#( * PRIMROSE ARCHIVES )

[daipeanutsaiban]

Hello! Um I know it's been a few months since you said people could ask you more questions on your tgaa thoughts, but I was hoping to ask about your baskerzieks and genshinxwife ones. Like how they met, or what their last in person convos went like before each couple separated/died, etc, bc I really adore your Lady B & Mrs. Asougi designs! They deserved first names 😭

Also I'd love to hear your genklint/ville thoughts too if you care to share those!

ALSO I wanted to say you're 100% correct that if Kazuma & Klint ever actually met good ending au Kazuma would think he's the most annoying person alive. It's funny if genklint is platonic or romantic too, it's like Herlock Sholmes is right there and instead Kazuma thinks his dad's bf (best friend OR boyfriend lol) is significantly worse. Something something hating your parallel

Anyway no pressure, and sorry if you aren't looking to answer more questions at this time!

HI i love to yap and to yap about dgs especially so you're good haha <3 i'm the kind of person who needs to be asked tbh bc i tend to be self conscious/doubt myself so questions are always super appreciated 🥹💗 this post got LONG so i'm going to put it under a break to spare anyone who's just here for art or trying to look at memes during their lunch break

TL;DR: klint and primrose were engaged as kids but it was broken off upon his parents' death, it was renewed when he earned prestige as a prosecutor; their last conversation was when primrose forced him to confess his crimes to her but she'd started having doubts months ago; in my favorite hc, gkv never pursued one another beyond dropping hints here and there but because i am bisexual i also want them to have fun; genshin and yukari met by chance as teens and genshin had to convince his father to let them marry each other after finding out she was pregnant; he could never say his last words to her because writing about the professor's identity could've endangered her and kazuma.

first of all thank you so much, it makes me so happy when people enjoy my designs and characterizations for lady baskerville and mrs asougi!! for clarity, i'll be calling them by the names i gave them in this post, primrose and yukari respectively.

klint and primrose's engagement was decided by their parents and they met as children- i think they were probably feeling awkward around each other for a while since children don't really care about such things (right..?) and primrose actually chose to spend her time reading when her father would take her to visit, and she might've even been more interested in talking/playing with barok because there wouldn't be the daunting idea of an engagement looming on the horizon lol. eventually, she and klint do grow closer and come to consider each other friends thanks to him putting in a lot of effort to make her feel welcome and also have more fun (she finds him boring- i characterize klint as having been a very serious and dutiful child, though he does play with and dote on his brother).

when the van zieks parents die in my hc, losing their life in a fire specifically, primrose's father chooses to cancel their engagement because he doubts klint can suitably provide for his daughter- a cruel but logical decision as klint is just fourteen years old with no backing or achievements. as an aside, the fire is declared to be an unfortunate accident but klint silently believes it was premeditated- this incident contributes to him considering prosecution as a career. out of care for his brother, he never brings up this idea to barok.

still, primrose is a very clever child who's acutely aware that her father's doting is a form of control (such as making her wear beautiful, white clothes to easily find out if she's been sneaking out, which i think i talked about before), and she insists on meeting klint either at his estate or in the city while they both (and occasionally barok) wear disguises/common clothes. the latter option allows them to meet people outside of their social caste, and to develop a sympathy for them from an early age which also contributes to klint's growing bitterness towards other nobles. throughout his struggle to be taken seriously by these men in spite of his age, primrose continuously encourages him and even spies on her father's meetings with other gentlemen to then report to him, and this continues in their adult life with her reporting rumors and "gossip" from other ladies about their own husbands (with perhaps dire consequences in the long run, haha...)

primrose has ambitions of her own, though, many of which are philanthropic in nature and stem from guilt at being born in a wealthy household to a father who does not care about people other than his own. they are difficult to achieve as an unmarried woman (or even as a woman in general), as her father would never greenlight her ideas, and as such she becomes enraged with klint when he allows the engagement to be dispelled due to believing she would ultimately "be happier with someone else" when it would effectively condemn any ounce of freedom she could have. from primrose's perspective, klint is the only candidate for marriage because he actually respects her and understands her as a person.

