#(IM ACTUALLY REALLY EXCITED FOR THIS SOOOO AHHH

[neetily]

꣑୧ ⋅ ⋅ ⋅ ── MATCHUP EVENT: Date #13

♡ cupid's victim number thirteen!! ♡

hello love! tysm for taking part in the event and for sending sm info in! i hope you enjoy reading this lil matchup <3 i was so excited to do yours ahhh!!! let's see if i meet your expectations...

─ you have one new message from...

Sebastian . . .

i love you. you're so pretty. im so proud of you. thank you for working so hard. please come see me soon so i can look after you. i miss you. i love you.

Why? look. it's no surprise that im a little biased here, because when i think about sebastian i immediately think that you are his canon girlfriend. but like, i literally couldn't pick anyone else!!! you two are so perfect together <3 you mentioned that you're a little anxious, and not only do i think sebastian would be a great pick for you because he'd be able to relate on a deep level to your anxious attitude, but he'd also be the one most able to help, i think. a soothing voice to the storm, y'know? i also think he'd be soooo into your tattoos, seeing as i HC him as being tattooed too! maybe yall could get secret matching tatts together ... <3 something about him comes across as sarcastic too, like man is sooo witty, which i think perfectly matches your snarky humour well too!! i should know, we've been friends for a long time <3 i just know that he'd laugh at all your jokes, and you guys would have all these private inside jokes with each other that no one else gets! he'd love to play chill games with you too, especially multiplayer sims (coughs sdv coughs). and i think you would appreciate how chill and relaxed sebastian generally is. a pair of homebodies, i think you guys would spend most of your time inside together. just doing your own thing, but hanging out at the same time, y'know? maybe you're reading in a corner while he games, or he's cheering you on while you workout so that you're not feeling alone!

you two are just on the same wavelength, it JUST MAKES SENSE OK!! so similar, it's no wonder that you're his canon wife <3

Under The Stars . . .

honestly, he never intended on arriving at the cliffside that overlooks the city when inviting you out on a ride tonight. his mind was so frayed with your acceptance that he didn't know where to go, really. bashful about the fact that he's never brought a girl up here before, scratching nervously at his neck when his cheeks warm under the moonlight before you.

but with the way your lashes flutter up at him so prettily, dreamy little girl with stars in her eyes, he supposes that this spot is as good as any for a date.

or, date would be a loose term for it, really. what he actually means is: this is a pretty place to get his dick sucked, moonlit face of yours peering up at him so sweetly, as innocently as possible in spite of the dirty situation you find yourself in. it's fucking hot, in all honesty. he has no choice but to give in to temptation, leaning harder against his stationary motorbike so as to hump his tip further down your tight little throat. not too much, offering mere light humps that make his eyes roll back in sheer bliss. but his hand, too, comes up to cup your cheek so gently. a moan rolling off his tongue for you to swallow alongside his cock, biting down on his bottom lip with a cheeky side smirk at how pretty you look with your mouth full.

"so cute," he strokes his thumb against your jawline, allowing you a moment to swallow around his tip only for him to choke on a whine in response. "t-that's it, fuck, looks so pretty like this, love—" he huffs openly, affection resting at the tip of his tongue when he tuts it down at you lovingly, helping to readjust your glasses for you when they start to slip from the bobbing motion of your head.

and he means it too! you are the single more attractive thing ever to him, his heart stuttering and tummy fluttering not only from how well you suck him off—which is perfect, by the way. got him gasping and shivering and shit, fuck—but also from how in love he is with you. how you manage to look so harmless despite circumstances, precum beading at his tip when you kitten lick at it, a string of curses soon following because he feels too good to hold back.

"so good for me, darling— shit, if y'keep this up, im gonna cum soon." he trails off into soft laughter, throwing his head back at the cute way you smile around his cock, drool adorning your pouty lips in a way that catches the stars and fuck—

he really is gonna cum soon, purely because he loves you all too much to bear.

— you like to... listen to music when alone! here is a playlist that i think fits your matchup!

i was all over her - Sylvia Plath

Dancing in the Moonlight - Toploader

always forever - cults

[koolades-world]

i love the spellbound series omgomg im so excited for the next update

omg thank you so muchhhh you just made my day 🥺🥺🥺🥺 i feel like i'm gonna cry. ahhh this was the best way to start my day! i can't shake that grin and will be headed into doing homework with it haha

you made staying up late last night to get chapter six out soooo worth it <333 i will never stop posting update, since i'm determined to get the story finished, but i won't lie sometimes the low notes are a little discouraging. i even actually asked myself last night if it was cringe or tacky haha. but then, i remember the amazing people who are involved in my silly little story and they'll be reading no matter what!!! really, thank you sm it means the world to me! i don't expect it to get popular, but i'll be working on it for myself, and for the people following along and are invested in the story.

i've actually already started working on the next chapter, in order to try saving everything for saturday again haha. so glad you're looking forward to it!!!!! i don't want to spoil too much, buttt in either in chapter eight or nine solomon and mc will finally take their trip to the human world! i am planning to extend that arc over a couple chapters just because of all the content i want to pack into that. i have some super cute moments planned!

take care!!! have a wonderful day <33333

[osarina]

Hey fyo hope your job is going well and about :>>> ALSO OMG HAPPY DAZAI DAYYY I LUB HIM SOO MUCH ❤️

Also Pls PLS listen to ilomilo by bille eilish like OMG I was letting it play in the background while I reread badlands and SERIOUSLY every. Single. Line matches that gorgeous story! I really think you would appreciate as a fellow dazai simp ;)

REALLY REALLY excited for the fyozai series even when I really wanted skk :< but I would like to see the power struggle between those two brilliant imbeciles very much

Another thing I am excited about is that one ask you answered with the idea of reader with baby zai AHHH I was daydreaming for DAYS about that one and you reaaaally should make it happen pretty pws 🥺

I know this is very long but I was nervous abt sending this....so hope you have a great time whatever you do and I wish you contentment 💗 k byeeee

HELLO TUMBLR USER SNOWSILVER2000 IVE MISSED YOU

i must go listen to it as soon as i get home, ive never heard that song before, i just took a look at the lyrics and i SEEEEE what you mean but i must listen to it to hear it for myself.

