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i split a guy who's role is to time travel and "fix" a specific bad trauma memory so that it wouldn't have happened and we can take what we would have done differently into the future - I wonder if anyone else has an alter with that role

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Not P-DID Culture is, but I saw the ask about reporting spam in the P-DID tags (and potentially feeling guilty about it) and I also wanted to add that spam is actually against the Tumblr TOS and User Guidelines!

Quote (emphasis/italics are mine): "Don't put tags on your posts that will mislead or deceive searchers. For example, don't tag a photo of your cat with ‘doctor who’ unless the name of your cat is actually Doctor Who, and don't overload your posts with #barely #relevant #tags…Spam doesn't belong on Tumblr”

So yeah…figured it would be good food for thought or whatever :)

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[pdid-culture-is]

pdid culture is being able to describe yourselves in a few words "Oh that is the anxious one, that is the hopeful one, that is the suicidal one, and over there is the one who doesn't give a shit about what people think." etc etc

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p-did culture is all the folks in the system wish we could have friends or connections outside of the system but the host is the only person who is reliably present enough to build that kind of connection and even co con it still feels like our thoughts and words are being filtered through him.

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pdid culture is struggling to have good system communication because how can you talk to someone that isn't around most of the time? oh, and don't forget the lack of answers about the issue itself because barely anybody posts about pdid anyways

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P-DID culture is (in reference to https://www.tumblr.com/pdid-culture-is/773122738565038080/vent-ish-p-did-culture-is-being-so-so-so-jealous?source=share )

Yeah, we feel you.🫂. It hurts with the lack of resources and the fact that we're. Just there and it takes us a lot longer to realise that we're P-DID, which doesn't help the constant doubting - especially when you search up DID/OSDD/etc, it all shows switching and blackouts and we'll... Just not get that.

(vent/personal experience warning); We've had moments where we wished we were DID/OSDD because it would've been easier to explain to our singlet friends. Especially when they get things wrong about P-DID and claim that that's. How it works. When it's not. And it's just so frustrating.

Hopefully we'll get more resources and recognising for us eventually <3 we're hopeful for it.

Just in case anyone needed it: you're valid and you're not faking. You're doing your best🫶

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ok this isn't a culture ask , more of a question ask .. how do you . know or figure out if you have p-did ? because for the past few years i've thought it was osdd , but everytime i talked about it it Didnt Feel Right . and a couple months ago i found out what p-did was and .

you know when something iust absolutely clicks within your body and you get overwhelmed with emotion ? when i started reading about what it is, i started crying . because it resonated so close to me, it felt like someone understood . but theres such little info out there , and everytime i talk about it it feels like im faking or im being judged . doesnt help with the fact it feels like its mostly co fronting with someone when something does happen . like i can physically feel a presence with me and when i start to dissociate it feels like ive stepped back from my controls and my eyes , and theres a spot in my mind where there is someone else and its like a room . with a huge tv where i see out of my eyes .

so sorry about the long post , i never can talk about this with people because they dont understand or they think im being overdramatic and its something else . uh

🫀anon i guess

Well, no one else (at least not a professional, which I am certainly not) can know for sure for you, this does sound like what we experience! We don't have full switches, and at most we usually only co-front. We feel someone else, but they're not fully in control, I'm not ever fully out of front, but I do take the back seat, watching. We can't be of much help though, since we're not professionals, and it sucks that there's not much info about it, so the main option is to listen and ask others.

Our DMs are always open though, if you do have other questions that we didn't think to answer, or experiences we forgot to share :)

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not a culture ask but!! I've recently (started actually researching today) been thinking I might have P-DID and this blog is helping me see the different stories of others with it and it helps a lot :]

You're welcome! We didn't even fully realize how much PDID was just ignored and how few (if any other) spaces to talk about purely PDID there were until we kept receiving asks like this. It's been a wonderful experience teaching and helping :D

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Not culture but this blog was the first place I heard of PDID and it makes sense to my experiences but I don’t know how to confront that. So thank you in a way I suppose

You're welcome :) We're glad we can help others at least find out about this experience

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(vent-ish) P-DID culture is being so so so jealous of other (not pdid) systems for how they operate and are so. perfect. we dont work like other systems at all and it makes me so jealous when people talk about their system. sometimes i really wish i just had standard DID so it wouldnt be as hard, all non-PDIDs have it so easy and they dont even know it.. tons of resources online and others to relate to. maybe its bad to say but i yearn for the generic system experiences, even the negative parts. i want full switches and blackouts, i want the confusion that comes with it, i want alters that can actually be active, i want every part of the DID experience so i can relate to someone. i feel guilty over that, why would i ever want it different when i obviously have it easier than most? dont know. im tired of not being seen in the system community im tired of the alienation im tired of everything and i just want to feel comfortable with my own system but its so hard when you dont even feel seen by people who are supposed to get you the most. im sorry

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Hello! i was wondering if i could get a promo for this blog to get it off the ground? /nf, and just dm me to be removed from the post! @narcissisticpdcultureis @pdid-culture-is @fictive-culture @disordered-system-culture-is @hpdcultureis @borderline-culture-is

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lengthy anon stuff ahead, sorry about that!!

i thought there must be something wrong with me or the system that i am a part of because ive been on front for so long. i never had the chance to be on a full switch, could only manage cocon or cofront with my fellow headoomfs, had gone through months of little to no communication, and began to doubt too.

then today, i found out about the pdid label and it made me so happy because im not the only one who goes through this?? i am SO glad that i found out about pdid but there are so little info that i could find. it made me think about the first time i ever accepted that i was part of a system, it DOES make sense too because it aligns with pdid and i only find out about it today? oml 😭

— windchime🎐💭 (can i be this anon? /nf)

We're glad you could find a place where you belong! It took us a while to find out about PDID too, especially because of the lack of material talking about it other than just a mention in a conversation mainly about DID or OSDD. We're happy that you found out about it :)

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P-DID culture is finally getting a sense of some of your alters near front after months of hearing nothing, but then doubting if you are really hearing your alters because they are alters you haven't met before.

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P-DID culture is just feeling like you're crazy because you also very much do have maladaptive daydreaming.

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(Please ignore the previous ask I sent. I accidentally clicked “ask”/send before finishing— ooops; my bad)

P-DID Culture is wanting to start a blog (Tumblr or otherwise) about our experiences as a P-DID, but hesitating because:

1. DID and OSDD are highly stigmatised and poorly understood (and we don’t have the capacity/bandwidth to deal with that directly and/or any potential negativity it might bring our way)

2. P-DID seems to be poorly understood (and, at times, it seems like it’s even stigmatised) by other systems as well due to the difference in how it works/presents (and we’re worried about it triggering denial)

3. We’re not open about being a system and worry that, even if we take all the precautions, people (offline) will figure we’re a system and we don’t have the stability to deal with that

…but also really, really wanting to start a blog because we want to talk to someone about it but, beyond this (P-DID Culture Is) blog, we haven’t really found a safe space to do that…

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P-DID culture is finding out this blog exists and going to follow it, then realizing you already do. ...Then having to take a moment to deal with the realization that you probably have more amnesia than you thought

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P-did culture is having to think really really hard about your alters in order to communicate with them

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