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ulalamonz · 7 months ago
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hami-gua · 7 months ago
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永别了,亲爱的 Farewell, My Beloved
Long overdue since Qingming has long since pass (oops).
Blade x gn! Reader
Takes place in game — not canon though
Warning: Chinese is used (English translation provided), angst hurt no comfort (first time writing this angsty)
Please read to the end for credits and reference.
━━━━━━ ⊙ ❖ ⊙ ━━━━━━
Shoes echoes through the barren halls. The figure moves through the doorway, his steps slow. And then he stops. Right in front of the wall of name plaques. His red eyes scanned the whole wall, searching for a particular name and walking to it right as he spots it. He carefully pulls out a clean cloth — and with care, wiped down the plaque. It didn’t need to be cleaned, as workers everyday made sure all plaques are cleaned out of respect. Once he was done, he placed the bouquet of white chrysanthemums in front of it then sits down.
The figure couldn’t help but think of their death. Of the three that had to pay a price, he alone had to pay the biggest. He made a promise to them and he broke it. The what ifs began to speed through his head. He’s died once, and he wants to die again. He wishes he can be with them in the afterlife. That is, if Mengpo doesn’t make him drink her soup. Not that he could see them anyway. Not after what he’s done.
He places two cups and pulls out a jar of wine. After filling both cups, he took his and raised it — drinking it all after.
“I’m sorry,” was the first thing he said to them, “I’m sorry for dragging you into this mess.”
He wants to apologize but no matter what he says, he knows no explanation could cut it. It was his error in action. In emotion. There was no way words can express his regrets.
“我与你的记忆损乱了,“ a tear slips from his eye, “你长得什么样,我也记不了了。我也记不住你的声音了。我只能记得你的名字,但也记不了多久了。“ [Memories of me and you have been messed up… The way that you looked, I cannot remember. I also cannot remember your voice. I only remember your name, but I cannot remember that for long either.]
The figure sat in silence for a bit before starting once more, “当年,如果不是我,也不是丹枫的话,你今日该会是什么样了?你还会像以前一样跟景元玩象棋吗?跟丹枫看书?跟镜流和白珩逛街?或者跟我练功?” he drank another cup full of wine, “可惜,三个付出代价去了,一个早已离去,最后一个孤独的留在了罗浮。不知你和白珩有没有相遇。我想是。我们当时挣扎了好久,现在平安多了。你若在的话,肯定会喜欢现在罗浮的环境。“ [That year, if it wasn’t for me, and Dan Feng, what would you have been like today? Would it be like it was then, with you playing xiangqi with Jing Yuan? Reading with Dan Heng? Shopping with Jing Liu and Baiheng? Or would you have been sparring with me? …. Sadly, three paid a price, one has departed, and the last one is left lonely on Luofu. I don’t know if you and Baiheng have caught up. I’d like to think you guys did. Our time was so messy, but Luofu today is much peaceful. If you were here, you’d definitely like Luofu today.]
Amidst his rambling, another figure approached. She stood right behind him, gazing up on the plaque.
“It’s time you wrap it up, Bladie.”
Blade hummed in acknowledgment, “Just a little more time.”
The lady stared at him a bit longer before sighing and heading out, saying she’ll be waiting for him at the entrance. After he was sure he was alone again, he spoke softly.
“是时候该走了。如果我没有捅你一刀,你今天应该还会在吧。对不起,这是我最后一次能看你了。仙舟没有我的地方了。在这个人生里,可能再也不会有人像你一样叫我的名字了。我永远也不可能是应星了。” [It’s time I should get going. If I didn’t stab you that day, you would probably still be here. I’m sorry, this is my last time seeing you. There’s no longer a place for me on Xianzhou. In this life, there will be no one to say my name the way you do. And I will never be able to be Yingxing anymore.]
Blade gets up and places the jar of wine next to the filled cup. After, he bows to the name plaque three times. Then, he turns and walks out of the room — leaving Luofu till his death arrives.
永别了。。。[Farewell…]
亲爱的。[My beloved.]
─── ∙ ↤THE END↦ ∙ ─---
I've been thinking, should I make banners specifically for the characters I write? Or would that be too much? Cuz right now, I can't decide on a banner for each story.
Qingming 清明: Called Tomb-Sweeping day in the west. People visit the graves of their deceased love ones. Even going as far as cleaning and retouching graves. It’s customary to offer food and wine (or other beverages they loved).
White Chrysanthemums: White flowers, mainly white chrysanthemums are placed during funeral and the dead. Don’t gift these to people please (unless you desperately wish for that person to perish).
Mengpo 孟婆: A deity in the underworld that gives passing souls her specialty called 孟婆汤 (mengpo soup) that would wipe their memories for their journey in their next life.
Bowing three times: I was taught this at a young age, but when bowing to gods and ancestors, you bow three times. Usually it’s very quick, but I like to take it slow (cuz I think it shows deeper respect).
