#( also you totally don't need to match this lmao i got rambly )

[niieve]

based on: plot in source

the longer he sat there and waited for her to arrive, the longer he began to feel like this whole thing was ridiculous. he was puckzilla, since when did he need help getting a date? since never, that was when. he’d been pulling baddies since he was still in pampers. but... santana’s friends were like, notoriously hot, and, well... just because it was easy for him to get someone into bed, that didn’t mean his skills transferred over when it came to looking for something a little more serious. and lately, though he was pretty sure it went against some sort of puckerman code, he’d been finding himself wanting more. he was a man now, with a successful pool-cleaning business, a relatively nice home - for ohio, anyway - and a sweet foosball table. the only thing missing was someone special to share it with. 

unfortunately, lucky-in-love had never been a phrase that was applicable to him. it was karma, probably, considering all the relationships he’d destroyed in the past. but, really, how was he the bad guy there? all he’d been doing was providing a service, if anything, bringing some entertainment to the lives of hot, bored housewives, giving them the attention that they’d been lacking from their husbands. or, at least... that was how he’d always tried to justify it. but now? he wanted more than that. more than some little game, more than just a way to pass the time. he wanted connection. he wanted love, like the kind he’d felt only once before - only this time, he wanted it reciprocated. 

it didn’t seem likely that a blind date would end up with him finding that happy ever after he’d been searching for - especially when he wasn’t sure whether or not the whole thing was just some big prank, considering who’d organized it - but he had to at least put himself out there, and give it a shot. if nothing else, well... a guy’s gotta eat, right? there were worse ways to spend an evening than fooling around with one of santana’s hot friends. 

the last thing he was expecting, however, was for quinn fucking fabray of all people to walk through the door. for a second, puck wondered if there was a chance the special brownie he’d consumed two nights prior was stronger than he’d thought, and she was nothing more than a hallucination. but the closer she got to his table, the more clear it became; she was here, right in front of him, beautiful as ever. what a weird coincidence. he hadn’t even known she was in town - though he supposed that wasn’t too unusual. it’s not like they really kept in touch, beyond a happy birthday text or the occasional like on instagram. but that didn’t mean he couldn’t say hi, though, right? they’d had a kid together, they should at least be able to share a few words of small talk. so... why was he hiding his face behind a menu? good question. one that, well, honestly, he didn’t have an answer for - and sadly, this wasn’t the kind of pop quiz that could be solved by cheating off the person next to him. 

[ultraviolet-cello]

Gooooood morning Trigun fandom, I'm up bright and early, ready to sink my teeth into today's analysis/detailed watchthrough episode - 11. To A New World.

I can't believe we're almost done with @tristampparty. These 12 days have been a blast and I'm very glad that I got to chat abt them!! I've been in a bout of artblock recently too, so I'm glad that I can just ramble instead!

Spoilers for Trigun Stampede and Trigun Maximum, and CWs for. okay this one is a Lot, but discussion of violation of bodily autonomy, sexual assault and trauma, pregnancy, transphobia, harm coming to children, Millions Knives in general, Vash's passive suicidal tendencies. If I think of any more I'll pop them up here but this episode is a heavy one!

If you wanna skip those first few CWs (Totally understandable <3), you can skip the paragraphs labelled with a [CW] at the front.

[CW] Okay so we're gonna tail off the end of Episode 10 for a second, but uh. Knives in this scene is using extremely Loaded Language to outright tell Vash that there is something wrong with him that needs to be fixed.

Just to be clear I do think Vash is very trans-coded (intentionally or not), and that very strongly influences how I interpret this scene - I myself am a trans man as well.

Cool, moving on! That's all really for the end of ep 10, I just needed to point out that Knives is using language that is commonly used to justify corrective sexual assault; which is pretty much what my reading of this scene is analogous to.

what in the fresh hell i got jumpscared by dub again. returning to subs hold on a moment. Like i've been checking dub occasionally to match up some dialogue and make sure I'm not being misled by Subtitle Jank but I'm one of those guys who can't listen to anything without subtitles lmao

But i also think i do get the funniest possible translation of this line - actually wait no i hate the double meaning (with Vash's body being used to kickstart the pregnancy imagery). was that intentional. who did this.

Anyway Meryl kicking Wolfwood is really funny but also like. Yeah. justified. She's having a no good awful time but like. She's so willing to believe in Vash, to chase after him even into Extremely Dangerous conditions (There's those hints of Trimax Meryl again....) and Wolfwood is being an ass here. (An understandable ass. But an ass nonetheless). Which is to say YEAHHH MERYL GET HIS ASS!!!

Knives' gay little like. bodysuit here. He and Vash have the same build but their respective clothes make them stand out very differently. Also that Knives' stuff seems to have more muscle definition (HYDRATE. You shouldn't have that Knives you need water :pensive:) which could be building towards his more intimidating appearance.

Also I'd be a fool to not show everyone my initial reaction to this

I've talked a little bit about how Vash uses his gun as a tonfa (thwacky baton) most of the time in melee combat, and I think that's a great way to show him utilizing something Knives gave him to Kill as a nonlethal weapon - in this, however, he doesn't have it and his normally very fluid very good form martial arts is flailing and panicked. Vash is pretty good at keeping his cool in most combat situations, and is a very skilled fighter. Seeing him lose that cool and just start struggling when Knives tries to grab him is :(

Once again the metal/organic dichotomy is coming into play - the creation of inorganic but the destruction that comes from the organic. Typically plant (as in flora) powers in media lend themselves to being creation powers, life, and healing. But Vash here has that plant (flora) theme but those are very much a force for destruction.

Also Knives with the angelic white, and Vash with the black.

I hate Conrad So Much (he's such a good character). Like we Know to some extent that dependent plants are self-aware enough to feel pain, to hold onto memories, to hatred, to love. They don't have consciousness the same way humans or Independents do, but they feel, they live, they understand what Vash tells them. Maybe it is a shallow form of themselves. But I think something a lot of people fail to realize is that (some, not all, because they are individuals even throughout a hivemind) plants appear to enjoy their purpose.

Once again the memory that is shared with Knives in Trimax of a woman and her child thanking the plant for her service and she smiles? After being fused, that plant held onto that memory. I've been given no reason to believe that plants in Tristamp are different, so Conrad is just,,, ignoring the subtleties of plants and taking away their agency to choose for themselves. Doubly so for Knives, who can communicate efficiently with them.

A very quick blink and you'll miss it detail is that Vash says "It was our fault humans crashed here!". The shifting blame and guilt between the two is something that is fighting the narrative allll the time, but Vash attributing to both of them as an appeal to Knives is interesting to relay how he feels.