I'M SOOOO EXCITED FOR THE FYOZAI SERIES, actually fun fact i was leaning toward the skk series myself but the people have spoken so fyozai it is. it's going to be so good trust, ive got the whole thing outlined and started writing the first chapter the other day, but now im fixated on the civilian dazai series LOLLL so it might be ab it

omg :') the babyzai ask, when i tell u i was thinking about that for dayssss i want a little minature dazai soooooo bad i'll weep. honestly i was debating writing something on it but i haven't decided how id want it to end and i have soo many other projects right now so im hesitant to start another

TO BE NERVOUS ABOUT SENDING ME ASKSSSS PLS I LOVE TALKING TO YOU IM SENDING U SO MANY SMOOCHES

[coldercreation]

I just finished reading the second Liam chapter and aaaaaaaaa just screaming. It’s perfect!! Both chapters are so well written, so full of love it kinda hurts hahaha

From the first part, idk I loved it when you mentioned about Lit past together since very young. Like, I knew that bit of their story bc I read it here in one post but reading it in the actual story felt like it was even more real, y’know? To read about Liam’s concerns about his career, Kit’s unconditional support since always…I can’t explain why I loved it so much but yeah haha feels like being closer to the boys <3

And yes, we are not lying when we tell you that that first part was soooo good. You found a well balance and projected very well the idea that Liam was confused and concerned.

And this second part goshhh i cannot <3333 i’m so weak with pet names (pretty sure I have said that before…) and praise likeee i read it and i feel like melting haha you can imagine after that second (third?) chapter im nothing but a puddle on the floor hskdjfdk apart from that, it’s great to see Liam and Kit finding themselves more settled with their instincts now :’)

I’m so excited to get into Kit’s thoughts and Izzy and Nat participation in this whole situation.

Sorry I wrote so much haha. But yeah, thank you for everything as always!! 💗💗

(P.S. you are definitely spoiling us with 3 chapters in like 4 days!! Not complaining tho…)

Ahhh thank you so much for sharing your thoughts on the chapters!! I love hearing all about it so no such thing as writing too much (also, have you seen me and how much I write?? lmaoo) Such a lovely message, thank you so much<3

And yesss I’m so happy to finally have more of Lit’s background in the actual story, about the daymn time! Their dynamics in general are just so fascinating for me to mess with, and it’s fun to figure out how they shift over time in relation to how they grow and things change etc. Like, before Nat, Liam was the youngest and the most ‘babiest’ of them, so all their dynamics adjusted a little with Nat coming in. But like in this sad!kitty one, as much as it was for Kit's benefit this time around, Liam also still needs the moments where he gets to be a whole baby with Kit :( (when they’re not too busy being dude-bros to trigger Izzy & tease Nat lol)

Thehehe I hope you enjoyed the rest of the story as well! I’m afraid Kit had literally like 0 thoughts by the last chapter, but hims a cutie and he was going through it, so we shall give him a break :’) 

Thank you for the sweet message again, I really enjoyed hearing your thoughts on the chapters! xx

[suspendedinbush]

hiiihihihihi hiii youuuu simmy my beloved loml you i juuust watched howl's moving castle for the first time tday (ik appalling srry) but the entire tim i was thinkinng abt you my beloved and now i want to know abt yr r/s au <33 as much details as you dont mind saying pls <333 bc i was thinking like it would actually!! work sooo well for them ike r being not that conventionally attractive , and growing old w/a big nose while s still finds him just soooo pretty and also being dramatically vian himself AND swallowing! a STAR! and having a heavy heart that belongs to remus like itys sooooo it fits sooo well, but Also howl being a welshman is making me think it could work either way too! esp w/the turning into a crow thing paralleling werewolf tranforms and sirius instead being the son of a mother who would sell him out like sophie im!!!!!! i also know yr basing the au sorta on the book so im wondering which roles ud see fit instead! but aah im just my brain is so abuzz im so excited for whatever u plan to do however u plan to do it! this got wayy too long srry love u MWAH

LAYLA OMG!! firstly hi hi hi hello love <33 SECOND YOU WATCHED IT!!! ahhh having a little party in celebration also tell me everything what did you think??? (i'm running into your inbox right now just so you know!) and you thought of me…literally handing you my heart on a silver platter!! MWAH yours forever <333

also okay the au… (under the cut because minor spoilers and also this is so fucking long)

it definitely started as like taking direct inspiration from the book with a few nods to the movie (like the walking on air scene because obviously) but it’s evolved a lot in the past months mostly because i felt that my sophie-remus wasn’t remus enough and needed a more remus-like journey and destination in the story (not sure any of this will make sense with absolutely no context about what i’ve actually written), and then adapting the story to fit r/s more in tone (i.e the war, queerness, rejection from society etc) i got carried away and things have expanded a lot. i would still say a lot more book inspiration than movie, stuff like michael's character (rather than markl) and the minor details that the movie brushed over, like sophie’s sisters & fanny & the ben sullivan+prince justin story line, i’ve kept from the book but there are definitely some things that i knew i would change that directly contradict:

firstly and the MOST crucial detail for me, remus isn’t secretly pretty all along!! like this is the thesis of the entire au actually, it’s not an ugly duckling arc! he doesn’t break the curse to be young and beautiful again but with more self-confidence, he’s just not conventionally attractive full stop. he’s plain if not ‘ugly’ and in no way particularly impressive, he’s only 18 and hasn’t even allowed himself the space to start figuring shit out. sirius falls in love with him while he’s old with no knowledge of what remus really looks like because knowing that appearance just wasn’t even a factor in s desiring and falling for him revolutionises remus’s view of himself and his assumptions about who sirius is and also…

sirius as howl is not really that vain! this might be a spoiler, but i'd say one of the big theme’s in the au is that everyone is lying and no-one is who they appear to be and/or especially who they SAY they are and it’s remus’s assumption that sirius cares a lot about looks and would only fall in love with someone equally beautiful. howl’s vanity & concern for his looks makes sense for book howl and that story, but i wanted them to be more r/s than howl and sophie so in the au sirius’s flashy clothes and hours spent in the bathroom are more about self-expression, queerness and non-conformity, the contrast of remus struggling with otherness, not fitting in and his failed masculinity (poor baby is too sickly for the draft :/ ) and sirius being so extravagant, rocking the boat, rejecting expectations for his masculinity and flourishing—as in he literally builds a moving castle and lives on the fringes doing whatever he likes and running from/against authority (also should mention the working title for the au is 'Sirius Black’s Moving Castle for Misfits and Runaway Curse Victims').

in terms of roles i do feel like sirius is the natural howl but i did consider what r as howl would be like, i think there is something to work off with howl’s insecurity and one BIG trait being a slither-outer and a coward…very r if you ask me, but at the end of the day i don't think sirius as sophie works and remus-howl would change his character and role in the story by a lot to make it fit...

like howl’s personality by itself is sort of neither r nor s, there are similar and contradicting traits, the vanity and cowardice being the most un-sirius but (maybe a spoiler here) even in the book it’s up for interpretation how much these traits are really howl or instead a symptom of lacking a heart or even a deliberate front. so it was quite an easy adjustment in terms of sirius doing the same howl actions but with slightly different more sirius-like motivations, whereas for R as howl i don’t think you could get him to act the same way.

