#( 01. ARC / an elite squad known as the special victims unit. )

[alwaysfine]

˟    @o177​    ━━    A NEWFOUND RESPECT.

&.          𝐒𝐇𝐄’𝐒 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐁𝐘 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐌𝐀𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐄  ,  completely oblivious to the footsteps approaching the break room.  hand is resting on top of the backlit plastic cover of the metal machine before foot collides with it when the coca-cola she payed for doesn’t make an appearance.    her patience is wearing thin  ,  and as she looks up and sees dodds  ,  she nearly kicks the machine again out of irritation.    ❝    so i kicked the vending machine   ─   you gonna tell on me?  bill me for the damages?    ❞

[alwaysfine]

nose boop. [ oh jeeze ]

˟    @o177    ━━    ACTION MEME : ACCEPTING !

&.          𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐃𝐎𝐃𝐃𝐒.      so  ,  she nearly bit his head off during a squad discussion.  there’s been undeniable tension and defiance on her end for weeks now  ,  why the sudden need to attempt to fix it?  whatever the reason  ,  amanda was certain this wasn’t going to help her like him any more than she currently does.  dropping her gym bag by the door  ,  amanda crosses the room with her arms folded across her chest  ,  the fact that she needs to look up at him more than usual  ( due to ditching her heeled boots for her nike tennis shoes )  irritating enough.    ❝    i think it’s in both of our best interests to say showin’ up is enough and just leave now before i get the chance to    ──        ❞    it’s at that moment that his finger collides softly with the tip of her nose  ,  her own hand immediately coming upwards to smack his away.    ❝    what are you    ──    liv said the goal of this was to help us get along better.  so far?  you’re not off to a very good start  ,  sergeant.    ❞

[alwaysfine]

˟    @amaroed​    ━━    CONT  !

&.          𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐀𝐁𝐋𝐄 𝐒𝐌𝐈𝐑𝐊      spreads across the blonde’s lips as she sets down her half eaten deli sandwich on the car’s dashboard and picks up her phone  ,  attempting to find a song suitable for the occasion.    ❝    i don’t know  ,  maybe blastin’ it’s a small world would be a better choice.  they’re bound to go runnin’.    ❞    amanda leans back in her seat  ,  eyebrows furrowing.    ❝    after travelin’ all the way across state lines to go interview a serial killer  ,  all i wanted was to eat my lunch in peace.  right now?  i would love for one of ‘em to meet my right hook.    ❞

[alwaysfine]

@drftwood​​​​    /    𝐉𝐑 !    (    cont.    )

          head lulls to the side as he speaks, hand gently swatting at his chest the moment he pulls her closer.  ❝    𝐬𝐡𝐮𝐭 𝐮𝐩, 𝐣𝐫.    ❞    it only takes a moment for her laugh to sound while pale fingers brush golden strands from her eyes.  ❝    aw, how cute!  you say ‘ 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛' 𝑠𝑛𝑎𝑐𝑘𝑠 ’ as if i didn’t just buy all of this at the store.    ❞    she reaches up to pat his cheek before eyes roll, free hand reaching out and snatching the bowl of popcorn away from him.  ❝    hey, my taste is 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒆.  i’m the one who had a kid with you,  𝑑𝑖𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑖?    ❞

[alwaysfine]

@battleincarnate / DISCORD RELATED THING YOU DIDN’T ASK FOR !

          (    ‘ okay im not that irish ’     )

❝    liv gave me the uc name eileen stabler and the only thing you have to say is that it sounds too irish?    ❞    she flicks her new id at him  ,  arms cross with a huff.    ❝    she just made me a stabler and you're not even phased .    ❞

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@o188             DIDN’T ASK BUT SHALL RECEIVE ! 

❝    so  ....    ❞    amanda graciously takes the seltzer water from his hand  ,  a muttered thanks before raising her eyebrow.    ❝    when did you and fin become our resident gossipmongers  ,  hmm?    or did you two get lost?    ‘cause i’m pretty sure the high school is a couple blocks over.    ❞    smile is teasing as she takes another bite of her pizza before she  (  unsurprisingly  )  wipes her hands on her pants instead of the napkins on her desk.    

[alwaysfine]

&. @cabotiisms​​        MEME RESPONSE !

