#呼吸breath

[marypickfords]

Difficulty Breathing (Guy, 2017)

[nj-phang-al]

2024/04/30

Mandala 曼陀羅

[moji2]

「不快指数」

なんだかイライラする。

[cinemaronin]

Breathe In, Breathe Out (2004)

深呼吸の必要 Breathe In, Breathe Out (2004)  directed by Tetsuo Shinohara

[joeohuchi]

鳩嫌いっていう人どんだけ器小さいんだよと思う I think people who say they hate pigeons are so small minded　

たまにベランダで卵を産むよ 育ててあげさせればいいじゃん、巣立ったら掃除して Sometimes they lay eggs on the balcony. Just let them raise them, then clean them up after they leave the nest.　

また矛盾を感じる一体どこだ　Where on earth do I feel this contradiction again?　

新しい感覚を得るために 間違いに向かっていく ってのはあるよ　There's something about going wrong in order to get a new feeling.

[aticketplz]

呼吸してるところも見られた

でもいつも撮れないんだよなぁ

興奮しすぎてるのかもしれないです

@鳥羽水族館

I could see them breathing, but I can't always capture it. I might be too excited....

@Toba Aquarium

[cupcakeslushie]

PART 15 呼吸 Breathe In

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I had so much fun drawing Karai! And to think I almost decided against putting her in, because I thought I had to choose between Gram-gram Karai and big sis Karai. While her look is heavily inspired by 2012 tmnt, she will act very different, and won’t exactly have the exact same storyline.

(I thought I should also specify, the green mist is the empyrean and the grey mist is Kitsune’s own magic. I’ll expand on the procedure Leo has to undergo in the next part when Kitsune talks to Shredder, but I just wanted to clarify for now, to avoid confusion!)

[moonbay1cn]

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival!

liulao animatic again

Here are the lyrics and their translation! The original song is "愿与愁" by Lin Junjie.

岁月在默数三���五六 第六天以后

Time silently counts three, four, five, six; after the sixth day

人们开始存在宇宙 黑夜和白昼

People begin to exist in the universe, night and day

呼吸第一口气的咽喉 最怕命运小偷

The throat of the first breath, most afraid of the thief of fate

坏和美好我用血肉 去感受

The bad and the beautiful, I feel with flesh and blood

问宿命是否 再多久 再持久 再永久

Ask fate if it will be how long, how enduring, how eternal

抵不了不朽

Cannot resist the ultimate immortality

恋人从挥手 到牵手 到放手 到挥手

Lovers from waving to holding hands, to letting go, to waving again

就该足够

Should be enough

对夜的长吼 我胸口 的伤口 随风陈旧

The long roar of the night, the wound in my chest, growing old with the wind

你我终会沦为尘埃漂流

You and I will eventually become drifting dust

等待花季烟雨稠

Waiting for the dense flower season rain

再化降水驻守

Then transform into rain to guard

属于你的愿与愁

Belonging to your wishes and sorrows

时间在倒数你在左右 多想踩碎沙漏

Time is counting down, you are by my side; how I wish to crush the hourglass

但能同时在同个宇宙 就不求滞留

But being in the same universe at the same time, I do not seek to stay

呼吸下一口气的预谋 终究会被没收

The conspiracy of the next breath will ultimately be confiscated

漫天风雪我陪你颤抖 我们别回头

Amidst the snowstorm, I shiver with you; let’s not look back

能爱多久 想多久 是多久 是永久

How long can love last, how long can thoughts remain, is it eternal

爱过就不朽

Love that has been experienced is immortal

那我不走 不分手 不放手 不挥手

Then I will not leave, not break up, not let go, not wave goodbye

十指紧扣

Fingers tightly intertwined

分岔路口 我伤口 贪与渴求

At the crossroads, my wound, greed, and yearning

渺小微弱像尘埃漂流

Tiny and weak like drifting dust

等待花季烟雨稠

Waiting for the dense flower season rain

再化降水驻守

Then transform into rain to guard

属于你的愿与愁

Belonging to your wishes and sorrows

分岔路口 我胸口 的伤口 贪与渴求

At the crossroads, the wound in my chest, greed, and yearning

渺小微弱像尘埃漂流

Tiny and weak like drifting dust

等待花季烟雨稠

Waiting for the dense flower season rain

再化降水驻守

Then transform into rain to guard

只为重逢的时候

Only for the time of reunion

[zhansww]

