#'you like to be in control - you tell me' vs. 'i'll let you decide where we go from here'

[comshipbracket]

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Remember, you are voting for the ship you prefer, not the ship you find more problematic

Propaganda for both ships under the cut.

Disclaimer: All ships (other than the now-eliminated NozoCoco) on this bracket are FOLLOWER-SUBMITTED ships, the Mods do not always hold necessary knowledge to be aware of any errors or fanonizing what should be canon material that may arise.

Lucifadam Propaganda (Harmful Dynamic)

"Lucifer is a fallen angel while Adam is still an angel, leading an army of exorcists that slaughters Lucifer's people annually. He's constantly killing demons, and Lucifer has basically given up trying to prevent this after several attempts. However, he has that protective fire reignited in him when Adam decides to go after Lucifer's daughter - and Lucifer makes a comment that many take in a more suggestive fashion than Lucifer intended. They're SO unhealthy for each other, but that one comment eliciting that kind of reaction sparked fun ideas for their ship in my head, so I wanted to submit these two together."

Stannarrator Propaganda (Codependency, Toxic Power Dynamics - In most endings)

"The Stanley Parable is a game about The Narrator wanting to tell a story through their game but having to rely on the Stanley's choices. The core of the game is that Stanley and The Narrator are bound to each other: Stanley needs The Narrator to make the "parable" he lives in, and The Narrator needs Stanley to make the choices that drive the story.

The Narrator clearly has the most power in this dynamic, since he can alter the world the Stanley lives in: modifying the rooms, creating and deleting objects at will, reloading the game, altering Stanley's perception, knowing almost everything and being almost everywhere. But, despite all that power, he isn't able to control the one thing that keeps his story existing: Stanley's choices.

Okay, spoilers to both the original 2013 game and the Ultra Deluxe remake from here on out since it's impossible to talk about them without spoiling a lot of the endings.

In one of the new endings on the Ultra Deluxe remake, the Skip Button ending, The Narrator creates a button that lets Stanley skip his dialogue `inspired` by a bad Steam review, but when Stanley clicks this button The Narrator is left all alone in that room, and which each click the skip becomes longer, from minutes, to hours, to weeks, to months… And in the fifth skip (where Stanley stays frozen for like, one, two weeks), The Narrator breaks up, talking about how he needs Stanley to listen to him and how scared he is of slipping back into the silence he passes through every time we use the skip button. In his own words, `I can't lose myself in the stretch of emptiness between you and me.` Of course, since it's the only way to advance in this ending, we skip again, and again, until The Narrator ends up eventually disappearing after the 12th or 13th skip, leaving Stanley alone in a desert, and that's where the ending stops, though it continues on the Epilogue, but I'll leave some things to add as propaganda during the polls.

Despite this, The Narrator still has more control of the situation than Stanley, like on the Explosion ending, where he traps Stanley in a room while the building's destroys itself as consequence for choosing to activate the Mind Control Machine instead of shutting it down to free everyone. He keeps acting like Stanley is nothing but a vehicle for him to pass a message through his story. `Watching you try to make sense of everything and take back the control wrested away from you…it's quite rich. I almost hate to see it go!` `You're only still playing instead of watching a cutscene because I want to watch you for every moment that you're powerless, to see you made humble. […] You wanted to control this world; that's fine. But I'm going to destroy it first, so you can't.`

But there's one point where they're equal, they both want to free themselves. On the Museum ending, we meet a being that is higher than The Narrator, the Female Narrator (yeah, that's her name), and she gives the best description of the relationship between these two: `Oh, look at these two. How they wish to destroy one another. How they wish to control one another. How they both wish to be free. Can you see? Can you see how much they need one another? No, perhaps not. Sometimes these things cannot be seen.`"

[notreallyuseless]

SECOND WEEK OF READING MHA MANGA EVERYDAY FOR OCTOBER

(Vol 8-14) (it's a little late because i forgot to read 2 days so i was stuck reading 3mangas in like... a few hours ooch)

There's another really creepy close up of Shigaraki's face in vol 8 and OH BOY. Horikoshi and his team are talented because you go from a normal simple panel to Junji Ito-esque type of panel. Also the jumpscare everytime it happens haha

Also finally we meet Dabi and Himiko :DDD you can tell me if i'm insane but... i wonder what Dabi's fucked up skin feels like 🤔

Vol 9 has the moment where i went from "who's this fucked up looking stapled guy?" To "omg he's so cool" in the anime. The moment being Dabi blasting Aizawa with fire so close to his face. My friend who also watch mha knows i like this scene lololol.

LET'S NOT FORGET TOKOYAMI OMGOOOOD!!! Tokoyami losing control of Dark Shadow is just WOW. I'm so biased (he's my favorite character lol) but he looked so cool!

The OFA vs AFO fight in vol 11! *chef's kiss* so good. I have nothing else to say lol

Inasa is soooo funny I love this guy haha his hero costume is so cool and it looks so much cooler in the manga idk why buy woah. OH! MISS.JOKE!!! i love her! Her design is so cool i love the colors!!! Aaaaahhh!!!!!

(Spoilers i guess?)

Himiko as Camie is SO SO COOL. I totally forgot that she explains how she can kind of disappear when she attacks! I love Real Camie (that i'll see soon in the manga!) But Camie/Himiko is just so cool to see! Also the fact that she can change from one person to another person??? Never realized!

Ouch! Inasa telling Shoto that he has the same eye(s) as his father in vol 13 and the manga panel is just Shoto's blue eye! WAH! Horikoshi you're so smart lol

Dabi looks so hot while burning down people 🥰

Vol 13, we get the first look at Overhaul! Still great character design i can't say anything bad about his design.

I'll be honest, Bakugo is far from my favorite character in the anime, he's...alright sometimes in the manga, but damn that guy is smart haha. Maybe he'll grow on my idk

(^^^^ this was at the end of vol 13)

(vvvvv here's me at the start of vol 14)

I always loved the Deku/Bakugo fight because they FINALLY FUCKING TALK OMG! EVERYONE CHEERS! Bakugo is not so bad finally!

THE BIG THREE!!! MY FAVORITE GUYS!!!! I really like that Mirio decided tk fight ALL of class 1-A by himself, but it would have been cool if it was the three of them against the class. We could have seen Tamaki and Nejire kick some teenagers' butt haha

Everytime i see Overhaul and Shigaraki talk, i remember this screenshot of Shigaraki saying "with all due respect, which is none, go to hell" i can't take anything they're saying seriously.

To finish, here's two drawings i found funny!

ANYWAY! Second week is done! I'm already a day behind! It's funny because it's taking me way longer to read them than I thought, but also it's not too bad! I'm just slow haha

[cadybear420]

Yeah one of the project devs told me themselves that there were strap-on scenes in the finale for Amalia and cis m!MC, Jocelyn and cis m!MC, and Lincoln and cis f!MC. I was confused as to why Abel wasn't included in the list... I guess it technically makes sense why not considering his office setting, but it also would have been cool if they found a way to work around that lol. Like what if Abel kept a vibrating dildo thing disguised as a pen/marker like they had MC do in Surrender 2... haha jkjk. Unless...

