#ヒヨコ

[keitonoe]

[mzmzi]

🐓🐤🐥🐣🥚

[rapurasunohako]

イースターうさぎとヒヨコを描きました_φ(･_･

[akanekoume]

私Akanekoumeが、オリジナルイラストの「兎とひよこのブランケット」を作成、ネットショップで発売しました。

[cursedappendage]

Slay the Princess Narrator, Princess, Voices in Japanese

<<Vessel Names Part 1(Chapter I & II + Razor III & IV) <<Vessel Names Part 2(Chapter IIIs) Part 4(TLQ, TSM, Echo)>>

VOICES TIME BABY

Actually, I'm gonna go in chronological order of character mentions. So, we will start with:

The Narrator ナレーター(Nareetaa) [Narrator]

Simple and direct. There is a word for "narrator" that is of Japanese origin(語り手 lit. "Story hand" meaning narrator/storyteller), but the English word is the one more widely used. He also says "I" using the first-person pronoun 私(watashi), I'm assuming to indicate his "formal" attitude as, although men can use it, it's usually only in formal situations/you don't know someone well. He is of course referred to in third person with the kanji 彼(kare) meaning "he" or "him", but some voices like Contrarian and Smitten use katakana for him instead of kanji(カレ) for some different type of emphasis, I'm assuming.

Now in the Narrator's first lines, he tells you that there is a

Princess(or "The Princess" sometimes) プリンセス(Purinsesu) [Princess]

Like I mentioned in the "Princess and the Dragon" portion of last post, the Princess always referred to with the English word "Princess" rather than the Japanese word for princess.(She's also very often referred to with the pronoun 彼女(kanojo) meaning "she", of course). She tends to use the first person pronoun わたし(watashi), like the Narrator, although in her case it's written simply in hiragana, I assume to show less formality and more just how she refers to herself. 私/わたし is also used by women casually, in contrast to what I said in the Narrator section. She also tends to use あなた(anata, "you") for her 2nd person pronoun(formal/regular way to say "you").

The 1st and 2nd person pronouns the Princess uses also tends to change with each chapter:

The Spectre, Stranger(Chapter II), Damsel, Wild, Grey - 1st わたし(watashi, わたしたちwatashi-tachi when Stranger Princesses merge)・2nd あなた(anata)

Base Princess(Chapter I & Heart of TSM)*, The Nightmare, Moment of Clarity, Razor, Prisoner, Cage, Princess and the Dragon, Happily Ever After, Stranger(Heart of the Shifting Mound)- 1st 私(watashi, 私たちwatashi-tachi for Stranger)・2nd あなた

The Adversary, Eye of the Needle, Fury, Wraith - 1st 私・2nd お前(omae, can be seen as rude or more colloquial, for someone of equal/lower rank)

The Tower, Apotheosis- 1st 我(ware, not really actually used in real life, but gives a sense of profound, old, important-ness, typically used by king/god/godlike characters)・2nd お前(omae, though she also calls us 小鳥kotori "little bird")

The Beast - 1st アタシ(atashi, feminine, more casual form of watashi)・2nd オマエ(omae, she also calls us ヒヨコhiyoko "fledgling", all three of these words are written in katakana)

The Witch - 1st あたし(atashi)・2nd あんた(anta, colloquial/familiar form of anata, often considered rude, sometimes spiteful)

The Thorn - 1st あたし・2nd あなた(omg she uses the same 1st as the Witch but switches from "anta" back to "anata" omg y'all I'm cryingggg😭😭)

*Chapter I Princess tends to switch from あなた to お前 when antagonized(pre Tower, Adversary, Beast, Witch)

OK SORRY I KNOW THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE VOICES IM SO SORRY

Now let's start with the homie, the one who's always got your back

The Voice of the Hero 勇者の声(Yuusha no Koe) [Voice of the Hero]

