#⛧.𝘛𝘹𝘵

[icyimp]

Unfortunately I want to make some purchases to fill the void in my life again.

[icyimp]

I miss my own energy, I used to be so full of life.

[icyimp]

I hate how bpd makes me extremely impulsive and I act on it and think what I’m doing is what I want but then when it hits me and the impulsivity dies down.

I realise I’m not ready for whatever choice I’ve made or sure if want whatever it is.

It’s even worse if others are involved, it makes me feel like an awful person.

[icyimp]

I be wanting to tell people mid convo that I don’t care so bad.

[icyimp]

𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘭, 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧.

𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘭, 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧.

𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘭, 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧.

𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘭, 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧.

[icyimp]

I believe in hate at first sight.

[icyimp]

How my depression feels, it’s how my heart feels like it’s covered in moss or strangled by thorn vines, slowly being suffocated with sharp pain.

I’m like a fawn made out of bones and moss

[icyimp]

Just because I’m posting here doesn’t necessarily mean I want to talk, I just want time to myself.

I don’t ignore / ghost people purposely, I just have a lot going on for me that’s really hard to deal with.

I will reply when I feel ready or don’t feel negative because I don’t want to put negativity onto others.

[icyimp]

I’m already antisocial why would I gaf if you stop talking to me.

[icyimp]

Back to bed after some more LSD, Good night or morning or whatever.

[icyimp]

This is not at anyone I’m close to btw.

I be wanting to tell people mid convo that I don’t care so bad.

[icyimp]

Had to say this because some man child got mad at me.

Just because I’m posting here doesn’t necessarily mean I want to talk, I just want time to myself.

I don’t ignore / ghost people purposely, I just have a lot going on for me that’s really hard to deal with.

I will reply when I feel ready or don’t feel negative because I don’t want to put negativity onto others.