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chthonic-cassandra · 1 month ago

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Was trying to articulate something about dynamics of pressured disclosure in my professional world and how I've tried to make sense of that and hold the stance of people deserving privacy while also struggling with the deep aloneness that if I did disclose a lot of things about myself that would not be welcome to many people, but I think really the point is just something about safety and confidence and being secure in the knowledge that it's not anyone's business that I'm queer or mentally ill or a survivor or pagan or whatever and if they think I'm weird because of the way I dress or the things I do or don't participate in etcetera that's not my problem. And it's a tremendous relief to be in an environment where I am respected and valued enough that I can do that.

And also that's nice to embrace my religion and gothiness and particular relationship to femininity more and to not care that my physical presentation (clothes + shoes + hair + body hair + perfume + [lack of] makeup) is to totally illegible to most people.

#there's a limit to how weirdly i can dress because of the nature of my job but i am very pleased with what i have landed on #also to be clear i have not actually recently changed anything significant in my extremely consistent self-presentation i just #a) feel a little more confident in it and b) have the financial security to buy nicer things #none of these things should be a big deal but lot of people can't countenance even something mildly outside of their expectations #remembering a couple years ago when a coworker (no longer with our organization thankfully) asked me what i was doing for christmas #when i cheerfully said i didn't celebrate it (or hanukkah either) you could see her brain short circuit in real time #personal

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fisheito · 4 months ago

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If you ever feel insecure about your yapping just know that I binged your entire account for the past few hours and I was hooked. Like your account to me is what cocomelon is to toddlers you have no idea how happy you make my overly stressed student heart 😔❤ (Anon because I have anxiety (for now))

??!?!? i have enough stuff on here to entertain you for HOURS??

....huh. guess i've amassed quite a hoard. porntime surely does fly....swim.move fast

#another ask that made me pace the room and stare at it for several days because i didn't know how to respond #hands at my hips. countenance scROmnched and befuddled #you managed to go through this entire thing??#that's like.. me talking for hours and you're nodding your head in agreement the entire time #i check in at hour 2 asking 'YALL ARE STILL PAYING ATTENTION? THE HrNK?'#OH... IT FEELS LIKE...#being a lecturer of a tiny specialist 4th-year graduate seminar #and all 6 of ur students are freaks who WANT to be there and listen to you talk for hours. which is. astonishing #glad you picked up on the hesitation in yapping because i'm always insecure about yapping #as i've mentioned before #this *gestures to blog* is LOUD for me. i hold back a looooooooot of thoughts #infinity unpublished drafts. thoughts left unwritten. self doubt shutting down (horny)posts before they materialise LOL #i see the more unhinged bloggers and i press my face against the glass like #i want to be like that.... i wish to be free...#well. practice is everything. and the longer i stay here the higher the chance of losing some hinges #anyway. thank u for the ask😊#and hypothetical head nodding for hours while i distract you with shiny words and shapes 😆#the student grind is brutal. gotta harvest those good chemicals wherever you can........#maybe i'll draft up some previously-deemed-unworthy thoughts to add to the yappery #feesh answer

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disrealities · 7 months ago

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Invesigrave system.

A flag for systems who feel a connection to, feel represented by, and / or just like Studio Investigrave games!

This could also be systems with a lot of fictives / introjects of characters from their games (Deadplate, Cold Front, Eloquent Countenance, Elevator Hitch, and any upcoming content!), or any other way the user identifies with this!

The colours of the flag were inspired by Winnie and Augustine from Cold Front!

[pt. Investigrave system.

A flag for systems who feel a connection to, feel represented by, and/or just like Studio Investigrave games!

This could also be systems with a lot of fictives/introjects of characters from their games (Deadplate, Cold Front, Eloquent Countenance, Elevator Hitch, and any upcoming content!), or any other way the user identifies with this! .pt end]