their engagement was eventually reinstated following klint's multiple achievements, chiefly when he made a name for himself as an extremely prolific prosecutor and primrose's father couldn't really object to it (ha) anymore. when i researched, i learned that men in the victorian era would commonly get married in their thirties once their careers were established, and i especially like that for this couple because it means that genshin could've attended their wedding. (it's also amusing to picture klint pitching him as the best man while primrose is firmly in barok's camp and they have a silly spat about that, haha. but ngl i prefer genshin as their best man because it was tradition that the best man would drive the married couple to their month long honeymoon directly after the ceremony so. he could stay behind a little while if you catch my meaning. teehee)

on the topic of genklintville, my ultimate preference/personal "canon" is that they never outright acted upon their romantic or sexual interests in one another although the tension was clearly there. but like any bisexual on the internet, i like to indulge a little bit, as shown in my previous paragraph hehe. i like to imagine a kind of kinship between genshin and primrose as they are interested in similar literature and share a similar sense of humor as well (chiefly teasing klint- in a deadpan manner for genshin). klint and primrose tend to dote on genshin in a way they think is discreet, because they can sense his loneliness at being apart from his family even though he generally doesn't voice it, but as we all know genshin isn't a fool and it leaves him quite flustered haha. genshin also relates to klint in the way that they are both heirs to something "greater than them" (the asogi clan/the van zieks heritage) and sometimes yearn to break away from it which might contribute to why genshin left for london if the first place. i'd like to add that if i draw genklint without primrose present, it's taking place with her knowledge and consent, though them being pushed to cheating due to increasing stress or suchlike circumstances is an interesting angle- it's just not something i see myself making at present. though now saying that has made me think about the ways it could be fun to explore the way klint's lying and gaslighting keeps piling up, so what's one more lie? so i'd be interested in reading a story that would attest to his guilt from committing the act and his gaslighting towards not only his wife but also to himself, hmm. the best way that i can put it is that if i'm to explore gk without the v, she must be a relevant character because i'm not about to discard a canon female love interest to focus solely on the yaoi lmao.

now for genshin and yukari, or genyu for short as i like to call it in my head (lol)... there's a lot to cover here too 😵‍💫 some of this, particularly the stuff concerning ayame, is still undecided on but i thought the more context the better!

to understand their dynamic, it feels important to state/repeat my headcanons about the asogi clan aka genshin's immediate family beyond her and kazuma, which were mentioned here. but to summarize, they are very patriarchal, strict, and the type to suppress their emotions. genshin is his father's illegitimate child, and his real mother is... hm, well, she won't ever appear in my art because it's suitable for her character, but she's a high ranking courtesan, aka "oiran", and therefore pregnancy/being a mother could bring shame to her and likely ruin her livelihood, because they are meant to project the image of being unattainable both in appearance.. and price. her disappearing for some months to a year wouldn't be all that suspicious as few men can even afford to meet her.

because the oiran brings the House where she works good money, they help her cover up her pregnancy and her son's existence by sending him to live with his father as soon as possible. once, genshin tries to visit his mother, but he is turned away. in short, his first experience was to be abandoned by someone who was supposed to love him. i think this backstory also serves to give reason to his name (written with the kanji 'shadow' and 'truth') because he is a truth meant to be hidden by the government. if you think about his father giving him that name, it becomes quite sad and implies shame for bringing his son into the world. i think it would also justify the personality i like for him, which is more reserved and serious than how i portray the rest of the visiting trio (with a boisterous but ambitious seishiro and a downtrodden but shy and earnest yuujin), and with a greater disposition for being suspicious... which is naturally a good thing for a detective.

genshin's father's wife lost her life to an illness some years prior to genshin integrating into the asogi clan, which is why he sought comfort from the oiran. to avoid unsavory rumors and to preserve both women's reputation, syoma (genshin's father) forbids his son from venturing outside of the house - paralleling primrose's childhood, which they could bond over later in life - until he turns a certain age. he's the dark sheep of the clan, to make it short. it's by sneaking out as a child that he meets seishiro, and then yukari who is accompanying ayame.

as an aside, i want to add that while syoma holds misogynistic beliefs, he still feels a sense of responsibility so he does eventually pay off the oiran's debt in the end- not that she's particularly grateful since he led her on and made her promise not to abort his child without ever planning to marry her. not a great guy, but def a fun character to write. those are things genshin deduces in his teenage years, and he swears to never become like his father.

