#🤍 from: zen !

[stunie]

whats the craziest umie story ... 🤲🤲

:O UMIE QUESTION? AND ZEN ? cradling this ask in my hands …. very carefully. then decorating it with little heart stickers … thank you zen zen 🥺🤍 love u sm

the craziest…. it would probably be the last ayce sushi place we visited > < idk how crazy it is but i can say it was definitely an experience! the original plan was me vs umemiya: how many pieces of sushi we could eat while still avoiding the leftovers fee of course ! no sushi wasted. um so long story short, we ended up joining forces at the end ): it went from “i already ate this many!” to “okay you get that one, and i’ll get that one…” “okay we just have those two left….”

[juminies]

🔁 tom reblogged

📱 generictexter mutuals

Um I just found an iphone on the street and some guy is texting it telling me to go to an apartment nearby. Might die but he's kind of hot and I'm feeling wild so

#Has anyone heard from her? I'm a little worried! #UPDATE: my friend texted me to let me know she's fine :)

📷 V following

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🔆 eattherich

it's actually insane how many fans jumin han has considering his dad is literally the chairman of a global conglomerate. do you realise how much money these people have that they could be putting to better use

🎀 princesshan follow

op doesn't realise the money is part of the appeal

🔆 eattherich follow

the money is why everyone at the top of C&R is also at the top of the 'to eat' list

#i can't even begin to form a response to prev tags #also inb4 you say something like 'j*min will be eating something else iykwim' #moving on!

anonymous asked:

if 'lordofthecattower' joins your party block them they'll throw

🧙‍♂️ supermanyoosung mutuals

Wait that's my friend T-T I know he's not great but it's ok! We all start somewhere!!!

#me and our other friend have been trying to teach him! #i didn't even know he was playing without me lololol

🐈 catprotect following

Remempurr our fundraiser is tomorrow everyone! Please feel free to bring along any well behaved kitties but gentle reminder that they must be kept either within a carrier or on a leash. We would hate any accidents!

See you there!

🌟 idolpage follow

anyone else think that soloist that just debuted looks scarily like the president

#delete later

🎭 zenlover7 mutuals

It must be so hard for Zen's friends not to hit on him every time he sends them selfies T_T T_T

�� thezenryu following

Haha you flatter me but I'm mostly friends with guys!

🔁 princesshan reblogged eattherich

🔆 eattherich follow

it's actually insane how many fans jumin han has considering his dad is literally the chairman of a global conglomerate. do you realise how much money these people have that they could be putting to better use

🎀 princesshan follow

op doesn't realise the money is part of the appeal

#he's also insanely hot but i digress !! #...and don't quote me on this but his dad could kinda get it too 👀

⚔️ lololfiend follow

we can't decide in the gc so

#league of loneliness of life #lolol

💒 lostlover follow

has anyone heard of "mint eye" I just got handed a flyer for it but it's so vague and I can't find anything online lmao. are they trying to recruit me into a cult or something

#he also gave me some sort of drink(?) but if it's from a cult I don't really want to drink it #mutuals lmk if I should do a taste test

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Zen selfie from today (via an anonymous source).

[anonzentimes]

Related to Nagito being really smart, I'd like to share a headcanon with you. (I thought you might find it interesting since it is based on the culture and circumstances of a Japanese high school. XD)

As you know, he does not wear a school uniform in DR2. I think this is because he is smart enough to attend a high school that does not have uniforms. Most Japanese high schools have uniforms, but there are some high schools that do not have uniforms and students attend in casual clothes, and such schools tend to be the elite ones. This is just to say that there is such a tendency, not to say that all of them are like this, but there is a reason for it. The less intelligent students tend to behave worse and often don't dress properly, so the high schools these students attend have uniforms and stricter rules regarding uniforms. For example, all accessories are prohibited, jackets must be buttoned all the way up and skirts must be at least 2 inches below the knee. They also tend to be very strict about hairstyles. Not only are students not allowed to dye their hair, but they are told that their bangs must never extend below their eyebrows, and that girls must tie their hair back if it is long enough to touch their shoulders... But the more elite schools do not have these rules. The students are trusted not to do anything wrong without such rules. (In fact, I have a friend who says she got into an elite school because she really wanted to wear earrings. 😄)

I guess in other countries, more elite high schools tend to have uniforms, so it might be a little surprising that the smarter high schools in Japan tend to allow students to go to school in casual clothes. I think Nagito is smart enough, so he probably attended a high school where he was allowed to go to school in his own clothes. Hope you find this interesting! Have a great day, Zen!

Oh Wow!!! :0 I did not know that! That is an awesome fact and fun headcanon thank you for sharing with me, it’s the complete opposite where I’m from. That being said, I don’t think I’m the best to talk about what truly is normal in schools here since I’ve been some form of homeschooled my whole life haha! But I digress, I think that’s very interesting! I’m sure Nagito would have enough money and intelligence to be able to go to one of these elite schools! I think I’d die if I had to deal with such strict dress code… I’ve never dealt with school in person before in the first place 🥲!!! Nagito seems to care about his fashion sense a lot, I wonder if in this scenario he would have had a similar motive to your friend haha! I like your headcanon a lot, and I learned something new today! Thank you very much for sending me this :) 🤍

[pavedinashes-if]

What are the ROs love languages?

