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tlbodine · 5 years ago

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The Wendigo is Not What You Think

There’s been a recent flurry of discussion surrounding the Wendigo -- what it is, how it appears in fiction, and whether non-Native creators should even be using it in their stories. This post is dedicated to @halfbloodlycan, who brought the discourse to my attention.

Once you begin teasing apart the modern depictions of this controversial monster, an interesting pattern emerges -- namely, that what pop culture generally thinks of as the “wendigo” is a figure and aesthetic that has almost nothing in common with its Native American roots...but a whole lot in common with European Folklore.

What Is A Wendigo?

The Algonquian Peoples, a cluster of tribes indigenous to the region of the Great Lakes and Eastern Seaboard of Canada and the northern U.S., are the origin of Wendigo mythology. For them, the Wendigo (also "windigo" or "Witigo" and similar variations) is a malevolent spirit. It is connected to winter by way of cold, desolation, and selfishness. It is a spirit of destruction and environmental decay. It is pure evil, and the kind of thing that people in the culture don't like to talk about openly for fear of inviting its attention.

Individual people can turn into the Wendigo (or be possessed by one, depending on the flavor of the story), sometimes through dreams or curses but most commonly through engaging in cannibalism. Considering the long, harsh winters in the region, it makes sense that the cultural mythology would address the cannibalism taboo.

For some, the possession of the Wendigo spirit is a very real thing, not just a story told around the campfire. So-called "wendigo psychosis" has been described as a "culture-bound" mental illness where an individual is overcome with a desire to eat people and the certainty that he or she has been possessed by a Wendigo or is turning into a Wendigo. Obviously, it was white people encountering the phenomenon who thought to call it "psychosis," and there's some debate surrounding the whole concept from a psychological, historical, and anthropological standpoint which I won't get into here -- but the important point here is that the Algonquian people take this very seriously. (1) (2)

(If you're interested in this angle, you might want to read about the history of Zhauwuno-geezhigo-gaubow (or Jack Fiddler), a shaman who was known as something of a Wendigo hunter. I'd also recommend the novel Bone White by Ronald Malfi as a pretty good example of how these themes can be explored without being too culturally appropriative or disrespectful.)

Wendigo Depictions in Pop Culture

Show of hands: How many of you reading this right now first heard of the Wendigo in the Alvin Schwartz Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark book?

That certainly was my first encounter with the tale. It was one of my favorite stories in the book as a little kid. It tells about a rich man who goes hunting deep in the wilderness, where people rarely go. He finds a guide who desperately needs the money and agrees to go, but the guide is nervous throughout the night as the wind howls outside until he at last bursts outside and takes off running. His tracks can be found in the snow, farther and farther apart as though running at great speed before abruptly ending. The idea being that he was being dragged along by a wind-borne spirit that eventually picked him up and swept him away.

Schwartz references the story as a summer camp tale well-known in the Northeastern U.S., collected from a professor who heard it in the 1930s. He also credits Algernon Blackwood with writing a literary treatment of the tale -- and indeed, Blackwood's 1910 novella "The Wendigo" has been highly influential in the modern concept of the story.(3) His Wendigo would even go on to find a place in Cthulhu Mythos thanks to August Derleth.

Never mind, of course, that no part of Blackwood's story has anything in common with the traditional Wendigo myth. It seems pretty obvious to me that he likely heard reference of a Northern monster called a "windigo," made a mental association with "wind," and came up with the monster for his story.

And so would begin a long history of white people re-imagining the sacred (and deeply frightening) folklore of Native people into...well, something else.

Through the intervening decades, adaptations show up in multiple places. Stephen King's Pet Sematary uses it as a possible explanation for the dark magic of the cemetery's resurrectionist powers. A yeti-like version appears as a monster in Marvel Comics to serve as a villain against the Hulk. Versions show up in popular TV shows like Supernatural and Hannibal. There's even, inexplicably, a Christmas episode of Duck Tales featuring a watered-down Wendigo.

Where Did The Antlered Zombie-Deer-Man Come From?

In its native mythology, the Wendigo is sometimes described as a giant with a heart of ice. It is sometimes skeletal and emaciated, and sometimes deformed. It may be missing its lips and toes (like frostbite). (4)

So why, when most contemporary (white) people think of Wendigo, is the first image that comes to mind something like this?

Well...perhaps we can thank a filmmaker named Larry Fessenden, who appears to be the first person to popularize an antlered Wendigo monster. (5) His 2001 film (titled, creatively enough, Wendigo) very briefly features a sort of skeletal deer-monster. He’d re-visit the design concept in his 2006 film, The Last Winter. Reportedly, Fessenden was inspired by a story he’d heard in his childhood involving deer-monsters in the frozen north, which he connected in his mind to the Algernon Blackwood story.

A very similar design would show up in the tabletop game Pathfinder, where the “zombie deer-man” aesthetic was fully developed and would go on to spawn all sorts of fan-art and imitation. (6) The Pathfinder variant does draw on actual Wendigo mythology -- tying it back to themes of privation, greed, and cannibalism -- but the design itself is completely removed from Native folklore.

Interestingly, there are creatures in Native folklore that take the shape of deer-people -- the ijiraq or tariaksuq, shape-shifting spirits that sometimes take on the shape of caribou and sometimes appear in Inuit art in the form of man-caribou hybrids (7). Frustratingly, the ijiraq are also part of Pathfinder, which can make it a bit hard to find authentic representations vs pop culture reimaginings. But it’s very possible that someone hearing vague stories of northern Native American tribes encountering evil deer-spirits could get attached to the Wendigo, despite the tribes in question being culturally distinct and living on opposite sides of the continent.

That “wendigo” is such an easy word to say in English probably has a whole lot to do with why it gets appropriated so much, and why so many unrelated things get smashed in with it.

I Love the Aesthetic But Don’t Want to Be Disrespectful, What Do I Do?

Plundering folklore for creature design is a tried-and-true part of how art develops, and mythology has been re-interpreted and adapted countless times into new stories -- that’s how the whole mythology thing works.

But when it comes to Native American mythology, it’s a good idea to apply a light touch. As I’ve talked about before, Native representation in modern media is severely lacking. Modern Native people are the survivors of centuries of literal and cultural genocide, and a good chunk of their heritage, language, and stories have been lost to history because white people forcibly indoctrinated Native children into assimilating. So when those stories get taken, poorly adapted, and sent back out into the public consciousness as make-believe movie monsters, it really is an act of erasure and violence, no matter the intentions of the person doing it. (8)

So, like...maybe don’t do that?

I won’t say that non-Native people can’t be interested in Wendigo stories or tell stories inspired by the myth. But if you’re going to do it, either do it respectfully and with a great deal of research to get it accurate...or use the inspiration to tell a different type of story that doesn’t directly appropriate or over-write the mythology (see above: my recommendation for Bone White).

But if your real interest is in the “wendigocore�� aesthetic -- an ancient and powerful forest protector, malevolent but fiercely protective of nature, imagery of deer and death and decay -- I have some good news: None of those things are really tied uniquely to Native American mythology, nor do they have anything in common with the real Wendigo.

Where they do have a longstanding mythic framework? Europe.

Europeans have had a long-standing fascination with deer, goats, and horned/antlered forest figures. Mythology of white stags and wild hunts, deer as fairy cattle, Pan, Baphomet, Cernunnos, Herne the Hunter, Black Phillip and depictions of Satan -- the imagery shows up again and again throughout Greek, Roman, and British myth. (9)

Of course, some of these images and figures are themselves the product of cultural appropriation, ancient religions and deities stolen, plundered, demonized and erased by Christian influences. But their collective existence has been a part of “white” culture for centuries, and is probably a big part of the reason why the idea of a mysterious antlered forest-god has stuck so swiftly and firmly in our minds, going so far as to latch on to a very different myth. (Something similar has happened to modern Jersey Devil design interpretations. Deer skulls with their tangle of magnificent antlers are just too striking of a visual to resist).

Seriously. There are so, so many deer-related myths throughout the world’s history -- if aesthetic is what you’re after, why limit yourself to an (inaccurate) Wendigo interpretation? (10)

So here’s my action plan for you, fellow white person:

Stop referring to anything with antlers as a Wendigo, especially when it’s very clearly meant to be its own thing (the Beast in Over the Garden Wall, Ainsworth in Magus Bride)

Stop “reimagining” the mythology of people whose culture has already been targeted by a systematic erasure and genocide

Come up with a new, easy-to-say, awesome name for “rotting deer man, spirit of the forest” and develop a mythology for it that doesn’t center on cannibalism

We can handle that, right?

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NOTES:

1 - https://io9.gizmodo.com/wendigo-psychosis-the-probably-fake-disease-that-turns-5946814

2 - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wendigo#Wendigo_psychosis

3 - https://www.gutenberg.org/files/10897/10897-h/10897-h.htm

4 - https://www.legendsofamerica.com/mn-wendigo/

5- https://www.reddit.com/r/Cryptozoology/comments/8wu2nq/wendigo_brief_history_of_the_modern_antlers_and/

6 - https://pathfinderwiki.com/wiki/Wendigo

7 - https://www.mythicalcreaturescatalogue.com/single-post/2017/12/06/Ijiraq

8 - https://www.backstoryradio.org/blog/the-mythology-and-misrepresentation-of-the-windigo/

9 - https://www.terriwindling.com/blog/2014/12/the-folklore-of-goats.html

10 - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Deer_in_mythology

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satanschild01 · 4 years ago

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Painful Melody Part 2

Songs Referenced:

I took a pill in a ibiza ~ Mie Bonser remix

Circles ~ Post Malone

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

Word Count: 1752

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A month has gone by since getting the acceptance letter for U.A. When I called my dad it went the same as every other conversation goes with him on the phone

“...hello?” my dad starts off saying “is there something wrong...I’m really busy” every time I call he says the same thing “No there's nothing wrong dad… I just wanted to tell you I got into U.A” “Oh...okay good job sweety… now i’ve got to go, I’m about to head into a very important meeting” then he hangs up. It goes that way every time. At the most he calls around every month or so, the longest time I've gone without getting a call from him was 3 months. He still pays the bills for the apartment and sends money so I can get groceries and such...but that's it. Just me and Cheeto living alone in a small apartment complex.

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‘You don't ever wanna step off that roller coaster and be all alone’

And once again I find myself in front of U.A now in my new school uniform wearing my dark red hair down with one black barrette keeping my hair out of the right side of my face, and letting my hair drape over my left covering most of the scar.

‘You don't wanna ride the bus like this’

‘It looks like I have enough time to zone out to the music’ I thought to myself as I look at the time on my phone. I continue walking through the hallways finding my class focusing on the music and not where I’m going because I walk into the wrong class

‘I'm just a singer who already blew his shot’

“Whoa watch it there kid!” a tall woman called out “I think you're headed the wrong way” I snapped out of my daze and looked up to the woman who was dressed in a very inappropriate outfit. I looked at the sign on the door and noticed it said 1-D “Y-yes...sorry” I said and speed walked to the end of the hall where my classroom was class 1-A. As I come up to the door I hear yelling from the other side sounding like Iida ‘he must be telling someone to act less disrespectful’ I thought to myself smiling knowing it isn’t me he's yelling at

“Don’t put your feet on the desk!” yelled Iida at the blond who bumped into me as I was walking into the school during the entrance exams “Oh yea!” the blond yelled “Who gives a fuck!”

I giggle when I notice how Iida’s face goes into pure shock at the comment, and I walk over to the two to calm him down

“Hey Iida!” I said cheerfully “Just leave the guy be, if he gets in trouble he gets in trouble… because I don’t really think he cares what your saying” I laugh tilting my head to the side and notice a large yellow caterpillar laying on the ground at the front of the room.

I walk towards the yellow caterpillar, while not bringing any attention to myself looking at it more closely noticing that there's someone inside it. I quickly turn around and find my seat thinking its better to not disturb whatever is in there. In front of where I sit was the girl I saved during the exam, and another girl behind me with a black ponytail.

