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The History of Korean Female Soloists from the 20th Century: Episode 1/?

The inaugural episode of 'The History of Korean Female Soloists from the 20th Century' is now underway, focusing on renowned Korean artists who gained prominence during the early 20th century amid Japanese occupation.

The available information on these artists varies significantly, as they were active nearly a century ago, prior to the Korean War, which contributed to the loss or scarcity of historical records.

Kim So Hee (김소희;金素姬)

In Part 4 of 'The History of Korean Male Groups,' I made a brief reference to Kim So-hee, who was associated with the Gyeongseong Broadcasting Station (JODK) (경성방송국). Since I have previously discussed this broadcasting station, I will not elaborate extensively but will provide a concise overview here.

Kim So-hee (김소희; 金素姬), originally named Kim Soon-ok (김순옥; 金順玉), was born on December 1, 1917, in Gochang-gun, Jeollabuk-do, during the era of Japanese colonial rule. She gained immense recognition as a distinguished pansori vocalist, earning the title of national singer and being designated as a national intangible cultural asset. Under her pen name, Man-jeong (만정; 晩汀), she was actively involved in the Joseon Vocal Music Research Association and the Hwarang Changgeuk Troupe, ultimately achieving legendary status as a significant cultural figure of her time.

At the age of twelve, she began her vocal training with the renowned singer Song Man-gap (宋萬甲), accompanied by her father, Kim Bong-ho (김봉호) and also learned traditional songs and sijo (時調) from Jeon Gye-mun (全桂文). Following her graduation from Heungdeok Public Elementary School, she developed a deep appreciation for "Chuwolmanjeong" (秋月滿庭) by Lee Hwa-jung-seon (李花中仙) during her time at Jeonnam Girls' High School while staying with her older sister in Gwangju, which led her to enroll in Song Man-gap's school in 1929. In the late 1920s, while serving as a boy gisaeng (童妓) within the Joseon Gwonbeon (朝鮮券番), she acquired knowledge of female vocal styles and lyrics, ultimately gaining recognition as a prominent girl singer. Her performances were featured on the Gyeongseong Broadcasting Station (경성방송국; 京城放送局), and she recorded her work for an album.

In the 1930s, she acquired knowledge of the initial segment of the five Madang of pansori and engaged in recording and broadcasting activities. Her tenure at the Gyeongseong Broadcasting Station spanned from 1927 to 1942, during which she performed a variety of pieces, including "Gangsanpungwol" (江山風月),"Gyerak" (界樂), and numerous folk songs such as "Yukjabaeki" and "Chunhyangga." Kim So-hee made her debut on the station on December 29, 1931, where she showcased the nundae sections of "Sugungga," "Simcheongga," "Jeokbyeokga," and "Chunhyangga." Each broadcast featured her renditions of short songs like "Gangsangpungwol," "Geongonga" (乾坤歌), and "Jangbuga" (丈夫歌). Throughout the Japanese colonial era, she recorded a total of 54 albums with various record labels, including four with Columbia, thirty with Orkeh, and twenty with Vikta.

English - After recording the Pansori Chunhyangga album (Victor Records, Seoul) in 1935. From left, Han Seong-jun, Im Bang-ul, Lee Hwa-jung, Jeong Jeong-ryeol, Park Nok-ju, and Kim So-hee (18 years old). Korean - 1935년 판소리 춘향가 음반 (빅터 레코드, 서울) 을 취입한 후의 모습. 왼쪽부터 한성준, 임방울, 이화중선, 정정렬, 박녹주, 김소희(18세).

Life and Career

Kim So-hee's entry into the art world began after her graduation from Gwangju Girls’ High School, now known as Jeonnam Girls’ High School (全南女子高等學校). At the age of 13, she was deeply moved by a performance of 'Lee Hwa-jung and Her Party' at a tent theatre. A connection through her maternal grandmother's adopted daughter's husband, who was affiliated with the police, led her mother to meet Mr. Song Man-gap. During this meeting, she performed a line from 'Simcheongga,' and later, in her 50s and 60s, she recorded a complete rendition of 'Simcheongga,' titled 'Chuwolmanjeong (秋月晩汀),' which highlighted her artistic prowess. Upon hearing the emotionally charged melody that began with ‘Chuewol is full of emotion, reflected on the coral curtain, and the geese in the clear sky fly high under the moon, tturu…’, Master Song Man-gap was so moved that he knelt in admiration.

She decided to leave school to focus on her singing career under the guidance of Song Man-gap. Within just six months of training, she made her stage debut as ‘Lee Doryeong’ at a disciple recital and subsequently performed in 'Lee Hwa-jung and her party' across various locations, including Busan and Mokpo. Additionally, she studied seungmu and geommu with Jeong Seong-rin in Jeonju, learned lyrics and songs from Jeon Gye-mun, and trained in yanggeum with Yu Sun-seok in Jeongeup, astonishing her teacher by mastering the intricate details of ‘Yeongsanhoesang’ in merely ten days.

A photo of the famous singer Kim So-hee while she was still alive. She was praised as a 'sound sent from heaven'.

At the age of 14, she entered the inaugural Pansori Master Singer Competition in Namwon, securing first place among approximately 80 participants and earning the title of 'baby master singer.' The silver spoons awarded to her as a prize are now preserved by her daughter, Professor Park Yun-cho.

In the winter of 1931, Kim So-hee moved to Seoul to pursue her singing studies more seriously, residing at her aunt's home in Gwancheol-dong. There, she took an examination with the renowned master Han Seong-jun, who was introduced to her by Song Man-gap. During this period, she learned "Chunhyangga" from Jeong Jeong-ryeol while also making television appearances, performing, and recording.

Around this time, she adopted the stage name Kim So-hee, having been born Kim Ok-hee. She began her pansori training at 15 under Song Man-gap, concentrating on "Simcheongga" and "Heungboga." By the age of 18, her repertoire had grown to include "Chunhyangga" and "Sugungga," which she studied under Jeong Jeong-ryeol. At 22, she advanced her education with Park Dong-sil at Jishilchodang in Nammyeon, with support from Park Seok-gi. Throughout her thirties, Kim So-hee continued to enhance her vocal abilities with esteemed instructors such as Jeong Eung-min, Jeong Gwon-jin, Park Rok-ju, Kim Yeo-ran, and Park Bong-sul

At the age of 16, she expanded her musical education by studying songs and sijo under Jeon Gye-mun (1872-1940) and learned to play the geomungo and yanggeum from Kim Yong-geon. By 17, she had begun her dance training with Jeong Gyeong-rin and subsequently pursued studies in calligraphy and Chinese classics. Notable figures such as An Hyang-ryeon (1944-1981), Han Nong-seon (1934-2002), and several others became her disciples.

Shortly after starting her vocal training with Song Man-gap, she was introduced to Lee Hwa-jung-seon (李花中仙) (1899-1943), who recognized her talent and featured her in a performance at Gwangju Theater that same evening. This pivotal moment led to her joining Lee Hwa-jung-seon's Hyupryulsa, and she achieved first place in the Namwon Master Singer Competition the following year. By 18, she recorded "Simcheongga" and "Jeokbyeokga" for Oke Records and Columbia Records, establishing herself as a prominent young singer, and at 20, she collaborated with other notable artists to record the complete collection of Chunhyangjeon for Big Records.

Kim So-hee (김소희) Published by Lee Jeong-gyu. ‘Korean National Treasure-level National Singers, Master Singers, Master Drums, and Master Geum Photographs and Poetry Collection’. Suncheon Photo Printing Company.

In February 1936, the establishment of Changgeukjwa as a branch of the Joseon Vocal Music Research Association marked a significant development in her career, as she engaged in changgeuk activities alongside Kang Tae-hong, Kim Se-jun, and Kim Yeon-su. She participated in the opera Bae Bi-jang-jeon (裵裨將傳), performed by the Joseon Vocal Music Research Society from February 9-11, 1936, and took part in a flood relief music competition on August 28-29, 1936. Additionally, she showcased her talents in a renowned singer competition at the Gwangju Theatre on October 16-17, 1938, further solidifying her status in the musical landscape of the time.

On June 11, 1937, she participated in the complete recording of Chunhyang-jeon by the Viktor Gramophone Company, alongside several significant pansori pieces, including the brief song "Gangsangpungwol," which featured janggu accompaniment by Han Seong-jun and was later recorded on Columbia Records in Japan. Collaborations with Kim Deok-jin (haegeum), Sim Sang-geon (gayageum), and Jeong Hae-si (tungso) resulted in numerous songs, including "Godangsang" (高堂上), which were released on Japanese Victa records. Additional recordings, such as "Gisaengjeomgo" (妓生點考), were made with Obi-chui, Shin Sook, and Lee Hwa-jung-seon for Oke records, while "Orijeongibyeol" (五里亭離別) from Chunhyangjeon appeared on the Gunsohaehoe record. She was appointed as a director during the 5th regular general meeting of the Joseon Vocal Music Research Association on May 23, 1938.

On December 24, 1940, she performed at the inaugural show of the Hwarang Changgeuk Troupe, founded by Park Seok-gi at the Jeil Theater, alongside Cho Sang-seon, Han Ju-hwan, and Kim Yeo-ran in productions of Chunhyangjeon, the historical drama "The Bell Sound of Bongdeoksa Temple," and Kim Won-hak's original Changgeuk "Paldamchunmong." Following Korea's liberation in early 1948, she appeared with Seong Won-mok, Gong Gi-nam, and Kim Deuk-su in the performance of "Goguryeo's Hon (魂)," staged by Park Dong-sil, the head of the Gukgeuk Association established in early 1948.

English - Ensemble of Seong Geum-ryeon (gayageum), Ji Yeong-hee (haegeum), Kim So-hee (yanggeum), and Kim Yun-deok (geomungo) Korean - 성금련(가야금)·지영희(해금)·김소희(양금)·김윤덕(거문고)의 합주

The Korean Traditional Music Women's Association was founded on September 1, 1948, with significant contributions from President Park Nok-ju, Vice-Presidents Kim Yeon-su and Im Yu-aeng, General Affairs Manager Jo Yu-saek, and members including Park Gwi-hee, Han Yeong-sook, and Kim Nong-ju. Their first performance showcased the original Changgeuk "Okjunghwa" (獄中花) at Sigonggwan in October of the same year, followed by "Sunshine and Moonshine," composed by Kim A-bu, which premiered in February 1949. During the Korean War in 1950, she performed "Gayageum," created by Yu Chi-jin, with the Haetnim Gukgeuk Troupe at the Busan Theater, alongside notable performers such as Park Gwi-hee, Jo Nong-wol, and Kang Nam-wol. In 1955, she established the Korean Folk Arts Academy, played a pivotal role in founding the National Gugak Arts School, and served as a pansori instructor from its inception.

A scene from a class at a disciple's studio. Teacher Kim So-hee is teaching pansori to her young students. The person with her back turned is her daughter Park Yun-cho.

At the age of 32, she was instrumental in the establishment of the Women’s Traditional Music Association while actively performing with the Joseon Vocal Music Research Association. Her notable contributions during this period included works such as 〈Okjunghwa〉 and 〈Haetnimdalnim〉. By the age of 38, Kim So-hee, a dedicated advocate for changgeuk, women’s traditional Korean music, and pansori, founded the Folk Arts Institute and became its first director. She maintained a vigorous schedule of performances in traditional Korean music both within the country and abroad, culminating in her receipt of the 4th Gugak Award (Changak Practical Skill Award) from the Gugak Promotion Association in 1959.

In the early 20th century, notable female singers in modern Korean history included Jin Chae-seon, Heo Geum-pa, and Kim Cho-hyang, who were prominent figures in the changgeuk theater. Kang So-chun, recognized as a leading vocalist of Won-gak-sa, also contributed significantly to this era. Lee Hwa-jung-seon is often regarded as a successor to these artists. In contemporary times, the landscape of female singers has expanded to include Kim Nok-ju, Bae Seol-hyang, Shin Geum-hong, and others. Notably, in 1964, Kim So-hee and Park Cho-wol became the first female pansori singers to be recognized as Important Intangible Cultural Properties.

Kim So-hee in her later years.

Kim So-hee's musical journey was marked by her exceptional vocal talent and collaborative spirit. She developed close relationships with fellow musicians, including Park Nok-ju and Oh Bi-chwi, and maintained a lifelong friendship with Park Gwi-hee. Her training encompassed a diverse range of traditional arts, learning pansori from esteemed masters such as Song Man-gap and Jeong Eung-min, while also studying classical dance and various string instruments. Advisor Yang Won-seok emphasized the importance of personal interpretation in music, suggesting that true mastery involves integrating distinct styles rather than merely imitating them.

By 1964, she was recognized as the custodian of Important Intangible Cultural Property No. 5, Pansori Chunhyangga. She served as a practical instructor at the Gugak Arts School, which commenced on March 5, 1960. In the same year, she participated in the inaugural changgeuk Daechunhyangjeon performance alongside Kim Yeon-su and fellow members Park Gwi-hee, Kang Jang-won, and Kang Jong-cheol, organized by the National Gugak Company of Korea to celebrate its establishment. Additionally, in 1962, she performed at the 9th International Festival of Folk Arts in Paris and later toured the United States with the Samcheolli Dance Troupe in 1964. Her accolades include first prize at the Namwon Chunhyang Festival Folk Arts Competition (1931), the 4th National Gugak Award (1959), the World Broadcasting Award (1962), the Literature and Arts Promotion Award (1972), the Order of Civil Merit, Dongbaek Medal (1973), the 1st Korean Traditional Music Award (1982), the Republic of Korea Culture and Arts Award (1984), the Namwon City Arts and Culture Award (1987), the 1st Dongri Grand Prize (1987), and the 1st Bangil British Music Award (1994).

English - Cover of 『Kim So-hee's Chunhyangga (Book: Kim Myeong-hwan)』 1-6Seoul Records. 1995 Korean - 『김소희 춘향가(북 : 김명환)』 1-6 표지서울음반. 1995

The reunion of the royal inspector with Chunhyang, as depicted in the narrative of <Chunhyangga>, alongside the portrayal of the middle class in <Simcheongga>, and the lamentation of the military in <Jeokbyeokga>, showcases the rich tapestry of Korean pansori tradition. Notably, Kim So-hee, a prominent figure in this art form, collaborated with drummer Han Seong-jun to produce significant recordings, including those of "Chunhyangga" and "Simcheongga," which are regarded as masterpieces. In 1964, Kim was honoured as the holder of the Important Intangible Cultural Property for "Chunhyangga," a testament to her exceptional talent. Her rendition of "Chunhyangga" reflects a carefully reconstructed manjeongje, characterized by a naturally gifted voice that is both clear and beautiful. Kim's singing style is marked by elegance and restraint, avoiding excessive emotional extremes while maintaining a delicate approach. Through her training with esteemed teachers, she adeptly synthesized various elements to create a unique interpretation of "Chunhyangga," embodying the distinctive qualities of both eastern and western musical traditions.

