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Oh to be loved like a cat
Bitter and lonely straight men who feel unloved by women do not seem to understand that women do not love men the way they think women should love men. Women who love men romantically don't love them with admiration, as a wise authority figure or someone they can rely on like children rely on their parents and belivers trust in their god. They love men the same way that they love cats.
Their weird hairy little house gremlin whose thoughts and feelings are occasionally utterly incomprehensible and expressed in strange ways, but who still clearly tries, and still clearly loves. Women love them despite of the home renovations they unpromptedly do.
#this is good because of you were an authority figure how would you be able to bite your loved ones#i am this I am this yes#“cat man” is a totally normal gender to have
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Stray Kids Reacts to their Partner's Death Scene
Plot: You're an actor, and you've landed a role where your character ends up dying - a first in your career. You watch the movie with your boyfriend and gauge their reaction. Pairing: Stray Kids x gender-ambiguous!actor!Reader Total Word Count: 1.4K Tropes: idol!AU, actor!AU, established relationship, reactions Contains: death of reader's character, various shows of anger, pouting, hurt/comfort(?), cuddles and/or implication of cuddles, teasing A/N: Follow up to the ATEEZ version, which you can find here. Special thanks to connected storyteller Haru (@umbralhelwolf) for suggesting/requesting these ideas a while back.
Bangchan - Head over heels for his lover, he'd ask so many questions about the film as soon as you get the role. But, no matter how much he knows, he'll sit with you and watch intently. He's likely to make small comments on design and direction if he likes it, even if only slightly. Oh boy, when you're on screen, though. Heart-eyes, that bright twinkle, an ear-to-ear smile - man is in love with everything about you. And that's exactly why you didn't tell him that your character gets killed towards the end. Even if you're the main character's best friend and all of the audience is attached to you, you don't have the plot armor to live through the movie. When your boyfriend figures this out, he jumps to his feet with his head on a swivel between you and the screen. Laughing at his reaction, you pause the movie and let him rant about the betrayal of killing off the most loved side character, with small interjections about how believable your acting has become.
Lee Know - Mostly just enjoying a new slasher movie, he forgets that you're in it until he sees your first on-screen appearance around midway through the film. Suddenly, you watch his interest pique, like a dog hearing the word 'treat' or a cat hearing the can opener. Although he doesn't speak much during the movie, you know him well enough to read his body language. Seeing how much he clings to your character, you almost feel guilty as their death nears. In a dramatic chase, your character accidentally falls into a trap set for the killer, giving the killer a perfect opportunity to kill them off. Even if the death happens off-screen, Minho's reaction to your desperate screams for help hurts you. He tenses, knuckles white as he balls his hands into fists. You rub his back to keep him calm, and he resists reacting until the ending credits roll. He pouts about killing off his favorite character, especially making it someone else's fault entirely. He'll insist on rewriting it and doing it the "right" way, but you both know he's only joking around as an excuse to compliment your skills.
Changbin - Excited that you asked him to come with you to the premiere in theatres, Changbin dons a nice outfit that matches yours and follows your lead. It's the first big-name movie you star in, so he's excited to experience it with you, especially since you have a bigger role in a satirical horror film. He has no idea what to expect, so he has big reactions all night. By your death, he caught onto the theme of killing off the main characters - in stark contrast to normally killing off the side characters in other horror films - so he expected the death and chose to zone in on your acting. The death, however, isn't where his reactions are best; the ending, where everyone revives after the curse breaks, gets a strong reaction out of him. He finds your zombified acting adorable and lovingly teases you about it for days.
Hyunjin - Jumpy baby only agreed to watch your film in the safety of a blanket burrito, armed with snacks that wouldn't cause a mess when jumpscares inevitably startle him. Although there are plenty of classicly-timed scares in your slasher, he never adjusts. Half the time, he doesn't even know when you're on screen since he's hiding his eyes so often, but when he sees you, he calms down a bit. It's funny since you're a villain, but it's nice to know that your presence calms him - no matter the situation. Teaming up with the killer gets you through most of the film, but the others eventually figure out your stance and bait the killer into getting you. Hyunjin, only loosely following the plot, feels betrayed by the group and insists that they could've approached your character better than simply presenting them with death. He also picks apart the killer's lack of loyalty - as if the character isn't a total psychopath. After the movie, he urges you to choose a softer script next time, as he wants to enjoy your acting more without the threat of your character's death.
Han - As a fan of horror movies, he predicts your death from the moment he figures out that you play the main character's love interest. Although you pout about him analyzing your film, he insists that he'll still love seeing the movie, even if he knows what happens. As you continue watching, you find Jisung leaning forward whenever you're on screen. This is especially true during your death scene, as he interlaces his fingers and uses them to cover his face, leaving room for his eyes regardless. He doesn't want to watch you die but admits that your acting is too good to look away. After you're erased from the remainder of the movie, he chooses to talk about your acting instead of watching the movie as closely as before. Through his compliments, he admits that you might be made for roles involving death, as he found that scene to be one of his favorites.
Felix - Although he's excited, the jumpscares require cuddles. He encouraged you to try a new genre when you felt a bit off about work, so he's glad that you had fun filming horror, but his excitement and anxiety melt together as he sits down to watch. Luckily, the film doesn't play with too many jumpscares, so he can watch in your arms without much issue. When your death scene approaches, you feel his grip around your arm tighten. He uses your arms as a barrier, shielding his eyes from the scene. Reaching for the remote to pause, he pouts about not warning him about the plot point.
"Your acting is too realistic for me to watch something like that!"
He'll scold and ask whether the plan was to make him cry. If you bring up his sadder parts in music videos, he'll insist that his acting isn't as good as yours so it isn't the same. His reaction will wordlessly beg for cuddles for the remainder of the night - which, of course, you easily comply with.
Seungmin - As he sits down, he jokes about how it can't be too scary if you have the second lead - poking fun at you like normal. Brushing him off with a quick response, you play the movie and ensure subtitles are on. As the movie progresses, you find your boyfriend holding your hand in his lap, squeezing during scares or intense moments. You can't help but smirk at how scared he seems after his claim before the movie started. When you're backed into a corner by the killer, the suspense has Seungmin on edge; it almost feels like he'll crush your hand with his. He doesn't react much outwardly, but after the movie, he talks about having to join you in movies next time, saying that you'll be a lead couple in a romance film. He never says it outright, but all of his comments are his roundabout admission that he loves your acting - especially when he comments on how he would've thought you really died if you weren't there with him. You make sure to comment on the fact that you nearly lost a hand watching with him, making him more dangerous than the movie's filming.
I.N. - He's seen your acting plenty of times, and he always compares you to big-name actors. He is your biggest fan, so of course you bring him to the opening night of the first film where you play the main character. You didn't tell him anything about it and even hid the trailer away from him, so he didn't know he'd be walking into a paranormal thriller. However, he expected to be okay - you're the main character, after all, so you have plot armor. So he thought. After a dozen or so close calls, the end of the movie nears. In the final scene, the creature drives everyone insane, resulting in the main character driving themselves into a ravine. Although uncertain of the outcome, he turns to you with wide eyes, clearly asking for an explanation. When you leave the theatre, he rants about how they can kill off the main character, wondering how they plan to make a sequel or anything related to the film. You assure him that you might not have died, but he continues ranting about them killing you off, not stopping until you interrupt him and distract him with a kiss.
#cultofdionysusnet#kpop scenarios#kpop imagines#kpop reactions#stray kids#stray kids scenarios#stray kids imagines#stray kids reactions#skz#skz scenarios#skz imagines#skz reactions
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— Is “psycho” a slur? —
My easiest answer to this question: ASK IF A REAL PERSON IS OKAY TO BE CALLED A PSYCHO. If not, then you are not calling the person with ASPD, BPD, or any other PD a psycho.