“Oh, hi!” the girl with the brown hair said “I’d like to thank you for saving me during the test! I’m Ochaco Uraraka” the girl behind me tapped my shoulder getting my attention before I could respond to Uraraka “I’m Momo Yaoyorozu” the teen said “I’m Scarlett Patterson” I said to the two girls. Uraraka looked up at me in bewilderment at the sound of my name “So you’re American!” she exclaimed ‘ugh is this going to happen everytime I introduce myself?’ I Thought to myself “Yep” I replied not wanting to go through the same thing I had to with Iida “That's so cool!” Uraraka said cheerfully “I’ve never met anyone from there before! Do you think you could help me with my english? I really suck at it, and don’t want to get bad marks in English” she says, sounding down when she mentions how bad she is at speaking English “sure! I’ve never really tried to help anyone with english before but i’ll do my b-” before I could finish what I was saying my phone dinged reminding me what I need to do

“Patterson!” Iida exclaimed “You should not have your phone's ringer on the bell is going to ring soon!” he says while chopping at the air vigorously

“Sorry Iida” I say apologetically “It was just my alarm telling me I have to take something” I reach into my bag grabbing a small orange cylinder container with pills inside, grabbing one and quickly putting the bottle back. As I go to take a drink of my water a pink girl with horns popped up in front of me

“Hey!” she says “I’m Mina Ashido, you can just call me Mina” she says quickly, then points to the pill in my hand “What are you taking?” She asks

“It’s just a really strong painkiller for my headaches” I say trying to stay calm as she get close to my face “My quirk gives my really bad headaches sometimes, so I’m supposed to take these once a day, even if they don’t last for very long” I partially lied not wanting the real reason reason for why I’m taking these pills

Before Mina could say anything else the bell rang and the thing that was inside the caterpillar stood up. His eyes glowed red and his hair floating up. At that point the music stopped playing. I stood up, complete shock on my face. His eyes went back to black and his hair went down, and the music started playing again. Everyone is now staring at me since i’m the only one standing

“How...you-you made the music go away?” I mumbled quietly for only a few could hear “Do you mind me asking...what’s your quirk?” The man stood there for a moment before replying

“My name is Shota Aizawa and I am your home room teacher, answering...Patterson’s question does anyone know the answer? He asks the class. Midoriya shakily raises his hand before standing “Y-your quirk i-is erasure?” the boy says with a questioned tone, and Mr.Aizawa nods “S-so that would mean y-your the underground hero Eraserhead” the erasure hero back at him with a bored look on his face and nods again “Yes that is correct” Mr.Aizawa says “Now please put on your gym uniforms and meet me on the field in 5 minutes”

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“Okay” Mr.Aizawa says “We are going to be doing a quirk assessment test, we will not be going to the opening ceremonies because if you are going to be heroes there is no time to part take in illogical things” he states in a monotone voice

“Patterson” my head snapped up at the mention of my name “Since you got first in the practical exam you can go first. Throw the softball while using your quirk as far as you can, just stay within the circle” I nodd and stand where I was instructed to, activating my quirk forcing the music playing inside my head to the inside of the ball making it heavier as I make the volume louder

'Til we were upside down I'll be the bad guy now’ I wind my arm back and whip it forward throwing the ball as fast as I can. A few seconds later and a beep came from Mr.Aizawa’s phone. He then turns it around showing the class ‘100 meters’ on the screen

“Okay. We are now going to start with 50 meter dash, followed by grip strength, and end with the softball throw” Mr.Aizawa states bankly “Whoever finishes with the least amount of points will be expelled” After that last comment the whole class erupts in mild panic for if they got last

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“I should of known it was just a method for us to go all out” I pout turning to my new group of friends Iida, Uraraka, and Midoriya “You still did really great tho Scarlette!” Uraraka chirped “You placed 3rd out of the whole class!” “Yea I know, but I felt bad for you Midoriya, your so nice and I didn’t want you being expelled because you can’t control your quirk” I tell to Midoriya who just seemed over all confused on the comment I made

Midoriya turned his gaze towards be

“I w-was wondering if you could tell me about your quirk. It's really interesting. '' Midoriya stutters while pulling out a notebook and opening it to a new page “sure I guess?” I agreed

“My quirk is called ‘Internal Melody’ . There is always music playing in my head that I can force anyone who I touch with five fingers to hear the song making it as loud or as quiet as I please. There's another part of my quirk I want to keep secret until the sports festival...so i’ll skip that.” I explain “The drawbacks are I get painful headaches, almost everyday from hou loud the music can be, if my quirk gets too intense I can black out for a few hours or maybe more… It's only happened a few times so I don’t really know, my emotions easily change depending on the song playing which gave me a diagnosis of bipolar with mixed features...which is terrible, and a few other things” I finish slightly panting at the large amount of information I just gave out. The others just stare at me in bewilderment “wow...I-I can’t imagine going through something like that” Uraraka says “If you ever need someone to talk to you can always come to me, especially if you don’t have any of your american friends with you and if you’d rather not talk to your parents about i-” “Don’t worry about it Uraraka” I interrupt “I’m used to this. But if it’s ever too hard to deal with I’ll definitely tell you” I say hugging Uraraka then running of in the direction of the train station yelling back “I’ll see you guys tomorrow!”

‘Seasons change and our love went cold feed the flame 'cause we can't let go’

#mha fanfiction #mha #mha momo #midoryia #daddyishues #mina #bakugo #iida #midoriya izuku #uraraka ochako #half-n-half #oneforall #allforone #eraserhead #dadzawa #shotaaizawa #dad might #present mic

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jmeelee · 5 years ago

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Sterek Bingo 2019 • Theme: Wild Card

Cora’s twenty-first birthday party is in full swing when the vibration of an incoming text jiggles Derek’s right ass cheek. He pulls his phone from the pocket of his too-tight jeans to find a befuddling text: There myst be sumething wrong w my eyes.

Derek’s future does not include being an Alpha, and that’s fine; he’ll happily leave the politics, management, and difficult decision-making to his older sister, Laura. Instead, he’s been training the last few years—learning languages and studying cultures and meeting werewolves all over the world—to become his pack’s liaison. He’s young, but his good name and reputation are already circulating, so he automatically thinks, this must be a young werewolf in need of help. Plus, it’s no secret to the supernatural community that his beta-shifted eyes are blue, instead of gold.

His thumb’s hovering over the touchscreen when a drunk girl bumps into him, her red solo cup full of cheap beer exploding like a water balloon all over the front of his olive-green henley. “Oops,” she slurs, lids drooping over bloodshot blue eyes. She gropes his soaked pectorals with her bare hands.

Derek’s eyebrows berate her before he heads for the staircase. He’s tired of pseudo-babysitting intoxicated college kids anyway.

By the time he’s showered off the stale booze and changed into pajamas, almost an hour has passed. He grabs his phone off the nightstand to finally reply to his cryptic messenger, and finds a new text: i can’t take them off of u.

What the hell? It wasn’t a cry for help at all; it was a lame pick up line. Derek’s mood sours as he imagines Cora egging one of her immature girlfriends into sending him the terrible come-on. The culprit is probably downstairs right now. He swipes over the message, deleting it, and powers off his cell before climbing into bed, pulling a pillow over his head to drown out the noise.

He’s so done with this day.

A week and a half later Derek’s pushing a cart up and down the aisles at the grocery store when his phone chirps. He stares at the flashing number of the unknown contact, wondering why it looks vaguely familiar before he opens the text. Did you invent the airplane? Because you seem Wright for me.

At least there are no typos this time.

He almost deletes the message right away, but the split second he hesitates gives him an excuse to type back. This is clearly Gustave Whitehead erasure and I won’t stand for it.

The return response comes before he can black out his screen. Dude. Are we having our first fight?

Derek doesn’t hesitate this time. Find someone else to annoy.

Rude.

He puts his phone away and staunchly ignores the smile tugging at the corners of his lips.

He’s already in bed, and would never have heard the vibration except for his supernatural hearing. My name’s Microsoft. How about I crash at your place.

Derek blinks the sleep from his eyes enough to type back, I own a Mac.

In the morning, he sees the response. Harsh dude.

You must be a trumpet because you’re making me horny.

Wow. This is your worst one yet.

Is that a challenge, Derek?

NO!

Did it hurt when you fell from the vending machine? Because you a snack!

Please stop.

“Derek, answer that or I’m going to punch you in the face,” Laura threatens between spoonfuls of cookie-dough ice cream. The harsh buzzing of his phone sounds like a jackhammer to their sensitive werewolf ears, and it’s disrupting their movie marathon.

If you were a transformer, you’d be Optimus Fine. Oh lord.

“What’s with the sappy smile, big brother?” Cora coos.

Derek schools his face into a scowl. “Nothing.”

She throws the blanket off her lap and lunges for the phone in his hand. A tussle ensues. Derek is older and stronger, but she’s fast, sneaky and not above fighting dirty, and she grips the phone before he knows what happened. “What the hell is this?” She’s screeching with laughter, holding his cell out so Laura can look. “Who’s sending you lame pick-up lines?”

“Why don’t you tell me?” he gripes. “You put her up to this.”

Cora furrows her brow. “Uh, what?”

“The night of your birthday party, the first pick-up line came through. It was someone at your party. I figured you put her up to it as a joke.”

She checks the number again. “The only person I ever gave your number to was Erica, for official pack business. This isn’t Erica’s number.” She grabs her cell off the coffee table and punches in the digits. “Well, I’ll be damned.” Cora laughs so hard her eyes water.

“Who is she?” Laura asks.

“Not a she.” Cora holds out her phone with a shit-eating grin so Derek and Laura can read her contacts. “It’s Stiles Stilinski.”

Terse silence follows her declaration. Then Derek asks, “Who the fuck is Stiles?”

6 & 7

“Forty-nine, fifty, fifty-one…” Derek counts out his squats in a whisper, monitoring his form in the full-length mirror. He feels his phone vibrate, and the grin reflecting back at him is disgusting. He should be ashamed.

He gently places the weight back on the rack when he completes the set and digs the phone from his mesh shorts.

Is your phone in your back pocket? Because that ass is calling me!

Derek honestly can’t say what possesses him to turn around, open his camera app, and hold the phone over his left shoulder. Perfect timing ur not following me r u? he writes back, attaching a photo of his butt. A dude doing kettlebell lunges across the gym gives him the stink eye.

Stiles answers with a string of peach emojis, which Derek understands, and a single unicorn emoji, which he doesn’t.

I know who you are, btw. Stiles Stilinski, the sheriff's kid? Cora figured it out

Usually, the response comes immediately, but Derek’s walking out to his car before he receives two simultaneous replies.

Well since the cat (be gr8ful i didn’t say pussy) is out of the bag

my mother used to tell me to follow my dreams so… where will you be tonight?

Derek sits behind the wheel, staring at his phone, weighing the pros and cons. He’s never gone on a blind date before, and he’s been burned, badly, in the past. Being single is sometimes lonely, but at least it’s safe. He doesn’t want to put a defenseless, unwitting human in harm’s way. His brain keeps supplying him with a list of perfectly rational reasons why he should leave their playful correspondence in the sandbox of cyberspace, but his heart furtively whispers what if.

8 & 9

There’s a live band at the bar, guitar player crooning a popular rock ballad while Derek nurses a beer for show. He checks his smartwatch for the seventh time in a span of three minutes and happens to catch the message notification as it pops up.

Do you know CPR? You better learn because ur taking my breath away

He spins around, searching for guys on their phones, frustrated to find almost every man in the bar staring at their screen. A baby-faced guy plops down on the open stool next to him as Derek’s eyes scan the crowd.

“Scott bet me I wouldn’t be able to start a conversation with the most beautiful person in the room.” Derek glances back, startled, to find a generous mouth smiling at him. “What should we do with his money?”

His first thought: HOT. His second thought: young. “Tell me you’re twenty-one,” Derek greets him. “Actually, please tell me you’re legal.”

