#'HES DEMISEXUAL CAUSE HIS LAST RELATIONSHIP BROKE HIM'

[mininuked]

Me? Projecting onto a character? Noo, never.

[kraiyan]

i made my own little headcannons to fit in if michael and jeremy were dating and a bunch of other stuff that i don’t want to spoil so take my headcannons and please don’t pay attention to my overuse of the words ‘so’ and ‘like’

i wrote this headcannons for me in my notes so there are mentions of panic/anxiety attacks, light mentions of an eating disorder, nightmares, and self harm but i’ll just put a trigger warning for when those parts show up and if i missed anything that is triggering please let me know

- michael is trans and gay and jeremy is bisexual

- i think they would’ve been friends since kindergarten so they grew up telling each other EVERYTHING

- i feel like michael was really girly as a kid but in like 6th grade he just completely switched to like tomboy but he didn’t do on purpose it just happened

- then in seventh grade michael told jeremy he wanted to be a boy then after that with help from jeremy he came out to his moms

- michael had a crush in jeremy since 7th grade but i don’t think jeremy was his first crush

- i think since michael was straight when he was a girl he just assumed he was straight as a boy and his sexual awakening was captain sparklez

- michael has two moms and jeremys mom would’ve died in a car accident so it’s just him and his dad

- i imagine they confessed to each other in their second year of high school

- (TW: mentions of abuse) jeremy realized he liked michael in freshman year and it was really bad he could not stop thinking about him so when he got squip squip l would not stop punishing him for it

- so jeremy definitely has some problems with his bisexuality

- after years of pining for each other when they finally kissed jeremy could not stop panicking about it

- like they went to sleep fine but he was internally panicking and he tried to keep it together but the next day he absolutely broke just started sobbing saying over and over again “is this okay, are we okay”

- michael is the type to listen to a vulgar music to help his dysphoria

- so him and jeremy are in his car michael plugs in his phone and just starts singings “hoes want to be seen with me and i like their big thick titties”

- and jeremy can do nothing else but be like michael what the fuck

- they decided to keep their relationship a secret and not tell anyone bc of jeremy still coming to terms with himself and he didn’t think his dad would understand

- but i feel like michael moms had already pieced together that they were dating and jeremy didn’t mind that they knew bc they’re literally lesbians but every time jeremy came over from that point forward they had to keep their door open

-(TW: mention of an eating disorder) in a different angstier au jeremy would struggle with eating as a control thing after squip

- (TW: mention of an eating disorder) in an angstier au michael would have an eating disorder cause dysphoria

- i feel like once he realized he was trans he had really bad dysphoria but like with therapy and stuff he got over it

- so i think michael really liked afycso and had it on a vinyl and now jeremy knows all the words

- they don’t do anything at school because jeremy is still uncomfortable so they just pursuit their relationship between closed doors and michaels car in an empty parking lot

- i feel like they both got really excited when michael got referred to as sir for the first time

- jeremy and michael grew up together but ironically when puberty hit michael started to wear baggy clothes than he wore a binder than he wore super baggy clothes to hide his tits after coming out but during squip he had time to self reflect and work on his dysphoria so when jeremy saw michael outside of school he kinda said TITS and was so caught off guard by them

-(TW: mentions of self harm scars) i think michael has sh scars due to losing his childhood best friend and the whole panic attack in the bathroom thing and jeremys seen them but didn’t bring it up to michael because they’re fading so he obviously doesn’t do it anymore but it was a huge shock for jeremy to find out

- they never brought it up tho and it was never discussed bc who cares it was in the past

- michael pants his nails black and i think on some very rare occasion jeremy would paint his nails too (like the way karl paint his) and michael has lots of nail polish cuz on the rare occasion he paints his nails different colors and he repainted his nails every two weeks

- no matter how many times michael has changed in the same room as jeremy even let jeremy help take off his binder jeremy will never not get shy when he changes and will always ask to go into another room

- jeremy is a coffee person but not hot coffe because he always drinks it too early and burns his tongue

- he originally bought his hoodie™️ in really huge size to battle dysphoria but that just made the hoodie last for years

- jeremys name in michaels phone is something very gay and lovey and shit and michaels name on jeremys phone is just michael :)

- jeremy would come home all suspicious and and red faced after him and michael came from an empty parking lot that his dad would not stop begging him to meet this girlfriend of his

- i don’t think jeremy told his dad him and michael were playing a game or something and they kiss jeremys dad comes in and is like what 😦

-and his dad is shocked that he has been pushing girlfriend but he has a boyfriend and is just soooooo awkward about it and never sees michael the same but never makes any rules about them bc he doesn’t want to be homophobic 😭

- i don’t think he was really not supportive but it took him a bit to get used to it but it was so new to him and he was just so phased he just kinda talked to jeremy about his sexuality then left it at that

- they are like gendebend bubbline (marshal lee and the other one yk)

- michael has a queen vinyl the listen to a lot

- so i think michael would still smoke a bit and one time he convinced jeremy to do it with him and jeremy mainly coughed a lot then they just made out the rest of the time but they didn’t tell their parents they would be staying out after school and they both got in trouble

- michael gets blue raspberry and jeremy gets cherry but he also gets coke sometimes too (slushy flavors)

- at the beginning of their relationship they had to take it really slow so that jeremy would feel coqmfortable

- (TW: mentions of panic attacks) so jeremy has nightmares of squip and he wakes up having panic attacks and it’s really tiring bc he only gets 2 hours of sleep if he has these nightmares

- (TW: mentions of panic attacks) i feel like along with his nightmares he also had panic attacks that squip would punish him for pursuing a relationship with a guy let alone michael

- so after he got over his nightmares he just struggled with sleeping and nighttime in general like just fear around going to sleep

- so he often stayed up alll night to avoid sleeping and would like go to bed at 6 or on a good day 4 or 5

- so i think to get over his fear he had to make a routine first he would make some sort of hot drink or just water (mostly sleepy time tea) then he would text michael that he was going to sleep he also wears the same pajamas every time he goes to sleep just to make sure the routine really works then lastly he reads a comic book then he goes to bed

- i think the reason jeremy couldn’t sleep well after getting over the nightmares is because even if squip doesn’t haunt him enough to show up in his dreams anymore it still haunts him enough to stress him out constantly so he doesn’t sleep well

- to conclude the nightmare and sleeping saga jeremy basically has a night routine and sleeps with a night light

- i feel like they both go to therapy but we’re to scared to tell each other (and they both started going to therapy before they started dating)

- so fast forward they’re dating and are trying to plan a date and jeremys like i’m busy on monday at 1 and my dad needs me to help him with something on tuesday so how about wednesday at 3 and michaels like i have somewhere to be like at 3:30 and jeremys like where do you have to be and michaels like where do YOU have to be and so they count to three and say where they’re going to be and they both say therapy and then they’re like you go to therapy i think that would be so cute

- so michael has really thick glasses like his vision is awful so if jeremy is mad at michael he would wake up early and move his glasses over so michael would have to struggle to get out of bed and look for them with his poor ass vision

- he can see things right in front of his face but as soon as it moves a bit too far it’s blurry

- and speaking of his galsses if they’re really kissing along the way jeremy would take of his glasses so they could get closer to each other’s faces (like how elle and tao do in heartstopper )

- michael and jeremy have been friends way too long to not have practiced kissing with each other

- i think christine was a long time crush for jeremy so he definitely practiced kissing michael a lot since they were in 6th grade and michael was just soaking that shit up

- he’d be like what if she wants to make out we should practice that and jeremys like oh yeah you’re right and michael would be so freaking happy

- but they definitely got caught by jeremys dad and he laughed it off cause what else are you meant to when your 11 year old son and his 12 year old best friend are kissing each other

- they didn’t do it anymore after that cause they were soooooooooo embarrassed

- so i don’t talk about the rest of the characters but i’m about to make a headcannon including them so i’m gonna say my headcannons

- so chole is demisexual and panromantic

- brooke is a lesbian

- rich is bisexual and trans

- jake is pan

- jenna is questioning or straight

- and christine is aro/ace

- so i think jeremy and christine dated for a bit then christine broke up with him cause she was all like i can see the way you look at michael and also because she realized she was feeling intense platonic attraction not romantic

- and also i think they’re all friends so they have a group chat where they send homework answers and stuff

- so i think one time jeremy is doing his nighttime routine but this particular night he’s really tired so he texts michael goodnight bby <3 love u then skips the comic book reading and goes to bed but he sent it to their group chat so as soon as he got situated into bed all he hears is his phone going off so he has to check and it’s just everyone freaking out

- so he like fully sits up is looking at his phone in complete shock then realizes he never said a name so they are like who’s this mystery girl

- so he calls michael tells him about the situation then decides he’s ready to come out

- so the next day they’re more handsy then usual like jeremy wiped something off his face michael saw that he was cold and pulled him real close and their friends are like okayyyyy

- but mind you christine knew that jeremy liked michael so she knew exactly what was happening

- so at the end of the day their friend group is making plans to hang out but everyone was busy so jeremy goes well i’ll see you guys tomorrow waves at everyone kisses michael then starts walking to his house then michaels like yea i’m gonna head home to and like drives away and from that day forward their friends would not stop teasing them and were impressed they could keep there secret for so long

- so i feel like michaels moms both have jobs that run late so mom #1 is an er nurse and mom #2 is an account so this leaves michael a lot of time of being alone in his house so naturally you need to take advantage

- so one time mom #2 gets home and walks in just to see jeremy fully on the counter making out with her son

- i don’t think they got in trouble but his mom was like please not on the counter

- and then there was another time where mom #1 came home on her break cause she doesn’t live far from the er so she like yells to michael that she’s home

- and so naturally you come down to hug your mom so he comes down to greet his mom with a red faced jeremy behind him and his mom thought this was so fucking funny but as soon as she’s done laughing she immediately goes anytime jeremys over the doors open and that was the end of it

- everyone has this one thing that someone does that make them all blushy and stuff

- for jeremy it’s when michael wears fitting clothes cause michael is known to wear hoodies or just baggy clothes in general so when michael does get hot and needs to like put something on he puts on one of those body fitting v necks and jeremy losses his shit like he’s fully blushing and avoiding eye contact and since michael changed cause he was hot he’s sure that jeremy is so hot that his face is turning red and he’s embarrassed to say to take off his cardigan so the entire time jeremy is being full homo for his boyfriend michael is thinking he’s about to pass out from a heat stroke

- so i think jeremy enjoys this so much that for the first week of spring michael will only wear fitted clothes because jeremy loves it

- for michael it’s when he’s kissing jeremys neck and jeremy runs his hand thru his hair and pulls it a little when this happens michael loses all common sense one because jeremys enjoying himself so much that he has to kinda tug on michaels hair and two he’s enjoying it so much he doesn’t have time to think that squip is going to punish him and that makes michael just lose his mind so by the time they’ve pulled apart jeremy as sooooo many hickies and they both look at each other like what the fuck did we just do

- moving right along i feel like when jeremy wakes up at night and is terrified to go back to sleep if him and michael are sleeping together he will like hug him until he gets back to sleep and it works every time

- when they were like 7 jeremy got really sick with the flu and michael was so scared that he was going to die so he kissed him while he was sleeping because if his best friend was gonna die so was he and the next day he got really sick with the flu and jeremy would not stop crying because he thought that since michael refused to leave his side he got him sick…they’re idiots

- jeremy is the type to go to school with the worst fever ever he could throw up in the middle of the school day and still not go to the nurse and if he got sick during junior year forget it you had to strap him down to his bed if you wanted him to take a day off like michael had to sedecue him into staying in bed and taking medication so that he could feel better

[jezy]

Here's a post of information so you don't get confused (if you had seen my fanfic Ben 10 Reboot Chats but if you aren't its fine, this is just my headcannon/theory thingy for Reboot!Hex) :

Hex had seen and went through hell before he even got to the world he's in right now.

