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Orym: This situation is too big for me to deal with. I need an adult.
Bell's Hells/Crownkeepers: In case you haven't noticed, you ARE the adult here.
Orym: *panicking* I NEED AN ADULTIER ADULT.
#orym just wants to be a soldier and follow the orders of someone more competent than him#unfortunately for him he is often the most competent person in the room#cr3#exu prime#exandria unlimited#orym of the air ashari#critical role#bell's hells#crown keepers#1 part meta 1 part shitpost
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Of all the days to finish a fic - well, at least I know it'll never be overwritten by canon? This is my take on a conversation between Ed and Stede, about Izzy, that I have been pondering since season 2 ended - about lies and trauma and hidden truths.
I spit on your grave (3487 words, T)
“You know we didn’t just happen to be there, right?” “Oh?” Somehow the mechanics hadn't quite occurred to him, how Ed had arrived in the nick of time, an avenging angel wreathed in smoke and flame. He had simply appeared at the perfect moment. “Babe, we followed your ship for days. What do you think I sent Izzy after you for?” A pause, in which the OH reverberates louder in his head. He sees himself, a lifetime and less than a year ago, standing at a bar in a white suit. And Izzy, snarling about his boss.
Shout out to @veeagainsttheday for the beta, @emi--rose for bouncing some ideas, and @celluloidbroomcloset for an extremely well-timed little post that helped me figure out how to pull the ending together.
#ofmd#ofmd fic#my fic#my writing#if you followed that post from a bit ago about “I would have shot him” this is what I was watching that stuff for#so also like: thank you to everyone who's written sharp as hell izzy-related metas for helping my clarify my thoughts
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Soul-Bound in Wano: The Spooky Simpatico of Luffy and Zoro
Just finished Wano, and wow. I'm surprised there isn't more talk about the crazy parallels between Luffy and Zoro throughout the arc, but especially the raid. It's like Oda was trolling us with how perfectly they mirror each other in places.
Of course, there's the whole shared "wandering samurai" theme in Acts I and II, and then there's the heartwarming scene with them both freaking out over spilled soup. (Side note: I wouldn't be shocked if Zoro's anime-only sake scene was stuff Oda had to cut from the manga – it totally fits Oda's style with Zoro.)
But that's just the tip of the iceberg. We've got a ton of other stuff too:
Zoro uses Conqueror's Haki to injure Kaido because they're all desperate? Boom, Luffy digs deep and starts doing it too.
Zoro gets bandaged up like a mummy? Well, guess who can't move because he fell in the ocean?
Both of them get their own team of doctors? How lucky!
Zoro gets revived with an injection? Here comes Luffy, fueled by some meat!
Zoro declares he'll become a GOD if that's what it takes? 🤔 Makes you wonder what that means for Luffy...
Death himself shows up for Zoro? Not good! Now Luffy's literally in cardiac arrest! Speaking of, Zoro's looking rough. Those sunken eyes, man...
Thank god they're both too stubborn to die. And guess what? They get put right next to each other, while people pray for them to wake up
And wouldn't you know it, they wake up at the EXACT SAME TIME
This can't just be a coincidence, right? It feels like they're on some spooky, soul-bound level where Zoro's fate weirdly determines Luffy's. Which actually slots so, so neatly into Wano and its recurring themes of fate! Hell, Oda himself even said in an SBS (the one about Zoro's family tree) that Zoro's story is that of a strange, twisted fate he's completely clueless about.
Honestly, I love that for them.
Zoro might not get a whole arc dedicated to his backstory like Nami, Robin, or Sanji. But the choices he makes carry a surprising amount of weight in the grand scheme of things.
