#应枫

[anshares]

[berrybunluc]

[ulalamonz]

what if.

[niteshade925]

🤪

[hami-gua]

永别了，亲爱的 Farewell, My Beloved

Long overdue since Qingming has long since pass (oops).

Blade x gn! Reader

Takes place in game — not canon though

Warning: Chinese is used (English translation provided), angst hurt no comfort (first time writing this angsty)

Please read to the end for credits and reference.

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Shoes echoes through the barren halls. The figure moves through the doorway, his steps slow. And then he stops. Right in front of the wall of name plaques. His red eyes scanned the whole wall, searching for a particular name and walking to it right as he spots it. He carefully pulls out a clean cloth — and with care, wiped down the plaque. It didn’t need to be cleaned, as workers everyday made sure all plaques are cleaned out of respect. Once he was done, he placed the bouquet of white chrysanthemums in front of it then sits down.

The figure couldn’t help but think of their death. Of the three that had to pay a price, he alone had to pay the biggest. He made a promise to them and he broke it. The what ifs began to speed through his head. He’s died once, and he wants to die again. He wishes he can be with them in the afterlife. That is, if Mengpo doesn’t make him drink her soup. Not that he could see them anyway. Not after what he’s done.

He places two cups and pulls out a jar of wine. After filling both cups, he took his and raised it — drinking it all after.

“I’m sorry,” was the first thing he said to them, “I’m sorry for dragging you into this mess.”

He wants to apologize but no matter what he says, he knows no explanation could cut it. It was his error in action. In emotion. There was no way words can express his regrets.

“我与你的记忆损乱了，“ a tear slips from his eye, “你长得什么样，我也记不了了。我也记不住你的声音了。我只能记得你的名字，但也记不了多久了。“ [Memories of me and you have been messed up… The way that you looked, I cannot remember. I also cannot remember your voice. I only remember your name, but I cannot remember that for long either.]

The figure sat in silence for a bit before starting once more, “当年，如果不是我，也不是丹枫的话，你今日该会是什么样了？你还会像以前一样跟景元玩象棋吗？跟丹枫看书？跟镜流和白珩逛街？或者跟我练功？” he drank another cup full of wine, “可惜，三个付出代价去了，一个早已离去，最后一个孤独的留在了罗浮。不知你和白珩有没有相遇。我想是。我��当时挣扎了好久，现在平安多了。你若在的话，肯定会喜欢现在罗浮的环境。“ [That year, if it wasn’t for me, and Dan Feng, what would you have been like today? Would it be like it was then, with you playing xiangqi with Jing Yuan? Reading with Dan Heng? Shopping with Jing Liu and Baiheng? Or would you have been sparring with me? …. Sadly, three paid a price, one has departed, and the last one is left lonely on Luofu. I don’t know if you and Baiheng have caught up. I’d like to think you guys did. Our time was so messy, but Luofu today is much peaceful. If you were here, you’d definitely like Luofu today.]

Amidst his rambling, another figure approached. She stood right behind him, gazing up on the plaque.

“It’s time you wrap it up, Bladie.”

Blade hummed in acknowledgment, “Just a little more time.”

The lady stared at him a bit longer before sighing and heading out, saying she’ll be waiting for him at the entrance. After he was sure he was alone again, he spoke softly.

“是时候该走了。如果我没有捅你一刀，你今天应该还会在吧。对不起，这是我最后一次能看你了。仙舟没有我的地方了。在这个人生里，可能再也不会有人像你一样叫我的名字了。我永远也不可能是应星了。” [It’s time I should get going. If I didn’t stab you that day, you would probably still be here. I’m sorry, this is my last time seeing you. There’s no longer a place for me on Xianzhou. In this life, there will be no one to say my name the way you do. And I will never be able to be Yingxing anymore.]

Blade gets up and places the jar of wine next to the filled cup. After, he bows to the name plaque three times. Then, he turns and walks out of the room — leaving Luofu till his death arrives.

永别了。。。[Farewell…]

亲爱的。[My beloved.]

─── ∙ ↤THE END↦ ∙ ─---

I've been thinking, should I make banners specifically for the characters I write? Or would that be too much? Cuz right now, I can't decide on a banner for each story.

Qingming 清明: Called Tomb-Sweeping day in the west. People visit the graves of their deceased love ones. Even going as far as cleaning and retouching graves. It’s customary to offer food and wine (or other beverages they loved).

White Chrysanthemums: White flowers, mainly white chrysanthemums are placed during funeral and the dead. Don’t gift these to people please (unless you desperately wish for that person to perish).

Mengpo 孟婆: A deity in the underworld that gives passing souls her specialty called 孟婆汤 (mengpo soup) that would wipe their memories for their journey in their next life.

Bowing three times: I was taught this at a young age, but when bowing to gods and ancestors, you bow three times. Usually it’s very quick, but I like to take it slow (cuz I think it shows deeper respect).

[dinger712]

脑洞是这样的——

七大军校举办竞技比赛，每所学校派出5名正式队员（两组双人机甲+一个单兵）和1名替补，枫丹廷这边的队长那维莱特和副队长莱欧斯利一组，林尼兄妹一组，加上新生娜维娅，菲米尼替补。

所有人都说枫丹双璧毕业后会去梅洛彼得堡要塞服役授衔。那维莱特出身于古老的贵族名门，虽然是指挥系首席，但身手丝毫不亚于战斗类专业的学生，据说他曾将好斗的至冬选手达达利亚打败，对于那场对决，那维莱特不愿意提起，只说自己是出其不意，仅仅为了维护校园纪律才出此下策。

莱欧斯利的事迹完全是另一番模样——出身于白淞镇一带的潦倒少年 ，混迹在藏污纳垢的灰河水道，青少年法庭七进七出的传奇，最后竟能爬上单兵系首席的位置，与那维莱特并肩。实习记者夏洛蒂采访过他，问他是否是传说中的“地狱犬”，莱欧说哪有七进七出那么夸张，自己只是光速认罪好好改造而已，他没能跟夏洛蒂坦白的是，自己或许是秉公无私的那维首席的唯一污点。

