#🥀 》 answered.

[deathdetermineslife]

remember, your f/o loves you regardless of your gender!

male? female? are you trans? cis? nonbinary? do you label yourself as a xenogender or use micro labels? are you under the nonbinary umbrella? are you some secret, third option? great! they love you!

they'll always respect you!

[microwavablefork]

SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA SHAMURA

- 🧊

funnily enough i actually just finished this dumb ahh thing so here u go my fellow spider lovers

eat up 🙏

[this-orange-anon024]

*their blood stained claws tap on Orange's forehead lightly*

Hello. I feel like I know you... Who are you again? -🥀

(Ooc: YESS YESS!!)

(orange was still at the cave. After last night, they decided to not want to leave them alone confused. At the little claws tapping their forehead, orange slowly started to wake from their nap)

hmm? Oh, hi you..

(they give a little sleepy, warm smile, before sitting up. So much affection in their tired voice)

I'm orange. I was with you yesterday in your.. hunting. And we became friends. Does that come to mind?

[tainted-be-the-light]

*Kris was sitting on a bench in the park, his legs crossed and headphones on, eating a panini as it balanced puppet’s sketchbook on rot’s knees*

~ @tired-andalready-fired

*He's walking through the park, hands in his pockets. Staring straight ahead.*

[ask-the-monster-nest-xxx]

Stanley grumbles softly, with his hands in his pockets, as he walks down the sidewalk. He was in a grumpy mood, as his superintendent advise him to take the week off from work, after he lash out on a coworker. He was heading to the closest bar, but has no clue he's being watched.

Hyasha was just about to leave the bar when the target he was looking for walked into the bar. He shrugged and followed back in. He had been paid to take this man out.

[pdid-culture-is]

P-DID culture is feeling like you aren't really a system because you never leave front and only rarely get a sense of other alters around, until you discover P-DID exists and everything suddenly makes sense and you feel more validated than you ever have before.

~🥀 (if it is not yet claimed)

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[skyborneveggie]

oh my goodness your hanahaki posting is getting to me. do you have more specific thoughts on a (lawlight?) hanahaki au? flower symbolism, logistics of the illness progression/timeline, etc.? do they both get it, do they ever get over it, is this the ultimate doomed flower sickness yaoi??? The People (me) wanna know!!!

Omg thank you so much for asking because I have SO many thoughts!!! I'm currently writing a fic on this & it was supposed to be just a little plot bunny thing, but then the implications hanahaki would have for Light's psyche kept running on & on & on in my mind 😩.

To start with, I have a bit of an unconventional take when it comes to hanahaki and similar tropes... I have a very strong preference for returning agency to the person experiencing the symptoms, and in that way making hanahaki not about unrequited/unconfessed love, but about emotionally repressing one's own feelings and an inability to be honest with oneself. The body is eating itself, and out of the dead pieces grows a desperate, last chance, unignorable cry for help. For the mind to listen. A beautiful, growing thing that should have been nurtured, becomes murderous. It's a physical manifestation of extreme psychological distress; one that can only be healed by approaching emotional self-acceptance.

In this light, I feel that post-yotsuba Light is PRIME to fall prey to this. He's already the king of repression, and now on top of that he's repressing his grief over L's death to the furthest ends of the earth and back. Light is someone who, as presented in the narrative, is incapable of self-realization. What would he do if he was confronted with irrefutable physical evidence of his own emotions? Is he capable of putting in the work to heal? Is he so compartmentalized that he can pick out this one element of himself and ignore all the other hidden fragments it's tied to? Or are the many fibers of his subconscious too jumbled, too interwoven to be able to separate the strands of his feelings for L out from the mess? If he opens the box to look inward, will the truth of everything else come spilling out? Is it better to live, destroyed by the guilt of the truth of your actions; that you were only ever a mass-murderer and that. is. all? Or is it better to die, in denial, and convince yourself it was martyrdom?

And also like. The absolute shame Light would experience in the mid-to-late stages, when the effects become unconcealable. There's no way he would be able to hide it from the task force for all that time. How does someone who can't abide even the slightest hint of his own imperfection, deal with not only the internal knowledge of his emotional instability, but also the knowledge that everyone else can now see it on him too. The hatred he would feel any time he saw pity in someone's eyes. The feeling of his body betraying his mind, and everything he stands for.

Light is someone that I see as being very disconnected from his body to begin with, existing largely within his own mind, his body nothing more than a vehicle with which to navigate the unimpressive, foggy, distant physical world through. I can imagine that for a very, very long time, he would be in absolute denial about what is happening to him. His mind is the only true thing, and it knows itself better than anything. His body—clunky, stupid, vacuous—is a traitorous and meaningless vessel. It is wrong, it doesn't understand him. It is pulling things from nowhere.

