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[cyber-streak-2]

Earthspark Shockwave, Earthspark Grimlock and Earthspark Optimus accidentally hurting their Cybertronian SO (very badly)while they're under Mandroid's control.

I couldn’t manage to think of anything for Shockwave, sorry. For anyone who doesn’t want to be spoiled, both have a bit of spoilers- so it’s up to you if you want to read.

(TFES) Optimus Prime & (TFES) Grimlock with a Cybertronian S/O that they hurt while under Mandroid’s control:

Optimus Prime

{After everyone was brought back, there was a long moment of relaxation and an explanation for the Prime and the others as to what happened- when Optimus realized that he hadn’t seen you yet.}

{He went searching, and it didn’t take him too long to find you- you were back at the Malto’s. While you did leave with the others after the whole badge thing, you ended up returning- not knowing that a controlled Optimus (or the others) were going to suddenly awaken and attack.}

{He’s... concerned- why wouldn’t he be? When he gets closer, he can actually see all of the damage, which includes some missing limbs. Although... you’re alive. (Well, you just got brought back along with the others, but he wants you to stay that way).}

{He’s immediately trying to help you (it’s an unfortunate time to not have an actual medic), while trying to keep you awake- which includes him asking what happened/who had done this.}

{When you manage to point at him, Optimus frowns, and his finials lower. He never wanted to hurt you, but he was under control, he knows that... but it’s still upsetting- your his lover, he’s not supposed to do that, to anybody.}

{When you’re in a much more stable condition (somehow, despite them not having a medic), he’s already been visiting you before and after you wake up, the others included every now and then.}

{While recovering, you two will sit and talk- about the recent events, and other things. You’re quick to tell him that you forgive him, trying your best to reassure him.}

{Cuddles every now and then while recovering.}

Grimlock

{When he wakes up again after all of them get saved... he immediately remembers what happens. He couldn’t control himself, but he could still hear and see everything that’d been happening- like your screams.}

{He’s always been terrified of hurting others for one reason or another without meaning to- including you- so he doesn’t really take it that well.}

{When you eventually wake up, you’re repaired well enough, and in the little medbay. Some of the others are with you, but you don’t see your Conjunx.}

{That changes, though, when you watch Elita 1 leave, and shortly return with Grimlock, who must’ve been off doing... something, he seems upset, but you don’t say anything, not yet, at least.}

{Even when you do start to say something the first couple of times, he simply brushes it off, telling you that “I’m fine”, or something along those lines, and changing the subject.}

{Eventually, you figure out that he’s... scared that he’s going to hurt you again- he may not be under that control anymore, but he could potentially still do it from another reason.}

{You sit there with him and have a gentle talk with the Dinobot, just trying to reassure him.}

[potahun]

love how with many divorced ships we dont actually see the divorce so we have to imagine how badly it went to get how they arrived to where they are (or leave the details to the void for the fun of it) but with feihua we actually see the divorce on screen, it’s literally the FIRST thing we see on screen and it’s a MESS of a divorce and then we see their first interaction post-divorce 10 years after and it would make no sense for any sane person to go from this point A to that point B, but they do. they do and that’s why im insane about feihua

[oidheadh-con-culainn]

funny to think that because I gained so many followers in the past year there are a lot of people who were not here when i got kicked out of my house and job by the quaker community i was living in and ended up deeply fucking traumatised about it lmao. i always assume bc i blog through life events that it's all common knowledge but nah that shit is backstory now. it's been over two years since it happened it's basically ancient history

[fraternum-momentum]

YOU'RE BACKKKKKKK ;-; WE MISSED YOU !!!!!!

EVERYONE SAY THANK YOU TO VON LYCAON FOR CURING MY DEPRESSION

[helvidius]

halloween this year taught me one thing and it's that skulls are so fucking cool. why are we calling these things symbols of death when [redacted robespierre quote]

[swordspider-fr]

okay want to preface this that the new ancient breed I genuinely like so much more than the other recently released ones (the sandshark guys + the moth alien ones, edit: completely forgot about grass snakes bc they were so mid to me). The design feels very cohesive/strong to me AND weird in a way we haven't super had yet with the headshape (BALD!!!) + limbshape (those huge+few claws <3). like this isn't just Tundra2 but bigger or coatl2 but it's more snake-y.

HOWEVER............ they literally coulda been moderns. like pllllsssssss no more ancients with the 2-wing 4-leg format bc I'm just gonna look at them and wish they are moderns so I could dress them. Like design coulda been vastly improved IMO if they got isopoded-up and just slapped 4 more legs on that thing, imagine legs on the tail section that woulda be great. think they also coulda made it fatter bc we haven't got a fat breed in so damn long but that's also my bias.

