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[st4rryyynight]

hey so can I have scenario where rise leo is cold and his new s/o and him are hanging out and s/o just hugs him to warm him up. Their hugs are so gentle and cozy?

★..aren't turtles cold blooded.. (0_0) ??

oh well, erhh, whateves =P★

★ — rise!leonardo with a s/o whose hugs are cozy !!

!! — content: scenario, fluff, romantic scenario, rise!leo x reader, canon x reader, hugs, affection.

★ — Nuzzled up against their warm embrace and tucked in between their arms, shivered the blue-cladded turtle who has found protection from the freezing winter temperatures. That protection being none other than (reader), who gave a small- humoured huff as they held their cold reptilian partner close. Their voice muffled the low sounds coming from the film they were both watching on the projector, to which- they both stopped paying attention to it a while ago, as they both got too caught up in the soft moment between them.

"..and I thought that reptiles were resistant to the cold." They teased, their voice quite as to match the serene atmosphere that was built not too long ago. Their playful remark was met with a small, yet dramatic chuff that came from the red-eared terrapin.

"wellll- and I thought that you'd wouldn't mind warming up your favourite turtle - !" His response feigned drama, face pressing up against their cheeks- his scales a contrast to their warm, soft skin. "orrr was I wrong ??"

(Reader) only hummed at him, giving the terrapin gentle squeeze- to which he churped, a content sound which betrayed the dramatic persona.

"no, you dummy, of course I don't." They laughed a little, letting the terrapin rub his cheeks onto theirs, finding this way of affection odd, yet adorable.

"mhm- thought so ..!" Mumbling against their face with an almost triumphant tone- he let himself melt in their hold, glad to be in the presence of such a content person. It almost felt like a win for him, being held in such cozy embrace, an embrace in which melted away the cold that he felt.

[st4rryyynight]

✷ — headcanons: rise!turtles with a traumatized!reader (requested by a user on quotev)

★ — summary: how the turtles deal with a traumatized reader.

★ — platonic coded !!

★ — warnings/tws:  implications of parental issues (raph's part, mostly), trust issues, mentions abandonment, implied guilt and inferiority complex, trauma, implications of past-bullying, aggression (self defense), self blame, mention of dead family/friends (leo's part)

★ — content warnings: headcanons, x reader, canon x reader, trauma, traumatized reader, emotions, mood swings, angst, vulnerability, protective characters, leo is once again occ (maybe mikey as well)

★ —.. I think these take place somewhere around season 2- based on how they are written (0‹  0;) !!

❤️ — raphael x traumatized!reader.

☆ — oh. you went through a lot, so much in fact that you can't even trust someone like raph- one the gentlest and understanding souls of the team. at first, when you were all wary towards him, he initially thought that maybe his appearance was intimidating, he- and in the nicest way possible, does look like a brute after all, and it can be scary for most when interacting with him for the first time. though, he was wrong, and boy did he feel stupid about it.

☆ — it was honestly horrifying to hear that you have so many unfolded chapters of trauma within you. from physical injuries to mental scars, it was something that he hasn't seen before.. well, if you exclude what him and his family went through.. but you- you are different. untrusting, aggressive to those that mean to help you- like him. and even when you tried to let loose, you would just spiral back into aggression. it was scary seeing you that way- even for him, though even more worrisome was the fact that you didn't accept help from anyone.

☆ — so he is, how do I say it- gentle. patient with, and overall concerned about. when he looks at you, all defensive and fierce, it's like he is laying his eyes on a kitten who is desperate for survival- and will do anything to keep it self from harm. and raph's determination to get you to let your guard down is evident, though not smothering. his taking his time- giving you time to get to know him, to understand that he only wants to soothe your tormented soul. he's not there to make fun of you for struggling- not, not him, neither will he take advantage or manipulate you- he's just, here to help. to give you the understanding and confirmation that those who were supposed to care for you- to protect you, didn't.

☆ — .. though, at times- as calmly as he wants to take this matter, when you feel guilty about the things you went through- saying that you deserved what happened to you, and that it was your fault for not doing anything to stop it, or if he even hears you talk about how stupid your struggles are, he'll kind off.. rush things. he'll straight up snap and tell to your face that hey- nothing was your fault !! you couldn't have known any better back then. you didn't know how to stop it- you didn't deserve anything that happened to you !! and all that before letting out a huge sigh- which then would turn into a gasp of horror after realising that he in fact, did not take an important matter such as this slow. 

☆ — and so- after that, you will have a sweating, anxious snapper, apologizing to you over and over about being so sudden with his comment, now paranoid when you're around. he'll even step away from you for a while, giving you some time to yourself before, reluctantly, returning to you to show that he didn't give up on you- neither did he abandon you. you don't have to worry about him leaving you as well- now matter how defensive you may be towards him, or how reluctant he is to take any big steps at the moment. and the next time that he does feel confident enough to talk to you, he'll do it more patiently than before and he would, admittedly nervously, ask if you'd be okay with him giving you physical comfort. a hug- a secure, comforting one, that is.

💜 — donatello x traumatized!reader.

☆ — okay, so: you are one troubled individual, a very troubled one. it's clear to him that you've been through a lot, and he wants to help you, but your aggressive defenses and you defying his assistance is frustrating to him. it's like you don't understand that he only means good- can't you see that his intentions towards you are not of malice ??

☆ —  and it's more so frustrating to watch when you pin all the blame to your self for all the things you've gone through seeing you deteriorate, crumble under the idea that you are at fault for all the people that left you, all the struggles you were put into just feels so.. wrong. it almost makes him want to bring out an immediate answer to your 'statements' - tell you how stupid they are, and how stupid YOU are for believing those things. you were a victim with no way of the things that happened to you, you've been neglected- made fun of, abandoned, and yet somehow -  this is your fault ?? and how exactly- can you give him a reason to balance your statement, hmm ??

☆ —..but he doesn't butt in yet- oh no no no. he wants to analyse, to gather further information about your past life, your mental scars- everything. he wants to piece them together so that when the time comes- he'll have found the correct way to approach such a sensitive matter. even though he's struggling with empathising with others- and is generally confused when it comes to either giving, or recieving comfort.. this isn't a case that he can afford to ignore, he can't exactly give up on communicating with you and just expect a broken person to put themselves back together. no, not own their own, you've done this for a long time yourself, it's time someone comes to your aid- even if you are defiant and mistrusting towards the idea.

☆ — he won't exactly taking this situation as easy as he should though, because once the time to conf confrontation comes- he is blunt with his message, straightforward and surprisingly confident with talking to you about your emotions and getting you to unfold your trauma to you. he'd be lying if he said that it was easy to approach you though, no matter how much he kept that confident persona when speaking to you. he at times felt reluctant, even as he confronted you- he knows that your mental health was hanging by thread, and he felt that as if that thread was his own words. when he usually says or does something that is wrong- he tries to deny his own mistakes, to reason with his actions and put the blame onto others - but if he sees that you are at the brink of lashing out at him for the words that he spoke- even if they were meant to be.. encouraging, he won't exactly be able to deflect, nor deny the things he said to you. the way his words hurt you further.

