#(Unsubtle hint to drop asks)
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martianbugsbunny · 3 days ago
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Cassandra herself converted me to a bi!Jake believer because the bi4bi besties energy between them would be insane
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princescar · 1 year ago
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OF COURSE Kyoko's Genshin design is taking inspiration from Venti, who do you think I am???
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jiminomenon · 5 months ago
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HOW WOULD JIMIN AND Y/N SPEND VALENTINES DAY TOGETHER? why do i have an odd feeling jimin would either subtly try to ask y/n if she happens to have plans and get jealous if she does (maybe she doesn't and she just wants to see jimin's reaction) ORRR jimin doesn't even leave it up to chance and forces y/n to spend the whole day with her under the guise of "work"
you’re not far off.
jimin and y/n’s valentine’s day would be anything but conventional. jimin, being her usual self, wouldn’t even ask y/n if she had plans—she’d simply decide that y/n was spending the day with her. under the guise of “work,” she’d have y/n clear her entire schedule, making sure no one else had the chance to take up y/n’s time. of course, y/n would see right through her, but she’d let it slide just to see how far jimin would take it.
the day would start with jimin dragging y/n to an upscale café, claiming she needed coffee before her “super important meeting”—a meeting that, unsurprisingly, never actually happens. instead, jimin would take y/n on a shopping spree, acting as if she just so happened to need a second opinion on luxury items that y/n conveniently ends up carrying for her. throughout the day, jimin would drop unsubtle hints about valentine’s, side-eyeing y/n whenever she checks her phone, as if daring her to say she has plans with someone else. y/n, amused, would play along—pretending to text someone just to see jimin’s expression darken with jealousy.
by the evening, jimin would finally drop the act and take y/n to a private dinner at a ridiculously expensive restaurant. at this point, she’d stop pretending this was “just work” and instead make it clear that she wanted to spend the day with y/n. maybe she wouldn’t outright say it, but the way she orders all of y/n’s favorite dishes and the rare softness in her expression would say enough. and when y/n teases, “so, was this a date or…?” jimin would scoff, roll her eyes, and mutter, “shut up and eat,” before turning away to hide her smile.
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byhees · 1 year ago
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wearing a hoodie that’s not theirs.
엔하이픈 ・ female reader + word count 700 genre fluff established relationship non-idol au warnings not proof-read skinship kissing petnames light jealousy — more
a/n. this was written back in mid-2023 ㅠㅠ
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heeseung would notice right away; he tends to be more observant when it comes to you— the way the hoodie falls a little higher above your knee, the colour looking unfamiliar against your skin. would definitely ask you, in the most indirect of ways, why you hadn’t asked him for his hoodie. doesn’t want to make a whole scene, but it does tick him off a little; would ask if you’d like to swap hoodies, fingers already lightly tugging on the ends of the outerwear…
jay would spot the difference almost immediately. everything about it feels unfamiliar to him; a dead give-away would be the smell of said hoodie, the new scent of laundry eliciting furrowed brows. probably wouldn’t mention it, not wanting to seem protective over such a little thing— would only hold you closer, arm lightly pressing against the fabric as it snakes around your waist; feels like such a small article of clothing doesn’t hold much weight, given the light peppering of kisses over his features— when he loves you, and you love him, the hoodie’s out of the equation…
jake would put on a small facade— no, he’s actually crumbling internally, but he can’t let you see that, so here’s a big, radiant smile; pretends that he’s okay, and brushes off his occasional staring as daydreaming. would bombard you with a bunch of questions, all along the lines of “aren’t you feeling hot, love?”; it’s such an indirect and subtle way to hint that he’d prefer for the mystery hoodie to be off. the following day, he’d leave his hoodies all over your place, intentionally making the addition very obvious, in hopes of seeing his hoodie instead of another’s the next time…
sunghoon would take one glance at you, and notice the very unfamiliar piece of outerwear drowning your frame. would fake laugh a lot. his eyes would regularly dart to the article of clothing; whenever he observes you twirling the strings of the hoodie, or fiddling with the material, his gaze would linger on you for a second or two longer than usual. reminds himself to not make a big deal out of it, but would eventually ask you “who’s hoodie is that?”. would spring up from his seat, and walk over to his room, personally picking out a hoodie from his collection...
sunoo would be so so appalled, offended even; he has so many comfortably oversized hoodies, and yet the one that’s dawning you isn’t from the hefty selection? would probably pucker his lips in the shadow of a pout, arms itching to cross over his chest. would make his distaste towards the outerwear loud and clear; dropping very unsubtle hints, and highlighting the ‘extremely special warmth’ of his hoodies. a wide smile would dance on his lips the moment the hoodie’s out of sight…
jungwon would be pretty confused; would have probably thought that you were pulling some form of ‘social experiment’ on him, given the way you’d been twirling and beaming at the comfort of another person’s hoodie. would feel a little bit bothered after seeing you settle down next to him, arms outstretched in the motion of a hug, not a trace of intention to take off the outerwear. would often clear his throat, hands subconsciously tugging on the sleeves of said unknown hoodie; would try to subtly convince you to switch the outerwear for another one, preferably his own, in the tiniest of voices. has the biggest, tooth-rotting smile on his face when you agree to the offer— would dash to his closet, a hoodie clutched in his grip moments later…
riki would notice right off the bat; that hoodie, most certainly, isn’t his— the way it envelops you? no, there’s definitely something different about it. the way the sleeves fall, maybe, a centimetre shorter than usual? that’s definitely different. gets so grumpy; refuses to even make eye contact with you, eyes always swiftly shifting to another object whenever you turn to look at him. “where’d you get this?” he’d ask, a childish pout painting his lips. would take off his own hoodie, wordlessly giving the clothing piece to you; refuses to admit that he was, perhaps, a teeny-tiny bit sulky…
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cinnamon7girl7 · 2 days ago
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"THE SECRET INGREDIENT WAS HIM"
From the very first Saturday, you realized the cooking class wouldn’t be as peaceful as you had imagined.
The atmosphere in the room was warm—full of laughter, flowery aprons, and tote bags bursting with ingredients. Most of the women were older than you, and they welcomed you kindly, asking if you had any experience. You answered with a modest smile, completely unaware of what was coming.
