnings or make it less confusing, but as it is now, I was constantly questioning myself when this took place. 2. I can't really complain about the casting of so many actual chefs because I just don't recognize them (oops, sorry) but while I liked to see the different dynamics between them and Carmy at least, it feels so rude to all the POC characters in the kitchen working their asses off and not getting any plot lines. 3. Again, again nothing really happens. I said it up there somewhere, if you'd cut the montages and flashbacks and filler stuff, how much plot are you really left with? When I think of all the important points that happened, they should not take ten episodes to show.
This could've been beautiful. But now it's just the bad kind of messy.
#the bear#the bear season 3#the bear spoilers#just need to get this out somewhere#don't come for me if you have different views <3
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I'm gonna be real with you, every wincest take I see relies heavily on fanon interpretations of the characters and their relationships. It's really not as integral as y'all think it is. Don't get me wrong, ship whatever you want, you do you, I just really don't see it. Unhealthy family dynamics? Sure. Parentification? Sure. Incest between Sam and Dean on any level but the show poking fun at the concept? Nope. Not at all. To be totally honest there's a more incestuous dynamic between John and Dean, but even that's mostly emotional incest (which is to do with the unhealthy dynamic of parents putting their feelings and issues onto their kids, it doesn't even have anything specific to do with actual incest). The parallel to Bela and her Dad doesn't help. Idk, I just don't see it. Like Webb Sherman and Keegan Sherman from Bounty Hunters? That's subtextual incest, not whatever is going on with Sam and Dean. Not to mention the characters that do allude to it in-universe are completely tapped themselves and have to be manipulative in order to even keep Sam and Dean together (Azazel - without him Sam would've stayed at Stanford, Zachariah - Dean during 4x17 didn't want to follow his destiny as a hunter and was totally fine parting ways, Soulless Sam himself - he only wanted Dean when he thought he was useful, Dean only stayed with him because of Bobby's speech and Sam potentially killing innocents).
i might say something controversial here but, first of all, i personally think that emotional and psychological incest is enough to be considered incest. especially when it comes to a show that doesn't allow the usage of the word "fuck", because incest is never going to be allowed to be shown on screen or talked about openly, so all we will ever be allowed to hear and see are implications and subtext. dean and john sure do have their own incestual subtext, but i do think that sam and dean have a very strong one on their own, i'd say all one had to do is look it up and plenty of lines and body language taken directly from the show will prove what im talking about. let's see a random example: one of the most recent posts ive reblogged that come to my mind is crowley saying that his valet has hidden a device to locate them in their car and "oh, the things i've heard" followed by dean and sam looking uncomfortably at each other. yes, it's can be a joke but it is heavy in implications. it is not a joke one would even think of making to a couple of normal siblings because if there was no substance to make implications about then the joke wouldn't land as such, as anything at all, because the one making it would come out as a groundless creep and the siblings wouldn't have any reason to be worried or uncomfortable about it. so why do they look so uncomfortable and worried about it? and this is a random example. such little things are scattered throughout the show. and that is only one part of the subtext. the dynamic, the relationship, the history they have, i think all of it is permeated with incest subtext that cannot be made explicit and is, at least to me, more interesting by being covert in a way you have to translate it yourself in order to fully see and understand it. i do not agree with what you said about them held together by other characters' manipulation. i see what you see and i see why one may think so, but outside forces are necesarry to drive characters and their story, in any story there is always an amount of outsider elements. yes, sometimes they are pushed in one or other direction by someone else, but at the end it is them who make the conscious decision to stick with each other, to break the distance, to come back to each other. despite all the things that have happened between them, for one reason or another, they always choose to come back to each other because of their abnormal obsession and love for each other. i got into the show curious as per why wincest is a ship and when i started watching the show i was pleasantly surprised by how obvious their incestual relationship is, especially to an eye trained to notice "fucked up" themes. i'd elaborate more on all of this properly but i'm on withdrawal so this is the best i can do atm
#i hope this is understandable im aware that i could elaborate better but my brain is incredibly foggy#i do want to say i very much appreciate how like normal and civil you are about this all#cause people might not agree with each other but a lot of fandom discourse is people being rude to each other#so i like talking about stuff even if we disagree with each other as long as the conversation is Civil yk#spn#wincest
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Hello, I know that you only take Luigi requests, BUT I hope I don't bother with my request that I feel it would be nice: the Mario brothers as older/younger brothers of the reader :) gender neutral
No your request doesn't bother me at all!! I love this request! I just do better writing about Luigi individually but both brothers as a whole I can do! I decided to make them older than the reader since I can see them being great mentors while also being very protective to their younger sibling. Thank you so much for your request!