Kim So-hee's career spanned from 1929 to 1994, during which she distinguished herself as a master singer and was honored with the title of national singer. Her contributions to the art of pansori are significant, particularly through her establishment of the Manjeongje pansori style, which emphasized elegance and sophistication. She played a pivotal role in advancing traditional Korean music, notably by co-founding the Women’s Traditional Korean Music Club and the National Traditional Music Arts School, now known as the National Traditional Arts Middle and High School. Alongside contemporaries Park Rok-ju and Park Cho-wol (1917-1983), she is recognized as a leading female figure in the evolution of modern pansori.

Married Life

Kim So-hee's artistic development was significantly influenced by her encounter with the contemporary geomungo master, Hyonam Park Seok-gi. Born into affluence in Damyang, Jeollanam-do, Park Seok-gi pursued his education in French Literature at Dongguk University, where he also made his mark in Korean baseball as a player and team leader for the Tokyo International Student Baseball Team. He passed away in 1953 at the age of 54, leaving behind a daughter, Park Yun-cho, who was only nine at the time of his death.

Although Kim So-hee held great respect for Park Seok-gi, their relationship was brief. Park recounted that his father was not a conventional Korean musician; he chose seclusion over collaboration with the Japanese during their occupation, particularly after his aspirations to be a writer were thwarted. In his retreat to his hometown, he embraced the geomungo as a companion and dedicated himself to reviving traditional Korean music, establishing a music academy in Jisil and inviting renowned artists like Park Dong-sil to mentor students. Graduates from this academy, including figures like Kim So-hui, became prominent leaders in the Korean traditional music scene. Today, Park Seok-gi is recognized as a key figure in the revival of Korean traditional music, akin to Dong-ri Shin Jae-hyo, who is celebrated for his contributions to pansori.

Kim So-hee's birthplace at 335 Sapo-ri, Heungdeok-myeon, Gochang-gun, Jeollabuk-do, and her grave at Hwasan-ri, Gochang-eup, Jeollabuk-do.

In 2015, the National Gugak Center commemorated the 70th anniversary of liberation with the production "Thinking of Park Seok-gi," which was dedicated to Park Seok-gi and performed over three days. Park recounted a childhood memory regarding her parents' conflict over her mother's artistic pursuits.

She reflected on her father's opposition to her mother's art sales, which she initially found incomprehensible but later understood as her mother’s necessity to support the family, given her maternal grandfather's inability to provide assistance. Park noted that her mother assumed the role of the eldest child after the early deaths of her brothers. Furthermore, she revealed that her mother rarely mentioned her father, referring to him as "your father" or "teacher," indicating a relationship more akin to that of mentor and mentee than spouses. Throughout her life, Man-jeong (Kim So-hee) prioritized her artistic integrity over financial gain, insisting on receiving only her appearance fee. Park also shared a poignant memory from the year of her mother's passing, during a trip to Gurye, Jeollanam-do, where her mother expressed a desire to live as an ordinary housewife if given another chance, revealing her longing for a fulfilling family life beyond her public persona.

Park Seok-gi (박석기; 朴錫驥)

Unfortunately, there is a scarcity of information regarding Park Seok-gi.

Park Seok-gi, born in 1899 in Okwa, Jeollanam-do, passed away in 1953 at the age of 54, leaving behind a nine-year-old daughter, Park Yun-cho. He graduated from Tokyo Imperial University in Japan but chose to dedicate his life to the arts, studying Geomungo Pungryu and Geomungo Sanjo under Baek Nak-jun, the founder of Geomungo Sanjo, ultimately becoming a master in this traditional music form during the Japanese colonial era.

Park Seok-gi (박석기), father of Park Yoon-cho.

In his hometown, he constructed a thatched cottage where he invited renowned singers and artists to mentor him, while also gathering young music students to impart traditional music knowledge, thereby aiding in the preservation of cultural heritage during a time of anti-Japanese sentiment. During this period, he engaged Park Dong-sil as a pansori instructor, who taught notable students such as Kim So-hee, Han Ae-sun, and Kim Nok-ju, while Park Seok-gi himself took on the role of geomungo instructor. Notably, Han Gap-deuk, recognized as a holder of the geomungo sanjo art and designated as an Important Intangible Cultural Property in 1967, also learned this art form from him.

Filmography and Music

From 1929 to 1994, Kim So-hee produced numerous albums and participated in various films, including First Marriage (1965), The Last Witness (1980), Nanjung Diary (1977), Sea Village (1965), and The Story of Janghwa Hongryeon (1956), among others.

Her Legacy

Kim So-hee, known as Manjeong, stands out among the renowned female singers in the rich 300-year tradition of pansori, often regarded as the 'last legend' of this art form. Her performance of "Departing Ship" at the closing ceremony of the 1988 Seoul Olympics remains etched in the memories of many.

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Her performance starts from 1:22:30 – 1:25:00. Even though it might have not been her last performance, being able to watch her perform on a stage in front of hundreds of people must’ve felt somewhat sad but proud at the same time.

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Her voice, described as clear and elegant, resonated with the beauty of "the cry of geese on a moonlit autumn night," evoking deep emotions in her audience. While she learned from notable figures like Song Man-gap and Jeong Jeong-ryeol, she uniquely blended their influences to carve her own distinctive style. Professor Choi Dong-hyun from Kunsan National University emphasized her significance, stating that Kim So-hee is always among the first names mentioned in discussions about women's pansori, a testament to her enduring legacy.

Continuing her mother's legacy, her daughter Park Yun-cho (박윤초; 朴倫初) has also made her mark in the field, with notable students including Jang Yeong-chan, Ahn Hyang-yeon, and Kim Dong-ae (金東愛). Kim So-hee participated in the recording of the 5-LP album "Changgeuk Daechunhyangjeon," alongside artists such as Kim Yeon-su, Park Nok-ju, and Park Gwi-hee. She passed away on April 17, 1995, and a memorial concert commemorating her contributions was held at Ho-am Art Hall on April 19, 1997, marking the second anniversary of her death.

Park Yun-cho (박윤초; 朴倫初)

Professor Park Yoon-cho has been attuned to Manjeong’s voice since her childhood, suggesting an innate talent for singing. Her teacher, perhaps mindful of her potential, encouraged her exploration across various artistic disciplines, including dance, gayageum, theatre, and painting, rather than confining her to a singular path as a pansori performer.

In her academic pursuits, Professor Park has studied traditional dance under esteemed cultural figures such as Han Yeong-sook and Lee Mae-bang, while also mastering the gayageum with guidance from Seong Geum-yeon and Ham Dong-jeongwol. Additionally, she has honed her skills in Korean painting with Lee Dang Kim Eun-ho and delved into Chinese classics and calligraphy under the tutelage of Ujeon Shin Ho-yeol alongside her mother.

In 1982, Kim So-hee's daughter Park Yun-cho performed as the lead actress in the opera "Aladdin" in New York, USA.

She occasionally explored pansori, but her mother sternly advised her to abandon it. Subsequently, she immersed herself in the theatrical realm, gaining recognition for her role in "What Will Become?" produced by "Extreme Freedom," which uniquely fused theatre with traditional Korean music. Following a successful European tour from 1978 to 1981, she was cast as the lead in La Mama's Broadway production of Aladdin (The 3 Travelers of Aladin with the Magic Lamp).

In her own words, she described Aladdin as a collaboration among prominent theater companies from the US, UK, and France, where she infused her performance with singing and traditional dance forms such as seungmu and Bongsan mask dance, creating a notable impact. Despite feeling overshadowed by her peers from prestigious institutions like Juilliard, she recognized her unique heritage and the skills she had acquired from esteemed masters as a means to carve her own artistic path. Upon returning from New York, she dedicated herself to furthering her vocal studies. She fondly recalled the emotional connections formed during her 1996 solo pansori concert tour in the Netherlands and Belgium, as well as her participation in UNESCO's 'International Women’s Day' in 1997, where she showcased her cultural heritage. Her mother, while not as demanding as with her students, took pride in her daughter's achievements, particularly at Carnegie Hall, and in her commitment to nurturing young global artists in traditional Korean music workshops in Paris.

Professor Park recounted a revealing incident involving her mother during a reporter's visit. When asked how it felt to hear her daughter perform a well-known song, her mother responded with skepticism, questioning the cost of such an experience and expressing doubt about her daughter's abilities. The following day, the newspaper misrepresented her mother's words, leading to her outrage. In a moment of defense, Professor Park confronted the reporter, wishing her mother’s doubts were unfounded, which only intensified her mother's anger towards the media's ignorance. This incident marked a turning point, as her mother subsequently avoided interactions with reporters.

In 1994, shortly before Man-jeong's passing, she was honored with the 'Artist’s Great Mother Award.' When questioned about her aspirations for her daughter, Man-jeong candidly expressed her desire for her to become a painter. Professor Park reflected on her mother's approach to praise, noting that while she was generous with her students, she reserved her commendations for her daughter. In a poignant moment before her death, her mother acknowledged their bond, stating, "So you are my daughter," a sentiment that continues to resonate deeply with Professor Park.

Professor Park Yoon-cho of Seoul Institute of the Arts and her husband Yang Won-seok, former senior advisor at the Archibald Architecture and Urban Research Institute.

On May 21, during the centennial celebration of Kim So-hee's birth, she passionately delivered the poem "Come Even in My Dreams - Samogok 2."

The verses reflect a profound sense of longing and introspection, as the speaker grapples with feelings of isolation and the passage of time. The imagery evokes a deep connection to maternal wisdom and the inevitability of fate, culminating in a poignant plea for reunion, even in dreams. The poem encapsulates the emotional weight of memory and the enduring bond between mother and child, highlighting the complexities of love and loss.

The following information consists of accounts provided by Kim So-hee's daughter, who recounts the lives of her mother, her father Park Seok-gi, and her own experiences.

“My mother was a lonely woman all her life.” - (“어머니는 평생 외로운 여자였어요”)

This text reflects the cultural and artistic landscape surrounding the renowned master singer Park Yoon-cho. As the daughter of the legendary vocalist Manjeong Kim So-hee (김소희; 金素姬), Park embodies a wealth of artistic talent, excelling in various disciplines including pansori, gayageum byeongchang, and traditional dance. Distancing herself from the superficiality of television appearances, she is committed to deepening her artistic expression while mentoring the next generation. One wonders if her fervour is fuelled by a profound sorrow for her mother, resonating with the spirit of her era, as she shares the intertwined narratives of their lives.

Park Yoon-cho talks about the life of her Mother

Kim So-hee, whose real name is Kim Soon-ok and pen name Man-jeong (晩汀), is a name well-known to those who lived in Korea over the past century. Renowned for her distinctive voice, which was unmatched and emerged from her petite 5-foot stature, she gained prominence as a singer. Born in Gochang, she achieved first place in the Namwon Famous Singer Contest at just 14 years old, having trained for only six months, and quickly became the preferred choice for record labels during the Japanese colonial era.

In addition to her vocal prowess, Kim So-hee excelled in various artistic disciplines, including dance, instrumental music, and calligraphy, as well as in pansori. Revered as the godmother of Korean traditional music, she mentored many students and was recognized as Human Cultural Asset No. 5 in 1964. A masterful representative of Korean music on the global stage, her legacy endures, evidenced by the continued admiration of her students following her passing in 1995.

Manjeong Kim So-hee's daughter, Park Yoon-cho, has also made a name for herself as a prominent singer, following in her mother's footsteps and establishing herself in the realm of Korean traditional music. Park reflects on her mother's artistry, noting that her natural voice resonated deeply, characterized by clarity and beauty, and highlighting the dedication and introspection that contributed to her mother's status as a celebrated singer of the Republic of Korea.

Thank you, my precious 'Mother & Teacher'

Park Yoon-cho, born in 1944, asserts that her vocal abilities have significantly improved over the last two decades, a claim supported by her continued active engagement in her field as of 2015. She reflects on a poignant connection to her late mother, who passed away in 1995, suggesting that her mother’s spirit influences her dreams, often manifesting as gentle smiles coupled with ominous hints. These dreams, where her mother appears adorned in a blue hanbok and requests assistance, evoke feelings of anxiety related to her own physical and professional struggles.

This is the last performance of Kim So-hee. She is performing at the awards ceremony for winning the first Bang Il-young National Music Award on November 28, 1994, a year before she passed away.

Since the fifth grade, Park Yoon-cho has diligently maintained a diary, viewing it as a personal chronicle of her life. When a reporter inquired about sharing these diaries, she responded with skepticism, questioning the rationale behind such a request. She recalls that her earlier grievances about her mother eventually transformed into poetic expressions, highlighting the profound impact of her mother, Manjeong Kim So-hee, who was both a maternal figure and a mentor. Park Yoon-cho reminisces about her mother’s exceptional talent, once praised by the New York Times, and emphasizes the significance of ballim (Dance), in the art of pansori, noting that while her singing may not match her mother’s, her proficiency in ballim surpasses it.

The loneliness of my mother that I learned over time

The existence of a traditional Korean musician is fraught with challenges. It is reported that the musician's mother expressed a desire, prior to her passing, to be reborn as an ordinary woman or a noble lady, rather than endure the difficult life associated with traditional music. This sentiment echoes the harsh realities depicted in films such as "Seopyeonje" (서편제; 西便制), which portrays the lives of itinerant pansori singers in the 1950s, a period marked by significant cultural upheaval due to Japanese and Western influences. The narrative is conveyed through a series of flashbacks, illustrating the struggles faced by these artists.

The complex relationship between Park Yoon-cho and her mother is characterized by both affection and resentment, shaped by their shared experiences. Park Yoon-cho reflects on her mother's life, acknowledging her as a remarkable woman who, despite her talents, lacked love and fulfilment. This realization deepened for Yoon-cho when she experienced the intense love of her own husband, contrasting sharply with her mother's loneliness stemming from her father's indifference.

Park Yoon-cho's father, Park Seok-gi, was a distinguished geomungo sanjo master and the second son of a prosperous family, educated at Tokyo Imperial University. He established a residence in Damyang with the intention of gathering talented individuals from across the nation to impart knowledge of Korean traditional music. His initiative was driven by a strong sense of national identity, emphasizing the importance of preserving Korean cultural heritage in the face of Japanese dominance. This endeavour ultimately led to his meeting with Kim So-hee, who would become his wife, marking the beginning of their intertwined destinies.

Reunion, the war with mother begins

My father, renowned for his intellect and masculine allure, was not particularly affectionate towards my mother, who embodied traditional femininity but struggled to understand love. In time, my mother, enraged by my father's infidelities, abandoned me at the age of two or three to move to Seoul, leaving me in the care of my father.

As a result, I developed a closer bond with my father, who aspired for me to grow into a graceful young woman. He instilled in me the principle of valuing my talents over monetary gain. Tragically, my father passed away from an illness contracted while escaping during the Korean War when I was just ten years old.

