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#he doesn't want to fight with you ai di, he wants to Kiss🙄💘🥺
Nat Chen as CHEN YI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#chen yi x ai di#ai di x chen yi#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#uservid#userrain#userspicy#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#okay i made this specifically for the 3rd gif bc chen yi's expressions are making me giggle nonstop i was doubled over in tears last night#HE JUST WANTS TO KISS!! AI DI HE LOVES YOU LET HIM HIT IJDKSKG#okay real talk though the fact that he actually gives ai di space 90% of the time. lets him hang out at the bar#like he isnt following him around or constantly dogging him about giving him an answer not does he ever rly ACCUSE ai di of anything#he uses the zhang teng excuse to keep ai di from avoiding him but he doesnt try to keep him where he can see him constantly.#he lets ai di do his own thing and just spends time connecting the dots during the moments ai di comes back of his OWN VOLITION#& he slowly puts together what ai di is refusing to admit and makes his own intentions known without putting them in words either#besides stating his observations (& watching ai di react). Every interaction between them when ai di gets out of prison is like that#gifs 1&2 vs 4&5... letting ai di pull away because he doesnt know whats going on vs pulling him back both to say hey we arent done-#& say im still here FOR YOU - to see how ai di reacts being so close to chen yi after finding him hugging his jacket in his sleep#and then once hes Figured It Out he still keeps the space!! sends gifts... he only Acts when ai di comes back to him himself!!!!#and this time he's READY. and a simp. like. PLS the last 2 gifs..........dude. he wants to kiss so bad
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BITTERSWEET REUNIONS
#Nevermore#Nevermore Webtoon#Webtoon#WOW WHAT A RETURN!! I KNOW THE HIATUS WASN’T THAT LONG BUT DAMNNNNN!!! ALSO RIP TO OUR 5 COIN STATUS#ANYWAY MORELLA SNAPPING ADA BACK.. IT’S SO CRAZY HOW HER PARTICLES WERE ALL OVER THE ROOM#CAN SPECTRES LIKE UPGRADE THEIR POWERS BC IT LOOKS LIKE ADA DID THAT#WILL BBY SORRY FOR CHOKING YOU AND DAMNNNNNN LENORE FOR FORCING HIM OFF AND TELLING 👏🏼 HIM 👏🏼 OFF 👏🏼 GODDAMN LOVED THAT#AND THEN ADA AND MORELLA FIGHTING!! MORELLA SHOUTING IS AMAZING! AND IT NEVER OCCURED TO ME THAT ADA DEFLECTS HER BLAME IT’S CRAZY#SICK OF PLAYING WITH PHONIES!! EPISODE 7!!! CALLBACKS!! AND NOW MORELLA COME TO THE MISFITS FULL TIME PLZZZZZ#OOP DUKE YOU GOOD? OK OH UH YEAH IT’S BEEN A BIT WITH YOUR SPECTRE ALSO UR POWERS MADE ADA GO OUT OF CONTROL SO 😬#GIVING HIM HIS JACKET AAAAAAA! THE COIN AAAA! EULALIE AAAAAAAA! DUKE CATCHING HER AAAAAAAAAA! PLUTO BLUSHING AAAAAAAAAA!#WELCOME TO ANOTHER EP OF EULA’S AMAZING FACTS#BERENICE! GROUP HUG!!! THEY’RE ALL SO WHOLESOME I CAN’T I’M SO GLAD THEY’RE ALL TOGETHER AGAIN! BACK AND BETTER THAN EVER!#wait just realizing something did duke’s spectre heal his bruises? interesting#PUT ME BACK IN THE WALL HAHAHAHAHA#And the two of them scoping out the mess#YESSSSS YOU GOTTA BEG SIR! BEG FOR YOUR PLACE AND YOUR LIFE! REAL TEST OF -FAITH- LIKE THE LAST EP ALMOST#DAMN WE BACK EVERYONE SO EXCITED TO MAYYYYBE FINISH OFF THE SEASON??? IDK WHERE WE GO FROM HERE I ASSUME EP. 100#BUT YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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yeah hugo Never liked being around jacques as a kid even before his mom died and before he even really knew why. always hated it when he had to hug him, wanted him to stay longer on his business trips, bristled and got angry every time he heard jacques's childhood nickname for him that he hated ("bush baby"). his mom just kinda didn't register any of this and thought everything is fine hugo is just very very clingy and the nickname is cute surely he's not actually upset over it and