Stiles dramatically crosses his heart, eyes wide. “I only look seventeen, I promise. It’s a blessing and a curse.” He holds out a sturdy but slender, long-fingered hand. “I’m Stiles. It’s nice to officially meet you.”

Derek takes his outstretched hand in a firm grip and swears he feels a zing when their skin makes contact. It’s official; he’s been single too long. “Derek. Let me buy you a drink, and you can tell me how you got my number in the first place.”

Stiles winks as Derek flags the bartender. “A gentleman never reveals his secrets.”

“Gentleman?” Derek, cold, fresh beer in hand, arches a brow. “Based on some of the texts I’ve received, I’m not sure gentleman is the correct term.”

Stiles clinks his drink against Derek’s. “Touché.” He eyes Derek over the lip of his brown bottle. “So, did you lace your pilsner with wolfsbane, or do you enjoy the taste?”

Derek, mid-sip, spits his beer onto the bartop. “What the hell?” he sputters, mopping at the mess with the world’s least absorbent cocktail napkin.

Stiles calmly takes a sip. “Come on, dude. My father’s the sheriff, and this town is literally a supernatural shit-show. If that wasn’t enough, my best friend is Scott McCall.”

“McCall?” Derek leans closer, soggy napkins forgotten, to whisper, “The True Alpha?” Derek’s met Scott at a few local pack gatherings.

“Yup,” Stiles replies. “He was bitten by a rogue werewolf when we were sixteen. So you could say I’ve been a little-” He makes exaggerated air quotes- “involved in the supernatural scene the past few years.”

Derek leans back, accessing Stiles in a new light: deceptively lean physique, handsome, impish face, the ability to make Derek laugh, and take him by surprise. The laundry list of reasons not to do this quickly goes up in smoke in the face of being able to show his true nature to a partner. Stiles smiles like he knows exactly what Derek is thinking.

“So, what do you say? Do I pass the test? Should we give going on an official first date a shot?”

“One condition,” Derek demands, holding up his index finger. “You’re not allowed to use a single pick up line all night.”

Stiles squawks, tossing long arms into the air. “You might as well ask me not to breathe! Or the Mets not to lose!”

“Chicken?” he asks, leaning into Stiles’ space. Derek quirks a brow and lifts his chin, eyes drawn like a magnet to Stiles’ tongue when it sneaks out to wet his lips.

“Hell no. Challenge accepted. Eight pm Saturday night.” An impish grin. “I’m gonna date you so hard, Hale.”

As far as (official) first dates go, it’s pretty damn amazing. The conversation flows as easily as the wine at dinner, and Stiles’ running jokes and commentary during the shitty movie doesn’t bother Derek at all. He’s thrilled to find their easy banter translates to real life, after weeks of electronic flirtation.

“Hey,” Derek whispers as they say good-night at Stiles’ apartment door. He wraps his arms around Stiles’ waist, pulling him close. He brushes a kiss, feather-light, across Stiles’ mouth and smirks. “Are you a magician? Because when I’m with you, everyone else disappears.”

Stiles leans back, arms still locked around Derek’s shoulders. “What the hell, man! You said no pick-up lines!”

Derek tuts. “I said you couldn’t use any. I never made the same promise.”

Stiles’ eyes narrow. “Serious question?”

“Shoot.”

“Will there be a second date?”

A second, a third, and more, if Derek has any say in the matter. “Absolutely.”

Stiles’ grin is slightly manic as he untangles slim fingers from Derek’s hair. “Well then, there’s probably something I should show you.” He holds up a hand in front of Derek’s face and snaps his fingers. A spark of light fizzles to life before his eyes, emanating from Stiles’ palm, and burning ozone singes the fine hairs inside his nose.

“Huh,” Derek replies, dumbly. “I did not see that coming.”

Stiles’ coy smile ignites something hot inside him. “I have some other party tricks I could show you if you want to come in?”

Derek leans forward again, chasing the bright glimmer of magic between them, the one that’s been there the whole time. “Oh, absolutely.”

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For @evanesdust and based on THIS PROMPT by @faladrast

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Anti-Love Collection Track List

Below the cut is a list of every track on every disc of the Anti-Love Album. I thought pretty seriously about going through and linking to music videos and bandcamp and whatnot, but, yeah, that’s not happening tonight.

Disc One(Chaotic/Static Cling Enterprises)

1. Could You Use Me? Harry Groener and Jodi Benson 2. Hit the Road, Jack Ray Charles and the Raelettes 3. Down with Love Caxton Swing 4. You're No Good Linda Ronstadt 5. It Ain't Me, Babe The Turtles 6. Already Gone The Eagles 7. Paradise By the Dashboard Light Meatloaf 8. Don't Believe a Word Andy Taylor 9. I Will Survive Gloria Gaynor 10. I've Done Everything for You Rick Springfield 11. Love Stinks The J. Geils Band 12. Don't You Want Me The Human League 13. Goodbye to You Scandal 14. Love's Been a Little Bit Hard on Me Juice Newton 15. I Could Be Happy Altered Images 16. What Do All the People Know The Monroes 17. Jukebox (Don't Put Another Dime) The Flirts 18. No More Words Berlin 19. She Don't Love Nobody Nick Lowe 20. So In Love Orchestral Manoeuvres in the Dark 21. Let Your Love Go Bread

Disc Two(Chaotic/Static Cling Enterprises) 1. Would I Lie to You Eurythmics 2. Keep Your Hands to Yourself The Georgia Satellites 3. Twisting They Might Be Giants 4. I Don't Want Your Love Duran Duran 5. One More Minute Weird Al Yankovic 6. What Part of No Cactus Country 7. Itty Bitty Little Single Solitary Piece O' My Heart Lari White 8. That Was Yesterday Wynonna Judd 9. Jane Barenaked Ladies 10. Better Things to Do Terri Clark 11. Bury the Shovel Clay Walker 12. No News Lonestar 13. Spiderwebs No Doubt 14. She Won't Change Her Mind The Band with Rocks In 15. Me Neither Brad Paisley 16. Waste Smash Mouth 17. Goodbye Earl Dixie Chicks 18. Giving up on Love Ataris 19. Kiss This Aaron Tippin 20. Last Chance to Lose Your Keys Brand New 21. It's Only Me (The Wizard of Magicland) Barenaked Ladies

Disc Three(Aberration, Inc.) 1. Can't Hold Us Down Christina Aguilera feat. Lil Kim 2. The Frug Rilo Kiley 3. A Man/Me/Then Jim Rilo Kiley 4. Nothing Came Out The Mouldy Peaches 5. All That She Wants Ace of Base 6. You Oughta Know Alanis Morissette 7. The More You Ruv Someone Avenue Q 8. Roses Outkast 9. Day Tripper Live 10. Sexx Laws Beck 11. Vienna Billy Joel 12. Sunday Girl Blondie 13. You Don't Own Me The Blow Monkeys 14. You Give Love a Bad Name Bon Jovi 15. Protons, Neutrons, Electrons Cat Empire 16. Girls Just Wanna Have Fun Cyndi Lauper 17. Mix Tape Avenue Q 18. 31st & M The Daycare Stranglers 19. Fuck It (I Don't Want You Back) Eamon 20. Inside Out Eve 6 21. Beep The Pussycat Dolls feat. will.i.am

Disc Four(Aberration, Inc.) 1. Just One of Those Things Frank Sinatra 2. Just Friends Gavin Degraw 3. Defying Gravity Idina Menzel and Kristin Chenoweth 4. Sugar Tick Tick Boom Cast 5. Gold Digger Kanye West feat. Jamie Foxx 6. Bag of Money The Low Life 7. Scotty Doesn't Know Lustra 8. I'm So Alone The Mad Caddies 9. World at Large Modest Mouse 10. Get Over It OK Go 11. People Got to Be Free The Rascals 12. Tainted Love Soft Cell 13. Don't Do Me Like That Tom Petty 14. What's Love Got to Do with It Tina Turner 15. He Wasn't Man Enough Toni Braxton 16. Undone (The Sweater Song) Weezer 17. Funny Honey Renee Zellweger 18. I'll Never Be Jealous Again Reta Shaw and Eddie Foy, Jr. 19. Everyone Else Has Had More Sex Than Me Ambient Irony 20. Dirty Little Secret All American Rejects

Disc Five(Chaotic/Static Cling Enterprises) 1. Will you Love Me Tomorrow The Shirelles 2. Desperate But Not Serious Adam Ant 3. Ready to Run Dixie Chicks 4. I'm Gonna Miss Her Brad Paisley 5. Love Is Hell Ryan Adams 6. It Ain't None of Your Business Missing Persons 7. Stupid Boy Keith Urban 8. Before He Cheats Carrie Underwood 9. You Don't Love Me Anymore Weird Al Yankovic 10. The Song That Goes Like This Christopher Sieber and Sara Ramirez 11. (I'm Gonna) Run Away Joan Jett and the Blackhearts 12. I'm Not in Love Talking Heads 13. You Keep Me Hangin' On Kim Wilde 14. Don't Let's Start Common Rotation 15. That's Enough of That Mila Mason 16. Leave in Silence Depeche Mode 17. Sign of the Times The Belle Stars 18. Break Your Heart Barenaked Ladies 19. Signs of Life Journey 20. Cell Block Tango The Six Merry Murderesses of Cook County Jail

Disc Six(Aberration, Inc.) 1. Designated Drinker Alan Jackson and George Strait 2. Video Game Heart All Girl Summer Fun Band 3. Twisting They Might Be Giants 4. Fighter Christina Aguilera 5. Found Out About You Gin Blossom 6. What Is This Feeling Kristin Chenoweth and Idina Menzel 7. Therapy Amy Spranger and Raul Esparza 8. Since U Been Gone Kelly Clarkson 9. Number One John Legend feat. Kanye West 10. Material Girl Madonna 11. Build Me Up, Buttercup The Goops 12. Schadenfreude Natalie Venetia Belcon and Rick Lyon 13. Happy Now Gwen Stefani 14. Why Don't You Get a Job Offspring 15. Cry Me a River Justin Timberlake 16. Ugly Ugly Mustache Girl The Skakabobs 17. You Don't Know How It Feels Tom Petty 18. Pink Triangle Weezer 19. Let Me Be Lonely Will Hoge 20. Buttons The Pussycat Dolls 21. My Love (The Christian Bale Experience) Sweet Tired Kitten

Disc Seven(Chaotic/Static Cling Enterprises) 1. Let's Hear It For Love Smoking Popes 2. She Hates Me Puddle of Mudd 3. In and Out of My Life (In a Day) The Pandoras 4. Cry of the Wild Goose Frankie Laine 5. Way Away Yellowcard 6. Blue Monday New Order 7. Kerosene Miranda Lambert 8. Don't Shed a Tear Paul Carrack 9. Ghost of Love The Proclaimers 10. I Write Sins Not Tragedies Panic at the Disco 11. Smile Lily Allen 12. Goodbye Says It All BlackHawk 13. Careless Memories Duran Duran 14. Nowhere Girl B-Movie 15. Hard to Be a Husband, Hard to Be a Wife Chely Wright and Brad Paisley 16. Not About Love Fiona Apple 17. Take Out the Trash They Might Be Giants 18. U + Ur Hand Pink 19. Good News Neurotic Outsiders 20. Love You Jack Ingram 21. Time for Me to Fly REO Speedwagon 22. What Is This Thing Called Love? John Barrowman

Disc Eight(Aberration, Inc.) 1. Stripped, Part 2 Christina Aguilera 2. Girls Lie, Too Terri Clark 3. What Goes Around Comes Around Justin Timberlake 4. Believe Cher 5. Subtract One Love (Multiply the Heartaches) Cake 6. Knock 'Em Out Lily Allen 7. All That She Wants Ace of Base 8. You Don't Love Me The Kooks 9. You're So Damn Hot OK Go 10. Billie Jean Michael Jackson 11. Losin' You Amy Millan 12. Oh, Goddamnit Hot Hot Heat 13. You Oughta Know Alanis Morissette 14. You Don't Own Me The Blow Monkeys 15. Girls Beastie Boys 16. Next Ex-Girlfriend Bowling for Soup 17. Never There Cake 18. You Are Everything The Low Life

