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TWISTED

Every lies can be twisted

Molded into some kind of truth

Somehow it is decieving

How I kept on pouring the cup full but never spilling

I know it wasn't fair

But it's the only thing to keep it this way

Much to my dismay

It is something that I just can't say

It is something that I want to keep

Even if it will never be 'that' way

I just keep things as it is

And then coninued to play

Maybe you'll never know

Because that's what the point is

The intention is to never show

It is somewhat shameful

Only letting you see part of a whole

But as for me, from the start that's the only goal

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FREEDOM SHOULD BE FREE

Freedom should be free

Yet it cost our existence

Bloodshot orbs, pure hearts shattered

Tears covered air and sound of agony

Bawling eyes and continuous plea

Wrecked form of innocence

Holding onto thin edge

Freedom should be free

Yet It cost my soul and sanity

Standing high dark walls

Fire screams as it fall

Deep dark hole creeping in every floor

Deep dark void behind every wall

Freedom should be free

Yet it cost all I have in me

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WE ARE THIRSTY

Things left undone

Mind felt empty

Body seem numb

In happiness we are thirsty

Jailed thoughts

Imprisoned sanity

Blaring voice of agony

In peace we are thirsty

Words left unsaid

Feelings left unspoken

Look of pity and false empathy

In sincerity we are thirsty

Shattered trust

Empty words with rust

Feelings behind every mask

In truth we are thirsty

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Gusto mo kape?

Kapag libre syempre

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Sana pala natulog nalang ako

thinking about how the ivy trio had to spend so much time separated.

newt and minho in the maze for years, waiting for thomas even if they couldnt remember it

thomas and newt trying to get back minho, risking everything to get him back and save him

minho and thomas stuck for the rest of their lives in a paradise and reality with no newt

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how are we gonna gloss over the fact newt referred to thomas AND minho as his hearts. his everythings. like what

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Video of a kitten at a vet’s office protesting loudly as it’s scooped from the floor. Another kitten turns around the corner and walks up to the camera, also protesting loudly for its friend. From here.

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Last Remains

Have you ever wake up in the morning and the first thing you hear is the sound of your parents arguing?  Whatever weather it is for the day, it all just brought one feeling; Gloom. There’s nothing special about the weather to erase this embarked feeling that has been dominating my existence since the day I learned to understand things. There’s nothing special about my life too. It’s normal, or I must say, so typical. But I wish I was never born. Some might think that I am ungrateful for my life but hear me first— It’s hard to find something  to be grateful in my life. Nobody asked my permission if I wanted to be here and be responsible for my existence. And oh, actually, my parents didn’t see me coming too. Can you imagine the face they made when they saw the two lines on the pregnancy test—which by the way something that my mother never thought she’ll take. They should’ve watched the series ‘sex education’ on Netflix so they were able to avoid my birth. How I wish they did. But some wish are not meant to be in reality.

 

“I’m so done of you!” I heard dad said. I’m inside my bedroom and silently wishing for my parents to leave the house so I can finally have my peace. It’s weekend and my Dad does not have work, but my mom does. However, Dad never stayed here on the weekend except at night. What was he doing or where was he? I don’t know. But I’m not stupid. As to where he goes every weekend, it’s probably something not so innocent. What else could be the reason my mother throw tantrums every weekend night when my father comes back? If my speculation were right, I'm conflicted if I should feel pity towards her or just remain indifferent. I mean, ‘indifferent’, that’s how I describe their treatment towards their only daughter— towards me—so I kind of grew up manifesting that personality too—indifferent.

 

It's too early in the morning and here I am thinking about death. It fascinates me. Will someone cry for my death? Will someone offer their eulogy to me? I don’t know. Even still, I want to die. And also, I want to die because I want to see her. I am hoping on life after death. I am hoping that I’ll finally be with her again once I say goodbye to this world. She’s the only person who loved me… 

 

I was too occupied by my thoughts that I did not notice the tears slowly escape its way out my swollen eyes. Have I been crying since earlier? I don’t know… I damp my cheeks then jolted out of my bed since I can’t hear my parents anymore. Seems like they left already. Ah, finally peace. I went out to take a half bath first. Ah, the sound of water dripping from the shower calms me. It’s… it’s so peaceful. I almost fell on the floor! Gosh! This water is making me sleepy. I decided to end my little peace in the shower then dress up my self. I went to the kitchen after to check for breakfast. And… the table is empty. And the sink has undone plates. Great, just great. A very good way to start my weekend. It’s not new though. It’s very usual. “Just everyday and this!” I sighed as I contemplated whether to go outside to buy breakfast since I know that nothing on the refrigerator will fascinate me. It’s normal for me not to eat breakfast but right now, “Jeez, I’m hungry. Why I didn’t eat yesterday night?” I scolded myself then proceeds to the go outside.