Before he got the whole...look, he was a brown man with curly brown-black hair that was always a mess.

He's demisexual, he doesn't really get sexually attracted to someone (or even romantically) fully. He only had a full romantic relationship towards Libra who's been with him since kids. But that changed when the First Cataclysmic War begun.

Heather (or Charmcaster) and Hex have a very distant relationship but Hex actually cares about her and Heather thinks he's the only one who understands her problems (which in fact, he does understand).

Heather teaches him a thing or two about the modern world and helped him with his hair. In exchange, he teaches her magic and gave her an amulet he hasn't used anymore.

Hex cares about the other villains but doesn't show it.

Because if he shows it, people would find this as his weakness and they would exploit it or use it against him (i.e. kidnapping them or threatening to kill them). To which he doesn't want to, because it reminds him of failing to save Libra that one day.

Hex's hair turned white either due to severe stress or the fact he was slowly aging when he descended from his ascendance state and the fact he was trying to find the Eye of Wotan along with the Well of Light before he dies of old age that time.

Hex met Steam Smythe before but he doesn't know its the redheaded kid who praised him for his magic skills back in the 1900s.

Hex had rejected all of the villains who had a crush for him either by roasting the crap out of them obliviously or just plain cold "No". Except for Zombozo, he's a persistent bastard who annoys him with compliments and flirting.

Before he became the guy he is today ; He was neglected and abused by his father and he doesn't get to eat much so he's skinny and lanky when he was a child to becoming a Sage---

Hex was blamed by his father, Isaac Yvette, for the death of his biological mother, Yuna Igraad who died giving birth to him. When Hex was birthed by his mom, Isaac was disgusted when he opened his eyes for the first time while Yuna only complimented it before dying.

Since that day, Isaac named the baby "Hex" (means curse) because he thinks Hex's the reason why Yuna died and the other reason is the god Yuna believed and prayed for, who he thinks cursed the child with yellow and red eyes and killed his wife.

Yuna was a believer of a god whose name was long forgotten in time while Isaac is a magician who makes money from potions, spells and curses that he sells.

Hex has mixed emotions about him being the reason for his mother's death. He was mad at himself, sad for his mother and empty deep down inside.

He got even more mixed emotions when Libra died. Mostly blaming himself because he thinks he wasn't strong enough to save her. (To which is a lie, because the Handmaiden's Shield spell is indestructible and only a God can break it).

Hence why, he tries his best not to actually kill Ben because it reminds him when he still had Libra in his life, a young lad determined to do anything just to protect them to which he (thinks) he failed at before. (Till he snapped at him in the Ben Gen 10).

His father, with a baby Hex in hand, fled the world of Cairn and went to another world named Ledgerdomain via rifts.

While still in Ledgerdomain his father met Morgana, who was the heir to the throne at that time, fell in love and got remarried. And that's how Spellbinder was born folks!

Hex & Spellbinder has a 4 ½-ish year age gap. So Hex was only 8 ½ and Spellbinder was only 4 when they were children.

He was the black sheep of the family, which makes him jealous to Spellbinder who was treated like a golden child while he, even though his father stopped abusing him, doesn't even get recognitions, praises or even compliments from either his half-mom or his dad for his very hard works.

When he heard voices in his head that tells him things that he should do to his brother, he didn't gave in, and after a while he and Spellbinder became actual brothers.

That is until, Hex accidentally burned three people who were beating him up in a corner.

It happened one day when he was told (ordered) by his half-mom to run errands to the town's markets and see what he could find for his 9th birthday gift. Which he happily obliged since he thinks it was a way for his half-mom to gift him. But then some older children started to follow him on the way back to which he ran in panic. They cornered him to an alleyway and started to beat him up.

Hex snapped when he saw the only gift he had be burned by the older children as they mocked his eyes and skin. To which in retaliation, he sicced on them. Very very harshly.

Since that day, the people in that kingdom despised Hex and would occasionally call him slurs and throw rocks at him. If Hex has someone with him, they would distract them long enough for them to throw a rock or cast a harming spell at him.

But one night changed everything, Hex and Isaac were strolling near a pond. Isaac embraced Hex to a one-armed hug, which he thanked for.

Till he saw a sacrificial knife on his father's other hand. He escaped the embrace before he was stabbed but got a scar on his back because of that.

What's worse was when he came home his father was there with a shocked Spellbinder and an angry Morgana, he got indirectly disowned by his father saying he was just a child he picked up a few years back.

That was the day he ran away from the kingdom and to a pond where he cried.

But it was also the day Hex met Libra Renov, a princess from another kingdom.

He and Libra are like glue who can't get separated that easily. And are clingy to each other. Very clingy.

Libra let him live secretly in their kingdom to learn more magic and hang out together. He enjoyed it while it lasted.

Hex basically eloped to Cairn with Libra when they were 18 years old. It was only because she got to an arranged marriage to his brother, which she didn't like at all and neither does he.

Both joined into a Faction named only "The Sages". There they met Disa Jónsdóttir, an icelandic-swedish woman who trained very hard.

Hex reached his ascendance when he was 34, Libra reached hers when she was 30 and Disa reached hers when she was 28.

Hex didn't liked it when Spellbinder followed them to Cairn and joined the Sages. He especially didn't liked him when Spellbinder forcefully kissed Libra on the lips to which caused his brother's (Spellbinder's) life to go dissaray. But he didn't snapped from that.

The only thing that made him actually snapped was when the cataclysmic war begun, which caused Libra to die. When he found out who actually caused it, he bashed their head forcefully till their head was just...smooshed.

The people found out he killed someone, not knowing it was their fault who caused the war between gods to broke out, so they captured him and burned him alive.

Hex only survived that due to an artifact named "Totem of Undying" (Shh, yeah, Ik. IK.), but he was severely injured. He forced himself to create a rift to the world (he's currently in) and dragged himself there.

Since then, he got angry to the world and became the guy he is today. But with more muscles since he trained nonstop since then.

But now, he's the guy with conflicting thoughts about stopping on ruling the world or keep going. Like, he doesn't know if he wants it anymore or not.

That's all for now!

[aspectedstar]

[Info updated as of Patch 5.55]

Name: Listelle Viyrel

Unsundered Name: Ephine

Gender: Female

Age: 21 in ARR, 26 in EW

Race: Raen Au Ra

Relationship: Official with an untempered Elidibus, but still lowkey that not a lot of people know of their status.

Family: Biological family is unknown. Her adoptive Miqo'te parents she keeps in contact with. The Scions of the Seventh Dawn and Elidibus are her main sources of 'support' these days.

Orientation: Bisexual / Demisexual

Nameday: 16th Sun of the 4th Umbral Moon [August 16th]

Abilities/Talents: Archery, Botany, Cooking, Able to speak multiple languages [thanks Echo], Healing, Reading.

Job: Former conjurer turned White Mage; Archer/Bard; Adventurer; A Scion of the Seventh Dawn; Botanist whenever help is needed.

Appearance description: A pale-skinned Raen Au Ra that stands at 4 fulms and 9 ilms. Listelle has dark blue, shoulder-length hair with bangs that naturally curls at the ends. Black highlights are added into the mix and always reapplied whenever they start to fade. Sometimes, puts up her hair in high side-ponytail that has a braid embedded around the back of her head. Has side bangs that hang from her face with this hairstyle as well. She has heterochromia eyes with her left being a pale blue, while her right is a bright purple. Listelle is slightly muscular, but also petite. Her body has vanilla scales peppering her body here and there. Mostly can be seen on her face; Her horns a slightly curled, but go backwards only a bit from her face. The tail she has a few spikes here and there, but it's thin. Mostly spiking at the end of it. Usually wearing a pair of reading glasses, because her eyesight isn't 100%.

Unique features (scars, tattoos, etc.): Multiple scars across her body from battles over the years. The biggest one was from the first meeting with Zenos, where he ended up nailing her in the abdomen badly. The scar is a jagged line in sideways line that covers a good portion of her middle to lower back. Listelle is very self-conscious about this particular one; Doesn't like wearing gear that shows off that part of her body.

Personal Beliefs (religious or otherwise): Fully believed in the Mothercrystal and the Twelve, but has changed since the events of SB into ShB. Mostly because of what Elidibus and Emet-Selch had told her. Still believes in a sense of one's wrongdoing will bite them in the ass later in life.

Residence: Medium house plot on the beach in Shirogane, Hingashi. Amaurot on the First.

Birthplace: Somewhere in the Black Shroud.

Dreams: When the world is done being saved, which is almost never; Wanting to have a peaceful life with Elidibus as much as possible; Hoping that one day more White Mages can be sanctioned by the Padaji; Maybe one day have children, but that's not as important.

Fears: Dying when the world needs her the most; Seeing close friends and family die in front of her again and again; Injured to the point she can't fulfill her duties as Warrior of Light; Losing any of her senses.

Introverted / Extroverted / Ambiverted (bold what applies)

How do they handle stress?: When in front of people, she tries her best not to show she's bothered. There are ways for others to know she's about to hit her limit. Listelle is known to pace around a room, fidget with her hands, and get teary-eyed, but the latter is hard to see. Only ways she can combat it is behind closed doors, or out in the wilderness when no one is around. Going out into nature to find plants or hit trees with her axe is one way. Another way is to basically beat her frustrations out in cooking or baking foodstuffs. Resting under trees when only one can hear naturalistic sounds.