Listen to the people with personality disorders, not the people who claim they are allys so they call everything ableist that can hurt our pretty sensitive disabled heart. There is a chance that someone is made the label their own. And someone is not okay with it. No, you don't make a fucking a poll where everyone can vote, and even the neighbours cat can puke on the reblog button. YOU TALK TO A REAL PERSON, YOU ASK. End of story.
Personality disorders and especially Antisocial Personality Disorder are often associated to “being a psycho”.
And you especially met with this term in RepComm while reading.
“EWWWW REPCOMM AND KAREN TRAVISS AND KAL SKIRATA IS FUCKIGN ABLEIST DON’T READ IT OR YOU’LL BECOME ABLEIST YOURSE-“

When I mention TODAY to someone that I have personality disorder, people are being like: okay and you are eating that with fork or spoon?
You call out ableism because you heard it somewhere that being called a psycho is ableist, and calling out ableism gives you browney points on tumblr.
“Psycho” is not a slur. Sometimes not even the self-diagnosed psyhopaths know about the existence of the term of ASPD (that's how personality disorders are not in every speech!!!), they just now that something is wrong, because they always hit walls around people. Psycho or sociopath was the closest that you could name this condition in the early 2000's.

Nulls being called a psycho is not Kal Skirata’s elaborate trick to enslave the nulls or whatever the fuck anti-kal people comes up with. People with pd-s are mostly self-aware. Being always fucking self-aware is why we know that we don’t fit in.
Someone with personality disorder is extremely important to be self-aware, that's why name-erasing, mental-health erasing cause more harm. You don't say shit like to a pd that "you are completely normal, there is nothing wrong with you, carry on" because the next time we actually do something mentally ill™, you will be the first to call us "fucking psychos".
(yeah. I know. so much we, and them, and us, like I'm one with ASPD too, I'm trying to figure if I have more personality disorder than BPD, and probably have.)
In this age where everything is within reach via internet, people truly forget that media is accessible written by different generations, and when I see younger people engaging with the Republic Commando series TODAY in 2024 with today’s tumblr sensitivity standards, I think: vod. Are you aware that the first book came out in 2004, TWENTY YEARS AGO? The accessibility to everything is great but it totally messes up the ability to see TIME CONTEXT. And this time blindness can truly mess up communication between different generations too, causing rifts and we end up invalidating other’s experiences if we are not careful.
“But there were more progressive books even before 2004” - Probably. Only we didn’t have an entire library of progressive labels of genders, sexuality, phobias and MENTAL ILLNESSES AND CONDITIONS.
Not in everyday speech. If no one talks about it, you won't know the concept. You don't know how to ask questions aside from "what's wrong with me?"
WATCH OUT! SLURS INCOMING!!!!
In the early 2000’s and before if your teachers hated you, your parents weren’t educated (or just didn’t care), or your parents themselves never got proper treatment for their neurodivergency, there is chance that YOU ALSO didn’t have a chance to get a proper diagnosis for different types of neurodivergency as a child.
children with dyscalculia were called lazy.
children with dyslexia were called retards who can't even read.
children who were fine playing alone were the weird ones.
autistic people? You mean rain man? Or those braindead retards shitting themselves and throwing fits and should have been euthanized if their parents had any love for them? Oh no you are not autistic, stop being oversensitive to noises and shit and people bullying you for your special interests is not bullying, they are just trying to involve you sweetheart.
ADHD? Problem children with behavior issues.

Antisocial Personality Disorder? Psychos. Problem children. HOOLIGANS. DEVIANTS.
Sounds familiar? No? Then I am truly happy for you.
People like to use this quote to prove that the Nulls didn’t have mental illnesses, it’s just Kal who spread the rumors about them, and the Nulls weren’t more than your ordinary bad behaving children. Because Vau is an outsider, therefore more reliable and objective narrator about the Nulls and because fuckkalskirataingeneral. Yeah. Sure. But we are talking about Walon Vau.
Walon “my father beat the living shit out of me as a child but I turned out fine” Vau.
These kind of abused people In real life with the exact same mentality tell you that you don’t have a problem, you are just oversensitive. You don’t need therapy, you just have to man up. Don’t take pills because pills are for pussies. YOU DON’T HAVE MENTAL ILLNESS, YOU ARE JUST A BAD CHILD. Generational trauma is fucking shit and affects everybody.
Walon Vau alone deserves a separate post about his non-existent mental health. And Sev, now that he was mentioned here. Sev is especially heartbreaking, seeing how Nulls as psychos are treated, and how Sev as a psycho is treated in the books.
This blurb is born from the thought that the Nulls are having Antisocial Personality Disorder and I’ve come to this conclusion because they are constantly called psychos, the most common label people used for this kind of behavior patterns they show throughout the series.
ASPD or Antisocial Personality Disorder and the usage of this name is encouraged in scientific circles because the symptoms and traits of psychopathy can’t be measured objectively anymore. Psychopathy is a neurological/hormonal condition, but no longer its own sickness, because other non-related disorders, diseases and illnesses can mimic the symptoms of psychopathy for eg.: DEMENTIA.
If you ever wonder how can a 80 years old person who never showed any sign of aggression before just go and brutally kill their neighbor for a sole treebranch hanging over the fence and littering the garden with leaves, there is a chance that something is not alright in the brain anymore.
Emotions developed healthy with healthy self-restraints and and self-control will not let you do socially unacceptable things like killing to solve problems, just because your brain tells you: BASH THEIR FUCKING SKULL WITH A ROCK.
Every emotional response are hormones and neurotransmitters in work. Brain is responsible to give the appropriate response to each situation we are facing. If you have hormonal problems, or neurological conditions, different brain structure than a neurotypical people, there is a chance, that these responses are not working as they are intended, you will have different or more extreme emotional responses to things, or not having at all.
So that is why we don’t use the terms of psychopath today as an individual sickness, because PSYCHOPATHY ITSELF IS A SYMPTOM of various conditions! People with psychopathy, the “psychos” are usually on the spectrum of ASPD.
So again, repeat after me like I'm Dora the explorer who put you on gunpoint:
ASK IF A REAL PERSON WITH ASPD IS OKAY WITH BEING CALLED A PSYCHO. IF NOT, YOU DON'T CALL THE PERSON PSYCHO. END OF STORY.
#project: nulls with aspd#null arcs#ordo skirata#kal skirata#walon vau#republic commando#repcomm#star wars
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maybe it's cause i'm new here but i'm a bit confused when people say kazui is gay. not that he isn't potentially queer or anything but like. in cat he seems like he wants a non-commited relationship with people, kind of hook-up culture-ish (he wants to be a cat (which aren't loyal like dogs), the drunk confession, etc). at the beginning he seemed like he wanted to sleep with her "i just wanted to touch, to caress" but not wanting the whole marriage deal (outside of conforming to what a man is expected to do). the marriage is a magic trick because he doesn't want it. even in half the lyrics are things like "my heart will float away and disappear" and "the scales of my heart has decided to sway" which does make it seem like he loved her at some point, but its changed. not that he never loved her, but he doesn't want a full commitment, he doesn't want that responsibility. he could be bi, pan, aro etc, but saying he's gay and never actually loved hinako doesn't sound right to me when in half he's the one who wants to touch, wants to be close, but she's distant from him and wouldn't notice. but maybe i'm just stupid idiot idk i keep getting insulted when i try to express this. sorry if this ask got sent multiple times
- no I agree. Kazui has very clear and solidified themes of "avoiding responsibility" and wanting a "non-traditional" adult life to me. The alcohol and nicotine may be just escapism, but also just a desire to live more carefree and unattached.
I will say though that my interpretation of him is still mostly leaning towards gay because of mention of his childhood friend, and the person of the bartender (that doesn’t necessarily have to be a bartender) that appears again in Cat. Kazui is all about concealing the details, so if something is minor but has showed more than once, keep your eyes peeled.
It's not that I think it's all his childhood friend or even the same man necessarily, I think it just shows something he's trying to conceal but can't help himself. It's the same as that woman at the bar in half. I don’t think she's important, she just symbolizes... well, women. And he doesn't seem very interested in her at all.
