#'it sounds kinda gay when you put it like that' to 'my BOYFRIEND is the smartest boyfriend there ever was!'

[autisticbillpotts]

I'm losing my mind why am I so obsessed with this guy

[badasgirlfriend]

Street Hearts Connection | Bada Lee Imagine

pairings: bada lee x fem!reader

genre: fluff idek?!/!/

a/n: i was inspired from the street hearts nyc videos and i thought it was a good idea to make a bada imagine sorry if it sucks i tried my best😭

The host excitedly gestures to the two blindfolded girls sitting at the table, ready to participate in her game of romance and luck. She smiles at the camera and proclaims, "Welcome to Street Hearts where we pair two strangers on a date to find out if its a match or is it a pass"

"Im here with....?"

Y/N clears her throat and responds "Y/N"

Bada can't help but bite her lip at the sound of Y/N's sweet voice "Bada"

"I can already feel the chemistry- LOOK she's blushing and smiling" The host can't help but laugh as she points out Y/N's flushed face and blushing smile, Y/N covers her face out of embarrassment.

"How are you two feeling?"

"Excited"

"Nervous" both Bada and the host laugh at her answer

"Alrighty, let's not drag this on any longer" the host said, with all three smiling. "Let's take off the blindfolds" Bada agreed, as the two girls waited for the host to lift their blindfolds.

Y/N's heartbeat was racing as she closed her eyes from the bright light. She felt the butterflies in her tummy as she wondered what she'll see once she opens her eyes. With her eyes still closed, she took a deep breath and let it out slowly. In a flash, Y/N opened her eyes and was stunned to find an absolutely breathtaking woman standing in front of her.

Her face broke out into a bright smile as she took in the gorgeous girl who stood before her, her heart still pounding and her face feeling warm.

Bada was visibly taken aback, her breath hitched as she looked at the girl in front of her, and didn't know what to say to initiate a conversation. are you going She looked utterly breathtaking, Bada was not expecting her to be this stunning. "Hey-fuck Im nervous now too"

Bada couldn't help but laugh, hiding her face with her beanie, her long, dark hair falling over her face. She felt a bit shy and embarrassed, trying to keep her laughter in check.

She looked over at Y/N, and was relieved to see that she was laughing too, just like her.

.·:¨¨ ≈☆≈ ¨¨:·..·:¨¨ ≈☆≈ ¨¨:·.

"How's your love life going?" The host asked Bada, but she had quite the direct answer.

"Dry" was all she could say, leaving little room for elaboration.

The host turned to Y/N, who was listening intently, and nodded along.

"My ex-boyfriend is now gay, and my ex-girlfriend is straight, that pretty much explains everything," Y/N shared with a casual shrug of her shoulders.

"Are you okay, babes?" The host asked Y/N jokingly, putting her hand on her shoulder.

Y/N laughed, rolling with it and nodding along.

"Is that a red flag to you?" The host asked Bada, raising an eyebrow in amusement.

Bada laughed at the question "Well, suddenly I'm colorblind" she said with a smirk. Y/N was glad they were sitting because she would've likely fallen over.

.·:¨¨ ≈☆≈ ¨¨:·..·:¨¨ ≈☆≈ ¨¨:·.

"Who was your first cartoon crush?"

The host asks Y/N, which caused her to groan in embarrassment.

"No, it's embarrassing," She pushed the mic away, not wanting to talk about it.

"Come on, tell us, tell us!" Bada chants along, wanting to hear the secret.

"Nooo"

"Tell us"

"Fuck it- the candle from Beauty and the Beast, I know Im weird"

"I mean I can't blame you," Bada says, grinning wickedly, already anticipating the next question. "He was kinda-"

"Alright alright, moving on," the host interjects with a light chuckle, and Bada grins even wider, "They're literally the same person"

.·:¨¨ ≈☆≈ ¨¨:·..·:¨¨ ≈☆≈ ¨¨:·.

"Physical traits like a good smile and cool style definitely catch my eye, but really, I look for kindness, compassion, and realness in a partner. I want someone who's in my corner, even when we disagree. And I gotta admit, I don't mind if they're a bit weird too" Bada answers with a smile, playfully glancing at Y/N

Y/N could sense that the last part of Bada's statement was about her, and she felt her face heat up with a light blush.

"Smooth, what about you?"

"Someone who's smart, funny, and has a good heart. I need a partner who makes me feel safe, respected, and appreciated you know- also tall.. they need to be taller than me" Y/N said, and Bada stood up.

She took Y/N's hand to pull her close, looking down at her with a mischievous grin.

Y/N giggled and tilted her head up to look at her, realizing what she was doing.

"See? I'm taller." Bada said with a teasing grin and laugh, the host threw the microphone and got up

"You two don't need me anymore"

.·:¨¨ ≈☆≈ ¨¨:·..·:¨¨ ≈☆≈ ¨¨:·.

"What do you do for work"

"I'm a barista," Y/N answered smiling

"Wait, really? Which café?" Bada asks in surprise, now curious to know where Y/N worked.

Y/N chuckles slightly and winks at her "At the SOL café, you should come by sometime"

Bada nods happily, replying with a quick, "Alright, bet,"

"What about you? What do you work?" Y/N asks Bada, and Bada smiles in response.

"I'm a choreographer," she replies, her tone sounding both humble and confident at the same time.

Y/N hides behind the host, gripping her arm tightly while whispering, "She's hot."

.·:¨¨ ≈☆≈ ¨¨:·..·:¨¨ ≈☆≈ ¨¨:·.

"What's your girl dinner?" The host asks, and both girls answer quickly, smiling at eachother.

"Bada," Y/N says with a shy but playful expression, while Bada smiles back with a light blush on her face.

"It could be her"

The host stares in disbelief at the girls answers

"Are you sure this is your first time meeting?

.·:¨¨ ≈☆≈ ¨¨:·..·:¨¨ ≈☆≈ ¨¨:·.

"Okay, now it's time for our Streethearts Sparkboards, where we're going to find out if you would go on a second date with each other."

The host's smile grew wider, her eyes glued on the two girls' writings.

Y/N was quick, writing down what she wanted with ease and glancing over at Bada, who was still writing. If Bada said no, Y/N knew she would never recover from the humiliation and embarrassment. Still, she held out hope that it would work, wishing and praying that Bada would say yes

"One, two, three... Show us your answers," the host commands, as Y/N and Bada quickly turn their Sparkboards around. Y/N can't help but grin a bit wider at Bada's answer

'YES (can i have ur number)'

Y/N nodded and excitedly exchanged her phone with Bada before typing in her number. Bada, looking directly at the camera, winked and smiled.

Some people nearby had stopped what they were doing had watched the whole date

When the host made the announcement, the nearby spectators began cheering and clapping in celebration

[vanitythevantropist]

Mkay so it took me way too long but I have finally created new art :3 (I finished these a while ago and forgot to post them but SHHHHH)

Anyways, these characters are from my absolute favourite and most well developed story in the roster; Stones of Gold. The love I have for thus story and its characters cannot be put into words. They are my everything

Anyways, here they are :3

Characters featured (left-right): Zepsun and Casaraua

Cas is the main POV character of SoG and I love him to death, he’s one of my favourite characters in all of my stories😭 He was raised on a farm by his mom after his dad left her (he left because Cas is what is known as a Rune Shifter which I’ll explain later). He’s not the best with social interaction due to never having interacted much. He’s very shy and afraid of everything, even though he literally had super strength. He becomes the newest member of the main group behind the next guy

Zep, fun fact, is actually a minor antagonist in the beginning👀 He joins the main group last because of issues. Anyways, he was taken under some emperor’s wing after the guy saves him from slavery as a child which totally fucked with his psyche (as it should). Zep’s pretty closed off and tends to get defensive. He fears anyone who can beat him in a fight. He is also a rune shifter

They become very gay later on

Characters featured (left-right): Chryo and Cyruss

I fucking love Chryo to death, she’s just so fun. She is a TANK of a woman (and a Rune Shifter as well). I’d say she’s pretty motherly and sweet when interacting with people she likes but, when you threaten someone she loves, she’ll become your worst nightmare. She’s determined as fuck and very snarky, especially to her boyfriend. She was the first to join the group (AKA she created it LMAO)

Cyruss canonically has gigantism, making him very tall👀 He’s Chryo’s girlfriend and is definitely the more mellow of the two. He’s a musician (haven’t named or drawn the instrument yet but it’s kinda like a guitar/banjo hybrid Ig???) and enjoys his more gothic music n stuff like that (I imagine his music to sound like The Awakening or Miracle of Sound, or both) He’s a bit scary to many due to his quieter nature and darker colours, but he’s a very nice and chill guy with a lot of good advice to share. Like his girlfriend, he definitely knows how to fight :3 He joined the group second, though the last two basically joined with him so (The group as in the friend/rogue group, btw). Heis not a shifter

Characters featured (left-right): Drélan and Mitzen

Drélan is an ex knight who left due to disagreeing with his king. He had since become close friends with a viking, a gothic musician and an assassin (as well as a traumatised gay man and a farmer boy later on, obviously). He’s a very kind and selfless person who takes no bullshit from anyone every. This dude will literally stand between you and god. He sorta becomes a father figure to Cas in the story and they do strong man stuff together (like fix carts and talk about animals, obviously)

Mitzen is an ex assassin, leaving her guild for similar reasons to Drélan. They were once on opposing sides but became good and loyal friends once they both left their groups. She’s a ‘tough love’ kinda gal, shoving her friends into situations whether they like it or not. Like Zep, she’s pretty closed off but she’s definitely calmer and more composed than he is (due to being older and more mature)

They are the only characters in the group that aren’t in a romantic relationship with each other🤣 You can still ship them, tho :3

ANYWAYS, the ✨lore✨

Y’all are probably wondering what a Rune Shifter is, right? Yeah, I thought so👀 I’ll do my best to explain!

A Rune Shifter is a magical being with gem/rock/whatever material casings covering certain parts of their bodies (for reference, Zep, Cas and Chryo are Shifters). One-Runed Shifters are the most common, Two-Runed Shifters are rare, Three-Runes Shifters are VERY rare (90% of critters never see a single one in their lives) and Four-Runed Shifters are saved for myths n shit (no one knows if they’re even real) (Examples; Zep is a double shifter - meaning he had two magic types at once, making him a Two-Runed Shifter - Cas is a Three-Runed Shifter and Chryo is a One-Runed Shifter)

Shifters’ powers are element based (for example; Zep in an ice/water Shifter, Cas is a Sun Shifter and Chryo is a Moon Shifter (or Moon Rune and Cy likes to call her). There are quite a few of them and I haven’t written them all down yet, so🤣 Anyways, they all have different abilities (having more runes= more powers). More examples!! Ice Shifters can control ice, Water Shifters can control water, Sun Shifters are typically protective forces (with force field n super strength and all that), Moon Shifters can multiply and become invisible, etc. (It’s all still a wip so💀)

An ability all Shifters have is the ability to shift (duh) into Rune Beast forms. Rune Beast forms are like monster forms, they can take on any appearance but mostly take the appearance of different already existing animals (also a WIP). Many believe that the form you discover always means something

Now, for the ✨worldbuilding✨

Basically; Rune Shifters are powerful and scary so non-Rune Shifters hate them. Shifters are discriminated against and feared. Any mother to have a Shifter child and keep is also despised (basically Cas’ and his mother’s backstory lmao)

Omg this is a long ass post lmao-

But bro, I can’t help myself😭 I fucking live this story and the characters to DEATH and I hope y’all like em too💕

If you have any questions regarding the story, feel free to reblog or reply with said questions!

[theultimatekamehamehavoc]

Honestly really like the many different and varying interpretations of Naegami and I am just going to gush about it with some small Naegamigiri/Toenaegiri in there too for good measure! Like, one interpretation I've seen is Byakuya being that angry, lanky, over-protective, boyfriend. Peak guard dog energy. And, Richie Rich over here is ready for violence and has vigorously prepared for potential knife fights. The prick would SO start some shit and get in a knife fight if necessary. Or he'd sue for all the worthless pennies the instigator being mean to his boyfriend is worth. Cus, when in doubt, suing is Byakuya's main. Or both options. Like, knife fight, sues, somthing, something, PROFIT. The emotional kind of profit though since Makoto is now safe from the Karens. Minus HIM of course/hj There's then "Makoto happy doggo boy" and "Byakuya grumpy feline". Like this one too. I just enjoy comparing these two to a cat and a dog getting along and trading smooches on a park bench while contemplating if they should REALLY feed the birds or not and why people do it to begin with before they just cycle through topic after topic together. They don't have to like... actually be a cat and a dog for that though. All about the vibes! If Makoto was a dog though, his tail would be wagging CONSTANTLY. You just can't put him down. Guy just has golden retriever energy. Even though I have never interacted with a golden retriever so.... Yeah. Also, another dynamic that goes into this one is just that grumpy boy and sunshine dynamic. This is nice too. It is them. The homies. Honestly, most things that play up Byakuya's almost feral energy also makes me incredibly happy in life. Just ruffle the Karen cut a bit and BOOM! Full fletched wet cat looking prick! Either that or skrungly energy. There is no in-between. To be honest, it is so funny that he has this energy for me. Like, he's a billionaire loser! Why am I attached?! (i know why but silly joke time :D ) A good one is also ones where Makoto is just getting info dumped by Byakuya. Like, it's just Makoto existing while Byakuya blabbers on about his hyper fixations and special interests which I do have some headcanons on what some of those specifically are because at this point, I've started projecting onto him and there is now no return. He's getting dorkified which honestly doesn't help cus he already looks and sounds like a dweeb in denial that he's a dork. Another one is just, these two knuckleheads getting into hijinks cus Makoto is just a magnet for trouble and Byakuya just can't stop starting shit. Adding Kyoko in the mix for that goody good sprinkle of Naegamigiri/Tonaegiri also gives is slight Scooby Doo hijinks I also appreciate. Insert Benny Hill Theme. It is legit just, Makoto existing and crap happening, Byakuya making more problems, and Kyoko being the one who fixes all the bullshit. Though this version of the trio gets me too. Just: "Makoto gets in trouble, Byakuya causes trouble, and Kyoko also causes trouble sometimes but she knows how to course-correct" I guess chaotic gays just do stuff to my brain. Releases the happy brain juices into my body and soul. Like, just let them do arson! It'd be great! Or just, Byakuya doing arson while Makoto sheds a singular tear.

