#◤ they'll always haunt me i wish i could believe you'd never wrong me || asks ◢

[itafushism]

Gojo’s pov: those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me. I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me!

then will you remember me in the same way… as I remember you?

[pepperpixel]

“Those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me

I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me

Then will you remember me in the same way,

as I remember you?”

BABY WE BUILT THIS HOUSE, ON MEMORIES!!!! ITS MORE BETTY AND MAGIC MAN ART TIME!!!! AKA PepperPixel is completely obsessed w the dynamic of two people dealing w very similar trauma finding understanding and solidarity in one another!!!!! GHGHG JUST. I LOVE IT. I LOVE THEM. SO MUCH.

[yuugen-benni]

Port Mafia members and their songs !

ADA version - DOA version - The Flags version

Chuuya: (Arabahaki's reference)

''I can't escape this hell So many times I've tried But I'm still caged inside Somebody get me through this nightmare I can't control myself So what if you can see the darkest side of me? No one would ever change this animal I have become'' - Animal I have become by Three Days Grace

Paul Verlaine: (It's funny and sad to think that I chose this song thinking about the story between Rimbaud and Verlaine IRL)

''I'm sorry that I did this The blood is on my hands I stare at my reflection I don't know who I am Practice my confession In case I take the stand I'll say I learned my lesson I'll be a better man'' - If I killed someone for you by Alec Benjamin

Randou Rimbaud: (I would only put songs that are originally in English, but this song suits him a lot)

''And at every step I intertwine anger and reason Disillusionment, you brought it to my hand And it even burned But I'm always wearing a scarf to hide from this cold And a glove on my hand to hide from the cold What does your heart do'' - Cachecol by Kamaitachi

Akutagawa:

''Only care about myself 'Cause everyone's trying to hurt me Just leave me alone Just leave me alone Just leave me alone I just wanna be alone'' - Jealous by Eyedress

Higuchi:

''And I am the idiot with the painted face In the corner, taking up space But when he walks in, I am loved, I am loved'' - Me and My husband by Mitski

Tachihara:

''Bored, stoned, sitting in your basement All alone, cause your little conversations Got around, now look at what we all found out (look at what we, look at what we all found out) You have got a set of loose lips, twisting stories All because you're jealous Now I know exactly what you're all about And this is what you're all about Girl, you're such a backstabber'' - Backstabber by Kesha

Hirotsu:

''Old man, look at my life I'm a lot like you were Old man, look at my life Twenty four and there's so much more Live alone in a paradise That makes me think of two'' - Old man by Neil Young

BONUS:

Ango Sakaguchi: (I just could think about his special ability)

''Those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me Then will you remember me in the same way as I remember you? Baby, we built this house on memories Take my picture now, shake it 'til you see it And when your fantasies become your legacy Promise me a place in your house of memories'' - House of memories by Panic! at disco

[myanmardoesnotexist]

Songs that are Rosquez-Coded

Also included the lyrics that I feel are the most them!

Disease by Lady Gaga -

You're so tortured when you sleep Plagued with all your memories You reach out, and no one's there Like a god without a prayer

House of Memories by Panic -

Those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me Then will you remember me in the same way as I remember you?

The Chain by Fleetwood Mac

Listen to the wind blow, watch the sun rise Running in the shadows, damn your love, damn your lies

And if you don't love me now You will never love me again I can still hear you saying You would never break the chain (never break the chain)

The Good The Bad and The Dirty by Panic

I know what it's like to have to trade The ones that you love for the ones you hate Don't think I've ever used a day of my education

and

You've been gone so long I forgot what you feel like But I'm not gonna think about that right now I'm gonna keep getting underneath you I'm gonna keep getting underneath you And all our friends want us to fall in love

House of Cards by BTS

A house made of cards, and us, inside Even though the end is visible Even if it’s going to collapse soon A house made of cards, we’re like idiots Even if it’s a vain dream

Judas by Lady Gaga

I couldn't love a man so purely Even prophets forgave his goofy way I've learned love is like a brick, you can Build a house or sink a dead body

and

I wanna love you But something's pulling me away from you Jesus is my virtue And Judas is the demon I cling to I cling to

Please by Daisy Jones and the Six

Please, I'm down on my knees I have a family Please, it's an awful disease And it's getting me Merged with a terrible urge every night Please, if it's only a single bite