#love you ivanna kisses to the sky but good GOD. making excuses for jacques like it was a full time job#to be fair jacques wasn't even really Doing anything here. he was just trying to be a normal dad but hugo wanted nothing to do with him#hugo was very scared of him and he's very sensitive :( he takes things the wrong way often :((#it was also kinda like. hugo knew jacques didn't want to do it either#jacques holding his arms out like 'come here hugo i'll be in germany for two weeks i'm leaving now'#and hugo's just half-hiding behind ivanna being gently nudged towards him (she thinks hugo's upset about him leaving)#but hugo gets the sense jacques is actually saying 'come get this over with for your mother so i can leave'#cue a very awkward quick hug before hugo runs back inside the manor#the nickname jacques did genuinely just think was cute though. that made it worse though. that meant jacques was in a /good mood/ gross#jacques with just a hint of a smile like 'good morning bush baby' and five year old hugo's like one of us should jump out of the window#this is the fall: extras
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good morning && happy thursday friendz !! TODAY IS THE DAY ! its finally time for the haikyuu movie :’) i hope everyone has a wonderful day ♡⌒(>。<) ! !
#IM SO EXCITED !#i feel like all i do is come on here and scream about it and then dip back out#i promise i will post something soon lmfao#but T^T i’m just so happy teehee#also sorry in advance for kuroo spam today … i queued a lot in honor of seeing him !!#also im wearing a cute lil dress at work today so i can skip right over to the theatre ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭#&& ill be leaving a lil earlier to make the first showing#shes down horrendous ur honor ……#but what did we expect !!!#hugging my hq luvrs extra tight today#it’s been a long four years :’)#but we finally made it ! ! !#₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims#ヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ — ✩ daily yap.
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rambling and theorycrafting about Peter Simpkins and his relationship with Barry Steakfries for way too many paragraphs
i was thinking about The Ballad Of Barry Steakfries just now and how fucking weird it would be for Barry to find out all the scientists are just slightly dffeirent versions of his dad, but then it also got me thinking about the second episode with Barry getting Robo Barry to draw what the former saw when Craig's helmet came off, and how one moment in particular made me very very curious about Peter Simpkins being directly related to Barry. it's the look the lingers on Barry's face for a moment when his robotic counterpart shows him the drawing.
(this also serves as a brilliant reaction image alongside that one of Bandit screaming at someone's phone screen but that's besides the point)
i just. i keep thinking about what that look means. that's a really weird reaction to have if Craig's appearance didn't strike something in Barry, especially with the attitude Barry had right before this happened. it's heavily implied in these shorts that Simpkins is directly related to Barry as a fatherly figure (what with Craig looking very similar to Barry, the blurred pieces you can abrely make out matching up with the features of Craig's face), but if that is the case, then why didn't Barry immediately go "Hey, that looks just like my dad!" and act more surprised about it? he doesn't do that, he just stares at it with a weird look on his face. there has to be something more to it. my theory is that Barry never actually knew his real dad, who is Simpkins, and instead had a foster parent or stepdad growing up after his real dad's death. i think, judging by how old the photos of him and Brains are and how young the two look (it's hard to tell with Simpkins' face being pixellated obviously, but judging by Robo Barry's drawing and what little we see of Craig's face in the shadows, he looks noticably younger than Barry), that Simpkins died either before or shortly after Barry was born, thus Barry never knew him, prompting him giving that look that i can only read as a familiar yet strange sense of recognition.
now, on the topic of Barry's dad specifically: Barry's dad (who according to Barry's mum, is apparently named 'Lareth' or Larry for short) barely, if ever, gets brought up at all in any media whatsoever... except for the vlog series. that, to my knowledge, is the only time he ever gets mentioned or talked about, and whenever he does, it's very interesting.
