#“if theyre a fragment how are they an introject---”

[withered--s0uls]

"Damn why am I more sensitive to ppl mis interpreting stuff about this character today----"

The Fragment Alter who is a Fictive Introject of that Character, sitting somewhere in distant co-con:

[evilsystem]

things we experience in our system that makes us feel like we're faking a little bit (but are entirely normal)

having mostly (like, REALLY mostly) introjects

splitting really quickly after watching a show/movie (etc)

seemingly splitting with no reason at all

having access to "too much memory" (i dont)

not having memory holders, gatekeepers, protectors, prosecutors, etc.

adding on to that last one, most of our alters dont have any traditional 'role' at all. sometimes theyre just chilling

(these days) having to force every switch since im totally frontstuck

finding it difficult to stay out of front

having fragments form and then basically disappear, never really resurfacing again

switches feel almost like im not the one whos changing, its like someone else is just passing through and into me. like ive just changed from wearing pink tinted glasses to orange ones

being traumatized by source memories/exomemories

having many alters form at once (call that bigeneration? i need to write this down,)

somewhat having power over splitting??? kinda????

changing/adding sources after already being split

going weeks without hearing from other alters

sometimes 'forgetting' how to switch ??? the action becomes almost muscle memory so if i think about it too hard i can get stuck mid switch

ill add more as i think of them but. maybe you can relate to some of these

[butchlesbianmike]

Tower Tarot System Headcanons (Mike & his system)

Under the cut are my detailed headcanons for mike, his backstory, and details about his alters. Note that i've changed some 'canon' stuff and added a few new alters.

TW: There will be mentions of Parental Abuse such as neglect and implied physical and emotional violence. There will be mentions of Sexual Abuse relating to Mike & Vito.

Keeper

• System Aware • One of the main Gatekeepers. More of a state of consciousness than an alter. Not sure how to explain it even as a system myself but basically more of a concept and a fragment? It is not really an alter that another alter could just come up to or interact with. • Was created by the horrid neglect and abuse endured at the end of the system's mother which from a young age made clear they would not be able to function without amnesic barriers separating states of consciousness/ego states.

Lucia:

• 5 - she/her - System Unaware, became dormant until Mike went to therapy. She then became system aware. • Alter i created for their system. Sarah is a child alter and technically the first host the system had but quickly became a rarely fronting part due to varying traumatic events between the ages of 3 and 5. Her age got frozen around 5 years old. She also stopped being host at that age after a harshly traumatic event. • System is unsure if there are other parts younger than her, she is the youngest identifiable host.

Chester:

• 56 - He/Him - System Aware - One of the gatekeepers • Split off around 4. • Introject of their grandpa on their mom side. Very important to Sarah and was very kind and took good care of the system.Their mom was incredibly neglectful and their grandpa is basically who raised them. Their mom cut contact with their grandpa after a fight between them. • Losing their grandpa alongside the constant abuse now worsening from being around their mother more did lead to a split. • Chester appears very grumpy because they found it funny whenever he would go on rambles and complain about silly things to them but also because they were hardly ever allowed to express negative emotions or frustration around their mother and so Chester became a part that held a lot of those negative emotions they didnt feel safe expressing.

Svetlana (Went by Lucia) :