There's also other stuff like, what makes the Naegami in a non-despair au alter from the Naegami with despair? That kinda stuff. I eat that shit up. All the shit. Too much shit. Chronically. This stuff is just fascinating to me. Cus there's questions to be had such as would they be as close in a non-despair story without some meddling? And the best part is that there's no right or wrong answer in a sense. It's fluid and nice and it's cool. Specifically regarding tropes and stuff for these two regardless of despair or non-despair is that good good slow burn. Like, the two of them slowly hanging out more and getting to know each other and badabing, badaboom, Byakuya's definitely not crushing HARD and he's also SOOOO not having having an identity crisis too while we're at it. Another thing I like are interpretations where the two of them are equals in a sense or instances where it's not just Makoto helping Byakuya out. Basically, where both boys get to help one another. This also doesn't really matter if it's despair or non-despair. I just like these two being a unit together! It can be as small as Byakuya helping Makoto be more assertive and not a total doormat or Makoto teaching Byakuya that he shouldn't put all this stress on himself or just hitting him with the reality that his childhood SUCKED. Or just, hitting him with the fact that he kinda a shitty poo poo head! Not like that though! Makoto would never shake him and say something like that. It'd be more like Byakuya coming to the realization that he treats others bad and he's a hypocrite. I want him to suffer a bit before he gets to be gay with the egg/hj Gosh. I'm probably missing so many differing interpretations I've seen or had, dang it! This may be a bit incoherent for all I know. Though, me try. This is also getting a bit too long so... Tldr; boys do kiss kiss

[watchingblsnowandforever]

My updated GMMTV 2024 lineup in order of my preference: (these are only the QLs. Most of the het shows fall under my Indifferent category. If I feel like it, I'll watch them.)

The Heart Killers. Pretty sure this is #1 on most of y'alls lists and for good reason too. My reasons? Pretty simple. I love action, mafia and romcom and this is all in one. And also FirstKhao and JoongDunk so-

Pluto the series. A GL? With NamtanFilm? I'm in.

Revamp. Previously: The Vampire Project. Love me some vampires <3. Also, BounPrem.

Sweeth Tooth, Good Dentist. The plot sounds super fluffy and cheesy, so of course I'm in. And no way I'm missing Mark Pakin first lead. (Also, as a dessert-loving person who had many teeth-related problems as a kid, the premise just sounds too relatable. Except the falling in love part with your dentist obviously.) But... JittiRain. I have complicated feelings for her works.

ThamePo/My Heart Skips A Beat. It seems soft and sweet, though it does have the secret/forbidden relationship overtones.

Ossan's Love. I found the trailer hilarious, but trailers, especially pilot trailers lie. Also, I'm not hearing the greatest things about the original, but I haven't watched it so I will reserve judgement. If I like it I'll like it I guess.

Us the series. You might ask how a GL ended up so low in my list. Personally, it's a bit jarring to see BLs have this safe space/bubble for their gay bois, but GLs are proclaiming love between women as "taboo" off the bat. I also saw this in 23.5, and yeah okay I get it, wlw is seen in a much harsher eye sometimes, but in 23.5 all Ongsa did was go on repeating "But we're both girls..." without explaining the why and resolving it properly. For now, I will not think too much into it, and worry about it when the time comes.

Perfect 10 liners. What put me off in the trailer itself is the clear discrimination based on looks/physical appearances. It also seems like at this point they're just trying to give each pairing some screen time this year but have run out of plots, and are thus shoving pairings into series like it's the metro/tube/subway/whatever you call it in your country during rush hour. Will I like it? We'll see. After New Siwaj gave me the masterpiece that is We Are, and crushed my doubts like mosquitoes, I'm willing to give Perfect 10 Liners a good strong chance. The premise still bothers me a bit, but I'm keeping an open mind.

Finished Airing:

We Are. It's absolutely great for my tastes and I get to detox once every week. Love it. Has absolutely no plot but has loads of fluff, and it's something I didn't know I needed in my life until I had it. It's one of my favourite BLs ever, and it's definitely going on my comfort shows and re-watch list. It will forever live on in my memory. I definitely keep coming back to this. Very high on my list and my #1 comfort show.

Only Boo. I kinda like it, but I have zero idea where they plan to go with the current storyline. Fluffy and cute, I'll keep watching, but it probably won't end up high on my favourites list. I'm behind on a couple of episodes (I'll catch up before ep. 12, no worries) and I was right. I do like it. It's something new, and I'd like GMM to explore this more, but it's not ending up very high on my favourites list.

Wandee Goodday. My favourite fake boyfriends with benefits! I'm behind a couple episodes with this too (sorry, my brain has been a little too obsessed with We Are T~T) but overall, I really like it. It's P'Golf, so I never had any doubts, but I do worry a little about the angst. It's bearable till now, so fingers crossed. I really like it! College has reopened, so I'm behind on the last two episodes, but I'm hoping I'll be able to complete it by this week. Final update: I've finished Wandee Goodday! All around, it's a very good BL. It dared to explore, and I'm impressed. Top 20 BLs.

My Love Mix Up! Thailand. I'm still skeptical, not gonna lie. But it's GemFourth. And I didn't feel much about the first few eps of MSP either, and look what happened with that. I still don't know how hard the original will clash with Thai BL's specific style, but I'm willing to take the chance. Please don't disappoint me. I like where this is going. They are so cute and lovely, and that high school vibe is evident. All I need now is for ep 11 curse to not happen. (From what happened in MSP, I think there will be some sort of conflict in the last ep, but as long as I don't have to wait one whole week for it to get resolved, I'm okay with it.) It landed a little wobbly, still quite better off than some other gmmtv series this year though *side eyes The Trainee* so I'll give it a solid 7.5 (I mark like every single point costs me though, so a series might be a tiny bit better than I rate it). Could it have been better? Well, yes. Was it enjoyable? Yep.

The Trainee. Well, it's OffGun's usual tsundere seme/innocent uke. Office romance though- that's new. I guess they finally graduated from university 😭😂 I don't feel anything about it right now, but let's see what happens when it starts airing. Rating changed. It's only been four episodes (and I missed today, that is ep 4, because I have college early tomorrow) but I like where this is going. I think it's going to be the typical 5-7 romance ep pattern, but as long as they don't bring back the ep 11 curse, it's all good. Rating changed again. I- I don't know what to say. I've already said everything in this post. They did something worse to this than make it bad; they make it mediocre. I feel like I was watching Tae and Bamhee get their shit together just to stuff all that progress down the drain willingly and got teeny tiny glimpses of JaneRyan in the background. It was downhill from ep 5 or 6 and I was really hoping they would save it last minute, but nope. It hit rock bottom and kept going. It became a bit painful to watch, honestly. I'll leave the rating to y'all.

Currently Airing:

Peaceful Property. After TayNew outdid themselves in the beautiful soft little thing that was Cherry Magic Thailand (anyone wanna join my Cherry Magic Th propaganda?), I can't wait for this series. Also: if they give me besties, it'll be a hard pill to swallow but I'll be fine, but if they give me bromance, I'll commit homicide. This series is making permanent changes to my brain. ffs, I'll even take bromance that's how much I'm loving it. It's also very sociological, and holds up a not-so-subtle commentary on class difference and oppression so bonus points. For now I'm finding it absolutely *chef's kiss*. Will it finally pull me up from the dump I'm in? Well, I really hope so.

Kidnap. I'll be honest, I'd almost completely forgotten about this series until the trailer popped up. I'm quite a few eps behind, but I think, personally, it will probably end up somewhere in my top 25.

[fictionalcharactersaremypassion]

First time for everything- Carl Gallagher x male!reader

Summary: Carl has never cuddled with a guy before so his boyfriend fixes that

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It was late, like near midnight. We'd decided to come to my house so we'd have some privacy. My parents were working so we had the place to ourselves.

Up in my bedroom, we were lounging around on the bed with my laptop between us, watching a movie. Somewhere about halfway through, my hand wandered over to Carl's hair, toying with a few pieces of it. He never explicitly told me he liked it but I already knew he did. He loved it when I'd run my hands through it, if his fluttering eyelids were anything to go by.

The credits were playing now, so I shut the lid to the laptop, stifling a yawn.

"You staying over?" I mumbled sleepily.

Carl turned on his side to face me. "I didn't bring anything with me."

"Just wear my stuff. Besides there's an extra toothbrush under the sink."

"You really want me to?" Carl asked as I moved the laptop off the bed.

"Sure. My other boyfriend isn't coming until tomorrow," I snickered when he rolled his eyes.

"Asshole."

"Hey, you asked," I shrugged, sitting up. I didn't really need to change since I was already in t-shirt and shorts. Carl made up his mind right then, agreeing to stay so he quickly changed and came right back to bed.

It'd be the first time we'd do this - sleeping over, staying in the same bed. Carl must have been nervous or something, given the way he was kinda fidgeting around. I didn't want to embarrass him by bringing it up so I just turned the light off, laying back down and pulling the blanket up to my chest (I was smart enough to have separate blankets for us so nobody would hog it).

For a bit, it was complete silence other than Carl's soft breathing and his tossing and turning. Carl wasn't having much luck falling asleep.

"Hey," I whispered.

"What? Fuck, did I wake you?"

"I haven't gone to sleep yet," I said.

"Oh," he mumbled.

"You okay?" I asked gently.

"Yeah. I'm fine," Carl said, sounding embarrassed. "It's just really quiet here."

"I get it," I said sympathetically. "Do you wanna put on the TV for some background noise or something?"

"You said you can't sleep with that stuff on," he said, remembering what I'd mentioned preciously.

"Yeah, but-" I'd be willing to do it for him.

"It's fine," he said.

It clearly wasn't. I didn't want him to be up all night. I thought it over and had an idea.

"Come here," I said, scooting closer. We weren't really the cuddling type but if it'd help him sleep then so be it.

Even so, Carl hesitated.

"Uh-"

"What's up?"

"It's really fucking stupid," he groaned. "But I've never...I've never, you know, done this with a guy before."

Oh. That wasn't what I expected.

"Do you want to?" I asked. For a moment, Carl said nothing.

"Sure." I couldn't help but grin at the bashful tone.

"Come here," I repeated, opening up my arms. Carl did, but he was unsure. He curled up on my chest, way too stiff. I tried to make him at ease by playing with his hair some more, and kissing the top of his head. "Is this okay?"

"I guess," he said quietly. "It's just...weird."

"Weird how?"

"I don't know. I've just never thought about doing this with a guy. It's so gay."

"Hate to break it to you but-" I quipped.

"You know what I mean."

I did. It's new and different and it'd take some time before he was comfortable.

My nails lightly scratched his scalp. "I get it, Carl. It's okay. Do you wanna stop?"

Silence, then he said, carefully , "No...."

"You sure?"

"Yeah," his voice came out a little stronger this time. "It's...okay."

I nuzzled him. Maybe it was a bit early to say this but I honest to God really loved him.

"Go to sleep, babe," my hand rubbed up and down his back. Carl snuggled closer, yawning.

And yeah, it just have really been okay. At some point, I woke back up to find Carl still laying on me fast asleep.

[cringevalue]

i posted this silly little thing about pre-transition eddie coming out to uncle wayne and i wrote an extra part with steve, but the writing was sloppy so i didn’t include it in the fic. anyway! i’m gonna post it here just for funzies.

tags: steddie, trans male eddie, coming out, a little bit more wayne & eddie fluff

wc: 616

“So, let me get this straight,” Steve started, scaring Eddie a little. Eddie expected everything to be cut off after this — hell, he expected to take a few punches before everything got cut off. “You don’t want to be called Elizabeth anymore? Or Lizzie? Or Lizard?”

“You’ve never called me Lizard,” Eddie said.

“Your Uncle Wayne has.”

“He’s my Uncle Wayne.”

“Fair enough.” Steve put his hands on his hips as he thought about everything, and Eddie groaned. “Give me a second! God damn. So, it’s Edward now?”

“Or Eddie.”

“Or Eddie. Okay. Okay. And you’re a boy?”

“Yes?”

“You’re Eddie and you’re a boy. Got it. So, what now? Do you just want me to call you a he?”

“I mean, yeah? Kinda.”

“Okay. That’s cool, I guess.” Steve raised an eyebrow. “Do you like girls now, or…?”

“No. Yes? Maybe. I don’t know. I still like boys. I definitely like boys.”

Steve chuckled. “That’s gay.”

Eddie rolled his eyes. “You’re gay.”

“So… Are you cutting your hair?”

“No, I want to keep it long.”

Steve nodded. “Does this mean I’m actually gay?”

Eddie froze, his eyes widening just slightly. “I… What? Why would this-“

“Well, if you’re a boy, and I’m a boy…”

“Nope.” Wayne walked up and grabbed Eddie’s shoulders. “We’re done here.”

Eddie shrugged Wayne off. “Hold on… You actually like me? All that joking around was…”

“I wasn’t joking around. At least not for like, the second half of it,” Steve admitted.

“So, you-“

“I like you, Li- Eddie. I like you, Eddie.”

Wayne groaned at this point and said, “Fine! Get it over with.”

Eddie shook his fists excitedly as he walked closer to Steve. Steve grabbed Eddie’s jaw with one hand, pulling his face closer.

Steve tasted like mint toothpaste and coffee flavored chapstick, and Eddie tasted like the menthol cigarette he smoked out of desperation before coming out to Steve. Steve’s lips were soft and Eddie’s were more chapped and cracked than usual — he’s always been bad at taking care of his lips and face, but he had been intentionally neglecting that kind of self care since coming out to Wayne, because he thought it might make him more masculine.

“Five… Four… Three…”

Steve tried to pull away, but Eddie pulled him back, chuckling against his lips.

“Two… One! That’s enough!”

Eddie finally pulled away from Steve and turned around to face Wayne, who was refusing to look at either of them.

Eddie put a finger to Steve’s lips to keep him quiet and started making wet sounds with his mouth.

“I said that’s-“ Wayne whipped around, getting ready to pull them away, only to be met with Eddie loudly smacking his lips, holding back a giggle. “God damn you, kid. Say goodbye to your little boyfriend, we still have shopping to do.”

“You can borrow some of my clothes, if you-“

“No!” Eddie and Wayne cut off Steve in unison.

Steve raised his hands in mock surrender. “Jeez, okay. I was just offering.”

Eddie shook his head with a chuckle. “I’ll see you around, sweetheart.”

He gave Steve one last peck on the lips before getting forcefully dragged away by Wayne.

“I’m gonna beat your ass when we get home,” Wayne grumbled.

—

When they got home, Wayne forced Eddie to do a fashion show to show off the cheapest articles of clothing they got from the men’s section. Just to mess with him, Eddie had walked out in a t-shirt and his new boxers, making Wayne cover his eyes and scream.

Eventually, Eddie got to cuddle up with Wayne on the couch and watch a horror movie.

“You’re not gonna beat my ass?”

“Never.”

[bi-lavelent]

Lone Wolf (Quinn Fabray x Fem reader part 10)

Warning:Fluff, Angst, Bullying, Cussing

I was waiting outside of Glee the next day for Santana. I had been doing this since I missed being in the class I would move in time to not be seen at the end but I could also hear a couple things like how Mr.Schue wanted them to do ballads for the week.