The first project was simple: banana bread. Everyone was asked to bring their own ingredients. Some showed up with green bananas, others with overripe ones no one had wanted to eat that week. You walked in with a wooden box holding the perfect bananas, a small dark bottle, and a set of glass jars with handwritten labels.
The first to approach you was a lady with glasses hanging from a chain around her neck. She leaned toward your things, curious, and sniffed—without the slightest bit of shame.
—Is that… vanilla? —she asked, sniffing as if her life depended on it.
You nodded and carefully took out the dark little bottle.
—Yes. It’s homemade. My husband made it with real vanilla beans. He double-filtered it and let it mature for three months in this bottle.
The silence that followed was almost offensive. One woman dropped her wooden spoon. Another blinked slowly, as if trying to process what she had just heard. A third simply raised an eyebrow in disbelief.
—Homemade? —someone repeated from the back.
—Yes, —you said innocently, without meaning to brag— He even made a label for it with a gold pen. Said he couldn’t give me something so beautiful without signing it.
The looks they gave you landed somewhere between admiration, awe, and mild domestic tragedy. No one said another word. But as you measured out careful teaspoons of your magical essence, you knew—without a doubt—that every single one of them was wondering why their husbands could barely turn on the kettle without supervision.
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The second time was during the muffin class. The teacher suggested bringing assorted nuts. Some brought half-open bags with chopped walnuts, others had supermarket packs that looked a little sad.
You arrived with a handwoven pouch, embroidered with your initial, filled with pecans, roasted almonds, shelled pistachios, and lightly caramelized chestnuts. You didn’t say it proudly; you said it like someone mentioning something ordinary.
—My husband asked me what kind of nuts I wanted and went looking for them at a craft fair. He sent me pictures of all of them so I could choose. Then he brought me this pouch to keep them in. He sewed it himself.
The woman next to you stared at her plastic bag like she had just committed a crime. Another pretended not to care, but pressed her lips tightly while mixing her batter harder than necessary. Someone let out a very unsubtle sigh.
You pretended not to notice. But inside, you could feel it. You had stirred something.
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The third event was almost accidental. Your mixer broke down halfway through the class. The sound stopped abruptly, and you let out a barely audible “oh no” that only the woman at the next table heard.
Less than five minutes later, you got a message.
You got up, went to the door, and came back carrying a brand-new professional mixer box. One of the ladies dropped her ladle. Another just murmured something like “no way.”
—He brought it for you…? —said a voice from the back table.
—Yes —you answered without much fuss—. He was just nearby. Said he couldn’t leave me without tools, and he brought coffee for everyone.
As if you had dropped a fragrant bomb, everyone looked up at the same time. At the door, with his usual charming smile and sunglasses hanging from his shirt, he waved while holding a tray with steaming cups.
—Good afternoon —he said naturally—. I brought mocha with a hint of cinnamon. And a couple of muffins leftover from your last recipe.
You stepped forward, took the coffee with a smile, and he leaned in to kiss your forehead.
—You look beautiful with flour on your nose —he murmured.
There was silence. Dead silence.
The others watched. Not you, of course. Him. The husband who showed up with coffee, replaced broken appliances without being asked, and said sweet things as easily as other men grunt “I ate already.”
And when he left —with a wink and a goodbye as elegant as his perfume—, there was no turning back.
They didn’t try to compete.
They didn’t look at him like a trophy to steal.
They just understood, deep down, that this man already belonged to someone.
To you.
And that, on top of it all, you knew exactly how lucky you were.
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Will I be the asshole if i speak truthfully for once?
I made a friend a couple of months ago. They're honestly amazing. We have a lot in common, plus we have had some very touching moments together. I feel like they're my platonic soulmate.
The main issue I have with them is that they have a crush on me. It's not like I hate the fact that they do, it's that I hate the way they choose to show it. They keep making remarks and dropping unsubtle hints, telling people in their social circle that we're together, treating me like I'm just in denial of my feelings while I straight up have a crush on someone else (and they're aware of that. I have told them many times). I am positive the person I like likes me back, and I'm currently summoning my courage to ask them out. But I keep thinking I'll be betraying my friend in a way, that's why I won't be able to confess nor be in a relationship if I won't talk to them first.
I have repeatedly tried to address the elephant in the room, but they keep changing the subject of the conversation. There's no way to talk about it without being impolite anymore, but I'm scared of risking our friendship. In addition, my friend's gone through hard times and I'd never forgive myself if I became the reason they returned to their unhealthy coping mechanisms. However, I feel like I'm never going to be heard if I don't make some noise. Will I be the asshole if I finally snap?
What are these acronyms?
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Request:
hi hi!!! i've been reading through some of your stuff and its all just ahh<3 anywho I was wondering if you could write some AOS!Chekov x reader maybe? somethin with either a doctor reader working under Bones or an enemies-to-lovers type? of course you don't have to if you don't want I just though i'd ask
ok love ya bye
A/N: I got this request in 2021. Anon, if you're still out there, I am so sorry. What's worse is that I genuinely wrote most of this soon after getting the request and then just... got distracted. I went with the doctor reader request but tried to put in some enemies-to-lovers vibes. Its more annoyances-to-partners, but I hope you still like it. It's a different side of Chekov than I normally write too. Hopefully y'all enjoy exploring that side as much as I did
ok love ya too bye
“Yes, thank you so much for explaining my job to me,” you said through a forced smile. “Now, if you’ll excuse me, you really must be going.” 
“I must be going? Is it not-” Chekov started. 
“No, you must be going.” You stood in front of the sickbay doors so they slid open. “Goodbye.” He opened his mouth to speak again but you had no intention of letting him and quickly repeated, “Goodbye.” 
Finally, he took the completely unsubtle hint and left through the doors. 
You let out a sigh of relief and let your muscles relax to the point of slouching. 
“That kid drives me nuts.” You crossed the near-silent sickbay to Bones' desk in a few strides. 
“‘Kid’,” he repeated with a half-laugh. “You’re practically the same age.” 
“Maybe he should act a little more like it.” You dropped into a chair across from him and stretched out a kink in your neck. A knot started to form anytime you had to deal with a bright, shiny cadet or ensign. It formed twice as fast when that bright, shiny ensign was Chekov. He was hyper and chatty and over eager. It made your muscles tighten. You were sure that it was all an act to cover up his true self. A self you had convinced yourself you saw peaking out on the edges when the two of you argued or when he got a little two confident.