《还原》 performed by Xiao Zhan

看 呼吸着的身上最坚硬的 Look, the hardest thing on my breathing body 原来是我的壳 Turns out to be my shell 轰的一声跌落 Falling with a bang 我 抚摸着的 What I caressed 最害怕受伤的 And was most afraid of getting hurt 原来 不过心上的皱褶 Turned out to be the wrinkles of my heart 话爱反着说 Contrary to what I say about love 爱会不会就不曲折 Will love not have twists and turns 如果你看到最骄傲的 If you see the most proud 最无可救药珍贵的我 The most hopeless and precious me 请你告诉我 Please tell me 如果你找到不闪耀的 If you find the me who is not shining 垂头丧气寥寥的我 Dejected and lonely 请你还给我 Please return him to me 还给我 Return him to me 还给我 Return him to me 还给我 Return him to me

[repeat]

[jaysandravens-translations]

化けの花 (Ghost Flower) [PJSK]

JP: 化けの花

ROM: Bake No Hana

ENG: Ghost Flower

Producer: Nakiso (vocals by KAITO and 25-ji, Nightcord de)

なにその目　やっぱその目

What's with that look? That look I knew you'd give me

はじめましてじゃないね

It's not the first time I've seen it, after all

なにその目　もうやめて

What's with that look? Stop it already

可愛いだけ　なのに罪の味

Sure, it's cute - but it still tastes like sin

ずれる　ずれる　崩れる

I'm slipping, slipping and collapsing

ずれる　気が触れる

I'm slipping and losing my mind

秘密ひとつで　崩れる

With a single secret, it all falls apart

壊れる、ごめん

It's being destroyed - I'm sorry

見ないで　理解出来ないでしょう？

Don't look - it's not as if you'd understand, right?

まるで咲いてしまった　化けの花

It's as if this ghost flower has finally gone and bloomed

なにも言えない　かき消せない

I can't say anything, I can't make it disappear

どんなに醜く映る化粧　見ないで

No matter how ugly my make-up is, don't look

見ないで　理解出来ないでしょう？

Don't look - it's not as if you'd understand, right?

まるで咲いてしまった　化けの花

It's as if this ghost flower has finally gone and bloomed

つぼみにはもう戻れない

And now it can't turn back into a bud

な��その目　やっぱその目

What's with that look? That look I knew you'd give me

だったら消えて　みーんないなくなれ

If you're going to look at me that way, then just disappear - everyone should go away

いなくなれ　いなくなれ

Go away, go away

いなくなれ　そばに居て

Go away, stay by my side

見ないで　理解出来ないでしょう？

Don't look - it's not like you'd understand, right?

まるで咲いてしまった　化けの花

It's as if this ghost flower has finally gone and bloomed

なにも言えない　かき消せない

I can't say anything, I can't make it disappear

どんなに醜く映る化粧　見ないで

No matter how ugly my make-up is, don't look

未来で理解されないのなら

If it won't be understood in the future

此処でさっさと消えて　化けの花

Then this ghost flower should disappear right here, right now

生まれた罰を終わらすように

To put an end to my punishment for having been born

呼吸を止めて

I stop breathing

あーもういいや

Ah, I'm fed up with this

TRANSLATION NOTE: Although "bake no hana" is being referred to in the English Community as "Ghost Flower" because of its resemblance to "bakemono" (the word for ghost), the word "bake" on its own means "transformation" or "changing shape". Bakemono are called such because in Japanese myth they can change shape to haunt people. So "flower of transformation" is perhaps a more accurate translation.

[manjuhitorie]

wowaka - NOT OK - Lyrics

戯言たちは風任せ Jokes go whichever way the wind blows 息を呑んだ少女、夢任せ A girl with her breath taken away, she goes whichever way her dreams go 嗚呼、 Ahh, 終いにこの街の色も In the end, I would venture that the colors of this city, 誰も気付かれず変わるのでしょう Will change and nobody will take notice

振り出しまで戻れどまだ Even after going all the way back to where I started from 息を止めることはできないな I still can’t hold my breath 誰一人と視得ないのは The reason I can’t identify anyone 誰一人あたしじゃないから Is because not anyone else is I

宵闇を切る鴉と The crows that cut through the eventide afterglow and 朝に怯える声も The whimpers that come arrive dawn もう良いよ、って Enough already, I say 確かめたくて I want to be sure あの娘を探してる So for that girl do I search

その果てに観た答えを Whatever answer I may witness at the end この心にくれよ Give it to my heart それが誰かを傷つけたとしても No matter even if it may hurt someone

それでも人は続く Nevertheless life goes on 呼吸をやめるまで Until we stop breathing その声を焦がし尽すまで Until her voice burns with a passion to a crisp あの娘の夢が覚め If that girl will awake from her dreams 空が白むのなら And the sky will brighten up outside この戯言だって良いだろう Then maybe these jokes aren’t so bad

数秒で終わる世界を This world will end in just a few seconds 何処まで続けたいんだ I want it to keep going on forever 正解不正解なんて Right, wrong, all that あたしの中にしかないわ Only exist inside of me

[utapri-translations-uuuu]

MUSOU - Lyrics + Translation (夢奏-むそう-)

Please do not repost/retranslate without permission.

