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gurugirl · 2 months ago

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Okay here's my idea that involves abortion

I have always thought that when a relationship ends badly it's easier to get over than the ones that end clean. Like if your partner did something horrible that led you to break up with them, like cheating or abuse or something like that, you'd be hurt at first then you'll understand that it's for the better and there's no reason to look back. But if your partner just fell out of love or you both just wanted different things then it's much harder to get over that person and the what-ifs after the break up. What if we compromised, what if somethings happened differently. You still have love for each other and even though you have broken up you still have hope that maybe we'll figure something out. So there's this uncertainty that doesn't let you move on. This story is kind of based on this uncertainty.

YN is a happy bubbly girl who's in a perfect relationship with the perfect person. They're together since first year of college. He's very loving and caring. They fit together perfectly. They have the same taste in almost everything and the ones they differ they adjust. They are big on their love for literature, like he recites poems to her and all that shit. She has friends but he her best friend and she's most comfortable with him. Her sense of humor is different than her but he adores that and he adores how awkward she can get around people sometimes. She can say whatever is in her mind without thinking who they're with. She's just overall a sunshine of a person. And he's very much in love with her. And he's genuinely a good guy and he's extremely handsome too. They're very secure in their relationship, never doubted each other's love, they fight like every other couple but they make up soon enough. They both see a future together and she dreams about having a family with him.

Now they're out of college and she's kind of working as an intern or just a low paying job in some company for now but she's constantly sending out resume so that she can get a better job based on her qualification. She has to get a job so she can afford paying rent for her shared apartment now that she's out of her dorm. Her boyfriend though, doesn't want to get a smaller job. He knows he deserves better and he has worked hard for his degree and he won't settle for anything less. He had his shared apartment with his best friend all through college and they're still living together. He didn't work part time jobs, he only focused on his studies and his other hobbies (literature and art and stuff) and he was living off of the pocket money his father gave him each month which was more than enough. His family is kind of wealthy. Like they have their own business and he got his business degree so he can join his family business later but he first wants to get the experience of working for others on his own. His brother is already working with his father and both his dad and brother doesn't agree with his decision to not join their business immediately. But he has his own values and he thinks he has to prove himself, that he can do good on his own with his hard work.

YN is sharing an apartment with an employee in her office, who is in a higher position than her. This girl is slightly older and very put together, always hot and sexy, totally opposite of YN because she's very careless about how she dresses and looks but she has this clumsy messy cute enchanting vibe going on for her so she gets along with people really well. Though this girl is not like her closest friend they're good friends and appreciate each other and spend time together when they're not going out on their own and sometimes they go out with their friends from office.

Everything is nice and fine. Then one day this girl meets Harry in a club when she was out with her friends. She brings Harry home but YN is spending the night with her boyfriend in his apartment (his best friend is also good friends with YN so the three of them spend time together often). So Harry and this girl starts sleeping together but whenever they do YN is always out because her roommate doesn't want to make it awkward for her but she has told YN about Harry. So about one month of them sleeping together and talking to each other they decide they want to date each other. Because this girl is attractive and hot and all things that Harry is interested in and Harry is obviously attractive and has a good job and he's a bit younger than the girl too. But Harry doesn't quite believe in love and marriage and forever and all that. Like "how can you spend all your life with one person, that's just prison, you get bored but don't say anything because you don't wanna hurt the other person so you end up being secretly miserable the rest of your life". He dates people, cares about them, he's a good boyfriend but has commitment issues (i haven't thought much about his background tbh). But then he meets YN and everything changes.

