#✧ 𝐈𝐒𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 、barbie wire : answered.
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Seeing as you have Barbie on here for now, got a question for em. How would she feel if Blitzø died?
how would she feel if her brother died? once upon a time, it's a question that would have made her stomach twist into knots. it would have broken her. but in the throes of her addiction, she had made peace with her own death. the reaper would come for everyone eventually. surely it would come for her brother.
maybe his death could be a sort of atonement. it's his fault their mother was dead, her father readily reminding her of it every chance he got. it was his fault, but as his twin, she was some sort of extension of her brother… and she blamed herself. could it have been different? if she had done something different, could she have changed that night? no, maybe not. maybe that was what fate intended. the son's mistakes leading to the death of his mother… their mother.
“ i… i don't know. ” it's admitted with a scoff, because deep down? he's part of who she is, they're two parts of one whole. she wants to carry her father's rage, but rage and sorrow had nearly brought her to ruination in her desperate desire to numb the pain. “ i mean fuck… i don't want him dead. i just don't wanna fuckin' see him ever again… ” a pause. she knows the truth of the matter. it would lead to another spiral, it might be the pain that truly breaks her cold heart. “ i'd be sad, i guess… but i'd get over it. that's how shit goes, you get the fuck over it… besides, he's already fuckin' dead to me anyways. ”
but he'd haunt her, even as a ghost. the memories of good times, an anger she couldn't put away… he's her brother. she doesn't want to be around him, but she still mourns him. she'd mourn him even more in death.
#aroyaltailor#✧ 𝐈𝐒𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 、barbie wire : answered.#parental death /#sibling death /#addiction /#screams into my hands
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