At the age of twelve, I had the opportunity to reconnect with my mother, facilitated by my grandmother, who was the youngest sister of Yukdang Choi Nam-seon and had cared for me. Although I sensed my mother's longing for me, I was hesitant to live with her, leading to an awkward dynamic during our meetings. This marked the beginning of a complicated relationship with my mother.

A Mother & Daughter who were completely different from the beginning

The assertion made by her mother regarding Park Yoon-cho—that she would survive even in the harshest conditions—reflects a profound level of trust. While the statement may seem severe, it underscores a belief in Park Yoon-cho's resilience. Nonetheless, the inevitable conflicts that arise between them can be attributed to their fundamentally different personalities.

Their contrasting preferences are evident in their choice of colours; the narrator favours muted tones like gray, while her mother is drawn to vibrant shades such as orange and pink. This divergence extends beyond aesthetics, as the narrator notes the differences in their physical appearances and grooming habits. Although she is her mother's daughter, she identifies more closely with her father's traits, highlighting the complexity of their relationship.

The mother's attempts to shape Park Yoon-cho's upbringing stem from her own concerns and aspirations. She believed that adhering to her values would protect her daughter from the harsh realities of life. In contrast, Park Yoon-cho is determined to forge her own path, vowing to reject the lifestyle her mother exemplified, thus illustrating the tension between inherited expectations and personal identity.

The loneliness of living as a perfect singer

She recalled her mother's saying, "I sing when I'm sad, happy, missing someone, or lonely." Her mother embodied the essence of an entertainer, with the burdens of fame as a renowned singer weighing heavily upon her.

"My mother was unable to avoid the challenges that came with her profession. She had numerous students, and as they matured, some attempted to overshadow her. I recognized this dynamic, but when I brought it to her attention, she reacted with anger, accusing me of jealousy." Due to her mother's celebrity status and their familial tensions, personalized instruction was not feasible. Consequently, Park resorted to secretly recording her mother's singing to learn on her own.

In a performance, teacher Kim So-hee is dancing the dotboegi dance.

"My mother rarely needed to raise her voice, yet she often did so with great intensity, which was overwhelming for me. Her relentless pursuit of perfection may have contributed to her lifelong struggles. In contrast, I found joy in singing. While she may not have projected her voice loudly, many claimed it was a divine gift." Park's reflections were tinged with a sense of regret for the complexities of their relationship.

I didn't know how to untie the knot of Han

Park Yoon-cho reflects on her evolving relationship with her mother, noting that as she matured, their conflicts gradually diminished. This transformation led to a deepening affection that resembled the resilience of grass in a field. Nevertheless, this late realization is tinged with regret, highlighting the complexities of their bond.

She expresses a poignant wish that time could halt, allowing her to hold onto her mother and extend the opportunity for reconciliation. The desire for her mother's peace, however, is fraught with the understanding of the hardships her mother endured, leading to a conflicted sentiment that she feels compelled to suppress, even at the cost of her own well-being.

The relics of teacher Kim So-hee. She received the Geumgwan Order of Cultural Merit in 1995, shortly after her death.

Park Yoon-cho grapples with feelings of guilt for not adequately preparing to say goodbye to her 78-year-old mother. This inability stems from a long-standing emotional turmoil, where years of resentment created a tangled web of love and hatred. She acknowledges that her affection was buried deep within, masked by a harsh demeanour, rooted in a misunderstanding that her mother had usurped her father's love.

20th anniversary without regrets for my mother and me

Park Yoon-cho articulates her complex feelings towards her mother as a challenging enigma to unravel. Despite the passage of time, she endeavoured to address her mother's perceived shortcomings, albeit belatedly. The overwhelming presence of the renowned Kim So-hee added to her fatigue, complicating her emotional landscape.

In the wake of her mother's death a year prior, Park experienced profound regret, which was compounded by conflicts with other prominent artists engaged in similar endeavours. Although she sought to honour her mother’s legacy and fulfil her responsibilities as a daughter, she faced criticism for her efforts, which she found disheartening. Her intentions were rooted in love and duty, yet external judgments clouded her experience.

As the 20th anniversary of her mother's passing approaches in 2015, Park Yoon-cho hopes to navigate this milestone without regrets. Encouraged by the support of those who genuinely cherished her mother, including Teacher Lee Myeong-hee and Ms. Kim Mi-sook, she aims to serve as a bridge to honour her mother's memory. The upcoming commemoration is anticipated to be a significant yet challenging occasion, as she strives to ensure a respectful and meaningful tribute.

#south korea #history #korea #Korean Music #Korean Music History #Music History #Kim So-hee #Park Yoon-cho #Park Seok-gi

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arleniansdoodles · 2 years ago

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Finally made my First characters Lyric and it's none other then Laufey( Hel) Theme, which also Works as the stories theme as well and Just like the other games where GoW(2018) was about being better and confront the past and Ragnarok about changing your nature and facing the Future, Laufey story is about accepting yourself and live the present.

I used the God of War Ragnarök theme as the music.

https://youtu.be/l8j82BpkTPg

(pt2)

Young Goddess

Father’s lesson

Mother’s love

Child in search

Young Goddess

Father’s lesson

Mother’s love

Child in search

Daughter of War

Who you want to be

Takes great strength

Heal her rage

Young Goddess

Storm of doubt

Growing search

Wounds healing

Young Goddess

Storm of doubt

Confront the present

A Giantess

Dwells in the youth

A god’s daughter

Grows stronger

A Giantess

Still young

A god's daughter

Grows stronger

She will decide

Who she will be

(pt3)

Young Goddess

Father’s lesson

Mother’s love

Child in search

(Eivør Pálsdóttir solo)

Daughter

Daughter of Wolf and the Fox

You will find

Find yourself

Young Goddess

Father’s lesson

Mother’s love

Child in search

Young Goddess

Storm of doubt

Trust yourself

Heal your rage

New ruler of Hel

Approaches

She is going

To be who she wants

Who you are?

I am Hel

(pt4)

Norse (version)

Ung gyðja

Lærdómur föður

Ást móður

Barn í leit

Ung gyðja

Lærdómur föður

Ást móður

Barn í leit

Stríðsdóttir

Hver þú vilt vera

Tekur mikinn styrk

Lækna reiði hennar

Ung gyðja

Stormur efasemda

Vaxandi leit

Sár gróa

Ung gyðja

Stormur efasemda

Horfðu á nútímann

Tröllkona

Dvelur í æsku

Dóttir guðs

Vex sterkari

Tröllkona

Ennþá ungur

Dóttir guðs

Vex sterkari

Hún mun ákveða það

Hver hún verður

Unga gyðja

Lærdómur föður

Ást móður

Barn í leit

(Eivør Pálsdóttir role)

Dóttir

Dóttir Úlfsins og refsins

Þú munt finna

Finndu sjálfan þig

Ung gyðja

Lærdómur föður

Ást móður

Barn í leit

Ung gyðja

Stormur efasemda

Treystu sjálfum þér

Lækna reiði þína

Nýr höfðingi Hel

Nálganir

Hún er að fara

Að vera sú sem hún vill

Hver þú ert?

Ég er Hel

I noticed the similarities to the GoW Ragnarok theme right away, given the style of the lyrics XDD They sound very fitting for Laufey/Hel's journey, and it's cool that you included the translations too! Thanks again for sharing, anon :D

#asks #anon asks #god of war #god of war ragnarok #au #writing #fanfiction #other people's writing #other people's fanfiction #not my writing #not my fanfiction

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kallistcs · 8 months ago

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GET TO KNOW THE MUN.

what made you pick up the muse you have? For my main three - Ganymede was where it started. I just randomly in mid 2019 got to think about Ganymede's myth and that I like Zeus/Ganymede so I started reading Greek myth text sources and at the same time started RPing him. (Not on Tumblr, however.) Paris came about ~two years later, not connected to having read the Iliad (which I did the year before), but rather because I saw an ask reply/art made for that ask reply about Menelaus/Paris and suddenly my brain was hijacked. :') Adonis would be the last I picked up among my main muses. Something probably got me thinking about Persephone and Adonis and how perfect/cute it'd be as merely familial and since I love familial relationships, here we are.

is there anything you don’t like to write? AUs of powered/magical/etc characters that are entirely mundane/humans. Boring to me - if I'm playing a character that is "more" than human in some way, that's how I want them to be! Horror isn't my thing either, and angst, while I do like it, needs to be carefully balanced. (Too much/dark/relentless and it becomes tiring and just depressing to me.) Character-specific; I really am not going to play along if a thread with Paris has the other character dislike him for no clear reason or make him into a punching bag/blame him unduly. Yeah, he Did Some Things, but things I see around tends to a lot of the times have people and characters blame him in ways that puts him as uniquely responsible or blameworthy, etc and I'm not here for that.

is there anything you really enjoy writing? Family relationships! (There is a reason Luke & Vader is one of my favourite things ever and I latched on so hard to a purely mother and son interpretation for Persephone and Adonis.) Ships too lol, but within those, aside from the usual fluff and being ride or die for each other and a little bit of angst - protectiveness and possessiveness. Power dynamics, and I do love d/s flavour for ships a lot (not all, sometimes that just doesn't make sense, but. Yeah.)

how do you come up with your headcanons? Usually while thinking about characterization and relationship connections. Events in a character's life, etc, and extrapolate from there, either because of vibes or that it makes sense. For Greek myth characters, however, some headcanons come straight from having read some scrap of lyric or such that said something and I just went "yeah sure lol that sounds excellent". Which is specifically how/why some of Adonis' favourite foodstuff is cucumbers (from a fragmentary poem of Praxilla).

do you write in silence or listen to music? Silence. All my writing is done that way, because with music/too much noise in general I can't think. Creatively or otherwise.

do you plan your replies or wing them? Hmm... partially plan them? I read a reply that I'm going to respond to several times and sort of mentally map out what I'm going to do with it before I start putting it into words. Things can change from there, of course (depending on if I feel I'm getting too wordy or what's being said need to be broken off earlier because it'd be too much to respond to in a single reply), but I do usually have a... vague scaffold? to work from.

do you enjoy shipping? If shipping = romantic ships only; absolutely, but not to the exclusion of family relationships, which is some of my favourite things to play out. Parental or siblings! Those type of relationships can be at least just as important as romantic ones and may RP-wise be what I am more focused on, depending on the character! But I'm also a ship-hound for certain characters or just a character and my OTP for them...

what’s your alias / name? Unni!

zodiac sign? Scorpio, though I'm not very fond of it lol :v wish I had something more... nicer? Talking just looks-wise. A scorpion isn't very fun lol

birthday? Middle of November!

favorite color? Purple. Any shade of purple, but I like the bluer ones a little more.

favorite song? Hmm... I don't think I have one, really, but I'm rather fond of I Lived By One Republic.

last movie you watched? Ok lol it was Stockholm Bloodbath, historical action movie set around/about the events of... well, the Stockholm bloodbath.

last show you watched? I don't really watch shows so none (unless we should go back real far).

last song you listened to? I was skimming through a character playlist yesterday, so - No One Mourns the Wicked, from the Wicked musical, as that was the last song on the playlist.

favorite food? Chicken legs in some manner/chicken in general. I just love chicken ok. xD Otherwise pancakes (not American ones)!

favorite season? Late spring/early summer. Summer if I should settle on just one instead of picking transitions between/middles of two haha.

do you have a tumblr best friend? Nnnot really? (':

tagging: anyone who feels like doing this!

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abracadavra · 3 years ago

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✨ 🔮 👻 🧙🏼‍♀️

MUN INFO.

name/alias: azu. age: 21+. pronouns: he / him. timezone: ( mst ) gmt -7:00. discord: available upon request ! little trivia fact about yourself: i’ve been a massive pokémon fan since it came out in the usa... and i don’t see that changing anytime soon, to be honest. oh, and i also do drag and am naturally a huge fan of r*paul’s drag race. if you are, too, tell me all ab your fav queens! i’d looove to hear all about that!

CHARACTER INFO.

character name: ( 황미도 ) hwang mido. stage name: ( 루체 ) luce. age: 24, born 1997.02.21. zodiac sign: ☼ pisces, ☾ leo, ↑ gemini. group/band/position: solo_04.

info links or quick points about your character: bio & profile.

001. when creating hwang mido, i took a lot of inspiration from a girl i once worked with for a winter. though we didn’t know one another for long, i’ve always been really inspired by her, and she’s genuinely one of the coolest people i’ve ever met. aside from that, there’s a dash of luna lovegood personality-wise, and the rest is mostly just me filling in any gaps. she’s a dreamy mystic who loves talking to people, asking weird questions, ignoring boundaries, and living her witchy fantasy. she’s a muse i’m really excited to watch grow during the writing / plotting process!

002. she grew up in gurye county, south korea, but spent a lot of time in namwon, too, so she considers both of them her hometown. her grandparents are pansori performers, and she was constantly in attendance, so that’s where she first began to admire music and the performing arts in general. today, she utilizes the storytelling of pansori but adds a modern twist—focusing more on heartfelt lyrics and simplicity rather than over-the-top production value / technically strong vocals.

* tw, parental dealth, mental illness, suicide.

003. unbeknownst to her at the time, her mother suffered from postpartum psychosis after birth, and only a few months into her newborn’s life, she left this realm and entered the wild, expansive cosmos. her decision obviously devastated family and friends, but it also made them feel shameful due to how she chose to make her exit. mido’s family decided to keep everything a secret for many years.

004. when a classmate’s mother let it slip that that’s what happened to her, kids at school began to alienate her. they called her cursed, a witch, and a demon—literally believing that being her friend would lead to their deaths, too. middle and high school weren’t easy, and she grew to resent her family after finding out about her mother in the hallways at school, of all places. she still deals with that trauma.

005. she “ran away” from gurye when she was nineteen; not bothering to finish high school. she’d made friends online via soundcloud after posting some covers there. they convinced her to move to seoul and steep herself in the indie music scene. she heeded their advice. it was hard at first. she gave tarot readings curbside and busked for a long time before finding a lover ( possible connection ! ) who took her under their wing and truly helped her find her footing in the city.

006. when she’s in love, she dissolves into her partners; often mirroring their interests and changing herself in order to be more desirable to them. she does with friends, too. she likes to consider herself adaptable and interchangeable, but it can definitely read as artificial, or like she’s trying too hard. all the bullying she faced gave her a desperate need to fit in, so she does all she can to do just that.

* tw, infidelity, drug and alcohol use / abuse.

007. remember the lover from two points up ? yeah, she cheated on them a few different times, and also would get really messy at the clubs in hongdae. she was so new to all of it; having been so sheltered in a small town as a kid. she loves feeling good and having a good time, and she hates confrontation / making people upset, so she’d say yes to everything. she really loves the highs that drugs give her, the buzz alcohol creates, and the pleasure sex brings. she’s indulgent in that way.