• She/They - Ages with body - not quite system aware, notices things but very much normalizes them. Becomes system aware once Mike gets a girlfriend and also starts exploring gender. • Split off around 7 when their mom started signing them up for competitive gymnastics. (They were already doing gymnastics before, but competitive only started at 7). • Main cohost for a long time. Helped Sarah and Lola with learning gymnastics and handled competitions due to their mother being incredibly abusive during tournaments and competitions. • She wasnt really aware she was cohost, she felt like this was her life but she kinda saw it as like.. "oh i just feel more like myself in my element! Gymnastics is just really important to me and its where i thrive everybody say they have masks depending on if theyre at school or at home or with friends!! I guess my mask just comes off when im doing gymnastics :D". • She thought that the Russian accent was just a bit she was very dedicated to and what helped her 'get in character' for competitions. That it was just her trying hard to be like those russian gymnasts they really like on TV to feel more confident. • She always felt uncomfortable with being infantilized and felt much older, but everyone around them would say they have an old soul so she assumed that must by why. • She discovers she's a lesbian around when the body's age is 14. • She is one of the alters alongside Vito who causes Mike to realize something isn't adding up and reach out to try and get therapy. • Did not like Mike's girlfriend and actually really disliked being referred to as a guy. This was actually a main source of conflict between her and Mike and another reason Mike started feeling something was wrong because he realized that the dysphoria he got seeming more masculine or being perceived as more masculine didn't feel like it was Actually Him. • She often would be very distant and even cold to their girlfriend because she realized that they were a system and that she wasn't Mike and that actually his girlfriend was hurting them. • After therapy and system work and being acknowledged as her own alter, her relationship with Mike got a lot better and they agreed on keeping some feminine stuff for her to wear whenever she's front. • Actually really likes Zoey and tries really hard to hint that she also likes her. She and Zoey actually start dating too.

Lola (Went by Lucia):

• She/her - 10 - system unaware until she stopped being host. She became system aware when the body was 12 and that she got yonked and became more of an internal alter and very very rarely ever fronted again. She was under the care of Manitoba and Chester in the headspace. • Another system kid and previous host, she handled life from 6 to 12. • She and Svetlana were really fronting together almost all the time and switching between eachother frequently, although rarely experiencing blackouts more than greyouts. • While she was a host from ages 6 to 12, she stopped aging in the headspace at 10. • A huge part of this was due to how rocky elementary school was. They were changing schools left and right and it was really hard to keep up with all the constant changes. Around 10 she lost one of the only friends she had managed to make and due to their already fragile state, this was distressing enough to halt her development as an alter in itself. Svetlana mostly started being the main host from 10 to 12 although Lola was still there and at least cofront a majority of the time. • Starts fronting a bit more after Mike starts doing system work (Body age around 17).

Mike:

• He/They - Ages with body - First Host to become system aware. • Split off around 12 due to stress bcuz the system moved in with their dad because their mom no longer wanted to be responsible for them nor pay for their highschool necessities. • He became host because he didnt carry much of the traumatic memories related to their mom, didn't have system awareness, and was fairly functional with school and with their dad. • At first he had it a lot better than previous hosts and was one of the most stable host for a short while which made it that switching didn't frequently occur except here and there or when triggered due to x y z. • That changed about 8 months after him being host. A month before turning 13 he started figuring out that he had a crush on a girl and might be a lesbian. • Not only that but also started getting a lot of gender dysphoria, even feeling uncomfortable with a lot of his clothes and even pictures of him in his gymnastic outfits and competitions. • Nothing much came out of the crush except heartbreak which did kind of shake things up for the system. Mike felt things very profoundly and the heartbreaks of feeling like he would never find love because he likes girls destabilized the system a bit which led to more frequent switches- especially at school to continue functioning with the classmate mike had a crush on. • Around 14 Mike finds out more about things identity wise and starts thinking he might be a transmasculine butch lesbian, but isn't sure of himself because he feels his identity is very shaky and constantly changing so he settles on being genderfluid. (This confusion is mostly caused by Svetlana who also is discovering she's a lesbian btw). • At 15 is when the big bad happens for Mike. He gets his first girlfriend who happens to be older and more experienced than him. She sees him as a trans guy, even though he tries to explain he isn't. She is very forward and sexual to him, which freaks him out. She is constantly trying to see his chest and fetishize him especially when he's binding. • At 17 after a long time seeing a therapist due to the previous events, he found out he was a system and has been doing system work with his therapist for a year now. This is the same year he signs up for total drama.

Manitoba 'Jones':

• He/Him - 21 - System Aware • Split off around 13. • Introject of Henry 'Indiana' Jones from specifically 'The Young Indiana Jones Chronicles'. • Chose the name Manitoba to distance himself from his source, although he finds high comfort in it. • System Historian / Internal Helper. He also frequently takes care of the syskids and takes them on adventures in the headspace. • Very rare for him to fully front but he likes to come sit around front whenever anyone watches action movies. • Is actually the one that handled breaking up with Mike & Vito's girlfriend because neither of them felt like they could and when he figured out what was going on he got very protective.

