#🩶. my ellie

[choiwonder]

WHOA WHOA WHOA OH MY GOD CONGRATS MY BABY

900 HYUNNIES ⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️

[luke-hughes43]

terrible teammate | luke and mel

mel gets back after a particularly tough roadtrip to penn state where she wounds up on crutches with a sprained ankle, to a bunch of hateful messages from her softball teammates wanting to have a team meeting in the locker room only to bully and berate for never being around.

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mel's pov

we get off the plane after penn state and I'm wiped out. I ended up with an ankle sprain during the second game after splitting the series. I turn my phone back on to a bunch of messages from Lauren, Audrey, Alex, and then the softball group chat. I obviously look at lauren's first:

lo grant💜: hey, as you soon as you land and see this, come to the locker room. the girls wanna talk.

then audrey's, then Alex.

audrey leclair🩶: I'm sorry for the shit storm you're about to walk into. especially after getting banged up this weekend, but come to the locker room when you get back.

alex storako🤍: I did my best to stop this but I couldn't. this is not going to go well for you but I need to come to the locker room. be prepared for this to get ugly, and I'm so sorry in advance.

I hobble my way down to the locker room like I was asked, but I'm confused and unsure of what to expect. I see the whole team waiting for me when I finally get down there, and most of them roll their eyes at me on crutches.

I sit between lauren and audrey and I ask, "what's up?"

alex takes a deep breath and says, "so there's been some conversation amongst the team, and a mojority of them are upset that you aren't around much and how you aren't as committed as the rest of us."

one of my teammates, lexi, says, "alex is being nice because she's the captain and lies you but we're sick of your flakey behavior and how you're never here with the team. like you are never morning lift, you're the last one to practice when you bother showing up, and when you are here you never talk to us or interact with the team besides lauren audrey and alex. and you're the first one to leave when practice ends. we're sick of feeling like you aren't as committed as the rest of us."

ellie asks, "why are you never here and where are you when you aren't? we feel like we deserve to know."

"if you feel so inclined to know, I'm either at the rink for hockey or I'm at the library doing homework to stay eligible."

"the point is here is why are you at the library instead of here." Sarah snaps. I take a deep breath and explain, “well, coach gave me thursdays and fridays off for the fall because of games and I have hockey practice at 4:30 on thursdays so she told me not to worry about it. So I’ll go to the library and get some homework done.���

“and lift?”

“I go to hockey during the week and softball on the weekend. that’s changing next semester.”

“how come you cancelled your bullpen session with lauren earlier this week then?”

“how did you even know about that?”

“who do you think she called to go to the cages with her when you cancelled?”

“hang on, I never said I was mad about her cancelling. I was fine with it because I knew why so I didn’t care.”

“and why did you cancel mel?”

“because the trainers told me to take it easy this week. after getting hurt last weekend, they wanted me to take it easy so both of the trainers advised me on canceling and coach was ok with it.”

“excuses, excuses.”

"this is exactly the point we're making here. you're never around and you're just making excuses for why you aren't. you're acting like you don't wanna be on the team. and we're over it."

I roll my eyes and say with an attitude, "if I didn't wanna be on the team, I never would've committed to play hockey and softball and never have any time to myself or my boyfriend. if I didn't wanna be here, I wouldn't have voluntarily had every ounce of free time and a normal college athlete experience taken away from me. I'm playing 2 sports, studying 2 different majors while possible graduating early, I have a boyfriend, and there's only 24 hours in a day. I get 5 hours of sleep every night and I barely eat because I don't have time. so sue me for the coaches looking out for my physical well being because it's obvious none of you are."

"all of that aside, why do you chose hockey over us?" sarah bluntly asks. I chuckle to myself, "you really don't wanna know the answer to that."

lexi says back rudely, "she wouldn't have asked if we didn't wanna know. why are we second to the hockey team?"

"because most of you don't fucking like me. or even pretend like you do. I have all of 30 minutes to myself everyday and that time is spent in the shower every night. if I have to chose between a group of people who seem me for me as a person and not an athlete or a group of people who don't even know what state I'm from, I'm gonna pick the people who see me for me. I don't have the time in my day to deal with people who don't even have the ability to pretend they like me to my face."

"well we don't feel like you given us the chance to get to know you."

"I've given you plenty of chances. you guys don't bother to talk me during practice, let alone out of practice. the phone works both ways and you guys always know where I am. i've tried but you guys aren't."

"you aren't even listening to us mel. you're just making excuses."

"I apologize that I’m a little spaced out because I have a sprained ankle, a headache from not sleeping in 3 days and my teammates are yelling at me for being a bad teammate when they haven’t fucking treated me like a part of this team in the first place.”

"and you getting hurt all the time at hockey doesn't help our team here. because when you're hurt, you aren't here and it effects team chemistry and team performance. on top of you being hurt so much that you can't fucking practice you're own stuff to get better and help the team. from our eyes, it's all about mel and not the team."