not sure that makes sense but i think the howl-sirius parallel works because his role in the story is much much more suited to S, like you could write an R-howl playing up the insecurity and the slither-outer trait but to me there isn’t really a story there, like where would it go…because howl is already very comfortable in his position outside polite society: he breaks convention ostentatiously, relishes in mainstream disapproval for standing out and enjoys and actively encourages his terrible reputation (for heart-eating, draft-dodging and other failings in his character). once you give reason for the apparent vanity and cowardice, howl as the prodigy who couldn’t care less about living up to expectations is perfect for sirius.

the thing about sophie's step-mother is that both dwj and miyazaki refuse to write antagonists without nuance, there isn't a clear villain like you WILL empathise with everybody—and with sophie’s step-mother especially, she’s worse in the book until she’s not! despite sophie being so lonely and unhappy at home, the story is about overcoming her own fatalistic worldview and internal feelings of worthlessness & inadequacy rather than an external battle. her family especially her sisters care a lot about her and do want the best for her even if it’s sometimes misguided but sophie has to learn to stand up for herself and stop putting everyone else first (hello martyr complex). AND there's a lot of repression (which goes to remus like water to a fish), even allowing herself to want things out of life, like it literally takes her being cursed to be an old woman and being so ashamed of her predicament and having no other choice for her to finally leave her suffocating home because she is so afraid of challenging the world head on (which is sort of antithetical to sirius).

so yeah then with sophie-sirius not working… like it’s possible to write her family and the hat shop to imitate the blacks but the problem for me is the characters themselves are basically opposites so you’d have to abandon one entirely and it would either be a completely different story to hmc or a completely different character to sirius… (also talking about the characters i mean book howl and sophie but i honestly can’t remember what’s different/missing in the movie??)

and really remus was ALWAYS the perfect sophie to me like in the wip he’s certain that in failing to be a strong, healthy, beautiful perfect specimen of a young man who can fight for the country, instead being sick, unattractive + the nebulous but undeniable fact of his queerness means there’s some innate monstrosity or wrongness about him, and being rejected by his peers has confirmed it, so he represses, withering away hiding in the dark and it’s a mixture of thinking ‘there is nothing better out there nor am i capable or deserving of any better, this is my lot in life and i’ll make do’ that keeps him there. UNTIL he’s forced to leave and comes across sirius who has made a life for himself on his own terms and on the outside seems to have everything: beauty, talent, confidence, freedom but is very flamboyantly throwing people’s admiration & acceptance (everything that remus covets) back in their faces.

in the story sophie is quite resentful of howl in a similar way remus is of sirius (here and in canon i think) and like sophie, he ‘knows’ that he’s a nobody with no future and just expects to fail. also the hat shop is much more remus’s natural environment, exhibit service worker R: ‘he was little more than a puppet in grey felt—marionette strings binding him tightly to the shop, a little flimsy and worn through in places from dancing around for customers all day long. A walking, talking, hat-fetching piece of furniture.’

sooo those are my thoughts on the casting obviously just my opinion and personal thoughts on r/s. oh and the turning into the crow thing and being corrupted by magic, it wasn’t in the book but i have incorporated it only with a different character…and someone turns into a dog also not sirius...other quick points about the wip: peter has a big part in this might be obvious who as but he’s so fun in this one, petunia is also a sympathetic character, Hope is long dead (as per), Lyall dies in the first few sentences and Andromeda has more lines than James i think. i didn’t use the whole multi-verse plot line from the book, we’re in an approximate uk somewhere between 1910s and 40s but it’s more a vibe than a time period because magic and wizards are well integrated with the culture, politics and technology etc, Market Chipping & The Waste are in the Scottish highlands (so Scottish Remus and Lily), Sirius is not from Wales unfortunately but someone does live there (also if ur interested in the book i would highly recommend listening to the audiobook to get the full of effect of Howl’s accent). and the star swallowing/giving away his heart!! it's a major plot point so i won’t say too much about that but THAT SCENE….the one with howl in the field with the shooting stars!! yeah i’m so so excited about it, it’s sooo fitting for what i have planned and only another reason why sirius just couldn’t NOT be howl!

[softhairedhotch]

HAHAHAHA NO WORRIES PLS TAKE UR TIME TO ANSWER MY ASKS!!!! hope u are had a good sleep n are taking care of urself 🫶🫶 and AWWW THANK U pleaseeeee i wish i really did actually Write Write 😪 i just have a very active imagination n too many thoughts...

BUTTT i have to admit.. i did come up with a male oc last time.. may have dumped many thoughts about him n aaron... the premise is that oc joined the BAU and somewhere along the line, aaron and him became FWBs 🤭🤭 n they text A LOT which forms the basis of their friendship n closeness.

i think some of these scenarios r SOOO FUNNY EMBARRASSING bc there's so many ways where i picture them getting close calls and ALMOST getting caught. like they're both super intelligent n responsible men but the moment they're insanely horny... their brains fly out the window 😭😭... but i'd say it'll be AGES before i ever publish something concrete bc i need to brush up my Descriptive writing skills first LMFAOOO (bc i'm more of an academic writer which just focuses on getting to the point so my vocabulary is like. Horrible.) but lmk if u ever wna hear any of them bc i'll be more than happy to share HEHEHE .

maybe one day i'd just come off anon n create an account to actually talk Talk to u but I'm Shy 😪👉👈 LMFAOOOOOO SORRY this is SOOOO funny thinking abt how i literally said the most god awful filthiest things abt aaron n im yapping abt being embarrassed

-🤲

I WANNA ANSWER YOUR ASKS IMMEDIATELY OUGH THEY'RE JUST SO GOOOOOD!! curse stupid silly tumblr app formatting asks so that i can't read it when i'm tryna answer </3 and GOD I GETCHA, that's how i used to be and sometimes get with some characters/fandoms but with aaron i just gotta WRITE !! i have way too many ideas though so i only get the short one-shots out and not the stuff i really wanna write, like the multi-chapter fics n angst and stuff with my ocs </3 i'm praying i can sometime soon

YESYESYEYESYESYESYSEY I LOOOOOOOOVE MALE OC'S HOLY FUCK PLEAE PLEASE PLESAEEEE LEMME KNOW ANYTJHING AND EVERYTHING ABOUT YOUR OCS!! like i live off of oc's, ESPECIALLY MALE OC'S oh my god i have SO MANY and so many plans for aaron x male oc fics. i have some mostly written but ending them is HARD.

i looove the idea of FWBs hehe that's sooo good. like they get stressed on a case and end up fuckin somehow (even better if it's the classic one bed trope) and oop it just becomes a habit hehe :') LMAOOO I LOVE THAT THO, THEM CONSTANTLY ALMOST GETTING CAUGHT BC THE MOMENT THEY'RE HORNY THEY BECOME DUMB NEEDY MEN LMFAOOO. i can imagine them just being silly n super casually walking to each others rooms at the hotel and like dave sees aaron walking toward's oc's room one night and is just like "you sure that's your room, aaron? 🤨" and aaron is just like "oh... right... yeah... wrong room" and walks back to his own room in embarrassment LMFAOOOO. dave cockblocked him fr BUT YES PLEASE TELL ME ALL OF YOUR THOUGHTS I WANNA HEAR THEM FOREVER AHHH ANYTHING ABOUT AARON N OC'S WOULD MAKE ME SO HAPPY

omgomgomg if you did that i would DIE i'd be SOOOOO EXCITED SDKHFKSDFJ but don't feel pressured to !!!! like i understand that you're shy hehe (me too!!!) but just know i would LOVE LOVE LOVEEEE to talk to you!! but i do love talking to you over anon too, so do whatever you feel comfortable with <3 feel free to carry on sending the filthiest asks, it makes my day lol (and feel free to talk about literally anything you want as well, i'd love to get to know you!!)