I also don't think Vash is right, though, when he says the only reason humans abuse plants is because they crashed. Tesla was before, Chronica in Trimax has apparently seen independent fusions before (For what reason?). Like yeah to this extent it's a result of the big fall, but there'd still be problems without it. Nobody is right in this argument lmao

(except me. I'm always correct about everything ever)

[CW] Once again - violating Vash's consent and autonomy because he does not agree with or differs from Knives. Corrective violation, in this case. It's also important that it's Meryl who calls this out - she has to really really struggle for her autonomy to be important. She's small, carry-able, inexperienced, doesn't have any special powers or genetic modification. She's carrying a tiny gun from a man who can never back her up anymore. In fact, nobody is backing her up! She's out here alone! But she's sticking up for Vash. She cares about him,,,, so much

SURPRISE ROBERTO ATTACK [sobs]

Meryl pulled the nail out of him and placed his hands gently over the wound, as one might do in a casket. A memorial of cigarettes and his flask. All this will be destroyed soon, but Meryl did give him a funeral to the best of her ability.

Knives using Roberto's image is cruel as hell. Not to Vash but to ME. He's already dead you can't do this to meeee. "How do you think they'll react when they learn you caused the big fall" He will never learn it!! he never got the chance!!!

So fun fact you can actually eat geraniums. It's just that if Rem had said yes Vash probably would have eaten it right there and then. I've made that mistake before (told one of my class that nasturtiums were edible and he just ate one. right from the plant)

So; the Tesla scene. Something I do want to point out is that Rem finds them almost immediately, and Knives doesn't immediately pass out - Is he still catatonic enough to miss Rem's speech, or did he hear it? Because the reason that Vash turned out like he did is because he was awake to go through that with Rem - Knives was unconscious the entire time and didn't get to start that trauma recovery.

It's also important to recognize that these memories could be unreliable, especially as Knives tampers with them later.

I do want to know which version of the Bible Knives was reading. Because depending on translation/version, you can get Very different ideas out of that.

Anyway Knives is kind of beginning his spiral in that memory - "Humanity never learns" kinda shit, which seems to take place after Tesla. Who knows how long. But baby Vash calls that out and goes "yeah lets have faith"! Baby Knives looks a tad shocked and then Present Knives just. Cuts off the memory. What was the ensuing conversation!!! Hello???

Like he's clearly Having Thoughts (The Horror), we just don't get to know what those were.

So remember when I said it was interesting that Vash said it was "our" fault that the ships crashed, sharing the blame?

Yeah that gave Knives some ammo that just. Broke him. Shifts it allllll to Vash. Update Vash's description to running on 18 guilt complexes, CPTSD, and bisexuality.

[CW] There's so many different forms of assault, metaphorical and. Not. That is happening in this scene from mind violation to Knives literally using Vash's (specifically Vash's) body as a vessel to impregnate other plants which. Hey did you know that pregnancy is a massive fear of a lot of trans men. So many transphobes reduce trans men to their capability to have children, as if that's all they're good for (even if it would kill them.), and that often leads to corrective rape in order to "remind them of biological reality". In this case, Vash is a plant, he's meant to create, and yet he doesn't. But he's still being used to create anyway.

Again, Meryl also directly calls out Vash's lack of consent and gets shot down by Conrad. The whole scene is just. Hgnrhgnhrhnrnrn. It's So,,, everything to me, because it's a really good scene and shows you how far gone Knives is in Tristamp.

There are panels in Trimax that are,,, the imagery is there, but it's very overt in Tristamp.

Also hey yeah. Why is Conrad still alive?? Did he have access to cold sleep? or it's probably the robotics but did he not think of enhancing humans that way? It might just be a temporary solution, I guess, given that he is. Actively coughing up blood.

Alright! I have finished this part of the analysis that I always Feel Strongly about lmao - I have fun doing it but that's such an emotionally heavy episode.

[iguessit-sgrace]

HIIII please take this ask as an opportunity to ramble about the marauders girls i’m also undergoing brainrot 👍👍

(also hiiiii fellow christian in the marauders fandom)

clip i love you (can i call you clip? i'm gonna call you clip)

first off YES I FOUND ANOTHER ONE. it's so hard being a christian in this fandom 😭 very morally conflicting sometimes! but then i remind myself they're just characters and we're all good <3

secondly, brainrot is so real lmao. i was up far too late last night listening to christmas kids and right where you left me on LOOP because of the Mary Thoughts™️

so i'm gonna ramble about my girl <333

adgvcfbvsdhnbhjkk i love mary so much!!!! she's so interesting and complicated and there's so much unexplored potential!! like, the conflict between wanting to help her friends in the war, but also the need to keep herself and her family safe? plus the headcanon that she obliviated herself?! amazing gimme 14.

i like to think that she was born in a family where her mum, michelle, was a nurse and was barely ever home, and her dad, brian, was a teacher and usually was preoccupied with school and other things, so mary kinda raised herself and her little brother benjamin. she was also very close with her cousins, her extended family was pretty tight-knit. when she got her letter, dumbledore came and explained to her immediate family, then said that nobody but her parents and brother could know. so her cousins assumed she was off at a fancy boarding school and kinda drifted apart from her, which really disappointed mary :(.

when she first got to hogwarts it was really nerve-wracking for her, since she knew nobody and sat alone on the train. but when she was sorted into gryffindor and met with applause, she quickly found her place with alice fortescue <3 (alice took all of the gryffindor girls under her wing; lily, marlene, mary, etc. (she reminded mary a lot of her older female cousins and that helped her feel a lot more comfortable) (go alice!!))

her favorite colour is pink <333 specifically like a deep raspberry pink.

speaking of which, raspberry cheesecake cookies are her favorite food ever. ironically though, strawberries are her favorite fruit.

marlene was her first love, but they were tragically right person, wrong time. marlene wanted a great, romantic love, and mary just couldn't give her that.

after marlene dies, she can't take the pain anymore, so she moves to new york and obliviates herself.

mary has a very unhealthy obsession with cherry vanilla coke (totally not projecting here).

unpopular opinion but i think her patronus is a sea turtle <3

her birthday is march 8th!

i think mary actually struggled a lot with nightmares after mulciber imperioed her. (is that what we've decided on? the fandom changes what he did to her like every second, i can't keep up 😭) but yeah, her focus is never quite the same: she zones out a lot more often, has trouble recognizing herself in the mirror, and wakes up from nightmares of doing horrible things to someone but not being in control of herself.

