#⊲ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴏɴᴛ ʙᴇ sᴀᴅ ғᴏʀᴇᴠᴇʀ ﹣ sᴛᴇғᴀɴ sᴀʟᴠᴀᴛᴏʀᴇ ⊳

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“ I'm not afraid of you.... Not anymore..” // umm Silas? Ripper Stefan? Honestly whoever wants to play

❛   -  you  say  that,  but  i  can  HEAR  your  heart  beating,  faster  .  .  .  and  faster  .  .  .  you  can  pretend,  but  your  body  can't  stiles,  so  why  LIE  ??   ❜   stefan  replied  as  he  stepped  closer  toward  stiles,  the  tips  of  his  fingers  lightly  trailing  over  his  throat  before  they  coiled  around  it,  squeezing  it,  using  it  as  leverage  to  push  him  back  roughly  into  the  wall.   ❛   it's  okay  to  be  AFRAID,  you  should  be,  i  could  tear  your  heart  out,  i  could  drain  your  body  of  every  last  bit  of  your  BLOOD.   ❜

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stefan's  eyes  were  on  her  the  entire  time  that  she  spoke,  taking  in  each  word  that  left  her,  letting  more  thoughts  swarm  about  his  mind.  to  know  that  she'd  been  watching,  had  listened  to  the  many  times  he  sought  to  remind  damon  that  elena  was  not  katherine  .  .  .  but  that  had  originally  been  what  brought  him  back,  to  know  if  she  had  been  with  a  million  questions  in  his  mind  about  her.  it  had  also  been  too  EASY  to  pour  the  emotions  of  the  past  into  elena  and  tell  himself  that  they  were  all  for  her.  but  the  big  pending  question  that  he  couldn't  be  honest  with  himself  about  -  was  were  they?

there  wasn't  a  word  that  left  katherine's  lips  that  he  could  try  to  point  out  as  a  LIE,  because  he  had  loved  her  for  everything  that  she  was  once,  and  the  freeing  feeling  of  back  them  seemed  more  like  a  ghost  of  the  past  now.  his  soul  was  lighter  then,  he  didn't  feel  the  lead  weight  on  his  back  as  he  seemed  to  now,  and  none  of  the  feelings  he  felt  were  FAKED,  he  just  preferred  to  lie  to  himself  that  she'd  made  those  feelings,  planted  them  into  his  human  mind  because  he  fought  to  play  the  PERFECT  good  guy,  and  that  couldn't  have  been  someone  madly  in  love  with  katherine. that  thought  alone  brought  a  sigh  to  pass  his  lips.  covering  himself  in  lies  didn't  mean  the  truth  didn't  exist,  but  perhaps  some  STUPID  part  of  his  mind  had  thought  that  elena  would  never  be  around  long  enough  to  see  through  the  smoke  and  mirrors  -  she  had  been  human,  he  was  a  vampire.  closing  his  eyes  momentarily  he  cut  off  the  train  of  thought,  not  wanting,  even  internally  to  admit  to  the  idea  that  elena  had  been  some  stop  gap  for  his  HEART. when  his  eyes  opened  again  he  was  watching  katherine's  retreating  form,  leaning  his  head  back  to  settle  on  the  roof  of  the  car,  looking  up  at  the  dark  sky  above  -  the  stars  that  filled  it  all  more  apparent  from  the  lack  of  lighting  surrounding  the  area. stefan's  eyes  only  left  it  when  he  heard  a  rustle,  and  though  animal  blood  was  nothing  like  the  real  thing,  emotions  came  rushing  with  the  one  thing  all  vampire's  felt.  HUNGER.  pushing  himself  up  he  decided  against  trailing  after  katherine,  instead  heading  toward  the  sound  to  sate  the  never  ending  hunger  that  plagued  him  and  as  the  warmth  trickled  down  his  throat  he  pondered  once  more  katherine's  offer  of  aid  when  it  came  to  being  able  to  feed  like  every  other  one  of  them  seemed  to  be  able  to.

The quiet between them came as no surprise. Katherine is well aware Stefan is a man of few spoken words. Most are either thought or written.

She assumed he was in his head when he hadn't replied to most of what she was saying. She knows it wasn't ignored. No matter how much Stefan hates someone he isn't Damon. He doesn't have the ability to just turn off his hearing and ignore you. If you speak it reaches him- what he chooses to do with that however is the part that matters, whether or not he addresses it.

That actually was the surprise. That out of all of what she had said, that was what he had picked to ask her about.

what  girl  do  you  think  i  wish  you  were

It's a complex question. Not because she thinks she will get it wrong, but because she knows that she's right even if he doesn't see it.