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这张图如果画全了，那维手里应该牵着一只三条机械腿哈士奇。遛狗路上碰见了对手，那维拦着莱欧说别冲动。忍不住加了点战损

实际打起架来却是莱欧在劝那维别激动哈哈哈哈哈

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蒙德队

【琴+凯亚=骑士团凑合队，凯亚本来的搭档迪卢克毕业了，所以新的正副队长组成搭子】

【优菈+安柏=我很看好这一队】

【+班尼特，砂糖替补】←班尼特在生存环节落单，临时加入璃月队，都不想走了

璃月队，非常冒险的全一年级队，却拥有实力恐怖的教练组

【行秋+重云】

【香菱+胡桃】

【+辛焱，唯一不是一年级的刻晴被拉来替补】

稻妻队

【绫人+托马=日本动画片里常有这种队】

【一斗+久岐忍=阿忍对不起战术性下线换替补队员来】

【+宵宫，五郎替补】←差生一斗做梦都想不到能与他网上认识的女神学习搭子一起开机甲

须弥队

【艾尔海森+卡维=分是满天星合是一团火这火有点太大了队】虽然是天才组合，艾尔海森与卡维却在第一场比赛中��架，让枫丹轻松取胜。

【赛诺+提纳里=太靠谱了还得是你俩队】

【+柯莱，阿帽替补】←须弥秘密武器了属于是

至冬队

【潘塔罗涅+多托雷=心脏反派开派队】

【阿蕾奇诺+罗莎琳=女仆你带我走吧队】

【+达达利亚，桑多涅替补】

[ittybittyhuac]

"Kill them with kindness" Wrong. CURSE OF QIN SHI HUANG

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“kill them with kindness” Wrong. CURSE OF RA 𓀀 𓀁 𓀂 𓀃 𓀄 𓀅 𓀆 𓀇 𓀈 𓀉 𓀊 𓀋 𓀌 𓀍 𓀎 𓀏 𓀐 𓀑 𓀒 𓀓 𓀔 𓀕 𓀖 𓀗 𓀘 𓀙 𓀚 𓀛 𓀜 𓀝 𓀞 𓀟 𓀠 𓀡 𓀢 𓀣 𓀤 𓀥 𓀦 𓀧 𓀨 𓀩 𓀪 𓀫 ���� 𓀭 𓀮 𓀯 𓀰 𓀱 𓀲 𓀳 𓀴 𓀵 𓀶 𓀷 𓀸 𓀹 𓀺 𓀻 𓀼 𓀽 𓀾 𓀿 𓁀 𓁁 𓁂 𓁃 𓁄 𓁅 𓁆 𓁇 𓁈 𓁉 𓁊 𓁋 𓁌 𓁍 𓁎 𓁏 𓁐 𓁑 𓀄 𓀅 𓀆

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✦ 𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐄'𝐒 𝐓𝐔𝐌𝐁𝐋𝐑 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐆 : ( 枫应 ) a fully sfw account for the queer ships that i like。 credits to @/yomei230 for the blade icon and @/necromii for the gif !

۶ৎ . . . reporting live from the stellaron hunter's headquarters , today's news are in: “𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦, 𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘦, 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘦𝘹𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦, 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘪𝘮, 𝘪 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘵。”

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リ﹒Ꮺ — 𖹭﹒; “ pairs of objects are destined for an eventual reunion. the long years of grudges and hatred between them should be savored, like ice-cold aged liquor, one slow sip after another until the bottle of resentment is finally empty. would the wearer of the other bracer feel the same? the unnamed didn't want to know. ”

[fangzhouzi]

为君解读《琵琶行》

　　《琵琶行》的写作背景是白居易被贬到江州当司马。他为什么会被贬官呢？因为当时唐朝出了一件大事。“安史之乱”后出现了藩镇割据的局面，当时的宰相武元衡（武则天的后代）和他的副手、御史中丞裴度想削弱藩镇的势力，藩镇的节度使派刺客来刺杀他们。武元衡在骑马上朝时遇刺身亡，头都被割下来了。裴度也遇刺，但只是受伤。裴度从马上掉下来，滚到了路边的沟里，刺客以为他死了就没有追杀他，他才逃过了一劫。因为武元衡死了，就由裴度继任，拜为宰相。

　　武元衡和裴度都是白居易的诗友，他们遇刺让他很愤怒。他第一时间就上书皇帝，要求缉拿凶手。白居易当时的官职是太子赞善大夫，是辅佐太子的，他第一个上书要求缉拿凶手，就被他的政敌抓住了把柄，说他不好好辅佐太子，抢在谏官之前上书议论朝政，犯忌了。还有一批白居易的政敌翻旧账，指责白居易说：他母亲几年前赏花不幸掉到井里死了，而他居然还写《赏花》诗和咏《新井》的诗。这些诗实际上是他在母亲死之前写的，但这些人不管，搞文字狱，把这些诗拿出来指责他不孝，要求唐宪宗处罚白居易贬。唐宪宗也很烦白居易老是上书进谏，借机把白居易贬到江州（现在的江西九江）当刺史。刺史是一州之长，相当于现在的市长。白居易的一个政敌上书说，白居易道德这么败坏，怎么能当一州之长呢？于是在白居易离京赴任途中，唐宪宗又匆匆忙忙下了一道诏书，把他从江州刺史降为江州司马。司马是辅佐刺史的，大致相当于现在的副市长。

　　白居易以前担任太子赞善大夫，官品是五品上；去江州当司马，官品是从五品下，相当于降了三级。但不管怎样，还是五品官。所以，白居易在当江州司马时曾给他的朋友元稹写过一封很著名的信，里面说虽然现在贬官到偏远的地方，但当的还是五品官，月俸四五万，有饭吃、有衣穿，还能养家糊口，你不用担心。话虽这么说，但他从一个朝官被贬到很边远的地区，对朝政就起不到作用了。而且，虽然司马名义上是刺史的副手，其实是一个闲职，没有权力，往往是给那些退居二线的老干部当的。白居易曾经写过一首诗，其中有一句“司马还是送老官”，意思是说当司马的都是去养老的，是赋闲了。像白居易这种忧国忧民、很有政治抱负的人，被贬到江州，远离了政治中心长安，而且当的是闲官，对他来说就是落魄、沦落了，这就是为什么他在《琵琶行》里会说自己跟琵琶女 “同是天涯沦落人”。