i read a fic once where her real name was marisol, and while i don't personally headcanon that i think it's the cutest thing ever <3

mary had a very unrequited love for lily for almost two years. she doesn't remember when she fell for her, but it plagued her for so long, pining for someone that was very clearly in love with someone else (even if lily hadn't realized it yet). this was the same time that marlene fell hard for mary. (which was what made the marylene arc even more tragic- mary was half in love with lily, half trying to get over her by being with marlene. (she realized she loved marlene during the war, but marlene was with dorcas, and then marlene was gone.))

mary has a miserable habit of falling in love with people too late (me too girl me too).

she has matching heart-shaped sunglasses with marlene and sirius!

she doesn't smoke cigarettes very often (she prefers to smoke weed with peter) but when she does, she makes sure that they're stained pink from her lipsticks and then she puts them in her scrapbooks

she scrapbooks!! everything!! photos, cigarette buttes, receipts, movie tickets, wrapping paper, literally anything that reminds her of a memory. she has a box under her bed in her dorm that's specifically filled with scrapbooks she's made over the years. she packs them with her when she moves to new york, and they're what eventually break the obliviate spell.

mary never quite felt right having magic. she loved it, but as the war progressed, she grew to hate it, and eventually just escaped back into the muggle world.

she gives friendship bracelets to all of the marauders & co <3 (the boys are too proud to admit it, but they never take them off)

mary has a concerning addiction to lipgloss

she always wanted an older sister :(

her favorite abba song was "when i kissed the teacher". she'd tease remus while singing it because all of the marauders knew he dreamed of being a professor one day

she and sirius were each other's first kiss. they dated for a little while, but mary could very clearly tell that sirius wasn't into it, so she broke it off.

mary was the real casanova of gryffindor tower be so for real

y'all, remus may have been handsome and mysterious but he was an awkward loser nerd lmao

mary knew everyone. everyone knew mary. everyone had made a bet with mary at some point, and everyone owed mary a favor. that's just how hogwarts worked. mary Knows Everyone

she almost always wore her hair natural, so for april fool's day she had peter help her put it in bright pink braids (he was a fast learner and surprisingly competent at it, so she recruited him for help more often after). watching sirius scream in the morning was one of her best memories.

out of the marauders, she's closest to peter. they clicked immediately and gossip about everything and everyone as they get stoned

mary knows better than to play chess against him though

mary is notorious for meddling in love lives, but in a good way. she's very socially smart, and accepts bribes for helping a poor bloke get a girlfriend or whatnot. however, she only helps if it's clear there's chemistry: if not, she's not going to waste her time on it. (this is how most of the school owes her)

mary never backs down from a challenge. she's the reigning champion of truth or dare (she has a flimsy paper crown from a christmas cracker with "truth or dare queen" written on it).

she really likes the game marbles for some reason. no one knows why but she begs someone to play it with her all the time. she also collects marbles.

she's british with jamaican roots <3

she's an amazing dancer. like it's insane how fluidly she moves and makes it all look effortless

mary kisses everyone. lips, cheeks, foreheads, hands, arms- everyone gets a kiss somewhere. it's how she displays affection. it's also adorably hilarious when she kisses a first year on the head and they get all flushed and confused. she just giggles and goes over to join one of her many, many, many friends

mary is friends with practically everyone, but she's only close with the marauders & co. peter, lily, remus, and marlene are the only ones she actually opens up to :(

i just love her a lot

she gives me a lot of thoughts

love you mare 💕

[sillylittlelemon]

HELLO!! ok sorry I’m not sure if ur still doing match ups so u can just ignore this if u want but could I get a saiki k and a hazbin hotel matchup <33

- I’m a certified yapper and I will ramble on about my interests for hours

- Im a big people pleaser and I try my best to make everyone around me feel comfortable and appreciated

- I tend to tolerate toxic behaviour just to avoid abandonment

- Im a romcom enthusiast and a bit of a film buff

- I like loads of music and singers but lately I’ve been loving my bloody valentine , salvia palth , alex g and Tyler the creator.

- My love languages are probably acts of service and physical touch.

- My humour is kinda all over the place and Im a sucker for dad jokes and well thought out dirty jokes

- I’m a hopeless romantic and I would probably fall head over heels for anyone who shows the slightest amount of interest in me

Okay- i wasnt sure about your sexuality (or gender) so ill do short headcannons for two characters i think youd fit with (seperatly not poly)

Sorry to my other requests im working as i go- right now tumblr is a passion project so ive gotta feel like- i dunno 'the spark' to actually get it done, but i promiseim trying

ALSO just a warning to anyone who reads/requests saiki k stuff, its been a bit sincei watched the show and also i donthave anywhere ican watch it currently so characters areprobably atleast a little ooc

This chick-

(I make a vauge reference to a little spice in her part but nothing explicit or bad)

And this guy-

YES. I know they have totally different vibes but hear me out.

He gives such 'im a big tough guy, but please love me in secret and call me your favorite boy'

she gives such 'im a brat but im your brat and actually i just want love and attention because i look like i would have major mommy issues'

And i dunno it just works

He would def be a cuddle bug once the walls are down and yall have bonded more and your in private(read: MUST be in private bc bb boy is defensive and dont f with pda), i feel like hes the type to hold you on his chest and rub your back (yall are laying on his/your couch or bed) and when he thinks your asleep he starts murmuring under his breath about how he's so glad you got past his walls- about how it means so much to him that you put up with his bs. This def lead to you pretending to be asleep more often so you can hear in words how he really feels, because lets be honest, words dont always equal feelings, and sometimes (i.e most times) he doesnt say it how he means it.

Now HER on the other hand-

All. Over. You.

Like..

Lowkey her?

Shes just so happy to HAVE you, right? Like- soulmates or not, youre hers. She adores you. Worships the ground you walk on, praises you breathless in more ways than one. Shes so confident- like... even if she isnt ACTUALLY, she portrays it so well, and she Hypes. You. Up. 24/7, 365. No matter if youre short, tall, heavy, skinny, freckled, dark, pale, or anywhere in between. She is making sure everyone knows youre her girl (or boy or whatever but based on your sentence structure im guessing female?) [NOT MEANT TO BE OFFENSE I SWEAR I JUST IMAGINED YOU BEING FEMALE?] -oh god im gunna get cancelled-

N-E-Ways

Same here but itll be just generally better bc im more caught up with this fandom lol

He is this

But he wants to be this so bad

Sir precious for my darling precious

And

His love lmao

Sir Precious is 100% angel material (take that sera you bitch 🤟😝) He's just.... precious. Lmao. We've seen how flustered he gets with Cherry and imagine that but like- in an ACTUAL relationship with pda and shit. Like- stuttering, panicking, but also completely soothed by the hand currently resting in his? So many conflicting emotions, y'knowwww... he might need a kiss to get his head straight? Or maybe two? Hmmm, no that didnt work- lets try three, third times a charm right? *cue pentious sly+nervous smile* Would 100% bury his face in your tits/chest (under much encouragement and reassurance even more now that his minions spill the tea that hes been talking in his sleep about this very moment)

-can we talk about the smooth bass in the finale?-

-poor husk, man was singing and smiling like his soul was free-

Why do i feel like this is right up her alley?