Disc Nine(Chaotic/Static Cling Enterprises) 1. Love Potion No. 9 The Searchers 2. My Lovin' (You're Never Gonna Get It) En Vogue 3. Liberty Duran Duran 4. Da Da Da I Don't Love You You Don't Love Me Aha Aha Aha Trio 5. Hole in My Head Dixie Chicks 6. Your Woman White Town 7. Murderess Power Station 8. Good as Gone Little Big Town 9. One Night in Bangkok Murray Head 10. Endicott Kid Creole & the Coconuts 11. Kiss You Off Scissor Sisters 12. I'll Take You Back Brad Paisley 13. New Toy Lene Lovich 14. Every Word Means No Let's Active 15. Broke in Two They Might Be Giants 16. My Friends Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham Carter 17. He Can't Quit Her Gary Allan 18. When You're in Love The Proclaimers 19. Don't Think You'll Be Missed Aileen Stanley with the Virginians 20. Why Say Anything Nice? Barenaked Ladies

Disc Ten(Aberration, Inc.) 1. Don't Trust Me 3OH!3 2. Atari Lucky Boys Confusion 3. Get Over It OK Go 4. So What Pink 5. Have I Been a Fool Jack Penate 6. Flavor of the Weak American Hi-Fi 7. There's a Fine, Fine Line Stephanie D'Abrazzo 8. 99 Problems Jay-Z 9. Don't Want You Back Backstreet Boys 10. You Turn the Screws Cake 11. Breakin' Up Rilo Kiley 12. More Boys I Meet Carrie Underwood 13. They'll Need a Crane They Might Be Giants 14. Should've Said No Taylor Swift 15. Hound Dog Elvis Presley 16. Take Me or Leave Me Rent 17. Your Kisses are Wasted on Me The Pipettes 18. Just a Girl No Doubt 19. Bust Your Windows Jazmine Sullivan 20. Single Ladies (Put a Ring on It) Beyonce Knowles 21. There You Go Pink

Disc Eleven(Chaotic/Static Cling Enterprises) 1. I Hate Myself for Loving You Joan Jett 2. Her Royal Majesty James Darren 3. What If I'm Right? Sandi Thom 4. I Hear You Knockin' Fats Domino 5. Go Your Own Way Fleetwood Mac 6. He'll Have to Stay Jeanne Black 7. Du Hast Rammstein 8. Ampersand Amanda Palmer 9. Another Girl The Beatles 10. Can't Do It Today Gary Allan 11. No Scrubs TLC 12. Cold Cold Heart Tony Bennett 13. Gunpowder and Lead Miranda Lambert 14. True Romance She Wants Revenge 15. Brand New Lover Dead or Alive 16. Ex-Girlfriend No Doubt 17. Nothing Suits Me Like a Suit Neil Patrick Harris, et al 18. Don't Say You Love Me Erasure 19. Red Rubber Ball Cyrkle 20. Strange Reba McEntire 21. Mr. Spock Nerf Herder 22. See You Later Alligator Bill Haley and His Comets

Disc Twelve(Aberration, Inc.) 1. Right as Rain Adele 2. She Ain't Got LeToya Luckett 3. Fly on the Wall Miley Cyrus 4. Telephone Lady Gaga feat. Beyoncé 5. Love Drunk Boys Like Girls 6. Bye Bye JoDee Messina 7. Analysis of a 1970s Divorce David Dondero 8. I'm Not Crying Flight of the Conchords 9. Every Breath You Take Police 10. You Owe Me an IOU Hot Hot Heat 11. It's Over John Legend feat. Kanye West 12. Mood Ring Relient K 13. Picture to Burn Taylor Swift 14. Gives You Hell All American Rejects 15. Hit Em Up Style Blu Cantrell 16. Beautiful Girls Sean Kingston 17. It's Oh So Quiet Bjork 18. Pastures Lil' Justice

Disc Thirteen(Chaotic/Static Cling Enterprises) 1. Fox on the Run Sweet 2. Angel in Your Arms Hot 3. Say It Right Nelly Furtado 4. Gimme Three Steps Lynyrd Skynyrd 5. Heartbreaker Pat Benatar 6. Don't Bet Money, Honey Linda Scott 7. Two Out of Three Ain't Bad Meatloaf 8. Too Many Fish in the Sea The Marvelettes 9. Pet Name They Might Be Giants 10. Cold as Ice Foreigner 11. Jezebel Frankie Laine 12. Dark Lady Cher 13. (She's So) Selfish The Knack 14. Evil Woman Electric Light Orchestra 15. Lipstick on Your Collar Connie Francis 16. Stereo John Legend 17. Too Fast James Marsters 18. I Don't Wanna Go on with You Like That Elton John 19. It's My Life Talk Talk 20. Cold Hearted Paula Abdul

Disc Fourteen: Suck It, Marshall(Chaotic/Static Cling Enterprises) 1. Told You So Barenaked Ladies 2. The Sign Ace of Base 3. Bulletproof La Roux 4. Victim of Love Erasure 5. I'll Never Fall in Love Again Kristin Chenoweth and Sean Hayes 6. Are You Fucking Kidding Me? Kate Miller-Heidke 7. Leeds United Amanda Palmer and the Born Again Horny Men of Edinburgh 8. Bringin' Me Down Andy Taylor 9. Alejandro Lady Gaga 10. Go Where You Wanna Go The Mamas and the Papas 11. Hate on Me Jill Scott 12. Shop Around Smokey Robinson and the Miracles 13. Anti-Love Song Raven-Symoné 14. Don't Come Around Here No More Tom Petty 15. King of Anything Sara Bareilles 16. Endgame Tommy Körberg and Barbara Dickson 17. I Am a Rock Simon and Garfunkel 18. Don't Ask Me OK Go 19. Gonna Get Along Without Ya Now Patience and Prudence 20. I Quit Hepburn 21. The Mixed Tape Jack's Mannequin

Disc Fourteen-and-a-Half: The Robot Falls in Love (Static Cling) 1. Rolling in the Deep Adele 2. Rolling in the Deep David Choi 3. Rolling in the Deep Jodie Aysha 4. Rolling in the Deep Kina Grannis 5. Rolling in the Deep David Cook 6. Rolling in the Deep Wonderland 7. Rolling in the Deep PS22 Chorus feat. Denise 8. Rolling in the Deep Adele, Jay-Z, Biggie Smalls, and Voodoo Farm 9. Rolling in the Deep Tahj Mowry 10. Rolling in the Deep Tim Halperin 11. Rolling in the Deep Melissa Tojones 12. Rolling in the Deep Mike Posner 13. Rolling in the Deep Chris Ning 14. Rolling in the Deep Haley Reinhart 15. Rolling in the Deep Darius Dante 16. Rolling in the Deep John Legend 17. Rolling in the Deep (live on Ellen) Adele

Disc Fifteen(Aberration, Inc.)

1. Just You Wait My Fair Lady 2. You Can Make Him Like You The Hold Steady 3. Like a Boy Ciara 4. Marionette The Marvelettes 5. Through with You Maroon 5 6. Bye Bye Baby Janis Joplin 7. Let It Die Foo Fighters 8. Blow It Out Ludacris 9. Take It Easy (Love Nothing) Bright Eyes 10. The Line Skakabobs 11. Fuck You Cee Lo Green 12. Grenade Bruno Mars 13. Jar of Hearts Christina Perri 14. Love the Way You Lie Eminem feat. Rihanna 15. Potential Break-Up song Aly & AJ 16. Cooler Than Me Mike Posner 17. What the Hell Avril Lavigne 18. Tired Adele 19. My Give a Damn's Busted JoDee Messina 20. Ignorance Paramore 21. Hot and Cold Katy Perry

Disc Sixteen(Chaotic/Static Cling Enterprises) 1. Almost Sorry Scissor Sisters 2. Drama! Erasure 3. Stop Draggin' My Heart Around Stevie Nicks and Tom Petty 4. Runaway Baby Bruno Mars 5. I Have Learned Barenaked Ladies 6. All Cried Out Redux Jill Scott (feat. Doug E. Fresh) 7. If Only Grey Delisle and Neil Patrick Harris 8. Nobody's Side Elaine Paige and Murray Head 9. Human Charlene Kaye 10. Maneater Hall & Oates 11. Mr. Big Stuff Jean Knight 12. Used to Love U John Legend 13. Bad Medicine Bon Jovi 14. Treat Me Right Pat Benatar 15. We'll Sing in the Sunshine Gale Garnett 16. The Last Song Tim Halperin 17. Bills, Bills, Bills Darren Criss and the Warblers 18. Modern Girl Sheena Easton 19. Chain of Fools Aretha Franklin 20. Dreams Be Dreams Jack Johnson

Disc Seventeen(Chaotic/Static Cling Enterprises) 1. Dead Memories Slipknot 2. Poison Alice Cooper 3. Paper Gangsta Lady Gaga 4. Maneater Nelly Furtado 5. These Boots Are Made for Walkin' Nancy Sinatra 6. 50 Ways to Leave Your Lover Paul Simon 7. Stutter Joe Walker 8. Solitaire Laura Branigan 9. Runaround Sue Dion and the Beltones 10. Life Goes On Little Texas 11. Me Party Amy Adams and Eric Jacobsen 12. Coin-Operated Boy The Dresden Dolls 13. Smoochy Smoochy Pukey Pukey Harry and the Potters 14. I Know There's Something Going On Frida 15. Evil Ways Santana 16. Your Cheating Heart Joni James 17. Harden My Heart Quarterflash 18. Rest in Peace James Marsters 19. That'll Be the Day Linda Ronstadt 20. (I'm Not Your) Stepping Stone The Monkees 21. Na Na Hey Hey Kiss Him Goodbye Steam

Disc Seventeen-Plus(Static Cling) 1. Ready to Go (excerpt) Nicholas Strauss and Brian Holden 2. Please Don't Touch Me Megan Mullally 3. I Want You, But I Don't Need You Momus 4. The Longest Text Message Childish Gambino 5. Makin' Whoopie Amanda Palmer 6. Fuck You/Gonna Get Over You Sara Bareilles 7. Getting Rid of Britta Eric Christian Olsen, Chevy Chase, and Tom Wolfe 8. Geek in the Pink Jason Mraz 9. Look It Up Ashton Shepherd 10. Poison Bel Biv DeVoe 11. Used to Love Her Guns N' Roses 12. Irreplaceable Beyoncé (feat. Ghostface Killah) 13. How to Write a Love Song Axis of Awesome 14. The Girl Next Door (To Everybody Else) George Watsky 15. I'm Tired Madeline Kahn 16. Jubilation Day Steve Martin and the Steep Canyon Rangers 17. Making Circles Christian Kane 18. Tyrone Erykah Badu 19. The Rake's Song The Decemberists 20. The Succubus Isaac Hayes and Trey Parker 21. There Ain't Nothing Like a Dick Nicholas Strauss and Devin Lytle

Disc Eighteen(Static Cling) 1. She Runs Tim Halperin 2. Boy Toy Tanya and the Hot Girls 3. Misery Maroon 5 4. Grown Man Cry Amanda Palmer and the Grand Theft Orchestra 5. Ooh La La Counting Crows 6. The Truth About Love P!nk 7. Bones Gary Allan 8. Good Girl Carrie Underwood 9. I Don't Think She's in Love Anymore Charlie Pride 10. I'm Not Your Toy La Roux 11. Kids Childish Gambino 12. Lesson in Leavin' Jo Dee Messina 13. Mockingbird Rob Thomas 14. Say You're Sorry Sara Bareilles 15. Can't Wait to Say No to You TalkFine 16. You Lie The Band Perry 17. I'll Feel a Whole Let Better The Byrds 18. Turn on the Radio Reba McEntire 19. Bye Bye Baby OK Go 20. Leave the Pieces The Wreckers