Thanks for the question! Quite a bit of typing here but definitely giving a good insight. Obviously there's a lot more to each of them, but have a peek. :)

Samual / Samantha "Sam" Peters - (Neighbour, Police Officer) 💙 - Receiving: Words of Affirmation (e.g. recognize their dedication for their job and sincere wish to help people) - Giving: Acts of Service (e.g. whatever necessary to make your life more Zen - they're on it)

Felix / Felicia Nowak - (Ex, Rich Kid) 🩷 - Receiving: Physical Touch (e.g. show them there's a connection money can't buy - they are more than their money) - Giving: Gifting (e.g. fulfilling even your most absurd wishes - at any co$t)

Alex Czenacki - (New Foe, Lawyer) 🧡 - Receiving: Quality Time (e.g. valuing and building an almost spiritual connection) - Giving: Words of Affirmation (e.g. he sees your struggle, your worth and your growth)

Noah / Naomi Cho - (Best Friend, Photographer) ❤️ - Receiving: Acts of Service (e.g. be an integral part and support in their every day - even from afar) - Giving: Quality Time (e.g. making sure you build new unforgettable memories - worth a bestseller)

Xavier Hoffmann - (New Friend, Musician) 💚 - Receiving: Receiving Gifts (e.g. show him you thought about him - no matter where you've been) - Giving: Words of Affirmation (e.g. he's your biggest fan)

Bianca Wolf - (Childhood Friend, Student) 🩵 - Receiving: Quality Time (e.g. she's a daydreamer, give her shared memories to dream about) - Giving: Acts of Service (e.g. she can't wait to do anything for you - puppy like)

Laurenz / Laura Svenson - (Rival, Pro Skater) 💛 - Receiving: Words of Affirmation (e.g. show them they're finally good enough) - Giving: Physical Touch (e.g. break their shell by being gentle)

Francesco / Francesca Moretti - (Bestie's BF/GF, Model) 💜 - Receiving: Words of Affirmation (e.g. make sure they know they're more than their stunning looks) - Giving: Physical Touch (e.g. they are obsessed with every inch of you)

Dima / Dalia Petrov - (Boss, Club Owner) 🖤 - Receiving: Quality Time (e.g. make their rare moments of peace worth it) - Giving: Acts of Service (e.g. whatever you need and before you even know it - without exception)

Dr. Michael / Michaela Sturm - (Doctor) 🤍 - Receiving: Physical Touch (e.g. the desperate need to relief daily tension - a long hug, a deep kiss or maybe more) - Giving: Quality Time (e.g. a day without you smiling is a lost one)

"Sparks" - (Dealer) 🩶 - Receiving: Receiving Gifts (e.g. they never received any gifts - from you it's precious, almost holy) - Giving: Words of Affirmation (e.g. show them you don't judge - you see their true self)

Paul / Paula Gerwig - (Stranger, Executive Vice President) 🤎 - Receiving: Acts of Service (e.g. they'll ask for your presence...) - Giving: Gifting (e.g. ...and they'll give back in return)

[jinjinranran]

Miyeon x Zen 🤍

Zenny hc time 🤍 I think he's bi, with stronger preference for women. However, he doesn't even consider this a possibility until he falls for someone who's NOT a woman. Or if he doesn't like in my case, I like to imagine that he gets called out on his ignorance (*cough* "gay people have their own aura" *cough*) and/or someone points out that hey, dude, the way you compliment/appreciate other male actors is kinda fruity 👁👁 so he does his research (and has a small existential crisis lmao)

Other characters: 💛 💜 🧡 💗 ❤️ 💚 💙 🤍 🤎

Miyeon's story under the cut ✨️

🤍 Miyeon So ♡ she/her ♡ 22 yo ♡ queer/questioning + ambiamorous

(I forgot about the other flag sorry;;)

Miyeon never placed much importance on labels, or relationships in general. Being a trainee since she was 12 didn't give her much room to experiment.

She felt attraction to multiple genders though, she was sure of that. And while she couldn't really come out or talk about it freely without risking a scandal, she always felt uncomfortable with people assuming she's straight. When talking about ideal types or writing lyrics of her songs, she used gender-neutral language whenever it was possible. Some fans caught on and speculated she's a part of lgbt community, some believed she's an ally, and of course some couldn't accept that their fav idol could be anything but straight and strongly "defended" her from any rumors.

She wishes that one day, when her career is more stable, she'll be able to find a label she's the most comfortable with and share the truth with the world.

She also considers herself ambiamorous - meaning that she'd be able to enjoy either mono- and polyamorous relationship depending on the situation, with no preference between the two.

Miyeon met Zen when both of them were casted for the same musical, a year and a half after her debut. She fell for him the second their eyes met in the backstage room. However, she never acted on her feelings, in fear of ruining both of their careers. Besides that, it's not like she even had a chance - he had a lot of other, more attractive women around him, why would he even look at her? (He looked. She was just oblivious).

A few years later, when she found herself in that apartment with a weird chatting app on her phone, her heart skipped a beat. Zen was here. Does he remember her? Will he recognize her? He knew her only by her stage name after all. Did he follow her career as closely as she did his, or was she just one of his coworkers, forgotten after the last performance ended?