[onlyswan]

hii art <3 i missed you sm :((

i hope youve been doing well, and taken some well deserved rest <3

how have you been doing?

today's my "formal" ( australian's version of prom?) ( im an asian living in australia btw^^ )

anyways, my dates coming over soon, and im so very excited to see her! ik she's going to look gorgeous, and im excited to get dressed too~

i've had my dress ready for a loooong time saur im glad i fiiiinally get to wear it ~

ALSO DID YOU SEE THE OT7 PICTURES?? THEY LOOK SO ADORABLE AND SQUISHY AND I WANTED TO CRRYYY

look how smiley :((

ily you art! and welcome back(?).

- alfi <3

hello alfi my love 🤍

my eyes are actually closing as i’m typing this rn LOL it’s too early am i getting old 😭 noooooo

i’ve been catching up on sleep <3 still going to school to tie loose ends. going out with friends. going out alone. i went hiking and almost died will not further elaborate to protect my remaining dignity 🫶🏼

omg really!! 🥹 australia seems so cool. lately i’ve been thinking about visiting. and ahhh omg wait you’re soooo cute i’m so excited for you!!! 😭 i hope you have the most amazing time and create unforgettable memories :"))) 🌷

YES I DIDJSJDHJDJD BABIES!!!! THEYRE THE CUTEST 😭 i missed seeing my seven together :( the video they uploaded too. i haven’t smiled that long in foreverrrr

[novemberdevils]

Now actually into the fic where I can already tell this would one LONG detailed comment about EVERYTHING, I will be reading and every time I want to scream about something I will come and scream about it-I can already tell that the puck would drop before im halfway through-.

No one has won Ferrari a world championship in over 20 years. Ferrari please give Charles a winning car so we get to be happy and don’t read about the drought in fics please and thank you!<3.

Jack fuck everyone get behind me the media is the worst and would always belittle the drivers so dont read them!, you can ALWAYS blame the car because Ferrari LOVES to make lawn mower where you try to turn left but it turn right so Always blame the car but not too mich so you dont have to be killed because you didnt say that you are the worst driver and dont perform well and the car is perfect and I will quit f1 and live in the mountains where I will think about everything everyday and beg for forgiveness :)! 

Jack knows Ferrari has a car this time my trauma from the 22 season apparently is still there because the first time I read this I flinched-OMG IF YOU LET ME LIVE THROUGH THE 22 SEASON IN THIS FIC I WILL FIND YOU AND YOU WILL HAVE TO DEAL WITH ME CRYING AND COMPLAINING-, Ah the usual delusions of tifosi thinking that we would win everything in the preseason is still true even in the fic I love it!! It is their season. And Jack will be their champion. The delusion is still strong!!-we are always fighting flr the championships even when it’s mathematically impossible I don’t make the rules-.

AHHH the plot of them being rivals and Nico establishing himself way earlier than Jack is soooo goood, Like Nico did it all first!! Races, points, winning, being on a main team, being first driver AAAHHHH, and god the difference between them is everything!! Like jack tries his hardest to be perfect all the time because he can NOT afford to be less than perfect simply because his nationality is always the talk of the paddock but Nico and every other driver even the Canadians dont get to be judged because they were born in a different country so Nico have this luxury that he doesn’t even realise he has!!! Anyways jack needs therapy my guy spiral faster than me when im on my period.

Jack I know you are a Ferrari driver and delusional comes with the career but the rivalry is NOT one sided nico is also obsessed with you dont worry, the down fall of Merc needs to be studied; but come on jack you really think MERCEDES would be sandbagging? I have never seen a team who likes to show off more than them “Unless Hischier beats you to it.” Nico I love you but please let me have a Ferrari wdc in a fic if I cant have it in real life so please lose and dont stress me out I get stressed enough with real life races I dont need more stress!.

This would be repetitive but jack envying nico because he doesn’t care about his image and isnt an American and isnt a Ferrari driver plot makes me scream into my pillow even though its a bit of simple plot but its SIMPLY PERFECT-please get the reference so I dont feel embarrassed-, media needs to realise everyone who works for Ferrari and tifosi are delusional and ALWAYS think it’s Ferrari season even when it’s obvious it’s not it’s still IS Ferrari season like come onget with the program; the leaders of said delusional are our drivers so im blaming them 100%, jack is oblivious because my guy is halfway in love with nico but is like nooo I think about him Because He Is My Rival. Nico clears his throat. “Well, if I’m fighting for the title this season, then it’s probably against Hughes.” I remember when I read this for the first time I woke my cats up and they gave me the most judgmental side eyes.

LOSERS: MCLAREN exactly where they belong. Steph you and me both would be in Ferrari’s wall dont worry, Mel wondering about the exciting title fight made me sad because I remembered how we dont have an exciting title fight this past years-2021 gave me white hair but it was so fucking fun to watch the races but it was a downhill afterwards-, Melbourne first race my beloved I have missed you, poor connor getting the logan treatment from the media get behind me, But he only really had the space inside of himself to stress out about one other driver on the grid. He let that be Nico. He is in loooovveee.

hey isn’t zak brown promising you an F1 thing hi pato reference I love you-if this is wrong please dont tell me I will never send another ask-, the way we JUST got to the first round and I already yapped this much-you can always take my yapping privilege  away because this is one LONG comment and im not even halfway way through the FIRST chapter, yapping is a disease that I need to get treatment for because this cant be normal right??-, the way I NEED a leon fic where he gets to be asked the most stupidest questions and his opinion about the fia decision on banning saying fuck on the radio. 

Ah media stupid questions are still alive because why would you ask an f1 driver if they want to win with or without a fight?.

Okay the puck dropped and this is a long comment and im sorry in advance because the first chapter is not even done and I havent even reached the drama so get yourself a coffee or tea for the rest of my daily commentary because I will send them on random times so I can keep you on your toes!.