#We talk a lot about how Zoro will follow Luffy to hell#but there's something poetic about Luffy's fate naturally being tied to Zoro's; the same way the tides change based on the moon#I honestly think if Zoro had died in Wano...Luffy wouldn't have woken up either#and vice versa.#They're like cosmically-linked dominos that stand or fall based on each other.#That's also why the idea of Luffy dying young while Zoro lives a long life without him feels wrong to me.#They're both so determined to make sure they share the same fate. And fate seems to share their enthusiasm 🥰#monkey d. luffy#roronoa zoro#wano#one piece#zolu#text post#my meta
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edgar vargas and squee by johnen vasquez
scriabin by zarla-s
#sunny's art#vargas#edgar vargas#vargas zarla#scriabin vargas#zarla s#scriabin#doodles#YOU THOUGHT YOU'D SEEN THE LAST OF ME . . . . !!!!#well HELLO !!!! I'M BACK !!!!!!!!#got a new brush . what do you think of it do you like it#okay i want to ramble about these wait a second#the first one looks a bit different to the rest because i was just trying new stuff .#if i spend a long time without drawing i'll forget how to draw and well it happened#i've changed my art style like 3 times now but i still draw side profiles the same . looks weird ugh#the mug says “ JESUS loves me BECAUSE no one else will ” btw . meta gave me the idea actually . thanks meta .#about the second one . finished that one like ten minutes ago . missed drawing todd aw#i just find their whole relationship so amusing .#like yes i went crazy for like a month and now i have a brother-husband and a kid ?!#they complement each other so well though . i love them#THE UNO ONE omg i've had that idea for like A YEAR NOW and i just drew it lol#i wonder how long it would take scriabin to notice though .#when i showed this to meta she said : “ oh wow !! edgar's finally winning at something !! ” and it's SO TRUE#wonder how he does it !#and the last one . i got the idea when i was looking through zarla's account searching for fan art .#love it so much though they look like their lives aren't a living hell#anyways i'll probably make more of these . who knows#going back to school on monday . and of course i had to get inspiration four days before going back .#please PLEASE I DON'T WANT TO GET BACK TO SCHOOL . PL#okay byeee enjoy these . eat my starved followers . EAT !!!!!
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This comparison has been made before but rewatching calamity has got me thinking about the similarities between Asmodeus and Ludinus. Like, it's a lot, ya'll. And that's sooo funny because if you pointed that out to either of them they would both get so mad about it.
Like, there are the obvious similarities of being fascist tyrants obsessed with getting revenge against those who "wronged" them. And by doing so they actively harm the people they think they are "saving". Also, just the general sense of entitlement that the world owes them recompense for what they've lost (asmo's relationship with his siblings/the age of arcanum for ludi).
They both idealize and glorify a past that really wasn't all that good (pre-mortals for Asmo/Aeor for ludi) and blame those who "stole" that past from them. They deny all responsibility for their own wrongdoings and assign it to their designated scapegoats (mortals for asmo, and in ludi's case, assigning the blame of calamity and the destruction of Aeor onto the prime deities instead of the hubristic wizards who created the conditions for that to happen in the first place).
Like I stated earlier, they're both tyrants who prop up fascist regimes/institutions to consolidate their own power. Both are extremely manipulative and cherrypick the truth to fit their own narratives. They're egotistical and prideful, unable to admit they could be wrong. And neither care about casualties or collateral damage in the pursuit of their revenge.
And, one of biggest similarities between them, in my opinion, is their ability to never stop ranting about shit. These bitches can yap. Just absolutely unable to shut up and stop talking. They both love the sound of their own voice. Annoying ass mfs.
#the parallels#ludinus basically unintentionally follows asmo's commandments to a t.#and aint that ironic#these bitches awful#just the worst#both of them would get a brain aneurysm if you pointed this shit out#no one is doing it like them#critical role#cr spoilers#cr meta#cr3#bells hells#ludinus da'leth#asmodeus#cr asmodeus#asmodeus cr#the lord of the hells#exu calamity#shelley's overdramatic character analysis
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Of Contracts Between Gods and Men
On the Aeorian Kinsey-Deicide scale I’m a solid 5 (near exclusively god-preserving) which may seem surprising to my many dear associates who want those fundamental truths of existence wrecked. Without digging in any further, let’s do some quick religious history review on the question: Do you owe anything to the gods and do they owe anything to you?
The answer is not as universal as many raised in the nigh inescapable miasma of Christian theology may think! Reciprocal (or even unilateral) responsibility in religion comes and goes across history and geography. The Norse Aesir, for example, created humans but don’t owe them nada and only rarely bothered messing with them. The Greek pantheon are significantly more touchy on the subject of their pride but a person could manage offering no prayers or sacrifices as long as they didn’t promise any prayers or sacrifices. Probably. Compare this to Mayan theology, wherein both gods and humans have significant co-responsibility in maintaining balance; with ritual and sacrifice key to the continued safety of the polity. Divine-mortal relationships can be classified as nondirectional, unidirectional, or bidirectional with various advantages and disadvantages to each model. Gods come in lots of shapes and the demands they make aren’t universal!