Plus, he mentions lying all his life, trying to "be as he was born as"(internalized homophobia/heteronormativity?), but where the core of the apple is (heh) is in the line "I wanted to be loved like a Cat". It's in the album cover, and the MILGRAM portal entry says it's the line that summarizes Kazui's character, paraphrasing it roughly. Cat in Japanese is "neko". I encourage you to research its meaning in Japanese slang.
It's not that I think he didn’t love Hinako. Is just that he believed marriage could turn his platonic love into actual romance and sexual attraction. "Maybe there's something I'm just not getting?"—that sort of thought process. A lot of people point out Kazui as a liar but forget he was likely lying to himself, most and foremost. Denial.
Again, can't discard the alcohol as possible escapism. Maybe he would've been totally okay with having a married life with another man. Or a married life without sex. Or as another gender? I don't know. I think it's fair to have another interpretation and even project your own queer experience in the character, not even exclusively in theory territory, but also headcanon. God knows I have.
I've seen people not take his age into account and the times he was probably born in when discussing the possible queer side of the character—it's already not easy now, but back then, it was even harder to live a "normal life" as a queer person.
Kazui is not my area of expertise, I can’t say I've researched too deep, it's mostly my own speculation. The best lead I can give you is the Magritte Theory as to why this belief had been around since before Cat.
Anyway, I'm sorry if you ever got pelted with stones for having a different opinion than the majority, anon, it's not nice... I said trans Kazui the other day and almost got burnt at the stake lol but go on and spread your theory wings wide open
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Hello hello!! I'd like to request a matchup pls!
I'm staying anon on this one but i hope u can do it, i'd like it to be a romantic matchup for tf2! Thanks in advance :)
I'm Mina, i'm 21, my pronouns are she/her and i'm bi, I'm 5'2 and i have long black hair with bangs, i wear glasses and i guess my body type is like, mid size? Not sure haha. I have a few tattoos and a bellybutton piercing. I like to experiment with my outfits and gender presentation, one day i can be very femenine and the other i'll just dress like a 2000s nu-metal singer. My favorite era regarding fashion is the 70s!! It's one of my big interests hehe.
I study journalism and have a big sense of social justice. I'm very extroverted and love being around people but i also think of alone time as extremely important. I have autism and it's a bit hard to read social cues directed at me, but i'm really good at reading who people are, not so much their intentions lol. I have two cats! Not sure if that's important but hey. I'm very detail oriented and very specific at the time of doing tasks. I'm a libra :) I'm very straightforward and have a dry sense of humor, but i'm always willing to help anyone who asks. If you p please include at least two results? One is ok though! I'm doing this for fun haha. I love your writing 💛💛
I match you with...
Medic (Romantic)
Doesn’t mind your fashion sense and how it can change, this only broadens the clothing choice for him. (He definetly steals some from anywhere for you)
While he doesn’t and has never studied journalism, he does appreciate anyone who does. This allows you two to have actual civilised conversations.
He’s more of an ambivert, but he likes the fact that you can keep up with him and his conversation topics, this also means a lot of the time he lets you talk to the others if he’s busy. He also enjoys some quiet, alone time as well. Opting to spend it with you in the infirmary or in his room for a higher chance of being alone.
Very quick to notice your autism, and honestly, he has no problem working around the way you do things. He also has a hard time reading some social cues, but that's kinda on him due ignoring plenty of them.
Is there to help you figure out people's intention, also gossips with you about said people when you read them.
He adores having some sort of schedule, so you being time specific works really well with him. (Can also can clash depending, but we’re gonna ignore that for now)
With you both being detail oriented it’s very unlikely that anything will get by unchecked, so rarely nothing goes wrong under your watch.
Appreciates the fact that you’re very straightforward, it lets you two have honest and proper conversations.
Would you think this man would have a normal sense of humor? It may not be dry but this means he’s trying to get you to smile.
And
Sniper (Romantic)
He actually loves your nu metal fashion, after plenty of away missions, he’ll go out of his way to try find some more fashion pieces.
I just feel like he also likes fashion.
If you ever wear some 70’s fashion he silently melts (Just ingonore the fact it's 1968, it's totally in the future or new comic) he loves seeing you wear different types of fashion.
As we know he’s a very introverted man, so he appreciates having you around to talk to others, he’ll hang around still but lets you do everything social.
He also likes having his alone time, but now he has someone else to enjoy it with. Lets you hang out in his van for hours at a time.
I have this massive gut feeling that he’s also autistic, the constantly masking type. But he’s there to help you understand any social cues needed.
The fact you are good at reading people makes you two a mean duo on missions, as he’s there to verify who they are and also to try to figure out their intentions..
Absolute cat man, would rather cats over dogs anyday.
Gets you with being straight forward and your dry sense of humor. (Back to autistic Sniper) He never got the whole ‘sugarcoating’ thing, it’s more practical to not be so nice about it, so he understands you very well. Also your humor, god you two could go at it for hours or even days.
The points were a bit lower this time but they were pretty close at the start!
Medic - 8
Sniper - 8
Scout - 7
Administrator - 7
Miss pauling - 7
Soldier - 6
Demoman - 6
Spy - 6
Engineer - 5
Saxton hale - 4
Pyro - 4
Heavy - 3
#matchups#tf2 matchups#tf2 x reader#tf2 medic#tf2 medic x reader#medic x reader#tf2 sniper#tf2 sniper x reader#sniper x reader#wisteria♥
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February 2025 in Films
I watched a totally normal amount of films in February
Island Etude (2006) - A film about a deaf college student cycling around Taiwan and meeting interesting people. This film is so slice of life and slow that I originally thought it was a documentary. There is very little plot but beautiful landscapes and snapshots of people. I was moved by the enthusiasm and readiness with which locals helped the protagonist. I think there is something inherently exciting about getting to help another person and it's not every day you see a young man bike around the entire island with nothing but a bag and guitar.
The Laundryman (2015) - A hitman being haunted by the ghosts of the people he killed and teaming up with the medium is a great concept, but the film suffers from some messy writing. However, there is a gratuitous crossdressing scene and some very gender moments that are so intriguing that I want to watch it again.
18x2 Beyond Youthful Days (2024) - Similar to Island Etude this is a film about the connections we make while travelling and the unexpected kindness we meet. It follows a more predictable romance structure that made it a little boring to me and the plot twist didn't quite pack the punch it should have.
Midnight (2021) - Like Hush, this is a cat and mouse horror film with a Deaf protagonist and suffering from the same casting issue. It really utilises misogyny and ableism well though, which makes it a terrifying watch despite the setting being less isolated and the cast being larger.
My Lovely Angel (2021) - A drama about a scumbag pretending to be the father of a Deafblind orphan to get her dead mother's money and thus falling into so many things I dislike but somehow it still managed to pull on my heartstrings by the end.
The Divine Move (2014) - I don't know much about Go, except that it is complex, but I don't think it usually includes cheating, gambling, boxing, hypothermia or saw traps. Not a good film but I did have some fun.
Save the Green Planet! (2003) - A guy who kidnaps and tortures a CEO because he thinks he's an alien about to destroy earth. This is a really wild ride and I will present on this film in a class soon. Shin Ha-kyun is great in this. I am interested in how the film deals with reality, insanity and reliability.
Marathon (2005) - A biopic about an autistic marathon runner that has some outdated language and attitudes but it is from 2005 so what can you do. It did exceed my expectations and I particularly liked when the film made fun of Rain Man.
Beasts Clawing at Straws (2020) - A gorgeous neo-noir with Greek tragedy levels of dramatic irony. A series of unfortunate events. Fans of Fargo would love this.
Bangkok Dangerous (1999) - I could only find this dubbed into Spanish and pixelated as hell so I think I missed some nuances.