What’s the state of their living quarters? (messy, clean, etc.): That depends. Usually, it's a disorganized mess. Much to Elidibus's dismay, she can usually find things easier than him. If he ever tried to clean her home, she'd yell at him on not being able to find anything. It's not completely trashed, but enough to know someone lives here. As the Warrior of Light, she doesn't get enough time to do homely chores. So, it's mostly left go for weeks at a time.

How do they handle meeting new people?: Listelle usually is kind and friendly to people she meets. Though, it depends overall on the new person (or group)'s attitude, body language, voice tone, and facial expressions. If they come off rude and negative, she is more reluctant to be as nice back. However, since she is not the diplomatic person, she usually leaves all the table-talking to her fellow Scions. Will chime in with a few words, if asked. It all depends on the situation and people involved.

When facing certain doom, what’s their outlook?: It's...questionable. Try to keep a stoic facade, but inside she would be screaming. Or, she'd probably look at like this: Why not going out with a huge bang of glory, and take her foe(s) with her? As a healer, she understands death, but is afraid to die at the wrong time. Regardless, she will tackle it the best she can.

What do they do to relax?: Reading any books she has in her shelves. Have Elidibus tell her stories of the world before it was Sundered. Cooking and baking when she has the time. Gardening, when she has time, yet again. Sitting under trees listening to nature. Go to the beach when no one is around. Stargazing with Elidibus at night.

What’s their favorite outfit?: Her 'civilian' clothes with the Azem constellation crystal as a necklace pictured blow.

Traumas: It's been several over the last few years of becoming the Warrior of Light. From being a healer, she has had a hard time accepting she can't save everyone. The loss of Haurchefant hit her physically hard. He saw Listelle as herself, not just the 'hero' or a weapon to be used by the city-states. Still goes to visit his grave in Coerthas when she can. Seeing the turmoil Garlemald had done to Ala Mhigo and Doma's regions. Zenos yae Galvus, because he reminds her of herself at certain times. How they can relate, as much as the Raen wishes not to admit it. The entire events of Shadowbringers with fighting for another world to holding in the light corruption. Her aether is still a mess, even after Ardbert had joined his soul with hers. Ending Emet-Selch's life, even when she understood his plight and ideals. Having to fight and kill Elidibus; The ONE PERSON that understood and had true affection for her. Yet, he was tempered by Zodiark, so they were forced into battle. It still haunts her to this day that she may lose Elidibus forever.

About them as of current story patch: As of Patch 5.5, Listelle is struggling on what to make of seeing that being surrounded in light. Being told the Final Days is coming--which is no doubt with Fandaniel and Zenos--and the entire world is on her shoulders. This is stressing her out to no end, even with Elidibus trying to keep her calm. He is her main anchor to keep her grounded currently. With the possibility of going to Sharlayan, she is not happy. Possibly having to keep the untempered Ascian unseen, depending. For now, she is stressed and pacing about what to do.

History: Listelle was found outside the doors of a Miqo'te couple living in the Black Shroud. Only a single note saying: "I cannot care for her; I'm possibly dead by the time you read this. Her name is Listelle; Please raise her well". The baby was an Au Ra Raen female, but they had no idea if there was such a family nearby. Living mostly in an isolated area, they didn't get many visitors. Just some adventurers, botanists, conjurers, or miners that came through the area. Despite this, they willingly took the baby in. They had issues trying to concieve their own child, so Listelle would fill the void. The void of trying to have a child, which they had now.

The Raen would come to know her parents as Sizha Vebei, her mother, and Rehzih'li Vebei, her father. They lived in a small cabin in the Southern part of the Shroud. Away from settlements like Camp Tranquil and Quarrymill, they kept to themselves for the most part. They raised their adoptive child as good as any adoptive parents could. With the times that Rehzih'li would go to Gridania for work and supplies, he would ask around about Listelle's family. He usually came up empty handed as per usual. This went on for years, until the Seventh Umbral Calamity hit Eorzea.

Listelle was 16 summers old when Bahamut broke free of Dalamud to reign terror from the heavens. The Black Shroud went up in flames in several areas. Thankfully, herself and her parents survived, but lost their home to the flames. The family was devastated, but then they decided to move on to a battered up Gridania as other refugees. They would have to make a new life within the city-state.

To the five years leading up to ARR, Listelle practiced conjury within the Stillglade Fane. Her parents had taken up other odd jobs to support themselves and their daughter, so Listelle had decided to do the same. With people becoming adventurers, the Raen decided to do the same. With her aetherpool higher than most, she fit right in with the Conjurers' Guild. Even with weird looks, the Au Ra flourished under their guidance and care. She would learn how to properly harness healing magics, as well as learn to borrow from the very Elementals of the Twelveswood.

Eventually, Listelle would become more involved with restoration efforts to help Gridania. Only her efforts would soon become widespread. Widespread enough for a certain organization to recruit her to their cause..

Feelings towards others: (add or remove as relevant)

- Elidibus – Her official partner, who she had a rocky relationship for years. However, it changed much after his defeat by her hand on top of the Crystal Tower in the First. She loves the Ascian dearly and would do anything for him. He had been there as well for her during some stressful times, despite him being under Zodiark's influence. They confide in each other constantly, and is a major support pillar for Listelle.

- Emet-Selch [Hades] – Despite their brief interactions, Listelle came to understand more about the Ascians. Even if it was a hard pill to swallow, the brief details Elidibus mentioned to her started to make sense. Like pieces to the puzzle was finally coming together. She would indulge and ask him a lot of the Ascians' history, the Old World, and the like. As much as her comrades didn't like their Warrior of Light conversating with their worst enemy, she ignored them...sometimes. She was upset to end his life when they couldn't come to some sort of understanding. She still has sobbing fits over Hades' demises, because of the fact of the Azem constellation crystal she has. It was even hinted that he knew of something going on between her and the Emissary at the time. Listelle always denied it, but there was a twinkle in those golden eyes that he knew of something.

- Feo Ul - As much as Listelle appreciates them, she can't deal with their sudden mood swings. The Fae being the Fae, she can't understand the times she gets yelled at for not summoning them. Being called cruel and heartless by Feo Ul made her uneasy around the pixie. Just over the course of the Shadowbringers, she saw the good in the King of Faeries. They became the next Titania, yet, they still treated Listelle as their most precious mortal. After all, they WERE connected by a pact! Feo Ul was another pillar during her struggle to contain the light corruption within her. The constant affection and support helped keep the heroine to move forward.

- Alphinaud – Meeting him the first time made her want to rethink her choices. However, with his constant presence helping her with 'official talks', she has been grateful for him. He has come a long way and has grown. Listelle hates meetings, and groans anytime Alphinaud tells her she has to go. Because she is the hero, she has to go, despite her wild protests.

- Alisaie – It took a bit for them to grow on one another. Alisaie understands when Listelle has her moments. Moments she wants to hide, but also treats the Raen like an actual person. Not just the hero, not just the Warrior of Light. Listelle finds herself getting teased when Alisaie fawns over her, depending if she's down or upset about something. Mostly by Y'shtola though.

- Y'shtola – Their relationship is...weird at best. Y'shtola and herself have their moments when they get into arguments. However, she knows the Miqo'te woman wants the best for her. During the events of Shadowbringers, she was worried over Listelle's state of taking in the Lightwardens' corrupted aether. Y'shtola and Ryne were there for her as they journeyed to Emet-Selch's domain. Full of Light, the heroine had a hard time doing basic tasks at times. Due to this, Listelle appreciates her. Just doesn't like when she teases her about Alisaie and G'raha's constant admiration of her.

- Thancred – Saw him as a flirtatious man who she didn't want to deal with at all. He even made comments about her 'beauty' on several occasions to get under her skin. However, as the years went by, she began to learn he was a lot more. Mostly learned this during her time on the First with the others and Ryne. Just the interactions between him and Ryne made her heart ache for them both. Including when they had to go back to the Source.

- Urianger – This Elezen made her want to rip her hair out most of the time. Just the way he spoke, his mannerisms made her so confused. Had to get the other Scions to repeat what he said to her many, many times. Still not fond of his secrecy behind her back on the few times. However, she does understand it's a necessary evil, yet she hasn't completely forgiven him yet. Though, she does appreciate any vital information he can provide her.

- Tataru - Oh sweet Tataru...Listelle loves the receptionist to death. Another person who treats her like she's a normal person. However, how she manages to get things done makes Listelle double think herself. Like the time the Lalafell wanted her precise measurements to get her outfits made. Just the way Tataru brings up results is quite...scary. The heroine watches herself whenever she's around the Lalafell woman.

- Minfilia - The first person to understand she had the power of the Echo. All those years of not understanding random visions she had when she was a child. She learned more from Minfilia over the course of the years. Only to be upset when she disappeared, then find out she was connected to Hydaelyn. She looked up the Hyur and she still misses her from time to time.

- Papalymo - The duo of 'Yda' and Papalymo made her giggle at times. There were times she didn't quite understand the relationship between the two. She got along with the Lalafell fine. That is, until he sacrificed himself to contain the newly born primal at Baelsar's Wall. She wanted to stay behind and help him, but alas, was forced to flee with the others. She still thinks about him from time to time, hoping he's watching over them from afar.

- Lyse - Wasn't sure how to feel about her until after the whole incident at Baelsar's Wall. She had come to understand Lyse as someone who wanted to fight for her homeland. As they journeyed over Gyr Abania and Othard, she had come to see the woman in a new light. With how she handles matters in Ala Mhigo with Raubhan at her side, she hopes the city-state flourishes under their care.

- Gaius – Rivalry since taking on the Ultima Weapon. However, with tackling the Weapon Project, she put aside her dislike for him. In order to stop these machines of death, she would work alongside him. Listelle began to see him in a new light as the Weapons consumed most of the orphans he saved back then. With only Allie left and the Weapons done with, she hopes Gaius can find some sort of peace.

- Nero – Despite him working at the Garlond Ironworks now, she still finds him quite annoying. Though, she has to admit he has helped her on several occasions when Cid couldn't. So, she'd tolerate the man at best.

- Cid – Thankfully to the Garlean many times over. With his few interventions to save her from certain doom, to helping her take down Omega. The accomplishments and shit they've seen and done is enough for a novel or two....or several. She gets along with him fairly well.