INNER THOUGHTS

Damn are you kidding me one of the weeks I could actually sing I wasn’t allowed to be in the class I mean hell the only type of music I do song is county and heavy metal and a little bit of rap and hip hop. But I mean come on I deserved to be in that class I would blow everybody’s socks off. Too bad Rachel was the only one without a partner. Since Hope had decided to stay home and help Matt with his Spiderman problems. Maybe he had got bitten in his ear and it had caused for him to become a superhero. That would be cool you know if superhero existed Santana would make a hot black widow or a hot Miss America maybe then she could open a portal to where we could be ourselves. We had been secretly dating for the past couple of weeks. But god I think that I was falling in love with her. She would also make a hot Hawkgirl. Damn having sex with a superhero would be hot. Wait I was thinking about my sister and her boyfriend gross. I wish that I could sing a ballad with Santana everyone wouldn’t think that she was gay because they didn’t get to pick their partners. They would just think that we’re friends. I sat there waiting for Glee to end and when Santana walked out I walked out to the car with her.

“Hey hot stuff how was your day.” I asked

“Good how bout yours?” Santana asked as I drove out of the parking lot

“It was okay I’m just kinda bummed I’m not in Glee I know the chances are slim but singing a ballad with you would be amazing and they wouldn’t even know about us because we wouldn’t have an option but to be with each other.” I said

“Yeah well maybe we could sing a ballad together some other time right know I have to pick a ballad that would be good for me and Britt.” Santana said

“Mine Taylor Swift.”I said

“Oh my god yes. You know that your perfect” Santana said and then leaned over and kissed me

“I know I am.” I said

“What were you thinking for us if we were partners.” Santana said

“Oh I have list know for the ones that we probably could pull of together Delta Dawn. The ones that I really love Forever and Ever amen, Always on my mind, Concrete angel, Blue eyes Crying in the rain, Til the rivers all run dry, Live like you we’re dying. The ones that I would love to do but we definitely can’t do together because I don’t know how your voice would pair with heavy metal Nothing else matter, November rain, Fade to black and Mama said.” I said

“Wow you put a lot of thought into this.” Santana said

“Yeah well I had a lot of time well the human contraceptive fell in love with the teacher. Dude did you see the way she was staring at him it’s the same way I stare at you. The same way Puck stares at Quinn and the same way Finn stares at Rachel and sometimes the same way Quinn stares at Rachel. Oh trust me he gets students who have crushes on him all the time two years ago there was this nerd named Suzy Pepper she would write his name in hearts ask him inappropriate questions and made everyone else uncomfortable. She grew up on a farm and was very religious like super religious. Like she started the Celibacy club. She’s waiting for marriage. I wish I could go to the high school reunion in a while and ask her how that faired for her in the long term. Nothing against the Celibacy club babe. But why are you even in it I know that you had definitely fucked Puckerman before me. Which must have sucked if he was your first time your lucky he didn’t get you pregnant anyway She graduated that year. I think she changed her name to April something to sound better she’s going to John Hopkins medical center she wanted to be some kind of doctor. A surgeon I think.” I said

( I’m sorry I had too for those who understand the reference with April being from Ohio and her being on the show it can’t be a coincidence)

”Okay well how do you know that.” Santana said

“Cause I had fucked most people in the Celibacy club hell I had fucked almost every one in the school by my Sophomore year. Too bad the hot people came the next year. You know the hottest one I saw was one I was supposed to mentor her. I had to drop out last minute because I felt like I had a crush on her the second I saw her. She had long Gorgeous brown hair and a smile that could light up any room that she walked in.But I chickened out last second as I was walking towards her I saw one of my friends and sent one her to mentor her last year well I mentored her kid we promised to never talk about this with anyone ever.” I said

“Oh who were they let me guess Rachel or Mercedes. I need to know who it was so that I can be mad at you and them.” Santana said

“Here name was as beautiful as she was. When she laughed she made me laugh to I would watch from afar never really wanting her to see the way I blushed every time I looked at her and how the red on my cheeks depended every time I heard her voice. She didn’t know who I was but I kept my eye out for her to the point where I had her schedule memorized. I realized that I also started seeing her out and about ofcourse she never looked at me why would she.” I said

“Why would she not trust me it’s hard for me to take my eyes away from you.” Santana said

“It wasn’t last year.” I said smiling at her

“tell me who it is now.” Santana said

“Wow you really are clueless sometimes her name was Santana Lopez.” I said

“Wait me you were like stalking me last year.” Santana said

“I wasn’t stalking you.” I said

“You kinda were. Wait you were friends with toxic homophobic bitch.” Santana said

“Yep best friends.” I said

“What are you still.” Santana asked

“No ofcourse not I’m just waiting for someone who I put first and will also put me first. But everyone I find already has a best friend and I will always put them first and they will always put me in last.” I said

“Okay well what about me.” Santana said

“Yeah go see how Brittnay feels about that and then I would be your third maybe because you have Quinn after Britt and so you won’t work.” I said

“Oh you could easily replace Quinn even if we weren’t fucking each other.” Santana said

“Good to know.” I said

As we pulled up in front of the house I went inside to do homework and Santana also did the same going to her room. People at school Questioned if I was adopted by her family. As I had gotten close with her parents and it showed I wanted them to know that if she did come out and wanted to be with me that they’d be okay with us dating. I called my sister and put her on speakerphone as I got into my pajamas

“Hey” hope said

“Hey” Matt said

“Hi how you feeling.” I said

“They found eggs in my ear.” Matt said

“Hey buddy I totally understand price of living downstairs.” I said

”See she gets me.” Matt said

“I’m sorry that you have to go through that. How are your parents treating you with all of this.” I said

“Good what are they doing in glee has Santana told you?” Matt and hope asked

“There just doing ballads this week your not missing anything.” I said

“How’s the Lopez treating you.” Hope said

“There good a lot better than our family how have the Rutherfords been treating you?” I asked

I didn’t see that Santana had walked in and sat in the chair behind me

“There good can you believe these families eat food together and not just like let you eat anywhere.” Hope said

“It’s nice you know eating together and eating a dinner for the most part and not just our parents saying fend for yourself.” I said

“How long are you staying at the Lopez.” Hope asked

“I don’t know I hope they will keep me till I’m 18 and then I will get my own house and you can move there and will be safe.” I said

“We’re gonna be stuck in fucking Lima, Ohio aren’t we?” Hope asked hearing the sadness in her voice and the words made tears go down my eyes

“You can get out of here. Just keep at Cheerios don’t piss anyone off and get out of here. My last hope was Glee. Without it I will most likely never be leaving here.” I said

“We’ll have fun with Santana and the Lopez.” Hope said

“Have fun with the Rutherford and not to much fun with Matt. I can beat him up and he knows that I will go all boxing Y/N on his ass and she has no remorse.” I said

“You already we know we’ve hooked up you walked in on us once.” Hope said

“I screamed that I would be burning that image out of my mind and we would never mention it again.” I said

“I love you bye.” Hope said

“I love you too cherish being with the Rutherfords well you can we both know this isn’t forever will have to go back to our abusive mom and our neglectful father who is a pastor and won’t even talk to me without threatening to kill me.” I said

“Yeah I will cherish it feels good imagining they were my family. It’s just weird dating my brother when I think about it.” Hope said

“I’m doing the same thing here except the dating thing. Bye love you.” I said hanging up on her

“Your family doesn’t feed you and your parents abuse you?” Santana asked tears running down her eyes

“What you’re telling me your parents have never purposefully run you over with a car (I laughed) because you had an F? or called you a Cunt because you didn’t clean up your room? or tells you every single day that you don’t actually have friends because they don’t talk to you outside of school or Glee or that Nobody will ever love you because of how you act. Your father has never threatened to shoot you if you bring another girl home and he finds you in bed. Your parents didn’t send you off to a conversion camp to try to fix you but the only thing that happened was that you got raped by a camp counselor. Your parents don’t just leave you at home with no food when you were six and told you to fend for yourself.” I said starting to cry as Santana ran over and hugged me

“Hey Hey, Hey I got you. You’re safe here with me I will keep you safe for as long as I need to they won’t lay another finger on you I promise. I will try and help you get that house and protect your sister okay I love you.” Santana said

“You what.” I said

“Nothing.” Santana said

“Okay thank you. You are really the best secret girlfriend anyone could ask for.” I said

“Is there anything else you want to tell me I know that you have been keeping something secret.” Santana said

“I love you too.” I said

Next day at school (Thursday)

An announcement had come over the intercoms from one of the boys saying “We have an issue with Fags at this school we have found the solution everyone either look at the TVs near you or open your laptop and click on the link that we sent you.” The video of me getting rapped was on every Tv and everyone’s laptop.

“Shit,Shit,Shit” I whispered under my breath. I was at the end of the hallway in Mr.Schues room I started to run out of the classroom to the nearest exit he looked at me and I just pointed to the computer. As everyone turned to the TV’S or clicked the link I could see The incident happening over and over and over again as I ran out of the school and to my car and took off to the Lopez household and up to my room I hid in the bathroom so that no one would find me I stayed their all day long crying over the situation. Everyone at school had seen me get rapped I guess that it was no longer a secret that I could hold onto

Later that day in Glee.

“Y/N was hot in that video” Puck said

“Really Puckerman yeah I get she was a Jerk to us but a video of our Friend getting rapped was broadcasted to the whole school.” Rachel said

Mr.Schue walked in as the kids talked about what had happened.

“Look guys I get that everyone was excited to sing our ballad for Finn and Quinn. But I feel like we should focus on what happened today. Trust me when I say that I know that Y/N messed with a lot of us when she had her outburst. But she didn’t deserve this no one does and the fact that this happened is appalling.” Mr.schue said sitting down

“It’s all my fault.” Finn said

“WHAT DID YOU DO FINN?” Quinn yelled asked at him

“I was so mad at Y/N after what they did to me. That I told the guys on the football team who let it spread like wildfire. If I just kept my mouth shut this wouldn’t have happened to her.” Finn said

“Santana you live with her did she tell you anything.” Quinn asked

“No she just said that she didn’t like the campus. I know that she seemed off. I just thought that maybe she saw the father of her child. I didn’t imagine this is what happened.” Santana said

“I don’t feel safe you heard them and saw peoples faces. I’m scared that I might be next. I am also scared that I saw many women and men getting off to it.” Kurt said

“We need to suck up what she said about us and be there for her right now. She needs her friends who didn’t watch the video. Who are gonna stick by her side and protect her.” Mercedes said

“That’s easy for you to say she didn’t say anything about you.” Quinn said

“She right my marriage might be over, Quinn and Finn might be over. But she would have protected all of you and you know it.” Mr.Schue said

“Santana can we all come to your house.” Rachel asked

“I don’t want my privacy invaded but for Y/N I’d do anything.” Santana said

“Good we’re carpooling there now. She needs us now we’re picking up her sister and Matt if he can come and we’re going to comfort her.” Rachel said

“My dad can come get me and other pepole.” Artie said

“Mr.Schue, Quinn, Kurt. You’ll drive. I think that Kurt should go with the freshman first as they all have the best relationship with Y/N. Then Quinn can Drive Santana, Mercedes and Brittnay. You will all go and get as much Ice Cream and Chocolate and Movies that she would Like.” Rachel said

“and pizza.” Santana interrupted “she loves pizza”

”Mr.Schue you’ll drive Finn, Puck , Racheland Me. We will get there after we figure out how to make these assholes pay for what they did to her.” Mike said

“Artie can you try and pick up her sister and Matt and fill them in on what happened?” Quinn asked

“Ofcourse.” Artie said

“Y/N on three okay 1, 2,” Mr.Schue said

“Nope not doing that.” Puck said

“Uh uh” Brittnay and Santana said

“Okay let’s get going.” Santana said

“Kurt here’s my keys don’t lose them don’t steal them just go protect her with them pls and then give them back when I get there.” Santana said

Soon enough Kurt and the freshman pulled up in front of the Lopez house and got out of Kurt’s car. Tina jiggled the keys into the door and opened it up.

“Okay Tina go check down stairs, I’ll check upstairs and then we will both go upstairs and check.” Kurt said

“Okay” Tina said

They both went looking around the house running opening every door looking for me. Soon enough they went upstairs and checked in all the bedrooms eventually finding me in my bathroom with a broken mirror as I decided to punch it when I got angry. Kurt ran over to me and wrapped his arms around me as i cried into them. Tina sat in front of me handing me tissues.

A few minutes later Quinn pulled up to the Lopez household they ran straight in as Santana grabbed the keys off the table and put them in her pocket. She ran upstairs to my room and saw me and the others sitting on the floor. Kurt saw the worry on Santanas face and decided to get up and switch spots with her. I snuggled deeper into her calming down a little bit at the feel of her arms around me.

“Rachel thought that food would make you feel better.” Santana said

“Shiva” Kurt said

“Isn’t that when someone dies. I haven’t died.” I said

“Your innocence did” Artie said as he wheeled in having been carried up the stairs by Matt and Hope

“Oh..” I said before getting cut off

“That died along time.” My sister said cuddling into my other side

“We got you we’re not mad at you anymore. You need a support system and me and the others will gladly be that.” Quinn said

“Where’s everyone else.” Matt said

“There trying to figure out if there’s anything they can do about this.” Quinn said

“You mean besides send these assholes to prison.” Santana said rubbing my back

“They can’t go to prison.” Tina said

“Yes the can they put underage porn on the internet.” I said

“Who was underage all of the boys were 18 except the one who was filming was a sophomore.” Matt said

“I am I’m only seventeen I turn eighteen this summer and if you mean to tell me that the people who rapped me are adults than there In even more trouble.” I said

“We ain’t leaving you okay we all already called our parents and they are okay with us staying here.” Artie said

“What about your parents.” Hope said looking at Santana

“They’re out of town for a medical conference.” Santana said

“Are they ever home.” Tina asked

“Yeah actually they are. But that’s coming from someone whose parents just leave them for weeks on end.” I said

Soon enough Mr.Schue came by with Puck, Rachel, Mike and Finn

“Is there anything we need to do Mike asked we could kick there asses.” Mike said

“I’m not even gonna talk you guys out of it this time.” Mr.Schue said

“Did you guys find anything.” I asked

“Yeah the cops will be there tomorrow.” Mr.Schue said

“Look as nice as this is I just feel uncomfortable okay you all saw me naked.” I said

“We didn’t watch the video we saw who it was in the mirror of the bathroom. Heard what they said and turned it off before anything happened.” Artie said

“I’m gonna leave you kids be. I already contacted your parents and the school if you want to all take some time off to comfort Y/N.” Mr.Schue said

“I also called my dad you don’t need to go to work he will continue to pay you. But you don’t need to show up.” Kurt said

“Can someone go get the food and movies.” Santana said

“We’re on it” Finn, Matt, Mike, and Puck said

“Kurt are you doing okay.” I asked still snuggled into Santanas arms

“What about the other gay kids at school.”Kurt said “What about me if they did this to someone everyone in the school was scared in what stops them from doing it to me.”