☆ — instead the thought that he fucked you up even further get stuck on his brain, playing on loop like a broken record as he beats his head around to find out where he went wrong. was it how blunt he was with you ?? his words ?? he thought he had this all planned out- you'd think that after all this time he picked up on your trauma and analysed it in his brain that he'd have a suitable way of providing you comfort and reassurance. though, he doesn't let that bring him down- and instead let's out a determined huff and tries again..after giving you time to yourself- of course. and the next time he tries, he still maintains some firmness in his tone, but the way he confronts you about you feeling guilty for everything that has happened to you, isn't as.. harsh. he doesn't rush this time- and while he still he thinks of you as a dum-dum for even considering the idea that you are to blame for the trauma that you were subjected to- the trauma that you didn't even ask for, he is not going to rub it on your face this time.. or at least- he tries to hold back and such. unlike Raph though- he wouldn't ask if you want or need a hug, as he thinks that would be too.. straightforward- and it would be uncomfortable for the both of you. instead, he'll place of on his mechanical arms on your head or shoulder, and give you a small pat or two to let you know that, he's here for you- and he isn't going to go anywhere. he's not going to leave you in any way.

💙 — leonardo x traumatized!reader.

☆ — ..yikesss. you've been through.. a lot. it's gut wrenching to hear that you- a singular individual, had to face so many horrors in your life. from parental ones, to abandonment ones- even having dead family members and friends.. you've got the whole package- and it's sickening to think about. it's not a matter that he just deflect with a joke, or help you cope through humour, not- it's too far off from that. 

☆ — so, what can he do when he finds himself speechless about what you went through ?? leo is not usually one to take delicate matters seriously- and always finds ways to get over them with a quick wit and laugh- even if he comes face to face with his own traumas. but this time.. he can't just laugh this situation off. you need someone to support you- you are struggling, and while he wants to be the one to help you, he is at loss as to how to approach you without coming off as neither too serious, nor too humourous. regardless, he still wants to be of help you either way.

☆ — when he comes up to you, right off the bat he can sense the boiling tension built within you, the look of vulnerability evident in your eyes. it gets him nervous, wary- but he still wants to talk to you, to ask if are need comfort. you try to rebel against him, to 'protect' yourself in a way, and for a moment he feels awkwarded out and slides away from you to give you some space, a bit weirded out by your aggressive defiance.. but that was only one time on his part- and he after realising that he just slid off like a coward, he beats himself up for it for a while, until he ultimately decides that he won't allow himself to run off like that again- not from you.

☆ — again, he tries for a second time- then a third, and so on. he won't let you 'scare him off' again, and is determined on getting the message across that- hey, he won't hurt you, nor turn your trauma into a joke to laugh at. though, he tries to use his subtle wits to get the idea through you from time to time, however it just feels.. wrong. though, he tries to be sly for this matter- trying to take this easy as he can, as to not stress you out even further, but also making sure you know that, as nonchalant as he tries to make himself seem in this matter- he is taking your situation seriously, and isn't going to leave you on your own devices.. though, there some times, where he, almost impatienly, tries to get you to lower your guard, to open up to him- his behaviour towards you more confrontantial at times, and though they'll may be rare- they can still be overwhelming.

☆ — and, as soon he realises that he'll may be too much at times, he'll let go of that persistence of his, impatience melting down into concern. he would call off his attempts at confronting you- for just a while, so you can get some time to yourself, and once you are calm once again- he'll try and confront you about your issues again. though this time, leo's sly manner has kind of... disappeared, and is instead a bit more assertive with his words- reminding you how much you are worth it, telling you that you are not to blame for whatever happened to you. stuff like that. he, however- tries to sneak in a humourous wit, though not a mocking one- and instead one that will hopefully let you crack out a small laugh, as if trying to bring the slightest bit off light into your darkened soul in the way he knows best.

🧡 — michelangelo x traumatized!reader.

☆ — the things you had to go through have truly shaken this sympathetic box turtle to his core. oh what has he learned about you- the things that you endured.. it's all enough to make him wanna cling to you- being in a constant state of worry for you.  how can he not be ?? he fears that if he leaves you alone even for a second- you'll break down, scared at idea that you'll may think that he'll may leave as you well.

☆ — however- as close as he wants to be to you, to ensure that your mental health doesn't deteriorate any further, he is shook once he sees you behaving like some wild stray when he tries to approach you, to offer you support. he could feel the vulnerability and fear radiating from you, and taking notes of your tense stance, mikey begun feeling conflicted as to whether it is better to give you time to yourself, or be near you at all times, just in case you need someone to lift you up mentally..or literally. or both.

☆ — he wants to listen to you talking about your emotions, he WANTS you to communicate with him !! it'll be so much better if you just let loose and spoke with him for a while though, right ?? he can help you- but you just won't let him !! it hurts to see you so mistrustful of him, to see you behave like a feral animal that just wants to protect it self, shoving him off and clawing at him to leave you alone..⁠

☆ — but, if he puts into consideration the fact that you've been betrayed and left behind so- so many times in the past, that you've been hurt by people who couldn't even bother to care for you.. that you've lost pretty much everything, everyone- and every sense of clarity that you have- he can see as to why you are not willing to open up to him. he figures that you are scared, scared to get attached- scared to be betrayed and left behind again. but either, way he has to approach you someway- to get the fact that he won't leave you behind, that he won't take advantage of your feelings and vulnerability- that he won't make a fool out of you for being so troubled. 

☆ — he could put his Dr Feelings persona into play, and act as if he is your therapist- but then, he thinks it over and he decides that you may rather need.. a friend. him putting up a stoic face and treat you like a patient wouldn't really help things - maybe leave that to the professionals. for him though, he is going to support you as a friend- family, whatever you need him to be. when he speaks to you- it's warm, comforting- his words understanding, friendly, though he may find himself shaking you by the shoulders in a 'dr delicate touch' manner if he hears you talk shit about your self- reminding you of your worth in an almost overwhelming manner. he immediately apologizes though, and always asks if you need time away from him each time he does so. but he doesn't do it because he is angry towards you- he gets angry towards the fact that you would down yourself, and your very own worth like that. and he can't have his friend cursing and bestowing their very own existence without him interfering to prove them wrong !

[st4rryyynight]

Hello, stranger on the internet

I really enjoyed reading the headcanons you wrote about the turtles finding a borrower and I was wondering if you could write one for Leo (/nf)

★gasps. erh. hypervanlites werh. fumking di. fucking supernovaes - supernovaes /pos !!

werhhh wha. what now- oh headcanon. g/t headcanon time, yippie★

— rise!leonardo hamato finding a borrower / tiny !!