[canes-fidus]

RFA with an MC with DID pt2 Zen

🤍Zen

*To Zen he noticed the problem much sooner.

*You acting like everything was fine and dandy wasn't enough to genuinely convince him you were fine. He's an actor after all, he can tell when someone is pretending.

*Not to mention he's played the role of someone with DID before, as well as he's met people with the disorder.

*While he was no specialist, he certainly suspected something was up.

*He actually assumed something was off from the start. In the chatrooms your typing style would change, you'd forget things as easily as the drop of a pin. Maybe you just had a bad memory? It happens to some people! Surely that was it.....

*When you first joined the RFA he would ask about your past, trying to get to know you better, only to be met with either excuses or "I don't want to talk about it."

*He called asking you to come over, that he'd like to talk to you. He sounded serious. While you were nervous you knew you couldn't just dismiss your lover's request.

*He confronted you about the last thing you've ever wanted to hear.

*He found out....

*You couldn't help but cry, despite such strong urges to hold back every emotion you could possible feel it all just spilled out.

*You loved him, you promised to be honest and open even if it was hard. So you told the truth. You were diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder, and that you had gone through hell and back from such a young age.

*He was pissed someone hurt you during a time of innocent, that you were forced to go through drastic survival measures. That because of someone you can't even remember your own life.

*Despite his own emotions he knew yours were much more important, and you needed him more than anything right now.

*He promised he'd do everything he can to help you. To get you the help you need and guide you along the way when you struggled.

*He even dedicated some RFA parties to people struggling with DID, and donated to charities to help. Any role involving an evil alter he denied, he knew it would do nothing but harm to contribute to the stigma.

*He loved you, all of you. No matter which part was in control he was there for all of it. He would help you start fresh, in a hell free life. You were free and safe now thanks to his help.

[brighteststar707]

Compact Mirror with Zen! 🤍

Love ya!!

Hello hello! Thank you for the request! I hope you enjoy the fic 😊

I've taken this one as another excuse to ramble about my own personal Zen lore hehe

✧ Compact Mirror ~ Self-reflection and growth/progress

Zen's trailer is roomy, rigged up with anything he might need while on set. It's bigger than any other dressing room he has had while working on previous projects and certainly more lavish than the rooms he used to have while working on theatre productions.

It's surreal.

Unchanged from those days though, are the pictures he has tacked up on the walls around the mirror. Of his friends back home, of audiences full of fans, and of her. If he’s being honest, they’re mostly of her. His driving force, his biggest supporter, his great love. She’s in nearly every picture, smiling down at him as he gets ready between scenes.  

On days like today, it’s those pictures that bring him comfort. He is a long way away from home working on this film (his biggest role yet, as she often reminds him). A few hours earlier he had phoned her to chat before he had to get back to work. At this moment, he’d guess that she’s at home in the living room, winding down after her own day of work.

Home. Over the past few years, the two of them have worked hard to turn their first house together into a proper home. They had moved out of the basement apartment not long after she became his manager, due to worries about their safety and his career taking off after the RFA party.

Now, despite how much luxury he has been exposed to while filming, he misses home more than ever.

Feeling homesick is a new experience for him. His parent’s house never really felt like home. His space was often invaded, he was never allowed to let go and be himself for fear of disappointing them and being told off. His most prized belongings were often hidden away to prevent them from being found and confiscated. As a child, his school music room often made him feel more comfortable than his own bedroom.

Then, when he left, he spent some time crashing on peoples’ sofas and leaky inflatable mattresses. Till this day he is endlessly thankful for the generosity of the people who took him in, but those spaces weren’t his to begin with. There wasn’t much to miss when he left.

That was the time he had started landing roles and found himself spending a lot of time in the rooms backstage. Before shows, warming up and resting and spending time with his fellow castmates.

He might not miss his couch surfing days, but he definitely misses the feeling of performing in theatre productions. There was something special about the communal feeling of a group of actors preparing for a show together, especially when he was still landing smaller roles and didn't ever get his own dressing room. The chaos of the last-minute costume changes, dashing around backstage to make it to places on time. The inside jokes the actors had between each other and the familiarity of old faces in new productions. His eyes search the pictures around his mirror for them now, pictures taken on a banged-up camera he had bought at the charity shop with one of his first pay checks.

The memories of the ambiance in those pictures forms a startling contrast to the silence of his trailer now. He’s the only one here, in a room that could fit so many of his friends and colleagues. While the peace is calming, it also serves as a reminder of how lonely he can get.

Landing film jobs has been a dream come true for Zen, and he is forever grateful for all the people who helped get him there. That being said, making the jump away from a scene he has been a part of for ten years was bittersweet. He knows he wouldn’t be where he is now if it weren’t for the people he worked with back then.

He can still remember the director of the first production he worked on. The one who gave him the job that would eventually allow him to rent his first apartment. He was kind, and saw what talent Zen had before most of the industry did. The job he gave him was the one that allowed him to leave his gang days behind and establish a real home for himself.

He will always be fond of his basement apartment. The box of belongings he had managed to bring with him when he left home, the letters from fans he had put up on the wall, his little keyboard (another gem from the charity shop) and the slow accumulation of things that were his. Nobody could tell him what to do with that space except for him.