as for yukari, her family history is also nebulous, and i don't know if i even want to establish her circumstances before meeting ayame and genshin because i like the meta irony of those details remaining unknown to us just as they were unknown to those around her outside of how she is tied to other people. ayame's friend, genshin's wife, kazuma's mother- never her own person. she reaches a breaking point during genshin's absence, but i won't go into detail about that for now because it's part of a long project of mine. what i can say about her is that she does housework for ayame's family in exchange for room and board, but she's not categorized as a servant because ayame cherishes her, a privilege that makes her feel awkward at times.

genshin fell for her due to her frank and joyful approach to life which was so different from the outlook he was raised on, and she piqued his curiosity with her unusual and often "silly", but free, behavior. he has the utmost respect for her, which is why as much as i like gkv and think it could work in a modern au with yukari's inclusion/approval + rapid methods of communication, i think realistically genshin wouldn't have the heart to start anything with someone else when she is waiting for his every letter so far away. he wouldn't be able to read the expression on her face, and she could easily lie about being okay with it.

in this wikipedia article about marriage in japan in the edo period (1600-1868), it reads: "Members of the household were expected to subordinate all their own interests to that of the [household], with respect for an ideal of filial piety and social hierarchy. [...] Marriages were duly arranged by the head of the household, who represented it publicly and was legally responsible for its members, and any preference by either principal in a marital arrangement was considered improper."

you might've guessed where i'm going with this, but genshin's father had already chosen a wife for him, and that person was ayame, who is from a 'good' family. obviously that marriage didn't go through with yukari becoming pregnant at 18 or 19 (!!), and syoma capitulated to genshin's request that he be given permission to marry his girlfriend which only further strained his relationship with his father further. as for ayame, she was fortunate that the man she was interested in was studying medicine, and therefore struggled less for her family to accept yuujin as her husband. but for yukari, although she knows genshin doesn't love ayame, there's always that nagging feeling that she was the "wrong" choice. after all, she has to witness the interactions between genshin and his family every day, and her presence is often the source of tension. her only rock after ayame's death and genshin's departure is her son, who starts rejecting spending time with her as he grows older because, well, he's a teenager (something i want to expand on in that project i mentioned).

in yukari's case, she was never able to read her husband's last words as even writing about the professor's identity could endanger hers and kazuma's lives, but perhaps genshin had promised he would briefly return at the half-way point of his stay overseas and then ended up having to break that promise by choosing to investigate the professor killings before eventually losing his life. yukari's feelings of helplessness were confirmed as the truth in her eyes then.

as for primrose and klint's last conversation, it's been sitting in my wips for a while LOL. i def think she had her suspicions, and when she finally gathered her courage to confront him, he broke down and told her the truth. i've revised this comic and especially its dialogue so many times that i don't even know if i like it anymore, please pray for me 😅

It's funny if genklint is platonic or romantic too, it's like Herlock Sholmes is right there and instead Kazuma thinks his dad's bf (best friend OR boyfriend lol) is significantly worse.

this made me laugh LMAO honestly kazuma would be so petty about it meanwhile i feel like he'd get along super well with the man's own wife 😂 i also think that as an adult kazuma would admire his father less and even be a bit of a tsundere lol, but yeah in a No One Dies/Good Ending AU(tm) he'd probably resent genshin a little for leaving him and his mother, whose struggles he witnessed firsthand for ten years. hell, maybe he does resent him in the current circumstances even if it's not the dominant emotion when it comes to his father, it of course being grief... still. lord van zieks get your paws off my dad!! 🙄💢 also if genshin starts reciprocating the attention kazuma might start killing LOL

...this answer is now well over 2000 words and i still feel like i'm leaving things out i feel CRAZY omg. autism diagnosis unnecessary atp lmfao.

also just found this in my #yukanotes i should've just copy pasted all this augh. i love yukari very much she is extremely dear to me. 😊💗

thanks again for your questions I'M SORRY IT'S SO LONG....... i DO love to yap 🥹🥹💗

[spiritheyregone]

https://wildflower-seed.com/

[blairamok]

look i’m just so excited about this au and i apologize in advance for being obnoxious about it, but i’ve been itching to write again and it feels so good to finally scratch that itch. here they are together and a little bit of stuff about them, which i’ll throw under a quick read more

aziraphale is a librarian, a collections librarian specifically, for a university with an archive of rare and early print works. crowley is a field botanist, who at the same university develops and maintains the on-site botanical garden for research purposes and use by students.