- Haurchefant – The Elezen man from House Fortemps and Camp Dragonhead. It was no wonder the silver-haired male admired her from the start. Even wanting to rush in to stop her from taking on Shiva. Never do anything reckless again! He had said to her, which she had meekly agreed to. When fleeing from the bloody Ul'dah banquet, he was a pillar of strength during that time. With most of the Scions gone, she blamed herself for their loss. Alas, Haurchefant wouldn't have none of it. Always cheering her up with hot chocolate and word of encouragement. However, when he died in her arms saving her from a pillar of light...Listelle was devastated. She was depressed for a long time, and still is when she thinks about it. Still blames herself for his death, even if he wanted her to smile. "A smile better suits a hero"; A statement she won't forget easily.

- Aymeric – The first meeting with him..she wasn't impressed. She had heard Ishgardians were uptight and unwelcoming. As much as he sounded polite, she didn't trust him off the bat. However, as time went on, she began to realize he was much more than. Even inviting her to a dinner after Nidhogg's defeat, which she enjoyed. Just his question about what she wanted for herself? She knew not the answer to that at the time. Regardless, the Raen goes to visit him when she can.

- Estinien – This dragoon is so stiff was Listelle's first thought. She didn't exactly like him off the bat. However, the journey across Dravania opened him up to her. She did try her best to understand him, but it was hard. As the years went by, she had come to know he had paid respects to Yysale, which she appreciates. Even the time when she collapsed in the Ghimlyt Dark, trying to persuade Zenos/Elidibus to stop this madness. Estinien had rescued her, which opened her up to that he was more good than she thought. Now with him joining the Scions, more opportunities to know him better have opened.

- G’raha – Annoying scholar to deal with when looking for the damn aethersand. Made it a game, then she promptly yelled at him for making her run around more than she had to. Investigating the Crystal Tower together, she did appreciate his work. When he locked himself away in the tower, she was a bit sad to see him go. Listelle did understand why he had to do it though. During the events of Shadowbringers, she had her suspicions on who the Crystal Exarch was. She couldn't completely confirm who it was, until she was being consumed by Light Corruption. Despite all this, she scolded him greatly after winning the fight against Emet-Selch. She knew he had a deep admiration for her, but only saw him as a friend. Regardless, their friendship is still healthy and blossoming.

- Other Warrior of Lights - Appreciates their hard work and resilience to keep the fight going. No matter what, as long as there is a light, they can still prevail.

[Character sheet made by @lizzy-dotharl. Template taken from @earthlystar.]

[gratsustingue-the-ot4]

Okay deal with me 😂

i will ask 15 cause I’m curious if they had previous partners or have they been each other’s since teenage years, i know natsu and gray are on the long term but oh well

ahhh sorry i totally missed this one!

15. Pick a previous relationship (or multiple) of your character’s. Explain how that/those impact the way they navigate their way through relationships now.

natsu probably dated a couple people in junior high or high school, but nothing too serious. his family wasn't super happy with him being gay, so the couple of relationships he had were in secret and difficult to maintain.

gray dated two people in junior high/high school - melissa and jason (mentioned in 'your welcome has been so nice and warm'). they were both significant relationships because they helped him to come to terms with being bisexual, but neither of them lasted past graduation.

natsu and gray met in toronto in their early 20s. natsu had moved there from vancouver to do his early childhood education degree, and gray had moved from montreal to get his business degree. natsu worked at a restaurant that gray frequented and they got to know each other there. they started dating but broke up after a few months, then got back together not long after. during that time natsu had a couple of flings, but nothing serious.

rogue didn't have any romantic relationships growing up, and realized he was demisexual after meeting sting in his early twenties. sting also didn't have any romantic relationships before rogue, mostly due to his social anxiety. the two of them met and almost immediately fell in love, and have been together ever since.

[clarkewalling]

CLARKE WALLING ( FIVEL STEWART ) is an EIGHTEEN year old from BRISTOL, ENGLAND. SHE is known around the island as THE BOOKWORM because she is are SMART and UNDERSTANDING but can also be QUIET and NIAVE. SHE reminds of stacks of books, chipped black nail polish, baggy sweaters. [ AJ, 27, HE/THEY, EST ]

BASIC INFORMATION

NAME: clarke walling

NICKNAMES: arke (but don’t call her that unless you’re her brother), little wall

BIRTHDAY: march 23rd, 2002

AGE: 18

HOMETOWN: bristol, england

BIRTHPLACE: bristol, england

RELIGION: ashiest 

ETHNICITY: japanese, korean, chinese, scottish, & russian

NATIONALITY: british

EDUCATION: secondary school

RELATIONSHIP STATUS: recently single

SOCIAL CLASS: working

PHYSICAL CHARACTERISTICS

HEIGHT: 5′5″

EYES: dark brown

HAIR: dark brown

BUILD: slender

DISTINGUISHING MARKS: freckles that cover her nose and cheeks, a large tattoo of geometric flowers that covers her bicep 

NOTABLE FEATURES: dimples and a kind smile

PHYSICAL DISABILITIES: n/a

ALLERGIES: seasonal allergies

PERSONALITY & BEHAVIOR

HOBBIES: reading, writing, watching anime with her brother

LIKES: books that suck you in that you can’t put down, oversized sweaters ramen but from an actual shop, perfectly curated spotify playlists to for background noise, sneaking out to sit on roofs in the middle of the night, cold rainy nights, warm tea

DISLIKES: loud busy spaces, bullies, people who are judge you before even knowing you, people who interrupt her while reading

QUIRKS: googling every question that pops into her head, chewing on her nails when nervous so her nail polish is always chipped

STRENGTHS: has a large amount of knowledge about most subjects, loyal once she knows you, good memory

WEAKNESSES: very introverted and has a hard time connecting with people

POSITIVE TRAITS: smart, determined, hardworking

NEGATIVE TRAITS:  quiet, reclusive, awkward

MENTAL DISABILITIES: anxiety

SHARE 5 FUN FACTS ABOUT YOUR CHARACTER

unlike her twin brother, clarke is very quiet and keeps to herself. she doesn’t have many friends and prefers to keep her nose in a book rather than talk to her classmates. the twins have dealt with years of bullying so she finds it easier to disappear into a story rather than fight them like her brother. 

when kian came out to her, she was obviously so supportive and had her own assumptions before he ever told her he was trans. but because of him living as his true self, it had her start to question her own identity. clarke is demisexual and identifies as queer. (she’d be a 5 on the fruity scale)

she’s read more books than she can count but can somehow remember everything that happens in them. she doesn’t have a favorite genre, always giving new books a chance, but her guilty pleasure is fantasy and being able to escape into a new world

she’s recently single (f in the chat). her partner who may or may not totally be a brigette lundy-paine fc, broke up with them a few weeks ago because they felt as if clarke wasn’t giving them enough of her time. little did they know that clarke and her brother where dealing with everything that lead up to them ending up on the trip. clarke didn’t fight for them knowing that it was a lost cause

clarke loves tea. not just in a british way. like, she really loves tea and will choose that over anything else any day of the week

WHAT WAS YOUR CHARACTER WEARING ON THE FLIGHT?

an oversized mostly brown grandpa sweater, it’s her favorite and she wanted to feel safe on the plane

underneath she’s wearing a white crop top tank top

black skinny jeans with holes in the knees that she roles up to be more like capris

black ankle socks

black and white high top converse

a silver necklace she bought herself with c&k engraved on a small circle charm

chipped black nail ploish

a black hair tie on her wrist

PLEASE LIST 3 PERSONAL ITEMS OF YOUR CHARACTER THAT WASHED UP ON SHORE

the complete poems by emily dickinson book like the pretentious gay that she is, she most definitely wanted to cry when she saw how wet it got in the crash but thankfully, it’s still readable 

a packet of her favorite earl grey tea because she didn’t trust that the retreat would have anything good to drink on her first night

her wallet. inside there’s some pound banknotes, a wallet multitool, her id and some random cards, and a picture of her and kian from last year

pintest 

[guymaito]

professors hcs? 👁👁

  !!!

under the cut as usual <3

None of them are cishet, but Oak is the only one who’s transhet and uses almost exclusively neopronouns, also uses he/him but prefers it when people uses xir neopronouns

Elm is trans and bi, uses he/him, Birch is polyromantic ace and nonbinary, uses they/them, Rowan and Juniper are both oriented aroace and trans but Rowan is pan oriented while Juniper is bi oriented, both use xe/them, Sycamore is panromantic ace and genderfluid uses all pronouns including neopronouns, but prefers they/them, Kukui is pansexual biromantic demiromantic and trans, uses she/him and has a lot of neopronouns but mainly prefers noi/bat/noibats/noibatself pronouns, Burnet is panromantic polysexual asexual and deminb, uses she/her, Sonia is a trans lesbian uses she/them and Magnolia is trans and bi, uses they/them, Cerise is demiromantic demisexual and a demiboy, uses he/it

Sycamore studied under Rowan for about 12 years before wanting to study under Magnolia, ended up being scared of them both but still looked up to them

Rowan joked that Sycamore left cause they got bored with xem, refuses to say that the actual reason why they left was cause Sycamore finished their studies with them

Being the oldest professors, Rowan, Magnolia and Oak has a shit ton of embarrassing stories on the others when they studied under them

Kukui knows how to bake but she can’t cook, Burnet is the opposite

Burnet and Sonia pretty much have a older sibling-younger sibling relationship

People often end up that an “innocent” old man like Oak would make an inappropriate joke

Kukui and Burnet adopted Lei due to Burnet having tokophobia, a pathological fear of childbirth

Kukui is prolly the shortest professor behind Oak, being 5′5, the rest of the professors are professors are 5′7-6′3

Rowan has a large family, having 7 siblings, nearly 14 nephews and 15 nieces and 5 kids and 7 grandkids

Birch’s child finally taught them how to battle which they appreciate but Birch often ends up getting distracted and ends up studying the pokemon

Birch once stayed up for a week straight trying to figure out what the fuck Cerise just sent them (it was a video of Galaraian Zapdos running around in the Wild Area)

Elm, Sonia, Burnet and Sycamore shouldn’t be in the same room together, cause the last time they were they managed to break the lovedisc tank Kukui had in the basement of Kukui’s and Burnet’s shared house

Cerise mentioned to out drink Rowan once, he had to go the hospital straight after, it regrets doing ever doing it

Rowan has a sweet tooth, but only family knows about it

Elm is lactose intolerant, still doesn’t stop him from eating a carton of ice cream though

Birch and Elm’s relationship is pretty much just this:

Juniper is the only professor who can perfectly mimic pokemon calls

Juniper and Burnet often make sure to affectionately bully Sonia when they can

Sonia, for the life of her, can not sing or dance, surprisingly Rowan can 

Cerise has ADHD and autism and often stims by clicking his pen or tongue

Oak dated Agatha in their late teens but broke up soon after

Juniper is an only child

Sycamore didn’t realize they were genderfluid until they were well into their adulthood cause they thought everyone felt this way

Kukui and Burnet often take Lei to Galar so they can visit Ash, Sonia, Magnolia and Cerise

Magnolia often bakes for Sonia and Burnet when they visit

Magnolia’s insults are the most personal and disrespectful shit you’ll hear 😭

Juniper is in a QPR with two other people

Birch usually carries extra coats with them cause they often get ruined

Rowan has arthritis and uses a cane cause of it

Kukui and Elm have a playful rivalry

Elm has a iron deficiency

whenever Juniper and Sycamore are in Kalos and neither of them have work, they often try to go to every cafe in Lumiose

Oak knows how to make pottery

[svmperdulcis]

⤷ the courts offer bread and salt to ANNARA FREY of HOUSE FREY. many say that the TWENTY-FOUR year old LADY of THE CROSSING is known to be SINCERE and AMBITIOUS, though ill tongues whisper that SHE is PESSIMISTIC and UNFORGIVING. when her name is uttered, one is reminded of sparkling blue eyes that look deep into your soul, witnessing things not meant for your age, a deep bond between family that is fading away with time, delicate fingers playing a melancholic tune on the harp, a mischief grin when robbing jelly tarts from the kitchens followed by a loud and joyful laugh and charming everyone with your smile. may she be blessed and protected in this war of crowns. ( fc: phoebe dynevor )

HEY, HEY, HEY !! i’m livvy, and it’s a blessing to be here. i’m bringing lady annara frey to your dash, the only daughter of lothar frey and a pain in the ass, but in a good way. for a character resume, see this image. if you want more depth, just click on the read more.

𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐒.

BIRTH NAME :  annara helenys frey. 

ALIAS  /  NICKNAME :  anna, annie. 

TITLES :  lady of the crossing, of the twins and of house frey.

AGE :  twenty & four summers. 

PLACE OF BIRTH :  the twins, the riverlands, the northern kingdom. 

RESIDENCE :  the twins. 

OCCUPATION :  lady.   

GENDER :   cisfemale. 

RELIGION :  the faith of the seven. 

SEXUALITY :  demisexual & demiromantic. 

POSITIVE  TRAITS :  sincere, ambitious, faithful, loyal, knowledge, persuasive. 

NEGATIVE TRAITS :  pessimistic, unforgiving, impulsive, opinionated, curious, abrasive.

INSPIRATIONS :  ezran & queen sarai ( the dragon prince ), lucie herondale ( the last hours ), drusilla blackthorn ( the dark artificies ), noctis lucis caelum ( final fantasy xv ), maria capitolina santiago ( dom casmurro ), teen eren yeager ( attack on titan ), katara ( atla ).

𝐁𝐈𝐎.

the only girl born to lothar & denyse frey, annara was, as some servants used to call her, the princess of the twins. while she wasn’t a boy and her younger twin brother was, de facto, the true heir of house frey, annara was treated with the same importance as her brother. after all, it was through her that important alliances were going to be made. she grew up with that guiding her steps — annara was as important as any other person in that castle. 

she had a close relationship with both of her parents, but especially with her mother. annara was the one who inherited the mallister colors, and thus, her mother used to spent time brushing her hair and teaching annara how to make her own hairstyles and how to take care of her hair. but aside beauty habits, another thing was passed from mother to daughter: the distrust of the ironborn. the young girl never understood the cause of such feelings, but trusted her mother and her judgment. when the war with the ironborn broke out, she was nothing but a small girl, but her mother’s words made sense. 

the memories of the war aren’t fresh on her mind — everything is a blur, and annara is happy because of that. it was a time of fear inside the twins, no one knew if the other could be a potential traitor or if the ironborn would attack the riverlands. however, one moment is still fresh on her mind: when the ironborn troops attacked the twins and took her mother as a prisoner, leading to her death. annara can’t recall exactly how she and her brother survived, but she remembered being taken away to an unknown place, and returning to her home after a while. this amount of time was what the rebels needed to execute her mother. annara remembers with horror how they found her mother’s body — and a distrust against the ironborn, became pure hatred. she couldn’t blame the king of the north for such tragedy, but she lost faith on them and their leadership. if they couldn’t keep their nobility safe, how they would keep the lowborn as well ?

after denyse’s death, everything changed. her father was another man, and annara felt as the only person she had was her twin. they grew closer than before, and watched how revenge took their father away from them. annara couldn’t blame him — she wanted revenge for her mother’s death, but they needed lothar. they wanted him to be the same doting father he was before the war, but couldn’t put into words. and she took her mother’s place of the only lady of the twins, and made sure that both her father and brother were alright. the rest of her childhood and adolescence went without any other tragedies, and annara grew up to be as beautiful as her mother. 

the winterfell summit was saw with eager eyes by frey lady. the twins were starting to be boring, and she hoped to find a good match to secure her wealthy when married. however, she knows she needs to keep an eye on her father. if annara wants to marry well, lothar needs to be with his head on the right place — and not on the past. 

𝐄𝐗𝐓𝐑𝐀.

her curiosity is what will kill her. annara isn’t afraid of sneaking out on the dark or to enter in dangerous situations if the outcome will ease her mind. 

she’s totally a bookworm but in a cool way. 

her favorite hobby is swimming, though gossiping fight for this place. 

she plays the harp very well but doesn’t do it often, as she always plays sad songs. 

her family is her everything. don’t mess with them. 

her mother’s death left a huge trauma on her. she hates the ironborn with a passion and will probably start yelling at them for no reason. 

she also founds the starks to not be great rulers. tho she also doesn’t see the targaryens as good rulers too. 

she loves learning new things and new languages. besides the common tongue, she speaks a bit of bastard valyrian and hopes to learn more, 

give her jelly tarts and she’ll be putty at her hands, 

𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒.

friends, childhood friends, penpals from the southern kingdom. 

an ironborn to put reason on her head and show annara that not all of them like her mother’s murderers.

an almost betrothed, like, things just needs to be made official. 

lovers ! that can be friends to lover, enemies to lovers, love at first sight.

people that doesn’t like and trust her because freys. 

acquaintances that aren’t friends, but they gossip together. 

[k-tae-k]

blog

Hi. I’ve never really been into using Tumblr, but I have no where else to share my story, so here I am.

I won’t be sharing my name, but I think I’ll go by Bee. I’m not sure why, but okay.

I’ll start by saying that I’m demisexual, which may not seem like a hard thing to deal with it, but with my family it is. I found out over a year ago, when I developed my first crush on a girl. I knew I still liked boys, too, so I figured I’m bisexual. I told my siblings, and for the most part they accepted it. My parents on the other hand, didn’t like the idea of me also liking girls.

Later on, more recently, I figured out that I’ve dated a few boys, but never truly liked any of them. And that I’ve only ever liked one girl. That’s what led me to believe that I’m demisexual. I won’t ever tell my parents this, because I know they won’t understand it.

I’ve liked one girl, and I even got to the point of loving her. We dated, for I would say around 4 months. It started off with me posting one of those anonymous things on my Snapchat story, and she said something. I remember it saying something along the lines of ‘I like you, but you won’t like me back because I’m a girl’. At first I was like, well yeah, I’m not into girls. But after that, we were texting and I started picking up on how she was talking to me. I slowly started liking her, and I eventually asked if it was her that said that, and she said yes. Not long after, we decided to date. We didn’t live near each other, so it was just an online relationship, but I was okay with it.

About a month into the relationship, we would have small arguments. We realized we’re both depressed, and had a lot of issues mentally. It caused a lot of issues between us. By the time it had been 4 months, I started understanding that our relationship was toxic, but I loved her. I explained what I was feeling, and how we just didn’t work together, and she understood. I cried so much when I broke it off, because it hurt me so much.

It’s been almost a year since the breakup, and it still makes me cry to this day, but I try not to think about it too much.

There’s only one other person I’ve fallen in love with, and I’m still in love with him. We aren’t dating, and we probably won’t until I can finally live closer to him. I’ll start by saying we met last summer, in July. I was in my home state visiting family at the time and he added me on Snapchat. We got to talking, and I evolved a crush on him. Then, I was at my (now ex) best friend’s house, and told her about him. It’s my second biggest regret of my life, because they started dating. It didn’t take long for everything to get messed up, because once I got back to where I live now, I got caught up in her drama. Something about her so-called gay best friend getting her pregnant, as if that’s a thing that just happens, but the gay best friend was telling me something and somehow she knew we were talking and questioned him about it. He got mad at me, thinking I told her, when in reality I didn’t. I’ve known for a while that she’s a toxic friend because my real best friend always pointed it out. Anyways, back to the story. I told the guy I like about it, and they broke up. Not long later, he told me he’s always had feelings for me and it shocked me. But then he said we shouldn’t be together since we live 3 states apart, which I can understand. It hurts, a lot. But he said we’ll be together eventually, which gives me hope, but I also know there’s a chance that it’s false hope.

Anyways, that’s all for now I think. I’ll talk about my trashy friendship with that one girl later on.