Disc Nineteen(Static Cling) 1. Rumour Has It Adele 2. Woman Up Charlene Kaye 3. No Surprise Daughtry 4. Nylons in a Rip Nikka Costa 5. How Am I Doin'? Dierks Bentley 6. Hermione The Moaning Myrtles 7. Baby Don't Get Hooked on Me Mac Davis 8. The Apartment Song Tom Petty 9. I'm Like a Bird Nelly Furtado 10. At Seventeen Janis Ian 11. Le Disko Shiny Toy Guns 12. Strippers Ghost of the Robot 13. You Don't Like Me They Might Be Giants 14. Shame on You Jerry Minor 15. The More I Learn (The Less I Understand About Love) Ronna Reeves 16. Bad Blood �� Natalie Lungley 17. To Be a Man Brian Holden and Joseph Walker 18. Her Daddy Was a Dalek, Her Mummy Was a Non-Stick Frying Pan Martin Gordon 19. Men The Forester Sisters 20. Rashida Jones Prometheus Brown and Bambu 21. All You Really Need Is Love Brad Paisley 22. Alone with You Jake Owen 23. Wind It Up Barenaked Ladies

Disc Twenty(Static Cling) 1. You Will See Me dan le sac Vs Scroobius Pip 2. Pumpkin Soup Kate Nash 3. Girls Ain't Nothing but Trouble The Fresh Prince and DJ Jazzy Jeff 4. Sigh No More Catherine Tate and David Tennant 5. Tough Goodbye Gary Allan 6. Survivor Destiny's Child 7. Trade Mistakes Panic at the Disco 8. I Don't Wanna Be in Love Good Charlotte 9. Poison Apple Charlene Kaye 10. Hey Robin, Jolly Robin Paterson Joseph 11. Sitting, Waiting, Wishing Jack Johnson 12. Blow Me (One Last Kiss) P!nk 13. Better off with Him A 14. Let Her Rip Dixie Chicks 15. Don't Think Twice It's All Right Bob Dylan 16. Shut Up Black Eyed Peas 17. I Hate Everything About You Three Day's Grace 18. Eden Sara Bareilles 19. Amsterdam Guster 20. Erase Me Ben Folds Five 21. Good Day The Dresden Dolls

Disc Twenty.Five: Keep Your Hands off Will You Damn Fancy Cannibal(Static Cling) 1. Goldberg Variations: Aria Glenn Gould 2. Sympathy for the Devil The Rolling Stones 3. Fee Fi Fo The Cranberries 4. Civilized Man James Marsters 5. A Place Called Home Kim Richey 6. Gravity The Dresden Dolls 7. For Reasons Unknown The Killers 8. A Formidable Marinade Mikelangelo and the Black Sea Gentlemen 9. Your Own Worst Enemy They Might Be Giants 10. Temptation VAST 11. Exterminate, Regenerate Chameleon Circuit 12. Thankless Job Anthony Stewart Head 13. Demons Guster 14. Let's Kill Tonight Panic at the Disco 15. Crime and Passion Duran Duran 16. Polly Nirvana 17. Hello, My Treacherous Friends OK Go 18. I Know Things Now Danielle Ferland 19. Monster Lady Gaga 20. One Tiny Thing 8in8 21. Stand By Me Mona 22. Vide Cor Meum Patrick Cassidy 23. Hannibal (Censored) oswinlost

Disc Twenty-One: The Oklahoma Legacy OR Musical Anachronism(Static Cling) 1. Girl in a Country Song Maddie & Tae 2. Mister Nice Guy Invisible Inc. 3. You Don't Know What Love Is (You Just Do As You're Told) The White Stripes 4. What You Call Love Guster 5. Because It's Not Love (But It's Still a Feeling) The Pipettes 6. Upside Down Barenaked Ladies 7. Lasso Sister Sparrow and the Dirty Birds 8. Bang Bang (My Baby Shot Me Down) Nico Vega 9. If Your Kisses Can't Hold the Man That You Love Rasputina 10. Epiphany Chrisette Michele 11. Wishing He Was Dead The Like 12. Stunner dan le sac Vs Scroobius Pip 13. Forgot to Laugh Bridgit Mendler 14. Delayed Devotion Duffy 15. Switch TLC 16. I Love It Icona Pop feat. Charli XCX 17. Leaving You Behind Amanda Blank 18. Love Don't Love You En Vogue 19. Drowning Banks 20. Building a Wall Brian d'Arcy James 21. Truce The Dresden Dolls

Disc Twenty-Two(Static Cling) 1. Dickhead Kate Nash 2. Love Is Like a Bottle of Gin The Magnetic Fields 3. Same Old Love Selena Gomez 4. Burn Phillipa Soo 5. Turn Me Loose Loverboy 6. So Long Guster 7. Free Fallin' Tom Petty 8. Love Sick Bob Dylan 9. Look for the Woman dan le sac and Scroobius Pip 10. Opposite of Blue Raining Jane 11. Leave Barenaked Ladies 12. L.A. Devotee Panic at the Disco 13. How to Be a Heartbreaker Marina and the Diamonds 14. The Sad Truth Shauna Carrick 15. Here Alessia Cara 16. Hungover Heart Gary Allan 17. Cupid's Got a Shotgun Carrie Underwood 18. Ex's & Oh's Elle King 19. If This Is It Huey Lewis and the News 20. You Rascal You Hanni El Khatib 21. Merry Happy Kate Nash

Disc Twenty-Three(Static Cling) 1. Casanova (Your Playing Days Are Over) Ruby Andrews 2. You Finally Said Something Good (When You Said Goodbye) Teddy Thompson 3. Allez-vous En Kate & Anna McGarrigle 4. By the Sea Helena Bonham Carter and Johnny Depp 5. One Night Stand The Pipettes 6. You Can't Go By That Ricochet 7. Goodies Ciara feat. Petey Pablo 8. Neutron Dance Pointer Sisters 9. Trouble Avicii 10. Smoke Rings in the Dark Gary Allan 11. So Gone John Legend 12. You're Easy on the Eyes Terri Clark 13. Better to Leave Jordan Brown 14. Second Chance Shinedown 15. Ballad of Mr. Steak Kishi Bashi 16. Hunter's Kiss Rasputina 17. The Jeep Song The Dresden Dolls 18. My First Stalker Watsky 19. Parasites San Fermin 20. End Love OK Go

Disc Twenty-Four(Static Cling) 1. Doin' It By Myself Guster 2. Me, Myself, and I G-Eazy feat. Bebe Rexha 3. Duct Tape Heart Barenaked Ladies 4. Instant Pleasure Rufus Wainwright 5. Please Don't Tell Her Jason Mraz 6. Mr. Know It All Kelly Clarkson 7. Set Me Free Leela James 8. Turning Tables Adele 9. Hard Hearted Hannah Bea Arthur 10. Here I Go Again Whitesnake 11. 455 Rocket Kathy Matea 12. She Had the World Panic! at the Disco 13. Heartbeat Childish Gambino 14. Your Love Is a Lie Simple Plan 15. Flake Jack Johnson 16. Little Rock �� Reba McEntire 17. Four Little Diamonds Electric Light Orchestra 18. What Makes You Cry The Proclaimers 19. The Fog Overcoats 20. Sorry Beyonce 21. Motherfucker Got Fucked Up Folk Uke

Disc Twenty-Five(Static Cling) 1. Welcome to Hell Saoirse Ronan, Cecliy Strong, Kate McKinnon, Aidy Bryant 2. A Kiss Is Not a Contract Flight of the Conchords 3. Leave Me Alone The Veronicas 4. Simple Machine Guster 5. I'm Moving On Chyvonne Scott 6. Daddy Lessons Beyonce 7. As the Crow Flies Gary Allan 8. Five Minutes dan le sac vs. Scroobius Pip 9. Love Will Tear Us Apart Joy Division 10. Now I Know Lari White 11. That's My Girl Fifth Harmony 12. Bling Bling Junglepussy 13. Bye Bye Bye *NSync 14. It Was a Shit Show Santino Fontana 15. Paper Mache (Single A.F.) Miss Eaves 16. Daria Cake 17. Sleeping Beauty Helen Trevillion 18. Justice for Lavender Shauna Carrick 19. Philosopher San Fermin 20. No Means No (But So Do Other Things, Too!) Grumpy Princess 21. Flirtin' El Pus 22. Pink Lemonade Watsky with Invisible Inc. 23. Stake a Claim dan le sac vs. Scroobius Pip

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3 PERSON WHO ALTERED JESUS CHRIST STORY

THE 3 PERSON WHO ALTERED JESUS CHRIST STORY by Danny Caing Date Written: April 3, 2020

CHAPTER 1 THE OT3P SYMBOL

November 8, 2007: I was one of the great fans of OTEP since I got hooked on her music video, Ghost Flowers (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qO9b5mw381I). I noticed a symbol OT3P with the letter E as a number 3. One afternoon, while I was on fieldwork resting under a mango tree, suddenly I just wrote in my notepad the 3 symbols, OT1P means On The 1st Person, OT2P means On The 2nd Person, and OT3P means On The 3rd Person. There was something about the lyrics of the video "you will know me by the scars I bear." Nothing was coming out in my thoughts about what these 3 symbols mean to me at that time.

February 8, 2008: On OTEP's Eat The Children music video (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yxdBmH-SyPM), she was wearing a white veil, a moth on the side with the OT3P sign, and the_ascension word below. Then I realized that the three symbols were about JESUS. But who were these three people? Are they the disciples or women of JESUS? In that particular instance, I had a vision about the three symbols which stands for the three people who altered the story of JESUS CHRIST.

From the birth in Bethlehem to the death on the cross in Mt. Calvary, the story of Jesus was altered by Saul of Tarsus (OT1P On The First Person), Constantine The Great (OT2P On The 2nd Person), and Bishop Irenaeus (OT3P On The 3rd Person) .

In the Gospel of Matthew, you will find a word hypocrite seven times. Jesus will never speak this word to anyone, he was a very humble and kind to the Pharisees. Jesus was a Jew.

Saul of Tarsus was a Roman citizen who was converted into a Christian, by the time he claimed that Jesus appeared to him on his way to Damascus. (Jesus had already ascended to heaven and will return on the end of Age.) The Acts to Revelation writings were written by the Roman Empire. Some doctrines in the Acts by Saul of Tarsus contradict Jesus' teachings.

Bishop Irenaeus (Erroneous) altered the story of Jesus who created the conflicting scenario between Jesus and the Pharisee from the beginning of Jesus' story, and that the Jews were responsible for the death of Jesus.

Today, the Jesus Christ Movement is the Roman Catholic Church (Roman Empire). What matters most, the JESUS WORDS on the 4 Gospels are intact. Jesus was born and died as a Jew. The Romans tortured and crucified Jesus. They mocked a sign on his cross as King of the Jews.

It was noontime that Jesus was in the Pilate's courtyard. Romans usually washed their hands after eating. There were thirty-three Romans who wanted Jesus crucified. They were so angry and humiliated when Jesus drove them out of the temple. The Jews crowd were outside the Governor's compound, and the Pharisees stayed at the temple praying.

"The soldiers took Him away into the palace (that is, the Praetorium), and they called together the whole Roman cohort. They dressed Him up in purple, and after twisting a crown of thorns, they put it on Him; and they began to acclaim Him, 'Hail, King of the Jews!' They kept beating His head with a reed, and spitting on Him, and kneeling and bowing before Him.” (Mark 15:16-19)

Constantine The Great destroyed and burn all records of atrocities and genocide by the Romans to the million Christian-Jews. He declared the cross as the symbol of Christianity, not the fish, and established the ROMAN CATHOLIC CHURCH.

CHAPTER 2 ON THE 1st PERSON - SAUL of TARSUS (OT1P)

The real Saul on the ACTS was a Greek-Jew, a tentmaker, a Jesus follower. He was an eccentric person in spreading the Gospel of Jesus from Jerusalem to Rome. When he proclaimed Jesus as the King of all mankind in Rome, they sent him to the Death Arena to be eaten by the lions. The Romans believed in only one king, the Emperor of the Roman Empire.