crowley leaves flowers in books for aziraphale to find, but the language of flowers is a voiceless one. will crowley’s feelings go untold?

between crowley speaking in riddles and aziraphale being emotionally buttoned up, there will be so much pining.

also. designing crowley’s tattoos nearly destroyed me. in the style often found in old florilegia, on his right arm he has black thorn, and on his left he has wormwood and clematis. on his chest is datura, apple blossom, and oleander, and on his back primrose, hellebore, garden anemone, and petunia. three snakes weave around and between the various floral arrangements. i will be suffering from the consequences of my actions every time i draw crowley where his tattoos can be seen but i have no regrets

the whole thing is still a very big wip and i’m currently writing what would be the first chapter of this story, but i’m having so much fun with it

[fyreflys]

OKAY so I read an Everlark fic and knowing the people who are obsessed with my fic Swan Upon Leda, I feel like this one is also something yall would enjoy (assuming you haven’t already read it). I love this fic dearly I highly suggest reading it :)

The Lottery (80,657 words, Chapters: 11/11) by Isarnicole

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Relationships: Katniss Everdeen/Peeta Mellark, Primrose Everdeen/Rory Hawthorne, Katniss Everdeen/Gale Hawthorne, Annie Cresta/Finnick Odair

Characters: Katniss Everdeen, Gale Hawthorne, Primrose Everdeen, Rory Hawthorne, Haymitch Abernathy, soldier!Peeta - Character

Additional Tags: Angst and Romance, Slow Burn, War, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, everlark

Summary: Everlark Panem AU. Katniss and Peeta were never reaped. The rebellion began when they were children and war raged until they were 16 years old. Now, two years after the end of the war the population of Panem is near extinction. A repopulation program known as The Lottery is established. With her mother and father dead, no money, and no job prospects, Katniss is desperate. It is either join The Lottery or lose Prim. She never expects to be partnered with the boy who saved her life.

Bookmarker's Tags: Falling In Love, Getting Together, Pregnancy, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Mild Smut, First Time, VERY consensual, POV First Person

Bookmarker's Notes: Oh my god this is gold. Words can’t describe. This feels so authentic to the characters and the world, and the author made this work so seamlessly that it’s astounding. This is one of those stories I wish I could read for the first time over and over again. UGH!

[neopronouns]

flag id: a flag with 7 stripes, which are light red-pink, very light yellow, light red, soft purple, light pink, very light red-pink, and light sky blue. end id.

banner id: a 1600x200 teal banner with the words ‘please read my dni before interacting. those on my / dni may still use my terms, so do not recoin them.’ in large white text in the center. the text takes up two lines, split at the slash. end id.

oenotheran: being fluid between transfeminine, transmascfem, and transneufem, but never transmasculine, transneutral, or transneumasc

[pt: oenotheran: being fluid between transfeminine, transmascfem, and transneufem, but never transmasculine, transneutral, or transneumasc. end pt]

for anon! colors are mostly from the transfem, transmascfem, and transneufem flags and the term comes from 'oenothera', the evening primrose.

tags: @radiomogai, @liom-archive, @macchiane, @genderstarbucks, @sugar-and-vice-mogai

tags cont: @prettypinknarc, @skrimbliest, @fem-mogai

dni link

[avaetin]

For the one I care for most, Percy - Primrose

Pairings: Nico di Angelo/Percy Jackson

Rating: M (to be safe)

Story Summary:

You don’t want to go back, that’s your selfish truth. You don’t want to go back to your old life, which you had no control of. You’ve already settled into a relatively normal life and you have no intention of giving it up – not if it means risking losing the life you have built with this person. No matter how unlikely it is for either of you to be involved in another great prophecy, you stand firm by your decision. The gods can’t have you; can’t have him. Being away from everyone is a small price to pay to protect your peace, and you’ll do anything to protect it.