in Barry's vlog series (which i'm not sure is generally considered canon. i don't believe it's entirely canon but there are bits and pieces that i think would line up with canon. it's weird), whenever Barry talks about his dad, he's always portrayed as somewhat distant from his son. in one of the earliest episodes (i think it's the first one), Barry says something that implies his dad has memory issues, with him yelling at Barry asking him who he is and why he's in his home even though Barry is his son and lives with him as well. there was another episode where Barry recounts a childhood memory of being hungry but not being able to tell his dad about it until it got to the point where he felt like he was starving. i can't remember the episode he said this in, but i know he said it. he seems noticeably absent from Barry's life in comparison to Barry's mum, not even appearing or being heard when the latter calls him over in the 100th episode. this, coupled with little things Barry says around episode 70 of the series that suggest a "dark family history" (his own words), suggest that Barry doesn't exactly have the best relationship with his dad. i'm probably forgetting a few things because i'm thinking of these off the top of my head, but these are the most glaring examples from the vlog itself that i think are interesting in relation to this.
finally roping this back around to my theory that Simpkins died before Barry was born/when he was very young: you know how on the scientists little bio for Jetpack Joyride 2 thhat it says Simpkins died during the development of Mr. Cuddles, and how it was just assumed that Simpkins' death took place during the 'Robot Bird' rock opera because that was the only information we had about the event and its connection to Mr. Cuddles? what if we got that all wrong? cause like, in the third The Ballad Of Barry Steakfries short, there's a photo with a considerably younger Brains and Simpkins standing in front of blueprints for the Profit Bird vehicle, which was also being developed by Toni (the yellow-stripe scientist) in the rock opera. the rock opera takes place well after Barry's first outing in the laboratory, so if Simpkins were Barry's dad and if Brains were a younger (probably less evil) man around that time, then that just wouldn't make much sense. his death had to have taken place years before this event occurred. i'm gonna do a bit of theory/fanfic crafting and say that i think that Simpkins was the one who developed the original prototypes of the Profit Bird, Mr. Cuddles and even Flash years and years before Professor Brains started making clones of him and hired actual people as their scientists, but something went horribly wrong that resulted in his death developing the mechanical dragon. it was then that Brains began to create cloned copies of Simpkins after his death to continue the work he developed as he couldn't do it on his own without his friend. one of the original cloned scientists was Toni, but his efforts were considered a failure as he kept coming up with newer (and more ridiculous) ideas for the vehicles and he was promptly kicked out of the laboratory. he might have a bigger villain role later that's related to this (and also Barry Steakfries partly being responsible for his downfall).
this whole Peter Simpkins and Barry stuff is very intriguing to me and i'm interested in seeing where it goes. idk how i feel about him potentially being Craig (or at least a clone of him being Craig) as i still think it's unfitting in relation to his character, but i think the idea is interesting and weird enough for me to want to follow. it's just wild thinking this simple little game about some australian dude going wild with a jetpack is expanding into weird dad/best friend mix-ups and a darker deeper narrative.
also, one more little thing: how the fuck did Robo Barry know what Craig's whole face looked like? Barry only saw the back of his head and a little bit of the side, but nothing beyond the rim of his glasses and his eyebrows, unless he somehow managed to see something more before Craig was quickly hidden by the other scientists. does Robo Barry potentially have more knowledge of the late scientist? Robo Barry has been characterised as being slightly smarter (or at least more observant) than his human counterpart in the dialogue of Jetpack Joyride 2, and Brains DID originally design him to kill Barry Steakfries (which judging by the training video from the third episode, seems to be a sentiment that has a lot to do with Simpkins). i also wonder if Barry was connecting the dots in his head with Craig's hair looking weirdly similar to Barry's hair and thinking he must look similar to himself. Barry never mentioned a moustache though, although in saying that, we do only catch Robo Barry and Barry in the middle of them trying to figure out how Craig would look, so maybe it was mentioned beforehand offscreen and we just didn't see it happen. maybe, if we are to go with the idea of Simpkins passing away shortly after Barry's birth, that maybe Barry was connecting the dots with some blurry old memory he had of seeing the face of his real father as a baby and he was sorta subconsciously describing what he looked like based off that, before being shocked by Robo Barry's drawing. just some food for thought.
edit: i realised i said the "dark family history of the Steakfries" line is around episode 70, but it's actually in episode 50. whoops!