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dinger712 · 1 year ago
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脑洞是这样的——
七大军校举办竞技比赛,每所学校派出5名正式队员(两组双人机甲+一个单兵)和1名替补,枫丹廷这边的队长那维莱特和副队长莱欧斯利一组,林尼兄妹一组,加上新生娜维娅,菲米尼替补。
所有人都说枫丹双璧毕业后会去梅洛彼得堡要塞服役授衔。那维莱特出身于古老的贵族名门,虽然是指挥系首席,但身手丝毫不亚于战斗类专业的��生,据说他曾将好斗的至冬选手达达利亚打败,对于那场对决,那维莱特不愿意提起,只说自己是出其不意,仅仅为了维护校园纪律才出此下策。
莱欧斯利的事迹完全是另一番模样——出身于白淞镇一带的潦倒少年 ,混迹在藏污纳垢的灰河水道,青少年法庭七进七出的传奇,最后竟能爬上单兵系首席的位置,与那维莱特并肩。实习记者夏洛蒂采访过他,问他是否是传说中的“地狱犬”,莱欧说哪有七进七出那么夸张,自己只是光速认罪好好改造而已,他没能跟夏洛蒂坦白的是,自己或许是秉公无私的那维首席的唯一污点。
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这张图如果画全了,那维手里应该牵着一只三条机械腿哈士奇。遛狗路上碰见了对手,那维拦着莱欧说别冲动。忍不住加了点战损
实际打起架来却是莱欧在劝那维别激动哈哈哈哈哈
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蒙德队
【琴+凯亚=骑士团凑合队,凯亚本来的搭档迪卢克毕业了,所以新的正副队长组成搭子】
【优菈+安柏=我很看好这一队】
【+班尼特,砂糖替补】←班尼特在生存环节落单,临时加入璃月队,都不想走了
璃月队,非常冒险的全一年级队,却拥有实力恐怖的教练组
【行秋+重云】
【香菱+胡桃】
【+辛焱,唯一不是一年级的刻晴被拉来替补】
稻妻队
【绫人+托马=日本动画片里常有这种队】
【一斗+久岐忍=阿忍对不起战术性下线换替补队员来】
【+宵宫,五郎替补】←差生一斗做梦都想不到能与他网上认识的女神学习搭子一起开机甲
须弥队
【艾尔海森+卡维=分是满天星合是一团火这火有点太大了队】虽然是天才组合,艾尔海森与卡维却在第一场比赛中吵架,让枫丹轻松取胜。
【赛诺+提纳里=太靠谱了还得是你俩队】
【+柯莱,阿帽替补】←须弥秘密武器了属于是
至冬队
【潘塔罗涅+多托雷=���脏反派开派队】
【阿蕾奇诺+罗莎琳=女仆你带我走吧队】
【+达达利亚,桑多涅替补】
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ken-2016 · 2 years ago
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美国妈妈的来信 + 日记(6)
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(按:为了避免泄露个人信息和隐私,妈妈与美国妈妈的通信在发表前都经过编辑加工。妈妈是XXXX,美国妈妈是XXX。)
Dear XXXX,
谢谢来信,谢谢你把我夸到天上,夸得我真感觉飘飘然高高地飘到了天上,真害怕从那么高的高处摔下来,摔个惨。
但害怕归害怕,高兴还是高兴。我这说的是大实话。能得到你这样的写作高手的赞扬,而且是真心的赞扬,怎么能不高兴呢。要是心里不高兴才是不正常、才是变态吧。
说到这里,我不得不引用你的话——悄悄跟你说:你赞得我感觉太受用,太舒服了。我不觉得我这就是堕落。谁都喜欢听赞美,无论是真心的,还是半心半意,还是虚情假意的;这就是人性,我不需要为我的人性感到羞耻。
我知道我可以为得到你的赞扬而感到舒服,没问题。但我也知道,太舒服了也有危险。满招损,谦受益。一个人需要看到自己的强处和进步(否则会心灰意懒,难以持续勇往直前),同时也需要看到自己的不足和可以改进之处,不断谋求改进,不断追求更好,不断进步(否则便会原地踏步,甚至不断倒退)。
记得在这里读博时我非常佩服的一个教授多次跟我们说:我们看看我们认识的人就可以知道,就普通人而言,执着(perseverance)比聪明(smartnesss)能让一个人走得更远;太多的聪明人日复一日、年复一年夸夸其谈,最终一事无成;那些看似不怎么聪明但执着的人不断向着自己的目标努力,大都最终达到了自己的目标。
我觉得他说得太对了。回想我的小学、中学、大学同学的发展,都证明了他所说的道��完全正确。我们当然不需要为我们的人性(如喜欢听到赞扬)而感到羞耻,但我们也需要知道人性是多面的,可以让我们不断进步,也可以让我们随波逐流,不小心就会让我们在不知不觉间不断下流,下滑,下跌,下作。
你是一个循循善诱的师长,说话听似、看似面面俱到,巨细无遗,无以复加,但你其实说话常常不说满,而是留出巨大的空白或余地,让我(以及你的其他学生)可以自己揣摩你的弦外之音、言外之意。这种言说方式我很喜欢,也让我感觉很有压力。
师长不提出具体的要求,其实就是以身作则使学生看到自己更多的不足,更多的欠缺。人确实是需要不断有压力才能不断上进,才能活出自己(成为自己理想中的人)。恰如我们必须要有血压,我们的血液才能流动起来,循环起来,让我们身体各个器官得到供氧,得到营养,让我们得以发育,成长,存活。
以上算是我读你来信的心得吧。
既然你是师长,接下来我也就用不客气,可以毫无顾忌、毫无歉意地提问题、提要求了。
你在来信中你盛赞我的文字,说我的文字让你想起以善于描写风景而著称的俄罗斯作家屠格涅夫。你的赞扬让我惊喜,也让我感到不敢当。我随即搜索了·、阅读了一些屠格涅夫的介绍。我想知道,我的文字究竟让你具体想到屠格涅夫的哪些风景描写?
你提到了张爱玲、钱锺书、鲁迅的好文章、好小说的文字都是字斟句酌,精雕细凿,无懈可击的。作为文学领域的专家,你是否可以向我推荐你认为张、钱、鲁迅的最好的小说(他们三人每人一篇就好)?
他们的最好的小说我要找来读一读,认真读。然后,跟你讨论。就像读和讨论《乞力马扎罗的雪》一样。
当然我所谓的认真读肯定还是粗略的,就像截至目前我读《乞力马扎罗的雪》一样。但因为有你在,有你的指导和解惑,我读起来肯定会比我自己两眼一抹黑地读要减少更多的粗略。我必须充分利用着你这个专家,I got to take full advantage of such an expert like you,哈。
又,你提到上个世纪上半叶,西方作家力图超越以往那种只是通过呈现人物的外在言行刻画人物的手法,直接通过呈现人物的内心来塑造人物,打造故事;这方面的佼佼者包括爱尔兰作家乔伊斯,英国作家伍尔夫。你可以提供具体的例子或片段让我看一看他们究竟是怎样直接呈现人物内心世界的吗?
我知道我这次提出的要求有些过多,但我想你不会太介意的。我早就感觉到你有一种分享知识、传播知识的激情,是最好的教师。我则是有强烈的学习欲望,而且还算是不太笨。所以,我喜欢问,你喜欢答。我们应当说是一种旗鼓相当,我们都能从我们的问答中获得快乐。我相信我对我们的这种教学相长的关系的判断是不错的。
你让我最喜欢的是你的思想开放的态度,your open-mindedness,不是自以为是,而是对自己、对他人的观点总是保持着健康的怀疑,愿意承认并宣扬别人的高见或论点的可取之处。我认为你的学问之所以可以这么深厚是跟你的这种学习态度和学术态度是有因果关系的。
你所说的我跟小男人之间的良性循环说得太对了。这些日子,小男人也对我们之间的良性循环感到惊讶,感到高兴,并为此给了我更多的甜言蜜语,拥抱,爱抚,亲吻,显然是有目的地维持和促进这样的良性循环。
你提出的女性有旺盛的性欲属于天经地义,无可指摘的观点对我来说真是醍醐灌顶,让我豁然开朗——作为女性有性欲,有强烈的性欲,怎么啦?男性可以有,女性就不可以有?