Onto Miss Bomb,

She's a lot more brash in her affections. Not afraid to tug you down to her level and suck your soul out through your lips. Def had an emo phase when she was alive (if shes not still in it) She just.. loves you. Like her and angel you guys bicker, but i feel like while youre bickering she has her chin resting on your chest/tits, staring up at you with the slyest smirk and biggest heart eyes known to demon AND man kind.

[mrcrowblargs]

Doing the thing, I booted up my manual End of Act 1 save and am redoing some shadowlands with Aldiirn.

It's good seeing his face again. One of Astarion's greetings for the time is "i missed that face" ME TOO BUD. Aldiirn's hair was originally brighter but I tweaked it to match the adjustments I did when the mirror first came out, aside from intense greys. Let that be a transformation stress thing. For now, luxurious white drow locks.

More act 2 screencaps and just a lot of rambling about Aldiirn's backstory below the cut

Aldiirn was already in drow armour when I loaded, what I was hoping for. Got the Phalar Aluve and Spider Lyre too. Originally I envisioned Aldiirn as having a background on the surface and seeking out things belonging to his drow heritage out of curiousity, but he's now an Underdark guy through and through. So I think the latter half of act 1 was more asserting that yeah, he's drow(ish), and he doesn't need to hide his pride from surface folk. Like in a "half-drow is what I am and not shameful" way not a "drow are superior" way. He would often be a face to surface folk for his merchant clan and use a "I'm just trying to overcome my evil heritage" persona to win trust among scrupulous surface folk and that's the persona he used when first meeting the party. Like damn, the tieflings and druids were vicious against drow, he didn't want that directed at him too.

I like to think Phalar Aluve was wielded by Vhaeraun's Chosen, Phalar, before Vhaeraun returned from whatever happened between him and Eilistraee. I know very little aside from skimming the wiki but it does seem like Eilistraee held onto Vhaeraun's powers for some time, so maybe Phalar served her and put the sword aside when Vhaeraun returned. The history I currently got penned for Aldiirn is that he was rescued from Lolth clergy by one of Vhaeraun's masked traitors and went on to serve Vhaeraun himself. Sooo finding a sword that belonged to his god's chosen and is incredibly flavourful for a bard? Auspicious AF for the little guy.

Vhaeraun does seem to be an evil god and all into drow superiority too yet the impression I get is that he's like a rebellious teenager sneaking out after curfew to stick it to his moms... but honestly I like that lmao. There's also that the clergy seem more like political activists and worship is pretty lax on rules, so I think it's totally possible to just focus on Vhaeraun's goals of empathy, equality, and rebellion against oppression without the worse stuff. But we still do a little thievery on the side. Aldiirn is not a shadowy sneaky guy himself but! he was support for the guys who are, and that lended to him being a perfect Bard-Rogue team with Astarion. >:)

anywho. Screencaps from the little bit I played tonight!

Commentary, honestly I forgot how oppressively dark the shadowlands is.

Sending little doggy to his doom because Astarion got him going all mean girl.

I like how if you don't have the Spider Lyre with you, you can just be all "uhhh hold on a sec I left the oven on" and go get it.

Drider tiiiime. Following the footsteps of the OG run, Aldiirn blended in with the Absolute caravan up until the Harper attack where he betrayed the cultists because he was just looking for a way through the dark and there was like ZERO guidance on the lift out of the Grymforge. This way, at least you get instructions.

[idleglowingpixels]

Can't remember if I said this already or not, but I finished the drawing I had made, I'm just nervous about posting it XD Bianca's not really in Ch. 6 outside of the beginning if memory serves me right, so it doesn't exactly fit with the chapter but I might release it with the next update anyway

Incoming ramble, only adding the Keep Reading thing so this long post doesn't clutter my blog as you scroll haha, it's kind of an XXY mini-update but also just a blog update in general

I think my main thing is that initially, I wanted to keep my Tumblr & AO3 separate from my main accounts but my art style would very clearly give me away if you happened to find my main username. But at the same time I also...Don't really care??? Like I'm a very passionate person about the things I make, and while it may be seen as cringe or some stupid shit, without fanfiction, fan art and just fan work in general I would NOT be nearly as good at most of what I do as I am now. Fandom over the years has brought me a LOT of like, unruly mess, but it has also brought me so far along on my creative journey.

In fact, the only reason my username here & on AO3 is different is because I had felt a sense of like shame in it at first ig, especially since I started on AO3 posting XXY at 17 and wanted to be able to abandon the account if I felt the need to. (Don't worry, I no longer feel that need, I wouldn't have made a Tumblr blog for my fics if I did)

But now I'm the furthest into XXY than I ever have been, and Ik the pacing has been relatively slow (we've progressed a grand total of like...3 days within the span of 5 chapters XD) but a lot goes on in the beginning and dynamics are re-established for the characters and the Teen AU thing -- point is, I'm proud of how much work I've put in and with I believe a 22k word count by the time Chapter 7 drops, that's already a lot of work I'm proud of for me.

Also since G3's release last year I've been working on releasing my Monster High AU character designs around this October/November (1 each day for a total of I think 33? Cause Jackson & Holt and Meowlody & Purrsephone were gonna have their designs posted together, I have to double check my list), along with a few one-shots if I ever find time to get around to them, and those designs do NOT take a short amount of time for me to complete so I was gonna be like "idgaf" either way eventually XD

Thing is I like both of my usernames so instead of altering all of my accounts to one or the other, my main will be where I'm more professional and focusing more on developing a portfolio of completed works, whereas here I'll just be a little more unhinged lmao

Might make an alt Instagram to match this account so I can focus my fanfics and art and stuff over to that account XD But idk

Now enough about me and my self-reflections, here's what to expect next month:

Chapter 6 is looking just fine for release on July 7th, I'm feeling pretty good about it (probably because it's Butch's POV haha) and I'm excited for his and Buttercup's dynamic to really be shown off since Chapter 3 didn't have them around each other much. I've got an event to attend tonight and a couple of things to do tomorrow but I should be able to give Chapter 6 the usual final edit on Sunday.

Like I said before, I'll probably share my Bianca & Barbara drawing on the Chapter Update post and I'm hoping I'll have a drawing of our 6 leads by the time Chapter 7 rolls around. I've been very much in an art mood lately so it's been taking up a lot of my time, and I've also felt really rejuvenated by drawing to get back to writing little by little.

