#( out of adderall. )
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No.
No, no, no, no, NO!
He's shaking. His heart is burning in his chest, pounding like a jackhammer against his ribs, and there's a trembling, aching rage building beneath his tongue and pressing against his teeth.
In his hands, his fingers tense and wrists locked, the article reads in big, black font: JOKER LOCKED IN ARKHAM ASYLUM AGAIN!
Danny shouldn't feel so angry about this, this is a good thing. Gotham doesn't have to deal with him for another few months at the least. He should feel relieved, a little more at peace.
He is not.
He cannot swallow the fury thudding behind his eyes, the burning white heat searing a deeper hole in his chest. A searing green filling static in his ears in the way only the rage of the restless dead can have.
How is he going to kill him now?
Arkham may be the only asylum in America made entirely of tissue paper, but it's still an asylum. There are cameras, guards, other patients resting inside. Danny can think of a million different ways to sneak in and kill Joker, but someone will hear his screaming.
It'd have to be rushed.
He doesn't want it to be rushed.
It's a cruel thought. Cruel and cold and merciless, but Danny doesn't feel an ounce of shame, not an ounce of guilt, for it. He wants to be alone with the Joker when he kills him, that's all he wants. In Arkham, you are never alone.
He forces his anger to bubble back down into his chest, stuffing it between his heartstrings and his ribs like a blanket you're trying to bunch up into a corner. It sizzles and burbles. The static begins to fade out into a high-pitched ringing; it sounds like distant screaming.
Danny is still trembling, but he can think a little clearer now.
He can wait.
He can wait. He can wait. He can wait. He canwait. Hecanwait. Hecanwait.
He can wait.
He's waited five years for this. He can wait one more week. One more month. One more year. However long it takes for the Joker to break back out, Danny can wait.
And when the Joker does, inevitably, break out.
Danny uncrinkles his fingers around the edges of the newspaper, loosens his limbs just enough so he can pay for it.
He'll be waiting.
The dead, after all, have all the time in the world.
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc fanfic#cfau#dpxdc ficlet#childhood friends au#*clears throat* ahem: the difference between danny and jason in cfau is that jason died while danny is dead#took my adderall today bc its the first day of classes and i alway forget it gives me The Worms. The Writing Worms.#when i can heart my heart beating in my chest thats how i know its working.#i had anger issues growing up so its very easy for me to write about intense all consuming rage that results in your vision fuzzing out and#your hands visibly shaking. first hand experience folks. god i love giving danny rage issues. he's actually got a pretty fine toothed hold#on his anger even if it consumes him. you can thank rath for that LMAO#banshee danny fenton
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had to take measures into my own hands. eric matthews is HOT TO GO!
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#I'a think my entire state has been out of adderall for an entire TWO WEEKS#when i learn how to compose and draw and animate and code it's so fucking over for you hoes
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🗡❤️ I will follow you into the dark ❤️🗡
this piece was inspired by saewokhrisz on twt💞
this was originally started to celebrate 11/20 but my health got in the way, so hopefully you don't mind that this is a bit late^^♡♡♡♡
progress pieces under the cut:
I included these bc this one was a struggle for me and I wanted to share the process I went through (maybe someday I'll do speedpaints again🤔💗)
happy late 11/20 shuake nation!!
#shuake#goro akechi#akira kurusu#persona 5#p5#11/20#sorry this is so late#ive been having health and medication issues for the past month or so#but!! i think im doing better now#everyone say thank you adderall#also pls go check out saewokhrisz their art is amazing#their color palette for their shuake 11/20 really inspired this piece#also forgive me for posting this past midnight....#i didn't wanna wait until tomorrow to post it XD#i hope yall like it#♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡#shitty#(< that's my art tag)
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I wish I could smoke some weed before doing my stats homework cuz it'd make it less boring but it would also render me incapable of doing any math. which is kind of important
#i mean i COULD but it already takes me a long time and itd make me stupider#maybe stats is what will have me seeking out the adderall refill ive been procrastinating getting for months
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something to remember