!! — contents: giant/tiny, borrower/t!character, g!leonardo, non-con touching (brief, non-sexual), headcanons, repetitive words / phrases, occ stuff ( maybeee.. =\\ )

✧ — pre-meeting

★ — First off, this dude. this dude would suspect that something's off in the lair after noticing that his brothers stuff have recently been going missing and such. Maybe at first, he wouldn't think much of it. Maybe he just believed that his brothers were just misplacing their stuff and just teased them 'bout it for a while. That would later on lead to his brothers accusing the red eared slider of stealing their stuff as a way to fuck with them- which Leonardo denies, being a bit dramatic about it as well..

★ — That is though, until his stuff- or parts of them at least, begun mysteriously disappearing and getting misplaced. Y'know, parts of his comics being ripped off- action figures being either knocked over or shuffled a little to the side. Stuff like that.

★ — At first, he'll accuse his brothers of taking and damaging his items as a form of 'revenge', but just like him- they all were pretty fumkin confused as to what he was talking about. While he was skeptical about idea of anyone else snatching his equipment, other than his brothers that is, he couldn't help but shimmer that 'oh, something is wrong'.

★ — And from there, he'll start getting more observant with his surroundings. Listening in for any odd sounds or looking around sharply to find out what or- in the worst case scenario- who is messing around in the lair. And during that period of time, he'll pick up on shuffling noises, notice odd messes and prints on counter tops- heck even see the running silhouette of a little.. something, from the corner of his eye.

★ — The logical part of him says that it's just a rat that found it self in the lair, but rats don't tear paper - or leave behind.. tiny- human like hand prints ?? Yea, that pretty much sums it up. Something is in the lair.

★— Also insert a scene where Leo shares his suspicions and conspiracies about something living with them in the lair with his fam, and they all think he's either lost it, messing with them, or that he is not getting enough sleep just to make the next part make sense or something somethin - explodes.

✧ — meeting

★ — Upon finding the borrower, erm. A mixed bag of emotions honestly. While he may triumph and feel all smug about being proven right about another presence being in the lair, he is also baffled about their existence. Like, a tiny human, yokai- whatever in the lair ?? wowza. That's erhh.. a bit weird to think about, yet also a little cool ?? Yet the, fact that this little creature has stolen from his family- from him, gets him to come off as a little petty towards the borrower.

★ — So yea, I'm stuck in between of whether Leo would be salty towards them, holding a grudge about them stealing. while being stealthy with his approach as to catch them off guard, or get all smug and be obnoxious about being on the right.

★ — I like to think that he would greet the borrower with a little remark, a teasing one as he looks down at them with a small, shit-eating grin. However, I don't doubt that he would be curious about them- and honestly a little impressed by them. They've been living in the lair with five ninja-mutants for- how long ?? And they just now got noticed ?? Respecttt.. kinda.

★ — Would definitely portal them right in front of him if they try to run away, not being very mindful to the borrower's rather vulnerable form. No, he'll just make a portal appear- let them fall through and watch as they plop back onto the counter top. He would also prop them up by their arm or something, and again, he may not be as gentle as he should with them, either because he doesn't realise it or because he just wants to mess with- or to just get back at them for stealing from him.

★ — That would also be followed by a small series of questions- like an interrogation, an almost condescending one at that. He would blame them for his fam's missing equipment, and address the fact that due to their thieving antics, he was accused for theft by his own brothers !! Yea, he would be all dramatic and salty about it, which could either be comical, or intimidating to the little borrower.

★ — Though, in spite of his salty, almost obnoxious behaviour towards them- he would get a bit more curious about them after learning that them 'thieving', is actually the only way for them to survive.

★ — He may feel further impressed by their commitment and struggle they have to go through to get access to basic everyday material- even if it's limited. And while part of him just wants to present his victory in the whole 'someone-is-in-the-lair: dilemma, to rub it in his bros faces, the borrower's rather afraid look on their face is convincing him otherwise. Plus, he would then have to live with the responsibility of potentially scarring this little guy sooo..

★ — Still, Leonardo isn't one to let go of grudges easily- and though the little thing has earned some of his respect (as well as amazement), he still takes the liberty to toy and mess with them- making up little nicknames for them such as 'little kleptomaniac', giving them little prods here and there, making a few height-difference puns when they are around. erh yea. stuff like that.

[st4rryyynight]

✷ — rise!turtles with a reader who has mood-swings !!

★ — requested a user on quotev.

★ —platonic coded !!

★ — warnings/tws: mentions of anger and yelling, negative emotions, mentions of triggers

★ — content warnings: x reader, canon x reader, headcanons, canon x reader headcanons, moody reader, mood swings, emotions, angst-y (mostly on donnie's part), repetitive vocabulary, occ, this ain't proof read, donnie is acting like a stoic scientist again.. 

❤️ — raphael x reader that has mood swings !!

☆ — well, he finds it kind of .. odd, how easily your emotions can change- to the point where it's almost scary. sometimes it's sometimes confusing, how you can go from seemingly relaxed, to either full-blown angry, or joyful in a matter of seconds. do certain words trigger certain emotions ?? did he say something that either offended- or made you laugh ?? he wants to know- he is curious ! ..and worried. mostly worried.

☆ — like, you would be all calm and content, just sitting with him- he would say something seemingly mundane- maybe reminding you of a task or something along those lines, and then you would get up practically steaming, snapping at him about what he said.. or vice versa- and the first few times, he couldn't help but feel a little stupid, as if he said something that was so offensive- you wouldn't even talk to him without him feeling the anger radiating from you. safe to say, he was a little paranoid- and isolated himself for while till' he was sure you were calm and.. forgave him, for whatever he said that angered you. 

☆ — but anger wasn't the only emotion that was easily triggered - no.. sometimes, the opposite would happen - where you could be all gloomy, and then would see, or hear something that would lift your mood up instantly, and having you crack up laughing... it was strange for him- was he actually saying stuff that were getting you to either crack up with laughter or make you fume with anger- that was the thought that had nagged him for a while..

☆ — up until he realised that oh. your reactions may just be over the top.. it takes him a while to piece the pieces together, but he soon realizes that you tend overreact..for basically no good reason. it almost seems immature at times, but he keeps that thought to himself.

☆ — still, around you, he is pretty careful with his words- keeping his voice cool and making sure to not speak in a way that might seem a bit sudden, as he knows how easily you can be vexed by just a few words. he doesn't want to risk breaking your peace- and even when you need confrontation about something, he still tries to come off as calm as he can- for the stability of your emotional state.

💜 — donatello x reader that has mood swings !!

☆ — well aren't you overly.. sensitive. it's not hard to figure, especially by how easily you can get annoyed by the slightest of things. and that for him- can be annoying as well.. he can't even have a conversation with you without your emotions swapping every five seconds !! ..okay, he is exasperating, but considering that you two are basically two polar opposites- with one struggling to show emotions and the other putting them on full display - you can get why he's frustrated being around you sometimes.

☆ — your unpredictability has become.. predictable, at times if that makes sense. he has seen you time and time again lashing out, breaking down tearfully front of him over mundane things- it's nothing new. he, in fact - thinks of you as some fussy child who has trouble with handling their own emotions.. well, like he is any good at handling other people's emotions..