The Sibling Trio
Older!Sibling! Mario & Luigi with GN!Younger! Sibling Reader
Summary: Mario and Luigi are your older brothers, but the three of you do everything together. When the two of them find out you're being bullied, they step in to put an end to it.
Notes: Mario and Luigi are awesome and overprotective older siblings, scenes of bullying but nothing graphic. Mention of depression and self harm but just a mention. This is something different, but I had a lot of fun writing this one! Thank you again for this request!
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Another day, another day of being tormented at school, you thought. At least you would be looking forward to hanging with your older brothers after school. By the time school would be done, their work day is usually done. Your older brothers were Mario and Luigi and although they were in their 20s and you were younger, they still dragged you around with them with everything they did. And even though you looked forward to hanging out with them this afternoon, you still worried and were scared for going to school today. What your brothers and family didn't know was that you were being bullied at school. More specifically by Spike's nephew, which was Mario and Luigi's old boss they had who treated them horribly. Despite you not being a triplet to Mario and Luigi, you bared similarities to them in looks. So of course Spike's nephew, Shane, spotted you immediately. The torment started about three months ago and has been going on since then. You were thinking about the day when Mario came up behind you and ruffled your hair.
"Morning, Squeak." Mario greets you.
You smiled in response. Squeak was a nickname the brothers have given you when you were a baby because every time you smiled, you would squeak out of happiness. At first the nickname annoyed you, but as you got older you grew to love it.
"Morning Mario." You greet him back as he sits next to you at the table.
Mama Mario was making breakfast for the whole family, even though you and Mario were the only people up at the moment.
"Where's Luigi at?" You ask, seeing his absence.
"He's getting up. You know how he is." Mario says with a chuckle.
Luigi was definitely hard to get up in the morning. It's not that he wants to sleep all day, he is just a very drowsy person. After a while though, a very tired Luigi walked into the dining room.
"Morning sleeping beauty." You jokingly greet Luigi and he chuckles at your remark.
The rest of the morning was spent with the three of you guys chatting and eating some delicious pancakes Mama made. Eventually it was time for Mario and Luigi to go to work and for you to go to school. The twin brothers often drove you to school and picked you up depending on when their first and last clients of the day were. Thankfully today they were able to take you to school and pick you up as well. It's less likely chance for Shane to torment you. The three of you then arrived at your school.
"Do you wanna grab some grub after school, (Y/N)?" Mario asked you.
"Grub? What are you talking about, Mario?" Luigi asks Mario, making you giggle.
"Food, Lu!" Mario says.
Seeing the two brothers scuffle with each other always made you laugh. It never got serious to the point were they would have an intense fight with each other and that always made you feel relieved.
"But yes that would be great." You answered as you climbed out of the van.
"See y'all later." You told the brothers as you exited the van.
"Bye, Squeak!"
"Love you, Squeak!"
Both Mario and Luigi call out to you as you made your way to inside of your school. You wave back as they drove off and disappeared.
"Welcome to Hell, (Y/N)." You mumble to yourself as you walked to the first class of the day, already ready for this day of torment to end.
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"You're such a loser!"
"Look at the baggy clothes they wear!!"
"Such a rat looking face!"
You tried to make your escape at the end of the day, but Shane and his goons managed to get to you. You were standing outside near the parent pick up line, and no teacher or parent took notice to you getting bullied. Suddenly, Shane shoved you down hard, causing you to hit your head on the hard pavement.