Vito:

• He/Him but later on uses any - 18 - System Aware • Split off around 15 because of Mike's girlfriend of the time. • Split off as a sexual protector and hypersexuality symptoms holder. • Sexualizes himself a lot because it makes him feel in control and desired. Feels like because 'hes a guy' it means he has to like and enjoy it bcuz thats what a real man would feel. • Gets triggered front everytime anyone in the system loses their shirt because of it creating dysphoria and PTSD. • Was actually the most heartbroken when they broke up with their shitty ex girlfriend. He loved her a lot and saw himself as her boyfriend more than Mike did, even if he knew deep down she wasn't good to them. • Is the alter that, alongside Svetlana, made Mike realize something wasn't adding up and start talking to a psychologist and getting therapy. • Started unpacking a lot of his relationship but still holds a lot of the system's hypersexuality symptoms and has a weird relationship to gender as he feels like his 'gender' as a 'guy' is affirmed through having withstood their ex' abuse and 'enjoying' it. • He is actually nonbinary but it takes him a while to figure that out and only really figures it out AFTER total drama.

Mal:

• He/She/It - Ages With Body - System Aware • Persecutor/Misguided Protector. Split off during total drama all stars. • Mal split off with the belief that to win the game you have to be selfish and self preserving and manipulative. • He feels that Mike is "Too soft" and "Too kind" to survive let alone win the game. So he decides to play it by 'their rules'. A rule that Mal perceives to be the only way to make it through. • Due to splitting off with the belief of needing to replace Mike, she actually looks very similar to him in the headspace and while she doesn't like it she finds it very easy to imitate him and sees it as a way to protect the system by imitating Mike to win the show and get everyone away. • She thinks Mike is too 'naive' and 'trusting' and Mal sees that as a weakness others in the show will exploit and abuse so he decides to distrust everyone including the people who the rest of the system feel are safe like Zoey and Cameron. • It doesn't come from a serious place of malice more than a maladaptive coping strategy where Mal is in constant survival mode and unwilling to let his guard down in case the system gets hurt and he KNOWS that its bound to happen being part of total drama. • This is reinforced by the fact that Mal split off with memories concerning their ex girlfriend and knows how deceiving people can be, especially seeing how some of the people on the show have tons of red flags that reminds her of Mike & Vito's ex. • He tries to protect the system by constantly trying to force herself front and by betraying people and playing 'the villain' so that no one will hurt them and that they have more chances to win if they're the one to strike first and he lashes out and gets angry when the system calls him out for it because he doesn't understand why they dont see what he sees. • After a lot of therapy and help from the system and Zoey and Cameron, Mal unpacks and unlearns a lot of the harmful ideas she split off with and also starts exploring herself outside of 'Total Drama'. A lot of her identity is tied as 'Mike's only hope to survive total drama' and its a lot for her to work through. • She gets on much better terms with Zoey later on, but it does take a very long time to build up that trust between them even if Zoey understands where Mal was coming from.

[cherinepup]

inbox: 5 (reqs closed!! will reopen as I finish them!)

hello! this is a blog for help with headmate creation, by a system, for systems.

why?

sometimes you have a fragment or other that needs help with fully forming, or you only have a very vague idea for a headmate you want help creating!

who r u?

hiii heyyy its Vivi and the Creeps, a monocon sys of ~30 members. we have too many ideas we barely get to commit to so Im hoping this can help others as well. our mogai blog is kiruliom

other stuff

while this blog relies on requests there will occasionally be freestyle ideas, these are free to use by anyone for any sort of inspiration. please be aware that 'headmate theft' is often done involuntarily, be kind to eachother etc. etc.

headmates may not develop exactly as we describe, thats okay, and thats normal! we will not be upset and neither should you!!

this blog is antirq and 'trans//systems'. we are anti syscourse and endo safe

req info under cut! pls read rules as well!

so, how to request?