I'll admit that that is one drawback of including strap-on scenes, including in PB's stories– there are some situations where it might not be practical to just have a strap-on on hand. But in that case, at least let us finger the guys/get fingered by the gals. There was a brief moment in the pool smut scene with Jocelyn where she did push a couple of fingers inside my m!MC's ass, after giving him a really good rimming (and let me tell you the way I squealed and rolled around on the living room floor when that scene happened). And even a brief moment in TNA 3 Ch 1 where if I choose to play with Sam's ass, they'll briefly mention MC slipping her fingers between Sam's cheeks (now TNA 3 was trash, but I think in this case the trash was worth it to give us that one scene, even if it was just crumbs lol)

i also saw this in the ilitw f!mc x andy scene, the game worded it as "i want to top" vs "to bottom" and i fully expected her to use the strap on him but what they actually meant is that she wants to BE ON top. not to actually top him. i guess that actually makes sense since obviously it'd be andy who'd want to wear the strap but at least word it correctly and don't make it seem like there's a pegging (ish??? idk if it counts since it would be a cis woman penetrating a man but not a cis man like the term pegging usually means) scene coming up when there's not.

A similar thing happened with the f!MC x Lucas scene! The options were "top him" vs "let him take control". The "top him" option just had her be on top, ie. riding him, rather than actually topping him with a strap-on. So during that whole scene I was just like... my Jo would never 🥲

I gotta write my own fanfic of Jo rawdogging Lucas with a strap-on one day. I just need to decide on a scenario for them...

at least word it correctly and don't make it seem like there's a pegging scene coming up when there's not.

Yes yes exactly I can not emphasize this enough!!!!! Top/bottom aren't just synonyms for dom/sub and it always throws me for a loop when people use the terms that way

idk if it counts since it would be a cis woman penetrating a man but not a cis man like the term pegging usually means

Pegging is usually used to describe cis woman penetrating cis man with strap-on, but it has also been used as an umbrella term for any anal penetration with a strap-on. Or sometimes an umbrella term for any use of a strap-on in general. A few people have also used it as an umbrella term for any stuff involving woman-penetrating-man but that's not as common. So I'd argue that a hypothetical scenario of f!MC fucking Andy with a strap-on, whether vaginally or anally, could count as pegging.

All things considered though, I really wish stuff like pegging was like a more regular option. A lot of people perceive it as just a kink/fetish thing when it's really just another way to have sex imho.

personally i think ilw should've given us the option to romance lily if ilitw mc is a girl but eh

and yes i know that requires more effort on the coding for her to only be a li for one gender since they can't just remove her lesbianism especially since she got bullied for it (plus i think she ends up with a gf regardless of whether or not she forgives britney but y'all know me and my bad memory) but i love her sm plus it'd also be the first instance of a fat li regardless if it's not actually a canon pb book

[pinkhysteria]

What’s a tvdverse character you didn’t like at first but ended up loving alot?

i don’t know, because my tastes and opinions have been pretty consistent over the years. i wouldn't say i love her, but i have warmed up to hayley a lot more than i did while s1-2 of TO were airing? though i did like her at first on TVD and i remember being ecstatic klaus was finally fucking with a real bitch, and it was the transition to TO and adjacency to elijah that turned me off of the character very strongly for a minute.

[captnjacksparrow]

As someone who tries to stay away from analyses because they tend to bash other characters to prove a point and they very often have a tendency to see the view from one stand point and never think of others, I find your analyses soothing. You rarely take just one side and you're not doing any mental acrobacy to prove your point and that's critical thinking, being able to see things from more sides and not seeing things in black and white. Of course you're not perfect but no one is and it's fine. Keep on doing this and I hope others will learn from you, if you had any recommendations for similar blogs, feel free to share

Thank you so much, Anon.

I think my write-ups are nothing new. It's just that Kishimoto's writing reflects in my posts. So, all your words in this ask is something I would direct it towards the Author. Because there are stories which talks about Revenge, Discovering oneself, Anti-Government, Good vs Bad, Righteousness and all that. But this story's core theme is Understanding and Anti-War.

Best Example is, Pain Arc.

What impressed me in that Arc was that scene when Naruto was seething with Anger and Hatred after seeing Nagato for the first time, as he rightfully should be because he is the looking at the person who is responsible for the death of his Master and Sensei. But Naruto had the strong mental integrity to control his hatred and started to ask Nagato, the right question.

"I don't know a thing about you... Tell me your story... And then I'll give you my Answer"

Naruto actually wants to listen to the other side of the story and come to a conclusion rather than striking at him just like that. And this is what Naruto has been doing from the First Arc... Haku, Gaara, Nagato, Obito were all the people he put an effort to understand before straight-up killing them like the rest of the other ninjas.

Look at the other side and see if you can still say the same thing. Otherwise, you are just a total hypocrite. Wonderful Message!!!.

This scene just explains it all.

“What about my Master? My Sensei? My Friends? My Home!?”

As an Audience, I was extremely devastated and couldn't move on from the shock I received after Pain obliterated Konoha. I was also feeling just like Naruto.

But the tables turned... All in a second.

"But what about my family? My friends? My Home? You Konoha Ninja aren't the only ones allowed to speak of Peace and Harmony, especially after you did to my village what I just did to yours."

Pain is simply asking some painful, logical, hard-hitting questions for which Naruto had no answer...

And Look at Naruto's dejected face. Even as a viewer, I didn't have an answer either. I can't even pick any sides and Nothing is black and white anymore. Unlike Kakuzu, Hidan, Deidara and Sasori... Nagato is not doing this for fun or money. He has a purpose and has an extreme pain behind that purpose.

But it doesn’t mean that Nagato was right though. His pain is understandable but his methods are not. 

And that’s why Naruto’s decision of “It’s enough... Let’s stop this.... You have suffered because of us. And We also have suffered because of you... Let’s put an end to this vicious cycle of revenge/hatred and let’s think about the future” is the right decision, no matter how you look at it. It’s idealistic. Yes. But also, It’s a tough choice to make considering the loss Naruto & Konoha has suffered....

Which is also very similar to...

How Hashirama and Madara came to an agreement of Peace by setting aside their Generation after Generation of their ill-feelings and decided to unite together. 

So, If the Narrative itself is pushing this dilemma where you cannot take sides because there are no innocents on one side but an Understanding could stop pointless conflicts and ill-feelings, then I feel while writing my post, I should also think in a similar way, think through others' POV and stop being biased by putting the blame on a single entity...