"What?! Too scared to fight?" Shane screamed at you, getting close to your face.
"J-Just, leave me alone." You stutter out, scared out of your mind.
"Pfft! They are just like their older brother that wears green all the time!" One of Shane's goons yelled.
Your blood boiled hearing that they were mocking Luigi. But unfortunately they had you pinned down to the ground and you couldn't get up. Shane was about to raise his hand down on your face and you recoiled back, waiting for the pain to arrive.
"Hey!!"
A familiar voice shouted, making Shane stop. You turned to see who it was and it was Mario and Luigi, quickly making their way towards you. You felt instant relief but also disappointment in yourself for this is how your older brothers find out about you being bullied.
"Leave her alone, NOW!" Mario shouted, causing the boys to let go of you and back off of you.
Luigi immediately came to your aid while Mario was cussing out the boys.
"Now if I ever see or even hear you come within fifty feet of (Y/N), I will be sure to make y'alls life hell. And I don't care that your daddy is our old boss, you don't mess with our younger sibling. Got it?" Mario sternly told Shane and his goons.
The three of them nervously nodded in response. Even though Mario was the shorter sibling, he was still taller than Shane and his goons. You could say that Shane had a Napoleon complex.
"Now scram!" Mario bowed up at them and the three of them scurried away like pussies.
"(Y/N), are you okay?" Luigi frantically asked you, as he got you on your feet.
By now, all of the parents and teachers were staring, which made you madder. Of course, Mario immediately took notice of that.
"Oh so now all of y'all are staring now when a midget starts yelling at some kids instead of helping someone who was getting bullied for God knows how long?!" Mario shouted at everyone.
"Mario, please." You call to him, to try and get him to stop.
"No, (Y/N). This is wrong. We have to report this." Mario sternly said.
"No, please. Just take me home." You muffled your sobs.
It's what you wanted. You wanted to be away from here.
"Mario, please. Let's get them out of here." Luigi pleaded with Mario.
Mario sighed deeply and nodded in agreement.
"Alright." Mario mumbles.
As the onlookers stared, Mario and even Luigi gave them all dirty looks. They both were boiling with anger. How could they sit there and stare and let their little sibling get beaten up and bullied like that?
"Wait till I get my hands on that damn kid." Luigi mumbled as they got you in their van.
You just sat in silence, holding your arm in pain, as Mario started the van and drove off.
"How long has he been picking on you, (Y/N)?" Mario asks you in a serious but comforting tone.
"Not long." You lied.
Judging by your soft tone, the brothers knew you were lying.
"(Y/N). Don't lie to us. Please. We want to help you." Luigi reassures you.
You knew they were trying to help but didn't want to make them worry more than they already were.
"I just..don't want y'all to worry about me."
"What do you mean? Of course we are gonna worry about you! You're our sibling! Youngest, in fact." Mario remarked.
He wasn't getting onto you at all but he wanted to make it clear that he was serious.
"I know." You mumble.
The rest of the ride back to y'alls house was silent. You felt as though you had disappointed Mario. Luigi was just very concerned and worried for you, and so was Mario, but you couldn't help but like you did something wrong. The van pulled up to the house, but neither you, Mario, or Luigi got out.
"I'm sorry." You broke the silence.
"For what?" Luigi asks you.
Both Mario and Luigi were confused as to why you were apologizing. You did nothing wrong.
"For disappointing y'all."
Mario and Luigi immediately turned to you.
"You didn't disappoint us, (Y/N)." Mario reassures you.
"Yeah. We just want you to be okay. We will get this figured out." Luigi reassures you as well.
"But it's Spike's nephew. Y'all's old boss."
"We know. And we don't care. You're our sibling and we want to make sure you're okay and not being bullied. There's no excuse for it." Mario told you.
Hearing Mario's words helped you a little bit.
"We love you, Squeak. We just want the best for you and don't want you to go through what I went through." Luigi mentioned.
