#( ive just been thinking abt the threads on the server and stuff and im just RAAAAHHH )

[hazbinhive]

not to be crazy but im so grrr grrr i wanna do things with Abel

[qrichas]

vent post. fandom neg, not abt any specific situation, feel free to ignore and scroll past

i get so tired of the overprotection the fandom has regarding characters and actions sometimes it feels too annoying to bear seeing stuff anywhere anymore. i understand when its done with the purpose to avoid miscaracterization from people who dont watch them and try to paint anything they do as the completly opposite or even false stuff at all also ofc its natural to have a bias towards your favorite, you like them and want people to understad them. but its tiring as fuck seeing posts like "how dare x character say something about y like that" when y character did something that bothered x and its normal they react like that, or "the situation between a b c and d is so sad bc no one takes into account a's feelings about this and how much they went thru" when 'a' never communicated properly what they go thru neither b c or d interacts in their pov the moment things happened, being impossible to know what happened without metagaming, or "h never gave any reason to distrust j about this" when they dont need to, even if its a tragic situation, characters will simply choose if they want to trust someone or not.

and the "trust" part is also something that makes me very pissed bc ppl act like any minor misstep someone makes is a "break of [characters] trust" and that they should isolate bc theyre oh so sad and no one cares about them and life is tragedy for them. when the people on the server are literally friends in real life and not always theyre gonna be full time roleplaying so ofc theyre gonna want to spend time with people regardless if their characters have beef with each other. i get you want to engage with the themes that are presented with a character and the story in general and discuss the analysis behing it but not everything is to be taken 100% seriously in need of deep discussions or long threads, sometimes things can change in the blink of an eye if the cc wants to, bc thats their character and their playstyle and they can do whatever they want with it. and i say this as a person with favorite characters, favorite themes i like to engage and discuss abt them, and that wants others to understand their actions and how their trajectory in the story is non-linear. but im also aware i dont need to excuse everything they do to make them seem like they're never wrong in any situation and theyre in fact the one who suffered most and people who are reacting negatively or having their own opinions abt them are, in fact, wrong and never understood the character as a person. not everything is abt your main pov and you have to be aware of this (tho its fine to joke like "they did nothing wrong!!!!" i myself do that, just be self aware). even if i dont like the way a character reacted to something my favorite has done/said (because its normal to be upset abt these things) or i think its unfair, its literally not on me to say what that character does or has to do and only them can choose what to do abt it, because after all this is a medium of semi improv roleplay, its not a fictional world with fleshed out characters with a start and an end. the ccs will say or do things they dont actually mean to say or do in character sometimes, and without counting the language barrier factor. anyway, ppl are free to complain abt stuff thats their blog and their own opinions and they can keep doing whatever. however ill be blocking posts and blogs that annoy me to no end regarding this situation in specific and then enjoying what my mutuals are posting or talking abt. i just wanted to put this vent out here bc thats something ive been bothered with for a long time and i cant vent this properly nowhere else lol.

[antlerqueer]

8, 15, 18, 22, 29. 35

8. Name any three things about the rpc that bother you.

HOOO BOY.

starting off hot.

1. the hypocrisy behind which fcs are cancelled/banned in the rpc. my personal banned list isn’t something i have “values” behind as much as it is my own comfort and understanding, i don’t make groups im in ( unless i’ve made the groups ) ban these faces .... but it’s so funny (read: not)!!!! how ester exposito used the n-word and everyone uses her as a fc but dove cameron repeated some shit that looks like she read it from a behavioral therapy blog and how dare anyone use dove cameron now and not know why ppl dont like her? ( please note - i’m not saying don’t ban her. i don’t care who you ban. but the attitudes towards these two relatively common faces are so wildly different when people encounter them in the rpc. and we know why. )

2. the fact ppl didn’t join my rp when i put so much work into it. i guess that’s not really something that generally bothers me, just made me feel bad a few times. it counts bc i say it does!!!

3. the rpc on tumblr, since ive been in it like 10+ yrs, has always been rly weird about boundaries, mental health. and i’ve participated in that weirdness tbh and i’m not going to say i’m an angel and always have been because i’m not and i haven’t. i don’t have a fix for this. it’s just a thing that i see a lot. 

15. How has rp changed you personally?

i’ve always been a writer. my parents thought i was going to be an author. writing was a way i could express myself when i was younger and unfortunately i have a hard time with that now. i over-explain and go into details in real life while i talk now and it’s probably because i have so many words inside of me and i don’t know how to get them out. 

this community, esp the groups i’ve had the privileges to write with, have been encouraging. even when someone isn’t doing something the exact way the rpc wants it, people are able to reach out and help. there are more rphs than active roleplay groups and i think it’s because we all want to be helpful to each other. 

rp on tumblr has been a sense of community in times where i could have otherwise been completely alone. it’s corny but it probably has helped save me from destructive shit.

18. Have you ever sent hate to yourself on anon? Why?

i was 16 and no one was sending anons on ask day to my muse so i sent my muse mean anons for ic drama. is that what you want me to confess????

but also no i haven’t. i haven’t sent anonymous hate anywhere, i think.

22. What would make you block someone?

me not wanting to see their content lmaooo. i’ve blocked people for rping grody stuff and i’ve blocked people bc i saw their posts in the tags too much. @ anyone still reading this: literally block whomever u want and liberally i promise u it’s fine

i know i’ve been blocked and if that’s what makes someone feel better abt being on this site or in servers???? good on them. they did the right thing.

29. What is your opinion on “reblog karma” and do you practice it?

i reblog pretty much everything i use. i reblog things i don’t use. i reblog everything. (is that what reblog karma is? reblogging things in hopes ppl will reblog ur things? i hope i didn’t read that wrong)

35. Do you read other people’s threads or do you only read your own?

i’m a nosy binch of course i read other people’s threads. i wanna see what other people’s characters are getting up to. love to see it.