Over the years, that apartment became the monument to his personal and professional growth. A few years in, he managed to buy himself a computer. His bedframe is one he bought and put together by himself. He even managed to afford a decent TV a year after moving in.

In the living room there was a stack of CDs from some of his favourite artists, a collection that stretches back to when he was still a teenager. Beside it, there was a stack of DVDs from his performances that were recorded. The day he got the first one, he put it next to the CD stack and then sat on the sofa, just to look at them side-by-side. His own performance, recorded for ever, bought by so many people to live in their homes forever.

It was the first time that he felt like he was leaving a mark on the world.

Since then, the stack has grown to include official cast recordings, performances, and now even the movies he has starred in.

He is fond of that apartment because it was his in every way. Paid for by his own hard work, furnished the way he wanted it to be. By contrast, he loves the new house because it is something he built together with his partner. The space is not his, made to accommodate her, but theirs in every detail.

He can find her touch in the paint on the walls (a job she insisted on doing herself) and the pattern of the bedsheets. Her belongings sit next to his on the shelves and their photos are clustered together on the walls. It's a home built on their love, and it's the one he misses the most when he's in this strange space.

Sometimes, in quiet moments like this, it's easy for Zen to lose himself in how far he has come and how much around him has changed. He stares at the pictures he has hanging up and loses himself in the memories.

He can vividly remember what he was feeling through each of those moments in his life. On the upper corner, there’s a picture of him sitting on stage surrounded by castmates, taken during rehearsals. His hair is messily tied back and his face is flushed but he’s smiling widely along with the rest of them. They had just worked through a big dance number and this was the first time they had gone through it properly on stage. He remembers how badly he wanted to do a good job and impress the actors he was working with.

Next to it, with the corner slightly overlapping the first picture, is one from the first RFA parties. Everyone looked terribly young and they were all posed so stiffly. They were still strangers then, without a clue of what they had stepped into. With some difficulty he remembers Rika calling out to them from behind the camera, reminding them to smile.

Then, there’s one where he’s surrounded by a group of fans. They had waited until after the show to ask for pictures and of course he had agreed. He remembers them giving him small gifts and flowers and he returned home with his hands (and heart) full. Then, when he finally made it back into his apartment – opening doors with your hands full of trinkets is harder than it looks – he was hit with a wave of loneliness. So many people liked the work he did, and they were so kind. But he still ended up at home alone every day, without anyone to share the joy with.

Little did he know how soon after that moment he’d meet the love of his life. It’s funny how those things work out. He wishes he could reach out to the person he was at each of those moments, when he was struggling and unsure and scared, and tell them that it would all lead to this moment.

His phone screen lights up and he is momentarily distracted. It's as if she can hear his train of thought, he thinks, as he answers her call.

"Honey! I was just thinking about you!"

[bakerysnake]

whenever youre free i wannaa hear moree about alexxx and youuu 🤍🤍🤍

okay okay so

here's a link to a carrd i made for alex (that way you know what he looks like at least)

me as an idol: - composer, producer + kind of writes lyrics? (barely ever) - dancer! and choreographer - in a group, no solo work beyond song writing for other artists

idol alex: - boy group, also a solo artist - composer, producer, lyricist - rapper + sub-vocalist - yk those idols who stay late after practice and spend late nights in their studios? him - v v dedicated to getting better at dancing especially - soothing singing voice, small range - sounds amazing singing in pop rap songs - his solo work leans more towards k-hiphop than kpop - we've collabed on a song before <3

us secretly dating: - HE'S SO BAD AT HIDING IT - zen you have no idea exactly how terrible he'd be at hiding it - boy gets sooo blushy and red it's insane - so in public he kinda avoids me entirely - even tries to avoid thinking abt me if he's on camera - this def changes as the relationship goes on but in the beginning, oh lord, he's a mess - we met and started talking when our groups covered a song together for some award show - the song we collabed on came a bit less than a year later - we spent so much time (over)thinking abt whether fans would guess we're dating or not, so we finished the final version much later than we thought we would - we've both got a more personal version of the song saved (for our ears only <3) - AND AND!! SITTING IN THE STUDIO TOGETHER SQUISHED NEXT TO EACH OTHER WHILE WE WORK - STAYING LATE CAUSE WE HAVE NO SCHEDULE FOR THE NEXT DAY AND WE TAKE A BREAK & WHEN I COME BACK FROM GETTING A CUP OF WATER I FIND ALEX ASLEEP ON THE COUCH (i mean, he says it's big enough and comfortable enough so let's both spend the night in the studio) (true to alex's word, the couch is comfortable enough and our backs and necks don't hurt in the morning) - when we're recording together we keep some of the parts we won't use in the final song just cause we like how the other person sounded there - SENDING EACH OTHER SNIPPETS OF OUR TRACKS WHEN WE GET HIT WITH SUDDEN INSPO AND MOTIVATION TYPING LIKE THIS! IN ALL CAPS! CAUSE WE'RE SO EXCITED - sending our schedules so we can see when we're free to call for a bit - watching each other's vlives and teasing abt the fan service (he, yet again, gets embarrassed abt it <3 i like to think i'd take it in stride but who knows)

mm yes that's all i can think of for now :>

[mukuromeows]

Hey y’all!