008. she hasn’t spoken to her lover and their mutual friends in ages, and took time away to sorta reflect on the mess she created / the mess she became, and invested time into herself by making a living at a saju café, improving her music-making capabilities, and remaining as sober as possible. however, after a mixtape of hers created ripples online, she’s started live sets in hongdae and is terrified that she’ll run into her old crowd, but is adamant on trying to make her dreams come true.

plots or any development you’d like to see for your character:

001. the main plot point i’d love to explore is the dynamic between mido and her ex-lover, and if they’re not within this rp, dealing with their mutual friends / people who were aware of the falling out they all had would be dooope ngl. i left the gender of the person flexible as she’s bisexual and loves all people of all identities, so literally anyone can inquire about it! the relationship took shortly after she arrived in seoul and it turned romantic over time, but pretty quickly all things considered. specific years would be ~2016 to ~2018-ish.

002. branching off from number 001, she cheated on this person towards the mid-to-end of their relationship with a few different people, so those connections are open too. any gender and pretty much any age so long as we’re comfy! infidelity is involved, so only inquire if that is something you’re okay with exploring / writing. totally understand if not! note, they didn’t have to have sex. it could’ve been lots of making out / emotional cheating, too.

003. as she’s a mess who needs a little “supervision” despite being a grown ass woman, i would looove to have an individual who’s more of a benevolent / good influence on her. as she’s trying really hard to remain sober now that she’s entered the indie scene again, they’d be a shoulder for her to lean on when times get rough. she’d do her best to be there for them, too. she’s flawed, but a good friend.

004. opposite of above, some bad influences that encourage her to take a shot or smoke some weed or drop some lsd would be pretty cool, too, just to fuck things up a little. it’ll be a lot for her to dip her toes into those waters again, but the temptation’s high and she’s one of those people that’s easily led, so...

005. general connections like friends, enemies, friends-with-benefits, collaborators, etc. are always encouraged, too. i find that these connections are easier to build in plotting so while i have nothing specific to offer, i’m up for any ideas depending on the muses / their chem! i like the idea of collaborator / fwb blend, or even friends from her past who didn’t like her giving her a second chance, or literally whatever else fits. just gimme, gimme, gimme all of it! ♡♡♡

#〈 𝐇𝐌𝐃 / INTRO.#UG.TALK #me: tries to be brief. also me: rambles on and on forever. 🙃#can't wait to dive in with all of you! lmk if you'd like to plot! ✨

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bulletballet-arch · 3 years ago

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REALLY LONG CHARACTER SURVEY. RULES. repost , don’t reblog ! tag 10 ! good luck ! TAGGED. I took this from Minnie’s archived Bioshock blog. I’ve been looking for this meme all this month. TAGGING. @hammurabicomplex. @bluuxriising. @ Me - for Sal on @bulletsoverbensonhurst. @immaterialed (charlie) @soypeor (bella) @svmmercmance. @mrflayed. and you!

BASICS. FULL NAME : Eve Delores Littlejohn NICKNAME : Evie, Little Evie (by her maternal side of the family), Delores, Didi NAME MEANING / S Eve is from the ancient Hebrew name חַוָּה (Chawwah), which was derived from the Hebrew word חָוָה (chawah) meaning "to breathe" or the related word חָיָה (chayah) meaning "to live". Delores is a variant of Dolores, meaning "sorrows", taken from the Spanish title of the Virgin Mary María de los Dolores, meaning "Mary of Sorrows." Littlejohn is a surname that has historically been found in England and Scotland. With potential origins being either ‘to distinguish a beloved child that was not the eldest.’ Or, ‘a contradictory nickname for a large man.’ HISTORICAL CONNECTION? : She’s named after her grandmother, Evelyn Hollins.

AGE : 42 BIRTHDAY : June 2 ETHNIC GROUP : Black-American. Meaning she’s mixed with a lot (Some of her relatives are respectively Creole and Italian) but uses Black as a catch-all term. NATIONALITY : American LANGUAGE / S : English, Italian, Spanish, Latin, some French SEXUAL ORIENTATION : Bisexual ROMANTIC ORIENTATION : Biromantic RELATIONSHIP STATUS : Verse dependent, usually married -or connected- to Salvatore Scozzari in some way. CLASS : Upper-Class HOME TOWN / AREA : Brooklyn. Spent time between Bedford-Stuyvesant - with her paternal grandfather and Park Slope - with her maternal grandparents. CURRENT HOME : In her childhood home in Bedford-Stuyvesant. PROFESSION : Ballet Instructor. Former Professional Ballerina. ( Other verses see her as a professional thief. )

PHYSICAL. HAIR : Black. In terms of her natural hair, Eve has springy, 3C hair she seldom shows off because she was raised in a family where straightened hair was deemed presentable and professional. EYES : Thin almond eyes. Dark brown. NOSE : Straight and small. FACE : She has a prominent, high forehead, that’s accented with high cheekbones and a pointy chin. LIPS : Full. COMPLEXION : She has a light brown (tawny) complexion. SCARS : None major. TATTOOS : None. HEIGHT : 5��4″ BUILD : Eve has a slender build. One of those people who have been small and petite since childhood. Despite this, she also stays skinny because she is obsessively conscious of the food she consumes. The older she gets the more she weighs, however. USUAL HAIR STYLE : Her hair is cut short. Reaching her shoulders in a neat, even bob. She either curls it in a retro fashion or curls the tips. For work she wears it in a traditional, pinned bun. USUAL FACE LOOK : In public, she appears stoic for the most part. Any emotion shown (such as the length of a smile) is carefully calculated. She has to seem perfect. USUAL CLOTHING : Form fitting dresses. Incredibly chic and fashionable for the time. Shoes include heels - never open-toed, unless she has on stockings. Extravagant earrings. Jewelry that can include either necklaces, crosses, pearls, or dainty rings. Prone to wearing black sunglasses in public.

PSYCHOLOGY. FEAR / S : Thunderstorms, airplanes, creatures like weasels, snakes and ferrets, break-ins, men she doesn’t know, harm coming to her children ASPIRATION / S : Formerly wanted to become a major [black] ballerina in the elite world of ballet, now she just wants to expose more [inner city children] to dance through her job. Personally, she wants her children to change the world in some form or fashion, too. Eve also has good ideas on improving the community, but at the moment has no idea how to go about these ideas. POSITIVE TRAITS : Generous, compassionate, patient, protective NEGATIVE TRAITS : Strict, sullen, hard to read, represses her emotions, secretive MBTI : Advocate - INFJ-T ZODIAC : Cancer TEMPERAMENT : Melancholic ANIMALS : Lioness VICE / S : Pride & Lust FAITH : Christian. Grew up Baptist, but Catholic influences have been around her since childhood. Attended a Catholic High School in Park Slope, her grandmother Evelyn was also a practicing Catholic. GHOSTS ? : Yes and no. She feels that objects formerly owned by the deceased posses the essence of their previous owners and that they essentially live on through these pieces of property. AFTERLIFE ? : Yes. REINCARNATION ? : No, but it’s a romantic concept. ALIENS ? : No. POLITICAL ALIGNMENT : Democratic ECONOMIC PREFERENCE : She likes being where she’s at now. But honestly, being upper class is all she’s ever known. SOCIOPOLITICAL POSITION : Bourgeoisie, basically. The Littlejohn’s represent��The Historical Black Elite. EDUCATION LEVEL : College level. FAMILY.

FATHER : William ‘Bill’ Littlejohn MOTHER : Linda Littlejohn ( nee Hollins ) SIBLINGS : None EXTENDED FAMILY : Amos Littlejohn (paternal grandfather) Liza Littlejohn (paternal grandmother) Evelyn Hollins (maternal grandmother) Giuseppe D’Aietti (maternal grandfather) and a wide host of cousins, aunts and uncles.

FAVOURITES. BOOK : Night Song by Beverly Jenkins. The Color Purple by Alice Walker. Some sort of old, French erotic novel that was published before she was born. MOVIE : Eve watches films along the lines of...Waiting to Exhale, Beaches, The First Wives Club and Fatal Attraction. She loves Made-For-TV movies from the time period. In regards to plays, her favorite one is Sunday In The Park With George. 5 SONGS : Meet Me On The Moon / Essence of Sapphire / No One In The World / People / The First Time I Saw Your Face DEITY : Persephone HOLIDAY : New Years Eve, Christmas, Thanksgiving. Major holidays during the colder season. MONTH : October SEASON : Autumn PLACE : The dance studio she works at. WEATHER : Sunny, but cool. SOUND : The voices of Anita Baker and Sarah Vaughn. A skilled hand running over piano keys. Soft trumpets. Running water. Cats making chipper little meows. SCENT / S : Perfume, floral scented lotions, her partner’s cologne TASTE / S : Caramel, the tang of dark chocolate, strawberries coated with either chocolate, or sprinkles of white sugar. Light Vinegar. FEEL / S : Performing in front of an audience. Hot water engulfing your skin after a long day. Satin - whether it be the fabric of her clothes or sheets, your fingers tightly intertwined with another’s, feeling your significant other’s chest raise and lower against your skin with each breath they take. ANIMAL / S : Cocker Spaniels, Afghan Hounds, Cats, Birds - she loves all ( well, a majority ) of animals. NUMBER : Doesn’t have one. COLOR : White, Pink, Gold.

EXTRA. TALENTS : Dance, Eve is trained in ballet when it comes to her main verse. She has attended ballet classes since the age of eight and ever since then she placed all of her focus into it. Similarly, Eve has always had the makings of a good artist - as a child she enjoyed drawing and had informal art lessons with a man who lived in the basement of her grandfather’s brownstone, but she never invested into that half of her. BAD AT : Singing, Being interviewed, Public Speaking (as in Speech Giving), Decision Making TURN ONS : Charisma, Leadership Skills, Temperature Play, Phone Sex, Heavy Kissing, Light Roleplay TURN OFFS : Public Sex, Tearing [ Her ] Clothes, Threesomes, Cruelty, Senseless Violence HOBBIES : viewing plays & some musicals, reading romance novels, shopping, working out (she was into the whole celebrity VHS tape exercise trend), playing tennis, decorating AESTHETIC : Vintage Black Glamour, Black Ballerinas, Champagne and Wine Glasses, Paintings by Melinda Byers and Edward 'Clay' Wright QUOTES : "I'm bad with words, I hope you're good in reading eyes." / "There are truths I haven't even told God. And not even myself. I am a secret under the lock of seven keys."

FC INFO. MAIN FC / S : Lynn Whitfield ( A Thin Line Between Love & Hate ) ALT FC / S : Kylie Bunbury ( Twisted ) OLDER FC / S : Lynn Whitfield ( Greenleaf ) YOUNGER FC / S : N/A VOICE CLAIM / S : Lynn Whitfield

MUN QUESTIONS.

Q1 : if you could write your character your way in their own movie , what would it be called , what style would it be filmed in , and what would it be about ? A1 : Recently I decided that if/when I try to write anything serious about Eve again, it’ll center on her being a jewel thief because it presents me more fun, and emotionally diverse, opportunities. That and I have a very specific cover image in my mind. Ideally, her adventures would be a series of books. I have no title in mind, no idea about how ‘it would be filmed’ ( although a style replicating 90s films would be excellent, film grain and all. ) but, I do have a bunch of plots in mind that I really don’t feel like typing out here.

Q2 : what would their soundtrack / score sound like ? A2 : Her score would have a vintage sound (or a jazzy Spike Lee sound, if you will) with instrumentals by Dorothy Ashby (a Jazz Harpist) the Ahmad Jamal Trio, Pharaoh Sanders, Yusef Lateef and Tarika Blue. For music with lyrics, the soundtrack would include the likes of Julie London, Sarah Vaughn, Ella Fitzgerald, and Dionne Warwick.

Q3 : why did you start writing this character ? + Q4 : what first attracted you to this character ? A3 : Whenever I make NPCs for my character’s lives I actually can’t just let them just be NPCs. I start thinking about them too much. Developing them too much. And then I’m like, ‘wow! I really like this character!’ Eve was a different character when I began writing her, and likely wouldn’t be considered the same character as she was previously, if I told someone in real life who knows about my writing (like my grandma) about all the changes she has undergone. Originally Delores was a university professor, because I thought it could lead to interesting interactions with college-age muses. And her previous history with the mafia was also something interesting to tap in. But then I started thinking about what was realistic, what wasn’t realistic, what did I feel comfortable/interested writing? What didn’t I feel comfortable/interested in writing? So as time went on, things would alter about this character. And the new things I came up with attracted me more.

Q5 : describe the biggest thing you dislike about your muse. A5 : I have a love/hate relationship with Eve’s quiet demeanor. On one hand, I think quieter characters need love and the ability to be fully dimensional but on the other hand, writing louder characters has always been more fun for me. But really, Eve’s guarded behavior makes writing her stressful in some cases with others because sometimes...if I’m going to be honest...people don’t know how to carry a thread and interact with someone of her demeanor effectively.

Q6 : what do you have in common with your muse ? A6 : We’re both black, we’re both into art (although our exact interests and aesthetics with art differ)

Q7 : how does your muse feel about you ? A7 : Realistically she would think I need to take better care of myself.

Q8 : what characters does your muse have interesting interactions with ? A8 : We skippin’ this question.

Q9 : what gives you inspiration to write your muse ? A9 : Films such as, “Waiting to Exhale,” “The Kitchen” and “Widows.” Books by Alice Walker, like “The Third Life of Grange Copeland” as well as her short story, “Roselily.” The historical mob figure Stephanie St. Clair.

Q10 : how long did this take you to complete ? A10 : A few hours.

#long post #dash games.#headcanons.