　　关于白居易遇到琵琶女，宋朝有人怀疑它的真实性，认为是虚构的故事。他们认为，白居易那时是戴罪之身，是被贬去边远地方当官的，居然敢跟一个歌妓见面，要是被政敌知道，参上一本，不就会很麻烦吗？其实这是以宋朝的道德观看唐朝的事。唐朝的官员跟歌妓见面没什么大不了的，被认为是很正常的事。白居易在这首诗的前面写了一篇很长的序，就是为了强调这事是真实发生的，也就是说他不怕别人去告他，否则这篇序不就是罪证了吗？这篇序除了强调这事是真的，其实没必要写，因为序的内容都已经在诗里体现出来了。先看序反而剧透了诗的内容，所以我们欣赏《琵琶行》的时候，完全可以跳过那篇序不看。

　　“浔阳江头夜送客，枫叶荻花秋瑟瑟。

　　主人下马客在船，举酒欲饮无管弦。

　　醉不成欢惨将别，别时茫茫江浸月。”

　　开头的这一段是营造气氛，为琵琶女的出场做铺垫。用秋天的萧瑟、离别的哀愁、没有音乐助兴的不欢而散，营造出很悲凉的氛围。甚至看到江中的月也无心欣赏，显得很凄凉。就在这样氛围中，琵琶女出场了。

　　“忽闻水上琵琶声，主人忘归客不发。

　　寻声暗问弹者谁？琵琶声停欲语迟。

　　移船相近邀相见，添酒回灯重开宴。

　　千呼万唤始出来，犹抱琵琶半遮面。”

　　琵琶女的出场未见其人先闻其声，而且她犹犹豫豫不愿意出来，是不停地恳求、邀请才出来的。终于出来，还半遮着面。让人吊足了胃口，有了一个悬念：这究竟是何许人，为什么架子这么大，反复地请她才出来？她接下来要怎样表演？

　　“转轴拨弦三两声，未成曲调先有情。

　　弦弦掩抑声声思，似诉平生不得志。

　　低眉信手续续弹，说尽心中无限事。

　　轻拢慢捻抹复挑，初为霓裳后六幺。”

　　琵琶女出场后，白居易先描写的是人，而不是音乐。描写了她弹琵琶的各种技巧、动作和神态，接下来才描写她弹奏的音乐。先写琵琶的声音：

　　“大弦嘈嘈如急雨，小弦切切如私语。

　　嘈嘈切切错杂弹，大珠小珠落玉盘。”

　　这一段描写的是琵琶的音响效果及声音的特色。琵琶是四弦琴，它的四条弦粗细不一样。“大弦”应该指的是比较粗的弦，“小弦”指的是最细的弦。弦的粗细不一样，弹出来的声音频率也不一样。白居易用三种方法来表现大弦和小弦声音的不同：一用象声词“嘈嘈”“切切”拟声，二用“如急雨”“如私语”比���，第三种方式是把视觉和听觉结合在一起，“大珠小珠落玉盘”，当大弦和小弦交错弹奏时，听上去就像看见、听到大大小小的珠子交替地往玉盘上落。这是在讲琵琶声音的特色。接下来再讲她弹的曲子的节奏、旋律变化：

　　“间关莺语花底滑，幽咽泉流冰下难。

　　冰泉冷涩弦凝绝，凝绝不通声暂歇。

　　别有幽愁暗恨生，此时无声胜有声。”

　　一开始的旋律，节奏明快���流畅，就像小鸟在花底鸣叫。（“间﹝jiān﹞关”是个象声词，用来模拟鸟的鸣叫声。国内现在定为“间﹝jiàn﹞关”是错的，两个字都该读平声。我已经写过一篇文章《“间关”读音考》论证过，这里就不重复了）。从流畅、明快的韵律节奏过渡到缓慢、冷涩，就像泉水在冰下很缓慢、很艰难地流动。有人认为“冰下难”应该读作“冰下滩”，说“难”是“滩”的通假字，这完全说不通，是不懂诗的人乱解释。这句诗很容易理解，说的就是冰下难于流动的泉水，越流越慢，最终流不动了。体现出旋律越来越慢，最终休止了。在这个过程当中，因为跟前面明快的节奏形成了鲜明的对比，让人产生了一种幽怨的感觉，最后声音停止更让人觉得幽怨重重，所以“此时无声胜有声”，就是因为有前面的慢慢演变的过程。那么，声音停了，曲终了吗？没有——

　　“银瓶乍破水浆迸，铁骑突出刀枪鸣。

　　曲终收拨当心画，四弦一声如裂帛。

　　东船西舫悄无言，唯见江心秋月白。”

　　声音已经停止，本以为曲子已经终了，突然一下很大的声响就像瓶子猛地被摔破，水浆四溅；又如同千军万马奔突交锋，刀枪齐鸣，把全曲很激昂地推向高潮，又戛然而止。这回真正停了，但大家都陶醉在其中，以为演奏还没停，乐曲还没终。不只是白居易这伙人在听没有发出声音，周围的船也被吸引了在听，也都没有发出声音。“惟见江心秋月白”是白居易诗里第二次写江中的月，但跟第一次不一样。第一次写江中月烘托出一种凄凉的气氛，再写江中月展现了一种曲终之后悄无声息的宁静。

　　曲终的时候，大家可能就觉得奇怪：为什么琵琶女的演奏水平会这么高超？水平如此高超的琵琶女怎么会流落到江州这么偏远的地方来呢？不只读者有这种疑问，白居易他们也有这种疑问。琵琶女显然知道别人想要了解其中的究竟，所以她想了想，决定向大家揭开自己的身世。