#twf#the walten files#twf fanart#the walten files fanart#susan woodings#linda thompson#sulinda#Twf susan#twf Linda#susan x linda#Twf susan x Linda#twf sulinda#the walten files susan#the walten files susan x linda#Prime Doomed Yuri#i was burnt out while drawing this but u see it was Valentine’s Day so I had to sprawl something out#it’s so hard to let myself rest but I’m enforcing it rn but I still have other work I wanna finish 😭😭 idk adderall finally allowed me to be#the workaholic at heart that I was always meant to be and always Wanted to be#art#digital art#procreate#fanart#doodle#ship art#valentines day#valentines art#valentines 2024#will reply to asks soon I swear I WANT TO just gotta rest my head a little longer
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supposed to be writing a paper but instead i cant stop thinking about subaru and emilia's first death. they barely knew each other but in their final moments the reached for each other's hands...... god.
#rezero#adderall is a blessing and a curse. potion of give you focus but Watch Out.#you cant control what the focus is on
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chash got me a little cheetah stuffy and i named her chicken pot pie and for the last couple of days i've been talking aloud to her like she's my therapist (dr c.p. pie phd) and i just had a really intense breakthrough about something that happened 14 years ago. what the fuck
#i raised my adderall dosage about 2 months ago and it's been a real fuckin ride#please refer to that 'you have to watch the dosage' post for more information. like. im acting real unwise.#and today i accidentally doubled that dose and then fainted at the doctor and found out i weigh 96 pounds with like 16.8 bmi. bad!#anyway all of this opened my third eye i guess#thamk you dr pie phd#one idiot's journey
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look i love the “autism LWJ and ADHD WWX” thing as much as the next guy, but i think we’re missing out when we don’t acknowledge that WWX is definitely also extremely autistic
#just my thoughts#ngl i get sick of high energy character is adhd and low energy character is autistic#its tired#instead. your silly guy has a special interest in demonic cultivation? from a young age as we see in lan summer school?#and wwx is very classically like#deathly loyal to the people he loves. and fuck the rest. which mood.#and he ignores a lot of social norms but you could also interpret it as him just not even noticing them#anyway that’s my rant#wwx is just as autistic as lwj#also wwx sleeps in but he doesnt rly seem to have trouble with other like executive functioning? like i think the guy just Loves Bed#which mood#anyway (again)#wen qing has audhd to me#she figured out how to give herself the effects of adderall with acupuncture needles and a little bit of spiritual energy#and now she can focus. good for her#mdzs#wangxian
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to the edge
#final fantasy xiv#g'raha tia#crystal exarch#elidibus#shadowbringers#ffxiv#shb spoilers#fanart#5.3 ROCKED MY SHIT SO BAD. I'VE BEEN RECOVERING FOR THREE DAYS#he was a very strange bisexual catboy on adderall. out of control. i'll miss him dearly#impalement / ????#anyways i will 1) be at acen and 2) have this as a print. at acen
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i put this together in 5 minutes but it kinda rips???
#theres red string on the hat too it just hiked up out of frame 😔#i didnt think i'd have the energy for a costume but this one came to me organically. im already her#i was coughing my lungs out under my quilt duvet in my cozy cave of a bedroom and i was like. i could be doing this w a fun hat#sickly bitch of the pasture autumn!!!#otgw vibes#adderall is crazy why am i wearing my halloween costume alone in my room at 1:55am on chuesday the 29th#confusing everybody in the clerb by giving teenager AND crone#***
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they have yet to meet but they will, trust
#my art#sasosaku#sakura haruno#sasori#akasuna no sasori#sasori was enrolled against his will </3#sakura would have more money if she stopped buying adderall such is the life of a med student#aderall cigs fast food take out she's terrible your honor#messy bc i tried to get this out under 2 hrs#it came to me like an epiphany
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Thinking about post-Azkaban Sirius with a baby.
Is it time to write Whump Sirius: Part 2
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my final for my narrative illustration class last semester, for an assignment where I had to create a piece that is representative of my art practice based on a short story prompt❣️
#full disclosure this painting was almost fully completed in one breathless 20 or so hour sitting while i was high as fuck on adderall#the night before it was due#surprisingly it came out well#not the best scan quality tho the scanner in the lab at my college is disgusting#i think someone spilled something in it#illustration#lesbian art#art#butch lesbian#butch4butch#lesbian#butch#butch dyke#gouache#gouache illustration#butch4butch art#lesbian artist#dyke art#illustrator#painting
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HEY guess what you can do with wool? That's right!

