#{ wow okay I'm??? crying

[colorful-bees]

I honestly like. Can't believe that Epic is over. I know that Jorge has big plans for the future that I'm really looking forward to but the whole musical is complete and there's always going to be a bit of sadness about that even if Epic as a concept is still pretty much just getting started in terms of what's expected down the road. I just gotta say I always love when someone makes something and you can tell they really, really cared about it and loved what they were bringing to life and Epic is definitely one of those things, especially with the last two sagas; a lot of love went into Epic.

[alienfailboy]

unfortunately, they could never make me hate you Katsuki Bakugo

[nitw]

[sammyluvr]

'puter how to not have executive dysfunction and crippling anxiety

[scribefindegil]

I didn’t watch Mob Psycho at first because I saw promo art with Dimple and thought he would be an awful, annoying sidekick. Now he’s my favorite character. (Paul Rudd “look at us” meme plays)

Anon I am shaking your hand.

I was talking with a friend the other day about how when characters that you really don't expect to like become your favorites it can hit even harder, and I think a lot of Dimple Enjoyers have that experience.

Because yeah, he looks like he's gonna be an awful annoying sidekick! He looks like he's going to fall into the 'non-human companion' archetype that exists to provide uncomfortable comic relief and get treated more like a pet than a character and never really change.

And then you realize oh. No. The narrative *is* going to take him seriously as a character. And then you get to the broccoli arc and realize oh no! The narrative is going to take him SO seriously as a character and you are never going to be normal again!

[mazeinthemiroh]

does anybody else just dramatically sob over kim hongjoong? just me? okay.

[silliestofbilliest]

HEAR ME OUT

Okay so I know that basically every Good Omens fan is still reeling from season 2 but I have some thoughts about a specific song from Aziraphale's season 2 playlist 🤨

So "Earth Angel" by The Penguins is one that really stuck out to me (Not just because it's a song I really love but) because of the lyrics behind it which I think relate more to Aziraphale's thought process than to the angel himself. AKA: Yeah this song can just be about Aziraphale bc he's an angel on earth ORRRRRRR it's about how Aziraphale sees Crowley.

(If you couldn't tell I'm so normal about this)

SO LIKE as we all know Aziraphale still believes that since Crowley "was an angel at some point" that they are still inherently good by heaven's standards (which Aziraphale still believes deep down in his non-corporeal heart is good in nature because of some deep religious trauma but that's another rant-) while being the only other being to truly care about humanity as much as he does. But when given the chance to bring back that smile that made him fall for Crowley in the first place before time even began

"I'm just a fool, a fool in love with you"

Aziraphale can't help but take the chance to not only make Crowley, what he thinks, truly happy by making him an angel once again

But to also to make the heaven that rejected Crowley, good enough for him since he believes Crowley deserves only the best from those who hurt him in the past. All of this to say "I love you" to the being he's been in love with for around 6,000 years.

Just like the song in the verses,

"Please be mine, my darling dear, love you all the time."

This attempt is desperate, loving, and all around a question of whether or not Crowley is willing to accept this big offer. Aziraphale is willing to sacrifice all his human belongings and titles just so he can spend all of time making eternity perfect for Crowley since they'll no longer be on opposing sides. He chooses to say yes to the offer out of love and his fear of losing Crowley through refusing (what he believes to be) a secure future for the both of them by choosing to be "selfish" and fighting both heaven and hell on their own side. He wishes that he could trust in their own side and the strength of humanity but, Crowley has always been the greater optimist out of the both of them. But even he cannot understand Aziraphale's unspoken mental gymnastics when it comes to this promotion.

He thinks that by saying yes that Aziraphale has thrown away all that they have been building up for the past thousands of years on earth (aka), throwing away their love. While Aziraphale believes the only way for him to truly proclaim his love is through sacrificing his presence on earth (which is another example of that religious trauma he still hasn't recovered from).

Both suffering from the others' unintentional rejection at the end of season because of their stubbornness when it comes to mutual communication.

(You can tell I'm an Aziraphale apologist but thank you for coming to my Ted Talk-)

[gigantomachylesbian]

Is bridgerton good. well no. they are CONSTANTLY bringing in the most batshit societal implications for no reason and also it is deeply milquetoast in all of its politics #feminism. But do I enjoy it? well yes.

[astrxealis]

me rn having the biggest hots for leon kennedy and astarion sorry LMFAOOO <3

[heartshattering]

Feeling like I want to give up again...

[reblog-house]

2018 was 6 years ago.