You knew what Luigi was talking about. During their school years, Luigi was bullied heavily by their classmates, and even though you were younger at the time when this was happening, you could recall how it impacted Luigi. He was depressed and even had thoughts of hurting himself. Of course, he is better now, but you knew that Luigi didn't want that to happen with you.
"I know." You mumble out, trying not to sob.
The feeling of love and protection from your older brothers overwhelmed you greatly. But in a good way. Mario and Luigi immediately climbed into the back seat to hug you. Even though they had a huge family, Mario and Luigi secretly favored you the most. You were special to them and they loved you so much.
"Oh, you two, you're going to suffocate me." You joked as they hugged you tightly.
"Tomorrow, we are going to have a day off and come to your school to talk with the principal. And then get some ice cream. How does that sound?" Luigi offers.
"Yeah! And even take you to that book store you love so much!" Mario added.
"Sounds like a plan. Thank you, guys." You thanked them.
"You're welcome." Both Mario and Luigi said in unison.
"Jinx! You owe me a soda!" Mario exclaimed, punching Luigi in the shoulder.
"Aw, really, Mario?" Luigi groaned, making you laugh.
The three of you eventually exited the van and went inside y'alls house. You all spent the rest of the afternoon hanging out and playing video games all night to ease the anxiety of what the next day would bring.
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It's out!! Again I loved doing this one and sorry for the long delay! I've been having a busy couple of days but I hope you enjoy!
#luigi nintendo#super mario#super mario luigi#super mario movie#luigi x reader#luigi#x reader#mario x reader#mario nintendo#sibling
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Sorry for another ask but I am curious I know you said you can relate to Raph and Don is your fav. I will get to the point lol. What is your opinion on Raph? For the iterations you have seen of course
Oh this a welcomed one!
I adore Raph. He's one of my favorite character types - the gruff, protector who inside has this heart of gold, he just has to work through some stuff.
Rise Raph, will be first to go in this department, what a himbo, what a gem, what a sweetie. He's still got some of his rage, but he's more so the protector of the family. I love details like the bandage on his chest, that smile. His interactions with his brothers and April are so funny and wholesome. (The Lair Games and The Clothes Don't Make the Turtle are my favorite episodes for some choice brotherly moments)
Then we get to 2003 Raph, who is the one I first saw, the one who made me adore the character as a whole. This is the one I related to the most, because of the mix of his heartfelt moments, mixed with sometimes being too much.
Shoutouts to Lone Raph and Cub, for being the best Raphael episode. This boy just wants to save his loved ones and his brothers and father, bring out the best in him. Meet Casey Jones is another great Raph episode, because we see how Raph can turn OUT if he's not careful (and showing his merciful side, which I feel like is a character trait, that doesn't get talked about enough?)
Like, this boy could've laid Casey out, truly could've beat the snot outta him and left him hanging, but he DIDNT'.
I also, really appreciate in Hunted the way that Raph specifically wanted to *wrestle* with Leatherhead. There was no fear of his strength or his temper, just full out respect. I remember I read this AMAZING fict, btw involving them by Halogalapaghost: https://archiveofourown.org/works/53261914 Oh my gosh SO GOOD.
I really enjoyed the storylines they gave Raph, throughout 03, because he was trying to be better from what he was - even though, some of it was still his pissing contest with Leo, but ohhh so good... and Same as It Never Was Raph?
HELLO?
SIR?
YES?
THANK YOU
(Oh man, do not get me started on SAINW. DO NOT GET ME STARTED-)
This is gonna turn into just a 2003 Raph post, if I'm not careful. He's my SECOND favorite next to Donnie if y'all haven't guessed yet.
Because NEXT ON THAT LIST IS 1987 RAPH
DUDE HAD S TIER RIZZ.
Oh who am I kidding? Raph's always got rizz. It's just a matter if the writers will LET HIM HAVE A W.
Raphael Meets his Match was one of my favorite episodes of 1987 for that very reason. He's snarky, he will OBLITERATE you verbally, but this dude had rizz!!!
Honestly, he always makes me laugh.