“He does act like it.” 
You narrowed your eyes at him. “What’s that supposed to mean?” “You act like a 75-year-old cynic who's been hardened by a lifetime of troubles,” he informed you, barely glancing up from his computer. 
“That’s why you love me.” You leaned into the back of the chair, letting the sharp smell of antiseptic and tritanium sooth you after your long shift. 
“It could be good for you to spend time with people your own age. Maybe make some friends.” 
“You’re my friend.” 
He grabbed a PADD and scanned the information. “I’m your senior officer.” 
“Are you saying we’re not friends?” You picked up the PADD when he set it down, scanning it yourself. 
“I’m saying it would be beneficial for your emotional wellbeing for you to form bonds with other members of the crew whom you share cultural touchstones with.” 
You raised your eyes to his but they were still focused on his work. “And that’s Ensign Chekov?” 
“It could be.” 
You put the PADD back on his desk. “The only thing we share is a location.” 
“If you say so.” 
You watched him for a second longer, before letting out a sigh and going to prepare for your next scheduled appointment. 
His knowing look that followed you to a biobed made you want to press him, but something told you that was not a path of conversation you wanted to go down. You hoped by dropping the conversation, he wouldn’t push the issue, but that was naive and you knew it. All you were doing was biding your time. 
And you had less of it than you thought. 
A week later when you asked him what he wanted for lunch, Bones had informed you that you weren’t to eat in the sickbay. You didn’t have to go to the mess hall and socialize but he recommended it and was more likely to let you be if you did. The man was like a dog with a bone when he got it in his head that he was doing something good for his crew mates and you would do anything to get him off your back when he did. So reluctantly you went to the mess hall and grabbed a tray. 
You stood by the replicator, scanning the room and weighing your options. Taking a deep breath and gripping your tray a little tighter, you decided that if you were going to do this you might as well go all in and started moving towards the tables that a group of ensigns had pushed together. 
As you got closer, one of them quickly moved his bowl away from the empty seat to give you more room at the table. You gave him a grateful smile as you sat down. He graced you with a smile of his own before turning his attention back to the conversation. For a brief moment, you forgot why you ate with Bones or in your quarters. The crew was so kind and inviting. Then you realized what the conversation was about and you remembered.
“Did you really get to be part of the landing party to Markoddia?” an eager ensign asked.
“Yes,” Chekov answered from the end of the table. 
“What was it like?” 
Half the group leaned forward to better hear his retelling. He glanced up from his soup to check that he had their attention before starting. 
“It was a standard assignment.” A few people leaned back in disappointment and the corner of his mouth tilted up. “Until it wasn’t.” 
He regaled them with the story that you were sure was at least partially exaggerated. Ensigns who got to work with the senior staff were treated like minor celebrities by certain members of the lower decks. Over the years Chekov had learned to love the attention and even occasionally, on slow weeks, play to it. His definition of a slow week was expanding and the mess hall was starting to become his own personal stage. 
You didn’t have much interest in the landing party play by plays when it didn’t have anything to do with your job or furthering medical knowledge. You had even less interest people twisting the truth so they could play the hero. 
“You were attacked by a Markoffian sea lizard?” someone gasped. 
“I could have died!” Chekov answered. 
“Not from that,” you scoffed into your food. You thought that the comment would have gone unheard in all the commotion of the mess hall but when you lifted your gaze you found a dozen pairs of eyes on you. “You barely had a scratch on you,” you clarified a little louder. 
“Maybe I fought them off.” 
“Or maybe they’re herbivores,” you countered. 
“Markaffian sea lizards are omnivores.” He pointed his spoon at you, clearly thinking he had got you. 
“Maybe they just don’t have a taste for show off navigators. I don’t know. I’m not an exozoologist. But I do know that you were not anywhere close to dying.”
“How would you know?” one of his peers asked. 
“I was in that landing party.” 
“On the other side of the city,” Chekov added. 
“Yeah, treating the President, who happened to have a sea lizard as a pet. His two year old daughter was hand feeding it insects.” You raised your brows at him. “Are you saying you were almost killed by the same thing that a toddler was playing with?” 
“What about the pollen from the carnivorous flowers?” he asked. “Even you said it was incredibly toxic.” 
“Okay, sure,” you conceded. “You were almost killed by some flowers. Is that what you want to hear?” 
“Yes.” 
You rolled your eyes and returned your attention to your lunch.
“My throat was closing up!” he started again, a dramatic hand clutching at his neck. “Neither I nor the Lieutenant could breath. I thought it was the end, but luckily the doctor here was quick at finding an anti-toxin.” 
There was a twinkle in his eyes as he looked at you. It seemed like he was throwing you a bone but it felt like he was dragging you into something you didn’t want to be a part of. 
***
“Bones, Stapes,” Kirk greeted as he entered the sickbay. “Slow day?” 
“Not at all,” you answered before turning to Bones and lowering your voice. “If I had known that this job came with a demeaning nickname I wouldn’t have taken it.” 
“It grows on you,” he responded in the same low volume.
“Like a cyst?” You glanced up at him. “That’s disgusting.” 
Bones shook his head and looked back at the captain. “What can we do for you, Jim?” 
“We received a distress call from a nearby planet.” He handed Bones a PADD and you leaned over to look at it with him. “Looks like they could use a doctor.” 
“Seems simple enough.” Bones handed the PADD to you. “(Y/L/N) will take this.” 
The captain turned to you. “Report to the transporter in fifteen, Doctor.” 
“Aye, Captain.” Your attention dropped to the PADD as he left. Anxiety bubbled up inside you, mixing with your excitement. “Are you sure?”
“You can treat Chamberlin virus in your sleep,” Bones said without looking at you. 
“You’ve never let me go with a landing party without an attending.”
“Do you want me to change my mind?”
“No!” You said quickly, starting to read the report to prepare yourself. You swallowed thickly and lowered your eyebrows when you got to the short list of officers that would be on this mission. Just two. 
Your head snapped back to Bones. “I want you to change your mind.” 
“Too late.” He handed you a medkit. “Have a safe trip.” 
You shot him a glare before giving him a reluctant “Aye, sir.” 
“Have fun.”
“Is that an order?” you asked. 
“No.” 