Also before you ask, unfortunately I might have an update gap between Chapters 7 & 8, as my writing has been very slow over the last 3 or so months. I do apologize for that, but I hope you understand. The last few months have been a lot on me to say the least, but I love sharing XXY with you all, and I just really enjoy seeing emails from AO3 when I check it pretty much every morning. I'm so happy to have others enjoy my work. That being said, I'll do my best to make the gap as small as possible, and hopefully I'll only have to skip a month or something.

Thanks for reading my rambles, and as always, the link to XXY is in my introduction post.

[trinitea-fics]

ahh! Thanks @friedricenietzsche !! I actually do love tag games but I always forget that I get tagged and when I remember it's too late and I think it'd be awkward to do them lmao. So I'm doing it now!

nickname: i don't really have one

height: 5'4"

last thing i googled: Andrew Tate. cuz I NEEDED THE DETAILS.

song stuck in my head: look, I didn't have a song stuck in my head. but the first song I thought of was the opera bolero that they always play at jnats lmaooo

number of followers: A little less than Yuuri Katsuki's total score at GPF Barcelona

dream job: I'd open a comic book store. I'd carry and promote a lot of indie titles, have my curated wall of recommendations, a giant pride flag to scare off the comic bros, and a comic shop cat (I once when to a LCS with a puppy and it was GREAT).

wearing: jeans and my mom's old fine-knit sweater. Also my jade necklace since I do require a signature piece of jewellery (my brother has a matching one lol. our mom got them for us).

a book/movie that summarises you: that part in war and peace where one of the characters says "I have a headache and no money"

favourite songs: Salut D'Amour by Edward Elgar. Gonna be played at my wedding one day. It's perfect. Peak romance.

aesthetic: chinese lesbian protagonist of an alice wu film.

favorite authors: okay I haven't read an actual book in a hot sec. BUT if we are talking comic books, writers I generally like are Chip Zdarsky, Mariko Tamaki, Mark Waid and Matt Fraction. Obviously this could literally change tomorrow since comic writers are so goddamn inconsistent :/

random fact: I have those moleskine cahiers notebooks that I ramble about media i've consumed. and since oct 2020, I've completed 7 of those journals and I'm on my eighth. so that's over 560 pages of word vomiting.

Gonna be lazy and say "if you're reading this, considering yourself tagged" lol

15 questions 15 tags

ty @drowninglnstars for the tag !!

-nickname: red

-height: that's good question

-last thing i googled: ''malevolent transcripts''

-song stuck in head: antibiotics we're wonderful pills but dont ever think we'll cure all your ills and willow by tswift

-# of followers: at least 10

-amount of sleep: usually 4-6 hours (begrudgingly)

-dream job: librarian/historian

-wearing: shirt, grey sweater, black coat

-movie/book that summarizes you: all of them

-fav song: too many, right now probably constellations by the oh hellos! and faroe's theme from malevolent

-aesthetic: changes everyday, but personality wise eldritchcore/oddcore

-fav authors: alice oseman and any romantic author ever

-random fact: i can bend almost all of my joints backwards

not tagging 15 people because that is too many but -> @aroaceupmysleeve @galxgal @gothicwolf125 @arakhnee @lesbian-hannibal @transgenre-music and whoever want to join in :P

[lesbianrobin]

im so sorry i just need to say something and i feel like youre one of the very few reasonable people in the stranger things fandom and i just. honestly. is it just me or have people latched onto the hanky code thing WAY too hard with eddie even though it was like fully not intended coding by the wardrobe department and also. barely makes sense for the character at least in my eyes idk like maybe it Is just me but i feel like a twenty year old high schooler from rural indiana wouldn't be some kind of bdsm expert who's well versed in gay culture and flagging like that. like yeah its fun that the double meaning is there w/the hanky bc eddie Is very much a homosexual but i feel like people just latched onto it as if it's canon gospel with zero thought as to whether it would make sense for him (or his relationship with steve which is a whole other can of worms) but. yeah sorry for rambling just Yeah

oh no yeah i totally agree!! i like joking ab it and i'm not opposed to the idea of eddie like knowing ab the code but i don't rly think it was intentional and i don't think that eddie is like a hardcore bdsm dom at all dkcndncnf. like. i am a firm virgin eddie believer because he is a goofy little gay nerd in rural indiana who spends all his time playing dnd or guitar or selling weed out of his lunchbox. even if he IS flagging intentionally i do not think he has any practical experience.

my personal favorite interpretation of the hanky came from my friend sarah @steveharrington this isn't like anything she posted but she had the idea that maybe eddie learned vaguely about hanky code but not rly any specifics and he got So excited about the idea of flagging in any way that he just went out and got a black one bc it matched his usual outfits and he started wearing it without much idea of what it Means bc he wanted to have a connection to the community. i just think that concept is adorable.

another interpretation i enjoyed a lot is from the fic the affliction of the feeling where eddie is a virgin who thinks he knows what he's into but very quickly discovers that he in fact does not. it is explicit fair warning but i figure ur okay with that judging by the content of this ask lmao.

ultimately i think of the hanky as like something fun to play around with but i wish people didn't take it so far because it's definitely like. not rly in character. even setting aside whether or not he'd realistically be well-versed in hanky code yknow the thing is that eddie has this sadistic DM persona but when he's with chrissy or steve or any of his other friends he's always so genuinely sweet and playful and goofy in a way that just. does not scream sado top to me. eddie hates when his friends are upset or uncomfortable and he'll do anything to make them smile. i rly cannot see him being like taunting and sadistic during sex vnfncnfnc like sorry but he's a nerdy little virgin and he would be giggly and awkward and sweet.

nobody asked but personally i think his first time eddie would try So hard to be sexy and cool and his partner (steve bc i am a steveddie warrior and this is my post) would be like What are you doing and he'd be like uh seducing you and steve would be like no the fuck you are not you're acting like a pornstar who failed theater in high school and eddie's like ouch :< and steve is like look just relax can you just be eddie right now and eddie's like aw yeah... :')

anyway. sorry about all of that fkvjfjcjf basically i totally agree with you i think people latched onto the bandana wayyy too hard for what it is. thank you for the ask!!

[mermaidsirennikita]

Hi, just wanted to say that your post about Bridgerton influencing HR publishing was really eye opening to me. BR was what got me into the genre but after reading tons of HR- new and old- before s2 came out (and after watching it) really kind of showed me how Bridgerton wasn’t the best out there and that the world of HR was vast and so much more than what they were offering. I also hate the “meets Bridgerton” thing that is happening in HR is detrimental to the genre as an aspiring author who watches from afar. I feel bad for authors who are trying to break into the publishing world and are stuck in the trap and it’s definitely tiring seeing it in shelves at mainstream stores. Now I mostly read niche, older HR that I spend hours tracking down on Goodreads and instagram lol. Love your blog!! Sorry for the ramble

Thank you, it's not a ramble at all and I think you're making great points.