Kanji:

零れないで　零さないで

たっ��一瞬　だけど永遠だと信じているから

奏 Let's keep singing

つま先まで痺れさせる　歓喜に似た衝動は

(Tell me what you call it. I can see it shining through.)

全身　まばゆいほど千々に乱れ呼吸だけが耳に返る

(Tell me what you call it. Realize what it means to exist.)

Maybe

剥がれ落ちてゆく(ボクのカタチが)

不完全だとしても(一つじゃないと)

求めるだけじゃ終わらせない本物を

You know that's me

(果てない夢へ)

色も記号もない世界に増えてゆくものが

自分だけの証なんだと

(とめどないアップデート)

作り上げてきた曲たちが導(ルビ：しるべ)になり

君のもとへ Get there

涙の跡残すよりも　喜びへと輝かせる

そんな(強さいつも)

予測だけじゃ足りないもの　ためらいなく受け入れれば

(I can believe it now. I can see it shining through.)

消えない　希望への渇望

(果てない夢へ)

自分の手で生み出してゆくこの世界には

必要で不可欠なもの

(手離せはしない)

君がいるからこそ　この夢　叶えられる

突き動かす My wish

ここに立っている(それが真実)

ボクがボクであるって(それが真実)

揺るがない想いが限りなく紡ぐ夢

愛して

(果てない夢へ)

色も記号もない世界に増えてゆくものが

自分だけの証なんだと

(とめどないアップデート)

作り上げてきた曲たちが導(しるべ)になり

君のもとへ Get there

矛盾でさえも

(果てない夢へ)

美しく鮮やかに

I for you

Rōmaji:

Koborenaide kobosanaide

Tatta isshun dakedo eien da to shinjite iru kara

Kanade Let’s keep singing

Tsumasaki made shibiresaseru kanki ni nita shōdō wa

(Tell me what you call it. I can see it shining through.)

Zenshin mabayui hodo chiji ni midare kokyū dake ga mimi ni kaeru

(Tell me what you call it. Realize what it means to exist.)

Maybe

Hagare ochite yuku (boku no katachi ga)

Fukanzen da toshite mo (hitotsu janai to)

Motomeru dake ja owarasenai honmono o

You know that’s me

(Hatenai yume e)

Iro mo kigō mo nai sekai ni fuete yuku mono ga

jibun dake no akashi nanda to

(Tomedonai appudēto)

Tsukuriagete kita kyoku-tachi ga shirube ni nari

Kimi no moto e Get there

Namida no ato nokosu yori mo yorokobi e to kagayakaseru

Son'na (tsuyo-sa itsumo) yosoku dake ja tarinai mono tamerai naku ukeirereba

(I can believe it now. I can see it shining through.)

Kienai kibō e no katsubō

(Hatenai yume e)

Jibun no te de umidashite yuku kono sekai ni wa

Hitsuyō de fukaketsu na mono

(Te hanase wa shinai)

Kimi ga iru kara koso kono yume kanaerareru

Tsuki ugokasu My wish

Koko ni tatte iru (sore ga shinjitsu)

Boku ga boku dearu tte (sore ga shinjitsu)

Yuruganai omoi ga kagirinaku tsumugu yume

Aishite

(Hatenai yume e)

Iro mo kigō mo nai sekai ni fuete yuku mono ga

jibun dake no akashi nanda to

(Tomedonai appudēto)

Tsukuriagete kita kyoku-tachi ga shirube ni nari

Kimi no moto e Get there

Mujun de sae mo

(Hatenai yume e)

Utsukushiku azayaka ni

I for you

Translation:

Don’t let it spill, don’t let it overflow

It may only be a moment, but I believe it's eternal

Play it, Let's keep singing

The impulse, similar to joy, that tingles all the way down to my toes

(Tell me what you call it. I can see it shining through.)

My whole body is in a state of complete disarray to the point where I’m dizzy, and the only sound I can hear is my own breathing

(Tell me what you call it. Realize what it means to exist.)

Maybe

Even if (the form of me) that is peeling away and falling off

Is imperfect (it’s incomplete)

I won’t stop at just seeking, I want the real deal

You know that's me

(Towards a never-ending dream)

The things that keep increasing in this world without color or symbols

Are proof of myself alone

(Ceaseless updates)

The songs we’ve created become a guide

Leading me to you, Get there

Rather than leaving behind traces of tears, (always)

Let such (strength) shine into joy

If I accept without hesitation what can’t be predicted or foreseen,

(I can believe it now. I can see it shining through.)