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task. #famedrstask1.

notes: word counts are included with each individual answer! completed for +5 tracker points.

assuming your muse has changed in some way, be it internally or as a result of a change of the external factors around them, how is your muse different? these can be as small as an opinion on a song they hadn’t released previously or as big as a major change in their background. word count: 261.

minhee’s childhood prior to becoming a trainee is pretty much the exact same as before the restructuring. dance prodigy says fuck u crazy dance mom, i’m not gonna be maddie ziegler, and ends up becoming an idol. she started training a year earlier than before though, so she had a slightly longer training process! i think the most obvious change to everyone else is her faceclaim, which is now lee hyeri. buuuut if you take a look at her pages or app or anything else, you’ll see that she’s now a main dancer, lead vocal & rapper, rather than being a main dancer, lead rapper & vocal! this was sort of a selfish change on my part, because i wanted to open her up to some opportunities for solo work that wouldn’t have suited her before because of her position, but that would’ve fitted more along the lines of what i initially imagined for her image than the options actually available to her. she’s also been a lot happier for a lot longer, because instead of debuting with a concept she hated, minhee got to debut in ... an age appropriate group! if you look here, you can see some examples of what i thought of when thinking of minhee’s ideal group and ... yeah, lily lines up with that pretty well. not perfectly, but pretty well. she’s still dealing with her issues surrounding her family, her sexuality and her fear of aging, but for the most part, minhee’s a lot more settled, or even satisfied, in terms of her career.

what does your muse think of their company and their group? word count: 255.

let’s start with lily, minhee’s beloved. she loves her members, she loves the overwhelming majority of their songs, and she’s proud as hell of the legacy they’ve built up for themselves so far. to be honest, sometimes she it just hits her that oh shit, she’s minnie from lily! and oh shit, they’re basically the biggest girl group ever. no one tell her that candy inherited nation’s girl group or that ultraviolet are taking over the world, let her be dumb. no, but genuinely, she can’t believe the scale of what they’ve achieved sometimes. she doesn’t totally feel like she deserves all the love she gets. then there’s the company behind it all; bc entertainment. she wonders all the time if her mother would’ve went along with everything if it was any other company that minhee came home with a callback from. probably not. for that alone, she’s thankful. she sort of dislikes being portrayed as perfect and untouchable -- more silly and down to earth than a lot of her peers under the company, but still. it’s just part and parcel of bc’s status. the reason it gets to her is that she’s very much not that perfect girl next door that the company wants her to be, and she puts a lot of pressure on herself to live up to it. as such, minhee probably doesn’t take advantage of all of the resources being under bc allows her access to as much as she should, choosing instead to just grin and bear it.

is your muse on their first contract or their second? if they’ve renewed, what were their feelings around that at the time and what were their hopes for their second contract? if they haven’t renewed, what are their current thoughts on the end of their eventual first contract? word count: 260.

minhee is on her second contract. she renewed with bc in 2019 for a further seven years, which doesn’t feel like that long of a time. seven years seemed like a liftetime when she signed her debut contract in 2012, but it went by pretty fast for her. finding out what the rest of her members were doing was the most important thing for minhee when choosing whether or not to renew. with lily’s status in the industry, the money she made over the previous years, and the wealth belonging to her family, she felt confident that she’d be okay no matter what happened. a safety net. but her preference was always going to be to continue with the rest of lily if possible. she wouldn’t have forced the issue if the others didn’t want to though ... at least not on purpose. knowing minhee, she probably would’ve been crying all over the place and ended up messing with everyone’s plans like that. maybe she would’ve put out an ad like, “nation’s girl group in search of new agency. must be willing to take in four fully grown women and meet all of their demands.” as for the terms in her second contract, minhee was looking for some more royalties and some reassurance that lily would continue to receive the levels of resources and investment that they were already receiving from the company, as well as more opportunities for her to grow as a soloist. she didn’t want them falling by the wayside. she’s too young to be washed up!

what are your muse’s goals and motivations? word count: 259.

in terms of her career, minhee actually has some pretty lofty ambitions. her top two focuses are solo music and modeling, and they’re basically split an even 50/50. she wants to continue releasing upbeat solo songs, but as for the music itself, aside from some dabbling in lyrics, she’s happy to leave it to the professionals. her primary interest, aside from the obvious performance and promotion aspects, lies in developing her own choreography. for her own songs firstly, but also for lily’s songs, and maybe even others within the company. outside of bc remains to be seen. she’s been really inspired over the years by a lot of the dancers and choreographers that she’s worked with, even from before entering bc, and she’d like to inspire someone else some day too! and modeling ... i can’t lie, minhee just likes looking pretty and getting free stuff, so she’d like to do some more of that.

as for her personal life ... messy as hell! she still really wants to find love but still only goes looking for it with fuckboys. she wants to get closer with her dad and her extended family, but is finding it difficult to pull off while also keeping her mother at arm’s length. she also can’t help antagonising her mother because she’s a dumb brat. i don’t think minhee realises it yet, but she’s slowly coming to a place of self acceptance too. when she does realise it, i think that’s something that will really motivate her to be the best she can be.

what is one conflict, internal or external, that your muse is currently dealing with, has recently dealt with, or will need to deal with in the future? word count: 262.

i’ve talked in depth about minhee’s conflict over her sexuality here, which all still holds true, but i want to take this opportunity to talk about something else very close to my heart concerning minhee that i’ve mentioned once or twice in passing but never explicitly. minhee is autistic. she just doesn’t know it yet. some fun mun trivia is that i’m autistic! but, as is typical for a lot of afab people, i was basically an adult by the time it was diagnosed. you might say, hey sucy, stop projecting on your muses, but i say no! write what you know and all that. it’s kind of ironic though, because not even i realised minhee could very well be autistic until i’d written her for two years, and deciding took me another. and now she has to go through the diagnostic process again in character, smh me. anyways, yeah, minhee is probably going to have it suggested to her pretty soon while seeking some help for her anxiety about aging, and after that she’s gonna have to recontextualise her whole life because it’s truly like a lightbulb moment for a lot of people, myself included. suddenly everything that was weird to you growing up makes sense. it’s kind of a lot to wrap your head around, and would be for anyone, so writing about that for minhee is going to be interesting. i mentioned above that she’s been kind of moving towards self acceptance anyways, and i think this will be a very big turning point for her on that journey.

if your muse has established career claims, what are their thoughts on their career so far? if they do not, how do they feel about not having individual activities yet? what would they like to do in the future, if anything? if they don’t have ambitions for individual activities, explain why. word count: 277.

she does! her individual activities consist of modeling jobs and a couple of variety show cast positions, because i felt that these were the avenues she would’ve been pushed down up until more recently in her career, when her interest in choreographing for herself would’ve really taken off. minhee has really enjoyed her career so far. she feels settled within the entertainment industry, and that type of security is so sexy to her. the less chance that her mother can say i told you so the better.it’s kind of a big difference for her in terms of character actually, but this incarnation of minhee likes being on variety shows! she’s actually confident appearing on them! this is because of the difference in concept between lily and lipstick. lipstick’s minnie’s confidence took a long time to build up. lily’s minnie’s didn’t. she’d like to be on more variety shows in the future, especially something competition based, like dancing with the stars ... or masterchef, for a laugh, because she’d be the first person eliminated. and then, there’s the modeling. as mentioned a couple of questions ago, it’s something she wants to focus pretty tightly on going forward. her favourite brand that she’s been the ambassador for so far is crocs. she loves her crocs. she has, like, five different colours. crocs, please sign minhee again. working with etude house and kloud was pretty cool too though. sometimes she’s still able to swing free beers when she goes out. so, going forward, she wants to continue with those types of gigs, as well as pursuing more solo music and developing her skills as a choreographer, like i mentioned earlier!

#famedrstask1 #yes i did this instead of getting dowoon's intro ready!!! but ... now i'll go do that please love my silly middle child's changelog!!#yep . minhee's now the middle child of my kids that's crazy

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TASK001 : MUN QUESTIONNAIRE

name / alias : caro / care / carebear gender / pronouns : female / she&her where ya from ? : u s of a . orig n y c. the current time : 9 pm ( when i started? ) , 1 pm ( when i finished ) job or major : i majored in mechanical engineering and math. no, i canno favorite thing ( s ) about yourself : i have some good one-liners.

why you joined hqclouds : ... i helped make it. also its felt like a long while since i got to play some of my favorite babes, and i just missed them, so i obviously had to jump at an opportunity to bring them back !!!

meaning behind url : it’s uh...... next right thing , as in anna’s big song in frozen 2. and i just felt it like, FIT.

last thing you googled : zac efron high school musical gif icons, bc i wanted to use for this, but then that account was flagged as adult content and i guess those beloved gifs are lost to the void now...

zodiac : pisces in your opinion , does your sign suit you ? : yes. i am a crying fish. also i’m a pisces venus. it makes a LOT of sense. myers - briggs : istj ??? i think?? moral alignment : i can be chaotic good, but mostly neutral neutral i think hogwarts house : i used to be a slytherin, now i’m a hufflepuff. idk what happened to me.

three fictional character ( s ) you see yourself in + why : uhhhh... 1) bubbles from powerpuff girls. because i am baby. 2) juliet o’hara from psych. i’ve just been rewatching a lot of psych and i love how she’s such a serious yet funny / soft and idk why i just relate to that. 3) john mulaney in mulaney. because this is a cop-out to say i relate to anything / everything john edmund mulaney every does.

i started roleplaying : i first started on some fourms ??? on an app on my itouch ??? but my first tumblr rp group was percy jackson and everyone though i was this all knowing pjo fan... when really i was just fast to look shit up on the wikia. i had never read a single page of the series. types of rps i enjoy : fandoms, typically ! i used to be exclusively love animated roleplays? like cartoons? but then i transitioned to musicals? like, exclusively playing musical characters??? at this point, tara is like the one exception nowadays... favorite fcs to use : um... olivia holt is a recent fave? joshua basset, also. my old faves are mary kate wiles and hunter parrish tho. real old. otherwise, i don’t know if i’d say i get attached to fc’s? fandom ( s ) you’d like to write in : i kinda wanna go back to some of my cartoon roots, maybe? i really haven’t deviated from the same 8 - 9 mostly musical characters in literally years... fandom ( s ) you aren’t in but are curious about : um... the raven cycle , miraculous ladybug , uh..... everything else. i’m so randomly interested in everything.

share a funny roleplay horror story : my favorite is when i was in a youtuber rpf / oc rp, and this girl... made an oc... and made the fc... herself. she made a literal self-insert oc. with herself as the face. like low-res gifs of herself. why, you ask? i think she was trying to ship herself with dan howell. that didn’t age well, did it?

favorite canon muse ( s ) to play : do i just list all the characters i’ve been playing for literal years? my recent faves are katherine plumber from newsies and princess anna. favorite original muse ( s ) to play : i had a hunter parrish oc. he was in both the pjo and youtube rp. he was obsessed with hanging out with trees and pranks. don’t ask me why. canon ships you can’t help but love : kristoff / anna , jack kelly / katherine plumber , jake peralta / amy santiago , orpheus / eurydice , && donny novitski / julia trojan. yes, most of these are musicals. who doesn’t love a good love ballad? trope ( s ) you tend to be guilty of : uhh... adorkable, one of the boys, badass adorable

i prefer . . . angst , smut , or fluff : i am a massive sucker for fluff, but i’m so guilty of angst... i love pain. i don’t really do smut tho. sorry. long or short replies : i generally prefer short replies, unless we’ve somehow developed a thread into something long. or i’m feeling particularly inspired. pre plotting or chemistry : i love chemistry with all my heart, but sometimes it’s fun to plot past connections that can reignite? idk. mostly chemistry sentence starters or headcanon memes : headcanon memes, because im never creative to turn a sentence starter into something that makes sense, esp between two characters who don’t know each other. single muse or multimuse blogs : multimuse, because i spent too many years reblogging replies to the wrong sideblog and those days are over !!! gif icons , medium gifs , or static icons : i prefer gif icons for shorter replies and medium gifs for longer ones... or whatever my partner is using. i like some sort of consistency.

grab the book nearest to you and pull a quote from it : ‘ what’s the rush? ’ repeat this phase when you’re feeling overwhelmed or stressed out. ask yourself whether somethings really needs doing immediately. are you ignoring your needs in order to do it? - the little book of sloth philosophy.

what’s a quote or song lyric that speaks to your soul ? : “ did you fall? or did you let go? ” - connor murphy to evan hansen, dear evan hansen. ( idk why this immediately jump to mind but... )

top current celebrity crushes : jeremy jordan, corey cott, jordan fisher, claire saffitz, brian david gilbert. last movie you watched : bridal boot camp did you like it ? : yes. i loved it. it’s absolute garbage and i loved it. favorite movie ( s ) of all time : idk but i can always rewatch prince of egypt. godspell favorite tv show ( s ) of all time : uhh.... i keep rewatching psych. favorite tv show ( s ) that hasn’t ended : brooklyn nine-nine, zoey’s extraordinary playlist. sports team ( s ) you rep : uh... grew up in a yankee / mets household. favorite video game ( s ) : pokemon, animal crossing favorite youtube channels : drew gooden, danny gonzalez, jenna marbles.

put your music on shuffle. what six songs pop up ? :

greased lightin’ from grease live ; oh mother by hunter parrish ; nerds by bo burnham ; a miracle would happen / when you come home to me from the last five years ; just another day from next to normal ; who tells your story from hamilton mixtape.

i haven’t listened to any of these in forever, but i am still, indeed, musical theater trash.

personal aesthetic : demin overalls, scrunchies, the color teal, big stuffed animals. dream vacation ? : somewhere beautiful with people i love. dream job ? : perhaps like designing custom 3D prosthetics dream car ? : i hate driving, but a big ol’ truck. like suv. big one. favorite musical : gospell, dear evan hansen, bandstand, newsies, shrek the musical, mamma mia, i could go on... unwatched stuff in your netflix / hulu / etc : sailor moon crystal, crash landing on you, locke & key, all the bright places, the half of it, younger, meteor, hello my twenties ...

what’s a subject you know too much about + never get tired of talking about ? : musicals. so many musicals. i know both know too much and not enough.

#cloud:task #cloud:ooc #「 ooc 」♪ ˙ ˖ ♬ ❝ wait... what? ❞

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scmyr · 5 years ago

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luka sabbat. cis male. he/him. ／ samyr delcine just pulled up james joint by rihanna — that song is so them ! you know, for a(n) twenty-four (24) year old retired actor / singer and rapper, i’ve heard they’re really -temperamental, but that they make up for it by being so +creative. if i had to choose three things to describe them, i’d probably say smoke filled recording studios, messy handwriting, tattoos. here’s to hoping they don’t cause too much trouble ! ( LJ, 20, est, they/them )

career claim: roddy ricch, dababy, the weeknd

hey y’all! guess who’s back at it again with a new muse? it’s LJ, @kcia‘s mun, and this is my second baby, samyr. i’ve actually had this idea in mind for a while, and i’m finally bringing him into fruition. if you’d like to plot with him, just drop a like on this post!

basics.

NAME: samyr delcine. PRONOUNS: he/him AGE: twenty-four. BIRTH DATE: july 16th, 1995. BIRTH PLACE: port-au-prince, haiti. HOMETOWN: compton, california. CURRENT RESIDENCE: los angeles, california. NATIONALITY: haitian-american. ETHNICITY: afro-haitian, unidentified white side. RELIGION: non practicing christian. OCCUPATION: singer, rapper, songwriter, producer, retired actor. LANGUAGES: haitian-creole (native), haitian-french (native), english (fluent). SEXUAL ORIENTATION: confused. ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: confused.

visual.