Day 6 prompt: "Getting Together Years After HoO"

For @percico-nicercy-events

[en8y]

[IMAGE ID: five rectangular flags with six evenly-sized stripes each. all of them have a moth icon in the top left. it is simplified and resembles their respective moths. the first flag's stripes, from top to bottom, are as follows: dull red, cool red, off-white, warm pink, medium pink, and dark purple. the second flag's stripes, from top to bottom, are as follows: golden yellow, warm yellow, cream, light pink, warm pink, and dull red-orange. the third flag's stripes, from top to bottom, are as follows: magenta, cool pink, warm pink, off-white, dull yellow, and medium yellow. the fourth flag's stripes, from top to bottom, are as follows: bright red-orange, light red, white, light grey, medium grey, and dark grey. the fifth flag's stripes, from top to bottom, are as follows: bright red, warm pink, medium grey, dark grey, nearly-black grey, and black. END ID.]

rosy ermine (moth): a presentation term for someone who presents in a valovarine way, or someone whose presentation can only be described as valovarose.

primrose moth: a presentation term for someone who presents femininely and valovarinely, or someone whose presentation is feminine in a valovarose way.

pink grass (moth): a presentation term for someone who presents masculinely and valovarinely, or someone whose presentation is masculine in a valovarose way.

rosy crown (moth): a presentation term for someone who presents neutrally and valovarinely, or someone whose presentation is gender-neutral in a valovarose way.

cinnabar moth: a presentation term for someone who presents as gender nonconforming and valovarine, or someone whose presentation is gender nonconforming in a valovarose way.

@radiomogai @liom-archive @obscurian @presentationflag-archive

[wolfywolfy]

Just a reminder that I have an ongoing fic of these two on AO3! Here's the warnings and (brand new!) summary below:

WARNINGS: blood, manipulation, sex, mentions of trauma, violence and gore in some chapters (will be stated in chapter notes), sometimes there will be angst, the idiot gets cared for

Primrose is a druid, tree-hugger, and the de facto leader of their merry little band of tadpooled misfits. She's been completely isolated from society, living alone in the woods for who knows how long, and given her naivety, Astarion figured she was raised by wolves.

Regardless, being a leader means she is a sturdy foundation for himself to latch on to, if he can manipulate her to care for him. She's prone to waxing poetics and altruistic to a fault, the perfect victim for his ministrations – so imagine his surprise when she turns out to be more complex than he gave her credit for.

Why, exactly, has she been hiding from society? Prim carries herself as if she would never do any wrong, but when provoked, she's shockingly deadly. The more time he spends with her, the more he has a suspicion that there's something dark lurking beneath the surface…. Perhaps it's time to find out.

This fic updates weekly! It starts off kind of like sequential drabbles, but has turned into a larger overarching story that I'm excited to share!! 🫶 No joke, I have 60,000+ words for this in the doc right now, I'm just forcing myself to take my time with posting it so I can be consistent lol

Link to AO3 below, feel free to comment and/or ask me any questions you might have! I hope you like it 💜

[salty-an-disco]

Apples and Peaches

Chapter 1: Cave In

A simple question: apples or peaches?

Contrarian didn't expect it to send the Princess down a journey.

OR:

Contrarian prods at Primrose while the others try to figure out how this whole camping thing works.

Hey, look! Another Heathens AU entry!! Yaaaaaayyyy

[tedwardremus]

Interesting House Guests

(Or The time Sirius invited the lads to spend the week at Grimmauld Place)

Sirius knew the best way to get them invited was to play up any of their families' wizarding credentials and make them sound as socially acceptable as possible. James was a guarantee. Remus was easy, too, because no one ever asked about the mothers. Peter would be a bit more of a challenge. “And Peter’s family live in London -”

“Is he related to Parcell Pettigrew?” Sirius jumped a bit in his seat as his father interrupted the conversation from behind his newspaper. Sirius had forgotten that his father was also in the room. 

“Possibly?” Sirius tried to recall if Peter had ever mentioned anyone by that name. He only ever mentioned his mother, Primrose, and Grandmother, Patty. “Who is Parcell?”

“A nitwit.”

“Oh, then they are definitely related,” Sirius replied, which earned him a light chuckle from behind his father’s newspaper.

Orion had his face buried so often behind a copy of the Daily Prophet that when they were younger, Sirius convinced Regulus that their father didn’t have a face at all. In Sirius’ defense, after the lie blew up in his face and caused Regulus to run down the hall screaming like a banshee when their father came home that evening, it was a stupid joke to fall for because while it was a rare sight, Regulus had most definitely had seen their father’s face before.