"yea well this isn't the only team I play for. it hurts hockey just as much if not more when I get hurt. you think I don't feel guilty about getting hurt? you think I didn't hate myself for getting hurt senior year of high school and watching my team fall short of winning a championship while I was sidelined and then watching the Leo of my life get drafted to the NHL knowing that I should've been getting drafted with him? you think my getting hurt doesn't just effect softball but also hockey an my mental health? you know what, I'm not gonna sit here and listen to you guys call me a bad teammate and not committed when you don't even know the half of what I deal with everyday nor have you made me feel included. I have homework to do." I say and storm out.

I stop when I get out of the building and call Johnny. he answers not he 3rd ring, "what's up moynihan?"

"if I asked you to come pick up, would you do it without telling pat or Luke?" I say choking back tears. I hear him doing around on the other side of the phone and he says, "yea, where are you?"

"softball building. I don't think I can make it back to my dorm safely on crutches with the ice."

"don't even worry about it. I'll be there in 5." he says and hangs up. and 5 minutes later he's there just like he said he would be. he gets out and helps me in his car, "do you wanna talk about it?"

"the softball team hates me. like actually hates me and is blaming me being iced out on my own behavior. like I don't know what I did to make them hate but I wanna fix it. I want with them what I have with the hockey team. but they are trying to call me uncommitted."

"you are the most committed person I know. you'd die before quitting on something that you started." Johnny says patting my shoulder as he drives me to luke's dorm. I smile, "thanks beech. I just wish I could get them to see that. I don't even know how to explain it to Luke."

"you don't have to if you don't want to. it's your business and if anyone is gonna understand that, it's Luke. just don't lie to him."

"I've tried lying to him about being hurt, it doesn't work. but I won't, I promise. I'm just not really ready to talk about it. do you think he'll be mad that I talked to you about it instead of him?"

he shakes his head as he parks in front of luke's building, "no. he knows that I'm the closest thing you have to a big brother here in michigan and he gets that. and I know not to tell pat, and that if you want him to know then you'll tell him. everything you say to me, always stays between us unless I think you're in danger. you know that."

I nod, "thanks for listening. and picking me up. I'll let you know how things go." he smiles and helps me out again before I turn around seeing Luke in the doorway. me and beech fist bump before I hobble off to my boyfriend and give him a hug. he holds me tight and asks, "are you ok baby?"

"not really but I don't really wanna talk about it. can we just cuddle while I ice my ankle and do homework?"

"whatever you want mel. always." Luke says while kissing my head.

we get to his dorm room and we just cuddle together all night while I work on some of my assignments. and naturally I fall asleep in the middle of one of my assignments while Luke uses me as a pillow.

~

let me know your thoughts and if you want more of the angst!

[elliesbelle]

almost like we knew

chapter 6

pairing: ellie x reader

synopsis: it all began online—the whirlwind long-distance, years-long romance between you and young artist, ellie williams. despite all the history and heartbreak and regrets, you keep dancing backwards into each other. the time just never seems to line up.

content warnings: ellie's POV, modern au, ex-gf!ellie, cursing, angst, mentions of hospitalization, mentions of overdose, mentions of death, minors do not interact

chapter 1, chapter 2, chapter 3, chapter 4, chapter 5, chapter 6, chapter 7, chapter 8, chapter 9

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based on the lauv and julia michaels song “there’s no way”

1 year ago

Present Day

author’s notes:

featuring a little pic from when i was in the ICU two years ago (first pic in the header), what a fun time :)

sorry for such a short chapter, i’m still sick and really dizzy and nauseous, so looking at screens is a little painful, but dw there is more to come 🩶

reader’s best friend’s name is after my irl best friend :)

be warned that darker themes will be explored in later chapters!

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[courtofcrescent]

Among the characters, which would they prefer;

Is it better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all?

Hi, Dear Anon! My, what a question indeed 👀

MALLORY, VIVIAN, ELLIS would prefer to have loved and lost.

SORIN, E̴N̵I̶G̵M̸A̷ would prefer to have never loved at all.

Thank you for the ask! 🩶

[tloupride]

TLOU Queer Fic Recs

Happy Pride! Admin Zoo here, with some of my favourite queer fics, please share your own recs, I'm looking for more to read!

🏳️‍🌈 🩷💜💙 🖤🩶🤍💜 🏳️‍⚧️

Late October, 2022 (Or The Last Time Joel Saw Bill and Frank alive), 5k, T, by Springandastorm, @spr1ngandastorm

Joel and Tess and Bill and Frank hang out and find community in each other. This devastated me in the best way, I have not stopped thinking about it since I read it. Beautiful and bittersweet and hopeful all in one.

trace my fingers across your frozen veneer, 2k, E, by fromthewhales @deervsheadlights

Bi Joel gets pegged by Tess, as he deserves. Like all the best explicit fics, this is a character study and really gets into their relationship. 10/10 no notes.

some sort of private conversation, 2k, M, by fromthewhales. @deervsheadlights

Bi Joel tries to have a hookup on the road but Ellie cannot mind her own business. So in character and hilarious, RIP Joel hope the next time works out better for you.