This is the background. But I imagined the story starting from when Harry and the roommate are already officially dating for about two weeks and they come to the apartment when YN is there cooking. Because her boyfriend had to go somewhere urgently so she came back home. So she's cooking and signing in the kitchen and Harry and her roommate stumbles into the apartment with their tongues down their throats and they don't notice her and she lets them continue for a few seconds then starts laughing which is probably rude but she's kinda oblivious like that sometimes. And then she says sorry and says "it's nice to finally meet you Harry". And well Harry's head is spinning from the embarrassment and the rush and seeing this adorable girl wearing a cute apron with a messy bun and a teasing smile. Something happens to him but he doesn't understand. Her roommate says sorry too, and introduces them properly. One more thing about her roommate is she is not very talkative, only talks when necessary, fun but in a classy way, like she's always looking perfect no misplaced hair kinda girl, not mean but very stiff (idk if I'm making sense). Like the sexy and mysterious kind which is probably why Harry is attracted to her. But she's very nice with YN and cares about her as much she can. So anyway, YN tells why she came back and the three of them end up hanging out and eating the food she was making and Harry goes back home (no sex for him that night sorry Harry). Harry liked talking to YN and spending time with her so he wants to do that more. Sometimes he would suggest they go on double dates and they come to the apartment and spend the night with their respective partners and then have breakfast in the morning and all four would go their on way. Harry becomes somewhat friends with her boyfriend in the process. But he really became close with YN and he really like spending time with her so now he finds excuse to spend time with her alone in their apartment. It became so much that he felt like he's dating her roommate just so he can hang out with YN. Soon enough Harry realizes that his feelings for YN is deeper than he thought and now he's questioning his beliefs about love and stuff. He has gotten himself in a weird situation and he can't do anything about it because YN and her boyfriend love each other very much and she genuinely doesn't think of him as more than a friend. And he feels jealous of her boyfriend that he gets to have all her affection. So he settles with the very little alone time he sometimes gets and the shared time when they're all hanging out together and he fantasizes about her then feels guilty for thinking of her like that. He starts to make himself busy so that he has less time to be with his girlfriend so that he doesn't end up imagining YN when he's sleeping with her. He has no other way, if he breaks up with her then she probably won't want YN to hang out with Harry.

But everything comes to a stop when one day he comes to see his girlfriend (really he came to see YN) and notices that YN looks sad and when he goes inside he sees that her boyfriend is their and he looks sad too. YN tells him to wait in his girlfriend's room and that they'll be in her room. Then Harry hears hushed shouting from her room and then when he hears the front door open and close he goes to the living room and sees that YN is sitting on the couch cover her face and her boyfriend has left. Harry sits beside her and she just hugs him and cries and he comforts her. She then tells him that her boyfriend got the perfect job in newyork which is the other side of the country and he's taking the job and moving to new york because this is the perfect opportunity for him and he won't settle for less here. But he also doesn't want to leave her here so he asked her to come with him but she doesn't want to leave her family and friends here, yes he's right that she can get a job there but she doesn't want to move to the other side of the country and leave her life behind. They had a huge argument and they didn't reach any conclusion. No one is ready to compromise and it feels like both of them are right and both of them are wrong at the same time. It's all very overwhelming for them so they decided to sleep on it then discuss after few days because they have to make a decision because he has to go there in two weeks. Harry listens to everything she says but he doesn't know what to say, he doesn't like seeing her sad ge has never seen her like that and it's breaking his heart. Then his girlfriend comes home and sees that Harry is caressing her hair and she's sleeping with her head in Harry's lap. She fell asleep from all the crying. Her roommate is not bothered seeing them like that but she immediately knows something is wrong with her and Harry tells her as much.

Then when she finally talks to her boyfriend after few days they reluctantly decide that they're gonna take a break and see how things will go if they can survive without each other and when he comes back for Christmas (which is months and months away) they'll figure out if they can do this or they should just break up. But this break feels like break up and they both know it. They decide they're gonna talk through texts and calls as much as they can. But they both know that they have to put distance between them because they can't string them along because they know they're not gonna change their mind. They know each other too well. But still they're gonna pretend that this is just a break a breather to figure things out and they'll look forward to Christmas and hopefully they'll figure it out. They love each other too much to lose all hope.