Angel's Voice Recorder (2015) - I am the first person to log this on letterboxd and I had to watch it with a VPN and google translate. As far as I can tell, this is about a Deaf family whose daughter begins to lose her hearing too and the father commits a crime to finance her hearing aids so she can continue singing in choir. Tung Ming-hsiang, who is also in Island Etude, is Deaf in real life, so the casting was good on that end.
Abang Adik (2023) - I love when tragedies are about love. This is a crime drama about two undocumented orphans in Malaysia struggling to survive and it rips your heart out. Same casting issue regarding hearing actors, though.
A Scene at the Sea (1999) - All of the ingredients of an underdog sports film but slower, quieter, and with an amazing soundtrack by Joe Hisaishi. Same casting issue, see above, but perhaps the time and plot make that a bit more understandable?
Pinoy Sunday (2009) - Two Filipino guest workers try to transport a couch through Taipei. I'm not a guest worker, but I get it. I transported a television through two towns in a suitcase recently. The longing of comfort in your home away from home, the homesickness, the need for solidarity.
The Village of No Return (2017) - A historical fantasy comedy about a village falling prey to a scam artist with a machine who can erase your memories. Funny, political allegory and some very cool set and prop design. Joseph Chang plays the himbo of all himbos and I wanted to kiss his stupid face.
Reign of Assassins (2010) - Michelle Yeoh, Jung Woo-sung, gorgeous costumes, wuxia physics, a love story for the ages. What more can you want?
Cobweb (2023) - Song Kang-ho as an unhinged filmmaker obsessed with changing the ending of his film but only having two days to do it and having to deal with censorship and other problems. Deeply chaotic and hilarious.
Lost to Shame (2016) - A cis actor is cast in a trans role, his friend comes out as gay, and he integrates himself with a local trans support group to understand his role better, but then this film takes an interesting, uncomfortable sharp turn towards hypocrisy and performative activism. I think it could have afforded more ambiguity.
Prince of Tears (2009) - I struggled to find a copy of this so shout out to my uni library. Like A City of Sadness, this film thematises the White Terror in Taiwan by focusing on how it affects one family and the people around them. There is some lesbianism, betrayal, accordion playing, and metaphorical as well as real hauntings (ghost sex?). I uploaded this to YouTube for free.
Shang-chi and the Legend of the Ten Rings (2021) - Apparently the answer to "what would get me to watch another MCU film" is Tony Leung and Michelle Yeoh.
Sad Movie (2005) - Stupid title, mediocre anthology film. Only watched this to complete more of Jung Woo-sung's filmography but it was hilarious to see him play another character called Jin-woo using sign language but this time instead of "tell me that you love me" it's "tell her you want to see her boobs because her sister pranked you".
Happy Together (1997) - Hey, I have the sneaking suspicion they're not that happy together. Wong Kar-wai invented love, heartbreak, colours and he's the only director who can make smoking look sexy.
Joyland (2022) - The first film from Pakistan I watched. As a double feature with Happy Together this is the "these titles fucking lied" duology. Someone on letterboxd called this a film where "almost everyone is guilty but no one, in particular, is to blame" and that hits the nail on the head. Shout out to casting a trans actress.
High Heels (2014) - A crime drama about a closeted trans cop who wants to quit and transition but is pulled back into work by forces outside of her control. I have so so so so many issues with this film but the concept is intriguing and I think I could fix this if they let me remake it.
Murmur of the Hearts (2015) - The descriptions made it sounds like a love drama but it's mostly about family and trauma. If you know this it's good but I was a little disappointed. Since I was totally blorbo watching this, my favourite scene was the boxer (Joseph Chang) imagining his dead father helping him with the fishing hook as his eyesight is deteriorating.
Fly me to Polaris (1999) - Does this count as a cure narrative? Anyway, too melo too drama.
The Stolen Years (2013) - A woman wakes up from a coma not remembering anything after her honeymoon, including the divorce. I expected this to be a cute film about new beginnings and falling back in love but about halway through this suddenly turns into an Alzheimers drama and then ends in a mercy killing. Not a good film but still made me cry by the end. Shout out to it starting with a home movie scene that made me type "why is Blorbo from my Shows so dead wife in a flashback coded".
A Moment to Remember (2004) - A far superior Alzheimers drama that made me sob uncontrollably at like 1:30am. The funniest meet cute in the history of cinema. Jung Woo-sung in the same horrible haircut as in Mutt Boy. Watch this if you have 2.5h and want your heart to be broken.
Invasion of the Body Snatchers (1978) - Another film for my Cinema Paranoia course. Slow start but then gets fantastically scary. Great cast. I argue this film is about Watergate and draws on the Martha Mitchell effect.
The Martha Mitchell Effect (2022) - Not sure if this even counts because it's just about 40 minutes but I watched this in preparation for my discussion on Invasion of the Body Snatchers because it's eerily relevant.
Rodan (1956) - Big rubber bird on a string. Watched this because our professor showed us a trailer and we all couldn't hold back laughter in our very serious graduate seminar.
City of the Rising Sun (1999) - Gay little earrings and homoerotic friendships and chronic nosebleeds and debt and dancing. Great film. Great soundtrack. Great outfits.
Daisy (2006) - Some of the most baffling editing choices I've seen in my life, not enough bicycles for Amsterdam, stalking, but there's something interesting about it.
Musa: The Warrior (2001) - A group of soldiers and a freed slave try to rescue a princess from Mongols in 14th century China. Some great fight scenes. To be fair I'd also act like a half feral guard dog to protect Zhang Ziyi.
Ringu (1998) - There's a good reason this put Japanese horror on the mainstream radar back then and it's because it absolutely slaps. Watched this for class and I have many thoughts about gender and the inevitability of death.
A Man of Reason (2022) - Sometimes actors need to make their own mediocre genre film for enrichment. That's okay. The directing was actually really good but the plot and pacing needed some work.
Beat (1997) - I had a bad day when I watched this and the 90s editing made me zone out occasionally. Motorcycle riding without a helmet is so scary. This feels like an early draft of City of the Rising Sun (homoerotic friendship and crime) and somehow also Mutt Boy (chill guy good at fighting) and Musa (slavery).
Woyzeck (1979) - I actually watched this for a class but it also counts towards my attempt to study Werner Herzog under a microscope. Klaus Kinski, as usual, is really good in this and I hate that with every fiber of my being. Surely there must have been other good German actors at the time.
Cold Eyes (2013) - It took me three attempts to watch this because my concentration span was so poor and the film so slow. I enjoyed the amount of stabbing.
Mothra (1961) - My beautiful princess Mothra. The film is sadly relevant to our times and I wish we were dealing with a big beautiful moth instead of fascism and climate change.
The White Dragon (2004) - An insane wuxia comedy/parody in a way that feels very early 2000s. It's about a shallow teenage girl becoming a kung fu master and falling in love with the blind swordsman she was meant to kill.
Asura: The City of Madness (2016) - My blorbo gets choked, slapped, beaten, kicked, burned, shot and he literally eats glass. Constantly covered in blood. What more can you want?
Another Round (2020) - Getting the immersive experience by drinking alcohol and worrying about my teaching. My first Danish film.
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INFP male. WTF? FML.