　　“沉吟收拨插弦中，整顿衣裳起敛容。

　　自言本是京城女，家在虾蟆陵下住。

　　十三学得琵琶成，名属教坊第一部。

　　曲罢曾教善才服，妆成每被秋娘妒。

　　五陵年少争缠头，一曲红绡不知数。

　　钿头银篦击节碎，血色罗裙翻酒污。

　　今年欢笑复明年，秋月春风等闲度。”

　　她原来住在京城长安的蛤蟆陵。蛤蟆陵是唐朝长安的娱乐区，青楼、酒馆集中在那里。琵琶女从小就到教坊学弹琵琶，十三岁就出师了。教坊是唐朝官方教育培训娱乐、歌舞、音乐人才的地方，也为政府提供服务，类似于现在的文工团。她学得很好，小小年纪就出师了，而且因为弹得很好，曾经让“善才”们觉得服气。善才是指很有成就的音乐家，包括唐朝的宫廷乐师，连他们都觉得这个琵琶女弹得很好。琵琶女又长得漂亮，化了妆会让秋娘忌妒。“秋娘”是谁呢？很多青楼女子、歌妓都用“秋娘”作为自己的艺名，“秋娘”就变成了歌妓的代名词。也就是说，琵琶女多才多艺，不仅让宫廷乐师服气，也让歌妓嫉妒，成了一个明星。那些官家子弟、富家子弟都成了她的粉丝，纷纷给她打赏。她就在纸醉金迷、醉生梦死的生活中这么过去了。这是解答第一个疑问：为什么琵琶会弹得这么好。但为什么这么有才的明星会流落到江州这么一个偏僻的地方呢？

　　“弟走从军阿姨死，暮去朝来颜色故。

　　门前冷落鞍马稀，老大嫁作商人妇。

　　商人重利轻别离，前月浮梁买茶去。

　　去来江口守空船，绕船月明江水寒。

　　夜深忽梦少年事，梦啼妆泪红阑干。”

　　“弟”和“阿姨”，一般解释成弟弟、姨妈，以为她弟弟从军、姨妈死了，家道中落了。这是因为不熟悉唐朝的教坊制度。“弟”不是指弟弟。唐朝教坊里关系比较好的歌妓会结拜，结拜的时候不叫结拜姐妹，而叫做“烟花兄弟”。所以“弟”指的是跟琵琶女结拜、比她年轻的歌妓。她们从军当然不是去打仗，而是到军营当歌妓。唐朝的军营里也有歌妓，因为将军们要娱乐，需要歌舞，“战士军前半死生，美人帐下犹歌舞。”而且唐朝的琵琶也能当军乐用，“葡萄美酒月光杯，欲饮琵琶马上催”，也需要歌妓去弹琵琶。她的姐妹都分散了，因为那时候藩镇割据，中央政府没钱了，教坊养不起那么多人了，但军阀有钱，所以有些歌妓就从军去当军中的歌妓。相当于中央政府没钱了，在中央歌舞团待不下去，就到去部队文工团。所以她的年轻的姐妹都走散了，排场撑不起来了。

　　“阿姨”又是谁呢？不是姨妈，而是教坊里的女主管，跟她关系很好，叫她阿姨。阿姨也死了，没人罩着她了。而且她年纪也大了，年老色衰，没人再来找她，不会有人再给她打赏，就嫁给了商人，跟着到了江州。商人要做生意，看重的是钱财而不是夫妻感情，一走就一个月，留下她一个人独守空船。

　　白居易在这里第三次写了江中月，是通过琵琶女的口说出来的。看到明月，中国人都会想到团圆，但眼下夫妻分离，让琵琶女更感到孤单。因此，梦到自己少年时候的高光时刻就哭醒了，泪流满面把妆容都弄花了。“阑干”，就是涕泗纵横交错的样子。

　　琵琶女的这番讲述引起了白居易的共鸣，他也向琵琶女讲述自己的遭遇：

　　“我闻琵琶已叹息，又闻此语重唧唧。

　　同是天涯沦落人，相逢何必曾相识！

　　我从去年辞帝京，谪居卧病浔阳城。

　　浔阳地僻无音乐，终岁不闻丝竹声。

　　住近湓江地低湿，黄芦苦竹绕宅生。

　　其间旦暮闻何物？杜鹃啼血猿哀鸣。

　　春江花朝秋月夜，往往取酒还独倾。

　　岂无山歌与村笛？呕哑嘲哳难为听。

　　今夜闻君琵琶语，如听仙乐耳暂明。

　　莫辞更坐弹一曲，为君翻作琵琶行。”

　　白居易这段讲述很啰嗦，反复说的就是浔阳这个地方太偏僻、太荒凉。浔阳是江州的府治所在地，是那一带最大的城市，跟长安比是还很荒凉。关键是没有音乐可听，只能听到杜鹃的哀啼、猿的哀号。即使有什么山歌、村笛，他也觉得太难听了。这是反衬琵琶女的琵琶曲让他觉得像听到了仙乐。为什么要这么吹捧琵琶女弹的琵琶曲呢？除了很长时间都没有听过好音乐，跟山歌、村笛对比衬托出来的，更关键的是白居易想让她再弹一曲，还开出一个她没法拒绝的条件：为她写一首“琵琶行”。“翻作琵琶行”，“翻作”相当于根据她弹的曲子填一首歌词。这可了不得，因为当时的白居易已经是天下闻名的大作家、畅销作家。我前面提到他给元稹写的信，里面说了，他从长安到江西，两三千里地这么一路走过来，发现老百姓三教九流都在读他的诗。如果歌妓会读他的《长恨歌》，��价就涨了。他曾经在途中参加过一个聚会，宾客还把歌妓找来，向她们介绍说这是《长恨歌》的作者。可见当时白居易受欢迎，特别是受歌妓欢迎的程度。特地为琵琶女写一首“琵琶行”，当然是很吸引人的条件，所以琵琶女就被白居易这番话给打动了。