As for the blog recommendation, 

I got this inspiration to write lengthy posts with Panels only after reading one of the Quora writer’s meta posts over there. However she is a NaruSaku Shipper, though. But she is my favourite when it comes to bringing up her points and explaining it in an understandable way. It’s been months since I read her posts last time... But her link is here.. [Link]. (She covered good topics other than shipping if you scroll down her page but stupid people disgusted her comment section it seems, so she is not writing those topics anymore)

However when it comes to Tumblr though, I’ve seen this person (senjuhashirama) wrote an excellent post about Will of Fire. That post clearly explained as to how Will of Fire concept can be used in a good way as well as in a bad way. [[I didn’t mention their blog explicitly because I never had a conversation with them, so I feel it’s inappropriate to specify them here.]]. I’ll attach that post... [Here]

And then there is this Excellent Analysis post about Obito in all of the internet.. [Post Link].. It's just WoW!!! Even if you don't like Obito, but by the end of that post you would eventually understand the depth of that character. There's no bias, no tear wiping, no blame shifting or no asspull agenda making. It's exactly how the author has written his character. These are the kind of posts I truly crave for.

I’ve never seen anyone here in Tumblr writing about all the topics... And Even if they do, they go full on Anti-Anti-Anti Konoha and Pro-Pro-Pro Uchiha (mostly Sasuke stans) and you will see them hating half of the characters in Narutoverse (especially Naruto) which goes against everything the story has set up and eventually they blame it on bad writing which I can't suggest from my side.

As for my imperfection, I think I know what you mean and I am kinda being intentional (??). Lol. You mean my Sakura/Hinata bashing (mostly Sakura)... in posts they are not relevant, Right?. I do think about this a lot and was conflicted about it... But then, her fans are self-insertive in every part of the story (even in a story where she isn't relevant) and it's very very hard to take part in the public fandom discussion without having her fans forcefully spamming their ideas everywhere. So, I kinda want to show their theories are utterly wrong through my posts.

So, Thanks again for this Ask. I thoroughly enjoyed writing this.

[angstysebfan]

Heyy!! Ok so could I please request something where Bucky and pregnant reader are about to get married. He and the guests are all waiting for her to walk down the aisle but after a little while she still hasn't shown up and it turns out she's nowhere to be seen. Bucky thinks she's left him and is all sad. After a while the others find out she's been kidnapped by Hydra because they want the baby. Cue avenger vs hydra scenes and after finding her she goes into early labour and it's all touch-and-go for her and baby but in the end it's a happy ending (maybe the next request I'll work up the courage for an angsty ending 🙈).

Oh I love this! Hope you like it @lookiamtrying!!

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Wedding Day 

Bucky looks in the mirror one last time, looking over to make sure he looks alright. Today is a day he has been waiting for for over 70 years. Today is the day that the love of his life, finally becomes his forever. When you got pregnant 4 months ago, Bucky didn’t think you would want to continue with plans for the wedding, but you told him nothing was going to stop you from being his wife.

Now being 7 months pregnant, you both decided to make the wedding an intimate gathering of your closest friends and family, which basically is the Avengers, T’Challa and Suri, the Gardians, and Dr. Strange. You both thought it was the perfect amount of people and didn’t need anyone else involved. You both thought the backyard of your new house was the perfect spot for the wedding as well. You have been so excited!

There is a knock on the door, pulling Bucky from his thoughts. Steve walks in with a smile, “You ready pal?” he asks. “More than ready! I just want her to be my wife already!” Bucky says with a laugh as they head out of the door. Steve puts his hand on Bucky’s shoulder to stop him from walking further, “I’m so happy for you Buck. You deserve this and more, and I am so proud to stand beside you both as you do this. I also can’t wait for y God child to be born,” he says. Bucky pulls him in for a quick hug and heads out to the backyard.

You both haven’t moved into the house yet, as it is under construction (Only best from Tony), but you thought the backyard was perfect. You have the chairs set and fairy lights all around, with a white tent behind the ceremony area for the reception. Bucky looks in awe at his surroundings, which make him that much more excited. He walks up in front of his friends and family and looks down the aisle, waiting for you to come to him.

He starts to get jittery as he waits, thinking maybe you were having some difficulty with your pregnant belly. After close to 30 minutes he starts to get nervous that you changed your mind. He decides to head back into the house to where you are supposed to be getting ready. When he opens the door, he sees the room is completely empty. His heart immediately breaks at the thought that you changed your mind.

Steve runs up behind Bucky and looks in the room, “She’s not here?” he asks. Bucky shakes his head sadly as tears rush to his eyes. “I guess she changed her mind,” he says and he slides down the wall to the floor. “I can’t believe Y/N would do that. I mean she is pregnant with your child,” Steve says. Bucky covers his face as tears start to flow down his cheeks. He doesn’t want to believe it either, but you’re not here.

Just then Natasha comes toward them and looks into the room. “I can’t believe she would do this. She was so excited last night! Let me call the driver,” she says pulling out her cell phone. After a brief conversation with the limo company, Natasha learned that the driver is not an employee. She tells this to Steve who immediately pales. You didn’t run out on Bucky, you were taken.

--

You wake up on a metal cot, handcuffed to the post. You look around and realize that you are in a cell underground. You try and control your panic, as you don’t want to risk anything with your unborn baby, but you are terrified. Suddenly the metal door opens and in walks a man in a black uniform, HYDRA. “Ah, you are finally awake,” he says. 

“What to you want?” you ask. “If you think I’m going to let you get Bucky, you have another thing coming!” you scream in anger. The man looks at you and laughs, “First of all, you really think you are tough chained to a bed? Second, it’s not the Winter Soldier we are after... it’s his heir,” he says.

You feel the color disappear from your face. They were after your baby, Bucky’s baby. God you hoped that Bucky figured out what happened to you by now and is on his way. You couldn’t help but be nervous that you would not survive whatever they have planned.

--

Bucky punches a few more times as blood sprays all over. “Tell me where she is!” he yells in the man’s face. “Buck, enough! You’re going to kill him!” Steve says. “He deserves to die for kidnapping Y/N!” Bucky says as Steve pulls him away. “Buck, I know you are concerned, but if you kill him we will have no leads. Just go wait over there or leave the room,” Steve says. “I’m not leaving until I know where my girl and baby are, Steve,” Bucky says.

Steve nods and turns back to the man who is bloody and oddly enough, laughing. “Since when are the Avengers mobsters? Beating a man to a pulp for information! You have watched too many movies,” he says. Steve walks up the man and pulls his head back, “Where is she? You picked her up and dropped her somewhere, now tell me where,” Steve says patiently.

The man spit blood on Steve’s face which caused Bucky to start toward him again,  but Steve stopped him. He wipes off his face and looks at the man, “Well, I tried to be nice. If you think the Winter Soldier was bad, you haven’t met Black Widow,” Steve says. At that the door opens and Natasha walks in with a bunch of different tools, a smirk on her face.

“Hello boys. Heard some information was needed,” she said eyeing the man who was tied up. He looked at her arrogantly, but Bucky heard his heart rate go up. he was nervous. Good.

--

You don’t know how long you have been there. Days and nights seem to have blended into one. They feed you, if what you are given can be considered food, but they have run tests on you, and you heard they are considering taking the baby out of you early. You are starting to lose hope that Bucky will ever find you, but you keep praying he will. Please Bucky, come find me. Please save us.