Simple enough. Something to note is that there are two words for "hero" in Japanese, 英雄(eiyuu) and 勇者(yuusha). 英雄(eiyuu) is what you call a great person, someone respected for accomplishing something and leaving great impact on society. 勇者(yuusha) is moreso a brave person sent on a quest of adventure to defeat evil/protect others. The former emphasizes the impact and admiration of their achievements, while the latter emphasizes courage and bravery. Someone said something like "勇者 is someone on a journey to slay a dragon, 英雄 is someone who had already come back home from slaying a dragon". In the context of the Voice of the Hero, rather than someone with emphasis on the change he's made in the world, the emphasis is on his morals and good-intentioned actions. He uses ボク(boku) as his 1st person pronoun, which gives him a little bit of a "good boy" typa feel. Or at least some politeness. It's also noted that he uses katakana for boku instead of the kanji 僕(boku)(which, the Long Quiet himself actually uses out loud).

I'm doing the voices in the same order as their respective Chapter II Princesses in the first post(based off the "Memories" menu)

The Voice of the Stubborn 頑固者の声(Gankomono no Koe) [Voice of the Stubborn]

Yeah okay, this one's the same. 頑固者(Gankomono) means "stubborn person". He uses 俺(ore) as his 1st person pronoun, a very masculine pronoun, can be seen as rude in a formal setting, but is very typical and normal for casual men speech.

The Voice of the Broken 負け犬の声(Makeinu no Koe) [Voice of the Loser]

Now this one's insulting. 負け犬 (makeinu) means loser, failure, you get the picture. Made up of the words 負ける(makeru, to lose/to be defeated) and 犬(inu, dog). But it's very fitting I must say(Broken would totally bark for the Tower 100%). He uses the 1st person pronoun 僕(boku).

The Voice of the Cold 冷血漢の声(Reiketsukan no Koe) [Voice of the Cold-Blooded]

冷血漢(reiketsukan) mean "cold-blooded person" or "coldhearted person", or simply "heartless". 冷(rei) meaning cold and 血(chi) meaning blood. Same meaning as in English, someone who can kill a Princess with no hesitation. Like Stubborn, he uses 俺(ore). (He also tends to use quite blunt/rude ways to refer to the princess)

The Voice of the Paranoid 妄想狂の声(Mousoukyou no Koe) [Voice of the Delusional]

妄想(mousou) means delusion, while 狂(kyou) refers to lunatic, or insanity or mental abnormality. Now, delusional isn't exactly the same as paranoid, but the Paranoid can come off as delusional sometimes. Of course, anything we believe in the construct becomes real, so the Nightmare route is full of our real delusions. He is the intrusive thoughts part of our brain that manifests into reality. And in other routes, the Paranoid can come off as a bit insane(the Cage and Apotheosis especially make him seem more erratic). He also uses 俺(ore).

The Voice of the Cheated 野放図の声(Nohouzu no Koe) [Voice of the Unruly]

野放図(nohouzu) can mean wild, arrogant, unruly, but it can also mean unchecked, uncontrolled, unregulated. I put unruly as I thought it fits a title better, but in my head I think more like "unhinged". And I guess that kinda does fit the Cheated's personality, his main objective in the Razor is to win against her, and he's basically like "let's keep getting stabbed until there are enough of us to be better than her", definitely not sound of mind(he also has that comment when you take the blade of "let's make her hurt for what she's done to us"). He very much let's his emotions take the better of him, usually hating on the Princess and the bullshit of everything or spiting the Narrator. He's also, again, very unhinged(mentioning dropping the Cage's head and he says "I mean... we could...") His pronoun is also 俺(ore).