NOW IF WE'RE TALKING RAPHAEL-
2007 RAPHAEL
Oh man, this totally gave me a type when I was 11... Gruff, armored, badass motorcycle, I was fresh off my Sonic phase (yes I was a Shadow stan, let's just get that outta the way now)
My Linkin Park listening, Shadow the Hedgehog loving self, was fresh off of getting caught up on 03 when this dropped.
That movie had no right being that fun. I know it's up in the air whether or not it's ACTUALLY 03 canon but it hurts no one to think it is so I consider this Raph to just be the 19 year old ver of 03 Raph. Lot of time to grow and adjust. The Nightwatcher look for him, was SO good and that scene where he's fighting that demon? LOVED IT. Still die laughing to this day.
I need to read the 07 comics, because I know there's a Nightwatcher origin comic.
The fight between this Raph and Leo too... this was one where, Raph had some good points. Leo had issues to work through but then he comes back and just expects everyone to be ready to go back to how it was... and Raph's been keeping things in check, while Don and Mikey tried to keep them financially afloat, (frick I should've included 07 Donnie too, but again *points to "I see them as the same just older"*) and Raph had to keep the city SAFE.
Some of the BEST ficts I ever read, involved that fight in the rain. Mmm that was good HOT SOUP
But then... my favorite Raphael of all time...
IDW Raphael is everything, I love about him and more. He's this protector, he's still got his temper, but his bonds with his family, with Casey, with Alopex...
It's just all coming together so nicely and I ADORE moments like these, where we see him calm, where we see his SMILE. WHere everything in his world, for just ONE MOMENT is all right. Where he's okay.
I love that and I adore Raph/Alopex, I love it more than RaphXMona. (I ALSO LOVE THIS ONE. IT'S GOOD BUT RAPHLOPEX IS MY OTP)
And I do not have an opinion yet on Mutant Mayhem Raph YET, but we will get there.
Thank you for coming to my RAPH APPRECIATION HOUR!
#TMNT#TEenage Mutant Ninja Turtles#TMNT Raphael#Raphael appreciation post#Raphael IDW#Rise Raphael#IDW Raph#Rise Raph#2003 Raphael#03 Raphael#03 Raph#2k3 Raph#TMNT character essay#I think this is one? This turned into me screaming how much I love this red banded turtle.#Donnie is my MAIN FAVORITE but Raph is my SECOND
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Theory about Daendels Missing Childrens?
Hii guys!! ✨️ As I promised, I'll be talking abt my theory of the two missing childrens from Daendels family. In short, Daendels n Aleida was recorded to have 15 childrens together in which 5 of them died early age n 2 of them were oddly missing 👀 Reminder that all of this are js theory from me, I don't have any evidence to back this up so js take them for fun 😊
So, abt 2 years ago, I found this book that was written by a Dutch writer. The book talks abt Aleida, Daendels wife as the main character, grow to become an independent woman despite her husband being controversial. Now, this book were told to have some factual information so its like a combination of both fictional n non-fiction (?) As I was going through the story, in one of the chapters, the story goes on how Aleida was helped by a horseman named Dirk. Since Daendels was mostly absent in her life, Dirk become sort of her helper n comfort figure. Keep in mind that Daendels knows Dirk too.
Now eventually, as the story progress, Aleida started to have feelings for Dirk. So both ended up having a secret relationship behind Daendels back. Aleida told her sister, Ida aswell abt her relationship w Dirk. This is already weird in my opinion, but hold on its abt to get worse. One day, Aleida was pregnant n Daendels was on his hiatus from politics in this moment. Daendels doesn't seemed to be suspicious abt Dirk in the story plus Daendels seemed to be working abit far from his house most of the time. When the time comes where Aleida gave birth to a boy, the story revealed that this child turns out to be from Aleida n Dirk. But Daendels never knew abt this I think.