I imagine Bridgerton got a lot of people into historical romance (not nearly as many as I think the industry was expecting, though), and if people want that kind of HR, that's totally valid. But I don't think a lot of the subgenre's strongest, most boundary-pushing books historically (haha) really match with the "Bridgerton-type" HR. And that's not even really a comment about the books so much as it is about the show.

And like, it's not that there isn't a place for funny, more lighthearted historical romances... I love Tessa Dare, and I think she's amazing at that. Julie Anne Long, too. But one thing I think the show loses (and the books, for me, often don't really hit) is the core love story being super compelling, and the emotionality having stakes. To me, that's what sets HR apart. That's why you write HR over a contemporary romcom. You're infusing an extra level of stakes in the story that just doesn't exist in contemporary. In a lighthearted contemporary, the stakes can be inconveniencing but not life-altering. In even a lighthearted HR (if it's done WELL) you still have to deal with issues of class, the pressure to marry, the sexual politics, etc.

I read a lot of new releases, and I'll be honest; there haven't been *that many* new traditionally published HR authors lately, and some of those I have read have just felt very like... Tame. Toeing the line, feeling like they're being super careful to not ruffle any feathers. Basically, putting a *light* contemporary story in ball gowns. I don't refer to historical accuracy, I don't give a fuck about that, but like the genre conventions of HR that I've always loved--the opportunity for adventure, the edge of danger, the inability to just say what you're thinking due to cultural norms, the hero being a part of the patriarchy and being forced to submit emotionally to the heroine, is just... not really there. And that's just not for me. It's fine if it's for other people, but like... I don't know, if that's the future of HR then I kinda don't know where I fit as a writer there lmao. There are definitely active authors who are keeping up the great work, but not as many debuts that excite me, personally.

And I mean, I think that this is also a publishing issue that's affecting many subgenres as self publishing and trad work through some growing pains. Imo, trad is sort of going "well, we don't need to publish books that are perhaps more subversive and romance/sex-heavy because authors can always self pub" but a lot of authors do not know how to self pub successfully and even if they do... there's never a guarantee that it'll work. Trad is becoming more homogenous, and self is exciting but it's also very very intimidating and becoming more saturated, of course.

But imo, we're probably going to see more and more authors who want to publish more unconventional books--historical romances with kidnapping and lady bandits and good rep, paranormal romances with blood and guts--move into self publishing, which is where dark romance writers have been sitting for quite some time. It's just gonna take a while. And as an author, it's a bit confusing because I never really thought I'd try self publishing first... But I don't know. I'll try to traditionally publish what I'm working on, but it can't be marketed as "Bridgerton meets" fuck all lol. So I'm not sure where I'd belong as a debut.

[wizardnuke]

I think I might have ADHD and from what research I've done I fit most (around 75%) of the criteria, but I don't want to be totally wrong about it so I was wondering if you would be alright telling me when you knew you had ADHD or overarching things/behaviors that people who have ADHD tend to do? Sorry if it's a bad question.

bad questions don't exist my guy! they Are Not Real! so by default this is a good question and I will try to answer coherently. this is not going to be coherent or concise, I am sorry

you don't have to match every single symptom! I'm probably about 75% there too because I'm not hyperactive- not in the way that people think it means, I'm not energetic but hyperactivity is sensory-seeking which I'll elaborate on

1. I say this with an incredible amount of love in my heart, rambling and maybe not getting to the point quickly when you're talking bc u want to add as much detail as possible in order to get ur point across clearly is an ADHD thing and this ask (and my response) is a lovely example of that

2. worrying that you're wrong about it is also very much an ADHD thing because we get really anxious about being laughed at for being wrong about things (google RSD for more info on that) and or because of that we have trouble talking about our issues to people who could impact them in any way, aka a doctor that's diagnosing you

3. I was diagnosed with ADHD-inattentive type (ADD) when I was 13 and I don't particularly remember being 13 or any younger than that jdjfjfjf, my mom is also ADHD-i and she recognized the symptoms!

but uh some assorted ADHD things that I do or see others do that aren't really included in symptom lists are:

- having a bad sleep schedule (like falling asleep at 2am and waking up at 12) bc our circadian rhythm is different. doesn't necessarily mean u wake up a lot when you sleep because I sleep like the dead,, once I manage to fall asleep which takes hours more than it does for nts

- seeing patterns in things that there aren't always actual patterns in. I don't know why this is a thing that ADHD (and autistic!) people do but it seems to be widespread. personally I have an emotional attachment to the fibonacci sequence and I really love music theory bc. patterns.

- gifted kid burnout. I'm 100% serious. it's often, not always but often, an ADHD thing

- ADHD people are disorganized because it's hard to prioritize things. should I put my clothes in the hamper or should I bring the dishes to the kitchen or should I text my friend or should I check my email or- etc.

- constant overwhelm

- trouble with social skills other than interrupting/impatience, I have trouble discerning tone both online and irl so I take things too literally, which is commonly seen as something that only happens to people with autism but I'm hmm most likely not autistic.

- this isn't an example but I think about the "I was diagnosed with ADHD which means my doctor said hey you have autism lite and you should microdose meth" tweet every single day and it never stops sending me

- neurotypical people DO NOT have hyperfixations and they don't hyperfocus. they literally do not. I don't care if an nt says that they do. it means that they're autistic/ADHD. NTs have hobbies and interests and jobs. NDs get overtaken by their interests and sometimes it's difficult for us to focus on other things because of it

- it's comorbid (exists alongside/is impacted by/causes) with a lot of other disorders/mental illnesses like depression, anxiety, PTSD (I mean that ADHD causes PTSD), dyslexia, dyscalculia, audio processing disorder, etc

SENSORY STUFF BECAUSE IT DESERVES ITS OWN SECTION:

sensory issues

- not liking textures, light being too bright, sounds being jumbled together and hard to discern.

- some people with ADHD also have audio processing disorder, which makes it hard for them to understand verbal speech quickly. ppl talk to me and it feels like I have to buffer for 10 seconds before I can understand them

sensory-seeking behavior.

- this includes the Leg Bounce™, other physical motions that you might do which ranges from wiggling around to pacing to cracking your knuckles a lot, echolalia (saying something repeatedly bc uhh its fun), etc. those are all types of stimming, which autistic people (and neurotypical ppl but less so for reasons I'll elaborate on in a second) also do.

this is because ADHD is caused by low dopamine, one of the happy chemicals, and it's harder for us to feel content by literally everything because our brains require a level of activity that they aren't getting because they.. have low dopamine. so stimming gives us more of the sensory input that we need.