Eternal Love Bullshit, 3k, T, by @sedumlineare

STOP THE PRESS, ASEXUAL JOEL IS ON THE SCENE. Lovely fic where he bumps into an old friend in Jackson (who's a lesbian!), remembers past community, and it's just so sweet. Neare aced this one.

The Trans Joel Universe, series, 27K, G/T, by @sedumlineare

NEARE THIS GIVES ME LIFE. This series has everything: gender euphoria and mentorship, trans Joel through the years, and nonbinary Ellie! Stunning, lovely, special mention to Took a While But I Don't Mind (How Do I Look Now?) which is full of joy and is named after one of my favourite songs

I know, I know the sirens sound/Just before the walls come down, 2k, M, by @donttouchtheneednoggle

Trans Bill AND Frank!!! Oh. My. Sweet. Jesus. This fic left me in a puddle on the floor. Beautiful, stunning, please read it, it's gorgeous.

making yourself up as you go along, 6k, M, by awenswords, @awens-words

Trans Joel!! Really brilliant fic, I especially love the detail given to his smuggling operation and how that doubles up as a way to get hormones. Him trying to come out to Ellie is a particular highlight.

Different Shades, 773, G, by mandocule, @theydjarin

Ellie asks about Bill and Frank, and she and Joel come out. Really sweet little fic with lesbian Ellie and bi Joel doing their best to be #Vulnerable. One of the first queer TLOU fics I read last year!

mellow is the man who knows what he's been missing, 15k, G, by flannelfeelings, @boopernatural

The happy AU where Joel gets to meet JJ and Ellie, Dina, and Jesse have a polyamorous relationship! We love love, we love community.

Watch Me Bleed, series, 24k, M/E, by Fiachra, @consultingzoologist

Apologies for the self-promo, but writing this changed my life due to the people I met as a result. TLOU but Joel is trans, with an Ellie-centric sequel exploring her queer feelings, and a t4t TessJoel installment (that gets the E rating)

[lillysbigwilly]

streamer!ellie w introvert reader 🩶

streamer!ellie with an introverted gf

she would try and get you to stream with her all the time and sometimes you agree as long as you didn’t have to be on camera. you spoke few words on the stream but they all loved you.

making ellie food or a drink whilst she streaming and literally creeping into the room and waving like a mad man out of view of the camera trying to get her attention so she can grab it however, when you don’t get her attention, you will literally throw it onto the desk, whisper a quick hi and then go back to watching from a distance.

spoils you like a LOT. new clothes, flowers, perfumes, accessories. anything you had even mentioned in passing, you will get.

it takes a while but when you start warming up to the camera, you’d sit right beside her. still hardly talking but smiling at the camera and holding ellie’s arm. you’d also played a few games together

when fans recognise you both, you tend to get really shy, hiding behind ellie slightly and holding her arm in front of you

you tend to play music whilst cooking and ellie takes full advantage of it as it’s a time when you let loose, singing and dancing in a pretty dress and your apron, sometimes she’ll join in and other times she records it and puts it on her story with a little ‘she’s not always shy <3’

no matter when she starts streaming, your always watching. in bed, your phones propped up on the bedside table with the stream playing. in the bath, it’s either resting on the floor when you wash or in your hands. making food, your phone is propped against the wall in view of you most. out with friends, it’s on mute so you can join in with conversation but it’s on

and ellie knows when your watching because you’ll always type a sweet little chat that sends her fans crazy

if you wake up earlier than ellie to go grocery shopping (which is usual) you always creep into her streaming room and write on a post it note ‘gone shopping, don’t stream too long my love. i’ll be back soon’

she keeps all your little notes for her in a box in her desk

it’s a very rare occasion but sometimes you go into her stream room when she’s out and start your own stream, curled up on her chair playing silly quizzes on buzzfeed with her fans. you speak to them, barely but there’s content. the fans love it. it’s more chill than ellie’s usual streams.

and don’t get me started on when ellie comes back and finds you in her stream room. she’ll come up behind you, wrap her arms around your shoulders and get involved with the stream. the biggest smile sat on her face

[xekutozoren]

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[choiwonder]

hello bae i haven’t been here in so long i miss you wtf????

I HAVENT EITHER 😭😭😭 im losing motivation BUT IM TRYING TO STAY STRONG BUT I MISS U TOO POOKIE

[choiwonder]

WHOOP WHOOP LETS GO ‼️‼️‼️

-; ✧˖*°࿐ HEART BREAKER . HAN JISUNG .