I. was scrolling through my liked songs on spotify, seeing what old me just to listen to, and eventually i hit the first songs. sadly, i had to unlike a bunch of songs a few years ago because my phone didn't have enough space.

anyway. i saw the Cavetown (This Is Home, 10 Feet Tall, Fool, Green...), and Evelyn Evelyn, and- and then a bit further up is Dodie. oh Dodie. In The Middle, and Sick of Losing Soulmates. and the 2018 year next to all of them.

sadly, i dont have a spotify wrapped of 2018. didn't create one for myself in the first place, so i have no idea what else i listened to back then than what remains in my likes. didnt start creating playlists until 2019.

oh sweet 2018 carime... come 'ere.

[tarakau]

bpd has been kicking my ass so bad these past two or three weeks but today is just

[memorydragon]

Spoilers ahead. Confusing spoilers if you haven't started the novel, but if you're half-way through please scroll past.

So when I say this scene is what drove me mental years ago back when I first started reading Po Yun and Tun Hai, that reading it again even after so many years still made me feral. This was the Ride or Die moment that never left while translations were dropped and disappearing. Please understand when I say that reading again after reading the whole novel makes me 10x more feral than before. That is not an exaggeration. I am 100% not okay and these are crying in the club hours. F̴̻̹̊͑̉̿e̵̘̠͈͗ͅr̶̞̠͍̮̓̊͠ā̶̅͠��͈̹ḻ̵͓̏͑͘.

Because Wu Yu's long, long panic attack, because when he's finally able to come up for air when the waves recede just the slightest, he's pushed back down again and again, because his 'safe' person has been taken away.

Because this 'elite' who had an easy life, just admitted he'd been dragged from the fire when he was nine years old after his parents were murdered in front of him. This person who wants to take him out of this hell and pull him back, who should be safe, is covering Wu Yu with his whole body, cradling his head and covering his eyes as a ruthless mob decends on them. Because this shouldn't be happening again - but death follows behind him mercilessly cutting everyone down but leaving him. Because dying is easy living is more difficult. Bu Chonghua's blood is on his face and this person should be safe but keeping their promise requires sacrifice. Please don't promise any more.

(Bu Chonghua was supposed to run. He was supposed to leave Wu Yu to deal with the mob. But if he'd done that, people would have died, and it probably wouldn't be Wu Yu, and he'd promised to pull Wu Yu back from this abyss. He wouldn't let the rage of the mob swallow Wu Yu like a wave, dragging him back under. As they beat him, he cradle's Wu Yu's head and covers his eyes, because he won't give Wu Yu up, not to the ocean or to fire, and I'm so fucking Normal about this.)

Liao Gang sees Wu Yu at the hospital and knows something is wrong. Something is off, this is not the meek and submissive Wu Yu they've met for these past few months. He correctly pulls Wu Yu aside and instead of admonishing him to go get checked over, he says 'hey, why don't you get checked out by the hospital because someone needs to look after Captain Bu tonight. If you let them patch you up, you'll be put with the captain.' And Wu Yu finally - finally relents and allows the hospital staff to look him over.

When the lights are off and he can't sleep because there's no light he tries to trace over the current Bu Chonghua with the memory of the child he'd saved in the past, and he can't sleep but he can finally breathe. Now he can agree that Bu Chonghua and Zhang Boming are different, that Bu Chonghua isn't just an elite who sends his subordinates to death for greater glory, but someone who wants to pull him back. (And I'm putting it more politely. I honestly love that Wu Yu is still sort of cursing Bu Chonghua out when he says this, because of course he is, and Bu Chonghua is immediately gonna chew him out for smoking. I love Them.)

But when he wakes up, Bu Chonghua is gone. The hospital bed is empty and cold, and there's a committee of directors who have come to question him. He asks where his safe person Bu Chonghua is, but they put him off, saying they just want to ask a few questions. Bu Chonghua has been isolated because there's been a death - death always follows him - and they're pushing the blame on him and Bu Chonghua. Why did Zhang Boming jump to his death? What did you say to him? Why did you survive? What right do you have to survive? He'll take all the blame on himself. He was the one who killed the suspect, Bu Chonghua didn't hurt any of the mob. It was him, it was all him, and what right do you have to speak about loyalty and sacrifice, when the hospital report on their injuries is right in front of you. They assume Wu Yu will see this is just a formality, but he doesn't have the frame of reference they knew he should It wasn't him with that frame of reference, he never had one and he lashes out. They're caging him, blaming him again, and what right do you have to talk about loyalty to someone who is on the front lines?