FACECLAIM: luka sabbat. EYE COLOR: dark brown. HAIR COLOR: dark brown. HEIGHT: 6 feet, 1 inch. WEIGHT: 149 pounds. TATTOOS: here, here, here. PIERCINGS: ears. NOTABLE TRAITS: lips, height, hair.

background.

he was born in port-au-prince, haiti to a single mother. he never met his father because his father was someone that his mother hooked up with while she was studying in the states. it was her last year in college and she didn’t know she was pregnant until she was about three months along. she took a year off and went back home so she could have him. she considered putting him up for adoption, but as soon as he was born and she looked into his eyes, she “fell in love with him and couldn’t part from him”, or that’s what she always tells samyr.

when he was six years old and his mother was twenty-seven, she decided to go back to school and get her degree. she spent the first six years of his life working two full time jobs and a part time job just so she could provide for him and save money at the same time. after she saved enough money, she packed up their things and moved them to america, california to be exact, so she could graduate and get a better paying job. she finished up her criminal justice degree and got a job working as a law clerk while she put herself through law school. she finally graduated, passed the bar exam, and now she’s a highly sought after criminal attorney in the states.

his childhood was a hard, yet happy time for him. hard because he and his mother lived in california while his mother worked for a very low salary. it was difficult for them to make ends meet, especially when she was still in school. even though she eventually became an extremely wealthy lawyer (she started making money around the time samyr was fifteen, but by then he was already making money from his show), things were hard at first. he was still a happy kid though. his mother gave him a lot of love, and he had friends and a cute puppy named chichi (she’s still alive, with her old ass ;-;)

samyr’s first taste of the spot light was at a young age. he did a little bit of modeling for stores and brands, but didn’t really get his big break until he was 12 and landed one of the lead roles of a children’s sitcom. he loved acting when he first started doing it, and worked hard for the several seasons that he was apart of the show before it ended. he was nineteen when the show ended. he did cameos on other shows, and acted in a few movies during the course of the show too.

he’s a very passionate and dedicated person, but once he’s finished with something and wipes his hands clean of it, he’s finished indefinitely. he felt as though after several years of acting on one show and doing other acting jobs, that he was ready to bring to a close the chapter of acting in his life. he enjoyed it, still does, but he wanted to pour all of his time and effort into the next aspect of his life - music.

he had actually started getting into music around the middle of his show’s run. he had been in the industry for a while and started making friends with musicians who had introduced him to the art of music. he quickly fell in love with it, not just singing and rapping, but the technical aspects of the music industry as well - producing, sound mixing, composition, e.t.c.

he released his first music project while he was still acting. it was in 2011, and it was a mixtape that he dropped out of the blue. people didn’t know who it was at first because he just dropped it on soundcloud and his account wasn’t under his own name. but some fans ended up doing some digging and made the connection.

after that, he would occasionally drop music projects here and there (i’ll eventually make a little timeline of his music releases, more so for my own means of keeping track, but to also give you guys an idea of what he’s released so far!)

now he focuses primarily on music. overall, his sound and lyrics are explicit, but there are still two sides to him - the ‘hard’ side (dababy, roddy ricch) and his softer side (the weeknd). he likes having that kind of duality, because it gives him the freedom to explore himself as a musician.

personality

he’s a very hard worker, and extremely prideful. he doesn’t like accepting help from others, especially if he thinks they’re pitying him. he and his mother used to get a lot of “offers” of help, which were honestly just people feeling sorry for them, which he absolutely hated. he doesn’t even like asking for help when he knows he needs it. if you ever catch him asking for help, you best believe it’s because it’s his very last resort.

if samyr’s face and name weren’t connected to his music, no one would even think that he was the one rapping and singing on his tracks. a lot of his music has explicit sexual innuendos and undertones, and holds a little aggression from time to time. it’s a complete contrast to samyr’s lowkey personality. what most people don’t know is that writing music is his outlet. he doesn’t get frustrated or angry (most of the time) because when he feels those things, he channels it into his writing.

that being said, he does have a little bit of a temper. it’s something that his mother says he gets from his grandfather, a man he had never met because he passed away before his birth. he has a high tolerance for things, but if he’s pushed over the edge, he gets black out angry. he hates that though, which is why he stays ‘medicated’ most of the time (lmao he stays high)

he’s so deep in the closet that he’s finding christimas presents. he knows that there’s nothing wrong with being gay, he’s an avid supporter of the lgbtq+ on social media platforms and such, but it’s just something that he struggles to accept about himself. his mother is very open minded, but he has a lot of family members who aren’t, and he doesn’t want them to disown him.

kinda gets angry/upset if his own sexuality is brought up? maybe not really angry or upset, but just really defensive? again, finding christmas presents lol

very particular with and protective of his hair lol has definitely smacked a few people’s hands for trying to touch it

wanted connections

girl(s) that he’s dated in the past to as a way to somehow force himself to be straight. most of them ended due to him not being able to fully invest himself emotionally. we can discuss if they’re on good/bad terms!

a few best friends, he definitely needs those

if anyone has a muse that has songs with a male rapper featured, samyr’s your guy

the first guy he’s ever kissed

relatives on his father’s side (he just recently started searching for his father, so it’d be interesting if he had cousins or half siblings around!)

someone that he confides in about his sexuality

a guy who helps him explore his sexuality

pr relationship(s)

pr friendship(s)

media fueled rivalry

enemies

frenemies

celebrity friends that are always seen out together (events, award shows, sports games, out shopping, e.t.c)

literally anything?? i’m open to anything and everything!

#excess:intro #this got a little long whoops lmao #mun.

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never-ending survey: Lancelaux

RULES: Repost, do not reblog. Tag 10 blogs!

tagged by: @violet-warder

tagging: @oyuudatass @aethernoise @ffxivfisticuffs @kyrie-silverwings @vysaldhe @fatewalker @under-the-blood-moonlight @elisiaheartnet @celesiel @neekaxiv @lareine-kira @herd-of-halla @ember-arrow @whitherwanderer @againstthewiind @dragon-sound @jancisstuff

BASICS.

FULL NAME: Lancelaux Fiermont

NICKNAME: The Shattered Spear

AGE: 38

BIRTHDAY: 7/8

ETHNIC GROUP: Elezen (Duskwight)

NATIONALITY: Ishgardian

LANGUAGE/S:Common, Hingan

SEXUAL ORIENTATION : Bisexual.

ROMANTIC ORIENTATION :Heteromantic.

RELATIONSHIP STATUS: Single.

HOME TOWN / AREA: Ishgard, Coerthas

CURRENT HOME: A growing list of inns and dives.

PROFESSION: Dragoon (Ex, unaffiliated), Outlaw, Mercenary, Hero

PHYSICAL.

HAIR: Silver, short, and messily styled.

EYES: Icy blue, often unblinking.

FACE: Sharp, handsome features, worn with age, frown lines, and scars.

LIPS: Thin, and often pressed.

COMPLEXION: Pale

BLEMISHES: Dark circles under his eyes

SCARS: Many. Severe scar where his left eye used to be. A myriad collection of severe, large scars attained from dragons. Claw, fang, and burn scars across his entire body.

TATTOOS: A traditional duskwight tattoo beneath his right eye.

HEIGHT: 6′9″.

WEIGHT: Slightly heavier than average due to muscle mass.

BUILD: Toned and athletic.

FEATURES: Incisors and canines a little sharper than they should be. Resting bitch face. Goatee and frequent stubble.

ALLERGIES: None.

USUAL HAIR STYLE: A unkempt, short undercut.

USUAL FACE LOOK : A passive, analytical look, edging closer to a scowl than curiosity. Tired.

USUAL CLOTHING: Dark clothes, with light armour beneath. Fingerless gloves, and a pair of heavy duty boots.

PSYCHOLOGY.

FEAR/S: Death, Failure, Being forgotten, Having no purpose

ASPIRATION/S: To save the world, and make something good out of the poor choices he’s made, and the curse that has been dealt to him. To do better than the god who he once dedicated himself to.

POSITIVE TRAITS: Loyal, passionate, persistent, dedicated, altruistic

NEGATIVE TRAITS: Obsessive, reckless, addictive, wrathful

TEMPERAMENT: Choleric

SOUL TYPE/S: The King

ANIMALS: Wolf.

VICE HABIT/S: Danger, smoking, drinking, dragons blood

FAITH: Not any more.

GHOSTS?: Yes.

AFTERLIFE?: Yes

REINCARNATION?: Probably

POLITICAL ALIGNMENT: He doesn’t care for politics (Or more like, authority), and is only really concerned with the wellbeing of common people.

EDUCATION LEVEL: Well educated, as a noble in Ishgard.

FAMILY.

FATHER : Deceased (?)

MOTHERS : Deceased.

SIBLINGS : Deceased.

EXTENDED FAMILY: None to speak of.

NAME MEANING/S: It was just a Lancelot joke

HISTORICAL CONNECTION?: No.

FAVORITES.

BOOK: History

DEITY: Kill your gods

HOLIDAY: None

MONTH: December

SEASON: Winter

PLACE: A quiet office.

WEATHER: Light snow

SOUND / S: Silence

SCENT / S: Whiskey and cigarette smoke.

TASTE / S: Whiskey, blood on his tongue.

FEEL / S: Soft skin, the weight of a weapon

ANIMAL / S: Crows, Hounds

NUMBER: 7

COLORS: Black. Red. White.

EXTRA.

TALENTS: Well spoken, tactical, years of martial prowess, tracking, hunting. Charm?

BAD AT: Understanding magic, keeping his temper under control, taking orders, letting things go.

TURN ONS: Rivalry. Tension. Battle-highs. Skill and physique. Rough hands on soft skin. Height Difference. Soft features. Confidence. Struggles for dominance. Intense gazes. Intensity. Scars.

TURN OFFS: Lack of intelligence. Religion. Indolence.

HOBBIES: Writing in his journal. Chainsmoking 30 a day. Drinking his sorrows away.

TROPES: So many. Anti-hero probably the most encompassing.

QUOTES : “We, were betrayed.”

MUN QUESTIONS.

Q1 : If you could write your character your way in their own movie, what would it be called, what style would it be filmed in, and what would it be about?

A1 : It’d be a short film just called “Blood” and be a black and white (and red) introspective of Lance dying as he walks across a ruined battlefield.

Q2 : What would their soundtrack/score sound like?

A2 : Equal parts dark orchestral sounds and any heavy/industrial sounds with lyrics evoking rebellion and disestablishment.

Q3 : Why did you start writing this character?

A3 : I got to Coerthas. I thought dragoons were cool. I wanted to do a ‘fallen’ take on a knight character.

Q4 : What first attracted you to this character?

A4 : The aesthetic. I like knights. I like religious themes. I like the theme of a people who have been fighting for so long that it’s so intrinsically part of them now.

Q5 : Describe the biggest thing you dislike about your muse.

A5 : He’s kinda hard to slide into rp with people some times. He has odd, kind of esoteric goals. He’s not exactly anti-social, but he doesn’t always mesh with other peoples characters well.

Q6 : What do you have in common with your muse?

A6 : Bitter as fuckkkk.

Q7 : How does your muse feel about you?

A7 : Smoke...more???

Q8 : What characters does your muse have interesting interactions with ?

A8 : Other Ishgardians. Whether their views conflict or not, it’s usually interesting. Other soldiers, people he can relate to. And, people completely outside of his spectrum of expertise. Soft, gentle people who either temper his own personality, or have theirs cracked by his presence.

Q9 : What gives you inspiration to write your muse ?

A9 : Music, fictional characters and interesting aesthetics. THE PROTOMEN

Q10 : How long did this take you to complete ?

A10 : About an hour

#answered prompt #Lancelaux Fiermont #thanks for the tag!#long post

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Never-Ending Survey || Hilven Morrow

RULES: Repost, do not reblog. Tag 10 blogs!

tagged by: @blood-of-the-dragons, @lavender-hemlock and @afreesworn (Thank you so much, the peer pressure was stroooonk)

tagging: @finishing-touch (THAT’S 5, BISH), @asraha, @whitherwanderer, @s-udarshana, @ahlis-xiv, @kazexvoss, @cfs-melkire, @gvnbreaker, @the-hawkeyes, @ephemeralrequital

BASICS.

FULL NAME: Hilven Morrow

NICKNAME: That bitch

AGE: 28

BIRTHDAY: 14th Sun of the 6th Astral Moon

ETHNIC GROUP: Highlander Hyur

NATIONALITY: Ala Mhigan by birth

LANGUAGE/S: Common, laughably poor Huntspeak

SEXUAL ORIENTATION : Heterosexual

ROMANTIC ORIENTATION : Aromantic.

RELATIONSHIP STATUS: Single

HOME TOWN / AREA: Ala Ghanna, Gyr Abania

CURRENT HOME: The deserts of Thanalan, though she may languish in Forgotten Springs for as long as she remains in good standing with the locals.

PROFESSION: Hunter, Tracker, Racketeer, Extortionist

PHYSICAL.

HAIR: Light blonde, falls to her shoulder blades

EYES: Sharp, pale blue

FACE: Oval, high cheekbones, somewhat severe-looking features

LIPS: Full, dusky, often curled in a smirk.

COMPLEXION: Tan

BLEMISHES: A small mole just below the right corner of her mouth

SCARS: Dark, discolored skin over both knees; the ghost of a gash from right elbow to wrist. There will soon be a fresh one in her left side, below her ribs.

TATTOOS: A faded yet striking black tattoo on the left side of her face, done in the fashion of an ancient Ala Mhigan sigil. She may or may not recall its meaning.

HEIGHT: 5′9″

WEIGHT: Constantly waffling between healthy and underweight for her height

BUILD: Athletic gradually transitioning to lean

FEATURES: Arched brows, a smokey layer of kohl smeared over her eyes

ALLERGIES: None

USUAL HAIR STYLE: Half-up in a loose plait

USUAL FACE LOOK : Keen-eyed, alert, and either smirking, or scowling

USUAL CLOTHING: Well-worn leather, thigh-high boots, belts and bandoleers, torn flounces, a tan turban and silver goggles, a trio of pilfered necklaces and medallions

PSYCHOLOGY.

FEAR/S: Deep water, open water, drowning, capture

ASPIRATION/S: To live free without compromise; to escape the consequences of her choices; to accrue enough gil to purchase the freedom she desires

POSITIVE TRAITS: Clever, hardy, inconspicuous, silver-tongued

NEGATIVE TRAITS: Stubborn, shrewd, apathetic, paranoid

TEMPERAMENT: Sanguine

SOUL TYPE/S: The Sage

ANIMALS: Jackal

VICE HABIT/S: Drinking, swindling, amassing loans she will never repay

FAITH: Agnostic at best, often only beseeching Nald or Thal in times of need, as her most desperate moments typically pertain to death and money.

GHOSTS?: Maybe

AFTERLIFE?: Also a maybe

REINCARNATION?: No

POLITICAL ALIGNMENT: Once a firebrand for Ala Mhigan liberation, now mostly disinterested in politics

EDUCATION LEVEL: Self-educated, with gaps; Well-read and spoken, but lacking any mathematical prowess

FAMILY.

FATHER : Deceased

MOTHER : Deceased

SIBLINGS : None

EXTENDED FAMILY: None to her knowledge

NAME MEANING/S: I thought I made this name up, but after some light googling, it’s a form of “Hilve,” which in a Finnish form of the Swedish “Hilvi,” which means “Strong Warrior.” Go figure.

HISTORICAL CONNECTION?: No.

FAVORITES.

BOOK: Textbooks

DEITY: Nald’thal

HOLIDAY: All Saint’s Wake

MONTH: What month is it right now? That one.

SEASON: Winter

PLACE: At the desert’s edges, under the shade of an awning.

WEATHER: Rain

SOUND / S: Silence

SCENT / S: Woodsmoke and lavender

TASTE / S: Wine, fresh melon, rosemary, cool water

FEEL / S: Worn leather, the weight of a knife, the bite of coarse rope

ANIMAL / S: Ducks, dogs, rodents

NUMBER: 8

COLORS: Sky blue, gold, rust

EXTRA.