An unquenchable thirst for hope

(Towards a never-ending dream)

In this world that I create with my own hands,

There is something essential and irreplaceable

(I won’t let go of it)

Because you're here, this dream can come true

My wish drives me forward

I’m standing here (that is the truth)

I am me (that is the truth)

A dream woven endlessly by an unwavering feeling

Love me

(Towards a never-ending dream)

The things that keep increasing in this world without color or symbols

Are proof of myself alone

(Ceaseless updates)

The songs we’ve created become a guide

Leading me to you, Get there

Even contradictions

(Towards a never-ending dream)

Are beautiful and vivid

I for you

[luqya]

Summering translation

The translation of Summering, Jin's new song with MV by Sidu!

The translation is by Rei_Rei_Suruyo on Twitter, which reposted here with permission.

「拝啓、My Dxxr」

「*Dear, My Dxxr」

*入道雲はきっと 紙に描いた落書きでした Surely, those *cumulonimbus clouds were merely scribbles on papers

嗄れた声はきっと 聞き違いの耳鳴りでした Those hoarse voice was surely just some misheard ringings

息が���まる程 目を覆いたくなる程 Until I can’t breathe anymore So much that I just want to close my eyes

全部が綺麗でした 彼れを如何と呼ぶんでしょう Everything that was so beautiful I wonder what they call them

君は You are

追想 錆びた鉄橋 人知れず足を向けました A recollection of that rusty bridge that I secretly head towards

湿気った匂いがきっと 逸れ者の逃げ場所でした Surely, that damp odor was an escape for the outcasts

薄い缶バッヂも すぐ剥がれたシールも 全部 宝物だったのです Those thin badges, and those peeled off stickers too, were all once treasures

いつしか、真面になったんだ 其れが何でか、本当に 時折、恐ろしくなるのです Before I realized, I became more proper I don’t know why it is, really Occasionally, it becomes terrifying

バイバイ、My Dxxr 如何か、汚れないでいて 真っ青な風景に 繊細な儘でいて Bye bye, my Dxxr Somehow, please don’t get dirtied In that deep blue scenery Please just remain as is

過ぎ去る夏が 息を止めた頃に 今更、後悔に耽たのです In that passing summer when I stopped to catch my breath now, I’ve gotten lost in regret

降る、夕立に 晴れ上がりが覗く 厭に澄んだ風合いと匂いのまま In that evening shower the clearing sky peeked trough with it’s awfully clearness and odor

潸然、頬を打った*群青に 気が付けど The *blue that struck my tearful face I noticed it, but

悲しい哉、忽然と 去ってしまうのです It’s sad to say, but suddenly They’re gone

*拝啓 僕はきっと 馬鹿にされるのが嫌でした *Dear, I must have hated of being made fun of

陰気な奴とずっと 虐められるのが嫌でした With that gloomy guy, always hated of being made fun of

だから、愛しくて 手に余る物全部を That’s why I love it so much all those things that I can’t have

全部 置き去りに 生きたのです By leaving it all behind I’ve managed to to live

降る、夕立に 晴れ上がりが覗く In that evening shower the clearing sky peeked trough

吸って吐いた*群青に 溺れそうな程 I breathed in that *blue so much that I felt like drowning

卑しい哉、思うのです ずっと ‘How vile’ those thoughts were always there

*怱々 *(See notes)

バイバイ、My Dxxr 如何か、忘れないでいて 真っ青な風景に 傷を遺していて Bye bye, my Dxxr Somehow, please don’t forget in that deep blue scenery leaving behind a scar

過ぎ去る夏を 何度も書き捨てて 失う決心が付いたのです In that passing summer no matter how many times I write and throw it away I’ve already made up my mind

*入道雲はきっと 僕の描いた落書きでした Surely, those *cumulonimbus clouds were merely some scribbles I did

歪んだ空もきっと 一人分の幻でした That distorted sky is surely just an illusion for that person alone

触れれば、痛む程 目を背けたくなる程 Until it hurts to touch So much that I just want to close my eyes

全部 本物に 見えたのです It seems that everything was real

Notes :

拝啓 by itself already means "dear" (used as in ‘dear sir’, or ‘to whom it may concern’) that is usually seen in the beginning of a letter

入道雲 (cumulonimbus cloud) is a big puff of cloud that you can usually see in summer and are also in most of this MV’s background

The more direct translation for 群青 is actually ultramarine

Meaning, to hurriedly or can be used to close a letter “yours sincerely"

[daily-rcp-poli]

🥀 . . tw ; mentions of suicide in the lyrics. generally darker art

notes !! ; human poli in my au . .i feel so bad

- 此処でさっさと消えて 化けの花 .

(Then this flower of transformation should disappear right here, right now.)

生まれた罰を終わらすように .

(It's finally come around, my punishment for having been born. In order to put an end to it,)

呼吸を止めて .

( I stop breathing .)