additional random and slightly unrelated though: i imagined a plot point where Craig and Barry, in an attempt to try to figure out wtf is going on, come across a secret part of the laboratory that just houses these absolutely horrific failed prototype clones of Simpkins. missing or duplicated limbs, malformed melted faces, some of them are just masses of flesh that barely even quantify as a living thing, but it still persists because it's being forced to stay alive by the lab's technology. poor Barry's gonna need so much therapy after that one
#barry steakfries#jetpack joyride#jetpack joyride 2#craig the scientist#robo barry#professor brains#peter simpkins#theory#this post is so long and compiled all the thoughts i had that i can't come up with any more to put here#actually wait i do have an additional idea: was brains a friend of the steakfries family?#there's a line in the original AOZ where barry and brains form a connection over their shared first name in which barry declares-#-him and brains as brothers. and though i don't think they're literal brothers i think this is still important in relation to brains'-#-possible connection to the steakfries family and his bond with peter simpkins#there's a few more like peter not actually being dead and that thing brains says to betty in the pixel invasion event when it seems like-#-they're about to grow closer as friends but that's about it#i think brains is just a very sad and lonely man who couldn't deal with the loss of a close friend and let his own guilt turn into hatred#the dude needs a hug#this game is getting really deep and i think i'm going insane along with it
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Stupid period vent
If youre a cis man; kiss a uterous haver on the forehead today
Cus fuck this feels like a mental parasite
#:(#i hate getting my period :(#im so emotional#fuck a stupid tiktok has me hyperventalating over hpw i miss my mom and i was 4 again#my dad doesnt come home for another 3 hrs......#i need a hug so badly i wanna call him and ask him to come home but i shouldnt#.....fuck i think i might need to#i hate that i was literally fine until that stupid tiktok....#have you guys seen the cat Mao cartoons on tiktok? i always get sucked and forget theyre always emotional#this one was about a mom cat and a kitten and the mom cat died#i hate my mom and think she did horrendous things to me i shouldnt be screaming how much i miss her#fuck.#i dont wanna keep growing up and watching everyone die or leave#fuck im spiraling so bad#the safe thing might be to call my dad but i really really shouldnt make him leave work#i can never do the right thing im so fucking broken#i really need a hug and a joint#if i dont message you back im ok: i just feel very uncontrollable rn#going back n forth between anger and heartbreak#ALL OF THIS OVER A FUCKING TIKTOK#im so fucking stupid..#ill be okay i just hate being alone when im thinking about my mom/dark stuff#im not even sewerslidal im just extreamly emotional and its scaring me#if im not ok by 3pm ill call my dad#i feel nothing one minute and then i feel everything and rinse repeat#i just hate that i get triggered so easily#i already feel a lil calmer im just tired n need a hug#i know that im safe my body just physically does not feel safe#so im like trapped in my head#but if my dad was here hed be able to pull me out
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I love my cat sm
#💭 — ⌗nervo rambles . ★#tw vent#putting that there .....#but I went down a negative spiral and whenever I do that gender dysphoria kicks my ass#and Tuxiedo wasn't on my bed so all I could do was hold on to my plush and cry#but I felt him come and jump up on my bed from my window#and I turned around and he pretty much immediately came to lay on my chest#ik that he doesn't know something/someone putting weight on my chest rlly helps me when I get like this#(it helps with me not feeling hyper aware of my chest and is just a general comfort thing for me that rlly only my cat does)#but just having him do that comforted me a whole lot#and since he got off I'm just hugging said plush to my chest to try and help#which it does#but it's also led to me not being able to move even an inch bc I always get hyper aware of my chest#It always happens#I stay frozen when it gets rlly bad and I just just wanna throw up my insides and rip my hair out sometimes and I just hold my plush close#too much? probably#I get kinda violent to myself with my thoughts#very gorey would not recommend#but I'm not gonna say them in detail here#but yeah Tuxiedo getting up and comforting me was rlly nice#I love him :33#and my bad for getting negative on main fellas 🙏🙏#need to shower but who knows if that'll make my current horrendous gender dysphoria worse#(it will bc I have to look at myself in the mirror every time I go to get in the shower and I get sick just looking at myself)#also Over & Over by Rio Romeo rlly had to start playing during this 💀💀#“Over and over I fuck myself over” lyric hitting more than usual 💔💔
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there's something about characters for whom emotions cannot be contained, where the feelings are all so surface level whether they want them to be or not, who can't help but be loudly angry or happy or sad, who love so so deeply and have no hope of concealing it
#leslie durrell#roman roy#tristan farnon#congrats to callum woodhouse for getting 2 characters on this list#you'll have to forgive me i just finished#the durrells#and leslie sitting there looking miserable while everybody else was trying to be cheerful#before he leaned over and hugged his brother because he'll miss him so much#really got to me#and his face when lugaretzia kissed his forehead 😭#he's The Worst but he's also so important to me unfortunately#they were all so supportive of him in the finale and they've all come around to letting him be in charge of things#remember when larry destroyed his clipboard because he was so sick of him being in charge#and now here he is handing off control of the play to him#because above all leslie needs to be in control#babe there are so many things wrong with you let me kiss your forehead like lugaretzia#anyways this post is only partly about him ignore all these tags
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#543
WELL.