The door opens and in comes two men in black uniforms. They uncuff you and drag you to your feet. You try to fight them, but you are so weak.They continue to drag you down the hall to the same room you have been in multiple times. You look and you see a tray with different surgical tools. You know now that this might be the end. You have fought, but you don’t know if you will be able to save yourself or your baby.

You are placed on the table and strapped down tightly. You continue to wiggle and try to fight out of the the binds that keep you to the bed. You hear the laughing in the room, “You still haven’t learned that fighting is useless. We are going to get what we want. The assets child, with the serum running through their veins. We will be able to use this child to create more soldiers. HYDRA will win!” he says.

The doctor starts walking your way with the scalpel, and your breathing gets heavy in panic. In no time at all you start to scream as you feel the sharp utensil cut into your pregnant belly. Before he gets too far the door to the room and smashed down and Bucky, Sam, Steve, and Nat all run in fits, guns, and everything else blazing. Wanda runs in later with red floating around her hands.

You feel yourself losing consciousness and your child is moving like crazy in your belly. You try and focus on one thing to keep yourself conscious, but the darkness is winning. You swear you hear Bucky’s voice calling for you, but you can’t react. Your last thought is that your baby is safe.

--

You wake up to beeping, which is very annoying. You slowly open your eyes and see a bright white room with the sun shining in. You see Bucky slouched in a chair next to your bed, sleeping. You admire him for a moment before you quietly call out for him. “Bucky,” you say in a raspy voice. Bucky startles awake at the sound of your voice and looks at you. 

“Oh thank God,” he says and he leans into the bed holding your hand. You see tears flow freely down his cheeks as he looks at you with relief. “How long was I out?” you asked. “Um.. 4 days. You were malnourished and dehydrated, but Dr. Cho and Bruce took great care of you,” he says inching closer to you. “And the baby?” you ask, putting your free hand on your bump.

“The baby is just fine. Still cooking,” he says with a watery chuckle. You pull on his hand and bring him into your bed where he wraps his arms around you, kissing the top of your head. “I’m so sorry, Y/N,” he says, kissing your head and when you look at him, your forehead. 

“Bucky, it’s not your fault--” “You were taken because of me. They were going to hurt you both because of me,” he says. You take his face in your hands, “They wanted our baby, Bucky. If anything I should thank you and the rest of the team for saving us. You saved me and our baby. I’m sorry I missed the wedding,” you say looking into his eyes.

“I... I got scared you changed your mind. That you didn’t want me and my baggage. That you didn’t want to marry me,” he says. You lean in and kiss his lips softly. You pull away quickly to say, “I love you more than anything, Buck. I want to marry you so bad, I would do it in this bed!” you say.

Bucky kisses you again, passionately. “Let’s do it! I can have the pastor here, have our team here. Let’s get married right now,” he says with hope in his eyes. You give him a wide smile, “Let’s do it! Let’s get married!” you say before kissing him again.

In a short time your friends and pastor arrived and you and Bucky married from your hospital bed. The whole “ceremony” Bucky had his metal arm wrapped around you, and his flesh hand rubbing your baby bump. It wasn’t the wedding you imagined, but all that mattered was the man sitting next to you, pledging his life to you and you to his. 

It was the happiest day of your life, as least until another month when your son Steve James Barnes was born. Happy and healthy!

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[hot-wiings]

The One Where [Y/N] [L/N] Gushes Over Her Crush During Sparring Lessons, And Katsuki Bakugo Has Had Enough Of Her Pineful Swooning. 

Requested By: Wattpad User

Edited: 1-8-2020

You stood off to the side of the room with your friends while you watched two of your peers spar together. Shouta was 'randomly' picking two classmates to spar together, and you were all supposed to watch their fights and learn from them while you waited to spar on your own. You were sure Shouta had actually thought about the pairs strategically like when he lied about expelling a student at the beginning of the semester. 

You were supposed to be watching the fight but your eyes had other ideas. They kept wandering off to the other side of the room where Deku sat with his friends. Momo Yaoyorozu, in all her beautiful glory, stood there stretching out her arms. Everything about her was perfect. Her hair was so amazing, it was so shiny and lustrous, and her pretty brown eyes were so incomparable to anything. You weren't sure when you began staring at her, but she hadn't noticed and you made no plans to stop. 

"[Y/N], you've been staring at her for the past five minutes. Aizawa's gonna get mad and pair you up with someone like Todoroki."

Mina nudged your shoulder and a cherry red color spread up from your neck and across your cheeks. Had you really been staring that long? Your crush on Momo was beginning to spin out of control. You wanted her so bad, but you knew she would probably go for someone rich and beautiful like her. Psychologically we seek out people like ourselves. 

"I'd like him to pair us up together, I could finally show Momo how superior I am to him, but I already sparred Sero when you were in the bathroom."

"I'm only gonna tell you this one more time, Momo is not interested in Todoroki, even if she was, he's so... Serious? Oblivious to stuff like that. Picking fights with him is only going to confuse him and hurt you."

You crossed your arms as you looked back over at Momo, your chest bubbled at her but swelled as Todoroki came into view. They were standing so close together. There was no way they weren't together, they always studied together, they went out together, constantly chatting each other down, and Todoroki was a dry conversationalist. Mina bumped you again and you looked back at the fight. 

"Quit staring."

"I can't help it, she's just so hot."

"Then ask her out, like a normal person."

You huffed at Mina's words. There was no way she would want to go out with you. She was simply perfect, rich, beautiful, stunning, and smart. You were poor, dumb, and embarrassing. All you had going for you was your quirk. 

"No! She's too perfect, and she's probably not even into girls. Look at her and Todoroki, they're probably together anyway, I'll just admire her from afar."

"If I hear you gush over ponytail one more fucking time I will blast your ass." 

Your cheeks burned at Katsuki's outburst. He had yelled his words out and you were sure everyone had heard. Multiple students were looking at you. You looked at your feet as you thought out ways to murder Katsuki in his sleep. Ponytail could mean a multiple amount of people, they shouldn't necessarily think of Momo. 

"Bakubro, that's not manly! Outing [Y/N]'s crush on M-"

Mina was quick to hit Eijirou with her elbow who then shut up and looked over at your ever-growing crimson face as he realized his own slip-up.

"Sorry, [Y/N]."

"Maybe she should apologize for being a pussy. Put a pair of balls on and fucking confess."

"Yaoyorozu vs. Bakugo."

Katsuki walked away with a smirk on his face. You hated yourself for riling Katsuki up. He was going to hurt her. He was going to kill her. He was going to absolutely abolish her. It wasn't that you had a lack of faith in Momo, you knew how Katsuki could go so overkill when he was angry. You watched in worry as Katsuki and Momo sparred with their quirks. Blast after blast followed by creation after creation and soon Katsuki had Momo on the ground. Your stomach churned at the sight, but deeper worry flooded you as Katsuki and Momo exchanged words. Momo looked over at you with a bloody face and smiled. 