A phrase that will often come up in any divinity studies is “covenant”. Originally a translation of the Hebrew berith or Greek diatheke, and also present in Islam, the Bahai’i faith, and possibly historical Phoenician religious practices, covenant theology has metastasized in Christian scholarship to the point it was genuinely hard to research this piece while dodging blogs by guys named Richard. But, broadly, it’s the idea of making an explicit deal with power(s) greater than yourself where you both have sides of the bargain to uphold.
Contract law is not the solution to every problem on earth or in fiction, but when the issue is a large disparity in power and mutual fears of future adverse behavior…. to quote Kate Bush “I’d make a deal with (the) god(s).”
Vitally, compared to other bidirectional pacts in world religion, Exandria has some advantages. For one thing, they have a godeater they’re right now helping to suppress. As long as the gods remain behind the divine gate they need mortal champions to effect their will—but that only holds true as long as the Divine Gate stays up. And unfortunately the problem with a fence someone else has erected is that you don’t know if they’ve kept a key.
If I was mortality’s lawyer? I’d ask for a second layer to that divine hamsterball I’d ask for anything left of the godkilling spark to be kept by the temples of Vasselheim—if they can’t be trusted with it no one can. And I’d promise cooperation from people of a certain degree of civic responsibility, not coerced or threatened out, whole hearted. But terms and conditions may vary.
Anyway, I guess the thesis is that it’s a terrible sin to destroy something you can’t comprehend with no idea of what the outcome will be (and a lot of you don’t seem to get the inconceivable joy of having/knowing/being a god, even just in fiction) but you can bring any monstrosity to the negotiating table. Don’t kill your gods, unionize against them.
#cr spoilers#critical role#bells hells#cr meta#critical role spoilers#and again I should clarify that a bidirectional mutually responsible relationship isn’t exclusive to the ancient near east#the Mayans incans and Aztecs all have some degree of entwined duties between mortals and gods in their ritual practices#(and I’m sure other religious practices did too—I’m not ethnologist I only know the big twenty)#a sort of coresponsibility for the state of the heavens and of earth#with the incans sharing the permanent embodied godhood aspect that characterizes a lot of pacific islander faith#(with high status individuals Becoming the god upon ascension permanently mingling the realms of god and man)#the ancient levant and some parts of Iran just happen to have framed it as contract rather than mutually assured destruction#the diversity of ideas about what someone who is a person but bigger would be and act like across human civilization are fascinating!#it’s why I reject the idea that a plot about divinity has to follow any script—cultural conceptions of divinity don’t!
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Tag drop: Aventurine.
#[ aventurine. ] mr. cavalier gambler: uptight. overcautious. inferiority complex. you've won so much but you're still so afraid of losing.#[ aventurine: ic. ] they see only the straight flush. they don't know the other hand below the table clutching your chips for dear life.#[ aventurine: inquiries. ] time to make a move my friend. say goodbye before you shuffle off. it's… best to die without regrets.#[ aventurine: countenance. ] now go. and pick the clothes that you like. then choose your desired identity and use them well.#[ aventurine: introspection. ] “sleep is the rehearsal of death”? why does life slumber? because we are not ready for the final rest.#[ aventurine: meta. ] the road less traveled is less traveled for a reason. but you've never gone in any other direction.#[ aventurine: etc. ] the chance… no matter how small: the potential is what you hang onto. that is what justifies the gamble.#[ aventurine: ipc. ] … i'll give you that and much more than that. the ipc will give you whatever you want. even what you don't want.#[ aventurine: trio. ] three cornerstones who for a measly penacony... offered their everything. you're more united than the family.#[ aventurine: astral express. ] friends: the game has commenced and you cannot choose to decline… nor do you have grounds to.#[ aventurine: fate. ] if the dice of fate are always weighted then that is our destiny. why then... do we struggle against it?#[ aventurine: past. ] our paths will cross again beneath kakava's shimmering auroras. farewell: kakavasha.#[ aventurine: luck. ] he's only drunk on the moment that makes his very life quiver. hell is only one decision away from heaven.#[ aventurine: topaz. ] since i survived i realized: wherever you go that's where i'll follow; nobody's promised tomorrow. [ immobiliter. ]#[ aventurine: topaz. ] i never expected the beautiful and kind-hearted director topaz to resort to distorting concepts like that.#[ aventurine: jade. ] it's often used as a counterfeit for jade. but it looks like jade… can be substituted for aventurine too.#[ aventurine: veritas ratio. ] unfortunately for him; i make for a more competent conversationalist than the other dimwits around here.