☆ — unlike raph, he doesn't try to sugarcoat, or keep things to himself just to keep you calm- no. he is blunt what he has to say to you. in fact, he keeps it a straight-forward as he can, trying to see just how far those negative reactions can go. it's like a science project for him- except the subject that he is testing on is your patience. though he is not great with complicated emotions-- and prefers to support others from sidelines, he can't help but want to see how emotionally unstable you really are.

⁠☆ — and after a while.. he'd find himself regretting his decisions once you finally reached your breaking point- once you'd started getting snappy with him for simply greeting you.. well, he caused this to happen- he pushed your emotions to their limits, while it was clear that you had trouble with managing your own complex feelings. now- after giving you all the space you required, he tries to be less.. raw when speaking to you, avoiding talking, or refering to any potential topics, or words that he has learned that trigger your negative emotional outbursts. oh yes, he took notes of everything that bothers you- what, you thought he'd just observe ??

☆ — safe to say, he feels guilty as to how he pushed you to your limits just to satisfy his own curiosity- and though there are times where he'll as well get kind of.. sassy with you, he mostly tries to keep everything cool when you are around.

💙 — leonardo x reader that has mood swings !!

☆ — he..throws jokes at- finding it a bit amusing how much a simply phrase or word can trigger such strong reactions. he thinks of you as a drama queen in way, though- it is a bit scary when your emotions switch from all positive to angry, or vice versa- in a matter of a few seconds.

☆ — still, he finds himself casually throwing humourous remarks at you- even if he is sure that you'll lash out at them. it's not his fault your reactions are funny to him- heck even, at times you act just like donnie, getting all fussy over his one-liners.. he can't pass the opportunity to annoy a potential donnie-number-two now, can he ??

☆ — .. though, at least- donnie can keep himself composed, and he knows that his twin can come off as 'emotionally unavailable' at times, and knows when to keep calm, and you.. you are the complete opposite. when provoked, your emotions are all over the place- whether positive, or negative ones and it shows in the way to you talk, move- your stance, everything. it's both funny, and awkward, but mostly.. worrisome.. 

☆ — so he tries to cut back on the jokes- strategizing on what to say a bit first before conversing with you. he is afraid of you overreacting to his remarks- words.. anything really. sure- he does have fun when provoking strong reactions out of you, especially if it's over something stupid like a little joke, but it doesn't take him long to realise that it takes little for anyone to cross your line. 

☆ — so- instead of him using his remarks for the sole purpose of joking about your unstable emotional state, he uses them to cheer up you in a way, to give you comfort when you need it. while he still does get snarky here and there-- he knows that he often has to take a pause- being mindful of how he uses his words around you so as to not push you over the limits.

🧡 — michelangelo x reader that has mood swings !!

☆ — okay, he's a pretty emotional person himself, so he can pretty much understand you- in fact, he encourages you to let your feelings out, and tries to not take your reactions too personally. he does want you to feel as if your feelings be validated by him.. even- if you can get a little 'dramatic'.

☆ — sometimes, his empathy towards you can get so deep, that his own emotions may get affected by how you are feeling at the current moment. you could both all happy and mushy towards each other, and then the second you shift moods at something that upsets you- mikey can't help but feel the same as you do- and vice versa

.⁠☆ — though, he won't lie, it is a little scary seeing how easy it is for you to shift in between moods- at times he's caught off guard when you snap at him for saying, or doing something that's mundane.. still- he shakes off that momentary fear with a small smile- reminding you that he is more than open to you expressing your raw emotion.

☆ — ..okay, your emotions are more than just raw- they can be almost overwhelming. he figures that you may need confrontation from time-to-time, given some sort of guidance to help you manage your emotions towards triggers better.. or at least, just negative ones.

☆ — and so- there are times where he'll jump in with advice, disguised as light-hearted, playful comments- but there also times where he'll just straight up tell you to talk you it out with him !! c'mon, communicate on what triggered you - why the sudden shift ?? why such a harsh reaction ?? ..yea- he is being patient with you- or as patient as can be. if you are not ready, or are still tense from the sudden mood-swings, he'll either try to cheer you up the best he can, or just give you space till you are calm enough to talk-it-out with him.. or, you can keep it to yourself if the topic is upsetting enough for you to talk about- either way works ! 

[st4rryyynight]

✷ — headcanons: rise!turtles with a reader that uses humour to cope !! (requested by a user on quotev)

★ — summary: how the turtles deal and react to the reader using humour as a coping mechanism !!

★ — can be seen as both platonic and romantic.

★ — warnings / tw:  mentions of depression and self-worth issues.

★ — content warnings: canon x reader, androgynous reader, depressed reader, headcanons, short headcanons, angst-y (??), usage of humour, coping mechanisms, concern, the turtles may be occ, repeative vocabulary

★criticism and advice are advice are always welcome !!★

❤️ — raphael x reader that uses humour to cope !!

☆ — okay, your comedic way of deflecting the sad parts of your life is.. worrying- and although he doesn't want to offend you by not laughing or at your jokes, he doesn't exactly find it funny when you turn your struggling in life into something that's to be laughed at. sure he is glad that you are using a somewhat healthy way of expressing your negative emotions but yet again, hearing you reduce your  life trauma into nothing but a humourous remark is still concerning, isn't it ??

☆ — still, he'll throw a little laugh here and there, as to not bring you down, even if you just spat out something horrible about yourself. but that laugh is awkward, force- and you can see the reluctance in his eyes while he does crack a laugh.

☆ — so he kind of tries to be supportive of the way you choose to deal with your issues- but just.. can't really bring him to. though he is a bit reluctant about just saying straight at your face that 'hey, the things you are saying are NOT cool'. no, he's scared that if he does so- he may come off as too sharp, and that may dwindle down your mental state further- and he doesn't want that to happen.⁠

☆ — still, he is tempted to confront you about your coping mechanism. and he does- somewhat. he starts by making little remarks to every one of your quips, with the goal of reminding you of the worth that your life has, the worth that you have. he's there to remind you that whatever you're going through shouldn't be viewed as humourous quip, and that "uh- raph is willing to hear ya' out, if you wanna talk !" 

💜 — donatello x reader that uses humour to cope !!

☆ — oh god, not another leo situation, please not another leo situation. or at least, he thought that was the case- fearing that you will, as well- throw cheesy one liner's and puns that have been repeated over and over again.. but you- you throw dark one-liners that revolve around your life that are repeated over and over. it's definitely a cause for concern.

☆ — "what. what do you mean by that."  he questions, before giving you a firm look after you make a self deprecating joke about yourself. why are you laughing at yourself, it's not funny. matter of fact- it's frustrating seeing you demean your self like that.

☆ — congratulations, since you couldn't keep those dark-humoured comments about your life in, now you have a agitated softshell asking that you word out a whole essay as to why you would make fun of your struggles, urging you to tell him what that so called 'joke' that you made meant.