Teacher’s Pet by Melanie Martinez

Do you regret The things we shared that I'll never forget? Well, do you? Tell me that I know I'm young, but my mind is well beyond my years I knew this wouldn't last, but fuck you, don't you leave me here

Teeth by 5SOS

Fight so dirty but your love's so sweet Talk so pretty but your heart got teeth Late night devil, put your hands on me And never, never, never ever let go

get him back! by Olivia Rodrigo

Do I love him? Do I hate him? I guess it's up and down If I had to choose, I would say right now

I wanna get him back I wanna make him really jealous, wanna make him feel bad Oh, I wanna get him back 'Cause then again, I really miss him, and it makes me real sad Oh, I want sweet revenge And I want him again I want to get him back, back, back

Stupid Cupid by Jenna Raine (thank you anon for sending this song to me)

Here comes the distance sinking in The paranoia, wonder where you've been Conversation ends Sometimes I wish we never started, love's a moving target, oh And the next part is the hardest, yeah

[tippedarrows]

I opened freaking google docs for this omg- Nevermind, lemme put here a lil warning: eng is not my native language, so I might misinterpreted lyrics, also That’s mostly how I see certain pairings, you can see them differently ofc! Hope it’ll be at least fun..

Ocelord (Lukas/Aiden)

Angst Version:) House Of Memories – Panic! At The Disco. Feels like this would be their song in a scenario where they were dating before the WittherStorm, but broke up shortly after that cause Aiden couldn’t cope normally with Jesse being a Hero, meanwhile Lukas knew they should be thankfull to them. After Sky City events it’s Aiden who this song belongs to. If you're a lover, you should know The lonely moments just get lonelier The longer you're in love than if you were alone Memories turn into daydreams, become a taboo. He thought he would be fine without Lukas, but those believes faded very fast, so now it’s him admitting that he misses blonde boy. I think of you from time to time More than I thought I would You were just too kind and I was too young to know That's all that really matters I was a fool Aiden still can’t let go, he knows he’s the one who messed everything up, he knows Lukas was too good to him. Those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me Then will you remember me in the same way as I remember you? Baby, we built this house on memories Finally him accepting everything they’ve been through. He won’t try to pull Lukas down again, he knows blonde deserves better. The only hope Aiden keep is that Lukas kept the best memories of them to himself. More Of Happy Ending Version! I Bet My Life – Imagine Dragons. The scenario is basically the same, but this time Aiden actually redeems himself and refuses to let go so easily. He knows he’s been in wrong, he wants to prove to Lukas that he’s can be better and he will be better for him. I know I took the path that you would never want for me I know I let you down, didn't I? So many sleepless nights where you were waiting up on me Well I'm just a slave unto the night He remembers how he hurt Lukas, he’s ashamed of it, he left him all alone simple because of stupid rivalry thing with Jesse he made up for himself. I've been around the world and never in my wildest dreams Would I come running home to you I've told a million lies but now I tell a single truth There's you in everything I do Explanation how he spent time thinking about all thing he's done, wanting nothing more than be with blonde again, but declining the idea out of shame. Don't tell me that I'm wrong I've walked that road before And left you on your own And please believe them when they say That it's left for yesterday And the records that I've played Please forgive me for all I've done FINALLY he apologizing. Like, real mindful apology, admitting everything he done wrong without trying to justify it. They finally have a chance together again.

I've never done those things before and haven't seen anyone else do it (I know people did, I just didn't saw one ever before) so that's my first shot ig? Idk, if you'll like this one, I'll do the rest of them in no time!

oh woww I actually love those so much. the breakdown of the lyrics actually had me completely stunned. I was like.. hm.. I wonder how it'll line up and it went WONDERFULLY

both songs fit SO WELL!! I SEE THE VISION! Also your english was completely fine, I had no idea.

I absolutely loved this. so much.

[rocksibblingsau]

Ooooh, I have a Branch song that would fit. Refers to Brozone leaving. And maybe Poppy depending on the route we go.

The angst is real. I feel like this could to for an AV branch AU or just any Branch having a bad day, reminiscing about his life with Pop.