well, however you want! it can be as vague as you want (x introject), or as specific as you want (lesboy catenby headmate with x, y, and z, no a or b but c is ok. angel theme). you can even make a little sheet for it like this

names: love themed

pronouns: he/kiss/pup

species: cherub puppy anthro

etc: etc.

literally go crazy! Ill try to stick to the guides given. do make sure to include stuff you dont want (ex. NO desirdae/aldernic/etc.)

rules:

there are a few non-gender/species/attraction liom terms I wont do because I feel I cant understand them fully and am therefore not fit for it, but again, theyre few. ones Im for sure okay with are: alterhuman terms, desirdae, aldernic, dissomei, to be added.

we only do one headmate at a time! no subsystems, sentispaces, etc. (because we dont have them and dont know enough abt them). you can send several asks but please, one request per ask if possible.

we're still a very new blog, and were mostly going into this blind, advice and stuff is welcome!

heres the template we'll use! (you can also request by partially filling this and leaving the ones you cant figure out blank. if you dont want something remove it or specify it)

names:

pronouns:

gender:

orientation:

species/alterhumanity:

system roles:

identities:

other: (usually personality traits go here)

faceclaim:

[its-no-biggie]

omg do you guys wanna hear about the church family tree from my rvb fantasy au. i spent quite a bit of time working it out bc, since its fantasy, theres no ai and i had to figure out how it would translate lol

this will contain mild spoilers for my au but a) it doesnt exist yet and b) most of them are derived from the plot of rvb so theyre kind of already spoiled. so. anyway, on to the actual post

ok so first off. church (alpha) has DID. so all the ai fragments exist but theyre no longer ai and theyre in his head the whole time. and this includes beta!tex (tentatively called beth? since tex also exists. we'll get to that). it also includes epsilon which will be. interesting. i have some ideas for how to handle that but its kinda besides the point.

the director is churchs father, and allison is churchs mother (who dies when church is a kid). the director is also carolinas father, but carolina has a different mother, so church and carolina are half siblings. tex was also raised by the director but she is not blood related to any of them - she bears a coincidental resemblance to allison (in personality, not necessarily physical appearance), which is why the director favours her over carolina (keeping the carolina/tex favourite child tension, of course). i havent worked out exactly when the director took in tex, but if it was early enough that the director named her, he probably would have named her allison (i mean, he also named his son after himself in this au. you know he'd do it, ESPECIALLY if allison is already dead at this point) and she chooses to go by tex or smth. alternatively, the director named her tex the same way he named the other freelancers like washington and york, keeping the whole "leaving your old name (read: old self) behind when you join the freelancers" thing from canon, meaning that her previous name (and whether she had one at all) is irrelevant. hmmm now that i say that, its probably the latter tbh

now, i may keep beth being based on allison, but while i know what an introject is, i dont know if i feel comfortable really. representing one. so it may not be CANON canon but itll probably be canon to me. additionally, church is raised separately from carolina, tex, and eventually the other freelancers [the freelancers are kinda like a family in this au btw. but like a fucked up hierarchal one. and church is completely isolated from it even though the director is "raising" him. anyway] for plot reasons, but he coincidentally runs into tex one day as kids and they meet in secret for years until tex eventually helps him escape the director. which is to say. beth will likely pick up traits/mannerisms from tex just by virtue of tex being churchs only friend in childhood, combined with the fact that allison and tex are kind of similar in personality. so shes blood related to allison and potentially an introject of her, and has spent a lot of time with tex/knows her very well, so shes gonna have similarities to both of them but she is ultimately her own person. in churchs head.

uhhhh i think that covers it? anyway this means i get to write interactions between tex and beth which will be extremely fun. i like tex as a character and itll probably be difficult to decide how to characterize her in 2 different ways (plus allison but shes gonna be dead for most of it so i dont really have to worry about her) and then to have them interact? they would be chaotic besties i just KNOW it

[system-society]

hi! we are a newly-discovered system! we have three questions:

is it possi8le to tell if a fragment is an introject?

can introjects 8e different from their sources?

is it possi8le to completely suppress a system due to stress?

sorry for any confusion! thanks for the help, it’s greatly appreci8d!

it can! Depends on how you define fragment. If theyre just a concept or emotion sometimes it can be hard, but if theyre a little more developed just not “full” you can tell.