What did Katsuki say?

"[L/N] can take Yaoyorozu to the infirmary, she already had her spar anyway."

You were going to kill Katsuki.

"Fine. [L/N] take Yaoyorozu to recovery girl. Next time Bakugo, don't go so overkill."   

You were officially going to kill Katsuki.

You walked over to Momo and wiped your hands off on your pants before helping her up off of the ground. You hoped to god that she couldn't sense the nervousness completely secreting from you. You helped Momo walk out of the classroom and down the hall towards Recovery Girl's office when Momo pulled herself away from your grip. She walked with one hand on her arm, she was nervous not hurt but it wasn't obvious to you. In your mind, she was too perfect to be nervous around someone like you. 

"I think I can walk on my own. Bakugo didn't hurt me that much, he mostly just caught me off guard."

"Sorry, of course, you can walk on your own! You're such a great fighter, you're amazing, Katsuki likes to play dirty like that."

"Bakugo told me you thought that."  

You stopped walking for a moment caught off guard as your cheeks started to turn red, a deep blush spreading across your face. 

"He said what?"

"He said you thought I was amazing and pretty, and hot."

"I'm going to kill him. I am going to kill him." 

Momo reached over and slipped her hand into yours lightly. Your thoughts on Katsuki paused momentarily as you looked over at your crush to see her smiling at you. 

"He told me you thought I was dating Shouto. I'm not. I'm not into guys like that."

"Oh, you mean you're more into girls like that?"

"I'm not into girls or boys. I don't really decide if I like someone until I really know them. I like you. All I want is you."

The blush on your cheeks only deepened from a cherry red to a deep scarlet red. Your chest swelled with a feeling, a feeling of nerves, and hopes. Mina was right, you just had to shoot your shot. You needed to shoot your shot. You smiled back at Momo as you let go of her hand. You cupped her cheeks, boy did the skin feel as soft as you had imagined it being.

"Then have me!"

It came out more direct than you had meant to say it, worry and anxiety flooded your chest making you take a deep breath but it was all for naught. Momo cupped your own cheeks and hoped that there were no teachers in the halls. As class 1-A's vice president she had the honor to uphold, but at that moment it didn't matter. As she pressed her lips against yours it didn't matter. as her soft lips touched yours it didn't matter.

You stood on your tiptoes to make it easier on her. Her lips were so soft, they were softer than you ever imagined they would. They tasted better than you imagined they would, like imperial gold tea, but it didn't matter. What you wanted was finally within your grasp, it was here in your hands. 

"Go out with me on Friday."

All you could do was meekly nod your head up and down before you turned your body around to keep walking to Recovery Girl's office, the taste of her lips on yours and your hands intertwined. 

[rays-animorphs]

Book 10 afterthoughts

(More spoilers than usual.)

Dunno why I keep thinking I'll have something I want to say after I finish reading the book. Generally more thoughts come within an hour or so of finishing, or I'm just on to the next thing.

I've watched the Matrix movies recently, so I'm going to talk about that. Neo gets to the point where he can do anything. He can fly like Superman. He can stop bullets in mid-air. Most of the story is still taken up with fighting. Because that's the point, it's a story about cool fighting. I get that. It's fine. People like what they like. I'm about to play a game about a pandemics while we're in the middle of one, doesn't mean I want anyone I know (or anyone at all, for that matter) actually getting sick. People can like stories about fighting without it meaning anything in particular about their attitudes towards violence, their personal capacity for violence, or their political position on the hawk/dove spectrum. I personally tend to like action scenes less than most, and am more wholesale opposed to violence than most, but as far as I can tell that's just coincidence.

Anyways, if I had Neo-like superpowers, I wouldn't be using them to do gravity-defying kung fu.

I do think I would honestly prefer the morality of warfare to not come into my ridiculous goofy kids' alien invasion story. I mean, I like "is war a bad idea?" in general, and I think it works in Star Trek TOS when it comes up, because even though Starfleet is a military organization, they're not actually engaged in war for most of the series. (The original series, on TV. I realize Star Trek as a whole keeps going back to conventional good guys vs bad guys war stories.) Their mission is exploration, not fighting, so anti-war messages work. They're not being constantly contradicted by the text. But, "this is a story about fighting, because fighting is fun to read about"...that doesn't necessarily go well with discussions of the ethics of fighting. It would be like if a James Bond movie had a dialogue between Bond and whatever woman he's trying to seduce this time about internet privacy. It's messing with different levels of engaging with the topic, swirling them together. In a way that leave both levels -- the fun escapism level and the serious ideas level -- worse for the blending.

It's kind of like how Kushiel's Dart gives the protagonist an in-universe safeword, but then she keeps refraining from using it as a point of pride, like...ok, 5 points for introducing the concept, -10 points for the "real subs/masochists/whatever don't use safewords" BS. If you're going to write a non-con fantasy, you can just write the fantasy, sometimes nods to reality make it worse. I keep going back to this because I still haven't figured out what exactly my issue is, how best to phrase/understand it, and my brain is set up in a way such that it doesn't want to let go until I understand it. I do not like that the story is set up so that the Chee are basically written out of the story once Erek decides he's unwilling to kill. I do not like that the non-human Controllers are treated like faceless mooks whose deaths are categorically different from human deaths, and that this largely goes unchallenged. I don't like the overall message of "war is terrible and requires incredible sacrifice and is also good and necessary" -- I'm not thrilled with war stories in general, but I'm really not thrilled with "yes, war is horrible, and this fictional war is going to have horrors and PTSD just like real life war, and it is still necessary." In stories that straight-up glorify war, like the Narnia Chronicles and Lord of the Rings, it's fairytale-like, I can suspend disbelief and go "this is fiction, people get that fiction isn't reality", but going closer to reality (while still writing the war as absolutely necessary) draws it into this uncanny valley that is a lot more unpleasant for me that a more, you know, Redwall-like or Three Musketeers-like story would be. And I can't let go that this is a book set in America published by an American author not long before the Iraq War and using the exact same rhetoric about fighting the Yeerks that Bush used to justify the Iraq war. It's about freedom, the enemy hates our freedom, they can't be reasoned with they just hate us, they have powerful weapons, they want to destroy who we are. We're fighting for our freedom, for their freedom, for our survival. Anyways: book 10 was one of the more serious/dark ones, it was great for showing Marco's thing where this stuff really genuinely terrifies him but he does it anyways, the android thing was cool, we got alien trees which was amazing, we got a sense that the Animorphs universe is truly vast. Plus, bats. So, good story, again, me going off about the pacifism stuff doesn't mean I didn't like it, it just means I have opinions. Also, the thing where Erek is never going to forget is genuinely horrifying.

[amysubmits]

Hello! Hope your day is turning out less anxiety inducing than expected.

I am here to ask your advice about messing up and moving on.