❝    𝚜𝚘 𝚍𝚘𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚖𝚎𝚊𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞’𝚛𝚎 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚐𝚘𝚗𝚗𝚊 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖 𝚖𝚎 𝚘𝚞𝚝?    ❞  amanda’s arms are folded tightly across her chest, a ‘ fuck you ’ smile offered to the guard as the barred door is opened.  amanda knew she should’ve stayed in her seat and kept her mouth shut, but per usual, her impulses took over.  ❝    yeah, well, in case you haven’t noticed, i don’t do well with other people tryin’ to control me.    ❞  there’s a huff as she looks up at alex, an exasperated sigh escaping her lips.  ❝    do i wanna talk about it?  nope.    ❞  amanda turns her head to avoid their former ada’s gaze, before clearing her throat.  ❝    are we done?    ❞

[alwaysfine]

☮ // smol noah

𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝚘𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚏𝚒𝚜𝚑 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚒𝚖𝚙𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚗 was swimming across the screen as a result of noah choosing finding nemo for movie night at the rollins girls’ apartment. amanda can tell jesse had fallen asleep not even an hour into the movie, but as she moves to glance down at noah, she feels the young boy shift under her arm and then suddenly one of his small hands moves to rest against her now noticeable baby bump. she’s surprised at the contact, but as oceanic blue eyes glance downwards at the little boy who had so easily captured her heart, the surprise vanishes and her expression softens immediately.  

𝚊𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚊 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔𝚜 𝚖𝚊𝚢𝚋𝚎 𝚑𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚜 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜, for despite the explanation of her pregnancy amanda had given him earlier ( with the help of liv ), she wouldn’t be surprised with his curious mind if he’d come up with even more questions. she’s about to ask, but abandons the idea the second he smooshes his button nose against her temple, before pressing a giant kiss against her cheek.  she feels her heart swell to ten times the size it was just thirty seconds ago, the amount of love she had for him and the amount of love she’d just received from him filling her chest and threatening to overflow.  

𝚒𝚝’𝚜 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚊 𝚖𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚑𝚎’𝚜 𝚌𝚞𝚛𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚑𝚒𝚖𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔 up into her side, and amanda finds her vision blurring as tears start to pool in her eyes.  as she looks down at noah and jesse, there’s not a doubt in her mind anymore.  this pregnancy was good.  she wasn’t letting liv down, she wasn’t letting the department down.  no, this was good.

&. @painbled​​ / SEND A SYMBOL TO KISS THE GEORGIA PEACH / ACCEPTING !

[alwaysfine]

⊰ ♛ ⊱ &. @amaroed didn’t ask for a thing but ... !

❝    𝚒'𝚖 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚒𝚗' 𝚊 𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚘𝚞𝚜 𝚍𝚒𝚕𝚎𝚖𝚖𝚊.  ❞  amanda moves to sit on the edge of nick’s desk, oceanic blue eyes fixating on the fellow detective.  ❝    i don’t know what i should be for halloween this year.  unfortunately, i don’t think i can be you two years in a row...    ❞

[alwaysfine]

⊰ ♛ ⊱ &. @braveintent gets a thing !

there’s an overly bright smile on her face ( if one really knew her, they’d know it was fake ) as she waves dodds senior out the door.  it had been painfully obvious from the beginning that amanda wasn’t exactly a fan of the older dodds, but she's recently been working on concealing her dislike since she’d gotten closer to mike.  

  ❝    did he really think you’d enjoy this?   ❞  the blonde approaches the coffee table, and her nose automatically wrinkles at the contents of the care basket dodds senior had just dropped off.  those were not donuts.   ❝   i don’t think i’ve ever seen such a depressin’ care basket.  i’ll get you some real donuts tomorrow, m’kay?    ❞  she lets out a soft sigh, before resting her elbow on the back of the couch and propping her head up with the heel of her hand.  ❝    so now that he's gone ... how are you really doin’?    ❞

[alwaysfine]

SHE HAD TO CALL HIM.  amanda knew that despite their lack of communication since he’d found out she was pregnant with his baby , that no matter what , he would want to know when his daughter had been born.  she knew that.  and still , jesse was already three days old before she’d managed to even open his contact in her phone. it was just ... every time she looked down at his name , she got hit with so many emotions that it made her head spin and her chest ache.  

SHE CAN FEEL HER HEART THUMPING IN HER CHEST , and she wonders if he’ll be able to hear it through the phone.  who knows , he may not even pick up.  as the phone rings , amanda’s eyes glance downwards to the sleeping baby in her arms as her tongue runs along bottom lip.  as she looks into the face of the baby that she wouldn’t have without him ; their daughter who had come to be in the middle of that new york blizzard , she can’t stop her throat from tightening up or the tears that prick at the corner of her eyes for she fears her sweet jesse will have to live many of her younger years without him.