However, the Romans substituted a new Saul (Acts 22:25-29) to go back to Jerusalem in identifying all the Christian lairs and communities. Over one million Christian-Jews were crucified and killed for the entertainment in the Death-Arena in Rome.

The Roman-Central-Committee directly revised and altered the story of Jesus in the New Testament (with a little help from their scrupulous friend, the editor named Bishop Iraneaus (Erroneous).

According to Bishop Erroneous, Paul spearheaded in spreading the revised New "Roman" Testament of Jesus in favor of the Roman empire while murdering Christian and Jews at the same time. Over hundreds of thousands of Jews being suspected as Christians were put to death.

The letters of Timothy, Peter, John, James, and other Christian Leaders were the pieces of evidence sent back by fake-Saul to the Roman Central Committee. Immediately Roman troops raided the identified lairs, capturing all Christian families, brought them to the "Arena of Death" in Rome to be tortured and killed for entertainment. (Acts 9: 1-2).

At that time, Christians gathered in a circle by holding hands together, bowing their heads and praying out loud The Lord's Prayer. Then, one of the disciples of Christ (a group leader) would start speaking JESUS SAYINGS as everyone followed every word he/she had spoken. After the JESUS SAYINGS, they all started singing, dancing, praising THE WORDS OF JESUS!

The symbol of The Christian Movement was the fish. "Come, follow ME," JESUS SAID, "and I will make you FISHERS OF MEN." - Mark 1:17

The Holy Mass is a pagan practice of the Romans to their gods. It separates GOD within us, and worship instead of the CROSS, the Pope, the Saints, and the Virgin Mary! GOD IS WITHIN US!

There are at least 24 Paul's (a Roman spy) Contradictions of JESUS teachings.

CHAPTER 3 ON THE 2nd PERSON - CONSTANTINE THE GREAT (OT2P)

Under Constantine's rule, Christianity expanded throughout the Empire, launching the era of the Christian Church's dominance under the Constantinian dynasty. Constantine 1 was baptized only on his deathbed. Constantine's decision to cease the persecution of Christians in the Roman Empire was a turning point for early Christianity, sometimes referred to as the Triumph of the Church, the Peace of the Church. At the Battle of the Milvian Bridge, Constantine looked up to the sun before the battle and saw a cross of light above it (in this sign, you will conquer). Constantine commanded his troops to adorn their shields with a Christian symbol (the Cross), and thereafter they were victorious.

Constantine directed the erasure on the atrocities and genocide records by the Romans against the millions of Christian-Jews. Altered Jesus' stories like Pilate washing his hands to indicate that he was not responsible for the death of Jesus on the cross. The choosing for freedom between Jesus and Barrabas, and Judas Iscariot as the traitor.

Constantine wanted to MAKE SURE that Rome did not put Jesus to death, but instead BLAMING it to the Jews.

In Matthew 21:12, He overturned the tables of the money changers. Jesus was arrested by the Pharisee guards during his outrage He made inside the temple, driving out 33 Roman vendors who were the superior race at that time.

The Jews washed their hands and feet before entering the temple's gate, a holy sacred place. The Roman vendors wanted the Pharisee to crucify Jesus. Judas Iscariot, one of the disciples of Jesus, gave all the money and precious things (silver coins & perfumes) to the Pharisees in exchange to settle down the damages. But the Roman mobs refused to accept the offer and still demanded Jesus to be crucified.

There was no such thing as the Last Supper, although Jesus performs ritual prayers at the supper. The Pharisees, most of them believed that Jesus was a Holy Man who made miracles things, tried to convince the 33 Romans with no avail. Jesus was sent to King Herod because they have no law to condemn Jesus. There was no such a thing as midnight Pharisee Kangaroo court. Jesus was arrested in the morning at the temple and then brought to King Herod before noon.

Upon hearing Judas' mysterious death, the Pharisee later used the blood money to buy grave lots for unknown persons. Judas was stabbed to death and hanged by the Roman mobs.

King Herod sent Jesus to the Roman Governor because he has NO AUTHORITY to condemn a man when it's the "citizens of Rome" who were demanding to crucify Jesus to death.

Pontius Pilate (in order to please his countrymen and also giving a "warning" to the Jews) had Jesus scourged almost to death, crowned with thorns, carried the cross and crucified to death.

In the New "Roman" Testament, the death of Jesus on the cross was highly orchestrated by the angry Jewish crowd. This is according to the Gospel of Bishop Erroneous!

On that morning Jesus was welcome by thousands of Jewish people in Jerusalem - Mark 11:8-10

Actually, there was total SILENCE all over the city when Jesus was punished to death, you can hear women weeping... some were praying... you can hear Jesus SCREAMING OUT LOUD in pain while being scourged in the pillar...

Barabbas was actually released two years after Jesus was crucified in exchange for two slave-women to a Centurion!

During Jesus's trials in the Governor's court, there were no Pharisees present nor hundreds of Jews, only a few 33 angry Roman citizens who were driven out of the temple by Jesus. There were only 33 witnesses in front of the Governor who ordered the execution of Jesus to the cross.

CHAPTER 4 ON THE 3rd PERSON - BISHOP IRENAEUS (OT3P)

He was the editor of the New "Roman" Testament, proclaiming that a Roman citizen named Saul was the leader in spreading the Gospel of Jesus or the Jesus Movement. A ridiculous testimony in Acts 9:3-6 stating that Jesus appeared to Saul on his way to Damascus is, in fact, a "VERY GRAVELY DANGEROUS STATEMENT" overlooked by Bishop IRENAEUS or ERRONEOUS.

In Luke 21: 27-28, Jesus ascended to Heaven after He Resurrected from the dead. It is the faith to all Christian that at the Second Coming of Jesus Christ is at the end of the world. The appearance of Jesus on Saul was an irrelevant issue. Saul being a Roman citizen, a superior race, wanted to justify his conversion from a Christian murderer to a Jesus follower was absurd.

Judas was an educated person and whom Jesus trusted him as their treasurer. In Matthew 26:14-15, Judas Scariot betrayed Jesus in exchange for 30 pieces of silver was an unpredictable judgment and accusation. A very narrow twisted predicament alibi from a loyal man to a traitor.

In Mark 15:12-13, Bishop Iraneus altered the gospels of Jesus by blaming the Jews on the death of Jesus. The washing of Pilate's hands stands Rome position that they have nothing to do on Jesus' death, written ONLY on the gospel of Matthew 27: 24.

Proclaim the POPE as the head of the Church instead of Jesus. Millions were crucified, burned, and killed under the cross emblem. The original Christian movement logo was the fish.

Many Jews/Christians migrated to Europe and South America (now, The Latter-Day-Saints) in fear of being arrested and thrown to the Death-Arena in Rome.

In the Arena of Death, Christians and Jews were put to death as entertainment recess in between the gladiator's spectacle. They were burned alive, bodies chopped into pieces, skinned and boiled them, standing as arrow targets, and feed them to the wild animals. It was a horrifying murderous evil killing arena. You could smell the human blood and watched tens of thousands of inverted cross along the road to the arena, children, young and old Christians, and Jews crucified. The older ones were buried alive (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EbAzKRohuvs).

The real story of Jesus in the New "Roman" Testament " was altered and revised by Bishop Erroneous and The Roman Empire Council.

Where is the logic here? A Roman citizen named Saul declaring as the Christian leader spreading the Words of Jesus while the Roman empire was killing millions of Christian and Jews at the same time. And at the end, these evildoers are the keeper of the Roman Catholic Church, not Jesus Christ Church.

The CROSS is the symbol of evil and death. Kingdoms against kingdoms, crusaders, dark ages, witch-hunt, inquisitor, holocaust, the war against other religions and sects, and even Prince Dracula is afraid of the cross, an object eviler than him. Billions of human beings have died because of the symbol of the cross.

Oh yeah wahkokok!

Music Background: "Jesus Words" by Danny Caing & Xzajyk https://soundcloud.com/earth-child-eyes-album/jesus-words-by-danny-caing-xzajyk

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queenofallcorgis · 7 years ago

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A Beautiful Lie and a Painful Truth [Chapter Seven]

Summary: Frankenstein Inspired. All Phil wanted to do was help people. Instead he was the apprentice to an eccentric old doctor in smoggy old England. He didn’t expect the doctor to dig up a body. He certainly didn’t expect the body to wake up.

Warnings: Murder, character death (but it doesn’t last), violence, abuse, homophobia

Previous Chapters: (1), (2), (3), (4), (5), (6)

It was a very strange life they found themselves in. Dan clearly had very few concrete memories of his past, mostly feelings or emotions, but he tried desperately to fit back in. He smiled sweetly at Eliza and kissed her hand, not understanding the conflicted look on her face. He greeted his parents with a bright grin even though they were clearly shocked their son was back with them. The best excuse they could come up with was that he had been attacked and lost his memory and some other poor sap was buried. In the end everyone was too relieved he was home to really care how realistic the story was. In the meantime Phil stayed with them at Dan’s insistence. He could return to Thompson although he was reassured that the man would never come after them after what he had done. Dan sent some of his family’s money to Phil’s home, getting them the care they needed. He was stuck in limbo. He had no prospects for his future and no idea what he was going to do. All he knew was that he had to stay with Dan, make sure he was alright after everything that happened. It was a rare sunny morning as Dan and Phil stepped out into the street, cloaks wrapped neatly around themselves. Although Dan showed amazing improvement he still needed to keep his strength up and daily walks around a nearby park did the trick. They walked for a few moments in silence before Dan finally broke it. “My mother asked if I was in good enough health to have the wedding soon,” he said bluntly. “Oh…well I suppose so,” Phil shrugged, hating the way his stomach twisted. They walked a few more steps before Dan let out a long groan. “I should tell her right? She should know she’s marrying a dead man.” “Dan…you know-“ “I know what a risk that is to you. I would never tell,” Dan frowned. “But…do you think what happened is the reason I can’t bring myself to love her? I mean, I asked for her hand in marriage, I had to have loved her once.” Phil wanted so badly to just blurt out the truth but he couldn’t. He had already helped completely turn this man’s life upside down. “I can’t tell you what you feel or what you felt before. I didn’t know you before,” he let out a little humorless laugh. “I know.I just feel like I’ve known you forever…technically I have. I’ve known you for this whole lifetime,” Dan gave him a wry smile. “And you have proven to be a wonderful friend. You saved my life Phil and I don’t know how I can ever repay you.” A blush climbed up his cheeks. “I didn’t save you, Thompson’s science did.” “Please, he brought me back to life, you saved me,” Dan bumped their shoulders. “Shall we go get something to eat? I’m regaining my strength after all.” They continued down the street until they faced a line of pubs. The inside of the one they had walked into was warm and inviting, a fire roaring in the corner and several people chatting at tables. As soon as they sat down a large man with a wide smile and booming voice walked up. “Master Howell! It has been so long since we last saw ya! I was afraid that you had gone and found some place else you liked better!” “You know me?” Dan blinked up at him. “Of course,” the man looked confused. Phil decided this was a good time to interject. “I am this man’s doctor. Master Howell was in an accident several months back that led to the erasure of his memories I’m afraid.” The man’s smile fell and was replaced by concern. “I’m terribly sorry to hear that good sir. Let me get you something to drink and eat.” He walked off and Dan frowned, following him with his eyes. “So…I spend a lot of time here.” ��Apparently,” Phil smiled at the man as he placed two foaming mugs of beer and a plate of cheese, sausage, and bread on the table. It seemed like Dan was slightly lost, glancing around the room. A frown continued to grace his face and his hands tightened around his mug. He looked almost frightened every time his gaze move across the back corner. “I have been here a lot,” he finally mumbled. “But I remember a man…and then…” He swallowed, brow creasing. There was something truly wrong here. He scrambled to his feet, startling Phil, and walked towards the back table. “I was here and I met someone…a man,” he started at the chairs. “We ate and drank and then…” Like a man possessed, Dan walked out the door. Phil threw some money on their table and hurried after him. Something strange passed over Dan’s face as he walked, living a memory. They wandered down the streets before Dan paused in front of the opening to an alley. “We went here,” something dawned across his face. “Oh…we went in here alone.” His shoulders shrunk in on themselves and pure fear lit up his expression. He flickered his eyes towards Phil, stiffening when he walked up to him. Phil squeezed his forearm in what he hoped was a reassuring way, smiling gently. “It is okay. It’s fine Dan,” he whispered and Dan closed his eyes. “I was hiding, I just wanted to hide,” his voice barely carrying to Phil’s ears. “Christ…I followed that man down here and he started…he wrapped his hands around my neck and squeezed. I begged him to stop but he never did.” Phil was completely speechless. What could he say to a man who just remembered his own murder? Dark eyes locked on the far end of the alley and Dan stared, fine tremors shaking his body. “Let’s just go,” Phil took his hand but Dan shook it away. “He’s still here! He still might be killing people and…I can’t even remember his face. He killed me and threw me into the river like I was trash,” Dan’s breath came out in short panicked gasps. Phil pulled on his hand, finally breaking the spell. They walked back to the house, Dan with his hands crammed into his pockets and his eyes locked on the ground. As soon as they reached the house Dan hurried up the stairs to his room and shut the door. There was a moment of hesitation, some slight concern for Dan’s privacy, before Phil sucked in a short breath and pushed him way inside. “I was attracted to men, followed one outside, and he killed me,” Dan’s voice was thick and tears shone on his face. “He choked the life out of me.” Phil sat on the bed next to him and placed a shaky hand on his back. “I don’t know how to fix this.” A heavy sob burst from Dan and he curled in on himself, shaking all over. “I’m trying to fit back into this life and I can’t. I don’t fit. I’m a dead man trying to live a lie. What right do I even have to life? I was dead…what right do I have to come back.” Phil couldn’t stand seeing how broken Dan looked in that moment. “If Thompson hadn’t gone mad and tried the impossible I never would have met you. I would have been trapped in a joyless life trying desperately to live day by day. You say that I saved you but you saved me.” They stared at each other for a long, long moment before Dan let out a shaky breath and looked down at his hands. “Phil, please tell me if I am misreading this moment. I care deeply about you and don’t…I just think that…” Phil allowed himself a smile before leaning forward and kissing him gently. The moment their lips touched Dan went completely stiff before completely relaxing. He reached up to cup his cheek and they leaned in closer. “That was not how I thought you would respond. I thought you’d hit me,” Dan laughed breathlessly. “Oh be quiet,” Phil grinned as well, kissing him again. Maybe after this Phil would have to work twice as hard to keep that smile on Dan’s face. He would have to struggle to bring him back from his dark memories and have him live in the moment but it was something he was beyond happy to do. He would happily spend the rest of his life making sure that Dan’s second chance at life was full of happiness.