　　“感我此言良久立，却坐促弦弦转急。

　　凄凄不似向前声，满座重闻皆掩泣。

　　座中泣下谁最多？江州司马青衫湿。”

　　前面弹的琵琶曲虽然很冷涩、很缓慢，让人产生幽恨、幽愁，但最多只是让人叹息而已；这一次因为琵琶女被白居易那番话感动之后，改弹的是一首很悲惨的曲子，所有人都听哭了。哭得最厉害的是白居易，觉得自己跟琵琶女“同是天涯沦落人”，有共鸣。更想起自己这些年的遭遇，所以哭得最厉害。整首诗把感情推到了最高潮，但一下子就停了，就跟琵琶女弹的前一首琵琶曲一样，到最高潮的时候戛然而止，言已尽而意无穷。所以白居易这首《琵琶行》，整首诗的结构也像琵琶曲：前面有铺垫、悬念，中间有感情、节奏的起伏，最后达到高潮，然后突然停住。

　　最后一句“江州司马青衫湿”，“青衫”是官服的颜色。唐朝官服的颜色是根据官的大小定的，“青衫”是八、九品官穿的官服颜色。白居易是江州司马，不是最低级的小官，五品也可以算是高官。五品官本来应该穿绯服，也就是红色的官服，为什么他穿的是“青衫”呢？这是因为唐朝的官品分两套系统，一套叫做“职事官”，相当于官职。“司马”就是一个官职，类似于现在部队里的什么长，像师长、团长。另外一套官品系统叫做“散官”，类似于军队的将、校军衔，官阶由散官来定。白居易的散官是“将仕郎”，是文散官当中最低一级，从九品下。唐朝的官服在一般情况下是根据官阶大小来穿的，而官阶是由散官来定的，从九品下的将仕郎是最低的散官，所以他就只能穿“青衫”，青色的官服。

　　白居易中进士后当的散官就是将仕郎，他已经中进士那么多年，当了那么多年的散官，为什么还是最低一级，没有升呢？因为唐朝的散官要升迁是很难的，每年考一次，四年才评一次。连续考四年，成绩都达到“中中”级别，才能往上升一级。到了中唐，散官没啥用了，因为待遇已经跟散官没有关系，而是完全根据职事官来，所以散官就只是一个名誉而已。很多官员也就懒得去考散官了，这就导致很多官员当到大官，他的散官还是最低一级的将仕郎。甚至极��到已经拜了宰相，他的散官还是一个将仕郎。当然，这个时候皇帝会赐他穿大红袍，不会让他穿青衫了。

　　所以，当时的官员一般都懒得去考散官，一直是最低级的散官，到了一定时候再由皇帝赏赐一个比较高级的散官。白居易后来调回长安，又当上朝官，皇帝就赏给他一个散官“朝议郎”，他一下子就从最低的从九品下升到了六品。既然当时的白居易并不是一个最低级的官员，司马的地位也挺高的，他为什么要强调“青衫”，非要说“青衫湿”呢？就是为了让人觉得他很落魄，是最低级的官员。

　　相对抒情诗而言，中国的叙事诗很不发达。以前主要都是民间人士在写。写得最好的叙事诗像《孔雀东南飞》《木兰辞》等等，都是流传民间的。文人很少写叙事诗，有时候会尝个新鲜，偶尔写一下。杜甫开始大量创作叙事诗，例如《兵车行》《北征》《三吏》《三别》等等，叙事诗到他手里才变成了文人创作的重要体裁。杜甫之后，各个诗人基本上都在学他。只要学到了杜甫的一鳞半爪，学到了他的某个方面，就能成为一个出名的诗人，甚至成为一个大诗人。

　　学杜甫学得最全面的是白居易，白居易最看重杜甫的就是杜甫的叙事诗，所以他用力最多、学得最精的也是叙事诗。他提倡“新乐府”运动，就是要把杜甫的叙事诗发扬光大。因为他想把叙事诗作为政治手段，用它来抨击朝政、推动政治改革、提高政治影响力，所以他最看重的就是政治叙事诗，也叫政治讽喻诗。不过，白居易写得最好的叙事诗还不是他最看重的这些政治讽喻诗，不是《新乐府五十首》《秦中吟》等等，写得最好的其实是跟政治没有什么关系的长篇叙事诗《长恨歌》《琵琶行》等。尤其是跟政治毫无关系的《琵琶行》，更是千古绝唱。

　　2024.04.03录制

　　2024.04.29整理

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Renheng week Day 5 prompt: Xianxia

In order to prevent the world from being destroyed by Ren, a Demon Lord. Dan Heng, a cultivator from the Nameless sect, was tasked to travel back in time prevent the mortal Yingxing (Ren of the past) from becoming the Demon Lord by extracting Shuhu's Flesh. Unbeknownst to him, Dan Feng the body that Dan Heng took over is married to the very man he has to kill. From the moment he meets the Yingxing, things get complicated. Romance blooms between them as the cycle of death and reincarnation begins to spin.

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addicted with you

[fangzhouzi]

杜诗解读：清明二首之二

　　此身飘泊苦西东，右臂偏枯半耳聋。

　　寂寂系舟双下泪，悠悠伏枕左书空。

　　十年蹴鞠将雏远，万里秋千习俗同。

　　旅雁上云归紫塞，家人钻火用青枫。

　　秦城楼阁烟花里，汉主山河锦锈中。

　　春去春来洞庭阔，白苹愁杀白头翁。

　　《清明二首》两首诗每一首都有六联十二句，属于七言排律。律诗一般四联八句，中间两联对仗，写长了就叫做排律，不管多长除了头尾两联都要对仗，所以排律很难写。《清明二首》第一首堆砌了很多典故，一般人不知道那些典故，欣赏不了，但把那些典故解释清楚就会索然无味。所以第一首我就不说了，只解读第二首。这两首诗的关联性不强，即使不知道第一首，也不妨碍欣赏第二首。

