#❁┆older but just never wiser

[benayoung]

* ❁┆older but just never wiser

nayoung has some questions, but she doesn’t have the time to ask them. maybe later, she’ll run into cameron moon and have the chance, but practice is far more important than her curiosity, or maybe...longing for camaraderie. 

it just turns out her coworker at the convenience store she recently started working at is more than meets the eye. then again, so is she. maybe along the way, he figured out she was a trainee once upon a time, but how did she not know he was a former idol? she thought she kept a close eye on the industry, but apparently not close enough.

she only found out when she watched the first episode of next gen herself. it was shocking enough to see him in the contestant lineup at all, let alone to learn that much. who knew they had so much in common? it’s a strange coincidence. she knows multiple people on this show already though, which is also strange; thousands of audition tapes sent in, and what are the odds of so many people that know each other gathering together in one place?

nayoung isn’t a conspiracy theorist, but if she was, she might think next gen was some social experiment by the government. they tracked them and their phone and internet activity, finding out who shared friend circles and enough talent to feasibly make it on a “show” like this. she doesn’t know what it’s a social experiment for, but she figures pitting a bunch of people that already know against each other for a goal they can’t all achieve makes for better television than a bunch of strangers. probably, anyway. 

she doesn’t really believe in fate or god or anything of the like either, but the amount of coincidences are far too fucking strange, especially when she returns to her favorite practice room after a bathroom break only to see cameron moon himself.

she almost says you’ve gotta be fucking kidding me, but if nayoung knows anything it’s how to be aware of cameras. he looks like he’s just warming up, and nayoung is already taking a break, so...it’s not a bad time to talk, is it?

“hey,” she greets him first, and falls into some familiar stretches herself, even if she’s already been practicing for a couple hours. it just feels better to be doing something opposed to just standing there. “you were an idol before?” she doesn’t beat around the bush. she’s not really one for small talk anymore. “they said on the episode,” she clarifies, just in case he forgot and thinks she’s weird for knowing, let alone asking about it on camera.

* ❁┆ @bexcam

[honeytuesday]

ok but now as ive continued to work on and unlearn my old patterns its become so much easier to just keep going when bad things happen? like i'm gonna be fine. nothing is ever as World Ending as it seems. pausing and regaining my footing before i react is more than okay. its the kindest thing i can do and This sucks but im going to be fine i'm going to figure it out and there will be happiness again. and like there's always gonna be shit to deal with but ive dug myself out of misery before and goddammit i'll do it again. it feels so good to have my own back like this

[letteriwillneversend]

having parents that are nothing more than unfriendly strangers wearing familiar voices that say familiar things makes you wonder if there was ever any such thing as home.

it makes you wonder what it might be like to have a bad day and have someone you can call or talk to. what it might be like to have someone you can to for advice or comfort. what it might be like to have a shoulder or lap you can finally rest your head on. what it might be like to have a bowl of cut fruit that spells out unconditional love.

some days i find myself looking for home even when i don’t know what to look for.

[fate-defiant]

Duck hits different when you're no longer thirteen and in the throes of navigating friendships for the very first time and defining yourself by your social ineptitude.

[astrangerlately]

[pardonmydelays]

Did Lin say anything about Palestine? I couldn't find it and you know about everything he does

either he didn't (which is just as disappointing) or i missed it (because i definitely don't know everything). i think the first one. which makes me sad.

but it's not only about palestine when it comes to taylor, it's also about swifties sending death threats to joe alwyn only knowing one side of the story & basically treating him like a trash (one of the reasons i don't want to be part of this fandom, it's just embarrassing at this point), it's about her new relationship that feels so fucking fake (are you trying to tell me that this was a real conversation? sorry but i don't buy it), it's about so many things... that i don't even want to discuss at the moment. she's not the person she used to be & i'm sick of all of this.

[raayllum]

no but like the fact callum went “what if i lied to lujanne about what she’s dedicated her entire life to protect, even after she expressly forbade me from doing so, roped her boyfriend into it on top of it all, and unlike my girlfriend, am not doing it to ensure the world is safe whatsoever, but solely to try to give rayla closure... haha jk... unless?” in through the moon never fails to send me, like he has zero chill

[biteress]

okay okay okay. this is my type as best as I can describe it:

[iridescent-glitter-dragon]

You know what, Vaughn tricking Michael into burning Jesse makes me think of something narration!Michael said in an early episode: something about when turning an asset 'the more they do for you, the more you can get them to do'

And it honestly works because Michael even says that if he walked away then he would have gotten Jesse burned for nothing

[itspileofgoodthings]

went through all the midnights lyrics and i kept coming back to anti-hero (affectionate) for you for some reason? the energy is just...there (it's a bop and has veins of deep feeling with your vibes on them idk)

wow YES! I love this as a choice so much. Because there’s a sturdiness and a confidence despite all the very open darkness and fear. And that is such a vibe!

THANK you for playing!!! 💙💙💙💙

[qeyond]

So. B and A getting super high together. B has an insanely high tolerance and A only smokes maybe once or twice a semester, if studying allows. A has a Horrible high and is super on edge and anxious, but B makes them feel really safe so they're not completely bugging out. B is just vibin' and having fun, but also being a bit of a Shit Disturber. Keeps bringing up creepypastas and A ends up sitting snuggled up super close to B on the couch with their arm around B's. A being all "heyy this is getting really scary :(" and B being like "haha, oh I'm so sorry~. We can talk about something else..." and A getting relaxed and :). But then B interjects: " So yeah... you know The Bathroom Head?" and A shoves him and is all ">:((!!!! LISTEN!!! ITS SO SCARY, OKAY!! I HATE YOU!!!" They're both laughing and it's very soft and intimate, but in a very queer found family kinda way.

[eclecticemmas]

The new Tula Pink line may be the death of my wallet 😭😭 do I have any idea what I’ll do with hippos? No. Did I buy them anyways? Yes.

[secondhnd]

@fadedstarsfms // Ripley

After work, Caress had decided to go to get food. She wasn't in much of a mood to cook tonight. It had been a long day and her energy was best spent elsewhere. Where elsewhere was, she would figure out later. It would likely be a romance film she found streaming somewhere. That was her normal routine anyway. As she checked the time on her phone, she looked around her to see if she could recognize anyone. The only familiar face was Ripley's. "Lucky me," she mumbled to herself as she turned away. Maybe the other girl wouldn't recognize her. Somehow, she doubted it.

[ojirocardigansniper]

just saw an actual adult human body in the mirror for the first time age 24 lets gooooooooo . crawling out of eternal teenage girl selfimage dysphoria prison one day at a time!!!!!!

[wilkp]

did i finally hit the post limit or is tumblr just having a bad day and telling me there's an error processing my post. i really can't tell

that's a very good sign that you hit the post limit! if it says that for every post you try to reblog then like, you definitely hit it lol