At some point, he has to face the facts, acknowledge the truth about his grief and true feelings for L, and make a intentional decision about his future. There is no more naive & unconscious path forward. It is either a conscious choice to accept the known truth, or a conscious choice to suppress the known truth.

(Also I think Misa's interaction with all of this could be FASCINATING. I'm of the opinion Misa is not truly in love with Light either, and that she uses him as a prop in her own internal agenda to simulate love & normalcy. L is dead, so I don't imagine she'd see him as much of a threat to her built-up fantasy. I do wonder if she would fear for Light as an extension of fearing for herself and her own future without him, or if by nature of it being a slow decline, she would be able to come to terms with it in a toxic kind of way and romanticize the hell out of taking care of her "poor terminally ill boyfriend :(".)

The idea of Light getting hanahaki in the first half while L is still alive is interesting, & one I've thought about far less tbh. I kind of feel like since it is a present, living feeling at that point and hasn't yet become internalized as a past-tense emotional memory, it could be possible for Light to come to terms with his feelings without jeopardizing his internal construct. If it was between life and death, I'm certain he would choose life in that case. But I'm not sure that it would deter him from killing L in the end.

And perhaps this goes without saying, but if the operation was available in this theoretical universe, pre-yotsuba Kira!Light would recognize & get it all ripped out right away out of necessity, to prevent himself from being compromised under pressure of the game. Post-yotsuba Light, with the threat of immediacy removed and dull fog of mundanity descended over him, would have more time to linger in denial. (I am trying to decide, for my fic, whether it is believable that Light could be so deep in denial that he could let himself get to the point where the flowers and vines have inextricably embedded themselves in his system, and the surgery is no longer possible by the time he seeks help; or if his sense of self-preservation outweighs his emotional denial. I would love to hear your opinion on this 🤔) Yotsuba Light is so, so interesting to think about!! He has the highest capacity to heal his hanahaki the natural way, but he is still the same perfectionist, internally unforgiving person. I'm kind of torn as to whether I think he would be able to reach self-realization, or if he would still see his feelings as a weakness and get the flowers taken out. I could see either happening under the right circumstances.

As for L: I feel that L is able to be a lot more emotionally honest with himself than Light is. If he got hanahaki, I think it would fuck him up inside and that it would be despairing, but I also think that he doesn't have an internalized compulsion to lie to himself. He might hate it, but he would be able to accept the truth of his feelings, and banish the flowers by letting the knowledge of it live in his body like a silent, melancholic memento. In this way, L's hanahaki has the potential to be canon compliant. Alternatively, if he did get the surgery, it would be more of a calculated, impersonal decision, one that he might not really want to do but has to for his own best chance at surviving the game. He might be a bit mournful & carry a bit of preemptive regret over it. Unlike Light, who would tear everything out with furious self-loathing.

I could go on even more, but this has already become extremely long 🙈. Thank you for listening to me ramble endlessly haha.

[myklaus]

[gremlinlotusannonhere]

(insane au..)

Maggie was panicking cuz of Lotus for DAYS. “UGHHH”

Hello, friend! I'm glad to see you've recovered! -🥀

[themistressdomme]

Wheel of filth gave me number 4: confess your dirtiest fantasy

Well here it is. I desperately want to get fucked by two women until I’ve forgotten my name. Starting with orgasm denial turning into complete overstimulation as they degrade me. Did I mention these women are twice my age.. yeah I have a thing for older women. I want to be used completely, eating pussy till I suffocate, my only job to make them proud. I beg for their validation trying to be the best girl I can for them as they spank my ass, pussy and face red. I want them to then act like nothing happened, like they didn’t break me as I cry and whimper, they console me stroking my hair as I fall asleep aching. Until I wake up the next day and they do it. All. Over. Again.

-🥀

Oh, my wilted little rose.

Aren't you so good, telling me exactly what you did, hm?

What a filthy little fantasy. Fucked until you can't even formulate a single thought. Denied and denied and denied until there are tears running down your pretty face, hm? How many denials do you think you'll be able to handle? How many denials do you think you deserve?

Maybe if you beg real pretty, if you use those words so nicely? Maybe one of the Dommes would be inclined to finally let you cum.

But oh, sweet thing. Isn't there a catch, hm?

Once you start cuming, they don't let you stop.

"You wanted this," one of coos right into your ear, one hand holding the vibrator to your clit whilst the other slips three fingers into your mouth.

"Be a good slut and take it. We know you can." This one is meaner, hm? She bottoms out in your tight pussy over and over again.

Oh, would you like to be spitroasted, darling angel? Would that be filthy enough for you?

Pretty little tears down your face, gently being wiped away by the pads of their thumbs. Hushing you, rocking you, kissing your face. Praising you for being so good for them.

Drift off to sleep, darling. After all, you have more to take tomorrow, don't you?