The Voice of the Hunted 獲物の声(Emono no Koe) [Voice of the Prey]

This one I don't have much to say, as it's pretty obvious why he's named that way. And it's pretty much the same as the English name. Like the Hero, he uses the pronoun ボク(boku), I think it's in katakana to mirror the Beast's pronouns.(He refers to her with kanji in 彼女(kanojo) but he does refer to her with katakana in アイツ(aitsu, something akin to "that guy" or "that person", when he say's "She's coming(アイツがくる！)")

The Voice of the Opportunist お調子者の声(Ochoushimono no Koe) [Voice of the Easily Elated]

お調子者(ochoushimono) refers to someone who get carried away easily, someone who does whatever they feel/want, someone who gets easily elated from praise and flattery. I think this is both a funny and accurate translation of the Opportunist. We know he definitely gets carried away easily. He says that second line in the game even(freeing the Thorn: "I can do whatever I want, and I believe with with my whole heart...").I can't really think of instances of him getting praised off the top of my head but he does seem to think it will work on other people. He very much goes with the mood, attempting to curry favor so he can make sudden rash decisions out of nowhere. He uses 僕(boku) which I think fits his suck up personality.

The Voice of the Contrarian あまのじゃくの声(Amanojaku no Koe) [Voice of the Contrarian]

Direct and simple translation again. あまのじゃく(amanojaku) refers to someone with a perverse personality, or someone who opposes other's opinions. Interestingly, あまのじゃく can also refer to an actual small demon in Japanese folklore. I just thought it reminded me of that one line from him "Time to get back to our old devilish ways". He also uses 俺(ore).

The Voice of the Skeptic 疑心暗鬼の声(Gishin'anki no Koe) [Voice of the Skeptic]

疑心暗鬼(gishin'anki) is an expression/abbreviation, it means something like "suspicion creates monsters from shadows", it's about how suspecting something can lead you to suspecting everything, and doubt and suspicion makes you jump at shadows. I think this makes some sense, as his hyper-focused perception of things makes him question everything around him. He notices small details that grow into things bigger and more important than they were before. Also 俺(ore).

The Voice of the Smitten 騎士の声(Kishi no Koe) [Voice of the Knight]

This one I find really funny. 騎士(kishi) refers to the medieval type of knight, known for their chivalry and honor, like ones in armor and usually on horseback(騎(ki) relating to horses). I think it makes perfect sense in the context of the Damsel, a knight come to rescue his beloved Princess, to free her from the confines of the cabin. I also think it works in the Thorn for similar reasons. But I think in most other routes it's hilariously out of context, like "damn, this knight guy kinda freaky calling this blade Princess gorgeous/calling this Princess with a dress of her own skin gorgeous" Like the Tower, he uses 我(ware) giving him that old medieval feel, and he addresses the Narrator with 貴君(kikun), meaning "you" used by men in letters addressing their equals/lowers, and he addresses the Princess with 貴女(can be pronounced anata or kijo), polite language used to refer to women in letters. I was planning on this being the last post but I dont think I can fit it all here sorryyyyyyy rest of the stuff will be next post

Edit: added pronouns of voices

<<Vessel Names Part 1(Chapter I & II + Razor III & IV) <<Vessel Names Part 2(Chapter IIIs) Part 4(TLQ, TSM, Echo)>>

[narihira8]

ヒヨコちゃんマンホール

[nao-san-no-kagoshima-love]

刺身の盛り合わせがすごい👍

いつか一人でゴジラ盛りを食べてみたい

ちなみに、ヒヨコ盛りはある

@特攻チキン野郎

[travoltacustom-translates]

Decisive Battle: Easter in the Mysterious Forest - Ran Haitani | 決戦！不思議な森のイースター ～灰谷 蘭 編～

Want to read along, but don’t have the game? Here’s a link to the event recorded!:

Event Period: 10 of April - 24 of April 2023

FEATURED CHARACTERS

Featured cards: Ran Haitani / Takemichi Hanagaki

Event box: Rindou Haitani

Event pass: Atsushi Sendo

CLICK READ MORE TO VIEW THE EVENT STORY

STORY TRANSLATION

BEFORE BATTLE (BEGINNER)

AKKUN

タケミチ！起きろ！！タケミチ！！！

Takemichi! Wake up!! Takemichi!!!

TAKEMICHI

ん～？アっくん・・・？

なんでアっくんが家にいるんだよ？

Mm~? Akkun…?

Why are you in my house?