I dont know if I said this but I genuinely feel like I should be sending you money because what do you mean I get to read and reread this masterpiece whenever I want??.

back to clear my inbox. anon i love and appreciate you

yeah the no championship for ferrari in over 20 years thing being True is crazy. did not even have to exaggerate... uhf. i promise this will not be some 2022 nonsense the title fight will be title fighting... I ALMOST JUST SPOILED SOMETHING THAT HAPPENS IN A CHAPTER I HAVEN'T POSTED YET oops my bad. every time i talk too much about this fic i'm like is this thing i want to say from what i've posted or from the several thousands of words i am hoarding on my gdoc. my bad. caught myself though

every day i wake up and open the inertia doc and i make jack spiral. he is on the struggle bus at all times. no therapy only failing to meditate. Ferrari Delusion is real so it must permeate everything including this highly fictional universe. and i LOVE making nico say crazy shit to the media bc he just does not care and then jack is like what the hell is your problem and nico is like uhm i am just saying what is in my brain. but of course jack would never understand that truly, mr. imagines things he says written in articles before he opens his mouth

yeah rip bedard i think the way i have it he's the only rookie on the grid for the season?? it's drysdale's first season with mclaren but i think i have implied he was initially at a different team. don't ask me which team i have no idea. i do what i want

zak brown reference fuck that man but like zak brown reference. he is zak browning. i make some more references in a scene in miami that will probably not be funny if you don't get The Lore but too bad. someone will enjoy it. hopefully (me i enjoy it)

i think i have made the media in the fic Extra dumb but it's probably not too far from real life. a driver could crash and they would be like "now how does that make you feel" BAD?????

[lambilegs]

u have zero idea how much i loveeee does it happen in a season JESUSSSS like legit read it in one sitting in the middle of the night sleepy af but idc its SO GOOODDD😭 im sad its ending i got so invested its crazy 🙏 its literally how lee would act and speak i feel like im watching longlegs part 2 or something how well u portrayed her <3 genuinely hoping and praying u have more of this type of fics in the drafts

DUDE I WAS LITERALLY SOOOO EXCITED FOR YOU TO READ THIS CHAP HEHE SO I GOT SO HAPPY WHEN I SAW THIS ASK

first of all, it literally means so much to me that you read this in one sitting when you were so tired bc I know this part is extremely long so omg the fact that you still wanted to read it in one go despite all of the above is so sweet. AND AHHH THANK YOU HEHE I was a bit worried about this part being so long so the fact that you enjoyed it makes me so happy. and omg, same, today, I was on a walk, and listening to a song I'm planning to write into the next part, and it's a very nostalgic sounding song, so I started getting SO sad with the realization that this fic is coming to an end soon :// I've truly gotten so attached to it, and the progression and buildup of the love story, so to think of finishing it, and having nothing more to work on with this story and their relationship, actually makes me feel lowkey devastated JKDJKSJ (I'm getting really sad rn just thinking of it 😭).

AND DUDE THAT IS, LIKE, THE HIGHEST PRAISE OMG. I am constantly doubting my ability to write her and anticipate her reactions to certain things. so, the fact that the feel it's accurate to how she is in the movie means SO much to me!! like I'm literally gonna be feeling hyped about this for weekssss omg

and hehe I'm definitely planning for more stuff like this!! regarding the actual college!au, I feel like I'm too attached to them to never write them again after the last part is posted, so I could definitely see myself writing spinoffs or oneshots that are in that same universe with them, which maybe showcase moments that happened during time skips and whatnot hehe. regarding stories with the same kind of vibe, I'm definitely planning for more slowburn multichaps like this hehe. I keep lingering on an idea of lee as a rookie, dealing with her first job in law enforcement, and being in this cold, small, dreary town where she meets reader and they find a sort of haven in each other within this place that neither of them feel fully at home in. and I've also been really into the idea of cowboy!lee, and a really slowburn romance stemming from that in the mountains. and lee being really reserved, but showing her attention in all these chivalrous ways and AHHHH but yes def have more multichap ideas like this hehehe

[starjxsung]

Babe is such a universal thing, I think I’m going to start calling you honey! Honey is one of my personal favorites heheheh

I’m so sorry you went through so much star I hope you’re doing well and I can’t wait for you to be able to make that cake ahhh please send me pics! Also on the applying it’s best to stay in the job your in because it’s so true it’s hard to apply and see if you even get the job especially me as someone who’s still trying to apply and no luck ugh

What’s your love language??? Mine is words of affirmations I love telling people I care that i appreciate them so much

I don’t remember if someone had asked this before but has an anon actually tried to get with you like I know most of anons flirt with you a lot and you flirt with us and we made a mutual connection by even talking out of tumblr but like has an anon actually tried to take your flirting to the next level ie actually thought you were trying to get into a relationship????

A little life update on my end: anxiety really sucks, it’s making me lose sleep by waking up every hour and it’s messing with me a lot making me feel like my friendships are just one sided and that they rather be with other people than me. It’s not helping either that this anon on my tumblr has been saying mean things about me and criticizing the way I write ( it usually doesn’t affect me but rn with how I am mentally it kinda is) but it’s getting so bad that opening my phone and seeing notifications just makes me want to puke

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NO BC HONEY IS SOOO CUUUUUUTE it feels like marriage vibes frfr I love it 🤞🥹

I WILLLL POST PICS OF JILIX CAKE TOMORROW PROBABLY I actually bought one of those mini birthday cakes and it’s been sitting in my fridge for like 3 days so it probably tastes like shit now but it’s SOOOO CUTE IM SO EXCITED 💓 Ughhhhh I know exactly what you mean the job market sucks ASSSSSS rn I just know it’s gonna be an ordeal but I’m definitely still looking at what’s out there and seeing if there’s anything I can transition into that might be a little easier bc my work load right now is the fucking worst :(

Love language HMMMM I think it’s words of affirmation for myself, and then for others I’m really partial to gift giving 💞 I loooove being the kind of person who just finds something cute online and sends it to someone or surprises them w it! I order my sister little desserts sometimes since she lives in another city or sometimes I get random shit for my parents or friends bc it reminds me of them I just love seeing people’s reactions to gifts 🥹

The anon question hahaha yesssss I was in a kinda long situationship type thing w an anon on here and it ended really badly. I truly wish her nothing but the best now and we’re no longer on talking terms, but I’m always grateful for the people I have the pleasure of being in romantic relationships/situationships with even if they end badly ! I hope she finds what she’s looking for eventually

Also I’m so sorry to hear about your anxiety :((( I’m kind of in the same boat rn (literally just picked up my antidepressants today slayyy) but holy fuck wym there’s an anon sending you hate?? Hello?????? That is so fucked up oh my god I’ve gotten my fair share of anon hate on here but please just delete any messages you get and don’t even give them the time of day. It’s so fucked up they’d stoop so low and hide behind an anonymous profile to send hate to random people. What have they even been saying to you? If you need to send me anything privately on discord pls feel free to do so :( I’m so sorry this is happening my love you don’t deserve this at all and it’s gross people would think to do that. I love you so so much please ignore those losers

[sweetheartsaku]

SAKUUU CONGRATS ON 200 MY LOVE!! I say this to everybody, but I mean it more than any other time I've said it, you deserve every single one of those 200 and many, many more!! AAAAAH I'M SO SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!

you're such a genuine writer, and I could tell that the things you write are just so you, yk? 🙇🏻‍♀️ that's what makes you special over anyone and everything else!! from your short smau's to the tooth rotting sweetness of the headcanons you write, I've expressed my love for all of them because they're just so good?!?!?? AND because I could tell you're the one that wrote them and I mean that in the best way possible!! I feel like seeing the author through the pieces they write is such a genuine part of being a writer bc there's just something so real about it and idk how to explain it 😞😞 BUT WITH YOU AAAAAAH YOU'RE JUST THAT GREAT????