“We will we’re gonna protect you two at all cost. We’re your own secret service.” Rachel said

“I just want things to go back to normal. I know you guys didn’t see me naked but everybody else did. I just wish that I had a Time Machine.” I said

They boys came up with the movies and the snacks as Santana picked me up and carried me over to the bed.

Santana layer next to me in the bed. Hope and Matt layer on the flour with a pillow from Santanas bedroom. Mercedes, Quinn and Brittnay all sat against the wall. With a blanket they had found down stairs Artie sat in his chair outside the room. Tina sat on the side of the bed I was laying on with Rachel. Kurt and Mike sat in the doorway. Well Puck and Finn sat outside the door in the hallway. Mr.Schue came back to check on us a couple times.

I hade woken up in the middle screaming after having a nightmare about the event happening again. Santana shot up with me rubbing my back. As everyone else stated to wake up. I was breathing really heavy and was having a hard time talking.

“Is everything okay?” Quinn asked

“You okay Y/N?” Kurt said

“Did something happen?” Finn asked rubbing his eyes

I burst into tears as Santana moved over Quinn and Brittnay ran to me hugging me.

“Are you okay?” Mercedes asked

“I’m so sorry I just had a nightmare.” I said

“About what ?” Santana asked

“I guess I can’t lie to you guys anymore it wasn’t a nightmare I was reliving it. Everytime I close my eyes I see it happening. It hasn’t stopped it’s been happening since it happened.” I said

“Is there anything we can do to comfort her?” Santana asked looking at hope

“I don’t know usually her waited blanket calms her down. But it’s at our house.” Hope said

“Are you able to go back there?” Artie said

“I guess.” Hope said leaving the room

“Finn, Mike, Puck and Matt pls go with her.” Santana said

“Matt pls protect her from them.” I said he looked at me knowingly and nodded

“Is there anything we can do til then ?” Quinn asked laying her arms over my legs to try to calm down.

“I have thousands of blankets downstairs.” Santana said

“We will all go get them.” Quinn said

They all left and Artie rolled across the hallway to use the restroom.

“What can do for you baby?” Santana asked

“Human weighted blanket once the blankets on me can you cuddle me please.” I said

“Ofcourse.” Santana said

“How much of the video did you watch? Tell me the truth please.” I said

“Why are you asking.” Santana said

“Santana you were in the lunchroom you had access to TVs everywhere around you.” I said

“I watched the beginning and then I saw what they were doing to you and i tried to look away but no matter where I looked I saw what was happening to you. Why didn’t you tell me.” Santana said

“Because I was scared of how you would react. I was scared if you would say something like that’s every women’s dream.” I said

“We had sex that night for the first time. Were you just trying to wash them out or did you actually want it.” Santana asked

“I wanted it. Trust me if I could delete that day I wouldn’t because as horrible as it was the end of the day was amazing. You made that day change for me you turned one of the saddest most unsafe days of my life. Turn into the hottest, Sexiest, happiest most safe days of my life.” I said

“I love you.” Santana said

“I love you too.” I said

“Hey babe, Hey Y/N” Puck said as he entered

“Hi” I said

“Can you Scoot over so that I can kiss my girlfriend.” Puck said

“Sure I’m gonna go to the bathroom.” I said giving Santana sad eyes

I walked out and saw Artie standing at the bathroom door in front of the room I pushed him into it and turned on the light.

“What What What What?” Artie yelled

“How much of that did you see and hear.” I said

“YOU AND” Artie yelled

“Shhh be quiet.” I said

“You and Santana are dating each other.” Artie said looking at me

“Yes Artie you can’t til anyone she doesn’t want to come out of the closet yet.” I said

Meanwhile

“I don’t wanna kiss right now I want to comfort my friend. Why are you jealous.” Santana said

“No not jealous. Just I let you spend time alone with those dudes during football games and I know they raped her because she was gay but what if they did it to you.” Puck said

“But they didn’t and she needs us.” Santana said

Soon enough I left the bathroom with Artie and headed back to the room everyone else was already in there laying down again. Except for hope and the boys. I laid down let me snuggle back into her. She wrapped her legs around me I quickly fell back to sleep.

During the night Santana needed to get up so Quinn Switched spots with her. It switched throughout the night and the next day by the time I woke up I was in Brittnay’s arms.

“Good morning.” Brittnay said

“Tell me it didn’t actually happen?” I said

Santana and Quinn were stood at the door. “It happened.” Quinn said

“Where is everyone?” I asked

“Some of them are out getting food.” Santana said sitting on the bed and pulling me close to her as Quinn sat down

“Others went to get clothes and supplies to stay here again.” Quinn said

“Me and Matt went to get your school work. The cops want to talk to you at the school.” Hope said

“No I can’t. I can’t go back there all the kids are gonna look at me. The Sam way Puckerman did the second he saw me. They all watched the video including him.” I said

“You knew he saw it?” Quinn asked

“He was practically undressing me with his eyes.” I said

“Could we get the cops here?” Quinn asked

“NO NO NO cops. I can barely talk to you guys.” I said

“Okay No cops.” Santana said

“We will go get you some food.” Hope said dragging Matt with her

I leaned over to Santayana and whispered into her ear ���Damn I don’t except that this how the three hottest cheerleaders at school would be in my bed. I thought about this and I was never crying.” I said

“Shut up” Santana said

“What did she say?” Quinn asked

“Nothing important she just said that she feels safe with strong women only being in the room with her.” Santana said

“Two strong women one strong sexy Latina goddess.” I whispered

“She just said I told you not to say that.” Santana said

“Well thank you for the compliment.” Quinn said

“Why isn’t Brittnay talking.” I asked turning over to see a sleeping Brittnay

“She didn’t sleep last night a lot of us didn’t our parents keep coming to check in on us.” Quinn said

“How are you feeling?” I asked

“Finn told my family about the baby so know I’m living with him and his mom.” Quinn said

“Are you still selling the baby to Off her Meds.” I asked

“No your freak out made me realize how stupid I was being plus she was giving me no money.” Quinn said

“What’s it like living with your ex-boyfriend.” I asked

“It’s better than her living with mine.” Santana said

“Don’t worry I told them. We realized after your outburst that maybe a friendship that has a ton of lies isn’t a good friendship.” Quinn said

“Well maybe you should go for puck.” I said reaching down for Santanas upper thigh

“Yeah you can have him he’s not that good anyway.” Santana said

“Finns family is nice.” Quinn said

Later that day I tried to go downstairs and eat dinner with everybody when there was a knock at the door. We were all sat down talking and eating takeout from Breadstix.

“Wait so you mean to tell me that the school has been shut down because of the incident.” I asked As Mr.Schue sat down with us.

“Not quit its shutdown until we know that it is completely safe for everyone.” Mr.Schue said

“Well I guess it is a better time than ever.” I said

“For what” everyone said looking at me.

“I called Principal Figgins today we both decided to have me go back for a week and if it doesn’t do good then I will transfer to Crawford Country Day.” I said

“What’s that?” Kurt asked

“I’ve heard of it it’s a girls only private school with a no bullying policy.” Mr.Schue said

“How do you know?” Finn asked

“They’re against us at sectionals.” Mr.Schue said

“Wait that means most likely we will be up against each other.” Santana asked

“Yes” Mr.Schue said

“Let’s talk about something else.” I said

“Like what.” Hope said

“Like what this means because I don’t even understand why you all are here what the second I step back into that school will you all disappear again.” I said

“You’re back in Glee.” Mr.Schue said

“Wait really.” I said

“Yes even if you don’t stay we will all support you.” Mr.Schue said

“Let’s change the subject before she starts to cry.” Santana said

I through a Breadstix at her

“My dad is gonna stop by later. With your stuff. He went and emptied out your locker at school and work.” Kurt said

“Thank you.” I said

As time went on Mr.Schue left and we were all sat on the couch watching a movie. I was sat over by Artie. As Santana and Puck made out. Artie grabbed my hand and pulled me away from looking at them. Tina and Kurt were sitting in front of us on the ground at our feet. When there was a knock on the door Santana went up to get it. I walked into the kitchen which was just off the living room but not visible from the door. Kurt had walked towards the stairs which was right in front of the door.

“We heard that hot fag who was in the sex tape. Was staying here. Oh wow you got two of them here. Hi faggy (he waved at kurt) we want a time like those guys got.” The guy said

“Yeah no you’re not going anywhere near her.” Santana said

“Why are you a Lesbo to?” The guys asked

“If we were.” Quinn asked

“Yeah” Rachel said

“You think you could take all of us” Hope said

“She dosent need to be fixed” Mercedes said

“Well I could change all of you.” He said

“Get away from the girls.” Puck said

I walked over there they weren’t getting hurt to protect me

“Wait aren’t you one of the guys who were there wait you all were the guys.” I said

“Ready for round two darling.” He said as he pushed Santana to the side Quinn put her arm in front of you

“Aren’t the cops looking for you.” I said

“Why would we get arrested we’re a bunch of consenting adults. The sad thing is that you have a bunch of underclassman protect you.” He said

“Yeah well you see we all might be seniors but guess what you all might have birthdays after October.” I said

“Yeah so what.” He said

“I have a Summer birthday which means that I am only 17.” I said

“Shit.” He said

The football boys tried to tackle most of them given it was 4 to 5. The boys tackled most of them Mr. Hummel arrived just in time pulling up and seeing the guy running he tackled him.

“I’m gonna call the cops.” Tina said

As she called the cops Santana lead you over to the spot where her and Puck used to be sitting. You layer your head on her lap and the rest of your body went over Quinn and Brittnay with your legs going on Mercedes and your feet on your sister they put a blanket over you. Santana messaged your head something she usually only did after you guys had sex. The cops came and arrested the guys

“Is she able to talk right now.” The cop asked Mr. Hummel

“Yes.” I said

”Okay can everyone leave.” The cop asked

“Can someone stay.” I asked

“Yes but they have to be someone who you will be okay with hearing you talk about it.” The cop said

Pucks definitely out, So is your sister she didn’t need to hear it all. “Burt can you stay.” I said looking at him near the tv

“She needs her friends after this so if you guys could just go upstairs or downstairs or something.” The cop said

“What do you remember?” The cop asked

“I have blacked a lot of it out, but they didn’t cut anything out of the video.” I said

“You watched the video?” Mr. Hummel asked

“Yeah I know that I probably shouldn’t have but everyone had seen me weak and vulnerable I kept replaying it in my head but it kept stopping when they all had a sick inside of me and then it would start over again. I wanted to watch them leave the room. I want to watch them leave me.” I said

“Okay are you sure those guys were the ones that rapped you.” The cop asked

“Yes those face are burned into my mind no matter what I do.” I said

“Sir will you be okay if your daughter’s friends stay over.” The cop asked Burt

“Yes, now can you bring those guys away before I do something that I will regret.” Burt said

The cops left

“Why did you go along when they said I was your daughter.” I asked

“Look I know that you’re not my actual child but I love you and care for you like one. You treat Kurt like a brother. Also I have been here two days and I have seen every other kids parents except for yours and you are the one who are hurt. Clearly your dad isn’t willing to be manly enough to take care of you so you are our daughter. Trust me I love you like a child and I am sure that a lot of the other parents you know feel the same way.” He said

“Thank you.” I said hugging him and crying

“GUYS THERE GONE.” I yelled

Everyone came upstairs.

“We all need to get some sleep.” I said

“Boys you can sleep in the Guest room downstairs me and the girls will sleep upstairs with her. That way she feels safe.” Rachel said

We all went our different ways. I went upstairs and went to my room. Well everyone else went to Santanas.

“I’ll go first.” Santana said

she went down the hallway to my room. Came into my room and locked the door.

“Come here.” Santana said

I ran into her arms and we kissed each other.

“Your boyfriends here.” I said

“I know.” She said

“They why.” I asked

“Because I saw how me making out with him during the movie affected you and I wanted to apologize. It’s you okay trust me if I fell for a man he would be a lot hotter than Noah.” Santana said

“Who’s Noah? Oh my god is that Pucks real name.” I said

“You will never let him live that down will you.” Santana asked leading me to the bathroom to brush my teeth.

After I brushed my teeth she was brushing hers with the brush she kept in my bathroom. “You wanna take a shower together?” I whispered in her ear.

“Hell yeah will just have to be quiet.” Santana said

“Okay.” I said

We both got naked and jumped into the shower.

“We have been talking about men touching you all week and how to cheer you up. I think that I can remind you why you like women and cheer you up.” Santana said

As she got on her knees and started opening me up with her fingers and then putting her tongue inside me. She was in the middle of doing it when I heard the door open. I popped my head out the curtain to see who it was. Shit shit shit it was Puckerman

“Hey what do you need?” I said

“Oh hey Y/N do you know where Santana is.” Puck asked

I tried my best not to moan as she brought me to my climax.

“Yeah I asked her to go buy me some Carmel ice cream and a hot tea. Before bed she asked me if there was anything that I needed. She should be back soon. If you wanna go downstairs and play video games with the dudes I’ll send her down there when she come back.” I said

“Do you know how long?” He asked

“Well she was gonna walk down the street to the house her parents were staying at and drive with her dad. So I don’t know maybe like 30-40 minutes. If she comes here first I will be sure to send her down to you. Just pls no sex she is the first one protecting me tonight.” I said

“Yeah no problem. Thanks Y/N you are a really good friend.” Puck said as he left and shut the door

I gripped onto the sides finally allowing myself to orgasm.

“you taste so good.” She said coming up to kiss me

“No no no I had a full blown conversation with your boyfriend as you fucked me.” I said

”Okay so what do you want me to do?” Santana asked

“I don’t know. He can beat me up okay if he could til that you were actually here instead of at the store I would be dead.” I said

“Okay well you gave us 30-40 minutes I can think of several things I can do you just have to lie down.” Santana said

“You know I want that. But you can’t look like you just got out of the shower he will kill me.” I said

“Okay well we are finishing this when this whole situation is over. Okay the second it’s just you and me in this house we are having hot steamy shower sex.” Santana said

“Oh please yes.” I said

“I’m just scared okay come on there’s women letting you snuggle into them all night long and I’m scared you’ll fall for one of them. Okay you already have a crush on Brittnay and Quinn what if they develop feelings and you leave me.” Santana said

“I will never leave you I promise.” I said

“Oh really.” Santana said

How was I supposed to tell her that we only had a few months left this summer this June we would have to over legally.

“Yes” I said

Santana dried off and put some clothes on and went downstairs. I was laying in bed waiting for my Latina Goddess. When Mercedes came in.