 

“Now, what should I buy?” I talked to myself as I was walking on the street. It’s still early, the sun is still radiant and the sky… it’s so clear. I suddenly stop then moved my hands upward, pointing at the sky. “What a lovely day it is… I wonder what it feels like to be up there, to be with you?” I am pulled out from my reverie when a girl from behind cleared her throat waiting for me to move. I immediately move slightly to give her way and yeah…  that’s embarrassing. I laughed to myself then proceed walking again. As I reached the side walk where the pedestrian lane is adjacent with, I waited for the pedestrian light to turn green. One second… two seconds… .14 seconds, why does it have to be 60 seconds?! As I was complaining to myself a familiar person caught my gaze from the other side of the street. My eyes went wide… no… it can’t be—I mean she’s— am I hallucinating? No, It can’t be real! But I’m pretty sure I’m still sane. I felt my feet rooted in my place for a moment but later on unconsciously walks on its own. I didn’t realized that I was hurriedly walking towards the other side of the street as I was screaming and crying. “Grandma! Grandma! Wait! Oh my God. Grandma!” I heard voices around me, calling me, but my attention is solely focus on her. I didn’t realized that I am already in the middle of the driveway. A sound of horn suddenly woke me up from my seemingly hallucination. As I was about to run back from the sidewalk, I suddenly felt a loud smash of metal on my body. I felt a ticking blood from my head as I fell unconscious…  before completely losing my consciousness, I looked back at the other side of the street again and there I saw my grandmother… smiling at me.

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anyway here’s one of my favourite moments from tst

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Minho carrying his friends (with Thomas and Frypan) throughout the trilogy.

Bonus:

Newt and Aris carrying Minho after he got struck by lighting.

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okay so, i personally think that thominho's bond, relationship, and development is better and bigger than any other relationship, even newtmas, and we all should pay more attention to it. here it is why i think so. during the death cure (movie) thomas was fighting to not lose his friends as he always does, but in this movie he cared the most about minho, he cared so much that he could literally put every single person in the world in danger just to save one, who is his best friend and the person he would do anything for. obviously through the movie we see how he is trying to save frypan, and brenda, the kids captured by wckd, gally, but what i think we center the most is how much he cared about newt, and he very much did! but we tend to forget that the whole movie, the whole six months of planning, everything that happens between the end of tst to the end of tdc, is about minho, about rescuing him nd saving him. yes, in the way to get to it thomas fought for newt, for teresa, but no matter how many people he lost, he still had minho. and seeing minho in the safe heaven, hugging him, finding that comfort that only minho could gave him that made him understand that it was worth it. and i am so proud of him, and of every single one of them, newt, teresa, brenda, gally, frypan, alby, all of them; because without them, thomas would've lost minho, and without minho, thomas would have lost himself.

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minho, when the gang are saving the train: *sitting in his seat, looking up at the ceiling*

minho, looks around at the other immunes in his car: theyre saving the other car aren’t they?

random other immune: yes they are

minho:

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@lumikhaaaa yieeeee

REBLOG if you have amazing, talented WRITER friends.

Because I certainly do, and I love every single one of them and their work.

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“I read Minho, and I was like, I love this character. I have to play him. I just wanted to make sure that I brought in whatever the book had on this character and try to please the fans of the book that way because actually, the first time I met Wes Ball, the director, even before I started my audition, he was like, ‘Hey, Minho is the fans’ favorite character so no pressure.’”

— Ki Hong Lee talking about reading The Maze Runner before he went in for his audition

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Asian Pacific American Heritage Month ∟Day 12: Kihong Lee as Minho in The Maze Runner trilogy

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HUE OF MELANCHOLY

Sky is blue

Like me when I think of you

Sitting here, no clue

Wondering... Are those promises true?

Mind clouded with gray

Why can't I make you stay?

What are your reasons?

What are those you can't say?

Heart covered in Red

Pleas seem unheard

Bawled my eyes as you cut the thread

Listen as you say "This is the end"

Yellow colored horizon

Peaceful field of dandelions

Reminice sunshine filled days

For the last time...

Before letting the light

Float to the darkest night