Absolutely! This is very common!

Yep! Under stress the brain hides the system in order to protect you.

[ogeeitsme]

Oh! I’m really glad you talked about alters gaining new memories because we were confused about how a fictive has memories from way before their source was created. We have a theory about them being a fragment that adopted the missing info from the fictive because there were so many similarities between the two already. What do you think? -💚anon

That’s valid!! Ok I kno the word valid is like rlly redndnt,,, b it’s a thing that can hppn!

I suggest talking 2 them more abt it, mayb even talking 2 older mmbrs 2

Tbh it also reminds me of Syd, who’s rlly rlly recent JSNSJSNJ

Before coming out, she’s tchnclly the same case almst? Except leaning towards this othr we hav

She’s a fictive of ianowt, n we think mayb she got assigned by Big Brain 2 hole even older memories of a certain prson even Jamie n us 4got- like I used 2 rmmbr them b when I asked 2 forget the brain was like backpeddlig KANSJSN

Like, Syd came 2 the sys as THOSE as her 1st memories- so she like holds years of stuff b @ the same sucky time she has her own source memories 2 deal w ??? It’s rlly wild

We’re not sure if she was sppsed 2 b a memory holder of more detailed stuff than our vague 1nes or if she just rmmbrd them (YEARS of it all @ once :^( )

We have shared memory so if ur a mmry holder here it’s not gnna last more than a week until the Biggr Members like me, Chara, or Jamie find out what ur holding in there- unless ur like Chara n can hold it from som1 or lock it actively

Also fictives can have memories of the past 2 anyway in gnrl I think- mayb they came w havin memories of it alrdy, or mayb the brain can throw it @ them via flashback city in. E middle of the day KNSKS

Ppl talk abt repressed memories a lot, I c it in a lot of sys srvrs- n they talk abt if headm8s in genrl can b assignd or b a new split 2 hold older memories thn they tchnclly existed

N like tbh that’s what makes it hard 2 distinguish whethr or not they came out of dormancy or not b we think it’s pssble 4 it 2 happen 2,, Bc y shldnt it b possible? Mayb whatvr Those mmries r, the brain is like, aftr trying w process them or havin them repressed, or just letting them float in the BG, it decided 2 throw it @ someone like a very L8 hiring job KSJSJ

Anywy sorry I can’t answ u clearly, we’re not experts so all we can uslly giv is our obsrv8ion n experience!!

O YEA if theyr a fragmnt who adoptd a fictive role then u kno, I think that can happen

Idk how fragment 2 fictives work tho- bc “split as a fictive” is what every1 agrees is a fictive, b a split who adopts a source even if they were born as smth is not a fictive, b they wnt b mad if u say fictive ish (bc this is if u replace fictive w introject- they r not an introject)

BUT idk how it is w fragments, as we nvr had them so we can’t rlly talk abt it! Like we r not credible 2 JSSJJSN if u r part of systm srvrs on discord, mayb ask arnd? Srry I kno that’s off topic frm memoriesJSJSJS ok ignore me

(More exmples of us fictives rmmbring older body memories than they exist: me 👀, Sal, Peter, Chara, Syd [chompy dsnt count bc she was like 1 of the 1st splits lol])

[endeeringsys]

these will all be sorta ordered not in frequency/importance bc HA not feasible tbh thatd be impossible bc we’re all over the place but rather ordered in clusters of who are mentioned most/have a lot of presence and broken up into groups a lil but ofc there’s lots of intermingling and crossover of alters and their various relations to one another