As my first post I wanted to share my @mysticmessengerenglish submission for their literary & art contest (I’ll be posting my art submission on the next few days 👀) Also don’t forget to check them out 💗✌️.

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Characters: Zen (Mystic Messenger) and Melanie (MMED)🤍💙

Word Count: 200-210

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The evening was going great, just as expected. It was a lovely day of June. And Zen, one of the wedding’s guest, had something really special planned for his girlfriend, Melanie. He, being really close with the groom, had made an agreement so that, when the bride threw the bouquet, it could be easily catched by Zen’s beloved girlfriend, Melanie.

As most of the guests had finished eating, the bride decided it was time to throw the bouquet, of course, no one suspected a thing. When she threw it, Melanie catched it, everything was going according to Zen’s plan.

He was standing right behind her. As the flowers were catched by her, Zen was kneeling, with a ring in his hand.

Melanie turned around, wanting to show her boyfriend the beautiful bouquet, but it almost fell from her hands as she saw Zen smiling at her from the ground.

“Melanie, my princess, would you make me the happiest man in the world and marry me?”

Tears of happiness began to form in her eyes.

“Hyun.. Oh my God- Yes!”

He smiled, got up and hugged her, they stayed like that for a few seconds.

After that beautiful scene, the bride and the groom congratulated them, and the evening went awesome.

The End 🤍💙

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To be honest I thought this would turn awful, but I really like it, hope yall enjoyed too! 💗

[letgoness]

How do we trust ourselves? And what feels right to us? And stop relying on the opinions/beliefs/wants of others? For most of my life I’ve been a “people pleaser” identifying what others in my life want (usually friends, family) and being scared of disappointing them when my wants and needs inevitably clash. Many times when making a big decision I consult others. How do we find the strength and courage to walk on our path while maintaining peace with loved ones who may not understand your life choices? Thank you. 🤍

Perhaps the question is how to live skillfully. The teachings say that you have to know yourself and the only way is to know what you are not; to go beyond reactive thinking patterns. Meditation, yoga, inquiry, exercise, beach walks, psycho analysis, whatever it takes to see that you are not your conditioned thoughts, to rest here and now, a place of ease outside of attainment or becoming. Nisargadatta refers to the 'I am', unadorned beingness. In Zen there is the pointing to ‘no-mind’. For most of us this is a continuing process because we keep falling back to anxious patterns. But at least on the level of mind, you can know that you are not what you think you are. You are that from which the anxious mind arises, the fabric of the awareness. Whenever you are in a bind or feel resistance, remember what you really are. The accent of attention shifts from protecting what you are not, to the stability of what you are. In this manner you are better able to handle situations in a non-reactive, skillful manner where you can express your position while still being respectful of other's. Don't worry about the goal, just remember the process. Things will take care of themselves.

[stunie]

LETS TALK ABOUT YOU AND UME... whats your favvvvv selfhisp hc about you guys....

omg zennn i am feeling very similar to a starved / feral animal who was just presented a plate of fresh food 😭😭

okok so i know a really good spot to stargaze !! i go here all the time whenever the sky’s clear and i always go by myself hehe. when i first told ume, he was kind of disbelief bc ? ur telling me u go out in the middle of nowhere in the middle of the night to stare at the sky ?? yes !! so he started joining me after (he’s such a sweet boy >: ). i don’t wear my glasses even when i stargaze however !! i know where all the stars r supposed to be so i can point them out.

we made a lil game of me pointing where a star is supposed to be, then ume’s supposed to connect the stars and guess the constellation im hinting at !! i got the direction and he’s got the vision <33 he also starting bring snackies msmsms he’s got them hidden in his pocket and pulls them out like “ta-da!” im gonna burst into tears

[sixpennydame]

hey sailor!!! HIIII!!! HRU?!?

for the ask game.. 3,6,18zzz ly 🤍

Hi Zen! I'm doing pretty good, just trying to get through this day, haha. Answering these asks are helping.

What fic of yours do you think is underrated?

Honestly...none of them, haha. I get love for most of my stuff - it's not tons, but that's ok with me. However, I have noticed that multi-chapter fics aren't as popular on Tumblr as one shots, which is a shame, because I'm so proud of The Better Man and North Star. I wish they'd get more exposure.

Do you outline your fics? If so, how?

I do..but I'm not as organized as I'd like. For The Better Man, I have a timeline of events because it is set in the canon world, from Levi's Underground days to the Battle of Trost. I'm a bit OCD about keeping my plot in line with canon events.

For North Star...I actually haven't done much outlining. I have notes of character and place names, but this story is so embedded in my heart, I haven't felt the need to outline. If that makes sense.

What's the most obscure thing you've researched for a fic?

I nerd out about research, and just like it's important for me to keep in line with canon events when I'm writing in the canon universe, I get very serious about writing things accurately. I wrote a fight scene between Levi and Kenny for The Better Man, and I spent a whole day research how to fight with a knife. For North Star, I researched how to train a wild horse. For my Actor!Levi one shot, I'm researching how actors do sex scenes, hehe. I don't know if the reader cares, but it's important to me to be somewhat accurate in my writing.