When I read that, I was shocked as hell 😭 From this, I started to create a theory abt what happen to the 2 missing childrens in the family. My theory was that, since Aleida lived longer than Daendels, abt 30 ish years more, she could be having an affair w someone once he died. When Daendels died, Aleida was 50 yo. I asked my mother if its possible from a woman to be pregnant at that age n she said yes 😶 Now some of y'all might say that Daendels could be the one but in my defense, I had never found any documents abt Daendels having any affairs w other women. There is barely any women mentioned in his life besides his wife n his mother 🤔 I mean like, its quite odd for someone like Daendels to be loyal for me 🫢 but maybe if he is then I respect that still. Until there is evidence, I'm a believer in Daendels being loyal to his wife until his death.
But at the end, its still a mystery on who were those 2 missing childrens. I can't blame Daendels or his wife cheats as there is no evidence on it. Their marriage were very closed as well. Aleida rarely appear in his life too, it could be that Daendels js wanted his personal life to be hidden or for other reasons. Their relationship interested me alot but with almost nothing to tell how they interact w each other, its impossible to tell 😔 I hope maybe one day I can find a letter of Daendels to his wife to at least understand them.
That's all I want to say for now 🫡 If u guys have any added information or questions, feel free to ask/tell me! 🫶 Again, this is js my own theory so don't take it seriously. Thank you guys for coming to my yapping session n have a nice day everyone 🌙
#daendels#dutch#french#french history#napoleon bonaparte#napoleonic era#napoleonic wars#napoleon’s marshals#dutch history#history#aleida#family#theory#fan theory
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@gizm0-gadgetz fir return to New Texas
A continuation of the previous thingy
"You know I was planning on coming back here to break Billy again, but I suppose I could make due with you, Jack." Valerie smiles and kisses Jonny's forehead. "Wait, here, my baby boy."
"Mom?" Jonny blinks, staring at his mom. The mechs and hr remained in the casino. The rest have long cleared out.
"Funny thing about this." Valerie holds up her watch. "Your father is in here. My it was fun breaking him in to be a good pet speaking of. Billy start the process. I want Jack uploaded it onto this." She takes out a metal box seemingly a portable memory device.
Billy seems to solidify taking the machine and walks towards Jack on the floor. That's when the screaming started.
Jonny stares at his mom. "Will he...?"
"Your father won't hurt you, not anymore. And Jack, well, I'll have my own fun with him." Valerie helps Jonny up. "How about you introduce me to your friends? This tends to take a while and can get a bit messy."
Jonny hugs his mom tight. "How? You... you vanished. You were going to clean up dad's mess like always, and you just vanished."
Valerie smiles softly and bends her son down to place his head against her chest.
Jonny pauses and pales. "Your... your heart is ticking."
The mechs stare wide-eyed at the woman who claims to be Jonny's mother.
"Yeah unfortunately Carmillia is a cunt." Valerie ruffles her son's hair. "Although we match now." She hums softly approaching the mechs. "You must be Jonny's friends. My name is Valerie D'ville, and I'm his mother. And yes I do recall our encounters Marius."
Marius pulls Jr off his back. "I believe he is also yours."
Valerie chuckles. "Two boys then." She grabs Jr, who clings to her. "Jonny, you have a little brother now. What have they been calling you?"
"Jr." Jr hugs his mom tightly.
"That works." Valerie smiles, slinging Jonny over her other shoulder. "Come on, you two, I'm sure you want out of this awful casino."
Nastya crossed her arms and stepped in front. "I don't fucking buy this. Who the fuck are you actually? Look, just because you calmed Jonny down doesn't mean shit."
Valerie stops and turns to face Nastya. "Nastya." She smiles, and a chill runs through the desert air. She puts down Jonny and Jr. "I am Valerie D'ville. I am the first mechanism. I have been traveling the stars hunting for the Aurora for eons. I have been looking for my son. You dare accuse me of lying? Darling, unlike you, I don't abandon my family. I have been searching as soon as I got my footing, being thrust into immortality. Maybe if you actually made an effort to listen to my boy, you would have understood who I am."
Nastya steps back.
Valerie doesn't let her speak. "Did you figure out what you wanted when you abandoned your family? Your lover? Your brother? Of course not. You just want everything back to normal as if you never left. Just because I never caught up to y'all doesn't mean I didn't do my research. I have tracked my boy across the stars through the Gods tantrum. I have face deities and killed them for less. Do not threaten me because, unlike you - " She stops as Jonny grabs her arm.