　　这首诗的主旨是杜甫想回老家。杜甫在成都听说老家河南已经被官军收复，马上就想到回去，也就是大家在中学学过的“白日放歌须纵酒，青春作伴好还乡”（《闻官军收河南河北》）。他甚至还规划了回家的路线，那就是走水路，坐船顺流而下，“即从巴峡穿巫峡，便下襄阳向洛阳。”洛阳在河南，指代杜甫的老家。但他只是有了这个想法，并没有马上去实现，在成都又待了两年。两年之后才开始动身，买了一艘船，带着全家沿着长江顺流而下。

　　到了夔州（现在的重庆奉节），他又停下来待了一年十个月。夔州的生活对他来说相对安逸，不到两年就写了400多首诗。这是他最高产的时期，而且精品非常多，像《登高》《秋兴八首》《诸将五首》《咏怀古迹五首》《阁夜》都是他在夔州时写的。那是中国文学史上的一个奇迹，可以把它叫做“杜甫的奇迹年”。他在夔州呆了不到两年之后，大历三年正月继续带着全家坐船出了三峡，沿长江顺流而下。

　　到了江陵（湖北荆州），本该北上，“便下襄阳向洛阳”，但打听到商州一带又发生了战乱，没法再往北走了。回不了家怎么办呢？只能在江陵暂时住下来。这么一耽搁，生活就出问题了。身上没有那么多钱，又不可能去打工，只能结交地方官员，或者靠远房亲戚、以前认识的朋友接济一下，以解决生活问题，毕竟一家老小都跟着。但在这种情况下，就不可能在一个地方待很长时间，待得太久，接待的人也很烦，所以一般几个月就得换��的地方。杜甫在江陵待了几个月后，没法往北走，就沿着长江南下，到了湖北的公安。在公安待了几个月又得离开，依然沿着长江继续往前，漂��到湖南的岳阳。“昔闻洞庭水，今上岳阳楼”，第一次看到了洞庭湖，留下了一首描写洞庭湖的千古绝唱《登岳阳楼》。在岳阳待了几个月之后，还得继续往前走。这回没法顺着长江往前漂了，就往南渡过了洞庭湖，再沿着湘江逆流而上，到了潭州（湖南长沙）。这组诗就是他到长沙后，清明时节写的。

　　第二首诗一开头就在讲自己这辈子一直漂泊之苦：“此身飘泊苦西东，右臂偏枯半耳聋。”

　　他的“飘泊”跟我们现在所谓的漂泊不一样。我们现在说到哪打工、留学，也喜欢说自己在漂泊、流浪，比如“北漂”。杜甫的漂泊则是被迫的，由于战乱，只好拉家带口到处跑。即使是年轻时、身体健康，这种漂泊本来也已经够悲苦了，更何况老迈年高，一身是病。杜甫当时有什么病呢？“右臂偏枯”，他的右臂已经不能动弹，中风了；“半耳聋”，耳朵也有一半聋了（两只耳朵有一只聋了，不是半只耳朵聋了）。他在夔州写过一首《复阴》，说“夔子之国杜陵翁，牙齿半落左耳聋”，可知他的左耳朵在夔州时就已经聋了。

　　接下来的第二联继续写他的飘泊和多病：“寂寂系舟双下泪，悠悠伏枕左书空。”

　　上半联继续写漂泊。他的“飘泊”并不是比喻，是真的坐在船里到处漂。到一个地方停下时，还不可能上岸就有房子住，而是船系在岸边，人住在船里。周围没有别人，显得非常孤单，“寂寂”就是很孤单的样子，比一般的漂泊更悲苦。想到这种情况就两眼流泪，所以说“双下泪”。为什么要强调“双下泪”呢？因为上一联提到了“半耳聋”，“双下泪”跟它呼应——两个耳朵已经有一个聋了，两只眼睛虽然还好，却都在流泪。

　　下半联继续写多病。“悠悠”有几种意思，这里跟“悠悠我心”一样，是形容悲伤的样子。“伏枕”，指生病了躺在船上不能动弹，没法到处走，只能一直躺在船上。躺在船上既忧伤又无聊，只好用手在空中写字排遣，就是“书空”。但是已经“右臂偏枯”，只能用左手写，所以叫“左书空”。

　　这两联的飘泊和年迈多病在任何时候都可以写，跟诗题《清明》并不贴切，所以接下来就写清明：“十年蹴踘将雏远，万里秋千习俗同。”

　　清明时玩“蹴踘”（古代的踢足球）和荡“秋千”是一种习俗，这跟诗题《清明》贴上了。这一联不能分开理解，要串起来看，这叫“互文”。第三联的意思就是，十年来“将雏”（带着幼小的孩子），也就是拉家带口走了万里远的路，不论走到哪里，清明时节都看到人们还是在玩“蹴踘”、荡“秋千”，跟自己老家的习俗一样。十年来，每逢看到别人玩这些��西就联想到跟老家一样，表明时刻都在想念着故乡。清明的习俗有很多，为什么特地挑出“蹴踘”和“秋千”呢？这里面有隐喻。看到“蹴踘”��就想到自己这十年来像足球被人踢来踢去；看到“秋千”，就想到自己这万里飘泊像秋千荡上荡下。

　　“万里”当然是夸张的说法，杜甫在诗里面喜欢用“万里”；但“十年”并不夸张，真的是漂泊了十年。从他乾元二年在华州（陕西渭南市华州区）司功小小的官任上辞职不干、带着全家去漂泊算起：先到秦州（甘肃天水）待了一段，后在同谷（甘肃成县）几个月差点全家饿死；又到四川成都住了六年，再到夔州住了差不多两年，现在又流浪到了湖南。乾元二年是公元759年，在湖南长沙写这首诗时是大历四年，也就是公元769年，刚好十年。所以，这个“十年”没有夸张，而且也不是一个虚数，是很精确的一个数字。

　　第四联写景：“旅雁上云归紫塞，家人钻火用青枫。”