“Hey chocolate angle. What’s up?” I asked

“There’s so much drama going on I don’t know who’s gonna stay and who gonna leave. Everyone except for Rachel and Finn. Have found out that Pucks the father. Because he told me and I opened my stupid mouth.” Mercedes said

“Well Santana might be mad at Quinn for sleeping with her boyfriend.” Mercedes said

Santana came up stairs “No Me Gusta , No me Gusta” she said crying as she went into the room and shut the door

“Well I guess I’m all yours still in secret but I am all yours.” Santana said smiling and kissing me

“Finally.” I said

I woke up in the middle of the night cuddling into I don’t know who I went to grab my water from the side of the better. Falling on top of the person.

“Babe what do you need? It’s me Santana” Santana said

“Oh good I just need my water.” I said

“We aren’t switching tonight we decided that since you were scared to sleep alone that we just shouldn’t switch. As you need someone you trust.” Santana said

“Good okay well I’m going back to sleep.” I said

The next day I woke up late in the afternoon as I had been. From all the crying. “Hey sleepy head.” Quinn said

“Coffee” I said like a zombie

“Do you wanna do anything today?” Kurt asked

“Coffee” I said like a zombie

Just as I said it Santana rounded the corner with a coffee for me

“You’re my favorite.” I said grabbing the Coffee from here

I sat down at the table with everyone. “You know we really do feel like a family like this. I feel like we are a family just one where half the people have slept with each other.” I said

“Oh shut up. Atleast we ask the people we like out.” Quinn said

“You try being gay every hot dude is straight.” Kurt said

“Yeah every hot woman is straight. You guys are the luckiest sexuality.” I said

“You’re hot and you’re a lesbian so there clearly are hot women who like women.” Puck said

“Thanks Puck but find another hot woman who likes women and we will talk.” I said

“There’s plenty of hot lesbian celebrities.” Rachel said

“Like who and don’t say Ellen or Portia.” I said

“Well there’s or there’s.” Rachel said

“Suze Orman , Cynthia Nixon” Kurt said

“K fine one. The gay community has plenty.” I said

“Sure we do like who.” Kurt said

“Ricky Martin, Neil Patrick Harris, Johnathan Groff, Rock Hudson, Cary Grant, Tab Hunter, Roman Novarro.” I said

“Okay well if we’re going that route you also got Audrey Hepburn.” Kurt said

“Not my type.” I said

“Hot, Can pull off short hair.” I said

“Yeah well.” Kurt said

“Face it most hot celebrity men are gay.” I said

“Most lesbian look like they crawled out of spending a week in Lowe’s .” Kurt said

“Lowe’s .” I said

“What?” Quinn questioned

“Kurt why did you do this?” Hope asked

“What did he do?” Rachel asked

“He said the word you know how you don’t say candy around kids. You really shouldn’t say the H word or the L word near Lesbians. You also shouldn’t watch the L word with Lesbians they go feral.” Hope said

“That we’re I wanna go today Lowe’s .” I said

“We don’t have a Lowe’s .” Rachel said

“No but Columbus does.” I said

“We aren’t going to Lowe’s .” Santana said

“Plssssss. It will make me happy.” I said

“Fine but only a few of us are coming” Santana said

”Okay I’ll go get my clothes on” I said running up the stairs

“Lowe’s is a lesbians Sephora.” Kurt said

“Nothing in that sentence made sense but I like Lowe’s so I’ll go with her.” Puck said

“Do you really think that it’s a good idea to go with your ex-girlfriend.” Artie asked

“Actually Wheels is right. But us footballers need to go just in case she runs into people from school.” Puck said

“Lowe’s is my happy place I could get lost in there for hours. My use to just drop me and my dad off when it opened and we stay there til it closed.” Matt said

“Okay well whatever makes her happy right.” Finn said

“Okay who’s coming.” I said as I looked for my keys

Once Matt, Finn, Puck, Mike and Me were in the car we drove off. Santana wanted to stay back with the girls and Kurt who were watching the notebook and getting a pedicure and manicure. That would suck on a Santana I guess you weren’t getting fucked anytime soon. Artie got picked up by his parents during breakfast they wanted him to go home and be able to function around normally.

We headed on the hour long drive. “Do you guys wanna listen to music.” I asked

“What do you have.” Mike asked

“Don’t judge me I have Nickelback, Limp Bizkit and Metallica.” I said

“Oh my god Yes. I thought that you were gonna say something like Justin Biber” Finn said

“I bet your girlfriend loves those first four words.” I said

“Are you kidding me none of the hot girls at our school will let anyone to fuck them.” Mike said

“Wait I thought that they were atleast giving it to the dude’s. I dated one of the Cheerios the one in the Neck brace for like 1 year and 2 months and nothing.” I said

“Have you pulled anybody.” Matt said

“Well I know that you have pulled my sister Matt and Puck pulled Santana. I have a cheerio who I have pulled.” I said

“So I guess me and Mike are the only virgins.” Finn said

“Speak for yourself buddy.” Mike said

“You’re a Virgin?” I said

“Not for the lack of trying.” Finn said

“Let’s just listen to music and not listen to Finsters pathetic sex life.” Puck said

“Puck you fucked his girlfriend don’t think that you can say much. Well you had the hottest girl in the school giving you access. Nothing against Quinn she’s okay but Santanas really hot.” I said

“Wow sounds like you have a crush on our girls.” Finn said

“They’re not your property.” I said “Also it isn’t for the lack of trying to get a crush on anyone else I just have good taste. Don’t worry we haven’t done anything.” I said

“can we just listen to the radio.” Matt said

“Sure.” I said

Popping in the disk for Limp Bizkit. With in seconds we were all singing along.

It's just one of those days When you don't wanna wake up Everything is fucked Everybody sucks You don't really know why But you wanna justify Rippin' someone's head off No human contact And if you interact Your life is on contract Your best bet is to stay away, motherfucker! It's just one of those days

It's all about the he says/she says bullshit I think you better quit lettin' shit slip Or you'll be leavin' with a fat lip It's all about the he says/she says bullshit I think you better quit talkin' that shit

It's just one of those days Feelin' like a freight train First one to complain Leaves with a blood stain Damn right, I'm a maniac You better watch your back 'Cause I'm fuckin' up your program And if you're stuck up You're just lucked up Next in line to get fucked up Your best bet is to stay away, motherfucker! It's just one of those days

It's all about the he says/she says bullshit I think you better quit lettin' shit slip Or you'll be leavin' with a fat lip It's all about the he says/she says bullshit I think you better quit talkin' that shit Punk, so come and get it

I feel like shit My suggestion is to keep your distance 'Cause right now I'm dangerous We've all felt like shit And been treated like shit All those motherfuckers that want to step up I hope you know I pack a chain saw I'll skin your ass raw And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break somethin' tonight I pack a chainsaw I'll skin your ass raw And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break somethin' tonight I pack a chainsaw I'll skin your ass raw And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break your fuckin' face tonight

Give me somethin' to break Give me somethin' to break Just give me somethin' to break How 'bout your fuckin' face? I hope you know I pack a chainsaw (what?) A chainsaw (what?) A motherfuckin' chainsaw (what?) So come and get it

It's all about the he says/she says bullshit I think you better quit lettin' shit slip Or you'll be leavin' with a fat lip It's all about the he says/she says bullshit I think you better quit talkin' that shit Punk, so come and get it

We were soon coming close to the Home Depot. “Damn why didn’t you sing with us. During the Girls vs Boys week.” Finn asked

“Same reason Kurt had to perform with you guys. Mr.Schue dosen’t care what kind of voice you have. Even if I have a bass voice. (I imagine this character being able to hit almost every note but most comfortable at bass Tim foust level) What he told me was to sing at a higher range to match the girls. So that you boys had something to sing” I said

“But none of us can go that low.” Puck said

“Yeah well I won’t have to hide my ability if I switched schools actually I would be used a lot because they do Acapella.” I said

“What’s that” They all asked

“They don’t use any instruments they use there mouths.” I said

“So many gay jokes just popped in my head” Puck said

“You know I actually like having straight friends.” I said

We pulled into the Lowe’s parking lot around 3:00. We all entered and went our separate ways I found some cool lights that went on the ceiling they were meant for kids which I legally still was. I grabbed a Princes one, A space one, A car one and A couple that had music notes. I grabbed an extra Princess one for Brittnay and when I grabbed it I found a ton of superhero ones. I just decided to get all of them I pull all of the cases in my cart. They were only 50 cents each. I moved farther back into the store looking for stuff for my bedroom. When I went to the Key section. Santanas Dad had give me his since I moved in I might as well get one of my own. I walked over to the worker and looked at the designs.

“Do you guys add pictures to keys?” I asked

“Yes we can.” He said “Do you have the photo”

“Yes.” I said pulling up a picture of me and Glee Club

“Oh yes just send that to this machine it has the email on the screen.” He said

As it popped up on the screen. He asked “Who are those people.”

“The club I am in at school.” I said

“Oh what club.” He asked

“Glee club.” I said

“What highschool.” He asked

“McKinley high” I said

“Oh my god my niece goes there Santana Lopez.” He said

“Oh my god she’s in that photo.” I said

“Are you to close.” He asked

“Yes we’re friends.” I said

“Do you know this kid she’s letting live with them. That’s so sweet that they’re doing that.” He said

“Yes it is given that I am that kid It is extremely sweet of them.” I said

“Oh my god My brother love you he says he wishes you were part of the family. He sees you as a daughter.” He said

“That’s nice to know. Hey do you know if Santana would like anything here.” I asked

“Yes here’s your keys. I’ll lead you over to it.” He said

Leading me over to there summer stuff and over to a Dunk tank.

“Are you sure?” I asked

“She’s been saving up money for the past 4 years to buy it. It’s been her dream to have one since she was a kid.” He said

“Really it’s been my dream too. I just don’t have space for it.” I said

“I’m one of the drivers I could drive it over to there house and put it in there backyard if you can afford it.” He said

“Oh don’t worry I’m a senior and I got a job my freshman year that makes me 150$ dollars an hour and I have been saving so.” I said

“You must be really good friends.” He said “ Here’s the tag just say I need Lopez to drive it. I’ll give you a family discount.”

I went walking around and found the perfect gift for Kurt and Rachel a light switch with musical theater Quotes on it. I found lights for Wheelchairs for Artie since his went out and a cushion to make him more comfortable. I found a boyfriend pillow for Quinn. I was walking around and found the perfect gift for Puck was Light switch cover that looked like well looked like a dick. I found supply’s to build a portable dance floor for Mike and a mini fridge for Finn and one for me. A nice head lamp for Matt since I had broken his on accident. I found a decorative pillow set for my sister. I don’t even realize how long I had been in the store until I heard them say that they were closing in 20 minutes they closed at 11:00pm wow I totally lost track of time. Luckily I saw that the boys had too. I went and checked out. I saw Mr.Lopez and waved him over and asked him to drop the dunk tank and the mini fridges off tomorrow around 7:00am. I looked at the total nothing unusual from my usual shopping spree at Home Depot. It was only 4,000 dollars but it was worth the smile my friends would have. We all drove back and arrived at midnight luckily we had my key the boys went downstairs I locked the front door and went outside and out to the shed with Mr.Lopez and My power tools and started working on mikes dance floor. It was waist to add the hinges and the foldable part. After that I easily added the kick down stands and a handle. I had just started painting it when I heard the door open.

“Hi, what are you doing” Santana asked wrapping her arms around me

“What time is it?” I asked

”Four I couldn’t sleep without you.” Santana said

“Wow am I making Santana Lopez soft.” I said

“No.” Santana said

“You sleep without me all the time.” I said

“it’s different I know where you are.” Santana said as I continued to paint

“What are you doing.” She asked

“I can’t tell you the suprise would be ruined.” I said

“Go back upstairs I will be up there in 30 minutes. I love you” I said

“Love you too.” Santana said

I finished painting the board it roughly looked like

(Pardon my bad art skills I just use them usually for construction)

I left it out to dry and head upstairs into my bedroom. I shut the door I took my clothes off threw a t- shirt on and went and cuddled into Santana. Setting my alarm clock to go off quietly at 6:00am. I went to sleep at 4:50 and got almost an hour and 20 minutes of sleep. Then I woke up to my alarm and headed downstairs. I made myself some coffee and drank it and then I ate a plantain. I headed outside and grabbed a table from the Garage and set up a nice area to eat and put everyone’s gift at there spot except for Santana, Finn, Mine, Mikes and Quinn’s. I waited until Mr.Lopez pulled into the backyard and dropped all the big stuff off. I knew that it must have waked a lot of people up. Luckily I had also Santanas dad get six dozen donuts and some juices. From actual good places not Lima.

Soon enough everyone started coming downstairs and heading outside.

“What is this?” Rachel asked

”it’s just a thank you for what you all did. We have donuts, Juice, Gifts that you will hopefully like.” I said

“What ever gift you think I would get for you is where you sit.” I said

“Hey do I not have a gift.” Mike said walking over too you

“The big platform over there.” I said

Soon Santana walked downstairs

“Hey Y/N do we have any gifts?” Finn asked and pointed between him and his ex-girlfriend

“Yep Finn I got you that mini fridge over there and I got you this I said holding up the boyfriend pillow.” I said

“What is it?” Quinn asked

”It’s a boyfriend pillow it helps during your pregnancy but it also really helps after if you just want something to hold in your arms.” I said

“Thank you it’s good to have someone who knows what I’m going through back.” Quinn said

“What is this?” Santana said walking over too you

“The suprise. I was working on Mikes dance floor last night and this is your gift.” I said moving out of the way of the dunk tank

“How did you know?” She asked

“I ran into your uncle.” I said

“Don’t worry they don’t know that it’s for you. I got you that mini fridge over there if they ask even though it’s actually mine now come on and let’s go eat donuts with everyone else.” I said

“Okay well I know that this isn’t a fancy dinner or anything but I have a toast. Thank you I don’t know how I would have made it through the past four days without you. Okay as I’m standing up I’m realizing how much this looks like a fast and furious scene except a lot more white pepole. Anyway you guys are my family and friends I never believed it when other clubs said that or seniors said that but you guys are my family. I can’t wait to be apart of it again even if I leave I need you guys by my side. This next week is gonna be the hardest week of my life so far and I’m glad that I can run to you guys if I need anything. I get that I am the upperclassman here but we’re all in highschool. Nothing changes the older you get time just goes by quicker I’m glad I get this year and hopefully next year being your friend.” I said

I sat down and put my hand on her hip

“Who am I?” She whispered in my ear

“What do you mean who are you?” I said

“You said this is fast and furious am I Mia or Letty.” She asked

Oh my god She was a Letty and I was a Brian. Lefty’s don’t need Brian’s they need Dom’s

“You’re a Letty. A hot ass Latina badass just like you.” I said

We all sat there having our family breakfast before the hell fire the next day.