这话说得太对了。先前我总是在心底里觉得作为女性有强烈得性欲是一件可耻的事情。
传统的观念、耳濡目染被灌输的观念对人的影响太大了。假如没有清醒的认识,假如不把道理说明说透,很难摆脱传统观念的束缚,很难获得自由。
谢谢你的斩钉截铁的道理申明。非常感谢。
在写这通电邮的时候,兰州一个三岁的孩子因为疫情清零政策得不到及时医疗救助而死亡,以及河南郑州苹果手机iPhone代工厂富士康大批工人为了逃避清零政策带来的禁足令而出逃的事情正在这边成为新闻,但这些新闻在中国国内被封锁。看着在这些荒诞又残酷、残酷到荒诞的新闻,不知道说什么好。
在这个奇妙的国家,当权者和独裁者而已为所欲为,不管人民的死活,人民没有发言权,只有听天由命。还能说什么呢?
再一篇新的日记,请批评和改正。
希望你们一家一切安好,
XXX
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2022年11月3日   星期四   多云
早上,小男人又是在天不亮的时候硬起来,抹黑翻身上来,挺入,内射。然后翻身下来,躺在一边,手搭在这边的身上再睡去。这几天都是这样。
早上先起。做好早饭,再叫他起来。
叫他两声,他就应声而起了。一起来就精神抖擞,狗精神十足,一边穿衣服还一边贫嘴,说是感觉睡得很好,休息很充分,所以可以不费力地 “闻鸡起舞”。
不知他从哪里学的这个成语,也不知他究竟知道这成语是什么意思。他只是贫嘴,只是觉得好玩。
吃早饭时问他:他连续这么多天早上差不多同一个时间折腾一番再睡去,怎么回事。
——妈妈不喜欢吗?
——是我问你问题哪。回答问题,别啰唆。
——妈妈是说我有了一个规律了吗?多好呀,俨然成了习惯,建立了生物钟。妈妈不是说生活要规律嘛。这就是最好的规律不是嘛。
目送他精神抖擞地上学去,这边也精神抖擞地上班去。
今天在办公室又是一切顺利。时间过得好快。
下午早早把自己的一份工作做完。跟上司F打招呼要早撤退,他说没问题。再问他:我时常早早做完我的事情,时间长了,会不会给我添加工作量?
他说应当不会,添加了岂不是等于惩罚能干的人嘛。
有道理。
早回家来,把做晚饭需要的东西准备好。米饭做上,切好的鸡肉丁从冰箱冰室里拿出来解冻,洋葱和土豆洗好,到时候切了就能用。
小男人放学回来。例行的拥抱,亲吻。问他要不要陪这边出去走路。
——上了一整天学,也该放松放松,让脑筋松弛一下。
——好啊。
他放下书包,不说二话,一口答应。
——走路散步就是最好的头脑休息。不会走得很远,走到XXXX公园那边的山坡树林就回来。
今天一直是多云天。天色有时阴沉,有时明亮,但始终既没有下雨,也没有出太阳。
一路行来,一路观看继续变色中的树叶。
变得早的不是树叶枯黄,就是树叶脱落。变得晚的有的色彩斑斓。
色彩斑斓的是枫树,一棵树上可以同时有火红、金黄、碧绿,甚至一片树叶上也可以色彩斑斓。梨树的变色则是清一色的紫红。
小男人感叹今年的树叶变色比去年的好,但还不是最好。
——楼上主卧室窗外的那棵枫树今年有红色的树叶,比去年好看。去年只是金黄的叶子。但不如前年,红黄绿三原色搭配得真叫漂亮。
——不简单呐。想不到你居然还能注意这样的事情。
——妈妈也太小瞧人了吧。注意这样的事情又不需要什么高超的学问,高级的智商,眼睛管用就可以了嘛。还居然呐。
一时差点冲口而出跟他说,并不是每个人都能注意和欣赏大自然和四季的变迁。
但转念一想又没说。不想增强他的气焰。
进入公园,穿过两侧是树林的谷地,走上树林山坡。满地的落叶。地面完全被覆盖。
小男人先看到一头鹿,在四十米外一棵大树下。这边随即看到不远处另外两头,个头稍小。
鹿悠闲地一会儿啃食地上的什么东西,一会儿抬头站立,一动不动,瞭望远方,像是在认真聆听什么。
和小男人驻足观看。
它们一边悠然悠闲地吃吃停停,一边缓步走动。个头大的那只再抬起头来瞭望,静听,然后抬腿小跑起来。另外两只也跟着跑起来。
它们奔跑的姿态好轻松,好优雅。跨越倒在地上的树木时腾空起跳,好似在空中飘。一两百磅重的身体,那么细长的腿,居然可以如此轻飘飘,神乎其神,令人叹为观止。
走下山坡,走出树林,再进入居民区。一段长长的上坡路。
到底是秋天了,一路走下来居然没出汗,也不觉得冷。不冷不热,最理想的走路天气。
——趁天好还是要争取多户外活动。别整天在家里,在学校里逮着个空就看手机,上电脑,瞎冲浪。多无聊呐。
小男人对这边不厌其烦的哼哼(谆谆)教导只是报以咧嘴笑,一副居高临下、不屑反驳的样子。
他真是越来越难对付了。整天要跟他斗智斗勇。
从后院走回家。经过无花果树,发现又有两个无花果给什么野物吃了。一个吃得只剩下一个把儿,一个剩下三分之一。
当即决定把树上的果子全部摘回家。
本来是准备让果子在树上熟透再摘,因为完全自然熟透的果子跟蜜一样甜。但大自然自有大自然的安排。野物也知道果子成熟就会甜,所以捷足先登,先下口了。
到家进屋。这边直奔厨房去做饭,他直接去书房做他的作业。
土豆块切好,洋葱切好。鸡肉丁过���,加水,加土豆,洋葱。煮一会儿,再从冰箱里取出一块咖喱放进去,盖上玻璃锅盖,用小火继续慢慢煮。
咖喱的香味出来了,锅里的菜汁粘稠起来。再打开一个火头,烧一小锅玉米面粥。
半个小时多一点,晚饭就做好了。盛好饭,喊他吃饭。
他吃得很香,不断说好吃。
看他吃得带劲得样子,这边感觉好满足,好充实。
吃完饭,他要帮着收拾洗刷。跟他说不用了,这边自己来就好,算补偿今天他陪这边走路的时间。
他继续去做他的功课,这边洗刷收拾完毕,洗澡,上床。
抄起笔记本电脑上网,准备公司明天的工作。然后,从床头柜上拿起书来,再享受自己的文学阅读。
这些日子的生活一直是这样。很规律,很安逸。
大概这就是幸福了。平淡是福。
“乞力马扎罗的雪” :
It was evening now and he had been asleep. The sun was gone behind the hill and there was a shadow all across the plain and the small animals were feeding close to camp; quick dropping heads and switching tails, he watched them keeping well out away from the bush now. The birds no longer waited on the ground. They were all perched heavily in a tree. There were many more of them. His personal boy was sitting by the bed.