- did u know that nt people actually feel satisfied after doing daily chores like laundry and doing the dishes because apparently they do and I got so jealous about that that I almost cried

- this is also why adhd people are "impulsive" or whatever the fuck they say that we are. it's a need for More Stimulation that we don't get unless we work for it in ways that nt people find inconvienent lmao

- so addiction, and by that I mean substance abuse, is something that adhd people are very susceptible to because it makes brain go brrrrrr

- and not addiction, and it makes me mad when people call it that, are behaviors like getting stuck playing games/scrolling social media (which I am very very very guilty of to a painful degree but I literally,, it makes brain go brrr okay), talking aloud, getting upset by monotony, etc.

and this is what we call an infodump

I don't think that a lot of NT people mistake themselves as ADHD. I don't think that self diagnosing is a bad thing to do. if the coping methods and the community help you then you're valid, even if the doctor says that you aren't adhd. doctors can be wrong.

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

Hi love, I'm the anon with the professor harry look-alike story

Sorry I took so long to answer. I forgot I had such a serious crush, so when I tried writing this the first time, a bunch of memories came back, and I started to ramble into details I shouldn't, so I stopped. That's why I eventually forgot, but I'm back and over the melodrama to give what you asked but with much more detail than I meant to lol. I hope you don't hate that it's a long post. Sorry again!

It's okay. It was/is legal, and we matched over a year later, so I wasn't his student anymore. idk if this is crossing anyone's mind rn, but I feel the need to clarify that I didn't search for him. The dating app doesnt even provide a search option; it was a bizarre coincidence.

We didn't go out. I was too chicken, and I'm glad it worked out how it did tbh. No regrets. I'm pretty inexperienced, even though I'm in my early 20s, and usually prefer older men.

I just told him it was unexpected and amusing but that he should decline and he said well that sends a mixed message and without much time in between, he did as I said. I'm not sure if he even remembered me but I guess it doesn't matter.

Won't share age but he's a little older than Harry even though he looks like he could still be in college. He looks more like adam brody when adam was on the OC show - it's the second post down (also a beautiful and sexy man), but I definitely caught glimpses of Harry, which made me do against my will double-takes at times. That one picture I sent with the parallel was an good example of when he looks more like Harry.

Oh he's also the same height as Louis and has the same small frame.

He's fan fiction worthy alright.

He started a band after high school, still writes music, and plays guitar. He used his motorcycle to get to work, wore leather jackets, dark pants, boots, and thin sweaters, which he mostly rolled the sleeves up halfway. He'd also wear those patterned button-ups that weren't so buttoned-up that we'd see a certain lhh wear.

let's just say he knew he looked good and knows how to dress

He spoke charismatically, has a Ph.D., and taught and still teaches(?) political science.

Suddenly human rights and politics are not just essential and intriguing but as sexy as that romanticized show Scandal lol

Many people had great things to say about him: he was fair, charismatic, and passionate, which is all true. Although in my mind, maybe as I'm too subjective, his passion boarded on a know-it-all kind of energy that was flustering to keep up with. Other than that, no complaints. He is a humanitarian, and those types melt my heart so it makes up for the know-it-all flustered thing. There were a few suggestive moments, but none of those actually matter. He was professional, behaved in a no-frills way during class, and would sadly only laugh sometimes. When he smiled/laughed, he looked exactly like 3:28

Oh shoot, I almost forgot the takeaway like what I learned because I got some life lessons out of this emotional ride. Suggestions if you ever are in this position: If you can, then don't have a class with a hot professor, not if you are so young/naive and idealistic like I was, it's totally not worth it. I mean, there are attractive people you don't think twice about, and then there are those who are your type. Learn to love yourself/be your own person before diving into the deep end and going wild card. At the same time, a little part of me still says, live your life, but trust your gut over me. I maintained a B but don't fool yourself. Not only is it distracting, so I had to teach myself the material after class, but the urge to be inappropriate is too strong lmao. I would say a quick thank you as I did with all my professors, but I always meant something more when I said that to him. Also, eyes don't lie! Larries of all people would know. So I had to do what Louis and Harry did: not interact or look at him much. I managed to fake boredom at times. Instead of nose scrunches or creepy lip-biting, just stay looking away.

you did not just link me to this moment. you didn't

and yes, adam brody in the oc is very similar to him in that photo you sent me!!! good-looking. to but it simply. i had the hugest crush on him when i watched this show back in middle school so yeah

oh, what a story. thank you, kind anon, for coming back and telling us the entire thing!!

it's definitely tricky being in that kind of situation, and he does sound like someone who could sweep you off your feet, especially as a student. the lessons you added are key to remember, bc it truly isn't worth getting into sticky business for anyone - let alone a smooth smart guy in his position.

i'm very glad it ended well for you! and i hope you find or have already found an alternative that makes you extremely happy <3

[edengarden]

Hey pls could I get a regular matchup for bnha!<3 I'd prefer a guy but if you think any female fits better then I can be down w/ that too ;))

Getting the basics out of the way: Aries, ENFJ 2w3, Hufflepuff, Chaotic Good

I'm 5'7 with quite a big chest but a lack of ass lmao and I've got bleach blonde hair with bangs that falls just in-between shoulder and chest length. Brown eyes with long lashes (honestly still confused why they're so long now bcuz I deadass cut them off like three years ago bcuz I thought they looked too feminine?? Jokes on past me I'm Extremely stereotypicaly feminine now😽) and a dorky smile that I try to hide in pics but that just ends up with me looking like I have resting bitch face💔

I'm extremely extroverted, bubbly and kind to others with a somewhat hidden vulgar sense of humour that rly contrasts the "cute fluffy animals in sunflower fields and neverending love" vibe that I give off irl. I take on a motherly protective role with my friends (we will pretend that wasn't just bcuz trauma made me mature early luv that 4 me) and am always there to offer advice or just cute pictures/facts to take their mind off their worries!

Despite being very extroverted and people-oriented some people that don't know me may think I'm a lil shy because of my anxiety and tendancy to overthink EVERYTHING. Around my friends I try and hide my real feelings behind a super happy mask so that others can feel the joy I give off and I don't feel like a burden🏃🏃 I can also be incredibly judgemental in my head and if I know I'm right about something I will fight to the death till others acknowledge that I'm actually right.

My current biggest hobby is cooking/baking and I always make dinner every Sunday without fail (shout out 2 my roast dinners they are elite if I do say so myself😌) along with some sweet treats. I also enjoy creating cosplays because it combines my love of sewing, makeup and acting because I can completely embody my character and not have to worry about being judged because it's not Me being judged it's the character I'm portraying.