AKKUN

なんでって・・・今日はマコトたちと遊び行く約束してただろ

Why?... Cause you said you’d hang out with all of us today.

TAKEMICHI

あ、そっか。今日5人で遊びに行くんだったな。それで迎えに来てくれたの？

ていうかオマエ。その格好はねぇよ！なんだよそのファンシーな格好？

Ah, I see. The five of us were gonna hang out today, huh? That’s why you came to pick me up?

Wait, what’s with you? What’s with the get up? Why are you wearing something that fancy?

AKKUN

それを言うならオマエもだけどな

You say that, but you’re all dressed up as well.

TAKEMICHI

え？なんだこりゃ！！！

Eh? What the hell is this?!!!

AKKUN

オマエん家でもないしな

This isn’t even your house either.

TAKEMICHI

ほんとだ！？どこココ！？森！？何これ！？花に顔があるんだけど！？

YOU’RE RIGHT! WHERE IS THIS!? A forest!? What the hell!? There’s faces on the flowers!?

AKKUN

パニックすぎだろ。ちょっと落ち着けって

You’re panicking way too much. Calm down a little.

TAKEMICHI

帰り道とか・・・

Where’s the way home?…

AKKUN

分かるわけねぇだろ

How the hell would I know that?

TAKEMICHI

だよなー

You’re right.

RAN

迷えるヒヨコちゃん発見～。いや、ウサギちゃんか？

Seems we’ve found some lost littel chicks. Or rather, some bunnies?

RINDO

帰り道を探してるなら。オレら灰谷兄弟にお任せあれ？

If you’re looking for the way home, why don’t you leave it to us Haitani brothers?

TAKEMICHI

六��木の灰谷兄弟！？

Roppongi’s Haitani brothers!?

RINDO

六本木？何言ってんだ？

Roppongi? What are you talking about?

RAN

どうでもいいけど、お二人さん、帰り道知りたいんじゃねぇの？

Never mind that. Anyways, the both of you really want to know the way home, don’t you?

TAKEMICHI

知りたい！！！

We do!!!

AKKUN

オマエら知ってるのか！？

You guys know how!?

RINDO

知っていると言えば知ってるし、知らないと言えば知らない

If we say we know, then we know. And if we say we don’t know, then we don’t know.

AKKUN

はぁ？

Huh?

RAN

オレに勝てたらお前らが欲しい答えを教えてやるよ

If you beat us,  then we’ll tell you the answers you seek.

TAKEMICHI

なんかよく分からねぇけど、灰谷蘭に勝たなきゃならねぇってことか・・・！

I don’t know what’s up with this, but I guess we’re gonna have to beat Ran Haitani…!

AKKUN

他に手がかりはねぇ しやるしかねぇな！

We don’t have any other leads, so we’ve just gotta do it!

TAKEMICHI

おう！

Yeah!

RINDO

はは！コイツら兄貴に勝つつもりだぜ

Haha! You guys are gonna try and beat my brother?

RAN

楽しませてもらおうじゃねぇーか

Let’s have some fun then!

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POST BATTLE (BEGINNER)

TAKEMICHI

なんとか勝てたのか・・・！？

We beat him…!?

AKKUN

帰り道、教えてくれるんだよな

You’re gonna tell us the way home now then, aren’t ya?

RINDO

あぁ、もちろん

Yeah, of course we will.

RAN

この道をまーっすぐ進むと大きな木の下に穴がある

Straight down the path, there will be a hole right under a huge tree.

RINDO

そこに飛び込めばお目当ての場所にたどり着けるぜ

Just jump down the hole and you’ll be on your way.

TAKEMICHI

穴に飛び込む・・・？

Jump down a hole…?

RAN

ほら、早く帰りたいんならさっさと行けよ入口が塞がる前に

Come on now. If you want to leave that bad, get a move on before that entrance gets sealed up.

TAKEMICHI

なんか怪しけど、とりあえず、行ってみるか

Something’s pretty weird about this, but let’s just head off for now.

AKKUN

そうだな

Yeah.