“I think of you from time to time

More than I thought I would

You were just too kind and I was too young to know

That's all that really matters

I was a fool

Baby, we built this house on memories

Take my picture now, shake it 'til you see it

And when your fantasies become your legacy

Promise me a place in your house of memories

Whoa, whoa, whoa

Whoa, whoa

Those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me

I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me

Then will you remember me in the same way as I remember you?”

Oh I love house of memories!

[searchingsomewhere]

All Too Well: Cursed Narrative, 3

{"Those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me. I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me."}

poly!Gojo x OC x Geto

Cursed Narrative Masterlist

Part 2

"Absolutely not."

Miho sighed, running her hand through her hair. She followed Satoru with her head as he paced across her bedroom. He still held the icepack to his head from his migraine, which he was laying down from when Miho's phone rang.

"Of course he doesn't want me there. Probably afraid I'll take him in, or kill him," Satoru was muttering to himself. "What could he possibly want?"

"Satoru-" she began.

"You're not going alone."

"What if he sees you and backs out?"

"You heard him; He can't keep her with him. I doubt he'll do anything crazy. He would have already killed her if he wanted to."

Miho bit her lip, looking down at the floor. If this little girl indeed was a curse user, it was unlikely that Suguru would hurt her. If anything, calling them was the right choice. She and Satoru had access to resources for the girl he might not. But something about that phone call stuck with her.

The bed creaked as Satoru sat down next to her. He wrapped his arm around her shoulders, pulling her close. Miho rested her head on his shoulder. His forehead was cold from the ice pack.

"I'm worried that...Satoru, what if I see him and..." she trailed off, unsure how to put it into words.

The gaping hole Suguru had left within them would never fully heal. That was something they both understood. Time had helped; it was more a old wound that acted up when it rained now. But what if the wound reopened? Could she recover? Could they? Miho chewed on the inside of her cheek. What if...

Satoru kissed her forehead. "I know. I feel the same way. But we can't think about him. We have to do this for the kid."

Miho nodded. He was right. They were only going for the little girl. Not him.

It didn't matter what her heart told her.

----

The plan was to meet at the Yoyogi Park in Shibuya, at one in the morning. The Sealing Sorcerer had requested somewhere public, and open late, because there was no way in hell she'd meet up with anyone that late in an alley.

She was rather unassuming, limping along with the click click click of her cane. Her long, tea length skirt swished around her legs as she walked, still in her campus uniform. Her dark hair was stark against her white blouse in the dim streetlight. Miho kept her hand in the pocket of her skirt, with her talismans. She wasn't overly worried- her escort was just up ahead.

The handsome blonde man waited for her patiently, wearing a dark suit that hid his broad, towering build. He wore dark green sunglasses even that early in the morning. It had been some years since they last spoke, but as soon as he was informed of the situation, it was if no time had passed between them at all. The man turned to her as she approached, nodding politely.

"Miho," he said, "Thank you for calling me."

"Thank you for coming, Nanami," Miho bowed her head.

"Of course. I wouldn't allow you to do something like this on your own."

Her smile faded as a group of people came into view. Kento straightened his back, stepping closer to her. It was a small group. Three humans and a large frog curse. The two flanking the group were Curse Users, based on the energy they emitted. She didn't recognize them; A man and a woman, both wearing duster jackets. Miho couldn't sense Cursed Energy from the person up front. The person leading the group wore a dark cloak with a hood that obscured his face. She knew they were a he, on account of the beaded bracelet on his wrist. Even in the dark, she knew the colors. Brown, green, and blue. Miho's heart thumped loudly. She swallowed nervously.

"It seems like I'm not the only one that came with company," Miho said loudly.

The group stopped just feet from them. The chuckle that came from him warmed her ears.

"I figured there was little chance Satoru would allow you to come alone," he said, tilting his head as if listening, "And from the feel of it, I was right."

His voice made her sick with nostalgia. Tears began to flood her eyes and she blinked them away. Miho gripped her talismans tighter in her pocket. Satoru was hiding his Cursed Energy, just as this man was, and yet he still sensed him?

"Suguru. The child," Miho urged. His name sounded strange in her mouth, like it would tie up her tongue.

Suguru paused. She could see his smile from where she was standing. He raised a hand. Kento instinctively placed his hand on the small of her back as if ready to pull her back at a moment's notice.