I had a bad mental day yesterday where I lost my temper in a way that is so shameful and that I have worked really hard to not do anymore. But I had a bad day, everything stacked and I reacted. I yelled and slammed things and did all the things i hate that I do (after growing up with that as an example of how to handle your emotions).

When you forget pills or make the big mistakes, you've reconciled with CD and handled it all. How do you let the guilt go?

We've decided that a punishment isn't a good idea for this bc I am so ashamed as it is. And he isn't hurt or angry with me BECAUSE I have been doing so well controlling and monitoring those feelings. I slipped and he knows that it hurts me to do so.

But I'm holding onto those "I'm a trash human" feelings.

Thank you! It did go a bit better than expected. 😊

I struggle with this too, so I'm not sure that I'll have very helpful advice, unfortunately.

I know that when it comes to forgiving others people disagree about what forgiving vs forgetting looks like and I imagine that's true for self-forgiveess too? So if you disagree with this I totally get it. But I personally hold the belief that if I screw up badly, I should feel bad. So my personal goal isn't to feel okay about what I did...I think it's okay that I feel guilty or embarrassed or whatever other 'bad' feelings, assuming that it's a reasonably measured response to whatever it was that I did.

For me, my goal with self-forgiveess is to not hate myself or beat myself up, basically. I want to be able to look at mistakes that I made and go man, that was really stupid, or selfish, or short-sighted, or irresponsible, or whatever else...and that really wasn't okay, and I really need to do better...but also not hate myself for it. I don't want to dwell in the bad feelings or use it as a reason to emotionally self-harm, basically.

And I don't always know how to strike that balance. So that's why I don't really have good advice, haha. But to some degree just knowing what balance I am trying to hit, sometimes helps me keep perspective. Because I can sort of use that reference to look at my own thoughts and decide which ones I should try to 'keep'. For example, "That was irresponsible and wasn't acceptable." is a thought that is reasonable and worth keeping. "I am terrible and everyone should hate me." is basically self-abuse, and I should try not to hang on to those thoughts/feelings/beliefs.

When it's something that involves CD, him telling me that he forgives me helps. Sometimes he tells me things like "It's over and done with." to encourage me to not dwell. Of course, these aren't cure-alls, but his encouragement does help.

When it's something like you've mentioned where you have been doing really well and have improved a lot...I would try to remind yourself of that. That you are growing and this was a speed bump.

But yeah, I guess I know that none of these things are super helpful.

Maybe someone else will have better ideas? Others feel free to chime in. :)

[jjpmoans]

"Did someone spike your milk?" + Sehun x Jinyoung x OC

Theme : Siblings au

Word count : 903 words

A non-Valentine fic for Valentine's Day! For someone who doesn't have a boyfriend, I'm sure having Jinyoung and Sehun as brothers would surpass the lonely feels!

This is requested by my anon twins! Hope you see this and like it! Honestly I can never picture Sehun and Jinyoung as siblings because.....they are so different.

Happy Valentine's my followers and mutuals!

"Mom, I'm home!" I announce loudly, closing the door behind me. Sizzling sound comes from the kitchen, signalling that my mother is there, cooking for lunch. I sneak into the kitchen with my bag still on me, following the smell of delicious food ready to be served.

Just as I enter the dining area, the front door opens again, loud voices fill the space.

"Oh you're here--"

"Mom! We are home!" both of them shout in unison.

"Sehun," he sighs exaggeratedly. "Will you ever learn to put your shoes nicely?" he huffs, lifting Sehun's shoes to the rack. Meanwhile, Sehun is already halfway to the kitchen, meeting me in the middle.

"What for? I have you, Jinyoung." he reaches to ruffles my hair. "Hi shorty" he turns, waiting for Jinyoung to join him. "I know you love me."

Jinyoung rolls his eyes at his words, jabbing him with his elbow. "You are only a few seconds older. That doesn't mean you can bully me."

Sehun laughs, following him into the kitchen while his hand pulls me to trail behind him.

"I'm your brother. Accept it." Jinyoung is already at mom's side, gesturing Sehun to come faster. As Sehun stands on the opposite side, both of them plaster a kiss on mom's forehead.

"Thank you, boys." smile appears on her face as she excellently flip the omelette in the pan. The kiss tradition started after dad passed away. Knowing that mom is lonely and has no male affection to receive anymore, Jinyoung announced that Sehun (after being strangled by Jinyoung) and himself will be giving kisses for mom everytime they are going out, coming home and also before she sleeps.

As weird as it sounds, it feels really warm to see mom smiles everytime Jinyoung reaches over to plant a kiss on her cheeks or forehead and when Sehun looks like he's being forced but silently enjoying to pour mom more love.

"Have a good day today, mom?" Jinyoung asks while he walks over to the dining table, joining me.

"Hi pig. Do you want a kiss too?" He ruffles my hair, unlike Sehun, Jinyoung kind of grab a handful of my hair, destroying it in the process and circling them into a clump. Quickly mutters a 'no', I push his face away as Jinyoung laughs at my annoyed face.

It's hard to have a twin as brothers. First off, they are boys and they are annoying. Second, they quarrel everyday over the simplest thing and have completely different personalities. Thirdly they just team up when it comes to tease me. I blows my bangs as Sehun reaches to fix my destroyed hair; which becomes worse when he tries.

"Urgh! Sehun! You are giving no help!"

"Is it my fault that your hair tangle in a very weird way?" he pulls one strand of tangled hair, almost accidentally rips my scalp.

"Ow!!"

"Damn Jinyoung. How do you even do this?" Sehun gives up, I turn to Jinyoung, demanding him to fix my hair.

"What do I do with you," he sighs tiredly as if he's not the one putting them in tangles, proceeding to untangle them. I growl in response which he shrugs it off by squeezing my cheeks with his unoccupied hand.

Out of them two, Jinyoung is gentler and more patient while Sehun is harsher and impatient. But when it comes to me, they just switched personalities. Jinyoung is meaner to me than Sehun who is nicer and baby me more than Jinyoung.

"Okay, quit fighting." Mom comes to put down the dishes. Jinyoung stands to his feet and bring over a pot of soup and utensils for us. I told you, Jinyoung is basically a second mom in this house when he is nice.

Keyword, 'when'.

.

.

Sehun groans, flapping his long limbs. With a biology book in his hand, he crashes his body flat on the floor. Jinyoung and me look up from our homework, watching Sehun stamped to the floor like a lizard.

"Jinyoung. I'm bored. Entertain me." he requests.

Jinyoung who is still staring at him, replies "Hi bored. I'm Jinyoung." Sehun stares at him, unamused and disgusted. Jinyoung on the other hand starts chortling and proud of his own joke.

I snort at his reply, cannot contain my laughter after listening to one line of his monotonous joke.

"Oh my god Jinyoung. That is a very bad joke." I hiccup. "How on earth you are my brother?"

"I had been thinking the same about you, if you want to know." Jinyoung replies nonchalantly. I am about to whack him on the head when Sehun whines.