“Then I won’t.” You started towards the door. 
“I know. Just do your job,” he said after you.
“Of course, sir,” you said with an eye roll so strong you were sure he could hear it in your voice as you entered the hall. 
You never worried too much about maintaining a perfectly respectful attitude with Bones despite him being your CO. Your eye rolls and complaints and casual demeanor didn’t come from a place of disrespect, but a place of familiarity. It came from the comfort of looking into your mentor and seeing yourself reflected there. He had looked into the same mirror when you were in the academy and took you under his wing. He guided you through your time there and your time serving as a cadet on another ship. Your similarities to Bones had earned you a place on the Enterprise and the nickname Stapes. As the smallest bone in the body, the captain saw it as a natural progression from his original nickname for you, Little Bones. You saw it as silly and a little demeaning, not that you would say that to his face. 
You knew that the reflection of Bones’ cynical but driven personality that shined through you was why he pushed you out of your comfort zone. He didn’t just want you to be the best doctor you could be, but a better person than he could be. But that didn’t mean you didn’t occasionally fight against it. 
You wanted to fight against this, but you didn’t want to miss out on this opportunity even if it meant- 
The transporter doors opened to curly hair and bright eyes. 
-having to work with him.
“Where is Doctor McCoy?” Chekov asked. 
“Sickbay.” You stepped up on the transporter. “He’s not coming. I’m coming.” 
You had hoped that arriving five minutes early would make you the first to arrive. You wanted some time to prepare yourself, both for your partner for this assignment and for the assignment itself. You knew that Bones was right and you were ready for this, but you hadn’t fully convinced that insistent little voice in your head of that fact. But of course Chekov had to get here even earlier. He always had to out do you just a little bit. 
“Oh. Is this your first time on a solo mission?” he asked, joining you on the transporter. 
You adjusted your grip on your kit, watching the hands of the engineer at the terminal. “Yes.”
“Are you nervous?” 
You snapped your attention up to him. “Are you?” 
“I wasn’t.” There was that twinkle in his eyes. It was like he was playing a game you didn’t have the rule book for. 
You narrowed your eyes but decided to let the slight slide. 
“Energize,” you ordered the chief at the controls. 
Within fifteen minutes of landing in the colony, you had set up a make-shift examination room in a small lab and had over a dozen people waiting to see you. You had quietly bickered with Chekov the whole while. Even your tones contradicted each other. His comments were bright and confident, mixing off-handed insults with what appeared to be genuine attempts at helpfulness. Your own words remained on the icy side of sarcasm, giving the impression that you were only partially tuned into your conversation with him. You just wanted to focus on your work. 
Thankfully when you started seeing patients he stopped talking to you. Unthankfully, he started talking to the waiting patients. At first, you figured your irritation over it was due solely to your usual level of pettiness when it came to him. You set equipment down louder than necessary when his voice got louder, causing him to look at you. He would give you a smile but wouldn’t miss a beat in the conversation. When you had finally managed to tune him out mostly, you overheard him explaining that this was your first time working alone so they needed to be extra patient with you. It was amazing the amount of condescension he could fit into innocuous phrases. 
You tried to grit your teeth and focus on your work but a few minutes later his laugh made something rise up inside you. You found yourself unable to focus. You must have read over the readings on your tricorder three times before you gave up. 
“Ensign, if you insist on being this loud, could you at least take the chit-chat elsewhere?” 
He smiled up at you from the seat next to a few patients. “Yes, unlike some people, I can be charming anywhere.”
“How special for you. Please take your charm into the hall.” 
He did as you asked and you were finally able to work in peace. Without Chekov constantly drawing your attention you were able to get through the rest of the patients fairly quickly. It wasn’t until after the last one left the lab that you realized how draining that had been. Bones was right, you could treat Chamberlin virus in your sleep, but the pressure of doing it alone was greater than you had expected and you had never treated this many patients in such a short time. They just kept coming. You must have seen most of the colony. 
You dropped into a chair, letting your head lull back and your eyes slip shut. Your feet ached from standing. Your face hurt from smiling. The mere thought of moving or talking to someone almost brought tears to your eyes. 
The door to the lab swished open and you jumped to your feet, praying you hadn’t missed someone. You were grateful to see that it was only the mayor and Chekov. 
“Doctor,” the mayor greeted, taking one of your hands in both of his. “Thank you. Your help means more than I could communicate.” 
You felt Chekov’s eyes on you while you mustered up what you hoped to be your last smile of the day, “Your people should be free of the virus now, but I have provided the updated vaccine recipe. Everyone who hasn’t been sick in the last nine days should receive it.” You handed him a PADD and he thanked you. 
The rest of the pleasantries washed over you. You knew you participated in them, but if you were asked to recount what you had said you wouldn’t be able to. For the first time, you were actually glad that Chekov was with you. He carried the weight of the conversation and handled correspondence with the ship. As much as you hated to admit it, he was charming. 
When you had made it back to the ship. You let out a sigh and took your time stepping off the pad and into the hall, but Chekov remained behind you. You stopped when you came to the lift, trying to decide if you should go back to sickbay or your quarters. 
“Good work down there,” Chekov said, stepping up beside you.
You eyed him for a moment, before responding, “Yeah, you too.” 
***
After your first solo mission it seemed to have been decided, much to your chagrin, that you and Chekov worked well together. After the third time you were paired up together in a single month, you stopped fighting it, but you still dragged your feet. Now, as your shuttle shook and the lights turned red, you wished you had fought it harder. 
“What’s happening?” you shouted, gripping on to your arm rests for dear life. 
“I don’t know! I don’t know! I don’t know! I don’t-” A squealing sound interrupted Chekov’s panicked yelling. He scanned the readouts in front of him before looking over his shoulder at the source of the noise and then at you. “You need to fly.”
“What? I’m a doctor not a pilot! I haven’t flown anything since the academy and you want me to fly us out of planetary rings while we're being shot at? I’ll get us killed.” 
“How long has it been since you have done environmental engineering?” 
You blinked at him then turned to the control panel. “Okay, I’ll fly.” 
The shuttle rocked as you took over, causing Chekov to stumble on his way to the back. 
“Sorry!” you shouted.
Your hands trembled as you tried to remember the flight training you had done five years ago. It felt more like a dream than a memory and you couldn’t recall any of the specifics. 