"Mom, that's enough. Please, I just... I want to leave here." Jonny holds onto his mother. "I'll tell them."
Valerie smiles softly. "You don't have to. I'll tell them everything, and I'll tell you everything." She ruffles Jonny's hair. "I know you're tired and a mess. Just give me a moment." She pulls out a device and taps something into it, and a short pause there's a loud sound outside the casino. "Billy, take Jack with you and destroy the body when it's done."
"Understood, Val." Billy picks up Jack and heads out.
"What did you do?" Jr stares up at his mom.
Valerie chuckles. "I have my own ship. It would be a lot nicer to talk there than in this shithole. That means everyone." She snaps her fingers. "Either come or not, but I'm taking my boys."
The mechs scramble to follow even Nastya.
.......
Jonny was out like a light as Valerie tucked him in while the other watched. "You don't have to stare. I can tell you he's perfectly safe."
"That isn't why we are staring." Ashes crosses their arms. "Never seen Jonny fall asleep that fast before."
Valerie chuckles softly. Jr was already asleep clinging to her back. "It's from the stress of everything. He just crashed along with this little guy. I'm not surprised." She removes Jr from her back and places him next to Jonny, and both immediately cling to each other under the covers. She sits in a chair, leans back, and smiles. "Now, let us actually talk."
"How did Carmillia get you?" Eyes landed on Tim as he asked.
Valerie chuckles. "I like you. I was cleaning up Billy's mess as I normally did. He managed to accrue a debt with the new doctor in town, and it was, unfortunately, my job to clean up. Why do you think Jack only had one eye? I took it. However, Carmillia had different plans than sexual favors or even working it off. She wanted to test a new technology, and I had no choice but to agree. She thought I was a failure and shot me off into space. Just took a bit to come back." She scoffs. "She did fix my heart, but that was before she told me about you guys and, more importantly, my own boy. Our relationship deteriorated after that."
"Why do you seem to have so many wanted posters?" Marius scratched his chin. "You always seem to be ahead of us."
"Darling, you don't get where I am by playing nice." Valerie smirks. "Although it has been awhile and thankfully I'm not bored."
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✨2023: A Summary✨
Post your most popular and/or favourite edit/gifset/analysis for each month (it’s okay to skip months!)
I was tagged by @telomeke (thanks! 😘)
Also appreciation that this post helped me finally take the time to figure out how to find my blog archive, lol.
January-June 2023
No posts! I was still in my lurker phase. Somehow I thought I had started earlier, but it's just been 6 months! That is insane to me. It has felt so much longer. Timey whimey and all that. Clearly I have made up for lost time. Now I cannot not talk about stuff on here.
July 2023
most popular - A whole 19 notes! When I was still totally on board for Be Mine Superstar. That did not last.
favorite - My very first post, in defense of Tai in La Pluie. Not so much because of the content, but it was the moment I just had to say something, and I'm so glad I did. Once you break the ice, it's so natural to keep going.
August 2023
most popular - My first genuinely popular post, and still my most popular post, where I joke about gay mafia. I start to get an idea of what makes y'all tick. It still gets likes now. I find that hilarious.
favorite - I think this one, on Hidden Agenda. It was the first time I started to genuinely dip into analysis, and I think I was on to something, considering what we learn about Zo and his mom's relationship!
September 2023
most popular - My cuddling friends agenda is supported!
favorite - I am deep in my Papang love. And yes, he is absolutely delicious, but is also such an amazing actor, and needs to be a goddamn lead already. Closely followed by my Bosston appreciation post, he rocked my socks in Be Mine.
October 2023
most popular - We were all losing our minds over Kiseki, clearly. Normally my recaps aren't that far-reaching, but this one apparently hit right at the high point of Chen Yi/Ai Di fever.
favorite - My proposal for GMMTV, inspired by @respectthepetty's gym bros post. YinWar have come through for me, which means that Petty deserves some goddamn Gym Bros already!!