"No no stop." Sehun waves his hand, trying to get the attention to him. "Jinyoung, please." He begs. Even though Sehun is older, Jinyoung is always the mature one.

Hence, this situation happens where Sehun is the one to beg and Jinyoung is the one who controls him.

He pushes his chemistry book away and turns to Sehun. "Okay what do you want."

Sehun roams his eyes to the ceiling, searching for some interesting ideas. He is bored, yes he is. But to make Jinyoung agree to his plead is something uncommon. Therefore he need to keep Jinyoung interested in his idea so that he can at least stall Jinyoung for about 30 minutes before he lose interest.

"Hmm." But at this rate, I'm sure it's just a matter of time before Jinyoung turns away and does his homework again.

"Sehun."

"Hmm?"

"You are taking awfully long to answer. I'm giving you 10 more seconds or I'll decide it on my own." Jinyoung warns. A common trait that they share, Jinyoung and Sehun hate waiting.

"Aha!" Sehun jolts from his position, holding his arm high. Jinyoung on the other hand is surprised and jumps at his sudden shout.

"Fuck you scared me." Comes his swear.

Sehun turns to Jinyoung, eyes narrowing while his smile widens. "Give me fun facts."

"Huh?" He didn't mean fun facts like 'fun' facts right?

"What?" Jinyoung ask incredulously. "Sehun. Did someone spike your milk?" As ridiculous as it sounds, yes. Sehun drinks milk. Jinyoung drinks coffee. Weird isn't it when the eldest drinks milk while his twin prefers a black drink?

Sehun pouts when Jinyoung accuses, eyes drooping. When Jinyoung sees this, he immediately straightened up and crosses his leg.

He's ready to entertain Sehun.

Mind to tell you that Jinyoung's weakness is Sehun. You can ask him to choose anything vs Sehun, he is ready to drop everything for Sehun. It's twin or nothing.

"Okay okay. Stop pouting." He scoots closer to Sehun. "Okay fun fact."

Sehun immediately brightens up at his attention, his eyes lightens and his focus is solely on Jinyoung. Jinyoung on the other hand is searching his brain for fun facts. Because he read a lot, so he knows lots of facts but not all facts are considered fun.

"Okay so do you know--"

"No I don't," Jinyoung and Sehun whip their heads to me. Both of them narrows their eyes as I laugh at my own interruption. Somehow they look like babies who are ready to throw hands.

Jinyoung inhales and exhales slowly. "One more distraction.." he warns. "One teeny bit and I'll make sure your hairs are gone." Jinyoung loves my hair. He always feel the need to rip it off me and throw it anywhere.

I lift my pencil box and hold it like a gun. "You don't dare."

An eraser flies pass Jinyoung's ears and hits me on my forehead, making a loud and clear sound of a skull being knocked. Jinyoung's eyes widens. Head thrown back, I groan and immediately glare at the culprit.

There sit Sehun, grinning in triumph. His grins falters before he turns to Jinyoung immediately. "Fun facts?" He beams. A snort escapes from Jinyoung which he tries to stop but fail miserably.

"Let me give you one." My head steams in anger. I stand up and stride towards Sehun. "Every organ you have two of, you only need one of it to survive."

Sehun scream is already everywhere when I approaches him. Jinyoung on the other hand tries to stop me with his laughter bursting out loudly.

"So," Jinyoung catches me by my hand, straining me from going after Sehun. "Sehun." I grit my teeth. Jinyoung is already dying of laughter and attempting to hold me.

"I'm gonna rip at least one of your nostril." My own nostrils flares as I struggle in Jinyoung's hold. "Let go of me, Jinyoung!" Loud scream escapes Sehun when I lurch forward, he jumps for his dear life.

"Jinyoung!" Giving up, Jinyoung lets me go. He rolls on his back, clutching his stomach. In a blink of eye, I'm on my feet, running after Sehun's nose.

"Sehun!"

"Mom!!!!" Sehun runs out of our study room, straight to my mom's room.

His huge feet pound against the wood, creating loud echoes. "Come back here!" I shout, leaving a rolling Jinyoung in the room.

The whole house turns into a battlefield after our break out. Of course, our banter and fights won't fade until one of us lose our lungs from laughing, shouting or screaming too much.

After all, we only have each other. To fight, to love and to take care of.

[full-moon-phoenix]

Star Vs: Battle for the Throne?

With the Generations promo revealed, it seems like season 3 is gearing up to be a Game of Thrones type plot, just like Daron Nefcy said, and everyone is starting to think the four suites are gonna battle each other for control over Mewni. I decided to take this theory one step further!

Imagine if Eclipsa loses her trial. Angry, betrayed, and out of options, she invokes an ancient Mewnian law. For the sake of Glossaryck's latest catchphrase, let's call this "invoking Globgor." Eclipsa now has the right to battle the current queen for anything she wants (money, info, etc.). Her claim: the throne. If Eclipsa wins, she rules Mewni, and if she loses, she gets crystallized again.

Now, since you all know I can't end a theory without bringing my precious lizard senpai into it, let's say that only one other person in history has ever invoked Globgor. And that person was Toffee. @fannishcodex I'll be real with you: the thing that bothered me about the episode Moon the Undaunted wasn't the easy resolution, but the mercy Moon gave Toffee. Yes, he's part of an oppressed race, but he still killed a queen; he should've faced SOME punishment, right? Crystallization, jail time, community service? But no. Moon took his finger and let him go, basically slapping him on the wrist and saying "Don't do it again."

THAT'S where the Moon Is Lying theory comes in! There was no group effort. No monster terrorist rebellion. It was just Toffee, and what he did was perfectly legal because he invoked Globgor! Now, I don't think he did it to get the throne. The theory here is you can ask for anything if you win, and Toffee was after something much more valuable than the throne...

The Terms of Battle:

If Comet wins, Septarsis agrees to construct a peace treaty they're so against the idea of. If Toffee wins, Comet tells him everything there is to know about the Whispering Spell. The fight isn't a battle to the death, but both parties are very injured afterward. Toffee wins, and Comet tells him everything. Unfortunately, she dies a day later from her injuries; just like Star's death, another accident that won't exactly keep Toffee up at night but he still wishes could've turned out differently.

And if Moon was there to hear Comet spill the beans, that would explain how she knows more about the Whispering Spell than Star and why she seems so scared of Star using it. Of course, this is all pure speculation and not much evidence to go off of. What are your thoughts?

[thelocalshooter]

The Local Shooter Vs. B-LIFE

(LS) Hello thank you being apart of a great come up and welcome, may we get a small introduction for the people reading who don’t know who you are, where are you from? Who are you? And what do you do?

(B) I'm B-L1FE or B to most. I am an Indiana native but for the last 4 years I've been in the Houston, TX area. I do everything except make beats. I'm a recording artist myself, I engineer, DJ, design, visuals, animations, curate. To add to all that I'm also the CEO of my own record label, FAITH×VICTORY Records. I also am the CEO of three other companies: SupportArt which is a promotion company that also houses a collective, and MeditatedMerch which is my clothing line. There is stuff I'm missing I'm sure but I'm basically the one stop shop for good underground business.