・・・

TAKEMICHI

本当にあった！大きな木の下に��きな穴！

It’s really here! There’s a huge hole under this huge tree!

AKKUN

相当深そうな穴だけど、大丈夫かこれ・・・

This hole looks pretty deep. Is this really okay…?

TAKEMICHI

うっし！行くぞアっくん！

Right! Let’s go, Akkun!

AKKUN

はぁ！？マジで飛び込むのかよ！

WHAT!? You’re seriously just gonna jump in?

TAKEMICHI

これしか手掛からないんだからさ!　ほら、行くぞ！

It’s all we can really do! Come on, let’s go!

AKKUN

うわっ！��すなよおおおおおお！！！

Uwa! DON’T PUSH MEEEEEE!!!

[ They tumble down the rabbit hole, AND THUD! They end up meeting… ]

RAN

よぉー　おかえり♡

Hiya, welcome back♡

AKKUN

はぁ！？

HUH!?

TAKEMICHI

え！？オレら戻ってきたの？

Eh!? We’re back here?

AKKUN

オマエらやっぱり適当なこと言ってたのか

I knew you guys were saying something weird!

RINDO

オレら噓は言ってねぇーぜ？

Well, we didn’t lie, did we?

RAN

とりあえず、再開を祝して茶会（パーティー）を始めようか

ちょっとだけ本気をだしてやるかさ

Let’s have a tea party to celebrate this occasion

Now then, time for me to get a little serious.

_ _ _ _ _

POST BATTLE (INTERMEDIATE)

RAN

ふーん。オマエらなかなかやるじゃん

Hmm. You guys are pretty good.

RINDO

帰り道はあっちかな？

Is the way home over that way?

RAN

いやいや、そっちかもよ？

No, no. Well, maybe it’s over that way?

AKKUN

もうオマエらの言葉は信じねぇよ

I can’t believe a word you’re saying anymore.

TAKEMICHI

自力で帰り道を見つけるしかねぇ！

We’re just gonna have to find a way home by ourselves!

AKKUN

まずはあっちな方探ってみようぜ

Let’s head over that way.

TAKEMICHI

あぁ、そうしよう

来た道は分かるようにこの辺に落ちてた卵を道しるべに置いていくか

Yeah, let’s do that.

I’ll leave some eggs along the way to signpost things so we can find our way back.

・・・

RINDO

よぉーまた来たのかよ

Yo. You’re back again.

・・・

RAN

またお茶か飲みたくなったのか？

You wanna join us for some tea?

・・・

RINDO

また会ったな。そんなに同じところを行き来して疲れないのか？

You’re back again. Aren’t you tired of going back and forth over and over again?

RAN

よっぽどオレらと戦いたいみたいだな。もう1戦やっておくか？

Looks like you really wanna fight us. Wanna have a go at us again?

TAKEMICHI

だぁー！！！！なんでここに戻ってきちまうんだ！！！オレらは早く帰りたいんだよ！

Gahaagh!!!! WHY DO WE KEEP COMING BACK HERE!!! I just wanna get back home already!

RAN

そんな怒んなよ。まだ「その時」じゃねぇんだよ

Chill out. It’s not time yet.

AKKUN

その時？

Time yet?

RAN

あぁ、その時になったら。自然と帰れるさ

だから今はオレらと楽しもうぜ・・・！

Yeah. Just wait for that time. You’ll be able to go home then.

So for now, why don’t you have some fun with us…!

_ _ _ _ _

POST BATTLE (ADVANCED)

TAKE

は��はぁ

AKKUN

はぁはぁ

RAN

なんだよ。もう喧嘩はおしまいかぁ？

What’s this? You done fighting?

RINDOU

まだまだオレらと遊ぼうぜ

We're not done playing yet.

AKKUN

いや・・・もう・・・

Come on… no more…

TAKEMICHI

もうむりぃ～！！！家に帰らせてくれぇー！！！

I can’t take this anymore!!! Lemme go hooome!!!