He goes to new york, they try talking as much as they can but they're also trying to stay away as much as they can. One month in Harry breaks up with his girlfriend and it's amicable because they lost the spark (they didn't even last 5 months really and 3 of them Harry has been crushing on YN heavily). Two months in the conversation between YN and her boyfriend becomes almost non existent. She's trying to move on but then she can't find it in herself to not look forward to Christmas because she's still in love with him. She's hanging out with Harry a lot in his apartment (which her roommate strangely never got to visit because Harry doesn't like having people over). So they become more close, closest friend, best friend and she starts to notice Harry, like really notice him. So that creates some confusion in her head. But she knows that it's happening because she's in this weird situation with her boyfriend and she's lonely. She knows she's attracted to Harry a bit but she still loves her boyfriend and she still has hope for them, so she doesn't dwell in the idea of Harry and she also knows Harry doesn't believe in love. She doesn't know that she has changed Harry's views on love. Then they get drunk at Harry's apartment one night and sleep together. She gets pregnant. Which she finds out pretty early on somehow. But before she finds out she's pregnant she and her boyfriend kind of just start talking regularly which she initiated because she cried her heart out because of guilt of having slept with someone else when she's obviously very much hung up on him (not that she regretted sleeping with Harry nor did she mention what she did with Harry to him) and all the overwhelming feelings, so she texted him saying she misses him and he admits that he tried to not text her in an attempt to get over her but it's not really working. Then she finds out she's knocked up and she loses her mind. Guilt, fear, uncertainty, the hope she had of reuniting with her boyfriend that's dying, the fact that she's doesn't want to have a baby this young, she's not ready at all and she doesn't want to bring a baby into this world who wasn't made out of love and she always saw her boyfriend as the father of her kids. She's overwhelmed. She wouldn't say it's a mistake but it's not what she wants and she doesn't know what Harry would think about this situation, if he wants to have kids at all because he doesn't seem like the type of person who'd want a family of his own. She goes to talk to Harry and he tells her "it's your body your choice". He would have liked to have a kid with her, he would have liked to have her as his girlfriend but he understands they're both young and they are not together and she's still hopeful about Christmas. So they decided to abort. And Harry is there to support her and take care of her. But with just one month till Christmas and her boyfriend's return and spending all her free time with Harry in his house and getting closer and closer to him while still having a semi regular text conversation with her boyfriend that's become more and more distant, she realizes that she's falling for Harry. And she thinks it's for better because she her boyfriend has lost the attachment significantly and she hasn't changed her mind about moving with him and she knows he's not gonna move back here soon. So she thinks it's better if they let go of each other. She decides that she's gonna tell him that when they meet during Christmas. But she doesn't know how Harry actually feels about her. He's very caring and gentle with her, very loving friend and they spend all their time together but does he feel something romantic for her or does he see her just as best friend. She is doubtful but she's gonna tell Harry how she feels after she talks with her boyfriend.

When her boyfriend comes back and they meet at his family home on Christmas eve, they give each other Christmas presents and she spends some time with his family and then they talk it out. They both agree that they have to let each other go. He tells her that he met someone a few weeks ago and he can see himself dating her but he wanted to talk YN first. She tells him about how she's spending time with Harry and might be falling in love with him and leaves all the other details out of it (no one needs to know about the baby and other stuff, she feels guilty and terrible that she's not being honest with him but she doesn't want to hurt him anymore). He tells her that he's happy if she finds happiness with Harry. They tell each other that they'll always have love for each other and always will be special and they'd still be friends.

Then she goes to Harry's place and tells him everything. They confess and well it's a verry happy Christmas for them

I hope tumblr doesn't swallow it this time

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WOOWOWOW! This is like the whole story basically babe! I have almost no work to do here lol!

I really like this idea! It feels like a lovely little slow burny thing and eventual discovery of feelings and moving on in life (like how it is in reality - we grow out of some people and into others). This is such a good idea! And I think as far as the abortion topic goes it's a very minor part of the story in general.

Thank you for this!

xoxo

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