[spiritheyregone]

https://wildflower-seed.com/

[diary-ofamadwoman]

Fyolai, Easter and a dash of Shakespeare

A small bunch of flowers was being presented, in extreme proximity to Nikolai’s face. Contrary to what one might think, the expression on Fyodor’s face was, if possible, even more dumbstruck than the one Nikolai had on. Despite all of these unforeseen actions being precisely Fyodor’s responsibility. After (more than) a moment of awkward silence while standing in an even more awkward position, the following detailed explanation was given: “Reminded me of you.”

Rating: T; Words: 1737

[mitsuki91]

@hamriceagenda this is for you! You inspired me.

Enjoy my Katniss/Gale for you 💖

@tumblingghosts I tag you too since you reblogged my post!

What remains

Summary:

"They’re not coming back, Katniss."

Peeta? My mother? Snow, or Coin to destroy my life from beyond the grave?

Prim?

"No one's coming back."

Stressing the obvious has always been his prerogative, and my lips curve into a bitter smile.

"But you're staying."

A moment's pause, as the icy wind rattles the bare branches above our heads.

"I'm staying. Like you."

Link on ao3:

Author notes: I can't format on tumblr. This is visually better on ao3.

It happened after the first incident.

Peeta had only been back a month. A month since I had seen him planting primroses for me, him and his sun-flavored smile.

It seemed like a day like any other, me returning from hunting and him tending the garden. The sun at its zenith and Haymitch's geese quacking. Someone had dropped something heavy just down the street and the noise had made both me and Peeta jump with fright.

Suddenly I had his hands on my neck again, his horrified expression inches from my face. Someone screamed, someone ran and snatched him away from me - someone saved me. From Peeta's murderous fury.

And so it happened, exactly one day, two hours and twenty minutes after Peeta tried to kill me a second time.

Gale came back.

***

"I thought you were in Two, immersed in your military career."

"But you needed me, Katniss."

***

Sometimes I wonder what I did wrong to deserve this.

I know my life doesn't belong to me - I knew this from the first moment Prim's name was drawn in the Hunger Games - but I wonder what the point of fighting any longer is. After all, I have fulfilled my function in this world. I have been a Mockingjay, I have been the Girl on Fire, I have been the Face of the Revolution. The last arrow shot, the end of the Games. Why am I not allowed to escape even from myself now? Why am I forced to stay, why am I not allowed to slip over the edge?

Peeta has been taken away.

'Unstable', so Capitol City declared him. How they found out is a mystery - or perhaps one of the many things I don't want to admit even to myself. A suspicion, an unspoken thing, lurking in the shadows behind me.

Because now I am no longer alone.

I am not and - I would like to abandon myself, but I can't. I cannot because he looks at me.

Gale.

And when Gale looks at me, everything about me tenses by instinct - it's the sadness in his eyes. That magnet that is impossible to ignore. A center of gravity that pulls me along, preventing me from drifting.

An anchor.

And I hate him for it, too.

***

"That's not true. I never needed you."

The flash of a smile, cruel.

"My only quality was taking care of your family. And you are what remains."

 ***

The sun burns high in the sky as July sets, even in the early morning.

Gale is with me in the woods, like every day.

In silence, like every day. He can no longer speak of injustice and revolution now - they are no longer imaginary dreams, but lived nightmares.

I ignore him, as I have become good at doing. But he does not give up. He has turned into my shadow.

I just have to not look him in the eye.

The anchor is always there, keeping me clinging to myself even as Peeta's absence burns in my soul. I can always pretend he doesn't exist, though.

If I don't look at him, he doesn't exist. If I don't talk to him, he's not real.

I know he knows it hurts me. I know he knows that what I had with Peeta was real, and that the loss of what we could have been is destroying me to the core.

Killed before I can even taste life.

But Gale is too much like me and uses the same techniques against me.

If his eyes do not let me go, I cannot disappear. If his mouth is sealed, he cannot lose to Peeta.

The world won't change until one of us gives in. And, deep down, we both know it'll be me who surrenders.

***

"We're too similar to make it work, Gale. You know that. I don't need that in my life."