☆ — he may not be the best with handling others emotions- not even his own, but don't take him for a fool when you try to hide your inner struggles behind a comedic display, he knows you are hurting- you make too obvious, even when you put up your humourous facade.. yeesh, maybe you are a little too much like leo. Nonetheless, even if he has difficulty when comforting others, he is still willing with helping you out- maybe bringing out a whole statement as to how important it is to.. ewwwgh.. express your feelings instead of turning them into something funny.

💙 — leonardo x reader that uses humour to cope !!

☆ — WAIT ! waitwaitwait, he uses humour to cope as well.. but his way of joking around isn't so self-demeaning, despite him having self worth issues and such. but you struggle with said issues as well- so how about you two joke about your lives together ??

☆ — oh how fun.. he finally found someone that won't dismiss or talk down his oneliners. even if his humour is at times self-doubting and may be used at inappropriate. well- to be fair, your humour is equally as self demeaning as his.. maybe a bit more so.

☆ — when you two are around each other, it's like a battle of who can make the most self deprecating remark possible and you- concerningly, always seem to win. and it gets leo feeling down.. though he can't if he down about this situation because his sense of humour just got doubled down, or because you might actually need help.. spoiler alert: he figures that it's the second one of those options.

☆ — oh uhm. that's a bit awkward.. what he thought would be a friend that is willing to crack jokes with him, now views those little remarks that you make about yourself as warning signs. though, he sympathises with you. you aren't the only one here who puts up a mask to hide their issues- and he is there to let you know that- to empathize with you.

🧡 — michelangelo x reader that uses humour to cope !!

☆ — hah !! you're so funny.. or that's what he tries to tell himself - trying to sympathise with you in a way before jumping in to help manage your emotions. he is happy that you are not taking out those negative feelings in more destructive ways, but c'mon, belittling your own difficulties like that- laying off as something be entertained by- instead of treating them accordingly isn't exactly healthy for your self-image either. 

☆ — while this boy is all about fun-loving and humourous situations- that is not to be said for you downing your own worth as such, no matter how funny you try and make it out to be.

☆ — he in fact, gets sad when you to talk about your struggles as if you are a comedian on a stage, and if he was in the crows- he would constantly raise his hand to butt in and yell encouraging things at you, reminders that whatever you are going through matters, and that it bothers him when you throw your self deprecating jokes.

☆ — no but really, what made you think it was a good idea to joke about your issues while the heart of mad dogz is around ?? don't you know that he has a whole power-point prepared about loving your self ?? don't you know that he is going to sit you down on a chair and have you communicate about your struggles ?? 

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★ — headcanons: rise!turtles with a sugar!high reader !! (requested by a user on quotev)

★ — summary: how the brothers deal with an overly energetic reader !

★ — can be seen as both platonic and romantic.

★ — warnings / tw: mentions of tranquilization (donatello's part, 6th headcanon)

★ — content warnings: energetic!reader, headcanons, friendships, relationships, canon x reader, worrying / mother-henning, mikey and leo may be occ, there isn't much on leo's part, reader may be shallow / stereotypically written, repetitive vocabulary- to the point where it's like a broken record, not proof read.

★criticism and advice are always accepted !! /gen !!★

❤️ — raphael x sugar!high reader !! 

☆ — ohhh man. when he first met you, he thought that mikey was in a human disguise, his hyperactiveness and yours match perfectly. oh wait no, your hyperactiveness is wayyy higher than mikey's, hence- raphael's mother hen levels going through the roof.

☆ — living with three, chaotic younger brothers- and with one of them being definition of a wildcart, have gotten Raph used to people that show high levels of enthusiasm - and at times, your rather active and brash personality can be quite fun for him. And since he himself can be fairly loud and brash, he feels as if he can relate to you in way. I mean- that bright grin on your face, your animated movements when you express joy, the confidence and ambition in your voice.. kinda reminds him of himself y'know ??

 ☆ — though, don't expect that you'll be in the clear to do whatever you want just because he sees your enthusiastic self like something he can reflect on, oh no no no. he still feels a fair amount of concern whenever you are bouncing off the walls and such- and will make sure that you don't hurt yourself in the process. and by that I mean that he will secure you in his strong arms when you try to run off with your excitable self, or he'll just hold you by gruff of your neck like a cat- both works, as long as you are safe.

☆ — he will put a limit on your sugar / caffeine intake- sometimes gently scold you into not indulging in too many sweets, nor caffeine. he's worried that you'll may just lose your marbles if you actually consume either of these things- and since you are already energetic as you are, he doesn't really wanna take any risks.

☆ — he'll also try to calm you down when you get a little too hyper for your own good, not because he is tired of your excitable attitude, but because he's scared that you may burn yourself out due to your constant enthusiasm.

☆ — your music taste is also quite alarming to him, as you blast songs that are loud- hyper, ones that match your energy- and while he's not bothered by the tracks you are listening to- despite finding them a little obscure, he's scared that you may damage your hearing with listening to such loud music at full volume. and with headphones on as well. or not. I dunno.

☆ — ..though, as responsible as he may feel to keep you grounded and calm at times, it is safe to say that raph enjoys your company quite a bit, and likes conversing with you. you are a fun loving, active- and overall positive person, and he finds you admirable for that, even if he just thinks that you'll have to be more careful as to not overwhelm or tire yourself out.

☆ — also, last minute headcanon for raph- but since you are physically active, dancing and running around and such- I can easily see raph suggesting that you'll start training with him !! that way, you can let out some of that energy in a productive way, and you'll get to hang out with him !

 💜 — donatello x sugar!high reader !!

☆ — well, your overly bouncy attitude can be quite.. overwhelming for him. you have so much whimsy stored in your soul that it's sometimes almost too much for him to comprehend. he has learned how to deal with mikey's and leo's chaotic shenanigans, so he figured that you wouldn't be any different, and while that is partially true- that doesn't mean that he won't get exhausted by having, now three, brash and lively people in his friendship-circle.

☆ — you two are polar opposites, with you being the party that is expressive and radiating with energy- having a positive outlook on life, while donnie is the more grounded and cool friend who is more of a realist if anything. well, that is when he has his 'emotionally unavailable bad-boy image' on and is not acting like a mad scientist, at least. you honestly remind him of april in a way, but at least april isn't running on walls all the time.. unlike you.

☆ — thoughhh- with you being energetic, meaning that you'll most likely be seeking the thrill of trying out new things, gives him the opportunity to drag you into some. some dangerous experiments, that may just give you the joy that you so desire. he'd probably ask you if you'd like to try on a jet-pack that he's been working on, one that is still in beta- and you'd agree with a big grin and an eager nod of the head.. which would give him the idea that you are naive- and would also encourage him to let you in on a little lesson or two about making impulsive decisions, despite him being the one who asked you to partake in such a dangerous activity in the first place.

☆ —  he does admire how passionate you are about facing new challenges. he also sees you participating in his experiments as a way to bond with you, but also as a chance to let his more- rebellious and 'mad' side shine.. sooo- your excitable self may not be that bad after all. 