[thewiseworm]

Star Wars AU That We All Deserve

Logan Mekalanos

- Human, through and through

- J E D I MASTER Like his father before him

- Grew up in the Order and is considered one of their best. Doesn’t have many friends though he knows and gets along with most of the Jedi in the Order

-His Master was (is) Dottie Hynse, who took him on at the age of ten and trained him into Knighthood until the age of 24. They have a close, if snappish relationship with each other, and Dottie still swings by to check in on him

-He is well aware of her breaking the Code with the pilot Larry, but hasn’t said anything to anyone other than his Master. Everyone has....needs after all. Dottie bopped him over the head the first time he suggested that

- Had his eyes torn out by a Sith Apprentice, got bionic eyes to replace them. He woke up to Dottie’s voice and his Master’s hand on his after the incident

- The largest fight they had was about him going back out on the battlefield after that. It took place before he had his eyes replaced, and he eventually broke down at the thought of not being able to travel the stars. Cue Dottie hugging him

- Has one (two) attachments: The stars (and his Master)

- T R A N S, a wonderful, handsome transman in the middle of transitioning, he wears flowing robes to help pass. Dottie is the most supportive Master

- Demiromantic Demisexual

- Is sent to save and retrieve Senator Alcyone after he goes missing

- Roman both gets on his nerves and earns his respect in the exact same moment. Not many without the Force would stand up against the Sith the way the Senator has

- Virgil fascinates him, having never seen a species like his. The smuggler is the least of his concern in the trio however and provides a welcome relief of sanity compared to the other two

- Patton, the “Sith” Lord, took him by surprise, leading to their first encounter being a loss for the Jedi. The lack of yellow eyes both concerns and gives him hope, seeing as that much Darkness would mean Logan would be duty bound to slay him

Patton Goode

- Human

- “Sith” Lord, actually a Grey Jedi

- Trained under Remy until he was pressed into service for the Separatists and the Sith. Gained his red saber during that time, eventually went on the run with Virgil, deserting the army and becoming a smuggler instead

- While training with Remy, got to know many people around the local systems. He loved the diversity and friendliness that people showed even in the midst of the war

- caught Dooku’s attention, and as such, trained under the man for a period of time. He hated pretty much every minute of it, which only fueled his being pushed towards the Dark

- Was ordered to terrorize several planets and people that reminded him of the people he had grown up with. Which lead to him hating anyone in a position of power, hating the innocents that get caught up in their power struggles

- Concerns Virgil with the way he talks. Does not hesitate to kill criminals and people he believe deserve it, believing that their deaths are the best way to stop their atrocities. Mentioned his own death in the same vein off-hand once, but Virgil’s never forgotten

- Genderfluid, though he leans mostly towards masculine. Bisexual, with a preference towards males

- Born deaf. He can lip read with the best of them, and Virgil helps him cope when people aren’t facing him. Often wants to strangle Roman for the way that he turns away in the middle of a sentence

- Follows his heart, regardless of the Light or Dark sides creeds and principles. He’ll listen to the Force and his friends. He lives with the Passion of the Sith but the Morality of the Jedi. Logan hates it

- Pining after Virgil basically since they’ve met, help him. Virgil is just so strong and brave and handsome and steady and kind and-! The moment Virgil laughed for the first time he was gone r i p

- Logan is an amusement and a hero all rolled into one. Patton respects him following his morals, and appreciates that Logan doesn’t mind stopping to help out the little guys

-Roman pisses him off. Patton Fights The Man, and Roman is The Man. Roman doesn't see his privilege and the people who love him and the power that he wields and it makes Patton want to wring his neck. (A little hypocritically)

Virgil Quill

- Part Alien, passes as human if he dresses carefully, though his skin is a light purple that looks pale in the right lighting

-Other alien features include: The tiny spores on his hair and crotch that he hides with floofy hair and carefully tucking them in his pants, raised scale like skin with spikes that start around his waist and dot his legs down to his heels, raised dark stripes that start at his waist and wind upwards to around his shoulder that release low electricity with high emotinos

-Basically? Mom was a plant alien while Dad was a Human. Got his last name from his Dad

- Naps in the sun whenever he gets the chance. Does he photosynthesize? .....yes, to a degree though he still needs to eat.

-Prefers to just let people think he’s human, easier anyway

-has hundreds of siblings. Alpha Mother aka Mom had tons of children, all of them with varying degrees of her species. The more plant like the most likely they are to stay home. Those that do leave tend to do great things that cast a shadow over Virgil

- Stole a ship from under his sisters’ noses from Alpha Mother to do great things of his own, but got caught up in smuggling from inexperience. Panicked on his first run and shot the rest of the crew to release the slaves on board and flew away without another word

- Realized he could keep doing that and help protect some of the people who need it most

- got caught during a normal smuggling run during his second year on the circuit, and meet Patton there. Saved Patton’s life and ended up stuck with a sort of Sith since then

- Ended up with a large electrical scar that spans his left side from their punishment before he escaped with Patton. It still causes him muscle pain and spasms, as well as the occasional headache

- Aporagender, who strongly identifies as male. Pansexual, he don’t care, humanity’s strangely concerned with the binary anyways and fuck that

- Anxious Bean

- Pining for Patton, also since they’ve met, hELP HIM. Patton’s been through so much and is still so kind and has saved his life so many times before and have you seen the light hitting his hair??

- Logan scares him, just a little bit. Law enforcement + a freaky obsession with his species, no thanks. He is a nice break from the other two and their arguing however

- Roman is a never ending source of entertainment and concern. Princey is clueless about so much despite being a Senator, yet still rushes recklessly into everything. Virgil’s debated locking him in the cabin to make him stop

Roman Darrold Alcyone

- ALIEN PRINCE!! Second in line for the throne so he became Senator for his planet instead

- Covered in red markings, two slashes on his face, and spiraling marks all along the rest of his body. He’s as red as he is white. Has blue colored Vitiligo that don’t cover his markings. Colorful Boy

-He glow. His marking glow in correspondence to his feelings and how high they are. Being Roman, that means he emits an almost constant light

- His skin can stand up to ridiculous temperatures, being able to stick his bare hands in lava without getting burned. Most acids won’t bother him either, leading to his people becoming master metalworkers and their planet a difficulty to visit without proper preperation.

-In turn, because of his high internal temp, gets cold, really, really easily. He’s susceptible to the cold

-His older brother being Emilie Picani Alcyone. Emilie adores his brother and Roman adores him right back. He learned how to ride a horse, wield a sword, fire a blaster, and so much more from Emilie

- Became a Senator partly to help sue for the peace and help that Emilie insisted their people needed. His brother was needed on planet so Roman would be the one to go shout at the rest of the galaxy for him

- Could never compare to his older brother, who was always faster, smarter, kinder, stronger. No one ever truly said anything about it to his face, but Roman knew it anyways. Life might have been easier if he could hate Emilie, but he never could

- Knows that he’s expendable compared to Emilie, but has only voiced that thought out loud once. It made Emilie cry and clutch at him tightly apologizing. Roman still hasn’t figured out for what

- Polygender and Polysexual

- Autistic and has ADHD r i p his focus. He struggles to read other people’s emotions the most, and often runs them over with his own interests and need to be stimulated. Has wandered off from the group more than once when something’s caught his attnetion

- Smuggles himself onto Moxiety’s ship to escape the Sith occupation of his planet with vital information concerning the war

- Can occasionally be found in the back of the ship, tracing the stars in the direction of his home. Always when he’s alone though, because he feels like he can’t let the others know how scared and confused he is

- Logan confuses the hell out of him. He can’t even get the most basic read on his emotions or thoughts so he butts head with the Jedi without meaning to. Would adore having his approval and respect though

- Virgil seems strangely attracted to him?? He keeps leaning into Roman’s side?? Which Roman appreciates when he’s feeling so alone but at the same time?? Why?? (Heat + Light = Sun, and Virgil’s plant brain like)

- PATTON PISSES HIM OFF. He doesn’t grasp responsibility or the greater good at all, and doesn’t respect him and how dare he judge him without knowing him!! Roman’s doing what he thinks is right!!

[rosentine-jessika]

So appearently today is national coming out day?

Uh this has been about a 4 year journey. I should start at the beginning I think.

As a kid I didn't like anyone. I dated some boys yes but it wasn't like how others described it, I didn't feel anything besides friendship. Figured I didn't know what I was talking about so I ignored it. I've had all of maybe 5 boyfriends throughout my first 14 or so years. They lasted a year at minimum, through all of them I felt nothing, I thought I had no choice. I had to be with a guy, there were no other options. Then 10th grade (sophomore year) happened and I learned about dating girls and that preferred pronouns and other genders an sexualities existed. I dated three girls that year, one was a week felt nothing and I broke it off, she was a good friend. Then the other two at once, both still really awesome friends, but one of them I stayed with. I finally felt /something/ I didn't feel wrong anymore. I thought that was great, we were great, I didn't have a label because I didn't know what I was. But I figured out I'm demisexual / demiromantic, low sex drive / asexual but enjoys sex sometimes, and honestly I think I might be a little aromantic (spelling??) But I know I feel my version of love for my partner.

Uh sorry got off track. A year into our relationship, I started questioning myself. 'Why am I so okay with being called boy names / gender.' I told my partner we had some misunderstandings but we got through it, I said I was genderfluid for two and a half years. And then one day female pronouns felt foreign, they felt wrong. It had been building in hindsight, feeling more masculine or male day to day, not feeling as feminine as I used too. Until I realised I'm trans, went by that for a bit but it didn't feel whole, not complete.

Um today I wrote all this out just mainly for myself. But maybe someone else can read and see themself in it, who knows.

My wonderful partner has been with me for 5 years (in January), 5 long years. But They be stuck by me and helped me in so many ways and I love them. For that but in general, so thank you Vadim, I love you.

On this coming out day I, Viktor, am telling everyone that I'm trans masculine / a trans guy. I use he / him pronouns, and I'm a demi ace boy. Whom so didn't think about his initials because it's VRV, but honestly I love my name. Who knows, maybe by next year something will change again, and that's cool. Cause everyone is changing all the time, so why can't this?

(Uh so I'm gonna tag Chris cause I read his story and honestly same. If you want me to untag it's completely fine, and there won't be any questions asked. @saralancethesuperbi / @demigenderstuff )

My love is @mapleflavouredvodka

[iamhere222]

First polygamous relationship experience...

So first off I’m demisexual as fuck, and I’ve never had a girlfriend (always liked girls, I’m just picky) anyways, keep this in mind as you read this.

So, yea. There was this girl that I guess from what she’s said was crushing on me for a long time. I never realize when people are flirting and allat, you gotta be straight up. I hate grey areas... anyways she hits me up a couple times, I don’t really pay much mind until like I guess a year later I start getting into the music scene and one day a girl DM’s me talking about how she produces and would love to show me some of her work. (Did not know this was the girl at the time) now before I continue, this girl is dating one of my long time “friends” now this is the same “friend” I always curved, always. I never let him take a dip lol, okay let’s get back on topic.

Ok so boom, I go to her crib. We talk. Tells me her bf which is supposed to be my “friend” was bugging bout me coming over..(he knew I’d bag basically lmao) She makes a beat, well shows me some. A week goes by, we kicking it and I’m thinking I could like her? I gotta be friends with someone first though, I realized just this year what demisexuality is and it just made so much since to me. Everything clicked. I’m all over the place... anyways it comes out that she likes me, she tells her bf and this is where things got weird...

Somehow we agreed to do this. First time I broke it off I said we should maybe slow down because I wanted to make sure everyone wanted to do this, and I didn’t want to lose a long term “friend.” We agreed and we all were kicking it as “friends.” Nothing more, nothing less.

But shorty was always pushing her bf to make it work and to “treat her like you treat me.” Telling him he wasn’t “trying enough.”