A step forward, one foot crushing a dandelion.

"I won't believe you until you tell me by looking at my face."

***

The beginning of November brings a week of uninterrupted rain and a sudden frost that turns the primrose bed into a muddy, dead mush. 

I feel myself dying a little with it, watching it through the window and feeling helpless.

It is like losing her a second time. Will this torment ever end? 

Gale comes back into the house at that moment with a handful of wood in his arms and does his best to light the fireplace. I close my eyes for a second and inhale deeply, because I know that if I do it now, I won't be able to go back. But the decision is already made. It is only a question of coming to terms with what I want to do - no, what I need to do. To not lose Prim. To never let her go again. 

"Gale" I call softly, in a whisper, and I hear him stand up and turn to me.

I turn as well.

And I stare him straight in the eyes.

Because I know Prim is there. She is the ghost that inhabits those gray irises, consumed by guilt. And if I look into his eyes, I can almost see her.

If I look into his eyes, I already know that I will have to surrender.

Because nothing breaks my heart more than seeing Gale sad, and I know only one viable solution to erase the torment from his soul.

I try to resist, anyway. I enjoy my sister dancing devoured by the fire at the bottom of his eyes, and I postpone the inevitable to a new day.

***

"They’re not coming back, Katniss."

Peeta? My mother? Snow, or Coin to destroy my life from beyond the grave?

Prim?

"No one's coming back."

Stressing the obvious has always been his prerogative, and my lips curve into a bitter smile.

"But you're staying."

A moment's pause, as the icy wind rattles the bare branches above our heads.

"I'm staying. Like you."

***

'A complete separation is necessary for the serenity of the subject' is the last line penned by one of Capitol City's most renowned doctors, in a graceful and elegant handwriting.

I clasp the letter in my hands as snowflakes fall placidly around me. I didn't even go back into the house before I tore open the envelope, I just stood by the mailbox reading.

It was devastating to discover how, despite all the months that had passed, I still had hope. My mind had long since given up; my heart and soul, however, had different ideas.

I return home feeling almost light, drained while everything around me seems unreal.

It is not real. It is not real. It cannot be real because I, because I...

The letter slips through my hands and I advance towards the sofa, where Gale is taking a nap. I watch him for a moment, trapped in that suspended realm where illusion still dominates over reality, and then I realize. Enlightenment hits me.

 I never kissed Gale because I wanted to make him feel good in the past.

I kissed him because if I could become the right girl for him, even for a moment, then it meant I no longer had to be Katniss Everdeen.

I kneel beside him and grab his face. Before he can fully wake up, my lips are already on his. He won't mind coming back to the world like this, I hope.

If by kissing him I can become whoever I want, then that means I can also be the girl who was never in love with Peeta - the girl who never lost him.

***

"You're the one who wanted it."

Both of our breaths are broken, his cheeks are red and his gaze is hard as steel.

"You can't regret it now, Katniss."

***

There is an aspect of fire that I had never considered before. That destructive force that animates us, that ignites us with its desperation, can be channeled in many ways.

It was with Gale that I discovered passion.

Pain is best expressed when you can carve flesh with your nails, then lick the trails of ferruginous blood returning from orgasm. Guilt is best borne when you can at least partially atone for it when it all comes down to an irrational instinct to grab, to have, to suffer - and only the dark bruises remain, which you look at with a satisfied smile the next day.

You no longer feel the guilt of being alive during the day, if in the night you season your nightmares with sex, which seems to erase all sin.

Even Gale seems more relaxed.

There is always Prim in the back of his eyes, dancing on skulls and ashes. But she smiles, for once. She is serene and watches me live with a mysterious smile.

To have Gale is to have her and that I can never give up.

Gale smiles much more often. When we go out hunting together; we don't speak, but sometimes he holds me in his arms and the world thins out around us.

Understanding each other with a glance and without making noise has always been a prerogative of us hunters. We have known each other almost all our lives and, after all, we both live with the same ghosts.

Since I have had the courage to look, everything seems to have fallen into place.

I'm not saying my life is perfect, not this, never this. But Gale is my rock.

And with him, I know I can live one more day.

***

"Where are you going?"

He smiles, amused by the hint of panic in my voice.

"Just to the market, to buy bread."

"I'll go with you. Wait for me."