As you got deeper into the rings the dust filled your view screen and you were forced to operate using the sensors alone. Sweat began to bead on your forehead and your stomach twisted from the jerky movements the craft made while you tried to dodge large chunks of ice and phaser cannon blasts from the assailant ship. Every sway and jolt made your thoughts swim and your heart hammer against your chest a little harder. Behind you Chekov let out a string of stressed noises. 
“What? What’s happening?” you asked without really wanting to know. The view screen started to clear as you flew through the last of the rings. 
“The shields are down and the nacelles are down and-” 
“We only have axillary engines?” You had to force yourself to keep your attention locked on the controls instead of swinging back to the ensign. 
The shuttle rocked again as it was hit. You gripped the terminal to keep yourself steady. The lights dimmed and everything came to a standstill. 
“No, we had axillary engines. Now we have nothing.” 
“Did you fix the environmental controls?” 
“Yes, but we can not fly out of here and emergency power is declining fast.” His anxiety was making his accent thicker and his words stick together.  
“I got us out of orbit, and,” you leaned forward, watching the other ship pass you by, “they seem to think we're dead in the water. They’re leaving. How much time do we have?” 
“Twenty hours.” 
You slumped down. “Not even a day.” 
“No.” 
Glancing over your shoulder, you found him bent over a tricorder. He started to bounce nervously. Watching him made you feel even queasier. 
“There’s nothing you can do?” 
He responded with a series of unintelligible Russian sounds as he started digging through the compartments of the shuttle. He must not have found what he was looking for because he dropped to the floor with a defeated huff. 
“No.” 
In all the assignments you had had with Chekov over the last several months he had only ever been stubbornly optimistic. Even when he was overcome with stress or complaining he still acted with a firm belief that what you were doing was important and you would make it out alive with a job well done. Not once had you seen him even consider giving up. You had not so secretly been waiting to see his optimism falter, to see what lay beneath his showy exuberance, but it wasn’t the slip of the mask or the peak behind the curtain you’d thought it would be. This defeat wasn’t revealing something about him, it was taking something from him. 
You got to your feet slowly, gripping the back of your seat and closing your eyes as a wave of dizziness passed over you. You didn’t do well in a shuttle on a good day. After being rocked around my phaser fire and ring debris and having to pilot yourself you weren’t sure your stomach would ever settle down. 
You were glad to see that Chekov was staring down at his tricorder and seemed completely unaware of your momentary weakness. 
“Come on. Where’s that trademark pep and sense of adventure?” You sat down on the bench next to him. “Don’t tell me you’ve finally met a mission you can’t glorify into heroic splendor.” 
He looked up at you through narrowed eyes. The corners of his mouth were drawn down further than you thought was possible. Was he actually about to start pouting? Was it actually endearing? 
“Aw.” You puffed out your lip in a pout that was both sympathetic and mocking of his. “What happened to Ensign Chekov, hopeful hero of the lower decks?” 
“He went down with the shields and the nacelles.” 
Rolling your eyes at his dramatics, you grabbed your medpack and pulled out your tricorder. You pointed it at him without bothering to actually look at the readings. 
“Huh,” you said in faux contemplation. “This says that he’s still operational, he's just offline.”
He looked up at you. The twinkle in his eye was starting to return, clearly delighted that you of all people were willing to play this game. “How do you suggest we bring him back online, Doctor?” 
“Oh these things tend to work themselves out.” You replaced your tricorder and leaned back. “When would we be back, if we hadn’t gotten in that chase?” 
He barely had to think about it. “Four to five hours.” 
“How long does it normally take them to suspect a mission has gone awry?”
Chekov spent considerably more time with the majority of the senior staff. He knew their usual patterns. You spent most of your time with the Chief Medical Officer, who tended to assume a mission went awry the moment they left the ship. He was right more often than he was wrong. 
“Between two hours and one week.” 
You raised your eyebrows at him. “Can you narrow down that estimate for me?” 
“In this situation, I would suspect it would not take longer than a day.” 
You didn’t have a day. 
“Doctor McCoy usually pays more attention to missions that have medical staff on them. Something about not wanting us to die because he hates paperwork,” you told him. “And he almost always assumes the worst. That should bring your estimate down by a few hours.” 
The navigator suddenly jumped to his feet and sprinted to the controls. 
“If I could get a message to them, they might get here in time!” 
You rested your forearms on your knees both to steady yourself and to more easily watch him. “Are we close enough for that? I thought shuttles didn’t have subspace communication capabilities.” 
“They do not, but…” he faded off as he fiddled with the screen. His movements had regained that jerky, impatient quality they often had, like his hands couldn’t move fast enough to keep up with his brain. He let out a triumphant sound and spun to face you. 
“If I send out a distress beacon and put all remaining power into transmitting a signal they could find us faster. If I divert all emergency power not needed to keep us alive, I could keep it running for the full 20 hours and the beacon would increase our range by 35%!” He quickly dropped into the pilot's chair and got to work. 
You smiled despite yourself at his returning optimism and moved to the environmental controls he had been working on earlier. Most of the readings were all but nonsense to you, but you had a decent understanding of the most essential functions and an even better understanding of the math needed to calculate how much time you had left. 
“What are you doing?” Checkov turned in his chair.
You kept your eyes on the screen as you spoke, “Say we ran into some minor difficulties on the planet and/or the mission took longer to complete than we thought, then maybe it would take us another eight hours to get back to Enterprise.” 
“Okay,” he said hesitantly, trying to figure out where this was going.
“Given that this was a fairly straightforward assignment and we both have a reputation for working efficiently, those eight hours would already make the more observant members of the crew suspicious.” 
“If there is not another crisis happening on the ship.” 
“That is a major if, but we’re trying to be optimistic here.” 
“We are?” he asked in an almost teasing tone, just as surprised as you were that you were abandoning your cynical ways. 
“Yes.” You pulled up the oxygen output. “Dr. McCoy will definitely assume something had happened if I don’t show up for my shift tomorrow at 0800.” 
“That’s almost eighteen hours away. It would take them three hours to get here unless they’re at top speeds.” He seemed to remember that you were being optimistic and asked, “Could you sedate us?” 
“I could but then there would be no one to respond if we were hailed and no one to deal with the next crisis. Besides, we’d only use about 6% less oxygen, but we could survive with 20% less.” You started messing with oxygen controls. 