SPAMMED TAGS WITH AN ESSAY?
im very proud of these rambles but i can't understand why do i love to spam tags sm
#днявочка#днявочка: hlegacy#eng tag#днявочка: фандомное#damn wright#so i was peacefully asleep and then it came to me that wright is clingy but attaches Value to every hug she received or asked for#because when she was little her parents were too busy so any moment of Family Love was cherished and of gold and --#-- slowly wright was remembering it all after The Battle. what her life was like before everything or what she thought was it like#i couldn't just kill off her mom off-stage i had to implement her in-full somehow so; not to overshare much but sharp will come to know her#and he'll tell everything he learned to wright as he'd originally planned but rookwood intervened and well it's a long story#by the time of that convo blorbos developed bonds over some things already but at that moment -- it was a rubicon ahead of them#wright felt lonelier than ever and sharp couldn't just leave her there for the sake of keeping the subordination up#wright entrusted him with the knowledge and her life and sharp stood by his word; she was *his student* after all and sought his help#so that how it started; still a mentorship but deeper. heavier. *falconry metaphors here*#they did become very close after The Battle but here's the catch: both of them didn't realize it right away#wright's clueless but sharp is always vigilant; he didn't want wright to have too much on her already cluttered mind especially --#-- family related bc the topic is very dear and personal to her. for sharp it was more like 'family what family' --#-- it's tied to scarborough incident (it took his hopes of having any family along with the ship but tshhh oversharing)#so. imagine a loop of suffering; wright seeks comfort and when she finds it in his arms she feels hardly any better because --#-- it reminded her of her father of her mother but sharp is neither of them and the thought of it alone brought wright down very much#sharp isn't a substitute either -- and fear of losing him lingered and ohmygod how much talking they'd go through#self-indulgent part of it: when you're thick skin you tend to oversee many damaging things and may not even know smth has gotten under#wright thought she overcame her losses but in reality she never did and all these events only uncovered her lingers
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as a fan of another pl team i think your problem is that your captain is son. he's too emotional and soft and instead of demanding better of your players he goes around comforting them and protecting them from the refs. idk i feel like he's probably let the band get to his head a bit and now he's pushing people like PEH (who have proper authority) away from the refs, it's a bit weird. strange appointment. he's trying too hard
know him do you?