Song : Bake no Hana (Flower of detransformation)

[nyeigneous]

Garth Igneous 加什·伊格尼斯

Age：45 年龄：四十五岁

Birth: 20/05/1893 生日：一八九三年五月二十日

Height：188cm 身高：一百八十八厘米

Build：Emaciation 体型：消瘦

Sexuality：Homosexuality 性取向：同性恋

Appearance:

He has short blond hair, light blue eyes, and an aggressive pointed nose.

There is a huge scar on the right forehead. A tattoo on the inside of his left forearm but is damaged by a scar. Both forearms were covered with scars made by knife. In addition, there are countless scars on his body, some of which are left by knife, some of which are left by wolves.

金褐色短发，浅蓝色眼睛，有着一个咄咄逼人的尖鼻子。

他的右侧额头有一个巨大的伤疤。

左臂内侧有一个纹身，但是已经被疤痕破坏掉了。他的每条胳膊内侧都布满了刀子划伤后留下的疤痕。除此之外他的身上也布满了数不清的伤疤，有些是自残留下的，还有一些是被狼咬伤留下的。

Personality:

Garth is a neurotic, selfish, arrogant, and cunning man. His good family background and rich knowledge make him have the arrogance to master everything, so once the development of things is not expected, he will lose his temper like a child.

加什是个神经质，自私，傲慢又狡猾的人。

他的良好的出身和丰富的知识储备让他有着一种对一切都尽在掌握的傲慢，所以一旦事情的发展不在他的意料之中，便会像孩子一样发脾气。

His mind is not complicated, but it is this straightforward way of thinking that makes it easier for him to do impulsive and reckless things.

他的心思并不复杂，反而正是这种单刀直入的思维方式让他更容易做出冲动和不计后果的事情。

He often overreacts to others.

他经常对别人的言行反应过激。

Because of bipolar disorder, almost all his shortcomings are magnified, making him a completely uncontrollable madman.

在患上躁郁症之后，他所有的缺点几乎都被放大了，令他变成了一个完全不可控的疯子。

Weapons and skills:

Shotgun, hunting knife, poison bait; Good at tracking, anti-reconnaissance, setting traps, and piss his partner off.

双管霰弹枪，猎刀，毒饵；

擅长追踪，反侦察，设置陷阱，还有惹毛自己的同伴。

重要的人：安德烈·别列科夫

宝贵之物：浪琴狩猎者腕表（安德烈送给他的）

恐惧之物：极光；骑马

Important people: Andre Berekov Precious things: Longines hunter's watch (Andre gave it to him)

Fear: aurora; riding

Other：

吸烟很多；Smoking a lot;

情绪激动时会过度呼吸；Excessive breathing when excited;

酒量很差；Poor drinking capacity;

画画很好；Good at painting;

写日记；Keeping a diary;

喜欢用口哨吹肖邦的降E大调夜曲九号第二首；He likes to whistle Chopin nocturnes op.9. no2;

小时候被父母逼迫学过钢琴，虽然很痛恨钢琴，但是弹得不错；When he was a child, he was forced by my parents to learn the piano. Although he hates the piano, he plays it well

人物历史History:

北方口音Northern accent

加什的父母是是来自伯明翰的地质学家和生物学家，他们是典型的守旧并且固执的知识分子。 受到父母的影响，加什有着丰富的博物学知识，以及英格兰北方口音。 

Garth's parents are geologists and biologists from Birmingham, UK, they are typically old-fashioned and stubborn intellectuals. Influenced by his parents, Garth has rich natural knowledge and a northern English accent.

在1900年左右淘金热时期，伊格尼斯夫妻带着18岁的大儿子赫尔，16岁的女儿利兹和10岁的加什来到阿拉斯加进行调研。与他们同行的还有26岁的詹森·斯坦福斯，作为孩子们的家庭教师。年幼的加什正是需要父母的时候，但是夫妻俩的工作非常繁忙，便将照顾加什和教他读书写字的任务全权交给了詹森。

During the gold rush around 1900, Mr. Igneous and his wife come to Alaska with their 18-year-old son Hull, 16-year-old daughter Liz and 10-year-old Garth for research. Along with them is Jason Stamford, 26, a tutor for the children. The young Garth is in need of his parents, but the couple's work is very busy, they entrust Jason with the task of taking care of Garth and teaching him to read and write.

温柔的人 A mild person

詹森是一个才华横溢的年轻人，本职专业是古生物学，曾经是加什父亲的学生。他性格随和有耐心，但是因为患过小儿麻痹症，他的左腿肌肉萎缩，只能靠手杖行走，同时还有各种并发症，导致他虚弱而瘦小。但是这并没有影响他的温柔和对生活的热爱。这些美好的品德同时也深深地影响了加什。

Jason is a talented young man with a major in paleontology. He was once a student of Garth's father. Because of polio, his left leg muscles atrophy and he can only walk with a walking stick. Various complications lead to his weakness and emaciation. But this does not kill his tenderness and love of life. These beautiful virtues also deeply influenced Garth.