“Hey Rachel how’s your crush on our teacher going?” I asked

“How did you know?” She said

“Because you ain’t the first before you guys started there was a really hot female teacher.” I said

“Why couldn’t I have been there.” Puck said

“She was a lesbian.” I said

“What happened?” Rachel asked

“Nothing she was an Olympic swimmer before she started teaching she taught for one year and then left to be a swimsuit model.” I said

“Oh so she was like hot enough to be a model.” Puck asked

“She was hot enough to be more than a swimsuit model if she wanted to be.” I said

“Damn” puck said

Santana started to pinch me I had clearly had gone too far. I wasn’t used to being in a stable relationship. I would have to get used to this. After breakfast everybody left.

“So what do you want to do before my parents get home tomorrow.” Santana asked

“I want to watch a movie with you if that’s okay.” I said

“You wanna watch a movie and make out.” Santana asked

“We’re not upstairs what if we get caught?” I said

“We can go watch on the Tv downstairs.” Santana said

“Awsome.” I said Grabbing a hold of her hand and pulling her downstairs

“What do you wanna watch?” Santana asked

“Transformers?” I said

“Wow did I just switch Puck out for a female Puck.” I said

“How are you not like Puck.” Santana asked

“four fold one I can’t get anyone pregnant, two According to you I am better at Sex than he is, three I will NEVER cheat on you and four I have you in my arms right now and he doesn’t.” I said leaning down to kiss her

“Cuddles?” She asked as she snuggled into me

“Yes Cuddles” I said

The next day

Was decent except for it being obvious that pretty much everyone was picturing me naked all day. It was towards the end of the day. I only had one period left so 50 minutes. I kept my head down luckily this was one of my electives. Which was weight lifting the room was divided into the boys and girls. I just needed a physical education credit and didn’t like working with others so I signed up for this. Which was only taught one period but anyone in sports had to take it. Which made me very uncomfortable as the dudes kept staring.

“Okay split up into groups of two so that you can have spotters.” Coach Sylvester said

“Hey Britt can you be my spotter.” Quinn asked

“Yeah sure let’s go find a Bench.” Brittnay said

“Looks like I’m your partner.” Santana said smiling

“They keep staring at me.” I said

I got up and walked over to the single bench in the corner away from the others

“How much?” Santana asked

“What are we doing today?” I asked

Santana came closer and whispered “We’re doing bench babe are you okay.” Santana asked

“150 lbs” I said

I said as I lied down on the bench

“Are you sure you’re okay?” She asked

”No the girls kept staring at me as I changed. I felt horrible. I expected it from the guys but not from other girls. One of them when I got naked shouted out the same thing that the dude said when he saw me naked.I think that I might just stay in these clothes til we get home.” I said

“No you’ll come into the sports side of the changing room.” Santana said

“You will get introuble.” I said

Sue was making her rounds “Hey coach?” Santana asked quietly

“Yes Santana?” Sue said

“Look with the video situation. Can Y/N change in the Cheerio locker room when it’s mine and Quinn and Brittnay’s time.” Santana asked

“Yes” Sue said

“Thank you Coach” I said

“Are you gonna stay here?” Santana asked

“You know I would but I’ve just wanted to cry all day today.” I said changing the weights for her

“Yeah well I will come watch everything you do with the private school.” Santana said

“I will come support you to. Nothing is gonna change much.” I said

“Are you kidding me I walk certain ways to my classes just so that I can see you.” Santana said

“Okay well we will see each other’s performances. Trust me you’re the only reason I watch high school football games and I will come watch sectionals. I will see you before school and after school and on the weekends.” I said

“I’m gonna miss you.” Santana said

“Can you do one thing for me?” I asked

“Of course what?” Santana asked

“Protect Hope treat her like how I would I need someone to protect her but also tease her.” I said

“Ofcourse I already pretty much do that. Let’s head to the Locker room we can’t be late to your first glee club meeting back and last glee meeting.” Santana said

We went to the Cheerio Locker room and changed. Then we both headed to Glee club.

“Y/N you said you have a songs that you wanted to sing.” Mr.Schue said

“Yes sir.” I said

You tell me it gets better, it gets better in time You say I'll pull myself together, pull it together You'll be fine Tell me what the hell do you know What do you know Tell me how the hell could you know How could you know

'Til it happens to you, you don't know How it feels How it feels 'Til it happens to you, you won't know It won't be real No it won't be real Won't know how it feels

You tell me hold your head up Hold your head up and be strong 'Cause when you fall, you gotta get up You gotta get up and move on

Tell me, how the hell could you talk How could you talk? 'Cause until you walk where I walk It's just all talk

'Til it happens to you, you don't know How it feels How it feels 'Til it happens to you, you won't know It won't be real (how could you know?) No it won't be real (how could you know?) Won't know how I feel

'Til your world burns and crashes 'Til you're at the end, the end of your rope 'Til you're standing in my shoes, I don't wanna hear nothing from you From you, from you, 'cause you don't know

'Til it happens to you, you don't know How I feel How I feel How I feel 'Til it happens to you, you won't know It won't be real (how could you know?) No it won't be real (how could you know?) Won't know how it feels

'Til it happens to you, happens to you Happens to you Happens to you, happens to you Happens to you (how could you know?)

'Til it happens to you, you won't know how I feel

“Can I sing my last song at the end?” I asked

“Ofcourse.” Mr.Schue said

“We have prepared a song for you Y/N” Finn said

Everyone in Glee club except you got down

Santana

Hope

Quinn

Finn

Puck

Rachel

Mercedes

Tina

Kurt

Brittnay

Artie

Everyone

And I never thought I'd feel this way And as far as I'm concerned I'm glad I got the chance to say  That I do believe I love you And if I should ever go away Well, then close your eyes and try To feel the way we do today  And then if you can remember

Keep smilin', keep shinin' Knowing you can always count on me for sure That's what friends are for

For good times and bad times I'll be on your side forever more That's what friends are

Well, you came and opened me And now there's so much more I see And so by the way I thank you

Oh and then for the times when we're apart Well, then close your eyes and know These words are coming from my heart And then if you can remember

Oh, keep smilin' and keep shinin' Knowing you can always count on me for sure That's what friends are for

In good times and bad times I'll be on your side forever more Oh, that's what friends are for

Keep smilin', keep shinin' Knowing you can always count on me for sure That's what friends are for For good times and bad times I'll be on your side forever more That's what friends are for

Keep smilin', keep shinin' Knowing you can always count on me for sure 'Cause I tell you that's what friends are for For good times and for bad times

I'll be on your side forever more That's what friends are for (that's what friends are for, ya)

On me for sure (count on me for sure, count on me for sure) That's what friends are for

Keep smilin', keep shinin'

“Thank you.” I said crying “ I’m gonna miss seeing you guys every day I wrote my phone number on the board and you all know where I live if you need anything.”

I walked over and grabbed the gutair and sat on a stool.

Daddy, I'm afraid, won't you stay a little while? Keep me safe 'cause there's monsters right outside Daddy, please don't go, I don't wanna be alone 'Cause the second that you're gone they're gonna know Before he went to bed he grabbed my hand and said

Just 'cause I'm leavin' It don't mean that I won't be right by your side When you need me And you can't see me in the middle of the night Just close your eyes and say a prayer It's okay, I know you're scared when I'm not here But I'll always be right there Even though I'm leavin', I ain't goin' nowhere

Dad, we'll be late, and Uncle Sam don't like to wait He's got a big old plane that's gonna take me far away I know I act tough, but there's a churnin' in my gut 'Cause I just can't call you up when things get rough Before I left, he hugged my neck and said

Just 'cause you're leavin' It don't mean that I won't be right by your side When you need me And you can't see me in the middle of the night Just close your eyes and say a prayer It's okay, I know you're scared, I might be here But I'll always be right there Even though you're leavin', I ain't goin' nowhere

Daddy, I'm afraid, won't you stay a little while? I never thought I'd see the day I had to say goodbye Daddy, please don't go, I can't do this on my own There's no way that I can walk this road alone Well, daddy grabbed my hand and said

Just 'cause I'm leavin' It don't mean that I won't be right by your side When you need me And you can't see me in the middle of the night Just close your eyes and say a prayer It's okay, boy, I ain't scared I won't be here, but I'll always be right there Even though I'm leavin', I ain't goin' nowhere I ain't goin' nowhere

“Okay well everyone go home.” Mr.Schue said

“You’re really not here. Anymore” Santana said putter her arm around me

“Your officialy our competition.” Kurt said

“Not until regionals they had to change groups so that we had more time to practice with me joining. I said

“Oh will make it to regionals and you’re going down.” Rachel said

“Bye guys” I said waving and dragging Santana towards the car

I pounce we got in the car I put my head in my hands

“Well this isn’t what I planned for this year at all. I planned on keeping my head down and not doing anything. I planned on staying here at McKinley staying in the closet and being single. But I will choose this everytime.” I said putting one hand on the steering wheel and holding Santanas hand with the other.

[nikadd]

Not you talking about biphobia and then saying "bi women who date men are hot and lesbians couldn't even have them if they were single"most ugly women that I have seen were straight/bi and the hottest ones were lesbians

damn, way to misread what i said. i usually wouldn’t grace such misreading w my attention, but i guess i should here bc i hate being misunderstood.

i’m assuming you’re referring to this:

“like i’m so tired of ppl online being “heartbroken” over a hot woman (bonus points if she “looks” gay) being w a man - as if you ever had a chance w her if she was single!”

now, let’s break this down:

ppl - people within the context of the entire paragraph and this sentence, yes im talking mostly abt queer women, that including both bi women and lesbians and other microlabels. not just lesbians. in fact, in my entire post i always mean all kinds of queer women.

heartbroken - having a reaction of sadness/disappointment. put quotation marks around it to express my own frustration with the framing of the reaction.

hot woman - i’m guessing this is kinda the epicenter of your issue. what i mean by hot here is who the queer women in question are attracted to. i’m not saying that they are not attractive as well, i just mean that the woman im talking abt is attractive to the ppl having the heartbroken reaction.

bonus points if she “looks” gay - whatever this means to the ppl who see her w regards to current and past trends of looking gay so to speak. short hair/undercut/buzzcut, eyebrow slit, nose piercing, handmade earrings, some kind of alternative styling. basically anything someone could make a tiktok abt wearing and saying “why would ppl assume im straight if i look like THIS?”

being w a man - self-explanatory.

as if you ever had a chance w her if she was single! - this is another part of the sentence where i’m afraid you’ve misunderstood what i meant. ok, so obv i used a hyperbole to emphasize, but what i specifically mean here is that this behavior (expressing heartbreak over somebody being with a man when you expected them to be with a woman/single) is weird and invasive and offputting and unattractive, bc it just sounds like they wish this woman was available to them, and since she’s not, it’s her fault. it sounds like a guy in a teen comedy going “this hot girl is with a stupid ugly jock when she could be with ME” kind of plot, but bc it’s a woman saying it, it’s somehow not seen as weird.

i guess i could have clarified, but the rest of my rant had to w my frustration to reactions/expressions/behaviors, so i didn’t think what im saying might be influenced by the implication of somebody being hot or not.

i guess i could also bring some examples:

natasha lyonne - an icon for queer women, was/is w a man for the longest time. you can find ppl’s surprise and heartbreak and frustration with this fact anywhere on the internet.

the cast of bottoms - when the film came out, a lot of ppl were talking abt both ayo edebiri’s and ruby cruz’s boyfriends with a very strong sense of betrayal. i think being frustrated that a lesbian character isn’t played by a lesbian is understandable, but the way ppl were reacting felt like they were actively being hurt by their celebrity crush not dating a woman.

using the word “partner” - the frustration with ppl using a gender neutral term for their significant other and then it not being somebody of the same gender. some ppl simply prefer the term over boyfriend/girlfriend, some are not strictly cisgender even if they present in ways that ppl might assume they are, some ppl actually do like the gender neutral part of it and use it as a way of allyship to not give too much information when it’s unnecessary. in general, the term is more often used to protect ppl from homophobia by divorcing it from the implication that partner necessarily means a partner of the same gender, but ppl are too used to assuming

strangers on tiktok - i see a lot of tiktoks where a queer woman will have an interaction with a woman they find very attractive in a gay way bc she looks kinda gay and then find out that she is with a man and then feel very disappointed. and then everybody in the comments is agreeing with that sentiment. now, that woman might be with a man bc she’s straight, but she might also be bi/potentially be attracted to women. and if she’s also queer there is a chance she looks kinda gay bc it’s a part of her expression. but the reaction feels like she’s being accused of misleading the other person into believing in her availability.

tldr: i think it’s rude and invasive to make inferences abt somebody’s relationships and then reacting like it’s personally offensive to you if they are dating somebody who’s not you/your gender AND then framing it like a positive/feminist/queer/political reaction. this behavior is why the person in question wouldn’t want to date you, not bc they are hot and you aren’t.

like if i was with a man, then that relationship ended, then i was interested in a woman, but then i found out that she had some kind of weird opinion on me having been with my ex boyfriend (saying that since i have the option to date women then why am i with a man, saying that im wasted being w a man, implying anything abt our dynamic/gender roles without actually knowing details abt our relationship, assuming that he’s automatically dismissive/not respectful of my identity and/or fetishizing it), i wouldn’t want her.

if there are any issues with my explanation, feel free to let me know, because i genuinely did not mean what you’re implying i meant, im just frustrated with the popular rhetoric that perpetuates negative stereotypes while the concerns abt them are being dismissed.

[texancommie07]

Vows are spoken

To be broken

Feelings are intense

Words are trivial

Pleasures remain

So does the pain

Words are meaningless

And forgettable

Heavy Metal Valentines Day Three: Roses

March 29th, 1985

Billy would say it's too early for this, but considering the way the sun was shining directly into his bedroom window, that would be a lie.

Give him a break, he was hungover and frankly, extra cranky given the date. He heard the knocking again, groaned, and pulled himself out of his warm, comfy enough bed.

He should have seen it coming, all things considered. Eddie had called him yesterday, bestowing him early birthday wishes, and, more importantly, asking him if he would be home alone on said day. Billy honestly assumed it was a joke, Eddie's little mention of a "special birthday surprise" for him if he was, can ya blame him, that's just Eddie's bit.

But all of that foreshadowing clearly went right over Billy's head, as he found himself opening the door to a very excited Eddie, and a very large, and frankly itchy, object being shoved into his arms.

He had barely even processed Eddie's presence, ending up staring at their face for a few seconds after the shove. They looked far too pleased with themselves. Billy looked down to see...a bouquet?

He saw the roses first, they were kind of hard to miss, their deep red petals contrasting against the light green of the... carnations? Green carnations? He looked over just enought to see the bunches of lavender poking out from underneath the other flowers, most of them unknown to him.

Oh.

Eddie got him a bouquet for gay love. Billy could feel his face heating up. Out of embarrassment, anger, or adoration, he couldn't tell. Eddie got him a bunch of flowers to say "I'm gay and I love you."

God Billy had been quiet for too long, he needed to say something. He couldn't just stand there and scowl at the bunch of flowers his boyfriend got him as a birthday gift, he'd look like a total

"Jackass."