The frog curse opened it's large mouth. Inside was a little girl sleeping soundly. A part of her released her breath in relief. The frog's tongue slowly extended as if to not wake her, stretching across the distance to bring her to Miho. Miho handed Kento her cane so she could take the girl from the frog. It would be impossible for her to carry the little girl and walk with her cane. Miho crouched down, laying the girl on the ground to check her for injuries. There were bruises on her neck and back. Miho raised her gaze to Suguru slowly.

"Her name is Daiki," he said impassively, "She comes from a rather unfortunate background. Her family can't hurt her anymore."

There was an edge to his voice she didn't like. Miho gritted her teeth. So that was what it was. Part of her wanted to thank him from pulling the little one from such a situation. The other half could only imagine him reveling in the bloodshed it took to do so.

"You did the right thing by calling me," she said instead.

He opened his mouth as if to speak, then closed it. Miho couldn't help but wish she could see his face. See how he changed. How his actions had twisted and warped his face into someone unrecognizable. Because surely it had. She needed it to. She couldn't handle the idea of him looking at her the way he had before, after everything he had done.

"I'm quite interested in her wellbeing," he said.

"Is that so?"

Suguru chuckled again, turning to leave with a wave of his hand. Before he began to walk, he turned to speak over his shoulder.

"Give my regards to Satoru. I'll be in touch."

Miho waited until he had disappeared into the night with his cohorts before she could fully breathe again. Kento bent down, placing his hand on her shoulder.

"Are you alright?" he asked. His gaze remained concerned under his glasses.

"Yes, I'm fine," Miho managed a smile at him, "I'm just glad he was telling the truth. She seems alright."

Kento pursed his lips, picking up on words left unsaid. But he remained silent. The blonde Sorcerer carried the little girl while Miho walked with her cane. Miho took one last look over her shoulder, sucking in a breath.

----

Satoru was waiting for them a block away. He wore his blindfold. His migraine had yet to taper off. Even then, his head pounded, pain spiking with every second that passed by. It was an unfortunate side effect of his Six Eyes, one that only grew in intensity the stronger he became. Still, he had insisted on coming.

He spotted Miho and Kento rounding the corner. The Six Eyes Sorcerer rushed to her, pulling her into a tight hug.

"So he wasn't lying," Satoru said, gently taking Daiki's sleeping form into his arms. "Thank you, Nanamin. I owe you."

"I'll keep that in mind," Kento said, pushing up his glasses.

Miho was silent on the way home. Satoru eyed her from his peripheral. His phone buzzed in his pocket. He shifted Daiki's weight into the crook of his arm, resting her head on his shoulder while he checked his phone. It was a text from an anonymous number.

I'm eager to see you again.

Part 4

[bberetd]

How about 🎵, 📷, and 🦉for ask game ☺️

yippeeee, more asks 😋

based on this ask game

🎵 Last song you listened to?

Since I already answered in peaches’ ask, I’ll share the second-most recent song I listened to!

I have quite a diverse playlist 😅 if it sounds like a banger to me, then I’ll add it. That’s why I have over 500 songs in my playlist LOL. For some reason, I always think of Super Paper Mario when I listen to this song. I guess cause these are the lyrics:

Those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me

I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me

Then will you remember me in the same way as I remember you?

I think of these two imbeciles:

And for the memories part, a liiiiiiiittle bit of Mr. L.

📷 What's set as your phone's lockscreen?

S’mores cookies I made a few months back! It’s nothing like I’ve ever made, but it was super fun ☺️

🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl?

Depends on the day honestly, but for the most part, I’m a night owl. I’m able to wake up early and naturally (around 7) without an alarm clock, but I don’t like it, so I just stay in bed till 9. 🤣 As for nights, there are days where I’ll be up till 3 AM and not feel a single thing, but other days I’ll be knocked out dead at midnight. My sleep schedule basically said

[mangosmoothiepussyv3]

"Those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me

I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me

Then will you remember me in the same way as I remember you?"

anyways im having a normal one tonite what abt yall

[shonenlinkage]

Shonen Jump Power Linkage: House of Memories Animatic (SPOILERS)!!!

Here’s an idea of mine- an animatic for SJPL set to House of Memories by Panic at The Disco- Spoilers Ahead, though!