"I watched you, for a lot longer once you returned to mystic falls than you think. I saw all or your arguments with Damon. How often you told him and Elena that she wasn't me and thats what you loved about her."

Katherine closed the car door and leaned against it, looking up at the sky to the cloud covered moon.

"You poured all your love for me into her because she's who you wanted me to be. A girl not capable of the things I've been forced to do to survive. Someone who could claim innocents and actually look like she could fit it." Even if she doesn't.

"You spoke about her compassion and my lack there of.... but mostly... Stefan shes... she's not as hard to love as me. She's not as damaged. She doesn't have five hundred years of baggage you have to sort through. Shes a soft simplistic white, while I am a rorschach test made with blood."

She was quiet for a moment before she spoke again.

"But may I remind you. That you fell in love with me because I challenged you. Because I wasn't like the other girls in town. Because I was crafty, intelligent, playful. None of those things you love about me were faked Stefan. I am still the girl that you claimed what you didn't know about me couldn't sway your love. If I remember right, you said it just meant more of me to love."

She remembers that night so vividly she can still feel his lips on hers.

Katherine pushed off the car and started walking towards the check in office. She figured it was self explanatory where she was going. He could follow, or he could wait for her to come back. She didn't care either way. She just wanted him to think about it.

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Stefan, Is it true that Klaus is ur boyfriend?

❛   i  must  have  missed  that.   ❜

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𝚒𝚝  𝚠𝚊𝚜  𝚝𝚘  𝚋𝚎  𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚍,  that  with  his  humanity  seemingly  back  in  place,  stefan  was  consumed  by  GUILT,  a  guilt  that  was  only  made  worse  when  his  eyes  fell  to  stiles  who  now  resided  at  the  boarding  house  alongside  them  -  the  consequence  of  stefan  giving  in  to  his  hunger,  into  the  RIPPER  nature  he'd  thought  to  be  locked  away.  now  someone  innocent  had  been  dragged  into  the  mess  alongside  him,  a  new  vampire  to  keep  an  eye  on,  someone  he'd  formed  some  sort  of  CONNECTION  to,  though  now  he  tried  to  avoid  facing  it,  facing  him  to  instead  lock  himself  away  into  STARVATION,  his  own  set  punishment  for  his  crimes.

he  couldn't  IGNORE  stiles  forever  though,  he  lived  there,  needed  to  understand  how  to  be  vampire  -  one  that  didn't  tear  apart  towns  and  feed  on  everything  and  anything  in  sight.  damon  had  left  that  to  him,  and  stefan  thought  that  was  a  HUGE  mistake,  caroline,  or  pretty  much  anyone  else  would  be  better  at  this  than  him.  but  he  sucked  it  up,  finally  leaving  the  room  he'd  turned  into  a  cell  to  contain  himself  and  made  his  way  down  the  stairs,  staring  at  stiles  for  far  too  long  before  finally  addressing  him.   ❛   hey  .  .  .   ❜

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"Stefan do not put your tiddies away in fact please continue to have them out and also to remove the rest to complete the set."

❛   if  you  want  a  SHOW  katherine,  you  only  need  to  ask.   ❜

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nothing  in  life  was  free,  stefan  was  more  than  aware  of  that  &&  that  was  double  the  case  when  it  came  to  klaus,  he  wouldn't  just  GIVE  him  what  he  wanted,  even  if  he  said  please.  then  again  what  did  he  have  to  offer  -  nothing  close  to  what  he  wanted  last  time  around,  but  he  also  wasn't  about  to  DIE  there  because  he  couldn't  keep  his  tongue  from  moving.   ❛   me  simply  being  here  not  enough  ??   -   well,  how  about  you  tell  me  what  you  want  in  return  ??   ❜

ㅤㅤ❛❛ indeed it does ⸻ and yet you continue to be unpleasant, ❜❜ he stated, tone reproachful. was it too much to expect a manner or two? had he fallen so far that it was expected that he would simply roll over and do whatever it was that stefan needed? he resented the idea. ❛❛ are you least going to have the decency to offer me something in return for this favor i may do for you? or is that beneath you? ❜❜ @fcrgedinpain.

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She's only giving him this look because shes fighting the urge to climb him like a tree and kiss him so deeply he can't breathe till she lets go.

they  were  so  close  -  he  could  feel  her  breath  kissing  his  face  and  was  not  oblivious  to  the  tension  that  was  THICK  in  the  air  around  them,  for  a  moment  his  own  breath  halted,  trying  to  hold  back  his  own  drive  to  send  fingers  diving  into  her  waves  of  hair,  hold  it  tight  and  close  the  small  gap  between  them.  but  she  was  so  tempting  right  there,  looking  at  him  like  that,  a  single  move  made  to  move  some  of  hair  that  dared  to  drift  and  hide  some  of  her  features  from  his  gaze.