[ SCENE: AKKUN dressed in normal clothes tries to wake TAKEMICHI ]

AKKUN

タケミチ！起きろ！！タケミチ！！！

Takemichi! Wake up!! Takemichi!!!

TAKEMICHI

うぉ！？アっくん！？

UOGH! AKKUN!?

AKKUN

やっと起きたか・・・何回呼んでも起きねーからよ

You’re finally awake… No matter how many times I tried, I couldn’t wake you up.

TAKEMICHI

オレ、寝てたの・・・？灰谷兄弟は？

I was sleeping…? What about the Haitani brothers?

AKKUN

灰谷兄弟？何言ってんだ？

The Haitani brothers? What are ya talkin’ about?

TAKEMICHI

あれ？ウチ？オレら帰ってこれらたのか！！！

Huh？I’m home? I’m back home!!!

AKKUN

はは。さっきから何寝てぼけてんだよ？早く顔で洗って来いよ

Haha. What exactly were you doing in your sleep? Why don’t you go wash your face.

TAKEMICHI

オレら変な森で、変な格好して、灰谷兄弟と戦ってなかった？

We’re we in that weird forest? Dressed in weird clothes? Fighting the Haitani brothers?

AKKUN

はぁ？なんつー夢見てんだよ？

Huh? The hell were you dreaming of?

TAKEMICHI

夢・・・そっか夢か！そうだよな。いやー。夢にしては疲れる夢だったな～

A dream… I see, it was a dream! That’s right. Man. That was pretty exhausting for just a dream.

AKKUN

そんなことより、マコトたち待ってんだから、さっさと準備しろよ

Just forget about it, Makoto and the others are waiting for us, so get your ass ready.

TAKEMICHI

おう！アっくん先に行っててよ、すぐに追いかけるからさ！

Okay！You go ahead, Akkun. I’ll catch  up with you in a bit!

AKKUN

分かったー！二度寝すんなよー

Gotcha! Don’t go falling asleep again.

TAKEMICHI

しねぇよ！

・・・よし！準備完了。いってきまーす！

I won’t!

…All right! I’m good to go. I’m headin’ out!

[ TAKEMICHI leaves to join his friends, completely unaware of the Easter egg left on the floor]

[ STORY END ]

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You can view all my translations for Tokyo Revengers: Puzzle Revengers & Hypnosis Mic: Alternative Rap Battle in my discord: HERE.

[holespoles]

Easter Day 2024. A young lady decorated with flowers and the white hat she bought yesterday. The postcard anticipates a glorious day with men in glengarry hats who have come to meet her. It's a day of eggs, rabbits and chicks splashing around.

2024年のイースター当日。昨日買った白い帽子を花で飾ったお嬢さん。のこのこ会いに来たグレンガリー帽の男ども、と華やかな一日を期待させる絵葉書なり、と。タマゴとウサギとヒヨコがはねまわる一日であります。

[midianarchist]

not my usual type of post but here’s all my japanese cds so far! i have a ton of other cds, but they’re old (and i used to be emo). if you’re curious about my entire collection, visit my rym page here

left to right:

源屋 - 花紅柳緑エリュシオン

Tano*C Extra

m1dy - The Midi Anarchist

m1dy - Electronic Speed Music

LV.4 - A.D.2995

風葉 - ヒヨコ様の言う通りッ！

m1dy - Speedcore Dandy XXX

Ryu* - Starmine

少女病 - 残響レギオン deluxe set thingy

Malice Mizer - Merveilles

[scrambledeggs-omm]

🐣【短編】スイーツ作る編・蒸しパンの巻🐣

ｺﾆﾁﾊ!ホットケーキミックスが大好きな卵料理だよ！🐣

今回はポケモソもカ一ビィも何も関係ないけどホットケーキミックスと製菓用レーズンで蒸しケーキを作ってみるよ！🐣🍇(唐突)