☆ — your music taste is something that he can adapt to- he already likes tecnho, and I headcanon that bro was a nightcore kid- so I can seem him vibing to hyperpop / sped up tracks. in fact, I think that he would find himself dancing around with you to this sort of music. he'll probably make a playlist for you whenever you wanna go crazy and have fun !! I can also see him stimming along side you absentmidly, or even making you fidget toys if you need something to keep you occupied when you just can't keep still.

☆ — he also probably gave you an energy drink once in the past, just because he was curious about the extends of your hyperactivity.. and probably regretted it later on. he should have known that you'd go from a jittery mess to a human bouncy-ball in a matter of a couple of hours. but hey- at least now he knows what happens when you indulge in caffeine.

☆ — he used a tranquilizer dart on you to get you to calm down afterwards. in all honesty, he is kinda considering using it on you again should your eccentric nature gets out of control. I mean, it is a way to get you to keep your cool, plus the sleep that you'll get will be relaxing enough so that it'll keep you from experiencing a potential burnout.. no no, just hear him out, please don't come at him-

 ☆ — seeing you being so lively and maintaining such high energy is honestly both impressive and concerning. he'll never thought he would meet one as active as his younger brother- but here you are. using vivid language, with eyes brighter than the sun- looking as if you'll never get tired or drain out your energy. but he knows that's not the case- donatello knows that due to you having your own struggles with relaxing, you can easily get overwhelmed, which is something that he tries to prevent from happening by trying to find balance between you by often reminding you to- hey, you need rest dude. he'll quite literally sit you down and give you a whole, scientific lecture as to why you shouldn't overextend your energy- and the dangers of doing so- he just wants you to be aware, and be prepared if you end up getting weary. he'll probably also gift you things that would help you with calming your self down- such as making some sort of diffuser full of essential oils with relaxing scents with help of science, or giving you one of his weighted blankets.

💙 — leonardo x sugar!high reader !!

☆ — "well, aren't you one impulsive and eager individual ??" he thinks. he finds you're kinda fun to tease- he could compare you to a cheetah by how much you run around so much, all wild and lively. he also makes fun of you sometimes due to how reckless you can sometimes be.. well- ironically, leo himself gives easily into his own impulses quite easily- and he isn't exactly the most patient, or quite person. so him judging or teasing you for your hyperactive nature can come off as a bit.. hypocritical.

☆ — still, with you being so enthusiastic and energetic in general, leo will see it as the perfect opportunity to drag someone into his shenanigans without them hesitating- you two are gonna have soooo much fun causing chaos together, trust him.

☆ — ..well, you would be doing most of the 'work' and such. he that since you are a basically a human bouncy ball, always wanting to be proactive- you would have no problem taking the lead to whatever chaotic situation you put yourselves in. so he'll would just sit on his lazy bum while you create havoc for the both of to be amused by.

 ☆ — he finds your habit of using humour and bold language to engage with others similar to his way of speaking !! using quick wits and jokes to connect with those around you is his speciality !! though, unlike you, can be sly while engaging with others soo, he may get a bit competitive with you, and try to top up your motivating and enthusiastic speeches by adapting parts your vocabulary into his own.

 ☆ — matter of fact, when you are feeling down, leo will swoop in to motivate you by using your sense of humour and positive speech to motivate you- and boy does he feel prideful once he manages to do so. it's a way to show that he cares about you- and as well be show off about him using his charisma to lift others up.. but mainly because he cares about you.

☆ — he'll sometimes whine and dramatically pout about you 'stealing all the spotlight from him' when you get too radiant for your own good, though that dramatic act of his is actually him stressing over you slipping into a potential burnout. he'll also maybe throw a few warnings here and there about you overextending your energy, albeit in a comedic way- but that doesn't exclude the fact he is worried about you.

☆ — and if leo does notice that you did drain yourself out- he'll try to be smug about it. he'll may waltz in with a little 'I told you so' and try and make a couple remarks about him being right about you ending up feeling burnt out. he'll once again try and joke around to make you feel better- however, once he realises that you are actually out of it, he'll quite down. I can imagine him grabbing a pair of headphones and giving them to you, then turning on some sped up music for you to listen to so that you'll feel better, and once you do so- he'll have a little talk with you about you pushing your energy to the max. that is, if you are up to talking- I guess -

🧡 — michelangelo x sugar!high reader !!

☆ — well, would you look at that ?? it seems as if our dear box turtle met a clone of himself.. and that clone is you. your guys's vibes match perfectly, dangerously since you both are active, passionate-  eccentric !! you attract mikey like he's a piece metal and you the magnet, and vice versa. he just adores your fun-loving personality- and it's so cool that he has met someone that can he go haywire with !! sure, he already has leo and april to go wild with, but c'mon- no one enables him to do so as much as you do.

☆ — you two can cook up a recipe for havoc when you're together, you wildcarts are restless- bouncing up and down, doing activities that boost up y'all's  energy. running around like animals in the wild, baking sweets and eating all of em afterwards- and getting a sugar rush after, listening to fast, upbeat music together, stuff like that.

☆ — but okayokayokay, let'sss turn this up a notch: mikey would happily put his mad 'razz-ma-taz' skills on full display when you are around - ! there ain't anyone around to forbid him from doing so, and seeing you get so enthusiastic with his sick moves does boost his confidence.

☆ — he'll also teach you some of his moves, yea, even the dangerous ones.. okay, maybe not as much- he doesn't want his friend getting harmed, no matter how crazy they are for fun, but still, he is ecstatic that you he has someone to follow him in his chaotic antics !!

☆ — when one of you is feeling weary, the other tries their best to cheer the other up- though you guys enjoy sitting alone in silence when the both of you are feeling little too-drained out. that still doesn't stop you from being active though, as you still find creative, productive ways to spend your time, like painting whilst listening to music. I can imagine that you'd both really enjoy abstract art- vibrant colours and various shapes are what express your joyous personality.. whatever that means.

☆ — so, safe to say that you can still have fun- whether you are loosing your marbles with mikey, or just taking a moment to wind down with him.

☆ — however, if it's only you that is overwhelmed and struggling with a burnout, then mikey's positive- ecstatic attitude will do a total 180° and..well, now he is doctor feelings- here to give you a ted talk on how to manage burnouts and on how to maintain your energy at balanced level- all while you are wrapped up in a blanket and hugging one of the many plushies that had attended his presentation. 

☆ — don't get him wrong, he loves, loves LOVES your bright and sparkly attitude- but he can't just not be worried if you end up draining out your energy- though that is a bit hypocritical on his part, since he- himself, has difficulty with being calm and collected, and yet here he is, giving you advice on how to relax every once in a while.

★ — notes:  ..werhhh, this website is cool for understanding different personality traits- though I still think that the way that I interpreted the reader may be stereotypical. also I apologise if leo is occ on his part, it was just the last part that I was writing for this request, and I guess I kinda rushed to finish this (—‹  —;) ...

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★Rise!Donatello x Scene!Style!Reader Headcanons★

— |✷| REQUEST ??: yes (on wattpad).

— |✷| ROMANTIC OR PLATONIC: can be seen as both.

— |✷| TROPES: canon x reader.