He’d always say “you gon leave me for her.”

Red flags all over, this people don’t love themselves how was this gonna work?? Lol?

And nothing should have been forced...

So we’re all dating? Idk how, why, when it happened lmao.. I came out to my mom. He told his mom. She told hers and I met her mom, she met mine, allat. Niggas was happy.

Then sex comes.... 😪

Mind you.. the girl (that unnecessarily came into my life just to fuck shit up) and her bf BEEN wanting a real bitch for a min and I’m not saying I’m the shit, I’m a unicorn lmao...

All the insecurities starting rolling in from both of them, I couldn’t deal I took myself out the equation but felt really nasty cause I opened up to them, I slept in the same bed... gross. I held this girls hand wtf.... had sex with them, I felt comfortable I already knew her bf and considered him a friend. I’m throwing up rn... I just felt used, still do... anyways relationship lasted for 2 weeks.

She said sorry, they both did. “Sorry we made you feel like this?” Ouch right?

She still wants to be friends, I don’t let people have their cake and eat it too... sorry.

When she realized I was done, she said the nastiest shit about me yo, hurt so damn bad.

How she should have never tried to love another person and how I’ll always be the same person, I’ll never get anywhere in life all this bs. This girl only knew me for a month, how can you say I’ll always be the same person when you didn’t know the old one? How she just gonna love her bf and be with him and lord you should have heard what he said about this girl man, I feel bad I think? She deserves more, but so do I.

She set up this whole thing, what she wanted was me with her, her with her bf but not us. So why not say that? lol, why destroy a friendship that was blossoming into something beautiful? 💔

But I’m okay, just a rant.

[maskmakervega]

A bit of alcohol still left in me, went to plague and it was pretty empty so i just experimented with the bartender on a bunch of wierd shit.  There are a lot of things i’d like to discuss with X, or even just say, but she is so sensitive and unable to see straight, that any level of contact would make things worse... i think she will need to hate me to move on.  Here i am talking about her needing to move on, i do see the irony. The fact of the matter is that i am further along the “im over you” trail than she is, by far.  I have the advantage of initiating the breakup though, it was not mutual. I think i would first try to reclarify my points, about how I myself am fundementally broken and not suitable for a long term relationship (being demisexual, that means really any relationship).   1.) I am a being of chaos, which sounds more fun than it is. I wish I could describe what its like to feel that burning passion one day, and the next day get so irritated that i legitimately wish x would just break up with me. Other times i’d feel that passion so strongly that it would drive me higher, and then some bullshit drama would occur and i’d feel the pains and stresses so deeply that *poof*... i’d “blow a fuse” as i call it, and be emotionally dead for days, unable to show that im feeling anything, and not entirely sure what i actually feel. Spans of time where everything is great, then one bad day sets everything on fire and the walls come crashing down. That was our relationship in a nutshell, it was as chaotic as I was. You’re only as strong as your weakest link?  When we were good, we were great. When we were bad, we were terrible. There was no middle ground, it was all or nothing. 2.) X has no ability to see things from a “logical” perspective, when it comes to me. This has many layers, but i suppose we can break it out like this: 2A) X’s absolute best friend in the world, and roommate, is her X that she was with for 5 years. She said the breakup was mutual, but considering the fact he tried to hook up with her shortly after the breakup, and many times asked why she was with me and not with him, indicate he was still in love. The “if you’re not in a relationship with me, then you need to move out” ultimatum lends weight to that too. However, that isn’t all his fault, she doesn’t understand that you can’t be best friends with an X that you grew that close to, because its ridiculously unfair to them. She went on week long vacations with him, multiple day road trips, concerts, weekend trips (all while we were dating), and he’s not supposed to get mixed signals?   She never saw this though, she never understood.   It put a huge strain on the relationship because he didn’t want me over there, and if i was there, I couldn’t hug her or even cuddle up next to her. The whole thing is ludicrous, i don’t know how or why i put up with it. 2B) After all the breakups, and our friends/family seeing just how badly we affected each other, it is easy to see how our loved ones would begin to hate and distrust the person they perceive to be hurting us.  That part she gets. What she doesn’t get is that when EVERYONE, literally everyone, thinks its a terrible idea for you to be with someone, that you would be alienating yourself from them just to appease the other person. That is something i couldn’t get past. It would have been one thing if she put in any level of effort to get to know my family and prove she wasn’t a psycho bitch (met my parents twice, a 3rd time in passing, within a year and they live 10 mins away), but that effort was never made because of her fears. I would try to hang out with her friends and they would either cancel plans, or the other group of friends just hated me too much to even want to get to know me.  Did i mention that 4 of her 7 best friends, were in love with her and actively tried to sway her opinion of me? Now that 2 of those 4 have girlfriends they want nothing to do with her... odd. 2C) Hypocrisy. This was a steady thing, because she never got how hypocritical she was being.  With the roommate situation, i’d see his girlfriend maybe 2-4 days a month, for like 10 minutes each time. This is a person i knew for almost 15 years, and had sex with a handful of times when we were both depressed and trying to feel normal (no chemistry, no attraction to her).  X would get super bent out of shape any time this person was brought up, and always be the same arguments, yet it was absolutely fine for her to live with an ex of 5 years, go on vacations with him, be besties teeheeheeheehee... “it is so different” was the answer i’d get. I have another friend who i on and off talk to, for about 15 years, we sometimes go years without talking, but we can get in hours-long, really interesting conversations. I had romantic feelings for that person years ago, but it never went anywhere and we’ve never actually met. The same thing, because i had some kind of connection, i was supposed to stop associating with this person... she never got the hypocrisy (until it was too late). 3) Horror movies, some music, and food. That was the extent of what we had in common. I am very much into the paranormal, occult/other dimensions/existential theories, big topics that can go on for years with the right person, and she seemed to have no interest. Truth be told, she never really told me her passions and never wanted to get into it. Any time we were together it was just a cuddle party, and we’d sit around getting fat together, eating and watching movies.  That’s good once in a while or a few times a week, as long as you exercise, but i tried on several occasions to exercise and she’d usually find some way to snake out of it and then i wouldn’t bother.  We had very little to talk about, and when i instituted “talk for an hour” mondays, she seemed to be fighting just to get to the end of that hour, like super anxious to just start watching movies.  Was i that boring, was i that repellent? If so, wtf did she see in me? 4) dishonesty: after the breakup she stopped going to therapy, and refuses to go. she doesn’t want to talk to a stranger, but she also won’t tell her friends all the details because she was lying to them about us being together.  This really tore into the relationship that last month because she was spending more time with those friends and less time working on making sure we were doing ok, and saying she needs to focus on them (2 of those 4 or 5 people no longer hang out with her because they have girlfriends). She couldn’t try and get us to hang out, she didn’t want to be judged, so she lied. That puts me into the forced position of needing to lie as well, and i absolutely hate lying. We all get to a point where an unavoidable fight closes in, but we have a secret we need to time the release of information for, but not when you’re coworkers and not when its numerous people. Leading us to... 5) we work together, closely. This makes things really, really fucking uncomfortable because she is super emotional a nuclear warhead during an argument, which she has no qualms about having over the work chat. It makes it impossible to work effectively, makes chat messages that can’t be deleted, linger around as grim reminders, and then there is drama that other people pick up on.  It is a bonehead move to date someone you work closely with, and i should have known better.  She understands, or at least says she understands, that this is one of my non-negotiable points of why we could not get back together, but she seems to have forgotten that as of valentines day. 6) Explosive temper, says mean shit during it.  She has a lot of freudian slips, that and/or she says intentionally mean shit when she’s frustrated. After a breakup she would, at work, rattle off every insult to my character that she could think of.  Telling me i’ll never have a meaningful relationship, that i never loved her, that i’m a piece of shit, that her friends are right, that she made a huge mistake in dating me, etc etc. She’d then play it all off like it never happened, but a lot of what she says, she meant and either didn’t know it, or just tried sweeping it under the rug.  7) back to me, i am not positive of what i want. I’d think about moving out, and where i wanna go, and i want to try and buy a shitty but livable house and work on it for the next 10 years.  Entirely livable, just needs minor work that can be done over time.  She is the kind of person that could not deal with that, she is a “i need a $300k starter home” kind of person, has very expensive tastes. I was always torn and it would cause me problems, when i thought that far into the future because i wouldn’t want to commit to buying something with her and thinking the relationship might fail and problems arise... very logical given how many times we broke up.  on the other hand, i wanted to start off in an apartment together, but it would need to be one that one of us could afford on our own, should the worst happen.  That didn’t foster “confident” feeling about the relationship, always feeling a contingency plan was necessary. Yet... through it all, i still love her very deeply, and wish there was some way for us to be happy together.   It would require too much change to take place, we would have to be different people.

[thekillingquill]

The Most Important Label

Pairing: Veronica x Reader Word Count: 2,224 Warnings: The reader struggles with their sexual identity. I swear. Summary: Veronica Lodge is an out and proud bisexual and Reader hasn’t figured it out. All she knows is that she wants to keep kissing Veronica Lodge. A/N: Dedicating this to anyone out there who is confused about their sexual identity. I am An Old. I still don’t have it figured out and that’s okay. You’re okay if you don’t know. All in our own time, right? Also I didn’t proofread and it’s 3:00 am here.

Kevin Keller coming out was the first time you realized that not all relationships involve a man and a woman. You asked him a lot of questions: How did you know? When did you know? Do your parents know? How did they react? What kind of guy are you attracted to? Can you tell if another person is gay? How did you know what to call yourself? What will you do about kids? Was it hard for you? Are you okay?

Suffice it to say, Kevin isn’t your biggest fan. But the idea that he knew he liked men was baffling to you. His answers didn’t help clear anything up for you: I just do. I’ve always known. Yes, they do. It wasn’t easy for them to hear. The good looking ones. You don’t get a Gaydar app on your phone when you become gay. What do you mean how did I know what to call myself? My name’s been Kevin my whole life. I’m not concerned about kids right now. Is being gay hard? Being a person is hard. Of course I’m okay, are you okay? Jesus.

After that, you learned more about the different orientations: homosexual, bisexual, asexual, demisexual, aromantic… so many that you started to get overwhelmed. You cleared your browser history and forced yourself to stop thinking about it. The dictionary, as your English teacher liked to say, wasn’t written in a day.

Then Veronica Lodge blew into town and it was like everything went from technicolor to rainbow-vision. You couldn’t take your eyes away from her: the red of her lips, the blue sheen of her hair that turned purple under the lights at Pop’s, and her Mona Lisa smile.