レシピはいつも使ってるミックスの製造会社、昭和産業のレシピのサイトを参考にしながら材料を配分していくよ〜🥞

ヒヨコの顔も作っちゃった😚最後の蒸す工程だけ蒸し器がないのでレンジで数分加熱で代用！

上手く膨らんでくれるだろうか……！ﾄﾞｷﾄﾞｷ

(↓↓🐣音出ます🐣↓↓)

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ﾅﾝﾃﾞｪ……？🐣(目が離れすぎている)

ヒヨコの見た目は大変なことになったけど味は美味しくできたのでヨシ！一気に全部レンジに入れたら加熱時にムラができちゃって中の水分が消えてしまったので次回は数回に分けて加熱しよう……(反省)

結構簡単にできたので余ってるミックスがあったらよければ作ってみてね🙌🐣それでは！

(2023/5/28 23:30)

[nekokamasu]

ヒヨコに包まれボス。今日も生きんぞ。 #cat #猫 #ねこ #instacat #catstagram https://www.instagram.com/p/Cpln2TQScEu/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[natun-ika]

やることは尽きないけれど

終わった…何もかも…

長きに渡る介護生活が終わりました。母親が５年前に膝を骨折（２か月ぐらい歩けなかったけど復活したのでちょっとした補佐）、４年前に腕の骨折（右腕だったので身体介護本格化）、２年前には腰椎圧迫骨折で介護生活本番突��しCOVID-19の影響もあって夜の外出など高嶺の花になってしまってました。それでも3か月に一回ぐらいは出かけたけどほぼ飲まずに一次会で帰る、泊りがけの温泉旅行などもってのほか、日中と言えども出かける前は「行っちゃうの…早く帰ってきてね…」と縋るオンナ（母親）に縛られてたワタシ。

たまにやむを得ない用事で家を空ける時は友達に頼んで見に行ってもらう手はずを整えました。こういうときは友達よね。そりゃネットの友達も好きだけどこの場合リアルで近くに住んでる友達しか頼れないよねと再認識しましたね。

そんな今年4月末のある日、母が黄色い。

かわいいヒヨコ色じゃなくて黄疸で黄色い。病院へ連れてったら膵臓に腫瘍がありますと。腫瘍が胆管をふさいでて全身が黄色くなりましたと。膵臓の腫瘍は置いといて今回は胆管を通しましょう、と素早く手術してくれたドクターありがとうございました。内視鏡での胆管ドレナージ、これ昔ならこのまま終わりだったなあと思いました。現代医学って素晴らしい。

とはいえ膵臓ですから。すい臓がんっつったらあっちゅうまで有名ですから「こりゃ2，3か月か！」と介護生活の終わりが見えた瞬間でした。母親ですからずっと生きててほしいけど今の介護生活がいつまで続くのかと自分も多少疲れてきた時期ですからがんの発覚は厳しいながらもゴールが見えた、そんな宣告でした。この後はこれは神様がくれたオマケだ。今まで介護しながら一緒に生活してきたから思い残すことはないと言いたいがさすがに今今これでお別れだったら急すぎて悔いが残った。これからの2，3か月は心の準備をしながら、お別れの準備をする神様がくれた時間だ。そう思いました。

さあこれからどうする。お母さんどうしたい？

母は元ナースということもあって病気には冷静に対処できる人間。「膵臓に腫瘍が」と口にしただけで「あー、はい」という感じで受け止め、そのくせ「家で死にたあい」と甘えたように言うのでありました。

一言で「家で死ぬ」ったってねアナタ。

周りが大変なのよアナタ。私ひとりじゃ無理よ。妹に確認する。「うん、それが望みならかなえてあげたい」との返事を受けてんじゃやるかと。私も介護福祉士でありケアマネージャーであるからにはプロとして娘としてプロの娘としてできる限りやりましょう。もしかしたら今まで数々の方を看取ってきたのはこの日のためだったのかも。集大成として挑みましょう。って言うほど決意はそう重くなかった。何とかなるだろ、くらいでしたね。だてに20年から介護福祉の仕事してませんよ、いけるでしょ、ぐらいでした。実際そうなりました。