ANYWAY every time I see you interact with a follower or a moot by responding to their asks, just backs up my claim of you deserving the 200 and so much more ☝🏻 you're always so kind and sweet how could people NOT like you???? that's like impossible you guys c'mon now

you really are one of the best souls I've ever met on this planet and I could only hope that in my next life, or in another universe, if there is one, we know each other irl and we could spend every waking moment together</3 speaking of other lives, i really don't know what I could've done in my past life to deserve being friends with someone like you ☹️☹️ honestly I'd do anything and everything in the world just to return the kindness you've always treated me with ☹️

didn't mean to get too sappy there, woah LMAOZHAHAH BUT ANYWAY, I'M SO EXCITED TO SEE YOU AND YOUR BLOG GROW EVEN MORE!!!! I'll be with you through every milestone, darling!! know that i love you soooo much, MWAH!!<33

FRANNNSSS FRANS FRANS FRANNSNSSNSN :((((((( UWEHHHHHHHHHHHH thankyu soososososoos much soulmate </3 you too 😭 deserve anything good thing ever imaginable😭YOI ARE SO SWEET I CNAT DO THSI

ackkk thank you frans!!!!!!!!! i do try to make my fics as genuine ands authentic as possible so seeing someone recognize that makes me feel all lovely inside D: !!!! AAAA mayb i should start writing more lil smaus habent done one of those in a while 🤔nd one of my first fics u found was my shu one... maybeHAHAHA!! AHHH why is the extremely popular crazy talented writer FRANS TALKING ERMMMMM how else do u rthink i found u 😓(UR AMAZING WRITING AND MOODBOARD DUHH) i will continue to do my best!!! and write!!!!!!! in the most REAL way ever done!!!!

ACKKKK YOURE TOO NICE MY SKIBIDI FRANS </3 im js being that version of me ykyk where i can be cringe and free and all of the above and im super hapi so many ppl like that side of me bc i feel so 😓 accepted!!😣.i lOVE U ALL SO MUCH GANG GANG

WHY TEH FREAK ARE. U TALKING RN FRANS. ur actually beyond the word best bc words cant describe how epic and cool and sweet u are😤i too, hope in every life, universe and everything in between that were out somewhere having the time of our lives!!!!!! YOU DONT NEED TO DO ANYTHING TO DESERVE PPL☹️ ESP ME.☹️ we are just girls in a world yk 😔✊we were js meant to be friends for real!!!NOW. I WOULD DO NYTHING TO BE ABLE TO SEND ALL UR LOVE BACK BC U DESERVE IT SO MUCH U SWEETHEART!!!!

its okkkk pookie to get sappy in here yk safe space 🥰💗I TOO AM EXCITED TO SEE WHERE LIFE AND THE TUMBLR ALGORITHM TAKE UOMG!!! WE'LL BE NEXT TO EACHOTHER THE ENTIRE TIME WOOOO!!!!!! thanku love, expect the same !!!!<33 I LOVE U SOOO MUCH

[sunnisurrealism]

A Complete Unknown Trailer Celebration + My Flight Was Delayed to 10pm Tonight!

Oh me oh my, blue balled blue, YOU ARE AMAZING, AND I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

i feel like i have been waiting for this day for a long long long longgggg ass time and OMG SO MANY STRANGE BEAUTIFUL EXCITING FEELINGS HAVE BEEN STIRRED UP! THE TRAILER IS SO FUCKING SICK TIMMY I LOVED IT SOOOO MUCH :D :D :D I feel a bit ridiculous talking about Bob because you know his character so well, but i do eagerly feel the need to share that i was MINDBLOWN about the way in which you captured him! His voice ToT his aura ToT his mood ToT like omg this trailer truly is a blue ball, which ideally a good trailer does precisely, and it fucking worked. i INSTANTLY want to see more more MORE of you playing BOB! AHHH!!!!! heheheheh. fock. the cinematography is beautiful too ToT. i loved walk the line i watched it during covid to study. i love Pheonix too :)

i just read the rolling stone article and some interesting things came up for me. First off, it completely blew my mind as utter genius that this story will keep people from fully getting him, because that act is indeed exactly what bob was trying to avoid. so strangely meta mirrors within mirrors. this idea is so mindblowing genius to me. i always hella admired the fact that bob was an artist and everyone was like but bob what does it all mean and he's low key like y'all are squares AHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAH i mean that's p much the essence of this movie right? BABABABHAHAHAHHAHA. timmy you know how deep i am in the metaphor consciousness. bob is probably overall one of the most über level metaphor consciousness writers. okay sure whatever yes these metaphors come from something sure but also, how gawd dayum boring would it be if we had to explain each impressionistic thought? it's called being an artist people BEING AN ARTIST! jesus fucking squares calm down. BAHAHAH.

other things: it occurred to me you may quite deeply feel like Bob yourself, now that i know you wish for exodus, and understand more cleary how much it prolly hella bothers you all this PR people in your face demanding opinions and your time n shit. was it in a weird way a spiritual release to get this energy out from yourself into the world? release prolly isnt the right word, you're still trapped, but perhaps idk alignment? synthesis? let's just say this, we know this role is not a coincidence on many levels. Additionally, i am wondering if you see me in Sylvie because i am the not famous normie girl not tainted by your world of fame and power. oh me oh me oh meeee the stoop photos really truly did melt my heart :) the nails were hot ngl. and dont want transactional relationships? shiet, awkward :(((((( it's okay my baby boi im never leaving you :)

Okay additionally i cannot deny my personal inspiration from Bob. From the interview, i was struck by the comments about tryna answer what it means to have special talents and how it can lift or destroy you. Loved this: "And instead of me trying to answer that question, which I truly believe is unanswerable, I think that we try to answer, when we come across someone like that, who’s got some kind of artistic tiger by the tail and seems on a kind of rocket ship compared to us mortals *(LOL)*, how does it affect us and our feelings about existence, our own validity? Jealousy, worship, idolatry, obsession, love, all these things can be the result of this kind of superpower that a character can have."