I can honestly vibe to any music but I prefer cheesy pop songs and jazz music along with assorted classical music that I listen to every night to help me sleep (I say that but some of them fr have me trying to stay awake just so I can listen to the whole song rip)

When it comes to people I tend to gravitate towards introverts because I can always make them ramble their heart out and I adore listening it's honestly my hidden talent both romantically and platonically they've said that they feel I'm trustworthy and easy to talk to (SUCH high praise like 60% of my past friends were the bookworms that Never Spoke and one of my besties now talks to me more than most of her family after only knowing eachother 2months)

Ummm fun fact abt myself I used to be obsessed with the idea of being a spy when I was a child so I wrote my entire diary in code and to this very day I can't uncode a single thing I wrote💀

Have a wonderful day I hope this is enough haha💗

I WANNA MATCH YOU UP SOOO BAD WITH MONOMA SO I’LL HECKING DO IT

Listenlistenlisten you give off strong Kendou vibes, But Better. And I mean better suited for Monoma. He’s a lot to handle, but you can definitely do it. I think your friendly demeanour and naturally approachable self is VERY convenient for him, even if he won’t say it out loud for a while.

At first you can bet he’s not THAT interested; you’re just another person, and a bubbly one at that. But then he sees how your sense of humour completely derails from your persona and his heart goes “and I oop-“

Jkjk I honestly think it takes Monoma a while to fall, but it’s an irreversible process. Like you keep his boasting and insulting in check?? When he aims it towards you, you just aim it back at him with the same silver tongue he has?? Battle of the Wits. Everyone KNOWS it’s flirting but he doesn’t. You don’t. It’s actually sort of funny.

The fact that you can befriend literally anyone? He’s Shooketh, it’s something he’s not able to do (for very good reasons), but he admires it. He totally hid his admiration through “maniacal plans” of having you befriend people from 1-A and become a spy on the inside. You did not agree to his plans and still went on to befriend Koda lmao you really said “fuck yo plans”.

And my GOD YOUR ARGUMENTATIVE SIDE. He loves it so much, he loves to trigger it, he loves to argue with you, and it’s even better because he’s a bit,, dumb dumb so he 100% thinks he’s right but you KNOW he’s wrong but he thinks he knows he’s right and the arguments go on forever and wow I guess you’re moronsexual now?? This is oddly endearing to me what the heck.

It takes so long for this boy to realize his feelings, and even longer to confess, but through it all he remains the same towards you. The only exception is after you two become a thing and he gets comfortable with you, you might be able to draw out some insecurities from him. Please help him with those he needs help

Songs!!

- Wake Up In The Sky, Gucci Maine, Bruno Mars & Kodak Black

- That’s Life, Frank Sinatra

- Fame, David Bowie (if this doesn’t give you a Monoma vibe NOTHING will-)

- Fashion, David Bowie

[inkykeiji]

Clari I hope you're having a wonderful day!!! This is kinda a rambly message, so please don't feel like you need to respond to it if you don't want to!!

The medication I take gives me really vivid dreams and I had a dream about Dabi/Touya last night!  I think outwardly he went by Dabi, then Touya was for private use?

So me and him were dating, I don't remember us having any familial relation, but he definitely had the attributes of how you write Touya-Nii!

So in the dream, I can't remember what led up to it, but Dabi was hospitalised and I was there with him.

The doctor came in and told Dabi that he's going to have to take some time out to recover and lay off the drug use, he suggested activities or lifestyle changes, yknow that kinda stuff.

Dabi comes out saying he wants a change of scenery and wants to move to America (I'm from the UK) and live in the middle of nowhere on like a ranch or something to recover and maybe kick the drug habit (I think he just said that to keep me and the doc happy tbh).

Firstly living in the middle of nowhere is not an idea I vibe with, I'm quite happy having buildings and people around me.

Secondly, I was like, what about my family? What about your family? (I'm going to assume that his family was living wherever I was, and I don't think I could live without seeing Natsuo 😩)

So I remember not outright saying no but being like "Oh really? That's a new one, let's take some time to think about it before we make any decisions" Like I would never say no to Touya, but he definitely knew that I wasn't vibing with those ideas. I remember shaking my head at the doctor as like a "please don't encourage this" or just plain "help me" 😂

However, the doctor ignored me and said it's all a great idea and we should do it as soon as possible and all that business, so we did it.

So for whatever reason, when moving to America, we brought our cars with us (even though we drive on the other side of the road)

While still in the process of moving into the house, in quite literally the middle of nowhere, Touya demands that once we're all moved in, that he keeps a hold of my car keys.

In the dream, for whatever reason at the start of our relationship and living together, Touya always had my car keys, I guess so if I wanted to go somewhere I had to ask him? But after a while together, he would let me have them, or there'd be like the designated hook or whatever where they would go, so basically I guess I had the freedom to come and go as I wished?

So I was really confused because why did he want my keys? Where was I going to go in the middle of nowhere in a new country?

He never explained why he wanted them, but while we were still moving, I started sleeping with my car keys under my pillow. I don't know what it was meant to achieve, but it made me feel better 😂

I never finished the dream because I woke up, but like I said, his whole demeanor in my dream definitely reminded me of your Touya -Nii! Like I don't know if Touya-Nii would ever go to such extreme lengths of trying to isolate the reader, but the possessive behaviour definitely matched. Also, it might just be me, but he doesn't seem the type to seek medical attention when he needs it, nor try and kick his bad habit, so I don't know, I just thought it was a funny dream 😂

ANON BABIE i finally got a chance to sit down and read this thoroughly hehehe gosh i love vivid dream/dreams in general so much tbh i find them so intruiging!!!

okay first of all thank you for sharing this with me hehehe it’s magnificent omfg

the living on a ranch idea had me fucking SNORTING ahahahaha oh my god i love that so much

please don’t encourage this LMFAOOOOOOO AHAHA AWWWW also the i would never say no to touya is such a fuckin MOOD ugh this man i swear to god but anyway @ the doctor what a fuckin jackass LMAO but wait wait i love how you did it because the doctor said so/agreed!!! this is so funny anon i have endless giggles rn hehehe

OH SO HE’S LOWKEY A YANDERE HUH he totally took ur keys n wouldn’t give ‘em back until you earned his trust

tbh anon i could DEFINITELY see touya doing this if he thought it was best/necessary. like one million percent, it is SUCH touya-nii behaviour hahahah aaah this gave me such a good laugh anon bb thank you so much for sharing!!! <33333 sorry it took me a lil bit to get to!! i wanted to sit down to read through it fully and give it the attention it deserved!!!