“That would give us four more hours.” 
“I could push it to 25% to give them even more wiggle room, but we would start experiencing symptoms of hypoxia.” 
“Will it kill us?” 
“No more than doing nothing will.” 
He made a noise and you turned to face him. “We’ll get sick. Headache, confusion, difficulty breathing, anxiety, tachycardia. But if they find us we’ll recover quickly. And if they don’t find us,” you lowered the oxygen output, “we’ll die either way.” 
“They’ll find us,” he assured you, before turning back to the terminal. “I wish there was more we could do than wait.” 
The temperature dropped quickly as the power that normally went into keeping the shuttle comfortable went to keeping the distress signal broadcasting. It wasn’t cold enough to cause any health risk but it would be soon enough. You wonder what would hit you first: hypothermia or hypoxia. 
You pulled open one of the storage compartments and grabbed two dark gray blankets. They were perfectly folded and soft to the touch. They probably hadn’t ever been used before. 
Chekov was watching you as you placed one blanket on the bench you had been sitting on and held the other out to him. 
“We do what we can to stay alive.” 
He took it and sat down on the other bench. You followed suit, wrapping yourself in your blanket, leaning your head back, and shutting your eyes against a fresh wave of nausea. 
“Doctor, are you okay?” 
Distantly it occurred to you that normally you would have responded to the question with brusk sarcasm or at the very least the truth forced through tight lips. But in that moment you didn’t feel the need to push him away or put on a brave face, and you told the truth freely. 
“Just a little nauseous from the flight. It’ll pass.” It was already starting to pass now that things were calming down. The waves were gentler and no longer crashed down on top of you.
“You get space sickness?”
You peaked your eyes open at him. “Yeah, why do you think I didn’t want to come on this mission?” 
He shrugged. “Because you don’t like me.” 
“I can have more than one reason.” You adjusted the blanket around your shoulder and shifted around on the seat a bit. The benches may have been designed to double as beds for long journeys, but that didn’t mean they were exactly comfortable. 
“You can.” Even though he fell silent, you could tell from his clipped tone that he was biting something back and history had taught you he wouldn’t for long. “But why do you hate me?” 
“I don’t hate you.” 
“You don’t like me.” 
“Not everyone’s gonna like you, Chekov.” 
“Yes, but why do you not?” 
“It’s not like you like me either.” 
This gave him pause. Just when you had thought he was dropping the subject he responded, “I do not dislike you.” 
“But you don’t like me.” 
Again he hesitated. “I did not.” 
You opened your eyes fully and sat up a little straighter. “Did?” 
“What?” 
The blanket slipped from one of your shoulders as you leaned towards him. “You said ‘did’. Past tense. Implying that now you do.” 
“You have grown on me.” 
“Like a cyst.” 
He considered that for a moment before shaking his head. “Like moss.” 
You looked away to try to conceal the smile you were struggling to fight back and a realization settled in your chest. It fell slow and heavy like snow piling up on a roof in the middle of winter. 
You couldn’t have beared being stuck in this shuttle alone. You would have died trying to get off world. Even if you hadn’t, this quiet waiting with nothing to do would have driven you insane. But sitting here, across from the man you had fought so hard to never share a space with, it was bearable. Everything was more bearable with Chekov. He was the otherside of a very high strung coin. You weren’t just growing on him, you were growing to rely on him. 
The temperature fell further and you shivered, pulling your feet up onto the bench to curl in on yourself more. 
“Are you cold?” 
The exasperated look that took over your expression couldn’t be helped. “Yes, Chekov, I’m cold.” You took in the blanket he had draped only across his lap and his comfortable posture. “How are you not?” 
“Russian winters are much colder than this.” 
You chuckled. By the end of your time serving aboard the Enterprise you would be able to write a history book on Russia just from the facts Checkov shared at any given opportunity. 
As long as that time didn’t end tonight. 
Your breath caught in your throat at the thought. You slipped sideways down the wall until your head hit the bench, but you kept your eyes on him the whole way down. 
“Tell me about it.” 
His grin was brighter than the stars outside and took over his whole face, scrunching up his cheeks and eyes. He launched into a story from his youth that rolled easily into another. His descriptions made the Russian winter sound like a magical fairy land. Again you were sure it was exaggerated. You knew how many people had died from that cold. You knew that it was a dangerous and vicious winter. But you didn’t care anymore. You let yourself enjoy his version of reality. 
When he had to pause to catch his breath and cover himself more with the blanket, you took a turn at storytelling. Your voice was thin and breathless as you told him about the winters of your childhood and some of the nastier cases of frostbite you had treated. Your chest started to burn for more air and your fingers started to ache, growing stiff in the cold. 
The pauses between your stories became longer and longer and your voices morphed into barely audible murmurs until you started to drift into a restless sleep. You knew you shouldn’t sleep and kept trying to claw your way back to consciousness, but you kept sinking deeper and deeper. Until a choking sound came from the otherside of the shuttle. 
You sat up, trying to place your surroundings. The soft hum of the dying shuttle sounded so unfamiliar to you. The deep aching cold sinking into your bones and the harsh roughness that screamed in your throat and lungs every time you took a breath felt all encompassing. Your heart raised and your head pounded as you glanced around. 
Chekov slept across from you. You called out to him as a series of coughs and wheezes racked his body. His face was twisted with pain but he didn’t open his eyes. You wrapped your blanket tightly around yourself and moved to hover over him. Shaking his shoulder gently had no greater effect than calling his name. His coughing got worse and then it stopped. He went still. You shook him harder. His name turned to a wheeze in your mouth. His eyes fluttered but he couldn’t keep them open. You tried to force him into a seated position but he was a dead weight that your freezing arms struggled to manipulate. 
You dropped to your knees, brushing a hand against his face. It was so pale it looked almost gray. 
“Please, Chekov. Just take a breath. Just a small one.” Your hand dropped back to his shoulder and his hand found it. His purple lips parted to let in a shaky breath. It left him in a cough, but it was enough to give you hope. 
You pushed his shoulders up and wriggled underneath them. His eyebrows furrowed and you did your best to pull him up to rest against you. With his lungs more up right, he was able to take a few shallow breaths. 