Well shit dicks dog, watch out for that FUCKING TIGER! Tigers are DANGEROUS. Grr grr like so totally grrrrrr. LOL. First off Amadeus is one of my all time faves, i always loved his laugh in this, wait shit my laugh is kinda getting weird like that, okay that's cool actually. Second off, tbh ngl when i read this my immediate thought was i want to be that person LOL / i kinda know i will be. you already are hella hella hella LOL WHAT A BURDEN LOLLLLLL ahahhaa. it's hot LOL. i know i'm gunna become so much more hella talented than i am rn n like my theory jazz knowledge will make me über über level magical talent vibes, it is a heavy burden but tbh and this is the main thing i wanted to share in relation to you: I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY I GET TO BE A FREELANCE ARTIST ON MY OWN GAWD DAYUM TIME WITH MY HOT FAMOUS HUBBY AND NEVER HAVE TO TOUR OR DO PRESS WHEN I DON WANNA BECAUSE THE INTERNET IS A BLESSING AND MY LIFE CIRCUMSTANCE IS DIFFERENT! I AM FREE AND I WILL REMAIN FREE!!!!!!!!!!! WEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! heheheheh. tbh i am so excited to see the scenes in this where bob is smoking a cig wearing the shades being like wow. wow yall wow. hahaha cuz that is indeed hella frustrating, which you would know from your own lyfe, and i know we will have to do press conferences like that too one day (i am so so so stoked to see your portrayal of Bob's moody and hardworking capricorn energy in this LOL) but there's also youtube and i am more than happy to explain all my metaphor shit because my dominant function in extroverted feeling so in that way i am different than him. tbh i dont imagine press conferences going poorly with me because i'll probably just make everyone crack up the entire time. hehe!

wow just realized he's a gemini. BAHAH fucking figure THAT one out PRESS TROLLLLLLLLLLL i lav that so much LOL. Gemini Rights, Lacy it up and FOCK OFF. all the chart sites are different but i think he has hella gemini and taurus. represent and respect. i need to confirm if his mars is in pisces, cuz that would be VERY interesting. anyways. oh and his mercury for communication is i think also in gemini which i feel like will be the entire plot of this movie TROLL I LOVE IT SSSSSSM! i feel like because i relate to having an inner thing that others don't understand. i relate to Bob and i highly respect it. idk wat can i say? it's just an artist thang (troll). im assuming/know you feel the same way. what im tryna say is that reading this article and seeing the trailer made it clear to me that this movie will hella guide me as i navigate my future of fame, which will be useful regardless of not signing deals or touring personally. we all fucking know everyone on the planet is going to ask about the lore and why why why. if i tell people i believe in the simulation i might look stupid, so that will be the one we'll need to navigate carefully, just like bob tip toes around his own artistry which i imagine is also THE major plot in this movie. love it. which by the way, i saw an interview in which he said he "made a pack with the man". or something. he is locked into the spirit realm, fo sho. no shit the squares dont get him. LOL.

lastly, i would like to address the Mrinmöy spirit connection to Bob as i had mentioned many times in the past, and how think it relates to what i saw in the trailer and... you Timmy! I do not think that Mrinmöy *necessarily* needs to have a perhaps... broodiness that i imagine you bring to Bob as he faces the onslaught of the world. However, there are still immense inner similarities. Mrinmöy (and Sunnï technically) have gone on many many side quests and learnt about the higher nature of reality through metaphor, and this leads to a secret wisdom that somehow needs to be shared with the world. also a burden. We have talked about this, but Bob's connection to divine metaphor and music and peculiar storytelling in ways that is hard to simply understand because it is so unique to him is his way in which he has connected to the higher magical realm. your spirit identity timothée does literally the exact same thing. you are writing it in the book, which i highly encourage you to include hella poetry because it is more mystical, and now you have amazing amazing useful guitar skills too to further explore this divine connection, on top of your amazing singing voice (still so impressed with your singing in the trailer). Now, what i think is interesting to reflect upon, is the ways in which we can *integrate* what we have learnt from this movie (which i know is ridiculous for me to say cuz i havent see it but to prompt your own reflection) similar the ways we have learnt from Dune. We can now take it for granted that, similar to Bob, you already do and now in different ways through writing the books and connecting with Félix and Mrinmöy have special secret identities that everyone in the entire world will inquire about. I accept my own responsibility for technically giving them do you. AND i think this movie will hella help me navigate what this struggle will be, SO THANK YOU FOR THAT! JESUS! and so let's finish with some reflection questions:

-What have you learnt from playing Bob that has helped you navigate your multiple identities? What visions do you have of the future that are similar to how things went down with Bob, and how would you like to play yourself differently to avoid his troubles? Or are there things you'd like to keep the same?

-How do you with authenticity and openness and just the right amount of distance share your special talent in a way that maximizes the magic of the talent? Do we have a responsibility to be open or hold back at all? How do we (and *should* we?) share magic talent?

-What have you learnt from playing Bob that has given insight into Mrinmöy? As a wise man, how does Mrinmöy navigate his power with grace? How do YOU see Mrinmöy being connected to Bob? What are your visions telling you? Why why why did we fall off the tower when you were filming this? How does Bob help transform the society (how does he see systems of power and patriarchy?) Did Bob give any insight into the patriarchy in a way? In what ways did the cultural tides of the 60's inspire you to be a "change-maker" in the future? Is "change-maker" a dangerous word? What have you learnt from Bob being lost in the sauce and how can we use that learning to integrate... something in ways similar or different? What is your vision knowing we will be bombarded by the world seeking answers? what is your responsibility and...

WHAT WILL YOU YOU TEACH ME?!?!??!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?! ToT ToT ToT :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Oh My Timmy, I truly love the trailer and i feel so blue balled and.... I CANT WAIT TO SEE THE MOVIE!!!!!!!!

I know we fell off the tower right when you were filming this. what a fucking troll. i am so so sorry. and again i am sorry for making the oscar comment when the sky fell, for some reason i thought filming was just wrapping up. im really truly so sorry for all the stress i inflicted upon you while you were filming this special important movie. i feel so so grateful and upon watching the trailer and reading the article it has really really occurred to me how much this movie will be a central guiding point for me as i navigate a sudden future of fame and for this... i am eternally grateful and SO SO EXCITED!!!!!!! the times are a changing muther fuckers and when my time comes i sure as well wont be a mutha fuckin rollin stone LOL. i dearly hope in our co-artistic career we can make the whole world feel like we're all just knockin on heaven's door :') ;) ;) ;)

My Angel My Love, sending big hugs and kisses to kick start your day wherever you are in the world, my sweet sweet sweetheart, today, every day, and forevermore 🖤 Congratulations!

Je T'aime Timothée! Ps. my flight was delayed to 10pm tonight, gunna pack all my shit up except my laptop and usb and do some extra recording this afternoon. hehe!