#[ aventurine: black swan. ] nothing remains hidden from you… does it? i will find my place in the web of your schemes; memokeeper.#[ aventurine: sunday. ] is this what the harmony represents? is it built upon constraint and coercion?#[ aventurine: acheron. ] only by casting aside reason does one truly gamble. “emanator” — I know you'll match my wager.#[ aventurine: v. youth. ] but the sun could not kill me and the quicksand sent me back to the embrace of the guild and the ipc.#[ aventurine: v. penacony. ] i seem that way because i am nervous. maybe you can help. what do you say; put our palms together a last time?#[ aventurine: v. future. ] the once falling die has at last landed on its earthly rest. quietly… peacefully: it at last landed.#tag drop#[ aventurine: robin. ] you see people. / i see you. [ avaere. ]
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in ur tags you wrote the unstoppable force post was andreil coded…. well do you know sakavic herself reglogged that post too…. bc eyes are wide open rn
OMGDJJFHDHFJDHDJJDJFJD no i did not know that i did not clock that. makes me feel weirdly validated tho. highlight of my day because yes. YES. it just screamed andreil to me and to have nora go ‘same’ does feel like a win to me. thank you so much for telling me you made my week <3
i mean. yeah eyes wide open. (neil the unstoppable force always on the run, changing, adjusting, moving things along for others as well etc, andrew the immovable object not just in his ethics/morals/approach but also as a source of stability to lean on etc… and their colliding is not just what the want but what they NEED as individuals to grow!!! andrew providing stability for neil to grow roots and have a home and have a place to belong, neil bringing with him a revitalising force, a forward momentum that presents andrew with a future that is more than just an empty existence or a waiting for death but a Life. that’s why they work. like. they wanted to collide, they needed to collide, THEY WERE MEANT TO COLLIDE))
#i am making myself sick. and unwell. i didn’t want to reread already but.#AAHHHHHH I AM IN HELL#i miss them so much. my resolve to wait is crumbling.#again THANK YOU SO MUCH ANON FOR TELLING ME <33333 need to go look fot taht post on her blog now.#have the best of days you beautiful soul#anon#answer#for bad days#andreil#nora sakavic#((these tags are just for me to i find this ask again in a few weeks time fjjdjdjdj)#edit: there weren’t tags but somehow i realised i wasn’t following nora’s blog which?!?!!! HUH?!?!! like weird.#i remember following her years ago in like. 2014 or 15?!?#i did follow her back in my mindyardx days so. idk idk.#and i know she was on my dash until recently. idk if tumblr was buggy again#but i felt very confused.#aftg meta
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Aw man, just reread my document I wrote on my speculation on how the metagene works & how modern DC could rewrite it to being a result of retroviruses & transposons and man, I really wish I finished that post.
Unfortunately, the reason I stopped was explaining it all down to the point where someone with little genetic knowledge could still understand it proved to be too lengthy and long winded of a task.
Maybe one day I’ll pour myself back into research & finish that speculative paper. Bc I had a whole fun idea that relied on that background information that was about the Daily Planet reporting on the discovery of an entire city of metas with similar meta abilities. The town faced such high levels of radiation and contamination, only the population with the meta gene survived:(
#The meta ability was just super perfect cell replication.#No changes outward. They appear perfectly normal#to be clear. ppl still age. the power is just that their cells are super good at replicating the way they’re meant to#Zero chance of tumors or damaged DNA due to the radiation because their meta ability just resumes them to their previous state.#the city blows up afterward in the news cycle due to people trying to go there so they don’t die from cancer.#and don’t have a risk of cancer BUT THE CITY IS STILL IRRADIATED AS HELL AND THE PPL THAT ENTER CANNOT LEAVE#DUE TO THEM BECOMING SO RADIOACTIVE THEYRE A HAZARD TO BE CLOSE TO WITHOUT PPE#i just thought it was such a fun idea and me being me I overthink the shit outta things & made it super long and overcomplicated#because I wanted people to also learn what retroviruses & transposons were bc they’re cool as hell#and by the time I wrote 5K words on it#I didn’t want to take the shortcut and just embed other ppl’s videos explaining it bc I had already put too much effort into it#for me to delete that research#bones speaks#the cause? the city was built ontop a large kryptonite meteor.#and someone (cough cough LexCorp. but no one actually has enough legal proof to say it’s them)#and when it’s investigated. it appears that someone (cough cough LexCorp. there’s not any legal proof that can pin it on them.#so lexcorp once again escapes scott free without evidence of villany)#has been digging tunnels under the city and excavating it. the excavation not following proper mining protocols caused the city’s ground#and water supply to become extremely irradiated to the point where it’s like when ppl were just eating & drinking uranium products.