现在是晚上了,他已经睡过一觉。太阳落到山后,平地全给阴影覆盖。小动物在营地附近觅食,迅速低头,尾巴摇晃。他看着那些小动物离灌木丛远远的。那些鹫不再蹲在地上。它们都重重地站在一棵树上。现在鹫更多了。服侍他的男子靠着床边坐着。
小声朗读、来回读 。品味、品尝海明威的用词,遣词造句。海明威的叙事手法 。
典型的海明威的文体。所谓的电报体,telegram style,简短,简洁。只是第一句是时间交代,没有视觉形象,接下来都是视觉的呈现。
和妻子到非洲狩猎的主人公Harry,腿部被荆棘划伤,伤口没及时消毒处理,染上坏疽。坏疽在发展,死神在逼近。
但此时此刻,旧有的规律和安逸的生活好像是仍在继续。
小男人做完了他的事情,跳上床来。立即不由分说地给这边脱。脱光。
���受着他的拥抱,亲吻,爱抚,继续读自己的书。
他不说话。进入。进得熟门熟路,驾轻就熟,轻松愉快。
他做他的事,这边继续读这边的的书。
可以清晰地感觉到时间分分秒秒地过去。规律,安逸。
抬眼看他。他跟这边对视,一脸得意和调皮的笑容。
——舒服吗,妈妈?
——嗯。
规律和安逸的抽送。规律和安逸的生活。
放下书,闭上眼睛。全心感受他的律动,他给予的快感。
上下轻抚、爱抚他。他的侧胁、后背、后腰,后臀。
“乞力马扎罗的雪” 中的语句 在脑海中回响,回旋:
It was morning and had been morning for some time and he heard the plane. It showed very tiny and then made a wide circle and the boys ran out and lit the fires, using kerosene, and piled on grass so there were two big smudges at each end of the level place and the morning breeze blew them toward the camp and the plane circled twice more, low this time, and then glided down and levelled off and landed smoothly and, coming walking toward him, was old Compton in slacks, a tweed jacket and a brown felt hat.
早晨了。早晨好一会儿了。他听到了飞机声。看上去很小,在空中转了一个大圈。侍童跑出去,点燃了火,用煤油,再堆上草,于是平地的两头就冒出了两大团浓烟。早上的微风把烟吹向营地。飞机再盘旋两圈,这一次是低空,然后滑翔下降,机身再拉平,平稳落地。老康普顿穿着宽松的便裤、粗花呢夹克、头戴一顶褐色的毡帽朝他走过来。
高潮感给他催动起来。
越来越有力的抽送,越来越强烈的高潮。排山倒海般的高潮。
——妈妈,我要射了。
他大声叫着,用力顶撞,顶入尽头。
随着他的大叫,尽情地大声呻吟。感觉到他在尽头的强力喷射。
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ittybittyhuac · 1 year ago
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"Kill them with kindness" Wrong. CURSE OF QIN SHI HUANG
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“kill them with kindness” Wrong. CURSE OF RA 𓀀 𓀁 𓀂 𓀃 𓀄 𓀅 𓀆 𓀇 𓀈 𓀉 𓀊 𓀋 𓀌 𓀍 𓀎 𓀏 𓀐 𓀑 𓀒 𓀓 𓀔 𓀕 𓀖 𓀗 𓀘 𓀙 𓀚 𓀛 𓀜 𓀝 𓀞 𓀟 𓀠 𓀡 𓀢 𓀣 𓀤 𓀥 𓀦 𓀧 𓀨 𓀩 𓀪 𓀫 𓀬 𓀭 𓀮 𓀯 𓀰 𓀱 𓀲 𓀳 𓀴 𓀵 𓀶 𓀷 𓀸 𓀹 𓀺 𓀻 𓀼 𓀽 𓀾 𓀿 𓁀 𓁁 𓁂 𓁃 𓁄 𓁅 𓁆 𓁇 𓁈 𓁉 𓁊 𓁋 𓁌 𓁍 𓁎 𓁏 𓁐 𓁑 𓀄 𓀅 𓀆
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杜诗解读:清明二首之二
  此身飘泊苦西东,右臂偏枯半耳聋。
  寂寂系舟双下泪,悠悠伏枕左书空。
  十年蹴鞠将雏远,万里秋千习俗同。
  旅雁上云归紫塞,家人钻火用青枫。
  秦城楼阁烟花里,汉主山河锦锈中。
  春去春来洞庭阔,白苹愁杀白头翁。
  《清明二首》两首诗每一首都有六联十二句,属于七言排律。律诗一般四联八句,中间两联对仗,写长了就叫做排律,不管多长除了头尾两联都要对仗,所以排律很难写。《清明二首》第一首堆砌了很多典故,一般人不知道那些典故,欣赏不了,但把那些典故解释清楚就会索然无味。所以第一首我就不说了,只解读第二首。这两首诗的关联性不强,即使不知道第一首,也不妨碍欣赏第二首。
  这首诗的主旨是杜甫想回老家。杜甫在成都听说老家河南已经被官军收复,马上就想到回去,也就是大家在中学学过的“白日放歌须纵酒,青春作伴好还乡”(《闻官军收河南河北》)。他甚至还规划了回家的路线,那就是走水路,坐船顺流而下,“即从巴峡穿巫峡,便下襄阳向洛阳。”洛阳在河南,指代杜甫的老家。但他只是有了这个想法,并没有马上去实现,在成都又待了两年。两年之后才开始动身,��了一艘船,带着全家沿着长江顺流而下。
  到了夔州(现在的重庆奉节),他又停下来待了一年十个月。夔州的生活对他来说相对安逸,不到两年就写了400多首诗。这是他最高产的时期,而且精品非常多,像《登高》《秋兴八首》《诸将五首》《咏怀古迹五首》《阁夜》都是他在夔州时写的。那是中国文学史上的一个奇迹,可以把它叫做“杜甫的奇迹年”。他在夔州呆了不到两年之后,大历三年正月继续带着全家坐船出了三峡,沿长江顺流而下。