#you’ve got to be taking the piss? this ask simply reeks of racism LOL#firstly sonny has captained the korean nt for years and has shouldered the hopes and dreams of an entire country#especially because he’s the FIGUREHEAD of ALL korean football in a way nobody has ever really been#that’s not enough responsibility for you? and calling his captaincy style emotional and soft oh so you’re for toxic masculinity too then?#sonny can very much demand the best of his teammates (as he does) and also lead them with kindness and compassion. and it clearly is#working bc every player there would run through a brick wall for him. i’m sorry but big dav missing the pen yesterday and sonny going#straight over to him to hug him and then pappy kissing his back - that’s all sonny’s influence.#maybe you want your team to be a toxic bunch of men but i like my team led by sonny just fine#full of passion and fight and love and support for each other and the fans#‘protect them from the refs’ yeah man maybe bc the dissent rules this szn are mad? have you not seen the red cards?#also you saying PEH has more authority than sonny that’s pure racism LMFAO.#golly gee wonder who has more influence over the players#heungmin son who has played for this club for eight years and has had stellar individual performances#and captains his country with pride and shoulders the burden of being one of the guys to lay the path for asian footballers#and is just an all around sweet dude#or ‘the viking’#please kindly fuck off and go support your team instead of coming here and shitting on my captain.#rahul answers
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STOP STOPPP IM SO CONFLICTED OVER WHAT TO SHIP IN THIS DAMN SHOW
#LIKE SHIT. THAT WAS SO CUTE. i was really against v.anijeanne at the start because of how. Weird their dynamic is#plus v.anoe was just so romantically coded i could not read their relationship as anything else#but that scene!!! of vanitas alone and jeanne being the one to come up to him!!!!!! and the HUG AW#and THE CHEEK KISS#i always wince when v.anijeanne have a bloodsucking scene because yeah it's hot but i find that to be the worst part of their dynamic lol#BUT THEN SHE WENT OFF AND VANITAS HELD HIS CHEEK LOOKING ALL DUMBSTRUCK#LIKE THAT WAS GENUINELY SO SWEET I DIED#but then theres v.anoe. who own the entire op and their dynamic is fascinating and i fr think vanitas has a crush on noe that he hasnt#quite figured out yet bc of how closed off his heart is#god. never fucking mind vanitas has two hands he can date both of them#but ARGH!!!! this is like struggling between s.skk and a.tsulucy all over again lol#i like them both but i cant picture atsushi dating both bc i think aku would not be able to stand it#same here. i dont think noe could stand it. especially cause jeanne's mark is on vanitas. i think therell be BIG jealousy issues on his end#sigh. why did i pick the most bisexual anime ever. even IM conflicted and im not vanitas#lena watches vnc
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hm. i think i will ignore the last 8 episodes of arc v
#why does the writing. keep getting worse??#like i've actually been so invested in this but this is making me so angry???#why would i sit through a 5 episode long duel to end all duels just for. what even#if it were me.#i would have let them defeat zarc. uncorrupt yuya. have him live witj zarc and all the other yu boys SENTIENT personalities in his head#(treats them like a system. the others can front sometimes even)#AND WHILE THE 4 DIMENSIONS WERE STILL MERGING have the declan/yuya dueltaining duel of the century in order to show all 4 worlds rhat duels#are still for fun. and during the duel the other consciousnesses in yuya also get to take part and have fun#UNTIL FINALLY!! zarc remembers the duelist he was before. and he smiles. together he and the yu boys all deal the final blow to declan.#who just smiles acceptingly. the crowds from all 4 dimensions cheer about how fun the duel was. zarc chills out. yuya grounds himself from#the applause to look for zuzu and finds her holding riley who had passed out. they wake up and ask yuya if it's over. he says yes & they hug#we get a brief scene with all of the side characters from different dimensions as they reunite with family and friends. xyz is last tho#shay looks around at the people who have reunited with their families and starts to tear up because his is lost Forever.#saya kite and allen are all like 'that's not true.. we're here' shay's sobbing but he's like 'i'm not...' kite and allen laugh. saya smiles#suddenly the rest of the lancers come through and reach out to shay going 'hey now! our job's not done. we have a new mission'#and they begin traveling across dimensions together to help the rebuilding effort and to boost people's morale through dueltaining#the final scene is shay looking at zuzu (who is also lulu & celina & rin) and she smiles and hugs him so tightly bc they're still siblings#yuto and yuya smile super happily from afar until sora calls put 'hey!! slowpoke! are you coming or not??' yuya dashes off into a portal#with everyone else and yells 'wait for me!!' he nearly falls on his face and everyone laughs. zuzu reaches out her hand and he takes it#they all go into the portal and THE END#sorry that got long and rambly... DISREGARD#just know i hate the ending so much so far that i had to turn it off#sorry i used tye dub names it saves a couple letters in my 140 character tag limit....#chatter#lys watches arc v
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it's like this man wants to be a main f/o of mine...