(LS) Being a Texas native how do you feel that the music scene has impacted you and your creativeness?

(B) The scene in the H has never really impacted me much but surround regions have amazingly unique sounds that are almost nice accents to a style like mine that blends hip hop with metal and alt rock. The Dallas FT. Worth area is full of this new wave sound that people like Jah or $not really helped catapult. Then south Florida is known for the wild hype sounds they give us like Pouya. I think these regions influenced me by just kind of telling me hey its ight to let go and just be me. I used to be signed under a different stage name and to be honest it was all bullshit. All the rules and what they wanted me to be. This area in general just let the monster loose I guess you could say.

(LS) You also run a blog on your own called supportart where its a platform for many creative artist in the underground, how did that come about and how long have you been running it?

(B) We are gonna be two years old in June which is unreal. We house 20 artists at the moment including myself. It honestly all started as a group chat of artists trying to put together a collective mixtape. Most people didnt come through but it actually opened a networking portal that led us to our first client who was King Kap who at the time was signed to Quality Control. We continue to work with him to this day and alongside the leaders I make the calls with (Yung N ICy, Fat Daddy J, Psych Ward, Penny the Shabba, Waveon, wa55up, & Kaster) we just had the flood gates opened on us. Alot of trial and error but never once have we been exposed or finessed. We work hard for the underground and have new ways coming soon to showcase hidden talent.

(LS) you seem to be a jack of all trades with graphics, producing, and much more! What do you feel is your strongest creative outlet for you and why?

(B) All the other crafts came from being a recording artist. I think I truly shine there. Away from the art and visuals, I've had some pretty big accomplishments as the rapper B-L1FE. Sometimes I forget to push my own stuff when I'm so busy pushing the underground or my artists. In 2019 I dropped my first and sophomore album which did well. Underviews did an article naming me a young mogul. I made the underground freshman list which was amazing to be with the likes of GNAR, Lord Xan, 916frosty, and more. But if anything compares it's my graphic design. I've been doing design since I was 14 and I'm almost 28 now. I still have every graphic I've done and my portfolio now have close to 6000 pieces. It's the main reason I could leave the day job life behind.

(LS) You also happen to be on all major platforms with a couple single releases, where did you first find your passion for music? Also how did you know that it was going to be a career for you?

(B) My parents didnt really do much parenting but they did raise me around terrific music. I have right now I believe 83 songs on all major platforms which is quite a bit since my contract from the previous record label didnt expire until April of 2018. My parents raised me around Dr. Dre, Bone Thugs, Snoop, Nas, Destinys Child, Master P, and all the greats. So I had this around me so much at 12 I started writing structured songs and didnt even realize it. Football was passion #1 but when I decided to rescend my commitment to Eastern Michigan University, I started toying around with being in a band. After awhile my vocal cords suffered from pure metal music. So I turned to rap which was also like a hobby. Then once I began to network in around 2012 I noticed I had something alot of others didnt. So it was then I knew. The rest was waiting for the contract I signed stupidly to expire. My biggest influences would be Chronic 2001 by Dr. Dre and Hybrid Theory by Linkin Park.

(LS) Your most recent single regurgitate and there’s a single called “Welcome To Hell” which did amazing numbers on Twitter! What was the whole process behind those songs and why did you pick that specific song to shows case the project?

(B) The process behind these two singles were both random to be honest. I put out my second EP back in December and wanted to take my time on my third album so I do what I call SINGLE SZN. I drop a new song on major platforms every week. It started with my first single of 2020 which was 'Never' and 'Welcome to Hell' was the second. With that one it was Angry Orphan's concept (featured artist) and he sent me his parts and a rough idea and I thought since we both are lyrical artists let's do what Em and Royce do when they collab and take these same schemes but change our words and small parts of our flows. It made a very cohesive song. The marketing is always the same for me. I let people know way before something drops that it's coming. The main key is promoting stuff more than once. So many people drop a track, run it through some group chats for that day, and then leave it to die. You gotta keep pushing content towards people. With 'Regurgitate' I hadn't even planned a part of it. I woke up to an email from SupportArt's head engineer, Penny the Shabba, that two beats. One was the beat for that song. Wrote it in 15 mins recorded it mixed it, he mastered it while I did the cover, and within 4 or so hours a full song was ready and off to distrubution.

(LS) What’s a regular day in the life of B-LIFE? Do you wake up in the morning go to the studio? Do you wake up in the morning and start interviewing people and check on your blog? What is the first thing you do when you wake up?

(B) The minute I wake up I need a shower. Cant start the day right without it. My studio and everything is at home so I just go off my daily planner. I keep everything written down including my own personal stuff and I usually pick whatever project I really dont wanna do to start. That way I'm getting through the 'blah' jobs with full energy and the shit I'll enjoy doing I save for later when I'm drained. Usually first thing I do business wise is touch base with my team. We use telegram so we can avoid social media. We a family so they come first. Next is clients. Always touch base with any clients waiting still or people I may have had halfway to the payment phase.

(LS) juggling music, blogs, graphics, and also a clothing brand how do you know when to find time for each creative outlet? Do you set a certain schedule for certain things? Do you have a certain day for certain things how does that work for you?

(B) I wish I knew. Everyday is dedicated to everything. I didnt want to say okay Tuesday we design only covers and logos but sell 5 videos the night before that Tuesday. I ask my clients for deadlines and bundle clients I tell them the timeframes. To be honest my turnaround is so quick and I've done this for so long I do it super fast. Some AMV clients get their video back in an hour with their mind blown. I try not to look at it as such a big work load. Whenever I do feel overwhelmed then its time for like 30 mins on the xbox or a jog. Somehow I never run out of creativity which certainly helps.

(LS) What’s your main goal as far as music? Do you plan on getting signed, are you looking to stay independent? Is music even your full on passion or are you looking to stay more on the blog and manager/artist development side or what is your main goal?

(B) Main goal is to get my label signed how Travis Scott did with Cactus Jack. It keeps the artist safe and in it's own way allows you to stay independent but with proper funding. Music is the main passion. I never say I manage my artists. We push them to build their own brands and we help them with that. I'm simply just keeping a platform all about love. The rest does it's own thing all by itself. Truly amazing.

(LS) Thank you again for being a part of this great come up, is there anything else you would like for the readers to know about you? Or should we keep our eyes peeled for anything to come in 2020? What are some links that you can share were new readers can go ahead and find your work?

(B) You can find everything related to be via my linktree which is linktr.ee/lifewitha1

Album 3's first single drops May 1st and you can already pre order it on Apple Music. Its titled 'Bob Ross' and ensomber produced it. Tune in. Tap in. We out here not just for us but for everybody with the it's always love approach. Just dont get shit twisted haha. You can find me everywhere but soundcloud. Bless up everybody and much love to The Local Shooter. Houston we strong!!

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