(Shadius is walking down the hallway of his base, looking at the portraits on the wall. The title appears, and it cuts to the emperor)

If you're a lover, you should know

The lonely moments just get lonelier

The longer you're in love

Than if you were alone

Memories turn into daydreams

Become a taboo

(Shadius looks at one picture- him and Lumi in their youth, enjoying their time as lovers. Shadius gasps and a flashback begins…)

I don't want to be afraid

The deeper that I go

It takes my breath away

Soft hearts electric souls

Heart to heart and eyes to eyes

Is this taboo?

(As Shadius is running into the forest, he turns a corner and discovers the legendary sword known as “The NightSlayer”. He pulls it out, and a bright red light flashes…)

Baby we built this house

On memories

Take my picture now

Shake it till you see it

And when your fantasies

Become your legacy

Promise me a place

In your house of memories

(Shadius and Lumi glare each other down before the two of them do battle. As they clash in the fight, both staff and sword go head to head, in for the kill, and the flashback ends.)

I think of you from time to time

More than I thought I would

You were just too kind

And I was too young to know

That's all that really matters

I was a fool

(Shadius then gets a report from Frieza, saying that he shot through someone who looked just like Tiberius Maximo Shelby, with brown hair and dark teal eyes. Shadius gasps, and another flashback occurs.)

Baby we built this house

On memories

Take my picture now

Shake it till you see it

And when your fantasies

Become your legacy

Promise me a place

In your house of memories

(Shadius rushes into battle with The NightSlayer against The Great Ten of the past, deflecting their attacks and countering against them. To him, this is nothing more than a test of strength against him- he doesn’t know he is being controlled against his will until it’s too late, and the flashback ends.)

Those thoughts of past lovers

They'll always haunt me

I wish I could believe

You'd never wrong me

Then will you remember

Me in the same way

As I remember you

(Shadius goes through the files of various villain linkers, and is shocked to see that all of them have been through trauma and pain- Victor Nefario, the Linker of Frieza, has trust issues, Caspian Henris, Blackbeard’s Linker, is stressed about the fact that his family restaurant is going to file for bankruptcy, Akane Horikawa, Orochimaru’s Linker, just wants to be liked for her love of reptiles, Darien Craig, Aizen’s Linker; wishes that his incredibly busy parents can come home from work, and so on so forth. This overwhelms Shadius to the point where a single tear falls down his cheek…)

Baby we built this house

On memories

Take my picture now

Shake it till you see it

And when your fantasies

Become your legacy

Promise me a place

(Shadius glares at his assistant, Thanoro, with a suspicious look, and then turns to the other villain linkers; who back away in fear- only for him to reach his hand out to them and smile, knowing that his humanity isn’t lost.)

Baby we built this house

On memories

Take my picture now

Shake it till you see it

And when your fantasies

Become your legacy

Promise me a place

In your house of memories

(As Shadius watches the villain linkers train with their partners, he remembers the times when he was a trainee- especially when he was fighting alongside his allies from years ago.)

In your house of memories

Promise me a place

(The third flashback ends, and Shadius looks at a pic of him and Lumi- knowing that there is still hope for him.)

[red-and-blue-glass]

One song I always connect with wkm is house of memories especially with dark and actor as a whole characters.

One part of I contact with are many different characters.

Those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me- actor @ Celine

I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me damien @ actor

Then will you remember me in the same way as I remember you? Abe @ wilford.

I can go so much deeper into this-

[iracxndiaa]

anonymous asked: I see on your blogs a lot that you really dislike the rpc ( the my hero one ) and I was just wondering why? - you don't have to answer Iwas jsut curious Im new here

hey anon i don’t mind you asking honestly, if you haven’t been a follower of mine long it can tend to be a bit confusing when i bring up how toxic this fandom / rpc tends to be. here are just a few things that i myself have encountered ( MY EXPERIENCE IS NOT EVERYONE’S EXPERIENCE ) :

I WANT TO CLARIFY BEFOREHAND THO: I HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE I LOVE IN THIS RPC, PEOPLE WHO I CONSIDER THE BEST OF FRIENDS AND WHO I’D GO TO BEFORE ANYONE I KNOW IRL FOR ANYTHING. YOU CAN FIND YOUR OWN GROUP OF PEOPLE, PLEASE DON’T LET THIS DETER YOU FROM HAVING FUN WITH YOUR FRIENDS.