TALENTS: Silver-tongued, persuasive, hard to kill, deception, sleight of hand, archery, fletching, tracking, making enemies

BAD AT: Staying out of trouble, swordplay, making friends, talking to children

TURN ONS: Uhhhh power struggles, ropes, height differences, gags, domineering personalities, being on-eupped

TURN OFFS: Weakness, blood, foul odors, poor taste in music

HOBBIES: Who has time for hobbies? Target practice, hunting for sport (and snacks), botany

TROPES: Dark action girl, The Woobie because I said so, look I don’t actually know very many tropes

QUOTES : No?

MUN QUESTIONS.

Q1 : If you could write your character your way in their own movie, what would it be called, what style would it be filmed in, and what would it be about?

A1 : It’d be a Scorsese movie shot in the style of the Departed, and would follow Hilven’s journey into the Ala Mhigan resistance, the beginning of the long con, her timely exit, and the subsequent fallout.

Q2 : What would their soundtrack/score sound like?

A2 : Moody, melodic, with occasionally discordant and unsettling tracks. Some lyrical songs, but nothing in English.

Q3 : Why did you start writing this character?

A3 : I have no clue, really. I wanted to roleplay, and I wanted to roleplay a character paying the price for a life of lies and hubris.

Q4 : What first attracted you to this character?

A4 : Her spooky blue eyes. I’m a simple mun, ok.

Q5 : Describe the biggest thing you dislike about your muse.

A5 : She just isn’t nice, even when I want her to be. It doesn’t make sense. And I love soft things. She is not soft. It’s better this way. This is what alts are for.

Q6 : What do you have in common with your muse?

A6 : I too have long hair and did an archery once. We’re also the same height.

Q7 : How does your muse feel about you?

A7 : I refuse to acknowledge that my muse knows I exist because that is weird to me.

Q8 : What characters does your muse have interesting interactions with ?

A8 : The Drake tribe of Forgotten Springs. They’re the closest thing she has to allies, and even then, their favor is fickle.

Q9 : What gives you inspiration to write your muse ?

A9 : Music, always music.

Q10 : How long did this take you to complete ?

A10 : Days and days and days because I procrastinated well.

#prompts #memes #oh my god this was a long one #please skip if this isn't your cup of tea but I am also super curious #except finishing-touch you're not allowed to skip we talked about this

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yxcnghq-blog · 5 years ago

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good fuckin yard my guys gals and non binary pals !! i’m admin c and this is my messy disaster gay problem child jooseok. below the cut you’re gonna find out a loT about his tragic ass and if you hit the like button if i haven’t already, i’ll hit you up for plotting !! i’ll give a few ideas of connections on the end of this too since i’m gonna update and redo his plot page sfngn bUT let it be known i also mun aurora, euchan and emrys so i may have also messaged you for plotting on one of those acc’s, if so don’t worry i will ensure to give you the chance to plot with all my babies !! without further ado:

jooseok is the son of a mob family, they’re very well established in the criminal world. his parents are yeong dami and yeong joohyuk. however it is dami who actually runs the game and is the head bitch in charge shall we say, not to bring feminist agenda joo to life but as u can imagine due to this he has hella respect for women esp his mother bc of the strength he observed in her growing up. he thinks women are stronger and better at survival bc of learning through his ma and being trained by her.

so he was raised of course in the family gang, raised in crime and never really knew any other way to live. when he reached seventeen he was initiated officially into the gang meaning his role became more full time and his responsibility became larger. he dropped out of college after his first two years there to accomodate for this and so his education wasn’t the finest but he was homeschooled for a long time before he got too old as the gang considered it and he no longer had time for it. plus he was of the belief he knew enough about how the world worked through the observation of the good and ugly alone.

he does have a younger sister who he considers his entire world and he also has a brother of around the same age as him. the family dynamic is a little complex, he’d kill without hesitation for both his siblings despite the fact that his brother and himself often don’t agree or see eye to eye on anything, they bicker and give each other shit but they’d never turn their backs on each other. these are wanted connections i will eventually put on the list so they can be filled out also.

he’s considered an infiltrator and a double agent as his main job titles for the gang so right now he works undercover in the police force helping the wrongly accused escape a life of jail time and prove their innocence when the justice system fails them. occasionally he’s put in charge of strategy too and he is very very respected within the gang for being the youngest and yet the most skilled who rose to his tasks very quickly for his age and became the best at what he does at an alarmingly quick rate, he’s actually pretty well known for having the reputation of being the youngest to climb the ranks and gain status like this.

he could actually have been the boss of the gang with the amount of tasks and dirty work he takes on

HOWEVER...

jooseok has a huge secret and this is that recently he’s started attending college again and taken on night classes to study law and learn more about the police force so he can become a genuine crime detective. he is also undertaking training for the police force.

the lifestyle and career of the police force has always been his dream and his goal but with his limited education it was never something he could achieve alongside his gang life. this is why he jumped at the chance to at least do something undercover with the police and despite playing dirty cop, use it to do something good, vigilante like if you will.

joo can’t keep his secret forever though, his gang are getting wind of what’s going on and soon he’s going to have to go into hiding. despite the gang being his family, hits will be issued on him until he is eliminated and killed. simply put he is considered a traitor the minute he gives up gang life, and he knows far too much to simply be allowed to walk free possibly giving away all their secrets and intel. because it is a family business there are severe consequences for him turning away from what is considered his duty and responsibility.

joo = big be gay, do crime type energy. he’s abrasive and amoral but he’s also nurturing and naturally smart and talented at everything he puts his passion into. he’s resourceful and crazy adaptable and he’s equal parts a protector as much as he is a fighter. he can be broody and blunt but he can also be witty and hilarious with his dark sense of humor and somewhat messed up mind and moral code. if you’re considered close to jooseok then he’ll kill half the population of daegu easy with his own hands with no worries so long as you’re safe.

he worked undercover in america for a year so he can speak english and went by the shortened name of jo over there but most people call him seok or ong in korea to shorten his name to a nickname. he’s fluent in his english, jooseok is well known for being a quick learner in every area if u know what i mean *side eyes*

can be a bit of a fuckboy but has a big heart deep down despite it all, just keeps it concealed because of past toxic relationships and the belief taught into him from early on that any attachment to anything you don’t owe it to, would only result in weakness and vulnerability. and you don’t want people to know you have weaknesses when you do what jooseok does. *coughs* for this reason he has had a lot of pining and unrequited love situations *coughs*

he’s not that close with his parents, he keeps a strictly professional relationship with them mostly but his mum is his idol for her mentality and attitude to life. though he wishes he could achieve more than what she allowed for him to be a part of. wishes he could be normal.

OTHER LIL HEADCANONS:

joo joined the gang officially at seventeen when the initiation process took place and this was the time he met hyunjin ( @phyunjinn ) also known as his best friend and right hand man. they quickly became partners in the gang for everything, if joo had business to deal with especially the dangerous kind then nate would be by his side, acting as his protection for anyone who dared cross him and likewise he would give the same back. think kinda like alec and jace i guess as a good example with the whole parabatai bond aspect. they fight the best when they’re fighting together, and if one of them died, a huge piece of the other would die with them.

at first joo actually refused to talk to nate cause he’s a lil shit and he didn’t get why it should be important but dami urged her son, pointing out they were of similar ages and being initiated at the same time and it was important to have someone he could talk to and rely on like that. so he sidled his way over eventually and pretty easily and nonplussed like made a best friend out of the other male. they grew to have a secret code of trust between them, joo learning sign language for the male to put him at ease and also ordering the rest of the gang did the same despite complaints he quickly shut that shit down arguing they needed to be able to communicate with nate in his way to ensure his safety faster if need ever be. ( but for him personally, he learnt because he wanted to be able to talk to nate in the way that comes most naturally to the male )

in college he’s considered a soft jock type, heart of gold but he’s very physically attractive and a bit of a heart throb and definitely considered sporty despite also being very musically driven.

PLOT IDEAS:

joo needs some college friends, musically talented people he can consider study buddies, he was actually almost an idol once when he nearly signed on with a company because of how musically talented he is as a producer and songwriter - typically he only writes for close friends and always ensures the lyrics feel truthful and genuine to his friend’s stories but yeah give me people he is encouraged by with that and just able to be himself with.

friends from america potentially as well

other criminal underground kinda connections bc u know keeps business thriving to link up with other famously dangerous people and work together.

i would so love a good cop,bad cop type thing where someone who he’s on the police force with or is also training to be in the police force with him is genuine and legit and knows he isn’t and is kinda like shunning tf outta him for it but also trying to teach him how to be better without even realizing it and sort of having their mind changed on how simple good and bad is bc actually there is kind of a grey area which joo belonged to.

ex’s of course

as much as i love friends who don’t know about joo’s other life, i’d also love some friends who did and were hella concerned bc like siren noises what is this boi doing he’s gonna get himself killed and does he even cAre bc he fuckin should

roomies plssss

enemies and rivals are always welcome too maybe ppl who dislike him for turning away from the crime life and going straight or whatever rlly i also rlly like the idea of someone who sort of admired him and has a personal grudge bc he was so good at being a criminal and he made such a legacy and then he just abandoned it and they feel he wasted it or something

#daegu:intro #daeguintro

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name. Fae Ariad, of the Imperial House of Ariad, of Sidhe nickname(s). Fae; Your Imperial Grace; Your Imperial Viciousness species. Humanoid/Sidhe title. High Imperial Empress of the Imperial House of Sidhe

P E R S O N A L .

morality. lawful / neutral / chaotic / good / grey / evil religious belief. Sidhe theology, based around a higher power taking the form of Oracles who speak through the Seers on the Clouded Isle, as well as a series of lesser gods and goddesses who help make the world turn and function sins. lust / greed / gluttony / sloth / pride / envy / wrath virtues. chastity / charity / diligence / humility / kindness / patience / justice primary goals in life. See to it that her empire is back in working order. Marriage and children are always on her mind, but never the primary goal. languages known. -Sidhe [a vaguely mixed sound of Farsi and Sanskrit] -Oracle [for conferences with the High Oracle; guttural back-of-the-throat sort of noises] -Hylian secrets. -Despite the regal air and intimidating presence expressed in a political setting, she’s a lot less of a towering monolith in private, always worried about how she’s presenting herself. Her Regent is more or less her confidence booster. After all, advice comes in many forms, this is no different. -She’s a bit of a lush when it comes to stress. She’ll have a small glass of wine to calm nerves, but of course one glass turns into three turns into twelve and this is why at least one Regent is always at her side, to act as impulse control. quirks. -She sings at the drop of a hat. No, really, if something is on her mind, she’ll start by humming and then add lyrics to it in the form of a to-do list or something like that. Not everyone knows she does this. -Like all of her people, even she can fall prey to the dreaded ‘hivemind’ pack mentality all Sidhe go through. In times of shared emotion, she will fall in time with those around her and they will all move in sync. Usually, she’s the first out of it, though. savvies. -Singing and dancing -Physical combat [without using the Aeroglaive] -Tactics and stratagem -Politics [as much as she hates them, she can still deal with the best of them]

P H Y S I C A L .

build. slender / fit / athletic / curvy / herculean / babyfat / pudgy / obese / other height. 6′6′‘ weight. 192 lbs scars/birthmarks. As a Blood Mage, she has quite a few scars where she has had to bleed herself for her magic at various tiers, though none as prominent in notice as the scar on her neck. From the back curve across the left side to the front curve, it is difficult to miss, a lighter shade than the skin around it. It is this one she displays regularly with pride, taking care not to wear chokers or heavy neck-cuffs that may obscure it from view. abilities/powers. -Life-force manipulation, particularly Vocal Manipulation; if the opposing mind is not closed or resistant to such power, she can use the tone and inflection of her voice to ease people into doing what she wants them to, including feeling certain emotions. -Blood magic and bonding; the most common use of life-force manipulation in the Empire of Sidhe, of varying tiers, bonding, and power. While she does not have the largest object bonded to her, she does have the most articulated, and the hardest to control. It is symbolic to her and to her people as proof that she is supposed to be on the throne. -Like all of her people, she sees well in daylight, but the best at night; hence, her eyes [and all their eyes really unless blinded] shine in low light as reflective-silver discs. Her hearing is also incredibly sensitive, but that is also a racial trait.

F A V O U R I T E S .

favourite food. Anything made with lamb, really. She has a strong fondness for it. favourite drink. A weird dark drink brewed over roasted beans her people call ‘cabean’. When in absence of this or tea, though, it’s wine. topping. Meat-eater; anything with meat on it. favourite colour. Blue favourite music genre. Her peoples’ folk music, though she has a fondness for learning about others’ music. Music literally makes her world go ‘round. favourite book genre. History; War records; Family history; The occasional fantasy favourite movie genre. If they existed, she’s one to watch war movies to point out the stupidity of how they’re done; Psychological horror is another one favourite season. Autumn favourite curse word. She doesn’t necessarily swear, per se. But ‘Oracles above!’ is a common exclamation of frustration, incredulousness, and simmering anger. Usually accompanied by venomous threats. favourite scent. The smell of the Dragon’s Blood they make their incense out of, deep and earthy; such trees where the resin is drained from grow on one of the islands in the empire, so it is a common scent. It reminds her of her people, and of her mother when mixed with the faintest hint of Styna’s Tears, a cluster of small white flowers with a subtle but pleasant fragrance, named after their most benevolent Empress.

F U N S T U F F .

bottom or top. Switch depending on partner loud burper or soft burper. Very soft and polite .... unless in privacy with Eyrol, in which case all propriety is out the window and it’s time to put the old Admiral in his place sings in the shower. yes / no [bath, but always...] likes bad puns. yes / no [even though she scoffs at most of them] their opinion on the mun. ‘Not an unpleasant person. We certainly need to work on that self-confidence issue, though.’