/ these are kinda the main crew of ppl who kinda are like our core alters who are closest to hosts in the big picture of things - most of them have been around a pretty long time and contributed the most to our system + are just generally rly important to know

james/genevieve • (they/she/he)  • bi trans/nb  • 

ezra  • (they/she)  •  agender  • 

Eleanor  • (they/she) • agender • protector hypersexual and probably jsut a ghost but in the past they presented as if an angel and alien - has an icelandic accent?? and alter memories of how they died (in iceland, presumably) and is a wife to james & adoptive mom to gaylor. doesn’t front too often or chat very much but always feels like she’s looming around like our gay matriarch lmao

emery  • (they/them)  • agender aro ace • have been dormant since the start of the year - we thought they were our core or whatever but we eventually found elsie n did some speculation and so we think rly emery was just our main host for a large part of our late childhood thru early/mid teens but they....dont like the rest of us alters much. they didnt want us + got upset at the prospect of being an alter themself so theyre not around anymore. not technically a *ghost* host but they did literally think they were dead bc mentally illness + the confusion of years of james’ actual ghostly passive influence . so consider them ghost kin i guess

kaelin  • (he/they/”whatever”)  • nb.. boy? who knows if he even still is, not him tbh • autistic gay nerd w special interests of cosmetology (namely hairdressing), monster factory, and sweeney todd (we all like these things but he is RLY into them. also he loves cows.) he has a very close relationship w ezra & they grew up together n depended on each other a lot of our childhood

angeline  • (she/they)  • girl & likes other girls • age-slider & trauma holder

gaylor  • (she/her) • lesbian, GAY-lor, if you will (she named herself well) • 

elsie/chelsea  • (she*/they) • toddler/trauma holder, possibly our “core”/”original”?? • * she prns are ok but please dont refer to elsie w terms like “girl” and “daughter” bc they trigger her flashbacks when used in certain phrases so try to be neutral n say kid if u can

"soft boy"  • (they/she???)

/ (w the exception on penelope - all these dude lovin’ dudes always hang out or at least associate w each other + kaelin also)

Penelope  • (she/they) 17/18 yrs • lesbian furry like. straight up an anthro rainbow cat she’s p cute and is pals with bear (naturally)(#mlm wlw furry solidarity)

jude/bear  • (he/it) ~18 yrs • gay ace guy, sorta age regresses or smthin like that - he loves scene/emo/furry culture circa 2007-2010 from our childhood. he is also, a Huge Furry (fursona is obviously a bear)

caleb  • (he/him)

martin  •  (he/him)

holden  • (he/him)

daren  • (he/him)

rory  • (he/him)

/ these are all kind of intense goth-ish girls that associate w each other

Allison/winona/Aberdeen/anna/aladine  • 19 yrs

Tuesday  • (she/her) ~20  •

Josephine  • (she/they) ? • non-human kinda aloof sheep girl who had kinda a weird obsession-y/worship-y delusion thing with eleanor idk but she’s good now ; she loves dressing like Really Extra and idk what she qualifies as but she’s like humanoid and has ram horns and has a purple tinge to her pale skin and has freckles of varying purple shades, whatever she is isol also is

eden/chrys  • (she/they) early 20′s idk  •

/ mix of miscellaneous alters that dont come around as often nowadays/ the long dormant, fragments, introjects, etc* just kinda if u wanna know who else we have if they come up or front

ghost  • 

nora  • 

nick  • 

amber  • (she/her) 17/18 cis pan girl  heathers (mcnamara) fictive

alcide  • (he/him) 30′s-ish ?? bi/gay questioning dude True Blood fictive fragment and protector

johanna  • (she/her) fragment, sweeney todd fictive

Lillian/iris  • (she/they) everybody’s supportive older goth sister™ very dark aesthetic heavy makeup but she’s real kind +nurturing + has a stutter. kinda id's w emma from glee

Fran (he/they) used to grow up with kaelin and ezra as teens but it’s kind of like a complicated thing ???? hasn’t been around in forger since reappearing early this year a while so i forget how they all get along now