加什小时候体弱多病，不喜欢户外活动，因此除了上课，他也有大量的时间跟詹森相处，两人像手足和父子一样促膝长谈，读书，学习钢琴，亲密关系与日俱增。在加什18岁那年，他大胆向詹森袒露了自己炙热而迷茫的倾慕之情。詹森也很喜欢这个好学而热情的男孩，但是职业道德让他拒绝了男孩。因为詹森也是一名同性恋，他没有指责加什非同常人的性取向，而是鼓励他勇敢做自己，不要违背自己的意愿。

As a sickly child, Garth does not like the outdoors, so he spends a lot of time with Jason in addition to attending classes. The two talk like father and son, read books and learn the piano, and their bond grows.

When Garth turns 18, he boldly confesses his hot, confused admiration to Jason. Jason also likes the studious and enthusiastic boy, but the work ethic makes him turn him down. Jason, who is also gay, does not criticize Garth's unusual sexuality, but encourages him to be himself and not go against his will.

但是这些事都被加什的父母看在眼里，他们辞退了詹森。加什与父母大吵了一架。

But Garth's parents see all this, and they fire Jason. Garth has a big fight with his parents.

詹森回到曼彻斯特的老家之后身体状况堪忧，但是一直跟加什保持着密切的书信来往，给年轻人的困扰和疑惑以中肯而温柔的建议。三年后，加什22岁那年，詹森怀着遗憾离世。

Jason returns home to Manchester in poor health, but keeps up a close correspondence with Garth, offering gentle advice on the young man's troubles and doubts. Jensen died three years later, when Garth is 22.

逃婚 To escape a marriage

1919年，加什25岁，关于自己的职业和专业规划问题，他跟父母进行了一场非常激烈的争吵。他的父母已经详细地为他安排了工作和婚事，要求他迎娶当地投资商的女儿，以获得学术上的经济支持。但是加什冲动地向父母表明了自己的性取向以及对自由的渴望。他的父母非常生气，认为是詹森给自己儿子灌输了不好的想法。一怒之下加什收拾行李离家出走。

In 1919, when Garth is 25 years old, he has a very heated argument with his parents about his professional planning. His parents have arranged work and marriage for him in detail and ask him to marry the daughter of a local investor in order to obtain academic financial support. Garth impulsively tells them his sexual orientation and desire for freedom. His parents are very angry, abuse Jason for instilling bad illusion into his son. In a rage, Garth packs up and leaves home.

在这件事前半年左右，加什的父母认识了来自美国南部的安德森·黑斯廷斯（27岁），这位英俊而富裕的年轻人正在为自己的事业寻找地质学以及生物学领域的专家的协助，他衣着华丽，谈吐得体，很快就得到了加什全家人的认可。两个年轻人就此相识了，并且私交甚密。

Half of year ago, Garth's parents meet Anderson Hastings (27) from the south of the US. This handsome and wealthy young man is looking for the assistance of experts in geology and biology for his career. He is gorgeous in clothes and spokes appropriately and is soon recognized by the Ignoneus family. The two young people meet and become intimate.

加什离家出走之后理所当然的去投奔了安德森，他很快就带着加什踏上了去往苏联出差的游轮。两人开始热恋。

Garth runs away from home and goes to Anderson. Anderson soon takes Garth on a cruise ship to the Soviet Union for a business trip.

安德森对于自己性取向从不隐藏，并且向外人介绍Garth为自己的男友。这些行为令Garth感到安全，他以为这是安德森认真对待自己的表现。但是Garth没想到的是，自己只是安德森炫耀的资本。

Anderson never hides his sexual orientation and introduces Garth as his boyfriend which makes Garth feel safe. But what Garth doesn't expect is that Anderson just takes him as a property could show off.

另外，安德森还是一个非常有控制欲的情场老手，他认为爱情只是交易，他提供奢华的生活条件，而男孩们只要听他的安排就好。他认为Garth寻找精神伴侣的想法非常无聊且没有意义。

In addition, Anderson is a control freak playboy. He believes that love is only a trade. He provides his boyfriends with luxurious living conditions, and the only thing the boys need to do is following his arrangement. He thinks that Garth's idea of finding a spiritual partner is very boring and meaningless.

白月光Bright moonlight

在那个年代，通过学术研究项目来洗钱的现象逐渐在有钱人的圈内流行起来。而安德森带着Garth去见的人，大部分也是这类执绔子弟。游轮上的日子花天酒地且奢靡混乱，Garth对这种气氛感到无助且厌恶，安德烈·别列科夫（23岁）也就是在这段时间内出现在他面前的。

In that time, the phenomenon of money-laundering through academic research projects becoming popular among the rich. Most of the people Anderson takes Garth to see are such dandies. The days on the cruise ship are extravagant and chaotic. Garth feels helpless and disgusted at the atmosphere. Andrei Berekov (23) appears during this time.