What right do you have to come back? What right do you have to survive?

After they sedate him and bring him back, leaving him in confinement (there's a bed, his wounds have been dressed, and there's even a tv and above average food left out for him. It's a plush confinement, only for one night. They think they're going easy on him and he should be grateful, because no one told them he's panicking and has been in danger undercover his whole life for twelve years and he hasn't been able to handle eating meat since he was a child. The lights are off when he wakes up, and he's alone. The lights are off and no one is responding when he asks them to turn on the lights. No one is there when he's progressively slipping back under the waves of panic. And when he lifts the lid on the food, all he can smell is meat.

He bites his own finger, trying to wash it out with the smell of the disinfectant from his wounds and blood, but he can still smell the meat that he spilt in his own revulsion and the lights are still off. (Wu Yu, little fish, I'm not blaming you, but please, please learn to talk about your triggers and let people know so they can accommodate you, because they would actually like to accommodate you and you're not weak because you have ptsd, you're breaking our hearts. Also, as an aside, Song Ping is actually quite hilarious in this fight. He's not to blame either, but he's making things so much worse and I love that Bu Chonghua has to yell at both of them to calm down because they're both set off on his sake)

And when someone finally comes, finally turns on the lights, they're blaming him. Look how you're acting! You're acting like a spoiled child when we've sacrifed been so nice to you! We've brought you back here, to this place you've worked for several months, your new home!

Except he never came back.

He was never brought back.

He was sacrificed for to catch the criminal. He died because his life was less important than catching someone on the wrong side of the law.

He was never asked if he wanted this sacrifice. He never wanted to be a cop. Who is Wu Yu? He's never had a name. Let him go, let him go - let him go!

He was never brought back. He never came back - Zhang Boming made the correct choice, but he never came back. The sacrifice was chosen, the promise was paid. Why did he survive? What right did Wu Yu have to survive when we he never came back.

"Wu Yu!"

He never came back.

"It's me. Okay, calm down." Someone restraining him, and he struggles automatically, but slowly stops. "It's me, Wu Yu. It's me. Just calm down."

Bu Chonghua came back. Held him above the water untll he could catch his breath. And finally, finally...

The boy left his own blood on Bu Chonghua's cheek, disappearing for twenty years, leaving only one command - Survive.

"I arrived late."

"I was just a little worried. It wasn't very late." It wasn't his whole life twelve years. It was only one nightmare. You pulled me back.

The boy who rushed off to save a child he didn't know finally appeared before Bu Chonghua again. He came back.

He came back.

[naotoacedetectiveshirogane]

I finished Marineford Arc.

There's a lot to unload here but I don't wanna mark as spoilers so won't say too much:

This Arc broke me and I cried like a baby, watching Ace protect Luffy right when they were so close...

Watching Ace die in Luffy's arms while Luffy begged him to live...

Watching Ace fall to the floor and Luffy break down...while all of Ace's family cried over him. Even Whitebeard started crying...

It's just too much.

Then Marco saying Ace will live on through Luffy, I broke down crying even harder.

WATCHING WHITEBEARD BUNCH THAT BASTARD WAS AWESOME THOUGH.

Then him....okay I should stop here before I do post too many spoilers.

All and all, this arc was definitely the hardest to watch, so many emotions...

This will be the last time (probably) that I post about my One Piece watching lol. I just wanted to post about this arc cause ik it would be the hardest for me to watch. Cause Ace is my favorite character after all and I love him. Luffy being a close second.

[mieczyhale]

one of the guys that runs a reaction channel i've been watching for ages just announced that they're ending the channel next year bc he got a job offer and he's getting married and he's thinking about his family and his future and like...

my son in christ you are 21

i literally want to fucking die

[thelovelybitten]

screaming crying throwing up—Decked the Halls is here !! 🎄✨🎄

SURPRISE STENDYNATION !!!! I have been cooking up something and it's finally here !!! I am going to be giving you A WHOLE ASS STENDY MINI STORY FOR THE HOLIDAY SZN :')

I planned this abt a month ago, and was very nervous...BUT HERE IT IS !!!

updates every week or so :))))

IT'S ALSO A WATTPAD EXCLUSIVE RN !!! after the holidays it'll go on AO3 :)

I HOPE YOU ALL ENJOY IT BC I'M SO EXCITED SBGBBDSBGBBSGBSDKJ <333333333333333

kisses u all respectfully i love stendy enthusiasts