It was jarring when she announced her sexuality to the group at Pop’s. Jughead was indifferent, Betty and Archie politely intrigued and Kevin, well, he was ecstatic.

“Bisexual? Really? We all know what kind of guy you go for,” here, Kevin gave Archie a pointed look, “but what kind of girl does Veronica Lodge find attractive?”

You hoped that your face didn’t betray just how interested you were in her answer. She spoke with the confidence of a New Yorker, sending a smirk and a wink your way as she began to paint a picture of the kind of women she found attractive. As she spoke, you couldn’t help but notice (and maybe hope) that what she was describing sounded a lot like you. The wink she sent your way all but confirmed it, and caused you to become so flustered that you knocked over Jughead’s empty glass.

Veronica Lodge was a flirt and she liked to flirt with you most of all, partly because of how you reacted. You were the kind of person who always took a moment to collect yourself before speaking. Around Veronica, you became a stammering mess.

You admired her for her kindness, her determination to try to do the right thing even when it’s difficult, her wit, and her confidence. Veronica Lodge knew who and what she was, and she didn’t apologize to anyone for it. As hard as you tried not to, you started to inhale deeply when she was nearby so that you could get the full impact of her scent. You waited eagerly for her to put her hand into the crook of her arm as you walked down the halls. You began to memorize the texture of her palms whenever they came into contact with your bare skin.

The party at Thornhill changed things. Despite a bad experience with Archie and Betty at the last event held at the estate, Veronica was determined to make an appearance at the soiree and convinced Kevin and yourself to tag along. Reggie was her date for the evening, but it was your arm she held on to. Whether by fate or the vindictiveness of Cheryl Blossom, who had always had a sly remark about your love life, you ended up in the closet with Veronica for seven minutes.

“So what do you want to talk about?” She asked before you kissed her. You whimpered against her mouth with relief. You would no longer deny to yourself that you had fantasized about the taste of her lips. With her warm mouth moving against yours, you admitted to yourself that you wanted her to paint your lips with her preferred shade of red. She could stain your neck in the hue of desire, leave you bruised and broken and confused, and you wouldn't be mad at her for it.

The terrifying truth of it was that you would love her for every second of it. Veronica touched you with a tenderness that you had never experienced before: a gentle guiding hand on the curve of your waist and the other cupping your cheek. You tried to memorize how it felt to have your fingers in her hair.

The kiss ended too soon and your last few moments in the closet together were spent with Veronica helping you clean her lipstick from your face and neck. But nothing could be done for the love bite she bestowed upon your shoulder. You never spoke about the party, but often found your fingers pressing down on the bruise whenever she was near. A reminder that it happened, even if you both pretended that it didn’t.

It was difficult for you to meet her eyes after that night as you wrestled with your emotions. You felt ashamed for both your actions that night and the fact that you wanted to do it again and again and again. Veronica seemed to understand more about that night than you did. She never outright spoke about it, but she looked at you differently, and her words had a measured gentleness to them when directed at you. It was subtle enough that no one else picked up on it.

Veronica started putting in more effort to spend time together outside of school. She invited you and Betty to her home for a sleepover. And while Betty changed in the bathroom, you and Veronica got changed in her bedroom. You stared determinedly at your feet as your heart beat wildly in your chest. While you wouldn’t let yourself look at her, you hoped that she was looking at you and that she liked what she saw.

You couldn’t sleep that night. Not when Veronica was so near and Betty was in the room. At just after four in the morning, you tiptoed out of the room and settled down on the couch trying to steady your breathing. Veronica followed you out moments later and sat on the coffee table facing you. She gave you your space, but was more than willing when you pulled her on top of you and kissed her, hard and desperate.

Things escalated quickly that night: your shaking hands counting her ribs and her hips pressing down against yours as she pulled your shirt over your head. The kisses slowed as she began to explore the skin of your stomach. Her kisses moved down your neck, across your clavicle and then to the valley of your breasts all while her fingers moved slowly higher, waiting for a sign.

“I like you so much, V,” you whispered into the night.

“I like you, too,” she whispered back. Whatever moment you were having was ruined when you started to cry. Veronica held you on her couch and smoothed your tangled hair down while rocking you back and forth. You would have believed it had been a dream if it weren’t for the hickey she bestowed upon the top of your left breast.

Something between the two of you had changed. Your platonic touches in front of your friends gradually increased and Veronica stopped casually seeing Reggie. Whenever you were alone, you’d steal kisses and collect new bruises. She called you her beautiful girl and you smiled all the time, but your happiness felt shaky.

Kevin and Veronica were so sure of themselves. They knew who they were, what they liked, and they weren’t afraid to use the words gay and bisexual. Within days of meeting all of you Veronica had voluntarily shared her sexual orientation. Your happiness kept being interrupted by your constant need to question yourself: what am I?

When you were younger you had a crush on Jughead. The crush lasted a lot longer than you let on when confronted with this fact. Maybe you were attracted to people with dark hair? Was there a word for that? You were scared to share your concerns with Veronica. The root of this fear being that whatever you two had would disappear.

You don’t know what happened. One minute you’re sitting with your friends at Pop’s, just being carefree teenagers, and the next Kevin Keller is dismantling the very foundation upon which you stand. It was karma kicking your ass and entirely your own fault. Veronica’s hand was on the table and you just reached for it and laced your fingers together like it was the most natural thing in the world. Except that it wasn’t, which Kevin was quick to point out.

“What is happening here? Are you two, like, together now?” You froze as Veronica shushed Kevin who had attracted attention from some of the other tables. Veronica glanced quickly over at you and saw the terror in your face.

“We’re friends,” she answered quickly. “We’re just friends, okay?”

The table went silent and it kept dragging on. You couldn’t meet anyone’s eyes. The shame began to choke you and you slipped your fingers out of Veronica’s grip, though she tried to hang on. You walked mechanically to the bathrooms and made it to the stall before you started to cry. Your stomach was in knots from fear, though you couldn’t put to words what exactly you were afraid of. Everything seemed an accurate response.

Your crying was somewhat under control by the time Veronica came into the bathroom. She locked it behind her and waited for you to come out in your own time. After a few more minutes of trying to calm down, you left the bathroom.

Seeing Veronica looking at you with so much kindness broke your tentative control over your emotions and you began to sob anew.

“I’m so sorry, V. This isn’t fair to you, this isn’t fair to you!” Veronica pulled you into her arms and you sobbed brokenly into her shoulder. “It’s not fair, I’m so sorry.”

“Sh,” she soothed, scratching your scalp lightly. “Deep breaths, sweetheart.”

When you had calmed down enough she asked you to explain what you meant when you said it wasn’t fair to her.

“You shouldn’t have to be with someone who is still figuring it out. It’s not fair. You know who you are and what you want and I don’t have a fucking clue. Am I a lesbian? Am I bisexual? Pansexual? Asexual? Demisexual? There are so many orientations and I don’t know where I fit. I don’t know anything except that I like the way you smell and how your skin feels and that I want to keep kissing you.”

Veronica pulled back from your embrace and cupped your face in her hands. She waited until you looked in her eyes. She spoke gently and with a wisdom that has come from walking this path before.

“It’s okay not to know. You have so much time to figure it out. Everyone’s journey is different. Right now, the only label I want you to worry about is happy.”

“What about designer labels?” You asked with a crack to your voice. Veronica smiled, placing a kiss to your forehead.

“Sweetheart, if wearing a garbage bag would make you happy then I’d support you. No matter what label you wear, you’re still going to be my beautiful girl.”

When you returned to the booth at Pop’s you looked Kevin in the eye and laced your fingers with Veronica’s.

“She’s my girlfriend,” you told him with the confidence that comes from dating a New Yorker.

You still weren’t quite ready to be fully public so, for the first eight months of your relationship, only your friends knew that there was more than friendship between the two of you. Every few weeks you’d have a recurring conversation with Veronica, typically on a Sunday morning after having spent the night together.

“I think I know now,” you’d tell her bashfully.

“Oh yeah?” She’d ask with her Mona Lisa smile, eyes glittering happily in the light from the window. She’d listen as you spoke about the newest orientation you’d read up on and how it pertains to how you’ve felt throughout your life.

Then on a Monday, after you’d been together for nine months, you approached Veronica at her locker and pressed a lingering kiss to her mouth in full view of anyone in the hall. It was the first time you’d ever left her speechless.

“I think I know now,” you told her slyly.

“O-oh yeah?” She asked with a dazed smile on her face. You pulled her closer by the waist and pressed a hard kiss to her mouth. This time she was ready and kissed you back with equal enthusiasm. You both giggled as you parted.

“Yeah. I’m in love with you. That’s the only orientation I need right now.”

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Darkwing Duck reboot ideas

I’ve been thinking about what could happen in a Darkwing Duck reboot series for a while now (and seeing some art on Twitter got me thinking even more)

What if the actors that played the Fearsome Four in the TV series on Ducktales were the reverse situation of what happened with Jim Starling? Instead of being jerks, they’re total sweethearts.

[Yes I’m going to make their actor last names puns on their original voice actor’s names]

Megavolt (AKA Dan Capybara)

*Still works in the film industry but more behind the scenes.

*Very introverted and takes a while to trust others.

*Dislikes Jim Starling very much.

*Demisexual. Was in a relationship with Quackerjack’s actor but he broke up with him after an accident caused the Darkwing Duck TV series to end. He still loves him but is angry with him at the same time.

*Works on inventions on the side when he isn’t working on films.

Quackerjack (AKA Michael Bill)

*Switches between acting on TV and in theater since he loves acting so much.

*Openly gay

*Loves the Quackerjack role so much and sometimes dresses as him to visit kids in the hospital and give them toys.

*Still loves Megavolt’s actor and wants to get back together with him.

Bushroot (AKA Toni Incana)

*Did the occasional acting gig when he was younger but after Darkwing Duck ended, he retired quietly and went to work at the St. Canard University Library.

*Is very shy but friendly if you take the time to get to know him.

*Is still dating Liquidator’s actor to this day and they live together. They instantly clicked while on the set for the show.

*Bisexual

*Was very scared of Jim Starling when on set for Darkwing Duck. He tried to avoid him when they weren’t going over lines or fight choreography.

Liquidator (AKA Jack Alaunt)

*Did commercial work on the side to work his way up in the acting world.

*Was very protective of Bushroot’s actor when he met him and saw how temperamental Jim Starling could be. This led to them becoming friends and eventually dating.

*Very extroverted and loves people.

*Still does commercial gigs to this day which pay very well.

*Pansexual.