安德烈是那群苏联学者团里最安静的一个，大家都在喝酒应酬的时候他会找个安静的角落独自写写画画。相识之后Garth很快发现安德烈像自己一样也是对这场所谓学术旅行抱有错误的期待的人，并且，他在植物学上的知识令Garth震惊（虽然安德烈的口音给两人的沟通带来了不小的困难）。

Andrei is the quietest member of the group of Soviet scholars. While everyone drinks and socialize, he would sit in a quiet corner and write alone. Garth finds out that Andre, like himself, is also the one who has false expectations for this so-called academic trip. Moreover, Garth is shocked by his knowledge of botany (although Andre's accent makes it difficult for them to communicate).

跟安德森完全相反的是，温文尔雅的安德烈总能看到Garth灵魂上的闪光点，他尊重他的每一个灵感和观念，并将其演变成一场场友好而意义非凡的学术讨论。这几乎就是Garth一直在追求的关系状态。

Contrary to Anderson, the gentle Andre can always see the flash in Garth's soul. He respects every inspiration and idea of Garth and can turn every chat into a friendly and meaningful academic discussion. This is the kind of relationship state that Garth has been pursuing.

与此同时，Garth与安德森的关系在逐渐瓦解。安德森自顾自地将Garth引荐给学术圈名人，用钱打通渠道让Garth发布未完成的论文，擅自为他安排好了一切，Garth只要做一个不用思考的精致男孩去谄媚安德森就可以。这所有的一切都违背了Garth的原则。一次次的争吵并没有让他们互相理解，最终两人分手。

At the same time, the relationship between Garth and Anderson is disintegrating. Anderson arranges cocktail party bender to introduce Garth to celebrities in the academic circle. He buys ways for Garth to publish his unfinished paper and plans everything for him without authorization. The only thing Garth needs to do is being a good boy to flatter Anderson. All this violates Garth's principles. They row again and again and break up.

这之后安德烈正式开始追求Garth，将他介绍给自己的家人，并且在白俄罗斯的老家一起生活了一段时间。后来，两人决定前往爱丁堡大学进修植物分类学。

Then Andre and Garth fall in love. He introduces Garth to his family and live together in his hometown in Belarus for some time. Later, the two decide to go to the University of Edinburgh for master's degree in plant taxonomy.

一年半之后，两人研究生毕业，安德烈在毕业典礼上向Garth求婚。两人偷偷交换了戒指之后，踏上了前往北极圈的旅行。

A year and a half later, they graduate. Andre proposes to Garth at the graduation ceremony. After secretly exchanging rings, the two men embark on a trip to the Arctic Circle.

极光中的骑行 Riding under the aurora

婚后三年，两人旅行来到了加拿大育空地区，与另外一伙皮草猎人小队起了争执，被对方发现了恋人关系之后，遭到了恶意的报复。安德烈被殴打致死，割下生殖器之后尸体被悬挂在树上，并在脖子上挂着“我是鸡奸者”的牌子示众。加什则被监禁起来，被迫在极夜的漫天极光中看着恋人的尸体一天天被乌鸦啃食殆尽。几天后他凭借最后一口气逃了出去，骑马朝着南方一路狂奔，最终得救。

In 1923, the two men come to Yukon, Canada, and have a dispute with another group of fur hunters and they are maliciously retaliated. Andre is beaten to death. After being cut off his genitals, his body is hung in a tree and displayed with an "I'm a sodomite" sign around his neck. Garth is imprisoned and forced to watch his lover's body being eaten by crows in the aurora of the polar night. A few days later, with his last breath, he escapes, rides all the way south, and is finally saved.

育空疯狗The mad dog of Yukon

这段噩梦般的经历对他的打击非常之大，残酷的折磨也给他的右侧头皮部分留下了丑陋的巨大伤疤。他患上严重的躁郁症，自残，并且有自杀倾向。他曾经非常温和并且幽默，现在变成了一个臭名昭著的人，并且得到了一个育空疯狗的绰号。

This nightmare experience is a great blow to him, and the cruel torture leaves a huge ugly scar on his right scalp and countless scars on his body. He suffers from serious bipolar disorder, self-mutilation, and suicidal tendencies. He used to be a very gentle and humorous man, but now he has become an infamous one and gets the nickname of Yukon mad dog.