Candace/candee (any spelling)/dee  • (she/her) ~16 yrs protector/motherly figure literally so sweet and darling, she loves vintage 50′s clothing and that whole style and is such a dear, calls u a million pet names and will bake u a pie after taking care of ur traumatized ass

mimi  • (she/her) 17 yrs vocaloid (hatsune miku) fictive has like been around since we were about 10-11 but came back recently, she’s very bubbly and loves britney spears. will compliment you + want to be ur bff 

pearly  • (she/it) ??? yrs ; adult  protector non-human alter just sorta a big bipedal wolf were-creature but acts like a big puppy. basically gay’s sidekick (pearly is 3 times her size but they LOVE each other)

mar (Marceline/Marcie)  • (they/she) 19 yrs dormant since last year but they used to be a subsystem and thats where gaylor came from and thru used to be in a relationship w ezra who helped her thru a lot. then and today they both treat gaylor as a little sister

lisle  • (they/she)

isol (pronounced “ee”-”soul”) • they/he/she?? everyone including isol has like. no grasp on their gender tbh • age?? like joseph its hard to tell bc not human • they acted as host for a month or two in a rly rough span of time during school Hell + theyre also humanoid type of person and has ram horns and is very light skin with blue freckles

jonny/alec  • (he/him) 15/16 yrs trans guy was in mar’s subsystem, persecutor i think - he’d say a lot of really hurtful things to other alters and harass them about their gender/misgender them n just be really awful to especially the “ghost hosts/ghost gals” (james,ezra,eleanor; allison wasnt around yet)

L • not comfortable sharing much about him at all. abuser introject. will not come out around others or online so do not worry about him

marla  • 23 yrs

"accent alter"  • 

jim  • 

briar  • ur big nerdy older brother. tuesday scared him tf off so he’s only fronted once or twice but he’s a sweet dude, formed when we were 10/11-ish? and when we found him recently he was naturally like. rly confused rip

[hexsystem-blog]

1-10 !

Do(already did 6)

1. How many alters do you have? we’re aware of about 30 but that number might be slightly high because we arent the best at distinguishing between fragments/shards/whatever and actual alters 

2. What’s everyone’s name? idk if this means ‘list the name of everyone in the system’ or ‘what name does the system as a whole go by’ but im gonna answer for the latter. the system as a whole goes by ‘sol’ irl, which is the name of a previous host 

3. Describe your headspace HMM i think alot of us who front pretty frequently arent really all that aware of headspace. i personally cant access it. some of us who are “further away” from front have described it as a big house! also i think several alters who dont front frequently have compared it to a theater/auditorium with a stage??? 

4. Does any of your alters have a different fashion style? oh my GOD yeah uhhh ok eris, kolya, and shiloh all wear exclusively black because theyre all goth. sebastian dresses like a twink and has a lot of rainbow stuff. red and pj both like wearing super comfy clothes. red in particular Does Not go anywhere without a hoodie on and he always has to have the hood up

5. What’s your alters’s interests? ooh ok well we have some interests shared by almost all the main fronters–linguistics, uhhh megaman, music, drawing etc…as far as the interests of specific alters i know sebastians super into mineralogy, blight is interested in speedrunning, red likes creepypasta, and ….. kolya……………likes skyrim…….a lot 

7. What’s everyone’s favorite activity to do in their free time? we all play video games a lot. if miriam fronts while we’re not busy she’ll usually clean our room or try to organize something. pj…………………really enjoys grocery shopping? 

8. Do you guys get along? ksjgfsdfg WELL we arent SUPER dysfunctional and we tend to do pretty well getting along on a day to day basis. when we were less self-aware and had worse communication, we definitely didnt get along well. however the 2 main persecutors who used to threaten to kill the body all the time (kolya and eris) have chilled out pretty much completely since weve gotten better at communicating. Alters like copy and marie, who seem almost completely cut off from the rest of us, tend to be hostile towards the body + other alters. same with the several abuser introjects we have lol. Other than that most of us are buddies or at least tolerate each other 

9. How would you describe your relationship with everyone in your system? i am the newest alter, i only split off sometime within the last month. i consider myself closest with sebastian (since afaik hes who i split off from) and kolya (since thats who sebastians closest to) and honestly other than that i havent really gotten a great chance to Personally know everybody. so…acquaintances? who i already know a lot about due to sharing some memories with seb? hgdfcv

10. Is anyone in a relationship or have a crush? sebastian and kolya are like obsessed with each other. like romantically. But i dont think they consider themselves to be ‘in a relationship’. i dont think anyone situated particularly close to the front would want to say theyre in a relationship with another alter because its just too different from irl dating. Miriam says some of the people who spend most of their time in headspace might form romantic relationships in there