🥀

[noxthesynners]

36 and pro-endo is...yikes. pls do research on dissociative disorders

Here's a big pile of that research that y'all keep ignoring, by the way.

What do you mean yikes because we are in our thirties and supportive of all systems? Why are you that bent out of shape over that? Which makes me believe you're a child under the age of 25.

We are not going to waste time and energy hating endogenic systems to please you. They are not a threat and they do exist as much as people want to say they don't.

[microwavablefork]

hmmmmmmmm how about narinder pre-godhood? or maybe baby lamb?

also i dunno, might be cool if you drew some pikmin... kicks a pebble or whatever..

unfortunately i am not well versed in pikmin.. but i am very insane abt my lamb lore

Also LAMB NAME REVEAL!1!1!

Ok so, to preface, I’m irish and based the lamb’s culture off of celtic mythology so yeah

The lamb’s mother, Dana, comes from the name of the mother goddess in irish mythology who gave name to the ‘tuatha de danann’ (tribe of goddess danu, tribe of the gods) which is what i base the lamb’s close following on (stay with me here) So its kinda to say that from the lamb’s mother giving birth to them, she effectively raised all ‘children’ (following) of the lamb if you get what im saying?

The lamb themself takes the name of the famed goddess Ériu who is the matron goddess of ireland and gave it its name. SO staying on theme that the cult is named after the lamb themself, it fit nicely imo.

The lamb was born just as the reaping began, so their mother chose a name she hoped would bring them luck to spare them from the reaping. Hoping it would bring them to safer lands with ‘bounty and abundance’ as the name means. It was wishful thinking, although she knew not what her child was to become the very symbol the name portrayed.

sorry i’m really bad at putting my ideas into words it’s so late so i hope it’s comprehensible 😭🙏

[sekai-headcanoning]

I headcanon Rui to be anattractional spectrum and unlabeled. Ik it's not a common opinion but it's my one.

Also, I feel like Tsukasa would occasionally do stereotypically dramatic character things, for the sake of seeming more like what he deems to be a "star", just my take though. (Ex, fake fainting, eating a whole tub of ice cream).

Plus, I think at one point, Kohane would like the edgy "Kpop" fashion. I forget the name, but it blew up a few years back.

I don't have the jellyfish emoji, but could you share you opinion on this?

(Can I be 🥀 anon? )

✮

Honestly I can see it, Rui just kinda. doing his own thing, y’know? I feel like it does fit him, so I like this‼️

YES. It’s no secret that he goes to drastic lengths for his whole star ideology (Kasa3.) so this makes a lot of sense

IM INTERESTED. I GOTTA FIGURE OUT THE NAME FOR THAT. But that absolutely sounds like something Kohane would like oh my goodness.

(And yes you can‼️)

[rxmye]

I know this isn't a request but how do you make your blogs so aesthetically pleasing?😭😭 they r so pretty!!!

THANK YOU FOR ASKING?? LIKE I TAKE THAT AS SUCH A BIG COMPLIMENT? Okay so, sdosefjeo heres a few small things I like to do with graphics and shit.

Borders!! Make sure to always have borders, I find that this helps keep shit super organized !! Personally, I prefer thin borders, chonky ones makes it a bit errr not so yummy.

For pinned posts, I try and not make them too long? Long could also work, depending on the header you choose, I usually slap 3 pictures, from the same manga/manwha that are the same size so it fits well, and doesn't look disproportionate, you could also do two manga covers !! (Covers are usually more maximalist, esp if u use the edited ones you can find on pinterest!!), if you choose to go for one picture, I recommend something thin, like a long rectangle. (This is preference, honestly for me I'm super picky)

For fanfic headers I tend to form a border, because it looks nice to me, and I usually just layer it and add in a blur feature, or change the saturation and shit, mainly use pixlr and play around with what they say have.

And for the over all colour scheme, I usually use graphics from the same editor, so the theme is consistent, and use one of the photos, put it through image colour picker and use the colours from it to colour my blog, it helps keep everything consistent, yk?!!

[pdid-culture-is]

P-DID culture is finally getting a sense of some of your alters near front after months of hearing nothing, but then doubting if you are really hearing your alters because they are alters you haven't met before.

~🥀

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[homecomingvn]

Hey everyone, long time no see! Apologies for the months of silence - but I’m back now! I needed to take a much needed step back from HOCO and focus on some other projects of mine (as well as play a ungodly amount of BG3 hehe).

On my break, I also decided to kinda tear down HOCO and rebuild it from the ground up. I wasn’t really pleased with how the story was going and I think that really contributed to the burnout I felt with the project. I still would like to include the premise of the various life stages, but may go about it in a different way than I had initially planned - things to think about more I suppose!

Anyways here’s some behind the scenes of what I’ve been up to - starting with revisiting the cast’s (+ Nico’s) main outfits and updating them :3