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Thanks for sending these! I'm glad we're moots and I'm looking forward to getting to know you more. <3

[saenora]

Hey Zen 🤍

Just dropping by in your ask box to tell you how AMAZING your last Levi fanart is & how much I love it ❤️

Have a nice day Sweetie 🤍🤍

Mwah 😘

HII VALLL!! ITS ALWAYSS SO FUNNN TO HEAR FROM YOUU (HANGE AND LEVI AGREEE, they literally LOVE YOU SMM I CANT TELL!! Wouldnt let let me answer your ask without them)

Ahaha thankyou!! MY HEART LITERALLY POPPED SEEING ALL THOSE TAGS!! THAT WAS SO SWEETTTT!! here’s some chibilevihan for you <333

HOPE YOU HAVE AN AWESOMEE DAY!! SENDING INCREDIBLE AWESOME ENERGY YOUR WAY!!

KISSSESS 💕💕

[lettersxnotes]

i was tagged by @softrey to list 10 songs from my most recent playlist on shuffle! thank you always darling 😘❤️‍🔥

the mix in question: sher day 2023! (a list of songs i was looping on my birthday)

future - j-hope

the view - stray kids

watch me while i bloom - hayley williams

this hell - rina sawayama

how to love - day6

forever 1 - snsd

me & my dog - boygenius

trivia: love - bts

kidult - seventeen

no.2 - rm (with parkjiyoon)

tagging @dunhamsolivia @matchingbees @sopekooks @villeneuvefilm @zen-coleman @nohshinwoos @riley-keoughs @corneliastreet @jinstronaut @kimtaegis @cordiallyfuturedwight just anyone who wants to participate! 🤍

[dreams-and-drabbles]

If we're talking Mysme, I'm begging you for Zen content, he's my one true love that I never moved on from, I stopped playing for him 🥺💕

Also, God, do I love Julian from Arcana just 😍

Firstly, yes, just yes. Julian owns me. He and his stupidly attractive little smirk and that eyepatch and his tendency to just pop up out of nowhere, just yes. Yes all the way. Secondly, ah, Lovely Zen… You, as always have wonderful taste, Right Brain. I hope you enjoy this~! Also, forewarning— I know nothing about the film industry, besides the small bits of research I did to write this. As such, please forgive any inaccurate in the writing of this one-shot!

🤍 ᴛʜɪᴇꜰ ᴏꜰ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛꜱ 🤍

[Zen x Reader]

Really, it was no surprise you’d fallen for him…

Zen or his actual name, Hyun Ryu, was charming in personality and drop dead gorgeous.

He treated everyone around him well, and genuinely seemed to value the crew he worked with.

It was a shame, you thought, that he’d likely never notice you.

The two of you were only working together throughout the course of his current film. You were in charge of costume design, and as friendly as your interactions were, they were only that.

Friendly.

Civil.

Your interactions with one another were only ever on set, and despite how often the two of you had to interact, there was always a rift between the two of you. Your job was to make him shine, after all, and he really didn’t need much help with that…

You let out a soft sigh, earning a concerned glance from Areum Cho, a coworker and friend of yours.

She was a fairly well known singer, and was behind the vocals of the film’s opening song.

The two of you had worked together on a project before, and you’d been excited to run into her here, as well. While you’d kept in touch, the film industry kept you both incredibly busy.

She was a huge fan of romance anime, and had taken a personal interest in your crush on “Zen”.

“Hmm, I recognise that starstruck look. Still pining over the male lead, then?”

Your friend questioned, her voice slightly raspy.

She’d probably worn it out singing.

“If you know me so well, then do you even need to ask?” You retorted, before taking a long sip from your boba tea.

The woman shook her head, her white streaked hair bouncing, as she did so.

It was her signature trait, and was due to an incredibly rare genetic mutation.

Sometimes, you envied how unique her appearance was.

Although, you knew her condition came with several complications as well. Poor Areum burnt horribly in the sun, for one.

Still, to you, who felt painstakingly normal—

People like Areum Cho and Hyun Ryu may as well live in different worlds, and yet—

“Well, I’d like to say I know you well, but we really never seem to have much time, do we? Anyhow, tell your wingwoman what’s up! You’re killing me with all the suspense.”

Areum questioned, gesturing wildly with her hands.

You shook yourself from your thoughts, knowing that they wouldn’t do you any good.

Overthinking never did you any good, yet you seemed to have a habit of doing so.

“The usual. I helped him with his costume, made a few alterations, we talked a bit, and then I finished, and he left.”

Aerum stared at you with wide eyes, before shaking her head disappointedly.

“You’re never going to get anywhere, if you keep up like that, and no, don’t give me that look. It’s entirely possible that you could get somewhere, but you have to approach him about something other than work. Tell me, have you talked to him about anything other than costume design?”

You frowned, pursing your lips at her question.

“He doesn’t like cats…?” You managed, an embarrassed flush crawling up your cheeks.

Aerum laughed, her eyes sparkling with mirth.

“That’s basic information. He’s allergic to cats. Next time, ask him if he has any hobbies. We still have a month on set, so operation get [F/N] with the Male Lead can still work~!”

Aerum chirped, before making jazz hands.

You sighed, rolling your eyes in amusement.

“You watch too much anime.”

You said, earning a laugh from the singer.

“Guilty as charged~! I have to go record now that my voice has had a rest, so good luck to you~! Remember to ask~!”

Aerum waved a cheerful goodbye, leaving you alone with your thoughts…

You hated to admit it, but she had a point.