SHE’S ABOUT TO HANG UP when she hears his voice on the other line.  eyes flutter closed , and she’s silent for a moment as she tries to find her words.  ❝  declan ... it’s uhm ... it’s amanda.  ❞  she bites on the inside of her lip , forcing herself to open her eyes and look at the baby in her arms.  amanda knew she wouldn’t be able to tell him without seeing her angelic , innocent face.  ❝  as of november 18th , you’ve got a baby girl named jesse.  ❞

@justiiceserved gets 1/ 940382432 plotted things !

[alwaysfine]

amanda had yet to move from her spot  on the stand while the still silence filled the empty courtroom.  she’d asked rafael if she could have a minute alone  ,  and in that time had done nothing but stare at the seat patton would be sitting in tomorrow  ;  the seat where he would be sitting while she told the jury what he’d done to her  (  if the judge allowed her testimony  ,  anyways  ).   it became obvious from the start that this case was weighing heavily upon already broken wings  ,   and elliot trying to figure her out hadn’t gone unnoticed.  they were partners  ;  but it wasn’t until recently that it had become evident they really did care for each other and they would protect each other to a probably dangerous fault.  even so  ,  she’d told him to leave the situation alone numerous times  ,  yet when she looks up at the sound of the courtroom door opening and sees him  ,  she’s not really that surprised.  eyes meet his  ,  and she knows he heard everything                         she can tell by the look on his face.    jaw clenches tightly as tears prick at her eyes  ,  and she immediately turns her head while her pale hand helps to prop her head up  ;   elbow leaning against the wooden enclosure around her.  ❝    why didn’t you just go like i asked you to ?  this was between me’n barba and you had no right to eavesdrop  ,  elliot !    ❞  

&. * @63l3 gets dad being there for forgiving rollins like he should’ve been !

[alwaysfine]

"This was you?" -- Declan

❝    goodnight  ,  baby.    ❞    amanda’s voice is soft as she whispers into her daughter’s ear  ,  before pressing a kiss to her forehead and shutting off the light.  they’d finally gotten into a routine with declan back in their life  ,  but tonight  ,  declan had come later than usual and both had decided it would be better to let him see jesse tomorrow.   amanda knew her daughter would get much too excited to sleep if she saw him now  ,  and she still had to go to school tomorrow.  while amanda had expected declan to leave  ,  he hadn’t.   and she was glad he hadn’t.  coming back down the hallway  ,   cheeks instantly went red when she saw him sitting on the couch with the old photo album she kept on the nearby bookshelf in his hand.  she had barely remembered what photos were plastered among its pages  ,  and she could only hope they weren’t too embarrassing. 

nose wrinkles at the question  ,  before she saunters across the living room floor.    ❝    let’s see it.    ❞    taking a seat next to him  ,  she feels her heart skip a beat as their fingers brush when she takes hold of the photo  ,  and she tries her hardest to ignore the feeling.  instead  ,  cerulean eyes drift downwards to the date stamp which reads august 2, 1986  ,  and she realizes she is indeed staring at a photo of a six-year-old amanda.  golden hair is pulled into to braids  ,  and she’s in a little red dress  ,  with none other than a ukulele in her tiny hands.  

a soft laugh leaves amanda’s lips  ,  as she realizes that she looks so much like jesse in this picture that she could truly be mistaken for their baby girl who was sound asleep down the hall.  ❝    you almost thought i was jesse  ,  didn’t ya ?    ❞    amanda grins  ,  before offering the picture back to him.    ❝    i was six  ,  and that was one of the first and last times i ever touched a ukulele.    ❞    she pulls her knees into her chest before resting her head against his shoulder.  it had felt like the natural thing to do  ,  and she was only hoping that he wouldn’t mind.    ❝    trust me  –  i’m leavin’ the instrument playin’ to you two.    ❞

@bagelldaddy​ sent ‘ this was you?’ to find an old picture of amanda / accepting !

[alwaysfine]

👀 // well if you’re accepting.... from declan byeee

THEY HAD BEEN SITTING TOGETHER ON THE COUCH WHILE BLANKETS OF SNOW  were covering the streets outside amanda’s apartment.  there was a flickering fire providing them warmth , as stories that neither normally shared were put out in the open ; the level of trust between amanda rollins and declan murphy undeniable. but it all changed the minute his gaze had caught her own. it rendered her speechless.  there was an intensity burning in his eyes which only fueled the fire burning in her own , and it was clear then what they both wanted. 