Being an INFP male is litteraly Hell on Earth. And don't worry, I'm not going to go on an incel rent. I've always found incels to be immature misogynistic humans who believe they don't have any inner growth to do. No. I know I can't blame others for how I am. I found out through introspection, or in my case I would call it daydreaming my life away, that I am omnisexual. Basically, this means that I can feel attraction towards men, women, gender fluid, trans, non-binary, wathever. I am also attracted towards some traits, like creativity, compassion and empathy. Basically, it means that I am falling in love and/or am aroused by around a fifth of all the people I meet. You know the cliché of how we INFPs tend to fantasize about people we meet and daydream about our hypothetical loving relationships? Well, guess what, it's true and the fact that I'm a man doesn't change that at all. Now on top of all that, in the same introspection process, I found out that I am polyamourous and totally capable of having at the same time many hypothetical daydreamed loving relationships. Imagine having to go through that for 1 person out of 5 you meet IRL, online, celebrities, friend of a friend of a friend that you see on social media, random person who decides to make a video about INFPs on YouTube, came out of nowhere human being on Instagram (clearly not a bot, right...?) who dm me because they liked something I posted 3 years ago, EVERYONE ! And how we INFPs process everything, every information we get : introverted feeling. This means that most of my time (normally 2/3rd of my waking hours) is spent analyzing every sentence, every word, every comma, every gesture, every non-verbal communication that I make or percieve from others in order to make sure that I haven't miss any red flags or that I've not commited a faux-pas of some sort, and of course, I will at some point say too much (TMI is one of our many middle names after all). On top of that (because it ain't over - lol - you sweet summer child you) don't forget that I have to repeat the whole process for every sentence, every word, every gesture of all hypothetical daydream love scenario that my brain pops out (oh yeah, sometimes even with fictional characters also) with facts, logic and my own personal values in order to separate what is plausible, what is maybe usable for any creative project and what is just plain bull****. Most days, I just want to stay in bed and speak to no one, see no one, text no one, read no books, watch no movies or shows and simply exist in my own inner world in my mind but I can't. I'm an INFP and deep human connections is what I desire the most. And I know I'm kinda charming and funny without even trying and I've been told that I have soft big puppy brown eyes and a deep relaxing manly voice, so making new friends ain't hard. What is super hard is having to "man up" because that's what people expect you to do while having the inner emotional turmoil of a Disney princess who's out of fairy dust. Litteral Hell, I say. I've cried the whole time I was writing this. I'm tired. Don't worry, I'll be OK. I'll make myself a tomato sandwich I guess and watch videos of cute cats or something. Sorry. Thanks for taking the time to read this. Hope it will make you understand us male INFPs more. Or maybe it won't. Does it matter? I guess not. What matters is you who's still reading this. You are awesome and I love you. F***. Now I'll daydream about a person who is virtually inexistant but could be plausible and then go through the whole Fi judgemental process again. See? Hell.
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WONDERFUL!
Ok so I like to call my Sammy "Barbie" and "Yassified Ken" because he's basically just a male version of Barbie but he's also like a more feminine and sassy version of Ken
He has a favorite Cafe that he visits super often and orders an extremely detailed iced coffee, he gets it so often and it's so different from the rest of the menu that they legitimately made it a new drink on the menu and named it after him. He doesn't drink straight black coffee he prefers it to be iced and extremely sweet, like immediate diabetes and cavities sweet with like 3 shots of espresso. Even people who love super sugary drinks feel like it's a punch in the face when they try it
He's pansexual, but many people refuse to believe he's not gay which pisses him off to an extreme amount
He's gender fluid but tends to identify as female most days. When he's feeling more masculine he'll wear suits or overalls and when he doesn't identify as any gender he wears a mixture of both masculine and feminine clothing
He spends like hours every morning trying to look the best
He's a vegetarian (he is NOT VEGAN, Way too many people have mixed that up lmao. Vegetarians may eat some animal byproducts but only if they don't kill the animals while vegans avoid all animal products)
In his studio the toons are alive but they grow up just like human children, just a bit faster. The toons are currently about the age of toddlers and they absolutely love Sammy, often referring to him as "Uncle Sammy" and trying to spend as much time with him as possible. They're extremely attached and cry when he has to go home
He absolutely loves cats and treats them just like babies, he also has a pet bunny named "Jax" and a bird named "Bella"
He goes by He/She/They pronouns
He grew up in an upper middle class household and has siblings, he has about 4 older brothers, 2 older sisters, and 1 younger brother
He's an atheist and tends to be a bit anxious and snippy around Catholics and Christians due to some past experiences and traumas from those religions. He still respects the people from those religions though it might just take a bit longer for him to trust them
He's extremely chatty and loves to gossip, tending to get along best with the female workers at the studio
He wears a lot of makeup and jewelry, being very talented at makeup art and jewelry making
(I'm gonna stop rn cuz if I keep going this ask will be as long as the Bible, if ya wanna hear more let me know cuz I am totally 100% normal about this man)
This is all really cool!! I love to hear about other people's oc's!
Your Sammy seems really cool!!
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hi besties, uhhh bf update. God he is a completely different person w/me now. we were both in restrained customer service mode up until recently and now have both blossomed which is wow. love is real...
tidbits under the cut
so, as i speculated, hes def got something going on gender / sexuality wise. He told me last night he really likes to crossdress. And i was Not Surprised whatsoever bc yea... it tracks. And I just told him I'm bi, its cool regardless of how you view ur gender. Every one of my friends thought he was pretty feminine to begin with and that i was not beating the "lesbian trying to make it work with a man" allegations. I told him this, he just laughed and agreed that yea. its on purpose. He knows and likes to look cute which i whole heartedly support. I can't wait till he can come over and i dress him in my clothes and do his hair and makeup. It'll be great. He didn't clarify where it fully stemmed from besides wanting to feel pretty. but i dont think he himself knows if this is just an interest or smth deeper and thats fine. ill just support.
NSFW!!!
we didnt fuck but we've done sexual things. I did not expect it to go so well. i thought I'd be more hesitant as i am very reserved. ofc i have a sex drive i just handle it on my own. But yea, we were in the back of his car like humping with clothes on, he like fingered me over my underwear, feeling each other up, i was trying to jack him off over his underwear and missed it so i just grabbed his dick skin on skin which tbh i never expected myself to ever want to do that ever but no, yea. totally fine. enjoyable. He is SO Sensitive. its honestly so cute. Like sir, i am Just touching your back, why are you writhing like that and moaning into my ear ... have some decorum? uhh but ofc i loved it and kept going and yea. That sound is never leaving me. I had No Clue 4 months ago the guy who didnt even shake my hand on the first date would be moaning in my ear that he loves me. Thats craaaazy. Best Timeline though. We did this twice. The first time was in a daiso parking lot bc we needed to grab a present for his friend and after him doing all that, we composed ourselves and we So Normal inside the daiso. it was SOOO funny. Like damn, we're so good at customer service mood. its crazy.
i think he's lowkey got like oral fixation. I uh was messing around and was having him play bite my finger and then he took my thumb and sucked on it like He Knew What He Was Doing.... i never confirmed that all his past relationships were with women. He has never once used pronouns for any of them. honestly.... i have a feeling he's probably been with a guy at least once. But yeah,
We'll eventually do this right next time I'm home alone. he's never home alone and his parents are insane. Said getting each other off only ended bc his mom called. it was SOOO funny. we like instantly got off each other the second we heard the phone. it was SO synchronized. But yea, I'm loving it. We really really like each other. This relationship is so lesbian coded. Both bc well... it looks like it and also like he's already asking me "is it bad I'm thinking of ways to move in together? how many cats do you want?" like HAH GAAAY it's gonna be great. i found my person.
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song kang. thirty-one. cis man. he/him. ┊┊ cerberus corp has been watching BAE JUYEON. some of the public has dubbed them APOLLYON because of DEMON PHYSIOLOGY gifted by A ROBBERY TURNED DEADLY. having been an extra ordinary since 2023, they’re doing a good job at hiding HE LACKS CONSCIOUSNESS WHEN IN DEMON FORM. when they aren’t working their day job as a GAS STATION CLERK, they are fond of VIDEO GAMES and are never seen without A PHOTOCARD OF TWICE'S MOMO. at first glance they seem GENTLE & RESOURCEFUL, though their close friends know them to also be SKITTISH & WEAK-WILLED. they consider themself a CIVILIAN.