“Good. That’s good. Just a little longer. Keep breathing a little longer.” You turned your head away from him as a coughing fit hit you. When your breathing evened out, you leaned your cheek against his curls. “The hero of the lower decks doesn’t die like this.” The sentence barely made it out of you before you were drifting off again. A pressure on your hand kept you from drifting entirely. 
“Stapes neither.” 
A smile tried to work its way onto your face. You had no idea he even knew the nickname. 
His hand fell from yours, but not all the way. The tips of his cold fingers remained on the side of your hand, holding you there with him. You would keep breathing as long as he did. It was a silent promise you made. Your old need to out do him mingling with a new need to stay with him. 
Sleep found you again, dragging you down to a quiet but panicked place. An insistent beeping filled your head, but the harder you tried to wake, to identify the noise, the tighter sleep’s grip on you became. 
You had no idea how much time had passed before its grip finally loosened and you swam your way back to consciousness. Your body no longer ached or burned. Your heart was calm, almost still. The panic had faded. For a brief moment you thought you weren’t waking up. You were dying and it was peaceful. But then you sucked in a breath. It was deep and cleansing and filled your lungs with ease and without pain. It smelled like that beautiful mixture of antiseptic and tritanium that meant you were home. You were safe. 
You bolted upright. 
“Chekov.” Your voice was rough and desperate. The bright light above you kept your eyes from adjusting. You looked around trying to find the golden uniform through the speckled static filling your vision. 
Then the light was pushed aside and Bones came into view. His warm hand landed on your shoulder. 
“He’s okay. He’s still asleep. The two a’you had a rough night.” He searched your face. “How are you feeling?” 
“What? I’m- I’m fine.” Your brain was working overtime trying to catch up to now while still piecing together the memories from the shuttle. “Are you sure he’s- because he was-” 
“Chekov is in perfect health,” he told you gently.
Relief filled you and passed through you in a sigh. Your shoulders slumped and you rested your arms on your legs. You hadn’t realized how tired you were until that moment. 
“Heard you were down right cuddlin’ the boy.” 
You narrowed your eyes at him as he stepped behind you to get a better look at the biobed readings. 
“I was keeping liquids from pooling in his throat and blocking his airways.” 
“I bet you were.” 
“I’m his doctor. It’s my job to keep him alive,” you pointed out.
The corner of his mouth ticked up. “Never had to cuddle one of my patients.” 
“Well, I’m more hands on than you.” 
He stepped back so he was facing you again. “You did good, kid.” His hand fell to your shoulder again, squeezing softly like he was making sure you heard him. “I’m giving you a clean bill of health. Go get some rest.” 
You got to your feet and headed towards the door, but you only made it a few steps. Something held you back, rooting you to the spot. 
“Unless…” 
You looked to Bones. Your eyes felt raw with exhaustion, but you didn’t want to close them again. Not yet. 
“You want to stay until he wakes up.” 
“He is my patient. I should make sure he’s okay,” you told him. 
Bones just gave you one of his knowing smiles and pointed you towards Chekov’s bed. You followed his direction and found Chekov laying still in the corner. The blue tinge to his skin was gone, replaced with a slight roseiness. You watched his chest rise and fall, listened to the smoothness of his breathing, and resisted the urge to slip your hand into his. You wanted to touch him, to confirm that he was real and alive and safe, but instead you wrapped your arms around yourself and stood by the end of his bed. 
He moaned softly, turning over. His eyes opened slowly, looking out across the sickbay. 
“We made it. I am alive,” he said to himself like he needed to hear it outloud to be sure. 
“Yes,” you answered. 
He scrambled into a seated position at the sound of your voice. A smile lit up his face when he saw you. His right hand lifted off the bed for only a moment, reaching for you on instinct before his conscious thought took control of it again. 
“You are alive.” 
“It would appear so.” You walked to the head of the bed to check his vitals. You could feel his eyes on you as you tripled checked them, still trying to convince yourself that he was okay and wanting a reason to stay by his side for a moment longer.
“Do you still hate going on missions with me?” 
“Yes.” Your answer came quick, but it was followed by a smile. 
You turned to leave, satisfied that he was indeed in perfect health. He let out a breathy laugh and you stopped at the end of the bed and looked over your shoulder at him. 
“Wouldn’t have wanted to be on that mission with anyone else though.”
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a-bottle-of-tyelenol · 3 months ago
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I remember when I added agere into my main fic (you be the spy and I’ll be the liar) and I asked ppl if they’d be okay with me making it something I officially touch on in the story bc I implied it in previous chapters. Most people were really supportive but I got one or two commenters admitting that they wouldn’t be interested in it at all and would drop the fic
And I just find it so funny in hindsight because I’m currently rereading this fic from the beginning to annotate and write notes on it and???? The agere is so much more blatant than I could’ve ever anticipated??? Like I knew it was there and I knew I hinted at it but oh my god 😭😭😭
Like I’m sorry but, in this chapter ALONE, Hawks gives Hitoshi a ton of baby toys as a gag gift (that Hizashi specifically notices Hitoshi isn’t offended by) and a big plushie that Hitoshi immediately latches on to, Hizashi describes Hitoshi as small in every single context when it’s his POV (including comparing him, a fourteen year old, to younger aged middle schoolers), AND there’s a scene where Hizashi makes fun of him and calls him a baby before asking if it’s okay to talk to him like that AND HITOSHI GETS FLUSTERED AND SAYS ITS FINE!!!!!!
And that’s just chapter three!!!! In the previous two, there are so many moments where adults view Hitoshi as younger or treat him as younger than he is and this is a trend that continues later in the fic too!!! Like, admittedly, this aspect was added as an homage to Anya, who is assumed to be younger than six in Spy x Family, and I also wanted Hitoshi’s autism and trauma to intertwine and manifest with some very obvious symptoms, including ‘childishness’ but it’s INSANE how unsubtle I am about Hitoshi age regressing in these earlier chapters 😭😭😭 I genuinely didn’t think it was that bad and now I’m like???? Idk how any of you people read this fic without clocking it immediately
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weidli · 5 months ago
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always fun when i go to a jam i'm a regular at and there's a New Guy under sixty there and the next day one of the other regulars sends me an email and says the New Guy asked for my contact details and if it's okay if he passes them on to him. like (narrows eyes) EITHER my one of 3 clawhammer banjo players in this country swag is bringing all the boys to the yard and i'm about to make a new Music Friend OR i'm gonna have to start dropping increasingly unsubtle hints about my age again
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ryangravytrain · 13 days ago
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How did Dubies parents take him getting pregnant? How did they feel about Leno being the dad? Did Leno try and get their permission to court Dubie when they finally get together or is he to modern for that?