AMANDA REGRETTED A LOT OF THINGS IN HER LIFE , but sleeping with declan murphy in the middle of this blizzard was not one of them.  she’d never felt this connected with someone before ; to be able to feel both vulnerable and safe at the same time.  it had scared her at first , for she felt he was truly seeing the real her and she didn’t want that to change the way he looked at her.  but the fear had all faded away the second he’d tucked her hair behind her ear and taken her hands in his own   –   for in that moment , she knew he would keep her safe.

AMANDA WAS NOW STANDING IN HER LIVING ROOM ,  body adorned with declan’s dark gray button up that falls to her mid-thigh.  she’d taken it off the foot of her bed , for she still wanted part of him with her as she went to make some hot chocolate for both of them when he woke up.  she’s watching the snow fall , her empty nypd mug in her hand while she waits for the milk to heat up.  his voice and the pet name darlin’ bring her from her thoughts as she turns towards him ; mesmerizing ocean eyes meeting his immediately.  ❝  i borrowed your shirt  –  hope you don’t mind.  ❞  she bites on her lip softly , before her lips start to tug into a smile.  once she’s close enough , she intertwines her fingers with his before motioning towards the kitchen.  ❝  i was gonna bring you some hot chocolate … i uhm , i sorta ran outta coffee.  ❞  there’s a soft laugh , as she takes a step closer to him.  and while she doesn’t know it yet , she’s looking into the eyes of the man she just made a baby with … a baby who would become her world.

@justiiceserved / ya’ll wanna see amanda with no pants on / not accepting !

[alwaysfine]

[ comfort ]

❝  I’M JUST GONNA GET SOME FRESH AIR.  ❞  amanda’s cerulean eyes watch as two men  ( out of less than five )  who she trusts walk away , leaving her to her own thoughts as the icy new york air whips against her ivory skin and through her flaxen hair.  she too turns on her heel to walk away , but stops once she comes across a bench outside the courthouse.  she nearly collapses onto it , for her feelings on this case had taken over her mind and she can no longer avoid them.  yes , the patton case was finally over and his sentence had been given , but was that enough for her ?  no , not really.  charles patton had shattered a part of her the second he’d ignored her pleas for him to stop ; the scar that’s hidden beneath golden bangs a physical reminder of it.  yet somehow , he was free to go back home and she was still here … trapped within the confines of her intensely guarded mind.

SHE DOESN’T REALIZE THAT SHE’S STARTED TO CRY , for she’s still stuck wandering lost in her thoughts.  it isn’t until she feels someone sit down beside her , that she can feel the dampness on her wind kissed cheeks.  she blinks , immediately wiping at her face while she tries to erase any evidence of tears.  ❝  what the hell happened to goin’ and gettin’ the car with nick , hmm ?  ❞  she turns to look at him , and the look of genuine concern etched into his features causes more tears to spring back into her eyes.  it was so rare for someone to look at her like that.  amanda takes his hand into her own before giving it a soft squeeze while a watery smile crosses her face.  ❝  thanks.  ❞  and that’s when he releases her hand and instead cradles the back of her head with his hand as he pulls her into a hug.  her own arms wrap tightly around him , while she hides her face in his shoulder.  

ODAFIN TUTUOLA IS ONE OF THE FEW REASONS AMANDA ROLLINS STILL BELIEVES IN GOOD.

@odafins​​ / do things for amanda / always accepting !

[alwaysfine]

[ tuck ] to place a blanket on my muse. ( erin )

SHE’S SITTING ON THE AMBULANCE’S REAR STEP ,  an ice pack to her throbbing head while eyes flutter closed in an attempt to block out the flashing red and blue lights. her and fin had gone to help chicago pd with another case , and their suspect had whacked her in the head with a piece of wood which caused the nasty gash on her forehead that now had an ice pack on top of it.  luckily for her , he was taken out a moment later.  a sigh escaped chapped lips , and she begins to shiver as she leans her body up against the side of the ambulence.  it’s only a moment later that she feels someone drape a fleece blanket across shivering shoulders , and eyes flutter open to find erin lindsay sitting next to her.  ever since the last case they’d worked on together , they’d actually kept in touch and had become great friends.  the blonde detective smiles , before shifting from leaning her head up against the ambulance to her friend’s shoulder.  ❝  thanks for havin’ my back lindsay.  ❞

@herheroics​ / soft touch meme / always accepting !