#phan #phan fic #phan fiction #phanfic #phanfiction

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kyselor-blog · 5 years ago

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Dis-able bodies

“Disabled bodies on the other hand have proven to be more recalcitrant, reminding the medical and rehabilitation establishment of the limits of their authority in restoring the body to its “normal” state” (Erevelles 2).

I think that this quote captures the theme of this week's reading because the focus of these two pieces were that there is a lot of descrimination and separation between not only people based off of race, class, and gender, but also along the lines of able bodied people and disabled people. There are many layers along with it too because a disabled black man is going to be seen totally than a disbled white man. In some cases, the white patient will be able to access better care to achieve the normal state of condition. The patient of color may not be able to receive the same care not only because of money and resources, but also because of how others and outsiders see them. A black body, which is already interpreted as dangerous, now going through seizures and other problems is now going to elevate that preconceived notions and label them as dangerous and a risk. The way we view things depends on the context that they are put into. The mindset that sets limits on how and why an authoritative power acts to restore bodies to a standard is an example of the power structure. Forced rehabilitation is very prevalent because it could be forcing a certain rehab plan onto a person with an injury depending on their race, class, and gender, or it could mean trying to rehabilitate bodies because they are seen as broken and needing assistance. Context makes a difference.

My addition to the Glossary of Haunting is the word different. I think that this is a word that can describe every single person because there is not another person that is going to be the same as another. We are each individual in our own way and that is something that should be celebrated and embraced because it is what makes us unique. We do crave a sense of belonging, but also a sense of originality at the same time. These differences shouldnt be an entry point for attack in anyway because that just divides and slots bodies into a hierarchy. This could be based on gender, race, class, and in this case able and disable bodies. Being marginalized because of a certain disability, and the word disability could extend to more things than just and injury or reason you don't’ “meet the standard”. It could be because of your gender, class, or race that you are seen to have a disability and need secondary assistance from a dominant power. This will affect how you interact with others and how others interact with you. We as a society are so hyper focused on a small point of difference that it becomes all that others see of you and how you are viewed in society. Who’s decision is it for others to say what needs to be rehabilitated or not?

The haunted power dynamics in this week’s readings are those of seeing bodies as broken and others because they are not seen and grouped into the majority. There is a division within society due to this hierarchy of who can label bodies as disabled or not. This disconnect can lead the marginalized bodies to become something that is not human, but an example that could be tested to show the outside world (Erevelles 3). This is humiliating to the individual because they are left to the judgement of others to decide what should be done with THEIR body. They are being reduced to one aspect of them, which is something that is unique to them. Nothing else about them would seem to matter anymore because they only matter now because of this aspect of them. This could be something like the color of their skin or how they identify. People will only see and care about this one part of them and not bother to go any deeper than that. This turns people into a docile product that others create of you (10). This power that is expressed through discipline and knowledge, creates social norms and identities of what should be the standard. These turn man made ideas into real products. If bodies aren’t up to meeting the standard, they are subjected to oppression and being excluded from the general society.

Orphaned beginnings is related to this week’s themes because by attacking people and marginalizing bodies because of a difference or something that makes them unique is a very violent process. It is a dehumanizing process because it disregards any depth that person has and turns them into a project or rehabilitation. None of the experiences or tools they have is of any worth when they are seen as broken because all people care about is how to fix them. Bodies experience different things in different contexts, because a man and a woman will be viewed in different ways. These notions will affect the way that others, especially the ones in power, interact with them. If a person of color, in a lower class is suffering from an illness where they are having trouble controlling motor functions, since health care is very expensive these days, it is more likely they will get punished for it instead of being helped to get help. They are seen as a lost cause that is dangerous, instead of a body that needs assistance. They have been judged based off of one aspect of themselves, instead of going deeper into the foundation of the individual.

We can listen to liberatory futures, from Mingus’ speech, by creating more access and two way conversations between the ones in power and the marginalized. It is more than just listening to the grievances, but hearing what is happening and making moves to adjust and reform the current circumstances. Also, to not perpetuate the violent practices of exclusion and erasure against each other, thinking that the only people that need to be fixed and reformed are the ones on the outside. There are still power structures within each community, and to marginalize people within the already marginalized community isn’t going to get anywhere. There needs to be solidarity within each other to have a strong push in the right direction. Being accepting and comfortable within ourselves and each other is going to ground the work that is being done to take their own identities and freedom back. I think that we can see a future that holds accountability from the ground up. In Mingus’ blog, she was big on making sure that we create a strong bond from the inside out, starting with ourselves. We know that we all of differences and our own disabilities, even if they are not outwardly noticeable, but as long we love ourselves it'll spread. There is no point for all of our work if we don’t have a good understanding of ourselves and others.

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hellyes-tommccamus · 7 years ago

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Mutant X [TV] (2001-2004)

S01E18 “Ex Marks the Spot”

[spoilers]

Sci-fi/action

Tom McCamus plays a main role in season 1

The episode title is a laboured pun. It’s about Shalimar’s ex. But is it also about a treasure hunt? No.

Zack (Callum Keith Rennie) arrives at one of the safe houses accompanied by several GS Agents. They want him to break into a vault but he changes his mind. Brennan and Jesse show up and rescue him. It turns out Shalimar knows him and isn’t happy to see him again. Adam won’t listen to her warnings about him, even when she tells him Zack framed her for a crime.

The guys take Zack to another safe house and he demonstrates his power, which is kind of interesting and unique - he can see through solid objects and generate an image of what is behind them. Then he and Jesse have an exchange that definitely isn’t cool. Zack says he used to charge the other boys to see into the girls’ locker rooms, and Jesse says he used to phase through “inconvenient” walls. Even now the two of them seem to think it is funny and acceptable to violate privacy. At least Brennan makes half an attempt to call him out.

Artie Hill (Michael Anthony Rawlins) is Mason’s second in command this week. Artie gets the generic telling off for failing, and makes the mistake of touching Mason’s desk while gesturing during his explanation. I do enjoy those moments when Mason glares at someone for touching his stuff.

The guys ask Zack what the GSA wanted to steal, and he tells them he thinks it was art. Shalimar shows up and attacks him, and he doesn’t even attempt to fight back.

Emma checks out the intel and finds that the vault the GSA were targeting is used to store art for an auction, including a Faberge Egg made by Henrik Wigström. (Who did indeed make Faberge Eggs. Oddly Mutant X’s history tends to be more accurate than its science).

After the beating, Zack decides to leave and take his chances with the GSA, as he puts it.

Mason is not amused by Artie’s enthusiasm for the Faberge Egg. I guess it is another one of Mutant X’s lucky coincidences that Emma focused on the egg rather than anything else in the auction, and that so happens to be what Mason is also looking at. He makes it clear that he is not interested in what the Egg is made of, and tells Artie to find Zack to help break into the vault.

Brennan and Adam do a brief history lesson on Faberge Eggs. The Egg in the auction was owned by Russian biogeneticist Sasha Kandinski, name probably stolen from abstract artist Kandinsky, who was at least Russian. Kandinski was according to Adam, head of the Soviet anti-Genomex programme. We heard about the Russians and their involvement in the New Mutant epidemic in episode 3, but haven’t heard about them since. As Kandinski was said to be a biogeneticist, one can only assume that Russia was conducting their own experiments on human DNA. Biogeneticists are concerned with altering genomes, after all. Brennan compares him to Mason and Adam agrees with him. Yet another comment that suggests that Mason may have been a scientist. Although they both deny responsibility now, it’s possible that he and Adam knowingly created New Mutants in the 80s, while sporting mullets and baggy suits, which they also deny memory of.

Emma finds Shalimar sitting and glaring at plants. She is, quite understandably, angry that Adam has chosen to trust Zack. Someone who supposedly cares about her taking the side of someone who hurt her is going to feel like betrayal. Emma warns her not to build a wall around herself, but if I was Shalimar I’m not sure I’d take advice from someone too young to have experienced heartbreak. Plus her last ex almost manipulated her into changing who she was, then died.

Proxy Blue makes an appearance for the first time in a long while. Brennan and Jesse are asking her questions about Kandinski. She is full of sassy remarks as usual, but eventually tells them he was working on manipulating the DNA strand that controls free will. Jesse quite rightly is dubious about there being a DNA strand that controls free will. I am absolutely certain that no amount of new research will reveal that there is a damn bit of DNA that controls free will! Free will is an abstract concept, or a lie, depending on your feelings about determinism. But anyway the Russian’s records were all burnt.

Adam thinks that the Soviets poisoned Kandinski because he succeeded in finding the free will DNA strand. (Cue scene of a man in a fur hat pulling an oversized double helix out of an Erlenmeyer flask. “Da! I found it!”) And somehow the jump to the conclusion that it is saved on a disc which is hidden inside a Faberge Egg. One would think the Mutant X team would be tired from constantly jumping to the right conclusion.

Adam tries to convince Shalimar that using Zack’s help is the only way. He already knew how she felt about him, and had already sent the rest of the team to proceed by this point. He makes a terrible attempt to change her mind, and follows her when she walks off, demanding to hear that she is OK with it. Despite Adam’s attempt to make a show of being everyone’s buddy and mentor, this is another example of his poor people skills.