— |✷| CONTENT WARNING: reader x canon, may be out character, repetitive words, scene style, scene themes, styling, wigs★not proof read, not proof read, not proof read★

(I don't like the word 'aesthetic' that much for some reason, I just don't know what other synonyms to use help, he—)

☆ — Vibrant, maximised and over the top. Those could be the words that Donatello would describe your aesthetic and numerous accessories pairing your outfits. It could be a bit too overwhelming for him to look at, his eyes could be flickering around taking in the little details of your choice of clothing, but boy.. does he love it. It may be too much for others, maybe even for himself, but it's also so cool.

☆ — He would like, erm, love to help plan out your outfits, as he is the most fashionable turtle in the family after all-  So I can imagine him planning out quite a few outfits for you based on the '2010's style' and such .. Also, expect him to end up pulling all nighters after hours of researching stuff regarding the fashion of someone with a scene-aesthetic. So he might accidentally gain a new hyperfixation to do research on thanks to you and your highlighted choice of fashion. /pos

☆ — In case you need / want to dye your hair and run out of hair-dye then, don't fret dear (reader) — as Donnie would make — ..well, try— to create hair dye specifically for you !! Ranging from the colour that you wish to dye your hair in, to if the chemicals that used will react positively to your skin and roots once applied to your scalp. Man's got it covered for ya. Though don't expect him to dye your hair for you, due to sensory issues and all. Or maybe even, if you have sensory issues with hair-dye yourself, he would try to make his own wigs for you, based on your length, colour and mass preferences !! Though, he may fail to do so, as it will most likely be time consuming and complicated. As determined as he may be to make a wig for you, I can see him settling with ordering or hoarding wigs from local shops.. and then modifying them so they fit your exact proportions and likes.

☆ — If you guys hold hands, Donnie may fiddle with one of the many bracelets that you're wearing, admiring the bright colours and pretty, or messy patterns of the beads and such. He may ask, or well- plead for you to make him one. Or maybe, he would even try to make a few of his own. Both for himself and for you. Yes, they are going to be different shades of purple. And speaking of bracelets and such- he would more than gladly create most of your accessories, being a bit shy to do so at first, but after the first couple of times of you receiving his gifts, he would get a bit bolder and would start giving them to you more often. Or whenever you need them. Bro will honestly feel honoured if he sees you wearing the accessories that he made for you and maybe even gey a bit flustered at first, but he would be mostly humbled.

☆ — The music that you are listening to ?? The one that is considered emo ?? It's going straight to his jammy-jam playlist. If I'm being honest, he would enjoy it quite a bit. Okay, he would enjoy it a lot. Especially the electric-pop side of the scene-music-genre, as he already does listen to techno so I suppose it may appeal to him a bit more than deathcore or punk. But who's to say that he won't blast the other types of music that are considered scene ?? Honestly, I can easily see him working and whirring some tech of his while his hearing is just flooded with 'LET THE BODIES HIT THE FLOORRRRRR ‼️.' It may also make him feel like a badass, like his 'emotionally unavailable bad boy image' is being boosted to the max by listening to such hardcore music, or something, something. Also, he'd always think of you whenever listening to scene music and such.

☆ — Oh and, safe to say that he would grow inspired by your fashion choices, so much so that he'll start wearing clothes that match the scene style after doing some extensive, and impulse, research on the it as to not wear anything that may not pass as scene. He'll also may ditch the 'old lady' disguise and use a more 'edgy-2010 teen' look for whenever he goes out in public. Or he may combine them. Imagine seeing a mutant teen dressed up as a scene grandma, it'll be like, so cool. He'd also flip the bird, and maybe even nuke whoever is making fun of your, and his, gorgeously highlighted and vibrant fashion choices.

— |✷| EXTRA NOTES: werggg, first time writing for a reader with a specific style, hopefully I didn't miss or get anything wrong erh. yeh, hope y'all enjoyed. scene is cool, scene is great /gen !!

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★heres a little 'Rise Of The TMNT' Headcanon/oneshot idea:★

|★| CHARACTERS USED: Raphael Hamato

|☆| TW: Stressed Out Character.

|★| CW: Not canon x reader, stressed out character, imagine, platonic stuff ofc, Raph may be OCC, Not proof read, inspired by a fan-comic I saw <3 !!

|☆| Summary: The oldest brother of the Hamato's is having a hard time dealing with his brother's recklessness which has been spiking up. Feeling stressed and unsure of what to do, he decides to try and relax by going out to take a walk while, well, no human's are around. Maybe go blow off some necessary steam by smashing some trashcans. However, he didn't expect that he would end up meeting something else that would calm his nerves. .. That's a long summary to explain that Raph bonds with a cat.

|✷| ACTUAL IDEA:

|★| Okay, so- We all have noticed and known that Raph has a tendency, well habit.. Okay, he is stressed out and anxious for his family's wellbeing. |☆| A little headcanon that I have, and is probably canon..I'm not sure- is that whenever he is not in the best mood and needs to soothe his nerves, he has to just- destroy something.. without harming anyone in the process of course. He as well needs to get some fresh air, so he combines the two |★| So, he goes up to the surface, obviously being cautious as not to get spotted by humans. He just needs an escape from the responsibility from having to worry, although it's almost undeniably. |☆| ..Yeah, let's say he safely makes it in an alley, sees a couple of trash cans and lets the worry, and perhaps the frustration seethe out of him. He prepares to absolutely demolish the trash cans in hopes of feeling better. Otherwise, if he doesn't- then that means that he would have destroyed someone's property for nothing. And that would make him feel even more responsible, adding up to his stress. |★| However, he as he goes to throw the first punch on the metal- ..meow |★| Yeah, a sound of a cat meowing snaps him out of his thoughts, perhaps it startles him- maybe it makes him defensive. Mayhaps it makes him trip and fall over the trashcans for some reason. It may wake the neighbours but erh. |☆| And once he looks around for a moment, being startled a shit- his eyes finally land on arh. A cat. A cat staring at him, it's tail maybe flickering or swaying slowly. |★| He, for a moment, stills a little. His wants to blow off steam are now drowned out by the fear of urh, scaring of the cat. And perhaps fear of the cat attacking him. Although, he feels a little silly fearing a cat that he can easily overpower.. despite the fact that he may have not have the best experiences with animals or pets. Well, except the dogs at the 'Cuddle Cakes Puppy Rescue'. They didn't attack him, so he could count it as a small win. Still, with his relationship regarding cats- (flashbacks with Mayhem) is not the, urm, best as he sees it. |☆| Though, he wont harm the cat- even it bats him or scratches him. In fact, he may be a little cautious as to not scare it, ore heck even- hurt it by just moving or something. |★| ..If the cat approaches him, he may freak out a bit- thinking that once again, it may try to attack him. Although, it looks so.. small compared to him. |☆| Now if the cat tries to rub it self against his leg or tries butt it's head at him, he would, perhaps be a little confused. Maybe feel a bit fuzzy inside, although he is wondering if the feline wants something- like for example, food..which he didn't bring any with him- ohmigoshwhatifthecatistarvinf- |★| ..wooh. Confusion. Though, it's little act of affection does soothe his tension that he is feeling. Not completely, but still. |☆| Now, he could try and pet the cat- and by pet I mean rubbing his thumb on the top of its fuzzy head in a gentle yet firm manner. A bit unsure on how to show affection to it, as cats usually, erh- with all due respect, may dislike him. I'm not sure.