  到了江陵(湖北荆州),本该北上,“便下襄阳向洛阳”,但打听到商州一带又发生了战乱,没法再往北走了。回不了家怎么办呢?只能在江陵暂时住下来。这么一耽搁,生活就出问题了。身上没有那么多钱,又不可能去打工,只能结交地方官员,或者靠远房亲戚、以前认识的朋友接济一下,以解决生活问题,毕竟一家老小都跟着。但在这种情况下,就不可能在一个地方待很长时间,待得太久,接待的人也很烦,所以一般几个月就得换别的地方。杜甫在江陵待了几个月后,没法往北走,就沿着长江南下,到了湖北的公安。在公安待了几个月又得离开,依然沿着长江继续往前,漂流到湖南的岳阳。“昔闻洞庭水,今上岳阳楼”,第一次看到了洞庭湖,留下了一首描写洞庭湖的千古绝唱《登岳阳楼》。在岳阳待了几个月之后,还得继续往前走。这回没法顺着长江往前漂了,就往南渡过了洞庭湖,再沿着湘江逆流而上,到了潭州(湖南长沙)。这组诗就是他到长沙后,清明时节写的。
  第二首诗一开头就在讲自己这辈子一直漂泊之苦:“此身飘泊苦西东,右臂偏枯半耳聋。”
  他的“飘泊”跟我们现在所谓的漂泊不一样。我们现在说到哪打工、留学,也喜欢说自己在漂泊、流浪,比如“北漂”。杜甫的漂泊则是被迫的,由于战乱,只好拉家带口到处跑。即使是年轻时、身体健康,这种漂泊本来也已经够悲苦了,更何况老迈年高,一身是病。杜甫当时有什么病呢?“右臂偏枯”,他的右臂已经不能动弹,中风了;“半耳聋”,耳朵也有一半聋了(两只耳朵有一只聋了,不是半只耳朵聋了)。他在夔州写过一首《复阴》,说“夔子之国杜陵翁,牙齿半落左耳聋”,可知他的左耳朵在夔州时就已经聋了。
  接下来的第二联继续写他的飘泊和多病:“寂寂系舟双下泪,悠悠伏枕左书空。”
  上半联继续写漂泊。他的“飘泊”并不是比喻,是真的坐在船里到处漂。到一个地方停下��,还不可能上岸就有房子住,而是船系在岸边,人住在船里。周围没有别人,显得非常孤单,“寂寂”就是很孤单的样子,比一般的漂泊更悲苦。想到这种情况就两眼流泪,所以说“双下泪”。为什么要强调“双下泪”呢?因为上一联提到了“半耳聋”,“双下泪”跟���呼应——两个耳朵已经有一个聋了,两只眼睛虽然还好,却都在流泪。
  下半联继续写多病。“悠悠”有几种意思,这里跟“悠悠我心”一样,是形容悲伤的样子。“伏枕”,指生病了躺在船上不能动弹,没法到处走,只能一直躺在船上。躺在船上既忧伤又无聊,只好用手在空中写字排遣,就是“书空”。但是已经“右臂偏枯”,只能用左手写,所以叫“左书空”。
  这两联的飘泊和年迈多病在任何时候都可以写,跟诗题《清明》并不贴切,所以接下来就写清明:“十年蹴踘将雏远,万里秋千习俗同。”
  清明时玩“蹴踘”(古代的踢足球)和荡“秋千”是一种习俗,这跟诗题《清明》贴上了。这一联不能分开理解,要串起来看,这叫“互文”。第三联的意思就是,十年来“将雏”(带着幼小的孩子),也就是拉家带口走了万里远的路,不论走到哪里,清明时节都看到人们还是在玩“蹴踘”、荡“秋千”,跟自己老家的习俗一样。十年来,每逢看到别人玩这些东西就联想到跟老家一样,表明时刻都在想念着故乡。清明的习俗有很多,为什么特地挑出“蹴踘”和“秋千”呢?这里面有隐喻。看到“蹴踘”,就想到自己这十年来像足球被人踢来踢去;看到“秋千”,就想到自己这万里飘泊像秋千荡上荡下。
  “万里”当然是夸张的说法,杜甫在诗里面喜欢用“万里”;但“十年”并不夸张,真的是漂泊了十年。从他乾元二年在华州(陕西渭南市华州区)司功小小的官任上辞职不干、带着全家去漂泊算起:先到秦州(甘肃天水)待了一段,后在同谷(甘肃成县)几个月差点全家饿死;又到四川成都住了六年,再到夔州住了差不多两年,现在又流浪到了湖南。乾元二年是公元759年,在湖南长沙写这首诗时是大历四年,也就是公元769年,刚好十年。所以,这个“十年”没有夸张,而且也不是一个虚数,是很精确的一个数字。
  第四联写景:“旅雁上云归紫塞,家人钻火用青枫。”
  上半联写的是抬头往天上看到的远景。“旅雁”指从北方旅行而来的大雁。春天来了,大雁要回北方了。“紫塞”,也就是紫色的关塞。秦朝修建长城、汉朝修建关塞,都用紫色的泥土,看上去是紫色的,因此叫做“紫塞”。这里用“紫塞”指代北方。大雁回北方老家,只要飞上云天就可以走了;但人要回老家,没法像大雁一样飞回去。这是在感慨自己还不���大雁。
  下半联写低头看到的近景,自己的家人在钻木取火。为什么要取火呢?古代清明时候要停火三天,吃三天寒食(冷饭),三天过后要重新开火,那就要取火了,“钻火”指的就是取火。取火是有讲究的,北方清明取火用榆树或柳树,而湖南那时取火用的是“青枫”。所以,上一联说的“习俗同”只是形式相同,其实并不完全一样。这里强调各地有不同的清明习俗,是要表达一个意思:毕竟身在异地,不能把异地当家乡。
  “秦城楼阁烟花里,汉主山河锦锈中”,这一联是在想象。
  唐人喜欢用“秦城”指长安,用“汉主”指当今天子。杜甫在想象现在的都城长安和周围的山河,春天来了,到处都是鲜花,该有多么美。这只是想象,望是望不到的,只能说是在想望。杜甫自从十年前离开长安之后,就再也没有回过长安了,但“每依北斗望京华”(《秋兴八首》),一直在想着长安,对长安念念不忘。因为长安是国家的政治中心,所以第五联把个人的不幸与国家的安危联系在一起,意义升华了:以多病之身漂泊流浪到了江湖之远,也还是念念不忘国家的安危。
  他能不能再去长安,能不能回到老家?我们看最后一联:“春去春来洞庭阔,白苹愁杀白头翁。”
  杜甫当时在潭州(长沙),不在洞庭湖边上,看不到洞庭湖,所以他这里写的“洞庭阔”并不是他看到的景色。为什么要写没有看见的洞庭湖呢?因为从长沙回老家要北上,就必须先渡过洞庭湖。洞庭湖非常宽阔,那时是中国的第一大湖,面积是现在洞庭湖的两倍以上,这么宽阔的湖泊就是回家的一大障碍。而且湖泊一直就那么宽阔,不是春天来了,春水上涨才变阔的。春去春来一直都是一大障碍,并不是春天过去,春水退了就可以轻易渡过的。所以,“洞庭阔”代表着自己回家乡的重重障碍。