Tagged by i dont remember anymore

#A Game of Tag

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♡♡ hey babes !! it’s ya gal charmi at it again, the mun of azami, with yet another chaotic child on my hands. meet jung woojin and find out more about him below the cut & hit me up for plots or like this and i will slide into your messages !! before you read on please be aware of these triggers: tw: eating disorder mention, tw: depression mention, tw: anxiety mention, tw: self harm mention, tw: parental death mention, tw: suicide mention, tw: domestic abuse mention. all of these are brief and very vague however i want y’all to be safe !! without further ado:

BACKSTORY:

was in and out of the adoption system most of his life and went to many toxic homes and families that were neglectful or abusive because he wasn't the perfect child they had dreamed of. at first thought he was never going to be fostered at all because he wasn't the ideal age or considered young enough really for many family setups to want him.

was separated from his brother in the adoption system and has never fully got over it since they grew up closer than ever due to their circumstances and were more like twins. strongly believing for a long time they were the only ones who could look out for each other and make the miserable upbringing worth fighting through. he still believes he's the only one who can really protect his brother and tears himself apart thinking of how he might have suffered without him, if it was the same way he did.

the father died of alcohol issues and early set heart failure. the mother decided in her grief and mourning she could not cope with the boys and got rid of them before taking her own life. both parents were fairly young when they had the boys, too young really.

the boy grew up believing he was a monster and that he was far too violent for loving or to be loved. that he only brought destruction and damage everywhere he went. simply put he was too rough around the edges.

was taught to believe that if he simply kept quiet and out of the way maybe his foster parents would love him more and he could make his life there more bearable.

his school and teachers did nearly find out but he always lied and covered it up well, in fact lying became increasingly easy because he didn't believe there was anything better waiting for him anyway, he did not want to be saved and a part of him still wanted to pray for the best in his foster parents, a sudden change. a part of him thought he was strong enough to deal with their violence bestowed upon him now.

of course though this made him a very angry kid with a lot of secrets and a lot of pain he had to keep buried, a lot of the time he became too agressive with his friends and people who attempted to help him because it was all he knew, agressive spat out hurtful words and rash actions that are just a touch too brutal. a shove, words spat in faces. he's trying to be better though, he really is. he doesn't want to hurt or break things anymore. that's all.

he's beaten up a lot, he tends to brush it off with a 'it happens' or 'it wasn't a big deal' when his ribs end up broken and he's taping them up himself etc.

some nervous dispositions that have stuck are things such as shaking a lot, folding arms in on himself and making himself appear smaller, biting his nails down over excessively.

abandoned foster child who fell prey to the system and came out worse for it because of it all is basically his whole niche.

a lot of things become an argument even when he doesn't intend it, apologies can come out more like taunting. he can be sharp tongued and ugly with his words.

in turn he's bad at accepting apologies even when he knows deep down things are his own fault. he struggles to find words that don't burn and hurt and take. he just doesn't know how to do comfort, he thinks he has the idea sometimes but he is scared to reach out and give the wrong touch, end up hurting more instead.

he has an issue with touching in general. he doesn't let himself do it much, doesn't bestow it on others. he knows what he can be capable of how he can't control his own strength and he is terrified of himself.* biggest promise to himself is that he never hurts anyone even in the smallest way even when its justified in an emotional breakdown or when he is trying to keep himself from being abandoned once again. he won't let himself.

' you know what they say about monsters. you know what happens to the people who love them. are you going to do that?' even if no one else is afraid of him. he is afraid of himself.

' your hands don't know how to be gentle, think about the last beautiful thing that shattered in your palms. the fresh rosebuds crumbling between your fingers like a bruise. you wolf boy, you war machine. you wouldn't know how to hold something magic and not destroy it...'

is littered in bruises and scars and burn marks.

CURRENT LIFE:

since moving to daegu he has slowly made progress, healed, gotten better. he has worked away at himself until he made himself more of a tragic masterpiece than a messy splash of unfinished painting and blurry mottled colours.

he lives with four friends, close friends who have been with him through everything and taught him how to healthily feel not only happiness and love but also let go of and exhale all of that pain and anger and violence he could not control. that was not his own but haunted him. aching to be placed somewhere else than inside his body which was too small to feel such hurt and heartbreak.

he got therapy after many tries with many therapists who botched up he eventually found one who worked and helped him look for new hobbies which would channel and turn his pessimistic and negative energy and burdens into something more beautiful or better managed. he slowly learned to trust himself at least a little bit more once again. she also helped him on a journey of distance without isolation so he could understand he would not do the harm he always imagined he was the root of.

when he leaves his family, it is in the middle of the night with packed bags and not much else to his name. he thinks it'll be easier on everyone that way, no letters or texts or calls. in fact he breaks his phone and switches it out for a cheap new one when he's ready to be contacted once again. there are no goodbyes.

he spends four years just crashing on his friend's floor of their apartment who are a couple who practically raise him and take him under their wing and simply accept him in all his flawed and closed off excellence, simply listening and accepting and providing a safe haven without expectations of any kind.

he works on painting, writing, gardening anything that will teach him how to love and nurture better than he did before. to see beauty and nourish it instead of destroy it or twist it. he learns piano finding romance in the music.

he got over his eating disorder and began cooking, become a rather skilled chef with his friends help and had more regular meals especially under his guidance when he couldn't cook then the other would do it for him. feeding him steadily every day to build his appetite back up again.

he took more care to exercise and keep his body and health much more good, nothing amazing but finally the average. he also got a couple jobs all that would help him with communication and learning new talents or discovering his own further.

slowly he stopped flinching every time someone tried to touch or did touch him. small touches from his friends ease him along, an arm slung around his shoulders, a hand in his own, a gentle hug. he finds a makeshift home and love and happiness where everyone isn't trying overly hard to find a way to nurse it into him.

eventually recently he has came to a point where he can cancel his therapy sessions comfortably and flush those pills to help with that anxiety and unbearable sadness. somehow he learns how to breathe again all by himself without someone else coaching him through it all.

EXTRA:

woojin is gay so romance plots are only applicable to other male muses however in the past before he knew of his sexuality he could’ve had an ex girlfriend or two!

potential romance plot inspiration heavily inspired by the poem yes & no by natalie wee. there’s a lot of flexibility on this one in terms of timeframing so just hit me up to discuss it more after reading the poem if you’re interested !!

the usual plots are of course up for grabs: childhood best friend, current best friend, ex’s, first love, friends he met through therapy, friends he met in the foster system, confidant, coffee fix partner, fake dating, study partner ( he’s studying music ofc and he specializes in production ), someone he writes lyrics for, someone he writes lyrics with or produces with, someone who makes him realize how amazing his lyrics actually are and how much potential lies within that talent as a career goal, his muse, i imagine he works a part time job as a waiter so do with that what u will maybe they can be work buddies?, also does babysitting every now and then for extra cash, etc.

#daegu:intro #if u managed to read all this i am proud #if u managed to read all this and not cry i am even more proud #my soft broken bird baby boy #tw: anxiety mention #tw: depression mention #tw: eating disorder mention #tw: parental death mention #tw: suicide mention #tw: self harm mention #tw: domestic abuse mention

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sole-cuore-amore-e-droga · 6 years ago

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Tel Aviv 2019: Straight outta Finland to Eurovision with a meme icon and his side-kick

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“heeeeeey what is that song on that video???” Definitely not Darude - Sandstorm. Grow the fuck up.

I mean that they basically threw off the open call for songs from Finnish artists, instead opting for having one artist national final, usually one very known but very gettable-bored-of name so that they could get some more viewership rather when they pick a random nobody from a bunch of other random nobodies. Last year YLE got themselves an artist whose Eurovision ticket was long overdue, but this year they went the extra step and brought us HIM.

No, not that HIM. They can't go anyway as they've already disbanded. I'm talking about HIM.

Yes, THAT HIM. Meet Toni-Ville Henrik Virtanen, which thankfully has a pseudonym to publish his music with - Darude. Almost 20 years ago he published this beautiful techno single "Sandstorm" with lyrics like "du du du du du du du du du du du du". And now it's become the big-ass target of memery for the past few years on the Internet, with Darude being very well aware of it all - I don't think he has escaped questions about "Sandstorm" now that the Eurovision interviewers media is on horizon and interviews literally every single representative, no matter if they're shy or unpopular with the bookies at all.

And even if "Sandstorm" was the only thing to shake his tiny little Finnish world, it did not break Darude to be just a one-hit wonder (well he still looks like one but yeah) and he's got more music out ever since. And it probably sounds a little too tragic when YLE resorts to just nagging and begging Darude to represent their nation, even kinda secretly hoping that thanks to him Finland can have a qualification just solely for the meme factor. Darude even said so that he at first rejected their calls, but this year became THE year for him to go, and he's not alone obviously - his credited vocalist friend for this ride to Tel Aviv became Sebastian Rejman, a bit washed-up media star who already did some collaborating with Darude.

So the format was basically the same for this year's UMK - artist announced separately, then each of their 3 songs gets published every week on a specific weekday, with single cover art and a music video already, and the Finnish people together with international juries vote for the best track. Simple as that. Unlike with Saara Aalto though, all Darude & Sebastian songs were barely even distinct from one another in sound - just techno songs that have a piece of "Sandstorm" with themselves. Well only 2 do anyway. But still, techno/house songs to listen to on the radio when you're driving and minding your own business. And I had hard time picking favourites but all of them were alright I guess. Yet somehow my least favourite happened to win... and that was "Look Away", very much so inspired by natural disasters and how do we all ignore everything around us. No matter if it's a storm or hurricane or tornado or wind throwing sand at our eyes.

I don't know why the song didn't click with me all that much at first, I suppose it was because it's just a mindless gloomy techno song that raises global awareness (we already have Denmark talking about that, but they're insisting that "love is forever", while Finland is just... getting up more seriously in all this), and besides that, it's just incredibly repetitive. It consists more of the pre-chorus-ish chorus (I mean the line "is it in my head? Am I the only one?" and that other line preceding) and the actual chorus that mostly goes like "look away, look away, look away...". Even to the point when the song ends with some additional “look away”ing but under a different drum beat. What's it with Finns having a passion for the word "away"? We already had seen them sending a "Sing It Away", which was basically a cheer-up tune telling you to sing your problems off... while this year? We're trying to NOT look into the problems dead in the eye. We're looking... erm, uh, away.

But now I do have to say that I somewhat like it. Tell it to ya - the B minor chord is possibly one of my least favourite music keys, so I might as well be a little bit more negative on it if takes the song with itself to sound incredibly dull and painfully meh. So thankfully we'll be hearing it live half a step lower (idk if that's what it is with most EDM singers in Eurovision that shit like this can be possible, as well as idk why are they allowed into Eurovision in the first place. But seriously, why can't you just choose the same key you sang in in studio for Eurovision...), which made the song sound better to me - as a Nightcore junkie, I am passionate about hearing songs in different keys all the darn time, to see in what key would a certain song sound the best. It's usually the song's key that makes me like a song better or worse live rather than a live performance itself (though in some NFs I can see which of my favourite acts are DoA by not even emoting towards them - my emotion has to be evoked, and if I evoke it on purpose, well then, I'd just rather stay motionless completely on anything and only yelp if a song causes me to do this unexplainedly). We'll see how Sebastian will execute his singing live. As for now, he's the captain of this sinking ship that hit a small iceberg (another one of the disasters we usually "look away" from until it's found in our history books). Not Darude. Darude's just merely a musical hold-up of the disaster. It all has to depend on the vocalist and if the staging clicks with the audience. Sure, Darude can put on a red wig and green sunglasses so that he could click with the meme audience, but that won't get the Finns far.

So I like this song, it actually has some cool musical moments thrown in (I like the piano for one), I can enjoy this off my free time. But Estonia does it better at the "Finno-Ugric EDM-ish entry about Mother Nature's tantrums" category and I ain't even sorry for saying this. But I gotta be sorry for Darude. This year's UMK had the lesser care about it because... well, these songs weren't exactly inspiring or anything, and with people wanting something groundbreaking, their hopes kept on vaning away with each and every song release of the UMK entries': "oh so the next 2 two songs will be good right?" "oh so then the last one will be the best one, yeah right?" "...oh, okay then .-." And him, as the Finnish meme king, should have deserved a better year for a better Eurovision stint, so he could have become something à la Epic Sax Guy. Right now I mostly see a middle-aged DJ with 2 kids, not a redhead dude with green sunglasses looking shadily on us. And that's okay sometimes because memes don't necessarily need to be remembered for memes (just like I mostly remember Kanye West for music, and then memes come second), but Finland's gonna take a miracle to get through, and I hardly see any. That's an aina mun pity.

Approval factor: Eh, it's alright, but I would certainly not hold it up to high regards post-contest? lol.

Follow-up factor: it's kiiiiinda bleak knowing that after giving us probably one of the most favourable dark horse efforts for Eurovision they're now going down the dancier route, with one entry after being a banger, the other being a dad banger. Ah well. It doesn't flow so neatly in my eyes, it seems.

Qualification factor: almost dead in the tracks. Finland flows anywhere they can, having a lot of bad luck for 3 years this decade, and I doubt that the juries will be supporting this heavily, considering they are better at rating good vocalists over bad ones, so I don't think this will sail through. But I secretly have hopes in this. It's not that bad, but Estonia is in this semi too, and it's a friendlier EDM track, so I don't quite think that repetitive will out-compell the good formulaic. Plus, Sebastian has a lot to fix vocally, and I doubt that he will carry Finland any further if he doesn't fix anything, so so far the chances of Finland aren't looking up imo. Bottom 5 at the semi is more likely if not already the actual outcome. Maaaaybe 10th in the semi at best, but I doubt it.

NATIONAL FINAL BONUS

The more this section pops up in my works, the less I wanna recap national finals anymore. I hope there’s more breather moments with me having to review a lot of internal selection songs in between the ones from NFs, because this whole season was an utter disaster, and it’d help if the next one isn’t. So let’s check in on Finland's selection’s best:

• But seriously, did anyone ever see Darude as a Finnish representative coming??? No??? Me neither. I was just sitting there, waiting to see if there's a hope for Mikael Saari (you know, that balladeer guy from previous UMKs - I do believe some audiences love him just as much as Saara Aalto, who only was on one UMK and one Euroviisut) to be announced on this special separate programme. Nope - the trilingual hosting trio of the programme that included Krista Siegfrids in it as the token Swedish speaker just happened to happily proclaim Darude as THE Finnish hopeful... and the world was s h o o k e t h. Just look at him go. His smug grin is still iconic on here.

• During the wait for all the UMK songs to pile up, the excitement for Darude faded away and everyone moved on to support other countries. I can't blame them, because I have found like one decent song this UMK that's still worth listening to twice a year or so - "Superman". Where Darude becomes the everyday hero for ordinary people that have difficulties in live to do mundane stuff. Maybe this song would have made him look like a better meme than his current entry would have? Just watch him go on his DJ booth dressing like a knock-off superhero because EBU doesn't allow blatant advertising. A way better gimmick than Gromee's snakey hands. Alas, no one will have to hear "Superman" anymore. Granted it's just an EDM song just like any other, but somehow I liked it best, end of.

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• There's at least one memorable screenshot from UMK as well, so I'm happy with that. I saw this pop up on my Twitter time line and I could not stop laughing inside. Seriously. Krista and this other guy should host ESC provided Eurovision is ever coming back to Finland. They had a lot of iconic outfit changes during the NF itself (and the NF itself had "Look Away" with some dancer on a cube but they scrapped the tall cube for Tel Aviv entirely), but those floral onesies are my favourite.

Now I kinda hope that there’s something that will alarm YLE in the meantime that Finland needs a better approach for Eurovision and we’ll see another fully-fledged UMK in the works next year, and then Finland can be great again. For now, I’ll just wish “onnea” to Darude and Sebastian, with hopes that people don’t look away from their song at all! (but most likely they will so what’s the point.)

#eurovision 2019 #tel aviv 2019 reviews #finland 2019 #darude ft. sebastian rejman #look away #finland

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