DYE IT
With food coloring and kool-aid!! And also acid dyes, which are designed for this, but acid dyes can't be used with cookware you put food in, and Kool-Aid packets are 50 cents.
.. did they go up in price? Didn't they used to be 20 cents? Anyway
Tbh a big part of the allure of spinning my own yarn is dying either the fibers or the final product. I just like the sense of independence that comes from going "ah, I need a color, and I have a lot of white and a handful of dyes!". I did this a lot with my posable critters too, though acrylic and polyester are a lot more strict about what dyes will actually work.
(Though tbh? Soaking acrylic faux fur in watered down acrylic paint, waiting for it to dry, and then taking a slicker brush and brushing out the clumps will get you pretty far!)

The evidence of crimes past with that paint permanently on there. I think this fucker is almost old enough to make its own Tumblr account (but not in Australia 8()
I digress! Because I haven't been dyeing acrylic, but KERATIN!
I did actually try dyeing a chunk with the same semi-permanant magenta dye I use on my own hair, cos like. Hair is also keratin.

Actually, it was supposed to be a bisexual gradient from pink to blue, but when it came time to heat set the color, the manic panic blue just fucking vanished.
Lesson learned: Ion Color Brilliance is a good brand, Manic Panic is not.
My bestie has inquired about me spinning the yarn and knitting them a scarf, so I wanted to make what was basically a mockup of the different ways you can spin the fibers to get different colors effects. And also I got Kool-Aid this past grocery visit and have been chomping at the bit to use it.
@sivilityy enables me <3

BEHOLD, MY CHILDREN!
Dyeing wool with kool-aid or food coloring is very easy!
Step 1: Soak wool in warm to hot water with about a 1/3rd of a cup of white vinegar for 15 to 45min. The vinegar is a mordant, something that helps the fibers take up the dye.
Step 2: Mix your dye of choice into a pot of warm to hot water, close in temperature to the soaking bath. The more kool-aid or food coloring, the stronger the color. I was going for pastels, so I used half a pack for the blue and pink, and a single drop of yellow food coloring for the yellow. The purple... 8') We won't talk about the purple.
Step 3: Fish your wool out of its soak, give it a gentle squeeze, then plop it into the pot. I like to scoop out some of the vinegar water and pour it into the pot as well. For insurance!
Step 4: Heat your pot to just below boiling. You want steam, but little to no bubbles. Agitation + heat or sudden temperature changes = felt. You can't spin felt. If you want to to make felt, though, now you know.
Step 5: leave your wool at simmering for around 30 min. How do you know when its done?

it fucking sucks all the color out of the water. How sick is that?! In the few batches I've done, I haven't always gotten it to be clear like that but don't stress it. About 30 min seems to be good even if there's still some color in the water.


Turn off the burner and let your creations cool down in their soup. Or, if you're impatient like me, run your hottest tap water into a different pot, then pour your wool into the slightly cooler but still hot water, so it doesn't get a HUGE temperature shock. Don't use cold water, or you're gonna get felt! Give em a rinse in the hot water to get any extra color out.
Let 'em hang and dry, and you're done!
So far all of mine have felted a little bit? Which hasn't been so bad, I've just needed to fluff them up a little once they're dry. I want to try indirect heat with a steamer basket and see if that helps, but I only got the one basket and 4 colors this time, so I used the pots.
SCIENCE
#Technically art#Hey butters how is chapter 19 coming along#*flips water pitcher* YARN#If you want to try this yourself please look up a tutorial that wasn't written on a phone on Tumblr#I haven't skipped any steps but I didn't elaborate as much as I could have#Tbh I just wanted to show off how the color got complete sucked out of the water#But then my Adderall kicked in
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Spent so much time making sushi for dinner and was so excited to have a funky little sushi roll and eat it like a burrito but then my nori ripped apart mid roll and I had to eat it as a salad and apparently my brain doesn’t like the texture of imitation crab + seaweed and rice rn :(
#bones speaks#bones rants#sad :(#imma put in fridge for twin but man now I gotta make something else for dinner because I haven’t eaten anything else today#and only had like 300 calories worth of food yesterday. getting used to not feeling hungry with-#-consistent adderall use has been kickin my ass lately.#sorry I like never rant on here but I’m so sad I was so excited for sushi and then Texture Bad :(((((#i even put avocado n carrot and salted cucumber ;-; this took so long to make and now I can’t eat it#a tragedy of the highest order#fuck it imma make me some chicken and just season the everloving shit out of it#i may be white but I know how to cook flavorful food and by god am I not gonna eat chicken with just salt. lack of spoons be damned
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