  看到宽阔的洞庭湖,也看到了湖上有“白苹”。白苹就是浮萍,漂泊的人看到水上的浮萍就会感到一种哀愁。为什么不叫浮萍,而叫白苹呢?因为浮萍开的花是白色的。但浮萍夏天才开花,清明时还没有开花,他看到浮萍想到浮萍也叫白苹,再由“白”字想到自己已经白发苍苍,垂垂老矣,来日无多,很可能没法再渡过洞庭湖,突破重重障碍回到老家了。杜甫最终的确没能回到老家。
  在潭州住了几个月之后,他又得离开了。他打听到青年时代结交的一个好朋友现在在衡州(现衡阳)当刺史,就想去投奔他,于是从潭州出发,沿湘江逆流而上。好不容易到了衡州,好朋友已经被调到潭州去当刺史了,所以又赶回潭州。到了潭州才知道,他的朋友就任没多久就病死了,他在潭州又没有了依靠。在潭州呆了一段时间后,潭州发生了叛乱,新任刺史被人杀了。这时的潭州很危险,杜甫又得离开。
  他打听到一个远房亲戚在郴州当官,那更远了,在潭州南方。他想去郴州投靠亲戚,就继续出发漂泊,又乘船逆流而上。结果耒阳发大水,过不了,一家人困在舟中饿了5天。幸好耒阳县令知道了,给他送来了牛肉和酒,才没有饿死。郴州过不去,只好又回到潭州。住了一段时间后又想去岳阳,去岳阳又得过洞庭湖,他在洞庭湖上再次中风,这一次就没有恢复过来,死在了洞庭湖的船上。他在临死前写了一首很长的诗送给湖南的亲友,这首是三十六联的五言排律,是他的绝笔。在绝笔中有两句:“战血流依旧,军声动至今”(《风疾舟中伏枕书怀三十六韵奉呈湖南亲友》),至死都念念不忘战乱未休。
  杜甫死后,他的儿子很穷,没办法把棺材送回老家。棺材暂时停放在岳阳,这一停放,就停放了40多年。他的二儿子有一个儿子,找亲朋好友资助盘缠,把爷爷的棺材护送回老家,埋在河南的首阳山。这个时候,杜甫已经死了四十多年了,终于魂归故里。
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Renheng week Day 5 prompt: Xianxia
In order to prevent the world from being destroyed by Ren, a Demon Lord. Dan Heng, a cultivator from the Nameless sect, was tasked to travel back in time prevent the mortal Yingxing (Ren of the past) from becoming the Demon Lord by extracting Shuhu's Flesh. Unbeknownst to him, Dan Feng the body that Dan Heng took over is married to the very man he has to kill. From the moment he meets the Yingxing, things get complicated. Romance blooms between them as the cycle of death and reincarnation begins to spin.
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杜甫《清明二首》真伪辨
  大历四年(公元769年),杜甫在潭州(今长沙)写下《清明二首》:
  其一
  朝来新火起新烟,湖色春光净客船。
  绣羽衔花他自得,红颜骑竹我无缘。
  胡童结束还难有,楚女腰肢亦可怜。
  不见定王城旧处,长怀贾傅井依然。
  虚沾周举为寒食,实藉严君卖卜钱。
  钟鼎山林各天性,浊醪粗饭任吾年。
  其二
  此身飘泊苦西东,右臂偏枯半耳聋。
  寂寂系舟双下泪,悠悠伏枕左书空。
  十年蹴鞠将雏远,万里秋千习俗同。
  旅雁上云归紫塞,家人钻火用青枫。
  秦城楼阁烟花里,汉主山河锦锈中。
  春去春来洞庭阔,白苹愁杀白头翁。
  《杜甫全集校注》(萧涤非主编)在该诗后有“备��”,摘录清人朱瀚和今人洪业对该组诗的辨赝,认为是伪作,未做辨析,以示存疑。其实大谬不然。
  朱瀚之说,清人施鸿保曾有反驳,但仅限于针对朱瀚所谓杜甫“集中偏缺此体”(指七言长律),指出杜诗中有几首七言长律,批评朱瀚“失检”。
  朱瀚岂止“失检”,他对这两首诗的指责,都是莫名其妙,表明这个清朝中叶小有名气的“儒将诗人”,其实不懂诗,更不懂杜诗。他的指责多是主观评价,但有两处可以客观驳斥之。
  其一,朱瀚称“汉主”不可解。其实很可解,因为唐人喜用“汉主”代指唐皇。杜甫另有诗用“汉主”一词:
  不闻汉主放妃嫔,近静潼关扫蜂蚁。——杜甫《青丝》
  如果说这是引汉朝典故讥讽时事的话,那么其他唐朝诗人则频繁用“汉主”称呼当今皇帝,例如:
  汉主何时放逐臣,江边几度送归人。——刘长卿《送王司马秩满西归》
  圣词今日光辉满,汉主秋风莫道才。——李适《奉和春日幸望春宫应制》
  甚至还有和杜甫一样以“汉主”对“秦城”(指长安)的:
  青春事汉主,白首入秦城。——李端《赠李龟年》
  其二,朱瀚称“上云”二字无出,意思是没有这种用法。但与杜甫同时代的李端也和杜甫一样用“上云”描写大雁:
  月魄正出海,雁行斜上云。——李端《宿瓜洲寄柳中庸》
  可知朱瀚既不熟悉杜诗,也不熟悉唐诗,不过是一个浪得虚名的腐儒,对此人的辨赝应该无视。他还与人合著《杜诗解意七言律》专门讲解杜甫七律,不知哪来的底气,也许是合作者操刀。