#actually imma stop myself here & make this it’s own post#anyways. the radioactive bit gets figured out due to the poorly constructed tunnels collapsing and the city conducting an investigation#leading to a ‘oh shit. the Geiger counter is saying this sinkhole is Super radioactive.’#to ‘HOLY SHIT THATS THE ENTIRE TOWN’#to ‘wait fuck how are we still alive? to ‘a weirdly high percentage of folks in the town had metagenes so not a super significant amount#of ppl has died from abnormal lookin cancer.’ to ‘oh my god everyone that doesn’t have the meta gene here is slowly dying get them Out Now’#bones writes in the tags#anyways. that’s kinda the story#I’ll rewrite the tags into a proper post and see if I can revise it so my paper isn’t needed to make some plot points work#bc it’s a Far simpler explanation than the one I wrote in the doc so I’ll base it off of this version instead
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i don’t have enough braincells to connect the dots rn but i just know there’s smth to kraglin continuing to wear ravager colors and not having a real matching guardians outfit until the end of vol 3 because his self doubt and insecurity regarding his worthiness of the yaka arrow kept him from feeling like he was truly a useful member of the team until he’d mastered it
#・゚✩ ➶ use your heart‚ boy. ⸻ study.#gonna put it in the tag until i can write up a proper meta abt it :’)#something something kraglin staying w the guardians but being unable to fully commit because he hasn’t worked through his own issues#regarding what happened in vol 2#kraglin feeling more like a ravager than a guardian but not quite fitting into either group……. hM#kraglin who’s identity is tied to being a ravager but what good is a ravager when their whole clan is dead#but he wouldn’t call himself a guardian just yet even if does call pete captain and follow him into hell on a regular basis#him being in a weird middle place and his outfits reflecting that….. IDK MAN
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that sean macguire meta post is doing better than i expected considering it's mainly me ranting abt my favorite boy. obviously i have more to say abt him and now im wondering if people would be interested in more of those longer rants beyond my small one-liners lol
#teki talks#genuinely ive gained like a buncha followers as a direct result of that post so im ASSUMING people liked it??#if you even LIKE this im taking that as a yes and encouragement btw#watch out#this one is more aimed at yall newbies if like are u here just for the general rdr2 content and memes i rb#or is it the minor gang members(sean macguire) meta ur here for#or hell maybe ur here from ao3 idfk#you dont have to answer but genuinely if u like this posti will take that as#'yes teki i would love to read u rant about why sean wouldnt side with dutch at the end of chap 6'#'and id love an analysis on why sean has to die first for chap 4-6 to go as they do tonally and narratively'#like thats what ill get out of that just fyi
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tag dump #4
#I’ve been the archer | about#words are only painted fire | aesthetic#people on the streets | anonymous asks#queen’s gambit | dash games#for a rainy day | keepsakes#if I’m on fire you’ll be made of ashes too | meta#blackbird singing in the dead of night | music#I see right through me | musings#like a moth to the flame | open starter#I will follow you into hell if you ask me | promotion#orders for the lieutenant | prompts#mustang’s overdue paperwork | queue#as you wish | wishlist#I wrote my way out | writing#ooc; fate goes ever as it must | about#ooc; cite your sources | credit#ooc; words words words | general answers#ooc; in my reputation era | post#ooc; exit pursued by a bear | prompted answers#ooc; get the word out | PSA#ooc; dear reader | reference#ooc; the colonel did what now | shitpost#ooc; out damned spot | to be deleted
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i guess if i absorb the homestuck epilogues as caliborn's fanfiction I can maybe accept my angst enough to try out homestuck 2/beyond canon.
#I've considered the snapchats to be the ending for years and I think a lot of people dropped off around then too#i.....don't like the epilogues. They're stupid but not in the fun way but in what feels hostile#I don't have a problem with homestuck being filled with some early 2000s semi vile internet culture. nor that extending a lil 2 hs epilogue#But everything about the plot is hateful. Lord english? yeah that badass defeat doesnt count. Happy ending? No that doesnt count either#vriskrezi? no terezi and john are going to have weird sex on screen#You liked davkat friendship? okay we're going to force them to kiss in a semi meta analysis of hating shippers#like. You have to admit it's a hell that doesn't please anyone but the most diehard homestuck fans#I recently learned the briefest bits of bojack horseman plot and now i can say that the epilogues are indeed like taking a shit on homestuc#ughhhhhh the way this webcomic grips my thoughts to this day#I don't think any active homestucks even follow me.#if you read this far hi. Why? Legit question.