有传闻说，失去理智的加什找到了当年折磨他的狩猎小队并且用极其残忍的手法报复了他们，但是因为精神问题，警察让他只在监狱里待了很短的时间，他便重获自由。但是这也只是传闻而已。没人知道加什到底做了什么。人们只是再也没有在育空地区见到过那些人。

It is rumored that Garth finds the hunting team that hurt him years ago and retaliated against them with extremely cruel methods, but, the police let him stay in prison for only a short time because of his mental problems.

 It's just a rumor. No one knows what Garth does to them. People just never see those people again in the Yukon.

危险游戏 Dangerous game

尽管加什的精神问题非常严重，行为也非常不可控，但是不可争议的是他是这一带地区最杰出的猎狼专家。1932年，他被邀请加入一支狩猎小队，他们计划南下去狩猎大型毛皮猎物。

Although Garth's mental problems are very serious and his behavior is very uncontrollable, it is indisputable that he is the most outstanding wolf hunting expert in this area. In 1932, he is invited to join a hunting team. They plan to go south to hunt large prey for fur.

初冬季节，加什遇到了身为守林员的哈特。哈特毫无怜悯的攻击将小队逼出了林区，同时，这个阴沉而凶悍的护林员吸引了加什的注意。他觉得，能杀死他，抑或被他杀死都是不错的事情。

In early winter, Garth meets Hart, a forest ranger. Hart's merciless attack drives the team out of the forest, while the gloomy and fierce ranger attracts Garth's attention. He thinks it is all good to kill him or be killed by him.

加什很快发现，尽管这个护林员的攻击非常凶猛并且极具威胁性，但是他似乎并不是真正想要他们的命。加什离开了队伍，独自回到木屋附近，开始用主动攻击的方式试探哈特的耐心的底线。哈特几乎是马上回应了他的攻击。然而像加什想的一样，哈特并不打算杀掉他——每一次射击都擦着他的脸颊飞了过去，只有几厘米的距离。

Garth soon finds that although the ranger's attack is fierce and threatening, he doesn't seem to really want to kill them. Garth leaves the team, returns to the cabin alone, and begins to test Hart's patience by taking the initiative to attack. Hart responds to his attack almost immediately.

As Garth thought, Hart does not intend to kill him - each shot wipes his cheek and flies over, only a few centimeters away.

加什几乎一下子就沉迷在了这场危险的游戏当中。哈特的反应让他十分满意——他的反击不会真正的对自己构成威胁，其中的威胁性又能让他兴奋起来。尽管他自己也清楚，这种病态的情绪源于当年他面对死亡时在心里留下对的心理阴影，这让他恐惧，狂躁，想哭又想笑，但是却是唯一能让自己感觉到活着的时刻。

Garth almost immediately indulges in this dangerous game.

Hart's reaction satisfies him - his counterattack would not only really pose a threat to himself, but also could excite Garth. Although Garth himself knows that this morbid emotion originates from the psychological shadow leaves in his heart when he faces death, which makes him afraid, manic, want to cry, want to laugh, it is the only time that he could feel alive.

怪人组合Freak couple

然而这场荒诞而危险的对决并不是以某一方的死亡为结局。在一个初雪天，哈特把加什逼到了绝路，但是他没有扣动扳机，只是问他为什么这么做。加什又哭又笑，说自己想死。哈特转身离开了。

However, this absurd and dangerous duel does not end with the death of one party. On a snowy day, Hart forces Garth to a dead end, but he doesn't pull the trigger, just askes him why he does it. Garth cries and laughs, says he wants to die.

Hart turns and leaves.

加什想不通为什么哈特有那么多次机会杀死他却没有下手。仇恨和恐惧在他的心里已经燃烧了太久，将他内心世界的草原烧得一片焦黑。然而从那天起，他能感觉到，一束光穿过黑烟照了进来��有什么东西在重新慢慢地萌芽。

Garth couldn't figure out why Hart has so many chances to kill him but doesn't do it. Hatred and fear have been burning in his heart for too long, burning the grassland of his inner world to black. However, from that day on, he could feel that a beam of light comes in through the black smoke, and something is slowly sprouting again.

重新建立信任的过程非常漫长。但是他们并没有什么细致的沟通和交流，对那场莫名其妙的枪战也只字不提。两个怪人只是共享一堆篝火，简单地说两句话，然后便自然而然的一起行动了。加什知道自然界也有不少很奇怪的搭档，比方说渡鸦和豺，蜜鸟和蜜獾。有的搭档甚至能终生在一起行动，即使一方死亡，另一方也不会再找新的搭档。也许他俩也是这样的动物吧。

The process of rebuilding trust is very long.

They do not have any detailed communication and exchange and do not mention the inexplicable gun battle. The two freaks just share a bonfire, say a few words, and then naturally act together.

Garth knows that nature also has many strange partners, such as raven and jackal, Greater Honeyguide and honey badger. Some partners can even act together all their lives. Even if one party dies, the other will not find a new one. Maybe they are such animals, too.