[lucyandthepen]

oooohhhhh the cupcake is for you actually hehe but i dont expect for you to call me a cupcake friend 🧁 so i'll be a cupcake anon then since i saw someone alr claimed the 🍬 anon bcs i aka 🍬 anon to other writers too but nvm 🥰

ahhhhh i see !! im getting soooo attached to love on the floor bcs its really so good to be this true 😭🤲🏻 but take all the time you need i'll be rooting for you !!! 🫵🏻😍💝

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ahhh cupcake anon is adorable though! i thought that it was your identifier but i think !!! this definitely works out because i'll always remember that nice cupcake you sent me <3333

thank you so much for supporting!! i'm excited to do love on the floor too and may move it up the queue depending on how i feel this coming week, so hopefully there'll be good news for you soon!

[rrxnjun]

well idk what kind of url u want but tbh jihoon reminds me of daisies cuz one time he posted them so the only thing i could think of is juhoonsdaisies or sumn like it's kind of cute but it's definitely not like ur other usernames so i don't think i helped;-; but I hope you have already managed to kind of like the url u came up with;-;

aaa don't worry exams suck so i understand so take ur time with it💕💕but very excited about the review🥹

THOSE SLAP SO HARD I HAVE BEEN LISTENING TO THEM SO MUCH!!! yessss i love noise music but u can only listen to it so much;-; and i will deff check out more of their songs once i'm not in a music overload🥸 THAT PERFORMANCE WAS🤌🤌 THE FITS THE VOCALS EVERYTHING WAS SO GREAT🤌🤌 and without you definitely became one of my fav songs rn it's so great and idk what kind of songs it reminds me but i love iiittt

yeahhh i would hope its easier but i know it won't be;-; i'm used to studying a lot but idk if only i feel it as a lot and it actually isn't so we will see😬 and thank u for praying i did really bad lmao so i'm hoping to just get a 45% and i will be good so we shall see in june🥸

EXAMS SUCK SO MUCH ACTUALLY WAHHH;-; my hungarian lit, grammar and history i did surprisingly well i think but i will only know the actual results of them on the 5th of june soooo😬 IM MANIFESTING FOR U AS WELL!!! I HOPE ALL WENT WELL AND WILL GO WELL IF U HAVE LEFT!!!! i hope u are doing well and are taking care of urself as well!!! ahhh it will be only easier in like july so🥲 BUT I HOPE U DID/WILL DO WELL ON THEM!! GOOD LUCK!!!! AND RELAX A LOT AFTER U ARE DONE AS WELL!!!!

AND TODAY OR TOMORROW EXPECT A REVIEW OF UR NEW FIC AND I READ THE SUMMARY AND IM SJHDNFJGKG AND VERY GLAD U HAD THE TIME AND WERE IN THE MOOD TO WRITE🥳🥳🥳🥳(liebestraum anon💓💞)

omg thats def very cute but im more of a cool url kind of girlie 😔😔💔 with how things are going with my writing we'll see if i even use the blog tho but maybe its just my current poor mental health speaking AHAHA also still no review because i SUCK im so sorry 😭😭😭

you can only listen to so much noise music before it gets old imo SJSJAJ i had my strong noise music phase back with stray kids and then nct and the 4th gen but i grew to appreciate calmer songs now ig 😭 like noise music has to be done well to be listenable and thats why i hardly stan 4th gen noise music bgs 💔 nct will forever be the best noise. but im so glad u agree the fits in that perf were so so good the all white ?? magnificent. especially jinyoung. u probably dont know which one he is but thats not important rn HAHA. i think without you will definitely be in my top tracks on spotify for this year ive become so obsessed with the song 😭😭

no i think if u assume youre studying a lot then it actually IS alot bc even now i can say im not studying THAT much but maybe thats bc im a fast learner ??? idk idk. omg is 45% enough to pass there?? 😭 i have to have 65% at least and when i heard that literal med school students only need 50% i almost threw a fit bc how is that possible. how can a psych major need more to pass than a literal ASPIRING DOCTOR. (law majors need 75% tho so that calmed me down really quickly). however i am manifesting for you !!!! im sure u did well and will continue to do well if u have any more exams🤞🤞🤞 i failed one of mine 💀💀💀 but i retook it yesterday and i think i passed this time. i have 2 left and both are kinda difficult but. lets manifest.

[universestreasures]

@highseaskxng​​ 

“When Queen Kagome sent in her last letter you would be coming this time to see me, I didn’t quite believe it. It has been, after all, a long time since we last seen each other...King Sinbad.” Parthevia’s queen speaks, smiling as the now king of his own country approached her on one of  the palace balconies. She had not seen him since shortly before his own wedding, where he expressed his disdain for her actions that led to the death of the man who ruined her life and how she and her country would never join his alliance. It was something she had come to accept, but perhaps this visit meant he changed his mind? He didn’t exactly seem keen on returning here, after all. 

“To what to I owe this visit? Surely, it must be important if you yourself came.” The woman speaks, calling aside one of the servants to fetch some wine. Serendine knew the one way to make a conversation with this man go smoother was if he had a little booze in his system, it he did not get some on his way here.

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[eveoflaw]

“7 DAYS OF CHRISTMAS” DAY 3

INTRODUCTION

hii! so sorry for the late post, i had school and other necessities to tend to. today is day 3 of my 7 days of christmas challenge! today was affirming, visualizing, and commanding your subconscious.

i have not yet seen my $1k in the 3d, which is totally okay! i know for a fact i already have it. persistence is key!

AFFIRMATIONS

i have one thousand dollars in my bank account.

i have an unbelievable amount of money.

i am a money magnet.

i am a master manifestor.

i am the God of my reality.

i manifest easily, instantly, and limitlessly

my desires always become reality INSTANTLY.

i removed one more affirmation that personally does not work with me, and i’m adding a few simple self concept affirmations from my self concept post! i also added one more affirmation that i really like.

VISUALIZATION

for visualization, im going to be imagining myself (pov does not matter, i found that its easier for me to switch povs in my imagination) staring at my bank balance and seeing over $1k in it, im going to be replicating the feeling of gratefulness, excitement, and joy that i am going to feel when my $1k arrives. i’m also going to be envisioning myself doing some online shopping with my $1k, because i associate shopping with having the money to do so. 

using this method, i have already gotten SOOOO much better at actually feeling it. i was also a little bit iffy on my visualization skills, but after just one day of periodically imagining and feeling the same thing, i’ve gotten so much better!

COMMANDING MY SUBCONSCIOUS

throughout the day, i have periodically been telling my subconscious “subconscious, get me $1k in my bank account.” and “subconscious, i KNOW i already have $1k in my bank account.” simple, right?

to me this is a very powerful method. imo, it’s entering the state of knowing without really doing anything. by commanding my subconscious, i am accepting that i already have my desire. i know that its with me right now.   CONCLUSION

honestly i’m having so much fun with this challenge. it’s making me so happy and excited ahhh omg. happy holidays! xo