胆管ドレナージの後は1週間であっさり退院して帰宅、家に戻ったからには準備が必要です。たまたま母が長年かかってた病院が在宅診療をやっていました。手術してくれた医師の診療情報提供書を持って伺います。私が元勤務してた病院でもありますからいつものように訪れます。

ワタシ：ちわー、母が家で死にたい言ってます。膵臓癌です。これお手紙です。

病院の返答：在宅診療は可能です。今の状態は？

ワタシ：今は元気です。痛みも無いし自分で身の回りのことはできます、食事も摂れています。

病院：ではタイミングは娘さんに任せます。様子を教えてください。

というわけで5月中は今までと同じような生活、むしろ食欲もわいて元気なイメージでしたが下旬になると息切れや倦怠感の強さが目立つ。入浴は何年も私が介助していたけど動きが悪くなってきたので6月1日を最後に訪問入浴に切り替えました。

そのタイミングで医師に相談。訪問看護は以前からリハビリ目的で利用していたのでそのまま移行し6月半ばには在がん開始となりました。

※在がんとは、 居宅で療養している末期の悪性腫瘍患者に，在宅療養支援診療所（在支診），在宅療養支援病院（在支病）が計画的な医学管理の下に総合的な医療を提供するもの。介護保険から外れて医療保険の範疇になり、訪問診療・訪問看護が包括的に行われます。費用も上限が決められますが人によりますのでケアマネさんに相談してください。

※家で死んだ場合、突発的な場合はパトカー・救急車から消防車から総動員で家の前に停まって近所の話題になったり取り調べで遺族なのに嫌な思いをしたりすることもありますがこうして事前に準備を整えておくと警察沙汰にはなりません。←ここ一番大事

どんな場合も介護の在り方について希望を叶えるためには、ケアマネに正直に遠慮なく、「こうしたい」という希望を伝えるのが大切です。そしたら希望を叶えるべく動きます。今回は母のケアマネジメントも私がしているので手順が省けました。ダイレクトに関係機関に伝えることができて良かった。

早め早めの対応で、本人が不安なく過ごせて終えるように整えることができて私も本望です。

妹も身体介護がとても上手になりました。ヘルパーさんできるよ！とけしかけていますが「他人には無理」と言います。

私は他人で経験を積んでの母親だったから恵まれてたかも。冷静に対応できたと思います。不安にならないように冷静に。穏やかに。「大丈夫だよ」っていつも安心させて手を握って。

でも時々、油断すると5歳の私が頭をもたげる。顔がゆがむ。

おかあさん。しなないでおかあさん。そんな泣き顔を見せるわけにはいかないけどでもおかあさん、しんじゃいやだとさけぶ私もいる。

何とか押し込めて穏やかに笑顔を見せて。その繰り返しでした。

で、看取りが終わって骨になって、訪ねてくれる人のお相手をして手続きもこれからでまだ忙しいですがまずは終わりました。やりきったので悔いも悲しみもないんですよ。清々しいほど無いんです。ただ、あの人がいらしてくださいましたよ、お電話頂きましたよ、と報告したい母がそこにいないので行き場がないですね。

母が嫌いだった人の悪口も一緒に言えませんしね。「いやいやお母さん！〇〇さん来ちゃったよ！」って教えてあげたいｗ

これからは解放感と自由を満喫して、そのうち襲ってくる寂しさも受け止めてまだまだ働いて生きていきますよ。

俺、すべて終わったら八戸に行くんだ・・・・フェリー座礁してたな・・・

[akanekoume]

鶏一家に囲まれた猫のパズル

私Akanekoumeが、オリジナルイラストの「鶏一家に囲まれた猫のパズル」を作成、ネットショップで発売しました。

[onibi-onibi]

(海外で「ヒヨコ」と呼ばれた理由。 | 五箇野人 (ごかやじん) さんのマンガ | ツイコミ(仮)から)

[ken1ymd]

2023/07/17

畜産関係の大規模火災が続いている。