　　上半联写的是抬头往天上看到的远景。“旅雁”指从北方旅行而来的大雁。春天来了，大雁要回北方了。“紫塞”，也就是紫色的关塞。秦朝修建长城、汉朝修建关塞，都用紫色的泥土，看上去是紫色的，因此叫做“紫塞”。这里用“紫塞”指代北方。大雁回北方老家，只要飞上云天就可以走了；但人要回老家，没法像大雁一样飞回去。这是在感慨自己还不如大雁。

　　下半联写低头看到的近景，自己的家人在钻木取火。为什么要取火呢？古代清明时候要停火三天，吃三天寒食（冷饭），三天过后要重新开火，那就要取火了，“钻火”指的就是取火。取火是有讲究的，北方清明取火用榆树或柳树，而湖南那时取火用的是“青枫”。所以，上一联说的“习俗同”只是形式相同，其实并不完全一样。这里强调各地有不同的清明习俗，是要表达一个意思：毕竟身在异地，不能把异地当家乡。

　　“秦城楼阁烟花里，汉主山河锦锈中”，这一联是在想象。

　　唐人喜欢用“秦城”指长安，用“汉主”指当今天子。杜甫在想象现在的都城长安和周围的山河，春天来了，到处都是鲜花，该有多么美。这只是想象，望是望不到的，只能说是在想望。杜甫自从十年前离开长安之后，就再也没有回过长安了，但“每依北斗望京华”（《秋兴八首》），一直在想着长安，对长安念念不忘。因为长安是国家的政治中心，所以第五联把个人的不幸与国家的安危联系在一起，意义升华了：以多病之身漂泊流浪到了江湖之远，也还是念念不忘国家的安危。

　　他能不能再去长安，能不能回到老家？我们看最后一联：“春去春来洞庭阔，白苹愁杀白头翁。”

　　杜甫当时在潭州（长沙），不在洞庭湖边上，看不到洞庭湖，所以他这里写的“洞庭阔”并不是他看到的景色。为什么要写没有看见的洞庭湖呢？因为从长沙回老家要北上，就必须先渡过洞庭湖。洞庭湖非常宽阔，那时是中国的第一大湖，面积是现在洞庭湖的两倍以上，这么宽阔的湖泊就是回家的一大障���。而且湖泊一直就那么宽阔，不是春天来了，春水上涨才变阔的。春去春来一直都是一大障碍，并不是春天过去，春水退了就可以轻易渡过的。所以，“洞庭阔”代表着自己回家乡的重重障碍。

　　看到宽阔的洞庭湖，也看到了湖上有“白苹”。白苹就是浮萍，漂泊的人看到水上的浮萍就会感到一种哀愁。为什么不叫浮萍，而叫白苹呢？因为浮萍开的花是白色的。但浮萍夏天才开花，清明时还没有开花，他看到浮萍想到浮萍也叫白苹，再由“白”字想到自己已经白发苍苍，垂垂老矣，来日无多，很可能没法再渡过洞庭湖，突破重重障碍回到老家了。杜甫最终的确没能回到老家。

　　在潭州住了几个月之后，他又得离开了。他打听到青年时代结交的一个好朋友现在在衡州（现衡阳）当刺史，就想去投奔他，于是从潭州出发，沿湘江逆流而上。好不容易到了衡州，好朋友已经被调到潭州去当刺史了，所以又赶回潭州。到了潭州才知道，他的朋友就任没多久就病死了，他在潭州又没有了依靠。在潭州呆了一段时间后，潭州发生了叛乱，新任刺史被人杀了。这时的潭州很危险，杜甫又得离开。

　　他打听到一个远房亲戚在郴州当官，那更远了，在潭州南方。他想去郴州投靠亲戚，就继续出发漂泊，又乘船逆流而上。结果耒阳发大水，过不了，一家人困在舟中饿了5天。幸好耒阳县令知道了，给他送来了牛肉和酒，才没有饿死。郴州过不去，只好又回到潭州。住了一段时间后又想去岳阳，去岳阳又得过洞庭湖，他在洞庭湖上再次中风，这一次就没有恢复过来，死在了洞庭湖的船上。他在临死前写了一首很长的诗送给湖南的亲友，这首是三十六联的五言排律，是他的绝笔。在绝笔中有两句：“战血流依旧，军声动至今”（《风疾舟中伏枕书怀三十六韵奉呈湖南亲友》），至死都念念不忘战乱未休。

　　杜甫死后，他的儿子很穷，没办法把棺材送回老家。棺材暂时停放在岳阳，这一停放，就停放了40多年。他的二儿子有一个儿子，找亲朋好友资助盘缠，把爷爷的棺材护送回老家，埋在河南的首阳山。这个时候，杜甫已经死了四十多年了，终于魂归故里。

　　2024.04.05录制

　　2024.05.06整理

[anshares]

Just full body designs from my Xianxia AU aka TTEOTM!RH AU

+ arc 1 plot below the cut

ARC 1

Dan Heng is a member of one of the last surviving sects in a world razed by the Demon lord, Ren. His sect has an artifact that could end Ren’s life so Ren is in the hunt for it since it is his only weakness. While they are holding back Ren’s onslaught on their sect his seniors himeko and welt decided to use the artifact and send Dan Heng to the past to prevent the Demon lord’s destruction. A few hundred years ago Ren was a human prince who was born with Shuhu’s flesh, the original demon lord.

It lays dormant within him but due to him being cursed the people treat him with disdain and suffer abuse, the moment he was killed from it is when he rose as the demon lord to return to them what he experienced tenfold. Dan Heng's mission is to ensure that Ren won’t experience the cruelties he suffered and that he would live on normally at the same time finding a way to destroy Shuhu’s flesh in him. As his seniors were completing the ritual to send him back in time, Ren has already breached the sect and is now standing in front of DH who witnessed the slaughter of his friends, before he disappeared he vowed that he would kill Ren.