November 2023
most popular - I love that this one was popular, because I still laugh at Meen's perfect "howwwww" face.
favorite - My thoughts on Shadow and forgiveness. As someone who's had family harmed by a religious figure, and as someone who worked in human services for a while, I have a lot of feelings about how often forgiveness is used as a cudgel against victims. And I got a private message from someone that my post actually helped them with how they were feeling after the episode. Which means so very much. And I reassert - it's up to you and no one else if you forgive, and it's ok if you decide you never will.
December 2023
most popular - Another one I'm so pleased was popular, because Saint deserves it. Also I like ranting about how much I like people or things. So much more fun than ranting about what I hate.
favorite - my love letter to you all. And I mean it!
I think anyone else I would tag has already been covered by @telomeke, but if we missed anyone, feel free to tag yourself!
Also, if you've been hesitating to stop lurking and start posting, just do it! The rewards are plentiful. This is a great corner of tumblr. We are nice people. You'll be ok.
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Happy New Year! I can't believe I've been on here since high school! Thank you for supporting me. I moved into my first apartment, will enroll in my master's degree program, and got engaged on New Years Day to the man of my dreams. I was completely shocked and smitten. I was totally caught off guard by this. I found forever love, and it feels so good. I can't wait to be his wife.
Being adopted, relationships never came easy for me. My family are really strict Christian conservatives. I grew up in church and went to Christian school since forever. I was forced to be used as a tool against abortion and support adoption. I was out there protesting at prolife events as a kid and didn't understand any of it. I was used for Orphan Sunday. None of my feelings mattered at all. I went through depression, self injury, anxiety, suicidal thoughts as a teen. I felt alone. Add on the whole no sex before marriage purity ring really fucks you up as an adoptee. I was born to an unwed birth mom, and she was used as an example about what can happen if you have premarital sex. I was reminded over and over again how I had to be adopted because of sin even if they didn't directly tell me this. That's what I internalized.
I was also pretty sheltered. Grew up in the same town my parents grew up in. Everyone knows each other and knows my story. It felt awful that I couldn't control my own story. During high school, it was common to see 18 - and 19 year olds get married. Heck, I'm seen as old getting married now. I never had a bf in high school. There was always this fear and assumption that I could end up like my birth mom. Even now, there are fears I'd end up like her. That's why when I met my fiancé in college, it was awkward. I didn't know how to trust or interact. I realized that being away from home, I got out of my bubble. I started questioning things. It was a relief I could control my own narrative. Yes, I went to Christian college, but coming out, I felt differently. I know people will make fun of me, but I didn't expect the first guy I met to actually be the one. Didn't know how to date or kiss. I was so scared of connection and being vulnerable. I always hid my feelings. My fiancé is truly the best thing that has ever happened to me. He understands me. He supports me. He loves me. I only experienced 1/3 before with my adoptive family. The first time I told him I was adopted, he didn't flinch or tell me to be grateful. He just held me as I cried. I truly found my forever partner, and I never thought I would. This was the first time I felt accepted and connected for being me. Not the adoptee but just me.
I can't wait for this next chapter in my life and have a family of my own. For now, it's just me, two pups, some fish, a rabbit, and my future hubby. Don't expect babies yet because people are already asking us. It's rude to ask a couple when they're having babies. I will not get pregnant or have kids right after marriage. That's the norm in my town. My parents wanted babies right after but couldn't get pregnant. I want to enjoy life, travel, and my husband first. Even my parents are asking about kids. "God wants you to have babies." Annoying. Can a gal just have her pets and enjoy herself for some time? Shit, y'all promote purity but don't want couples to enjoy the life after purity? I'm talking to you churches and a few conservatives who promote this. Women aren't just baby makers or housewives. Now, let us be. I'm a Mrs who will enjoy life.
End rant.
Thanks for following along.
#adoption#adoptee#adoptive parents#adoptive family#birth family#birthmom#adopted#christian#engaged#marriage#conservative#abortion#love#lovemakesfamily#i love him
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