001. GENERAL
name: bae juyeon. nicknames: n/a. age: thirty-one. date of birth: march 10th, 1992. zodiac: pisces. place of birth: queens, new york. current residence: queens, new york. gender: cis man. pronouns: he/him sexuality: unlabeled occupation: gas station clerk
faceclaim: song kang. height: 6'2" tattoos: none. piercings: one on each ears.
positive traits: gentle, honest, resourceful, independent, caring. negative traits: skittish, weak-willed, introverted, quiet, gullible, scatterbrained. mbti: infp - the mediatior. likes: video games, stray cats, music, sleeping, working out, energy drinks. dislikes: working, talking to people, liars, hospitals. fears: heights, not being able to recognize himself. habits: fidgeting, tapping his foot on the ground.
002. EXTRA ORDINARY
near death experience… it's a normal night, working in jersey all while living in new york city, as if it sounded any more normal the longer juyeon thought about it. but it was the only job he could get, laid off from his fancy job as a game developer for someone more preppy and personable. he kind of hated it, especially considering he was forced to linger around the outside a shady, cheap gas station at night waiting to fill other people's gas for them. but he didn't totally hate it, and maybe that's what counts, right? even if he worked the night shifts and the station was somewhere in the outskirts he'd never been to beforehand.
it wasn't the dream job, definitely not his, but it paid the bills and if that meant covering a night where it was just him alone for hours, then he'd do what he had to do. juyeon never feared that kind of thing, he figured he was a big enough guy for it to provide him with at least some protection, even if he was much weaker mentally than his appearance would say. it's probably why in the heat of the moment, with someone holding a gun to his face and telling him to open the register, he does what they say, wanting nothing more than to just stay alive. he doesn't remember much, it's really just a blur and juyeon wonders if he'd pissed them off, and that was the reason they'd put a bullet in his head.
a couple days later and he's out of the hospital. theoretically, he shouldn't have lived, except somehow he did. or maybe he had died and come back to life. juyeon figured that hospitals charged extra for answers, and he couldn't afford to stay any longer.
power… if you ask juyeon, he'd say he looks like a monster. but a demon really would be more fitting. the pitch black eyes, the way he grows a few more inches and effectively hovers over anyone that's triggered a reaction. every ability of his is heightened while in demon form, from his strength to his speed, close to invulnerable to any attacks. his introverted and quiet personality takes on an aura of physical darkness, shadow and black smoke following behind him. he can form a demonic aura around himself, bright red and further enhances the destruction he can cause.
drawbacks / vulnerabilities… unfortunately, juyeon has abolutely no control over his "powers," given that he's barely been out of the hospital for a couple weeks. to him, watching the demon wreak havoc feels like an out of body experience, watching someone else turn into a monster instead of being one himself. he has no control over his conscious actions while in demon form, nor does he have any will over his mind. which means he's easily deceived and manipulated, his body becoming more of a weapon beyond his control than anything.
(if applicable) cerberus corp… they're been trying to hit his line but he doesn't answer phone calls from numbers he doesn't recognize! (sorry, mom's advice)
codename… he doesn't even about his own codename ngl... cerberus surely assigned it to him when they discovered he was an eo, but juyeon really just trying to pay his bills for the month and not accidentally destroy someone
002. WANTED CONNECTIONS
a best friend, probably someone that knows everything about what's happened to him, maybe was even the one to take him home from the hospital
other close friends!!
roommates because he spent all of his money working on useless stuff and didn't ever think to save anything
like one or two exes... why they broke up or if it was even important to them
maybeee a crush juyeon has on someone??? could be unrequited and he never even acts on it because he's like one of those little (tall and broad) guys just standing in the corner playing a game on his phone
cerberus agents watching him because he's like... dangerous
maybe a hookup or fling (not more than one bc he's a loser </3)
#* juyeon: about.#gun tw#cc.intro#my fastest intro omg!#(i did not proofread)#his hair is only semi short for now but who knows maybe he will lose his scissors some day ...
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I can't even say I have AN underrated fav in hk i just have so many i'm having thoughts about....... which are underrated
like thank god I also love Quirrel and Tiso bc if not I'd be fucking starving < says the guy who isn't producing shit either for other fans of the underrated favs
Okay it's just a list bc i need to yap into the void bc holy shit i can't yap to anyone rn
The Nailmasters. Okay yeah everyone likes them but there's way less content of them compared to the rest ?
But especially like. Oro specifically ? Idk why I got so attached to him, I am predictable GAHAHA you give me an old uncle who's an asshole with a possible tragic backstory and I'm bitting his walls off. I'm aslo totally normal about Sheo and his husband. Sweet sweet man. I hc'ed him as a transman some years ago and it didn't leave my brain since, and the gijinka I did of this guy is still gender goal. And he loves his brothers I am weak. And Mato....... im a bit more normal about him but ouuuguuuughhghhghh dad...... I just lowkey want to hols him in my hands and kiss his beetle head
Then Xero. BITING i love when ppl are like. Saying that he's an ant like Tiso. He's family. Yes. YES. YESSSSSS. I remember we did a fucked up story about it with my partner bc he's got a weird knowledge about animals and ants dynamics, so she told me that the gender-fuckery could be a good plot point (as i hc Tiso and I think Xero too as 2 transman, and Xero possibly as Tiso's father). BUT ALSO DUUUUUDE HE LITTERALLY SAID FUCK THE MONARCHY. AND HE'S SO FUCKING TRAGIC ABOUT IT. IDK WHAT HE SAYS IN ENGLISH BUT IN FRENCH, HE BROKE MY HEART.
I remember having a moment about the Collector as my gf loved the ship between them and Nosk, and the gijinka I did of them got me adoring that weird man. Like the Nailmasters, there's a lot of unfinished ? lore ? Around them like. Are they a sibling ? a vessel ? a naked kingsmould ??? Why do I do not gain mana from hitting them, what is wrong with them.
Oh and and and yeah the. the Soul Master. What is wrong with him. Why does he have fat Dr Strange x kitty cat vibes. Garfield vibes but feral. Fat magic kitty. I'm just so BIASED from @/palossssssand 's gijinkas. BUT ALSO WHAT DO YOU MEAAAAAN WE WAS TRYING TO BE GREATER THAN GOD ???? AND IT FUCKED UP SO BAD SOME PPL MELTED ?????? AND HE'S STILL UP THERE ALL PUFFY AND MIGHTLY ??? Also I'm pretty sure it would make more sense for him to not be fat since he's all dried up and skinny when you kill him, which means that he was probably puffing up and making himself looks bigger but. I'm a fat Soul Master believer til the end...
Also I know I'm not normal about Tiso and Quirrel (separately). My first tatoo might be about Quirrel actually. And Tiso is my son, my idiot, my fucking fool, my punching ball. My boy needs a father, or a mentor, and a tall bisexual to peg him. But those 2 are populars so I got my shit
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apple blossom : how does your muse go about expressing or not expressing their sexuality ?
PHEW that's a COMPLICATED one, for a lot of reasons!
So, up until very recently, I identified as asexual, and grey-romantic. When I created Illyria, it was with the express idea that I wanted to explore a character who is a lot more sexual than me; who is completely allosexual and alloromantic, and confidant about that. Illy is loudly and proudly bisexual; but for her, sex is very casual. It's just another fun interesting thing one can do with friends, there's nothing special or sacred about it. She's blunt and forthright about sex and sexuality, in a way that some of her friends find kind of awkward.
Ryuu... ha. Ryuu was based on a self-insert I made up when I was like, 15/16 years old. I re-tooled her as mostly ace but sapphic, in the way of "not sexually attracted to people, but romantically attracted to women, and willing to have sex with women." That... all changed over the course of RP with my RP partner, when poor Ryuu (... and myself) got "... shit, I'm bisexual" plus "... shit, is this what sexual attraction feels like!? oh no" She's still not terribly comfortable about expressing her sexuality around anyone but her partners (currently Y'shtola and Kian, her co-WoL)
Seshat: Seshat is so damn new and based on my Guild Wars 2 toon. GW2!Seshat was completely aro-ace and Seshat will probably end up the same. Every time I think about "who would I ship her with" I'm like "That cat doesn't have a sexual thought in her fluffy orange cat head."