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ PAIRING ; han jisung x fem! reader.

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ SUMMARY ; growing up you were never shown the correct example of what unconditional love was, so you believed it didn���t exist… so why was this nerd of a boy, making you feel things you didn’t know existed?

[tyrianludaship]

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(I am perfectly fine with sharing my F/Os and I encourage interacting if you share with some of the fellas)

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[Retired] #🖤🩶🤍 (Noir; Spiderverse)

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[courtofcrescent]

💘 HEART W/ ARROW - what traits do they look for in a relationship? do they believe in love at first sight?

Hello there, Emoji Ask Anon!

What an interesting question! Apologies, but I'll leave the former for you all to unravel 😉 Now, regarding the latter: do they believe in love at first sight?

MALLORY : Doesn't believe in love at first sight. Love is such a deep and complicated feeling, it's nonsense to think that love can bloom in mere seconds. That's not true love.

VIVIAN : Love at first sight is such a powerful, spontaneous feeling. This type of emotion is dangerous. She acknowledges it, she believes in it. But she mislikes it nonetheless.

ELLIS : My, what kind of question is that? Of course he believes in love at first sight! He believes in love at any moment. He loves love; love loves him. Just ask his long line of lovers.

SORIN : Fairytales portray love as love at first sight, do they not? The princess always ends up happily with her prince because of it, does she not? She's a firm believer. And it breaks her heart.

E̴N̵I̶G̵M̸A̷ : B̷e̴lie̷v̵e̷ ̴in̶ lo̷v̶e̴ ̴a̸t̴ ̷fir̶s̶t̵ ̷s̶i̷gh̵t̴.̶ Is̵n'̵t ̷t̸ha̶t o̵b̵v̵i̵o̶u̷s̴?̸

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Psst, someone is not being entirely truthful here 👀👀

Thank you for the ask! 🩶

[jupiter-balls]

Hi Ellie 🤗, where I am from we have this tradition of putting our shoes out on the evening of the 5th of december, and in the morning of the 6th of december they are filled with little presents by the Nikolaus (like candy and stuff). I wanted to bring this tradition to my tumblr friends 🖤 and so I come to your ask box bringing a 🥾. In there are 4 little presents for you...

1) a pair of cozy socks 🧦

2) your favorite candy 🍪 🍫 🍬 🍭

3) your favorite hot drink ☕️

4) all the love I can fit in a 🥾! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🖤🤍🩶🩷

And there is also a note with a question: If you want to, please share a happy memory you have of 2023?

I hope wherever you celebrate anything this month or not, you have a wonderful last month of the year! 🖤

- 🦋 wearing a santa hat

Awwwww this is so cute thank you so much, here I made you a little scarf in return 🥰🧣(I would give you a hug too but it might squish your wings 🥺)

As for my happiest thing this year I guess it's meeting new people and having a good outlet on Tumblr? I've been so isolated for so long it's taken work to be here but I'm absolutely obsessed with my friends I've made and it's truly made my life better 🥹🩷❤️💕

[yourmomssidepiece]

🩵,🧡,✈️, 🚗, 🍊,🍓

for the ask game🫶🏼

🩵- 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘱𝘦𝘵𝘴?

yes i have 2 dogs called ellie and hiccup and they are probably the best thing in my life at the moment

🧡- 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘦𝘹𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘺?

this should be a pretty obvious one but i am a lesbian, i love women especially ones that are a lot older than me

✈️- 𝘧𝘢𝘷𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘥?

i don’t really travel much but my favourite place to go was london, i went with my friends and it was amazing

🚗- 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘷𝘦?

no i can’t drive yet but i would love to at some point, it’s mainly just anxiety putting me off i think

🍊- 𝘧𝘢𝘷𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘰𝘯?

i love winter, i just love being cozy and having a full time excuse for being in my bed

🍓- 𝘧𝘢𝘷𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘰𝘥?

i adore pasta, literally any kind of pasta i will devour if you put in front of me. But i did struggle with eating for a while so trying new things is still scary for me

thank you so much for the ask!!🩶

[remuslupinkinnie1979]

It's asexuality day today!!! Here are some of my ace OCs:

Ava (any pronouns except he/him, ace, arospec, genderqueer, autistic)

Elli (they/them, biromantic, acespec, ADHD)

Echo (they/them, aroace, fairy)

Have a good day for all my ace folks! 🖤🩶🤍💜

[choiwonder]

i don’t think you’re aware of how much i love you.

i wanna drop kick the forces of the earth that separated me from you like wtf??? i gain the intimacy i desire and it’sSO FAR AWAY

[choiwonder]

did u guys know elle is literally the sweetest mostcaring anf full hesrt on planet earth

i miss lani & cielle & soul 😕😕😕