★..the rest is history that's lost in the corners of my brain.★

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ROTTMNT OC INFO DUMP !!

BASIC INFO !! 2/???

↓ NOW, FOR THE BASIC STUFF ↓

As I said: His name is Tanner Mayfield and he is 13 (in the first season) years old. His pronouns are they/he.

THEIR OCCUPATIONS: Despite Tanner being 13, therefore below the legal age to work- they are a supplier, somewhat of a delivery boy, a repossessor and sometimes a baker.   

IN TERMS OF PERSONALITY:

FOR THE NEGATIVES:

— |★| Tanner is stubborn, as he often claims that he can go on missions on his own and sometimes refuses to back down until they get the job done.

— |☆| Although he also can be indecisive, at times, since his mind does swarm around with a lot of 'what if's' while making a choice. This could go from having to choose on what to eat to who to help first, since they are pretty busy and stuff- and if that choice does not accommodate those around him, liability rolls in him.

— |★| Okay, he can sometimes be a little selfish, especially if in a stressful situation, he would be looking to accommodate his own needs first. A decision which would be met with, once again- some form of guilt.

— |☆| So, with that information, he wants to make a choice that could at least benefit both him, along with the people around him. Tanner, can as well be pretty defensive when it comes to those that they consider allies, while at the same time firmly trying to excuse their own choices and actions.. and failing miserably sometimes, because they are also pretty inarticulate when It comes to wanting to justify something that he, or their allies around them did. Or maybe even being unable to explain small things such us, giving verbal directions to show someone on where to go. He may just add a couple of things that may, or may not be needed- all in hopes of not being misunderstood. But that's a bit irrelevant.

— |★| That is because Tanner, even though they try to see the best in those they deem as friends, if other people's suspects about said allies continues to grow, then Tanner may be influenced by those suspicions- which may or may not make him feel just a little bit cautious and a tad bit reluctant on what he is told is actually true. However, it is gonna take a little while to make them to distrust those that they grew comfortable with. Yes, even if those people are criminals like the 'Purple Dragons Tech Club , or a greedy old mutant mantis like Repo.

— |☆| They might as well let curiosity come their way, which makes them wanting to learn more about stuff that they believe in, but most of time- when they do want to learn something about a belief, it's so they can prove others wrong.. although that's not the only limit to their curiosity, due to the fact that Tanner does have a keen for exploring new stuff- well, places and materials to be exact. Maybe even wanting more knowledge on a new subject they learned. Hm.

— |★| That does not apply to pre-made plans, as he does try his best to stick with them and if something unexpected happens that could potentially throw that plan out the window, he may become, erh, a little agitated.

 FOR THE POSITIVES:

— |☆| So, tying with their curiosity getting in the way most of the time, resulting into them keeping stuff in their mind about things and shit- Tanner can be aware of small, yet important details, which would be useful when it comes to changes such as if someone got a new furniture, if someone got a new haircut, if something in area has changed and ect. In a way, they are pretty observant.

— |★| With that- they can also notice pattern recognitions that just might help them predict onto what will happen next. For example, notifying themselves, along with others that a threat might be near, as well as recalling past negative experiences which would help them think on what to do to avoid said experience from happening again. So in sense, Tanner may be a bit self aware of his surroundings.

— |☆| Although, despite noticing Red-Flags about someone, he won't let that stop him from helping out those in need- or want that is. So, the times where he does pushes away his reluctance, is when he lets his more- altruistic side roll through him. Whether it be helping out a friend with a chore, giving money or food to a homeless man or supplying and delivering stuff to other people, despite them not having the best of motives, Tanner will do it.

— |★| Now, tying between, erh- his altruism and observation, Tanner can mix those two traits and up with having, erm, consideration for those around him. He gladly take subtle little notices to as to what the people around that the environment that he is in do, along with noting down other people's interests and pet-peeves. Now, he may just keep those things in mind, or use them to make someone's day. Or just to make em something. For example, if he wants to bake something for someone to him- and throughout their encounters he managed to learn that, well, let's say, the person has a specific preference when it comes to baked goods- he make sure to adjust the recipe that he is making to meet the person's liking. Or maybe even- taking mental notes on what to avoid during, well, doing favours for someone. They might ask for rules and clarification for the person's for wants, like, 5 times- just to make sure that they don't mess anything up. But I feel that that's just the bare minimum

— |☆| Though, he does make sure to pack necessary items to help him get the other person's wishes him to come true, such as: gloves in case he needs to do a job such as dish washing, laundry- or whatever job involves liquids, his backpack for pressure and storage, headphones to reduce noise and of course, his bunny mask for protection. The protection of his identity, that is. They feel that it's important to be prepared. Well, 'equipment wise', that is.

— |★| But, if he ends up not preparing for something unexpected- like I said, 'equipment wise', he may just use his brain and by that I mean, creativity, to try and solve whatever unexpected problem there is. Maybe try to craft up something that may help him. Though- their creativity isn't limited to just problem solving, as they use it to as well- spread ideas and concepts to their team or the people around them in order to better a situation of theirs. One of the members of the tech club is having trouble with concepts bout new inventions or their suggestions seem a bit blunt ? Tanner may just share some ideas of their own while at the same time, making sure to not discard the member's original idea. He put's his own spin to things, to cut it short.

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE/ APPEARANCE : 

— |☆| Tanner, is 4'3 foot tall, 74 pound human- with a soft rectangular body type. Their skin is ivory pale and their face has chubby cheeks with multiple freckles on em, and they have dark brown eyes- like the colour of soil. Their hair is blond and even though it's soft and stuff, it's a bit of mess- since, they tried to cut it themselves multiple times it's just..not even. They as well dyed their bangs an orange colour, since they were influenced by two members of the Purple Dragons, aka Kendra and Jeremy, who both have dyed their own hair.

— |★| Now, as for their clothing style it is quite simple: As they wear a black turtle neck with long, puffed-up sleeves- which said clothing could be used as a pressure inducer with how heavy it is to Tanner's skin. Although, he doesn't mind it. The turtle neck as well, has a purple rectangle stitched to its right-lower sleeve, as it was ripped during a 'repossessing mission' by a stubborn and harsh client- and Tanner just didn't want to give up the turtle-neck. His pants are black and they as well have a white star pattern on them and along with their pants- they also wear a pair of brown boots that reach up their upper calf.

— |☆| They always, and I mean- always wear their backpack everywhere they go, similar to how Donatello always wears his battle shell every time he goes outside of the lair. Their backpack is brown and one of the straps has a small piece of yellow fabric stitched to it. Once again torn by the grip of a harsh client and once again Tanner refuses to give up his backpack.

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