#thinking about coming home to him and him reading aloud to help us both decompress from the day...#or him having some of the cross stitch things I've made framed & hung up in his office#or or him coming home to me baking and just wrapping his arms around me; resting his chin on my head...#and i can just /feel/the day's tension bleed out of him 🥺🥺#the idea of him getting all soft when it's late at night and he's sleepy & he's more verbally affectionate and just 🥰🥰#but also him growing used to how physically affectionate i am so it's not uncommon to find me in his lap or pressed against his side#like it may not be his immediate first love language but it grows comfy to him over time bc of me#bc he can tell how much hugs & stuff mean to me / calm me down <3#((+ i feel like this says something that this list is just thoughts from yesterday afternoon + this morning...))#stupid scholar worming his way into my head and then not leaving it#irrationally in love 💖📗#i need to post this or i'll just sit here + come up w/ more hah
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I DREAMT ABT MY HUSBANDS DURING MY NAP RN
#ot3: ❤rhyme💛easy💙#tape entry circa 1980#we're just going to ignore what LEAD UP TO IT CAUSE IT WAS SOOO FUNNY BUT KINDA MESSED GHFDSJ#ok short summary i was driving like a maniac down the road at like 80 mph and just started making cars crash all around me who were trying#to avoid me and then a whole mob formed to find me because of it GFHDSJK#MOVING ON#i was trying to hide from them in this big building#...and then i saw them#min and ryan were there and they saw me#i waved them over asking them to come over here#once we got to a room alone i held them both so tightly against me#and they both held onto me too and it just... felt so nice... it felt so real#tbh i dont even remember what i was really saying to them for the most part anymore its kinda a blur#but i just remember i kept fucking hugging them i was just so happy to see them both#i remember picking up ryan and spinning him around#and i remember hugging them both and managing to just barely lift them both off the ground before it was too much and setting them down#hfdsjkfdjhjsdk#i lost sight of them for a while but i saw them again on my way home and ran back to them and asked if they had to go#they both said no and i asked them if they wanted to come back home with me for now#they said yes so i grabbed them and lead them down to my place#i had to stop ryan from just running across the road and getting hit by a bus ghdfsj#i remember at some point being able to admire mins face and smile back in that building but here...#i got to experience my ryan....... 🥺😭💖#ive never dreamt anything where i was truly interacting w ryan in a cute way#but here the wind was blowing and ryans hair was flying all over and i was like oh? and he was like hm??#and when the wind stopped i was like oh no i thought your hair was shorter from how it looked for a second in the wind#cause it did and tbh it still looked cute!#i just remember saying that while running my hands through his hair...fixing it up a bit and brushing some of of it behind his ears#then i took both their hands and lead them across to street and i was jumping up and down in excitement as i got my door unlocked#to let them in
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can SOMEONE please tell me how to move PAST it. mac voice just move past it. i need to move past it
#you know how like. you would THINK a whirlwind romance would fix you... i thought i needed a fast and crazy relationship however turns#out i'm too mentally ill to actually let GO. to actually KNOW when it's over. i am still hung up on him as#if it isn't the most over it's ever been. it is OVER. girl snap OUT OF IT.#but. then i remember how he. held my hand through the dutch bros drive thru. or when he kissed the top of my head. let me drink#his coffee. asked me where i am so he can swing by to take me to jamba juice#my second ever kiss was in a fucking pharmacy. surrounded by psych meds. i was shaking and he like. hugged me. like girl#i don't even care if like. none of it was real and he just used me. because to me it was real. he loved me at least#the idea of me in those moments and i loved him BACK. girl i would do anything to go back i would do anything#but i know i can't. so instead i am sitting here. holding out that he'd somehow come BACK. he once told me he doesn't want#to mess me up but i threw myself at him because i was so sure the heartbreak will be worth the love. he really was amazing#for just that few months we were buddies. a part of me will always want him and he told me i'll always have a part of his heart but like .#it doesn't matter. never did. because he was never mine to have. never mine to lose. so all of this means nothing. because it never#should have happened. which makes the sadness unbearable lol it shouldn't even be here i am suffering for no fucking reason#fuck my baka life#personal
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#nunya beeswax#i dropped davids stuff off today with an angry letter and a sad letter#and he texted me basically right after saying that he had read them and wanting to come over and talk#and i honest to god figured he wanted to argue but i was like. well i can just kick him out if he starts arguing#but instead he came over and sat down and said ‘youre right about everything you said. i was a bad partner to you and you deserve better. im#not going to make excuses im just here to say that i truly am sorry and i hope you can forgive me’#and i cried a lot and we hugged a lot and anyway. hes gone now. but we’re on good terms again#and the weight of the world on my shoulders feels much much lighter
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