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"I wish you actually understood me." (Stefan)

stefan  didn't  know  what  words  to  speak  in  response  to  her  automatically  -  his  brows  furrowing  just  a  little  as  he  tried  to  ponder  the  meaning.  perhaps  he  would  have  cast  it  aside,  when  his  mind  was  rooted  into  nothing  but  SPITE  for  her  and  not  wishing  for  there  to  be  any  understanding  between  them,  but  he'd  been  open  with  himself  on  that  fact,  on  trying  to  bury  things  deeply  within  himself  so  he  could  PRETEND  it  didn't  exist. so  instead  he  reached  out  to  her,  claimed  a  hand  securely  in  her  own  to  draw  their  eyes  to  meet.  ❛   help  me  understand,   ❜   he  replied  finally,  his  eyes  wanting  to  reach  out  to  her  more  than  his  words.  he  wanted  to  understand  her,  he  was  there,  he  was  WILLING  to  and  gently  his  thumb  brushed  against  the  back  of  her  hand.   ❛   i'm  here.   ❜

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Stefan do you eat ducks

❛    i   make   a   pretty   decent   duck   ragu   if   that's   what   you   mean.    ❜

[fcrgedinpain]

stefan  was  an  overthinker  -  something  they  seemed  to  share  before  words  even  left  their  lips,  and  as  days  went  on,  as  their  conversations  got  deeper  he  moved  himself  in  a  little  closer.  the  block  he'd  put  on  things  with  katherine  was  slipping  open  like  a  door  to  something  unknown,  DREAMS  came  a  little  lighter  with  a  gift  of  her  face  present  yet  not  with  the  HATRED  he'd  tried  to  pour  into  every  utterance  of  even  her  name,  it  was  even  something  he  looked  forward  to.

he  was  far  from  IGNORANT  when  it  came  to  the  blossoming  of  the  feelings  lurching  his  heart,  drawing  him  ever  nearer  to  closing  all  gaps  between  them.  where  the  simple  thought  of  holding  her  to  him  left  a  smile  on  his  lips  that  he  even  tried  to  hide  from  himself  from  the  start  -  because  where  did  he  go  from  that  ??   it  was  complicated.   they  were  complicated. silence  had  fallen  on  him  as  they  found  themselves  in  yet  another  motel,  and  as  usual  there  was  no  qualms  from  katherine  at  leaving  him  to  his  thoughts,  yet  the  burning  question  on  his  mind  had  been  how  ??   how  did  he  show  her   ??   how  did  he  approach  a  touch  that  had  been  used  against  her  as  a  way  of  wordlessly  opening  his  heart  that  he'd  tried  to  force  shut  to  her.  it  had  to  be  PERFECT  so  he  thought,  had  to  be  meaningful,  had  to  be  planned. the  night  air  called  for  him,  walking  himself  to  the  door,  though  as  he  opened  it,  he  shut  it  swiftly  after,  letting  his  eyes  dance  toward  the  door  that  separated  them. perhaps  it  was  LUCK,  chance,  or  something  completely  ordinary  that  had  the  barrier  between  them  opened,  that  his  eyes  fell  to  her  and  his  HEART  urged  him  forward.  that  the  feelings  blinded  him  to  the  point  where  it  had  to  be  now,  that  in  no  time  his  lips  were  where  they  had  always  been  meant  to  be,  pressed  to  her  own  before  further  words  could  pass. the  single  act,  the  knocking  down  of  everything  he'd  tried  to  put  in  the  way  of  the  feelings  of  the  past  had  him  truly  FEEL,  had  him  expressing  a  love  that  no  one  else  could  make  him.  there  was  only  her  -  in  his  heart  it  was  true,  he  loved  her  and  only  her,  and  this  was  what  LOVE  was  suppose  to  feel  like.

❗❗❗ - from Stefan

Send " ❗❗❗ " for your muse to suddenly and unexpectedly kiss mine.

They had just settled in for the night. Another long road trip. At least this car was comfortable since she'd had to switch them out. She does that every so often. Remember shes a pro at running.

Stefan wasn't and she could tell the constant long car rides were getting to him. Katherine had decided to cut the time she would usually travel in one shot in half. For him. So he could stretch his legs, take a walk. Even leave for a little bit if he wanted time alone.

Katherine had thought she heard him leave while she was in the bathroom turning the deep tub to fill with hot water. He could walk, she could soak. They both could think to much and process the talks they'd been having....