when my grandma passed on christmas ( from what turned out to most likely be covid-19 ) i was already on hiatus due to her just being sick and me have to travel without my laptop because at the time it was broken. i was harassed by multiple people for threads / to answer asks etc. this only got worse and after my grandma died and i made a small post explaining the situation i was berated by anons and even openly by someone for putting roleplay to the side. and a few weeks later on my way home from her funeral i got into a car wreck and got told i was asking for attention by an anon

i’ve had multiple headcanons, partial character metas stolen from me, like literally copy and pasted from my account / about pages / posts.

if you rp a villain good luck honestly because i mostly rp villains ( canon and oc ) and i have literally been ganged up on in servers and told what i can and can’t do with my own muses because god forbid they act like a villain.

i have expressed opinions on situations within the community and have been harassed by fellow mutuals for even expressing my opinion and stating facts that have happened to multiple people and been called a bully ( while essentially having someone come at me very aggressively ) 

just the other i had to shut anon off on a blog thats in another fandom because i put it on a hiatus post and proceeded to get harassed non-stop to the point i had to shut anon off ( and while anon hate is in every rpc i very rarely see it within the fandom that blog is for )

i’ve had people become my good friends with only the idea of shipping / interacting with a certain muse and i got ghosted as soon as i unadd the muse for personal reasons

 and here is a small taste of anon hate i’ve gotten over on my multi ( @ikuinxn​ ) after saying the bnha rpc is toxic due to them trying to attack someone who roleplayed a hero for supporting the current protests / the black lives matter movement along with going on hiatus for my mental health not too long after.

[spicylove4ever]

Those memories of past lovers

They'll always haunt me

I wish I could believe

You'd never wrong me

Then you will remember me...

...in the same way as I remember you...

[sanguinealcholic]

when Brendon said "those thoughts of past lovers they'll always haunt me / i wish i could believe you'd never wrong me"

[lilacerull0]

Also, HOUSE OF MEMORIES by Panic! is also soooooo Amy-coded, I'm not much into some of their newer stuff (although that's just because i adore Pretty.Odd) but House of Memories fucks hard....

The lonely moments just get lonelier The longer you're in love than if you were alone Memories turn into daydreams, become a taboo

-

And when your fantasies become your legacy Promise me a place in your house of memories

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You were just too kind and I was too young to know

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Those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me Then will you remember me in the same way as I remember you

Omg I completely missed this ask (so sorry about that!), but YEAH!!! It's definitely her song...

will you remember me in the same way as I remember you

Kinda sick about this parallel, he's her dream, her story, his narrative is the foundation for her storybook and now she is all that for him (to me, this exact moment is where 12's introduction begins, this is who 12 is all about, also just super into the idea of there not being a clear line of separation between 11's farewell and the beginning chords of 12's arc, that's a very Amy-like concept)... beautifully haunting and horrifically wonderful stuff.

[how-the-feathers-have-fallen]

prefacing this: low-key just thinking out loud in your askbox, sorry

I just wrote down a theory about why House Of Memories is definitely about Ryan Ross, just based on my own thoughts, and then after reading other interpretations, I low-key almost wonder if it could also/actually be about Dallon? (not romantically) because the relationship is described to have been "built on memories" which I almost think could mean that the friendship/work thing they had was mostly built on brenodn missing Ryan, and wanting to keep his band alive.

therefore, the song is actually about brenodn missing his band members, or missing the feeling of actually having band members rather than just having the industry, rather than solely missing the close relationship he had with Ryan, or missing a past relationship

House of Memories.... I actually always though about this in the back of my head but I always thought I was reaching. Like even Death of a Bachelor he sings "People have told me I don't look the same. Maybe I lost weight, I'm playing hooky, with the best of the best, put my heart on my chest" etc etc. Every time I heard the highlighted parts, I always went a) no honey you lost all your band mates and b) this feels more like a confession song rather than a song about mourning being single. Also "If you're a lover, you should know. The lonely moments just get lonelier. The longer you're in love than if you were alone." Really sounds like he's trying to let go of Ryan/pre split panic because he misses what it was like. Also this line: "I think of you from time to time. More than I thought I would. You were just too kind and I was too young to know" is just really telling. But also, fuck this entire line: "Those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me. I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me. Then will you remember me in the same way as I remember you." This is me just briefly singing the lyrics to myself so if you have any more ideas do tell because this is really getting my brain whirling