Hyperion: Ryuu's Ancient. Hyperion liked to put on a pretense of Yep I'm a Totally Normal Guy in Normal Ancient Society, while... secretly changing his sex/gender all the time to see if anyone even noticed. When everyone has to wear the same clothes and masks and hoods, turns out, nobody does. It was a little game he played. Luckily for him, his wife thinks that's hot as hell.
Dionysos: Illyria's Ancient. Dionysos is based not just on Dionysus, but also on Diogenes and the Cynics. Unlike Hyperion, Dio never once bothered to hide or pretend that they were Normal, and in fact in their youth they were briefly Altima before being exiled for writing seditious plays (when they're not Azem, anyway). They were extremely lucky to *only* be exiled and not just executed; Emet-Selch was instrumental on arguing for their exile and not execution (the man was young, recently appointed, and still really liked Dio's plays. Even the seditious ones. Maybe especially the seditious, salacious ones...). Dio was the kind of person to have public sex just to scandalize people and to make rhetorical points about problems with Ancient society.
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i am always so scared and avoidant of explaining my identity to anybody (even, if not especially, myself) in any more words than the vaguest description possible ("im trans these r my pronouns and im a lesbian") because i cant telepathically transmit my gender into their brain so theyll never understand the complexity of it and will think something is wrong with it because im 100% nothing if not a lesbian but my nonbinaryness does not necessarily exclude manhood but it also does at the same time?? idk. wish ppl would stop trying to get me to explain my nonbinary identity in binary terms (im ppl nobody is asking me to say anything more than what i already do)
that comedian was so right i am a man in the way that kraft singles are cheese. it presents like it would be in the same category, it tastes like an offputting version of the real cheeses, a lot of people would call it cheese and it calls itself cheese too unless legally restricted but when you look at the actual content it is an entirely completely different substance. which doesnt make it any less a cheese persay but certainly also makes it definitely NOT a cheese at the same time. and its way better on grilled cheese than normal cheese is. not sure how that fits into the metaphor but its important to me
the same can be said for the way that im a woman and for both a large majority of the "ingredients" are completely internalizations of external inputs instead of any actual innate part of my being, like being a girl in the weird girl by mommy long legs way or in the impact of growing up a girl in a sexist society way or in the betty grof way or in the autistic female cartoon characters way or in the when choosing which character was OUR character growing up amidst my siblings in any game or show, often ending up w the only girl instead of just anyone that resonated with me way (was always mad at the games/shows for only having one girl, never upset about having to be her instead of someone else unless one of my siblings took the cool genderless-esque one) (maya and zero from borderlands...) or in the im my mother's daughter way or like being a guy in the random stray cat of indeterminate sex way or in the when every new person got confused about my gender as an androgynous kid, laughing super hard with my whole class/whoever was there about how dumb they were but always avoiding answering/correcting them clearly and getting upset if someone else told them i was a girl way or in the feeling very uncomfortable when anyone but my family specifically called out that i was a girl as a kid way (when my classmate tried to tell me i was the ruler QUEEN not the ruler KING for my collection of rulers..... die) or in the im my brothers brother way or in the drag king way or in the tboy swag of harold tdi way or you know i could go on for literal eons and still feel like i didn't list enough. plus a lot of the items on BOTH lists apply to BOTH options
and besides that im also like totally disconnected from gender?? i definitely still feel agender and genderfluid at the same time all the time not to mention the constant banging at the door in the back of my head for catgender begging to be let out. overall point blank period i know that the reason i feel this way about my gender is because im autistic and when social constructs don't come naturally to me that includes gender. but that's never like. a definitive enough answer for other people or for my own sanity and it makes me mad because NOBODY UNDERSTANDSSS MEEEEEEE [emo crying on knees]
whatever who actually cares (me)
i think the last time i felt properly fully self expressed was when i was 10 and had a scratch account named mr fox and used a persona called mr fox on it and part of what was special about me was that my name was mr fox but i was actually a girl even though i would throw up if someone called me a miss or mrs
#textpost#lgbtq#queer#lesbian#trans#nonbinary#bigender#autistic#autism#autigender#queer community#also ive like almost completely accepted this concept of my identity already and think requiring external validation of if its “ok or not”#directly contradicts my queer outlook/worldview but when i dont think any of the people i care about see it the same way and all the people#i see who DO see it the same way as me are the ones that the people who i care about think are messed up weirdos it makes me scared sorry#vomit mention tw#death mention tw#idk if those are something im supposed to put on here but i see other posts say stuff like that so maybe i am correct
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(interesting artistic depictions of Greek mythology tropes I've found fun yet interesting)
- Dionysus just straight up feeds his leopards grapes, implying he just regularly feed these obligated carnivores fruit out of drunkenness....the leopards are totally ok with this.
- nymphs are completely indistinguishable from normal human women but is only depicted as a nymph solely based on the artist naming them nymphs.
- centaurs apparently hunt big cats for food.
- centaurs are really shit at hunting big cats cus at least one of those horse bois gets attacked by one.
- apparently satyrs were strictly a male race of mythological creatures in Greek mythology....until those tart-ass Romans literally said "nah there's satyeresses and they straight" and just invented them because apparently the female counterpart to satyrs is nymphs? Ok.
- Centaurs, mer-folk sphinx (Greek females and Egyptian males) and sirens are the only ones that canonically have male and females in their species. Meanwhile the gender specific groups is satyrs, nymphs, cyclopie and harpies. Which is strange because two out of those four examples would make sense if they're worth females... Then again I am speculating on the speculative Canon of the sexual dimorphism of mythical creatures here so I probably should go on with my life.
- very little Ares representation so I'm quite peeved.
- let's be real, the peak in ancient Greek art was not the Renaissance or the Brococo times it literally was back in ancient Greece were the art truly felt unhinged in the most spectacular way.
-APHRODITE WITH A SANDLE IN HER HAND THREATENING EVERYONE HAS THE SAME ENERGY IS RAPUNZEL WITH HER FRYING PAN.
-Bruh Eros/cupid be up in everyone's bizznich because literally he's everywhere for some reason.
-I find it funny Zeus is mostly always an older man, reflects the audacity of men nowadays. Meanwhile Poseidon is just Zeus but #plump and Hades is fekn nowhere.
-Lol funny weird dragons
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hi, how are you?
could you write some headcanons about jesse cromeans (and any other character you want) with a s/o who has the biggest golden retriever / ray of sunshine energy? (always positive, very playful and energetic, very friendly and kind with other people, etc)
thank you so much, have a nice day 💕
Slashers with a Positive/ ray of sunshine s/o:
I'm doing great, dear anon. Been working alot. A 7 day stretch and currently in the tail end of a 5 day stretch. Thank you for asking. I hope you enjoy dear!
Warnings: violence (not towards s/o), fluff
Gender neutral reader
Jesse Cromeans/ Chromeskull
Similiar to Asa, Jesse loves the idea of having a significant other because of the front during his day job. It fits the persona Jesse wants: rich successful man who has everything that you'd want, power, money, an significant other who's by your side.
He doesn't like the idea of you being too involved with his chromeskull activities because of your personal safety (he's already lost an wife, he doesn't want to lose his second chance of love) and the fact that he doesn't want you to lose your bright and bubbly personality by seeing something traumatizing.
While he's on "trips" Jesse always has Span to keep a close eye on you because he knows that he could trust her with keeping you safe.
Jesse doesn't like having Preston around you because of the fact that Jesse can see the way Preston looks at you and how uncomfortable it makes you feel when he questions your relationship with Jesse. (Preston attempting to expose Jesse's chromeskull side to you but not realizing that you already know.)
The way you treat him with love and kindness even though he knows he's a monster makes his heart melt. Especially the way you act when you see him walk through the doors of your shares house after his trips.
Asa Emory
Asa is a rather peculiar man to say the least. When you have such a hobby as Asa does, it does tend to be rather hard to balance his work and personal lives together. This is where you come in.