I imagine Dubies parents as a more traditional couple. They’re not…upset by any means, they understand that their son is a strong, independent omega. But they are for sure hesitant about the whole ordeal.
They’re fine with Dubie having a baby but when they learn how young and inexperienced his baby daddy is, that’s when things get a little rocky. They don’t out right say that it’s a mistake and they aren’t rude to Leno to his face. But they do drop some very unsubtle hints that maybe Dubie should think about finding himself a more mature mate to raise the baby with.
So when Leno starts stepping up, showing just how serious he is about Dubie and the baby, they are pleasantly surprised. And of course they warm up to Leno once the baby is born, also asking Dubies dad permission to court/mate Dubie helps
I’d like to think that Dubie and Quebecois omegas are a little more traditional when it comes to courting so Leno does as much research as possible to make sure he’s doing everything right because he loves Dubie so much!!!
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vintage-sys · 5 months ago
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Dudhe im asking for advice not a yap session
How do i let them know im jnterested
Either just tell them or drop hints (subtle or unsubtle depending on how well they can pick up on subtlty).
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uncanny-tranny · 2 years ago
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Ancient is back for Transsexual Thursday 😁
Last week I thought my ask from two weeks ago was eaten by tumblr, but then you posted it last week instead. I hope I wasn’t too weird or confusing in last week’s ask.
Things that make me happy are that the therapist I’m gonna email is back from her vacation on Monday and my email is ready so I’ll send it out on Monday and then freak out 😅
I’ve also done some very unsubtle hinting on social media that I’m trans, maybe some people will actually figure it out. And if not, the hints might soften the blow when I come out.
- A
I'm going to combine this submission with the last one that I just saw so that it'll make more sense to anyone else reading:
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I'm so happy for you! The process of dropping hints for coming out can honestly be kind of amusing at times, especially seeing if people do actually notice and just don't say anything.
I hope you can send that email out! It will be a weight off your shoulders, and having a therapist you like on your team can be a game-changer <<3
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blackcurlsgreeneyes · 2 years ago
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Darkest Before the Dawn // Closed RP
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And here Harry had been thinking that the most exciting thing that would happen this school would be the Quidditch World Cup. Really, he should have known better; this was his life, after all. Between the chaos that broke out in the night, after that event, and the unsubtle hints that the Weasleys kept dropping, he really should have had a stronger sense of foreboding.
Technically, it was exciting news. Harry didn’t know anything about the Triwizard Tournament, but it was clear that it held global wizarding significance. If he was honest, though, from the moment Dumbledore announced it, Harry was just as intrigued by the prospect of these other international magical schools as he was by the Tournament itself.
He wasn’t disappointed. The night that the two groups arrived, it was a magnificent and dramatic display; the a carriage the size of a large house flew in pulled by Abraxans, producing the breathtaking medley of darker-skin-toned students with Professor Ahoka from Ilvermorny, and the Durmstrang ship emerged from the lake, revealing its fur-robed students, Professor Karkaroff, and Viktor Krum of all people.
From night one, it was a bit easier interacting with Ilvermorny. Their headmistress didn’t share Karkaroff’s snobbery, and actively worked out a schedule with McGonagall to get her students into the Hogwarts classrooms. And that was how Harry wound up with two new additions in his close friend group; most who had come were seventeen, eligible to compete, but a few had younger siblings who had joined them.
Among these were Taylor and Tyler, and they became part of the group from the first feast, when Taylor overheard Harry’s curiosity over some of the dishes that had appeared, clearly native to their guests’ homelands, and had made herself at home to tell him about it.
Since then, Harry was finding himself delighting in learning about American food, culture, education, and society from the sharp-eyed, sharp-witted girl. She and her twin fit right in--Hermione began improving her sign language, getting to know Tyler--and the weeks rolled on until they reached Halloween.
For the holiday occasion, a cloud of live bats was fluttering around the enchanted ceiling, while hundreds of carved pumpkins leered from every corner. Harry led the way over to Dean and Seamus, who were discussing those Hogwarts students of seventeen or over who had entered. There were names from every House, and excitement was palpable in the air, waiting for the end of dinner and the discovery of who was in.
“Did both your sisters go in for it?” Ron asked Taylor eagerly. “Angelina did, for us....Cedric Diggory, too, from Hufflepuff, and I heard that big Slytherin bloke Warrington, as well. I’d love for it to be a Gryffindor, just seems to make sense, doesn’t it?”
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birt-art · 6 months ago
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I'm really enjoying how well BG3 is capturing the vibe of a real DnD campaign. The fact that you can just miss extremely plot relevant lore, NPCs or even companion characters if you just don't explore thoroughly or fluff a roll is so real. And I'm finding it kind of funny how extremely unsubtle all the companions are, dropping hints of their troubled pasts like they're wearing an "ASK ME ABOUT MY TROUBLED PAST" t shirt, this is also how you have to talk in character in DnD because otherwise no one will pick up on the backstory you're hinting at lmfao
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musicals-n-cartoons · 2 years ago
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I acquired Mask of the Rose in the sale but only just started playing today. It's pretty funny how apparently the main character spent the past few months hiding at home because the outside world was too frightening. I mean, mood, but still amusing to see your coworker dropping unsubtle hints to get out of the house and do your job.
I was thrown off by how direct the game was. Like every time you meet someone new, the game asks you what your intentions with them are, and I'm like, I don't know game, I just met them, can't start a courtship on just one conversation. Maybe I should have just said I was only looking for friendship at the start.
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dammitradar · 4 years ago
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so its valentines again and i am alone this year yet again and honestly, i don’t know if it’s just me accepting defeat or whatever but i literally don’t care anymore. like this is just how it is, and who know maybe sometime in the future i’ll have someone to be all cheesy about one day a year. but not this time around, and i guess that’s fine. i’m just kinda getting sick of it, you know? like i’m not sick of other people being romantic, that’s fine, i’m just sick of it being a total given that i’m not.
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