[grumfield]

Smh they don’t get that you’re hot BECAUSE you’re weird and fucked up. Sure yes you are beautiful but that is frankly subordinate to the fact that you’re a freak. Real grumfield crushers were already into you before knowing what you look like amen

so true! if you don’t like me at my popular franchise character castration truther posting you don’t deserve me at my face reveal. honestly the reason i have only had one night stands and never dated anyone ever is because my normie appearance draws people in and then they run away when they realize i only talk about things like obi wan kenobi self flagellation

[watchers-tea]

she’s so incredibly real for this 😔

[ghostlightfic]

fun to write loop from an outside perspective because they have a bunch of little fidgets they don't notice LMAO

[saepiae]

i feel like louis’ sense of self is narrative-based, like this is what happened to me, here is the story of who i am and this is what is happening now, while armand’s sense of self is identity-based at any given point, i am leader of the coven i am louis’ companion i am daniel’s problem i am marius’ . and they use these lenses to understand who they are

[ll-underestimated-ll]

Ventrue don't fuck because we have higher priorities than pleasures of the flesh.

[kouhaiofcolor]

If you still wear a face mask in 2024 (in countries or regions where it is/was not a prevalence or norm before covid), what do you tell ppl when they ask you why you still do it? 😅 ngl I be having smartass remarks. Esp toward the ppl it irks unreasonably?

[frecklef0x]

“Eternal. Infinite. Immortal.”

If you’re interested in the process video for Control Ending, it’s on my Patreon >.>

[purplethespian]

Waiting for Permission to Be Sick - Input Requested!

So, I got officially diagnosed with two chronic conditions last week. And the doctor explained to me the details of how these conditions affect my body, and what kinds of symptoms to look out for, and what I can expect life to look like going forward. And I got prescribed meds, and given detailed instructions for when to take them and any side effects I might experience and what to do to help myself feel better if I'm not feeling well, and all of that.

And I just. Haven't done it. I've started taking some of the meds, but not all of them, and like. There's no real reason for me not to? I'm just. Not doing it. Like I've looked up some products on Etsy to have like. Emergency medical info with me so that if I randomly black out or faint again in public, someone could see me and have info know what to do. And I've been looking at pins that say "I have an invisible disability" and aaaaaaaall sorts of stuff. Basically just window shopping for my chronic illness starter kit. But it's been over a week now and I haven't bought anything, and I seem to have convinced myself that I can't start taking my meds until I have all of my Items sorted out and prepared. And like -- there are some actual reasons for this, such as my schedule has been all over the place and my meds need to be taken at multiple times a day at certain intervals, and some with food and some without food, so I need to be able to have that stuff ready to go even when I'm out and about.

But I'm not. Actually doing the work to get everything sorted out and ready? I'm just window shopping. And today, I have been very tired all day because of the rain and because I did too much yesterday, and my head has been hurting because I'm still not over my concussion and I also probably did too much today, even though honestly all I did was go to one class and observe the whole time, and read a couple of emails. And I thought to myself, "well I guess I should take tylenol for my head, and I guess I can give myself permission to do that since my boyfriend is busy and can't tell me to take care of myself --- oh."

I have been waiting for someone to give me permission to identify as chronically ill! Even today I was like "I feel like I've managed to convince myself that I feel worse than I actually do, and I'm actually fine." Even though there would be no real reason for me to be doing that. And like. My head actually hurts! I really did and still do feel tired! And I've seen my test results, and I know that I have a chronic condition. It's been medically confirmed by a bunch of different tests, and multiple medical professionals have been like "yep you've got something wrong with you" (though using more professional and kind words, of course). All of this to say -- I have been waiting for someone to tell me that I am ill and it is chronic and that it is okay to spend money on taking care of myself and things that will make me feel better, even if it is only temporary like the excitement of buying a new pouch that says "This Bag Is Full of Drugs" specifically to keep my medical supplies in, or something to help keep me safe going forward like a medical alert key chain. The only question now is -- what do I do about this? How do I give myself permission to need help or extra accommodations or even just some medication when I never want to admit that I need or want help? I'm so used to being self-sufficient and doing everything by myself that I don't know how to be okay with more problems.

Has anyone else experienced something like this? What do you do? How do you learn to be okay with the fact that your body is not going to go back to the way it was before? I am only 22 and it's hard to accept that my life is not going to look the way I pictured it when I was 18.

[reginrokkr]

With Natlan around the corner, I want to be honest with you peeps. Either during the first or second week of September I'll be back to class, which leaves me a narrow margin to explore and go through the plot. I'm aware that it received a lot of hate for several reasons on multiple platforms, this one included. What I mean to say by this is that I'll be less tolerant towards excessive negativity towards it and I'll proceed as I see fit to curate my space.

[bugdotpng]

can i offer you a biscuits in these trying times