You're the role of Asa's doting partner during his professional life. Bringing him lunch, attending his work events together, being a part of Asa's "I'm totally normal and I don't kill people and have a collection of them." Ruse.
With your bubbly and bright personality, you have a charm about you that makes his colleagues enjoy your presence. It does surprise them that someone like you is in a relationship with a quiet man like Asa.
For the longest time Asa keeps his collector side away from you because he didn't know how you would respond to being in a relationship with someone as sadistic as him.
Once you do find out, Asa would still keep you away from his "hobby" just in case a potential part of his collection tries to cause you harm. But he would involve you as little or as much as you want to know.
Otis Driftwood
The world's greatest mystery: how does a man like Otis end up in a relationship with someone as bright and loving as you. Hell, even Otis asks himself that question every day.
Otis tends to have a hard time with conveying his emotions and talking about how he feels because he's not used to being in a committed relationship.
For the longest time, Otis got annoyed with how bright and bubbly you were. It's common to hear him say "you're just like baby. A bubbly pain in my ass." He says it affectionately in how own twisted way.
Otis is that meme where the lady says with the cat "I only known them for five minutes and I'd kill anyone in this room for them."
Otis wouldn't want you luring victims to the house because of his jealousy. No body dares to look at or even be around his significant other if he's around. You're his significant other.
Baby Firefly
Similar to Tiffany, Baby is on the positive side- even though she's more of a murderous kind of happy. Baby loves your energy.
You don't sexualize her compared to other people she's encountered. You actually are nice to her and respect her instead of lusting after her because of her beauty.
When the two of you are together around Otis, you both collectively achieve in pissing him off with how happy and loving you are to each other. Mama thinks it's completely adorable that Baby has someone who makes her happy.
You can bet that Baby will teach you how to defend yourself if you haven't already learned how to. Just in case a victim tries to attack you at the house.
Although Baby uses her sexuality and body to lure in potential kills, she would be jealous as fuck if someone gets too touchy Feely with you because you're Baby's to touch on and be flirty with.
Tiffany Valentine
Tiffany finds you purely adorable. With your sunny and bright personality and your playful tendencies, Tiffany couldn't help but to enjoy your energy.
Compared to prior relationships she's had *coughCharlescough*, being with you is refreshing to Tiffany because she doesn't feel like she's always the doting, loving partner. She gets to be on the recieving end of your kind loving gestures.
If anyone tries to hurt you, Tiffany will be pissed. If they hurt you, she will most definitely kill them.
Tiffany wouldn't feel comfortable with having you around Charles because of how his personality is an asshole and will try to make you upset because you're so bright and happy.
Glenn and Glenda both adore you because of how warm and welcoming you are towards them and how much you make their mother happy.
Introducing: Albert Wesker
It's a mystery to a lot of his closest colleagues as to how someone as bright and bubbly as yourself ended up with a man like Wesker.
There's been many rumors about how the both of you ended up in a relationship together. Some people say that you were manipulated into being with Wesker while others thought that you were only with him because of his power. They never said it around him though.
Yall radiate the trope where the one person is this scary, will kill anyone who even looks at their ray of sunshine partner.
Wesker is highly protective over you (even though he doesn't really show it around you. But his colleagues can see it.) because of how innocent and bubbly you are and the fact that you're in a relationship with him doesn't help your list of potential threats.
Although Wesker isn't the easiest person to live and be in a relationship with, (especially while dating someone as happy and playful as you) he tries to keep you grounded while you tend to break him out of the "stern, cold personality" and occasionally make him smile/ chuckle with your antics.
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forgot about this lol
anyways headcanons below:
Vessel
I can understand why people think Vess is an alpha, but unfortunately you are incorrect (this is my poll breakdown I get to write the headcanon). He is an omega who happens to have a more alpha-typical body type, so he often gets mistaken for an alpha!
I think he postures like an alpha sometimes because it makes him feel more confident (omegaphobic biases unfortunately do still exist, even in more progressive metal communities) but the sheer yearning that man is capable of... like hello??? the offering??? the poor guy is practically baring his neck whenever he whines out "take a bite"
Shy about showing omega tendencies around the others eeps, but they're nothing but quietly supportive whenever Vess makes a tiny nest in the bus lounge or curls up with a plushie with his packmates' scents on it. (he's especially self conscious about the purring, but the others adore it)
Very proud of the others and will show them off as much as he can (he's got a pack straight out of any omega's dreams, of course he's gonna show off!!). He loves flaunting his little alpha around, especially if he gets the sense that they may have gotten their dynamics mixed up. Totally let's II get all Alpha™ with him just to throw people off and brag a little
He smells like cool, salty ocean rain and roses, with just a touch of dark chocolate and caramel
II
Congrats on getting this one right! He is the most alpha to have ever alpha'd and you cannot tell me otherwise.
Kinda in the same but reversed situation as Vess, he gets mistaken for an omega a lot because of his stature and pretty boba blue eyes (🥰). But rest assured, nobody has any doubts as to his dynamic and role in their little pack beyond a first glance. Vess may be the face of the band, but II's the leader behind the scenes
The others love their tiny alpha and how much fierce protective energy he houses in that little body. III likes to push his buttons and call him an ankle biter whenever II's a little fired up. Heaven forbid III takes it a little further and tries to pick him up like a grumpy cat again
He smells like ozone, amber, and ground espresso. Paired with Vess's scent, they love the way they smell like the feeling of a cozy, romantic thunderstorm at sea together (it was one of the things that initially drew them to each other, and to this day the two scent almost daily out of both habit and comfort in being chemically entwined with one another)
III
Our sweet lil bassy boy! He's def a beta, but more in the sense that he fits multiple alpha/omega characteristics rather than being a neutral presentation
Very confident in himself and his presentation. He's the one that the others lean on when they might be feeling insecure or frustrated in themselves, since for him, their "second gender behaviours" are just normal things that make him so fun and lovable
He's always down to nest whenever, wherever. Doesn't matter if it's a hotel in the middle of nowhere or the corner of a tiny green room. He will gather every available scrap of fabric and soft thing to get cozy (just bear in mind, he's not the calmest nesting partner so be prepared for wiggles)
His chaotic energy gets channelled into bugging the others in ultra specific and effective ways. Getting up behind Vess and grabbing his waist during Aqua Regia? Never fails to make him smell flustered for the rest of the song. IV is down with his shenanigans, so he's not so much flustered as he is just having fun being little shit with III to tease everyone else. And he knows the wrath of II after he bugs him behind the kit, but that's a problem for after the show ;P
The designated heat/rut caretaker of the group since he doesn't get either himself. He loves having a bedbound, captive audience to yap at and fuss over. II tends to be fairly self-sufficient so III just makes sure he eats and drinks, but he LOVES getting to fawn over his omegas! Helping to build nests and feeding them while they're too crampy to do it themselves makes him very happy
Being a beta, he doesn't have super specific scent notes. But he generally smells bright and happy, like hand squeezed lemonade in the summer sort of vibes
IV:
I'm personally undecided between beta and omega for him, but I suppose my argument for Vess can very easily apply to him as well. So we will go with that!
IV has mega clingy cat energy. It's very rare to see him not touching one of the others in some capacity, whether it's his head on III's shoulder or his arms looped around II's waist.
He loves light scenting at every opportunity and will even do it on stage to rile up the other boys a bit. Sometimes he takes it a little too far, but as with III, that's a problem for after the show
The others swear that he's constantly in heat with the way he clings and vies for attention. That is the only reason, of course. Nothing else
He smells like lilac, fresh soil, and honey. Very fresh and springy — he has to physically remove the others from his neck during the winter since his scent is so warm and comforting in the colder months (though not often, he rarely complains about any of them being so close unless it's genuinely inconvenient)
anyways feel free to add your own. reply, send me asks, yell at me in dms, idc. I love omegaverse and I am always down to discuss.
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