"Huh?"

Or, ya know, instead of saving face, he could just insult Eddie right to their face, sure, much better plan. God damnit all.

Billy looked back up at the sound of fabric rustling, just standing their watching Eddie flail and backtrack on their gift, saying they could take it back and get him something actually wanted, staring, like a moron. God somdays he really thinks Neil is right. God, just fucking do something!

"Shut up, would you?"

Not that.

Billy watched Eddie's eyes grow misty in a way that made him both horrified and violently jealous. God he sucks at this.

"Okay, no, Eddie look. I'm not mad, I promise, you just...caught me off guard."

"I called you, I told you I was coming over with my surprise.."

"No, No, Not like That. When you said surprise, I thought you meant like, I don't know, some silly little trinket or somthing, not a floral love letter. This is way to thoughtful, and now my gifts will look properly shit by comparison."

"So, you..like it?"

This was another one of those things Billy was getting used too. Eddie never specified with any medical terminology, but they had mentioned to Billy that they were... different. In ways that other people didn't like, in ways that got them held back their senior year. Whatever Eddie had or was, it made it a lot harder for them to navigate social situations, due to a "lack of understanding cues" they said. Having that with a boyfriend who spoke in nothing but sarcasm made conversations...interesting, to say the least.

"Yes Eddie, I like it, but you know Neil will flip his shit if he sees this, right?"

"Oh, yeah, I had kinda hoped you had a place to put them that would be, like, private, I can take them back if you don't!"

"No. I'm keeping these."

And keep them he did. Kept in an old Cali shoe box at the back of his closet. Over the next three months he would bring them out every now and then, looking at them made him feel nice. He was planning on pressing them soon so he could keep them for longer. He never got to.

Sketch

[dogcodedcatboy]

pre relationship: 3, general: 3, 6, love: 10, 13, domestic life: 7 !!

hihihihihihi !!!! i cant wait to start s2 tonight i need to see my kittycat i need to see him !!!!! thank u for always sending asks my aaroman warrior o7 u should rb this ask game 2 so i can pelt u w waystarshipping and jermstone questions

Did any of their friends or family want them to get together?

absolutely fucking not!!!!!!

by the time any of the roys find out its too late, theyre already very much together. i think the fam knows abt aaron before 04x03 and like, willingly keeps him a secret (have 2 believe none of them would out a family member for personal gain. if not just to avoid the shitstorm for logan). some of them wuld obviously would prefer for roman to a) not be gay or b) at least not be dating a Fucking Weirdo. oh well!

aarons friends are also not. thrilled. for obvious reasons. reactions range from 'ok...u r gold digging, right? does this mean we can afford a hot tub :D' to 'morally/ethically what the Actual fuck is wrong with you bro???'

What was their first kiss like?

hmm the first time they kiss probably an impulsive. half-drunken thing. prolly after their first '''date''' (which roman insists is not a date despite calling him up and inviting him for dinner and drinks). it's rlly messy, roman is kind of an awful kisser at first (out of practice #nobitches) so aaron is kinda like...ok....but it's very endearing somehow.

What’s their relationship with each other’s families?

i could write a dissertation on. aaron and the roys. i think he's...polite? i mean, he knows roman is super close to them despite how fockin shitty they are to him all the time, so he's willing to grin and bear it. he doesnt like ken for Reasons (annoying on twitter, involvement in 'dog pound', annoying in real life)*, he's rightfully intimidated by shiv, he thinks connor is rlly fuckin funny, he has a weird psychosexual obsession w tom (as stated, would put tom in a saw trap), he thinks greg is cool and would like to talk about his record collection w him.

*authors footnote: i personally like kendall a lot i do love the fucked up brother dynamic between ken and rome BUT aaron is protective and an asshole and doesnt care abt nuance if youre mean to his boyfriend you go to the gulag for 1000 years ! aarons friends are hsi family! he lives w his childhood + college besties! they are all spectacular assholes as well so roman weirdly fits in! roman likes aarons bff because he is also a snarky asshole. one of aaron's college friends actually is from LA, so that's another person he can relate to somewhat. ovi he's a rich asshole tho and like, has to adapt to how normal people live and socialize (aaron and his friends arent even normal theyre like a weirdly codependent found family) but. they all kind come around to him! (will post extended oc universe lore someday on god)

Do they prefer verbal or physical affection?

i think they both are kinda stupid abt feelings and prefer physical affection, as sometimes its easier to manage than like, pouring your heart out. aaron is big on words of affirmation tho, once they r more comfy in their relationship/roman is more comfortable w receiving stuff like that.

Who remembers the little things?

aaron is def a romantic, he's big on anniversaries, quick to pick up little things like roman's coffee order, his favorite snacks, etc. roman is a little rusty but is surprisingly sensitive when he cares about someone. he's super in to aaron, so he makes sure to note all of aarons favorite movies and albums (so he can bring them up later and Totally sound like he knows what he's talking about).

[also they r a beautiful ocd (aaron) x adhd (roman) couple so in general aaron is Incredibly on top of things (or else he might die, who knows!) while roman is a fockin mess with remembering shit.]

Who kills the bugs in the house?

the real answer is gustav. he eats them. aaron will hold the cat up and he will take care of business.

[ethicstownpod]

If it's alright, I'd really like to hear more about January's 'Some Kinda Gender'. I understand it might be a spoiler/private so no pressure I'm just really interested

I think everything January is and/or isn't going to do in coming seasons is fun to find out as it happens. We've heard him do a lot of thinking about things he's done, but really only 1.5ish episodes thinking about what he's actually like as a person. And, more importantly, what he'd like to be like as a person. That is, if he can even get over the fact that he isn't one.

But I'm more than happy to talk generally about gender performance in s1 and generally. Buckle up, it's probably going to be a bit of a long one! I'm really into this, lol.

So before I really got to know any of the St Kilda cast I got to see most of them act at table reads. Spectacular experience, they're all incredible actors and fascinating people. But Rhys and I were never at a table read together, so the first time I properly met him he was just a regular human guy. As the script Naomi was working on currently stood he was going to play someone's boyfriend and I was like 'yeah, sure. This is a human man who could be a boyfriend.'

Then at like 2am the director came in and was like 'English accent! You're the villain now!' We'd been hanging out for a couple hours at that point. Rhys is vibrant, but a very gently spoken person. And I wasn't at all thinking 'Oh no, he can't do that' because like,,, that's his job. But I was very interested to see what he would do.

The first time I see him on set he has the whole villain get-up on and it is camp. Not in a camp-but-as-a-compliment way, thought it was cool af, but literally 2000s cartoon queer villain camp. Slicked hair and make-up that matched his suit. And I was like okay, damn, blinked and this dude got a whole new gender, good for him.

And then, to no one's surprise and to my absolute delight, he acted the fuck out of that campy outfit. Snippy and cocky and commanding. And obviously I knew, y'know, from being alive, that anyone performing 'camp villain' is doing a specific gender performance, but it was so cool to see someone I had got to know out of costume do that.

So I was thinking about this - and the other times I'd seen Rhys act in the interim - when I was doing final script edits/deciding what January/Ian would sound like. January was always going to have his voice actor's natural accent (as long as they weren't American, lol) and that was intentional.

The only actual vocal note I gave Rhys when coming up with an Ian voice was to go deeper, but I also told him that ep 8 was kind of Ian's campy villain monologue. He's just talking to hear the sound of his own voice at that point, he could have just killed Artemis and saved himself a lot of trouble.

Ian, as he tells you, has been pretending to be this January persona the whole time. And for most of episode 8 you have no reason not to believe him. His name is Ian. He can prove he was putting on a voice. He has a wife, not a spouse (yeah, I know a wife is a spouse, but he'd never say wife, would he... hmm...), a teenage daughter, not two young children. And everything January said was a lie.

BUT THEN! He gets upset, and his voice just... slips. That doesn't tend to happen when you're speaking in your natural accent.

Ian is just a persona too. He's this hyper-masculine husband, father, son, politician, bread-winner type turned old-timey camp-horror-villain and that's all a performance.

More importantly than being Ian, January isn't real. He isn't an anxious, fumbling, queer-in-a-librarian-kind-of-way radio host. But he also isn't this super-masc intimidating politician type; hence, when we actually meet Ian he's just,, kinda gay.

Everything is a performance for January and it must be exhausting. Someone just decided he was a human man one day, and sure he wants to be a human man, but he has no idea how to do that. He needs a break to figure out who he is. Unfortunately he instead did some murdering about it, so he probably won't get one.

[many-gay-magpies]

HELLO CAN I HEAR MORE OF THE WOLF GIRL MURDER CRYPTID???

She sounds so. So. I beg yuo………..

YES YES OH MY GOD ABSOLUTELY

dude you do not even know I have been trembling like an anxious chihuahua just waiting to be able to go full feral about her to someone. this rocks

OKAY SO. the entire story kind of started because i was listening to a song and i was like you know what this would be great for? being the backing track to a cold open where some girl is running through the woods mid-panic attack after having just killed someone. then it kind of grew a plot from there.

(me, foolishly: oh this will probably not take too long or take up too much space. clearly i forgot just how Able i am to ramble when prompted. put the rest under a cut bc it got LONG)

the cryptid wolf girl herself is named rosalind, or roz for short, or possibly rory for short once she figures out some gender stuff later on... the Central Relationship in the story is between her and her little sister anna. they did... NOT have a great life growing up—dad was an abusive alcoholic, mom was a DEPRESSIVE alcoholic and even when they split up, mom kinda left roz to raise/take care of anna completely on her own... things are better now; mom has cleaned herself up and is trying to be better—but like. that messed roz up lmao. go figure.

so for their whole lives growing up, roz and anna were kind of glued together... ROZ was more of a parent to anna than their own mom, and anna went to her for everything. but in the time of the story, anna's started to Grow Up and Grow OUT of needing her big sister for everything, AND ON TOP OF THAT she's just got herself a boyfriend who fucking sucks and reminds roz WAY too much of their dad... (in my mind I feel like when their parents split and dad left, roz was old enough to actually understand how abusive and shitty he was, but to anna it just seemed like he'd abandoned him, so she's probably a bit stupid about relationships because she's searching for the love she never got from her father/searching for a bandaid to the feeling of abandonment she has from him, but she isn't exactly the healthiest about that and latches onto the first guy that shows her attention, thinking it's Love.)

anyways, this whole deal—anna getting distant, anna being stupid about her bf—makes roz feel Some Type Of Way. she's kind of latched onto her position as anna's pseudo-parent as the crux of her self-worth, so now that anna seems to not NEED her anymore she does not take it well. she wants to protect anna from her toxic bf and from HERSELF, but she can't do a thing and just feels useless because everything she TRIES just ends up pushing anna further away from her. then on her birthday, when she's at her friend's house to celebrate (the best friend she's gay af for, zoe), she makes a wish to be able to protect anna like she used to—aaand the literal moon overhears and basically goes "you have a noble desire, i'll give you my blessing" and turns her into a werewolf (sort of - it's not a whole "turn every full moon" deal, just whenever there's a specific trigger)

anyway like a week after roz's bday when she makes the wish, it's homecoming, and her mom (who is also stupid and just thinks roz hates mark (anna's bf) because she's jealous) has asked her to drive anna to this party mark invited her to... which is in the middle of the woods. with a whole bunch of older high school guys. sure, mom, that's bound to be perfectly safe and legal.

roz has been feeling a little off all week and having weird dreams (unbeknownst to her thanks to her new lunar benefactor). after homecoming, she drives anna to her party... but there is NO FUCKIN WAY she trusts those dudes with her, so she sneaks up to spy on them from the bushes to make sure they're not getting up to any unsavory shit and hurting her little sister. (spoiler alert: they absolutely get up to tons of unsavory shit.) so roz is watching these guys, and it's literally all guys, like anna is the ONLY girl, and they're all older—and they're drinking alcohol, getting progressively more wasted, and anna is refusing but mark keeps pressuring her, and eventually he makes some vague allusions to ah... "loosening her up" with the alcohol so he can have his way with her, while touching her in not-so-great ways... and seeing that triggers roz's first transformation. she just full-on catapults in and tears him to SHREDS, literally. then someone stabs her with a beer bottle and she flees, turns back human, and starts freaking the fuck out because she just killed mark.

okay um. i did not intend to just tell you the entire story up to the point that ive written it. but OH WELL I DID! hope u enjoyed that lmao.

the whole premise of the story is that, despite how much it sucks at first, roz being a werewolf actually kind of brings her, her mom, and her sister closer together... the thing is, the moon, when it heard her wish, it didn't just give her what she asked for—it gave her what she NEEDED. and in general i have lots a feelings about werewolves as the representations of our deepest, most repressed emotions and desires, like if you've seen the whole thing about like "the werewolf is the part of you that LOVES YOU. it is the part of you that is mad at how wrongly you've been treated and wants to PROTECT you." yeah. and i have lots of feelings about the MOON and moon deities as gods of honesty, vulnerability, and seeing the truth of our deepest emotions...

so the wolf is kind of all roz's anger issues just smushed into one big wolfy body. a big theme ive started exploring with the story is that being a werewolf isn't exactly CHANGING roz or making her feel things she's never felt before (like, you know. the murder urges), it's just bringing things she ALWAYS FELT to the forefront and making them unignorable. because above all what roz NEEDS is something to force her to face herself to be able to overcome all the self-hatred she has (because BOY SHIT THERE'S A LOT OF IT). which is also where her relationship with zoe (who ive thought, written, and posted about almost more than the relationship between roz and anna... whoops) comes in.

roz and zoe are best friends. they have been since they were five years old, and zoe has been with roz through like ALLLLL the shit of her seventeen long years. roz is incredibly gay and absolutely in love with zoe, but doesn't realize because she's a fucking dumbass and thinks that's a normal way to feel about her best friend (or, like, maybe she kind of knows something's Different and knows what it IS, but she can't ever let herself realize it fully because ✨internalized homophobia✨).

when the whole wolf thing starts out, roz doesn't tell zoe what's happening, because she's afraid zoe will be afraid of or disgusted by this part of her... which she likes to think is the wolf's doing, but she knows it's really ALWAYS been a part of her. roz keeps the secret from zoe for a WHILE because of this, and keeps pushing her away, but zoe (who Knows roz and loves her back just as intensely) will NOT fucking let her. so there's gonna be like this whole stage of incredibly painful pining, where the moon goddess makes roz realize that she's in love with zoe, but she still hasn't even TOLD zoe about the whole werewolf thing, so there ensue events like: roz in wolf form subconsciously seeking out zoe, breaking out of her house in the middle of the night, going to stand below zoe's window, and then waking up in the morning thinking it was a dream until she sees her window is open and her pajamas are shredded to all hell and goes "shit".

eventually, of course, zoe DOES find out (either by accidentally witnessing a transformation one day or because roz finally caves and tells her, i havent decided yet), and spoiler alert, she isn't disgusted or afraid—she's actually, like, wildly attracted to the feral bloodthirsty vengeful side of roz, because that's the embodiment of roz's deepest, more true self, and zoe has wanted nothing more than to know roz completely—and of course it still takes roz a while to realize zoe's wide-eyed, drop-jawed stares at her are not FEAR but I'M SO GAY IM GONNA OASS OUT HOLY SHIT, because she's fucking stupid.

another honorable mention character: himbo soccer team boy tentatively named matt (gonna change either his or mark's name cuz they're too similar) who witnesses roz partially-transform by accident one day and decides he's going to be absolutely ride-or-die for this tormented lesbian werewolf. he's there for her until she finally gets her shit together and tells zoe what's going on, and long after that. they become a cute little bestie trio and matt ABSOLUTELY realizes how gay roz and zoe are for each other before roz does and he's like JESUS CHRIST JUST KISS ALREADY

(also. most worthy of mention in the yet-to-be-written zoe-and-roz scenes i feel feral about: there's gonna be one after zoe finds out where roz has a really bad transformation, and passes out still wolfed-out in zoe's lap... and she's visibly having a nightmare (plus she's still a wolf which means she's still in crisis mode even though she's sleeping), so zoe starts reading aloud to her while she sleeps until she calms down enough to turn back human... and it starts out as just zoe doing what she's ALWAYS done to comfort and soothe roz, but since roz is ASLEEP it devolves into zoe pouring out her true feelings without roz awake to hear them... then roz wakes up in the middle of zoe reciting shakespeare's sonnet 57 to her and it's like. INSANELY gay. and the whole time matt's off to the side like holy shit.)