You hadn’t even tried to talk to him normally, but the idea of actually talking to him, was rather intimidating.

It was just a silly puppy crush, anyways..

Still—

How could you know what would happen if you never tried?

You felt a headache building up, Aerum’s earlier words were playing on repeat in your thoughts.

It was ridiculous.

You were acting like some lovesick teen.

“[F/N], we need your assistance backstage.”

The director’s voice pulled you from your musings, and you gave the older man a polite smile.

You stood up from your seat, your expression curious, as you trailed after the director.

“Of course. Did something happen with one of the costumes?”

You asked, your brows furrowed in concern.

You’d worked hard on those costumes, and took great pride in your designs.

The artist in you was screaming at the thought of one of your creations falling apart; before fulfilling its intended use.

The director sighed, his lips pressed into a firm line. He offered you a sympathetic smile, before nodding at your question.

“Yes, unfortunately. There was a bit of an accident with one of the props we were using for a stunt.”

Your earlier headache returned with a fury, as you took in his words.

Unfortunately, situations like this happened fairly often in the film industry, however it was a less common occurrence in the later parts of filming. As of now, you only had a month left on set, which meant the movie itself was almost finished.

“How bad is it?” You asked, slipping into your more professional tone.

The director sighed, “I was hoping you could assess that. It would be nice if the costume was salvageable.”

You shook your head, your expression thoughtful.

“If it’s a matter of salvaging it, then it’d likely be best for me to go ahead and replicate it. I’ll have to alter one of the doubles, which costume was it?”

You questioned, your gaze on the director.

“It was the suit for the third night of the masquerade.” The director spoke, his tone tired.

“Ah, the scene with the murder? No wonder. I’ll take care of it. Please send Hyun my way once you’re finished here, so I can start working on the new suit.” You asked, your tone polite.

The director gave you an appreciative smile, before adjusting his glasses a bit.

“Thank you, [F/N]. You’re so hardworking. It’s been a pleasure having you here on set.”

You shook your head at the praise, the compliment making you feel slightly flustered.

“You’re too kind, director. I’m just doing my job.”

The director chuckled, giving you a friendly smile.

“Nonsense! We’ve worked together for over a year now! In fact, I’m having drinks with some of the others on set after rehearsal. You should come!”

You frowned, about to decline, when Aerum’s words made their way to your thoughts.

“I’ll consider it..”

The director beamed, before giving you a nod, and heading backstage.

You made your way back to the design room, and immediately pulled out one of the suits for night three of the masquerade. It would need a bit of work, so that it could fit Zen’s form, but that was your area of expertise.

After around half an hour, you heard a knock on the door. You cupped your hand to your lips, so your voice would reach further out.

“Come in!”

The door opened, and in walked the subject of all your anxieties, the ‘Lovely Zen’, himself.

He smiled at you, his expression a bit sheepish.

“I’m sorry about the suit.”

You waved off his apology, offering him a smile of your own. “That’s fine, it’s literally my job to fix things like this. Did the murder get a bit too grizzly?”

You joked a bit, your tone dry.

Zen’s brows shot up in surprise, and he nodded, before chuckling a bit.

“Yes, I didn’t know you’d memorised the scenes.”

You grabbed your ruler, and grabbed his arm to begin taking measurements.

“I design costumes for said scenes, and it would be less enjoyable for the audience, I think, if the clothing did not fit the character. I research the characters in my free time, as well. I try to stay fairly close to the original source in terms of design.”

You prattled off, heading to the table to grab your notepad.

The actor laughed at your words, causing your cheeks to burn slightly.

“It’s not that funny, is it?” You asked, your tone a touch softer.

Zen shook his head, giving you a smile.

“On the contrary, I admire your work ethic, are you a fan of theatre, then?”

You nodded in response to his question, a small smile on your face. “I’m a sucker for a good story.”

Zen hummed in response, his expression thoughtful.

“I am too. That’s what makes acting so fun for me. I get to be part of so many different stories. Still, I worry sometimes that they only cast me due to my dazzling looks. All of my roles seem to be of the same sort…Tall, dark, and handsome.”

You snorted at this, shaking your head in amusement.

“Sure, maybe appearance wise. I’ve seen you in other films, however. For one, your role as Zorro was incredibly different than the Sherlock, you’re playing in this adaptation.”

The actor’s eyes widened in clear surprise, and he studied you a bit more closely.

“You’ve watched my films?” He asked, shock evident in his tone.

“I’ve watched several films. I’m a sucker for a good story, remember? They’re also great for inspiration, but yes, yours were among those numbers. I appreciate the arts, and your acting is incredible. That’s fact, not flattery.”

You affirmed, surprised at how open you were being today. You’d never been this talkative with Zen, the majority of your interactions being for politeness’ sake—

You blamed the pep talk from Aerum. She’d always been very good at getting into your head.

Zen grinned at your words, his eyes sparkling with amusement.

“Well, I’m still flattered. I heard from the director you’d be joining everyone for drinks after rehearsal today. I think that’s great. You’ve always seemed a bit reserved.”

You bit the inside of your cheek, as you had clearly hadn’t agreed, you’d only promised to think about joining.

“Ah, that… Also, what made you think I was reserved?”

You responded, attempting to divert the conversation’s focus.