DH wakes up 700 years in the past in the body of Dan Feng, a haughty second prince of the Luofu. He suddenly discover that one, he is married to Yingxing (Ren’s name before he became the Demon lord) for half a year already. Two he is also one of the people who abused him, three Yingxing is nothing like the Demon lord Ren he saw, where was the cruel Demon lord who plunged the world into chaos. This man seems docile and why is he kneeling in the garden in the middle of winter?! (“Master Dan Feng, you are the one who ordered him to do this….”his servant reminds him) Oh great! not off to a great start, why didn’t he travel to the time before he got married to him, how is he supposed to win the trust of someone who is wary of him already. also another hurdle is that he doesn’t know how he will interact with him esp the last time he saw him he slaughtered his friends how the heck would he interact with the murderer but that was him from the future, This is now and he will make sure he would succeed in his mission with the hand that he is dealt with but first he gets him out of there and stops the “punishment” that Dan Feng gave him.

Yingxing was confused on the sudden change of attitude with Dan Feng, he was suspicious and distrustful of this “new” Dan Feng since it might be another one of his ploys and it's back to beatings again.DH also finds out that the servants disrespect him and DF does nothing about it and just lets his servants, he doesn't really care about his husband cuz he is just a hostage prince.

Yingxing is a prince from Zhuming who was sent to Luofu as hostage as part of the peace treaty between two kingdoms and was chosen to be Dan Feng’s betrothed. DH tries to be nice to him but all he get is wary glances, one time he was able to make Yingxing talk, YX tries to warn him that whatever he is planning now gotta stop as if it would change his opinion of him because at the end of the day DF would still treat him as he always does. DH asks why he thinks that and finds out what he thought of everyone of how everyone simply enjoys on hurting the weak altho he hasn’t done anything to warrant such treatment” so DH asks him if he has any grudges he just answers with its already exhausting enough to survive in this hellish place he doesn't have energy to think about anything else.

It gave DH insight on YX and how he became Demon lord in the first place, no one showed him kindness and guided him on the right path since he was only shown cruelty so he will give back cruelty so he decided to be that person the one who will guide him to the right path.

After that, their relationship changes, DH tries to do things for him like feeding him proper food, buying him proper winter clothes, and hanging out with him. YX slowly warms up to DH since even though they don't talk much his presence is comforting since he is not alone anymore. YX thought that DF is starting to care for him but all of that was dashed when he accidentally eavesdrop on DF and crown prince Yubie, DH tries to act like the haughty prince that DF is since his brother inquired on the sudden shift in attitude with YX, He thought he hated him so he tells his brother that he extended kindness since he is worried that it wouldn't be good for the kingdom if Zhuming finds out they mistreated their prince, The peace treaty is already delicate as it is. If Yubie thinks that DF cares for YX, don't because he can’t truly care for him, it’s impossible ... he never liked him from the start anyway, he hates him with every fiber of his being.

YX was disappointed and furious because all of the kindness that was shown to him by DF wasn't genuine and was all just a ploy. Most of all he was angry with himself for believing it, he should've known, people dont change that easily. He was deceived by that kindness, that DF only cares so that Luofu would be safe but in the end they still think that he is a jinx who only brings disasters. For the first time, he wanted vengeance which activated his dormant powers

YX tried to unleash his newfound powers at a royal banquet hosted by Yubie by summoning spirits, he was surprised on how DF was able to protect his brother with warding charms, he didn’t expect DF to be capable like that. DH found YX and tried to protect him with his body from the spirits that surrounded them, this left YX perplexed so he got rid of the spirits.

DH was relieved that they are both safe now and checks if YX is injured anywhere while YX internally wonders if DF hates him why would he sacrifice himself to save him? YX is prepared to trust him again since for him actions speak louder than words, so he confronts DF on why go back and save him since he saw that he was running out of the mansion. DH tells him that they are husbands am i not suppose to protect you and be with you for better or worse

YX asks if he likes him, DH reluctantly answers yes and reasons out that they have grown fond of each other since they have spent time together recently.

YX: If you like me, teach me those charms you used this way we can spend more time together

DH: why would you want to learn that?

YX: because i also want to be capable of protecting my loved one

DH is surprised that someone like him suddenly has something he wants to protect, so he agrees and makes him promise to take care of himself too because he really doesn’t want to risk his life to save him again.

They spend time in the library with DH teaching YX illusion charms, he shows him an illusion of maple forest, and a vast galaxy of stars. They became closer and fell asleep on each other till Yubie found them the next day which embarrassed DH greatly.

They also went out and spent the whole day at a festival which made YX loosen up and felt special since all of DF's attention was on him, they even played in the snow and lit up fireworks. YX was smiling at DF as he watched him light up fireworks, he starts falling for him now.

Messengers from zhuming secretly contacted yx to let him know that he needs to go back to his kingdom and take back the throne from the usurpers since his father is now bedridden but why should he when they were the ones who threw him here in the first place being a cursed prince.

Also he doesn't want to go back since DF is in luofu but the situation seems dire if the messengers started begging so YX tried to take DF with him but refused since it can be seen as DF defecting and betraying the luofu if DF goes with him so yx has kidnaps him instead.

While on the boat to zhuming, it was revealed that the messengers were in on it too and tried assassinating yx but with yx powers slaughtering them was easy and DH who managed to escape from captivity witnessed this scene.

Even after all the time they spent dh still doesn't trust yx after all it's still his mission to prevent the demon lord rising. And his current actions just proves that his real nature cant be changed as he could easily slaughter people.

DH escaped by jumping from the ship, YX also follows later even with his powers he is still human, injured and outnumbered. Once ashore, he also find yx weak from injuries and apparently poisoned too so he tries to nurse him back to health and tells him he isn't allowed to die. When he is well enough, DH leaves him near zhuming where attendants who are still on yx side found him. He returned to Zhuming, overthrew the usurpers and was crowned emperor.

DH travels all around zhuming trying to find a clue about shuhu’s flesh, DH believes he can find information about it on yx homeland. At the same time Yubie deploys an army to rescue his brother that yx kidnapped and orders they kill yx afterwards.

-ARC 1 END-

Stay tuned for Arc 2~