ANYWAYS YEAH THAT WAS. A LOT HAHA. I hope u like my feral unhinged asshole werewolf girl :)

[weirdthoughtsandideas]

Mean Girls 2024 reviewed by this random girl with weird thoughts

(Although I think my thoughts for this aren’t that weird).

Spoilers!

THE GAY ENERGY. THE QUEER GIRLS ENERGY. How many girls are smitten with Regina?? Cady had heart eyes the first time she saw her, GRETCHEN is… oh my gosh. Plus all the random girls in school.

I feel like lots won’t bring this up cause sadly Rise of the pink ladies were not that well marketed (PLEASE WATCH IT AND WATCH IT NOW!!), but when I saw ARI NORTATOMASO in the classroom I was like CYNTHIA’S DESCENDANT ??!! >:0

CANON LESBIAN JANIS!!!!! Finally!! But I am not sure how I feel about just giving her this random girl as her date to the spring fling.

I kinda wish to get more scenes with Cady and Janis. Idk personally ever since I read this chatfic from 2018 where they got together over this conversation I’ve kinda had a thing for them

(I’m not joking when I say this fic has been a huge inspo for me to start writing fics of my own. Like. Thank you person who wrote it. You’ve orphaned your account now but this fic will always be in my memory)

I’m not saying I needed them to be gfs in the movie just that I wanted some more moments :>

So the movie lacks a lot of the iconic moments from the 2004 film, but it’s supposed to be an adaptation of the musical anyway. Also if they just said every iconic line again it would just feel like an exact copy of the movie and that wasn’t the point.

Cady’s songs lack a bit for me. In the musical, she sang so loudly and expressed so much, but she sings so… quietly… here. I guess it’s a sort of choice for her character, and maybe this worked better for the movie format - musicals become different on stage and in movies, you can’t always be as theatrical on film as you can on stage. But, I just didn’t feel her emotions at all in the same way.

REGINA AND JANIS’ SONGS, THO? YEA. THEY SLAYED. I do feel sad they cut Gretchen and Karen’s parts out of Meet the plastics. Also that they cut Damian’s songs… Stop is literally such an important song because it gives advice not only to Cady but also to everyone watching?? I remember hearing it in 2018 and I personally felt like it could help me to not send too many texts to people, because when people didn’t answer I got nervous and sent even more. But then… some songs maybe don’t work as well in movie format, I don’t know.

Also because Janis is canonically gay now, I’d rather be me is officially a queer anthem!!!!! 😁😁

Not sure how I feel about changing ”Janis is a space dyke” to ”Janis is a pyro-les”. It doesn’t sound as good in the song lol. But, in the musical, Janis’ sexuality was more ”up to interpretation” and so got called that because when asked if she was a lesbian, she replied ”I AM A SPACE ALIEN AND I HAVE FOUR BUTTS”. An incredibly funny line and really had the early 2010s random humor going for it. But, when wanting to make her explicitly gay, they needed something better, and I understand that.

Now, many people see Regina as a closeted lesbian herself. I get it, since she has no chemistry with any boy and it seems like she just dates them for publicity. No boys except for Damian have personalities (did Shane even have a line?? He was just. There.) But, I am a bit insecure. Because at times it seems like she was one of those homophobic girls in middle school. I’m just gonna go from this movie alone, as I feel like in the Broadway show and in the 2004 movie that’s other kinds of discussion (the 2004 movie especially feels more like she actually was homophobic tbh). In the 2024 movie, Janis came out to Regina, and Regina put a rainbow pin on her stuffed animal as an ”ally”. Also Regina and Janis kissed. Regina did it to see how her boyfriend reacted, and it was at the expense of Janis. Regina then had her stuffed animal with a pride pin talk in a mocking voice and it was clear this was to make fun of Janis. Janis then got so mad over this that she set Regina’s backpack on fire (ok Ámbar Smith whatever works for you). From this story, I am a bit unsure if this came from a place of Regina maybe wanting to tease her boyfriend and then it got out of hand, or maybe she was curious about kissing Janis but she was like 12 and repressed those feelings. Because she supposedly wore a Pride pin as an ”ally”, that’s much more than what a homophobic would do - but, her bullying of Janis definitely contributed to homophobia. Regina is a mean girl, so we should not excuse her actions even though she is slaying. Closeted lesbian or not, she did some homopbic and harmful things.

Regina in this movie sometimes felt like she was just doing a bunch of things without care. In some ways, I think Regina is just living on some sort of cloud and there was all this anger inside of her and she didn’t know what, and it’s possible she just does not know how to handle all the popularity because she’s like 16. So she hides behind a lot of layers and just does stuff for the thrill of it, maybe trying to get some sort of enjoyment in life, but nothing is enough. And eventually she snaps and watches the world burn. Maybe this is why all the songs she has in the movie, including the ones that originally had more singers, only had her singing now. Showing that, even when she is around people, she is alone… (yes, the other girls sing in world burn but they don’t sing to her in the same way) and she has not found her real place in the world and she acts like she knows it all but she doesn’t really. And everyone keeps telling her how great her life is. If her life is so great, why does she feel so unsatisfied?

They didn’t ruin Revenge Party which I appreciate. I also loved that they added the deleted lines from the musical. I wish that Cady has more power in her voice when she shouted ”ONE CANDY CANE PLEASE” but oh well.

The way they all reported on the incidents at North Shore high like it was national news… like, my schools has meme accounts and stuff, but never that we reported on the stuff like it was celebrity gossip lmao. Then again I don’t even live in America so idk what’s going on over there.

I do like how Janis and Damian are the narrators. It’s possible a lot of things that happened was their overexaggerated retellings of what actually happened. Maybe this is just them telling freshmen about tales everyone tells them as they start high school.

School buses keep being the top 10 scariest jumpscares. Laughed out loud tho that instead of focusing on Cady and Regina’s argument, they just argued in the backround and then Janis finished up her song as Regina just gets hit by the bus in the background

I’ll probably have more to say in the future.

[khaleesiofalicante]

Me: Ok, I have some free time today. I need to be productive. Maybe get those notes I've been procrastinating for weeks...

My brain:

Me:

My brain: or....we could do a moodboard.

Me: no, stfu

My brain: :))))

Anyway, guess who won??🙂

I'm actually really glad I did this lmao. It had been some time since last one and I have so much fun making them🥺 hope you like it!!

💙.

Noah. I- *cries softly*

You know I was like 'oh no after lbaf v I'll probably never write about David again' and when I see reminders like this I realize how much I love writing about him.

LIKE "David is not meant for undercover. He is not a trained field agent. He's too gay for that" IT'S GOLDEN AND ONLY DAVID WOULD SAY SHIT LIKE THIS AND I WILL NEVER STOP WRITING ABOUT THIS BABY BOY AND THAT IS THAT.

This was so so so beautiful and as always - you've put so much thought into this. AND I LOVE THE BORDER. WOW. YOU ARE SO CREATIVE.

The second emoji on the left side inspired by this little scene so I hope you like it. This is for you:

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Max grabs his badge and puts it in his pocket. 

It’s very shiny. Probably because he cleans it everyday. He’s kinda super fond on it. 

A long time ago, after the whole self-blackmail incident, dad had made a joke about how Max would make a good criminal if he had fewer morals. 

Then bapak had joked about how most criminals would make good cops. 

And then Max had an idea. 

Sure, he never wanted to join Interpol. But then again, he never wanted to move to France either.

But he did in fact do both of those things.

Because sometimes life has a way of giving you the things you didn't know you needed or wanted.

And because he is ridiculously in love. 

It’s not bad. The job. Being a field agent is the fucking best. Not to mention the fact that he gets to flirt with one of his coworkers and not get fired for it. Since said coworker happens to be his boyfriend. 

Max grabs his watch and looks around their bedroom. 

Badge. Watch.

He’s missing something important.

He hears a soft muffled ding from under the blanket and chuckles as he reaches for his phone. There we go.

It’s a text from David. 

“Babe?” Max calls over his shoulder. “Have we really reached that stage where we text each other inside the house?”

David doesn’t respond. 

Maybe he ran out to get breakfast. 

Max opens his texts and stares at the message. 

It’s a simple text. 

Max blinks at it a couple of times. Then a couple of times more. 

David: 💍❓

Max almost drops his phone as he whirls around. David is leaning against the doorframe with a stupid smile on his face. 

Max wants to marry him yesterday. 

“You did not,” Max says in disbelief. 

“I believe I did,” David nods solemnly. 

“David Beauchamp,” Max giggles. “You did not.”

“You are going to reply or just put me on read?” David asks him. 

Max does neither and decides to jump into his boyfriend’s arms. “Not gonna lie. I expected something cheesy and romantic from you.”

“So, you’ve been expecting me to propose then?” David grins. 

“A man can dream, David!” Max huffs. 

David chuckles. Max’s heart softens at the sound. 

“Marry me,” David whispers the words out loud and Max wants to perish. “Marry me and I’ll give you a lifetime of romance.”

“A lifetime?” Max manages to say because he is dizzy with happiness. “So, like this is a forever kind of deal, is it?”

“I’m afraid of so,” David nods. 

“Well,” Max sighs dramatically. “Then I guess I’ll have to say yes.”

“Yes?” David smiles. 

Max smiles with his face. Maybe his heart. “Yes.”

David’s hands find his face and David’s lips finds his own. He kisses Max as he does everything else. With love. 

“God, I want to marry you yesterday,” David groans against his lips. 

Max feels that. So, he pulls back and stares his boyfriend. His fucking fiancé. “How about you marry me today?”

David blinks. “Today?”

“You’re already off today. I bet if I can sprain my leg, I could get the day off today.”

“Max. You can’t sprain your leg every time you want to stay home whenever I’m off work. Our colleagues will start to get suspicious.”

“You’re right,” Max nods. “Let’s sprain my arm this time.”

“Mon ange,” David chuckles and kisses him again. “There is no rush.”

“But I wanna!” Max groans. 

David chuckles. “You wanna?”

Max nods. “I wanna be your husband.”

That last word seems to do the trick. David sighs softly and pulls him closer. “I suppose we could tell them you have fever.”

“I do,” Max nods. “I feel so hot right now.”

David chuckles against his skin. “Are you sure about this?”

“Hell yeah. There is nothing that can change my mind,” Max huffs and then suddenly blinks. “Shit. Wait. My parents. They’ll probably kill us.”

David considers that. He hums. “If we are getting married today, hypothetically, will you wear a suit?”

“I’ll wear whatever the fuck you want me to wear,” Max winks. 

“Then I suppose we’ll have to get married today,” David tells him. 

“What about my parents?” Max asks.

“Meh,” David shrugs. “They hate me already.”

“That is true.”

“I was joking!”

“I was not.”

“Max!”

“You know what?” Max asks. “They’ll probably hate you a little less if you’re related to us. We’re a very forgiving family.”

“Are you?”

“Hm-hm.”

“Alright then,” David reaches into his pocket and takes out a ring with a blue diamond on it. “I guess we’re doing this.”

[kiawren]

Hmm thought about some f/o dynamics with s/i, sanji and usopp (yeah I like sanji a bit, but he's still pathetic) a bit cringe probbaly lol I also haven't developed my one piece selfships much at all cuz still watching

sanji and s/i has some weird tense situationship lol lol

(my s/i is a trans man)

S/i: could you stop treating me so nicely, I'm not a woman you know.

And sanji does think of s/i as a man but actually acted nice around them cuz he likes them.. But s/i thinks it's cuz he still sees s/i not sincerely as a man

They kinda hate each other normally but at night sometimes they have moments of tenderness. They kissed once when drunk and promised never again for the longest fucking time, they probably didn't speak at all to each other for like 2 weeks after that.

Sanji sees how s/i genuinely likes usopp and wishes s/i could like sanji like that, be open with him and everything instead of beating around the bush, but then he puts up a meaner act too. One day though s/i tells sanji that he loves usopp but usopp has his eyes on a girl.

Would also be so funny if sanji didnt know s/i was a trans man till like a month later

Sanji is jealous that s/i is so open and comfortable around usopp, who won't even love them wholeheartedly becuz his heart belongs to a girl (that's what sanji and s/i thinks but usopp does reciprocate it), but sanji who does like s/i denies it cuz doesnt know he likes some men + angry that s/i doesn't open up to him so he gives off that same attitude

I feel like I'm 'using' usopp no i genuinely like him and 100x more than that stupid blond white boy sanji 🖕🖕 yeah usopp and s/i have kissed multiple times now their r/s is actually so wholesome

Wren confessing to usopp: –and I know you won't reciprocate but I just had to tell you

Usopp: Huh? What's this about?

Wren: I'm saying I'm in love with you?

Usopp: Huh??? Aren't we dating????

Wren: Huh???? I thought you wouldn't love another

Usopp: i never said that... plus I love you too wren

Wren: really.??so, how long did you think we're been dating???

Usopp: i don't know, six weeks?

Wren: SIX WEEKS

LOL THE

Sanwren WAIT THAT'S ACTYALLY quite a nice ship name

Sanwrenuso "ok if you're not gay why you always holding my hand and kissing me and telling people im your boyfriend" "omg it's satire bro" "that's not what satire is" (that tiktok sound)