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as someone whose country went through a massive military revolution 40 years ago, hey. it works sometimes.
i just think theres something to be said about the way latinos approach politics as people who always suffered by the hands of government vs the way europeans/americans approach politics through rose-colored glasses and the idealistic idea of revolution
#qsmp#idk i TOTALLY UNDERSTAND THE POINT don't get me wrong#but i also think blanket statements regarding politics of any continent are really tricky#there's as much merit in believing that working with the system will be beneficial as there is in believing in anarchy and revolution#i personally am backing baghera i will follow that woman to hell BUT#my point being minecraft politics are hard already#let's not involve real life politics in the meta discussion bc like it's BOUND to end horribly
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There is something about proudly proclaiming a show "tumblrista catnip" that makes me emotional.
Something about how for years tumblrinas were ridiculed by show creators.
Something about Supernatural having a meta episode set at a convention with all the weirdo fans that made the main characters uncomfortable. Something something about Becky and the message that fangirls are gross and obsessive.
Something about Sherlock and the way fans were portrayed as crazy obsessive nutjobs for trying to figure out how he faked his death.
Something about creators mocking fandoms, dismissing them as freaks. Something about queer people not being welcome to engage in their creations because "why do you have to make everything gay?"
Something about the malicious culture of queerbaiting throughout the 2000s/2010s, followed by Bury Your Gays tropes across the media landscape because hell, you should be grateful we even gave you queer characters to begin with - and everyone dies in our show! You ain't special!
Something about Destiel questions being banned from conventions...
And then...
Something instead about Good Omens, and letting the story adapt naturally, embracing the fanbase and leaning into the fanservice.
Something about Our Flag Means Death, and the genuine outpouring of love and affection between cast, crew, and fandom that culminated in an explosion of fanworks that were never once mocked or deemed gross or wrong.
Something about Sandman, and staunchly digging in their heels on the queerness of it all, refusing to give in to the homophobes and instead avidly mocking THEM on social media rather than us.
Something about the writers hearing about fandoms favourite ships and excitedly stating that YES! We DID lean into that because it happened naturally and made sense.
Something about a firefighter coming out as bisexual after 7 seasons...
So yeah, something about a new high quality show made FOR US. By creators that love US. Respect US, and WANT our love.
Something about US FINALLY being a target audience for the best shows being made on TV now.
Tumblrista catnip. Creators saying "we made this for you. You are important. Your voices have been heard."
It just... all got a bit overwhelming for a moment there.
#dead boy detectives#neil gaiman#representation matters#queer culture#the sandman#good omens#ofmd#911#destiel#supernatural#sherlock#fandom history#tumblrista catnip#look how far we've come
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#I KNOW I'm whining but it really really hurts my feelings a lot of the time with the author stuff and the announcement posts not getting#reblogs and shit. like I work so damn hard on everything but i'm always falling behind#why the hell do some people get 96 kudos overnight and I only get like 20#is it because my fics aren't long enough? is it because my writing isn't good enough? am I not advertising them well enough?#I TRY to advertise them but I feel like people don't reblog the announcement posts esp not larger accounts and that makes me feel even WORS#because in that case what am I doing WRONG? is it because everything I write is AUs? If I wrote more realistic things would people be more#interested??? My smut fics seem to do pretty well but that's because two of them are semi-realistic and the other only has one major change#(Dream being a Dog hybrid). is it because I ruined my reputation from the get-go with that stupid fucking nepo baby fic? Is that what it is#Am I a problematic fav or something? And the worst part is that I see people I know and recognize in my kudos sometimes but it's usually on#anon works so I'm so confused there. why would someone leave kudos on a fic not tied to my account but ignore the ones that are?#what the fuck am I doing wrong? Is it length? I hate writing long fics but I could try to write them longer if that's what people care abou#Are they too short? Is my quality really bad? do I not post frequently enough? Am I problematic or something? What the fuck is wrong???#obviously this isn't directed at moots and followers who do like and reblog and read and not towards all the people who read my fics#just like. fandom meta I guess. I feel left out almost and I'm really sad about it.#whatever I need to stop whining about this probably#vent#discourse#to be deleted
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