Zen chuckled, inclining his head towards your face. “Well, for one— You avoid socialising with most of us. Actually, I think I’ve only ever seen you speak to that singer girl. Even then, I don’t see you talk to others much.”

Your eyes widened in surprise, and your cheeks burned at his words. “You watched me?”

Zen hummed, a sly smile on his face.

“Well, it’s hard not to notice you, when you’re the only one by yourself on set. Most everyone else generally has at least one person they talk to, and the singer girl doesn’t count. You seemed to know each other before we started filming here.”

You rolled your eyes at his assessment, a playful pout forming on your face.

“Well, that’s not very nice. First you tell me I have too little friends, and then you say the friend I do have, doesn’t count. Also, her name is Aerum, and yes, we were already friends before we started working together on this set.”

You joked slightly, your tone light.

The actor gave you a charming smile, before winking at you.

“How about I fix the issue, hm? I’ll dazzle you with my presence as your first friend on this set.”

You grinned, setting the notepad to the side, and moving to work on the suit.

“I think I’ll take you up on that incredibly generous offer. Be careful not to dazzle me too much, okay? I need my eyes to finish your costumes.”

Zen nodded, his expression one of mock seriousness.

“Of course, I wouldn’t want to get in the way of my future costumes. That would be tragic.”

You grinned, your eyes taking on a mischievous note, as you jokingly mused aloud.

“Ah, yes. I can see the headlines now: Young fashion designers eyes melted after gazing at the ‘Lovely Zen’ for too long. They had to find a new costume designer, of course.”

Zen sighed dramatically, his lips curled up into a smile. “The curse of being beautiful is just too much for some to handle.”

You snorted, releasing him from your grip, and taking a step back.

“Yep, it sure is. Take a look and see for yourself.”

You said, gesturing to the replacement suit.

Zen glanced at you, his expression amused, before he nodded at your words.

“I’m good to go, then?” He asked, his tone softening some.

You nodded, offering him a smile.

“Yep, you’re entirely free.”

He hummed, glancing at you curiously.

“Will you be joining everyone for drinks tonight?”

You averted your gaze, before sighing.

“It’ll be awkward. I won’t know anyone there, unless Aerum goes, and even so…”

Zen’s brows furrowed, and he gestured towards himself. “You’ll know me, too. Of course, I won’t pressure you or anything. We can always meet up another time, if you choose not to go.”

Your eyes widened in surprise, and you offered him a small smile. “That’s fair…You’re serious about the whole friend thing, then…?���

His brows furrowed, and his expression took on a more serious note. “Of course, you’re stuck with me now that you’ve agreed to be my friend. No take-backs, okay?”

You snorted, shaking your head in amusement.

“I could think of worse people to be stuck with. Plus, you’re cute and funny. I don’t think it’s a bad deal at all.” You joked lightly, before realizing what you’d said.

Your cheeks burned, and you waved your hands frantically in embarrassment.

“I mean— Gosh, sorry. I mean you are very cute, but I swear it wasn’t my intention to hit on you or anything like that.” You floundered, wishing you could disappear on the spot.

You were brought back to reality by Zen’s laughter, and your mortification furthered.

“You’re surprisingly cute yourself, [F/N]. I wouldn’t mind if someone cute like yourself was hitting on me.”

You stared at him, your eyes wide, before averting your gaze embarrassedly.

“I’d have to…hype myself up…to hit on you.”

You admitted, rather lamely, earning another bout of laughter.

“Hmm, in that case…Would you mind if I hit on you, then? I can be dazzling enough for the both of us, and I’ll admit I’m a bit curious about you. I heard your taking friend earlier. Operation Male Lead, or what not? You can tell her it was a success.”

You stared at him blankly, your brain whirling.

“We literally just had one conversation, right? I’m definitely not that interesting…”

The actor chuckled, shaking his head.

“I’ll be the judge of that, besides I’m asking to get to know you. Trust me, the last thing I would want is to dive head first into something. Although, I’m relieved at your concern. I’ve had the fair share of people who are only interested in me because of my fame.”

You shook your head at that, a frown tugging at your lips.

“That’s stupid. You’re gorgeous, yes. You can act, yes. What does any of that matter if you don’t have a good personality? I’ll admit I may or may not be crushing on you some, but that’s because I’ve had the chance to interact with you. Well, kind of, in a professional sense.”

Zen laughed, shaking his head at your words.

“Most people would say I’m vain, you know?”

You shrugged, grinning helplessly. “To be fair, I’d be the same way if I had both your looks and talents. Regardless of that, it’s what you think of yourself that matters, right?”

Zen hummed, his expression softening a bit.

“That’s true. You’re interesting, [F/N]. I meant what I said about getting to know you.”

You hummed, offering him a smile. “I guess I’ll be joining you all for drinks, after all.”

He laughed at that, giving you a wink.

“I’ll point out the good stuff, then.”

You nodded, a small smile on your face.

“I’ll hold you to that.”

Zen beamed, his lips quirking upwards in a teasing grin.

“I’m looking forward to it.”

[littlemessengers]

Hyun let me take you away from all these cats♡ I'm the only kitty that won't make you sick,I promise💞

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Pleeeeease let that be true please please please…

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Oh my god 🤍

-Zen🤍