  再看今人洪业的辨赝。他自己承认对杜诗不熟,曾说:“我年轻时也能背几十首杜诗。晚年记忆力太差了。早年所能背的,现在也模糊了。”(洪业《我怎样写杜甫》)其研究杜诗的成果是编了一部《杜诗引得》,也就是杜诗用字索引(他的学术成果就是编了各种中国古代经典的“引得”,下功夫人人可做),可以查杜诗用字情况,在以前可作为工具书,在数码时代就完全没用了。由于有这部工具书在手,以及写过一本介绍杜甫的英文专著《杜甫:中国最伟大诗人(Tu Fu: China's Greatest Poet)》,他因此成了研究杜诗的专家。
  那么他是怎么认定这两首诗是伪作呢?他说:
  【在湖南诗内有《清明》二首。若是真诗,则大历四年(769)杜甫与其家眷在船上过清明时节于洞庭湖中,而其时的杜甫“右臂偏枯半耳聋……悠悠伏枕左书空”。然而我知道当时杜甫与其船乃远在洞庭湖之南近衡州之处,不在洞庭湖中。又本年清明之前一月或半月,杜甫在岳麓山寺壁上题诗于宋之问所题诗旁。其后数十年,唐扶也在寺中作诗;他说杜甫的诗“晚来光彩更腾射,笔锋正健如可吞”。可见当时尚无右臂偏枯,左手书空之事。再过一年,大历五年(770)春天,郭受有一首赠杜甫诗,其中写杜甫“松花酒熟旁看醉,莲叶舟轻自学操”。一臂偏枯,如何学摇船?我断定这两首是假的。然而中唐刘禹锡已极赞“杜少陵过洞庭诗落句曰:春去春来洞庭阔,白苹愁杀白头翁”。我以为《清明》二首,共二十四句,只这两句或是真杜诗;而其题目只是《过洞庭湖》;若排在大历五年晚春,亦可与当时杜甫行动不生冲突。好事者作伪,在这句上添作二十二句,分作两首,改其题目为《清明》。所添诗句多俗陋不堪,所画之杜甫与史实不符,而于杜甫行舟之时地亦搅乱了。】
  一一批驳如下:
  一、其时杜甫的确在潭州,潭州不在洞庭湖边上,见不到洞庭湖。但杜甫从岳州到潭州已经过洞庭湖,而要从潭州北归洛阳,必再经洞庭湖,“春去春来洞庭阔”并非写景,而是回想来时路和感叹还乡之难。
  二、关于杜甫“在岳麓山寺壁上题诗于宋之问所题诗旁”。杜甫《岳麓山道林二诗行》是一首十六韵七言排律,多达224字,怎么可能题写在宋之问的题诗旁?哪写得下?与宋之问不同,其时杜甫籍籍无名、穷困潦倒、流落他乡,寺僧怎么可能让他题壁?何况此诗是合咏岳麓山寺和道林寺二寺,如果要在某寺题诗,不是应该只咏该寺吗?唐扶在数十年后在道林寺(不是洪业说的岳麓山寺)所见的杜诗,其实是杜甫死后名满天下之后寺僧找人刻写的碑板(后来还为此在寺中设“四绝堂”),并非杜甫亲笔。何况杜甫游岳麓山是他刚到潭州时,完全可能当时还未发病,之后才中风导致右臂偏枯,《清明二首》正是其卧病在床时所作。
  三、关于郭守赠诗。郭守当时是襄阳判官,其诗题《杜员外兄垂示诗因作此寄上》,可知两人是寄诗互赠,他与杜甫并未见面,“莲叶舟轻自学操”,乃是想象之词,并非写实。杜甫当时已乘舟漂泊两、三年,怎么可能才突然学起划船?杜甫在回赠郭守的诗也就是那首著名的《酬郭十五受判官》中说:“卧病江湖春复生”,“药裹关心诗总废”,卧病在床,心里想的只是吃药,连诗都无心写了,哪有学操舟的雅兴?
  四、刘禹锡曾极赞《清明二首》最后一联,本是该诗为杜甫真作的最有力证据,但洪业却脑洞大开,认定是好事者根据刘禹锡引用的这一联增补作伪。按常理,好事者如果要把残章作伪,应是简单地补全成七绝、七律,居然补写成六联排律,还一写两首,岂非太好事?何况,刘禹锡将这一联误记为“年去年来洞庭上,白苹愁杀白头人”,好事者要据此作伪,也该写成压真韵,怎么改成了压东韵呢?
  至于洪业、朱瀚都骂这组诗“俗陋不堪”,那是因为他们读不懂而妄作谰言,不知其精妙。对刘禹锡极赞、自愧不如的最后一联(“余……尝过洞庭,虽为一篇,静思杜员外甫落句云:‘年去年来洞庭上,白苹愁杀白头人。’鄙夫之言,有愧于杜公也。”——唐.范摅《云溪友议》),朱瀚也嘲笑“亦是吴歌,结句无聊”,是他懂诗还是刘禹锡懂?
  洪业称此诗“所画之杜甫与史实不符”,恰恰相反。诗中云:“右臂偏枯半耳聋”,准确描写了当时杜甫病症。“右臂偏枯”是中风导致的偏瘫,次年杜甫即因再次中风死于洞庭湖上舟中(绝笔诗题《风疾舟中伏枕书怀三十六韵奉呈湖南亲友》)。“半耳聋”指两个耳朵聋了一个,杜甫在夔州时左耳聋了,“夔子之国杜陵翁,牙齿半落左耳聋。”(《复阴》)作伪者焉能对杜甫当时病症了如指掌,写入诗中?
  把自己读不懂、读不通的杜诗妄指为伪作,自以为高明,其实荒谬绝伦,可休矣。书到此,不由口占一绝云:
  百家注杜苦搜寻,多少腐儒献假金。
  诗圣大名垂万古,千年难觅一知音。
  2024.4.7.
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Just full body designs from my Xianxia AU aka TTEOTM!RH AU
+ arc 1 plot below the cut
ARC 1
Dan Heng is a member of one of the last surviving sects in a world razed by the Demon lord, Ren. His sect has an artifact that could end Ren’s life so Ren is in the hunt for it since it is his only weakness. While they are holding back Ren’s onslaught on their sect his seniors himeko and welt decided to use the artifact and send Dan Heng to the past to prevent the Demon lord’s destruction. A few hundred years ago Ren was a human prince who was born with Shuhu’s flesh, the original demon lord.