Noticing she forgot her phone, Katherine opened the bathroom door back up and went to her bag to grab her charger too.

Before she knew it she felt a little gust of wind and then suddenly-

"Stefan? I thought you-"

Before she knew it he was pulling her into a kiss. It was almost cause for a panic, she didnt have any time to process what had just happened... but unlike everyone else. Even if almost every time before when he kissed her it was part of a trap- she let herself fall into it. Honestly whatever was about to happen was worth it. So even as the scars on her heart waited to feel a dagger or a vervain dart- Katherine kissed him back. Deeply.

It wasn't till a few seconds in that she noticed there was no other shoe to drop. He wasn't setting her up. He was kissing her. HE was kissing HER.

Any reservations she had disappeared and Katherine melted into it completely. You could say that she gave herself over to him completely, but that wouldn't be right. She always belonged to him, she had given herself over a very long time ago... she was simply sinking into the arms she had always belonged to.

Pouring every ounce of love she had for him into the kiss. Every movement begging him to understand the greatest truth she ever had to offer him was ' I love you. '

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Dont do it Stefan or the dick shaped ducks will get you

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"No, don't put yourself down like that…" (Stefan)

❛   it's  the  TRUTH  katherine,  i'm  weak  because  i  don't  feed  on  blood,  and  i  can't  keep  myself  in  CHECK  when  i  do  have  blood  and  lose  myself  along  the  way  and  need  to  be  DRAGGED  back  out  of  it  .  .  .   ❜   he  sighed  rubbing  his  jaw,  trying  to  pull  him  out  from  the  self  deprecating  mood  that  had  taken  over,  but  being  away  from  mystic  falls,  it  just  being  the  TWO  of  them  sent  his  mind  into  a  spiral  of  thoughts,  one  by  one  having  to  come  to  TERMS  with  a  lot  of  things.   ❛   i'm  just  so  hungry   .  .  .   ❜ it  was  NEVER  a  good  thing  -  hunger  was  a  constant  anyway,  but  the  more  his  emotions  spiralled  after  everything  that  had  happened,  leaving  his  home  behind,  the  worse  it  seemed  to  get,  and  the  worse  his  mood  them  also  got  in  turn.  he  reached  out,  taking  her  hand,  needing  something  to  ground  him  so  he  didn't  just  GIVE  IN  to  it  all.  they  were  going  to  work  on  it,  katherine  was  going  to  help  him  through  it,  but  that  didn't  make  it  EASY.

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Special 'fertiliser' ?

❛   very  special  ‘fertiliser’   ❜

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How does one grow titties?

❛   a  good  fertaliser  and  lots  of  handsy  partners.   ❜

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"Nice titties."

❛   grew  them  myself.   ❜

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𝚟𝚊𝚖𝚙𝚒𝚛𝚒𝚌  𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐  𝚠𝚊𝚜  𝚊  𝚋𝚕𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐,  to  hear  the  single  snap  of  a  twig,  the  BEATING  of  a  heart,  the  simplest  whisper  of  a  breath  from  lips,  it  told  a  story,  whether  it  was  one  consumed  by  FEAR,  or  the  desperate  attempt  to  warm  from  biting  cold  that  clung  in  night  air.  it  was  like  a  living,  breathing,  warning  sign,  with  impossibly  fast  reflexes  to  avoid  being  snuck  up  on,  not  that  many  dared  to  try  such  a  thing  when  they  KNEW  of  the  creatures  that  lurked  in  the  dark  -  but  it  was  these  exact  signs  that  told  stefan  he  was  being  followed,  even  as  his  HUNGER  raged,  they  prey  of  the  night  just  within  reach,  it  would  have  to  wait  for  a  little  while  as  the  rippling  veins  coursed  back  to  his  eyes  which  snapped  in  the  direction  before  practically  disappearing  from  the  spot  he  had  been  lurking.

fingers  grasped  to  the  collar  of  the  STRANGER,  no  one  he  knew  from  what  he  could  ascertain,  but  it  was  exactly  who  he  was  now  to  presume  had  been  following  him  through  the  darkened,  practically  moonless  night.  fangs  threatened  to  push  from  behind  his  lips,  to  spark  FEAR,  yet  he  caught  himself  from  the  mistake  that  could  be  blamed  upon  hunger  if  nothing  else.   ❛   why  are  you  following  me  ??   ❜   it  was  a  simple  question,  though  there  was  an  edge  of  DANGER  to  the  tone  he  used  when  asking  it,  so  close  to  the  line  that  would  be  a  breaking  point  to  his  internal  FIGHT  against  what  he  was.