Jesse shows off a power we didn’t know he had. He phases through the floor of the Double Helix as it hovers a fair distance above a building, and floats slowly down. It does make sense that if he lowers his mass he would fall at a slower pace. Brennan guides him to the server room, which is not only unlocked, the doors open automatically! IT departments actually like to keep server rooms locked, even in places that don’t require security guards. Jesse’s hacking skills fail him and he can’t guess the password. The security guards get an alert from somewhere and come to investigate, but Jesse manages to hide from them.

Shalimar tracks Zack down at a garage. Despite her feelings about him, she tries to convince him to help them. She makes a comment about the free will DNA being specific to New Mutants. Which is a bit odd. Why would it not work on anyone else? He apologises repeatedly but apologies don’t fix everything. She tells him they can put the past behind them if he agrees to help, and he jumps on the opportunity. Then suddenly they’re all over each other. Unhealthy relationship alert. Should have kept building that wall, Shalimar.

The GSA show up. How did they know where Zack’s secret hide out was? The GSA are obviously also blessed with the same ability to jump to the correct conclusions. He and Shalimar fight them off and they ride off on their motorbikes.

The GSA don’t pursue Zack any further and instead attempt to break into the vault without his help. They are doing well until Brennan causes them to trigger an alarm. Artie and the other GS Agents are arrested. He calls Mason for help and he suggests looking for a lawyer in the Yellow Pages. A few interesting things here: I didn’t realise the Yellow Pages was a thing outside my country, in fact never really thought of it. Also I wonder why Mason suggests a book rather than the internet or asking Proxy Blue? Mutant X is set in a technologically advanced world, but as I was not in the market for lawyers circa 2001, I can’t confirm if businesses were listed on the internet. There is also the fact that specificity is one of the keys to humour.

With Zack on their side, Mutant X plans their own break in to steal the Egg. Brennan expresses his concern for Shalimar being with Zack, and Adam dismisses him. Brennan says he hacked into the auction house computer and found that a seven figure absentee bid was made by one Henry Purcell. Adam laughs and tells him that was the name of Mason’s favourite composer. Which is pretty solid proof that they were close friends at one time. When was the last time you discussed 16th century baroque music with an acquaintance? (Incidentally I was able to impress people and appear more cultured than I am by correctly answering a quiz question about Purcell).

I’m not really sure why it’s in any way surprising that Mason placed the bid. There would be collectors interested, but he was the one who wanted it in the first place. What I don’t understand is why he had the idea to break in and steal the egg in the first place. If he had access to that sort of money, surely he could have said nothing, quietly bid on and won the egg and easily got the disc. Bingo, mind control activated. (Assuming mind control is the effect of the free will DNA, not the erasure of the concept of free will in itself. Which, let’s face it, would be interesting but desirable to no-one. Or perhaps we would lose the facility to find anything interesting ever again. There’s not very much science in this episode, so have some bonus philosophy.)

The team break into the vault. Emma demonstrates another new ability, and makes the guards fall asleep. Can sleepy really be considered an emotion? But let’s face it, they didn’t even make it through the first episode before straying from the theoretical constraints of telempathy. Not only that, she makes them sleep standing up (I’m sure the extras were glad as they weren’t required to repeatedly fall down) plus they won’t remember anything. It’s a bit worrying that she says this with a smile and no-one is concerned. Jesse does his phase jump again, accompanied by some terribly stretched out slow motion throwing. Zack checks for traps, Brennan zaps them with electricity, then they’re in.

Zack almost drops the egg but Shalimar grabs it. Then Shalimar does exactly what you shouldn’t - she takes off her gloves and touches the egg, leaving fingerprints all over it. They take the disk and leave.

Back at Zack’s garage, Shalimar confronts him and finds that he somehow swapped the disk while fumbling the egg. Unless he took it and they should have shown the part where Shalimar opened it before this. Either way, Shalimar takes it from him and hits him.

Mason gets the egg delivered right to his office. It’s empty. So he does the obvious thing and smashes it. Didn’t keep it. Or decide to sell it on and recover his/the government’s money. This would make a bit more sense if he had needed the disk for a particular reason.

Emma and Shalimar have a conversation to wrap up. Shalimar was right about Zack but they end up laughing in the end.

#tom mccamus #victoria pratt #john shea #forbes march #victor webster #mutant x #callum keith rennie #michael anthony rawlins #sci fi #tv science #00s tv #00s sci fi

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indoafrikanqueen-blog · 8 years ago

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Love and Whiteness (Part II)

So the last time I wrote a post on this subject it was more directly lamenting the difficulties of loving a white person and the ways in which they fail to see you on a one-on-one level. But as we get deeper into our relationship big things keep coming up. And this is why it has taken me so long to get around to writing part two of that post. Put simply, loving a white partner is not simply about the one on one relationship the two of you have. It is about much much more than that. See, there are the interpersonal dynamics between the two of you, then there are the larger societal power dynamics. Basically, what I have been coming to realise over the increasing course of my relationship is that deciding to build something with a white person is complex, because the advantages they have of being in the world slowly crowd out the little space you have. As a pansexual person in a heterosexual presenting relationship, this is because of the role patriarchy plays - a woman slowly is expected to conform to the culture of her partner, and her partner's family. That is, assimilation. But this is compounded because of the settler-colonist culture in South Africa, whiteness is seen as the highest bar of existence for all, and so with whiteness comes a sense of supremacy and entitlement, and if you don't fit the bar, you guessed it, you are less than worthy of being a part of the family. There are a number of challenges that come up when I think about the costs that being in a relationship with a white cis-het male have had on my psyche. And to speak frankly I am tired. In fact all the women in me are tired. But because it is a release, and because it may help someone else out there I am going to dish them up right now. So sit back, and enjoy (if possible). 1 - Privilege and the associated lack of lived experience. This is perhaps the biggest stumbling block in our relationship. If you are a black woman (or person) dating a white male, there probably is a phase where it is all hunky dory. But sooner or later, one day you wake up and have the earth-shattering realisation that:

"There is no way in which my cis-het, upper class, able-bodied, christian, male partner, has ever been systemically discriminated against in his entire life."

And this shakes you up because all you've ever known was struggle. As a woman, as a person of colour, as a non-hetero person, as a poor person, for me - as a survivor. And for a second you can't reconcile how it is that the two of you are together. For a split second you feel lucky, like maybe you won the lottery. You remember how hard it used to be when you were young, how you struggled through abuse, through trauma, through the vicarious trauma of those in your community, and you think "Ah, how did I get here? That all feels like a long and distant dream." Then you wake the fuck up and realise that you are not lucky. That the boundaries of the prison have just changed, and now while you are able to live and love and exist a lot easier than you were able to before there are constraints facing you that you would never imagine existed and these come in the shape of your partner's privilege.

Obviously different people are woke to different levels, but white partners in particular tend to suffer from the white liberal affliction. They think that because you agree on the basis of morality and ethics there is no need to do extra work to be a good ally. In fact they may not even know what allyship means. And the burden of educating them is then defaulted onto YOU, the partner.

Because they are an entitled white male, they get offended when you say that it is not your duty to educate them. They don't understand that you don't owe it to them. If you choose to educate them it is because you love them and you have committed to your relationship. Educating them is a god damn privilege, not your job.

In any case, privilege fucks with the power dynamics, and unless your partner is willing to put in the active conscious work, reading, listening to podcasts, watching stuff, reading and reading, he is not going to wake up. Not now. Not ever.

2- Compounded with class and privilege comes family. In the case of my partner, he is half foreign, and half South African. And I always find that the half foreign aspect is what has saved him. Of the micro-aggressions that I experience at the hands of his family, those from his dad - a white South African apartheid era male - are the worst. To him I am not an individual, I am other. Whenever he talks about black people or indians, or black colleagues, he makes eye contact with me. Needless to say he thinks I am the fucking spokesperson for every Indian person in South Africa.

And while the microaggressions from him are regular and particularly bad, it is not much better from the rest of the family. While the mum is less problematic she is not unproblematic, and the sisters are so couched in their own privilege that it suffocates me. This is the thing, when you relate to them (the whole family) it is on their terms. You do what they want and expect you to do and you do it in their way. They speak upper-crust english, and because I speak my vernacular I become a fucking cute little joke to them, "Oh, Anne*, did you hear how she said that?". Ha. ha. ha. Big fucking deal. I am sorry I am not a colonist settler who stole land, preserved imperial culture and went to the most expensive private school owned to man.

So, yeah, white families. And guess what, you tell your partner about it and they accuse you of hating their family? It has actively started causing me anxiety. I can't go there and not get a tummy ache or headache, and a sinking feeling (Queue get out) in my stomach. Worst part is - they don't know it. My partner thinks he is between a rock and a hard place, and to date has only had a discussion with them about how problematic they are on one occasion. And in this process I am villainised. It becomes me against the family. Well it wouldn't be if they weren't such passively racist human beings.

3- Friends. I'll keep it short. This post is becoming taxing. The microaggressions are terrible. One of the friends also did the thing all white people do by referring to me as curry! Racist pig. There was no backlash from my partner who then went on the defensive and like a week later forgot it happened. Well, I didn't forget. Then, there are the extremely racist and misogynist friends. He has a friend who had a road rage incident and drove past the woman, rolled down his window and flashed a wad of cash in her face. Then bragged to me and my partner about it, and proceeded to say that he

was sure that she wanted to fuck him. My partner sees this as a once off isolated incident, and his family says boys will be boys. My partner also thinks he is between a rock and a hard place.

Don't they understand that these are our fucking lives - oh wait, they don't!

2 - Society. South Africa, and particularly Cape Town is the most racially segregated racist place in the country. It is worse because white liberals who live here go to church and think they are doing their duty unto society. They live in big houses on the foot of the mountain and donate blankets and money to charity but have never paid retribution and will not give back the land. They see no link between the exploitation of black bodies under apartheid and their economic success. And because they are colonist-settlers, they think they belong here and also behave as Gods. They don't make eye contact with you if you are not white, and do not acknowledge your humanity. When they do it is in a patronising way. They don't see black people as people, forget as their inferiors. They are entitled trash. Period. Now think about having kids, black kids, and this is what they aspire to. Nope. 3 - The lack of a reprieve. So, I go to work. It is extremely white, I go to therapy, she is white, I go home my partner is white. My family is scattered. I am alone in this city. My black friends have moved on from this mini-apartheid state to places that will feed their souls. My white friends mostly have the liberalism affliction, and I am isolated. There are very few public spaces that have black bodies in them, and it becomes suffocating. Loving a white person, then, is not about loving that individual. It is about being able to live with the toll that that love takes on your psyche and the price you pay for it. But I've basically decided that I am no longer willing to pay this price for our love. I demand respect from his parents, I will not associate with his friends, and he has to graft for it. I mean I could keep writing about this, the anger, the erasure, but I'll stop here. I love my partner. I really do. When it is just the two of us hanging, I see his soul and I truly feel that he sees mine, and I don't wanna end what we've been building. I dig it. I dig him. I dig our life. But add to the equation the expectation of settling down (I don't want to) and where (Cape Town? City of spatial apartheid?), monogamy (contentious one) and kids (I am strictly adopting when I decide I am ready - too many abandoned lil puudin' faces ouchea), it quickly becomes a lot. Look, I don't have the answers. Being in a relationship with a non-white male could easily have just as many challenges, there is always patriarchy and religion. In any case, we're investing in something here and I will try to make it work, but the bottom line is this guy is going to have to put in some serious work. I guess if I could speak frankly to him I would say: I know you've never had to work for anything in your life. I know you are hyper-intelligent, so why don't you put some of that intellect to work and research concepts such as wokeness, allyship, feminism, intersectionality? Oh it bores you? Well listen up... this is the lifeline of our relationship, and it is ALL up to you at this stage. You think that what I have displayed up to now is rage? You have no idea of the leaps and bounds by which it will expand if you don't do something about it. Gone, are the tears and the fear. This is a fight for survival, and you are either going to step up to the challenge or not.

#Whiteness #Relationships #Racism #Burden of Existence #Anger

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