It lays dormant within him but due to him being cursed the people treat him with disdain and suffer abuse, the moment he was killed from it is when he rose as the demon lord to return to them what he experienced tenfold. Dan Heng's mission is to ensure that Ren won’t experience the cruelties he suffered and that he would live on normally at the same time finding a way to destroy Shuhu’s flesh in him. As his seniors were completing the ritual to send him back in time, Ren has already breached the sect and is now standing in front of DH who witnessed the slaughter of his friends, before he disappeared he vowed that he would kill Ren.
DH wakes up 700 years in the past in the body of Dan Feng, a haughty second prince of the Luofu. He suddenly discover that one, he is married to Yingxing (Ren’s name before he became the Demon lord) for half a year already. Two he is also one of the people who abused him, three Yingxing is nothing like the Demon lord Ren he saw, where was the cruel Demon lord who plunged the world into chaos. This man seems docile and why is he kneeling in the garden in the middle of winter?! (“Master Dan Feng, you are the one who ordered him to do this….”his servant reminds him) Oh great! not off to a great start, why didn’t he travel to the time before he got married to him, how is he supposed to win the trust of someone who is wary of him already. also another hurdle is that he doesn’t know how he will interact with him esp the last time he saw him he slaughtered his friends how the heck would he interact with the murderer but that was him from the future, This is now and he will make sure he would succeed in his mission with the hand that he is dealt with but first he gets him out of there and stops the “punishment” that Dan Feng gave him.
Yingxing was confused on the sudden change of attitude with Dan Feng, he was suspicious and distrustful of this “new” Dan Feng since it might be another one of his ploys and it's back to beatings again.DH also finds out that the servants disrespect him and DF does nothing about it and just lets his servants, he doesn't really care about his husband cuz he is just a hostage prince.
Yingxing is a prince from Zhuming who was sent to Luofu as hostage as part of the peace treaty between two kingdoms and was chosen to be Dan Feng’s betrothed. DH tries to be nice to him but all he get is wary glances, one time he was able to make Yingxing talk, YX tries to warn him that whatever he is planning now gotta stop as if it would change his opinion of him because at the end of the day DF would still treat him as he always does. DH asks why he thinks that and finds out what he thought of everyone of how everyone simply enjoys on hurting the weak altho he hasn’t done anything to warrant such treatment” so DH asks him if he has any grudges he just answers with its already exhausting enough to survive in this hellish place he doesn't have energy to think about anything else.
It gave DH insight on YX and how he became Demon lord in the first place, no one showed him kindness and guided him on the right path since he was only shown cruelty so he will give back cruelty so he decided to be that person the one who will guide him to the right path.
After that, their relationship changes, DH tries to do things for him like feeding him proper food, buying him proper winter clothes, and hanging out with him. YX slowly warms up to DH since even though they don't talk much his presence is comforting since he is not alone anymore. YX thought that DF is starting to care for him but all of that was dashed when he accidentally eavesdrop on DF and crown prince Yubie, DH tries to act like the haughty prince that DF is since his brother inquired on the sudden shift in attitude with YX, He thought he hated him so he tells his brother that he extended kindness since he is worried that it wouldn't be good for the kingdom if Zhuming finds out they mistreated their prince, The peace treaty is already delicate as it is. If Yubie thinks that DF cares for YX, don't because he can’t truly care for him, it’s impossible ... he never liked him from the start anyway, he hates him with every fiber of his being.
YX was disappointed and furious because all of the kindness that was shown to him by DF wasn't genuine and was all just a ploy. Most of all he was angry with himself for believing it, he should've known, people dont change that easily. He was deceived by that kindness, that DF only cares so that Luofu would be safe but in the end they still think that he is a jinx who only brings disasters. For the first time, he wanted vengeance which activated his dormant powers
YX tried to unleash his newfound powers at a royal banquet hosted by Yubie by summoning spirits, he was surprised on how DF was able to protect his brother with warding charms, he didn’t expect DF to be capable like that. DH found YX and tried to protect him with his body from the spirits that surrounded them, this left YX perplexed so he got rid of the spirits.
DH was relieved that they are both safe now and checks if YX is injured anywhere while YX internally wonders if DF hates him why would he sacrifice himself to save him? YX is prepared to trust him again since for him actions speak louder than words, so he confronts DF on why go back and save him since he saw that he was running out of the mansion. DH tells him that they are husbands am i not suppose to protect you and be with you for better or worse
YX asks if he likes him, DH reluctantly answers yes and reasons out that they have grown fond of each other since they have spent time together recently.
YX: If you like me, teach me those charms you used this way we can spend more time together
DH: why would you want to learn that?
YX: because i also want to be capable of protecting my loved one
DH is surprised that someone like him suddenly has something he wants to protect, so he agrees and makes him promise to take care of himself too because he really doesn’t want to risk his life to save him again.
They spend time in the library with DH teaching YX illusion charms, he shows him an illusion of maple forest, and a vast galaxy of stars. They became closer and fell asleep on each other till Yubie found them the next day which embarrassed DH greatly.
They also went out and spent the whole day at a festival which made YX loosen up and felt special since all of DF's attention was on him, they even played in the snow and lit up fireworks. YX was smiling at DF as he watched him light up fireworks, he starts falling for him now.
Messengers from zhuming secretly contacted yx to let him know that he needs to go back to his kingdom and take back the throne from the usurpers since his father is now bedridden but why should he when they were the ones who threw him here in the first place being a cursed prince.
Also he doesn't want to go back since DF is in luofu but the situation seems dire if the messengers started begging so YX tried to take DF with him but refused since it can be seen as DF defecting and betraying the luofu if DF goes with him so yx has kidnaps him instead.
While on the boat to zhuming, it was revealed that the messengers were in on it too and tried assassinating yx but with yx powers slaughtering them was easy and DH who managed to escape from captivity witnessed this scene.
Even after all the time they spent dh still doesn't trust yx after all it's still his mission to prevent the demon lord rising. And his current actions just proves that his real nature cant be changed as he could easily slaughter people.
DH escaped by jumping from the ship, YX also follows later even with his powers he is still human, injured and outnumbered. Once ashore, he also find yx weak from injuries and apparently poisoned too so he tries to nurse him back to health and tells him he isn't allowed to die. When he is well enough, DH leaves him near zhuming where attendants who are still on yx side found him. He returned to Zhuming, overthrew the usurpers and was crowned emperor.
DH travels all around zhuming trying to find a clue about shuhu’s flesh, DH believes he can find information about it on yx homeland. At the same time Yubie deploys an army to rescue his brother that yx kidnapped and orders they kill yx afterwards.
-ARC 1 END-
Stay tuned for Arc 2~
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