"As you wish, Katnip ."

[sorchasolas]

Stormlight Archive Characters and the Modern name I think they’d have

(Btw, im focusing on American/Western/ykwim names)

Adolin: Aaron (reason: the meaning is close to Adolin’s own, it’s meaning in Strong's Hebrew Lexicon being"Light-bringer", and the fact they have generally similar structure.)

Kaladin: Kayson/Callum (Reason: Kayson has a similar nickname format to Kal, being Kay. It also means “healer”, and i thought that was nice. Callum being a secondary option, more for the fact the nickname is identical, is also just generally a name i see Kal having.(Also it’s loosely based off of Saint. Columba, and the direct meaning is “dove”, which is a symbol of the Holy Spirit, and i think it fits Kal’s character to be named after a saint and a big religious thing, with his name being “born unto eternity”)

Shallan: Primrose/Lilias (reason: while Shallan’s name doesnt currently have a canon meaning besides being derivative of Shalash, it’s actual meaning as a name means “Poppy Flower” and because i didn’t feel like Poppy fit Shallan, i found names that matched Shallan’s energy and general meaning, taking ‘flower’ instead of ‘poppy.’ Lilias is a Scottish name— my own personal HC of where she would be from, or at least her ancestry— and fits Shallan’s name of having two consonants on either side of her name and the middle being symmetrical. Primrose was just a general vibe pick)

Dalinar: Dallas (Reason: Dalinar also has no confirmed names, its similar to Brandon’s son’s name, Dallin. That name means “from the valley”, so I looked at names with the same/similar meanings. Also vibes, and the fact Dallas is a city, and Dalinar sounds similar/has the same last letters as Kholinar)

Renarin: Raziel (reason: because there are NO good R names. No but this one was tough. Renarin’s name doesnt really mean anything i could translate into like an irl name, so i just went through all R names. This name kinda has the same feel as Renarin’s must in Roshar, being generally adherent to naming standards while sounding out of place. Also, in the Jewish Kabbalah, Raziel is an angel known as “The Keeper of Secrets.” So, (Spoilers?) pass at Sja-Anat and stuff)

[astheforcewillsit]

Chapters: 1/1 Summary: Anakin makes a decision entirely too late. But still, he makes a decision. And it changes the course of the galaxy for better and for worse.

He reaches out into the Force, and immediately snaps his shields up. The pain is excruciating. It is burning. The Order is being picked off. One by one. 

He staggers, and he thinks of the robot that should be a clone beside him. He thinks of Obi-Wan’s force signature dimming. He thinks of Ahsoka alone on a ship with men who have long forgotten who they were.

  His men.

Is this what he was doing to his men?

[en8y]

[IMAGE ID: five rectangular flags with six evenly-sized stripes each. all of them have a bird icon in the top left. it is simplified and resembles their respective birds. the first flag's stripes, from top to bottom, are as follows: medium brown, warm green, beige, cool pink, hot pink, and dark maroon. the second flag's stripes, from top to bottom, are as follows: black, white, peach, warm pink, rose gold, and dull red-orange. the third flag's stripes, from top to bottom, are as follows: medium red, cool red, white, pastel pink, dull pink, and medium pink. the fourth flag's stripes, from top to bottom, are as follows: medium red, light red, light grey, light brown, medium brown, and dark brown. the fifth flag's stripes, from top to bottom, are as follows: black, dark grey, peach, bright red-orange, dull red-orange, and dark red. END ID.]

anna('s) hummingbird: a term for someone who is both a rosy ermine moth and a lovebird. a presentation term for an arospec person who presents in a valovarine and lovecore way.

flamingo: a term for someone who is both a primrose moth and a lovebird. a presentation term for a feminine arospec person who presents in a feminine valovarine and lovecore way.

roseate spoonbill: a term for someone who is both a pink grass moth and a lovebird. a presentation term for a masculine arospec person who presents in a masculine valovarine and lovecore way.

cassin('s) finch: a term for someone who is both a rosy crown moth and a lovebird. a presentation term for a neutral arospec person who presents in a neutral valovarine and lovecore way.

scarlet ibis: a term for someone who is both a cinnabar moth and a lovebird. a presentation term for a gender non-conforming arospec person who presents in a gender non-conforming valovarine and lovecore way.

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